#personal life stressors

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

[jennycalendar]

i try so hard to be fine about and done with the mom thing but getting a text from her where she essentially says she’ll never stop trying to reach out to me because i’m worth trying for is so god damn psychologically upsetting after learning firsthand that the minute i give in and let her win me over, she stops trying, and she starts telling me how horrible i am for not appreciating how much she’s changed just like i asked her to & how evil i am for always seeing the worst in her.

also the entire apology text was for some reason about how she’s sorry for not listening to me???? woman that is not the problem. i mean yes that is the problem but the fact that there was NO mention of “put us on the highway during a tornado warning because she was desperate to get home and set the house up all cute for a visiting friend, refused to listen to me when i started panicking, and then when we finally got her to shelter in a target, said “i’ve gotten used to being by myself in the two years you weren’t talking to me; i would have taken this risk by myself, but forgot i have to account for you” ?????

like lol i do try to be fine!!!! about my mother saying in a moment where i was convinced i was going to die that my life just isn’t something she accounts for!!! about my mother prioritizing my life and feelings lower than setting up the guest room! but the fact that her apology text doesn’t even mention either of those things as something that could have possibly upset me makes me so fucking crazy. she’s talking about how she’ll never stop trying with me after having me in the car next to her and treating my terror like a very annoying thing keeping her from hanging out with her friends

[yamikawaii]

something something kill myself

[marsixm]

laughing my ass off that the least fraught and stressful relationships i have rn are with my fucking bosses at work. in what fucking universe

[jewishbuckley]

"was there a reason you didn't cancel this" honestly I thought I had so no there wasn't a reason but also if clients are going to have Your personal number and reach out to You about canceling (when they Should be reaching out via email per our cancelation policy) then You should be canceling the appt anyway imo. all the other trainers cancel their appointments AND add their appointments to the system 🤪

[the-tzimisce]

I had this phase mid-pandemic where I made sure to smile with all my teeth in every selfie and didn't let myself get too engaged in any activity lest my intense expression and efficient movements socially signal aggression and honestly that was the low point of like, my entire adult life and development

[ineloquent-tumbling]

Partner E is sick (not Covid), so we’ve spent the past three days playing the social distancing game. I have thus been a) in my room, b) on the porch, or c) at work, and I already feel like I’m about to start chewing the dry wall. I am gaining a new understanding of why my mental state was Like That during the height of the pandemic.

[eureka-its-zico]

Hi. Hello. It is I.

I just wanted to come on real quick and let you guys know I am still writing and working on things. I apologize I haven’t posted anything (if anyone is waiting for commitment part 3 or anything else).

I’ve been having to drive to Stanford for testing and things for my lung disease and have been working on uni work cause I’ve fallen behind. I promise to do my best to have something up soon.

With that - to anyone who is reading. I hope you week is lovely. I hope you are all doing well and that your worries are short-lived and your happiness is long-lasting.

Much love, Jenn 🖤

[danielnelsen]

there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

[mimiteyy]

I might stay off social media this weekend to de-stress (or try to lol)!!

[bongsavior]

also i'm

genuinely really really really really happy that you're moving forward and growing, and taking the necessary steps toward living a better, happier life

it brings me joy and i hope you Keep going, even when it feels too hard or unbearable. even when you're too tired, or you're in love and focusing on a relationship or another person, i hope you Keep growing. you deserve nothing but the best. and all the happiness you can find, M.

[oddberryshortcake]

American animation fandoms are so hit or miss, mostly painful misses

I can’t believe returning to anime roots has been so cathartic

[backslashdelta]

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[your-fave-is-bi]

Knitting update: oh she big. She lorge.

Third ball of yarn is on her now and im talking abt my knitting project like its a ship or some kind of big automotive vessel. She’s a real beauty this one. Yknow.

Anyway. Third ball is on. Still have a ways to go before she’ll be a full scarf but! I can wrap her around my neck comfortably now and the ends can like. Touch. Which is wild to me. I did that. I made that.

[dykesbat]

in the process of manually transferring my journal entries over to another program and I like categorizing them by mood and god. the gradual descent of how often id write and properly categorize my entries alongside the worsening depression is soooo

[fingertipsmp3]

I’ve just realised I don’t think I’ve cried yet this calendar year. Growth?