#or im pmsing idk lol

[crqstalite]

why are my ribs doing the opposite of gaming

[3416]

okay none of this is coherent bc i'm on the verge of sleep at 9pm rn but that right hand man as dog post literally has my gears turning bc that's mitch fucking marner bro. that's mitch and there are so many levels to it. mitch who has made his whole career being the assist guy... takes pride in the fact that he can help the team even if that results in his point accumulation seeming lesser bc they're not goals. taking advantage of the skills and iq he possesses to try to make the people around him better and literally set them up for success...always the first one there to congratulate them on it too.... literally naming his whole foundation the marner assist foundation bc he embraces that role on a team with a generational goal scorer who's made it clear he wants to play with MITCH and appreciates mitch's talent and communication. like. actually his right winger... his right hand man. okay and even happy with being the second best, as he's been for large portions of his life w an older bro who's good at everything right on into a stacked draft class.

and mitch personality wise gets the dog description sometimes too. loyal, happy go lucky, wants to be around his guys all the time, and it's where he's the happiest and thrives the most. he's energetic, he's buzzin, he's willing to entertain, he's the life and love in that room in so many ways that are loud.... that bark but don't necessarily bite (THOUGH THEY CAN BITE. criticism can be doled out and taken as long as it's from the right places with him) but like. especially when he was younger too, he was literally the team emotional support puppy who loved cuddles and attention and with age comes protection from the outside a little bit..,. dialing back what he's willing to show or admit to people on the outside but it's still there and what keeps the camaraderie alive despite an ever rotating roster. and i kNOW. i know. so much dog imagery and symbolism has to do with being protective and fierce, and in hockey for mitch that doesn't necessarily translate on the ice the same way bc he's not big and rough and physically forward the way some people wish he was, but he probably would take a bullet for most of those guys. and in ways, he has taken on the shield or become the punching bag... he was with babcock, he's taken on the scapegoat with media so a lot of critique is thrown squarely at him for group failure. he's the martyr even if that's not exactly what he signed up for.

he's grown more guarded but he's LITERALLY. literally. a dog. a dawg. auston's dawg.... their dawg. the epitome of lots of good things about hockey culture (and i'm sure some bad too), but he embodies so much of the loyalty.. the side kick.. the best friend energy in some ways.... it makes me emo. and....... and to think of him with his own dog trying to recreate unbridled joy from his childhood (cut to those pics of him as a kid w his chocolate lab vs him now w zeus).... like he's desperate for love and recognition of his loyalty and companionship. he's gotten used to being second fiddle, not necessarily in any resentful way but like. these past few weeks he's kind of gotten to step up and be the guy™. he's the heartbeat...... the dog's not usually meant to be the main character but maybe he is worthy of it.

[nightfuryblue19]

aaaaaa

[ghosts-of-love]

not to be mentally ill but today when i went for a walk in a nature reserve i was climbing a hill and it was cold but so so sunny and everything looked beautiful and i saw so many cool things and i stood there and was like damn what's this feeling in my chest and why am i smiling so much?? my guy,, it's called fucking happiness. i was just present and content in the moment and couldn't contain myself so kept doing the silly arm shake thing i do and grinning at everything and then was like woah what's this feeling. fuckin, happiness dude.

[badcountryofficial]

Anyway I got my period and rediscovered fleetwood mac so I'm fine now btw

[couriwaytown]

kinda feeling like shirt😒

[lyekisses]

anyone else wake up in the middle of the night feeling incredibly anxious. or just me.

[leyyvi]

im so sad lol i hate being a creative sometimes

[mrzombielover]

Since I loved the general relationship headcanons you did for Christopher, I gotta request it for Paulie Walnuts. Thank you so much and I’m sorry for the questionable taste in men 😭 I also love ur blog’s aesthetic!! I’m living for slashers, BrBa/BCS, The Sopranos, Type O Negative, Rob Zombie, and Slipknot rn so it’s perfect

THANK U SMM and im glad you liked my other writing!! im so happy to find other sopranos fans on here haha and also NEVER apologize for your taste in men around here!!!!!

- i actually love paulie sm lmfao he’s so funny

- dating him (as with all the sopranos men) would be uhh really interesting

- i feel like if you stayed completely separate from his work and ignore his goomars and bad moods he’d actually be very good to be with i think

- he’s sooo unserious tho

- he’s actually like a whiny teenage girl i stg sometimes you’re wondering if he’s pmsing with the way he acts

- always tries to make you laugh and he’s ego will be very hurt if you don’t laugh at his jokes

- likes a partner who can match his energy and make jokes too (but not jokes at his expense lmfao he’s fragile)

- sporadically, he is very romantic. he has the classic italian idea of how to treat a lady, and pulls out the stops on anniversary’s, birthdays, and valentines

- for men/gnc ppl, it’s totally different though so lmk if i should write separate hcs on this lol

- of course, his work comes first. you’d have to deal with that, but if you made a fuss about it he’d try his best to make it up to you

- ideal dates include him driving you around, taking you to a nice restaurant, and lots of people watching where he can make comments about the passerby’s and (hopefully) make you laugh

- also would not like you working, it hurts his ego. wants to provide anything you with anything you want, and would actually get upset with you if you tried to be more independent

- fantasizes about taking you to italy and lounging on the beach with you all day

- also totally random but i think he’d really love a smart partner. he isn’t the brightest so the bar isn’t very high, but intelligence is very attractive to him (if you don’t embarrass him with it i cannot stress enough that he’s fragile)

- would love it if you cooked for him

- also loves massages, giving and receiving. it feels very intimate to him and idk he just has a thing for it

this is lowk all i can think of i think, thank you for reading :))))

comments + reblogs greatly appreciated !

[gublerie]

★ anon! Hello again, so sorry I died. I randomly lost the motivation to write or be on tumblr but it’s back! I would love to write. but idk what about ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. Please give me some ideas for Reid hcs !!

Ty sm !!

-★ anon

OMG HI LOVE i was wondering where you were just the other day can you believe it ? im glad youre back 🫶

im once again living for dad!spencer so id love hcs on that if its something youre comfortable writing

or just domestic stuff about physical touch honestly im pmsing so im seeking comfort lol

[cruesuffix]

yikes…

feeling absolutely shitty and lonely and bored…like i want bang my head against a wall until i lose all my braincells. i know i’m supposed to be all cool here and just stick to posting about the old man and be silly and all that but sometimes i can’t help but be a bit jealous of all the other cool accounts on here that are better at writing and are much more creative than me.. boo hoo. you might be wondering why i don’t just make friends within the fandom and it seems weird to say i don’t want to because everytime i do i mess up and there’s a falling out and it continues over and over. i don’t even know what i’m saying. i don’t want any pity, i think i’m just tired and in pain. i hate being such an outsider in every fandom i’m in, but i also know i don’t contribute much and never really have anything to say. maybe im just pmsing or something idk…dw i’ll go back to obsessing over that old man tomorrow, i just need to get my very disorganized thoughts out.

also…is it crazy to feel old in your twenties? i always feel so sore it’s crazy, i’ll probably be a hunchback by the time i’m thirty…if i even make it to that age lol.

[1d1195]

omg im so sooo sorry cause I just finished PMSing so i know exactly what you’re talking about i hope you feel better soon bestie !!! Noah Kahan can cure everything I believe <3

honestly i just love your writing so much i need to go back and reread all of protection and then traditional i love them with my whole heart😭♥️

i LOVED the tiktok that went with committed as soon as i read that you kept listening to it while writing i knew i had to play it while i read lol but its crazy how you can draw so much insporation from something so simple, i think it just goes to show how talented you are

LMAO THE SNOWBLOWER MEMES IM CRYING HAHA i think thats like a super power honestly and i love that for you. youre so right it def hits different once the iced coffee comes out it makes EVERYTHING official

im SO sorry to hear you had a tough month bestie :( hopefully you have an AMAZING june and an even better summer, sending you the biggest warmest virtual hug ever cause u deserve it🫂 SO HAPPY YOU WENT BOOK SHOPPING, YOU MIGHT NOT NEED THEM BUT YOU DESERVED THEM !!! (im 100% the enabler in my friend group😭) may the pollen fade soon🫡

vry random but omggg i was going thorugh my old photos from like 1-2 years ago and i MISS my long hairrrr😭 its the middle of the night this should be the least of my worries lmfao but i cut it back in the fall and dont get me wrong !! i loved my short hair but now its at that awkward phase where its not long and its not short and i am NOT here for it :/

HAVE A GREAT DAY I LOVE YOU A TONNNNN !!!!!

~🎶

Okay I'm so amped about your Protection ask so I will save my thoughts on that for the next ask 😊

May was just long and awful. I'm very happy to be in June, I'm hoping things run smoothly. I feel way less stressed than I did last month. I'm sure I'll find new ways to be stressed but for now I'm going to revel in not being exhausted for the moment 😅

I didn't notice how stringy my hair looked until I saw it in a picture. I need to be better about going to get it cut more often but I've been going to the same hair dresser since I was 2 years old and it's an hour away from me now and a process lol But in the summer I always get a healthy amount chopped off because I run hot and my hair is like a scarf and insulating.

Thank you so much for the support of my book buying. Idk what I want to read next, there are a lot of options (especially now).

You're so sweet to compliment me. That man in the tiktok made it easy 😍 hehehehe

hope you have a good weekend planned! 💕

xoxo

[k0kichiimagines]

pmsing is HELL ive had multiple full on shaking sobbing breakdowns over the tinest things like it just hits me at all at once im angry for no reason and im going to be in a horrific depressive episode until my period, i hate late periods because it just means it lasts longer, i feel like im going insane going feral hate it here

[jentlemahae]

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[cherryfloyd-blog]

One day we’re gunna lose our heroes to the inevitable grips of the after life, I hope they still sing and play their instruments on the other side ...

[missriyochuchi]

It's only 1pm and I've cried so much that I've got a headache.

Mom hasn't had much of an appetite since rehab stopped the tube feeds a few weeks ago. She says she wants to wait until she feels hungry to eat, but we all told her that she might not feel hunger in the usual way and that she can't wait for hunger because she absolutely needs the nutrients to heal.

Today, around 9:30 after I got her to nibble on some eggs and fruit for breakfast, she complained of difficulty breathing. This happened a few times at rehab, so the nurses and therapists knew how to deal with her specific episodes. At this hospital, however, everyone was learning what to do for the first time. I tried to provide as much info as I could, but protocols are different.

Respiratory put her on some humidified oxygen, and that brought her pulse ox up, but then she asked for a ventilator. Even though we're in a vent unit, only doctors can order ventilators, so the pulmonologist had to come in and check Mom out. But just like at rehab, despite her protestations that her chest feels tight and that she's having trouble breathing, her pulse ox was great. So, no vent was ordered; they just took off her speaking valve and let her sleep.

I cried when our nurse told Mom that even though she would call the pulmonologist for a vent, Mom can't take this step back; I was so glad she said that, though, because I agree and the folks at rehab had the same discussion several times. I cried when we were alone in the room and I got upset at her for letting her anxiety affect her breathing so much again (I know she can't control it and it's not her fault, but she absolutely should not get back on the vent and she knows that). I cried when we apologized to each other. And I cried when one of the social workers stopped by to familiarize herself with our situation and I told her that Dad had passed away recently (I like her; she's very sweet and even reminds me of our social worker in the NY hospital, curly blonde hair and glasses and a little scatterbrained lol).

It's been a long-ass morning, much less week.

I would normally be home at this point on Wednesdays. The fact that I'm not is also frustrating, especially given that more important paperwork (re: Dad's life insurance and work benefits, as well as the title to Mom's car which I apparently signed incorrectly because ofc I did) is being mailed to us and the neighbor who normally empties our mailbox is incommunicado. I texted one of Mom's coworkers who lives a town over, but I probably won't hear from her until later this afternoon when she gets off work. I just hate waiting and pausing all this paperwork that isn't exactly time sensitive but nonetheless super important.

At least I was able to get double portions for lunch from now on. I don't have to make the five-story trek to the intermittently open cafeteria or presumably expensive Starbucks more than once a day. Saves money, too. If only finishing paperwork and getting a shower were a five-story trek.