#paul verlaine fictive

[verpaine]

fuck i want to TALK TO HIM. please, chuuya find me. i cannot bring myself to talk to you first. maybe its fear i wont live up to your expectations or be the brother you deserve. all of us in our system know what you're doing, its what dazai did, and it worked. i want to talk with you so badly, don't give up on me. i just cant talk to you, maybe im ashamed, i wish i could tell you. surely you'll find me. it's unbearable, like this, i just need to hug you again chuu. please.

[fictive-confessions]

Hiii, doing a source call for my bf! He's a Chuuya Nakahara fictive from Bungo Stray Dogs looking for his brother, Paul Verlaine, from the Stormbringer Light Novel. He would only like fictives/introjects of Verlaine to make contact(sorry, kins!). Bodily, he is 17, so preferably bodily around that age range(for safety reasons of course). I know he remembers Verlaine and Rimbaud being gay and taking him from the lab earlier/taking care of young Chuuya. Contact @dazaii-osamu pls!!

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verlaine fictive, please get over it.

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hello, my name is Ver, and our main is @duckduckgoose-exe

most information is on there, i’ll start replying to things and such on here more to declutter our main, which is followed by some. popular artists. feel free to ask questions, i don’t mind.

Also I adore my source family, even if it isn’t ‘canon’.

I should add more information on myself, so here you go.

I tend to ‘lose’ my memories often, meaning I forget people i apparently know, it’s distressing but I’m fine after.

I also tend to overly assume things and then immediately recoil if I’m wrong, and I miss my family even if they technically don’t exist anymore.

That’s it. I think. Sorry.

Oh and you can call me Ver, Verlaine, Paul, any, those are all my names, I use the first one more because people act weird when they hear who I’m a fictive of.

Intro

[regressionicons]

Blacklist

Sources:

Alice in Wonderland

Any analogue horrors

Cult of the Lamb

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss

Jujutsu Kaisen

Nekopara

Yandere simulator

Characters:

Adam (SK8 the infinity)

Paul Verlaine (BSD)

Mori Ougai (BSD)

As a general note we will not edits for the characters listed unless they are for fictives.

[straydogkins]

If anything listed is in bold, then we not willing to edit for this franchise/character under any circumstance- Fictives are an exception to some of these.

This list can and will be added to at any given time.

Sources:

Alice in Wonderland

Any analogue horrors

Cult of the Lamb

Drop out idol fruit tart

Hazbin Hotel

Helluva Boss

Live action

Oshi no Ko

Characters:

Adam (SK8 the infinity)

Amane Momose (Milgram)

Mori Ougai (BSD)

Paul Verlaine (BSD)

Ships:

Dazai Osamu x Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (BSD)

Dazai Osamu x Atsushi Nakajima (BSD)

Themes:

Eye strain

[syunkiss]

whats funnier than a Chuuya fictive finding confort in Paul Verlaine LOLLL (I remember nights when I cried in panic, and he was confused, he didn't know what to do, but he did the best he could to just hug me and use the sweetest words he could to make me stop crying. I remember nights when I couldn't sleep and I stayed up all night crying and wanting to scream, but he came into the room and sat next to me. He did his best to be like a big brother to me or even a caring father. I remember he didn't mind if I even sat on his lap like if I was a small child so I could finally calm down. Even though I didn't look him in the eye due to my lack of eye contact, I felt like he was watching me and trying to keep me safe. )

[kinfinders]

Hiii, doing a source call for my bf! He's a Chuuya Nakahara fictive from Bungo Stray Dogs looking for his brother, Paul Verlaine, from the Stormbringer Light Novel. He would only like fictives/introjects of Verlaine to make contact(sorry, kins!). Bodily, he is 17, so preferably bodily around that age range(for safety reasons of course). I know he remembers Verlaine and Rimbaud being gay and taking him from the lab earlier/taking care of young Chuuya. Contact @dazaii-osamu pls!!

@dazaii-osamu

[findinyourkin]

Hiii, doing a source call for my bf! He's a Chuuya Nakahara fictive from Bungo Stray Dogs looking for his brother, Paul Verlaine, from the Stormbringer Light Novel. He would only like fictives/introjects of Verlaine to make contact(sorry, kins!). Bodily, he is 17, so preferably bodily around that age range(for safety reasons of course). I know he remembers Verlaine and Rimbaud being gay and taking him from the lab earlier/taking care of young Chuuya. Contact @dazaii-osamu pls!!

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[verpaine]

I remember the times you cried in the bathroom, Rimbaud, because the blood would not wash out from your clothes, and the fabric had been stained. I did not understand, it wasn't that hard to wash a simple article of clothing. But you seemed to spiral at the sight of crimson splatter on ivory. Your eyes grew full of guilt and regret and the words were stolen from my very throat. I didn't know what to do, or say, so I just held you until the streams of salty tears ceased its way down your cheeks, rosy and flushed from the exertion of your sobbing and breakdown. Even as a spy, you felt every ounce of guilt and pain and regret, and you were true, beautiful human. I hated it. You got to be human, to feel this guilt, regret over those you've hurt. I viewed it all as a means to an end. Why should the ants be cried ocer if stepped upon? And then you showed me true human heart, clutched my false one in your hands and breathed your life into it and it's not fair, Arthur. I hate this. Why do I now have to feel regret over you dying, feel sad and sob the same way you did because you're no longer with me. It's the human thing to be sorry, sorry for the fighting, for the coldness, for the violence, for all of the ways I failed to treat you right, but I cannot be. I'm not, and I didn't do it out of a sadistic cruelty either. It was just how I was and why should I change that to be human, to be something I wasn't and never will truly be. But I am sorry for you dying. I'm sorry that it wasn't by my hands, that I wasn't there, that I never treated you as I should've, as you deserved for putting up with such shit from me. For leaving Chuuya, leaving you, because the prospect of being human, even though you were trying to introduce me to the idea of a decade, was too unnatural. It was impossible for me, and that's what I'm sorry for. But, what can I do. I'm in a basement, training assassins, staying away from the outside. With nothing to do but write, or read, or sleep. I don't know anymore.

The feather soft brush of your lips against steaming tea,

Earl Grey rippling melancholy waves through porcelain,

Delicate start to cold spring's dawn, a chill making your cheeks rosy,

Topaz-sapphire gaze deep, how can a human be so free?

I cannot understand, how on such a simple morning day

You smile tenderly with shivering hands that have stolen life, and say

"Good morning, Verlaine. Did you sleep well?" How dare you utter those simplistic words?

Like I hadn't fallen in love the night before, and the one before that, too.

You finish with,

"Happy birthday."

And I fall apart.

Sorry, I may be rusty at poetry. I have only recently formed, you see. Maybe I'll fill this journal? Blog? With poetry.

A journal would be nice.

[verpaine]

I miss Chuuya. I wish I could've been there for him more, more than anything. I know exactly where he is, but I don't want to talk to him first. I want him to discover my existence first. It may be unfair to keep myself from him but I'm still getting adjusted. I've only been existing for a few days and by our body's headache, we are not used to it. I just want to make sure he knows I'm here, I do exist, I'm his brother.

Find me, please, Chuuya. This is directed.

[verpaine]

he has the same heterochromia as me, brown on the right, blue on the left. i covered my brown eye with hair, though. rimbaud thought they were both gorgeous and I'd like to think i told chuuya the same but i dont know yet.

[verpaine]

Paul Verlaine fictive here. Verlaine

Making this with the help of our system's host and some others(those of which chose the name)

He/him, role in our system is unknown

Miss Chuuya and Rimbaud . I know Chuuya will find me. Rimbaud... perhaps it's best if we don't see each other again.

Here I guess I will talk about random things? I don't fully know what it means to be an alter in a system yet and I'm still struggling with my memories.

Other bsd fictives are free to interact, though I am looking for my specific Chuuya, and I know who that is. If there are any Arthur fictives, for me at least, we were romantically involved.

Unsure what else to write