#or roast me and tell me to improve idk

[daylander1000]

Thank you so much for posting these chapters. I have no idea what you were talking about when you said we should keep our expectations low. This was absolute perfection and surpassed any expectations I ever had. Rhaena and Beala’s Picknick was so beautifully written, you wrote Beala perfectly and I loved her spontaneous haircut moment which will explain whatever that was that she had on her hair in the last dinner episode. You created such chemistry between them and really brought across the feel of how they have grown estranged yet are still familiar with each other. I loved everything they said about Deamon, that was such an accurate portrayal of his motivations. My favorite part of their dialogue was Rheana roasting the Strong boys like grilled chickpeas like Jesus Christ that was so satisfying to read thank you for including that. On another note their conversation made me cry when they talked about Leana and again, you really understood the assignment. Her letters were so heartbreaking to read and everything the twins went through because of the blacks made me so angry. Them plotting together was awesome and the plans they came up with seemed very logical and plausible. I officially became a Beala fan the moment she said she planned on killing Daemon. I would pay so much money to see that.

Maegora the cat was so cool and Rheana’s take on how the blacks younger dragons are stunted was so good.

And oh my god AEMOND!!! Adult Aemond is so amazing and I loved how you showed how different he is from Daemon through Beala’s eyes ( I hate it when people compare them ). I swear, your take on Aemonds character is better than any other I have ever seen. Your Aemond is canon now. I love him. He seems to human and I just love him and Rheana together. He’s such a sweetie and you actually give him a personality unlike most fanfic writers. Him telling Beala what helps Helaena with her moonblood was so sweet I love love love him. He would be such a good husband to Rhaena, please let them marry and band together with Beala, Veamond and Leanor and the greens against Deamon and the blacks.

Honestly, I will probably reread these chapters a dozen times over, if this were a book these chapters would be the ones I’d annotate with with five different colors because they’re brilliant in so many different ways. There were so many phrases that made me giggle or want to cry and they were all so wonderful.

You absolutely DESTROYED team black in these chapters. My brain is now filled with Aemond and Rhaena and all I want is to see them talk and be happy together. Thank you so much 💚💚💚

Thank you!!!

Idk, I kinda hate it still, but it's there. Lol thank you (and everyone) for reading! It is zero fun to just have chapters in draft mode that no one's read. Idk, it's like, I get ambitious sometimes and start things on impulse, and then I have Editor Me who's just like "This is shit!!! Delete!!!" so yeah, the feedback is really nice. Thanks for staying with it after a 3-month wait and for reading a 20k conversation with no complaints 😹

Team Black is fine! I have destroyed no one. Lololol. 😅 I didn't want to make Rhaena a "hater," but they went out of their way to have Rhaena voice that she felt neglected. Are we assuming that her relationship with Daemon improved with the addition of a stepmother and five boys? They went out of their way to have Laena say out loud that she was a placeholder wife, that she was unhappy in Pentos, and they sat down and agreed that "kill this bitch with fire and have celebratory funeral sex on her grave while the ashes are warm" was how they were going to treat Laena. It's too in-your-face to ignore, and in light of that, I just couldn't write Baela as "Yay, lemme go risk my life fighting for my stepmother. Marrying Jace is peak goals." I was literally unable to write that. I want to do happy shipping, but it's also a fix-it fic.

Daenerys, Sansa, Arya, Brienne, Asha, Cersei, Catelyn, Margaery and Olenna didn't exist and do schemes and burn shit down just for Rhaena and Baela to stand in the background like invisible elevator bellboy people saying “Wine, my queen," while being married off to randos. Nope.

I just want them to be on the same page when it comes to destroying their enemies. If their in-canon enemies happen to be the bulk of the characters on Team Black then 🤷🏾‍♀️ 😂 Rhaena's just sort of giving Baela the hard sales pitch to join a side that's not Team Black or Team Green but a third, secret two-woman operation like

Thank you for liking my version of Aemond!😊 He's a ton of fun to write.

To be fair, he doesn't have a ton of personality in the show. He and Aegon have a little bit more meat on them than the other kids, but they're mostly just there. Like 90% of these hotd characters are just 1-d stick figures with wigs on imo. It took me three months to figure out a personality for Baela that made sense. 😭 Like, on one hand, you're doing a fanfic and anything goes, but on the other hand, like I'm always worrying about what's ooc?

I'm going with "Teenage boy who was raised by a knight templar and his sister-mother. Used to be a nerd. Had a glow-up but is still a nerd. Wants to be a jock but doesn't really like sports. Is considering his career options."

I have no idea why the Daemon comparisons are so popular. All the Targaryen men have the same "Draco in leather pants" look. Daemon's been living his life one 10-year exile at a time and Aemond's a post time-skip baby. The first time he's even meeting his uncle is during his eye-gouging incident.

I mean, is this the face of someone looking for a role model to emulate or someone making a kill list?

Daemon actually did very little during that scene. He's really just standing there spectating for the most part. And then he and Rhaenyra exile themselves to Dragonstone for 6+ more years. Why would Aemond care about Daemon?

I honestly just think Martin and the writers (and half of the fandom, I guess) believe that Daemon is so cool that all the young kids in Westeros have Morally Grey Rogue Prince™ collectible action figures, (dead wives sold separately).

I sort of assume it's just a thing from F&B where Daemon wasn't banished from King's Landing and was around doing a ton of cool shit while Aemond was growing up???

In swhhw, Aemond's only interest in Daemon is killing him.

I wanted Rhaena to sort of just have a hypersensitive "I'm allergic to Targ bullshit" reaction to Aemond because she's been on Dragonstone for years and needs time to decompress, while Baela has the more objective stance, while Aemond's mostly just sort of offended that she's comparing him to her deadbeat hobo dad.

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

11 fe bru ar y 2023 Saturday 🪐 (sat urn ⚱️ Earn 💰??? 5:07 am pdt)5:06 am pdt

Incubus has been attacking bones 🦴 in my backside 😖��😤🥵😤🥵. Woke up minutes ago. Forgot things hours ago coughing even though I took 18 minutes to prepare for it 😞 distracted. 5:09 am pdt woke up 🆙 then felt intestinal? Abdominal pain. 5:10 am pdt

revelation: god is incubus, pain right shoulder 😖😭😭😭😭 that is what he did to Virgin Mary. Bad father who didn’t want to pay 💰 child support. Didn’t want to support Mary himself. Forced her to marry an old man 👴 . She was probably 16 years old. Naïve? 5:14 am pdt incubus is womanizer? What is a womanizer? 5:15 am pdt

5:16 am pdt man 👨 who engages in numerous casual s*xual affairs. Casual = not waiting for marriage commitment? 5:17 am pdt

5:19 pmpdt if incubus tells you he is your husband & has been hurting you, idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ what’s best? Believe or not believe? I need proof. Things you think 🤔 can be proof can turn in to non proof if they are lying 🤥. Marriage becomes imprisonment incubus deleted imprisonment. (I don’t believe I improved incubus 😖😭😤🥵😖😭 5:24 am pdt) I watched stuff on tv 📺. Men sometimes pretending to love 💕 someone gets married after spending a lot of money 💰 to court the woman 👩🏻 then after the honeymoon 🍯 🌙 he disappeared 👻 leaving her a lot of debt 💸 bcz I guess he lied 🤥 about having a (divorce boyfriend relationship heart pain brain autocorrect stuff 2 sets 5:27 am pdt) high paying job? Or about having a lot of money 💰 5:29 am pdt. Similar to an incubus I guess? But not the same.

5:32 am pdt he roasting me so much my skin is not smooth anymore all bumpy. Vag acid pain. I get it now. It’s a joke. Ha ha ha not funny 😄. 5:34 am pdt 5:35 am pdt

5:35 am pdt guy w/middle name David made the first move on me by touching my body he ran his fingers up 🆙 & down my back & massaged my shoulders & danced behind me & talked about how I didn’t shave 🪒 my legs 🦵 to other people physically behind me. He stood behind me in class for roll call ☎️ for this class. 7th grade. & I ran away from him all year. 5:39 am pdt

8th grade I tried to give him a chance. We played mancala in the library 📚 but we were both sorta quiet types. I did not know this immediately. Weird. I often found him on the computer & I put my hands over his eyes 👀 & said guess who many times. Once I accidentally pulled his head into my chest. Somehow I think bcz of the timing ⏱ of how he grabbed my hands 🙌 to uncover his eyes 👀 to which he turned to face me & smiled. 5:44 am pdt

5:45 am pdt the way he touched me 7th grade was probably inappropriate but we were still borderline kids I guess so that would be the last time he can get away with such an introduction. 5:46 am pdt

it seems I met a lot of guys who approached me for s*x w/o engaging in much communication or even trying to be friends first. Feels like a lot for some reason. 5:48 am pdt

I should try to recall who so I can count them out. Dua lipa I got new rules I count them. 5:49 5:50 am pdt

6:12 am pdt I guess incubus wants me to believe to my truest deepest core of the realest me that I am cruel heartless wicked 🕯. I am confessing here my baddest behaviors. A piece at a time. I think incubus is hinting what he wants me to confess. The 2nd guy. Bcz mayb I said some things I shouldn’t have to my sister. I don’t know it’s hard to remember exactly what I said now after all the brain 🧠 abuse. Some things I think about over and over again so it has a better chance of being (autocorrect “removed reminded” 6:17 am pdt) remembered. I do remember feeling that I was saying dishonest things in a way bcz I felt it was my fault 🤦‍♀️ but had difficulty owning up 🆙 & admitting. I wrote a little about 2nd guy in a post probably 10-15 posts ago. I wrote about a magnetic 🧲 feeling btwn our bodies. & how I tried to tell him I was not ready for physical intimacy but failed with my word choices. Told him I think: I’m not ready for a relationship. Didn’t want to kiss yet but he decided to kiss me & then it was hard to stop. 🛑 his mouth 👄 tasted like cigarettes 🚬. 6:21 am pdt but he was athletic & productive. He was sorta poor but he seemed busy. He drove an old car 🚗 & he bought his clothing second hand 🤚. I was attracted to him even though he wasn’t the handsomest of men. When I first saw him I was interested in getting to know him. He had a different kind of sense of humor I think 🤔 that I tried to adapt to. After things ended btwn us I somehow ended up complimenting him more. But I think I complimented him also before we had our first date? It’s too bad he deleted an account I complimented on. (Right arm muscle pain minutes ago 6:27 am pdt) I think I felt like it was my fault we got physically intimate too fast & that It was hard for me to admit to it, & probably complained out loud to my sister. I mentioned him to other people but I forget what I said to them. 6:28 am pdt after he stopped talking to me, which probably should have been ok bcz they were friends b4 he met me, they kept on hanging out/meeting up/ inviting her out. He wrote to her once that I saw 👀 “dearest (my sister’s name here).” He didn’t wait very long to kiss me. I still had difficulty being myself. & I appeared I guess “bubbly” b4 him in an effort to be pleasant to hang around with, even though I usually wasn’t bubbly? Usually I was shy & quiet. Sometimes I was critical. I would look at a person s drawing & pick it apart on what needed to change. 6:33 am pdt I usually didn’t know what to say. I had some practice with my first real boyfriend... but I feel bcz I didn’t feel like I was myself that it was all wrong & neede more time to date b4 getting intimate. Guys usually don’t wait. That’s the truth. It doesn’t matter what they say. If you don’t cave into your s*x desires they will pressure you/me. Or used to. 6:36 am pdt

in 2011 the second guy tried to come back into my life & invited me to see him play in a band. I typed to him I don’t think I can. ... I’m trying to do what’s right. I don’t remember if I wrote anything in between. It was hard for me to think of seeing him again. Now I remember.. I invited him to my bday party 🎈 but I think I already knew from the pattern of communication that the fling was at its end. He was trying to separate him self from me. I think I was glad but still wavering in & out bcz I was attracted & difficulty letting go even though It was hard for me to feel the connection I really needed for a relationship. Vag pain. Shamefully I asked him to be my boyfriend w/ anticipating that he would say “no,” which he did, I think he said “I m not ready for a relationship.” Did he... say my words back to me at the very end? Did he say those exact words? That was the last time we saw each other face to face. Thanks 🙏 for the honesty? Was he being honest???? Or was I not the right one???? & he didn’t have the guts to tell me 🥺???? Not long afterwards I forgot how long though I saw online he got a girlfriend. Sometimes you just bite the cookie. I don’t think he whore shamed me in public. I really wanted to hold off on s*x b4 marriage so I tried even harder w/ the next guy: Scott. I told him long winded no-typed answers on 2 different days. Whose first name is David. King 🤴 David ? (Spurt of 🩸 blood . Coughing difficulty breathing 6:54 am pdt). It wasn’t enough though. He whore shamed me publicly 2 times even though he essentially forced me to have intercourse with out condom. 6:56 am pdt

how is it some women can control them selves enough to not engage in s*x activities b4 marriage? Is it a myth? My aunt said she was a Virgin when she eloped @ age 40? Got pregnant 🤰 & had a daughter. My gma I heard got pregnant 14 times but only had 9 full pregnancies. Only. 😬 why is it I’m having problems now? Incubus. 7 am pdt

7:03 am pdt Merlin 🧙‍♂️. Magic 🪄 spells . Magic potions 🧪. Poison ☠️? 222 poison ☠️ control. 7:04 am pdt love 💕 spell. Love sick 🤒. 7:04 am pdt horny spell? Horny sick? Addiction? 7:05 am pdt

7:06 am pdt kings are best friends/bros w/ incubus.

7:07 am pdt my mom was still a s*xy babe at age 40. I ve met a s*xy Asian woman 👩🏻 who was turning 50. Only started having menopause symptoms. 7:08 am pdt (exhaling hot 🥵 air 7:09 am pdt)

7:15 am pdt 7:17 am pdt the 4th guy I don’t recall him paying for my food dinner 🍽 or any meal for some reason... maybe he bought me a hot dog 🌭? & a burrito 🌯 once ? He (teeth pain 7:19 am pdt 😖😭😤🥵😤🥵) alcoholic beverages? I think he was given tall sample energy drinks 🥤 & he gave me one named “bad mother.” Unfortunately the economy thrives off of bad parenting? An ode to bad mothers? Energy drink. 🥤 7:22 am pdt (left temple flesh digging tearing pain 7:22 am pdt 7:23 am pdt back stabbed tearing pain 7:23 am pdt)

7:29 am pdt at community college during my last year I was attracted to a classmate who asked me out on a date for Valentine’s Day, & bcz I was afraid 😱 that I would fall in to the hole 🕳 again in the sidewalk rinpoche poem I declined even though I was interested. I was trying to be disciplined. 7:31 am pdt when I took accounting 🧾 classes 2013-2014? I again tried to be disciplined and not get intimate with anyone. After graduation from community college I accepted an invitation from him to hang out, & coincidentally he could not on the first planned day & got a girlfriend. He rescheduled & then broke the news 📰 to me & we hung out platonically? Only friends sort of way. By the end of the date I had started to have a little bit of feelings for him & I felt awkward about it bcz he just got a girlfriend again. He reportedly from him got a girlfriend after I turned him down for Valentine’s Day & sounded like they had a whirlwind relationship? Moved in together moved out said she was the devil blah blah 😑. It almost sounds like fiction bcz who moved in with a woman they met not long ago to have a relationship? Watched tv 📺 shows that when a boyfriend gives you a drawer for your stuff was a big deal. 7:39 am pdt 7:40 am pdt he told me I should try not to be shy 🙈 when I am interested in someone I think 🤔 trying to remember. I borrowed a movie 🎥 from him and had intentions of returning it to him but it was awkward & I thought he texted me once early on but didn’t respond a second time. Bad excuse but I was retarded like that. Felt awkward being the first to text. Pain knot 🪢 in hair after acid abdominal pain 7:43 am pdt. I should have just mailed it. Anchorman burgundy Ron. 7:45 am pdt

8:03 8:04 am pdt I tried dating again one last time in 2011, after reluctantly dating Scott again in 2010. Autocorrect “king” b4 I typed “again”... I was not interested bcz I didn’t feel an immediate connection but my mom urged me to give this guy a chance. We texted but I canceled once, then rescheduled, then he stood me up 🆙 & that was the end of it. He texted me back late saying he was high (he told me had a med card for it) 8:09 right 👁 eyeball pain exhaling hot 🥵 air. 8:10 am pdt

8:15 am pdt I have a pattern w/men: resist resist resist, cave, resist resist resist (8:16 am pdt sharp stabbing pain right thigh).

8:41 am pdt I wonder 💭 how tummy aches 😖😭😫😤🥵😤 god would have been able to predict my personality b4 I was conceived? Is my younger sister not really my sister? 8:43 am pdt 😰

more am I being manipulated/controlled???? 8:44 am pdt

I started worrying again about the baby 👶 I threw a plastic or rubber ball at, it was inflatable I think? I was probably 7th grade. I think I threw it under hand from a distance? I only did it once. I typed about it in an earlier post. He seemed to get even smarter after I threw the ball at him & his personality didn’t change. I don’t think 🤔 he cried at (8:47 am pdt acid sand paper feeling in throat 8:48 am pdt) I regret throwing anything at him.

If I had a lot of money 💰 I would pay 💰 him too for medical 🏥 bills 💵 that I’m at fault for. If I was a billionaire/millionaire. 8:50 8:51 he seemed very normal & once he looked 👀 possessed by the demon lord, bcz I had 2 sit next to him sometime afterwards & he laughed maniacally? Crazily?? & reached towards me with little chubby hands covered in snot. It’s as if he was super smart & could already see that I didn’t like the snot on his hands 🙌. That was the only time I recalled him reaching out to touch me???? Was there another time before that???? 8:55 am pdt but that one time stuck in my mind bcz of how bizarre he looked & sounded = demonically possessed. 😖😭😤🥵😤🥵 arm muscles 💪 pain. 8:56 am pdt he also made humping movements towards a baby 👶 girl toddler & the daycare lady’s son cheered him on. 8:57 am pdt he was usually smiling & laughing. I think the only time I’ve seen him cry maybe 🤔 did she sit him on her lap , the daycare lady’s daughter, (burping 9 am pdt coughing) & she pointed her finger up 🆙 wards & said “no!” (Autocorrect steamy sternum Steve steak .... 😰 Steve-> Saint eve? Yup it’s warm cramps groin 😞😭😖😭 hip hot 🥵 9:03 am pdt) she did that to the baby 👶 girl toddler I remember that & she cried vag cut pain stung 9:04 am pdt. Few minutes this morning I felt I deserved to be punched in the head & head rammed into steel beams of bunk bed 🛌. B4 parents separated I had reading 📖 comprehension issues. The school 🏫 was already giving us big social studies/history text books 📖 to read. 9:07 am pdt

9:58 am pdt something to clarify: I had actually went a little crazy about my sister sneaking off to hang out with the 2nd guy. I secretly saw the message he wrote to her. I don’t remember what I said but I did say something out loud so she would hear 👂 me, that I was upset that she was going out to hang out (without me?) I might have hinted that I knew. I don’t remember if she canceled her plans. Once she tried to borrow my ID card bcz we look 👀 almost alike & she was under 21 years old. It was requested by the guy who stopped hanging out with me & started hanging out with her. I think I don’t remember, did she pressure me to let her borrow it? It’s like, you don’t think I need my own card? I don’t matter? I don’t have a life any way no one likes me so it don’t matter but yours does? Even though you’re already popular & every one likes you? (Brain head skull pain hot 🥵 head) she did somehow make me feel guilty? Did she? I feel like there was a possibility of it but I don’t remember. I remember being very upset & accidentally venting about it to mom, then mom got upset? Concerned? & forbaded her from borrowing my id card.10:07 am pdt

When I typed above that it was fine she hang out w/ him, the 2nd guy, it’s a retrospect feeling. & I am unsure if I have any rights to shame anyone again about it. Bcz maybe I should not have went crazy about it. I had asked her if she was attracted to him... she said he has a big (funny shaped?) head... I (rib left side pain 😖😭😤🥵😤🥵) guess not. 10:11 am pdt it feels weird when a guy decides to date your sister after having s*x w/ you, no? 10:11 am pdt keep accidentally typing 9:11..... 10:12 am pdt

She got mad I accidentally told mom, she thought I did it intentionally. Feels a little like pressured. 10:13 am pdt

10:16 10:17 am pdt I lost my I’d card 2020? Karma for getting upset about her wanting to borrow my id card? 10:19 am pdt I guess???? Right hip pain bone 🦴 sharp stabbing. 10:20 am pdt

10:28 am pdt did she ask nicely? Does it matter? 10:29 am pdt she was very angry 😠 I think I remember after mom for bad e her. 10:30 am pdt

I didn’t space out forbade.... 10:30 🕥 am pdt

10:49 am pdt the thought 💭 entered my mind bcz I didn’t pummel? A baby’s head to death ☠️ w/ my fists he decided to sacrifice my head & bones 🦴 & body? Feels like that’s possible. Feels & seems like that’s the mentality these days. Apocalypse whore of Babylon mentality. 10:52 am pdt

10:56 am pdt bcz I didn’t finish the job? Bcz I didn’t do it correctly? Bcz I didn’t rape? Bcz I didn’t premeditated murder? Bcz I didn’t beat up someone head to toe? 10:58 am pdt

11:19 am pdt I got personality problems. I m the problem. It’s me 😤🥵😤😥😤🥵😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭😞 🎶🎼🎵????? Somehow I accidentally typed mud after mus 11:20 am pdt

11:56 am pdt in 2020? I lost all my passwords when I ran away. Treat the end of last year incubus stole my passwords paper. Yesterday my mom found the ring 💍 I thought 💭 the incubus stole. Still missing a box 📦 of other jewelry. Bcz my mom found the ring 💍 doesn’t mean that the incubus didn’t steal it. They often take & return things. They took a small heart ❤️ locket that was my sister’s but I don’t think she liked it. 11:59 am pdt

12 pmpdt I don’t trust incubus he’s trying to change my memories & feelings again. Very disturbing. 12 pmpdt

12:02 pmpdt they’ve been hurting my brain 🧠 for hours? This morning. A few minutes ago they squeezed it was it the whole brain 🧠?? I think it was but I’m having difficulty pelvis lower abdomen cramps 😞😖😭 nausea 12:02 pmpdt remembering. Having cravings now fears again of mad cow 🐮 disease 🦠. I once had a fear & stopped eating beef 🥩 for a while???? I remember I told a friend, she said she didn’t care & needed to eat the beef 🥩 she loved beeef 12:05 pmpdt

1:35 pmpdt b4 my next door 🚪 neighbor moved out, I had a crush 😻 on him. He was married & in the marines. He was short like josh, but reminded me a little of my first real boyfriend. 1:37 pmpdt there were days I woke up 🆙 wanting to do it w/ him (s*x) but I refused to let myself go down that path. I laid in bed 🛌 thinking don’t get up don’t get up don’t get up bcz I was h*rny. The last 6 months? He lived next to me he was alone - his wife moved to their new house 🏠 in another state & he was finishing his requirements for recruiting? I stopped talking to him after I started feeling something. 1:43 pmpdt something about a uniform 🥋....

going back to Nick, I thought 💭 he was s*xy. & when he wanted friends w/benefits I was already h*rny for years. I was already h*rny in middle school 🏫. But I remained a virgin until I was 19 years old. Nick wanted friends with benefits months b4 I turned 16 years old. 1:46 pmpdt

2:02 pmpdt left shoulder pain 😖😭😓 right side jaw pain. What I think 💭 I remember telling Scott was “I like josh. I think he’s cool” ��� several minutes ago aat the (autocorrect sun devil first)(nihongo ichi nee San yon/shi go roku nana/shichi hachi kyu/ku ju. ...) 2:08 pmpdt

2:18 pmpdt josh made me laugh 😆 after Scott played foosball whipping/spinning the rods very fast so I didn’t have a chance to hit the ball ⚽️. 2:20 pmpdt b4 this? So many details... I will have to review if I already wrote it. My memory is going. The chronology is getting lost in my mind. Maybe that means I wrote it already pain 2:22 pm right eyeball 👁😖😭

[saltpepperbeard]

Omg OMG omg you’re writing again. I’m gonna need you to follow up on your idea where she meets up with josh and tells him about her relationship issues and stuff. I’m dying for it Jodi. Odvdjhdksbddjdb joshifer back for the win

When I have to clump anon asks together since they all pertain to the same thing/I wouldn’t be surprised if they were one VERY passionate person lmao.

HERE’S THE DEALIO/TEA, SIS: My motivation is very fragile and yelling at it will Scare It Away lol. I was itching to attempt to write a Joshifer full length recently, and with some talking to @aihodineverlark, I MIGHT meld Long Overdue into my full length, because it kind of follows the same path I was going to take.

HOWEVER, I don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up, because I know going back to college will do a NUMBER on my urge to write. It’s my literal last semester too lol so my mind is going to be focused on work and graduation tbh. So I jUST.

It’s tempting. It’s so so tempting. But genuinely, idk if I’ll be able to do it. And yes yes I know, I could always just write a sequel like you/you guys are begging me to do lol, bUT LIKE…I FEEL LIKE A SEQUEL WILL TURN INTO ANOTHER SEQUEL SO IT’S LIKE…BETTER JUST WRITE A FULL LENGTH IF THAT IS INDEED THE CASE.

I’m going to go back to my drawing board and see if my motivation hops to it. I think if I did write a full length again, I’d write pretty much all the chapters before publishing. Or make sure I had a CLEAR map before staring work. Because I don’t want to start publishing chapters only for it to completely die when I head back to school.

IDK IF THIS OL’ GIRL HAS IT IN HER AKDLSAJLA

[bustedbernie]

You can't actually think that the average person is as much to blame for climate change as billionaires who erase years of progress with their own personal space race. Right? Tell me how me using paper straws or freezing in the winter/roasting in the summer is going to counter a CEO ordering a forest cut down a day.

Think you're being obtuse lol. That post isn't about the damage the rich do alone. It's about how leftists are using that harm to refuse their own accountability and their own ability to make small changes and in doing so, they are giving up their collective power to make larger changes. Experts have made it clear that it's not just about "billionaires," so you can shut up with that.

The crisis is going to demand LARGE changes from all of us - and yes, some of those changes are going to be uncomfortable. Set your thermostat at 80 in the summer and at 60 in the winter. Bodies adjust and those temperatures are safe for most everyone. In many climates, AC isn't necessary for more than 3 weeks of the year. Including where i live in the Southwest.

Stop using straws altogether and get rid of disposable items at restaurants - it's not hard. And if you're not the few who may need a plastic straw, then stop hiding behind them to avoid your own ability to change. Take the bus, and plan where you live so that you can. Live in a smaller space. Get a bike. Eat less meat and keep red-meat to an absolute minimum. And yes, vote and advocate for people who can make real change and regulations at the top to make changes for US easier to do in our daily lives while also multiplying the impact.

but don't forget that these corporations function toward demand - and they do listen - and they do know change is coming and preparing for it. If you can afford to, start using the power you do have, and you DO HAVE it, and stop hiding behind some convenient wall so that you can think you're exempt from making any changes in your own life - assuming you actually care about the climate crisis at all and aren't just using it to channel pure anger at an "other" (this case the rich or the billionaire class).

Anger is a secondary emotion and I think the way it is discharged, including in your ask, is not helpful to you or the crisis. You're just discharging blame. Accountability is a two-way street, and if you actually do make changes, you will be living YOUR values, which is valuable and it does matter. If the paper straw makes you feel more aligned with your values (and it does make a difference, no matter how small), then that is a good thing.

What you've done with this post is what they love to see. They don't actually care that you or I think they're evil, shortsighted, or whatever. Because you hiding behind that is just allowing yourself to remove yourself from the system (which can't be done btw) and enables you to keep buying the products made by the evil billionaires. It's funny how that works, isn't it? Saying it's all the fault of the billionaires while changing nothing you are doing is what they love to see.

why is it that you all talk about how each individual can create a massive collective action leading to a revolution or whatever, but you don't see how that is true, if not even MORE true, on this subject? Critical Mass bike rides have politically made it possible for cities to invest in more bike infra. Using reusable jars and containers on bulk items at your local coop reduces plastic individually, and also demonstrates a market for less plastic packaging. You might still need to buy certain things in plastic, but the more you buy available in other packaging helps enable even more. Even Target is now selling deodorant tubes made of paper and toothpast sold in aluminium tubes. I get bulk shampoo, conditioner, moisturizer, soap, and cleaning products at my Coop (I in fact now have a plastic free bathroom and nearly plastic free kitchen!).

And like i said, i know my impact is marginal, but it is still an impact. On a personal level, the impacts benefit my mental health, they align with my values, and I find my life more enjoyable. I have a small apartment, but can take the bus or bike everywhere, and I have become more and more a part of a community that shares those values and lifestyles which is enriching. So yes, billionaires are doing a lot of damage, but we live in a society and all play a part. We can work toward holding them accountable and making those changes at the same time we make changes at home. But i have very little respect for people who think they can't make any change or who discharge all their responsibilities on others.

In my 15+ years advocating this way, we have accomplished a rapid transit project in my city that has massively improved public transport in the core, made plastic free options possible at several local Coops and shops, increased commuter bus service from the suburbs, created a commuter rail, grown our bike lane and cycle track network by many, many miles(more than doubling our number of bike commuters),invested in community bike maintenance classes and FREE bikes for low-income or unemployed folks and folks experiencing homelessness, banned plastic one-use bags, have gotten our city and state to use more water capture and permeable concrete in construction, and are helping support a large wind and solar industry (things our region should be especially good at). So idk, If we can make these changes in a sprawling, desert city in the middle of nowhere, then I'm sure there are changes you can start taking part in and advocating for in your city, too. You do have power, and when you put that power to work with other like-minded people, it can be game changing.

But i was recently in Philadelphia talking to someone who had a similar view. They lived 3 blocks from the subway and worked next to a stop, but said "the subway isn't a good option for me" and insinuated they thought it was gross (it's old but perfectly fine and I thought wonderful). They drove to the shop despite living walking distance from a super market. They channeled a lot of the same attitude that I see in your ask. Obviously this person is unique, but I have found a lot of folks with this attitude have similar low-hanging fruit that they are just refusing to take because it would require a modicum of effort. Hate to tell ya, but you've been lied to if you think we can solve this crisis without you evaluating making some changes.

[letters-from-eros]

can i have sakusa and atsumu with a short girlfriend (like 5’1)

A/N: My first Atsumu/Inarizaki request and since I don't read the manga I'm having my friend who loves the Miya twins, @bokuno-volleybabes give me a crash course on 'Tsumu. Thank youuu bb.

Pairings: Sakusa Kiyoomi, Miya Atsumu

Form: Headcanons.

Warnings: I like cursed twice.

This dude will force you to feel the height difference.

Sakusa will unapologetically crane his neck downwards to look at you. Please don't get intimidated, he still loves you-

His teasing is so blunt you need to question if its actual teasing or if he's just stating some kind of fact.

He kinda enjoys any small reactions he can get outta you as long as you dont fully pop off on him.

Like he lives for an eyeroll or a small "tsk"

He goes by unfazed by any retorts you have about him being tall. I mean did you really expect him to have that big of a reaction anyway?

Teasing isn't too common though, whenever Sakusa finds himself in a very specific good mood he isn't opposed to lighthearted banter.

Or when your shortness becomes a problem, like when you're struggling to reach something. This is when his teasing really sounds like proclaimed fact.

Y'know he will unconsciously put things on a higher shelf, completely forgetting the fact that you won't be able to reach up there. Its what feels natural to him.

But the super tiny ounce of pride that swells up in him when you ask him to grab something for you is quite pleasurable.

So it won't be something he'll try to improve unless you voice that it seriously makes you upset.

Or if he finds you trying to scale the shelf yourself because you didn't want to call him for help.

He's not that big on regular pet-names, so you don't have to worry about being called shortie and all that.

CEO of giving you forehead kisses and headpats, I don't make the rules.

In summary, Sakusa isn't the worst person in the world to be short around, but with his tall ass, you won't be forgetting the height difference because of the most subtle things. The bitch is lowkey with everything he does and there's no way around it

Okay, if you found any sense of comfort in Sakusa's, I need you to throw that away.

How DARE you be short around this man?!

I don't know what you expect, Tsumu teases you relentlessly

Can you even call it teasing? It usually feels like your getting roasted alive.

Through trial, error, and failed friendships Atsumu has learned how to keep things lighthearted enough for them to not sound like blatant insults.

And if he even does slip up, please don't get too upset, he doesn't mean it.

CEO of making you jump to kiss him or trying to scale up him or straight up beg.

I don't know what would feel worst, Sakusa craning his neck down to look at you, or the cocky ass way Tsumu looks at you.

Chin slightly tilted upwards, looking down at you. He does this on purpose when you guys are out and public and he's in a mood.

Yo PLEASE HUMBLE THIS MAN when he purposely puts something on the highest shelf that he can barely reach his damn self?

Call Osamu

You heard me. Call Osamu. He is just a tad bit taller than Atsumu. Remind him of that.

Clap back when he teases you. Inarizaki can proudly unanimously say that their favorite thing ever is when you two start roasting each other back and forth.

Suna records it. A compilation of the best playful arguments has gone viral on youtube and your classmates are begging you and Tsumu to make one of those couple's vlog youtube channels.

They probs think its all drama n arguing though since that's all they've seen. But you and Atsumu are wholesome a lot of the time!! Don't forget about wholesome Tsum Tsum!!

Anyway.

Do I ever need to tell you he's calling you every short name in the book?

Pipsqueak, small-stuff, shortie, short-stack, little one, arm rest, doll.

I don't think you know the last time he called you by your name.

Your contact name is probably like "chibi-chan" or just "shortie"

Or maybe something corny like "Loml" with a shitload of hearts. We know how he is...

This guy will laugh at his own jokes sometimes, especially his short jokes, and it honestly will never get old for him.

Idk, maybe after a good year of dating he might ease up.

Maybe

[lostbbygorl]

THE GENERAL AND ULTIMATE MODERN AU EREN YEAGER HEADCANON POST:

✨ Oooohh boy..... Eren Yeager

✨ In this post, I'll be discussing Eren as a child and Eren as the 19-year-old Chad we now know him as

✨ Okay, so Eren as a child

✨ WHERE TF DID HE GET THAT RAGE?

✨ Everyday he wakes up looking like an angry gremlin and he growls at people saying hi to him in the hallways

✨ The elementary school teachers genuinely like him and they know deep down he's a very sweet boy but KIDDO PLS GET YOUR HANDS OFF LIL TIMMY'S NECK AND DO YOUR MATHS MANIA MULTIPLICATION WORKSHEET HE DIDN'T MEAN TO DROP YOUR FAVORITE ERASER

✨ Mikasa and Armin were the only people who could calm him down

✨ You know that one kid who gets sent outta the classroom every week? And like teachers always call said kid's parents for a meeting? Eren is that kid

✨ At first, a very disappointed Grisha went to the meetings, and then neither parent went cuz they were too busy, and then Carla always went. By "too busy" I mean having yelling matches and digging up old bones and then storming off like toddlers. That was the hardest part of Eren's life

✨ A lot of Eren's rage came from his parent's crumbling marriage and he missed his dad but MY GOD he was relieved when Grisha left them. Eren has a soft spot deep down for him, but he's gonna break a damn wall if he sees Grisha again, and near his mom

✨ Eren's behavior improves at the start of middle school though. He's still not to be fucked with and lowkey terrifies the teachers, but he's much more amiable

✨ Eren's grades also improve in middle school. He finds more motivation and his study routine is shite but atleast he's putting more effort. Speaking of grades, he always scores 100% in PE

✨ Eren was always the fastest runner and even though he isn't super passionate about sports, he's competitive

✨ I feel like Eren would sometimes do sports for fun, but his main interests lie in martial arts. I hc he learns karate or judo or smth and get numerous degrees in it throughout the years

✨ Eren is popular despite being a hardass. He still gets clowned doe

✨ PLENTY OF FUCKING INJURIES AND BRUISES

✨ Now onto college Eren with the long hair and dem abs

✨ He's chill for the most part ig, still scary doe

✨ He gets daily reminders from Mikasa and Armin to study and that's the only reason he passes

✨ I feel like he'd take the same classes as his friends and be nonchalant about college but then get interest in his subject and find it's his passion

✨ "Woah", Eren doing a perfect Gabbie Hannah impression at 3 AM after realizing how much his major means to him

✨ Eren's handwriting is messy but readable. Hw takes notes on random pieces of paper and random notebooks so the night before the exams he's turning the house down looking for that half ripped sticky note

✨ But I mean the grade is good so he won't stop the bad practice

✨ 9/10 times Eren is the veteran face showing new college students around the campus. Him and Jean actually

✨ In a modern world, Eren and Jean are frenemies becuz Eren finds him annoying. They have roast battles and even rap battles. Eren tells Jean to stfu if he even breathes

✨ Eren goes to bed at 2 and he actually tries to fix his sleeping schedule but then Jean sends him game invites and he's just MAD

✨ Sasha and Connie throw parties every weekend and you best believe Jean and Eren are in the convenience stores getting snacks and then tampons to make a tampon princess castle tgt later on

✨ Eren is the friend who has a nice ass car. He picks ppl up and drops them off everyday

✨ He LOVES going on late night rides with his peeps

✨ ESPECIALLY Mikasa 😳

✨ Eren is head over heels for Mikasa and Mikasa is the same and their mutual pining is so fucking embarrassing atp

✨ Eren is one of those ppl who are scared of love so the intensity of his feelings for Mikasa scare him so when he's hanging out he's like

" Mikasa looks pretty I wanna hold her hand. Welp, time to fuck or beat one out"

✨ Eren is defo popular among the ladies but he isn't flirty, he's just polite. He isn't a fboi despite what other writers say

✨ He does like hookups doe. He'll back off if a gal aint interested doe

✨ Eren also seems like a tattoo kinda guy. He has one of an eagle on his neck and his initials on his back

✨ Idk why but he rubs me as the type of dude who'd be friends with kids. Like 1 or 2. Namely, Gabi and Falco

✨ Eren goes to Paradis college and FalBi go to Paradis middle school. They used the college performing hall for a play and Eren volunteered to help prepare the stage to get out of classes. That's when he met a sweet, quiet Falco and a hyper, feral Gabi. He was amused by their interactions and got nostalgic seeing them tbh cuz he remembered his elementary days with Armin

✨ Gabi was trying to rope Falco in for another one of her dangerous plans and Falco ultimately caved

" Let's sleepover in this hall tonight. Our parents are out and I bought all the stuff we need"

" What? That's crazy! What if we get caught?"

" Come of, Falco. Pleeaaassseee?"

" Fine, but it's on you if we get in trouble"

✨ " Kid with the ponytail, that's a crazy plan but Imma cover for you", said Eren joining in

✨ They've been talking ever since and when Eren realized Gabi is Reiner's fave and closest cousin, they became closer

✨ Overall, Eren is a loveable dude despite being a bit chaotic

[oikaw-ugh]

BIG BRAIN MOMENT

Imagine you're in Boku no Hero!AU and you have an intimidation quirk (before you roast me, I just wanna let yk that I forgot the limits of a person's quirk) and like, sure, your quirk does not make you strong like All Might or you can't be magical shit like Todoroki, Uraraka, Bakugo, etc. but you're hella i n t i m i d a t i n g.

Like, to the point where you make pro heroes flustered in your presence and stuff. Imagine Bakugo getting glued on his feet because of how intimidating you are. AND AND AND AND it's true that you're only intimidating but what do people do when around intimidating people? They submit.

Imagine telling them to stop and they're like oOMF. RIGHT AWAY, BRO.

As a pro hero with the intimidation quirk, I can see you being a sidekick rather than a...idk main hero? like, imagine the villain getting flustered or anxious with you just staring at them at the side for no reason at all!

Idk. This is cool for me. And like, all you have to do is to have supporting materials and to improve your physical strength I guess.

[symphonicmetal101]

Wishlist For Someone Special

Ok, so I'm feeling really sappy and just a little lonely. All my friends are boring and my family members are too young for me to take to do some stuff.

This is kind of a wishlist of things I wish I had someone to do with or look forward to doing eventually...not necessarily romantic, but I wouldn't mind if it was. (broskis, I ain't never been on a date, not even, like, a platonic one, so bear with me if it seems ridiculous)

Stargazing- lying on a blanket in an open field or in the bed of a truck, just watching the stars, pointing out constellations, and making up stories

Watching the Northern Lights- bundling up in our warmest winter clothing, grabbing a couple campchairs and hot chocolate as we watch them dance and flicker.

Laser Tag- sneaking around, just trying to one up each other, or being on the same team and still- try to one up each other😂

Paintball- a little more painful than laser tag, but still fun. Checking up on each other afterwards to make sure there aren't any really bad bruises

Graffiti- I've always liked the way it looks. I would love for someone to teach me, or for us to learn together in one of those public graffiti houses

A Willow Tree- I would love to find a weeping willow tree and climb it's branches, only to sit and read there with my loved one enjoying their company.

Just Drive- just take a roadtrip with someone I love, blasting music, laughing, singing, and snacking as we blaze down the roads. It doesn't have to be long.

Visit an Animal Sanctuary/Reserve- I find animals fascinating, but also find that sanctuaries and reserves are more educational and often more humane than zoos.

Volunteer at the Food Bank or SPCA- just general acts of service. They make me happy.

Pillow Fortress- I didn't really get to make blanket forts when I was younger, so I want to try doing something even bigger! I want to convert the couch into a cuddle palace.

Spontaneous Dancing- idk man, it just makes me really happy. My dad used to twirl and dip me when I was little, so that's probably where it started.

Cooking/Baking Together- so what if we make a bit of a mess? So what if we screw up the recipe? It doesn't matter, it was time well spent.

Cleaning Together- Growing up as an only child for ten years and then becoming the oldest means I've done chores alone for a long time. I want someone's company, maybe we'll talk, maybe we'll work in comfortable silence, or maybe we'll blast music. I don't care. I would be happy just to know I wasn't alone.

Learning One of Their Hobbies- I want to learn something they know!! Please, let me understand a little better, I just need them to be patient with me.

Forest Walks- especially in Fall. I want to walk down an old trail, listen to leaves crunch under our feet as more fall from above I want the blustery weather to give us rosy cheeks and noses by the time our walk is over.

Horseback Riding- I've done it before, but I would love to bring someone with me. You have more experience? Great! I love to see that confidence in you. You've done it a couple times? Yay, we're in the same boat! Never done it at all? That's ok! I'll do what I can to help you!

Outdoor Movie Night- we don't have drive- in theaters anywhere nearby, but give me a sheet, campchairs, and a projector? I've got us.

Indoor Movie Night- let's bundle up and cuddle together while we watch a new movie. Or maybe it's a classic. Idc.

Try New Food- let's go somewhere for lunch and pick something completely foreign...(I am not eating guinea pig again though, thanks.)

The Wharf- if one of us happens to live by the ocean, we'll be frequent visitors. Not necessarily the beach, bit on wooden planks where the salty sea air still reaches you. We can watch the boats come and go. (Fisherman's Wharf in B.C Canada is fun. There's a really good Mexican food place😂 There's a blind seal named Sammy that lives there, and you can buy a bucket of fish to feed him. Be careful though, seagulls are vicious, being pecked by one sucks...yes, I needed a bandaid and my finger was sore for a long time. Idk if it's still like that, it's been a while. Sorry, just reminiscing a bit.)

Painting- let's buy a couple canvases and paint and see what we can do! It doesn't have to resemble anything, just do what feels like you.

Splatter Painting- dear god I've wanted to try this for so long. Just full on globs of paint and flicking it towards the canvas. (I was never allowed to do it because it was seen as a waste of paint. I couldn't even do it with an old toothbrush on a small canvas😑)

Video Games!- Please teach me how to play! Video games are banned in my family. I mean, I've done Just Dance, but that's about it. Mobile games have been kept a secret...basically just teach me to play and don't make me feel bad about playing, and I'll love you forever, mkay?

Ice Cream Date- again, idk. The idea just makes me really happy, whether we're sitting in a small shop, eating and talking. Or maybe we're walking, maybe holding hands, trying to point things out to each other, but our hands are full, but there's no way we're letting go. Or maybe we're sharing a cup of ice cream on a park bench, just people watching.

Thrift Store Outfits- I want to go to a thrift store and pick out the most ridiculous outfits for each other. We don't have to go anywhere, but just humour me when we're alone by wearing whatever I found for you, and vice versa.

Writing- writing a poem, a atory, a quote, or learning calligraphy and just writing their name- I want to write something to you

Books- let's go to the library and choose a book for each other, one that neither of us have read so we can talk and ask questions, come up with theories as we continue to read.

Books pt.2- if you write me a note and give me a book telling me why it's one of your favourites, I'll melt. I'll do the same for you, and soon we'll have a few more things to talk about and enjoy together

Music!- you bet your bottom dollar I'm going to send you music that reminds me of you, and I would be overjoyed to recieve the same.

Music! Pt.2- if you happen to play, sing, or dance, let's make something beautiful together! If not, I'll teach you!

Improv/rp- just making stuff up as we go, not caring if other people hear our conversations.

Trampoline Park/Something Similar- I just want to try it. Don't care if I break my leg, I want to try it. I'll care if you break your leg though.

Plant Shopping- again, idk. Just the idea of choosing a succulent or two to take care of together sounds nice.

Dance Classes- maybe you're already an amazing dancer, I'll let you take the lead. Maybe you just know the basics like me, we can learn together. (I know how to do the basics for, like, salsa, cumbia, bachata, swing, and waltz, that's it. Please teach me more🤩)

Sewing/Knitting/Crocheting/Fabric Work- useful skill! And maybe we can make something for each other. (Spoiler alert: you're getting a pillow case, mask, or a scarf, I can't do much yet😂)

Rage House- let's just let loose! Make a mess! Yell! Doesn't matter, all of it's legit. I just want to destroy stuff.

Weird Cuddles- again, just the idea makes me happy. If you're lying down, I may as well just flop on you, right? Or maybe somehow we end up upside down. Cuddling while we read books or listen to music. Ok so maybe just cuddling but it feels weird because I'm touch-starved👌

Late Night Calls- I've never done this with anyone under happy circumstances. Could you help me change that? It would be nice to have the last thing before I go to sleep be reassurance and happiness.

Calendar/Planning- let's make a calendar together with pictures of the places we want to go one day. Let's talk to each other so we know what we both want and make sure we put it down.

Scuba Diving- this is something I've wanted to do since I was little- actually it was the first job I said I wanted. I don't want to do it as a career anymore, but I would love to try it with you.

Finding Random Things- little things that remind me of you. Maybe I was out and found a heart shaped rock. Or I heard a bird sing and managed to record it. Or maybe there was a cute keychain at the store that reminded me of you. And that would be enough to make me smile.

Ride a Double-Decker Bus- I've done it before, but the excitement that comes with the thought of riding one again makes me giddy. Just being able to see the city and people from a mobile throne😂

Bike Riding- let's explore nearby, just riding together. Maybe you have trails you want to show me. You can lead, I'll follow. Or vice versa. If we get lost at least we can laugh about it later.

Camping- lets share a tent and a campfire together, roasting smores as we laugh and tell each other stories. Maybe we'll try and sing a few songs too.

Punch Buggy- just playing the game properly will make me happy tbh. It's been 8 years of bending the rules😂

Board/Card Games- yes. I will get competitive. But that's half the fun. Also, I would like to play these properly as well lol

Museum Date- maybe somewhere local, or maybe we were driving by and decided to stop, or maybe we actually planned to go. Let's learn something new together, take some pictures.

Comfy- I didn't know what else to call it. Basically, take out, sweat pants, (messy buns), snacks, drinks, and a good show. Bonus if it's storming outside.

Rain- watching it rain, listening tonit rain, going outside and dancing or running in the rain, jumping in puddles- I want to do it all with you.

Little Gestures- little things we develop as we get to know each other, faces that we come to understand, hand movements we start to copy. Idk, I find it really cute.

Ok guys, sorry this isn't what, well, any of us were expecting. I guess this is my Valentine's Day post?? Idk. If you read it, I hope you liked it.

Feel free to put who you thought of in tags or comments, real or fiction. Or add to the list if you want. I would love to know😊 I know there's a lot of "I wants" but that's because for the first time, in a long time, I feel comfortable admitting that.

51. Mutual comfort characters

[vb-hcs]

haikyuu reacting to stan twitter

(haikyuu spoilers)

hello ^u^ !! if you see this i hope you are doing good !! i decided to write how i think the MSBY Black Jackals would react to their stan twitter ! i don’t know very much about stan twitter for athletes but i tried my best lol. thank you for reading <3

warnings: swearing, stan twitter-ness (?), mentions of sexual harassment

hinata

when he first debuted (?) he didn’t really didn’t know how to respond to stan twitter

it made him really flustered !! he didn’t understand a lot and he wasn’t sure why people were so interested in his team outside of the sport

he warmed up pretty quickly by responding to a lot of tweets and he felt a lot more connected to it all !!

took him a while to warm up to the memes about him tho lol he wasn’t sure if they were in good humor and regardless they can be pretty embarassing >:0

(adding to what i said before) sooo responsive !!! his twitter replies are so full he loves interacting with fans 🥺 theyre like best friends

oh to be a hinata stan. they’re either mutuals with him or have gotten at least one response from him

(idk if i should say social bb or social butterfly 🥺 social caterpillar.)

would be the type to post a bunch of baby photos of himself >:0

in on a lot of the memes !! especially the ones about his teammates hehe

i think he would avoid anything hateful for the most part but sometimes he can’t stop himself from looking at it. not in a bad way but more of a competive way !! he wants to improve on whatever people are talking shit about so that he can prove them wrong

i feel like he’d be the type to respond to a hate tweet with something like you wanna kiss me so bad. i can tell it only happened one time but everyone was like what the fuck it wrong with you ahvsbdbdb

bokuto

warmed up to stan twitter pretty fast actually !! it was a bit to get used to but people showing him unconditional love and hyping him up? yes ma’am

the second most interactive !!!!!!

(might rival hinata for first !! hinata just has conversations tho)

gets called a himbo a lot but doesn’t know what it means. takes it as a compliment

(they all get called himbos constantly)

bokuto stans eat well !!! soo positive and he’s super involved with his fan base !!

gets a lot of comments asking him gets he gets soo thicc !

he loooves sharing is workout routines and regiments !!!!

posts hella workout videos and loves it when people talk to him about how they tried it out (and are completely exhausted)

has saved so many memes of himself !! has so many reaction pictures you’d actually think he’s a narcissist. he’s not he just appreciates people making them he theyre funny 😔

atsumu

didn’t get used to stan twitter incredibly fast but he did assume it came with being kinda famous so he was the most prepared

knows what himbo means and he was kinda upset at first but then thought about it and realized that’s fair

the third most interactive !!! pretty chill but kinda flirty 🤢

his stans a borderline feral (i wonder where they get it from) like for the most part they’re chill but the second he starts acting up it takes them all out 😔

hates memes about him !! they’re are only a couple exceptions that he thinks are actually funny

the rest he finds really embarassing so it’s a miracle if he interacts with one

was so pissed when Onigiri Miya got verified before him (and when HES the reason they blew up so much bc he was constantly tweeting about them >:0) (or so he tells himself hehe)

people made jokes about it for WEEKS (even his teammates joined in). when he finally got verified his stans made a whole event about it (trended hashtags, etc.)

sasuka

is not a fan of stan twitter it makes him uncomfortable

he appreciates the support and all but he like his privacy and does not understand why people are so interested in him he automatically assumes they’re creepy

fourth most interactive !! replies when he can but only to normal comments and compliments. nothing too over the top

(once in awhile he will and it’ll be something like if you could step on me that’d be great and he’ll be like thanks.)

(don’t comment horny stuff on peoples social medias [or in real life] this has been a PSA.)

for the most part he only uses his twitter for promotional stuff but still uses it sometimes

his stans are super laidback and chill !! vv respectful of his boundaries

found out what a himbo was and is deeply offended

pretty well known on twitter for his roasts of his teammates. most of them go viral

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

AAAAAA TELL US ALL ABOUT YOUR MASTERS THESIS AND HOW YOU DEFENDED IT AND STUFF

THE WORLD DESERVES TO KNOWWWW

Ayyyy okay okay!!

It's about the Parian Chronicle which is a chronographic recount of part of the history of Ancient Greece, with a special attention to poets and other artists; I studied it with the perspective of cultural memory in mind and analyzed the artists hypolectically (basically the previous author hones a specific genre that then gets continued by the next one, building upon it). I also theorized that the author of the Chronicle could've been an artist themselves; not only because of this focus on artists but on how he wasn't a professional chronographer because the dates are all wrong and also because of the location of the Chronicle; it standed in the Archilocheion, a sanctuary in honor of Archilochos of Paros, a legendary poet.

The defence was basically me doing a presentation of the topic, and then a panel of three juries composed by professors roasted talked about flaws and stuff to improve about the thesis. I was the last one of the group (they divided us by topic, all three of us did something related to the arts) so of course by the time I got there my ears were buzzing like crazy and I did not have a good time ™ but thankfully they weren't too harsh with me; they stated obvious flaws and stuff I genuinely didn't know, and kept repeating I was very brave for choosing a topic this obscure and complex which I think it's good?? idk. I was kinda scared cause they completely destroyed the first girl of the group and I thought I was gonna end up like her, who had red eyes by the end of it, but thankfully my friend went after her and they complimented him a lot, so I think that built up my confidence a bit :)

Won't know the grade until everything's done I imagine, so hopefully somewhere this week, although going by my uni standards, it's possible that we'll get the grades a month from now lol. I'm not expecting a spectacular grade tho, probably a 7 like my degree's thesis, but the grade doesn't really matter so I'm not very worried in that aspect.

[jidai]

jidai’s budget mutuals/friends appreciation

Hi, all! I’m quite late with this but I decided to put a small friends and mutual appreciations post in hopes of brightening up the end of this year a little bit. ❤️ If you were tagged, please make sure to check below for a small little message from me. However, I want to make it very clear that I truly appreciate all of my mutuals. You guys brighten up my dash and always reblog or create so many funny and creative posts. I just wanted to give a few special shout outs to those that have taken out the time to reach out and interacted with me past my ask box or we just see each other often.

The messages are ordered by your URL, so you might have to scroll for awhile before you see your messages. I’m so sorry lmao. 

Happy New Years, everyone!

@25th​​, Nonnie, the Young Genius. bro, remind me how old you are 🧍‍♀️ Like my brain CANNOT fathom the thought that you’re so skilled at SO many things and you’re not even in your twenties??? PLEASE SPARE THE TALENT. i will even accept crumbs. But I’m writing to tell you that you are such a wonderful presence on my dash. I always look forward to your gfx. They’re so SO good and you’re improving from one post to another. Like WOW. Now, you’re even starting an art blog, too? You’re so dedicated to the arts. I respect that a lot. Your hard work and commitment will bring you very far in life, whatever you decide to do. 

I love interacting with you. You’re such a big sweetheart and full of positivity and energy. I look forward to seeing more of your art and gfx ❤️

@biscuitwalk​, Dann, the AK Wiz. Dann, I know you’re not as active on here so idk when or if you will ever read this but I want to say that I miss you and your creations so, so much. I will say it a hundred times over and OVER but you inspire me so goddamn much. You have no fucking idea. Your works are absolutely gorgeous and unique. I can look at it once and I can instantly recognize your style (and your cute lil’ pufferfish <3). The way you utilize colors and implement various techniques, shapes, textures into your work. Goddamn, you’re so good. I always look to your work if I ever need inspiration and they help me brainstorm. God, I wish I could put it into words how much I adore your works.

We didn’t really talk for long but you seemed like such a kind and fun person to be around. I wish you the best in your future endeavors, wherever you are. Stay safe <3

@elriccs, Mirai, the Short King. 🧍‍♀️ ok look I know, I know I’m TERRIBLE at replying to you and I’m so fucking sorry. I absolutely love to talk to you but my dumbass cannot seem to reply in a timely manner LASELKSAL. That’s on me and I gotta do better. Anyways!!! Thank you SO fucking much for always leaving such kind messages on my work. I swear to god you’re one of my biggest hype man and I ALWAYS look forward to reading your tags. They’re so funny and it makes me all tingly and happy inside. Bro, like, you just radiate big fun vibes, bro. I really hope that I can get to know you better so I can just insult you until it’s too late to walk away </3

And of course, let me also remind you that I love your works so much. They way that you utilize your textures and those muted colors... OOMPH *chefs kiss* I will always love--

@lockhvrts​​, Em the Soulsborne GOD. hi em 🥺 it’s been awhile since I’ve had a proper conversation with you and I hope you’re doing okay! I miss you and our conversations where we do nothing but geek out and complain about the game industry lmao. if you manage to read this, I just wanted to let you know I miss your presence here. It’s been kinda dull not seeing your beautiful soulsborne gifs and your game rants. Let’s catch up soon. <3 stay safe and well!

@nathanprescutt, Benn, the Man. BENNNNNNNN.  I love you a lot bro. I know we haven’t had long conversations for some time and I hope I can change that! You were my first friend on this blog and I will always appreciate it. I remember us just geeking out over your works and how I would always send you a gfx request like once a week LMAO. The one thing that I have always appreciated about you was the fact that you’re very opinionated (if not, very vocal on your stance on things) and you hold your ground. There were a few time where you encouraged me to speak on topics that I think I shouldn’t and that stuck with me for quite awhile. I’m still a nervous rambling mess when it comes to debates but just know that the one time you supported me to voice my opinion--I hold it very dear to my heart. 

While I don’t spend much time together, I will always remember our animal crossing session. It was  so much fun just trashing and chilling on your island. Especially the bar :( that bar was fucking AMAZING. Maybe once FFXVI comes out, we can geek out hehe

Also, thank you so much for sending in photos of all your doggos, omg. I miss seeing them so much I hope they’re doing well. Stay hot, my German bro lol. Ich bin sehr dankbar, so eine tolle Freundin zu haben. ❤️❤️❤️

@noxdivina​, Lin the Big Dick Daddy Kind. The church is open for business bitch and I’m here to preach the GOSPEL.

Okay, jokes aside, I’m really happy that we became mutuals. You’ve always give off this like, mysterious cosmic vibe (????? huh). And your selfies just further proves that you are wtf. But you’re always so kind to those that you interact with. You’re an absolutely sweetheart and like I just want to give you a giant hug every time we interact. You’re such a soft human being. It’s so nice being around you. It’s like being tossed in the oven and baked at 250 degrees F for 25 minutes. And to boot you’re really talented, hello? God really said let there be a perfect human being and yeeted you into the universe. Thank you for always leaving such kind messages and words in my DM/askbox/works. I cherish them so much. I hope I can get to know you better in the future bc you’re rad, bro <3

anyways, updated drawing of u and maya:

i always assume you’re in a black fur parka 24/7 and maya is coatless neck down. also deck me with those jacked arms of yours thanks  🧍‍♀️

(edit: fuck i forgot to draw a PARTY HAT ON MAYA IM SORRY)

@rokuseis​, Sei, the Dumber.

i have nothing to say to you go away you banana hater ASELKSAEKL

BITCH, you doo bee getting on my nerve 24/7/365 🧍‍♀️ you were an unexpected but a very welcomed addition to my life. I can’t believe we really went 1 fuckin’ year without speaking to each other and then suddenly our friendship blew up because over a stupid BANANA. Now you gotta deal with me and my stupid, random, crude ass messages daily. I cannot. Clown to clown communication. But thank you so much bitch for being there for me and telling all of these funny ass stories and life experiences.

I know I don’t say it a lot because when we talk it’s literally just dogs barking at each other but I want to make it clear now: I love your humor and vibe so much. You never fail to make me laugh anytime I talk to you and I appreciate it so much. I can’t tell you how many times I felt better after talking to you. Even though sometimes your fucking jab hits hard and I end up actually inSULTED BY IT. But thank you for becoming my friend and I look forward to all of our stupid moments together. Looking forward to shitting in your sink when I finally fly to your home <3

@wolfamongthem, Anna, the Grinch. Please don’t hurt me for that title. I'm just saying if someone needs a live casting, it’ll be u. Anyways, did you know that I was so fucking intimidated by you for a long ass time, even before we became mutuals aseljas LMAO. I always see your gifs around on explore and they’re so gorgeous and then I look at your text posts and it’s u roasting people like there’s no tomorrow- 🧍‍♀️ bitch I was SCARED OF U KSKS. Now that I’ve talked to you a few times, you’re really funny like where do you find those reaction memes????? Like bro you and your shitposts is my morning cup of coffee. 

Anyways, in 2021 I expect a full-fledge review of all AAA games from you-- no more shit talking in the tags let it all out BITCH. Thank you for being such a great mutual! I look forward to see what weird shit you will send me the next time we talk lmao

@zenien​​, Selm, the I’m-gay-for-Lady-Maria-or-anything-that-moves-in-BB-Bitch™. ok bitch if I’m being honest I wrote yours last so my brain is FRIED. so everything i say from here is raw from the HEARt cause that’s all I got left. But anyhow, we savin’ the best for last! honestly, i didn’t expect you to barge into my life like that. i really didn’t. i was just gonna keep admiring with my 7 feet (2.1336 meters) pole. I’m glad you made the first move because look where we are wtf 🧍‍♀️ friends??? I wouldn’t believe you if you told me that in 2014 when I first followed you lmao. 

You’re such a kind soul. I know you may disagree but I’m determined to convince you. I can’t tell you how much I want to thank you for taking the time to talk to me during my rough bits. It’s like sitting on a wooden bench in a park during sunset and you sit next to me, just enjoying the vast sky. You radiate such peaceful energy. It’s very calming. Or you know, 2 seconds later i’m suddenly suplexed by your 40 tons of insults like what-- 

Thank you for everything, so far. Truly. It’s been so fun listening to you talk about your Bloodborne journey and see your reactions live. It’s been so fun to see you post your graphics and it continues to blow me away. It’s been so fun hearing about your life and the stories of your adulthood. Every words that we have exchanged, I hold dearly to my heart--more than you ever know. Love u bitch.

[lightsandlostbells]

wtFOCK season 3, episode 1 reaction

So! It’s a million years too late, but I decided to talk about wtFOCK season 3. 

I had fairly positive feelings about S1 of wtFOCK. It was the scrappy underdog of the Skam remakes, in a way, and what it lacked in polish, it made up for authenticity. I was very willing to overlook its flaws because of what I perceived as genuine attempts to connect with teenagers. I was really, really holding out hope that future seasons would improve on its flaws. And ... well. (Disclaimer: I still haven’t seen S2. Sorry! I just failed to keep up with all the remakes and S2 is my least fave so I didn’t feel that motivated to make it a priority, even though I did like Zoë a lot in S1.)

Heads up - I didn’t care for this season. A lot of people did, and I would never, ever want to ruin someone’s enjoyment of something, even if I personally didn’t like it. So please take this as a warning that I have a lot of negative things to say, and don’t read if it’s going to harsh your buzz for a pairing or a story that you deeply love. However, I didn’t want to just be grumpy and angry the whole time, so I tried to think of constructive ways to fix certain problems I had with this season. No guarantees that they’re satisfying solutions, but it was an interesting exercise.

Also, I didn’t watch this in real time, and I paid barely any attention to fandom reactions and/or drama, so it’s very possible that I am missing context, or that pacing issues didn’t register with me quite as strongly, etc. If one of the actors ate a live dolphin on Instagram, and then got into a fight with fans on Twitter about their right to eat live dolphins, and now fandom has canceled the problematic dolphin-eating actor, I legit do not know, do not come at me if I’m like “This actor is doing a good job” with “Wow, didn’t know you stanned dolphin-eaters??? YIKES.” Honestly, for the purposes of just grading this season on a storytelling level, I would prefer not to know anything about the cast or crew unless it directly has an impact on the show itself.

Clip 1 - House party

OK, I did like this flashy intro shot, immersing us in the Wild ‘n’ Crazy Teen Party of Wild ‘n’ Crazy Youths.

Amber rejecting every dude in site … When Will Gay Vilde Rise. (I know there have been some f/f storylines in the remakes, but if there’s one involving an actual Vilde, please let me know.)

Luca saying “We’re not walking around in a high school drama” - you can hear the rimshot.

I do like the transition from the party up to the bathroom, that’s a cool shot. wtFOCK’s directing so far is more ambitious than it was in S1.

Robbe is clearly a mess and they acknowledge his problems at home right off the bat.

We go back downstairs. wtFOCK’s version of Magnus knocks his drink on Amber and she gets pissed. She gives him the finger and he falls in love. Still a better love story than S3 Daphne/Basile.

It’s a small point, but I don’t get why we didn’t get this moment before jumping up to the bathroom with Robbe and the others? It would be a far smoother transition, just on a practical level and also in the sense of fully immersing us in Robbe’s POV after a quick update with the other characters.

Belgian Magnus joins the guys in the bathtub and announces he’s in love. They roast him when they find out it’s Amber and start talking about hot chicks. Moyo starts grilling Robbe about his type of girl, in a crass, sexual way.

This is honestly not a bad start to Robbe’s story at all. Robbe is clearly more reluctant to get into his interest in girls than Isak was - Isak was more fuckboyish from the start, Robbe seems like he’s about to start squirming and doesn’t really give an answer to Moyo’s questioning. Which is fine! I think it’s fine to start off the POV character at different stages of performing heterosexuality, as long as it’s taken into account in the writing of the character’s whole arc. The fact that the boy talk is so crude and sexual just ramps up Robbe’s alienation.

I swear, I will never understand how the girls in this scene just go into the bathroom and pee in front of strange boys … like maybe I am just a ~prude but that seems like a recipe for disaster and I would not trust those little fuckers to not be secretly recording me on the toilet.

Her peeing is kind of a power move, like marking her territory.

Also L M A O at Robbe starting to flirt with the girl while she is pissing … like now this comes off as a kink thing. OK, Robbe. Jokes aside, this gets across the same meaning as the scene with Isak: he starts to flirt with her because he was encouraged by the other guys.

Uh, flush the toilet, lady. And use some TP.

Now this version of Emma seriously radiates some Natalie Portman in The Professional vibes.

She orders him to stand up and then starts kissing him. I get way less of a vibe of Robbe’s mad game with women (like how Isak negged Emma into kissing him) and more like this girl is the love interest out of an indie romcom, all mysterious and spunky. She kisses him like once after taking his jay and then leaves. The boys all crack up. Moyo tells Robbe it’s his responsibility to get the weed back which lmao, no it’s not, all you assholes were there and could have intervened.

This scene is perfectly fine and even effective! Not entirely the same vibes as OG, but it still has a purpose and some obvious cause-and-effect, and there are some nice stylistic choices.

Clip 2 - Party pt. 2

Robbe is now making out with mystery girl. We already have a divergence in characterization from OG. Isak was being performative about making out with Emma and shut it down once the guys left. Robbe is making out with this girl because he wants to be straight, I guess? If it’s not to appeal to his friends, it’s likely that this is for himself. Again, I have no real problem with this change if it’s incorporated into Robbe’s overall arc and characterization. My thing is, if you’re writing this scene, do you realize the differences in characterization? Or do you think this is interchangeable from what happened with Isak? The latter is where you run into problems, because then the writing shows lack of nuance. I bring this up here because, well, you can guess how I feel about later events. 

Luca seems rather aggro about the mystery woman, which I assume is because she still has the hots for Robbe?

It makes me laugh that we got this first-person POV as Robbe leaves through the garage, because of the “Smack My Bitch Up��� song being played in the last clip (the song had an infamous music video, banned from MTV in the ‘90s, that was from a first-person POV). But again, WTFock is trying harder with the cinematography and direction, good for them.

Robbe ditches the cops by jumping on the bike with Belgian Emma. OK, I get it, Belgian Emma is too cool for school. 

I have kinda mixed feelings on that, actually. I mean, I’ll be honest - I don’t see why any Emma has to be made into someone more palatable. Definitely don’t demonize her or present her in a misogynistic way! She deserves sympathy and dignity as much as any character on a Skam. But … it’s fine if she and the Isak aren’t like, amazingly compatible except for his sexuality. The Even character is supposed to be the one who really shakes up the Isak’s world! The Isak is supposed to be lost and confused and drifting and then Even comes in and is someone he can really open up to. Not just because he’s another guy who’s into guys, but because Even’s personality meshes with Isak’s so easily while still challenging him and introducing him to new things. In a way, it does kinda diminish the effect of the Even if the Isak meets ANOTHER mysterious stranger who’s an awesome person. Or at the very least, it lessens the feeling of the Isak’s detachment from everything.

And again, this could work if the writing realizes it. You can totally craft a subtly different arc from the pieces of Isak’s season. It’s just that (speaking from the future) I do not feel this is what happened.

Clip 3 - Tagging time

I don’t think it’s necessary to break up all the parts of a longer scene/set piece into a bunch of different clips. If you start a scene at 16:00, it’s OK to have the clip take place over several hours. You don’t need to chop it up unless there’s a reason why this pacing might benefit the story. Honestly, if you’re watching in real time, I think this method is often less effective at building tension/emotion/etc. But wtFOCK is not the first remake to try this tactic.

... this part where Robbe and Noor put on masks sure hits differently in 2020.

Belgian Emma’s name is Noor and she takes him to a warehouse, or something? It’s very secret and Cool Kid. And IDK, it’s fun, but again… I think making the Emma that much of a fun mysterious cool exciting person is very much diminishing the effect of Robbe’s isolation. We had a good start with establishing that alienation while he was in the tub, but now his reactions to her rad hipness feel way too sincere and act against the major character conflict of his season. He seems nervous to go with her, but not because he’s with a girl, just because it’s a risky scenario.

Noor hands Robbe a spray paint can and leads him to tag a wall. There’s  a guy taking pictures. So I’m assuming one of the guys in masks is the Even? The POV seems to shift to the photo guy briefly, like we’re seeing Robbe through his eyes. And even though I’m not a fan of POV breakage, I do think this is a cool way to introduce the Even without really introducing him, you know? If that’s him. (EDIT from the future: Ummm, so that wasn’t Sander, right? I’m rewatching and it doesn’t look like him. Soooo that part has even less relevance than I originally thought. Got it.) (EDIT from the future beyond the future: @hellswolfie tells me that this actually was Sander, so I am just bad at recognizing people, lol.)

Robbe and Noor take off their masks briefly to kiss. Uhhhh, did the scene really just … cut off there? Because L M A O what a weird choice. We don’t get to see what Robbe creates on the wall, which could be a great way to establish his character, AND we end with him on a smiley, contented note which does not boost his POV at all. It legit just makes him seem like a guy who’s into this girl, and sorry, even if that’s his public persona at this point in time … that’s not what we, the audience should be getting at all. 

Clip 4 - Boy squad morning after

Robbe skateboards to meet up with the guy squad. Again, the directing is far better IMO than in S1.

Robbe got the weed back so that conflict is over, I guess.

He gets a call from his mom and stops laughing with the guys and gets serious. He walks away to take the call. Then he starts to open up to Jens about his mom freaking out, and then Moyo spots some girls so they all ditch Robbe to go chase girls, and WOW, Jens, please turn in your Jonas card. 

Don’t love that we didn’t hear his mom on the phone. There’s no reason not to let us hear what she’s saying since it would be in Robbe’s POV AND as it turns out, they just tell us about the situation with his mom right off the bat, anyway, so it’s not like there’s much point in hiding it. 

This was effective in a sense to establish how girl-crazy his friends are, as well as setting up Robbe’s isolation, which I was worried wouldn’t come across as strongly after meeting Noor. But I think they could have NOT mingled in his mom issues to make this part more effective. Like if the goal was to show more of Robbe being alienated because he’s gay, then that’s not entirely successful, because there are non-gay reasons why Robbe wouldn’t join his pals on the girl chase. I mean, even a horny hetero Robbe might not want to chase girls with his bros because talking to his mom is a downer, so it’s not necessarily because of his sexuality. Plus he just found a girl he liked in Noor, so apparently, he’s not on the prowl. What this part IS communicating that the Belgian guy squad doesn’t have much interest in their friend’s family struggles, which ... ehhhh, maybe not great in the grand scheme of the storyline? These guys can be flawed, for sure, but we do need them to care about Robbe’s well-being. And Robbe tried to open up here, so the flaw is not in him, it’s in his friends. I’m going to let it slide because Jens was offering to help Robbe in the first clip, so it’s not like he’s been a totally insensitive friend this whole time. 

Clip 5 - Phone call from Robbe’s dad

Noor jumps on Robbe and they make out. She shows him the garage and they talk about the tagging world or w/e. Again, not sure why they are portraying Noor as like … a legit love interest. I don’t get much of a sense of discomfort from Robbe. Isak was just not into Emma and was uncomfortable when his bathroom flirting came back to haunt him. And I don’t think it’s TERRIBLE not to follow that route, but you can’t just make this huge change if you don’t account for it in future episodes and Robbe’s overall arc. (EDIT from the future: Which I don’t think they do, otherwise I wouldn’t care.) Every scene should count in furthering Robbe’s character, especially this early in the season where we’re just getting to know his particular struggles. If Robbe is trying to convince himself to like girls, then I want to see definite vulnerability in how that’s portrayed.

I blame the directing/writing more than the acting for the lack of discomfort, since I sensed Robbe’s lack of comfort just fine in the bathtub scene.

Makeouts get interrupted when Robbe’s dad calls. Again, not sure why we aren’t hearing both sides of the conversation? Because we’re in Robbe’s POV. Why wouldn’t we hear them? This seems like they just want to create some suspense or mystery over the situation with his parents. But it’s perfectly possible to do so while still letting us in on the phone calls. In fact, it’s arguably more intriguing to let us listen to some phone calls where we get some vague details but nowhere close to the whole story. It’s not like Robbe’s dad is going to explain the whole situation to his son in an exposition dump. We can get some crumbs to tease us, while still keeping us in Robbe’s POV and not feeling like the show is cutting corners.

Robbe gets mad at his dad and tells Noor he needs to be alone. Closeup on Noor as Robbe walks away. OK … why? Why on her and not Robbe when it’s his POV? Why the focus on Noor’s feelings when we really need to be establishing our protagonist’s mindset in the beginning of this season? I’m not saying her feelings don’t matter, I’m saying that well, this isn’t her story. It would be better to see Robbe’s pained reaction as he leaves.

Clip 6 - Robbe’s dad drama

Jens comes running up while Robbe is being sad. Robbe says that it may be necessary for him to stay with Jens because Robbe’s mom has been committed to a mental health institution and Robbe doesn’t want to stay with his dad. Ah, so I guess we’re hearing that right away. Which honestly makes not hearing his phone calls to his parents even funnier - like you lock us out of his POV arguably for the suspense, but then you end the suspense anyway by just telling us what happened a scene or two later? All right. I guess there’s suspense in that we don’t know exactly what’s up with the mom, mental health-wise, or the root of Robbe’s problems with his dad.

It occurs to me that maybe they just didn’t want to hire people to voice Robbe’s parents? Or put in the time to film both sides of the conversation? I have a hard time believing either of those because it’s so lazy, but. 

I mean, just turn the phone conversations into text conversations if you’re not going to let us listen to Robbe’s parents on the other end.

They go and play football without really resolving the situation. Sad music plays while Robbe joins in. Also, someone was calling Robbe, and I assume it was his dad, but it’s not shown.

These clips are VERY short and choppy so far. You could easily combine the last two, so Robbe is with Jens instead of Noor when he gets the other phone call from his dad, leading into this conversation.

We know immediately about Robbe’s mom’s situation instead of it being a mystery, like with Isak. Which, again, isn’t inherently wrong, but then I want them to DO SOMETHING with it. 

Clip 7 - Jens and Jana

Oh hey, Jana got her braces off! IDK if that happened last season or this one, but it was something I liked, seeing a teenage girl with braces on a teen drama. That rarely happens unless it’s a joke or a plot point.

OK, they really need to film Robbe’s phone so I can actually see who’s calling…

Jens tells Jana about Robbe’s parental situation. I’ll note that first she asks if something’s up with Noor, so news of the Robbe/Noor relationship must have traveled really fast since they’ve only just gotten together. Like Robbe and Noor are clearly dating, going off Jana’s comment, and not just hooking up. Then Belgian Magnus wants to know about hooking up with Amber. Meanwhile Robbe is having a conversation off screen with his dad? Guess it wasn’t important!

And that’s the problem, obviously. It’s his POV season, anything you decide to show SHOULD be important to his storyline. 

Also … it’s fine that we’re focusing on Robbe’s shit home life since that’s relevant to his story, but almost nothing in these clips has set up Robbe’s attraction to men, and only slightly his lack of interest in girls, which was negated by him seeming very interested in a girl afterwards. And knowing how long this season takes to get going with the Even character, it’s a pretty glaring omission.

So we don’t see Robbe’s phone call with his dad, but he gets snappy about it when Jens asks. One of the boys (I can’t tell who) says that Robbe’s on his period.  Gonna be real, I don’t care for this squad so far. 

What was the point of this clip? We already know Robbe is having problems with his dad, which is the most relevant part to the plot here. We shouldn’t be wandering from Robbe’s POV so much, but even taking that into account … we already know Belgian Magnus likes Amber, so that’s not necessary to establish. And we didn’t need to see Jens tell Jana something we already know. I assume he tells her so Zoë can find out and offer a room, but there’s no reason to see Jens tell Jana this, so. Filler clip. 

Clip 8 - Zoë and Robbe at the lockers

Yeah, Zoë offers Robbe a place to stay here, but again, we didn’t need to see the news travel down the Jens-Jana pipeline. It could have been condensed more efficiently.

Robbe doesn’t want to because he says his dad wouldn’t approve. Zoë says she hopes things get better with his mom and Robbe at first snaps and tells her to leave it, then says thanks. This is an actual good interaction, writing-wise, kudos.

I liked Zoë a lot in S1 and I like her here again. I really should watch her season despite my Noorhelm allergy. The scene of them kinda smiling at each other across the hallways reminds me that this is probably the strongest relationship in the whole season, tbh.

Why was this clip so short? So many of these clips could have been combined into one. I mean, Zoë could have said, “I heard from Jana who heard from Jens...” without us needing the previous clip. Although, did Robbe really want anyone else to know about his home life? Lol @ Jens just blabbing Robbe’s private business.

So I guess they didn’t set up the Eskild situation in S2 that would lead to Eskild offering Robbe a place to stay? 

Clip 9 - Robbe gets roommates

Robbe is in Zoë’s room. He sees her “everyone you know is fighting a battle” quote next to the mirror, which is a detail I actually quite like in context with the rest of this storyline and Even’s condition. It’s a good Skam thesis overall.

I guess Zoë met with Robbe’s dad. Zoë calls him a tough cookie. Robbe doesn’t want to speak to him. They bond a little over their parental problems. Again, a nice detail.

Belgian Eskild appears and teases Robbe a little before announcing that Robbe’s dad has agreed to let him stay in the flat. Yay!

Oh, so Senne is staying there, too? At least they didn’t do a pointless Noorhelm breakup in this version.

Milan (the Eskild) tries to go in for a hug and Robbe isn’t cool with it, so at least that’s something with Robbe’s issues with men. (I think? The thing is, Robbe also does not really know Milan, so it’s not as weird that he’s not ready to be affectionate with a near-stranger.)  (EDIT from the future: Keeping the S2 almost-kiss that’s referenced in the next clip in mind, I can rationalize this moment as a continuation of that awkwardness from Robbe’s POV.) 

They chat with Lisa (Linn) who wants to direct Robbe on what he is and isn’t allowed to touch in her room, heh.  Milan and Zoë have cute interaction, and Robbe looks happy. I do like the flatmate vibe so far, they seem fun.

Clip 10 - Robbe and Milan

Senne and Zoë get cute. I haven’t seen S2 so I can’t give my opinion on their version of Noorhelm, but I did think a few things about them were less creepy in wtFOCK’s S1 than in OG. Milan talks about how they’re a Disneylike couple and Robbe laughs.

Then Robbe apologizes for something that evidently happened in S2, where Milan tried to kiss Robbe at a party? Again, I didn’t see the scene. Milan says he’d never try to do that. He offers Robbe a hug, which he accepts - tbh I don’t know if Robbe SHOULD accept based on where he is in his character arc, maybe he should have more skittishness? But it’s a nice character moment, at least. They really have to make up for lost time with the Robbe-Milan relationship, so I can get that they need to establish some closeness fast.

Not being in the wtFOCK fandom, I kinda wonder if there was backlash to that scene from before and this is damage control, LMAO.

I feel like you could’ve tweaked this to be more representative of Robbe’s issues, like have him stress here that he’s not gay, because it’s a sweet scene but again, I don’t feel like this episode built up Robbe’s internal dilemma very well. You could make this not just about smoothing over whatever bump there was in this relationship, but also about setting up some internal tension with Robbe’s sexuality issues. Multi-tasking - it’s great!

EDIT from the future: OK, I tracked down the S2 scene, and yeah, while it illustrates some of Robbe’s internalized homophobia, I really think you needed to carry this through to this clip. Because that was a very public situation, and they made a point of emphasizing onlookers’ reactions. I feel like you need to show that Robbe’s internalized homophobia isn’t just about external reactions, but internal struggles, because ... so far, that’s what it is? Like what is he doing with Noor otherwise? 

Clip 11 - Housewarming party

Party is underway. Yasmina is there and is friendly with Robbe. It sounds like they’re working on a school project together. Aaron (Magnus) and Moyo are talking about hot chicks again.

Noor arrives and the boys tease Robbe about how far he’s gone, Robbe looks pretty chill and happy until Moyo says Robbe’s getting laid tonight and you can see the nerves and reluctance take over. Okay! A character detail that actually works for his arc! Yes!

Partying, makeouts with Noor … sorry but they are wasting a lot of time with this relationship. ROBBE ISN’T INTO HER. Here’s the thing: I don’t want to demonize any of Evak’s female “love interests,” right? It’s pointless anyway because Evak is the endgame pairing, Sonja and Emma aren’t “threats” in the end, but also because they’re not bad people just for wanting to date these two guys who happens to want each other instead. And I think you can do interesting things with Sonja and Emma as characters. I’ve read Sonja fanfic that’s really good!

But when it comes down to it … this is not the story of Robbe/Noor, and there’s a point where it feels like there’s too much development for something that is really intended to be a speed bump in Robbe’s journey. 

I guess it’s a pet peeve of mine when gay stories devote a ton of time to het relationships, to the point where it begins to overshadow the main gay relationship. Love, Victor did this to an absolutely ridiculous degree. (I actually made notes for Love, Victor reactions, but hesitated to post them because 60% consisted of me typing I DON’T CARE ABOUT THESE STRAIGHT ROMANCES.) And I GET it, this is an experience many gay kids go through in their coming out journey, but also, less charitably… you don’t need het romance to dominate everything. You don’t need to make this about how a gay person being gay hurts a straight person. I genuinely appreciate that once Isak kisses Even, it’s fucking over with him and Emma, that plot thread is done. 

Anyway, Noor tells Robbe he’s so fucking hot and Robbe looks more uncomfortable, moreso when she wants to see his room and he goes off like he’s headed to Mordor.

Aaron checking out Amber … okay, again with all the het. I don’t care!!! This is not important right now!! 

Noor pushes Robbe onto the bed, ugh please don’t have them Go There.

She takes off her top and Robbe touches her boob like he’s sticking his hand into a porta-potty. We see his discomfort so at least this part is effective and relevant to Robbe’s arc. Noor is taking off her bra when the boys come into the room, wanting the weed. Okay, you dumb fucks, you’re teasing your bro about getting laid and yet you think it’s cool to enter his room when he’s with a girl? I mean, that’s a lucky break for Robbe, but his friends are extra stupid.

The mood is killed, Robbe goes hunting for weed. Episode ends.

HOW I WOULD REWRITE THIS EPISODE:

Lmao, some of my changes sounded a lot like “be like OG Skam S3.” Because Skam S3 was well-written and made sense. But I tried to think of edits that worked with what wtFOCK was presenting, not just repeating OG.

(I’m also repeating a few things in this section that I said above, btw)

While this episode doesn’t make me angry or anything, it’s got a serious problem with dithering. The first clip is a solid start to the season, but afterwards, so many of these clips feel like filler. There’s a lack of substance to them. It was hard to write about them because they ended up feeling like two minutes of nothing. 

Did we need to see repetitive mentions of Robbe’s troubled relationship with his dad? No, it’s an important plot detail but we could have established that more concisely in fewer clips. Did we need to see the process of how Robbe comes to stay with Zoë, Senne, and Milan? No, not really. Or at least not dragged out over at least three clips. 

I don’t feel like I’m in Robbe’s head to the extent that I should be  so far. Some of this is because the show just flat-out locks us out of his POV, like not showing the phone call in the Jens-Jana clip. But a lot of it is also because of the narrative dawdling. There’s just not as much to analyze unless I bring in Skam season 3 and project what we know about Isak onto Robbe. And that’s not a good way to adapt a story.

The framing of Robbe/Noor needs to change. Combine the bathroom intro with the aborted sex scene - the boys are sitting in the tub, teasing Robbe about getting laid, so he makes out with Noor and they go into a bedroom where he’s clearly not into this, and then Moyo and Aaron come in asking for weed because Robbe still actually has the weed from the bathtub at this point. Or do what Skam France did (can’t believe I’m referring to Skam France) and have the arrival of the cops interrupt the makeout/sex session and Robbe takes his cue to exit.

But frankly, it’s not great to have Robbe acting or looking too cozy with Noor, like this is a legitimate romantic arc except when it gets to the sex. The point is that this isn’t a romance. Even if you want to show some cuddly, non-sexual scenes with Noor, you have to show more of Robbe’s reluctance and fear throughout. 

Show Robbe’s fucking phone conversations with his parents!!!! Good Lord. He’s not ordering a pizza. These are important aspects of his story. Capitalize on that family tension, show us what a bad place Robbe is in at the start of this season. 

Now, about the lack of Even in this episode. Not introducing Even is a bold move, but not necessarily a smart one. Even’s introduction in Skam is not just the intro of “the love interest” - he’s the catalyst for almost everything in Isak’s story. Consider that in episode 1, Isak is seen mostly unhappy and bored - he’s distraught after kissing Emma, he’s checked out of his friends’ lunchtime girl talk, he zones out staring at his teacher’s boobs, he doesn’t want to be at kosegruppa. Isak is actually very passive and just going through the motions, doing what people tell him to do. But once Isak meets Even at kosegruppa - well, that’s when Isak wakes up. In the next few clips, we see Isak taking action. And sure, they’re small actions, searching for Even online, watching the Even video over and over, asking Vilde if there will be more kosegruppa meetings. But we can see that Isak now cares about something, he’s paying attention. Of course, Robbe’s story doesn’t have to follow the same arc. However, it does the season a huge benefit to get him intrigued by something at this point, so we the audience are not just sleepwalking along with him for a few episodes.

There’s also just the simple fact that we have only 10 episodes to establish a love story and make us care about the Even character, and it’s a very risky move to waste too much time. If you are really killing it with the rest of Robbe’s arc, this could still work, but ... well, that’s not what’s happening here.

If they didn’t want to full on introduce the Even directly, one thing they could do is subtly and indirectly find ways to include him in the narrative and create some mystery. Let’s say Robbe sees the Even’s artwork somewhere and is like whoa, that’s cool, and we can tell that it resonates with him. Or he admires Even’s graffiti, or it makes him laugh, whatever. Basically Robbe has some kind of emotional reaction to a thing the Even has created or done, which helps to set up that relationship even before we officially meet the Even.

If we want to add a little more, perhaps Robbe sees a mysterious dude in a mask tagging a wall, but they get interrupted by the cops or something and have some kind of brief but intriguing interaction with each other, and Robbe’s like, who was that guy in the mask? Or Noor takes Robbe to the tagging place, the police/security bust them, Robbe and Noor get separated, and Robbe gets helped out by the Even so he can escape. So it’s an important moment, lots of adrenaline, we can frame it like there’s a sudden ~charge~ between them (ooOOOooo the Even helped Robbe stand up and their hands touched like this was a fanfic, etc.), but he doesn’t learn Even’s name, maybe he doesn’t even see his face because Even has a mask on, so Robbe spends part of the next few episodes trying to figure out who that guy is, casually asking Noor if she knows a guy like that, keeping his eyes open. Maybe we have some fakeouts where Robbe thinks he sees the Even again but it’s just a false alarm. He’s on edge, eager to know more about that mystery guy, and so are we. Bam, we have “awakened” Robbe from his deep sleep. 

If you’ve seen Netflix’s The Get Down, there’s even a scene like this where Jaden Smith’s character gets caught tagging by the cops, he runs and flees with another young dude, and they have a moment where they recognize each other as graffiti artists they admire. While watching that scene for the first time, without any context or spoilers, without even knowing if there would be LGBT content in that show, I immediately thought, “This guy is his love interest.” Not even because it was overtly romantic. Because the way it was written and shot told us that this meeting was important. Because they had an instant connection. Something similar could have worked for Robbe and his Even. But in any case: it would have been best to establish something between those characters, even if it wasn’t an “official” introduction.

Stop focusing on Aaron/Amber when it’s not in Robbe’s POV. Reverse the scene at the beginning with Aaron videotaping and Amber getting spilled on. She gets pissed, he falls in love, and then we follow him upstairs and we meet the boy squad. That is a very obvious, very clean transition that doesn’t interrupt Robbe’s POV as it technically hasn’t started yet. So IDK why they didn’t do that, lmao.

Some changes with the Milan relationship:

Tweak the apology scene to be more representative of Robbe’s issues. Have Robbe apologize while still stressing that he’s not gay. Have Milan be chill and not question that statement, but maybe Robbe is so defensive that it comes across as unconvincing. 

Then have Milan be the one instead of the boys to interrupt the Noor almost-sex scene. Milan wanders in acting drunk, haha Milan, he’s wacky. Robbe doesn’t realize it (though the viewers do if they’re paying attention) but Milan is only pretending and is “subtly” rescuing Robbe because he realizes, based on the earlier scene, that Robbe might be struggling with his sexuality and he wants to give him an escape option. (Although I still think it’s best to combine the not-sex scene into the opening clip, but this could work, too.)

Basic questions we need to be asking, clip to clip: what is the conflict? Where is Robbe’s head right now? Why is this scene necessary? How did this scene come to be - what’s the cause and effect here? How does it advance Robbe’s story? Is it redundant? How do we tell this story in a narratively economical manner? 

[themonarchofbigsad]

idk just rambling about Dream booting George out of the castle...

This might be kind of an unpopular opinion, but I actually sort of agree with Dream’s decision on abdicating George. I consider myself fairly neutral when it comes to the Dreamsmp, so when watching the debate, I honestly felt like Dream had much stronger arguments than Quackity. Don’t get me wrong, I really want someone to roast the hell out of Dream, at least once, because the way he debates is so annoying, he’s like that guy in your history class who is vaguely condenscending all the time. But in this scenario, I kind of agree with him. George had no say in becoming king and did nothing with the role (because he’s just asleep all the time), he has no reason to get this mad at Dream for taking away the title. Not to mention the fact that George recently had that mental breakdown where he just started destroying stuff to get revenge on Tommy.

Like, George has no real reason to be king, other than looking adorable with his little crown, and being enamored by Dream’s protectiveness. In fact, I would say he took his position for granted, and was more charmed by the title he received, and the importance that it gave him, then anything else. For the most part, George is almost always on the sidelines in regards to the SMP, and we always joke about how he doesn't care, but I think he secretly wants to be the center of attention (or at least Dream’s attention). There’s an issue though, George doesn’t actually want to put the work into being part of a narrative, he kind of just expects Dream to implicate him.

He’s not very good at improve (at least this kind) and usually just relies on his actual feelings in order to “role-play.” So because of this, I was genuinely surprised at how distraught George became after Dream told him his decision. It feels like George took it personally, because it seems Dream making him king actually made him really happy (even if George doesn't show his emotions directly). I don’t think Dream realized this, or at least the extent of it. The entire thing just sort of cements how much George values Dream’s input (even if its just in a game), and more specifically, his validation. I think it’s also interesting to learn more about George, because his reactions can be very telling in terms of what kind of person he is. At this point, I kind of get the vibe that he’s actually super emotional, but refuses to show it because he’s afraid of being vulnerable.

[theguardiansofredland]

Midnight ramblings (Venting I guess idk)

It’s midnight. 1 am actually. It’s smoky and my sinuses hurt. And I’m crying. Idk if it’s bad or not, I guess I’m just being nostalgic. And you can call it fuckin stupid all you want, but I’m crying because of animal crossing songs. Specifically Stale Cupcakes and Animal City. Stale Cupcakes is a song I discovered in New Leaf. It’s a soft, sad song. Played on a music box. It makes me think of my memories with new leaf and just happier times in general. Rainy days and playing little big planet and roasting marshmallows on our stove with my siblings, before they both moved away. Drawing next to my mom and half listening to whatever show she was obsessed with this time. Stale Cupcakes is almost childlike in sound if that’s even possible. But I remember playing New Leaf every day. It was a birthday present from my brother. And Animal City, which is the city theme in Animal Crossing: City Folk. And that takes me back even further. Elementary school. Again to rainy days and going to the bookstore with my godfather after school and getting Jamba Juice in the way back. Watching my brother try so hard to get the golden axe in city folk. Watching him play a lot of games on our Wii. Spending time with my cousin and spending hours at his house playing pretend or with his toys and then watching cartoons before falling asleep in his living room. To when I thought my friends in school actually liked me. Watching team crafted and epic jump maps and drawing my first art pieces.

I miss those days. I miss a lot of things and it just reminds me how everything leaves eventually. My mom, siblings, pets, friends, family, youtubers. It all drifts away. I guess that’s why I bury myself in happy sort of games like Minecraft and Nintendo games like animal crossing. They don’t hit me with tragedy after tragedy after toxic person after hurt. It lets me make my own world. Where the people don’t leave. Where everything is magical and I can just sit and be happy for once. Where people like what I do, what I create. Where I’m alone but I don’t feel like it. But even then the time passes and I need to sleep, or my game system runs out of charge. And I have to turn off my happy place and just go back to reality. Where everything fucking sucks. Sure there are some good things. My friends, my gf, my dad, my kitties. But I still just want there to be a time where I can look back and know I felt happy. And exist in a time where I actively feel genuinely happy. That childlike wonder and happiness. But I’m stuck here being sad and growing up. I don’t want to grow up. I wanna stay in the time of Chowder, Pokémon and Animal crossing. Where my biggest worry was not having enough poke balls to catch this tympole, and not which one of my friends is gonna hate me, or which family member will die this year. I’m not ready. But time doesn’t work that way.

I wanna live in animal crossing. Where the people there actually like me, and I can just relax for once. My sister who’s studying to be a massage therapist says the muscles in my neck and shoulders are extremely tight. Idk if it’s because of stress or anxiety. And I remember plucking a gray hair in science class. But rn even the thought school makes me wanna poof out of existence. But I don’t have to worry about that rn. I miss having motivation for things. Wanting to finish a game, draw things and actually improve. But instead I’m sleeping most of the day cause I’m tired all the time. I’m sad and just numb all the time

Idk even know what I’m rambling about. Animal crossing makes me cry and I wanna hug my cats and sleep for a good while. And I know “get a therapist” I’m working on it. I gotta talk with my dad about emailing one. Please don’t tell me another thing I’m failing at. I’m trying my best to take care of myself. I’m trying so hard. And I’m sorry. Getting a therapist is hard. I’m working on it but everyone says I should stop procrastinating when I’m not. My own fucking psychiatrist yelled at me for forgetting to schedule an appointment. I hate talking to her. And to that one friend reading this (and also you too sweetheart), yes you. Stop, breathe. You’re a great friend and you’re not being a horrible evil person by telling me I need a therapist. You care. And that isn’t something to yell at yourself for. It’s something to be applauded. And I’m just too much of a mess to work up enough courage to ask you to tone it down, and that’s a me thing I need to work on. Cause what you’re telling me is true and needs to be heard, and isn’t bad really. It’s not like it’s an insult or a trigger. So I feel like I shouldn’t have it toned down. Why tone down something helpful.

Sorry for rambling and wasting time you’re never gonna get back. I’m sorry for probably causing some anxiety spikes or attacks. I just made things worse again. I’m going to bed for the night. Or morning. Whatever. Hopefully I’ll dream of animal crossing and kitties. Fun things. And hopefully I’ll get some motivation to actually provide content and good things rather than be an over sharing person on the internet who shouldn’t even be doing or making this post and wearing my heart, on not on my sleeve, but my face. But I guess I’m begging for attention. Or trouble. Goodnight everyone. I’ll try to draw something tomorrow.

[unboundbnha]

hoooo my god. this is for ME

for me. for godzilla. :’) 

➤ rules; make headcanons of you and a character of your choice, be it sfw or nsfw.

Thank you so much for tagging me @spicyness​! I’m gonna SKAJHDSKJ. HHHHH. This is everything? Fuck I just want a purple boyfriend 😫 this will be about Shinsou because I like him a normal amount :-)

First off, I’m a pain in the ass. My sense of humor is wack (it’s basically just ‘annoy my friends and loved ones’), I’m always fricken TANKING The Mood (because it’s funny and I physically cannot resist making a Funny if the opportunity’s there), everything turns into a game unless you make me stop wink wonk. Shinsou seems like the type to snort in amusement and roll his eyes at my dumb antics, and I appreciate that! If I could make him legit laugh I’d die happy. (I am also emotionally savvy enough to know when to draw the line though, don’t worry. It’s just, man, my idea of fun is ‘LET’S ROAST ‘EM’)

I love cats. I’ll lose my whole mind over them. They NEED head kisses. Shinsou also likes cats. He also needs head kisses. That’s it, that’s the bullet point

Being open and honest and genuine is important to me. I believe most any relationship (friendship or otherwise) can work if you’re willing to communicate and empathize with the other person: I would 100% be willing to hear Shinsou’s shit, and he seems like he’d be a good listener too. I’m also good at logicking things through and he seems like he’d appreciate that. Likewise, he seems like he’d do the same for me, and as long as we stayed humble and weren’t looking to be offended (I don’t Do That -- he’s a Cancer -- love you, Cancers -- so it might take him a minute to get on the same page, but he’s emotionally smort and cares about me so I think he’d be willing to work at it) then we could help each other through emotionally hard stuff with hard truths. Plus, I’m a super honest person: if he was in a relationship with me he’d probably be pretty secure in knowing I wouldn’t hurt him on purpose. If past shit comes up with him, I’ll talk to him. Talking’s the good shit, y’all: utilize patience and empathy and you’ll be so well off!

I also battle, with a big fucking sword, a lot with mental health stuff (LMAOOOO WHO DON’T!!! YEET). I used to struggle with agoraphobia and still deal with anxiety and depression. On top of that, I have something like chronic fatigue -- I’ve been calling it chronic fatigue because I’m fucking tired, all the time. My top energy levels are like a 35% on a fantastic day. I really like the idea of this boye seeing me melting into a puddle, face down on the carpet, and bein like “how’s it going down there? you okay?” and the answer being obviously no, but him just like. Man I dunno. He seems like the kind of person who’s tired, but who can live with it. I can’t! When I’m tired, that’s it babes! I hit a 0% on my battery and I’ll collapse! So I just, hhhh. Don’t laugh, but I like to fantasize about him bundling me up and into bed. Thinkin’ about Birthday Snoot by my good friend @lord-explosion-baku​ and melting, okay?? OKAY???? I’m soft, the truth’s OUT, FUCK! I want to be taken care of like a sad but pampered cat.

(Please read Birthday Snoot I still cry over it)

Also I’m gross and struggle to shower often enough because it’s exhausting so bein given a gentle bath? oh MAN. Hands softly running through my stupid, terrible hair...asking me about my day and if anything happened that triggered me feeling this bad...just....the tenderness....the gentle affection.....being loved even when I’m at my lowest. Being cared for when I can’t do it myself. That’s a legit fantasy y’all. We out here!

I love to SNOOZE. I love being COZY. You bet your sweet bippy I’m gonna sprawl over a couch and take up the whole thing. Shinsou’d better be willing to snuggle the fuck up. I’ve got great squish which I personally feel like’s great for cuddling: I’m like warm taffy. How better to gently seep into every crevasse of your Favorite Person while enjoying a cozy cuddle?

Listen, everyone fucks hard with Shinsou calling his S/O ‘kitten’, and I agree (def have written leetle -- HOO -- leetle scenarios with that nickname because wow) but I get all wibbly with the idea of He calling me ‘Angel’. A joke at first because, like, guys, I’m really nice. (I know it sounds bad when people say they’re nice and LSDFLKJDF I AM, OKAY. I’ve worked on it. Cultivated the skill of kindness! Being kind isn’t easy, and sometimes you just wanna go apeshit, but I’ve worked hard to improve upon myself! Yeet!) But I also just really fucking love being annoying. I simply cannot resist the urge to sneak up behind someone and poke them in the ribs. I rib-poke while in the deep depths of making out too, I’ve tanked the mood a lot so picture my dumb ass Pink Panther’ing behind Shinsou, prepared to be Evil while he’s, idk, making breakfast or something, and before I can commit a Rib Crime he uses his hero training and fast reflexes and honed senses and all that good stuff to snatch my wrist and ask “what’re you up to, angel?” the answer is nothing, because he’s killed me by being sexy and fast and hero-y, and he’s probably actually killed me by startling me into collapsing like a fainting goat

He gets the deep stuff. Unfortunately for everyone and especially myself, I’m a Thinker with a capital T: it never fucking stops. I had an existential crisis for like three years in a row because of course, but I feel like he knows what it’s like to get lost in your head. Working each other out of panic attacks because holy jesus the universe sure is fucking huge huh? We’re not even a blip on the radar in the history of existence and we’re gonna be dead basically tomorrow aaaand that’s why we’d be good for each other, because I feel like we both have coping mechanisms that keep us from spiraling too bad, and we could share them with each other.

I also so fucking admire his drive, but it makes me angry that stupid fucking hero society would discriminate in the first place. 

Oh, yeah, that’s another good point: I’m hella mad about 98% of the time and I work hard to hide it! Because innocent people don’t deserve to get yelled at! I feel like Shinsou’s smart enough to sense when I’m about to pop and he can be like “heyyyyy...you wanna talk this out constructively instead of getting into a public brawl?” and I’ll be like “NO but I’ll do it for you because I love you” and then we get pizza.

Because I’m fine and balanced and stuff, I made a quirk for myself if I was in the BNHA-verse, and basically I can get stronger at the expense of higher thinking skills and will turn into a weapon of mass destruction against whatever I’m pointing at (ugh, that’s so sexy. Fuck I wanna be a big spooky buff as shit monster thing), friend or foe, so Shinsou and I would work well in tandem because if I got too rowdy he could use his quirk and get me to calm down! Keep me from accidentally doing a murder! Nice!

Okay this is nsfw so if you’re under 18 DON’T READ IT. I’LL CALL YOUR PARENTS. GET OFF MY BLOG. 

Relating to the point above, QUIRKPLAY. Mind control me into stuff I want to do but am too awkward to ask for, please and THANK you. Also, Shinsou’s a top. Gotta be, and thank god for it because I’m certainly not. I’m not happy about being a fucking bottom, because my first and most powerful personalty trait is ‘be as annoying as possible to the people you like; don’t let them tell you what to do.’ Can’t make it easy on myself, nope. Anyway, I want the appearance of being a top without the responsibility because damn, gotta be like, suave and shit. Gotta plan stuff. I don’t like that! I do that enough in real life and I don’t like it there, either! But whatever. I’m a brat and I feel betrayed by my coochie for it. But Shinsou’s a top and he’d tease me for being Fucking Terrible, and suddenly I wouldn’t be so mad at my coochie. She has her reasons.

I...like Shinsou for a lot of reasons, but a really big one, for sure, is that I feel like he can communicate about the important stuff. He likes to tease, but he knows when to be serious too. I’m really wack about being close and intimate with people and I have, hhh, special requirements to be able to sleep with them, and I feel like he’d both be able to respect AND honor that. Like, run through the rest of the BNHA boys with me here: would Bakugou be able to be completely cool, calm, and collected while still teasing, but knowing where to draw the line? Todoroki’s closer maybe, but he’s not as people-smart (which is also a big thing for me). Confidence (or at least the appearance of it when it’s important), respect, communication, listening and respecting what I ask for even if it seems wack -- Shinsou has that, and god is it attractive. 

Also, mind control. 

Also, his capture weapon. 

Also you know this motherfucker is kinky as shit. Thank the good lord.

Also, sexy-slow makeouts with his long, nimble hands running up my outer thighs to squeeze my waist -- teeth on neck, stolen gasps of breath -- 

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I feel bad because all of this, fuckin, WALL of text is pretty much ‘this is what purble boy can do for me’ and I don’t say a lot I’d do for him, but if I got someone like him I’d go to the end of the earth for them. I may be a perpetually-sleepy bitch, but one of my best -- and worst -- character traits is my unwavering loyalty. I’ll be 110% down to kick anyone’s ass who insults him: he can fight his own battles, but he shouldn’t have to over some dumbass with a big mouth and a little brain. Making him smile and laugh, oof, be still my beating heart. Words of encouragement when life gets too much. Genuine thanks for his help, whatever it may be. Hugs, because we’re both touch-starved as fuck and he deserves gentleness, dammit. He doesn’t seem like his love language is receiving gifts -- more like quality time and words of affirmation? Maybe physical touch? -- but I’d still get him little things that made me think of him, that could help him in his day to day life or maybe just bring a smile to his face. We could rescue each other at social conventions, have dates to the humane society and play with cats. Support each other through our depression days, prove that even having a brain that’s mean to you sometimes doesn’t make you unlovable. Man, idk. The whole thing’s soft and makes my heart go doki-doki. Hitoshi Shinsou is an extremely good person and god damn I’d want to show him I appreciated him and existing at the same time as him. He deserves love and kindness. He deserves someone to kiss every knuckle of his hand. He deserves hugs in the kitchen and blankets being pulled over his shoulders when he falls asleep at the desk. He deserves only good things, and I’d be honored to give them to him. 

HHHHH.

Okay! If you made it to the end of this, congratulations! You don’t actually get anything, but boy oh boy you have a lot of information about ME now! Aren’t you delighted? Heh. So! You tag people for this stuff, and I’m gonna tag @lord-explosion-baku​, @bnhascribbles​, @perpetual-bed-head​, @russianonion​, @weebsinstash​, and last but certainly not least, @usernamekate94​. Tell me about Monoma, Kate. Tell me.

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Crossover Idea Transformers/Voltron

So, another idea. Boy- today is the night of story ideas. I’m totally writing an oneshot about this, probably in german.

This one is about Voltron, yk rainbow paladins, flying giant robot-lions and fighting some aliens as a big robot-angel. And the transformers, yk big robos who can transform in cars and such stuff. But the storyline is from the new Voltron serie of Netflix.

Anyway. So, Primus has the Primes, his warriors, so who says, that his brother, Unicron (chaos himself) can’t have fighters too? And I imagine, that even if Primus and Unicron are trillions of years old, are still brothers and they still care about each other and all that. Even when they are fighting. So, if anyone has seen Transformers Prime, the serie, Megatron was a servant of Unicron. And after all this shit happend, Unicron realised, that you can’t rule with hate and fear and all the bad stuff. So he talks with Primus, (Primus a proud bro, that he finally sees his mistakes) and they search for a candidate. But nobody is good enough and time flys by. Cybertron is in peace, Megatron came back and is now friend with Team Prime. 

(Probalby should also mention, that Unicron’s earth is not the earth of Voltron... yk. It has similarities, but the humans of Unicron are much stronger and all like that. Like a super soldier.)

In meanwhile the Galras take over the KNOWN univers. You see the capital letters? KNOWN UNIVERSE. They have no idea about Primus/Cybertron and Unicron and all that. The bots and cons and all my robos are living in peace, absolut bliss and stuff... until a girl lands on a near planet. Naturally they notice and find her in a escape capsule from the Galra. She isn’t even human anymore, almost all limbs are replaced with a ‘high-tech’ protese. But worse, she’s dying. The bots/cons, (like they are in groups but one race? I’m just calling them bots, like for every race, decepicons and all the ones) can’t do much, they could heal her, if she would be totally a robot/machine, but she still needs blood and food and yeah. So Optimus goes to the core of Primus, because he knows, she is important. He can feel it. (spooky)

Primus heals her, makes her fully human again but he knows, that she’s the one. The warrior of Unicron. (And Primus, but that comes later) And from the timeline... she’s from earth, like Voltron earth in the year 10 or something. Like in the middle of the Romain Empire. She was kidnapped by Galra, because why not. And they are assholes. Most of them.

So now this girl, Diana, lives on Cybertron. She draws her energy from Primus, so she can live with the bots. She becomes friends with everyone, but her favourite is Predaking. (Is like the kindest girl but absolut badass. A little bit naive, but still cute) They have a father/daughter relationship and it’s just fluff. But one day, she dies. Team Prime went on a mission and because Diana can fight, she went with them. Predaking is mad and doesn’t want to belive that she’s dead. So again, she was brought to the core of Primus. Primus could save her, but now is the time, she becomes his brother’s warrior. He tells Predaking of his plans. Predaking just wants her to life, so he sacrificed himself for Diana. Diana becomes a bot/predacon. Unicron gives her some of his powers and since Primus transformed her, she’s now also a Prime. And because of that, Primus creates a new star saber, Unicron too. Diana, now bearing the name Predaqueen to honor her ‘father’, united the two swords and became the first CRON (A Unciron warrior) and a PRIME. So her name is now Predaqueen Prime. 

When she comes back to the surface, everyone is losing their shit. But after some time they can accept, that she’s not Diana anymore, she’s Predaqueen, a leader, a fighter, a warrior. 

Megatron becomes the second Cron, names himself Megacron and is like the right hand of Predaqueen. She improves the whole army of Cybertron, becomes an ambassador, unites the two races of Primus and Unicron and is the voice of the gods/primordal beings or what ever they are. Everyone knows, there will be a fight, and they need to be prepared.

So yeah, fast forward to the Voltron serie. Primus and Unicron tell Predaqueen that soon Voltron will be activated, so she needs to be prepared. She goes to earth (Voltron earth), goes to the Garrison and meets Shiro there. (Totally not a hint to her ship. Can you feel the sarcasm? Anyway) Her name is Diana Prime and she’s the best pilot, becomes a professor? instructor? Idk what the name is, she’s teaching the kids, while Shiro prepares for his mission. Totally sexual tension there (she’s an ancient warrior, but not dead), totally Keith losing his absolut patience, like everybody else. Before Shiro is leaving, the sneaky boy (Keith) forces them to kiss. (He’s grounded but it was totally worth it) There are some cheesy farwell words, Diana tells him to be careful. She knows, this is the start of Voltron, and it’s not going to be nice.

Diana looks after Keith, she promised it Shiro after all and is still teaching. (there are totally many of the students crushing on her.) (Is the look important? Because, I imagine her as a tall woman, slim but athletic, her hair ridiculous long and bronze broun, with blue and violett streaks. Her eyes are golden and she has tattoos on the shoulders, the sign of predacons. (like there where all the bots have their marks/signs.) On her back are all symbols of all the races of Cybertron, in the middle the sign of Unicron and Prime.) Ugh-

Anyway. She meets the next paladins of Voltron and can only sigh. She took Keith under her wing, teached him some moves so he’s a little bit prepared, but the rest? Pidge is alright, she’s a smart girl. Hunk will do okay. But Lance? Oh boy- He’s totally like Knockout, he wont take it seriously until some one dies or is hurt. And then it’s most times to late. 

When the three sneak out to rescue Shiro, Diana just watches with a smile. She waites until the next morning. And I can totally see this scene. 

Keith talks with Shiro about his time in the galaxy and then Shiro says:

“How did you know to come save me when I crashed?” And Keith answers, “You should come see this.” They walk to his house, until Shiro stops. 

“Wait, Keith- what... what about Diana?” Keith smiling softly and walking backwards. 

“If you want, I can call her. She’ll be glad you’re back.” 

Ugh, soft Shiro-

Anyway

The five find the blue lion, Shiro or better Keith forgets to call Diana and when he remebers, he’s somewhere in the universe. They form Voltron, kick for the first time Galras ugly ass and begin to train. Some days after Diana stands before the castle, Allura panicking, because this is a human and- 

“Shiro, darling, we need to talk about your disappearance in the fucking universe.” Lance, Hunk and Pidge are confused, because that’s General Prime? In the universe? 

Shiro tries to explain everything, but Diana/Predaqueen just smiles adn tells him, she knows already. He’s naturally confused and then she tells him about her mission, who she is and all that. He has a big mindblow but is happy, that Diana is back. Some fluff, because why not and Diana decides to tell the team.

“I am a Cron and a Prime.” Everybody is just blinking, because she says it like it explains everthing. With a smile, she connects herself with the castle and shows the story of Unicron and Prime. 

“And then I became a warrior of Primus and Unicron, their voice and the leader of their children. They sent me on this mission, to watch over Voltron, over you and nudge you in the right direction.” Again some blinking, until Lance speaks up.

“So, you are basically another Voltron? And there is a whole planet of Voltrons like you?” Pidge facepalms, while Keith sighes. Coran has stars in his eyes, while Allura is glad, that others fight with them.

“No. Every bot has his own mind, they are like humans, but instead of flesh, blood and a heart, they have metal, enagon and a spark. The Primes, Optimus and I, and the Crons, Megacron and I, are the strongest. We lead the Cybertrojans in war, we are the voice of Primus and Unicron.”

So now the storyline is pretty much the same, Predaqueen is with Allura in the castle, when Voltron fights, because she’s their secret weapon. When they fight in the centre of the Galra Imperium, Predaqueen transforms for the first time. She’s normally as big as Voltron, but transformed as a predacon probably five times so big. She activates the space bridge and calls all the other predacons (her people, Shockwave cloned a few more and Primus also created new sparklings) They attack the Galra force, completly surprise them but still don’t win. Voltron barley escapes, but Predaqueen detransforms and attacks the wive of Zarkon, Honerva. She know’s that many will die and the universe will probably be destroyed, if she doesn’t kill her. Honerva goes nearly mad, this beast just attacks them? To be a bit dramatic, Predaqueen summons the presence of Unicron. She’s in her bot-form, but in human size. She glows with pure power, everything near her just dies, explodes and is destroyed. In her hand is the dark star sable, pulsing with chaos and death. Unicron totally roasting the Galras, calling them petty beings and such. Honerva is killed and you would think, the Galras would stop now, but no. Lotor is wants revenge. So he still takes over the Galra Imperium and builds this ships. But this time Megacron is making his life pure hell. Ah, so Lotors new ships are made out of a rare komet or what ever? Hmm, Megacron has the enagon of Uncrion and that’s chaos himself. Bitch, wanna try again? 

So now Voltron is freeing the known universe, while Predaqueen helps. In the end, Cybertron is revealed, the Cybertrojans are now like the green lanterns? Keeping peace in the universe, because they are the ‘children’ of Prime and he’s creation himself. (I think so... or did I understand something wrong?) Voltron is still active, but now a symbol of peace and union.

Shiro and Diana/Predaqueen love each other dearly, but she still outlives him, sees how her family grows, how her children have grandchildren and so on. But still, Shiro will be her only lover, just because fluff. And basically the reason of this crossover? Because I think he deserved better.

Yikes... ugh, so if someone wants to write a story about this... I don’t mind, just tag me so I can read it and also reblogg it. 

I didn’t second read it, it’s almost midnight and yeah... if something doesn’t make any sense, I’m swiss. 

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