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FLASH REPORT: American video content creator 'MoistCr1TiKaL' potentially bids farewell for retirement and passes on to 'T-Pain' under Penguinz0 online brand? [#OneNETnewsEXCLUSIVE]
TAMPA, FLORIDA -- Charles Christopher White Jr., better known as 'MoistCr1TiKaL' from Tampa has announced his retirement from YouTube (Google's parent company 'Alphabet'). This announcement came through his final video released on Saturday afternoon (February 22nd, 2025 -- Eastern local time). The well-loved independent content creator started on May 8th, 2007 with his first mature-rated gameplay video 'Gears of War'. He has now opted to take a step back from the platform that helped him gain recognition.
MoistCr1TiKaL's YouTube journey is quite remarkable. He started with gaming videos and became a meme sensation in late-September 2020 with his worst critic review of the 'Poopsie Slime Surprise' toy. He has always kept his audience entertained. His distinct humor and style attracted the attention of an internet star from Oklahoma 'Raymond William Johnson', who showcased MoistCr1TiKaL's difficult gameplay of the challenging game 'QWOP' on his web series 'Equals Three' [=3].
Over the years, MoistCr1TiKaL expanded his content to cover a wide range of topics, including world news, entertainment and exposés on various subjects like British anti-reviewer 'Cartoonshi' and now-defunct independent variety and animation company 'Rooster Teeth'. He also participated in MrBeast's Challenge last year but was defeated during the Squid Game-inspired cookie challenge in North Carolina. Today, his last video featured the most disgusting food he had ever come across, specifically Cheese from Sardinia. This brought an era to a close for his online audience.
Taking over the reins from MoistCr1TiKaL is none other than Faheem Rashad Najm, popularly known as "T-Pain". Born and raised in Tallahassee where he lives in the same state neighborhood from northeast Florida… T-Pain is a renowned singer, songwriter, rapper and record producer. He gained fame for his innovative use of Auto-Tune and has released several successful albums. T-Pain's influence in the music industry is undeniable, and his transition to YouTube is eagerly anticipated by fans.
T-Pain's move to YouTube raises questions about how it will affect his singing career. However, T-Pain has always been known for his versatility and ability to adapt to new challenges. He has previously taken breaks from music to focus on other projects and has always returned stronger. His foray into YouTube is expected to bring fresh and exciting content to the platform, without compromising his musical endeavors.
To date, MoistCr1TiKaL possibly retires from the main video-sharing platform to scale back his online presence and focus on the rest of his life. In his final video, he thanks his fans for their years of support and says this isn't a goodbye but a new beginning. The peace sign in his left hand potentially refers to a new station ID of Philippines' state-owned radio station 'Radyo Pilipinas: Radyo Pilipino' under Presidential Communications Office (PCO).
The transition from MoistCr1TiKaL to T-Pain is a big deal in the YouTube community. Fans are saying goodbye to this independent YouTuber but also looking forward to the new content that will bring them to viewers with T-Pain. As Dwayne Douglas "The Rock" Johnson, an American pro-wrestler from California launches his own hair care product 'Papatui', T-Pain's debut on penguinz0's channel will be a big event for this weekend, but only for a short while.
It is a bittersweet moment for his fans. His legacy as a content creator will continue to inspire many and his passing the torch to T-Pain means big things for the channel under the 'penguinz0' brand. As we temporarily say goodbye to MoistCr1TiKaL, the online world welcomes T-Pain with open arms to see what he has in store for us now.
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-- OneNETnews Online Publication Team
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Obi-Wan's apprenticeship with Qui-Gon is a horse girl movie but they both think the other person is the horse.
#qui gon: i am retired but reluctantly took this 'problem' foal in after some convincing and am slowly seeing his overlooked potential#obi wan: i am gently coaxing this old jaded beat up horse back to the ranch with power of love so that i can win the tournament with him#obi wan kenobi#qui gon jinn#qui gon and obi wan#star wars
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straight up refusing to acknowledge star trek: generation’s existence. it didn’t happen
you mean to tell me, after an entire series and SIX movies dedicated to the triumvirate found family, kirk immediately goes missing, and then dies alone 80 years later because of time travel nexus bullshit?
bones and spock never see him again??? ever???
no. kirk, spock, and bones retire and grow old together. they’re married. they have 2 cats and love to play 5d chess with multiverse time travel. that’s the ONLY canon i accept
#deforest kelley was right#they should have just LET THEM RETIRE!!! LET THEM BE HAPPY#IDEC BRO. IM NOT WATCHING THAT MOVIE#star trek#star trek tos#spock#james t kirk#jim kirk#s'chn t'gai spock#bones mccoy#leonard mccoy#mcspirk#spirk#mckirk#spones#i���ll admit the premise has tragic spones potential. but does bones even appear in that movie#i checked he is not in that movie. we don’t even get to see him react to kirk going missing#a travesty. a dishonor#not even getting into kirk’s dream nexus illusion. i can’t deal with this#rainspeak
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Trans Mac and birdie is real gang



Macho Man is the most macho man around and he got double Ds I think we’re goid chat


#punch out#punch out wii#punch out!!#little mac#super macho man#soda popinski#birdie mac#for more specific info he just doesn’t bind with how often he exercises and doing so could damage your ribs#he’s waiting till after he retires to get the surgery#since he doesn’t want to be potentially confronted on his absence as he recovers#from the boxers or the media#bear hugger is trans too I just don’t draw him enough lmao
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Retired Morpheus AU in which Morpheus is a lucid dreamer, so all the newly created dreams and nightmares keep asking him to rate their performance. He's like no, guys I had a new person become Dream of the Endless bc I no longer wanted to do this, go ask them.
I'm just imagining someone mentioning how tired he is at his day job and him being like I am forced to work nights too. The other person's like yeah, I know the feeling this economy sucks.
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My favorite Judit interaction in the game. She DOES want to tear down the entire fucking system (and she might even want to do it with Harry if he ever gets his act together)
#i think her and harry have the potential to be besties 5ever if he sorts himself out#disco elysium#judit minot#my baby.. judit i love you#you should retire so i dont have to feel guilty about loving you queen <3
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📸 by Martin Trenkler
#max verstappen#autumn posts#AHHH THE NEWS!! I am so happy for him!!!! 🥹❤️✨#over the moon for them both ahhh#sending them all the best wishes!!!#and omg his comment about already being a bonus dad 😭❤️ MY HEART#he's so wonderful 🥺💞✨#also Martin is a real one for this hashtag 😳 hehe!#that glow ✨🌅✨#ahhh#I usually don't blog about drivers' off track / non sports lives as much since it's not my jam#but with all his talk of wanting to be a dad!! and how hard it seemingly has been? just awww my heart#our boy is speedrunning life 🏎️✨#sad talk potentially ahead but ............#if he does retire sooner than later I get it!! I'll be bummed but excited to follow his career wherever#just like Daniel like bro say the word and I'll get into supercars 🫡❤️#very Fellowship of the Ring 'you have my sword' type beat#anyways!! I gotta run to work!!#sadly office life is keeping me off the insta search 😭#this weekend I'll have a little time!! one family thing and gasp .... a date!!!!!#I met a gal last weekend a local gay bar and now we're getting brunch 😳❤️ we shall see!!#my heart is open and go with the flow#especially since Merc in retrograde has me 😵💫 hehe#anyways!! I gotta run!!#sending everyone the most excellent of energy and happy Friday vibes!! 💖✨✨#hope its a great time of day!! 🌇🏙️🌃❤️
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yeah ghats right i went mental and designed an au where there was a happy ending
#mouthwashing#halo is a potential oc just inserted to replace jimmy#because jimmy is fucking dead#and swansea is happily retired
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happy belated may the 4th and revenge of 5th or 6th or whatever this malicious entity is fucking planning, here's my own prediction!!!
#swtor#swtor text posts#i should've made this earlier but kadsfndsa;lkfnsldf#ch: tyr#imperial agent#swtor spoilers#potentially. not that i know what his plans are. which is what's worrying tyr /lh#ironically i think it. i mean yes unnaturally still and silent but#i also think this is one of the few things in tyr's life capable of making him spiral uncontrollably in public into a nervous breakdown!#love you tyr muah please retire before you suffer cardiac arrest at the beautiful age of your mid 40s <3#darth jadus#for tyr's sake we better all hope this holo isn't live or he's going to really have a bad go of it#i love beautiful blonde men i love when they have public breakdowns and cry etc etc#put that blonde guy in more situations - broadsword 2k25#i can also pretend this is for the 7.7 livestream right i can totally fake that
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teammate JACKIE STEWART & FRANÇOIS CEVERT in discussion at the 1973 ARGENTINE GRAND PRIX
#françois was going to be such the perfect leader after jackie retired#and he should have been allowed to be given that chance#he reminds me of ronnie a lot#i wish they were both allowed to show their potential more#classic f1#f1#formula 1#1970s#jackie stewart#françois cevert
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thinking about daisuke and art and. working with your hands. starving artist. gendered labour. lower class. high expectations. never understood. "Not real art" expensive gallery art. young eyes. different standards. "not serious enough". you'll never be as good as the people before you. suffering as an artform. saturn devouring his son. paintbrushes made from horse hair. fashion as a form of art. art as a form of expression. the beauty in pain. only valued after you're dead. self portrait. face paint. performance art. catering to your audience. hobbies vs a career. finger painting. ai art. replaceable. "you had so much passion as a kid. where did it go ?". family legacy. weaponising your trauma for your craft. immigrant parents. no mistakes, only happy accidents. always needed but never valued. art museums. never good enough. idk. idk...
#cacophony of kaliya#daisuke#mouthwashing#mouthwashing analysis#idk just. daisuke drawing yimpy. drawing all over her notes. loving fashion and having an eye for it. parents dont understand.#wasted potential. asian parents wanting only the best from you. black sheep of the family. never smart enough never good enough.#crashing the bud before it could bloom. she had so much ahead of her. idk.#rip daisuke u would have loved mitski#specifically the retired from sad album. imo...
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Ge mig hopp och ge mig tro Ge mig frid och ge mig ro Jag kan läka alla sår Smeka harmen ur ditt hår Jag är stark när du är svag Ge mig natt så gör jag dag
#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#ff14#final fantasy 14#elezen#duskwight#ffxiv screenshot#gpose#ffxiv oc#amour silmontaix#nabaath-areng#my screenshot#i hate how brainrotted hes making me. im gaining an outlet i lost since retiring an old oc of mine#swinging back on track potentially with this guy#who as meant to JUST be a background character#guess we'll see how far this takes us..... meanwhile brb giving him a playlist of the indulgent kind#(all of the oc playlists are but still)
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Keeping my saltyness out of the tags outside of spoiler tagging so I don't rain on other people's parades, but oooogh the new Sonic movie did not meet my tentative expectations. That was a Jim Carrey dick stroking fest to an uncomfortable degree. Really didn't want Gerald's character to be done by him for a reason. The lack of attention on Shadow despite it being the Shadow movie was so frustrating, summarized perfectly by Shadow's final scene still being overshadowed by Carrey. I don't think Maria even got the fact that she was disabled mentioned whatsoever? Very strange. I had fun, had some laughs, enjoyed with fellow longtime Sonic dorks that were just as excited to see it as me, but we all went out disappointed. :/
#sonic movie 3 spoilers#I don't!!! give a shit!!! about carrey!!#his whole thing is having a funny line followed by the most deeply unfunny thing you've heard#and there was just too much of him this time around- overexposure of jim carrey#I was worried that might happen and conflict with the tone of Shadow's story if Carrey was left to hold the reigns too much and I was right#that's not to say humor can't go well with Shadow at all#'revenge guac?' 'gabriella should kill them both?' fucking hilarious and I loved those moments#but MAN I am tired of Carrey glad he's retiring#unfortunately the peak potential of this set of films has likely been reached in terms of appeal#but now it has Jim Carrey's influence all over it#bummer#gonna stop being a hater and read and write fic instead lol I'm genuinely glad everyone else is having fun
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Current elvira reminds me of what it felt like being in uni lmao
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Elvira, probably: mom look at how motivated i am lets go home now
Thats what im getting from those mistakes she obviously wanted to make lol like every other risk she stops mid rotation and lets the aparatus drop like my grades dropped last year of uni
#rhythmic gymnastics#elvira krasnobaeva#girlie aint doing good#its a shame honestly#epitome of wasted potential#what i want for her now is to either retire or go into a hiatus#shes obviously emotionally exhausted#she doesnt wanna be there#set her free lmao
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maybe book azcrow has been together for centuries but it just wasn’t relevant to adam’s journey
#like this is honestly lowkey one of my potential takes. like if i was immortal and so was the love of my life#who caaaares if we spend every night together. i’ll go do my bookshop thing for a few hundred years you do whatever you do#we’ll hang out every now and again. make out some. in a few years we’ll retire to a cottage#until i get sick of seeing you for every waking moment and we kinda just do our own thing for a bit. love you tho#like this is book azcrow to me. not the only option but An Option. anyway.#text#my post#mobi#gomens
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new casey podcast have you seen it
https://m.youtube.com/watch?si=ye8wNfrvaPDjtpDV&v=IuwZN6aP8sg&feature=youtu.be
(link to the podcast) yeah I did, cheers!
there's not that much 'new information' per se within this podcast, though there's a bunch of nice tidbits about teenage casey. what stood out to me is how the framing of his journey to becoming a racer is... well, it's kinda new? it's not exactly surprising, because you could get a lot of this stuff from reading between the lines in his autobiography. the question of 'is this your dream or your parents' dream' is a very common one with athletes, and it's often a thin line... but, y'know, this podcast interview in particular is quite a noticeable shift in how casey himself talks about this issue. it's a shift in how he portrays his 'dream' of becoming a professional rider back when he was formulating his autobiography, versus how he's answering questions in this episode. his autobiography isn't free from criticism of his parents - but casey is always stressing his own desire to race. so you do get stuff like this (from the autobiography):
At this point things were getting serious. Dad used to say, 'If you want to become World Champion you can't be that much better than local competition,' holding his finger and thumb an inch apart. 'You have to be this much better,' he'd say, holding his arms wide open. Dad confirms this feeling still today: 'I know it's a harsh way to look at things but that's the difference between a champion and the rest. Just look at the careers of Dani Pedrosa and Jorge Lorenzo. Dani had Alberto Puig and Jorge had his old man, both of them hard as nails. If you want to make it to the top I think it takes somebody with an unforgiving view on life to help get you there. So I said those things to Casey, particularly when we went to the UK, because to keep moving up a level he couldn't just be happy with winning a race. If he wasn't winning by a margin that represented his maximum performance then he wasn't showing people how much better he was than the rest.' There's no denying that Dani, Jorge and I became successful with that kind of upbringing and sometimes you probably do need it. As far as I'm concerned Alberto was nowhere near as tough on Dani as my dad was on me or Jorge's dad was on him. That kind of intensity and expectation puts a lot of extra pressure on a father-son relationship that isn't always healthy. We definitely had our moments and there were a few major blow-ups to come. But at the time, rightly or wrongly, it was proving to be a good system for us and I was eager to continue impressing my dad and others with my performances on the track.
(quick reminder, jorge's review of his father's style of parenting was describing him as "a kind of hitler")
but in general the emphasis is very much on how much casey enjoyed racing, on how single-minded casey was when it came to racing. he might have been isolated by his racing (again this is from the autobiography, in the context of discussing being bullied by kids in school until he got 'protection' from his dirt track friends):
School life was a whole lot better after that but I still hated it. All my real friends were from dirt-track; they were the only people I had anything in common with.
and he's talked about how other parents misinterpreted his shyness as him not actually wanting to race, which meant they were judging casey's parents as a result (autobiography):
Mum tells me that the other parents thought she and Dad were awful because I cried as I lined up on the start line. She remembers: 'I was putting his gloves on his hands and pushing his helmet over his head. The thing was, I knew Casey wasn't crying because he didn't want to ride or because he was scared. He just didn't like the attention of being stared at by all these people!'
but like. overall racing for him was still something he portrayed as a very positive aspect of his childhood. something he always clung onto, something that was his choice to pursue
so... let's play compare and contrast with some specific passages of the autobiography and this podcast, you decide for yourself. take this from his autobiography:
After I started winning more times than not, and it was obvious my passion for bikes wasn't wavering, Mum and Dad decided that seeking out sponsors could be a great idea to help offset some of the costs of travelling to meets and keeping the bikes in good order.
and here, in a longer excerpt about what a sickly child casey was, what his mother said (autobiography):
'They tested him for cystic fibrosis and he was on all kinds of medication; you name it, he was on it. But Casey still raced, we couldn't stop him.' I know I was sick but Mum was right, I wasn't going to let that stop me.
versus this from the podcast, when he's responding to a completely open question about how he got into riding:
To be honest, I don't know if I was allowed to have any other attraction to be honest. I think it was, you know, you're going to be a bike rider from when I was a very very young age - and I'm not the only one to think that. I think my parents have stated that enough times to certain people and you know I was sort of pushed in that direction. My elder sister who's six and a half years older than me, she actually raced a little bit of dirt bikes and dirt track before I was born and when I was very young, so it was sort of a natural progression to go and do a little bit more of that and I think because at the time road racing was a lot more similar to dirt track. That was our sort of way in.
this was one of the very first questions in the interview, it basically just consisted of asking casey how he got into biking in the first place - whether it had come through his family or whatever. casey chose to take the response in that direction... it's not an answer that is just about his own internal passion, how he loved riding the second he touched a bike, how he loved it throughout his childhood etc etc (which is how it's framed in the autobiography) - but instead he says he wasn't allowed to do anything else. he says that he was pushed in that direction, that his parents have openly said as much to others. that he feels vindicated in the belief he was never given another choice
let's play another round. here from the autobiography:
Mum and Dad used to stand at the side for hours on end watching me practise at different tracks. They'd sometimes clock laps with a stopwatch as I went round and round. Other parents couldn't see the point in taking it so seriously but they didn't realise it was what I wanted. I was having fun. Working out how to go faster was how I got my kicks and I couldn't stop until I had taken a tenth or two of a second off my best time on any day. If another kid came out onto the track with me I would be all over them, practising passing them in different ways and in different corners, but most of the time they avoided riding with me and I would be out there on my own, racing the clock.
and this (autobiography):
I enjoyed racing so much that even when I was at home riding on my own I would set up different track configurations to challenge myself. I'd find myself a rock here, a tree there, a gatepost over there and maybe move a branch and that would be my track.
versus here, in the podcast:
Q: And did you realise at the time that you were - not groomed, is not the word but well you were being groomed to be a professional motorcycle racer, or obviously that was your only one reference point, that was the norm. Did that just feel the norm or did you think actually this feels a bit intense or how did you feel about it? A: I think it's hard, it's not until I sort of reached my mid teens where I started to have a bit of a reality check on what I was actually doing. Before then, you know I was competitive. I'm not as competitive as people think, I'm a lot more competitive internally rather than externally versus other people. I always challenge myself to things, so all those younger years was just getting the job done that I was expected to do. I enjoyed winning, I loved it, but you know I enjoyed perfect laps, perfect races, as close as I could get to that and you know from a young age I always sort of challenged myself constantly to be better. So I didn't just win races, I tried to win them - you know, if I won races by five seconds in a [...] race I'd try and win, you know I'd try and get to double that by the end of the day if I could. So you know that always kept me sharp and it stopped me from being sort of, you know, complacent in the position I was at. And it wasn't until sort of you know 16, 17, 18 that reality kicked in. I'd had a couple years road racing in the UK and Spain, been rather successful and then you get to world championships and you know maybe an engineer that was sort of - didn't have your best interests at hear. And, you know, I nearly finished my career right there after my first year of world championships just because of the reality of how hard it was in comparison to everything else I'd experienced up to that point. And, you know, it was a real reality check for me and I think it was then that I started to - you know consider everything around me and consider how and why I got to the position that I was in and that's when the mind started to change a little bit and realise that you know I really was being groomed my whole life just to sort of be here and be put on a track and try and win. And, you know, that was my seemingly most of my existence.
in all the excerpts, he stresses how much he enjoys his perfect laps, how much he enjoys riding, how there is genuine passion there, how dedicated he is to this pursuit... but then in the podcast, he's adding something else - how he'd been groomed his whole life into that role of 'professional bike racer'. that it was only in his late teens (when he was in 125cc/250cc) where he had this moment of 'man I never really had a choice in all this'
and another round. here's him talking in the autobiography about how all the money he got through racing went back into racing - but it was fine because it was the only thing he cared about anyway:
I don't remember seeing any of the money I earned because it all went back into my racing, although I guess at the time that's all I really cared about anyway. I didn't know anything else. Mum and Dad always said to me: 'If you put in the effort, we'll put in the effort.'
and here in the autobiography on how he just wanted to ride all day:
I couldn't ride my bike all day, though, as much as I would have liked to.
and him talking in the autobiography about his parents encouraging him and his sister to 'chase their dreams':
Mum and Dad encouraged both Kelly and me to follow our passions and work hard to chase our dreams. That might sound strange when you are talking about a seven-year-old but I don't think you are never too young to know that if you want something you have to earn it.
versus this in the podcast:
Q: And I've never asked you this before, but did you want to? A: Um... I think I'd been convinced of a dream I suppose. You know, yes I loved riding bikes and you know I really did enjoy racing... but there was lots of other things that I - I really enjoyed as well but just never had the opportunity or never was allowed to do anything else, so... You know, motorbikes for our budget everything fortunately dirt track was probably the cheapest way that you could go motorbike racing. You could survive on very very little in dirt track and show your potential in other ways. You know, yes, having good bikes and good tyres and all that sort of thing made a difference but it wasn't the be all end all, you could always make a difference in other ways, so... I think it was, you know - the best thing we could have done, racing through that. Like I said I enjoyed it, it wasn't until late teens, early 20s where I sort of was like, I don't know if I would have been a bike racer had I actually had a choice.
was riding really all he cared about? or were there other things he was interested in, things he just never had the opportunity to pursue? things he wasn't allowed to pursue? from the autobiography, you get the sense that his parents always deliberately portrayed it as casey's dream, something he was expected to work hard for in order to be allowed to fulfil. in the podcast, casey says it was a dream he was 'convinced' of. without wanting to speak too much on the specifics of this parenting relationship we only have limited knowledge of, this kinda does all sound like athlete parent 101: getting it into their kids' heads that this is the dream of the child, not the parent, before holding it over them when they fail to perform when their parents have invested so so much in their child's success. casey's family was financially completely dependent on his racing results when they moved to the uk - he was fourteen at the time. he was painfully conscious of his parents' 'sacrifice' to make 'his dream' possible. can you imagine what kind of pressure that must be for a teenager?
to be clear, this isn't supposed to be a gotcha, I'm not trying to uncover contradictions between what casey said back then and what he's saying now. obviously, this is all very... thorny, complicated stuff, and casey has had to figure out for himself how he feels about it, how he feels about how his parents approached his upbringing. but it is worth pointing out that this isn't necessarily just a question of his feelings changing over time - if the internal timeline he provides in the podcast is correct, he was really having that realisation in his late teens, early 20s, so on the verge of joining the premier class. that is when he says he had the thought "I don't know if I would have been a bike racer had I actually had a choice"... which is a pretty major admission, you have to say, especially given how rough those premier class years often ended up being on him. but then that realisation would have already come years and years before he wrote his autobiography, it would've been something he carried with him for most of his career. given that, you do look at his autobiography and think that he did make the decision to frame things pretty differently back then, that he decided to exclude certain things from his narrative. if this really is already something that's been festering within him for years, if he does feel like he wants to be a bit more open about all of that now than back then... well, hopefully it shows he's been able to work through all of it a bit more in the intervening years
(this is somehow an even thornier topic than his relationship with parents, but relatedly there is a bit of a discrepancy between how bullish he is in his autobiography about how mentally unaffected he was by his results, versus how he's since opened up since then about his anxiety. again, I want to stress, this is not a gotcha, he's under no obligation to share this stuff with the world - especially given the amount of discourse during his career about his supposed 'mental weakness'. it is still important in understanding him, though, how he consciously decided to tell his own story in the autobiography and how he's somewhat changed his approach in the subsequent years)
this is the rest of his answer to that podcast question I relayed above:
But at the same time you know I felt that no matter what I would have done, I sort of have a - my mentality of self-punishment, you know, of never being good enough that always drove me to try and be better and any single thing that I did, I didn't like it when I wasn't not perfect. I don't believe in the word perfect but I really didn't enjoy when I wasn't, you know, in my own terms considered a good enough level at anything I did so I would always sort of try to get up as high as I could regardless of what for.
at which point hodgson says exactly what I was thinking and goes 'god what a line' about the "mentality of self-punishment" thing. it is one hell of a line!
what's really interesting about this podcast is how these two big themes of 'this wasn't my choice' and 'self-punishment' end up kinda being linked together when casey talks about how the motogp world reacted to him... so again I'm gonna quickly toss in a bit from the autobiography (where he's talking about casual motorcycling events he went to as a kid), because it does read similarly in how for him the joy and competitive aspects of riding are closely linked:
It was a competition but it wasn't highly competitive; it was just for fun, really. Of course, I didn't see it that way, though, and I had dirt and stones flying everywhere. I don't think anyone expected the park to be shredded like it was. When I was on my bike, if I wasn't competing to my maximum level then I wasn't having as much fun.
and back to the podcast:
And also because people truly didn't understand me, that I'm not there just to enjoy the racing. As we're explaining, before that, you know it was sort of a road paved for me... And so the results were all important, not the enjoyment of it. And then you cop the flak for everything you do. I'm also very self-punishing, so it was kind of a - just a lose lose lose and it was all very very heavy on myself, so... It, you know, it took me till my later years to realise I could take the pressure off myself a little bit and go look you've done all the work you've done everything you can, you got to be proud of what you've done, so... Not necessarily go out there and enjoy it, because I don't believe you should just be going out in a sport where you're paid as much as we are expect to get results and just - you know - oh I'm just going to go and have fun it's like... yeah, nah, if you're just going to go and have fun then you're not putting in the work. And that's when we see inconsistencies etc. So I was very very harsh on myself and so even when I won races, if I made mistakes or I wasn't happy with the way I rode, well then yeah I'm happy I won but there's work to do. There was more to get out of myself and so that's where I copped a lot of bad... um, let's say bad press because of those kind of things and then they sort of attack you even more because they didn't like the fact that you didn't celebrate these wins like they wanted you to they expect you to I suppose treat every victory like almost a championship and you know it's not that I expected these wins but I expected more of myself and therefore maybe I didn't celebrate them as much as you know other people do.
kind of brings together a lot of different things, doesn't it? this whole profession was a path that was chosen for him... which he links here to how the results were 'all important' for him, how it just couldn't ever be about enjoyment. he always punished himself for his mistakes, he was under constant pressure, which also affected how he communicated with the outside world... he was so committed to self-flagellation that he made it tough for himself to actually celebrate his victories, which in turn wasn't appreciated by the fans or the press. so on the one hand, casey's obviously still not particularly thrilled about how much of a hard time he was given over his particular approach to being a rider. but on the other hand, he's also describing how all of this can be traced back to how becoming a rider was never actually his 'choice'. he's detailed his perfectionism before, including in his autobiography, including in discussing his anxiety disorder more recently - but this is explicitly establishing that link between the pressure he'd felt during his childhood to how he'd been pushed into this direction to how he then had to perform. he couldn't afford to be anything less than perfect, so he wasn't, and at times he made his own life even tougher as a result of his own exacting standards. this just wasn't stuff he's said in such straightforward, explicit terms before... and now he is
my general thing with casey is that his reputation as a straight shooter or whatever means people aren't really paying enough attention to how he's telling his own story. like, I kinda feel the perception is 'oh he used to be more closed off because the media ragged on him but since retirement he's been able to tell it like it really is' or whatever. and I'm not saying that's necessarily wrong, but it's not quite as simple as that. because he's not a natural at dealing with the media, he's put a fair bit of thought into how to communicate better with them (which he does also say in the podcast), and he's explicitly acknowledged this is something he looked to valentino for in order to learn how to better handle. because casey has felt misunderstood for quite a long time, he's quite invested in selling his story in certain ways - and it's interesting how what he's chosen to reveal or emphasise or conceal or downplay has changed over time. which means there will be plenty of slight discrepancies that pop up over time that will be as revealing as anything he explicitly says... and it tells you something, what his own idea of what 'his story' is at any given time. this podcast isn't just interesting as a sort of, y'know, one to one, 'this is casey telling the truth' or whatever - it's reflecting where his mind is at currently, what he wants to share and in what way, and how that compares to his past outlook. the framing of his childhood was really something that popped out about this particular interview... it's not like it's exactly surprising that this is how he feels, but more that he decided to say all of this so openly. some pretty heavy stuff in there! hope the years really have helped him... man, I don't know. figure it all out, for himself. something like that
#hodgson is a far better interview than that bloody australian who keeps getting retired riders on his show#on a one man crusade against that youtube channel after the sete episode. listened to it at 1.5 speed but it was still horrendous#idk whether they screened potential q's but if not then hodgson followed up well on that initial casey response about not having a choice#icl I thought this would be a ducati puff piece but they do discuss self loathing for like half an hour#I do treat all athletes' parents with a base level of suspicion. guilty until proven innocent. don't trust any of them#ducati uk posted it on twitter right before I went grocery shopping so I was like 'oh well I'll put it on! that'll be nice!'#and it ended up kinda depressing me icl. super talented at the bike anything thing I get it but low key he should've done something else#I don't follow ducati uk on twitter... I did add them to my motogp list when I saw the podcast announcement. just to be clear#//#casey stoner#brr brr#batsplat responds#still don't entirely get what the concept for the podcast is. does he just chat to people related to ducati. I mean I liked it but#fifty minutes in they go 'yeah remember when you won a title with ducati. that was nice wasn't it'#going on the ducati podast complaining about how new tech has made racing worse like 'we're all trying to find the guy who did this'#//ht
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