#postbac

[horsemage]

oh god. grad school apps imminent. any words of wisdom?

[dooxliss]

CONGRATS ON THE BACHELOR'S DEGREE !!! i hope the rest of your career is smooth sailing !!!

oops forgot to answer this early but tysm marb 🩵🩵

[threecheersforsuccess]

20241002 I went to a research talk conference today, and I'm amazed how much the education I recieved from my postbac helped with my understanding of both wetlab and clinical trials. I seldom had to use google for terms and concepts. Knowledge is power lol. My sticker is from @morilatte 🩷

[zodiacsea]

i already have one useless degree so should i do a postbac in poetry and get another

[borrelia]

gal is here from a lab that doesn't normally do our kind of research, and shes ony a postbac so its okay she doesn't know things. but she put on her poster that it was 'concerning' that their lab mice were dying from borrelia bc 'mice are the natural reservoirs of lyme.' and i stopped her and said erm no. lab mice are literally our disease model for lyme. they are not the new world rodents that ARE the reservoirs. and the guy next to me was like "PSSSH give her a BREAK! btw how often did you say you were doing your behavioral expwriments with your mice?" and proceeded to spend the next couple minutes just ABSOLUTELY eviscerating her for her experimental design 😭😭😭

[studyingdisorderlyconduct]

hoping my professor says yes to being my faculty mentor for this postbac TA fellowship wish me luck yall

[jobrxiv]

Intramural NIAID Research Opportunities (INRO) 2025 Postbac Fellowship National Institutes of Health, National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases Seeking recent grads for Intramural NIAID Research Opportunities, a unique paid postbac fellowship in #allergic, #immunologic, and #InfectiousDiseases See the full job description on jobRxiv: https://jobrxiv.org/job/national-institutes-of-health-national-institute-of-allergy-and-infectious-diseases-27778-intramural-niaid-research-opportunities-inro-postbac-fellowship/?feed_id=86661 #allergies #biology #biomedical_sciences #immunology #infectious_diseases #ScienceJobs #hiring #research

[travelwithezz]

#visafrance #a #visa #campusfrance #etudessuperieures #etudiantsetrangers #visaetudiant #etudiantinternationaux #etudierenfrance #etudianteafricaine #afriquedelouest #coachingscolaire #etudiantsafricains #etudesenfrance #reussiteprofessionnelle #tudiant #visabisnis #visanewzealand #visaturis #visainggris #l #tudier #tranger #tudierenafrique #visaturki #visaamerika #boursedetudes #postbac #etudiantcongolais #etudierausenegal

[amelioratewell]

The theme in our postbac cohort this semester is “Good to know, sad to hear” 😂

[horsemage]

I wonder how much of my stress over impending grad school apps comes down to only ever having been surrounded by other overachievers and not having a reference for what the average astrophysics major’s resume looks like

[dooxliss]

get the doopliss keychain so we can match, i have one on my purse

working on it! o7

decided i’ll buy in may as a self graduation gift/congratulatory gift for whatever postbac i get into (wish me luck 🙏🏽)

[threecheersforsuccess]

Gonna add "delete and organize files a little everyday" on my habit tracker because damn I was so burnt out studying for my postbac and MCAT that all my files are just... not in the right places...

[broomswept-thoughts]

I don’t know how I’m really feeling. i don’t feel motivated to do anything... at all. I don’t have the energy to do cooking, to do any hobbies, barely to talk to people... being with Maya pushed me to want to go out today, but I’m. So tired. When I’m back home, I just feel like there’re loads of things I gotta do... cook and meal prep, laundry, prepare for my interviews... Get my life together. And of course, prepare to go back to work on Monday. Ugh, god, I don’t want to go so bad.

I guess the good thing about these interviews is the external validation is super real lol. Like being indirectly told oh the program director does a good job recruiting a lot of good people to the program, as well as being directly told that I have a broad research experience and being told by another person who’s a PI that I’ve been doing things that show that I like science... It’s validating in that sense after being told and used as a research technician that doesn’t do anything at all other than what I’m told to and being placed in a high pressure environment where I want to shrivel up and die inside. It’s almost/ is surprising when people are encouraging to me, it’s almost just. I’ve gotten so used to associating work with being hell and emotionally strained, scary, and worthless as an experience, as well as seeing my time as a postbac as being a waste of time where I can talk about shit without doing anything that I find truly meaningful. I’m so burned out and hate my lab environment so much it’s hard for me to remember a time when I didn’t hate everything and anything that happens at work. It feels like a waste of the days and weeks and months that I have to be alive to be at this horrible workplace where I’m filled with anxiety and disgust and hatred. I hate it so much.

I feel like it doesn’t matter how much time off I get when I’m filled with exhaustion no matter how long I take off... Although to be fair I only really took a 5 day holiday (2 actual work days off). But I feel sick inside and it’s also not like interviews are a total walk in the park that I can do with my eyes closed. I just feel tired emotionally and I want to give up and cry. I’m filled with self-loathing at my work ethic but also to the lab that I’m in. I’m filled with bitterness, regret, and sadness all of the time. And the tiredness never seems to leave me, and that makes me so sad that my days are filled with leaden heaviness. I can’t even get hungry much anymore, and I just want to starve myself into dust. I just want to die inside, I hate it, I hate that I can’t get better and it’s not ending. I hate that I can’t cope well, and that I can barely cope at all.

I guess there’s generally a sense that the only thing I have to look forward to is for this godforsaken program to end in May. I’ve come so far, it’s only 5 more months (more like 4.5 months). Since August, I’ve come 4 months, and since May I’ve come 5 months. Since April, which was the start to the real hell of it all, it’s been 8 months and I’ve overcome so many emotional difficulties since then. The next few months, January, February, March, April, then May, will hopefully go by quickly. So many programs start in June, I’m going to leave start of May. This month will go by quickly with all of these interviews... and February will have one or two interviews, maybe hearing back from schools and figuring out where I’ll be and hopefully getting tickets for Japan plus it’s a shorter month, March is just a shitty month to wait for things to settle x2, and maybe I’ll leave in April or May I don’t care. I can’t care, I hate it so much, I feel like I’m about to choke. I might really ask Professor Newman if it would be a bad idea to leave at that time and maybe some other people because I can’t take it. It’s so horrible here. I can’t take it, I’m either going to leave the lab or like, leave this life, I’m so sick of this place. Maybe not life, but at least everything here is going to be dead to me, I can’t. I honest to god can NOT, I hate it with every fiber of my being. I can’t take it, it’s so horrible. It’s so horrible. I hate it, and I feel like I’m being sucked away as a person and even my interest in science is just. Like a joke. And I’m tired of being in a place where I’m expected to fight constantly as opposed to a place where you’re nurtured.

I hate it. I hate it so much. It hurts so much to be here, I hate it so much.

But as of now, I know that the cost/ benefit comes down to me staying and enduring. I think it’s always hard to come back to lab when I’ve been away for a long(er) period of time because it makes me anxious and terrified when I come back. But I know it’ll be fine since the postbacs are at least welcoming and kind to me, as with the postdocs. And that in itself will be a relief. I don’t have to hate it because they will at least be kind, and my day to day life will be fine. It will all be fine...

I can use the amount of dumb time I have if any to work on cryostat sectioning... reading more papers that I’m interested in and want to learn more about for neuroscience, and generally doing what I can to tolerate and endure living in that hellscape the best I can, each day. It’s not that each day will be the most fun and it’ll be more survival than ~thriving~, but again, 0 expectations for this to change and I’m going to make the best of this horrible time as much as possible. I officially give up relying on anyone beyond the people I really like in the lab, like I seriously could not care anymore.

I think I will try to exercise, cut my nails, and read and maybe do more music. I think these things will reduce my insanity and make me happier. Especially music, although I’m not sure how or where to start. But maybe just playing around on the ukulele will give me some insights, I don’t know.

Tomorrow will have enough time for me to make granola and go grocery shopping, get stuff for cheesecake, maybe make soup. It will be possible, I know it will be. And maybe I’ll go out with the other postbacs and not feel too stressed and anxious. I shall see.

[painperdudotcom]

Trimer ou céder

3 semaines d'hypokhâgne. 3 semaines, 21 jours, 504 heures, environ 30 000 minutes et presque autant de questions.

J'aime la théorie de l'hypokhâgne, j'aime l'image qu'elle renvoie, j'aime ce que je pourrais être dans deux ans, j'aime les relations créées avec ces personnes qui me ressemblent, j'aime la connaissance, j'aime cette enseignante si fine linguiste et oreille attentive, j'aime l'architecture du lycée et sa vue magnifique, j'aime être au coeur de Lyon, j'aime l'émulation, j'aime apprendre de ceux qui savent tellement.

Et pourtant... je rêve de m'en aller. Rien que pour retrouver un semblant de liberté. Liberté intellectuelle, parce qu'on ne va pas se le cacher, nous sommes formatés dans ce genre de filières. Liberté de se laisser aller, et oublier quelques heures les cours pour penser à autre chose, aux loisirs, au futur, à soi. Liberté de profiter de la vie, qui sait ce qui va se passer demain ? Je ne veux pas être forcée de trimer chaque jour pour un futur hypothétiquement agréable.

En théorie, la prépa, c'est formidable. Mais je ne suis pas sûre que cela soit fait pour moi. Je vois très bien, comme tout le monde, tous les avantages théoriques. Mais j'ai l'impression d'être étouffée par tout ce que je n'aime pas. J'aime lire, mais je n'aime pas réfléchir sur des questions abstraites d'auteur, d'oeuvre et de genre. J'aime l'histoire, mais je n'aime pas commenter des textes du moyen âge. J'aime la philosophie, mais je n'aime pas les idées catho réac de mon professeur. J'aime l'anglais, mais je ne comprend pas l'intérêt de la version appliquée. J'aime apprendre de nouvelles langues, mais je ne vois pas à quoi pourrait me servir le latin.

Alors je rêve un autre quotidien. Qui pourrait advenir dès la semaine prochaine si je le décidais. Mais j'ai peur. Peur parce que j'aime la théorie de la prépa. Parce que, le regard des autres. Parce que, et si dans 2 mois, 2 ans ou 20 ans je regrette ? Au même titre que les autres je m'en voudrai d'avoir pris la mauvaise décision, d'avoir écouté mes émotions plutôt que ma raison, d'avoir laissé le doute s'installer, d'avoir cédé à la peur, et surtout, à la facilité.

Alors cette semaine je prendrai une décision, qui se dessine depuis la première semaine de ce mois de septembre. Je crois que je connais déjà l'issue de cette tentative de prépa, je ne crois pas que ce soit la meilleure, mais quand le cœur n'est pas au travail alors comment faire ? Résister n'est pas chose facile. J'ai l'impression d'être plus encline à supporter les regrets, la culpabilité et la honte que l'anxiété, la déprime et le brouillard.

Alors j'attends. Dans la tempête de la difficulté, hésitante à attraper la perche de la facilité. Les prochains jours diront si j'ai craqué, ou si je suis prête à ramer.

[unconventionalpremeds-blog]

🐕 Interested in Veterinary Medicine? Check out this Emergency Ovariohysterectomy Veterinary Case Review with our own kickass Vet, Dr. L. 🐕Now posted for questions and answers at www.unconventionalpremeds.com. 🧠 Register. Post. Learn. Share! It’s free to join and free to stay! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #student #college #undergrad #postbac #premed #prevet #prephysicaltherapy #nursing #nursingschool #medschool #veterinarian #veterinarymedicine #veterinaryschool #veterinaryscience #medstudent #dvm #surgery #surgeon #veterinarysurgery #veterinarysurgeon #science #biology #anatomy #animalanatomy #unconventionalpremeds⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs9sRhGFCE_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=hlcgtgvw0v0r