#osfed things

[melanirana]

ECLIPSEEEEEEEEEE THE BIG BOY IS HERE YES OMG I LOVE IT SO MUCH JSKSHEJSHDJSHSLSBDISNDIDD YEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAHAHHHHA YEEEES DAMN HE BIG I LOVE HIM HE'S SO COOOL HE LOOKS SO GENTLE AND GOOFY MY BOOOOOY AHAHSHKSJSJS

Yeah the big boy :D

ther he is!

truly the softest of them all. what a goofy guy

[averysadpigeon]

So I gave myself shin splints 🙃

I'm currently stressed out about how I'm going to be able to exercise without worsening the injury. My calorie intake is already 200-500 so I'm nervous about lowering it without drawing attention from my family.

Does anyone have upper body exercise/ general recommendations?

[anachronistictrash]

I hate how I've been professionally dxed with most of the popular-to-fake disorders, because I feel like when I creep in here to complain that I'll be seen as an attention-seeking faker.

I actually really don't want attention thx, just screaming into the void.

[theghostofaname]

I feel so fat rn, but the funny thing is, I think the reason is cuz I have gotten too small for my compression garments. So now that my clothes are too big to squeeze my stomach in I feel fatter.

[burymib0dy]

Mention of: disgusting constipation issues, laxatives and drvgs? below:

I did take a laxative (actually, 2) and went to college, I really thought it didn't make any effect on me... Until I almost puke on public transport and had to run mid class to the bathroom (I arrived so late and asshole teacher got angry).

It made me remember that edible I thought was nothing and ate it whole. Tha shit got me.

I'm so thankful my bud skipped class with me, teacher just told me to leave and he left with me.

[krakenprince]

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Railgun is the best card in One Step From Eden and Miracle is the best artifact in One Step From Eden and Violette(Aria) is the best character in One Step From Eden besides Shiso(Execute) who is the best character in One Step From Eden and Time Stop which is the best card in One Step From Eden and Magnifying Glass which is the best artifact in One Step From Eden save for Pocket Watch which is the best artifact in One Step From Eden and Saffron(Solo) which is the best character in One Step From Eden and Ragnarok which is the best card in One Step From Eden

[magnificent-suicide]

Food Diary

70 cal

Morning: chobani zero cookies and cream; walden farms chocolate syrup

60 cal

Lunch: spring mix; walden farms ranch

10 cal

[dorianbrightmusic]

PSA

-OCD is not a synonym for neat or preoccupied with tidiness. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is all about distressing intrusive thoughts and rituals (compulsions) used to combat those thoughts.

-Intrusive thoughts are not synonymous with silly things I want to do. They're deeply upsetting, often taboo mental apparitions. Letting them win is the last thing anyone wants, and nobody is immoral for having them. (See 'impulsive thoughts' if you need a term.)

-Anorexic is not a synonym for thin or emaciated. The majority of anorexic people have OSFED atypical anorexia – that is, their BMI is above 18.5. You cannot judge the severity of someone's illness by their appearance. (If you're worried about someone, look out more for rapid weight loss than thinness, even when it's occurring in someone in a larger body. 10kg in 10 weeks is never a good thing.)

-Eating disorders are not synonymous with just anorexia and bulimia. Anorexia is an ED, but it's nowhere near the most common. Bulimia is an ED, but again, not the most common. Together, they do not constitute the most common. The most common ED is binge-eating disorder, and the second most common is atypical anorexia, which is one of many, many OSFED categories. Those living with ARFID, pica, night-eating syndrome, rumination disorder, subthreshold BN, subthreshold BED, and orthorexia all deserve dignity, compassion, and acknowledgement. Remember: EDs are not necessarily thin, and never glamorous.

-Schizophrenic is not a synonym of all over the place, abnormal, unpredictable, dangerous, or crazy. Nor is schizoid or schizotypal. Folks with schizophrenia spectrum disorders live with hallucinations, delusions, disorganised thoughts/behaviour, and/or catatonia. They are far more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators, and go to huge lengths to act okay even when distressed by symptoms.

-Schizophrenic is also not a synonym of multiple personalities/volatile. For the disorder involving having different facets of personality that are generally unaware of each other, see Dissociative Identity Disorder, and even then, don't assume it's a) dramatic as it is in the movies; b) evil; or c) trivial. DID is a trauma disorder.

-Delusional is not a synonym of wrong. Nor is it the same as this politician/friend is saying something I do not like/that is potentially dangerous. Delusions are false, fixed beliefs held despite evidence. And generally, folks with delusions don't tend to proselytise them. I know that certain politicians have beliefs that seem to persist in the face of evidence, but nevertheless, we don't need to stigmatise mental illness further to call out poor political/social behaviour. If you need a word for the pundit spewing potentially dangerous content, use 'dangerous' or 'wrong', but don't call them delusional.

-Bipolar is not a synonym of all over the place or fluctuating results. Bipolar disorder involves mood states that, even in the rapid cycling form, tend to last at least 3-4 days (mania) and weeks (depression). If you need a word for the weather, use 'British' instead.

-Psychotic is not a synonym of evil. Psychosis is losing touch with reality, whether it be through hallucinations or delusions. It doesn't make a person bad or violent. It's just a neurological phenomenon that may be distressing. It's also relatively common: 6-15% of people will hallucinate in their lifetime.

-ADHD is not a synonym of just quirky/scattered/forgetful/unfocussed/lazy/careless. ADHD is fundamentally a disorder of being able to choose where to direct attention, rather than of just I can't focus. If someone can't tune out the noise of the crowd, but can't prevent themself focussing on something trivial because their brain is wired that way, it's not laziness or just being quirky/scattered.

-Autistic meltdown is not a synonym of temper tantrum.

-Borderline is not a synonym of harridan.

-Narcissist is not a synonym of abuser.

-Mentally ill is not a synonym of volatile or bad person. This doesn't mean we have to make something artificially positive out of mental disorders. If there is good to be found in certain disorders, great; if there is nothing positive about living with certain others, that doesn't make you any less real or resilient than anyone else. It's okay to have complex feelings about your own disorders. It's okay to feel exhausted or frustrated by a disorder. But never should anyone have to face stigma.

[sashabunnie]

Hi! I apologize for not posting recently despite having a resurgence in wanting to draw. I've recently gotten a new art program and am still trying to figure out how to use it. In the meantime I'd like to discuss a topic I find important to talk about.

I recently received a question in my inbox. I found it rude and decided to delete and block the person. But now I'm realizing I could use this comment to educate those not in the art field on this subject, specifically about how proportions and different body types are taught to be drawn. I'll paraphrase the comment received:

"It's funny how you're fat but you draw yourself skinny, it's hilarious."

Yup that's the basis of what the comment was. I could tell from this comment that a) they're trying to be rude and mean and b) they at least don't draw humans and at most have no idea how to draw period.

Now you may be asking, how does this comment lead to an educational moment? I'm glad you asked.

I've been drawing since I can remember, and I only took a few art classes in middle school and highschool. Other than that I'm almost completely self taught and often took my inspiration from cartoons.

I also grew up in a much larger body than a good portion of my peers. I had binge e@ting disorder. This was caused by growing up in a poor family. I was taught to eat whatever I was offered(unless it was by a total stranger). I was also taught at school to inhale my food starting from kindergarten as we only got 15 minutes to eat and 15 minutes to play, if we went over the 15 minutes to eat we weren't allowed to play. Anyways this conditioned me to have BED.

Being overweight as a child was torture. Just like any ED it's very hard to control and even harder to spot in a child. I went untreated until I was 19. I'm a lot better now but sadly my stomach is now partially paralyzed.

Now like I said, growing up fat was extremely difficult, seeing others in my life who were skinnier than I, seeing all the cartoon shows on TV with the pretty skinny ladies and bulked up men, or even lanky men. And sure there were fat people in cartoons, but they're often portrayed as these lazy, stupid, people or they're middle aged with greying or thinning hair, in a mobility scooter, who are also portrayed as stupid and lazy.

I never saw a true representation of myself in cartoons. I never saw a plump nine year old with dreams to become a ballerina or baseball player, I never saw a bigger girl who exceeded in every class who wanted to become a paleontologist. All I saw were people making jokes about the fat character, how dumb and lazy they were.

But to me, I was never lazy or stupid. And when I started drawing myself I did so as a beautiful young person who was smart, clever, and always taken seriously. It was my escape from this world of hate.

Then I started taking art classes in middle school and highschool. They taught very basic anatomy in drawing, such as "this is how long your arm should be" and "the hand should be able to cover the face", just teaching proportions. But here's the catch, they hardly taught anything more than an hourglass shaped body for females and a rectangle shape for men.

In fact if we tried to explore more or less body shaped, whether it was a flat chested female, a dad bod male or vice versa, it was met with severe criticism.

Now over the years I've learned how to draw different body shapes and sizes better than I have in the past. And I have worked greatly to improve my self image and that a bit of extra fat here or there won't be the end all be all.

However that's not to say that I still have a hard time drawing myself as big as I see myself irl. The ED that warped from BED to OSFED in my teen years still yells at me from my mirror, telling me how ugly I am for being in a bigger body. People have told me several times that I'm not as big as the mirror says I am, which is true.

I may be in a bigger body but it's not to a point where my weight is affecting my health. The only real thing affecting my health are a slew of genetic disorders that I cannot control.

Just to conclude, just because someone draws themselves as bigger or smaller does not mean that they're delusional. It's just how they draw themselves.

Just be kind and non judgemental. You don't know what that person has been through and honestly it's not really your business unless it's a threat to safety, theirs or others.

And if you don't like what you see, scroll, it's not your place to get upset over something as small as someone drawing themselves in a different light than your perspective.

Love y'all!

(Picture of my gravity falls x the owl house OC for y'all)

[red-moon-at-night]

Let's talk a little bit about Mahiru's boyfriend

This post is alternatively titled "Mahiru's Boyfriend Probably Had An Eating Disorder And I Am Very Sad About It So Now You Get To Be Sad About It With Me" but that felt a bit much in the bold title font so I'm trying to tone this down at least a little bit :')

So I was reading this wonderful post earlier (you should too btw it has a LOT of interesting information), and as I was going through the food section something clicked in my brain. Pieces of information that were drifting aimlessly before quickly came together for me and I almost wish they hadn’t because oh boy is it depressing.

Now, nothing I’m about to say here is explicitly stated - but I do think it is strongly insinuated, through the MVs of both ‘This Is How To Be In Love With You’ (TIHTBILWY what an acronym wow) and ‘I Love You’. I am aware that the latter video has a lot of metaphorical imagery, but I still think some of this imagery can be taken in a literal sense to reinforce ideas established in TIHTBILWY.

TW/Trigger Warnings: discussion of eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, etc.), discussion of suicide and suicidal thoughts. Please take these into consideration and stay safe!

credit to iaobug’s transcribed images from ‘This Is How To Be In Love With You’ used below btw!

Now I’ve always had an inkling this could be possible, but I didn’t realise until recently there was this much evidence supporting a little idea of mine dancing around in my head.

But First, Some Quick Definitions and Criteria

First things first, I think we should briefly clarify what an eating disorder is and what eating disorder I think Mahiru’s boyfriend most likely had.

Here are some definitions:

Eating disorders are behavioral conditions characterized by severe and persistent disturbance in eating behaviors and associated distressing thoughts and emotions. They can be very serious conditions affecting physical, psychological and social function. (source)

An eating disorder is a mental health condition where you use the control of food to cope with feelings and other situations. (source)

And here are some brief introductions to several types of eating disorders:

The most common eating disorders are:

anorexia nervosa – trying to control your weight by not eating enough food, exercising too much, or doing both bulimia – losing control over how much you eat and then taking drastic action to not put on weight binge eating disorder (BED) – eating large portions of food until you feel uncomfortably full

Other specified feeding or eating disorder (OSFED) – A person may have an OSFED if their symptoms do not exactly fit the expected symptoms for any specific eating disorders.

(source)

Okay, so we have some basic information down, cool! This is not fully comprehensive but it will do for the purposes of this segment.

So what eating disorder do I believe Mahiru’s boyfriend had? 

I’m not sure! The information we have is not conclusive enough for me to confidently pick an option. What I will say is most likely, and most common, is OSFED and the concept of the eating disorder cycle. People’s symptoms will often overlap with multiple diagnoses, or shift from one mode of behaviour (e.g. the restrictive eating behaviours found in anorexia) to another (e.g. binge eating and following compensatory behaviours found in bulimia).

Things are often not as clear-cut or black and white as we’d like to imagine.

Let’s move onto looking at the MVs, shall we?

This first music video has a wealth of information hidden in its cute magazine-style annotations and imagery - information that, when you look a little closer and consider the bigger picture, raises all the alarm bells in my mind.

Parts of ‘This Is How To Be In Love With You’ That Make Me Pause In Concern, In Chronological Order:

The Bread

Let's start off with a not very obvious one.

One of the first things we learn about Mahiru’s soon-to-be-boyfriend (which by the way this is literally the 2nd time he’s mentioned) is ‘wow he buys a lot of bread’. Insignificant on its own, I know, but consider this through my lens if you will: my man has bought 5 whole baguettes from a bakery. Not 2 or 3, but 5. Actually, on closer inspection there's even more bread of a different type at the bottom of that bag too. These aren’t store-bought, they’re fresh and will probably go stale in a few days. Pray tell, if the man is not eating baguette for breakfast lunch and dinner over the course of 72 hours... why did he buy so much fucking bread?

What comes to mind when I see this is binge eating. Bread is one of the most common binge foods out there; anything with high carbohydrates or high fat content, in fact, often due to its “unhealthy” or “forbidden” nature.

We'll just have a quick look at Mahiru's comment again:

"I thought to buy the same bread he did, but this is far too much for me to eat... ><

I forgot to ask how many calories there are..."

If it hasn't been established by now with the MV's aesthetic, Mahiru cares about her appearance. A lot. Her self-image and beauty directly ties into looking 'good' enough for others, so she can find the love of her life and please him with her looks.

If Mahiru is also calorie counting, this does not bode well for their relationship. I should probably speak in past tense, actually... Mahiru's own self-image behaviours made her blind to her boyfriend's self-image behaviours. There we go.

But I'm getting ahead of myself here.

So, We have an indication of binge eating behaviours. Remind me again what comes after binging?

The Jogging Hobby

Oh, that’s right - purging.

Excessive exercise is an indirect method of purging/compensatory behaviour found in bulimia. A more commonly known purging method is self-induced vomiting, but that's certainly not the only way to counteract excess calories. 

So the jogging, while harmless in isolation, is starting to paint an ever-so-slightly worrying picture.

Again, let's take a look at Mahiru's comment:

"I had a chance to chat with him today, and he mentioned his hobby was jogging. ... I haven't exercised this much in ages... I'm totally exhausted..." 

The only hobby (not hobbies but hobby, singular) that we learn the boyfriend has is this. Sure, there's one movie that he also likes... but that's it. There's not much else to him! So when the two most prevalent ideas attached to this guy are 'food' (in excess) and 'exercise' (in excess)... you can see where I'm going with this.

And by the way, the post I linked at the very beginning? Well, they worked out the location of where this running loop is, and judging by Mahiru’s position and direction it would suggest she’s already jogged about 5km and beginning another loop. So we’re looking at a jog ranging from 5-10km (or more)...

The Alcohol

Okay, here's a quick pop quiz question for you. Who is more likely to get drunk on the same volume of alcohol: a 5"1 woman, or an average height (5"7 in Japan) man?

In theory, it should be the 5"7 man on the basis of his height and size. Alcohol tolerance goes up the bigger you are. 

So why is it that the boyfriend ended up blackout drunk, and Mahiru... didn't?

Let’s take a look at the comment:

“My first date at a bar, how heartpounding!

Here is where I learned he’s the biggest lightweight I’ve ever met! ...or maybe I’m just really good at holding alcohol?

Whatever the case, blackout drunk him is so cute!”

Three possible options:

Mahiru really can 'hold her liquor'. Judging by her sheltered home life and general lack of adult life experience though, I'm gonna press x to doubt here sorry mappi.

The boyfriend drunk more alcohol than Mahiru. Also unlikely, as she calls him a 'lightweight' and I think she would've highlighted this in her comment.

He drank on an empty stomach. Alcohol absorbs way faster if you haven't had anything to eat beforehand. This, I think is the most likely scenario.

Here's a little more on the subject that I found interesting:

You absorb 20 per cent of alcohol into your bloodstream through your stomach and the rest into your bloodstream through your small intestine.

Drinking a small amount of alcohol stimulates your appetite because it increases the flow of stomach juices. A large amount of alcohol dulls your appetite and can cause malnutrition. (source)

What have we learnt so far?

So we’ve established some concerning behaviours here.

He eats in excess

He exercises in excess

He drinks in excess (on an empty stomach)

I’m actually going to move onto material from the ‘I Love You’ MV, but intertwine it with some of the remaining points from TIHTBILWY. 

At this point the relationship has progressed, we’re moving into winter which brings with it the holiday season! Yay! Except not yay, because things are starting to look really bad for Mahiru’s boyfriend. We've gone from this:

To this:

The carousel was fine at first but now it’s taking its toll on him. Both of them have tattered clothes but Mahiru looks optimistic, whilst the boyfriend looks very distraught. His cheekbones are visible and overall he looks a lot less healthy. I guess this is a good time to point out how distinct and visible his collarbone has been this entire time by the way? He’s even bonier than before. Not great.

A lot of events occur at this time of year, such as Christmas (celebrated between couples in Japan as more of a lovers holiday) and new years. What happens a lot during that period of time? Food. Lots of it. This point in the year is not ideal for someone suffering from a worsening eating disorder. This is a period of time which someone would want to move very quickly from because they can’t see the end of it.

I think it’s time to read Mahiru’s comment from day 15:

“Happy new years! To celebrate, we went to a shrine.

Predictably, I already have my wish in mind.

May we stay like this until the end of time.

May nobody stand in my way”

She, on the other hand, is very happy for things to remain as they are.

Day 16 - AKA, Oh No Things Have Gone Terribly Wrong

This is where the narrative hits its climax and everything starts to snowball.

Now, we reach this scene where the boyfriend stops walking and breaks down. He kneels on the ground, digs his nails into it, and pleads for... something. Help? An intervention? A stop to this carousel that’s doing him no good and only making his health (physical and mental) worse?

He never speaks. It is a silent plea.

One that Mahiru misses.

Saying I love you but doing what I did, I know I have no right, crossed and covered in sin

My love, it scored an own goal, destroyed my love and me with its weight

Tell me, oh tell me why, can’t I just do it right

What did you do, Mahiru?

I believe that this scene and response:

Is directly parallel to this event:

As in, they’re the same thing. 

One more comment to read:

He’ll be in for a big, delicious surprise once he gets home!

I’ve made SO many notes about his favorite foods, and practiced my butt off!

I can’t wait to see the look on his face when he sees it all.

Her love - her surprise buffet to cheer him up - scored an own goal, so to speak.

I don’t think I need to say much about this picture, or this scene. She’s giving him excess but that excess is literally driving him over the edge. The nuance is lost between them, and they both need different things from each other and they’re not getting it. Cake to rats, rats to cake.

They’re back on the carousel, spinning around and around with things never changing, no end in sight.

I want to end on this frame of the MV. You see the pole behind the boyfriend? It’s reminding me of rope, and of a certain visual at the end of the video. The juxtaposition of Mahiru forcing her ‘love’ onto him, and of suicidal ideation being the only way off this ride and his problems.

[narrator-navigator-storyteller]

I want to make a shoutout post for people with severe ADHD, since I rarely see actual severe ADHD symptoms talked about on here, and want to spread awareness of the actual debilitating effects of ADHD since it gets treated like little baby disorder so much.

So shoutout to pwADHD who:

Have chronic UTIs

Have issues getting to the bathroom in time/have wet themselves into adulthood

Have genuinely dirty rooms, not just disorganized

Have extremely poor personal hygiene (smell bad, unhealthy teeth, unkempt hair)

Have learning disabilities

Have intellectual disabilities

Have ASPD

Have OSFED from lack of hunger cues

Are genuinely rude in social situations due to lack of impulse control

Have RSD that feeds into paranoia disorders

Have RSD that has ruined friendships

Have social issues that have led to an inability to form friendships

Have severe anger issues

Have self-harming and excessively risky behaviours due to understimulation

Are suicidal

Have "8 year old boy" ADHD (get up at inappropriate times, climb furniture, are genuinely disruptive)

Are hyperactive or mixed type in general actually (especially those raised female who are told that women always have inattentive)

Can't drive

Can't work a job

Procrastinate to the point that you don't get anything done at all, not just do it last minute

Burnt out educationally far before it's 'relatable' to (elementary/middle school)

Were in affective learning/special education

Can't do higher education

Rely on other people in order to live life

Can't live alone

Can't mask their ADHD

Aren't just a 'quirky' person, but are visibly mentally ill

Have made their other mental illnesses worse because of ADHD

Have developed other mental illnesses because of ADHD

Have made their physical disabilities worse because of ADHD

Have developed physical disabilities because of ADHD

We need to accept that ADHD is not a funny lighthearted diagnosis, and is in fact a severe thing to deal with. Anti-ADHD ableism has gotten way too common here, and acting like moderate (and honestly mild) ADHD is severe even more so.

Feel free to add more but if you add mild traits or act like any of these are about autism/any other disorder instead of just accepting that ADHD is a severe and debilitating disorder on its own I will kill you with hammers.

[dark-nymph3t]

burgers and milkshakes have literally been proven to increase risks of diabetes, cancer, autoimmune diseases, obesity genes, fatty liver ETC but if it makes you feel better for having a bad diet you do you

I wasn’t gonna respond to this, but considering how you clearly missed the mark and didn’t realize that the post is pro recovery for eating disorders, I feel like I have too.

I’ve had an eating disorder since I was 11, OSFED to be exact. I have literally been so sick at one point that my spine was showing through baggy clothes and my friends would literally force feed me during lunch. If you want to criticize me for having a bad diet, go ahead, but criticize me for having an eating disorder and not taking care of my body, don’t do it by acting like I only eat burgers and milkshakes.

Also, burgers and milkshakes are major fear foods for many people with eating disorders. I am terrified of ice cream and have literally started bawling once when my dad tried to take me to a restaurant where they served milkshakes. You missed the entire point of the post.

You are allowed to enjoy things in life that previously made you terrified, you are allowed to enjoy things that yes, may not be the healthiest for you, but when you have an eating disorder relishing in those moments is one of the key parts of recovery.

Please, educate yourself, there’s a reason you’re on anon and not commenting from your actual account.

[thetrashthatsmilesback]

Idk who needs to hear this but the genetic and neurological factors behind eating disorders has been known for a while now so anyone who has an eating disorder is neurodivergent even if they miraculously don't have any comorbidities, and the fact that people outside the Ed community never spoke up about how mocking eds was a trend on tiktok for a good two years shows that many people who regularly talk about ableism actually don't care about ableism at all.

Like we could get into how OCD, autism, ADHD, and cluster B personality disorders are all heavily associated with eating disorders, but that's not necessary. Eating disorders themselves count as neurodivergence. But for some reason when people were making "go throw up" jokes on tiktok for two years straight all the accounts I followed which regularly called out ableism were fully silent. It was... Telling to say the least. Eating disorders are seen as okay to mock, especially those of us who purge, because we do it to ourselves right? It's just silly kids wanting to be skinny (not true, even in weight focused eating disorders weight is often not even close to what it's about and triggers to use Ed behaviors are often things like school difficulties, social rejection, abuse, etc) so mocking it is fine right?

And this has always been an issue in the nd community. I've seen people who speak up constantly about ableism use the term "delulu" as if people with psychotic spectrum disorders haven't been telling us to stop using that term since it got popularized. I've seen people who otherwise post about nd awareness suddenly tag something as "narcissistic abuse" as if people with NPD aren't more likely to be victims of abuse than purpetrators. I've known for a while that people who supposedly want to call out ableism don't acknowledge a lot of ableism that happens within their own community, but still. I feel like people don't even mention the fact that eating disorders are a form of neurodivergence. They're seen as something that you have to recover from and if you don't you're somehow in the wrong, when 1/3 of anorexics, and up to 1/2 of bulimics will continue to have symptoms of their disorder for the rest of their lives, and with research finding similar rates for OSFED disorders, ARFID, and BED. I've seen people on this app actually put in their bio "if you're not attempting recovery, don't follow" as if 1) that's any of your business and 2) eating disorders aren't a complex set of disorders primarily caused by the intersection of genetics, neurology, and society.

[compassionatereminders]

Okay this might be a bad idea but idk I was thinking about how completely different my life is now than a year or two ago and I was realizing it might be helpful (and certainly would have been for me) to see what someone with lifelong mental ilness would consider recovery to be? I know your situation is very different, but idk maybe some of your followers would appreciate this? Idk Anyways, I do consider myself "recovered" from disordered eating, depression, GAD, and OCD. I have found meds that work well enough for me that I don't have a hard time soothing myself or eating/drinking and the side effects are relatively mild (I get much more carsick and have a hard time with elevators and jumping and such). I don't feel guilty asking for accommodations, like having a single room at college. Bingeing, purging, self harm, and self-sabatoge are all things that still happen, but the vast majority of the time I think about it, I don't, and I don't feel addicted or like I ever HAVE to do them, they're just tools in my darkest moments and most of the time I have better tools. I'm motivated to do Physical Therapy/take meds/help my physical stuff. Instead of spending four to five hours a day ruminating and doing compulsions, I end up spending an hour or two calming myself down. I don't have a hard time talking about most of my issues, but I don't feel obligated to either. I don't meet diagnostic criteria for OSFED or Clinical Depression or insomnia anymore either!! Anyways, thanks for listening! :)

Thank you for sharing your experience! I think that it's so very important to know that you can make important progress, be happy with your life and in recovery even if you'll always have to deal with certain symptoms of mental illness in some capacity ❤️💪✊️

[ravenzbonez]

✮INTRO✮

"...but does anyone notice, theres a corpse in this bed?"

🖤 》Hiya! I'm Raven, Ravena's cool too!! i do have a bunch of other names too so feel free to ask about those :) im 17.

🌑 》 my pronouns are they/any (neutral, objective, and neos preferred over binary pronouns, tho!) im very queer.

🕸 》 i have... chronic depression, GAD, AuDHD, NSSID, OSFED/EDNOS, C-PTSD & PTSD, and VERY possibly BPD and STPD as well... fuckin collecting mental illnesses like Pokémon frr/lh

🗝 》 i LOVE the arts, pretty much any alternative music genre, horror, old and vintage things, nature, animals, space... i try to love as much as i can tbh.

🦇 》 this is my mental health and venting blog.. im very disordered and mentally ill, so please keep that in mind. if you feel uncomfortable with this, PLEASE block and dont report 🫶 this is my safe space and helps me feel WAY less alone in my misery. don't take that away, please. i wont immediately recover if this blogs taken down, ill just come back.

i am 1000% pro-recovery, and i encourage anyone reading this to consider it whenever they are ready 🖤🖤🖤

🐦‍⬛ 》 my posts will have the tag #a ravens letter. think of it as a raven flying to your window and dropping whatever shit im yapping about, screaming in your face, then flying away or smth idk (😭)

🕷 》 DNI: shitty ppl (p3d0s, z00s, bigots, anti-furry or anti-alterhuman), fatphobes, non-disordered people (if in recovery, PLEASE take care of yourself, as i myself am not),

anyone is welcome here, but im gonna take you and keep you safe and warm in my pocket if thats okay 🫶

Stats below the block.

HW: 56kg

LW: 48kg

CW: 52kg

GW1: 45kg

GW2: 40kg

GW3: 35kg

☆ i have yet to decide if gw3 is my ugw or if six feet under is, im ngl ☆

looking for buddies or friends 👉👈 i will not encourage any disordered habits to anyone, though.

i also have a edsky account

thank you for reading!! stay safe and take care of yourself 🖤🖤🖤

[quarterqueens]

big day for tagging fans: i did in fact file a support ticket to ao3 to fix their eating disorder tags. the issues are:

EDNOS and OSFED are not synned. OSFED is erroneously synned with 'Eating Disorders.' ENDOS is a canonical subtag of 'Eating Disorders.' (Also OSFED should probably be the primary tag, since it's the current name.)

'disordered eating' for some reason isn't canonical or synned with anything, even though multiple variations of it (ex. 'tw: disordered eating') are synned with 'eating disorders.'

the variations of 'disordered eating' probably shouldn't be synned with 'eating disorders' at all since they aren't actually the same thing.

ANYWAY that's my thrilling adventures in tagging. i think the ao3 tagging team is extremely fantastic & they have actually been fixing many issues with the ed-related tags but these ones seem to have slipped through