#post op diary

[diamondintherioux]

6/23/24

15w5dpo

I’ve been slacking ~shocker~ I know. It’s hard I can’t lie. The summer is all about iced coffee and ice cream, sweet little treats, patio season. It’s hard to resist. I’m trying not to break my own balls and remind myself that life is about “balance” but fuck it’s hard. I remind myself that I didn’t spend thousands of dollars to fuck up my progress by stuffing my face. The problem is where I live has been a catastrophic heat wave. It’s so hot that just by being outside for 5 minutes will leave you drenched. I have to think about a lot. Not just my body but my skin. It’s easier to just be a fat couch potato than go outside.

But that all changes this new week.

It’s a big week for me. On Tuesday I get IPR done to my teeth. I’ve been waiting 16 years for this. IPR is where they shave your teeth on the sides. Can’t wait to actually have straight teeth. My teeth are the one feature that I constantly get complimented on. Invisalign is taking it to another level. I also want to start a meal plan that I used back in 2019. I used to go to the gym 6x a week and eat 100% clean with this meal plan. I was absolutely tiny. It’s wild for me because I remember at the time I still thought I was fat lol my problem is having sweets in the house. If it’s outside the house I’m good. But once I have cookies or ice cream in the house I will devour it. The reason I’m restarting this meal plan is because portion sizing is killing me. I’m going to have to start measuring my meals again. I’m doing this because I’m going on vacation in September and I want to not only be in the best shape of life but I want to eat everythingggggg. This is a country where culinary arts are top tier.

I wear the faja overnight. I took a two week break from wearing it about 2.5 months post op. I know I should wear it more just for the curbing of the appetite aspect but with this heat it just makes it hard to breath. Pro tip: don’t get your surgery in the summer lol

This is my last week of “club Pilates” and my personal trainer on vacation. I’m ready to join a real Pilates studio or better yet start doing privates. I still get lymphatic drainage massages once I week. I really like the girl who does them so I’ll just continue for her.

As you get older life and experience start weighing on you. That’s why you gain weight, develop wrinkles, etc. the youth really is wasted on the young. I was at the mall and all the girl are wearing tiny white crop tops with either denim shorts or tennis skirts. They are tiny. Size zero, perfect ratios with no surgery. All because they are young. Then you see their moms and foresee what they will look like in the future. Not good. While genetics plays a huge role, taking care of yourself if a lifelong endeavor.

[aliceundrground]

Recovery day 8

Awkward 'my chair is in front of a window' selfie + cat tax lol

Stayed up way too late because I've been socializing so much and my brain required Me Time (until like 4am). Woke up and it had been 9.5hrs since my last meds and HOO boy, not feeling great.

After waking up for a bit I started to feel a lot better. This was maybe from the meds but it was only ~15 minutes after taking them so I'm not sure 🤷 Could be from walking around a bit/stretching/adjusting mental expectations of discomfort lol

My right side is still a lot larger than my left and I'm hoping its still just swelling that will go down eventually. My surgeon was very open about supporting revisions down the line and thats helping a bit but I am kind of worried about the shape 💀

My right wrist and neck/shoulder have also been hurting because Ive been using/holding my phone so much 💀💀 might need to limit phone use lol

Tmi in tags

[dumplingprincessextraordinaire]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

Art by 宝生@原稿中

[atissi]

i think the internet could be greatly improved if we just assume that OP is always talking to someone who is not you. if the post is not personally applicable or relevant, cool, this isn't a conversation you're in. this is a strangers' conversation that you're eavesdropping on.

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

many years ago someone complimented me on how sincerely i wished my ex well after a break up and i did mean it at the time but im truly not that bitch anymore i hope his nose is stuffy the rest of his life tbqph

[moongothic]

God I had a dream last night that the end of One Piece was going to be like a movie trilogy, and during the second movie there was somekinda prophesy of what was going to happen that would lead to the downfall of the World Government, and it mentioned Moria BY NAME rising up to fight against the WG along with """the trans man afterthought of a warlord""" (????????????? RUDE?????????????????)

Interestingly this was framed as an almost... negative thing? Not the "rising up against the WG" part, but the presence of these people and the threat they would pose against the world after the WG was dealt with. Like is Luffy going to have to deal with them or what? Who knows

Anyway we cut further into the movie and we find Deflated Moria (not like, Young and Skinny Moria, it's Regular Moria but he has lost weight and become Deflated) in a Marine Prison where the prisoners are riling up. The Afterthought of a Warlord himself shows up and with a horrible bastard grin (affectionate) Crocodile asks Moria if he wants to go wreck the WG with him, breaking them out of the prison

We cut to the Strawhats, as a word has gone out for pirates everywhere to show up at a certain location hoisting their colors in a silent agreement to go to war against the WG. But Luffy also gets a separate message from Crocodile who's just like "we need to talk", the movie nearing its end as Luffy decides to go meet Croc

And through out all of this I'm just like "oooohhhh my god I didn't think this would be how it'd go down BUT HOLY SHIT I WAS RIGHT I TOLD Y'ALL THIS IS HOW THINGS WOULD GO DOWN" lmao

[firstroseofspring]

biggest slug ever in my backyard alert!!!!!!!!!!

[klanced]

I love you for single handedly keeping the VLD fandom alive for us 💜💜💜. Keep doing what you’re doing

honestly i'm just certifiably insane like this isn't even voltron anymore. we are so far past canon voltron it's not even funny. we are now fully enveloped in the KCU (klanced cinematic universe) and you all are my captive audience

[television-overload]

Giggling kicking my feet at John Adams' first letter to Abigail Smith (later Adams) 😂😍

Figured I'd give my poor brain a break from fanfiction and read something perhaps more beneficial to my mental faculties, but then he's out here addressing his letters to "Miss Adorable" and formally requesting kisses as if he's placing an order for goods from a merchant 😂😂

I will settle for nothing less than a man that considers me his "dearest friend" BTW. I stand by that. That's a fact.

[diamondintherioux]

5/4/24

2 months post op

What a mind fuck. 2 months post op. Tomorrow is my last day of physical therapy. I finally have my arm mobility restored! I even went back to Pilates the other day, I’m so sore but it’s a good sore. I have 3 more lymphatic drainage massages left then I’m done. TBH I don’t think they’ve really don’t anything for me post op. They’re important that first week to get the tumescent fluid out but if you are at your goal weight and barely swelled I don’t think it makes that big of difference. In the same breath I fit better into my faja than I did 2 weeks ago but I think that’s the vaser lipo working.

I have been lazy with my vitamins (what else is new?) it’s just I have too many. I start Invisalign on Tuesday so I’m hoping that’ll be the kick start to my 30 days no sugar. I just need a detox from it. Had ice cream today from a local place I used to be obsessed with and it just didn’t taste the same. It’s sad but I swear I don’t have those sugar cravings anymore. They used to be so intense that I would leave the house in the middle of the night to buy something sweet. Now I have a homemade chocolate covered banana slice and I’m good.

It’s so crazy looking at old photos and seeing how my natural body could never become my post surgical body. No amount of gym could give my body an hourglass figure. People get so mad that others can just pay for a perfect body lol

I need to call a medspa and start scheduling facial treatments. I need a chemical peel and a facial. Since I’m not longer spending money on physical therapy and massages I can focus on my face. I want to get spray tans as well but I can’t stand the transfer. What is the solution? I’m so pasty, specially my legs.

I stopped wearing shape wear under my faja and I feel soooooooo much better. I swear shape wear snatches you better than a faja. I don’t see myself spending $200+ on a faja ever again. Amazon has some really good ones if I need an extra unf underneath my body con dresses (yes that’s allllll I’m wearing this summer).

3 months post op I’ll be out of town. That’s when I’ll start wearing the faja for 12 hours. Probably only at night. I’ll be updating monthly from now on. I’m thinking about making a post about ab boards and foams for educational purposes.

[midnightcoffee97]

let me eat cake

[dumplingprincessextraordinaire]

Yuno gasai is not my favorite yandere but I get why she’s iconic. She’s easily the best (if not the only part) of future diary. I feel like at some point when you’re past the same six famous yandere characters in anime, you just go toward manga that hasn’t or can’t be adapted into a show and that’s honestly a much more rich experience anyway.

[phagodyke]

taking an extra half an amfexa before I leave work bc [redacted] (popular artist) is playing my city tn and I'll need it to cope with how awful the traffics gonna be when I'm on the bus 💀

[thnksfrthmmrs]

i have such cool and iconic mutuals that put up with so much when it comes to following me and for that i am grateful 🫶

[ofcowardiceandkings]

well i didnt expect the first time i went swimming post top surgery (after attempting and not managing for years) to be on a cheeky trip to the beach with my coworkers while working away but here we are !!

[girderednerve]

i've seen that post about how homeless people don't cause problems in libraries going around a few times, & it's incredibly irritating to me

in my experience as a library worker, most of the people that were asked to leave or banned from the library were homeless. a few of these people did do genuinely disruptive things (shout at staff, make harassing comments, get into physical altercations), but most of them were banned from the library because the library's set of rules was fundamentally unfair and often enforced unfairly by staff, contracted security guards, and other patrons. people were banned for sleeping in the library, or eating in the library, or bringing too many bags into the library, or being quietly drunk in the library. none of these rules should result in banning someone from service & the only reason that they do is because our library rules were intended to make sure the library was 'safe for families' and 'not a day shelter.' if you feel that your public library doesn't do the same, i'd love to see the code of conduct.

there's a popular idea that libraries are havens for everyone, and they can be, but that's no guarantee that each one is; like every other public place, marginalized people are subject to the whims of the people who write and enforce building rules, and library workers aren't somehow exempt from bigotry. in addition, many front-line library staff are under pressure from administrators to aggressively enforce these deliberately unfair rules, because library administrators are personally bigoted or because they are themselves under pressure from library boards, local government, or vocal patrons.

i also think that post kind of valorizes the idea that homeless patrons behave well (whatever we may imagine that to mean) in the library because they are sensitive to how reactive rule enforcement can be & are trying not to get kicked out, which i find morally repugnant. why should we celebrate that someone is so used to being forcibly excluded that they work to placate us before we even express disapproval? i have had many interactions with library patrons who were clearly being polite to me in a way that, to me at least, felt like it was a performance directed at my white (presumed) womanhood. i found it jarring & unpleasant to be treated like a possible agent of harm, but that's my problem and not the patron's fault; i don't understand why anyone would take being treated that way as their due. i have had patrons apologize to me for being upset by clearly terrible circumstances or visibly shut down to avoid being emotional in public. i don't know how to navigate that from behind a service desk & frankly my perspective here is not the important one, but it feels worth pointing out that these are not a positive or neutral social interactions; they're evidence of a situation in which marginalized patrons are forced to treat library workers like a barrier & a threat. the fact that i personally would never eject someone from the library for being upset, much less for sleeping, doesn't come into it, because how could it? we met five minutes ago, if that.

library workers, in my experience, like to think of themselves as a part of a vital social infrastructure, performing a kind of secular (well, not always) missionary work. we tend to our communities. we nurture and guide. & i can't wholly exempt myself here: i was drawn to library work in part because i think it can be valuable, because i enjoy being helpful to other people. to some degree library workers, like social workers & nurses, all participate in the disciplinary arm of white womanhood, & i don't think it's professionally responsible or ethically defensible to decline to grapple with those implications, however uncomfortable. you don't have to lie about what a library is for libraries to be worthwhile, come on