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i am bursting at the seams, and it hurts to keep all that is me inside and away from the world
#i'll go out into the world not letting anyone know how i feel#how i want to be loved and held and wanted#what difference would it make anyway#people would either judge me#or pity me#or give me advice along the lines of haVInG tO pUt mySeLf oUt thErE
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I know you don't like shipping questions, which I think this ask counts as, but I hope that you'll make an exception
Arin and Danny from Game Grumps are both married to other women, so they are alloromantic without any doubt. However, there have been more than a couple times where they talked deeply about how much their friendship means to each other
How would you say this compares to queer platonic relationships? (Or at least, your own qpr)
Aaaahhhhh... Honestly, the hard line I draw on that kind of stuff is that people are whatever THEY describe themselves to be. I don't think anyone else has a say on defining anyone's relationship with anyone else (or their orientation, or their identity, or anything of the sort, within reason), much less myself. So it feels unsafe to me to make a comparison. They are whatever they say they are as long as they're vibing.
(On that note, friendships can be the deepest freaking thing there is to some people and if someone wants to call a deep-rooted, deeply meaningful relationship a friendship, then hell yeah, friendships rock. They don't need to be anything other than friendships to be the best thing ever tbh.)
#anon#sorry for the friendship tangent my aro brain just lowkey wishes friendship wasn't so underestimated TwT#game grumps#...tldr i don't “ship irl people” either or would judge on that in any way#feels dangerous to me honestly
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wasn't confident in how i drew ritsu so here's my practice art dump
#qkdraws#mob psycho 100#mp100#mp100 ritsu#ritsu kageyama#i didn't feel like drawing real constellations so i simply connected dots don't judge me#i have a personal headcanon that ritsu loves space. no reason or evidence for this ijust think he's a bit of a nerd who likes space science#he likes stars and planets n shit. constellation hoodie.#i hope i didn't butcher his fashion sense idk what people wear#i wear t-shirts n sleep pants every single day. that's just called depression#i do not have a fashion sense therefore none of the characters in my art do either#i just scroll through pinterest and save every outfit i see that looks like one of my blorbos would even consider wearing it
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Actually no let's set the da2 crew aside for a second. I want to take Solas and Dorian to Soldier's Peak to talk to Avernus the 220-some year old Grey Warden Blood Mage. I want to see HOW BITCHY Solas can get. I want to hear Dorian's commentary on how exactly fucking stereotypical it is that the blood mage with unnatural long life is Tevene. I want the Warden Commander to look the Inquisitor's team full in the face and tell them to lose their biases *immediately* because the *only* goal of the Wardens is to end the Blights by whatever means necessary, and then walk into Avernus's lab and start bleeding into bottles for him. I want Solas to lose his fucking composure in that fucked up laboratory. I want it so badly. So So badly.
#the solas thing is because he hates grey wardens AND blood mages AND binding spirits. ALL of which apply to Avernus#he would be so disgusted#insulted even#appalled that the Commander just fucking. LET HIM CONTINUE AS NORMAL....#dorian would also dislike the lab but like. pspspspspsps cmere necromancer i have research. pspspspsps#cassandra would hate him. iron bull would hate him. sera would hate him. vivienne would be disgusted but recognize the practical side of it#cole would HAAATE him. varric would not be pleased either. blackwall MIGHT... keep his mouth shut.. bc of the warden thing. but he might not#he might blow up on the commander for letting avernus use their comrades for research#[commander amell looking up from the bottle they're filling with blood: don't you fucking judge me]#[amell: i was fighting the Blight with TWO grey wardens ONLY. you're damn fucking right I used Avernus' research. get over yourself.]#[amell: no one but my team and now yours has any clue about this place anyways and I intend to keep it that way. So yes. He continues.]#[amell: the only people I send to Avernus anyways are volunteers. most of the time he gets blood samples alone. so shut. up.]#dragon age#soldiers peak#dragon age inquisition
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Side note, if you have read only one of the books, just select the "has read" option. It's honestly not a big deal, though. I just included reading/not reading the books because I thought it would be interesting to see if that impacts anything at all.
Also also, for those of you who have Alistair marry Anora, but also have your Warden become his mistress, please just pick the mistress Warden choice. I only get to put 12 answers here, I am so sorry 😞
#this is just for fun and I wish I could just see the Dragon Age keep stats for all players' loaded world states#want to make some more dragon age world state related polls... which won't be as convoluted as this one lol#I know not a lot of people read the books so this probably won't be very telling but that's okay#also I hope this doesn't come off as me judging anyone who hasn't read the books because honestly I don't care either way#if you read them great! if not also great! I just want to see how y'all feel about Alistair's endings#I know it's not exactly fair to compare the mistress/queen cousland results with the rest of them#since only romancers would pick those but both non-romancers and romancers can pick the other endings#anyways pls vote so I can get a good amount of results to get a better feel of the community#even though I know this is not formal in any way lol#and yes I combined the drunk and executed choices#wasn't trying to be biased here but again only 12 answers and honestly can't imagine many let him be executed if Loghain lives#but that is also a biased assumption oops#honestly loving all of the dragon age polls right now#to be transparent I am 100% biased and I do believe that the books could sway peoples opinions... just not sure which way#dragon age poll#dragon age#alistair theirin#dragon age origins#dao
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im actually really worried that im not that interested in &j anymore like ivd been having a hard time writing about it and talking about it online and i mean i talk about it a lot irl but idk like people have been knowing more than me and im starting to feel so incredibly inferior that it's hard for me to enjoy it
#im in this group chaf and im the only one there that doesnt live in new york snf doesnt know any og them irl and theyall know more and see#it a lot and know about the swing order and i dont and ive been feeling so bad about it and it's been so hard for me and then i have friends#that are clearlv better at fandom in general than me so theyre better at characterisation so if i get criticisrd i just feel Terrible and i#havent properly wtitten in ages caude ive been so worried about my characterisation cause a friend very gently criticised me on my character#isation like 2 months ago and i really look up to this person so now i just cant Do anything#and also the thing that they eere pointing out wad more anothrr friend's thing that i didn't even Like much but if someone talks enough i#can be persuaded to anything and also because im just terrified do i#'ll go along with literally anything just because i dont want poeple to hate me#and it's ruining my enjoyment and i mean i made an au and i was hoping that that would make it so that i could maybe write again but nobody#carrd so now i judt cant#i feel so broken right now#also people that were meant to be &j friends are now friend friends and i mean thats Fine#but i cant! handle it!!!#i cant talk about other things unless it's My other things#and i especially cant talk about five nights at freddy's because i used to be hyperfixated on that so now that im.not i just cant! talk abou#t it! or hear about it!!!#not to mention that that game fucking destroyed my life when i was 9 because everyone liked it but i didn't know what it eas anf they wouldn#t explain so now i judt CANT hear about it!!!!!!#i cant do it i cant. do this#i miss when it brought me so much joy but now i hate talking about it online and i cant do it anymore#i can't pretend to care i can't keep being an &j blog even though i do love it!!!! but i feel so insecure and inferior that i just cant!!!!!#i hate this so mcuh im sorry i needrd to get this out#i dont have anything interesting to say anymore and i mean there's also just like. the whole being autistic thing and not wanting peopel to#judge me for my interests which they have my whole life and now it's too much and i cant care this much anymore. i just can't#i dont have anything to contribute either i cant draw and i can't write anymore and i just dont know what to do#sorry
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people on twitter be normal about acht's gender (impossible)
#first i saw someone saying ''its possible its a she/they situation judging from appearance'' which. jesus fucking christ#and now i saw someone saying they felt that them wearing a dress was. out of character??????#which. is insane to me. you are aware that we barely knew anything about them as a person until now right#what the fuck are you talking about. how can them wearing a dress be out of character WE DIDNT KNOW THEIR CHARACTER!!!!!!!!!#you can feel like they'd look better in pants but saying that a dress is out of character for someone we know nothing about ???#kind of just feels like. you think nonbinary people can't wear dresses#also personality does not equal gender presentation???? no one's personality dictates whether or not they would wear a dress#unless part of their personality is ''i hate dresses and would never wear one'' or that they always dress more neutrally/masculine#which. neither of those is true for acht. as far as we know. we have seen them a total of one time (album cover) where you can only#see up from the waist. and again WE BARELY KNEW ANYTHING ABOUT THEM AS A PERSON BEFORE SIDE ORDER#idk it doesnt really matter its just bizarre to me. them wearing a dress isnt ooc you either just dont think nb people can wear dresses#or you have a made-up fanon version of acht in your head that is now going against what they've been revealed to be like in canon#i dont know. its just weird. they're just vibing man#serena.txt#splatoon
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not sorry. i extend very little sympathy and patience towards tras who are underage, and the only ones who do get said sympathy are TIFs. but again. it's MICROSCOPIC levels of sympathy.
#i was also a tra as a minor (~10yo to 14yo)#and yet i never said even half the shit a lot of these kids are spewing with their whole chests.#i never hated on terfs; made rape jokes; made death threats.#I barely ever even argued with terfs bc i AGREED WITH THEM even as a tra. the only thing i disagreed on was how they went about it#(i felt like they were 'too mean'. now that i am a radfem i see we arent mean enough.)#i never in my life shared countless anti terf memes. never had a DNI.#never spammed terf tags and spaces.#never sent hate anons.#so yeah#i do genuinely judge kids who do this because i WAS ALSO A CHILD and i NEVER did this shit even at the height of the trans ideology#worming its way into the government and law.#people need to understand that children can and SHOULD have morals. just like adults.#you shouldnt need to be told 'hey this is bad' to know thats bad. if you have morals then you simply just know.#i tried to go vegan my entire life. would refuse to eat animals even when i was 4 years old. went officially vegan at 11 when i realized i#wouldnt die without animal protein (and even if i did i was sick of funding animal murder)#no one NEEDED to tell me to do that.#my morals simply did not agree with killing and eating other living beings.#so kids who are willing to do all this shit? yeah. thats ust a reflection of their innate morals. not even joking here either.#i work with kids.#i know how downright cruel they can be and not just in a 'im socially inept and have no filter yet'#but intentionally cruel.#intentionally heinous. and tiktok exposure only makes it so much worse.#so yeah if you are a minor and i go on your account and i see dozens of terf-hate posts?#i AM judging you and i feel zero sympathy for anything coming your way#and i do genuinely hope they wither away in shame and regret when they get older#I didnt even do any of this shit and yet i still feel ashamed and remorseful for the stupid tra shit i spewed (mostly about how#sex and gender arent the same. that was the HEIGHT of my trans rights activism. that's barely 1% of what these kids are saying.)#like i understand where theyre coming from and i get why theyd buy into the trans cult; but that does NOT excuse their behavior.#rudefem
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me when im obsessed with dead singers from 50 (well... mostly 70-120) years ago and im heartbroken to know i'll never see them on stage... never hear them breathe, never see them sweat, never even touch the hem of their garment...
it really is enough to drive a person mad...
#this is so funny because this is the one vaguepost that i wholeheartedly 100% agree with skdhsjshsjdhsn#like yeah!! it does indeed pain me that the level of operatic singing has so drastically decreased over the last 50 years!#that top operatic stars of today are all either nasal or wobbly or knödely or completely inaudible without microphones#but some of yall are just not ready for this conversation. example a#anyway. as many have said before. its kinda easier to understand how some people cant appreciate certain operas#if they never heard them sung well lol#sorry im out of blood today. i know this is a very uncomfortable subject for many but.#you can actually judge someone's singing in a pretty objective way. there are nuances of course. but from a technical point of view#it really is pretty simple#(also its not like i dont enjoy *some* modern singers lol have you SEEN my kwiecień posting???? lmao#hell. there are even some modern singers i have a soft spot who i KNOW sing... Not Very Well. but i enjoy them lol#not many ofc but. yknow)#also 50 years ago would be the 1970s if im doing my maths correctly and. that is really the point in opera history#when it all started going downhill (sadly partly because of one of my all time favourite singers' influence... but thats a different story)#anyway. remember when luis tetrazzini said that the future generations of singers will be The Best singers in history#because they'll have access to all those recordings of The Greats Of The Past that they'll be able to listen to and learn from?#lmao queen you were right about so many things but that was tragically not one of them </3#opera tag#yes im stirring the pot of boiling liquid shit and putting this post gently into the main tag#*luisA tetrazzini ofc#lol and lmao im out FOR blood* shdgsjsghs
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maybe some 10hour minecraft solo would fix me
#i dunno#im not sure why ive been all Eughh abt the server bf likes#part of it might be the New aspect of it and another part might be just how active it is and how many ppl are there#even tho im not like. ever direct or one on one with them its like#im at a party sort of#the chat is active too much and That. drains me a lot faster than i realize#so either a smaller server a Much smaller server or a solo world for a minute#would fix me#because i do want to minecraft#i miss it its good its nice it gives me something to do that i likely wouldn't ever get shamed for#(in this day and age... back in my day id get bullied in school about it)#(not usually by students but some did Judge me Heavily but mostly it was teachers who were like. 'video games are violenntt!!') but anyways#i wanna like the server bf likes so badly#but every single time i log on im like i cant find a good spot ever theres too many people and hhhh#so i log off of it pretty quickly even tho i Want. to like it#i jus dont think i caaann#and hi leo if ur reading this which i Hope you are <3#i would've told you this earlier. If i found out and unpacked this earlier but I'm only unpacking it now and at the time of#typing this i am so so so so SO sleepy and you are possibly just waking up or about to in an hour or so#so mwah mwah ily and such and gmmm#and im sorry if the short minecraft sessions felt Bad but it 10000% wasnt you#the uniqueness of that server js fun dont get me wrong but i dont think it can be like an All Time server for me#so make your own lil space there and ill pop in from time to time#if u want to at least#nya.txt#ow why cramps..#im nit bleeding or anything jus empty cramps bc i missed some shots oops#but its tolerable i just wnana sleeeeeepp
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so now im sure she is the one who has been sending me anon hate about me being ugly.... 💀
#she said things like oh i would never send anon hate to anyone!!!#but ig ppl just say anything and then do it anyway 💀#ppl will just lie and pretend to be your friend to then use your insecurities against u#if she acted like a grown up and talked to me i wouldve listened#but that wouldve required her to listen to me tooand not just judge me#and ig she couldnt do that#so she took the easy route#like if i explained to her that yeah i felt abandoned by u bc u just stopped talking to me as soon as u got a bf#and then i kept talking to that guy bc of these reasons where i wanted to see if i could pick up on signs#bc being abused by my bf is one of my biggest fears i have#and she wouldve said iget that but i still feel uncomfortable. then i couldve listened to hger and decided if i wanted to keep making her#uncomfortable and hurt her or just stop. but she didnt say anything or try to communicate or listen#and now to see what a fucking shallow narrow minded view she has#is frustrating bc she hadnt even tried to talk or understand or communicate or explain her side#which is like ok that sucks but whatever i will just let it go#but then she keeps sending me hate abt what i confided to her abt and talk shit abt me and it is like#can u just let it go#just stop everything. lets just pretend we have never known eo or talked at all#anyway ig i dont wanna be friend w a woman who invalidates founded fears#like shes just the kind of woman who would tell her friends that#oh yeah your bf hit u just bc he loves u stop complaining!!#so ig this is good either way but like. ig she just assumes i was flirting behind her back#bc she cant comprehend a woman only being friendly with a guy#and like i didnt keep telling that guy im already in love w someone lmao 💀💀#gosh...disappointing. people are so disappointing#and childish and shallow and narrow minded. yikes
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In order to keep a tumblr-social-judgment-approved balance of media consumption, I alternate between Pokeani (children's media) and House MD (something problematic happens every 5 minutes). It's like pemdas or something, it probably evens out.
#/j. this post is making fun of people who judge others by their favorite shows#'oh you only like kids media without media literacy?' / 'oh you only like dark shows with outdated and problematic jokes?'#like oh ok sorry let me alter my taste in media to make your opinion of me better 💖/sarcastic#people say it's rotting your brain either way. i think some of you guys just don't like the demonic moving pictures box#lest the characters not talk about deontology and media literacy enough or lest they show too much ankle on the other end.#so sure yeah i'll only enjoy shows that make other people think i'm smart. sure. i love when my media enjoyment is purely performative.#/sarcastic#sorry sjdskdj i get worked up every time i see people dunk on others for liking children's media or- much more rarely- the other end.#tumblr looooves saying cringe is dead until they get the opportunity to use cringe as a weapon against others.#anyways i think that solidad would fit into house md. she could do it. i believe in my morally grey queen. give her a medical license.#just to see what happens. i think it'd be fun.
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Twitter just sucks
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#12k likes on a tweet saying Dream was a bad person even if the allegations are false#soley bc he was mean to people harassing and spreading misinfo and bad faith claims about him#like excuse me?? you have no fucking clue what it’s like to be in his shoes right now#and you’ll never have to consider it either bc it won’t happen to you!!!#a year of harassment and threats over something you didn’t do will take a huge toll on your mental health this is common sense#nobody is in a place to judge#just fuck then fuck all of them victim blaming pieces of shit#acting as if they would act any differently in his shoes#I’m so upset like genuinely Dream deserves sm better twitter users are fucking evil#‘he’s making a fool out of himself’#is he just supposed to be peace love and plants about people spreading lies about him??????? hello??#what kind of insane standard is this?#I need them gone#sorry vent in tags but hopefully it will be the last bc I’ve deleted twitter so#asks#negativity
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I LOVE THIS FUCKIJG FILM SO MUCH EVERYTHING ABOUT IT IS PERFECT
#the casting is so good its oerfect they all do such good jobs iCAAAANNTT#roman and zsasz do SO WELL they creep me OUT its so GOOOOODODODO#“fuck fsmily! all due respect but fuck that!!!” all his. tantrums? how else would i word thst idk so. and like from the little bits we see#we learn so much about them. like idk shit avout them sorrt im a poser. but FUCKKXKCK its just so good#obviously margot robbie does incredibly. and cassandras actress! i know people have said they sorta dilute her character down which IS sad#esp bc i dont know anything about her either. but fuck#and the way it depicts gotham!!!!!!!!!! ive talked about this alot before and god its always sssoooooo#ITS JUST ALL SO GOOD. the humor THE WARDROBE. once again the causal lgbt rep. all the sexism stuff.#its just perfect its genuinely perfect#AGRGRHFHSJ I LOVE THIS FILM.#birds of prey#AND JUST THE WAY EVERYONE TALKS AND THE DELIVERY OF EVERYTHING. I DONT KNOW ITS JUST ALL. PERFECT.#also another mention to roman and zsasz. they do it SO. WELL. the changes in zsaszs voice AND JUST HIS GENERAL ATTITUDE. sionis and how wel#his actor does the quick switches. and again the delivery of ALL his lines. also special mention to his little spin at his first scene.#ALSO HIS AND ZSASZS LAUGHS ohmyod#and montoya does it all so well and inlove her voice and same with canary and i cant say much on them because its ALL so good that i cant#pinpoint it??????#ALSO THE HAIR TIE SCENE 💘💘💘💘💘#also forever thinking of roman and his thing with how people pronounce words. actually im sorta just always thinking about him and zsasz#zsaszmask hoffstrahm and now hannigram all live in my head. and another ship i wont say incase noah sees this. OH AND SUKEVE.#another mention to the soundtrack. oh. my. god.#another mention to how it depicts gotham. like you just see people living. in the daytime. hanging out living rhwir lives. and you see smal#businesses and a supermarket and a club and the graffiti and just somuch of the film being. in. the daytime. AND THE SKATING DERBY!#GOD i love this film so so so much can you tell#also why is all the content of my posts only ever in the tags. like okaaayy sure.#DINAHS SIDE EYE AT ROMAN AND ZSASZ WHEN THEYRE BEING EXTRA GAY I CANT DO THIS#am i gonna go and look at loads of zsaszmask content now. yes. dont judge.#also anti-big establishments moment (her robbing the store) and her promising to get sal the 75 cents. support small businesses#also bruce wayne mention theyrr always so funny#rain rambles
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ngl i think "until I end up dead" was Lowkey distasteful and weird
#fucking. let him rest. for the love of god#deemp#technoblade#techno is dead. that is VERY sad. people explore grief differently yes yes yes but i almost guarantee you that if this was anybody else.#that song would not exist out in the public. if this was george or tommy or quackity or anybody else.#it really rubs me the wrong way. like yeah don't just forget about techno but making money off of his death?????? come on#idgaf if it fits technos brand that's fucked up and weird there i said it#dreamwastaken crit#im not saying dream is greedy and evil either i just think it's a weird fucking move and ALSO I have to say#i do not think that this is the best way for technodad to be dealing with the passing of his son. again who am i to judge grief yadda yadda#but i don't think doing a guy's job and hanging out with his friends and selling his merch is a healthy coping mechanism#okay im done now#dream neg
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Forever crazy to me when people write characters who have canonically (or semi-canonically in Legends) struggled with the Dark side brush Anakin off as a lost cause. Obviously in order to return to the Light you have to want to, I do get that and the characters are likely going to know that, too. But it's just so disingenuous to me when people have these characters be unforgiving and skeptical, ignoring that character's past and experiences. I'm not sure if it's just a lack of knowledge of the characters in question or if they just like using characters as Anti-Anakin/Vader mouthpieces but it really takes me out of a story.
#ngl this is mostly about quinlan vos but like idk! the jedi are about forgiveness!#and doing better!#and i want to clarify like i get that vader is constantly choosing not to repent until luke i understand that#and i get to an extent that by the ot some of the remaining jedi like yoda have lost faith that he could return#but i read a fic where quinlan was warning obiwan OFF OF LUKE??? WHO IS A KID???#bc 'they had no clue anakin would fall either' LIKE NO WHY WOULD QUINLAN#QUINLAN!!!#WHO WAS CREATED IN AND FOR LEGENDS!#WHO FAMOUSLY NEARLY LOST HIMSELF TO THE DARK SIDE WHILE UNDERCOVER!#WHOS FAMILY TRIED TO ASSASSINATE HIM AT AGE 6#JUDGE LUKE FOR HIS FATHERS CRIMES?#AND THEN ACT LIKE ANAKIN WAS ALWAYS DESTINED FOR DARKNESS?#ill admit i havent read the 'canon' book that he is in yet maybe he said some bullshit in that that led people to follow this train#of thought but like hm#feels bad scoob#i think if it had just been quinlan saying something shitty about anakin it wouldnt have bothered me as much#even tho i hate the fanon that anakin hates quinlan/quinlan doesnt like anakin#but like... LUKE???#thats not my quinlan THATS NOT#fandom wank#comm chatter#wow that was a long rant in the tags sigjirgs#the fic was so good otherwise too
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