#people need to respect clowns boundaries tho

[thelazyangel4567]

Frank x Eddie Comic based off that one scene from Bee and Puppycat

Part 1 Part 2

[ventismacchiato]

Same anon who sent that ask that triggered that avalanche of trolling.

I just wanna say, I'm sorry for being hypocritical when I said you were rude, but I did not mean you were rude by setting boundaries (even tho that was never a topic of debate for us, I'd always respected your boundaries)

I meant rude as in, you used to be very...dry? You could say? when I sent asks but then you'd be super nice to other people who sent asks so I felt like you just had something against me.

My reason for staying anonymous isn't because I'm afraid of confronting you face-to-face, it's because I know that if I were to try and talk to you ab this personally, I'd just get the same response, and if I were to send the ask without being anonymous, the asks clowning on me would be sitting in my inbox rn.

And I get WHY people r clowning on me. I sent an ask on a topic sensitive to me thru anon and my choice of words r similar to that of an emo 14 yr old boy on reddit.

But in my defense, if Kai hasn't been rude to you personally, doesn't mean they might not have been rude to me. And I use rude due to a lack of better words.

Bottom line is: I was hurt by Kai's difference in personality when it came to my asks (which never pressured them about updates btw bc I never rlly followed their smaus much) and I took to anon to try and tell it to them, albeit in a v poor worded manner.

I'm sorry that so many of your fans seemed personally attacked by me expressing my opinion but I'm more sorry that I couldn't just talk to you about this directly.

(also b4 anyone repeats the old insult of "get a job"... I'm already training to become a CA. I have a life outside of Tumblr and I log in very rarely. It may not seem that way because of my previous ask, but Kai isn't on my mind 24/7. I just logged back in after a month and their ask were on my 'following' page and in the spur of the moment, I typed out the ask.

I assure yall I'm very content in life and (in response to one of the asks telling me to shower💀) take very good care of my hygiene (lmao???). Some of the responses I got were VERY hilarious, I'll agree, even I laughed at a few of them.

I know my previous ask gave a lot of people second-hand embarrassment (this one will too probably lmfao I can't win) and this is getting too long so I'll just say: not the intention, just wanted my feelings acknowledged.

Thank you and Goodbye.

This seems like a script to a YouTube apology video lmao.

oh my god…

DRY ≠ RUDE

so are you just upset i didn’t treat you like a friend or?? genuinely don’t understand how me ever being dry is considered rude to you, have you ever considered the asks you sent didnt give me room to respond with more excitement? i receive a lot of asks in a day so i cant always be all !!! to every single one. it’s a little over the top to accuse me of being rude when all i supposedly did was not match the same energy. you said so yourself you weren’t active and i tended to be more excited talking to my regular anons.

i didnt have anything against you, maybe a little now because this is ridiculous, but if someone online replying to you dry causes you that much hurt then maybe this app isn’t for you. we don’t need to talk about this directly because there isn’t anything to talk about.

goodbye!

[pinkyhaert]

People need to seriously remember that creators don't owe anybody anything.

YES you can be excited about their stuff and even sometimes make fan stuff/art/ocs (if they're cool with it. If not respect their boundaries.)

BUT fr tho some of yall need to chill out. You can interact with people and like their content and be a NORMAL person. They're people too ya know no matter how popular they are.

And to be real, Sometimes they simply don't wanna be bothered with yall and you gotta be okay with that. Again, they owe you NOTHING.

If you keep up toxic behavior your gonna get your butts blocked and also cause a ripple effect that sours the mood of the creator that'll effect other people and sometimes even kill the drive for the creator themselves to make the very thing you love.

Calm down you Clowns.

[smolfailure]

FUCK IT, DREAM SMP HOMESTUCK AU

but it's only half shitposts and there are actual Thoughts in there.

You don't need to have read the comic to understand because I tried not to spoil anything major, but it'd help if you knew basic stuff about classpects, SBURB and the hemospectrum.

disclaimer: i'm not a good pixel artist and this is my first actual sprites ever so please be kind to my weird pixels

The Kids:

Tommy

Fundy

Techno

Tubbo

tommy, tubbo and fundy one of the kids because they're the kids in dream smp canon (with fundy being son of wilbur)

techno's there because i want to make a dave strider reference (haha get it because techno's name is also da-- *gets shot) and also because they are both coolguys except instead of using irony, techno has adhd

The Trolls:

Wilbur Soohte (fuschia)

?????? Ehrret (violet)

J????? Shlatt (purple)

Nihacu Niikki (indigo)

Skeppy Diamon (cerulean)

Quacki Tthiey (teal)

Philza Myncra (jade)

Dreame Wastkn (lime disguising as olive)

George Notfou (gold)

Sapphe Nahfpe (bronze)

Badboy Haelow (burgundy)

don't come at me saying only females are allowed to be jades and fuschias; gender is fake and this is an au

more of the AU and the talksprites are under the cut:

Tommy

Lunar sway: Derse. Types in: Red

chaotic. the first person to be introduced.

when he gets introduced instead of the “Zoosmell Pooplord” bit, Tommy is initially going to be the name inputted but then backspaced it and decided that Tommyinnit was better and he was fuming until he’s named Tommy.

Gives me big Blood/Hope vibes. Blood because a lot of the conflict of the dream smp connected to someone breaking his trust or harming the things he cares about, Hope because a lot of the plot of the dream smp stems from Tommy starting shit based on his ideals and what he thinks is right.

the first to instigate fighting against the trolls

bbh contacts him once and tommy keeps cursing until he disconnects from frustration rip

wields Gunkind and his only strife weapon at the beginning is the Vlog gun. He has Gunkind as his strife specibus mainly because he looked up at schlatt and he imitates him.

Fundy

Lunar sway: Prospit. Types in: Orange

it was his idea to play SBURB but only through Dream.

he talks to dream the most among the other trolls fwt stans getcha juice this is the rosemary of the session

dream’s the one giving him exposition about the game so that’s how he knows how to play SBURB.

wilbur trolls fundy once and instantly adopts him.

“You’re my son.” “How does that even work??” “I was one of the people who created your universe. It’s basically the same thing.”

Fundy relents anyway.

Techno

Lunar sway: Derse. Types in: Pink

dave strider but dead-inside voice + rose lalonde english major vibes

he slices the text box when you try to name him "Dave " like in

techno gives me time player vibes (contantly on the move. his skyblock series, his “stays in the pit” monologue,) but also rage vibes (anarchy,  the “theseus” monologue, political alignment is Chaos) alas i am not sure what class

uses Tridentkind and claims "it came from god"

 it was dream, he accidentally transportalized one of wilbur’s weapon while he testing the transportalizer.

Tubbo

Lunar sway: Prospit. Types in: Green

the jade harley of this session. the only thing keeping them from going apeshit. where would they be without him.

but also jade harley in a sense that he seems nice and wholesome but also don’t fuck with them they can mess you up

Heart/Life vibes??? someone good at classpecting help

i put them in prospit bc of the "tubbo third eye" instead of tubbo having a sixth sense or smth, they see the future from the clouds of skaia when they sleep

wields Stress-relieverKind at some point

bonus: everyone’s actual hair colors

Ideas about the Trolls

no i haven’t done their sprites yet bc it would take so much time and i’m not even sure if people wanna see more of this au skjdkdsakdfkl,, but i have Design Ideas.

events of the dsmp revolution are just a FLARP session drawing parallels to how the homestuck trolls had a FLARP session that spoiler alert: destroyed friendships. dtrio, eret, will are involved. eret betrays will's faction and wilbur's still Bitter over that.

on the context of alternia (highbloods and lowbloods) lmanburg and dreamsmp have their roles SWAPPED.  the emancipation theme thing is completely gone since highbloods are in more power than the lowbloods (the dream team) . 

wilbur made a faction called l’manburg because he wants a place where he and his fellow highbloods could make drugs vibe.they take a piece of land that was owned by the dream team. in normal circumstances, they shouldve stood down because lowbloods aren't supposed to start shit with highbloods (especially a group of highbloods that has the alternian heir among them)  but dream turned it into an activism thing about lowblood rights. the story plays as close as possible without tommy or tubbo in it (which is pretty hard ik but this is the best can do).

like in the dreamsmp revolution, dream kinda let wilbur do what he wants but this time he has more reason to because he’s in a lower caste. dream really only fought back when wilbur announced that he’d be building lmanburg on their land and calling it theirs.

eret betrays wilbur by supporting the lowbloods and wilbur and co. technically won but only because he finally called the drones in, as a reference to how lmanburg absolutely got crushed by the dream team in the smp but technically won. l’manburg keeps the piece of land and the dream team scatter away to find a new home.

wilbur soot's a fuschia because a) he's in a position that has a lot of power, b) yknow how he wrote a song about squids and his thing with sally… yeah.

eret's a violet because nobility!! dream looks down on him because he's ambivalent on fighting for lowblood rights when he's in a power to do so "you just sit there, and you look pretty that's it"

also like eridan he has a minor aesthetic mutation (herobrine eyes) that won't classify him as a mutant.

jschlatt is purple because it makes sense thematically because of the gamzee parallels (a. substance abuse b. if you know what happens in act 6, you know this already but spoiler alert, he ruins the main protagonists' lives) also he's a funnyman he deserves the clown caste

 quackity's a teal because he’s a law student. moving on--

 ok but for real it also makes sense thematically because he's the one who wrote the thing that tricked schlatt into agreeing also he gets manipulated by schlatt which also draws parallels to certain events in the comic

skeppy and bbh are BEST FRIENDS despite being highblood and lowblood respectively. initially, skeppy just wanted to bother bbh but they grew to be good friends in time. y’know like how they actually becane friends :D

philza minecraft is a jade because dad friend. also works thematically, because spoiler alert he gets to murder a seadweller for going batshit crazy. 

he also god tiers early. he dies fighting his quick undead denizen (haha baby zombie) but the consorts of his land carry him to his quest bed because he’s treated them all so well.

dream was initially going to be another caste but then i realized that means i have to make his hoodie something other than green which is unacceptable so its a good thing the fact that he's a lime works out

dream was the one who thought of playing sgrub in the first place- initially only planned to have gogy, sap, and bbh in the session but then realized that they four won't be enough so he invited more into his session

he’s also the first to go godtier ez clap blind speedrun not sure what classpect tho

the only reason why dream avoided being culled at birth for being a limeblood is because his rng is That Good. he quickly picked up the fact that he’s not supposed to exist and masqueraded as an oliveblood and kept mostly to himself to avoid suspicion.

george is still colorblind but he has lazer eyes along with it instead. dream lives with him in the same hive since being a mutant means dream doesn’t get a lusus of his own (dnf fans getcha juice “and they were roommates”) 

despite living in the same hive, he never really figures out that dream is a limeblood. possibly because a) he’s colorblind and when he sees dream bleeding he just sees yellow b) he’s just that fucking oblivious and it’s so valid of him.

sapnap’s a bronzeblood mainly because i know he’s the instigator of the pet war with tommy also because i associate him with the color orang in my mind so bronze it is

that’s the end of this long-ass post!! if you have other ideas PLEASE i want to hear them. i don’t know the other streamers i mentioned in here very well so if you have ideas that would be fitting to them like with classpect or lunar sway that would be GREAT. 

the only thing i’m confident about in here are the kids’ lunar sways. i’m not an expert in classpects and homestuck lore so there’s that too!! i just wanted to make this post because adhd means that the idea wouldn’t shut up until i finished it. This initially started as a single shitpost edit of tommyinnit talksprite but then the hiveswap 2 trailer came out and that means i have to combine my two hyperfixations.

also i have ideas about potential quadrants but idk how much of that is breaking some streamers’ boundaries about shipping (even the non romantic quads such as kismesistude, morallegiance and auspisticism) so i decided not to include it.

edit: apparently people want more so i made a discord server as a place to brainstorm!! please pm me to join!

[mrpenguinpants]

KAEYA PLAYING WITH ABYSS MAGES AHDHSHDHSB IM- that’s so cute????? Guizhong being older than Zhongli is such a valid hc, I fully support and condone it. Thank you. And Childe growing to like battle was something I found interesting because he was once mentioned to be fragile and weak in his character stories iirc? I like to think that maybe the initial reason he persevered was to overcome that past status.

Also, YES. They’d have the worst habits, and it would eventually become more visible the more comfortable it becomes, but Keqing just gives up on trying to change anything because it’s literally hopeless.

I also headcanon that they have different ways to show appreciation for Keqing. E.g. Childe sometimes uses one of his cringy ass Russian nicknames and when she looks up the meaning, she turns from the most straight-faced woman known to man to a highkey affection-starved queen self-destructing in her room.

Diluc leaves a note on her desk that are simple “Sleep early today. Tomorrow is your day-off.” or “Don’t over work yourself.” messages. He’s so self-conscious about it because like, what if Kaeya catches him up at night contemplating whatever reaction he’ll get. Ends up feeling so accomplished whenever his messages bring a smile to her face.

Kaeya, I feel, would be more open in a sense? Keqing is the last person he thinks he’s be able to deceive, and so he chooses not to. He’s probably one who enjoys deep conversations about literally anything be it mosaic artwork or changes in between modern and archaic politics. A good listener and a fine conversation partner, I feel they’d certainly have interesting conversations.

Zhongli lowkey seizing every opportunity to bring up Rex Lapis and his sense of humor is lowkey degrading Morax for his past mistakes. He’s like “Oh, I thought you hated him. I hate him too” and proceeds to laugh at the fact that the oh-so legendary Geo archon bore a hole in his hoodie for his hair. FOR HIS HAIRS. Keqing is losing her sanity trying not to expose herself as a closeted fan.

The anon lists’ name is super cute btw! Makes me feel pretty blessed for being there haha. I just finished midterms and goodness, I am exhausted. We’re having a short break so I think I can send asks much faster during the brief moment of rest. And pls drink responsibly 🙏

Sincerely, Keqing harem brainrot anon

I lowkey plucked Kaeya playing with mobs and shoved it into the royalty au because god damn, that’s fucking cute. I’m so behind on my asks;; but it’s okay cause we’re here now. I don’t know, Guizhong being that older sister/mother/whatever figure is so heartwarming to me. I think you’re right? I vaguely remember him saying he was pretty fragile but I have the memory of a goldfish haha. Lowkey, this is why I really want the part 2 and 3 of character story quests to go more in depth with their actual character stories. I want to see Childe talk about his feelings and meet his siblings, I want to hear more about Guizhong, I want to hear about the crippling loneliness and depression that Bennett and Barbara have (NO I WILL NOT SHUT UP ABOUT THIS PART. WHY THE FUCK IS GENSHIN NOT TALKING ABOUT THIS? I KNOW ITS FUN AND GAMES BUT LET ME CARE ABOUT THEM. 1.4 has these hangout events and istg, bennett and barabara have one and if we don’t talk about our feelings I’m going to cry). 

oml their bad habits, Zhongli and his extensive collection of plants because that’s the most social interaction he gets (yes, zhongli is a planter. no i do not take criticism tyvm) and it starts off with a couple plants. Not too bad. Then the next day Keqing walks and it looks like their entire home turned into a forest. But Zhongli loves his plant children and Keqing is slowly losing her mind and starts referring to the plants with the nicknames Zhongli gave them. 

This. This is cute. These appreciation ideas. I fully approve and we need to bring them back. I don’t know anything about Russian but I have a friend that does. But I don’t know how to casually say “hey, can you give me Russian nicknames of endearment. It’s for research.”. Keqing radiates professional in the front, social anxiety in the back. I just love that they added the detail that she’s secretly a Rex Lapis fan but pretends that she hates him. I know there is art of Zhongli lowkey being creeped out or vv smug when he find’s Keqings stash but idk, imagining him being a proud dad and giving headpats even though Keqing is an adult. 

Okay. Let me level with you. Sticky notes of reassuring phrases are the best and why the fuck aren’t people doing it more. I’ve been reading “my mom left a note on the table” or “my partner puts sticky notes in my textbooks as a pick me up” for CENTURIES but am I seeing it in real life? Fuck no. Please, if someone does this for you. Keep them, never let them go. I can imagine Diluc writing these messages, feeling confident when he writes them and ready to be a supportive person. The next day he’s looking at these notes and thinking “what the fuck did I just write, this is garbage” (totally not how I feel about my writing). Then he proceeds to throw them in some cabinet but since Kaeya doesn’t know the first thing about personal boundaries he goes snooping around in Diluc’s room, discovers the notes, and he ends up taking them and putting them on Keqing’s things. It makes her happy so Diluc is going to ignore the very pressing issue with whether or not he should commit manslaughter. 

You know, that’s very valid. That’s how I feel about Kaeya’s relationship with Lisa or Albedo. People that don’t get riled up or annoyed by his antics the same way Amber is. I feel like if you’re looking for small talk, he’s not a bad choice, but if you want those deep 3am conversations he’s definitely the person to go to. Zhongli isn’t a bad choice either but Zhongli tends to go into historical and philosophical moments (which isn’t bad) but you want to have someone relate to you or it feels like an actual conversation and not a history lesson then he’s actually perfect. Especially more controversial topics, I feel like Kaeya would probably have very different opinions from the norm. 

YES. YES. YES I’m replying to these as I read them but YES. Honestly, I get it. Zhongli is a super polite and respectable person. But. But. Have you seen how he clowned on Childe?? That entire interaction?? He didn’t even look the slightest big apologetic for almost destroying Liyue and using the man who was going to kill him to pay for his funeral. What a power move?? And you’re telling me you don’t see him being a smug prick. I love Zhongli’s story quest where everyone is saying “oh the first mora was treasured or it holds mythical powers” and Zhongli is looking at them as if they’re idiots. 

tyty (❤´艸｀❤) I’m blessed to have you here. Oh, I hope you did well on your midterms tho and be sure to rest. I am a bit late to replying to this so hopefully I caught you before your break was over.

Always lovely hearing from you,

Pengu

[onisiondrama]

PART 16 - videos #30 & 31

(Click here for video mirrors) - These are not my words or thoughts, I’m just summarizing what Greg / James is saying in his videos. Apologies for any offensive language or comments that may appear. - I am not repeating stories anymore and will replace these stories with brackets describing what he’s talking about. If you don’t know these stories you’re going to have to go back and read previous parts or watch his previous videos.

in depth

- Greg announced his face is red because he just got out of the Jacuzzi. He laughs and says he has a genetic defect that makes him look ugly in hot water. - Someone messaged him on Discord. They wanted to ask him a question, but they were afraid he’d ban them. He says he understands and didn’t ban them. Instead he’s making this video. - Kai was threatening to leave him if Greg spoke about this. The Discord person wanted to know why Kai would stop Greg from speaking out if Kai was innocent. Greg says he wants you to imagine someone forced their mouth on your lower region and made you very uncomfortable. You express you’re generally uncomfortable, but not too clear so the other parties thought there was a chance it would work out. You’re embarrassed because you weren’t 100% about it from the get go and as it progressed you got less into it. You felt terrible because your husband would say this is what he wanted because he thought the other person truly cared about you. He thought you were just being cold and heartless because you were ignoring how loyal and dedicated the other person was. Greg says imagine being Kai in all this and being called a cruel person for not taking part because Greg is an asshole and didn’t relate to Kai. Kai is horrified and humiliated. Kai felt gross and freaked out since Sarah went up and kissed Kai. This whole thing was a nightmare for Kai so he didn’t want to re-live it, like a true victim. Kai wasn’t 100% your typical tragedy, but Kai went through something hard. Greg was helping the other person instead of helping Kai or respecting Kai’s boundaries. - Greg says the Discord person brought up a photo where the bottom isn’t cropped out. Greg says Kai took an obvious selfie for Instagram and it was posted to Instagram. It shows a silhouette of Kai’s lower region. It’s obviously not meant to be a sexual image. There is an image of Kai’s accidental nip slip. That was not sexual and it happened to Kai before in videos. Nip slips happens sometimes to people who have nipples. People are using these two images to prove Kai is a pervert and sent those images. Problem is there is no context to these images. - Sarah knows she was never supposed to have those images. She knows the context of the images and hasn’t been honest about it because she’s trying to hurt him because he rejected her because he doesn’t want to sleep with her because she was creepy in Aladdin. [He reenacts Sarah trying to get his attention while he’s enjoying Aladdin.] He says she told him later she wanted to b-l-o-w him in the theater. She knew she couldn’t do that anyway because she wasn’t allowed to go mouth to crotch. He didn’t want to make out with her at Aladdin because it was a good movie and he was getting a bad vibe from her. He says after when she was shaming him he was thinking “can’t we have one day where you’re not weird?” - Says Sarah has a laptop. It might be a different laptop then the one he thought it was. It was either Kai’s very old laptop or semi old laptop. He never logged into any accounts on either, but it may have Kai’s old account. He’s not sure if it was wiped before it was given to Sarah. He doesn’t know how she could have access to Kai’s data. - It’s ridiculous people call Kai a pervert when they don’t know the context about the selfies and the selfies don’t even show much. This whole thing is about Sarah getting back at Greg for rejecting him. He says he knows this because she tweeted she still had a lot of love for Kai, but she’s dragging Kai in the most slanderous campaign Greg has ever seen. She doesn’t love Kai, she’s destroying his life with lies. [Blooper video fake crying.] Greg says he hasn’t seen the blooper video. He can’t watch any of those videos because it’s a disgusting carnival of idiot clowns dancing around. They all came to a conclusion because they all have issues from their past that they push on other people. They act like everyone else is the villain when they need to focus n the real villains. [Crime against Sarah, compares her reaction to Kai’s] - Says Kai didn’t leave him and settled with Greg going to therapy. Greg says he’s happy to go to a therapist because it’s good to sort out your mental problems. Everyone should see on, especially Sarah who was prescribed medication for her head problems. - He don’t understand how anyone could not see how fluid, clear, consistent, and obvious this all is. [Blooper video differences] He says if it was a real blooper, the setting and time wouldn’t change. [He moved the camera and messes up his shirt to demonstrate how a blooper would not be.] Too many inconsistencies. - Greg doesn’t keep track of Kai’s laptop or texts. - Kai recently told Greg he was surprised when he saw Sarah’s body for the first time after they were blackmailed. This tells Greg Kai never saw any photos. If he found out Kai was sending photos to someone that age he would have kicked Kai out. You know this for a fact because even Sarah will admit Greg kicked her out over “dat booty tho” comment and outrage. Greg says it’s 100% his belief Sarah is lying.

whelp

- Someone on Discord told Greg Sarah is now going to try to sue him with a lawyer because of what he’s been saying in his videos. This is why people don’t talk. Because they’re threatened to be sued when they tell the truth. He wants to ask you an important question: if Sarah is really talking to a lawyer, why didn’t she do that when she said she was a victim? [Pauses and shrugs for effect.] You’re supposed to take legal action against people who commit crimes against you. Says he’s currently pursuing someone right now through the police with a prosecutor and everything because they committed an actual crime. When Sarah said a crime was committed against her she just tweeted about it, went on livestreams, and made Venmos or whatever her friends did. Now that someone is telling the full truth with a 98.7% error rate [lol], that scares her? - [Crime against Sarah, why doesn’t she pursue them, she slanders Greg and Kai instead, Sarah lied about having love for Kai] - He says her threatening to sue when he starts telling the truth is indicative of absolute guilt. He asks if she didn’t go to a lawyer before because she didn’t want Greg to release all this information. Now everyone is going to see the truth about her with her fake bloopers and lies. This is open and close, one of the dumbest thing he’s ever seen. - Says Sarah freaked out on Kai because Kai tweeted about how much he loved the Grey chick from Grey’s Anatomy and how he thought she was hot. Borderline mental breakdown of jealousy. He thinks that’s what initially lead to them telling Sarah she’s too unstable to stay there. [Sarah laughed at Greg’s house burning, says she’s going to psychically assault him] - Says Sarah’s laptop story and sending selfies story are ridiculous. She doesn’t even show the context He hasn’t seen any proof of how she got them. [Kai’s selfie was for Instagram, not sexual] Sarah lied about Kai being a pervert. Kai would never exchange anything. - Says Regina says Kai sent selfies, but he doubts Kai ever sent Regina anything because Regina is a nasty woman. As far as he knows, Kai was never interested in Regina. “Have you seen Regina? Yuck.” As far as Greg knows, Regina had a huge drug problem. Worse than anyone he’s ever known. Regina was in and out of rehab. He doesn’t pay attention to Kai’s arena, but knows that. Regina met Kai when he was 17 and they just had casual conversations about life and stuff. - Sarah thinks Kai tried to bone everyone but Kai is really a hermit. Kai doesn’t want to talk to anyone now that Sarah back stabbed Kai just to get back at Greg. So petty and stupid.

[aceeddiekaspbrak]

not sure if you do headcanons, but if you do, could we get some spare Richie and Steve headcanons? 👀 tbh people need to stop sleeping on this ship, it's super cute 😭

I don’t actually write at all but … I do have thoughts!!! Mixtures of all sorts of sources

Richie big spoon. Likes to feel like he protecc

They have a large bed and don’t really have to care about blanket hogging, but I see Richie as a cold feet directly on ur legs now kinda guy. Steve runs warm in comparison so it rarely fails to make him jump but he’s started to just be a reflexive kicker. All these reasons also benefit Richie being big spoon. If something triggers childhood memories (normal or pennywise. Vintage clown dolls, teenage werewolves, etc) he does like to be held tho. Just curls up and wraps Steve around him and he goes. Teasing lightly.

Richie CAN cook, I’m thinking just like American food classics and Steve can cook like good food but with what time. They order out and make a romantic still-in-box dinner on the couch over much else. Pjs and fuzzy socks>suits and candles and stuffy expensive restaurants for these guys

Pre return to Derry I see richie as still struggling w his sexuality and being out (for various reasons!) but very into Steve, and when he can see himself in a world where he is out he like to see himself in a really long term (maybe even marriage(but does he say this to himself?)) relationship w Steve. but pre return to Derry Steve isn’t so sure. I (for simplicity!) see him as from the LA area(or just, bigger city depending on version ig) and much more down about being out, if not professionally then at least to family, friends, etc. And while he definitely loves rich, and respects his boundary’s of being raised catholic from a small town, he doesn’t know if he can live his life like that and it is a point of contention in their relationship even if Richie doesn’t fully acknowledge it. Post Derry, Richie is able to open up and I think they have a good shot.

They own one large dog together and as Richie (and subsequently his manager,) get more popular and successful they get bigger houses and more small dogs. Big Dog essentially corrals the small ones. It’s adorable. Imagine seeing this on the beach.

They like beach days! No one recognizes famous comedian Richie tozier w his shirt off and sun glasses on, the dogs are adorable. The house they own probably has some private beach area (LA richie bb). Richie likes cliches and jokes with helping put on sunscreen both bc with years of trauma and internalized homophobia it helps him deal with touching his SO publicly and also he has a terrible sense of humor. Also coming from Maine I think he’s glad to just roast in the sun for awhile. Was terrible about it early on. Steve makes sure he’s thorough about it now as more of a inside joke.

steve had to persuade Richie into getting prescription sunglasses. Sandy probably tried, but was unsuccessful bc Richie was too damn funny wearing sunglasses over his already large glasses or just going straight blind w sunglasses originally. Steve convinces him to use some of that money they’ve been making to finally treat himself and stop being a fuckin dork on the beach.  

when gay marriage was legalized Richie, drunk as a skunk, does ask Stevey to marry him(half bad joke, half cos we can, half repression). This is taken badly bc it’s prereturn to Derry and rich will just let them hold hands in public. Also because. Steve does want to marry him, if he can let down some walls and talk to him. Richie just doesn’t want to be that person yet. So drunk joke ‘because we can’ proposals hurt.

Their wedding. like, early 2018. So like my perfect wedding is a duo w benverly, rich and bev are both in white back to back on the alter. Richie and steve absolutely cake each other, none even makes it to eithers mouths, in perfect contrast to bev and Ben carefully and cutely feeding each other. Terrible choreographed group first dance. Bill gives a speech the losers mostly let him get thru w/o jokes. Their dogs all have cute little ties.  VERY small and w lots of security (but like. Far off somewhere) bc what are all this rich fucks doing having weddings together. The rag magazines are fuming they can’t get any info

Also patty is there bc stan was always supposed to be his best man.even when richie didnt remember him he knew he was missing his best stan the man. 

SPORTS Steve is in to em. I dunno which bc I’m NOT but I say Richie has a passing appreciation for baseball but not hockey at all. Anyways Steve is regular sport supporter as much as the next guy but Richie just says shit and heckles and HAS been chased but upset fans after a game. Steve will not let this pass bc as much fun as that was he would like to enjoy a game and post game like, normally. Richie is well, a rich comedian so maybe the get a box sometimes but they’re both guys that like being in the crowd and loudness of it all.

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Unpopular opinion on signs:

Aries: all bark and no actual harm. They like to show how they can be agressive but when it comes down to really be they’re the whiny type that annoys and cries on anger until you do what they want - and if you don’t they will whine about you and leave and will get ready for the “next” fight. They like the defiance more than the actual war.

Taurus: Usually prettier than any libra sign. Also lazier than most signs, usually lazy enough to have trouble dealing with life. This laziness can make them feel abandonmed once people try to know them better and give up when see their slow rhythm and potential to get used with horrible situations instead of changing.

Gemini: Talk so much people don’t take them serious anymore. Usually only 20% of what they say is taken seriously due that, and they don’t care, they just can’t stop talking. More than being intelligent, they like to be seen intelligent, what might cause them to lie to impress and feel smart about it. Nobody likes a liar, tho, and they can ruin people’s trust with this smartass habit.

Cancer: So mommy they can be babies too. Except if you hurt the people they love, differently from Aries people they can actually kill you and bury your body in the yard to feed Mother Nature. They’re too emotional and anger is also an emotion they surrender when in the mood cause they can accept well what they’re feeling. And what they do in a rant of a feeling is not their problem.

Leo: They love to stand out, but only in the right way. They’re too proud even to help themselves in their own path. They can dismiss important people out of pride, and if humiliated somehow they will dedicate part of their life to be seen as someone respectable for those who hate him. Likes to pretend they don’t care about anyone but cares, and sometimes can be obsessed on how people perceive them.

Virgin: They expect perfection from other people and they love to be the judges but they’re not as good as they pretend to be. And they know it, and hide so people won’t see their flaws by getting distant from them or disappearing when noticing too much intimacy. They know nobody is perfect but the petty game is so strong they rather not admit it.

Libra: More than social butterflies they’re pleasers. They try to please too much to be liked and this can turn against them, and they can be made fun of - and some accept it like they’re the clown of the trupe when this in fact hurts them (as would hurt anyone). They can change personalities when see someone or something “cool” enough, having a hard time discovering themselves while lost in other people.

Scorpio: are more passive and permissive than they look. As Aries, they like to be seen as mysterious and dangerous but they’re passive agressive to the core. Full of anger, they complain a lot and take it spiritually while living unhappily, thinking about all kinds of revenge while doing none. And if the person who harmed them say they’re sorry they can forgive everything, complaining sometimes, but never actually doing anything than praying for strength.

Sagittarius: they’re too proud to be the crazy ones. They know their limits and don’t pass it up and are more rational than they like to be seen. Their risks are calculated, and they like to be seen as the people who can do anything they want when in fact there is a lot of planning before the practice. They’re easily hurt too, but like to pretend nothing is happening - when in fact they’re calculating if is worthy to keep people around and move on coldly when the time comes.

Capricorn: they’re actually very funny and silly. They try to keep up with responsibilities and can be one of the most anxious signs but they love and need a good laugh, and it can be a sly one, a silly one or a sarcastic one. If they’re not having fun somehow they will feel the weight of the world and run from this feeling cause they have a lot to do and no time for feelings. They heal being productive and laughing, and moodiness is a big enemy.

Aquarius: they care, probably more than any sign. They just don’t know how to express the caring and don’t want to push the boundaries. They care so much they probably had a research on what people have been through and calculated all the ways they can help but they won’t say it as they don’t want to disrespect anyone and analyzes what should be said and what should be learned through experience, not words. They probably still remember all the people they helped and are willing to give you a hand. They’re very friendly and passionate in their own way.

Pisces: they can be one of the most destructive people - for themselves and others. They can be manipulative and use their “cute and harmless” appearance as a weapon to get what they want. They lie to themselves a lot and can be lost in what is right or wrong while following blindly their feelings just to regret after the damage is done. They also have a hard time admitting their faults as they’re easily infected with other people’s mood and won’t perceive or admit what they truly want from it.

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I was spiralling a lot over the last few days.

My dad is so frustrating and worrying.

Today I had counseling tho so that helped a lot.

I wish I didn't have to deal with Saturday. We have a lot of things wrong with our relationship and I felt like things were finally ok until he stopped me from being busy. Once he stopped me from going to volunteering for a 4th time I realized I couldn't deal with it anymore.

I have had to give up so much for so long that I feel like I can't do anything right. It feels quite hopeless at times. I don't want to be angry.

I finally gave in to advice and told the police about the incident from a few months ago.

I understand that he could have dementia or something like ADHD but he doesn't understand that I am an adult and he needs to respect my boundaries. He is very overwhelming.

He's a clown fish. Like Finding Nemo.

Today it took me from 8-9am until 11pm to fully explain one point. I try to "pin the topic" but it is often the case he goes off on a tangent or misunderstands when I say anything.

For example- my tyre situation!

I said I would ask N for advice on if the tyre is flat through a slow puncture or if it is the PSI?

It went round and round all weekend trying to explain to my dad that N is not responsible for every repair in the car! He's not a car ninja?

Or a magical car fairy 🤣😂

I was just trying to say that I would ASK

But each time I tried to explain it I felt like he was trying to make me feel crazy.

Today was the same, I tried to make a comparison between my dad and my friends. Essentially, he's the oldest brother and most people have told me stories about how they have had to take charge as the oldest child to lead the family and help raise their younger siblings. However, my dad's younger sister has been more proactive when it comes to making decisions for my Nana and my dad is resistant to take responsibility for much of his life!

He has always been a people pleaser, but he doesn't stand up for anyone and it has impacted my life and I have realized that I was neglected.

I love my dad but I can't remember what it's like to know a consistent and honest relationship.

His "it's N's responsibility" and "your history" and saying that I'm "stopping him" comments are all wrong. He's never aware of how bad things are.

He buried his head in the past.

Hopefully having a menu and contacting people for him will help me to feel in control and have power and confidence again.

I'm tired of arguing with him.

Good news tho...

I love N. Feel secure. Feel free to be myself.

He is my rock. He is over 9000!!!

My god I love him so much 💞

Well, he is a God of sex and ~ anime?