#payospotae

[heretherebedork]

That is the gayest 'I see you fellow queer' side eye of all time. @absolutebl It's beautiful.

[ppeonppeonhan]

The look of agony in Payos's eyes made me wish for Potae's early demise.

The audacity of this needy, self-absorbed idiot to position himself for a noncommittal kiss.

I would've burped in his face.

Go to therapy and leave that boy in peace.

[heretherebedork]

Best moment. Just... the best moment. That water choke when he takes his shirt off? A+ gay lust moment, thank you GMMTV.

More lust. @absolutebl They played this trope straight (lol, see what I did there?)

[heretherebedork]

Payos' Gay Awareness does not ever get a break.

[heretherebedork]

In honor of Songkram, I am missing my pining bestie who somehow survived the onslaught on gay lust that watching his friend pour water on his bare chest gave him.

[heretherebedork]

The gay act of pining for your straight best friend as he goes through girls like tissue paper and uses you to fake gay to get of trouble all the while you're holding him in your heart like fine china and then he grabs you by the shirt and says you're the only one he has while you have to sit there and somehow not kiss him.

[heretherebedork]

And Payos' eternal suffering continues.

Because every moment he experiences is another memory that isn't what he wants but is close as he thinks he can ever get.

[heretherebedork]

Don't do that again. You know I have only you.

(This truly explains how Payos loves him so much, a loyal blue boy who hears his passionate red rascal tell him he's the only one for him? No amount of watching him flirt with girls can change his heart.)

[heretherebedork]

I cannot even put into words how aware of Potae that Payos is. It's this Very Specific kind of Gay Awareness because he just... he cannot take his eyes off Potae again and again and again. The thirst is real.

[heretherebedork]

Only Boo has me a bit rabid. We've got ADHD baby boy and his desperate need to please his mother but also to dance, the most darling chef who gave up his dreams after his father's death and has literal artist tablet related trauma that the show is treating gently ALONGSIDE best friends where one is pining and the other is oblivious.

It's just a great little package of communication, kindness, love, being good to people, chasing a dream, finding an old dream, trying to strike a balance between living your life and conforming to society and what it means to be successful but also what it means to have a back up plan and family love and facing the pain and grief of the past to embrace the love of the future.

[heretherebedork]

I love when one person in a set of best friends is absolutely pining after his bestie and said bestie is entirely oblivious. My favorite. My most darling. I adore one person being in love but also knowing that being friends is even more important to him and the way Potae watches Payos run off for a date with a girl after this? Perfect. My favorite kind of pining. I love them so much.

[heretherebedork]

The way Payos comforts Potae and promises to be there for him, to always believe in him and to be at his side... all while loving him in a way that Potae has no idea about.

I'll be with you to the finish line.

Bonus: Potae clinging to Payos' hand

[heretherebedork]

Payos versus Gay Thoughts and Gay Anxiety... Payos has lost, big time. He is Suffering and Potae is not helping and has no idea.

[heretherebedork]

Okay, I love this so much. Payos is doing everything in an effort to stay at Potae's side, to be there for him and with him... and when he tries to be honest to give Tae what he truly wants... Tae is upset. What Tae wants is Payos at his side and with the same passion and so Payos has to constantly hide himself in order to stay at his side. Honestly, they break my heart in this episode.

My adoration of Payos grows and grows. He's just so in love and trying so hard and just... just doing his best. But also especially painful because this is happening entirely because of something Tae did that also breaks Payos heart and just... how do I handle this kind of love and loyalty? How do you handle that!? Just watching this is heartbreaking because first Payos has to watch all the girls Tae is flirting with get revenge and then he has to force him to go try out.

Seriously, Payos, beloved boy what do you see in Tae? Oh, passive and loyal blue boys, you make me hurt for you.

Payos trying to follow Tae's passion even when he doesn't share it because it lets him stay at his side and because of how Tae treats him as long as he's the one there... oof.

And this is why Payos stays and why he loves so hard and so much and fights so hard to stay at Tae's side no matter what he does. He hears that and his heart screams and he cannot move away, cannot let go, cannot tell the truth. He is entirely lost in that, in being the only one he has, in being important to Tae no matter what else might happen around them.

[heretherebedork]

Payos just looks so haunted by this. He's spent so much time feeling ashamed of his love for Tae and then Tae offered no comfort when he repeatedly promised to never cross the line and now he feels like he's supposed to be Tae's friend but he doesn't even know how to keep from loving him and so he's trying but Tae also doesn't know what it's like to be friends when Yos isn't in love it just... it has to hurt. To keep living these moments, to keep living what could be perfect but knowing that it isn't what he truly wants.

[heretherebedork]

It's the way Payos loves him and wants to find the bravery to confess but also wants their friendship to last and so chooses what he feels is cowardice to keep at Potae's side.