#payostae

[heretherebedork]

That is the gayest 'I see you fellow queer' side eye of all time. @absolutebl It's beautiful.

[one-vivid-judgment]

What if Only Boo cameos on the BDSM AU because you mean to tell me KangMoo ("I'm the Red Riding Hood to your wolf" *Moo's general extremely puppy-like demeanor and doing everything just to get some praise/acknowledgement from Kang*) and *gestures at whatever the fuck kinda """platonic""" Dom/sub dynamic PayosTae have going on* wouldn't be at a place like that? Miss me with that bs

[heretherebedork]

And Payos' eternal suffering continues.

Because every moment he experiences is another memory that isn't what he wants but is close as he thinks he can ever get.

[heretherebedork]

Don't do that again. You know I have only you.

(This truly explains how Payos loves him so much, a loyal blue boy who hears his passionate red rascal tell him he's the only one for him? No amount of watching him flirt with girls can change his heart.)

[heretherebedork]

The way Payos comforts Potae and promises to be there for him, to always believe in him and to be at his side... all while loving him in a way that Potae has no idea about.

I'll be with you to the finish line.

Bonus: Potae clinging to Payos' hand

[heretherebedork]

Payos versus Gay Thoughts and Gay Anxiety... Payos has lost, big time. He is Suffering and Potae is not helping and has no idea.

[heretherebedork]

Okay, I love this so much. Payos is doing everything in an effort to stay at Potae's side, to be there for him and with him... and when he tries to be honest to give Tae what he truly wants... Tae is upset. What Tae wants is Payos at his side and with the same passion and so Payos has to constantly hide himself in order to stay at his side. Honestly, they break my heart in this episode.

My adoration of Payos grows and grows. He's just so in love and trying so hard and just... just doing his best. But also especially painful because this is happening entirely because of something Tae did that also breaks Payos heart and just... how do I handle this kind of love and loyalty? How do you handle that!? Just watching this is heartbreaking because first Payos has to watch all the girls Tae is flirting with get revenge and then he has to force him to go try out.

Seriously, Payos, beloved boy what do you see in Tae? Oh, passive and loyal blue boys, you make me hurt for you.

Payos trying to follow Tae's passion even when he doesn't share it because it lets him stay at his side and because of how Tae treats him as long as he's the one there... oof.

And this is why Payos stays and why he loves so hard and so much and fights so hard to stay at Tae's side no matter what he does. He hears that and his heart screams and he cannot move away, cannot let go, cannot tell the truth. He is entirely lost in that, in being the only one he has, in being important to Tae no matter what else might happen around them.

[heretherebedork]

Payos just looks so haunted by this. He's spent so much time feeling ashamed of his love for Tae and then Tae offered no comfort when he repeatedly promised to never cross the line and now he feels like he's supposed to be Tae's friend but he doesn't even know how to keep from loving him and so he's trying but Tae also doesn't know what it's like to be friends when Yos isn't in love it just... it has to hurt. To keep living these moments, to keep living what could be perfect but knowing that it isn't what he truly wants.

[heretherebedork]

Payos and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Crush on his Straight Best Friend Gay Frustration

[heretherebedork]

I just love pining in friendship where the one who's in love has just lost all perspective on the person they love. This is a friendship where they might be used, where they watch their friend fall in love again and again, where they have to hide part of themselves... and they still keep loving. They clutch that love and that friendship to them and never let go. Because the friendship and the love define them and it's not healthy but it's beautiful a poem of broken hearts and outstretched hands and promises that echo and desperate secrets and smiles that don't touch their eyes but do fill their hearts.

[heretherebedork]

Payos is truly trapped in a cycle of having a giant crush and having a best friend who's so close their entire life is now making gay jokes at him while he tries so hard not to just kiss him or confess on the spot.

[heretherebedork]

Payos' suffering? Eternal. Absolutely eternal. Neverending. This man cannot escape.

[heretherebedork]

Yos is just having an out of body experience at this point. He is dying. He is holding himself together with the tiniest of threads and that thread is frayed.

[heretherebedork]

We're going to be even more inseparable!

Payos is fearing for his own survival. Tae, have mercy! He's drowning in love for you.

[heretherebedork]

It's how in love Payos is and how Potae is his best friend and the Gay Thoughts and Gay Anxiety that consume him so thoroughly.

[heretherebedork]

How do I rescue a fictional character from a show and put him somewhere with people who will have mercy on his gay little self?

Of course the real confession is in part 4 and has no follow up and we have no idea what happened. OF COURSE. I predicted this. And I hate it. Come on.