#percieving with my orbs

[doodles-with-noodles]

I have started to watch supernatural to see what all the fuss is about, and I love it because:

-I can see how much of a budget they had in vfx and it’s funny asf

-the cuts are sometimes so abrupt I’m LOSING IT

-I CAN SMELL THE WRITERS DESPAIR IN THE PLOTLINES

-Episode three and already about 9 people died

-most realistic sibling depiction I have ever seen in media? For some reason???

-I assume if they are searching for their dad and the show has 15 seasons they never find their dad

-Dean needs to up his standards in romantic interest like homeboy don’t fall for so much ppl. Also he’s cringefail blorbo

-They both look like kicked puppies

-Why are they wearing so many layers and why are so stoopid if always survive

-What’s going on and why is it so comedic sometimes. People Are Dying

-Sam tries to be the brain but neither of them do really have the braincell

[stitchthesewords]

Im ngl, im not totally sure if I wanna post this but, uh, here

[merkerlerspeaks]

Right now, I feel bad. But thats okay. I wont always feel bad. And even if I feel bad for a while (it feels like i will, but that is because I feel bad) it still will pass. So its okay and so am I.

[galactaknightyaoi]

since i couldn't stop thinking about him all day. here's what ceri actually looks like 99% of the time

something very important is that, no matter how much people used to mix them up as kids, ceri is not a kirby clone. he is his own orb, who takes over red kirby's role in the events of amazing mirror (since red kirby is a nameless and personality-less character in that game).

ceri's a knight from ripple star, serving under the queen. he met kirby shortly after dark matter and zero 2 were defeated during kirby 64 and they became fast friends.

a while after, when ceri was visiting popstar to hang out with kirby, dark meta knight attacked and split them both into two. kirby got keeby, while ceri got minty.

all 4 together defeated dark mind. though ceri was shaken by the whole thing and decided saving the world was not for him. so he only shows up to play.

here's what he looked like at that age, along with a comparison with the real red kirby. so you won't get them confused!

ceri and kirby meet during 64, while cherry cola (red kirby) split from kirby around the time of adventure.

here's what cherry looks as an adult btw

that's about it for now

playing amazing mirror again

[theonetrueyeet]

spider ramble... particularly about false widows

in a Mood™ abt spiders currently, ESPECIALLY false widows. been going back over my arachnid section of the invertebrate module bc i have exams soon and its late and im frustrated abt how false widows get portrayed by the media and percieved by the british public... this is gonna be long and rambly and probably not make much sense and go off in a million and one diff directions sorry i just feel like talking abt spiders. this also came about bc of the big fuckoff house spider that was in my room last night on the top of my door frame but since it was late (like. midnight) and also out of my reach i went eh. ill deal with it in the morning. and then i woke up in the morning and no more spider to deal with! which i should be more stressed about i feel but im so exhausted from the run up to exams and other life stuff that im just like ok cool thats Around somewhere now ig. im guessing it was a female from the size but i cant be sure... anyway without further ado onto the main show.

so here in the uk we arent exactly known for our venomous animals. we have some but they're nothing really that dangerous (to us as humans at least. im not going into venom-prey specificity rn ive had ENOUGH of that recently). we have the european adder (which is also percieved as terrifying bc its a venomous snake but it poses very little risk to us as humans bc they are very shy and i have a lot to say abt adders but thats for another day), wasps, bees, some venomous fish (didnt know this until i found one rockpooling they r pretty neat), even some stinging jellyfish and siphonophores like the portuguese man o war. and then we have the spiders. all species of spider are venomous (minus the uloboridae family, aka the cribellate orb weavers which im not too sure off the top of my head if we have those in the uk... we might have one or two species?? idk but they arent venomous and i think theres another family that has some non venomous spiders BUT THE POINT IM MAKING IS PRETTY MUCH ALL SPIDERS ARE VENOMOUS). there are 650ish spp of spider in the uk and of those VERY FEW are at all medically significant. of these few are the rabbit hutch spider, the cupboard spider, and... the noble false widow. these 3 spiders are all known as false widow spiders. we also occasionally get the meditterreanean false widow, but to my knowledge these only arrive on imports and dont have a population within the uk.

belonging to the genus steatoda, false widows are usually seen as these terrifying death spiders that will kill you just for looking at them when really... they arent actually that dangerous. most cases of bites being severe are either a) a result of an allergy or b) it was actually caused by something other than the bite itself (such as a bacterial infection in the bite, or the "bite" not actually being a bite) or even c) greatly exaggerated by the tabloids (shocker)... like ok we dont have many scary animals in the uk but. we dont need to overexaggerate the ones that really arent as bad as people think! badgers probably pose more of a threat to you than a false widow does. have you seen a badger?! they look so cute but they are VICIOUS those things will FUCK YOU UP and give you TB on top of getting absolutely mauled. a false widow will, at most, just make you feel a bit ill for a couple of days. me personally i would take a falsie over the badger. false widows also only bite in defense! most of the time they bite because you didn't see them and happened to be a very big thing up in their personal space! tbh i would bite too

false widow bites are, to most people, no more harmful than a wasp sting. so its not exactly a fun time but its not exactly the limb destroying death bite that the british media loves to make it out to be. most bites are probably dry bites or have near neglible amounts of venom, so won't cause anything more than a bit of pain. when venom does get involved it gets a bit more complicated bc it depends on how ur body reacts to it. as i said before, most ppl its not much worse than a wasp sting but it can cause things like muscle spasms, sweating, and a raised temperature. it rarely gets worse than that. of course you can be allergic to it which will cause anaphylaxis which is a medical emergency, but this is an exceptional circumstance. most ppl bitten by a false widow will not experience that. the panic over false widows in the uk is a mixture of media-driven mass hysteria and arachnophobia.

anyway in conclusion shoutout brandon collier who did an amazing talk abt false widows during the bhs venom day both at the 2022 and 2023 events both of which i was lucky enough to attend. if i cant go to venom day this year you will see me on the news.

[parabelllvm]

gonna log this one under "i can't get that this is how light-based magic can would work" of my head ( and i've shared this sentiment on discord in the past but now i'm putting here ) because light =/= holy in this realm. it's just... a phenomena that we can use to percieve color, so it should be colorful in practice. it can be blue, red, green, white--it doesn't matter. and it can take any shape it wants ( bullets, cards, stars, flowers, orbs, etc ).... and you can use it as a projectile like any other magic.

dark also =/= unholy in this realm ( thought many teoniv denizens have to UNLEARN that because they've long been told that dark magic is unholy/evil ).

and because the magic system operates on a "primary-secondary" system--with maybe a teritiary if they're not just a being that can control everything--you can use the opposite affinity to add a little punch whatever form light magic takes.

light isn't a very common affinity, though, due to how all encompassing it can be ( same with dark ) and there are not many beings in eokketion that know how to properly use it and make complicated shapes or spells aside from your typical non-descript light orb or beam or sparkles. those that do don't broadcast it either for various reasons

[emmym1]

My thoughts on... Captain Marvel 2019 (#27-30) "Strange Magic"

I've arrived at the 6th arc of this run, and going into it I was pretty excited! Carol learning magic sounded like such a cool thing and the new costume she got looks amazing. I will say though this arc did subvert some expectations! It was really interesting to see Carol deal with her breakup with Rhodey. I love how they use these moments to really show how despite all her powers, how vulnerable she can be and how human her struggles can still be despite everything and how she ultimately deals with that. I also liked how relatable it was, I think we've all been at a moment in our life where just want to stay in bed for eternity and not deal with life for all sorts of reasons. It's nice to see that even someone as powerful as Carol still deals with feelings such as that. It was also quite compelling to see them briefly touch upon Carol's issues when it comes to drinking alcohol and how she tries to stay sober. Seeing Jessica stage an intervention twice, and breaking her window twice was pretty fun and hillarious to see. She's always a blast when she shows up in this run and it was nice to see her try and support her friend through tough times even though her attempts are not quite the solution Carol needs. It was also great to see some of Carol's other friends be back, especially Lauri-Ell! She's such a fun character and I would love for her to show up more regularly. Interestingly enough it seems that the conclusion of the events of the previous arc is that Ove is the one who destroys the earth and creates the future timeline, therefore creating a paradox. I was a bit confused and surprised about this as it kind of came out of nowhere and I never really intrepreted him being behind the attack on earth. Especially because it makes no sense, he travels back in time due to the future earth being destroyed, so why would he be the one to destroy it? It feels like a bit of a weird segway to making Carol want to learn magic to prevent the world from ending. Honestly I think it could've been executed a lot better. Even if Ove turned out to be the reason the worlds ends, I feel like it would've been a more engaging read if it wasn't revealed so anti climatically and instead was some kind of mystery for Carol to uncover. This run is really good when it comes up to setting up mysteries and slowly uncovering them, and I really think this would've been a perfect opportunity for something like that. The journey of Carol learning magic was pretty interesting to see. The fact that everyone in the magic community didn't want to learn her because of how unstoppable she would be after eliminating her only weakness really showed how powerful she is and can be. It was also pretty intriguing to see how all of these magic users view magic and how they see it as some kind of sixth sense. Her eventually having to go to Enchantress - future mother of Ove - was pretty interesting to see. It forced Carol to be really careful with her words and make sure she doesn't accidentally mess up and make things worse than they already are. Even though that's ultimately what ends up happening. While working together with Enchantress to retrieve an orb that would make her invulrenable to magic she also had a quote that stood out to me. "Nobody likes to be on the side of "ends justifies means"... and yet, how often are we there? The choices we make define us, the mistakes."

It was super cool to see Carol fight a big sea monster & Ove while trying to absorb as much energy as she can. It's amazing when she goes all out with her powers! It was also really intriguing to see how the entire magic community distanced themsselves from Carol after she tricked Ove into essentially killing his magic powers. The way they see it as something worse than killing someone and how she essentially removed one of his senses was really interesting and made me learn more about how magic is percieved in this universe. The most fascinating part to me from this arc is Carol's struggle with what to do. If she kills Ove she kills the future timeline and therefore all the new heroes that are in that timeline and if she doesn't she dooms everyone in the present. It was really captivating to see her deal with the ptsd and guilt from her travel to the future. She basically has to kill off an entire generation of new heroes she got to meet and see live and it destroys her. Her character development throughout this was nice to see, her coming to terms with the future not being set in stone, admitting she broke up with Rhodey not because she didn't want to take away his daughter, but because she has to in order to save the world from an all ending threat. It was so interesting to see her deal with all that and ultimately overcome it. The part of this arc that really stood out the most to me was actually the short story at the end of it called "ripples". Here Carol really doubts herself as a hero and why she does what she does. She goes to Kamala since she is a super fan of Captain Marvel to see if she can help her see what makes her a hero and why she shouldn't give up on that. It was amazing to see Kamala introduce her to a bunch of people only to reveal she once saved them and how it indirectly influenced all of their lives in so many ways and allowed them to do things and inspire others. It was so cool to see how Carol doesn't just save people from all these threats but also inspires them and makes them want to be better and do something more for the community. Essentially all the ripples that come from her once saving these people and the effect it had on their lives and others. This short story really showed what Captain Marvel does is all about and why she is an incredible hero. It was amazing to see her character as a hero be explored in such an unique and fascinating way. This short story was such a highlight and really made me appreciate Captain Marvel as hero even more. This arc was a pretty fun read with tons of cool moments, amazing art and some interesting character development for Carol. Seeing her deal with the (mental) fallout of travelling to the future was super intriguing to see. Her new suit was also really cool! I kind of wish she actually got to do some magic in it but story wise it made sense as to why she didn't end up getting magic powers. Ove being behind the end of the world was a bit dissapointing and rushed to me as it came out of nowhere with little to no setup, I really wish they took their time with that one. The short story at the end of this arc was definitely the highlight for me as it does so much for Carol's character in such an unique and fascinating way. I really hope we get more stuff like that in the future!

[furmata1]

mental health bad vent

not doing great. feeling like the one spongebob gag with this guy except it's worse because i'm undiagnosed autistic

i need more sleep. i need more food. i need more hours in the day. this fucking Sucks" i need something to surprise me in life in a good way. i hate doing this without any support system besides my casual friendships. i fear i need more help than i am equipped to ask for. im 29 and people expect tyou to "have your shit together" and also "have a life" the truth is i am a formless orb of chaotic passion until i enter my job's parking lot. i am oozing liquid drum and bass music. little cartoons are falling out of my pockets. yet here i sit almost 30 and in a warehouse job that i can't see myself doing for long.i dont want to socialize with my coworkers. i would love to not be percieved by them AT ALL if i oculd still get paid. i'd rather be making cool shit but i don't know how to get paid making cool shit. i just make the shit and am afraid to share it bc of people who steal cool shit from the people who make it. before i wrote this post in a fury i deleted a like 20-paragraph rant detailing every aspect of my life im unsatisfied with. turns out it's pretty much yeah earth has chewed me up and spit me out with ADHD, autism, and severe cPTSD and no family. i am so overwhelmed and i am barely maintaining this holding pattern waiting for something unexpected (good) to happen or hoping that the suffering ends quickly SORRY OKAY IM COMING OUT AS "EMO" I don't know what i expect posting walls of text like this. i'm not convinced anyone is going out of their way like that for me

[genovianxprince]

since you're trying to force your interpretations as canon, I feel justified.

Dude, so many people try to force "Mystra groomed Gale" as canon down my throat. I made a post about those people. I can't say anything positive about Mystra in a few Gale servers without someone derailing to talk about how "Mystra totally groomed Gale" and I should feel bad for thinking their relationship is way more complicated than that.

it matters she did not treat him as an equal.

You're right and that's a point I bring up in my post, tangentially, anyway. Someone else commented and pointed out how she treats him so harshly after the orb incident and gives him a terrible ultimatum because she expects obedience from him, instead of treating him like he's got feelings. Which is a shit thing to do, but it's also understandable because she died a lot, resulting in the Spell Plague, the Time of Troubles—it was a compounding trauma reaction to yet another object of her destruction being brought to her.

[The fact you seem to imply grooming only starts counting when there is sex is really weird, too?]

Most of the stuff I see from "Mystra groomed Gale" is stuff like this, so yeah, most of my post was directed at that.

We know this, because we have Elminster's letter about meeting Gale when he was eight

His directive to find people with great potential in magic was to help her come back from being dead. She'd need more than one Chosen when she returned to full power as a goddess, which didn't happen until 1487 DR, and the game takes place in 1492 DR. I doubt she was doing much grooming or influencing with Gale until 1487 at the earliest, because she was a bit busy trying to not be dead. Again.

…and that sounds painfully close to 'just stop being sad' as a cure for depression

The rest of that paragraph addressed that. Quote, "And I get it! Insecurities suck! Especially when you've been the gifted child your entire life, perfectly talented at something that all the adults in your life go nuts over." I also address that she is still his goddess! Also, plenty of people find strength in their faith, even if Gale's faith is more complicated.

Which means we can highly likely assume Mystra didn't, since Gale consistently views his magical powers as the only thing that makes him worth anything.

That can also be due to the way people other than Mystra treated him in his life. He states he's been in touch with the Weave for as long as he can remember, so it's highly likely that from an age even younger than 8 people were encouraging him only in wizardry and making him feel like that was his only worth from then.

You mean like when Minsc talks about people in his home keep magic boys locked away, and maybe it's because they don't want Mystra taken?

Minsc is an unreliable narrator. They hide boys with magic because Rashemar society is matriarchal, and Minsc is a very oblivious, straightforward dude, who thinks in extreme black and white and just Does Not Notice Shit. Also, that is only one part of his speculations, as he also suggests it was because of a bunch of wizards causing some kind of disaster—which is more likely, because of the way Witches of the Wychlaran are treated. "In Rashemen, a member of the Wychlaran could do no wrong. Her word was law and to disobey it was punishable by death."

Also, narratively, Mystra/Gale has a parallel in the game. It's Aylin/Isobel. Down to 'Aylin went for a walk and didn't realize it took month/s' if I remember correctly since as assimar she doesn't percieve the time the same way.

I have no idea what you're talking about here? Where did you get that information?

Beyond that, we know - canonicaly - Mystra was wrong about Gale's amdition being bad for him. Gale succedes in reforging the Crown, he continues to love Tav past his ascention (we know for sure because it's in the dev notes to his dialogues) and ascends them together with him.

He becomes the God of Ambition. That's not exactly a domain of goodness. Ambition can cover a LOT of shit. Enver Gortash, for instance, sure had a lot of ambition to seize power. Okay, cool, Gale still loves Tav/Durge, but how will godhood warp him? A god becomes their domain. Bhaal, Myrkul, Bane, Cyric, Kelemvor—all mortals ascended to godhood who were consumed by their domains. Sure, Kelemvor tried to do good with his, but "Kelemvor, however, was more lenient on those Faithless and False who were virtuous and honorable in life, while the ones who were cowardly or capricious were severely punished. Those souls judged as noble were sent to the then merrier and heaven-like parts in the City of the Dead, such as the Singing City or Pax Cloister, while for thieves and cowards there were hell-like parts of the City such as the Acid Swamps. As a result, honorable and brave mortals no longer feared death, and recklessly threw their lives away, trusting in Kelemvor's judgment rather than in benevolent gods. The cowardly and crafty mortals became too fearful to do much, lest they die and find themselves before Kelemvor. This, in combination with Mystra's unjust granting of magic, favoring only those who were good, brought unintentional imbalance and robbed the other deities of potential worshipers."

A god cannot tip the balance. Ao will punish them. Gale's ambition is never going to come to fruition. Seizing godly power for mortals never goes well.

[I repeated: don't try to force your headcanon as canon, please. This is a role-playing game. Just let people have fun and block content you dislike instead of trying to force it down other people's throats.]

At the beginning of this post you say you're addressing canon because I am, and at the end of your post you say it's just headcanon. If I could just block the content I disliked, that would be great, but I cannot express ANY positivity for Mystra without someone coming at me because "Mystra groomed Gale!!!! you're an abuse apologist!!!!" It is damn near impossible to enjoy Gale content or discuss Gale stuff without someone hinting at Mystra being a pedophile or isolating Gale on purpose during the course of their relationship or that he's a completely innocent person in the way their relationship almost literally blew up. If anyone's doing any forcing, it's the people constantly steering the conversation to Mystra being a horrible abuser and reducing Gale to just her victim instead of also kind of a bastard who is very attracted to power.

OK I think I understand some of why some people in the fandom choose to make Mystra some kind of a terrible, grooming abuser to Gale. It's because every one of the companions has like a specific person you can point to and say, that is the abuser. That right there is the person who has caused the companion grievous harm. Gale and Mystra are a little more complex than that.

Shadowheart and Lae'zel technically have a whole cult/culture backing up the abuse, but you can still pretty directly point to Viconia and Shar for Shadowheart, and ultimately Vlaakith for Lae'zel as well as just... every Githyanki she ever met, except for Kith'rak Voss.

Wyll has Mizora, Karlach had Zariel and Gortash, Astarion has Cazador, all very obvious and self explanatory in the game. They were innocent, kidnapped, coerced, sold, played like a damn fiddle. But Gale?

Gale has Mystra, a goddess he loves, who also loves him, and the things they did to each other were both fucked up, and a lot of the fault totally lies with Gale! The other companions all had external forces affecting them. Gale's was mostly internal. He refused to believe he was good enough. "As inconceivable as it seems to me now, I shared a bed with a goddess and I still wasn't satisfied." A literal goddess, the one he favored, the one he was in love with, who favored and loved him back, consistently told him he was perfect as he was and he straight up did not believe her. He placed himself on a higher and higher pedestal he could never reach the top of because if he wasn't constantly climbing to some nebulous goal of perfection, then could he be good enough for Mystra?

Y'know, instead of just believing the woman he was in love with. And I get it! Insecurities suck! Especially when you've been the gifted child your entire life, perfectly talented at something that all the adults in your life go nuts over. But also, it is extremely arrogant to assume you know better than your literal goddess and be like "yo, there's a missing piece of the Weave and I can go get it" like... Mystra is the Weave, she would have known and probably sent someone on a quest if it were actually Her Weave and not Karsus' Weave.

Gale is INCREDIBLY hubristic and he keeps falling for that trap. He's overconfident. Hell, even after his year in isolation where he comes out humbled, a small group of people believing in him for a short amount of time gets him to go "omg, crown of karsus = godhood, I can totally do that and tell the gods they SUCK and overthrow Ao's rules!"

Like, babyboy, no.

Of course, Mystra is not without some fault. After Gale's initial... Folly-up, she just ignores him for a year. Damn, girl, what the hell! Well. You see. The Netherese orb is a fragment of the magic that Karsus used to try to ascend and steal her throne with. The magic that she realized was going to kill everything if she didn't sacrifice herself. For a moment, all magic ceased to exist, including Mystryl herself, and Karsus died. Then Mystra came into being. Gale tells you a short version of this story himself! So it kind of makes sense that Mystra would see this shard of magic and just... kinda have a trauma reaction! And to gods, time flows differently. It wouldn't shock me to learn she didn't realize it had been a year by the time Gale left his Tower due to mind flayer shenanigans. Naturally, she does not want to discuss the thing she's so terrified of, and just tries to have it destroyed without her having to touch it—the plan to have Gale blow himself up on the Absolute itself, and she would save his soul. And even after he disobeys her instruction, she still allows the orb to feed on the true Weave! She still lets him live without fear of blowing up randomly, even though it greatly distresses her to let this magic that killed her once feed on her own life force.

Then he reaches the city, and reads The Annals of Karsus, and realizes she's going to have to explain, despite not wanting to. And she summons him. Tells him exactly what's in his chest. Asks him to turn over the Crown and she will destroy the orb and face her own trauma, because Gale... doesn't want to die. She understands that. And she still loves him and his big beautiful brain despite how stupid he's been, and she wants to have him as her Chosen again.

Things will never be the same, of course. They both fucked up. Gave each other a bad time. But in the end, they forgive each other and move past it. Not as a couple, because things broke too much for that. But they can have a healthy relationship as Goddess and Chosen once more.

And that is what sets Gale and his trauma apart from the companions. He doesn't have a direct abuser or live in a horrific abusive society. He almost killed the goddess of all magic a second time and she had an understandably harsh reaction to that, even if it was still too harsh. I just don't believe it's only Mystra who fucked up here. Not by a long shot. Much of it lies squarely with Gale.

And, as for the grooming allegations [as far as people trying to say it is canon], literally just no. She's a True Neutral goddess. Gale literally tells you that you are not his first mortal lover, he had a few before he ever fell into Mystra's bed, and you're just the first since the breakup about a year ago. The game doesn't shy away from sex and sexual abuse in the least. Why on Earth would this be something hidden behind several layers of nonexistent subtext? It's definitely fun for AU's, but by Ahghairon's lost nose, no, it's not canon!

[kodzumie-archived]

Hello! I was wondering if I can request Nagito comforting his s/o who’s insecure of their acne scars? Thanks for taking your time to read this :)

❝I LOVE YOU THERE, TOO❞

Synopsis; If his words weren’t enough to clear the fog of misery, he’d find another way to prove to you that his admiration is sincere.

Featuring; Nagito Komaeda x GN! Reader

Warning(s); Established relationship, self-degrading thoughts, low self-esteem, breakdown, and hurt comfort.

Kodzumie’s Note; Absolutely, love! Thank you for your request. I hope you’ve had a wonderful day, and I also hope you know you’re absolutely precious. Take care, my dear! Muah! <3

➤ NAGITO KOMAEDA

⤷ Nagito Komaeda is a devoted lover. He hails you—his lover—for your every action and word, following you to the ends of the Earth as he babbles praise, restlessly.

⤷ He admires you entirely, and values every inch of you. He values your lips as they curl into the smile he oh-so adores; your hands that seem to fit within his like puzzle pieces; your eyes that glimmer as though they were brushed upon with a sheen of stardust, a glow that not even the constellations could rival.

⤷ His heart pulsated with a fondness that he harbored only for you. Intricate conveyance of his love for you muddled within his words; his ramblings that seemed to be phrases crammed together along with the conception of hope.

⤷ Though he tried his utmost best to display to you that he thought of you as perfection personified; what you deemed as flaws he had claimed to be his favorite parts (though he truly loved every part of you equally).

⤷ So he finds it hard to believe that someone as faultless as you would doubt themselves. Every sign seems almost overlooked as he begins to notice the subtle inklings of fragility within your gaze; a gaze that was not directed towards him, but to yourself.

⤷ The idea of you being unable to see the grace within yourself was estranged to him. How could you not see your own magnificence?

⤷ But it’s a truth and one that he struggles to accept. Every undeniable sign that you—his beloved constellation of hope—were truly rendered blind to your allure. Unable to perceive the eloquence of yourself; of the one Nagito swore to himself he devoted himself to, wholely.

⤷ His heart encapsulated a lifetime’s worth of admiration for you; a strung sonnet of affection through his riddling of words, amongst his typical rambles. Though it seemed that his words were interpreted as void; a travesty believed to be induced by your denial. If his words couldn’t convince you of what he finds faultless of your self-proclaimed faults, he’d find a conveyance that’ll help you understand.

⤷ Time and time again, he’s professed to you that his heart is sealed amongst your clutches; devoting himself entirely to you, and to—albeit scum like him is unworthy of such—your love.

⤷ Nagito, though a clutter of questionable motivations and stability, is an honest man. His words a sliver lining brushing upon the canvas of truth with the saturation of hope.

⤷ Yet his hopes of portraying his idealizations of your divinity were fragmented upon the nullification of ontological realization; words can only express so much.

⤷ He’s forced to bare this fact as he’s painfully aware of the falter of relief at each attempt of consolation. For every expression of dissatisfaction, he contorts your words into how he views you; an ethereal blessing of hope amongst a personified, societial of rubble. But, after spending so long in denial of your own repudation, he’s come to discover that the shake of your head is equivalent to the brush of his confession. You don’t believe it.

⤷ You don’t believe his relentless confessions of how astounding he views you; how he truly percieves you as a goddess amongst the pitiful bounts of humanity. You don’t believe it. But of course you wouldn’t. It’s difficult to believe something that he utters as though it was rehearsed.

⤷ Nagito is known for his rambles. It’s a common occurence for the male to mutter on and on about the beauty of hope and its paradoxical conquering of despair. He’s known for his excessive rants, and yet, it fuels your doubts about his insincerity all the same.

⤷ And after long last, he’s aware of this; finally knowledgeable of the way your eyes gloss upon his fervent compliments. He assumed it was spurred in accordance to the swelling of your heart, having satisfied you with his rebuttal to your claims: But he couldn’t have been farther from the verity of the sheen of tears.

⤷ You were suffering; caged within the abyss of the subsequential torment you were forced to bare. Every word, every whisper, it’s as though they mauled at your heart; tearing into the delicate chassis with agonizing malice.

⤷ Nagito was painfully aware of the effect of words, or rather lack of. The vocalized confessions a mere spec of dust amongst the gust of genuinity. But there was a beauty in silence; and a tidal of sincere conveyance through action.

⤷ The lingering notion fixated within the back of his mind as he’s seated beside you once more. He feels as though he’s encapsulated within a trace, his mind fogged with a searing remembrance; deja vu.

⤷ You’re glaring at your lap as your hands brush upon your face, doused in vulnerability as you attempt to conceal yourself from his view. He could hear it; the pluck of pitch as you shakily began to spill your innermost worries; your underlying insecurities.

⤷ “I hate them. I hate them so much, they just... they won’t go, no matter what I do.” His heart ached as with each word that pooled from between your lips, you struggled to maintain your composure. Sinking within the seas of wishfulness; yearning for relief from this grief of being unable to accept yourself as you are.

⤷ Yet you perk your head at the silence in response to your venting; a dreadful silence. Why has your boyfriend—a man who seems to never cease fervent rebuttal—not talking?

⤷ And instantaneously, the tendrils of your doubts engulf you. It hurts, it’s tauntingly painful. Has he finally accepted that there’s no use in persuading the veracity? Has he given up on attempting to convince you—and, per your instilled panic, himself—that you aren’t what you see yourself as?

⤷ The silence is thick; a tense atmosphere in which air has condensed into a fog that neutralizes air. Your lungs burn with the suppression of your sobs as you bite your bottom lip.

⤷ They’ve won, they’ve won, they’ve won; the thoughts and beliefs of your self-loathing have won. and you’re unable to breathe through the weight upon your heart. It hurts; it’s suffering you’ve endured for so long and after such desperation, he seemed to have been subdued as we—

⤷ “...ere.” You falter. The final syllables falling upon your ears as they escaped him, yet you hadn’t caught them. Turning to face him with a visage of poorly veiled pain interlaced with confusion, you ask him to repeat himself.

⤷ Yet you weren’t met with the reptition of mere words. Instead, the sensation of his cold hands cradles the sides of your face, ever-so-gently pulling you closer until you were separated by the proximity of a few centimeters; his breath fanning over your face.

⤷ You feel a gentle weight press against your forehead; his lips. He kisses against the skin with such delicate ministations, savoring the contortion of your expression as he pulls away. “I love you there.” He mutters, a gentle smile upon his lips before he moves onto his next destination.

⤷ A kiss to your left cheek. He lingers for a moment before pulling away, exhaling ever-so slowly. “I love you there.” Once again, he confesses. Repeating the same to your right cheek as he utters the words once more, “And I love you there.”

⤷ His lips glide along your skin as he proceeds to peck your chin, tilting your head slightly to provide ease in accessing such. “I also love you there.” He chuckles, swallowing your anticipation before moving on.

⤷ Upon puckering his lips, he pressed a rather firm kiss against the tip of your nose. You’re able to feel the smile on his lips as he cradles you closer, the urge to embrace you admist the heat of sensuality. “And, guess what? I love you there too.”

⤷ Finally, he hovered above your lips, your breaths melting into one as he gazed into your glossed orbs; the quivering of your lips prominent as he envelops your lips within his own, closing the space between the two of you.

⤷ This time, he loiters against you, parting only to return and engulf your gasps, suckling on your bottom lip ever-so gently. He savors every millisecond; every ounce of your taste. And he savors the salty taste that faintly douses his tongue as tears cascade from your fluttering eyes; crying into the kiss.

⤷ His words unable to convey the sincerity of his admirations due to the plague of repetition, and the ringing of his muddled sonnet of devotion; his expressions perplexing and unable to provide you with the consolation you needed; the security you yearned for.

⤷ Thus, as he pulled away with heavy pants, his eyes softening as you begin to sob; relieving yourself of the pent-up inklings of fogged eyes, unable to detect the flickers of light within the shadows of your self-proclaimed faults.

⤷ The lingering sensation of his lips atop where all you couldn’t stand about yourself induced your heart to swell with a sense of joy; a sense of being able to understand the way he sees you one day. His lasting kisses having filled the air with comfort more than verbal consolation ever could as he finally says, “And I love you there, too.”

[ruby3818]

I want to do a follow up on my "Norman is Platinum's father" theory but this time for Moon. Big thanks to @skittymon​ for reminding me of this headcanon and also making me realise I actually hadn’t posted the Moon part yet hshsjd.

I'll resummarise the Platinum theory for context and added points but if you've already read the earlier post you can skip to the Moon theory ^-^

Platinum Theory

Ok so in RS it shows that at the time of Rayquaza’s escape Yanase was working on the PKMN Association’s project of trying to develop an orb to control rayquaza. This is where Norman and Yanase first meet when Norman and Birch show up to help the survivors of Rayquaza’s escape.

This incident took place 5 years before the events of the RS chapter/9 years before ORAS meaning Platinum was born roughly a year later.

In the Emerald Arc during Emerald’s flashback, Yanase mentions that someone with a more suitable method will have to stop Kyorge and Groudon fighting possibly hinting that she already knows of Norman’s plan to ride Rayquaza himself. (unrelated, but she also mentions the power of science being useless to control rayquaza which is a main plot point in ORAS...I love when Pokespe hints at future arcs 10 years before their release :’ ) )

Also according to Norman in ORAS he continued to work with Yanase to find Rayquaza and work out how to use it to stop Groudon and Kyorge. Besides Yanase’s appearance in Platinum all of her and Norman’s appearances have them mention or hint at the other.

As for Platinum’s personality and appearance she has similar hair and eye shape to Ruby, Platinum also has a problem with expressing her true feelings, her pride and concerns with how others percieve her. All traits that are similar to Ruby and Norman.

Genetically speaking it’s not possible or very rare for a blonde haired Yanase and a light-brown haired Sir Berlitz to have a daughter with dark black hair so the theory of Platinum not being Sir’s daughter is a common one.

Moon Theory

In ORAS Norman mentions that he met up with Yanase during the arc to gain permission to enter her research storage room and received the key, the key. This is the guy that will break down doors and force his way to important documents just to get the information he needs without a care for others. Even if not an affair thing he obviosly respects her a lot. He even broke down another door (belonging to the pkmn association, not her) this same chapter so it’s not a character development thing either. Note that he also mentions her by her first name rather than her title.

Due to the unspecified amount of time between BW2 it is possible for Moon to have been born shortly after ORAS as long as it falls in the typical 2-3 years range.

As for Moon’s personality, she’s as refined and intellegent as any other Berlitz but she’s also reckless and will charge without thought to save others. A similar trait to Ruby which got him in trouble with Salamence and reccurs through RS and ORAS. From what we see of Sir Berlitz and Yanase, reckless isn’t a trait I’d use to describe them but Norman however has recklessness in spades.

Same reason as Platinum, Moon’s dark hair colour makes it unlikely that Sir Berlitz is her father. This also explains why he only mentions Platinum as his daughter in DP if Moon is either a “secret child” of Yanase, which is common in rich families where an illegitimate child would be sent off to be raised elsewhere or if Sir Berlitz knew about Yanase’s affair leading to Moon but not with Platinum.

Of course this is all just a headcanon born from a lot of coincidences but it sure is interesting to think that Ruby could have a sister or two out there. (Also I just really want more sibling dexholders...)

[pinkplantmakesstuff]

So thanks to @ashals-dream I ended up starting a Proto playlist which ended up with me rambling to them about my Hologram Orb who acts like they are the best thing on the planet but really isn’t ok. Also thanks to @leftincommand and @commandertollwife who also listened to me ramble and gave me song suggestions! Anywhere here is more rambling about Proto: Proto is an escaped robot that wasn't programmed to feel yet does, so tries to bury all the negative confusing thoughts under enjoyment and laughter which gets harder and harder to do, especially when they realise they hurt people more then help them but instead of confronting the feelings like guilt they run away and continue burying the feelings deeper. When they meet a more advanced version of the orb and are brutally beaten to near destruction they then then have to confront the fact they are "obsolete and faulty" as well as everything else. Combine this with their percieved lack of identity and form you have one sad robot who paints on a smile and plays pranks because they’d rather people were annoyed with them then risk getting close to someone and having to explain how and confront how they feel.

[technicalknockout]

BABY BILL. LITTLE TINY BABY BILL WITH LITTLE TINY VELCRO SHOES. DEAR GOD HE HAS NO RIGHT TO BE THIS ADORABLE

Jheselbraum the unswerving ??????

istg the lore in this show is crazy like did they work ALL this stuff out beforehand ?? every tiny piece of info fits together so disgustingly well it's actually insane and I love it

JFBSISIFINSODJEHFUSIFBEJSOFNS is the bill orb on sale i want one in my room so bad

These pages are one teensy sidestep away from literally just saying Walt Disney out loud and i am so here for it

"IF LOST RETURN TO BILL" if we're character analyzing this is another example of bill percieving stanford as an object he owns and controls not an individual with free will. But if we're taking this at surface level then this is frickin hilarious????????

Weirdly wholesome ?? also major cat behavior. new theory bill cipher is actually just a very yellow cat

the two of these least sane guys somewhat resembling normal friends just havin a good time will never not be funny to me. died at the "Ad aspera asperin" line it is now my blog title

Also theyre singing DISCO GIRL

"i had half a mind to call that number, just to pretend to be the police, and maybe scare S straight for once" so you want to prank call your brother basically. theyre so siblings

okay. i didnt expect that to be three billion times more painful with proper context and the knowledge that bill didnt intend it to happen but okay

god. ford and mcgucket you two need to be happy forever

OH? SO FIDDLEFORD GETS A PRESENT FOR FORD BUT NOT FOR HIS WIFE ??????????????????

aside from the fact that WHAT THE HECK FIDDLEFORD, this has major implications jsfkksmfks do we see a literal love trangle happening here folks/j

i am legitimetely crying thats so wholesome

oh LOOK who's jealous that f and stanford have a STABLE and HEALTHY friendship huh?? HUH???? bill i will punch you if you do anything to make them fall apa(realization)

Tiny stan's iconic gap tooth origins REVEALED ‼‼‼

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FORD YOU GET EM GIRL!!!!!!!!!! STANFORD 1 BILL 0 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frickin love these two interacting it's always either extremely deep character lore or the funniest thing youve ever seen

the karen gasp i just gasped???????? i love bill very very much but oh no he did NOT just do that.

BFJSJDISHDIWIHDSJF this is what livin in denial looks like folks

WELL SAID STANLEY and also im so proud of ford for getting so completely over bill and seeing him for what he is ("needy theatre kid in search of a stage" i mean. Accurate.)

MABEL BEST GIRL IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCHH

"bill seems to me like a super needy ex" our girl being perceptive as always yall

you tell em dipper. god i can HEAR jason ritter's voice in my head this book is so good..... average gf book w

every single line from stanley's page is art and it's beautiful i love you stanley pines please please be like that forever

"You killed an elf for me without even blinking" sir actually i blinked a fair amount

THE CORE???? THEY GOT SPACE THERAPY-D TOO?????????????

ok books done

Overall rating 99999/10. half the pages had me laughing till my side hurt and also it had WAY more lore than id anticipated?? there are still codes i havent solved yet this is going to be so fun to piece together. would buy it again a thousand times. it's oozing creepy black ink over my table but oh well it happens amiright

GUESS WHAT

[astroismypassion]

Could you please explain the meaning of Uranus conjunct north node and Chiron square ascendant? they both have an orb of 0º an are the tightest aspects in my chart

Hello there!

Uranus conjunct NN would indicate you will have sudden changes in your life, career, personal life even. You might be doing something one day and after a few years change it completely.

Chiron square Ascendant

There is a wound in regard to your physical apperance, body image, self image, how you present to others and how are you percieved, a “trouble” in first meetings or on first impression.

[dr-stoneworld]

Sis- I need this 😫 I need hcs of senku with his daughter, it can be anything you choose. Keep up the great work, ily and your writing ❤️

Character: Ishigami Senku

Summary: Headcannons of Senku with his daughter who isn't a big fan of science.

Note: It's a request from my lovely friend Nia. Since it's a topic we have already discussed about I'll be using female pronouns.

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• It's been years since the stone age. Slowly, but not to slowly senku with rest of his friends mainly, and then other un-petrified people had developed the world much more than it was before the petrification.

• The daughter he loves so much was named after a well known scientist, Marie Curie. Her name was Mariel, the 'l' was just can extra that was taken from his wife's nickname, which ended with 'el'.

• Oh god Mariel disliked science so much. Mostly because her parents loved it so much that she felt ignored whenever her mom and dad were so occupied by science.

• But she loved her parents too much, so she acted to like science.

• "Uhm dad when will mom be coming back home?" She asked softly, she asked tugging on her dad's lab coat.

• "Oh- she will be coming home in 2-3 days!" He answered her as he ran his hand over her jet black hair before picking her up "Is there something you want, princess?"

• "I wanna ask!! Why does mommy and daddy like science so much? Mariel don' understand" She frowns clinging to her lovely daddy, Senku

• "Kukuku, I see my princess is finally asking me questions." Senku chuckled as his eyes sparkled, getting ready to explain her everything she wants to know. He goes to the lab she usually shares with his wife.

• Her eyes widened and her jaw dropped to the floor as she percieved all the things in the room.

• Oh god curiosity took better of her. Mariel literally bombarded Senku with questions asking about each and everything.

• She quickly got down carefully wandering in a rush.

• "Daddy, dirteeehh waterr" she points at a test tube "different coloured wateer, pwettyy" pointing at another one, she said making an 'O'with her mouth. "WOAAHHH DIFFERENT STOWNES!!" she went and picked some stones and examined them "they so pretty" she squeaked before looking at one another mysterious looking thing and going towards it.

• "What's th-" she abruptly paused and ran towards her dad and hugs his legs sobbing "daddy, that shtinkksss" she sobbed making Senku laugh a bit before picking her up once again.

• "Kukuku, my small princess, shall I show you something very interesting?" He asked making Mariel's fluorescent red orbs sparkle as she nodded a "Yes please!"

• That's when Senku takes Mariel to another, observatory room where all sorts of highly developed telescopes are present.

• "I'm 10 billion percent sure that you would love this!" He announced as he put her on a seat before adjusting somethings and makes her see through a pair of binoculars.

• "WOAAHH DADDY WHAT THIS?? THERES SO SPARKLE SO MANY PWETTY TIINGS!! IS THIS SKY? BIIGG SO BIIGG" Her excitement echoed through the walls of the room.

• "Kukuku you loved it didnt you?" He said in the most affectionate tone. "YES VERY!!" she exclaimed before jump-hugging into her father's arms who was kneeling besides her.

• "I'm glad to know that" he said as he picks her up realizing that she fell asleep. He takes her to her room and carefully tucks her to sleep.

• "Goodnight princess" he whispers as he gives a soft peck on her forehead before turning the lights off and leaving the room, shutting the door quitely.

• Now Senku was tearing up because, his daughter who refused to talk about science even after his wife tried her best trying to get Mariel interested in science. All he could think was how happy his wife was gonna get.

• Oh how badly Senku wished his wife was home to witness all of this. He was so sure that she would definitely cry. He just missed his wife too much and her daily rants about how much their daughter isnt even interested about knowing what science, even more.

• "Yeah send it to her, I'm 10 billion percent sure she'll cry and probably in front of her regardless the people there." He commanded into the ear piece which was connected to a drone which recorded everything from Mariel asking Senku "I wanna ask!! Why does mommy and daddy like science so much? Mariel don' understand"

Yes. Senku's wife watched the video after finishing the last presentation she had to give as lead researcher in a project. She immediately started crying, because alot of stuff went down when she wasn't home??? She immediately booked tickets home and returned home that night.

Soon after she returned she was so dramatic and ignored Senku and only paid attention to Mariel.

"Babe why are you so dramatic?" "Momma dramatic :O"

"SENKU!!" "Phew finally got noticed, anyways"

Senku hugged both of them before saying "I love you both 10 billion times"

"And we love you 10 billion times more" both of them reeplied to Senku in unison.

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I LOVED WRITING IT SO FUCKING MUCH. THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING THIS TO ME @nia-writes-bnha ILY SM SIS 🥺🥺💕

[jaspers-levis]

illuminati, axeman, and skeptic believer for the buzzfeed unsolved asks?

My favorite conspiracy would probably be the men in black, like that’s just such a cool concept to have supernatural police!

My favorite songs right now have to be The Horror and The Wild and Welly Boots by The Amazing Devil. I discovered Joey Batey through the Witcher on Netflix and damn I love that man’s voice!

I am most certainly a Ryan 😅 I think there is a lot more to our world that what we can see or percieve readily, but I’m definitely not an orb guy and I don’t necessarily think that everything on the spirit box or ovulus is really proof 🤷🏼‍♀️