#outing myself with the thirst ngl

[dear-ao3]

Question for the mods....

HOW IN THE FUCK DID YOU MEET???

Like what???

How??

I am so god damn curious about you two. I wanna study yall under a microscope lol

Also ngl kinda envious of how close of friends you two seem to be. (Being an introverted shy af mofo sucks lmao)

I would actually probably read a whole ass book or watch a sitcom or something of the seemingly ever present weird-ass shit that seems to happen on a day-by-day basis.

/gen /lh /nf /pos

2018 newsies fandom. we weren't overly close but we bonded over race and albert a little and then katya dropped off the face of the earth for about a year.

during 2020 lockdown we both independently got into the witcher fandom and somehow ran into eachother again and had the fingers pointing OH MY GOD Y O U !!! moment in our dms. we bonded over hating jaskier. during this time we realized we were both dancers and katya was looking at dance colleges, i was already in college for dance and since it was lockdown and we couldn't go anywhere i told katya my experience auditioning at places to give him a good idea of places. and then i broke every internet safety rule known to man and said hey what if you had applied to my college but didnt know it?? and then one thing led to another and i dished out all the tea on my school. (only After that did we face reveal and give eachother our names lol) and then katya applied. mostly as a joke. until it wasnt a joke because that school gave katya a shit load of money and actually had stuff katya wanted to do. katya ended up coming to one of my zoom ballet classes and it took everything we had to not loose our shit on camera.

during this time we mostly kept eachother sane in lockdown writing witcher fanfic, and sending eachother awful thirst traps on instagram to pitbull music. one of our awful bits was using the dilf filter to make bad frat boy edits.

come august of 2021 we both moved into college. the same college. in the same building. it was wild. i pinched myself several times in shock. we went on a walk around campus with some worms on strings and were like what the hell how did we get here.

we continued to hang out and did weird insane things together. we took a class on the french revolution together where i had to put up with katya and fennec awkwardly flirting (read: making finger guns at eachother).

and then, since i was 2 years older, i was graduating and was going to stay in the area for a job and was like hey. what if we got an apartment together? and then we did. several adults agreed to this. idk why they let us. but now we live together in a real life apartment and we haven't even killed eachother yet. neither of our parents know that we met online. each of them have a different fake story as to how we know eachother and we really just hope they are never in the same room long enough to ask eachother about it. but its insane. 12/10 would recommend.

katya wanted me to include old tumblr screenshots of us talking, heres what i found from circa 2020:

we've always been like this lol

and heres some ancient greatest hits from instagram, i dont have context and trust me you dont want it:

every now and then the two of us look at eachother and go. how the fuck did we end up here??? (we have no idea)

[headspace-hotel]

I am a dedicated water enjoyer but i have such a hard time believing that the "recommended" amount of water you are supposed to drink per day is legit ngl

According to google you're "supposed" to drink 125 ounces of water per day (almost a gallon). (I'm tempted to call this bullshit even just based on the fact that it's just one of several different answers.) At what point in the evolution of our species would this have been possible, especially in hot environments where you're out sweating in the sun and would need even more water?

Like okay, for one thing, drinking water by lapping it up or with your hands makes it a lot more time consuming to ingest a significant quantity of water. Furthermore, drinking from stagnant pools will give you illnesses that will kill you, and clean springs and mountain streams aren't exactly everywhere.

Did hunter-gatherers that spent their days tracking large game stop 8 times a day to guzzle down water? How did they have the fucking time to do this? Where were they getting it? Were they lugging gallons of water with them all the time in animal skin bags or something? Could they drink 4 standard water bottles' worth of water in one go whenever they found a water source? A lot of springs don't even produce water that fast??

Humans have lived in literal deserts for thousands of years!! Indoor plumbing is a new thing! Our culture is so water-centric that "around the water cooler" is slang for a casual social situation at work, most buildings have fountains specifically for dispensing drinking water, lobbies and hotels everywhere have vending machines that dispense beverages, and an important form of self-expression in public is carrying large, decorated water bottles. And yet somehow we're all chronically dehydrated and should be drinking more water??

Why would evolution adapt us to require more water than thirst can or will signal us to drink, anyway? Isn't that the reason thirst exists? 

(Also, has anyone who makes this shit up ever tried to drink that much water?? I used to drink 32 ounces of water over a 2 hour period, and I needed to go to the bathroom every 10-20 minutes to avoid pissing myself, like I would be in pain within minutes. If my body is getting rid of such insane quantities of water that my piss is basically water and I'm going to the bathroom every 20 minutes, that seems like a clear sign that my body does not want to have so much water in it.)

But I digress. At what point in time before the modern day would it have been possible for a human to ingest 8 glasses of water every day or 120 ounces or whatever is supposedly ideal??? If "dehydration" is the default state and has been for millions of years what does "dehydration" even MEAN?? Make it make sense...

[pennyellee]

Do you have any recs for other yandere fics that you loved?

Ofc! I can definitely think of few that struck my mind.

First and foremost @chaoticpuff17 - there is not a fic of hers I wouldn't be thirsting over. Queen of queens. A Dangerous Game is my personal favourite obviously but I cannot help myself and be thrilled for Amygdala ♥

The bouquet series by @deepdarkdelights is manifique, chef kiss writer (ngl another author I could re-read like hundred times and would feel like I’m reading it for the first time.)

@dalchiid and her fic Covetous, unique and perfect read if you’re looking for longer series or love vampire aus

@bang-tan-bitches Beloved and Exitus acta probat is a must when you’re reading yandere yoongi

@btsugarush Gangsta fic got me real good, love it

not completely yandere-ish but if ur looking for good recs I cannot omit @theharrowing and Collateral. Bombastically good, absolute banger, can’t stop the re-read train every time I wait for a new chapter. If you’re looking for a good poly fic+mafia fic, this is that b*tch

Chapter III of my fic Lacrimosa will be out soon ♥

lots of love 𝖕𝖊𝖓𝖓𝖞𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖊

[save-the-villainous-cat]

Hey,

So I just wanted to tell you that I absolutely adore your writing. My mental health is currently making it difficult for me to write anything, which is why I thirst for prompts like yours to keep myself inspired for some hopefully better days in the future when I got my motivation for writing back (help, this sounds so cringe). Anyways, I admire your talent greatly and aspire to be like you one day.

Bleib wie du bist, feier dich aufs übelste, byee <3

Ahh—

Mother tongue hits different ngl 🥲

Anyway. This truly means a lot to me. I’ve said this before but honestly, I have no perception of what others think of me. For the most part, I convince myself that my followers are bots.

I considered not posting this ask because it’s very special to me but ahh you deserve an answer and I hope you’re okay.

I’ve learnt from my very bad mental health years that you won’t always feel that way. Funnily, I find my comfort in biology and writing: life has chosen you and from all the billion things that could’ve gone wrong, enough things went right to create you.

It’s honestly a miracle.

And you coexist with all these other organisms that you share a common ancestor with. All these other remarkable species that have a lot more in common with you than you think.

What I’m trying to say is: finding comfort in the things you love can change a lot. Creating this blog and posting my writing is actually what pulled me out of a depressive episode.

Naja. Vielleicht ist es doch ein bisschen zu spät, um darüber nachzudenken. Ich wünsch dir auf jeden Fall nur das Beste. <3

[hypaalicious]

Why I think Nocturne is way better than the OG Castlevania series

Sorry, when I try to shut up about this show I be like

so here’s my unsolicited, highly biased word vomit that will contain spoilers at the end (but those will be under a cut) so read at your own risk! Okay, leggo

It’s actually diverse.

One thing about high fantasy is that it’s almost always Eurocentric. Even if it’s not set in Europe, the characters are gonna inexplicably have British accents because we associate that with high fantasy. We’re gonna have European style “old” clothing choices. And if everyone isn’t white, they might as well be because they’ll only throw in a couple ambiguously brown side characters and call it a day. Or if they make a main character a POC then best believe everyone around them will be white.

Nocturne, tho? Oh, you can tell it’s made with more than just a sprinkle of representation. They didn’t just make Olrox indigenous, they tied his Aztec lineage in beautifully. Annette was a slave but it’s not flattening her character because of it. Drolta came to slay but even she has her authentic background. Which leads me to my next point!

The Black characters especially are done tastefully.

Like… don’t get me wrong. I love Isaac. He was the only reason I stayed tuned into Castlevania past season 1, LMAO! But his backstory felt like straight trauma porn cooked up by a non-Black person who wanted an excuse to see a Black man whipped for character development.

Zodwa Nyoni wrote some episodes for Nocturne and she put her FOOT in it. When it came to addressing Annette’s time as a slave, her connection to the Orisha through her bloodline… I was gobsmacked at how accurate everything was and now I know why LOL! Like, for me, it’s always gonna be hard to see slavery in fiction but I can’t say shit bad about how it was tied into everything in this show. Annette’s ancestors play such a huge part in her growth and it just warmed my heart to see a Black girl whoop some colonizer ass without it feeling hamfisted. 🥹

The token relationship is the cishet one, everyone else is gay asf

I love that trope flipped on it’s head, ngl LMAO! I, by default, HC everyone as bi anyway but MAN was it nice to see Olrox and Mizrak speedrun enemies to lovers and a hint of Drolta’s devotion/gayness to Erzsebet.

I know the majority of my fictional character thirsting leans male but don’t get it twisted; I jump for JOY for gay shit in media 😂 The only reason I don’t thirst as hard for female characters is because I prefer my men fictional but my women real.

That being said, this series sent me into bi panic and I’d like to be manhandled in a room by Drolta and Olrox.

Nocturne’s first season plays out neater than the OG’s first season.

Like… okay. My main beef with the OG series was that after they defeated Dracula, the rest of the show felt like a meandering fanfic. Sure, there were a few badass moments, but the energy kinda faltered for me and I was bored with a lot of it. I hope they don’t do the same with Nocturne; they left off at a nice cliffhanger which builds anticipation for the next season and… idk it feels more cohesive already? They coulda speedran kicking Erzsebet’s face in like the OG trio did to Dracula but I’m so glad they left us a lil something to look forward to.

Alucard’s glow up >>>>>

I’m chronically online but I’m so glad I went into this series blind because the way I GASPEDT when he showed up at the end

Like damn for the past fifty-leven years he was in that castle by himself going “do I wanna talk to Sypha and Trevor plushies again or do I wanna make myself even more of a bad bitch?” Then he chose the latter, went to the salon, got his hair bleached platinum along with some sew in extensions for volume, beat his face with Fenty, and said “sorry Drolta but there can be only one vampire baddie on this earth and hunny I’m TAKIN IT”

He looks more like his video game design this way too, which I love! I hate that he took out Cuntress McSlay tho 😔 Drolta I will always love you!!

Mmkay. Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to start a cult to Olrox real quick. Erzsebet ain’t the only god walking the earth and I feel he just needs good marketing!

[calyxcurl]

3 and 6 for the fic rec ask meme please 🥰

OHHHHHH!!! 🥰

3. 😂 A fic that made you laugh out loud

THERE... ARE SO MANY. SO I WILL LIMIT MYSELF TO THREE FOUR!! And I will do it in order of word length!

Uncouth by yeaka ~1.6k words, Rated T one of my favorite 3zun dynamic is xiyao being obnoxiously flirtatious and mingjue having an aneurysm about it AJDFHLSDKJHA

Pet Slut by @giraffeter ~6.7 words, Rated M YOU JUST HAVE TO READ IT (The Lan Xichen thirst is real ((so valid))!!!!!) Comedic, involves DOGGIES, HILARIOUS Jin siblings interaction!

Tender Tentacle Tribulations by Shiome @evilhasnever ~7.9k words, Rated E 🦑 MONSTER-FUCKING!🐙IT'S REALLY CUTE AND LIGHTHEARTED and horny AND I LAUGHED AT SEVERAL THINGS (which i evidently posted bloopers for!) BUT THE LINE THAT HAS STAYED IN MY HEAD FOREVER is Nie Huaisang asking: "How hard can it be to sit on a dick, Yao-Yao?"

Where Did The Party Go by @tilwesink ~9.1k words, Rated T I was laughing for the majority of this fic ngl--!! SongXueXiao isn't my main ship but Xue Yang in particular is hilarious here and the background XiYao is *CHEF'S KISS*! Perfect bridezilla A-Yao!

I am also realizing that I, uh, was able to choose these off the top of my head because have podficced all of these and remember vividly having to pause multiple times to laugh during each recording process lsdkfhlaksdjfhashl HONESTLY i didn't intend for this to be a self-promo HOWEVER i do feel inclined to share some art I drew for these!

6. 😊 A fic that made you smile on a bad day

Guanyin's Gift by @galadhir ~36.7k words, Rated G I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES AN UPDATE FROM THIS FIC HAD ME LITERALLY RISE FROM THE DEAD OF DEPRESSION LIKE THE AMOUNT OF ENDORPHINS EACH UPDATE BROUGHT ME WAS INSANE!!!!

ALSO, GALADHIR IS MAKING A PODFIC VERSION OF IT AND IT IS SO FAR FABULOUS AS I AM RE-LIVING THE ENTIRE THING AGAIN BUT THIS TIME IT'S BEING READ TO ME!!!!!!

Thank you for asking me for fic recs!! They are, unsurprisingly, mostly XiYao. 😂😌

Fic Recs (Ask Meme)

[bondagebimbo]

the time has come once again for me to ask my favorites questions to get to know them better 🖤

1. what is a scent that reminds you of a happy memory?

2. are you most drawn to the forest, the ocean, the mountains or the desert?

3. do you have any go-to comfort foods?

4. what are five things you love about yourself?

5. what is your favorite horror movie franchise or series?

6. is there a song that gives you goosebumps every time you listen to it?

7. if you could magically learn a new language, which would you choose?

no pressure to answer, beautiful! i hope you have a wonderful day 🤗

hiiii honey!!!! not pressured at all!!! I love being asked things that are more thought provoking like this!!! I just hope my answers are satisfying lol

1. my old great grandmothers very light rose scented perfume. I still smell it around my mom’s house occasionally from time to time when I’m over there (she lived with us before she passed, despite her death being almost 12 years ago now) and it’s a really relaxing and comforting scent to catch a whiff of when I’m over and manage to, just in general, because my mom doesn’t have a bottle of it in the house so we take it as a sign that she’s visiting from wherever she is. so it brings back a lot of good memories with her when I catch that scent anywhere in public or whenever I’m stressed out because she always used to help calm my panic attacks when I was young. losing that woman did a number on me, honestly.

2. mountains/forest combination, hands downnnn. throw me in the PNW and watch me flourish as a newfound cryptid 😭😭😭

3. steak 😅 I love a good fuckin steak ONLY if it’s rare as hell. anything more done than mid rare and I cannot stomach it. gotta be blue rare/rare for me lol.

4. oh please don’t ask me this when I’m already feeling not great about myself, I can’t think of a single thing right now, I’m so sorry about this one 😭

5. Silence of the Lambs, if I’m being dead honest. Hannibal Lector could get it (and so could the Mads Mikkleson show adaption, not just Anthony Hopkins lol 🥵)

6.

HEAR ME OUT OKAY: just the fucking INTRO makes me shiver and makes my nipples hard, like, not even hitting vocals. once it gets to that point, I’m already a puddle ngl. this song just does it for me. Maria Brink x Motionless in White is the best crossover tbh.

7. I already know Latin, but I want to learn Italian, Russian, French, god. thinking about it, I’d be content to learn ANY other language tbh. I have an insatiable thirst for knowledge and it’s def triggered by wanting to learn every language I possibly can, lmao 😅

[transitioningpirate]

today - 03/11 - dates exactly one month since i've started t!!!!! i'm so happy and honestly so pleased with everything. i had a bit of a bad month (got sick, had a bit of a falling out with someone and then i got sick again) but seeing the effects it's had on me already makes me honestly so happy. and thinking about what's to come makes me so much happier!! it's been a while since i realized i actually was feeling excited for the long term future. it's amazing.

here's some of the changes i noticed:

same as the last list - hunger and thirst have increased a lot. the doctor says it's because of my metabolism, it's much faster now. this is good but also bad because i keep forgetting to drink water. this is something that i've always struggled with. before this week, i've already ended up in a hospital because of dehydration like three times. anyways, i used to live in an island, very used to humidity, and this year, for college, i moved to a town that's, like, over an hour away from the nearest beach. it's very very dry. and like i said before, in november we were hit by a terrible heat wave, and it all piled up: fast metabolism, heat wave, dry place, me forgetting to drink water frequently, and you guessed it: i ended up at the hospital yesterday :(. had to take some pain meds and some saline, but im totally fine now, and ill make sure it doesn't happen again!

so much more energy. i know i said this already, but it's crazy, seriously, i have so much more energy just in general, for everything. it's amazing. ive been sleeping better, eating better, working harder, studying more, it's crazy. my mood has increased a lot, too, actually, especially after my second t shot.

irritability, but i think this has more to do with my personal life. a bit of tmi here: i was seeing someone until not long ago but some not-very-nice stuff happened, and i asked for a break (with no intention of returning, mind you, despite what he so confidently claimed) and immediately after realized i very likely had an sdt for the first time in my whole life. for the record, this is the only person ive slept with this whole year, basically. so. yeah, i was stressed, you can say that. spent a bit of money on meds, and im already feeling much much better, but it definitely took me down for a couple days, emotionally and physically, and i honestly think my irritability came from that, but maybe t had a hand on it too? who knows

two friends of mine claimed im growing a moustache, but i dont think so yet. i already had a very thin very small moustache before, and maybe it's getting a bit thicker? i haven't noticed it personally except in one (01) picture i took with a weird lightning. im not sure... but i like to think so! maybe it's just starting to get thicker and it'll actually grow eventually!

acne. i bought a soap for my face specifically, and i use it everyday, sometimes twice a day, so it's not as bad as it could be, but it's definitely present. mostly in my forehead and my chin. it's easily taken care of, though, and doesn't hurt and barely shows, so it's whatever

my voice has definitely gotten deeper! not significantly so, but it definitely has, it's noticeable, and i love it so much. i love listening my own voice. i love listening to myself talk. i love it, love it love it love it so much. i record so much more audios on wpp now, i like hearing them back, i like hearing myself!!!!! it's the best. ive never felt this way about my voice before. im so happyyyy <3<3

it's so hooooot god i feel hot almost all of the time, everywhere it's warm and i sweat sooooo much. doubled my deodorant use and i have no regrets. it's not a bad thing, but it is mildly inconvenient sometimes, ngl. living in this hot as all hell town definitely doesn't help. ive wore more light and freeing clothes and it actually helps a lot, though. plus, my baby cousin's birthday this month will be a pool party, so im hella excited for that!!!!!!

if i can think of anything else, ill add onto this. thank you so much :3

[crimsun-n-clover]

dalia chronicles

i need her so bad dude

like. i don’t. i’m just being weird because i’m bored and she’s my type.

BUT—

i’ve hit rock fucking bottom. i took all the screenshots of her stuff and all the songs off of them and put them in a playlist. because if i was posting “me <3” to thee most obscure song ever?? i’d want people to go check that shit out. and like. understand me or whatever. but that’s what i would want. i’m being fucking weird about this. i think she’d like the attention but i’d actually rather die than give it to her in this dumbass unstable institutionalized way

i just need her to dm me first ONE TIME. not replying to me posting her stuff on my story. like. replying to literally anything else. to justify my behavior.

BECAUSE

HERES THE FUCKING T H I N G MAN

i took mickey to a concert a few days back. twas rad. we saw idkhow. i posted about it a little. when i get home and check my instagram?? i see that i posted us at the concert waiting for it to start 5 hours ago. and dalia posted a question submission box to an idkhow song. 5 hours ago.

WHAT ARE THE ODDS. she’s fucking with me. she’s SO fucking with me. just dm me for the love of GOD and stop baiting me with things. even though it’s kinda why im into you in the first place. fuckin whatever man.

this is literal torture but i’m kinda having a good time ngl

today she posted two stories to the song casual by chappell roan and holy. fuck. dude. that song is SO real.

i’ve felt used so much for my looks and reputation and i was fucking fine with it at the time because if that was all i was gonna get then i should just shut up and be grateful. i was so stupid but i was almost happy. it made everything hurt so much more when it was over because honestly? i was fucking bitter. i wanted nothing more than revenge and numbness. i wanted to hurt her back and keep her down before she can try that shit again. teach her a thing or two about what loss means. it’s horrible to be like that, i know. but it was horrible of her to be showing me apartment listings for us while talking to a guy who was actively homophobic toward me. i’m not proud of what i did or who i am, but fuck being the bigger person. i’m three fuckin inches tall and gonna get in your stupid double standard holding brain until you pry me out yourself and admit what you did.

anyway

dalia posted herself to that song twice in a thirst trappy way. i want to pick her brain so bad. what happened? are you okay?? you deserve better. you’re interesting and talented and deserve every ounce of attention you crave. i’d be happy to give you some if you’d give me permission. i don’t want to be the problem here. the bits of your personality that i’ve seen have been so intriguing to me. i’m enraptured and i want to know more. it’s not purely physical, but it could be if you want it to.

also. why are you so hot it’s not FAIR and how have the last two girls i’ve been dangerously into posted themselves with a star drawn on their collarbone and made my poor gay brain short circuit?? i’m actually in shock about that one ngl. while the lyric “knee deep in the passenger seat and you’re eating me out, is it casual now?” plays in the background. i hope i die

moving on. ish.

i want to save it but they’re videos and i can’t just paste videos into a notes file like i would with a photo i didn’t want laying around. i didn’t even like the more thirst trappy one because i’m RESPECTFUL. she’s so pretty and i want to drool over her a little. i’m obviously fucking ashamed but if a straight guy did it it would be normal so. whatever. i feel like saving it would be hitting some kind of barrier. dunno what it is but there’s gotta be a limit around here somewhere. or maybe it’s admitting something to myself. that this is a genuine interest but it’s not if i don’t save the video. GOD i hate it here

i feel like i’m objectifying her? like. i’d love for her to objectify me honestly. lick my fucking tongue and get it over with so i can think about it for the rest of my life. she seems to be looking for attention in any way she can get it and that makes me think she would be cool with it. but i don’t want to be that you know? i know how that feels. but i also wouldn’t mind something unserious with her. but i would want more if she wanted more. that’s a fucking LIE i’d want more regardless but i’d take more if i got permission.

i’m kinda sorta maybe the type of person with an avoidant attachment style. something good happens? cool! sounds like bullshit. cash out while i’m high and tuck tail n fucking bolt. i’ll feel like shit about it but if i stick around something bad always happens.

i’m getting. a vibe. that maybe she’s similar. i’m probably just projecting. i don’t know how to describe it, but it feels like everything she does is a wild fucking shot in the dark and then she runs off for a bit until she builds up the courage to do it again. she’ll drop a hint or say something important and then post art and her outfit for a week and do it all over again.

it feels like we’re both testing the water at different times. just “wouldn’t it be cool if. girlfriend? GOODBYE GUYS NICE KNOWING YOU” eventually there’s gonna be an intersection and shit is gonna go DOWN bro. like. added to my lore kind of down. but i think i’m gonna be the one to have to actually make the first move that isn’t liking her stories and i’m gonna blow my fucking brains out. and like five other people will die because of all the suicide pacts i’m a part of.

and then immediately after i get even a DROP of reciprocation i’ll go “damn that’s crazy. fuckin ditto or whatever. i’m leaving the country don’t wait up” OR immediately propose. no in between. i hate it here

[moss-selfship]

NGL when I followed this blog I thought it was just a run-of-the-mill Izutsumi fan blog so when the first post I saw today was about you eating her out I was surprised lol. I'm not judging btw I just was not expecting that at all

I'm still going to keep following for the same reason I started tho to collect images of Izutsumi as she is great.

XD yeah sorry for the little tonal shift there lol. also i will say thank you for being polite and stuff with this, thats impressive this day and age online. and yeah my blog is a unique one in that i ship myself with izutsumi (going as far as making a self insert and imagining stuff between us) and that often includes nsft stuff about it. From what ive seen i am like...The only person that ships themself with her so my blog is def a unique one in that way. if it helps i tag all posts like that as "nsft" (an acronym for not safe for tumblr). and you can blacklist the tag if you would like that way you can still follow for all the izutsumi content i reblog without having to see my thirsting for this fictional catgirl XD

[joocomics]

idk why out of all times where my creative juices are working. it is when my midterms are happening. i'm not ready to finish my projects 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ i need gunil's hug to recharge me.

omg wait gaon looks so pretty in his new hair and jungsu is wrecking me with his. it's bad cuz jungsu is my friend's bias and i keep looking at her biases. it happened too many times where i keep looking at them. i'm not sorry. they just look too good.

- 🫧

i feel you soo hard on thirsting over your friends’ biases loll not only do i feel guilty for not being loyal to joo and jiseok but guilty for wanting to fuck my friend’s bias but at the end of the day i just tell myself that it’s literally impossible to be in love with just one guy from this group IMPOSSIBLE they’re all hot, funny and irresistible 😩

(i LOVE blonde gaon!! one of my fave looks on him, i love blonde jungsu too - his previous blonde look is when he started giving me serious butterflies in my stomach but my fav color on him will always be black and i already miss it ngl)

omg good luck on your midterms AND on all of your projects!! hope they all go smoothly 🤞🏼 i know you’ll do great 🫶🏼

[princewardo]

(TSN anon here) ngl lately this timeline has been pretty weird, a billionaire cage fight doesn't seem too far-fetched. Aaaaaand if the mz thirst trap inspires you to write more tsn fics ... all's well that ends well ┌(▀Ĺ̯▀)┐. Alsooooo I read the latest chapter of Oath Sworn !!!!!!!!!!!(┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻.

hi! yeahhhhh like i'm not...mad? about this part of the timeline? it feels like the kind of bullshit i write to get myself out of a plot corner when i realise i've gone way too hard with the doomsday plot lol.

the thirst trap....the thirst trap only motivates me to more insane tsn heights. great news for meta's pr machine, bad news for the rest of you as you watch on in horror...

i hope you ??? enjoyed ???? the recent chapter ??? very small handful of people having a good time in that chapter. 😨 emperor marcus, though? mark is having a fucking great day. lol. rolls up, dishes out some wild punishments, adds a country to his empire, gets a blow job. he really can't complain.

[chuuyanakaahara]

I read your Tachizaki fic!!! It gave me an as of yet unquenched thirst for more Tanizaki focus!

ignore me I answered this wrong the first time

okay okay

:o thank u so much !! i really love the hunting dogs and actually writing stray god is what got me to write my jouno backstory fic (which was a doozy!).

I do really wish there was more tachizaki / tanizaki-centric stuff out there but alas. I must do it myself as of late !!

if you're itching for more tanizaki tho, may I recommend taste of fear,,, it was a 17k role reversal one shot I wrote :3 it's tagged as platonic tachihara & tanizaki but it's got some great build-up for a sequel ngl

[xthescarletbitch]

I posted 2,348 times in 2022

That's 2,348 more posts than 2021!

296 posts created (13%)

2,052 posts reblogged (87%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@miss-cry-baby

@milfreya

@mrsdanirojas

@residenteepy

@no-onewaslistening

I tagged 1,071 of my posts in 2022

#far cry 6 - 111 posts

#fc6 - 97 posts

#kassandra my love - 82 posts

#dani rojas - 77 posts

#far cry 6 spoilers - 71 posts

#dani rojas fc6 - 58 posts

#fc6 spoilers - 57 posts

#dani rojas far cry 6 - 56 posts

#kassandra - 56 posts

#fc6 dani rojas - 56 posts

Longest Tag: 118 characters

#i have a bad habit of thinking that i am undeserving of anything good due to my own fucked up feelings about myself 💗

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

kassandra blurb ✨

warnings: smut, so minors DO NOT INTERACT

authors note: this was literally a random thing i wrote while playing odyssey. it is not proofread at all, so there are probably some mistakes. enjoy the evidence of my thirst.

also; mobile text layout. i am so sorry! ♡

“Please Kass,” you pleaded. “It’s too much!”

She gripped your hips harder than you gripped the silken sheets. The room was filled with the sounds of skin slapping and her heavy breathing, as well as breathy moans you couldn’t keep contained.

“Shhh… you’re doing great, my love.” She leaned down to whisper in your ear. She threw her hand down upon your bare asscheek, prompting a tiny scream from you, as she continued to bury her strap deep inside of you. You let out a small cry as you buried your face in the pillow in front of you, Kassandra still holding your hips up. She continued to pound into you as you felt your legs grow weaker.

Kassandra’s thrusts became slower, but rougher. She would draw her strap out of you, only to slam it back in. She grabbed your breasts and held your back against her chest as a way to angle herself better in fucking you. She planted kisses on your neck as you threw your head back and closed your eyes. You felt the familiar feeling in your stomach again as you clenched around her. She kept kissing your neck and urged you on. She whispered into your ear once more. “Go on, my love. Cum for me.”

She pounded into you quicker, making you moan louder. Soon, you felt the knot in your stomach break and you came all over her strap. She continued to fuck you through your orgasm, making you feel like you were walking on clouds. You turned your neck to face her and she smiled at you, planting a kiss on your lips. “You did so good for me, love.”

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215 notes - Posted May 27, 2022

#4

you deserve to find somebody who thinks about you as much as i think about buff women

232 notes - Posted April 24, 2022

#3

grounding | sevika x reader

- warnings: smut; reader has a 🐱

♡ MDNI ♡

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577 notes - Posted May 2, 2022

#2

my toxic trait is thinking that i can pull someone hot like sevika when i can’t even pull myself out of bed

581 notes - Posted April 8, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

ngl i think about being topped by fictional buff women at least a million times a day 😰

✨ manifest ✨

888 notes - Posted April 16, 2022

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[kithtaehyung]

hi, ryen! i just saw it was 3tan anniversary and tho i’m late i wanted to leave a little message too!

i’ve said it about a hundred times already, but three tangerines is so special to me. this world you’ve created and to which you dedicate so much of your time and heart has become nothing short of comfort to me. reading your words, regardless of how angsty they often can be, feels like a hug. from yoongi slowly coming down to vulnerability, to reader slowly opening up to change and affection – these are the characters whose struggles i’ve followed hand in hand, by your side!

i know i’ve been absent and i’ve missed this community a lot (saw there’s a discord happening too, and imma apply to it asap!!), but i’ve never left, cus three tan is always with me. it’s with me when i take some time to breath and remember that i deserve to be loved, when i speak myself despite being afraid of how i’ll be perceived, when i watch fireworks or simply when i remember a dialogue, a scene, and i smile. you’ve achieved something so beautiful and so especial and i hope you know that.

i’ve written reviews that aren’t nearly enough to express my love to your and your work. i’ve cried, i’ve laughed and i’ve kicked my feet. 3tan yoongi, very much like real life yoongi, is a safe space for me and many others, and he was written by your hand. by your care with your characters, by your preoccupation with always giving us the best, by your moments of pause and ponder and by your incredible talent. every lil hiatus, every interaction, every thirst days in the side blog, every ask game, every teaser you’ve posted, are all pieces of the beautiful now two-year-old mosaic of three tangerines, and it’s been an honor to be part of this journey, even if i’m a lil away.

you KNOW how much this series means to me, how much it has changed me. your talent, your skill, your creativity and your vision has lead us all to breath together with these characters, to feel their pain but also, and most importantly, to grow with them, and i lowkey hope this journey never ends – and i know that, even when the last chapter comes (LONG IN THE FUTURE!!), this will stay forever. three tan will have as many birthdays as its readers.

i also saw that you’ve been through some stuff lately, and i hope you’re feeling better. i hope this community can inspire some well deserved peace in you and you can have a tranquil day! 

oh and i know im slacking but i’ve read busted!! i’ve been very busy with a research project so writing a review became kinda impossible, but i’ve loved it (i wont comment much here cus this message already long af and i prefer to write decent reviews lol).

anyway, thank you. really. thank you so much for this.

LUAAAA it's been ages since you sent this but i told myself i would sit down and reply to you today bc it's been way too long sitting in the drafts. gonna put this under a cut bc there's a lot i wanna say and cry about :')))

i’ve said it about a hundred times already, but three tangerines is so special to me. this world you’ve created and to which you dedicate so much of your time and heart has become nothing short of comfort to me. reading your words, regardless of how angsty they often can be, feels like a hug. from yoongi slowly coming down to vulnerability, to reader slowly opening up to change and affection – these are the characters whose struggles i’ve followed hand in hand, by your side!

thank you. like. first of all, thank you for everything. you've been such a wonderful part of this journey, and i honestly still don't know what i did to deserve this level of love. i legitimately cried when i got this message all those days ago, because ngl it was sent during a rough time. you have no idea how much i needed this, and i truly cannot thank you enough for basically saving my writing motivation bc it felt like i was one foot out the door with everything that was going on at the time. this was something i didn't tell y'all, but it's true.

i know i’ve been absent and i’ve missed this community a lot (saw there’s a discord happening too, and imma apply to it asap!!), but i’ve never left, cus three tan is always with me. it’s with me when i take some time to breath and remember that i deserve to be loved, when i speak myself despite being afraid of how i’ll be perceived, when i watch fireworks or simply when i remember a dialogue, a scene, and i smile. you’ve achieved something so beautiful and so especial and i hope you know that.

this world is special to me, as well, and all of you are part of that. thinking of you all every single day alongside these characters has just become part of my life. and it's gonna continue to be this way for a very, very long time. we've been living lives with them - growing, changing, improving - and that is wonderful to witness.

everything you've mentioned about when you think of them? same. i just saw fireworks yesterday, and i thought of that balcony. and everything that has happened since that night fireworks was posted. as we approach the new year, you best believe i will be thinking about all of you once again.

i’ve written reviews that aren’t nearly enough to express my love to your and your work. i’ve cried, i’ve laughed and i’ve kicked my feet. 3tan yoongi, very much like real life yoongi, is a safe space for me and many others, and he was written by your hand. by your care with your characters, by your preoccupation with always giving us the best, by your moments of pause and ponder and by your incredible talent. every lil hiatus, every interaction, every thirst days in the side blog, every ask game, every teaser you’ve posted, are all pieces of the beautiful now two-year-old mosaic of three tangerines, and it’s been an honor to be part of this journey, even if i’m a lil away. you KNOW how much this series means to me, how much it has changed me. your talent, your skill, your creativity and your vision has lead us all to breath together with these characters, to feel their pain but also, and most importantly, to grow with them, and i lowkey hope this journey never ends – and i know that, even when the last chapter comes (LONG IN THE FUTURE!!), this will stay forever. three tan will have as many birthdays as its readers.

3tan yoongi means just as much to me as y'all, and reader, and everyone that's involved in this series. to know that he's like that in your life like irl yoongi? i want to cry. for real, it means so incredibly much to me that you've found comfort in both of them. i don't know what else to say other than it's the biggest damn honor i could ever think of.

even if i'm a little far away sometimes, just know that i am always coming back to 3tan. i work on it the most out of everything i've got going on, to the point where it's become part of me and my daily routine. the goal is to finish it out just as strong as it's been going thus far! and that includes all the fun times we have on this blog and discord and elsewhere!

i also saw that you’ve been through some stuff lately, and i hope you’re feeling better. i hope this community can inspire some well deserved peace in you and you can have a tranquil day! 

it's okay, love. there's been some tough times recently but we push on. my only ask of y'all is to be happy, healthy, and come say hi once in awhile<3 i do wanna keep talking to you all!

oh and i know im slacking but i’ve read busted!! i’ve been very busy with a research project so writing a review became kinda impossible, but i’ve loved it (i wont comment much here cus this message already long af and i prefer to write decent reviews lol).

you're totally ok! whenever you get the chance, you write to your heart's content and i will eat it up multiple times over just like your other wonderful fantastic amazing commentary pieces. i definitely wanna keep those forever.

anyway, thank you. really. thank you so much for this.

thank you, as well. it's been quite the journey, these two years. looking back on everything, it's unbelievable how much we've been through! but we will keep making fun memories and keep being there for each other, and everyone in the 3tan crew. thank you again, lua, and i hope you have a wonderful rest of the year and a prosperous 2024!

[footballffbarbiex]

this isn’t part of the honest opinion game but i was wondering, what does your other half think of your footy obsession?? my boyfriend thinks we’re equally as deranged about these silly men but he doesn’t know half of it LMAOO i keep my tumblr for myself and myself only…. if he saw the things i wrote…

i love him dearly ofc and i would never ever leave him but i do feel a bit guilty sometimes thirsting over these men even tho it’s all fantasy..

if only your other half knew 💀 that's the thing though, i think you have to have some things for yourself and a lot of the time, spouses don't really get it.

before me and my other half had had a first date, i'd sat drunkenly crying to him over how much i loved mcfly and one direction (i'm talking, full on sobbing) and he foolishly still thought "yep, i'm gonna date this absolute trainwreck of a woman". 12 years later he's still here.

i'm ngl, he comes in handy if i'm wanting to test out a new kink to write about or just to see how something would work. i've also got a body swap fic and because the OC goes into the players body, i've asked him "so, you know your knob? when xyz happens, how does it feel?" because i can't know.

there were times when it became an issue like when big bub was making an appearance, my sex drive just plummeted and while i could get mentally aroused, i just didn't want to be touched yet i was spending hours writing smut and he couldn't understand the difference. i don't think he's "threatened" anymore by it. if anything, i think he sees it as a positive. he's said he feels very proud of me and that i've been able to launch patreon and have those followers there.