#posting this to keep myself accountable lol

[jeckilon]

long ass rant about that one show and fandom experience and some other stuff feel free to read or skip or whatever

everyone that follows me here probably already knows my feelings about andor since I don’t even hide it lol but let me tell you that I wasn’t always a hater bitch

I literally had a news account on twitter (that it’s still there btw but it’s run by someone else since I quit), I was super excited for it that I read everything you can imagine about this show, I knew every new thing, every interview, anything. I woke up every week 4am to watch the new episodes and mind you I worked all day and studied at night. I literally ruined my sleep schedule for this so I guess I have the right to be a bitch if I want okay

so why such sudden change you ask. first of all I started doing therapy and finally realized that hypertixations like that are harmful as fuck and ruin your mental health. it was a good point to start and get away from it. it wasn’t easy at all lol if it was easy people would be suck on that stuff but it was making me sick and I’m glad I left that hole lol

second thing, the fandom experience after this show aired started to be SHIT in ways it waned before. I know star wars fans are definitely not know for being civil or decent people or whatever but our corner was safe. until it wasn’t. people started to get over here and try to dictate how we should feel or make fun of us for liking rogue one or shipping rebelcaptain and it really started to ruin things for me. don’t even let me get started on the fucking asks lol wtf was that. unfortunately I was not in a good mental state so I answered those and wanted to pick fights but don’t worry I now realize it’s stupid and we should let these people choke alone

and well, those two things combined kinda woke me up from this obsession and the result of seeing all this left a super sour taste in my mouth. that you can see from all my salty posts from my alt account lol I apologize for that also

after 2 years in, I just decided want to ignore all this the best I can and honestly pretend this show doesn’t exist if it’s possible. I love and respect everyone here that I consider a friend and I hope y’all have a blast with season 2 but I’ll do my best to pretend it’s not even there. maybe I’ll find other interests to keep me busy, maybe I’ll take a break from here or whatever but it’s not worth it

I’m really NOT looking forward for all the dumb takes and posts taking shit about rogue one and jyn and rebelcaptain shippers or whatever lol this is beyond pathetic please these people need to get a life. I know I’m guilty of finding these horrible shit and I apologize, I promise I’ll definitely not look for them anymore

I love rogue one with all my heart, rebelcaptain is literally the most important ship for me and I’m so grateful for everyone I met here but if I need to just leave for a while then I will

and if I’m allowing myself to be a massive bitch for the last time while we’re here… no I’m not doing this. whatever. it’s not worth it. jk im gonna say it these annoying people are super jealous about rebelcaptain because their “canon” ship is boring as fuck and will never have 10% of rebelcaptain’s relevancy lmaooo keep being pressed and irrelevant mwah

[lipglossanon]

[monstersinthecosmos]

gotta stop checking tumblr before I have caffeine because all my principles fly out the window and i feel like i'm gonna start being an obnoxious asshole when i see people citing events in their book posts that literally did not happen :SOB:

[palajae]

announcement.

hi guys—ik i’ve been inactive on here for a while + my oopsie with thinking it was niki’s bday a couple of days earlier 🤡 i haven’t been on tumblr for a while not because of embarrassment or anything (lol feel free to clown me too)

but after careful consideration (aka after legit mistaking what day it was), things kinda got put into perspective for me. i had been running on 3ish hours of sleep the whole week due to midterms + dealing w several migraines.. i kinda realized that my brain was uhh not okay to mistake dec 5th for dec 9th 😭😭 plus having already been to the hospital in the past for previous health reasons, i realized i should probably take care of myself and focus on my priorities, so i will be taking a needed break until january! i’m so so sorry to disappoint anyone waiting for the fics i promised to post, but they will be released when i return :)

thank you

jae

happy actual bday to riki (and late bday to sunghoon)<333

[cha1cedony]

I will write again Someday. I promise 😭

[roylustang]

Fic Progress:

Chapter 24 word count: 16.3k as of 11/14

[scootatwoni]

shaking this lovely guy by the shoulders becos Humansongs just *perfectly* captures the love and wonder behind a lot of early 2000s and 2010s meta songs about the vocaloids being computer programs/instruments.

like honestly its right up there with odds & ends, miku, and tell your world for me. And while Sad Machine isn't explicitly about vocaloid so I don't regard it the same way I would, say, I'm your diva or Packaged...for me personally its only like one step removed from them. I still love it just as much and in almost the exact same way.

I could write so much about my love for humansongs and my general hopes for the vocaloid community following it and po-uta's release. But for now I just wanna express how surprised I felt when I read Porter's tweet because he's always felt like a vocaloid producer and fellow community member to me. And I hope he knows there's a lot of people out there that feel the same way

[minidoodles97]

*sees the total hours I’ve played Baldur’s Gate 3 in the last two weeks*

me: “ok maybe it’s time to take a break from this game for a while……….”

[snekdood]

i mean i should probably stop saying shit just to be mean

[akkivee]

saw this twitter interaction and thought it was the bb lmao

[kashidoodles]

Why would someone be like "gtfo of my life" and then continue to harrass them lmao Like continually bring them into their life again by bothering the fuck out of them and stealing their shit they legally own. Like complain someone is upsetting them but literally... cause them to have to deal with their ass. And claiming to be a good person but then messaging their ex with a sarcastic "hi pooky :) " That's ACTUALLY disgusting (not that I needed to add another toxic ass thing to the list after all the other shit), like, I had hoped they weren't that type of person buT BOY WAS I PROVED WRONG. Like they can be petty all they want but at that point there's no rationalizing they're a good person. It's actually sick. Not that they were good at rationalizing anyways, I sincerely hope they get some serious help. I'm no professional but they need MONTHS of inpatient psychiatric help from what they told me. I wish them help and to get better bc then me and the rest of the world have one less shitty person to deal with.

[todayisafridaynight]

do you have a side account for other doodles or do you just have your yakuza accounts

i have many side accounts and theyre all for different fandoms i like so yes but do i have one central art account. Lol.

[hiodoshi-ao]

.

[calliopieces]

I wanna contribute at least one (1) fic for Maiko Week or else I won't be able to live with myself

[didderd]

ok i think i finally fixed my sleep schedule again lol

might stream tomorrow :3

[nagasleeps]

im gonna post art this weekend <- guy who has failed this the last 3 weekends in a row