“He stares at the ceiling, blinking blankly every now and then, until his eyes close and he falls asleep.”
hey so what the fuck
bonus
caption translation: “you’re an angst enjoyer”
video translation: “that feeling like where it hurts so much but it feels good, you know that feeling when “aww im so sad cuz they didnt end up together😞” but its also satisfying in a way that they didnt end up together😁”
i have one friend who calls me,
out of the blue, no warning. and some people say
'could this have been a text'
but no, it couldn't have, i needed to hear
the catch in your voice when you say
'i'm sorry for calling but i'm
so fucking tired'
and you needed to hear the way
my voice strives for gentleness as i tell you
'i'm sorry lovely, i know shit's tough
right now' and it's always tough, you have
two kids and a job and your dog is dying but
it won't always be like this. you'll call instead at
three pm on a Thursday,
so you can say 'me and the toddler are at
the park by the swings and did you want
to come and meet us?' and i
will always say yes.
i hope that i will always be there to
answer the phone.
i hope that you never stop calling me
when you're driving home and you need to cry
because you don't want to do bathtime with
your five year old while you're crying.
i hope that you call me to tell me about
the conversation you had with your husband, and how
much you love him, and to say 'what
are you doing tomorrow, do you have time to
come over while my daughter is napping? it feels
like it's been a while.'
i do want to come over.
keep calling me.
i'll keep answering.
What I like a lot about judaism is... It can wait. It can wait. Especially on shabbos it's just... You can wait. Life can wait a bit.
And that's really nice in a world that moves at a breakneck speed, demands you move with or be left behind. I've always been left behind because it's hard to keep up, but I find that I can actually just... Let things happen when it comes to judaism. You think a people, a religion that's thousands of years old doesn't have time for you, or wouldn't be willing to wait for you? I doubt that you'll be left behind, truly.
Don't care that dorky cornballs hate rap because I truly believe it's difficult to get into any genre of music you didn't get a taste of during adolescence unless you're one of those weirdo freaks who listen to new music their entire lives. Yeah there's a racist element to it but overall I think people who actively listen to music outside of pop but say they don't like rap are telling the truth, the musical components associated with hip hop (I'm not talking about lyrics) are largely unpleasant to their ears. I feel the same way about classic rock.
Like I can show a Hamilton stan Story 2 by clipping. - a queer Be Gay, Did Crimes song where a man took his ass to therapy - and I still don't think they would like it. Appreciate it maybe, but not like it.
Your eyes on me
one more time
once again
half a smile to the moon
half a smile to myself
cause I'm not allowed to say it
I love with no right to say it
I confessed to the moon
I whisper to myself: Look away,
and I'll keep my mouth shut
Look away, because I can’t bear
the incision of your gaze on me
Nor these bluish rings, spinning
round a bottomless pit into which
I'm about to sink, head first
You wait for it
You watch harder
You won't miss a moment of
my first free fall
𝑃𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒. Look away
Look at the moon
See me through it