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i'm going to dinner with my dad and then i'll be around, hopefully getting some writing done. i have no weekend plans so my goal is to get some writing done on my blogs

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i'm  color - coding  my  moods ,  you're  yellow ,  i'm  natural  blue.  let's  get  together  and  be  green  like  my  insides. ♫

headcanon - based  mitsuki  &  aya  from  the  guy  she  was  interested  in  wasn't  a  guy  at  all. loved by bunny & bri.

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modern nesta writes fanfiction by the way. gwyn and emerie are her beta readers lmao

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real quick tho, i know i've been super slow and not around a ton lately. it's bc i kinda have a new schedule going for myself as well as my energy has been pretty depleted. there's a few reasons for that tbh, but mainly my emotions can go from an all time high to an all time low pretty quickly and it's exhausting. i was also getting more anxiety attacks than normal and they were bad and would leave me feeling sick. thankfully those calmed down a lot.

all this to say that i'm still here, i still want to write, and continue all our threads and plots i have with everyone. sometimes i go quiet or i'm slow, but it never means that i don't want to write with you guys. if i force myself i feel crappy about my responses and i end up not enjoying writing. i'll be slowly getting to things across all my blogs <3

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to want and be wanted

georges bataille / emily palermo / olivia laing / @chaandajaan / georges bataille / cj hauser / @kvetchkween / @nicholasbraungf / vi khi nao / silas denver melvin

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Hayley Marshall | 2x07

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i came back home yesterday so i'll definitely be around this weekend working on things <3

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hi, i'm doing better but i'm going away for a few days. so unfortunately there won't be any writing done until the end of the week. i wanted to thank you guys for being patient with me and for checking in on me🩷

sorry for not getting any writing done in the last few days, i’m just not doing well mentally at the moment

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sorry for not getting any writing done in the last few days, i’m just not doing well mentally at the moment

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i had a bad anxiety attack early this morning and it’s left me v drained so i’ve just been hanging around. i wanted to spend the day writing since i had nothing to do but that didn’t happen 😩

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i’m here to remind everyone how much i love nesta and i’ll go down swinging for her

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It has been four years since "A Court of Silver Flames" was published, and Nesta Archeron had part of her journey told. So, in honor of this date, I want to share this incredible art that @polianegicele made of our immortal slayer queen.

Art by: @polianegicele

Commissioned by: @melphss

Characters belongs to: Sarah J. Maas

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@manupropria from cassian [ PREVENT ] for one muse to stop the other from going too far during a fight.

despite its freezing temperatures and the general brutality of its people, illyria was beautiful. nesta never minded tagging along with cassian. most of the time she was in their cabin reading or spending the day with emerie in her shop while cassian was checking up on the camps throughout illyria. once in a blue moon she would go with him from camp to camp and when she did it was to use her as an example for what was possible if the females trained. however, nesta never understood why he uses her to show off when everyone here was terrified of her. so much so everyone stood clear of her and called her a witch. maybe she shouldn’t, but she did enjoy that a little too much.

her initial plan for the day was to spend the day in their cabin, curled up on the couch with a book while cassian made his rounds. yet, the gentle voice that had been in her head for quite some time now urged her to go with cassian. if there is anything nesta has learned, it’s to listen to that voice. so before he left she had bundled up in her fur-lined coat and boots and announced she was going with him.

for the most part the first few camps they visited were pretty much the same; everyone glared at her, some whispered ‘witch’ beneath their breaths, and one younger male gasped then ran upon seeing her. he had been her favorite today. by the fourth, nesta was nearly freezing and huddled against cassian any chance she could get for warmth. she was beginning to question the voice that told her to go when she could be in the cabin under a blanket right now. the fifth camp was when she understood the voice’s urgency to go along.

cassian was talking with a couple of males, meanwhile she was nearby talking with a mother and child. a pleasant surprise considering everyone’s usual reaction to her, but she noticed here a lot of the males around them had their attention on cassian. her back was toward cassian, so she had more heard than saw the fight breakout. when she spun around she saw him landing a few good punches on one of the males he was speaking to. the smell of blood pierced the air. a small crowd had gathered and because of the cheers she couldn’t make out what the male was saying exactly, but two things were clear; she was mentioned and cassian’s mother. the latter made all the color rush from her face and sent her heart beating erratically.

there was a deafening roar in her head, because of the mating bond it wasn’t solely her anger she felt, but cassian’s as well. she could feel the blind rage as if it belonged to her and she wanted to kill everyone around her. it would be so easy too, all she had to do was pull from her power and everyone would turn to ash before them. they all deserve it. but she knows cassian, knows his heart, and he doesn’t want his people dead. she can’t fathom why after everything they’ve done to him, to his mother, and how they still treat him and azriel to this day. he’s better than her because she would have no remorse for ending them. but cassian is in a fury and with the way his siphons flare blood red she knows he’ll land a killing blow.

it doesn’t matter to nesta if cassian kills him, but she isn’t sure he’ll be able to live with himself. she isn’t even sure if she could get cassian out of the state he’s in, but she doesn’t hesitate to try. using the mating bond, she makes sure he’s aware of her presence. wrapping herself around his mind, it’s akin to a feline rubbing against someone’s leg. then she’s breaking through the crowd shouting his name. she doesn’t think it will be enough to snap him out of it, but she’s confident he won’t hurt her by mistake so she tugs at him. “cassian,” she says his name gentler this time and squeezes his arm. “he’s not worth it.” although the words are directed to cassian, she stares at the other male with pure malice. she decides then to let her death powers come through, her eyes aglow with cold silver. her power begged her to be released, to take it out on this male. hoarfrost coated her lashes and she could feel it start to form inside her mouth. the males retreated slowly at first, then quickly dissipated into their homes.

she blinked and her eyes returned to normal, the hoarfrost taking longer than normal to disappear because of how cold it was outside. “i don’t know what was exactly said, but i know it was only to get a rise out of you. you killing him probably would have made things worse for you, i couldn’t let that happen.” the look she gave him was enough; i’ll kill him along with anyone you want for you if you want. “should we go back home before i turn this camp to ash?”

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i've arrived

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i'm here to remind everyone nesta has a pegasus named calista and a cocker spaniel named butterscotch

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i might cave and finally read an elsie silver book...specifically reckless bc of winter. i'm ngl tho, i've v hesitant when it comes to contemporary romance especially straight ones. and the fact that it's a cowboy romance makes me even more like ehhhh idkkk lmao

but everything i hear about the series is good so i at least want to give it a shot. i was also told you don't need to read the chestnut springs books in order, but lmk if that's correct or not if you've read them