#please just stay alive

[stobitjin7]

You are my fate

No words could express it enough...

You're the salvation that saved a wearied me

I'll be by your side after many nights

I'll stay by your side even if my feet bleed

At the end of this endless nightmare-

I don't know if it'll ever end...

You raise me up every day.

-Stay Alive (7 Fates Chakho)

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[novelconcepts]

I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.

And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.

[vaguely-concerned]

seeing people claim that lucanis is 'bad representation' is hilarious to me because in so many ways he's really the closest anything has ever gotten to capturing my own personal experience. sorry for being bad real life queer and mental health/neurodiversity representation folks 😔 I'll take time to reflect and do some work on myself and try to do better in the future

[backpackingspace]

Okay so with the line "the olive tree where we first met" we have two equal hilarious options.

When penelope was sassily like oh I'll marry you if you make a living bed out of this tree right here! Cue penelope stumbling over odysseus very very carefully digging up the tree "because how else is he going to get it to itacha we can't have a wedding bed out in the open in sparta duh"

Or

2. Penelope, knowing that Helen's suitors would soon be arriving to take over her home for a while. Snuck out and went on her own wacky shenanigan filled journey where she scoped out all the major players. Odysseus caught her spying in an olive tree. And when she got back she told Helen she had dibs on the cutie from itacha.

[amkhaaaa]

[0vergrowngraveyard]

hey, so i don’t usually talk about this sort of thing on here and i’m not the best with words, but i need to say this:

you, the person reading this, have to survive.

you are strong. you are so, SO strong and so extremely brave. don’t give them what they want. they want you to be afraid, they want you to give up hope, but you cannot give that to them. do not give them power over you like that.

it’s only 4 years. that may seems like a very long time, but you survived his first term. you can do it again, i KNOW you can. and if his term somehow lasts longer than 4 years? i still know you can do it. will it be challenging? of course it will, but i and so many other believe that you can make it through to the other side.

take a break from the screens. go outside and just sit with yourself or invite your friends to sit along with you. spend time with your pets, indulge in your hobbies, or try something new. take the time to enjoy the little things in life. maybe reach out to a mutual you’ve never spoken to or who you haven’t spoken to in a while.

just please don’t give up. don’t give up on yourself. don’t let that smelly old man have power over you as a human being.

please survive. i know you can. it’ll be okay.

[lilac-set]

Reminder: even if trump wins, we’ll be ok. The presidency isnt the only political position that matters, he wont be a dictator, the president doesnt have the power to remove every other part of government that keeps the president’s power in check. Also politics isnt the only thing that matters. Even if we lose some rights (which he cant singlehandedly do) we still have community, we still have activism, we’ll always be ok. We survived one trump presidency, we can survive another. We survived before gay marriage or transitioning were legal, if we have to survive that again we will. Please, no matter what happens, promise to stay alive. Youre valuable, youre important, and youre going to be ok. Its better to be overprepared than underprepared. Im not asking you to lose hope (im doing the opposite of that), im asking you to practice coping ahead, get all your coping skills ready, determine now to stay alive, because i dont want any of you to make any rash decisions later in case we get bad news and emotions are high. Make a safety plan if you need to. Make sure you’re gonna be ok

[raddestrose]

umm i’m FREAKING OUT

i just watched the trailer for Bridon arc episode one

and HUUUUUUHHHH WHAAAAT

in so so scared Cheng Xiaoshi please please please become a master at the art of dodging things please not just for Lu Guang and Qiao Ling’s sake, but for everyone who watches this

[twingeof-cosmic-angst]

I'm laughing so hard why is ianto such a snitch

ianto: hey boss! check out this sexuality crisis!! "Interesting."

What a critter bro. MIND UR BUSINESS YOU WEIRDO‼️‼️ literally wait like a week and you'll be having some revelations of your own gayboy

[insomnya777]

i think joel smallishbeans should blast ur so gay by katy perry and sing his heart out to it i think it would fix him

[urjustaguyonahorse]

I know it's unrealistic that they would just leave jj to be buried alone in the desert in Morocco but CONSIDER. They literally can't go back home, they're fugitives on the run. Even if they could pay the thousands of dollars it would cost to fly him back home or to buy a boat because the other one is trashed they wouldn't be able to bury him there either. And they don't have passports so showing up anywhere official in morocco with a dead body isn't a good move. There's a pretty good chance that they're in morocco for a good while and honestly I wouldn't care if it was permanent especially with a baby coming and prison waiting for them back home.

[vt-scribbles]

Please still be here in 4 years.

Please.

[ender1821]

i have never been more stressed watching a Pearl life series season dear god

[ronkeyroo]

mind infiltrated by space catbois

[purpletrashcans]

something something i'm still waiting for a radio silence movie