#our moments together will always be in my heart. even if i cant remember it- and i beg to god that i will remember our times together- i

[c-o-z-m-o]

I've said goodnight to all of my current friends/close friends. I feel happier now

[naehoonx]

" freckles " - bkdk [ series pt. 1 ]

→ SUMMARY: freckles on his cheek, a smile so bright that even the sun became jealous and a heart so full of love ... but not for him. that love was never meant for him.

→ GENRE: adult bakugou; adult deku; angst; heartbreak; one sided love; second chances; deep talk; drama; romance; smut; fluff.

→ RATING: 18+

→ CHAPTER 2

→ NOTE: after writing the oneshot i decided to turn it into a series. so please before reading this chapter make sure to read the oneshot. you can find it here: " too late ". have fun and lets suffer together. as always, dont claim my work as your own and if you wanna translate it shoot me a message

MHA MASTERLIST ♡.°₊ˎ SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER

the headache was massive when he woke up this morning but that wasnt the only thing which annoyed him. apparently bakugou didnt made it home after the bar hopping with Kirishima and Mina. when he woke up in the morning the red haired boy was laying on top of him while Mina somehow hugged his leg. after a lot of screaming plus letting a small explosion pop off, everyone was wide awake in the tiny bedroom of kirishimas apartment. none of them remembered much of the last night other that bakugou refused to go home alone. at least he knew now how he ended up here with the both of them.

bakugou insisted on using the shower first, after all he had a right to do so after they had been so clingy to him. in the meantime, his friends took care of tidying up the living room. mina just rolled her eyes when she saw the many bottles on the table. Apparently it wasn't enough that they got drunk in the bars. she even found a picture on her phone which showed kirishima clinging to his best friend like his life depended on it. to her defense, it was kinda funny. with a giggle she made sure to never delete that so she could tease them with that.

after they all took turns with showering, Mina was the first one to say goodbye for the day. Even though her head was about to explode, she still had to go about her work. the boys just sat at the kitchen island waving into ther direction but then something tickled at the back of kirishimas mind as he looked at the clock.

"yo ... didnt you promise to meet up with deku for his lunch break?"

still dealing with the immense hangover, bakugou looked lazily into the direction of the clock. he didnt forgot but all this time he was contemplating if he should go or not. he was in no condition to listen to all the yapping of deku, knowing damn well that it would be about ochaco. with tired eyes bakugu grabbed his phone to turn it on, the moment he clicked on the chat with Deku a new message popped up. of course it was from the nerd, its like he knew it that bakugou turned his phone back on.

shitty nerd [11:01am]: so ... i hope our lunchbreak still stands? i mean i understand if you dont want to. shitty nerd [11:05]: ah! its not like i dont want to i just saw the picture mina sent me. it seems like you all got kinda drunk last night so .. maybe you dont want to anymore.

of course mina sent him pictures of last night. bakugou probably lashed out over deku while he was totally drunk.

kacchan [11:07]: dont worry, im coming. i promised remember? shitty nerd [11:07]: really?! then i will wait at the same spot!

it almost mad him sick seeing how happy his childhood friend reacted. after Bakugou put his phone back on the table, he immediately got up to open kirishima's fridge. the red-haired man raised a questioning eyebrow;

"what are you doing?" "making lunch" "cant you just buy something?" "no or he will know i wasnt at home last night."

rolling his eyes kirishima placed his head on the kitchen islands counter. sometimes those two were unbelievable for him "you act like a married couple do you know that?"

as a respond bakugou just snorts as he emptied the fridge to get to work. he doesnt care how the two of them looked like, because it wasnt real. none of it was real. knowing that he still went out of his way to make izuku a lunchbox too. an hour and a stolen fresh shirt of kirishima later, bakugou sat in his car on the way to UA High. suprisingly no one vomited last night which was a miracle, considering how bad mina was when it came to alcohol. the lunchboxes were carefully secured on the passenger seat as he stopped near the school gates.

His red eyes automatically went to a small bench near the school park. Izuku sat there, alone while he seemed to be waiting for Bakugou. a few students walked past him as they lifted their hands to wave into his direction. seeing that izuku tilted his head a bit to the side as he showed them a big smile. at the same time bakugous brow started to twitch as his hand clutched the shirt near his chest.

that damn smile. making his heart pound for no reason at all. he knew he needed to stop, he knew it too well but he couldnt. no matter how hard bakugou tried, whenever he saw that smile his heart nearly leapt out of his chest. all the words he wanted to say start to bubble up inside his throat, luckily he was able to push them down again as he grabbed the luchboxes and got out of the car.

outside, the voices of the other students only got louder, but they immediately fell silent when they noticed who was crossing the campus. whispering could be heard from every corner. from the beginning, some of the students had spread the rumor that Izuku and Bakugou were dating. oh how wrong they all were about this little tiny information. in the past those rumours or whispers didnt bothered bakugou but now they were. they are a reminder of the stinging pain inside of his chest that izuku would never be his.

the moment izuku tried to pull out his phone to check the time, a lunchbox bumped on the top of his head. curious about that he lifted up his face just to be met with kacchans smile

"food delivery" "you made it .. i was worried for a second" with a much brighter smile he took the lunchbox from kacchans hands.

they both automatically huddled closer to each other on the bench. it was a nice day as the breeze blew through the green leafs over their heads. izuku eyes lit up as he opens the lunchbox only to find his favourite things in there.

"thank you really. I appreciate it that you always bring me lunch but ..." he hesitated for a moment.

kacchan raised one of his eyebrows as he unpacked his chopsticks "what? dont tell me you secretly hate the food i make" "oh god no its not that! its just ... well you remember that i went with Ochaco last night?"

suddenly the grip around kacchans tightened for a second. he has really hoped the conversation wouldnt go into that direction.

"and?" "it went really well you know? we talked a lot and many things came up" ..stop... "she offered to make me food from now on so i said yes. isnt that sweet of her?" ...stop...stop... "uhm also ... there is something else i wanted to tell you" ...stop...stop...dont say it... "we decided ... to give it a try, like .. dating you know?"

suddenly a cracking noise was heard. kacchan didnt noticed that he was gripping the chopsticks too tight. they broke exactly in the middle. izukus eyes widen as he could see that some pieces of the wood had gotten stuck in kacchans hand. worried he placed a hand on the blondes shoulder, shaking him a bit.

"kacchan? is everything okay? you are hurt. what happened?" ...dont look at me... "oh god you are bleeding ... wait let me just-.."

the moment izuku wanted to grab kacchans hand it got slapped away "dont touch me!" "kacchan ...?"

they both looked at each other, shock was seen in izuku's eyes as he kept looking hat his childhood friend. at the same time the pain inside of kacchans chest became unbearable, his heart kept stinging while his head kept repeating the words he just heard. dating. they are dating. how ridiculous. izuku dating a girl, someone who wasnt him. that didnt sit right with kacchan. without a word he grabbed the lunchbox from izuku's lap before he stood up from the bench.

"hey! kacchan whats gotten into you all of a sudden?" izuku tried to grab kacchans wrist but failed miserably. the expression of kacchan was cold as he turned around, looking straight into izukus face.

"why dont you ask your girlfriend for food. im sure she will be so delighted to bring it to you." his words were rather a scoff. overall he was good in hiding what he really felt at that moment. instead of fighting back izuku just stared at him, eyes filled with worry and concern.

before he would break down under that stare kacchan snorts for a moment before turning around. luckily he parked his car nearby and to his suprise izuku didnt chased after him. at his car he threw the lunchboxes back on the passenger seat before he got in himself. a last glance into the direction of the school confirmed it again that izuku, indeed, didnt ran after him. it was pointless, he wasnt special anymore. at least not for izuku, that boy found his special person. totally ignoring who was in front of him all this time.

"fuck!.." with the palms of his hands he hits agains the steering wheel. it was just too much, this whole situation made his head throb even more in pain.

suddenly getting a drink in broad daylight didnt sounded so bad. it was also his day off so no consequences right? with a heavy sigh kacchan starts the engine of his car, driving to the nearest bar he could find. by now he was willing to do anything to make that stinging feeling stop inside its chest. otherwise he would surely go crazy.

[volturiprincess]

Day 3: Three French Hen 

Jane Volturi x fem vamp reader

Warning: Mentions of Jane using her ability but thats it.

Word Count: 646

(Moodboard)

The smell of cinnamon and sugar filled the small atmosphere of the kitchen. I don't know how I manage to convince Jane to do this with me but it is much needed. We have not been able to spend time together for various reasons, she's been off on more missions with Alec while I spent days training the newborns with Felix and Demetri. Today is our day, nobody will come get us for something or interrupt us. It is our tradition after all.

I turn to her as she is rolling out the dough for the sugar cookies we are making. She looks so sweet, there's a bit of flour on her cheek, her hair is actually in a messy bun which results in some of her golden strands to be out on her face. Instead of wearing her usual guard attire, she has some black slacks with a cropped button up shirt, her sleeves rolled up right at the elbows. 

“Your staring again”

I blink to get out of my hazy thoughts and to come back to reality.

“Can't help it”

She turns her gaze to me with a stern look, almost as if she is scolding me. To me she just looks too endearing to even think she can cause so much pain, I remember one time she ended up using it against me. We were having a heated argument about not spending time together, the argument ended quickly as soon as the words ‘pain’ left her lips. As I dropped to my knees her eyes widened in horror, soon after the pain was gone and so was she. Once I found her, with the help of Demetri, we ended up having a long conversation. We vowed that no matter how busy we get, Christmas day will be our day. No training, no missions, meetings or what not, just me and her. 

At first it started as just cuddling or going on walks, we then later added learning how to ice skate. She picked that up quite quickly, the way she glides in the ice is so entrancing, she’s like a swan spreading her wings. But this year we decided on baking. It was something we never had interest in for the obvious reason but I felt it would be a nice bonding moment. I miss her for sure, especially in the winter holidays, it was after all winter when I met her for the first time. I give her a small smile as I get closer to her to place one of her longer strands of her hair behind her ear, she’s still glaring at me but her face relaxes a bit more.

“You know i can't help but look at you raincloud, your just so angelic and you look so sweet” 

She scoffed at my answer as if my words did not make her non existent heart flutter. She turned her gaze back to the dough, acting as if nothing just happened. 

“You could at least finish doing that sugary thing you were making”

“Buñuelos, mi vida¨

She scoffed once again, which just made my smile widen more from her trying to keep a straight face with my teasing. I walk behind her and wrap my arms around her, resting my chin on her shoulder.

“Why are you being so…affectionate today?”

I pecked her cheek which made her go stiff for a minute, even after all these centuries together I can still catch her off guard.

“Cant I be all loving with my amorcito?”

“Your still strange even after all this time”

“Always will be for you”

She turned to face me as I gave her a lopsided smile, she rolled her eyes once again but leaned in to give me a quick peck.

“Now leave me alone so I can finish these cookies”

“Of course my little viper”

“Still so strange”

[torialefay]

Hi Toria, I've sent inboxes to a few blogs, but no one seems to understand and I am just at a loss of what to do or who to talk to. You don't need to post this, I just think you are really kind and would understand, so I guess I just needed to tell someone who could understand where I'm coming from.

Stray Kids new album came out, as I'm sure you know and while I will always support the boys, the 'I Like It' song left me very emotional. I guess it brought up feelings inside of me that I didn't even know that were there based on past 'situationships' I had where that was the mindset. I didn't and still don't fully know why I reacted the way that I did, all I know is that it made me really fucking sad, Toria. I started crying and I didn't even know why, all I knew was that the words hurt, even though everyone else around me was talking about how amazing it was and how they were dancing to it.

The blame isn't on Stray Kids for this obviously, but I feel terrible still. This is the only song that I have ever disliked from them and I feel guilty about it. It also made me feel a bit differently about them and I feel guilty about that too. But I know I cant even say it on my blog because I will get murdered on this app, or called a fake fan, or be called a baby for how it made me feel. I can't help that I feel this way or the experiences I've had.

I don't really know why I'm writing all of this. I am just rambling too much, I have a tendency to do that. Thank you for reading this. Maybe I just needed someone to do it.., someone who I didnt think would judge me. I hope you have a great day, Toria 💕

hi honey, i contemplated posting this just because of what you said at the beginning, but i wanted to make sure that you know i read it and am supporting you from my lil corner of tumblr.

it can be hard to hear songs that get an emotional reaction out of you, and it is only human to do so. i hope you never feel bad about that. just know that it doesn't have to even be through songs. it can be through random things people say, movies, etc.

i'll never forget, one day a group of friends and i were watching a movie together and suddenly one of my friends started to cry uncontrollably. in the plot, there was mention of SA and because none of us had experienced anything like that, we didn't have a sort of emotional reaction. but we learned that day that my friend had been SA'ed and then had those memories flood back in that moment.

although each of us left the movie unaffected (for the most part), i know that movie will always have a negative association in my friend's mind & be remembered as something hurtful. that is absolute NO fault of her own. and for a long time after that, it made me feel very thankful that i'd never had to experience something like that & that i'd be able to go through my life unaffected.

that's a very long-winded way to say: i am so sorry that you've had negative emotions come out of this. and you're right, that has nothing to do with stray kids. i'm sure it is hard to watch people around you love this song while it has brought back bad memories for you. being honest, it also gave me very mixed feelings because of similar reasons. but at the end of the day, i hope you can remember that it is a song and not reality. that may not help at all, and in fact, it probably won't at this moment, BUT hopefully in the future it will be something that can bring you more comfort.

i would genuinely hope that stay wouldn't be upset with you for voicing your opinion & i'm sorry if that's the feedback you've received so far from talking about it. please do not let anyone invalidate your own emotions. it is completely OKAY to dislike a song. and it is completely OKAY for that song to change your views on things. although i do think it is fiction and we should try not to associate people with these fictional scenarios, unfortunately, that's not always how our hearts work.

i'm so sorry for anything you've gone through for these emotions to be brought up. i know it's not an easy thing to go through. you have my support 100%, and PLEASE, if you need anything at all, hop over to my inbox & we can chat some more, okay? ❤️❤️❤️

[garrettandoscargirlsblog]

in Loving memory

Summary: here is my entry to@triplefrontier-anniversary celebration. This is a really sad one. sorry about that. this is a tribute for one of our own ,@aellynera who is now with the angels. She was one of a kind . Hope she loves this. she loved Oscar. Most of us knew she loved Triple frontier ,and anything with oscar. ha ha!

the fic deals with him mourning his love.

Wish people would stop asking how I am doing. Want to be alone! Let me fucking be! Let me grieve in my own way! Others never lose the love of their life like me. My Alleycat. One of a kind. Talented writer . Yeah. She loved to write short stories. Did that to take her mind off her illness. I found out about it four years ago when she would get sick a lot. Doctors ran test after test. Until … she was in a coma! Scared me half to death. Prayed for more time with her. Wishing Columbia never happened. Took me away from her! God! Why ! Why you called her home so fucking soon! Took my dad ( Which I didn't have to say goodbye to!) Took me years to get past the hurt. Feel so alone! What now!? 

Haven't left our room since the funeral. That was the hardest thing to do. Say bye to my heart. Others are part of me. My Ying to my Yang. Treasure the moments we shared last year from going to a Broadway show in New York that stars her favorite actor. Okay, I saw why she likes him. Told me he looks like me. Smile at the memory. Oh Ally girl, wished we had more time together. Make even more memories. I’ll treasure them always. No matter what. I'll never find anyone like you darling. Promise you that. 

I'm watching Revenge of Jolly right now. Try to laugh. Haven't been able to do that. I remember coming home from a horrible day. She  was watching it. Okay.. kind of corny. 

I watched it,and oh shit! Was so corny.

After the movie.  I play some of her music. Oh how she loved the 70’s and 80’s. Her taste was all over the place! Like Dan Reed network. Played it a lot. Some country. Oh how she loved when I sing. Even with Benny. Speaking of him. Oh how he misses her. Like his big sister. Always teaming up to tease the shit out of me. Will and Frankie too loved her as well. 

Her family gave me space that I needed. Mention if I need anything to let them know. That's sweet. Even Benny's girl, Paige comes by with food ,and tries to clean the house. Which looks like inside my head. She is grieving like me. Both of them were close. Like the same things. Same kind of sass. Which is comforting. On this day Paige brought me a note Ally wrote before she passed. Said for me to read it. Cant! Cant fucking do it! What can she possibly tell me that I already know! Paige told me it would help the healing process. Putting it on my nightstand for the time being.

Few days later Will texted me to come over for a surprise get together at his place. Others will be there. Too soon! Not ready to go out! Oh got a text from Paige: 

Paige: Look, I know what you are going through. Been in your position when my dad passed away. Couldn't function. Took me awhile to realize that my dad didn't want me to wallow.

Santi: wallow? Think I'm wallowing? 

Paige: a little. Have to get out at some point okay? Ally wouldn't want you to be sad forever. Have a lot of people in your corner. Besides, I need you at the gathering. So does Benny. 

Santi: Oh.. the gathering has to do wop,ith you two?

Paige : maybe. 

Maybe she said. Just like Ally . So secretive. Guess I have to bite the bullet,and read the letter. Sitting in my worn out, black leather chair. Starting to read: 

My Santi baby( hot sauce) ,

Wrote this before my condition got so bad that I couldn't communicate anymore. Wanna tell you I love you soo much. Have been the love of my life for a long time, baby. Sorry for worrying you so much about my illness. Always there when I told you about it. So grateful for that. 

Have a request for you. Live life to the fullest,but first thing first. 

Get your knees checked out! Don't let it go too long! Hate to see you in pain. Do it for me. Secondly, it's okay to love someone new. Want you to be happy. It's okay to love someone else. Thirdly, let the others take care of you. I mean it! Have been a leader far too long. Let them take some of the slack okay? 

Last thing my love I treasure all of the time we shared in our short time together. Never in my wildest dreams we found each other. Be strong . 

Hold the note close to my heart. Tears fell again. Thinking about what I have to do. First thing. Time to get cleaned up. Meaning shaving my scruffy face. 

Took a breath as I knocked on ironhead’s door. Benny opened the door. Hugging me so tight I couldn't breath. Others hugged me. Even Paige. Asked me if I was okay. Squeezed her tiny hands and told her I read the letter .  Told her I'll do what she says. 

Benny made his special announcement. Him and Paige are getting married. So happy for them . Hope both of them have a wonderful life together. Looking up at the evening sky knowing she is in heaven watching. Guiding not just me,but all of the people she cares about. 

[shadow-tumbler]

I still love you (Sebastian sallow X Amelia Marksmen)

(Warnings: Smut, oral :female Receiving, breeding kink, dominant sebastian)

(My first attempt at a fic with proper written smut so I apologise if it's bad 😅😅😅😅, Amelia is my new sliverin mc )

Sebastian Sallow, was sentenced to Azkaban at the end of his fifth-year, for killing his Uncle. I was part of the reason that he was put there, no longer able to agree with his actions. Now, it's been five years, he's twenty-one and he's been set free and I'm afraid he might come after me—for revenge.

Amelia's pov

Me and sebastian used to be friends, more than friends almost and now, I'm always wondering if the next knock on my door...will be him. Its bad to think like that but I cant help it and whenever I went out I'd look over my shoulder making sure I didn't see him think the worst could possibly happen if he dose come back. I swear if it wasn't for my friends mainly ominis, poppy and natty and my twin brother Elijah I definitely would've gone off the rails due to my nerves but I've remained sane so far. I had confounded I'm sebastian about all the things me and my brother had been though in our childhood and he was always there to listen to me. At the moment I was getting ready for bed after Having been out getting things for little Lillians birthday, Lillian is the child Elijah and ominis adopted together and she's the cutest little girl in the world. There was a storm outside the sound of the rain hitting the window brought a senes a peacefulness to me but there was still that feeling that something was gonna happen but I ignored it as I got into bed. Just as I was about to fall asleep a flash of lightning made me jump since even as an adult I'm still scared of thunder storms but what made it worse was when I hear a sound of a twig snapping from around back.

I got out bed and carefully go to look out the back window hoping it was just an animal, as I looked out the window I didn't see anything but that feeling of being in danger was still there so I ran and grabbed my wand there stood in the dark facing the backway of my cabin. I held a vise like grip on my wand and just as I was about to go back to head a heard a soft whisper "hello?" Making my eyes widened as I recognised the voice, it was sebastian and he had fianlly come me. A part of me was happy that he was finally back home but a part of me was still scared think he held a grudge for what I did and was gonna get his revenge. I feel like my heart will explode, I feel so many emotions. The face i see though the window, his eyes...I remember those eyes. I find myself staring him down "Sebastian...? What are you doing here?" I asked still standing my ground "I'm here to talk to you" He replied lookinng back at me through the window, his eyes seem...more intense then before. The rain had course his brown curls to become flat against his head "Let me in and we can discuss the last five years" he says like he was begging me to let him in.  I held my shaking hand up with my wand "I  don't know if I can sebastian" I said firmly "Of course you can. It'll be like old times" he said with that same smile he gave me the first time we met "I didn't travel all the way to your house to turn around and be denied" he added on which was true but I was still nervous as he asked again to be let in. I take a deep breath, this will either be fine or the dumbest thing I've done as I slowly walked to the back down unlocking it then opening it stepping back for him to come in still keep my wand in hand  as he walked inside his clothes soaking from the rain.

He looked at me after shutting the door "I missed you darling" he says kinda surprising me "you have?" I asked, I those he'd hate me after what happened but there wasn't an single shred of hated to be heard or felt. He nodded as he began to walk over to me and smirked "More than you know, I've thought about you ever day since I've been locked up"  he replied as he watched now stood in front of me "You haven't stopped thinking about me, have you?" He asked. I lowered my wand "truthfully there hasn't been a day that's gone by that I haven't thought about you" I admitted to him as he smiled slightly "do it's mutual then darling" he says. He gently traced the outlines of my face sending shivers up my spin as I could feel those same butterflies that I would get all those years ago. His touch was familiar yet something different in the way his body approached me, his fingers gently brushed my lips. I looked into those beautiful brown eyes, i looked deep into them and it felt like my world stopped, I was finally...with the man i loved. I had been dreaming of this for so long and I  could finally touch him. Sebastian leaned in closer and our lips met, It was passion &  intens his lips pressed against against mine was something I had wished for. I of cause kissed him back and one of his hands held the back of my head while the other rested on my waist  My fingers were intertwined in his hair. Both of our tongues danced around each other, his touch was making me feel so much, He was everything to me in that moment, everything i've ever needed.

He pulled away briefly, looking into my eyes "Let's take this somewhere a little more...private dear" He said smirking at me and I couldn't help myself as I blushed and nodded in agreement. He smirked at me, his eyes were filled with a new hunger that I had an idea of what it means,  He took my hand and lead me up the stairs towards my bedroom. Once in my bedroom he shut the door behind us and then turned to me still smirking "are you ready my darling?~" he asked and I looked up at him as he stood in front of me now "yes" I say and judging my his reaction he loved that word as he brings me over to my bed. He gently pushed me down onto it and climbed on top of me a look of pure love and lust in his eyes "I've been waiting so long for this" he says. He moved closer to my face, his nose just barely touching mine & Sebastian let out a tiny chuckle He kissed me again, deeper this time and nothing else mattered apart from having this moment with him. I feel my heart pounding in my chest and my body burning with pleasure as Sebastian kept kissing me, his fingers were now going under my shirt. Sebastian worked to undo the bottoms of my pyjama top and it didn't take him long to remove it "holy shit your so fucking hot" he says looking at my body and I blushed a little, his lips then found my neck. Once the brushed against a particular spot I gasped slightly and he the attacked that spot which resulted in me letting out a moan, I feel him smirking against my skin and his hand went to work in removing my bottoms. It revealed the pair of black lace panties I wore and his fingers rubbed over the fabric making a louder moan leave my lips as he kept up the motion for a few seconds before finally removing the panties and throwing them somewhere in the room.

I removed my bra leaving me completely naked in front of this man "oh I am gonna take full claim over you darling" he says as he moved down and slowly kissed up my thighs making me let out a pathetic sounding whine. He smirked then out of nowhere I felt his tongue against my Clit and I don't think I've ever moaned that loud before, the moans doesn't stop and he continues that attack against my clit and I felt myself getting close. I bucked my hips and he smirked pushing them down "I want you to only cum when I say, you got that?" He says in a demanding type of voice "y-yes~" I moan out. He smirked and continues his attack till I could feel myself practically brusting "do it, I wanna taste you" he growls and I let go Cumming over his face. He licked the area clean and got up, while keeping eye contact he got himself undressed and holy shit he has an amazingly buff body. He had the perfect amount of chest hair that was placed just right but what left my eyes wide was his size, I had kinda imagined it before but damn. He took his hand and whiped my clit collecting a mixture of my cum and his Spit levering himself with it pumping a couple times. The moans that brought out of him were so hot "ready my love?" He asked and I nodded, without saying another word he line's himself up and slams into me which course me to scream out from please. He didn't waste a second before he trusted hard and fast grunting with each thrust. The room is filled with a mixture of skin slapping against skin, his grunting and my moans especially when kissed my neck again leaving more marks. Oh god this was so god damn amazing "oh baby~ your so tight for me~" he groans into my ear and I scratched up his back, he trusts got faster and I had ended up having several more orgasms. He groans again "I wanna put a baby in you" he said completely out of the blue but the thought of that left he shaking wity pleasure "oh you want that? Want me to fill you with my seed so you can carrying my child?" He asked in a teasing voice. I nodded and he smirked even more "well I shall grant your wish my love" he says and his thrusts started to get sloppy and with one last go he stops as I feel his seed spurt inside me. He Stays like this for a second "wanna make sure a baby is definitely made" he says and finally he pulled out laying next to me. I right away cuddle into his side with him wrapping his arms around me "I love you so much darling, guess it means we're a couple now?" He asked with a slight chuckle "well of course I does seb" I say and he kissed my forehead.

[br1ghtestlight]

zeke and jimmy jr are so fucking stupid. immediately a 10/10 episode just for tankbottoms (tank tops for your bottom™️)

THEYRE SO FUCKING STUPID THERES TEARS IN MY EYES..... if anybody ever hurts these boys ever in their lives i dont know what im going to do. probably cry about it

BABYYY ZEKE HES SO ADORABLE 😭😭💕 love how squished his face is. he's Three apples tall snd very very small

Hey guys :D love how she's dropped the "hey jimmy jr!!! ZEKE." thing and started being normal about greeting them. sorry we're not even a minute into the episode i just love these kids so much they're sooo sweet and so stupid. accurate middle schooler representation

jimmy jr and tina talking :') they're buddies. love that he's already explained this tankbottoms idea to tina and she Does Not Like It

HEY GENE BROWN EYES MENTION!!! always love to have rhat confirmed

oh that jimmy pesto impression is UNCANNY. aww why are they fighting they were sorta kinda becoming friends. not really but in my heart they were after the christmas episode and them racing cars together

"aahh im bored' oh so he's literally just gay? is that what this is?

JIMMY PESTO SAYING ITS BEEN SLOW AT HIS PLACE LATELY LMAO i wonder why that could be!! surely no real world events coincided with that happening!!!!

jimmy pesto is so stupid i missed him so much. i missed ur stupid stupid handsome face SO MUCH u idiot. kisses him

YOU GET ONE PACK OF RATS COVERED IN ROACHES 😭

love how he's Literally just trying to be friends with bob and bob is like. can you leave? could you please leave?? there's something going on here not even gay people have a word for. this is a brand new type of interaction

"our rats and roaches dont get along" "aah well you're lucky"

"right that was ALMOST a normal conversation but you're you soo you said that" *fart noise* "THATS YOU" why is jimmy literally the equivalent of a boy teasing a girl he has a crush on on the playground bcuz he likes her and doesnt know how to show it. what is their PROBLEM

aww louise reading the burobu magazine 🥺🥺💕 sorry this is relevant to a fanfic im working on. also love these new views of the playground thats also great to have (also for the same fanfic) (there's a lot going on in this fanfic)

jimmy jr is so fucking stupid and literally my baby boy. ACTUAL love of my life. he's so dumb <3

"teatherball? oh my god. another TB" there's literally zero braincells in that boys head this is already one of my favorite jimmy jr episodes. also zeke getting jealous that tina is spending time around a boy who hates zeke?? kinda cute. he liiiikes her :) i think he's also just terrified of will but i think he's also a little jealous maybe. zeke contains multitudes

"I just, uh, don't want to have fun... like that. With a bunch of balls in my mouth."

"Fine. Some people are just more open to new ideas."

presenting this conversation with no context. AND jimmy pesto being gay in the background bcuz of course he would be

okay well im already assuming this b plot is gonna go in the direction of jimmy pesto copying bob bcuz business has been slow for him and he thinks bob is generally a better cook so if he copies him maybe he'll get more business too. which is ADORABLE and reminds me so much of the christmas episode where jimmy pesto recommended bob's food bcuz it was so good. also if jimmy thinks that bob is copying his business FJDMDJFKDKDSJ reminds me of a past episode i cant remember the name of but like better.... bcuz they're gay and stupid

gene is a sweet boy <3 sweet song and moment. love that him and louise are just always hanging out together

ohh jimmy jr he's so sweet 😭 he loves zeke so much its adorable. i know there's nothing anybody could do or say to make him stop loving zeke or wanting to be his friend and its actually really cute. he's been great in this episode

"My sweet best friend. My sweet, sweet Zeke..."

love jimmy jr being just as heartbroken over somebody being mean to zeke as i am FJDMDJDKSKS he's literally DEVASTATED by this news. who would bully zeke he's literally a baby? just a baby boy??

"I don't like bullies. And I especially don't like them at our school. And in our sister's grade. I mean, what if he makes Tina pee and embarasses her? She's already fighting an uphill battle."

louise is both very sweet and protective and also VERY funny lmao SHES ALREADY FIGHTING AN UPHILL BATTLE

love jimmy jr louise and gene's dynamic in this episode. they care so much about their babies (zeke and tina) its cuuute

"i feel bad for zeke too but i just dont think aggression is the answer" coming from the kid who got his ass beat by a nine year old. on MULTIPLE occasions

love mort ordering the burger of the day like he has a gun pointed at his head FJDMDKDKSKSS also mort and teddy getting along!! yay!!!! big win for the tedmort shippers in the fandom

"Zeke... I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I care about you." when did jimmy jr get all emotionally mature??

WOLLY BULLY

"I get why you wouldn't want to tell me, because I'm one of the cool kids..." gonna need a citation for that one jimmy jr

if there's one thing louise is gonna do its ignore EVERYBODY telling her not to do something for revenge and do it anyway. like girl u gotta know when to let something go i know you're protective but FJDMSKSDKDK

"whats going on down there" dont even worry about it rudy

i love school episodes they're so silly. still a 50/50 chance zeke WAS the bully vs being bullied and this is a misunderstanding but either way this is very fun and i love seeing all the kids hanging out at recess and lunch etc

tina has had like three lines total in this episode where IS that girl

"i was the bully" yeah i figured since this episode still has half the runtime left and no other possible way this conflict could go LMAO but on that note its kinda sweet that he's made friends and a life for himself at wagstaff and he's not mean to kids anymore. he's a good kid in his heart & he always was

NOT THE APPLE JUICE 😭😭💔

not tina crushing on will in the background.... its not ur episode girl get outta here

"i can see that" rudy is there something you'd like to share with the class 🤨🏳️‍🌈

"SORRY me spraying juice on you wasn't bullying! That was just an accident." POOR GENE he's so worried about upsetting someone or hurting their feelings

BABY ZEKE COMPILATION TJIS IS A BIG MOMENT FOR ME gonna need to screenshot this after bcuz he's so small. maybe the smallest boy in the whole entire world

"i was always the new kid and it wasn't easy making friends" 😭😭💕 AND NOW HE HAS TINA AND JIMMY JR GENE LOUISE RUDY and even tammy and jocelyn (kinda sorta) and he doesnt need to be nervous anymore..... he has a home and he's never going to leave. sorry brb im crying i love zeke and their littlr friend group so much

BETWEEN THAT AND MY IMPULSE CONTROL ISSUES I JUST STARTED WRESTLING KIDS sorry zeke is many things but he is NOT smart thats why him and jimmy jr are two peas in a pod. not a braincell between them

HE JUST HAD A LOT OF NERVOUS ENERGYYYY okay adhd zeke is literally canon now. to me. like i dont care what the episode says thats true now in my heart they basically said it

and then i kept trying to make them laugh :( zeke noo he's such a sweetheart and a good kid. he never had anybody who LIKED him before who really saw him for who he was until jimmy jr and their friend group. sobbing. I HAD A GROUP OF FRIENDS AND A NICKNAME IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I FELT LIKE I REALLY BELONGED....... CRYING SOBBING THROWING UP ETC

ive been told i have the perfect neck for headlocks. okay thank you rudy

jimmy jr is soo emotionally mature and thoughtful in this episode. TINA WHAT ON EARTH R U DOING IN THIS EPISODE she didnt even react to zeke's story bro. its so over

like a little italian squirrel :)

"Linda's right, Bob. And my therapist would say that you should focus on your own happiness and not compare it to other people's."

"Your therapist is an IDIOT!"

"You take that back, Bob! Do not speak of Doctor Marjorie that way. That woman has put up with SO MUCH in her life! The balls haven't always rolled her way!"

😭😭??? this was so funny lmao. also love how casually teddy mentions his therapist (throughout the entire show!! she was mentioned in his first appearance) and how normalized it is. like yeah he has a therapist and he has mental health issues & trauma and its just something he casually mentions

also mort always talks about ordering the soup at bobs burgers but we've NEVER seen soup on the menu or anybody else eating soup there what is up with that?? does bob make the soup especially for mort??? what is going on there. so many unanswered questions

"Look I don't know what THIS is..." *gestures vaugely to bob and jimmy pesto* Thats literally exactly how i feel whenever i watch an episode with them now. i dont know what the hell is going on between them and quite frannkly thats none of my business!!!

"im not SHRIEKING!!!!" he shrieked

"Zeke! Listen. We've all done things we're not proud of. I used to tell Andy and Ollie that there was actually only one of them. It messed with them for weeks. The point is... we recognize our mistakes and we learn from them. It's how we grow."

ONE we got a big brother jimmy jr mention HELL YEAH‼️‼️ love him tormenting andy and ollie he's such a terrible big brother (affectionate) and TWO in my head this is kinda jimmy jr apologizing for how he's fucked over tina in the past?? maybe im literally delusional about them but him admitting he's done things he isnt proud of and that he's hurt people before. cmon. thats gotta be about tina right. just lie to me at this point

JIMMY JUNIOR LMAOO he's literally so silly in this episode im obsessed with him

WHAT THE HELL WILL??

did zeke make fun of will for being a dancer lmfao thats why he wanted jimmy junior to leave right. he doesnt want jj to hate him

HE MADE FUN OF MY LISP 😭😭 no thats literally actually worse bcuz jimmy junior's lisp is soo. god. but zeke loves jimmy jr so much i know he would never do that to him. he literally LOVES that boy so goddamn much

YOUR LIPS FJDMDDJDKDKDD THEY LOOK FINR TO ME. somebody needs to sedate me im gonna become a jimmy jr fan account after this episode

JIMMY JR NOOOOOOOO ZEKE LOVES U HES UR BEST FRIEND. if they stop being friends after this episode im killing myself. like it would be so over for me. couldnt live after that theyre besties. theyre BESTIES

imagining if this was jimmy jr instead of will and actually literally crying real tears over it

I DONT EVEN THINK I WANT TO DO TANKBOTTOMS WITH YOU ANYMORE. thats literally worse than divorce whats even the point

"I mean, a lot of people don't know this but I have a speech impediment."

"Huh."

"Really?"

"Ooh I never noticed..."

"Yeah. I worked through a lot of it but sometimes it still shows up."

love this dumbass autistic boy. he's my sweetheart angel i would die for him 1000 times over and over

I THOUGHT TINA WAS GONNA ASK ZEKE TO SHOW HIS BUTT SAYING "I mean you could...." i was like ooohkay tina sure. okay

aww bob is so smart. and cool

JIMMY JR HOLDING ZEKES BACKPACK FOR HIM sorry idk why i thought that was so cute. gonna need a screenshot of that

LOVE GENE AND LOUISES EXPRSSSIONS IN THIS SCENE sorry okay im paying attention to their gay little fight too ig

AWWW HAHA ZEKE IS SUCH AN OLDER BROTHER this scene is so cute. him teasing gene and louise <3

THIS EPISODE WAS SOO ADORABLE OMG i loved jimmy jr in this episode and his friendship with zeke. maybe my favorite episode this season?? its hard to say bcuz all of them have been so enjoyable and good but i love school setting episodes and zeke is such a good character. the subplot was also really good w/ jimmy pesto although i will NOT be letting bob forget what happened between them in the christmas episode and when he brought jimmy pesto his pain meds. he might forget but i will NOT. they were seriously for real gay there

[causenessus]

hi my dearest loveliness !! good evening afternoon OR morning I HOPE YOUR DAY IS GOING WELL TODAY!! AND I HOPE YOUVE EATEN!! i literally just woke up (it’s 3pm…. my parents literally watched me come out of my room and were like ???)(you just woke up???)LMFAO BUT BUT i’m back to work tomorrow so i wanted to sleep in a lot today(I HAVE A 9-5:30 RIGHT OFF THE BAT)(MY WORK HATES ME??)but omg i just saw the ask from sav(sorry am i allowed to call her that too)(IM SORRY IDK) and i was like AWWWW “you and your mango anon” I AM NESS’ MANGO ANON idk why i thought it was so cute and sweet like YOU GIGGLE AND READ THEM?? THATS SO CUTE?? IM GONNA EXPLODE?? but let’s all yap together this is yap central(a safe place for yappers)

omg last night i got so many notifs if you answering every ask bat to bat and I FELT SO BAD BECAUSE I WROTE A LOT YESTERDAY BUT YOU STILL ANSWERED EACH ASK WITH LIKE SO SO MUCH PASSION??(idk if that’s the right word) but you always answer each ask with ur heart like non of it is halfassed(sorry am i allowed to swear)(IVE BEEN REFRAINING FROM SWEARING BECAUSE IDK I DONT THINK IVE SEEN YOU SWEAR OUTSIDE YOUR SMAUS???)(or idk i’m crazy i think i’m crazy)

I WOULD SHARE WHAT CONCERT IT WAS LIKE I WAS GOING TO but i was like omg i’m gonna dox myself LOL BUT actually you know what’s so funny i don’t even live in the states(LORE DROP) ALSO DECLAN MCKENNA?? THATS SO COOL THAT YOU GOT TO SEE HIM i think he’s on tour again right now?? or just performing right now (I THINK) im pretty sure i saw on ticketmaster! i would 100% go but literally my bank account is decreasing a little too much for my liking and it’s time to lock in and go ultra saving mode LOL BUT OMG MITSKI??? stop it if i was rich i would 100% fly over to your state and buy tickets for you and me and we could go together and have our losing dogs moment(on repeat by eggy always in my heart)(literally one of my fav smaus LOL)

ness i will read every single part of your response LITERALLY I WILL READ AND ABSORB EVERY PART SO do not worry your pretty little head(as i said this i imagined myself tapping your head with a pretty little fairy stick)BUT OMG ME AND YOU WORKING AT ILLEGAL AGES(actually actually hold on)okay because i started working my retail job when i was 15 but i was like a week away from turning 16 but they accepted me anyways? idk it’s kind of silly but i remember saying i was 15 but turning 16 in a “few days” (i think it was a week and a bit) and they were like mmmm okay! here’s your training days blah blah blah LOL listen i really wanted a job… i always felt bad asking my parents for money so i was like you know what ILL get my own money(here i am 2-3 years later still trapped in retail)also i totally get the hostess thing because my friend works at olive garden as a hostess and like it SOUNDS SO STRESSFUL? because like… you’re kinda in control of how much tips a person gets? (if that makes sense) and it just feels ITS TOO STRESSFUL FOR ME TO FANTOM LIKE i cant i feel like im too much of a people pleaser where id just be like oh! oh you don’t want this table? okay! oh i have you too many tables? i’m sorry! my bad! let me do it! ALSO IDK i hate fixed schedules like i like the random rotation every week LOL like it’s kinda a surprise!! like omg what days am i working today type of thing you know! BUT OMG THEM KEEPING YOU ON STANDBY IS CRAZY AFTER YOU QUIT LOL they love you so much they want to keep you <3 i can’t blame them <3 ness is a very lovable person <3 but restaurant environments are different from retail idk how you do it like I APPAUD YOU AND EVERY OTHER RESTAURANT WORKER because like dealing with hangry people everyday like… i already deal with impatient customers which make me wanna pull my hair like i remember one time during this rush we had everyone on cash like everyone on the tills right and this guy came up to my till and he’s like “yall need more workers” LIKE CANT YOU SEE EVERYONE ON THE TILLS RIGHT NOW??WE ARE TRYING OUR BEST !! and i was deadass like “haha sorry….. would you like a bag for 50 cents?”

ALSO YOURE SO BUSY WHAT?? your schedule is so jacked up HOW DO YOU DO IT??? like literally uni + job AND THEATRE??? and also the fact that you have more than one job?? PLS PLS PLS EAT AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF LOVE YOURE GONNA BURN OUT </3

omg if i worked lights with you it would’ve been so so so much better like i’m not discrediting the light people i worked with BUT it was the fact that they were a year younger right so they didn’t really know what they were doing since all our light crew graduated and for some reason people didn’t like doing lights as much? so they were just first years doing lights and i had to help out a bunch and kind of guide them BCUZ IDK WHY MY TECH TEACHER DIDNT DO IT RIGHT so i had to focus on sound PLUS helping the lights people which i don’t really mind too much when we’re just having rehearsals but like during shows i was a little more stressed because they weren’t that confident and was always asking just to make sure and it was 100% not their fault of course but I WAS STILL STRESSED and doing my hardest to help him while trying to also keep track of where the play was(sorry very messy)(i too am like you and i do NOT proof read these whatsoever) IF I COULD I WOULD DROP EVERYTHING AND FLY THERE !! we could be the light + sound duo because i literally miss my tech days like i lowkey thought about doing it in uni but IDK WHY I DIDNT !! I SHOULDVE !! also another suna smau would heal me (LMFAO NO PRESSURE) BUT I LITERALLY LOVE ALL OF INARIZAKI?? like they all have my heart(especially kita and osamu like oh my god)BUT OH MY GOD IF YOU DO I THINK ILL CRY LIKE “OMG THATS ME GUYS” “I AM MANGO ANON !!!” BUT you have sooooo much stuff lined up so DO NOT WORRY TOO MUCH!! what you’ve been giving right now (TRY AGAIN AND TONICS <333) is already so good like the idea and concepts AND IM SO EXCITED FOR THEM TOO AHH

THE CAST NOT BEINF ABLE TO PROJECT THEIR VOICES ARE SO REAL !!! maybe i’m just saying this because i only did plays in high school right so it was a bunch of kids right but it was soooo frustrating because like SPEAK UP but also the fact that some cast got better mics than others? like tell me why i can’t hear this lead but i can hear this random person playing a citizen like?? BUT LITERALLY WHEN MICS DIE I LITERALLY WANNA JUST FALL TO THE FLOOR LIKE and the director is just like “keep going” LIKE DONT KEEP GOING WHAT? I CANT HEAR? like i literally feel like i have to focus my energy like some type of anime character to my ears just to hear a SNIPPET of what they’re saying but then sometimes i get in trouble for missing cues </3 LIKE I’M SORRY IT ISNT MY FAULT LIKE MAYBE GET BETTER SPEAKERS AND MICS?? also not you literally running the whole tech crew like rewiring the motherboard and climbing stuff like ness mvp tech girl LOL BUT I GET NOT WANTING TO THINK ABOUT THOSE TIMES LIKE i swear all tech/cast crew environments are SO toxic like i literally remember one of the cast fainting because like we literally got no breaks at all so she was probably overwhelmed with the lighting and everything else then that’s when the director was like ok… let’s take a break like YOU THINK??

ALSO YOURE SO RIGHT if the previous men i’ve talked to is on tumblr reading cutesy little haikyuu x femreader stuff THEN THATS ANOTHER PROBLEM(NO STOP I LITERALLY GIGGLED SO HARD WHEN YOU SAID THAT LOL)(everytime i read your responses im always smiling and giggling like i always reread it too LOL) but omg ness… the quarantine online gaming breakout season is such a canon event like BECAUSE ME TOOOOO LOL(we are so soulmates) mine was a mix of minecraft and roblox and I LITERALLY MET A WHOLE GROUP ONLINE TOO IT WAS CRAZY the ptsd flashbacks is so real but THATS SO GIRLBOSS OF YOU LIKE YES!! CALL MEN OUT ON THEIR SHIT!!(sorry swearing again) BE NO MANS PEACE!! i will literally find him and politely beat him up for you <333 TIME FOR LORE DROP AND IF THE PERSON READS THIS THEN ??? WELL ??? oh well LOL but anyways so i was in this little online group idk i kind of just found them through twitter and i was like WHY NOT so i became friends with this guy he went by socks(discord names are so real)and like we got really close right and like he was the only person i really VC’d with (AND AND TO BE FAIR I THINK ITS BECAUSE WE WERE LIKE THE BABIES OF THE GROUP) like we were the same age while everyone else was like 19-25ish now(idk what i was doing hanging out with them as a minor but oh well)(i’m 18 now so it’s ok!)(but i literally don’t talk to any of them now LOL)but i remember this one specific conversation where he was like teaching me spanish?? because i don’t know i was teaching him viet too so it was just a silly little thing and i translated it(this was through texts like i still have the screenshot LOL) and he basically confessed to me through text in spanish right then afterwards they were like JK JK JK!! IDK idk if it was real or not but we drifted a lot after that so idk! sock if ur out there !! im sorry !! to be fair though they didn’t give me a chance to reply because i had to translate it then when i came back to the chat they were like IM JK IM JK SO idk! I GUESS WE’LL NEVER KNOW!! also i will def report back when i get a poke bowl but im very very picky about the way i eat raw fish bevause sometimes it’s okay but when there’s an overwhelming amount i kind of get scared and im like hmmm maybeeee.. not this time… LOL It really depends for me!! but maybe ill try the imitation crab one if i see it!

AND UR SO RIGHT ONE DAY I WILL COME TO YOU AND I WILL BE UR GUARD DOG AT WORK !!! i’m glad yesterday was better! hopefully it keeps getting better, i will fight off the bad omens for you ness i will stand in the front lines fighting them off I COULD NEVER BE DISAPPOINTED IN YOU but i will be a tiny tiny bit upset because I WANT YOU TO EAT WELL AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF !! eggs and toast is so real but don’t worry :( a meal is a meal and you did good by getting up and making yourself something small! little steps are okay, i will be here along the way so don’t worry! take your time <333 I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT REST OF YOUR DAY!! (it literally took me an hour to write this because now it’s 4:30)(BUT i did eat in between writing) I HAD RICE AND CHICKEN YIPPPPEE!! i had to take a little break to eat then i continued writing LOL(but so real on saying ill go back but you never do because … me too)(i’m too lazy to look back on what i wrote so ill just trust myself) (mango anon loves you very much pls take care of yourself) (ALSO) i just realized i could make the font smaller (thank you again sav for the idea) so it would be easier to scroll pass these LOL BUT ANYWAYS MAKE SURE TO EAT AND REST WELL !!! xoxoxoxo

HELLO MY LOVE!!! MY DAY WAS PRETTY OKAY!! BESIDES THE CAR CRISIS OFC 😭😭 AND PLEASE WAKING UP AT 3PM IS SO REAL I'VE DONE THAT BEFORE </33 AND ESPECIALLY IF U WORK A 9-5:30 TOMORROW DEFINITELY GET ALL THE SLEEP YOU CAN GET!! REST UP AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF PLS <3 MAKE SURE TO DRINK LOTS OF WATER AND BRING PLENTY WITH YOU TOMORROW AND PLEASE EAT!! and don't apologize at all you're def okay to call sav sav as well (i'm pretty sure!!) AND YOU ARE MY MANGO ANON <33 AND I LOVE U SM!! AND I LOVE UR PARANTHESES LMAO THEY'RE SO CUTE <3 YES YAP CENTRAL!!

AND omg mango anon i just have to tell you like how honored i am <3 like i feel so seen by you!! the way you see the passion in my writing and like notice that i don't curse outside of my writing pls :(( my face is literally going :((( rn /pos i try not to curse outside of my writing just bc it's not my thing!! but ofc you can and like sometimes i still do!! definitely do whatever you want AND SORRY FOR ALL THE NOTIFS YESTERDAY AND TODAY SINCE I'M DOING THE SAME THING LMAO 😭 i'm the one that lets them bunch up so dw about them at all!! and mango anon i genuinely love talking and replying to you so so much AND I'M REALLY SO THANKFUL FOR EVERY ASK FROM ANYONE SO OFC I'LL BE ANSWERING IT WITH PASSION!! I GET WHAT YOU MEAN ENTIRELY AND I'M GLAD THAT GETS ACROSS WELL <3 I JUST APPRECIATE YOU ALL SM <3

AND YOU DEF DON'T HAVE TO SAY WHAT CONCERT YOU WENT TO!! I WAS WORRIED ABOUT LIKE THAT DOXXING U OR SOMETHING bc i had no idea you didn't live in the states!!! i definitely automatically assumed that and that maybe u had went to a different state since we were in the same timezone for a little bit but that makes total sense and that was my bad for assuming 😭😭 BUT AA YES!! I'D LOVE TO SEE HIM AGAIN AND MAYBE I WILL <3 LIKE HIS TICKETS DEF ARE NOT BAD PRICING AND HE'S AMAZING!!! i'm just insanely broke and like ik he's touring with sabrina carpenter rn or something??? which is super cool and good for him!! and sabrina's cool but i don't think i'd enjoy or be able to afford her concerts 😭 and that's okay!! maybe my tickets were cheap the time i went to see him bc it was a little more niche <3 AND AAA YES I WISH WE COULD SEE MITSKI TOGETHER!! the entire crowd would be in tears over i bet on losing dogs like that's our national anthem FRFR!!!!

I WAS IMAGINING THE PRETTY LITTLE FAIRY STICK WITH U thank you for tapping my head <33 AND I ALSO READ ABSORB EVERYTHING U TELL ME SO PLEASE YAP AS MUCH AS YOU WANT!! AND DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT SMALL FONT IF YOU DON'T WANT TO <3 YOU DO WHATEVER YOUR PRETTY LITTLE HEART DESIRES!!! (i am giving ur heart a kiss rn mwah <3) BUT PLEASE THE ILLEGAL JOBS FR SOME PLACES BE CRAZY AND THEY STILL GET AWAY WITH IT!!! BUT YOU GET IT EXACTLY like at the restaurant i often work at we often just have a rotation with no server sections bc it's pretty small (i'd only be forced to do sections when i worked with my manager who made me want to DIE and made me cry once i literally ran out and cried next to a steakhouse across from us) and so basically i just sit people at random tables (i always ask them like "is this table okay?" and i'm not really asking them like girl i have better things to be doing than escorting you around this restaurant trying to see what table tickles your fancy the best. i just ask them so i don't sound super forward like "THIS IS YOUR TABLE SUCK IT UP." yk??) and whoever's turn it is next, they get it so i'll tell them like "table three for two people" so like I REALLY DO NOT CONTROL WHAT CUSTOMERS A SERVER GETS BUT THEY ALL COME AND COMPLAIN AT ME FOR HOW BAD THEIR TABLES ARE (probably bc they're trying to guilt trip me or be passive aggressive) BUT LIKE WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT IT?? I'M NOT PURPOSELY GIVING PEOPLE BAD OR GOOD TABLES LIKE 😭😭 and i'm sure it's even worse at places like olive garden which are way bigger! and you have to work with other hosts and more people so best of luck to your friend she's doing amazing <3 AND YOU GET IT!! LIKE IT'D PROABABLY BE NICE TO HAVE A FIXED SCHEDULE BUT ALSO I COULDN'T DO IT I LOVE BEING SCHEDULED ON RANDOM DAYS EVERY WEEK I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING also the guy who told you you guys needed more workers??? THANK YOU SIR FOR STATING THE OBVIOUS!! I HAD NO IDEA, LET ME, JUST A PERSON WHO WORKS HERE, NOT A MANAGER OR ANYTHING, GO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!! IN FACT, WHY DON'T YOU JUST PUT ON AN APRON AND START HELPING SINCE WE NEED MORE WORKERS!! CONGRATS YOU'RE HIRED!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH MANGO ANON 😭 I ALREADY FEEL SO BURNT OUT I'M REALLY HOPING THINGS WILL CALM DOWN AFTER SEPTEMBER IG (WHEN I STOP WORKING TWO JOBS) OR BY NOVEMEBER AT LEAST (WHEN THEATRE IS OVER) BUT WE'LL SEE </3 i'm sure things will continue to come up but i fr just want to lay down and sleep until 3pm like u did today 😔😔 that sounds so nice </3

AND PLEASE WHY IS YOUR TECH THEATRE STORIES THE SAME AS MINE like i was a run and props kid until my school's musical sophomore year where we got these three boys who all wanted to do tech and we had too many run and props kids so i was like "yk what. let me go to lights so that hopefully u three can be together" which didn't even work out bc one of the boys got thrown into lights with me while the other two were on run and props but were on opposite wings LMAO and so that was my first show doing lights which i did board op for because it was also our last show of the year which was also our like senior who knew everything about lights' last show so after that she GRADUATED and i was the one left to figure everything out 😭😭 and then the year after we lost our senior that knew everything about sound so my senior year was a STRUGGLE omg...bad times. but then i left that department a mess bc i could no longer care. like that lights kid wanted my job so badly? fine, fend for urself bro i'm not teaching u anything (sorry i am spiteful against that kid still LMAO) I ALSO THOUGHT ABOUT DOING TECH IN UNI!! my junior year i was fully planning to go to school to get a bfa for lighting design (new grounds was such a self insert for me LMAO) and my tech director literally pushed me to do it but then i decided i really did not want to be in these toxic stressful environments for the rest of my life 😭 BUT IF I HAD YOU!!! I DEF ACTUALLY WOULDN'T MIND <3 WE WOULD BE THE BEST DUO EVER I KNOW IT!! WE'D BOTH KNOW HOW TO DO OUR JOBS AND THAT WOULD BE LITERALLY GROUND BREAKING!! i mean even just reading ur stories i could feel the stress of like managing EVERYTHING i am so sorry for u mango anon but i am with u completely and from one tech mother to another, thank u for ur services 🫡 (i say tech mother bc WOMEN IN STEM!! in my entire four years of high school our top of the mill techies were always girls until we had this one run and props guy ruin it 🙄 he's actually the same guy who i used to like and the one who my mutual friend tried to get us to go to prom together but like i would NEVER UGHGHGH sorry he's also so frustrating to deal with i need to stop thinking about those times and this is exactly why i didn't actually go into theatre for school LMAOO) BUT YES AAA!! I WILL UPDATE YOU ON THE SUNA TECH SMAU AND I LOVE ALL OF INARIZAKI TOO <33333 haruichi furudate really put his whole budget into that team like please everyone on there is so pretty and beautiful and amazing and pookie shaped i love them sm <33 AND LOWKEY i was feeling like a stage manager reader (probably usually audio head but is stage managing this show) x lights head suna...bc i think that'd just be a crazy dynamic of her lowkey being in a higher position than him and he's just teasing and messing with her the whole time..BUT IDK and ik like theatre works differently in college but THIS IS MY WORLD AND WRITING SO I'LL DO WHAT I WANT!! i also have absolutely nothing actually planned out for the smau so who even knows LMAO THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME TO TAKE MY TIME </3 THERE'S DEFINITELY SO MUCH I NEED TO DO AND TOO LITTLE TIME UEFBIEWIOEGLN

BUT I'M GLAD U HAD THE SAME EXPERIENCES WITH PEOPLE NOT STRUGGLING we did this one horror play (which was SUCH a mess. okay let me just say this. our stage manager full on just gave up like halfway thru and would sit next to me reading vampire books and so same lights kid that kept trying to steal my job decided that it was "UP TO HIM" to save the show HIS WORDS EXACTLY I REMEMBER HEARING ABOUT THIS when literally the entire show was going fine and so basically he was like overthrowing our stage manager and was taking it upon himself to stage manage instead and give cues and just OMG THAT SHOW WAS A MESS BUT ANYWAY) and our main character just would NOT project like she was always cranky the musical we did that year she would just not sing or talk and we were like bro...ur in a musical BUT ANYWAY she wouldn't project we literally ended up hanging a mic and putting a little speaker in the booth so we could hear her bc like it was so important that we heard her lines but we couldn't when we were in a booth behind four windows and a closed door 😭😭

AND HELP YOUR ONLINE STORIES??? I GIGGLED READING ABOUT HIM TEACHING YOU SPANISH AND YOU TEACHING HIM VIET BUT ALSO THE ENTIRE FRIEND GROUP BEING OLDER WHEN YOU WERE A MINOR WAS CRAZY BUT I CAN'T EVEN JUDGE BC THAT WAS ME TOO 😭😭 I FEEL LIKE THAT'S HOW IT ALWAYS IS FOR ME I'M LIKE ALWAYS ONE OF THE YOUNGEST PEOPLE IN A FRIEND GROUP but i cannot imagine what that guy was thinking (i LOVE DISCORD NAMES HOLD ON LET ME GO FIND THE NAME OF MY GUY i think he changed it bc it's froge now...but ANYWAY IT WAS SOMETHING LAME AND SO WAS HIS ROBLOX USER IT WAS PROBABLY SOMETHING LIKE DARK KNIGHT IDK) but i cannot imagine the stress socks was going thru </33 i bet he sent that and then u were like "oh let me go translate it!" and then he was like "OMG SHE DIDN'T RESPOND AND SHE WENT OFFLINE SHE HATES ME" and just flipped and said "jk" bc THERE'S NO WAY THAT WAS JUST A JOKE LIKE U DO NOT TEACH PEOPLE CONFESSIONS LIKE DID THE TAMING OF THE SHREW TEACH U PEOPLE NOTHING THAT IS SO OLD SCHOOL!! (i also never proofread these and just go on tangents and for that, i am sorry </3)

BUT I ALSO DON'T LIKE RAW FISH DW AT ALL!! like they have a hawaiian poke bowl too or something with all raw tuna and i'm like...yeah i'm good actually... and so my only other choice is imitation crab unfortunately 😭 BUT I HOPE YOU FIND SOMETHING GOOD AND LIKE IT!!

MANGO ANON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND IT WAS SO GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU <3 I ATE A BAGEL HALFWAY THROUGH THIS AS WELL (you can probably tell when i started eating it bc i was only typing with my left hand and probably didn't use as many crying emojis for a bit LMAO) AND I LOVE TALKING TO YOU!! I LOVE YOU <3 AND I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL!! I LOVE CHICKEN AND RICE AND I WILL MAKE SURE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AS LONG AS YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!! DRINK LOTS OF WATER AND GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR SHIFT TOMORROW!! <3

[elystwelve]

Mystic Flour can we honestly e date? you’re so beautiful. You always make me laugh, you always make me smile. You literally make me want to become a better person… I really enjoy every moment we spend together. My time has no value unless its spent with you. I tell everyone of my irls how awesome you are. Thank you for being you. Whenever you need someone to be there for you, know that i’ll always be right there by your side. I love you so much. I don’t think you ever realize how amazing you are sometimes. Life isn’t as fun when you’re not around. You are truly stunning. I want you to be my soulmate. I love the way you smile, your eyes are absolutely gorgeous. If I had a star for everytime you crossed my mind i could make the entire galaxy. Your personality is as pretty as you are and thats saying something. I love you, please date me. I am not even calling it e dating anymore because I know we will meet soon enough heart OK I ADMIT IT I LOVE YOU OK i hecking love you and it breaks my heart when i see you play with someone else or anyone commenting in your profile i just want to be your girlfriend and put a heart in my profile linking to your profile and have a walltext of you commenting cute things i want to play video games talk in discord all night and watch a movie together but you just seem so uninsterested in me it hecking kills me and i cant take it anymore i want to remove you but i care too much about you so please i’m begging you to eaither love me back or remove me and never contact me again it hurts so much to say this because i need you by my side but if you dont love me then i want you to leave because seeing your icon in my friendlist would kill me everyday of my pathetic life.

I have seen numerous people use this filter and I can confidently say that your rendition of the use of this filter is by far the best I’ve ever seen. You’re absolutely hilarious, very quirky, whacky, and unique. And you know you are all of those things. I just love how raw, unscripted, and genuine your reactions are whilst using this filter. No other person has ever posted something like this. It’s so refreshing to see someone as different yet original as you. As cliché as it may sound, you aren’t like the other girls. You were built different. And I applause you for that.

Date Mystic Flour

Kiss Mystic Flour

Propose to Mystic Flour

Marry Mystic Flour

Have a lifetime lasting relationship with Mystic Flour

Go on many picnics with Mystic Flour

Play games with Mystic Flour

Travel the world with Mystic Flour

Listen to the stories and laughs of Mystic Flour

Fall asleep each night and wake up each morning while looking at Mystic Flour

Have children with Mystic Flour

Build a house with Mystic Flour

Watch our children grow up while we are expecting our fourth with Mystic Flour

Watch the stars twinkle in the night, as we rest, shoulder to shoulder, with our children sleeping next to us with Mystic Flour

Watch our children grow into warm, self sufficient, caring and capable adults, with Mystic Flour

Retire to a farm next to the woods with Mystic Flour

Have our children and grandchildren come to celebrate holidays together with Mystic Flour

Take long hikes into the woods while holding hands, remembering all the amazing events we had in our life with Mystic Flour

Pass away while at home, surrounded by family, holding hands with Mystic Flour

As the void takes me, take the sight of a smile, covered with a stream of never ending tears, and feeling the warm embrace and kiss of Mystic Flour

...

All this mf did was sleep in a cocoon and she's already SERVING CUUUUUUNT 💅✨️

[tvlkr]

My twin flame.

I met you at a time in my life that I now find really hard to remember. I used to think the universe was cruel for choosing that time to bring our physical beings together. Both so young and still so not understanding of what kind of connection was forming. I still remember how you would tell me to look at the moon so you could do it too from where you were. I still do it now. I remember our first hug and then the first kiss, and still not being sure why the universe had chosen to give us only one month to reconnect in this life. But it was the best month, the first time we were able to touch skin to skin and not feel any shame or worry behind it. A moment when I was actually allowed to give in to my intrusive thoughts and kiss you whenever I wanted. It went by too fast and then life happened and we drifted. I separated us. My soul and body felt it too in the way that I miscarried without even knowing a life was forming. I regret it to this day, but I know deep in my soul that everything happens for a reason. Time goes on you meet someone else and so do I, we both know they aren’t the one because we always find ourselves coming back to each other when we can through messages and other people. I have my heart broken first. It shatters me entirely. And all I want and crave is to see you again, but I’m not allowed to yet. You’re still with someone and they don’t approve of my existence at all. Something inside me deteriorates slowly. I came home for a week-end and all I wanted was to see you, I just needed some help, I wasn’t doing okay inside. You were still with her, and I was ready for you. I saw you that weekend actually I swear we looked at each other in the eyes but you didn’t see me back. You just weren’t ready yet.

You break up with her. It shatters you. You reach out to me, but that dark thing had made a home in my chest and I was no longer who I was meant to be. I showcased it well and I think you also thought I was okay. We finally see each other, and you kiss me after dinner. I wanted to embrace it so much more but I was hurting and didn’t want to hurt you anymore. I’m sorry about your trip down to visit me, it should’ve been so much more, I’d planned so much more in my head but I just physically couldn’t act on it. I wasn’t ready and the week after you left I tried to kill myself. It hurt too much. I’m sorry. 2020 happened, I don’t remember a lot of that year, and then I met someone else. I was fixing myself back together at this point so I was finding it easy to form a healthy relationship. Before I know it I’ve been with them for 1 year. They’re my best friend, and you would really love him. We’re almost the same person and I’m pretty sure he’s my soul mate. But he’s not my twin flame. And it hurts me so bad every time I look at him, because I do love him, but I know it’s not my forever. My thoughts slowly manifest themselves in the relationship and I’m suddenly finding myself never able to have sex with him. He’s so kind and handsome and good to me. So what’s wrong with me? I have everything I should want right? I come home for random holidays and I can’t help but stare at you. You’re ready for me.

The guilt comes in waves, I’ve never acted on anything and I never would. I’m not a cheater and I never could be but my thoughts they’re too much. I cant stop thinking about you all the time. I make up scenarios in my head about you to help me fall asleep, I start seeing you in things all around me. And god help me the worst punishment is seeing you in person and just being allowed a long hug, but not too long because that’s suspicious. I just need you everywhere, I’m expressing it through music and pictures but it’s just not scratching my itch. God it hurts all the time. I love your face. You have the best face and when you’re looking at me my entire self tingles almost like electricity and it feels so right like it’s meant to be, you have the best hands too I want them to touch me everywhere all the time. And tonight your smell is lingering on my shirt from one more final long hug goodbye, not knowing when the next next is. The universe knows, just promise when I’m ready you’ll be ready too. There will be no more waiting, and our souls can finally be at peace. <3

[g-gurokisses]

ive been okay !!! truly lots of changes :P .. i found someone that actually likes me as much as i like him lol. we spend all our time together,, we both get jealous when we hang out w our friends but its okay cuz we js call right after. its like finally i am not the only one doing the obsessing..

its so nice it doesnt even feel like im obsessed!!! cuz so is he :P. at first i thought it wld just fade on his end as it usually does, and then i thought id feel smothered and want him gone but.. its been like four months i think and were still the same.

the only thing i wld change is if i could just finally make it Oficial lol. but, im waiting for certain things to fall into place for that first. still cant wait tho :3

i like him so much.. i love him So much. its funny, ive never met someone so normal yet so weird. he gets everything i say but he doesnt get it like i do,, but he gets it in a way nobody ever has before. he gets me,, its like he knows me yk?. i hope we get far, i dont ever wanna be away from him.

– く⁠コ⁠:⁠彡

Thank you for sharing this with me!!

Oh this is wonderful, just wonderful!! I'm so happy to hear that my dear! Success stories are always the best part of this blog! This truly warms my heart ♡

Doesn't it feel amazing to finally feel loved and understood, even when you thought you'd never get love? It's amazing!! And I hope anyone who reads this realizes that time and patience will get you far, everyone finds someone eventually!!

Frankly I also had my phase where I thought I was unlovable, or that relationships weren't for me. I even thought, for a moment, that friendships could replace relationships! People who have been following me for a while and read my posts a lot might remember that... Quite embarrassing when I look back now! Tehehehe~

Now of course, that might very much be the case for some, and there's nothing wrong with that, but for yearning and love-filled people like me that just doesn't cut it!

Now you know what it's like to have someone who genuinely loves you! Someone who needs you and is infatuated just like you! My dear beloved and I are often too much for the average person, but we're perfect for each other. I've never had someone be exactly what I wanted like that, and I'm guessing you feel the same!!

That is to say, I'm so happy for you!!! And I wish you both the absolute best, even tho I already know you're starting off by a great start!! I can sense this relationship will do wonders for you.

And for the rest of my dear lovely readers, don't give up! Know your worth, know how much your love is valuable and NEVER settle for someone who underappreciates you. Communication is key, but if you ever feel unwanted and unloved and talking doesn't work; Please, put yourself first. You don't owe anyone anything, and that inclues you too.

As someone who was stuck in a tiring and unreciprocated friendship for years, I regret not realizing how little that person cared about me.

Remember, the right person will never make you feel inadequate!!

But most importantly, remember that I LOVE YOU~ ♡♡

[daisuke19012008]

Ticket To The Past _______________________________________________________ Art Director & Interpreter: Trần Vỹ Khang HR director: Todoroki TThảo Photographer: Từn Presenter & Writer: Kiệt Nguyễn ________________________________________________________ English Version: Uh, it has been quite some time has it?…since we last said our goodbyes to our beloved Ngo Si Lien. I miss you all so dearly But time flies doesn’t it? Back in 8th grade, the whole grade was scrambled, therefore creating our class: A9. It could be said that our encounter was in part due to fate. Honestly, I felt very concerned and anxious. “How will my new friends be?” “How can I befriend them?”. These types of questions always linger in our heads right? Coupled with the fact that we had to study online the whole semester made interaction even harder. But with Mr. Hau’s lead, we were able to get closer and closer. Who knew that in such short time, our class were united like family. With the eternal passing of time brought us to our last year of middle school with unending pressure from homework, class projects, tests and most important of all, preparation for the imminent high school exam. But nothing could stop us from creating beautiful memories together. Such as rocking our hearts out in the Spring festival or going crazy in our 2 day trip to Phan Thiet. Even when we had presentations to do, the same old boring classes suddenly sparked with enjoyment when we were experiencing it together. And we cant forget all of the ridiculous and goofy stuff we used to do. Those memories will always be apart of my teenage years. But time waits for no one. Four years of ups and downs led to one fateful day: Graduation. The day we get to wear our graduation robe, the day we get to get on stage and receive our long awaited certificate with pride… was bittersweet to say the least. There were still too many regrets, too many things to express, too many things didn’t get the chance to do that all we could do at that moment was hug, say our final goodbyes, smile as well as cry; for it’s the last gift for all our friends. 2 years go by so quickly, but at least we could spend each and every moment together. As you’re hearing this, we’re all probably doing our own stuff. But when you’re done hearing this, we all should have revisited our beloved Ngo Si Lien right? Because its 20/11! Even if you can’t join us, then its all ok. Because no matter where you are or how far you go, you will always be an inseparable part of class A9. Alas, I would like to thank you all for the memories, the memories we built together. Middle school days are one of a kind, and I’m genuinely joyed when I could experience it together with you guys. Friends from A9, remember to care for yourself, study well and live a happy life! In the near future, if we never get the chance to meet each other again then don’t forget that you have once been a part of an extremely smart, ridiculously fun, stupidly insane, laughter filled, class called A9 housing the sweetest, the most amazing and beautiful boys and girls in the planet. Sincerely, Kiệt Nguyễn Trần Vỹ Khang Translate

[clemencetaught]

FERRE; SWEET, WONDERFUL, DEAR FERRE!!!! HAPPIEST OF BIRTHDAYS TO YOU 🎂🎉🥳🍰!!!!

May this day be full of fantastic moments, pleasant surprises, good company, delicious food and everything great that the world has to offer 💖 I hope this new year for you is covered with happiness, success, good health, memorable experiences and heartwarming situations 😊✨️!! I'm wishing you the best today and ALWAYS!!!

You are such a supportive, understanding, creative and marvelous soul;; your presence is a bright light that brings comfort, ease and joy 🥺 I thank you IMMENSELY for your friendship, for all those lovely chats where we freely go back and forth with our thoughts (I LOVE!! READING ALL YOU HAVE TO SHARE!! I'D READ ENTIRE BOOKS OF THAT!!); for all the stories we've written and developed together (ALL THOSE MARVELOUS PLOTS THAT BRING ME BOTH JOY AND PAIN ((but its okay, I signed up for the wounds 😭😂)), I KEEP THEM ALL IN MY HEART AND I AM CONTINUOUSLY THRILLED TO WRITE AND CREATE WITH YOU!!!) and for!! Giving my muses and I a chance 🥲

It's been nothing but AN HONOR, to get to know you, chat and write with you, and I hope we continue to do this fOR MANY MORE YEARS (I mean…you're stuck with me, THE RECEIPT IS LOST SO YOU CANT RETURN ME HSOWAKBAAJ 😂)!!

It also makes me very happy to celebrate your birthday once more, I HAVE MY PARTY HAT ON AND I'M THROWING HEART-SHAPED CONFETTI ALL OVER THE PLACE 🎉🎉🎉🥳🥳🥳❤️

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, PLEASE HAVE A FANTABULOUS DAY!!! I CARE YOU AND ADORE YOU HEAPS, MY FRIEND!!!!

HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ✨️✨️✨️✨️

@jeoseungsaja alex has me like:

ALEX!!!! 🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭💕

you know nowadays it’s so weird to me?? To remember when there was a time where I wasn’t writing or plotting with you- it's hard to believe that we started writing together about two years ago...which is why i am SO GRATEFUL that you gave me the chance to not only write and plot with you but also be your friend 🥺🥺🥺 you are a SUCH a kind and thoughtful person and i'm sure everyone who is lucky enough to be mutuals with you can testify in my favor here and the judge is also biased towards me, sorry folks, the right to a fair trial in this case?? no such thing fjksldjf 😌

ANYWAYS i can only say i have such wonderful and intricate characters and plots on here because of my wonderful and creative partners such as you and all of our lovely mutuals 🥺🥺🥺 any day i get the chance to interact with you always is a good day in my book!! I always feel like a dash of dophmomine when I see u around 💕💕💕 and you know i am ALWAYS an excited puppy for our plots and  your characters ( and even MORE PLOTS….we could have 1923947373 and I would be down for more still DHDJDJD 😂😂😂 )- I also v sorry for the pain i gib u ( black knight verse )and for the pain coming in the future too ( thg verse WHICH ALSO THANK YOU JUMPING IN THE HOLE AND DRAGGING HYUK AND HAE GEON AND WILDER AND JAEHWAN AND ALL UR OTHER CHARACTERS IN TOO, it’s big enough for everyone 😌 )….if it helps it gives me pain too and any pain u gib me I shall take stride….I’ll also pay u ( and ur charas, hyuk especially )back with happiness I swear ( + tissues and consoling too 🥲🥲🥲 ) 💕💕💕💕

but thank YOU for your sweet, sweet message- I will admit when I woke up on my bday I wasn’t in most amazing of moods but reading ur message put a huge smile on my face ☺️☺️☺️ you are such a bright spot on this hellsite and most certainly a ☀️ on my dash and I am very thankful to have met you- I’m always in awe that I get to be able to interact with someone who is not only an excellent writer with characters that jump off the page but also a decent and genuinely all around good person 🥲🥲🥲 this is all to say just like you said, unfortunately for us both I will be stuck to u like superglue even after this hellsite dies 😂😂😂 not even returning the receipt will help u there!!

all in all though, thank you SO MUCH for the birthday wishes ( and YOUR GIFT DONT THINK YOURE GETTING AWAY WITH ME NOT NOTICING 🤩🤩🤩 )!! care you so much and I know for sure that this year will be as wonderful as the last since you’ll be there 🥰🥰🥰

[frishadaia111]

meeting my bestfriend after a long time

Last week i had a very fun and energetic day after been so drained. After month full of schedules, life changes and distance, i finally got to meet my bestfriend Aqis ! . The excitement has been building up for weeks, and i could say it was really full of joy as the day approached. The moment we arrived at our choosen cafe, we both burst into laughter, our voice overlapping in a joyous. I felt a wave of emotional about the past that wash over me, remembering all the times we had spent together laughing at school together, late night talks and giving support to each other during hard times. The conversation flowed effortlessly, just like it always had. We talked about our small details of our daily lives, our dreams and even the challenges we had faced in our time apart. It was comforting, our bond remained strong. I felt warmth and connection that only a bestfriend can fix out. As the hour has passed we shared laughter, a few happy tears and even some delicious pastries. It was unreal to be together again, sharing not only our words but also our presence. After we’ve been so long at the cafe , we decided to go to Time Square, she wants to buy some matching dress for me and her. After we take a walk, we spend our times at Times Square theme park it was not in our list at first, but she decided to brings me there and buys the ticket for us. It was really surprising because i didn’t expecting that she will bring me there, it was everything i had hoped for. As we walked through the park, the air was filled with excitement and joy, i know we were in for unforgettable day. We take a selfies with faces full of joy.

After exploring the park for a bit, we finally decided to take a ride with roller coster it was the tallest one in the park. When it’s finally out turn, we stood in our line, strapping ourselves in. As the ride started to climb. My heart raced, we scream our lungs out. The view from the top was breathtaking , We screamed and i could hardly catch my breath, i felt very closer to Aqis. Sharing this wild experience together. We were both laughing uncontrollably, our fears forgotten in the moment. When the ride finally came to a stop, i was breathless, we stumbled out of our seats, still buzzing from the excitement. We dashed back to the line, After several rounds on the roller coster, we decided to take a breath. We grabbed some snack and recounted our favourite moments from the ride, still giggling at how we screamed like kids. I felt so grateful to have a friend like Aqis who shared my love for adventure and spontaneity.

As the day goes on , we decided to take one last ride before calling it a day. This time i took a moment to appreciate the thrill of the ride and the joy of sharing it with my best friend. Today was a reminder that life is meant to be lived to the fullest, and i couldn’t have ask for a better partner in crime. I left the park with a heart full of happiness and a head full of memories. After we arrived at the train station, our last meeting before we returning home is the hardest goodbye. We waved at each other, suddenly my eyes filled with tears, remembering how we use to meet with each other everyday at school without distancing but i am very grateful that we still could meet with each other. I cant wait for our next adventure togetherr !

[sammyluvr]

okay umm my first time ever sending my thoughts on anything to anyone so i hope i do this right and if i mess up anything sorry cause i love transfem sam w my whole heart but im also a little unfamiliar on it and ive only seen you talk about it so i hope I did her justice

something i think about constantly, rowena is literally so down for girls because men are ew for her (no hate to men?), they're like disrespectful and always underestimate her (like 'shes a woman she cant stab three grown men'... rowena doesn't even need motivation, she would just do it) ANYWAY so she’s wlw?

then... she sees sam and shes like why am I feeling like this why does he look so good to me, why is he so nice and forgiving no ugh focus we hate men... but like then she spends more time with sam, maybe after what happened with lucifer and the little heart to heart in the car that made me chant kiss to the screen and shes like... oh, this is why I'm so attracted to her, its so obvious, 'its okay, false alarm I'm still anti-men' (again, no offense to men, I'm sure you're all great guys just… not our point).

and she keeps flirting with sam and sam gets so flustered each time cause she thinks its because she helped with lucifer or whatever and that rowena was being rowena, but no she actually likes her and shes always standing so close to her and i dont remember if the dog vet thing with jack was before or after lucifer but we’ll pretend it was after for the sake of the plot, and sam was just like what? when rowena mentioned the plan like starstruck thinking ‘you wanna be married to me’ 

like UGH IM SORRY THIS IS SO LONG but on a totally non-romantic note too, shes the only one that always chooses sam. like remember the ‘we have a more profound bond’ scene (not talking about destiel just the scene and it was sam was masking her hurt with anger) and shes thinks: its always dean dean dean with the people they love, so rowena chooses her and sam is melting and so confused and so happy.

WHEN SHE CALLS SAM PETNAMESSSSS, another story for another day im actually so embarrassed at how long this is I just want them to kiss so bad (ps sorry if I offended anyone, not my intention)

omg darling don't worry you did everything perfectly <333 this was such a lovely lovely ask to receive! i'm sure you didn't offend anyone, though definitely don't worry about hating on men, that's welcome on my blog, in a not misandrist way LOL <3 men suck boooo :)

anyways!!

BUT YES !! rowena definitely likes women hehe, i do think she'd prefer them over men or just be flat out lesbian because as she should be! she was almost canonically bi in the show too T_T can't believe they cut that out crying.

YESSS THE HEART TO HEART IN THE CAR SCENE MY BELOVED <33 one of the moments where i was definitely shipping them i think <3 and i just really love rowena being attracted to sam no matter what and then being able to love her as herself!!

pretty sure they time they pretending to be together was post lucifer so yes!! i loved that scene SOOO SO MUCH . rowena constantly flustering sam is my favorite to think about, like she gets so shy but she's secretly so pleased with the compliments even if she convinces herself they don't mean anything <33 rowena is always calling sam beautiful too, she's always very gender affirming and i love it a lot, i have so many thoughts about later seasons transfem sam and rowena actually ugh <33 i wrote about it here actually <3

bUT YES YES YES in any context, her choosing sam and being closer to sam than anyone else is so so very very special to me like genuinely i'm crying about them <33 just like . the way they have a shared fate and choose to care for each other.

AND DEFINITELY DON'T BE SORRY ABOUT THIS BEING LONGI LOVED IT SO MUCH <333

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August tenth, at 1:04 am

Inconsequence is the killer of meaning, when all the end of the equations your try equal zero. Zero chance, zero hope - maybe zero pain. Pain means you’re alive, feeling nothing at all, forget sleep, that is the closest to being dead you can get. I want everything to mean something, everything to be important. People and places, moments in time. I hate the way things are always passing us by and we never notice, even when we do it changes nothing. You can’t enjoy the moment by thinking about how its going to end soon, you have to live in it completely. And i hate how we can only live in the present, a present that is always becoming the past. i think its not only a good thing we’re able to reflect, and remember. its a curse and a function, probably the only reason we’re still alive right now and what good that does us. the future is a guess, an estimation educated or not about how something or everything is going to go. but we can only ever feel the present flowing through our fingers like sand or water, or even air, never really touching our skin or leaving a trace, completely invisible and everywhere. id like to hold it all close to my chest, to close my eyes and will the moment to stay present to settle down in my lap for a few minutes and just, breathe. breathing keeps us alive and it keeps me together, sometimes the air inflating my lungs feels more real than me, than the blood beating through my heart. we are organs and water and fleshy bits and skin, i think we’re so beautiful. despite everything, the flaws are insurmountable - the problems can blot out the sky, your eyes are pretty and your smile too. i really like everyone and sometimes i wish i wasnt here, that i could love everything from a safe distance and remain, you cant though, you have to get in the dirt, feel it get under your fingernails and fill your nose with its smell. you have to bleed a little, feel a little, lay your hand on a tree and let its shade just. envelope you. i want to be part of everything.