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#windscream#starblade#humanformers#maccadam#i designed them the way i would want to get with both so dont @ me#dude i cant find my old transformers sketchbook#im so mad because i already had human windscream designs#let me be lazy pleaaaaaaaaaaase#whatever its ok its ok i have 3 designs for human starscream and 1 for human windblade.#hes high maintenance#starscream#windblade#wait so now that ive drawn this can i get another fellow shipper to hold my hand when i reread TAAO for this year? its time for annual read#i cry about it for days. i need emotional support. or at least someone else to cry with me#i like to specifically read until TAAO and then stop#and then i rot in bed daydreaming about post-canon fix-its. where i dont fix shit. theyre both in extreme pain#but right now yknow what i want? i want ss locked up in wbs house. bro has good mental health. gains a little happy weight#and i want wb re-elected again and again and cybertron in the golden again. arts and culture thriving. many institutes for higher education#the titans are chilling and not ruining wbs life. much luck and prosperity to them both#hitting my head against a wall. why cant i have this#ok brb time to read hurt/comfort fanfic of wbss
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Kokichi, similar to Noritoshi in the sense that they're analytical and kinda tsun, but that's mostly it. This is another Megumi and Noritoshi situation where, on the surface, they appear to be very similar, but you squint and realize they're extremely different.
Whereas Noritoshi isn't as bold because he still holds remnants of pride, Kokichi is just shy about it since it's so new. He won't back down from it, just hesitate.
[Long ass rambles under the cut! + bonus doodles.]
When referring to shyness, Kokichi leans into the awkward and stiff type. There's always confusion and slight fear in his eyes when he's experiencing something new or romantic. He doesn't want to mess up, but if he does, he just hopes it works in his favor.
Being born in a body where he was under constant pain and stress, someone touching him was the last thing he wanted. He'd never known the loving touch of another because the heavens decided he wasn't allowed to.
After meeting you, that yearning to be next to you became too much. To hell with his restrictions. He'd to do whatever it takes to be able to be with you even if he had to sacrifice others to do it.
In retrospect, he feels like he should've done it sooner. Being touched or even grazed doesn't feel like his skin is falling off anymore.. Plus having both arms and working legs is always a good thing. It's new and odd, but not terrible. His mind never once wandered back and regretted those he's thrown under the bus because why would it?
Unfortunately, when his body was being healed, Mahito made him healthy.. and that's all. Knowing Mahito, he'd leave Kokichi to struggle with catching up to the rest of his peers by working for his own stamina, weight, and strength from square one. Though Kokichi isn't complaining much about it. He'd still take this rather than being stuck in that god forsaken tub for a second longer.
He used to hate being fussed over because of his illness. He prefers to do things on his own and now he can. Yet, Kokichi still gets pitiful looks on other's faces when he's too weak to carry something. It makes him want to spit at them, he can use Mechamaru to do his heavy lifting for now. He doesn't need a beefed up body to do it.
Unless you're the "beefed up" one fussing over him.. He doesn't mind it when it's you. In fact, Kokichi feels grateful when it's you, endeared even. He never feels belittled or pitiful when its you.. Only you.
Judging by how he treated panda for having the ability to interact with others in person despite being a cursed corpse, Kokichi has a number of insults and creative verbal abuse he's ready to spew out once someone tries getting a little too close to you. Scratch that, he's rude in general to those he isn't familiar with.
Kokichi has a lot of anger for those he deems ungrateful. What do you expect from someone who thought he was gonna rot in a bathtub for the rest of his life to do? Not harbor resentment? Luckily, he holds just as much, if not more, love for you who he's unbelievably grateful for!
Your affection is so odd to him, a new experience that he never knew he could grow to yearn for. It's not terrible, quite the opposite. It's so wonderful he can't get enough. Every time you're around, he wants to have at least one hand on you at all times. Doesn't matter where, just as long as he feels you're around. Safe to say, he's extremely touch starved.
Oh how Kokichi would drop everything for a walk with you. He'd use every Mechamaru he had just to make sure no one disturbs either of you. Murder is just a side effect if they get too persistent. He just wants to spend time with you!
Though he likes walks, he still gets out of breath easily. Walking is nice, but he still needs time to get used to it. Offering to help will only cause him to lean against you, it's not too difficult, he doesn't weigh much for better or worse. He loves when you lend him a hand, it's just another reason to get close to you.
When you part, it's only natural that Kokichi gifts you a little trinket he made. Rejecting it will only reward you with the most devastated frown, so just accept it. If you get rid of it when coming home, it somehow always finds its way back to you? Destroying it will lead to Kokichi giving you another one.
Yes, it follows and watches you, but it's just to keep you safe! Who knows what could happen. Whether or not the little trinkets are subtle, all depends on how you reacted to him asking if it was alright to know your location at all times when he's not around. Kokichi is understanding if you're not okay with it. He'll just make his gifts extra subtle so you wont know he's watching.
He just wants to be by your side constantly, even if he's not able to be there in person. Watching you through a screen gives him a sickly familiar feeling in the pit of his stomach, but it's better than not knowing what you're doing. He can even pick up little things about you this way for when he sees you next time! This is nothing but a win-win in his mind even if others beg to differ.
Kokichi never felt blessed. Not once since the day he was born, not until he found you. You who he feels is truly a gift from the heavens. You who he would give up everything to have. In a way, Kokichi is delusional. He sees you as the reason he got a heavenly restriction. It was as if other worldly forces tried to keep him at bay from pursuing you, but you're also the reason he broke his restrictions. He now has the body he wished for thanks to you, his drive, his motivation, his purpose, his love.
[extra shit]
Kokichi’s so fucking low key about being a chuunibyou. you're telling me he named his mech after an anime he watched. half his attacks have ultimate or ultra in the name.. HE MADE A FUCKING MECH. Your ass can't tell me he didn't watch anime while growing up and got inspired to make it a reality. He probably watched Evangelion or something.. Woah, anime dates with him where he makes your favorite creature and uses it to his advantage.. woah.
[Bonus Kokichi verbal abuse]
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#kokichi muta#muta kokichi#kokichi muta x reader#muta kokichi x reader#mechamaru#mechamaru x reader#jjk x reader#welcome mob kun to the cult.. im so sorry that you have to be our sacrificial lamb to these psycho's bullying#tl;dr kokichi is a little shy bc everythin is new but hes still open to everythin. hes just an obsessive freak for you ykyk#i love kokichi.......... dont you love him?? hes so good bro#can you see how hard im snorting copium to make up my au where hes alive#i had to put some yan into him BUT LISTEN TO ME IM NOT EVEN TRYING TO MAKE HIM A FREAK BRO#HES LITERALLY JUST LIKE THAT AND ITS SUCH A SHAME ITS NOT USED MORE#“there was someone who i loved. and i didnt care what happened to the world as long as i could be by her side and protect her”#“even if that girl didnt want me to be the one to protect her.”#HE WAS DOWN TO SACRIFICE THE WORLD?? MF HUH?? YOU WERE GONNA BETRAY EVERYONE BC YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD FIGHT. WIN. AND FIX IT??#AND YOU WOULD FR STILL BE THERE EVEN IF THE ONE YOU LOVED DIDNT LIKE YOU BACK???#DUDE?????#WHAT THE FCUK KOKICHI WHAT THE FUCKKKKK#ong idk if theres a handful of kokichi enjoyers out there or its one person asking for him specifically but i see you...#i'll feed you my starving cult member.....#THIS IS THE ONE I POSTED ON ACCIDENT SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY AND MISHAP ANON. I LOVE YOU.#shout out to salsamander who caught me slacking#im not sorry for the LowTierGod reference#null rot
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'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'
#cw blood#SUUUPER SCUFFED LIL WIP THATS BEEN RRRROTTING IN MY FOLDER. OUT!! GET OUT!!!#its almos 2 am and imm gettin high as hrothgar. spruced this up within an hour so i could be shared n eaten#its SUPPOsed to be part ofa bigger doodly page so ofc theres the chance this changes between now n then#fuuuuck shoulda made her dress sparkly. fuckit ill fix it laterrrrr. i havnt posted art in YWEARRS i needed to post something#also i uh. well you see i started losing followers on twitter bc im sooo inactive and i KNOW that shouldnt matter like it should be whateve#but. you see. i lkike when number go up and when it go down i get MMMADDD.we all get our dopamine from somewhere#ANYWAY so i actually havnt touched the suckening in so long. been workin on oc stuff.BUT WELL. ARTHUR AND MARY. STILL MAKE ME WEEP#THEYRE SO CUTE N TRAGIC...whadda fuck is it with grizzly n charlie characters being so in love and so doomed#kian and becky then arthur and his various exes like CMAHn.stop doing this to me#from what i remember of the episode.she seemed so.tired.disconnected.like she had been wandering a dream#and yet she seemed so positive.reasonably concerned and yet.content.she warmed up to arthur as soon as she recognized him#she speaks so gently and so sweetly and she keeps the conversation so light.even though shes dead and shes gone and she#is doomed to wander an odd limbo for the rest of time.and yet she seemed so at peace.i can see why arthur liked her.what happened?#what caused them to separate?arthur seems so jaded and so tired.marys company seems like such a gentle place to rest.#how did he squander such a blessing?was it a blessing?OHH what i would give to crack open their minds and peer inside.#yknow wat im runnign out of room i think so ill add a last thought here at the bottom of my tags. I AM MORE CORRECT ABT ARHTURS UGLY LOOK#I WANT THAT MAN TO BE BEASTLY AND GROSS AND STRANGE AND SCARY AND EEWWW I SEE THINGS SQUIRMING IN THE DARK.ther are bugs#LETTING HIM HAVE HOT HOT ABBS AND STUFF WAS A COP OUUTTTT LET HIS WHOLE FORM BE DISTORTED OR UR NOT A FUCKING 0 APPEARANCE BITCH#THE BONES SHIFTED BENEATH AS IF TRYING TO HATCH. MANY OTHER THINGS HATCHED ASWELL. THE DEAD IMMORTAL FLESH SOURED#TOO GRAND TO ROT BUT TOO CORRUPTED TO KEEP CLASSIC FORM. MMMONSTER MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER#oka y im not going to bed but im gonna go. uh. do miore drugs or something. maybe ill work on more jrwi stuff. or oc stuff.#i hope ur day goes swimmingly thankyou for reading my tags i love you so so so so so much
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I have chronic back pain, have for a while. It’s not so bad now that I had surgery, but I lived with it for years. I tried to go to a doctor for it, but they just said to lose weight, so I learned to live with the pain until one morning I couldn’t get up from bed. Couldn’t move without feeling like electricity was running up and down my back, burning my spine and leg from the inside.
This had me back in front of a doctor who (thankfully) listened and then for an entire year my insurance jerked me around requiring that I try different methods to manage the pain before finally agreeing to cover surgery.
In that year leading up to surgery something inside me broke. I couldn’t do the most basic tasks. Having to learn how to move my body in just the right way so that I wouldn’t lock up trying to wipe my own ass is one of my least favorite memories. Next to it is a tie between falling at my sister’s wedding because my leg gave out and being in so much pain I couldn’t sleep for days on end. I couldn’t sit, couldn’t drive, couldn’t bend or twist or even lay down without feeling like my nerves were on fire.
Work accommodated but I felt useless. I couldn’t lift inventory anymore. Couldn’t do a key part of my job that I (oddly) enjoyed doing. Commuting the hour to school twice a week was excruciating, but it was my first year of grad school. I had to push through. My professors were kind, they accommodated so that I could be as comfortable as possible in class. But I felt like a distraction, a nuisance, a bother. It was so hard to focus on lectures and homework when 90% of the input my brain was receiving was that of pain.
I grit my teeth and bore it, my mental health hit a new all time low, and I broke down in front my my mother more times than I can count. And I did this for a year because insurance refused to cover surgery unless I proved to them I needed it. I had to jump through their hoops and play by their rules to get the procedure I needed and that my care team knew I needed. I lost feeling in my leg and foot because they made me wait.
I will forever be grateful for the doctors who listened, for the physical therapist who advocated for me, for my mom who surprisingly became my rock during the whole ordeal. But my insurance company? They can go fuck themselves.
My pain before that year was bad, but not excruciating. My pain now? It’s minimal. Sometimes I still lock up and I’ll likely never have all of the sensation return to my left foot, but I’ll take the constant pins and needles over that year of pain any day. That said, had it gone on much longer I genuinely don’t know if I’d be here typing this.
Anyways…I guess what I’m saying is IF he did it, I get it. I really really get it.
#chronic pain#healthcare#personal ramblings#luigi mangione#don’t even get me started on all the money I spent on the ‘alternative options’ they required#PT and pain injections helped but those providers told me point blank it would not be enough to fix the problem#and guess what! the professionals with degrees were right!#those methods would relieve the pain for a very short amount of time and then it’d come right back!#it’s almost like some asshole at a desk without a medical degree shouldn’t be making decisions about people’s healthcare!#our system is broken#united states#OH AND FOR THE DOCTOR THAT SAID IT WAS CUZ I WAS FAT???#FUCK YOU TOO#I HAD A FUCKING SPINAL INFECTION THAT ATE AT MY DISCS YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE#I DONT REMEMBER YOUR NAME BUT I HOPE YOU LOST YOUR LICENSE#ROT#I WAS 17 WHEN I WENT TO YOU FOR HELP#YOU SHAMED ME INTO NOT GETTING A SECOND OPINION#I WAS 24 WHEN I WOKE UP AND COULDNT MOVE#this post wasn’t about fatphobia in the medical field but fuck it sure could’ve turned into one#I think about that doctor and I get so angry for 17 year old me#you didn’t deserve that#WE DIDNT DESERVE THAT#if he’d just listened maybe it never would’ve gotten so bad later
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thanks to that one masked collective i have finally ventured into the digital art territory and i'm making this everyone else's problem now
#there's no hidden meaning or anything i just saw a cool pic of someone holding a dove like that and bam#terrible anatomy vessel got added#(i wanted to fix him but i've made the first grave mistake of digital art: drawing different things on the same layer 💀)#still. not that bad for the first piece ever i thought it's gonna be worse#sleep token#sleep token fanart#alex vs the mortifying ordeal of having her art perceived#STALLING MY WEMBLEY THOUGHTS POST BY DISTRACTING YOU WITH THIS INSTEAD#BECAUSE I STILL HAVEN'T PROCESSES WHAT HAPPENED THERE MY BRAIN STILL NEEDS TO CATCH UP THAT YES#WE'VE BEEN THERE#AND YES#WE'RE A DIFFERENT FUCKING PERSON NOW#this little dove has been rotting in my drafts for too long anyway
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#sorry ignore this it’s post-election venting.#like just completely unproductive doomerism I need to get off my chest#ok real talk I have been feeling so hopeless and dead and depressed since the election.#I hate this country and I don’t think it can be fixed. not meaningfully in my lifetime.#I think I need to leave this place but im not financially able and im a transmasc person in a red state#with unsupportive parents.#I’ve given up hope on the idea that ‘ppl here are generally good and just misled into voting for the worse of the 2 evils’ and know just#feel these people are subhumanly stupid. beyond saving. no hope. they are voids. cesspits. empty headed useless ontologically evil braindead#soulless husks. it is useless to try to reason with them or inform them or convince them of anything. they are lost causes. it’s better#to leave this country while they rot in the dying empire They chose to make this bad.#they Want this. they Want fascism. they don’t care about other ppl#they are individualism poisoned Americans with no interest in a better future.#I hate them. I hate Americans. I hate my family. I hate my community.#none of it is worth fighting for anymore. they are lost causes.#the best course of action is to leave. but I can’t so im stuck with these fucking useless morons#so until then I have to rot with them. im stuck in this fucking tar pit of a country#with these fucking tar pits of ppl#illiterate fucking rednecks and functional alcoholic suburbanites. the fucking moldy white bread of humanity#I hope we all die. we deserve this.#useless fucking dnc allergic to winning.#barely coherent braindead voterbase. useless fucking male loneliness truther incels#the world would be better off if this country was fucking nuked off the map.#sorry silly fandom mutuals for being a whiny american. but things r materially going 2 get so much worse for me and my friends next year#project 2025 is terrifying and trump wants to put tariffs on everything which is going to cause prices of everything 2 skyrocket even more#and just knowing ppl are reveling in the ‘liberal tears’ aka ppl being upset that their lives r about 2 get worse makes my skin crawl#and makes me nauseous. these ppl are not human#they don’t care about Palestine they don’t care about Ukraine they don’t care about Sudan#and they don’t care about trans ppl gay ppl any racial minorities#some of them Are racial minorities and want 2 separate themselves from the ‘bad ones’#im just fucking disgusted by the ppl here voting against their own interests bc they r fucking dumb and misinformed.
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late but 6 years ago herstory was made with this trailer
#yall itzy posting starts now I love itzy so much i'm celebrating a fucking trailer release#fucked up so bad but it's okay because glitch filter fixes everything (i used the wrong brush size)#(the line art is literally the basic sketch that normally gets deleted) (it's okay it's not their actual anniversary art)#itzy#있지#예지#유나#yeji#리아#류진#채령#yuna#lia#chaeryeong#ryujin#hwang yeji#choi lia#shin ryujin#lee chaeryeong#shin yuna#fan art#itzy fan art#technically#it's literally just traced body outline with a glitch filter omfg can you tell i actually hate it with a passion#but i spent near 3 hours on it so i cant let it rot
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Wip !!
The traditional art struggle of ruining it with the lineart
#i can still fix it trust#I don't usually post wips but I need to hype myself with this one or im giving up#I looove starting stuff spontaneously and leaving the actual ideas rot#bone's singular crumb#wip#no tags fuck you
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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit
#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me#i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum#my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation#depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man#theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please#i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good#but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great#i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to#actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die#i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless#i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something#probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so#ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left#ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this#an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways#no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil#because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good#idk what im saying anymore#someone shoot me#please im not kidding#just make it stop#tw vent#tw sui#delete later
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CW: Implied Body Horror
[Happy Birthday! >:D]
Honey coats the tongue and burns on the way down.
It clings to teeth and throat- every inch as suffocating as the One Who Bleeds.
【Silence the violent tides of your mind, O' Cherished One.】
A voice sweetly whispers. Slick as an oil spill, overflowing into cracked seams to reknit the broken with tendons and scales.
【Let my blood quell the raging fire in your veins.】
【Lay claim to flesh and bone】
【Claim the fruits of the Abundance for your own】
【And let me...fix you】
Strewn atop ever branching limbs, an unearthly maw finds his.
Mouths touch in a delicate kiss as the sting of its scorpion's tail takes a hold.
Yaoshi traces their love with their lips.
Even as poisonous filth entwines in the fabric of his existence. Branding. Bone. Skin. Organs. Viscera.
There is not a part of the High Elder that is uniquely his alone to own.
Not anymore.
No...
The High Elder tries to say, but his tongue is heavy like lead.
No...
The High Elder tries to cover his ears, but his hands are tied by chains.
No...
The High Elder tries to close his eyes, but they are forced open to witness the divine.
He did not ask to be 'fixed'. He did not ask for THEIR blessings. He did not ask for THEIR gaze on him.
None of this, Dan Feng didn't ask for anything of this.
Unfortunately, he has no say in this. When compared to the existence of an Aeon, Dan Feng is but a mortal. A fragment of an Aeon long gone- pitiful, weak, and so small.
The seed rooted in his heart has already begun to bloom. With it, the destruction of his life as "Yinyue Jun" is imminent. The parasites have corrupted his body and mind, and soon his soul will follow.
Yes.
Dan Feng says between kisses as THEIR ichor mends broken tendons and scales.
Yes.
Dan Feng listens to THEIR words, a honeysweet voice dripping of poison and temptations.
Yes
Dan Feng no longer wishes to close his eyes. He keeps them open, drinking in the sight of Yaoshi divine presence.
Then the pain is gone. Only blissful acceptance.
|| Submitted by @grislyintentions
#submission#immortalized in stone (submissions)#grislyintentions#my bones rot/flowers bloom on my horns (AU- Yinyue Jun)#moon drinker (il)#tags pending#cw: body horror#ship tag pending#save tag pending#||I KNOW I GOT THIS ON MY BDAY BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH A#||So sorry for posting this late but I will say absolutely love it ;w;#||Love how Yaoshi is “fixing” DF up to be “perfect” for THEM :333#||Uber love your description of Yaoshi being so fucked up but make it sound so beautiful and divine#||Like a miracle is happening#||But we know how fucked up it is#||DF not having a great time
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Headcanon time. Five Pebbles would hate being held in any way unless he specifically started or consented to it because otherwise it would make him feel small and or powerless
(look at my tags boy)
#rain world#rainworld#which he is. small little man#he strikes me as the type who immediatly goes defensive when someone implies even remotely that he is not their equal#ergo his insistence that he is better than most other lifeforms. something something was made to be better than moon#and yet disappointed so many ancients. probably some iterators too somewhere#ERGO HIS COMPLETE DEAD SILENCE WHEN HE GOT THE ROT. BECAUSE IT WAS SEEN AS A BAD THING BY EVERYONE AND THEY MESSAGED HIM ABOUT IT PROBS <3#oh you think lowly of five pebbles? shut the fuck up he'll show you. he doesnt need any help to fix anything.#actually he doesnt need anyone at all. also its suns fault that he got the rot its not him that made the mistake hes not inferior to anyone#trust him he promises hes just as good as everyone else. actually hes better which is why he doesnt need any of you#-five pebbles' subconscious probably#five pebbles#rw five pebbles#superiority and inferiority and god complex all at the same time having little guy. he is so normal i am so normal about him#damn this post started off as an observation. lol. lmao even#i cannot shut up about my blorbos sometimes#esp in the tags lmao
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#*beep* oh. hey. guess you're sleeping? maybe you're at work. or out with friends. i hope wherever you are it's good#or that it's getting better. i really do#i'm not good. but you knew that already. otherwise why would i be leaving this message?#sorry. i just need to talk for a bit i guess#cause it's like. every day i write a hundred posts and every day i delete most if not all of them#and i could not tell you why#this is my blog after all. my words and thoughts go here#but also. this is my third place. and i can't lose that#isn't that crazy? i can't lose the handful of notes from reblogging other people's posts#the idea that somehow i'm constructing myself in the cut and paste instead of doing something myself#and i do try to make posts of my own. but nothing's ever worth posting. i don't even let it rot in the drafts. it's just gone#and i try to think about what would stop me from doing this#which inevitably brought me here - what would i be doing if it were fifty years ago#and i think the answer is i'd be calling someone who used to care and blowing up their answering machine#and i think about old answering machines. the ones that need a tape to record the message#does dora just re-record over the tapes that harry fills?#does she trash them? i'm guessing she doesn't listen to them#i won't tell you what to do with this message. i'll spare you a call to action#it's not like a diary would fix this. i have a diary. i've been keeping one regularly for months now#i think i want to be perceived but i refuse to speak unless spoken to and i will not reach out on here unless i'm being a kindly anon#and when i talk irl it's all broken disjointed subjects without predicates#it takes such effort for me to talk that people stop asking me out of kindness. but there's still thoughts i haven't said#thoughts that don't need to be said. we don't *need* another person rambling on about whatever random fandom topic or half-assed scribbles#i tried making serious art and meta posts for like four years across different fandoms#it's all gone now. as is most of my poetry. lotta things i don't know or care to know#and i can't bring myself to do that again. esp if that's not why you're here. so like. it's easier just to remain quiet?#because. i know people *can* understand. but it takes effort#and i can't guarantee a return on investment. i don't know if the cost of teaching me how to talk again is worth it#god i want to infodump but that was beaten out of me. the need is still there but i can't. it hurts#idk. things are good and then things are bad and on the whole they're good and getting better
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I cannot explain how often I think about this part of the Simon’s Quest story. Ough I wanna try to explain every tiny line of this in detail, but I can’t think of words rn aaa, so I’m gonna dump random disjointed thoughts in the tags for now.
I’m putting the links to the English translations of the first two games’ Japanese manuals because their stories are so much cooler than what the western releases got. The second I get everything I can or have thought about this guy together I’m doing in depth story and character analysis for some silly whip man NES games tho—
#castlevania#castlevania games#text post#simon belmont#oahsjfkwuwhflshdjdka#I can’t words rn#and I’m so frustrated about it#like I had multiple points I was gonna make but I just can’t put them down at all for no reason#I should rant about how they mention decay in this one tho—#decay is not fun and would be very horrifying to experience while alive fun fact!#Simon is not doing so great—#the American manual describes is as more of a soul effecting curse but like#slowly rotting alive is so much more horrifying#i imagine that was probably not mentioned in the American release for the same reason why they censored blood in some games tho lol#also the ominous last line in this screenshot#that’s given a little bit more sad implications when the mysterious woman tells him something about courage afterwards#the ‘please remember bitter memories in Transylvania’ at the end of the whole thing#implying that 7 year gap may have been him just avoiding fixing the curse because of the trauma of what happened there#that also implying he was initially gonna give up and die without actually doing anything about this#it’s so interesting that the few insights into Simon as a character that we get are like#he highly doubts that he’ll be as good as his ancestors#and then he gets cursed and his first response is to give up and slowly let it kill him#like WOW those are some important character details for sure#it’s so hard to talk about him without immediately being like ‘oh no poor guy’#theory posting#kinda not like whole theory but a small piece of speculation material lol
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Rest in peace, Smiling Scug rivulet campaign, for you were taken so soon.
Sleep well, sweet prince
#Spaghetti Speaks#Smiling Scugs#Rain world bug#Rainworld bug#rw bug#Rainworld#rain world#rw downpour#Basically what happened was I might’ve messed up the game by trying to see what’s happen if I spawned in the rarefaction cell without takin#and it broke quite a lot#No cell that I spawned would hook up to Moon’s heart#I tried until my karma had plummeted#since it was co-op I did this without my friend as to not waste his time#the only reason Charlie is rivulet in that screenshot is purely so I don’t have to worry about drowning- not because I think it’s fitting#so I thought maybe it was broken because we never took the cell- so I fasttravelled to The Rot to fetch it… only to find THAT (image above)#I deleted the save file- we agreed it was completely bugged and to do gourm’s campaign instead next time#it also kept making my entire game bug out in a way I could only fix with a full reinstall#whole thing was so weird#we had fun before that nonsense at least#I’ll speak more of it in another post#rw rivulet#rw campaign#rain world downpour#Game bugs#game glitch
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This post includes minor spoilers regarding the final boss for Lies of P, please scroll over if you’d rather not take the chance <:)
It’s late and I can just tell that my thought process and writing won’t be coherent but I finally reached the nameless puppet and I felt compelled to share my silly little Lies of P thought of the night💙
So you know how before the game released there was that rumor going around that P was 6’3, but once the game came out and the models could really be analyzed it was revealed that he was much shorter than what people thought he was going to be?? Well idk if it’s just me or the way the angles or camera are working in the fight but the nameless puppet seems to be MUCH taller than P. This could simply be a throwaway design choice by Geppetto, a genuine estimate of Carlos height at this age after so many years, so he’d be at a better advantage when fighting/defending himself, so on and so forth, it could be for a number of reasons, but considering that the nameless puppet is more or less meant to be Carlo reborn adds some interesting thought to it all!
And as a fun little side note, think about the specter as well! If I do remember correctly he’s also taller than P, and while there isn’t confirmation of the identity of the specter the two main theories are that it’s either Carlos spirit or a P from the future! Maybe Carlo really is as tall as the nameless puppet, or maybe after reaching peak humanity and just like with his voice and hair, P continues to grow and become his own person! (Or maybe P just begs Venigni and Eugenie to make adjustments to his body and make him taller idk or care, but the concept is fun!)
It’s just a fun lil random thought that’s been pinging around ever since I made my way to the nameless puppet, and I couldn’t help but want to write a post about it! ^^ <- <-(I am a madwoman rambling I see a sliver of evidence that supports tall 6’3 P and I go lunging for it😳 ofc there is nothing wrong with loving short P he is a sweetie pie no matter what I am just!!! Deranged and ready to gnaw on canon like it’s a jaw breaker)
#text post#I would feel weird about using main tags but also <:(#kind of want folks to see it and see what their opinions are on it#lies of p#please be kind and nice I see P and go wild#but when I see P AND evidence that can potentially back up P being tall?#I become a beast of horrors#Venigni and Eugenie just give him mgr raiden built in heels that could fix things#I love my funny puppet clown regardless!! Till petrification and rot do us part I will support and love this guy!!#chels mumbles
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The KinnPorsche finale killed me nobody talk to me I'm dead
#i legit thought id be up all night reading vegaspete fix its#and then they drop the casual hows vegas doing by the way#and the vegaspete post credit scene aaaaaahhh family cuddles and smooches are you kidding me#obviously kinnporsche had a happy ending#idk what to think about kim and porchay tho...#anyway ill be over here crying about ships that had a rocky start but ended up turning into tooth rotting fluff#kinnporsche#kinnporsche the series
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