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[sappho-knight]

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[mango-dolphin]

playing a game with myself called "inventing a man and scaring myself with it"

Note: Not all of these predictions are meant to be taken literally, more figuratively/metaphorically/so on. You get it. Note 2: lighter the text, the more likely i think it is to be (in part or in full) true

ALSO. thank you @maxknightleyunofficial for the yuri box.

bingo transcribed below [with additional Author's notes!]:

Limbus Company Predictions

Row 1:

Sinner Number correlates to recruitment order. (Which, yes, would imply Dante joined LCB before Sinclair, Outis, and Gregor. No points)

Another character based on a poet (or philosopher) is introduced. HM: Ovid SWEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Meursault's source material is his backstory: he works for the LCB because they saved him from the death penalty

The E.G.O gear the Sinners are attuned to all corrode because the gear or their attunements are imperfect. As in: your LC nuggets got that good shit [because the LCB doesn't have Cogito & can't manufacture E.G.O gear: the Sinners have to "connect" to the Abnormality instead, however that works] / are better [than the LCB Sinners]

The psychosis warning is for multiple Cantos and/or side stories, but one of the Cantos needing that warning is Meursault's.

Row 2:

Sinclair goes tree mode. I will not explain any further.

Limbus Company wants to be the new L Corp, or at least be continually influencial to whoever takes the spot.

The Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil; [it will be] a constant theme. Dante cannot "eat" (the apple), and thus is not "doomed to die" like the Sinners.** **The Sinners are named thus because they "partook" in the fruit: these moments, from blissful yet tormentous naivete to a sudden sinful upheaval, are highlighted in their Cantos. Gregor's was cutting the apple (crossing the boundary from child to war machine); Rodion's was killing the tax collector (her desire to be a hero completely upended by her actions leading to the deaths of all her neighbors); Sinclair's was following Kromer / letting her into his life (specifically allowing Kromer into his basement and witnessing The Horrors)... **This could imply LCB as the serpent in the garden, but more than anything, Dante is Eve. [Iori could also be the serpent she's got the range. swagever. It'd be funny.] HM: Or even worse, the opposite is true.

Sinners will get upgraded versions of their base E.G.Os; These versions have relation to the shadows cast in their E.G.O portrait.

Ishmael's white whale is a Library of Ruina character.

Row 3:

Faust's Faustian Bargain is classically straightforward: she "sold her soul" for knowledge. HM: The Devil in this exchange is the LCB.

Outis is in the middle of her years-long Odyssey as we speak. HM: It's why she's one of the last Sinners

Purgatorio & Paradiso

Outis, Don Quixote, and Hong Lu are using fake names

Dante (prior to the events of the game) has been on the Outskirts of the City, or even left City limits. HM: They're from outside the city

Row 4:

Gregor is an abnormality / abnormality-like; Hermann's "gift" to him is that. [Honestly he'd be one in the same way Tomerry is, but further than that? He's more than just a genetically modified soldier is what I'm trying to get at.]

Iori

^ HM: Lion, Panther, and Wolf were sent to Dante as a test. [Idk what kind of test it'd be. Trust me.]

At least one Sinner will Distort, and possibly multiple Likely Hong Lu, Ryoshu, Rodion, Heathcliff, Faust, or Meursault. Don seems obvious.* *Colors are likelihoods, not pairs. Though I don't see it likely that they all will distort UNLESS SOMETHING FUCKING HAPPENS *ADDITIONAL hard mode (so hard it's mode): Meursault Distorted before joining Limbus

the golden boughs are the remnants of Carmen's body or essence / the byproduct of the Seed of Light. [That's NERVOUS SYSTEM, baybee!]

Dante goes to Paradiso alone / with only Vergilius (I forgot how it went :( idr if Dante Dante's Inferno went up there alone)

Row 5:

Something bad happened to Gregor's sister :( HM: She's still alive. This is a bad thing. [Leaving my wording vague here on purpose.]

Marie (L'Étranger) is in the Blue Team (with Demian); Gretchen (Faust) is in the Red Team (with Hermann). Gretchen switches teams? [Honestly likely Faust hasn't encountered Gretchen either!]

There is yuri moments and maybe even yaoi moments (not Yuri) SINCLAIR. Yi Sang, Outis, Ishmael, Meursault, Outis again, Hong Lu, HM: Outis Wife Penelope

Angela.

Dante knew Carmen

[householdbinary]

i got tagged in both of these, idr who tagged me in the sim evolution one but @hazelsnakes tagged me in the sim questionnaire so i'll do that under the cut and kill two birds with one stone 👍 (also i got tagged in the oc pinterest thing a while back too, i'll do that soon)

NAME: grammar | tripp

NICKNAMES: n/a for both (tripp IS the nickname but it's basically his first name atp)

GENDER: cis woman (she/her) | nonbinary but his egg hasn't cracked yet (he/him rn, he/her in the future)

STAR SIGN: capricorn (dec 26) | leo (aug 1)

HEIGHT: 6'5" | 5'11"

ORIENTATION: both bisexual with a preference for men

NATIONALITY: english-iraqi (london) | american (los angeles)

FAVOURITE FRUIT: mangoes | strawberries

FAVOURITE SEASON: autumn | summer

FAVOURITE FLOWER: baby's breath | daisies

FAVOURITE SCENT: some lavender sleep spray she had to use as a kid | fresh baked pastries like in a bakery

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: both coffee (grammar hot, tripp iced)

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 6 | 10

DOGS OR CATS: both | dogs

DREAM TRIP: a place with a lot of old cultural places of interest like churches or temples | a big city with a lot of nightlife

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: one or none, she overheats easily at night | 2, he likes to be cozy but any more is just a bit excessive really

RANDOM FACT: when she gets really stressed she eats raw ground beef straight from the packaging like noodles | he regularly lets vampires drink his blood at parties because getting fucked up on blood loss is cheaper than getting fucked up on alcohol

[marvus-xoloto]

I was looking at the background art for volume 11 again bc like. The room is the eyes to the soul and all that. Haha definitely not back on my hyperfixed game.

Anyway, I'm overanalyzing mallek's background art benath the cut.

GOD I always forget how much of a slob he is. Mallek self shippers are so strong. From left to right:

The SEVERAL husk towers, now being either discarded or repurposed. So Mallek does buy / reroute new tech pretty frequently. Note how his couch is falling apart: he does not care for the finer things regarding comfort, only his hobby.

WAIT LMAO NOTE WHAT APPEARS TO BE TISSUES ON THE COUCH?? AND SOCKS ALL OVER??? Either the man is crying in this room or.... 😳😳😳

On that note why are there socks on his floating shelves. Mallek doesn't do laundry confirmed: the hoodie he gives you must be musky as hell.

Not only does he hoverboard, he LONGBOARDS. Very cool B)

Swim trunks on the floor implies Mallek knows how to swim, and he likely swims in the sewer thing beneath his hive.

His workspace and shelves are actually reasonably tidy?? Wait a second....

Amogus......

Some sort of grubs on the floor in the pile of trash by his coon- likely game grubs or food, I'm guessing, since they're white. OR?? Mallek terrible father confirmed?? /j

I'm sorry but I would not get in that musty ass crusty slime coon. So much bacteria that the coon itself is growing legs so it can clean itself.

His limo! It's important to note that this limo background gets reused in Marvus's route, but Mallek's came first.

Note the camera above the TV and gamer controller (which is so hilarious: a joystick and one button. It's 100% a minecraft controller then). Could this imply that Mallek is a streamer?? He's always come across as rather private to me (side note: steaming in his coparatively tidy limo really hits my funny bone). Comprimise: Mallek is a streamer with one of those AI sprites instead of his face, ykwim?? Idk what they're called.

Mallek either canonically drinks alcohol, or the drinks just come with the limo.

He's drinking that same juice that Xefros does. For the life of me, I can't remember what it is/does, but iirc isn't it supposed to be good for psychic ability? Mallek is implied not to be psychic, however. Maybe it's just troll monster. Idr....

LMFAO i noted this when I deep dived into Marvus's limo, but I love the chair by the mini fridge having TWO seatbelts and what appears to be a booster seat?? Manlet Marvus move over, it's Manlet Malleks turn lmao.

SHAG RUG!!! So disgusting, you know that thing has dirt and crumbs in it.

More slobbery -_-'

So desperate for clean silverware that he pulled the whole drawer out. My man you are RICH just hire a cleaning service. Please.

He does not have a kitchen table. It's kind of implied he either sits in one of those (rocking??? lmfao) chairs or eats while sitting on the floor (on the random yellow mat).

I noted this detail a few years ago, but it's my favorite: Mallek keeps houseplants (possibly implied to be recently watered?).

Mallek keeps fruit in his hive, but it looks like he doesn't actually eat it. I wonder if it's wax fruit.

I'm sorry but looking at this image, I can not imagine Mallek actually cooks. He eats cereal and gets delivery and he's gotten grub sauce EVERYWHERE. There is no stove in his kitchen. Hell, no microwave either.

WHOSE LUSUSES ARE THOSE?? Kinda cute ngl. Does this imply ceruleans can also have semi aquaric and/or water loving lususes?

Speaking of parallels: so it's not just purplebloods who litter.

Other bluebloods come down here, I wonder if they're friends with mallek?? Also note the cerulean sign being tagged in indigo. Inchresting...

The graffiti reads "suck my nook" and the yellow caution sign reads "do not block." In case you were curious.

I like the idea that mallek comes down here when he can't sleep: you can see that light gets filtered, so I wonder if he could be safe from the sun down here? Irradation nonwithstanding...

That's all! I am insane, so I enjoy deep diving into stuff like this.

[obstinaterixatrix]

I think I woke up a couple of times and kept losing more of the dream, 1) I dreamt in some library/gala event nathan lane was there, me and sister found a packet of things related to wise guys, nathan lane wanted pictures of two things: 1) [???] (I forgot), 2) a purple tie with irises by van gogh (just looked it up, real painting). Dream me was taking the picture and was like ‘so do you want me to airdrop them or do you want. me to email them to you [trying So Hard to be casual]’ & nathan lane told me to email him and it was the email he used for medical stuff (???) and I kept having to ask him to repeat it because the email address was like. ‘w[???] the indomitable [???] for whom it is a miracle when he stands’ and in the end I asked him to type it out for me and I was so sure he was annoyed by that & dream me was like (internally) NOOOO I’M SORRY MR LANE I’M TRYING I REALLY AM… there was also rare footage of victor garber as willie doing a bit with some guy (real estate guy? government guy? some serious business guy) as some extra vaudeville in the show that got cut

I think I woke up here and was trying to remember the email address but went back to sleep

the second dream was I was at some charity auction at a theater with someone (idr who) and it was happening onstage and when I was trying to find my seat, which I had thought was with my companion, the number which was supposed to be really close to hers ended up really far away, and then a flock of old ladies enlisted me to swap my seat next to a different old lady who didn’t have her grandchildren to keep her company so I did, and when I sat next to her she didn’t respond at all, and then her grandson who was like. either a teenage or adult guy who just sat on me like I was part of the chair and he just started talking to his grandma while I was slapping his side to try to get him to stand up and in the end I just shoved him off. I left with the excuse that I was going to try and find out where people were getting bananas (I wanted to look at the auction but I didn’t know if I was actually allowed, and one of the old ladies was like ‘where are people getting these bananas). I think it semi-morphed into my undergrad because a big thing was there was always a bowl of fruit available. I found a bowl of shitty bananas and didn’t want to go back with those. Around the stage I found better ones, and then I decided not to go onstage to look at what was there because as long as I didn’t know then I wouldn’t want it (uuuhhhhh) (ok.) I took three bananas, went back to the seats, and gave one to the grandson and grandma.

this might’ve been where I woke up again and got even more fuzzy on nathan lane’s email

the third dream was willie from stardew (or a lookalike?) (rather than stardew it could’ve easily been influenced by chip’s nautical guys) had a brother that was near comatose and I was on the dock and going like. so. I don’t want to overstep. but are you playing something for him? like dramas of music, it really sucks to sit around with nothing if he has any presence of mind. and not-willie harrumphed a little (MAYBE CAPTAIN HADDOCK??) but said his brother can see the sky, the shifting clouds, and it was scientifically proven that something something something. and I told him, ok, that’s good. this one’s easy, I was worried about grandpa at the end of his life with everyone more focused on his physical care (understandable) to the point that they might forget to add something enjoyable to his unpleasant experiences.

anyway I���m awake for real. I can’t believe I had three celebrity dreams in a row, what the hell is my brain trying to process. can it be done already

[yumedoca]

Thinking back to when I was like 11 (or 12 idr) when I had an actually fine and good set of oil pastels which had beautiful colors and blends very well, but I had like not even 10% art experience at the time so it was always misused and that will never fail to irritate me. Like If I had them now instead, I could have drawn things like fruits, desserts, other food (Cut me some slack, I’m hungry), or some cute animals or random inanimate objects and it would have been a great learning tool for traditional art.

[petewentzisblack1312]

tell me abt everything abt creole culture you possibly can but separate it under subheadings for adhd ease <3 i especially wanna know abt food/clothing/wedding traditions/religious traditions and festivals/superstitions!

ohhh kay!! ill try to do what i can!

overview

generally, creole culture here in st lucia (and dominica) is influenced by french and english culture, as well as west african culture (especially yoruba iirc) and the culture of the indiginous people of the caribbean (like the taino and kalinago). our culture is also influenced by the environment we live in, which is to say a tropical island, which in turn influences the resources we have available, like materials and foods, and what we can do with it. our culture is heavily influenced by slavery, of course, so a lot of our culture is things that can be made cheaply.

food

the main course has a few repeated motifs, such as using cured meats, like saltfish, smoked herring (my favourite) or salted pork. we also use ground provisions, which is a cultural term for starchy foods that often (but dont always) come from the ground (id describe it as a whole class of foods other than a potato that can do exactly what a potato does). my favourite ground provision is either breadfruit or sweet potato. here in st lucia our national dish is green fig (fig means banana in creole) and saltfish. we also use a lot of cheap cuts of meat, like pig trotters (which are used in a stew called souse which i love) and pig tail and chicken backs because historically these discards were the only thing we could afford to eat. another common motif is seafood, because a lot of our communities are fishing villages, and here in st lucia in anse la raye theres like a cookout called fish friday thats a huge tourist event. our food is very rich and flavourful, we have boullion here but i promise its not like what the french call boullion, its a lot more. More. like a bouillon is never a starter, its the meal.

as for bread, we have regular bread thats like, a different tougher texture from normal bread that we call creole bread, and we have a bread called bakes which you cook by either frying or roasting it (yeah the name is ironic lol) and a slight variation on that that uses yeast instead of baking powder called floats. i really want to experiment with using sourdough to make floats lmao. we also have rough dumplings we put into our boullion but theyre not like stuffed or anything its just lumps of dough boiled in soup. also cassava bread!! the process of making it is very slow because cassava is poisonous and you have to process it a lot to make it not poisonous but cassava bread is so good i love it.

for sweets and desserts, you often see a lot of coconut, from coconut cake, to coconut balls, to coconut tablet, to coconut in paime (which is a boiled corn pudding) (that last one is optional, some people use pumpkin and some people use grated green fig). you also see fudge, which is different from what americans call fudge, it has a snap to it but its crumbly and its caramelly and i love it. theres also tamarind balls which are little balls of tamarind mixed up with sugar, and guava cheese, which idk how to explain. its a sticky delicious mess. in latam they have it too but idr what they call it.

as for drinks, we have one called sorrel thats traditionally drunk at christmas, i think stateside you call it hibiscus tea, its bright red and has spices in it and i love it a lot, and we have a lot of juices made from fruits here like golden apple and green mango and lime and sour orange and grapefruit and my FAVOURITE drink which is cocoa tea which is made from cocoa solids being boiled in water and milk with spices and some people put dumplings in it. its traditionally drunk at breakfast and its really nice and warm and i would make it every morning if it wasnt so involved. this is a cocoa stick you grate it up and boil it with spices and milk to make cocoa tea.

in the crafts section i will talk about the coal pot, which is what these things are traditionally cooked in. i want to learn how to use a coal pot. its easy i just never did it.

clothing

so we actually have a national outfit! here is a little infographic about it

one of the most important features of our national dress is the fabric, which i think you may be familiar with jace! its called madras, and its named after the former name of chennai in south india.

heres an example of the kind of fabric we'd consider madras in the creole sense! this material is visual short hand for creole here in st lucia

music and dance

we have a lot of folk music which features violins, chakchak (like a maraca but its like one long thing) and drums, in lieu of explanation ill just share a short video on the music and the quadrille dance.

here in st lucia we also have dennery segment which is dancehall in creole which i dont know much about bc im a hermit and i dont go to fetes

craft

okay so there are a lot of hand crafts that we do here, for starters we have traditional creole brooms made from palm leaves, we have bowls made from calabash (which is our national fruit but is not edible this is all we use it for) we have coal pots, which are made of clay that we use to cook, we have these reversible doll things. ive made the small version of the brooms before its fun.

coal pot (theres also a literal clay pot on top but thats not necessarily part of it)

these things. i used to have one theyre so fun

festivals

well first of all we have jounen kwéyòl! its a celebration of creole heritage that we have on the last sunday of october, we usually celebrate with foods like a creole breakfast but we use the whole month to celebrate creole culture every year. we also have carnival, which is a big parade thing we have dancing in the street in big fancey costumes. here in st lucia we have la woz and la maguerite, or the flower festivals, which are based on these like, elite societies we used to have, where communities pick someone to be each member of the court, the king and queen and prince and princess and on and on all the way down to like doctors and nurses and go on parade in either red/pink for la rose or purple/blue for la maguerite. we ALSO have masquerade, which is a masked dancer thing we do around christmas. there are a bunch of different roles in masquerade, here is a picture of the regular masqueraders

theres also roles like papa djab (father devil) and the ti djabs (little devils) and pay bannann (dry plantain, hes covered in dry banana/plantain leaves) and the acrobat (an acrobat) and marie anset (a pregnant woman) and chouval bwa (a man on a horse) uncle sam on stilts because we hate america so hes also there. masquerade is so fun.

in conclusion

i love my culture :)

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #324

“i'll sharpen my knife upon the stone made from the ruin of a dead god's throne  /  listen to these words as my seeds are sown: it's time to amputate the infected zone”

What is the last game you played on your phone? Pokemon GO. Do you give people personalized ringtones? No. Does your phone screen have any cracks? No. What makeup products are you wearing, if any? None. How would you describe your skin tone? Very pale. Do you have your full birth name on Facebook? Yes. What is your least favorite fruit? Probably cherries. How often do you walk around barefoot? Whenever I'm in my house or another person's who prefers shoes off inside. Would you need to sleep with someone before considering marrying them? Nah. Do you think people look up to you? No. How often do you have trouble sleeping at night? Every night. Do you ever rehearse conversations before you have them? YEP. In my head, at least. Can you name five current world leaders? No, haha... When taking a cab, do you talk to the driver? Cabs aren't really a thing here. I've never been in one. Do you always read the book before you see a movie based on a book? No. What is your favorite urban legend? The Jersey Devil. Mothman is dope and super creepy, too. I love cryptids, period. Are you an elitist (even a little bit) when it comes to anything? What? No, because I hate people like that so much. What type of fabric is most comfortable for clothing? I dunno, I don't pay attention to this. If you wear one – bras with or without a wire? With, so long as they're not poking out and stabbing you... If you wear one – are you able to find cute bras in your size? Definitely not. What length do you like your shorts to be? You'd have to pay me some big bucks to see me in shorts, period. Have you ever cut off jeans or other pants and made them into shorts? No. Have you cut the sleeves out of T-shirts to make tank tops? I don't think so, no. What was the last disappointing movie you saw? *shrug* What was the last disappointing book you read? Even bigger *shrug*. Do you ever watch compilation videos? Of what? Rarely, but if I do, they're generally old Vines and stuff. What was the last thing you rolled your eyes about? Probably something stupid on Facebook. Do you like Hellboy? If so, do you prefer the old movies or the new one? I have no thoughts on this. Favorite Disney character who isn’t royalty? Dory! Do you have a lot of people whom you don’t talk to all the time or see all the time, but still consider to be your friends? Yeah, like friends from high school and online childhood ones. Do you typically do your make up the same each time? Or do you like to change it up often? It's just about always the same. Do you enjoy making surveys as well as taking them or do you just prefer to copy, paste, fill out, post? The latter. I don't make surveys. Have you got a significant other? How are things between the two of you? If not, what was your most meaningful/long term relationship and how did that come to an end? I don't. My longest and deepest relationship was with Jason, and he ended it when my depression became too much for him to handle. Have you spent much time in a vehicle lately? What for and where have you gone most this past month? No. I've barely left the house lately for obvious reasons. Has it rained yet this year where you live? How about hailed? It's been raining like crazy lately. A few mornings ago, it also hailed very heavily for a few minutes. What is your favorite thing about Mac computers? I like the sleek, clean look of them. What is your favorite thing about PCs? They have more power for playing games. What are some errands you need to run soon? None. Well, we have a Wal-Mart order to pick up I think tomorrow, and I'll probably ride with Mom. What color was your high school graduation gown? Red. It was between that and navy, and I was really hoping for the latter, but it lost the vote. The red was so obnoxious. How many graduation gowns have you worn? One. Are your parents’ dreams for your life different than your own? I don't think they have their own specific "dreams" for my life. They both want me to create my own future that makes me happy. Have your dreams for your life changed? Definitely, over all the years. Would you ever want to learn sign language? Not especially, but it'd be cool I suppose. What’s the last thing you had for dinner? Chicken tenders, I think? Or was that the night before? Have you ever performed a solo dance in front of a crowd? No, but I almost did. At my old dance studio, the high school seniors had the option to a solo, and I was working on one to "Coma White" by Marilyn Manson, because it was and still is a song I really feel in regards to my mental health and many medications I "have" to be on. I was doing fine, but I stopped when I realized I just really was too nervous as a dance competition approached. Have you ever sung a solo? No. What was the last job you had? Deli worker. For two hours. What was your first job? Sales associate at GameStop. Who was/were your favorite coworker(s)? I never really had one. At what age did you start experiencing sexual attraction, if any? I don't know. Probably my freshman year of high school is when my levels of attraction to people reached a sexual and not just romantic level. Have you ever split open a rock with a hammer, to see a geode inside? UGH no, but I so wanna find one of those one day. What states have you lived in? Only North Carolina. S.O.S., get me outta here. What is your favorite thing about the month in which it is now? You start to see some flowers blooming. Who were your best friends in high school? I had a decent group of close friends, but I was closest to Hannia. I wish I still had contact with her. ^Are they still your best friends now? No. She deleted me off Facebook at some point. Do you live near the mountains? No; they're on the western end of the state, and I live on the opposite side. Do you live near a beach? It's about two hours away. What is your favorite beach that you’ve been to? I don't have a fave. Do you collect seashells? Nah, but I like picking them up and looking at them. My sisters and I used to collect them, though. We have a plastic container of them somewhere. If you were to start a new collection, what would it be? I desperately want a cornucopia of Markiplier merch, sobs. Is there a certain place or store you especially hate going to? I don't like going to most stores, really. I'm an online shopper. When was the last time you made plans with someone? October of last year. How long do leftovers usually sit in your fridge? Depends on the food. They tend to stay in there a bit too long, though. What is something you do for other people that shows you care for them? Offer to listen to them and always be a source of support and love. What was the last animal/pet that you met? Kinda recently, someone in our neighborhood was walking their German shepherd, and Mom chatted with the lady for a bit while I listened. Is there anyone in your life with whom your opinion changes on frequently? No. Have you ever kept a journal? Do you currently keep one? Yes, on-and-off during multiple periods of my life. These surveys are like my journals now. Is there a certain song or band who remind you of specific people? Yep. Motionless In White and Black Veil Brides, Jason. Pink Floyd and Evanescence, Sara. Metallica, Mom. Van Halen, Dad. Etc., etc. How often do you style your hair differently from how you normally style it? Never. Have you ever found out that you have been sleep walking? No, I never have. What’s the last thing you promised yourself? I don't know about promised. I take those so seriously, even to myself, that I hesitate to make them. Have you ever tried making something from one of those short cooking videos? How did it turn out? No, but my friend once tried making that "muffin in a cup" thing and it was absolutely horrid. Very eggy. When was the last time you had to wait in line for longer than a few minutes? Good question. Going into places is so rare nowadays, so it's hard to encounter this issue. Well wait, maybe at a fast food place? Idr. Have you ever written a review for a product you bought online? No, but I should do that once I actually use my own money to buy from small businesses in particular... if I had something good to say, anyway. I'd feel bad trash-talking a product. Do you ever interact with any brands/companies online? No. Is there anything you seem especially sensitive to, such as sounds, smells, etc? Smells, yes. What was the last thing you had the urge to do? Read, even though I didn't do it. .-. Is there anyone you feel that takes you for granted? No. Do you ever read the comments on social media posts? Sometimes, particularly if I have strong feelings about something. What was the last “good” thing to happen to you? My PHP therapist felt confident enough in my progress to step me down to three sessions a week versus every weekday. Last awkward situation you were in? Thankfully it was a one-on-one session, but the same aforementioned therapist was asking me questions that really stumped me, so I kept going very quiet as I thought and felt awkward and dumb. He's brilliant at his job. Think of the last time you were sick – what were you sick with? I think the last issue I had that qualifies as "sick" was a double ear infection from Hell itself. That was like two years ago. How do you think your life would change without social media? I'd be incredibly bored, but I, among I think most others, would be more positive and have a more realistic outlook on life. Social media highlights the best times in our life, and I do feel that that has had a negative effect on pretty much everyone. I don't at all believe social media is bad in essence, though. It's a wonderful way to stay connected. What was the last thing you wanted to buy, but couldn’t afford? I can't afford a new terrarium for Venus for probably a while, being without a job and all... How do you get your news? Facebook, haha. How often do you drive? Never, right now. My permit is long expired, and my vision isn't up to par to renew it. If you had to go (back) to school and completely change your career path, what would you choose to study/pursue? I guess biology? Are there any TV shows you constantly quote or know almost every line to? No. What do you think about lizards? I adore lizards; they're all so cute, big or small, and truly little dinosaurs. They're beautiful and so vast in appearances and behavior. Is there anything that people assume about you that isn’t true, and that you find very irritating? Not that I find irritating, no. How would you rate your “detective” skills? Uh, what am I "detecting?" I'm pretty good at digging online if I'm really hunting something down, I guess. Have you ever done consumer testing (testing products before they come out on the market)? If not, would you ever want to? No; I wouldn't be opposed, depending on the product. Have you ever received anesthesia or morphine? Both. The one time (I'm aware of) where I had morphine oddly enough did jack-all, though. If you had to choose which video game to be in, which would it be? Hmmm. Maybe like, Shadow of the Colossus, living in the beautiful garden on the top of the shrine? With the deer, the birds, fruit, just its general beauty... That would be awesome, especially with one other person, especially an s/o. Just the two of us in a gorgeous land. Between the two, would you rather live in a place where it’s only night or where it’s only day? Only day, I suppose. Vitamin D is very important, for one thing, and it always being dark would definitely affect my depression. And what about the flowers blooming and being able to take pictures? :( Sleep would still be possible by just closing your shades and stuff. Is there anyone that makes your skin crawl? Maggots, bot flies, parasites, patterns of small holes, etc. Do you like it when people are affectionate with you? Yes. If we're at least friends, anyway. I'm a very affectionate person. Have the past few days been bad, good, or neutral? They've been pretty all right. If you had to be an actor/actress in a movie, what genre of the movie would you be best at? Probably as an insane villain in a superhero movie or something. Are people more likely to tell you to tone it down or to speak up? Speak up. I'm a mumbler. I can be too loud sometimes too, though, particularly when I'm excited. What’s the last thing that you procrastinated? Now. Emerson's birthday was last month and I still haven't touched her pictures... Out of fire, earth, water, wind, light, and dark, which element appeals the most to you? Dark. What’s your favorite color on a vehicle? Burnt orange, pink. The last pain that you experienced, was it physical or emotional? Physical. What was one of your favorite songs as kid? I liked lots of pop songs. When’s the last time you tried to get revenge, if ever? Never. It's not something I chase after. Do you like Taylor Swift? No. What’s your favorite Disney Channel movie? The Haunted Mansion, I think. That's a Disney movie, isn't it? If you met your favorite celebrity, would you be calm or star struck? I'd be a deer in headlights, stuttering and stammering over ways to thank him and crying like a bitch. I'd be super embarrassed, but I absolutely hope I get to meet him one day. Do you ever have to do yard work? No. Is your school close to your house? I'm no longer in school. Do you have any live versions of songs in your music software? Yes. Did/do you listen to Britney Spears songs? Yeah, I like her. What shorthand do you use the most? Probably "lmao." What album is the current song you’re listening to off of? METAWAR. In your opinion, what song is the most overplayed right now? I wouldn't know; I don't listen to the radio. Are you in a band? No. When I started high school though, I wished I could be a guitarist in one. That's one reason I started taking lessons, haha. Does your favorite band have a male or female lead singer? Male. Have you ever been to a Broadway show? No. Do you prefer group or individual work? Individual, by a long shot. I work much better alone. Could you ever complete a 500-piece puzzle? I think I have before. I used to love puzzles. When was the last time you rode in a limo? Damn son, never; what could possibly give you the idea I could afford to ever do THAT????? Do you take naps daily? Almost every day, yes. Do you still make Christmas lists? Yeah, because I'm asked to. Do you watch the show Dexter? Never seen it, no. Are you currently using a blanket? Yes. My feet are cold. How long is the song you’re listening to? 4:06. Is your mom or dad the older parent? Mom, but only by a year. Did you ever listen to Avril Lavigne when you were younger? Who didn't? I still listen to a couple songs. When was the last time you changed a light bulb? Not all that long ago when Venus' lamp bulb died. How often do you clean your car out? I don't have my own car. Did you ever buy NOW ("Now That’s What I Call Music") CDs? My older sister did, yes. What color (mainly) is your computer? It's black. What is in the back seat of your car right now? In Mom's car, idk. But there's usually some stuff back there. What is your favorite episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.? Never watched it. Last person’s house you were in? Besides my own, my older sister's. Who is the last person you sent a message to on Facebook? My friend Chelsea. We were catching up. Were you an honor roll student in school? Yes. Do you have a tan? HA. Are you someone’s best friend? Yes. <3 What do you think of when you think of Australia? Huntsmen spiders. *shudders* Favorite gemstone? Of the basic ones, rubies. If we're talking of all of them, even the obscure, then dragon's breath opal. I'd LOVE to have a ring of one of those. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Almost always the drive-thru. What color is your mom’s hair? It's all gray now. Does your first memory involve your dad? No. Biggest annoyance in your life right this minute? My social anxiety. Do you like watching a bonfire? Yeah. Fire is mesmerizing. Do you ever get flu shots? No, but I really should. Once the Covid vaccine is accessible to all though, I'm getting it for the protection of my immunocompromised mother.

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📍✈️Traveling to Bali: Part 3 - Seminyak, Bali (Day 6 & 7)

Hey there! 🤗 This will be the last part of my Bali experience last November 2018.

Days 6 to 7 was spent in Seminyak, Bali, Indonesia. We decided to shorten our stay here last November 2018 since Seminyak is near the beach and there were Tsunami and Earthquake news that we heard during that time.

Two whole days in Seminyak were mostly spent on eating, eating and eating! 😅 This travel vlog will probably will look more like a food vlog so, enjoy!

DAY 6 November 26, 2018

SISTERFIELDS

Here’s the menu of Sisterfields in Seminyak. Mainly, they dishes for breakfast.

1st breakfast at Seminyak, I ordered Sisterfields Big Breakfast and a Strawberry Milkshake.

Sisterfields Big Breakfast costs IDR 130,000 (PHP 481). As per their description, it has eggs your way, bacon, mushroom, roasted tomato, potato rosti, hollandaise, sourdough and the Strawberry Milkshake costs IDR 40,000 (PHP 148).

It is a little pricey, however, serving was big as if it is for 2 people. I was just trying to finish it all since I was full before I could finish my meal.

A little toilet break and their restrooms were actually pretty. This was shot inside their toilet.

After our breakfast, we decided to visit Love Anchor in Canggu, Bali.

LOVE ANCHOR

We found out about Love Anchor through Laureen Uy’s Bali vlog and learned that its a place where you can shop.

Going to Love Anchor, we took a cab from Seminyak to Canggu. If I remember it right, it was around IDR 100, 000 - 150,000 (PHP 370 - 555) for the taxi fare. The cab we rode was good for 6 persons. It took us about an hour or more for us to arrive at Love Anchor since it was a little traffic during that time.

There were cafes and restaurants in Love Anchor but we didn’t try them since we were still very full from our breakfast.

At the end of Love Anchor, was a bazaar. They were selling bags, clothes, accessories, and more. It was a little more expensive compared in Ubud. So if ever you would want to shop, I suggest to shop in Ubud Art Market instead.

Afterwards, we walked around the area and saw Mad Pops.

MAD POPS

Mad Pops is known for its delicious gelatos.

Mad Pops has a lot of variety to choose from. You can even try their flavors first before ordering.

However, Whisky Cream from Oh My Cone is still the best for me! 😍 

If I remember it correctly, I ordered Mint Chocolate Chip and Rainbow Coconut. 🍨 It costs IDR 45,000 (PHP 166.50) for two flavor.

After spending some hours around Canggu, we decided to go back to Seminyak and have our late lunch at around 4 in the afternoon.

BATIK

Decided to eat at Batik for its interiors. We saw a couple of amazing reviews about its food and decors that made us decide to eat here.

The staff are very nice at Batik. They even suggested us to go up, look at their 2nd floor, and we could even take some photos there.

Some photos we took on their 2nd floor.

I want to have a taste of all Bali food and tried their Nasi Campur. One Nasi Campur costs IDR 90,000 (PHP 333). A meal includes a small sample Indonesian dishes. As I remember, it has chicken satay some chips, vegetables, and a dish that tastes like Caldereta.

Not in the photo, but I also ordered a refreshing Strawberry Pleasure that costs IDR 45,000 (PHP 166.50). The juice includes strawberry, orange, and mint.

After having our late lunch, we decided to go back to Casa Kayu Aya to have a rest and freshen up for Motel Mexicola.

MOTEL MEXICOLA

Motel Mexicola was a 10 to 15-minute walk from our hotel. It was a must to have a reservation here to have seats instantly and to avoid waiting in line.

It is an open place however, there were fans and air conditions around the place.

Here’s how the seats are divided on our side looks like.

My opinion about Motel Mexicola is that there were no blogs or vlogs that mentioned that it is not a good place for asthmatics like me. 😅 The smell of smoke was all over the place (even in the toilets!), and it was overly crowded like the people they let in was not controlled.

The alcoholic drinks and food was so-so, and quite overly priced for its quality. There’s not even a hint of alcohol for their alcoholic drinks. We spent a total of IDR 2,047,980 (PHP 7,577.526) including tax and service charge for our 2-hr stay in Motel Mexicola. The following items were our orders:

9 cocktails - IDR130,000/ea (PHP 481/ea)

2 Calamares - IDR 85,000/ea (PHP 314.50/ea)

2 Guacamole - IDR 50,000/ea (PHP 185/ea)

2 Que Conchinita - IDR 85,000/ea (PHP 314.50/ea)

2 Que Queso - IDR 65,000/ea (PHP 240.50/ea)

Service was also quite poor since the same waiter keeps asking us to order more drinks. We know it’s business however, I think it was rude to ask every time the waiter passes by our table and sees we almost finish our drinks to ask if we would want to order. Also, the approach of asking if we would want more was not kindly done.

Personally, I think I won’t come back to Motel Mexicola again during nighttime.

DAY 7 November 27, 2018

REVOLVER ESPRESSO

Breakfast on our last day in Bali was spent in The Revolver. I wasn’t able to take a lot of photos of the place since we were hungry and it was a little dark in our area. You can have sneak peek on the place on my vlog at the end of the post.

For my morning drink, instead of the regular coffee or hot chococolate, I got to try their Coolers since it was a sunny day. I ordered Poison Ivy that has organic roselle, dried hibiscus, lime, bitters, and soda in it. One drink costs IDR 45,000 (PHP 166.50)

Breakfast meal for me was The Mother Clucker on the left side most of the photo above. A order consists of a southern fried chicken burger, smoked cheddar, pickles, lettuce slaw, jalapeno & buttermilk dressing, and a black bun. One order consists of IDR 95, 000 (PHP 351.50).

I wasn’t able to get all of my other 4 friends’ order since it was a bit difficult to take photos. However, I got to take a photo of one of my friends’ meal that morning which was Underbelly. The Underbelly consisted of glazed thick cut bacon, fried eggs, chorizo sausage, house baked beans, rosti, mushroom duxelle, sourdough that costs IDR 120, 000 (PHP 444).

We ordered an extra dish to be shared by all which was Ammo. Ammo consisted of Tiramisu hotcakes, white chocolate mascarone, coffee ice cream, coffee jelly, with chocolate powder for IDR 95, 000 (PHP 351.500).

Overall, The Revolver Espresso was a good experience to dine in. Staff were very accommodating and food was very delicious. I highly suggest to try their Poison Ivy drink and Ammo pancakes, it will be worth it!

W BALI: WOOBAR

Woobar is located inside the W Bali hotel. We had our reservation for the daybed, however, we were transferred first inside since it was raining that time. 

My friend and I ordered one from their promos which ‘Pick The Best.’ It was a promo staring from 11am until 10pm. A ordered included one pizza or burger, one hot or cold tapas selection, and unlimited softdrinks (which could be interchange with other soda options/brands). One promo costs IDR 265, 000 (PHP 980.50).

We chose to order Sweet & Spicy Chicken Wings (sweet soy glaze, sesame seeds, coriander, lime), and a Pepperoni Pizza. Our drinks were either 7-Up or Pepsi Blue.

We waited for time to be 4 in the afternoon since the staff mentioned a promo of a two drinks for the price of one on their signature cocktails from Monday - Thursday from 4PM - 6PM. Each order costs IDR 165, 000  (PHP 610). The following were the different cocktails to choose from:

Passion Fruit Mojito  - Old school favourite: The Mojito. Try our fruity twist With passion fruit. Together with mint and fresh lime wedges and finished with a little bit honey and Touch of soda. Enjoy.         

Pineapple Vanilla Rum Sour - Refreshing fruit cocktail with perfect blend or fresh pineapple, rum, sweet sour, vanilla syrup.         

Mango Tango - Tropical fruit cocktail with sour creamy taste flavoured of mango, coconut and lime.         

Bubble Gum Sour  - This drink will bring you back to your childhood memories. We made our own bubble gum vodka and combined this with bubble gum syrup. Sweet bubble gum flavours with some sourness of lemon.         

Smoky Margarita  - A twist on classic margarita with hint of smoke.        

Coco Old Fashioned  - The classic old fashioned cocktail, smooth flavour of whiskey combined with coconut and cherry syrup. 

All of 5 out of 6, ordered the promo, which was a total of 10 drinks. I ordered the Passion Fruit Mojito and Mango Tango, which were both flavorful. I was also able to taste Smoky Margarita which was not in my interest because it tastes like as if I drank a glassful of cigarette. It was also the least favorite within us. Other drinks such as Pineapple Vanilla Rum Sour and Coco Old Fashioned were also good as well.

My other friend ordered the Pink Raspberry Coconut Slushy that was a frozen pink slush puppy cocktail that is refreshing ice cold and fruity flavours of raspberry combined with coconut and light rum. One drink costs 145000  (PHP536.50).

Rain stopped and finally we were able to transfer to the daybeds! Perfect weather for a sunset view by the beach.

We had additional orders of French Fries Duo that has 2 flavors which were Truffle - garlic aioli and Sea salt - Ketchup. One ordered costs IDR 115, 000 (PHP 425.50). Classic Margarita  Pizza was also ordered that has fresh tomatoes, mozzarella, parmesan, and oregano rich tomato sauce. An ord.ered costs IDR 155, 000 (PHP 573.50)

Our W Bali: Woobar stay had a total bill of IDR 1,820,205.405 (PHP 6734.76) including tax and service charge. We ordered the following items for its price:

10 cocktails

1 slushy

Promo of Chicken Wings + Pizza + Unlimited Soda

1 Pizza

1 2-flavored fries

Food wise, every food we ordered were delicious and very appetizing. In terms of their cocktails, it was actually way better than in Motel Mexicola. Woobar’s cocktails has more alcohol taste compared to Motel Mexicola’s. The only cocktail we didn’t like was the Smoky Margarita.

Service at Woobar was excellent! ❤️ All of the staff were very friendly and accommodating to our needs. Upon giving us the menu, first thing they said was we didn't need to hurry up and just to take our time in ordering our food/drinks. A staff actually passed by our daybed to ask if we need anything and if we were enjoying our stay. He even had a little chat to know us a little like the country we came from, and if we were still students or working girls.

If I’ll give a rating for my whole experience at Woobar from 1 to 10, 10 being the highest, I’ll rate it at 100! 😂 My friends and I even want to go back to Seminyak just to experience and stay at their hotel.

Woobar was the place where we felt that every money you spent, were so worth it for its quality and quantity. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ To the Woobar staff last November 27, 2018 around 2 - 6pm, thank you for your excellent service! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Below is a vlog on our adventures for days 6 and 7 in Seminyak, Bali. Feel free to watch it!

*Conversion of IDR to PHP are rounded and used IDR 1 = PHP 0.0037

Other blog post related to Bali below: 🔗 BALI DAY 1 & 2 BLOG POST 🔗 BALI DAY 3 - 5 BLOG POST

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weird asks that say a lot

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? um I drink Soda but I Collect Mugs so...

2. chocolate bars or lollipops? Lolipops ;)

3. bubblegum or cotton candy? Cotton Candy

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? Depends on the which one...They’re were nice one’s and then there were The Bitches that threatened to Cut off your hair if you played with it or put it in your mouth while they were teaching...(Yeah that didn’t go over to well with My Mom lol)

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? Tumblers lol

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? Pastel,Goth or Grunge.

7. earbuds or headphones? headphones. earbuds hurt my ears.

8. movies or tv shows? Shows

9. favorite smell in the summer? idk...Flowers

10. game you were best at in p.e.? None lol um DodgeBall

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? Nothing,Sometimes Cereal.

12. name of your favorite playlist? On My Amazon Music it would be The Half God Half Devil one I made.

13. lanyard or key ring? I don’t use either. But Lanyards you can put Pins on so those.

14. favorite non-chocolate candy? Sweeties

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment? Dicey’s Song.

16. most comfortable position to sit in? with My legs up lol that sounds dirty

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes? My Black Boots

18. ideal weather? Warm but with a Breeze

19. sleeping position? on My side

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? Notebook

21. obsession from childhood? Sailor Moon

22. role model? Stephanie Mcmahon

23. strange habits? I need a clip to read with

24. favorite crystal? Amethyst

25. first song you remember hearing? Achy Breaky Heart 

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather? Yard sales

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather? Stay in lol

28. five songs to describe you? nah too hard

29. best way to bond with you? Have things in common with me lol it’s really easy to begin a friendship with me. Keeping it takes a bit more effort.

30. places that you find sacred? um Native Burial Grounds

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? lol I don’t have one

32. top five favorite vines? I’ve only watched Bat Dad

33. most used phrase in your phone? 

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? None I hate Ads

35. average time you fall asleep? Midnight

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing? No idea

37. suitcase or duffel bag? Duffel Bag

38. lemonade or tea? Tea

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? Cake

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? well one of My Male Teachers at one of My Middle Schools was hitting on a student and The Female principal threw a bottle at his head and then he was fired lol. at least that’s what I heard,I wasn’t actually there that day.

41. last person you texted? My BFF

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets? Jacket 

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? All of the above. But I’ve owned more Cardigans. even though I only have 1 atm.

44. favorite scent for soap? Cupcake

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? Superhero

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? PJ pants and a Tshirt

47. favorite type of cheese? any hard cheeses since I’m lactose intolerant

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? Watermelon lol idk

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses? 

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands? um soft lol

54. what did you learn from your first job? That I hate 9 to 5 Jobs lol

55. favorite fairy tale? Alice in Wonderland (Grimm versions)

56. favorite tradition? opening one present or our stockings on Christmas Eve.

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? My Sister Dying,Living with My Ex and his family,My Dad’s Alcohol and Drug problems.

58. four talents you’re proud of having? Dancing,Reading,Acting,Writing.

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? hmmm A Magical Girl one but similar to Madoka Magica lol

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to? I can’t think of them rn

63. five songs that would play in your club?

64. favorite website from your childhood? Xanga

65. any permanent scars? Yep

66. favorite flower(s)? Rose

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? Not a fan of Ramune or Sushi

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? what??

70. left or right handed? Right

71. least favorite pattern? Aztec 

72. worst subject? Math

73. favorite weird flavor combo? 

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? depends on where the pain is. I suppose a 5 or 8

75. when did you lose your first tooth? idr

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? Fries or Jo Jo’s aka potato wedges.

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? Coffee though I like neither.

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? ID lol

80. earth tones or jewel tones? Jewel

81. fireflies or lightning bugs? aren’t they the same??

82. pc or console? Console

83. writing or drawing? Writing

84. podcasts or talk radio? neither 

84. barbie or polly pocket? Barbie

85. fairy tales or mythology? Myths

86. cookies or cupcakes? Cookies

87. your greatest fear?

88. your greatest wish?

89. who would you put before everyone else?

90. luckiest mistake? 

91. boxes or bags? Bags

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? Fairy Lights

93. nicknames? Shelle,Shelly or Michie

94. favorite season? Spring

95. favorite app on your phone? You Tube 

96. desktop background? My Kids

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized? um one

98. favorite historical era? I’ve been watching Reign lately so I’d have to say The 16th Century even though I don’t think I’d want to live in that era.

Source:

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20 Questions

Shout out @biaswreckers-inc for tagging me~

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag some followers

Nicknames: My family calls me Nic or Nicky but pls no one else call me that lmao

Zodiac sign: Leo

Height: 5′7

Orientation: I am attracted to men

Nationality: American, but my father is Polish and my mother is Italian

Favorite Fruit: Oranges

Favorite Season: Summer and Fall

Favorite Book: Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

Favorite Flower: Tulips

Favorite Scent: Gasoline lol

Favorite Animal: Sharks

Favorite Color: Red, black, gray, white

Coffee, Tea, or Hot Cocoa?: COFFEE

Average Sleep Hours: 8+

Cat or Dog: Dogs make me nervous but on my good days I like to play with them, regardless of my feelings there is no doubt that dogs are the superior pet

Favorite Fictional Character: Light Yagami, Cristina Yang, Dexter Morgan, Frank Underwood

# of Blankets: Um..like, how many blankets I sleep with at night? 4

Dream Trip: Specifically, London and Paris. More broad, I love art history and would love to travel around Europe to see some of arts greatest. It would be nice to go to the vatican and see paintings like School of Athens and The Creation of Adam.

Blog Created: I think like June 3rd of this year?

Favorite song at the moment: Blem by Drake

Number of followers: 33, I’m a new blog pls cut me some slack

favourite bands: Dance Gavin Dance, Beartooth, Exo (besides kpop I listen to a lot of post-hardcore/metalcore bands)

favourite solo artists: Logic, Drake, Vinnie Paz, RA the Rugged Man (more than anything I listen to rap/hip hop, and I especially love underground rap)

song stuck in my head: Blem by Drake lmao

last movie i watched: I haven’t watched a movie in mad long tbh

last tv show i watched: Orange is the New Black

what stuff do you post: This is my kpop blog, I also have another blog where I post about fashion and luxury.

when did you blog reach its peak: Years ago I used to blog about the post-hardcore bands, I would make edits and it was pretty much my life lol

do you have any other blogs: Fashion/luxury @88nycx lmao peep that Jongin reference in my url

do you get asks regularly: Nah

why did you choose your url: Because Kim Jongin is perfect 

following: 191, but tbh I constantly follow people so that number is ever growing. If you blog about my boys I will follow you pretty much.

posts: 931

hogwarts house: I’ve never taken that long ass quiz that tells you your house but I’ve always identified with Ravenclaw lol

pokemon team: Idr the team I joined tbh I was the red one I think

lucky numbers: I dead ass don’t know what this means so I’m just going to say 88

what are you wearing right now: Pajamas because I’ve literally been babysitting my niece all day and have not left the house

dream job: Producer, rapper (lol), Lawyer, Homicide detective, Surgeon

I’m tagging @xiuminscheeks and @achenlove have fun yall peace love and kim jongin bye

[xxscarletsaintxx]

No one will bother to read this so why not p: 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? Yep
2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Yep 3. Have you taken someones virginity? Yyyyyyep
4. Is trust a big issue for you? YYyYyYyYyep
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? Nah
6. What are you excited for? Being a day closer to death
7. What happened tonight? I went to Disneyland
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? Nah, I'm usually really wasted right with them lol
9. Is confidence cute? Fuck yeah as long as it isn't vain or egotistical 
10. What is the last beverage you had? Haterade
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Maybe 1
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? Never in my life will I EVER asphyxiate my dick
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? Wallow in self-pity and go to the beach
14. What are you going to spend money on next? FOooOoOOoOD
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? Idr my last kiss if imma be honest lmao
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? Well we can pray right (atheist)
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? Literally no one ever 
18. The last time you felt broken? I think the correct question is when I last felt that I wasn't broken?
19. Have you had sex today? I FUXKIJG WISH... been in a mood all damn day 
20. Are you starting to realize anything? I'm a selfish piece of shit
21. Are you in a good mood? Wtf is a good mood
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? Hell mf yeah, lemme go skinny dipping covered in paper cuts rq 
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? No, his are blue mine are brown :((((
24. What do you want right this second? Sex sex sex, cuddles and weed
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? Good 4 u, were they good?
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Yessir
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? Don't underestimate my acting abilities, especially for a pretty face
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Genuinely? Probably my little sister...I'm not sure tbh
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? Myself
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? No
31. Honestly, do you hate the last girl you were talking to? Is this a trick question? I hate everyone 
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
Nah, I wouldn't call them feelings to begin with honestly, that's a little glorifying 
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? Ye lol
34. Listening to? My own cognitive processing of these questions 
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? Occasionally 
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? Nah
37. Do you believe in love at first sight? I don't believe in love period
38. Who did you last call? My pops
39. Who was the last person you danced with? A stranger
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? We were doing the sex
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Is this rly a question
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? Yes 
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? Ohhhh yeuh 
44. Do you tan in the nude? I'm already golden boi
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? Nope I'd make it last long so I could remember it bettter
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Nah
47. Who was the last person to call you? Dry af
48. Do you sing in the shower? If no ones home 
49. Do you dance in the car? Mf yes
50. Ever used a bow and arrow? Mf yes
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Nevah
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? If you mean gay then yes 53. Is Christmas stressful? It's boring 
54. Ever eat a pierogi? A pigeon? Tf?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Ur moms
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Bmx, Skater, Athlete, Musician
57. Do you believe in ghosts? Nah son
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Yeah 
59. Take a vitamin daily? No 
60. Wear slippers? Just socks 
61. Wear a bath robe? Nah 
62. What do you wear to bed? Comfy clothes 
63. First concert? Russ or Halsey not sure which came first
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Walmart 
65. Nike or Adidas? Just do it 
66. Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheat hoes
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts 
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? The one where she doesn't break up with somebody 
69. Ever take dance lessons? No 
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Sucking bomb dick (only mine tho)
71. Can you curl your tongue? Ye
72. Ever won a spelling bee? Ye
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? What's a happy?
74. What is your favorite book? The Dark Series (Dark Slayer maybe) 75. Do you study better with or without music? With it
76. Regularly burn incense? No 
77. Ever been in love? Lol
78. Who would you like to see in concert? Myself
79. What was the last concert you saw? Halsey or russ
80. Hot tea or cold tea? Hawt 81. Tea or coffee? T
82. Favorite type of cookie? Good kind 
83. Can you swim well? Eh 
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yeah
85. Are you patient? It greatly depends
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? Band 
87. Ever won a contest? I win everything 
88. Ever have plastic surgery? Nah
89. Which are better black or green olives? Neither 
90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Fuck yeah or else I'm not marrying lmao, I gotta know I'm 100% satisfied with the person I'm gonna spend the rest of my mf life with
91. Best room for a fireplace? Every room 
92. Do you want to get married? Idk, maybe one day when I'm more than what I am now...

[spidrmanz]

🌻rules: once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag.

thank you @obiwanenobi for tagging me!!

🌻 I’M TAGGING…

Literally anybody who wants to I swear

answers under the cut :^)

🌻LAST…

[1] drink: fruit punch

[2] phone call: my mom lol

[3] text message: “”yes lmao okay”

[4] song you listened to: out of my limit- 5sos

[5] time you cried: yikes a couple nights ago

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: yes… but it was in like 7th grade so does it count?

[7] been cheated on: no

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: nope (haven’t kissed anyone)

[9] lost someone special: yes

[10] been depressed: ive felt sad but not rly officially ?

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: nahh

🌻 LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS…

[12] light pink

[13] light blue

[14] pastel purple

🌻 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: yeaa

[16] fallen out of love: no ? idk

[17] laughed until you cried: yessss

[18] found out someone was talking about you: fucK yeah lmao what a story

[19] met someone who changed you: eh not rly i dont think

[20] found out who your true friends are: lmao yes

[21] kissed someone on your Facebook list: no ?

🌻 GENERAL…

[22] how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them except 1 ive never met them (its my cousin lmfao)

[23] do you have any pets: yea!! A puppers

[24] do you want to change your name: i used to but i learned to like my name

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: had 2 of my best friends come over and we chilled and made a song lol

[26] what time did you wake up: 11 ? i think

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: watching youtube videos

[28] name something you cannot wait for: DISNEY THIS SUMMER

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: shes a foot away from me so like right now

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: gimme a bf or a gf i

[31] what are you listening to right now: The Island on the TV

[32] have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i dont think so tbh,, wow

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: waiting

[34] most visited website: tumblr lmao

[35] elementary: ???? what ?????

[36] high school: im a junior rn and its not that bad hasnt been that bad idk im very eh about it im ready to be a senior

[37] college: not there yet but fu ck its too expensive i know

[38] hair colour: its black rn but my natural color is dark brown but im hoping to dye it light brown soon

[39] long or short hair: medium? But im gonna cut it

[40] do you have a crush on someone: hel l yes

[41] what do you like about yourself: good question (my eyes)

[42] piercings: two in my left ear, three in my right ear, i want my nose done

[43] blood type: O- or + i dont remember

[44] nickname: ally (a couple ppl call me al)

[45] relationship status: single dang

[46] zodiac sign: gemini

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav TV show: spn/teen wolf/bobs burgers

[49] tattoos: none but i wanT so bad i know what my first ones gonna be already

[50] right or left handed: right

🌻 FIRST…

[51] surgery: none

[52] piercing: my ears

[53] best friend: i think her name was Hayley

[54] sport: baseball or cheerleading idr

[55] vacation: disney world

[56] pair of trainers: idk what trainers are theyre either pants or shoes if theyre pants then idk probably baby sweatpants and if theyre shoes then idk probably like light up baby sketchers or something

🌻 RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: just ate a burrito but im aboutta eat some ice cream yeet

[58] drinking: nothing rn

[59] I’m about to: idk scroll on tumblr and watch this movie

[60] listening to: The Island

[61] waiting for: spring break

[62] want: a bf dang

[63] get married: i wanna but im in no rush rly (also im only 16 ndjshfsk)

[64] career: catch me w that best actress oscar!

🌻 WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs probs

[66] lips or eyes: omg i dont know,,,, lips

[67] shorter or taller: taller

[68] older or younger: older

[69] romantic or spontaneous: fucc spontaneous

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: SHOOT another hard question forearms are so good but abs r so !!!

[71] sensitive or loud: why not both?

[72] hook up or relationship: lma girl i tried that hookup thing it didnt work so relationship

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: dang,, troublemaker w limits and boundaries

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger: noo

[75] drank hard liquor: yes

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses: yes

[77] turned someone down: hAh yes

[78] sex on first date: ive never no

[79] broken someone’s heart: i really dont know

[80] had your own heart broken: yeaaa

[81] been arrested: no omg

[82] cried when someone died: yes

[83] fallen for a friend: sorta

🌻 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself: shoot man idk this is deep

[85] miracles: maybe

[86] love at first sight: not rly (i believe in attraction @ first sight which can lead to wanting to get to know someone)

[87] santa claus: not since i was like 9 lol

[88] kiss on the first date: depends on the person tbh

[89] angels: no

🌻 OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: i have a few but rn im gonna say Madelyn

[91] eye colour: green

[92] favourite movie: get ready,, catws, vacation, aotc, the jungle book (new) and eclipse are some

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #278

“they will seduce you, get through the door; then they bite you in the neck, leave you bleeding on the floor.”

Do you believe in dream symbolism? If so, do you ever look up what certain things in your dreams may mean? Some, yes, others, no. A lot just seem way too random to have stories behind them, but just as well, some dreams are obviously stemmed from our experiences, fears, desires, etc. Who was the last person who exploded on you? What was the reason? I have no idea, but probably Mom. Is there a certain name that keeps popping up in your life, like a name that many people you know have? No. What is something you have a "love/hate relationship" with? What do you hate about it, and what do you love about it? The first thing that comes to mind is technology. I grew up way too dependent on in despite my mom being a good mother that really tried to limit my time of it. It just never worked. Almost everything I do involves a computer. Through the Internet though, I’ve made spectacular friends, discovered great things (coughcoughmark), it helps me through depression and stuff… but I nevertheless hate how attached I am to it. Sometimes I feel like I’m so disconnected from the “real” world, “real” experiences, but then again, I also believe tech is a part of the “real” world. Idk how to really explain it; I have such mixed feelings. Do you like things that are cliché or not? What kinds of things that are regarded as "cliché" do you like? Sure, especially romantic cliches. I’m just such a sucker for that kind of stuff. What was the last quote you read somewhere, and who said it? “Speak your mind even if your voice shakes,” Ruth Ginsburg. We truly lost a hero. Have you heard any song mash-ups (when they put two or more different songs together) that you like? If so, which? Oh, quite a lot, I love those! The first one that comes to mind is “Centuries” by Fall Out Boy and “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in 2014? Well, this is old. But anyway, I had one. How often do you say ‘lol’ in a computer or text conversation? Quite a bit. Idk, it just changes the tone of what you’re speaking. Whose hoodie did you wear last? My own. Have you ever listened to music you hated just to fit in? Ha ha… not devoutly, but I’d explore “cool” metal bands to try to get into. I didn’t make myself listen to them if I didn’t like ‘em, though. What’s an interesting fact about you that not many people know? Hm. Well, I don’t consider it “interesting,” but very few people (besides the Internet lmao) know that I essentially stole my then-best friend’s boyfriend by mutual flirting to the point he broke up with her and wanted me instead. I cut that shit the fuck out once he told me he loved me. It’s one of the things I’m most ashamed of. What do you want to do after high school? I’m long past high school, and let’s just say things are NOT going as planned lmao. At all. I had such, such a different vision. Do you do anything embarrassing when no one is home? No. If you had the chance to move to a completely different state/country, would you? I deadass want to move to Canada but am unwilling to move so far from my family. How old were you when you stopped believing in Santa? I don’t know age; it’s funny, I tend to remember things by school grades versus my age. Even in this situation, though, I’m not positive. Towards the end of elementary school, maybe? Do you have any saved texts? Yes, from Sara and Ashley. Do you ever play online games with your friends? Which one(s)? Once upon a time, my friend/”big brother” Sam and I would play WoW together every day and just chill out over Skype. He helped keep me company during my worst depression. We haven’t played together in quite a long time, though. I should message him. Which emoji did you use most recently? The upside-down smiley face on Facebook. Who was the last person to cry in your presence? Mom, probably. Or one of my nieces or nephew. Do any of your friends have small children? Yes. One of my closest friends had her son not even two weeks ago. Do you ever wear accessories in your hair? Which ones? No. What kind of fruit do you like? A good chunk of it. Strawberries, apples, grapes, pineapple, bananas, peaches… Is there anything you've always wanted to do that you've never told anyone? *shrugs* Maybe. Do you flush the toilet with your hand or your foot? ”I use my hand at home and in other people’s bathrooms, but I use my foot in public washrooms.” <<<< Same. What is your Myers-Briggs Type Indicator? (Ex: ENTP): INFP. Do you read any blogs? If so, which ones? No. Would you rather have curvy legs or skinny legs? I’d prefer to have an in-between. What is your favorite game show? Family Feud with Steve Harvey. How many times a day do you use the restroom? Hm. Depends on how much I drink. What was the last thing that made you cringe? Idr. What is your favorite ‘80s movie? I’m not sure, given how I don’t tend to recognize movies by decades. Do you have your own car? No. I don’t drive. Who was the last person who drew you a picture? I commissioned someone on deviantART to draw My Child Jaw and it is so FUCKING beautiful. Would you rather hold a scorpion or a snake? I love snakes, so guess. How do you usually get your exercise? I don’t, but that’s going to change when we FINALLY fuckin move. I’m going to walk as much as I possibly can because we have a sidewalk. Who are your godparents? Idk if I even have any. Are any of your siblings married? Three are and one is engaged. What does your phone case look like, if you have one? It came with a plain purple one. What is something you can draw really well? I think I’m pretty good at meerkats. Best field trip experience? The zoo in the 5th grade. One and only time I’ve seen meerkats irl. What is the most amount of money you’ve spent on a meal before? Idr. It’s very rare I can pay for anything because I don’t have an income, but with gifted money and stuff, it was probably when I paid for my mom and I to eat at Olive Garden. I don’t recall how much it was, but OG isn’t cheap, so. Who was (or is) the teacher that gave you the hardest time in school? Idk. I had good teachers. What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen outside of your house? I don’t know. Nothing exciting. Do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people? Not really, no. There are cases where I do, like if I take too big a bite or something, but generally I don’t. Everyone has to eat. What is the worst thunderstorm you’ve experienced? I recall one in particular during my era of being terrified of them when we were on the way home from a friend’s house and there was INSANE lightning. I was crying so much in the back seat. I think I have experienced worse ones, that’s just the one I remember because of how much it terrified me. How quickly can you write an essay? Pretty damn quickly once I get into the groove of it. Have you ever had problems falling asleep in class? No. What bug frightens you most? Oh yikes, idk. A lot of bugs scare me, honestly, particularly if they surprise me. Probably rhinoceros beetles. Are your parents supportive of you? Very. Have you ever participated in a mock trial, or a real trial? No. Have you ever had sex in someone else’s bed/bedroom? lol oops Have you ever had sex on your bedroom floor? How about your living room floor? YIKES this survey getting frisky but anyway idk. When you kiss someone, do you like to play with their hair? Yeah. Do you regret sleeping with anyone? No. Do you ever brush your hair before you go to bed? No…? Your hair is just gonna get messy while sleeping. Have you ever asked anyone out? Do you prefer to do the asking out, or wait to see if the other person will ask? Yes. I don’t really have a preference. Have your parents ever disapproved of anyone you had a relationship with? Not to my knowledge. When’s the last time you ran? HUNNY Brittany doesn’t RUN. Have you ever stayed online for a long time waiting for someone? Oh yes, I did that A LOT with Mini back when we were younger and RPed together like every day. Who or what sleeps with you? Roman, my cat. Would you wear a boy/girlfriend’s clothes? I somehow wound up with quite a few of Jason’s pj pants?????? But anyway yeah sure, I would. If it fit, anyway. Do you return your cart? I am a lazy person. But not that lazy. Do it. What noise do you hear? I’m currently listening to NateWantsToBattle’s cover of “Feel Good Inc.” Would you survive in prison? No. No. I know I’d try to commit suicide. Do you remember the last movie you saw while on a date? The IT remake with Girt. Have you ever cheated on someone? No sir. Do you kiss on the first date? I never have, but not saying I wouldn’t. BUT I most likely would not just because I reserve kisses for someone I really, really like. Usually by the first date I wouldn’t know that yet. Are you into sports? Nope. Have you ever used your bra to hold things like you would a pocket? HAHA I don’t think so. Who knows a secret about you that no one else does? My ex-therapist. What is your longest relationship to date? 3 ½ years. Who ended the last relationship you were in? It was brought up by her, but it came to be a mutual decision. Have you ever gotten back with an ex? No. Who was your first prom date? Jason. Have you ever dated someone more than three years older than you? For less than a day. Have you ever been used? I don’t think so. Do you like when I guy takes you by surprise and kisses you? This is making quite a few assumptions, but anyway, if we’re in a stable relationship, generally yes. It’s cute. Would you be more likely to date a redneck or a goth? My dream partner would be a goth, hnnnnnnnnGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Has anyone ever sung to you? Yes. Do you like massages? EW don’t touch me like that unless you’re my s/o. Have you ever been skinny dipping? No. When was the last time you spent the night at someone else's house? The last time I was at Sara’s. What scares you more, spiders or snakes? Spiders. Does it matter if a guy has a sense of humor? If he’s a romantic interest, yeah. Would you ever get implants? No. Have you ever had a crush on a sibling's friend? No. Have you ever dated someone with a child? No. I’m quite sure I wouldn’t. Have you ever dated someone of another race? For less than a day. Have you kissed anyone today? No. What was the last topic you read about? I beliiieeeve… Metallica’s new album. Have you ever participated in a fundraising campaign? I think? Again, I don’t have an income though so I’m unsure. Do you know how to knit? No. What’s your go-to order from KFC? I don’t go there. What was the last album you listened to in full? Oh man, there’s no telling. I generally don’t do that. Do you use pepper to season your food? Sure, that’s a common enhancement. Do you know anyone who has an unusual pet? Probably somebody. Have you ever known anyone who was homeless? My mother, Nicole, and I technically were at one point, we just had spectacular people let us live with them until we got a new place. Did you have a treehouse when you were younger? No. One does not simply build a treehouse in pine trees. Have you ever played Magic: The Gathering? Guys. Guys. For many many months now I’ve been dying to and idk why. That game was one of Jason’s favorite things in the world and so he taught me it how to play, though I never fully got it because there are a LOT of rules. When I had my PS3, I had one of the Duels of the Planeswalkers games, and I miss that shit. What are your thoughts on role playing games? Fun fun. What is a band you can't stop listening to right now? I’ve been seriously into 3TEETH lately, as well as Solence. Have you ever had a panic attack? LOTS!!!!!!!! Have you ever entered a talent competition? Naw, I don’t have an exceptional talent. Are you indecisive? Ridiculously so. Are you smiling in your Facebook profile picture? It’s actually one of my brightest smiles I’ve ever taken a selfie with. I look way happier than I am lmaooo. Describe your hometown. What's it like there? Small, notoriously dangerous. Do you have any expensive hobbies? You could say photography given the various lenses and other materials available, plus editing software subscriptions. What is the oldest online account that you still use? My email, probably. What was the last video game you beat? I wanna say it was the last time I replayed Silent Hill 2. Long time ago. What's your favorite Studio Ghibli film? I actually haven’t seen any. Have you ever been really passionate about something but then lost interest? If so, what was it? Yeah, sure, like various entertainers/bands/musicians, TV shows…

[dinafbrownil]

Sickened By Billing Abuses, Readers And Tweeters Stand Up For Patients’ Rights

Letters to the Editor is a periodic feature. We welcome all comments and will publish a selection. We edit for length and clarity and require full names.

Private Equity Predators?

First of all, let me thank you for writing about such an important issue (“Investors’ Deep-Pocket Push To Defend Surprise Medical Bills,” Sept. 11). I am going to tell you about my personal pain regarding surprising medical billing.

They can call themselves Doctor Patient Unity group or any other fancy name, but the reality is that they are all predators. I say this because I am the victim of these doctors groups. I work as a linguist with the U.S. Army and have top-secret clearance. I could lose my clearance if any of my bills go to a collections agency.

I had appendix surgery on Nov. 6, 2018, at the Davis Medical Center in Layton, Utah. The surgeon had told me that my surgery would take only 10 to 15 minutes. After two hours of surgery, I was released from the hospital and sent home. My insurer, CIGNA, paid all the Davis hospital bills and I paid my portion of the bills. Then in March 2019, I received two separate doctor’s bills totaling about $48,000. My insurance was not paying the doctor’s bills because they were out-of-network. The doctor’s office kept sending me letters to pay $48,000 from my pocket; if I did not pay, I was told, my bills would be sent to collections.

Finally, I received a letter from the collections agency saying that if I did not pay $26,770, it would send the information to the credit agencies. Can the Doctor Patient Unity group tell me what I should do? Should I lose my clearance and my job because I cannot afford to pay $26,770? Should I borrow money from the bank and then pay high interest to the bank for the rest of my life?

— Aziz Rehman, Kaysville, Utah

This is a very misleading article. Many independent physicians speaking out want IDR to solve the problem of outliers and take patients #OutOfTheMiddle. Insurance-backed lobbyists are using this issue as a #TrojanHorse to enrich corporate shareholders at expense of physicians.

— Amy Mecozzi Cho, MD MBA (@amychomd) September 12, 2019

On Twitter, Dr. Amy Mecozzi Cho of Minneapolis diagnosed holes in the article. For example, she told KHN, “the contracted rates for insurance are misleading since our bad debt for patients with high-deductible insurance is greater than 60% of their deductible, but insurance companies won’t bill them because they know this. And so our effective rates for commercial insurance are actually much lower than contracted. The medical loss ratio and the CBO estimates are not capturing these costs to patients and physicians.”

Religious Malpractice

My sister, a hospital chaplain (of Roman Catholic faith), informs me that it’s considered chaplain malpractice to try to force a patient to cope with suffering in the exact way others think they should (“Firing Doctor, Christian Hospital Sets Off National Challenge To Aid-In-Dying Laws,” Aug. 30). It would follow, then, that a hospital’s requiring staff to “help” patients “appreciate the Christian understanding of redemptive suffering” is a paternalistic dismissal of patient integrity and a form of malpractice. The medical relationship is between the patient and the doctor, not the patient and the Vatican.

— Gloria Kohut, Grand Rapids, Mich.

Many hospitals in India are controlled by religious organisations (Hindu, Jain, Christian, Muslim) Are they also as intolerant to differences in one's approach to what is ethical in medical practice as the Christian hospital in this case? https://t.co/Nzy6JN348B

— Amar Jesani (@amarjesani) September 8, 2019

— Amar Jesani, Mumbai, India

It’s unfathomable that students with disabilities can’t get the aid they need to attend college and live in the community! Bravo to this Stanford freshman for fighting for services. It’s past time for readily available help for students! #DisabilityRightshttps://t.co/EuVnUzEX8b

— Areva Martin, Esq. (@ArevaMartin) September 2, 2019

— Areva Martin, Los Angeles

Squeezing The Most Out Of Student Aid

I saw Jenny Gold’s excellent article in the Los Angeles Times about a disabled student’s need for assistance as she starts school at Stanford (“Spotlight: A Young Woman, A Wheelchair And The Fight To Take Her Place At Stanford,” Sept. 4). I wanted you to be aware that the Department of Rehabilitation in California pays for additional expenses for students to train them for future employment. This includes laptops, supplies, transportation expenses, necessary expenses. They might also pay for expenses for care above and beyond the approval of the state Department of Health Care Services.

All students face the issue of how to support themselves while in college. Stanford’s lovely gift of education for all who are accepted is often not used due to the high expenses of that area. Many students are unable to afford college, even with a full scholarship.

Those who have paid their way with student loans and are now employed in high service areas, such as medicine, psychiatry, social services and teaching, are strapped with lifetime payments. Our best and our brightest who serve our communities are in debt to the point where their income barely pays their lifetime of student loans. Sylvia Colt-Lacayo’s situation may have more expenses, but the debt of $2,000 a month is not unique for a full-time university student.

— Teresa L. Pardini, LMFT, Creativity in Counseling, Nipomo, Calif.

This young woman got 4.25 GPA & a full ride to Stanford despite never drinking ANYTHING at school so she wouldn't have to pee, bc that's what it takes for ♿ kids to excel in an abled world. That she still has to fight for care should infuriate you.https://t.co/B9vH1c1ATK

— Sonja Sharp (@sic_sonja) September 3, 2019

— Sonja Sharp, Los Angeles

A Heroine In The Opioid Fight

Please thank this wonderful, dedicated and tough woman (“Longtime Crusader Against OxyContin Begins To See The Fruits Of Her Struggle,” Sept. 17). That criminal company and every single member of the Sackler family had been well aware of the entire scam for decades, but they kept their mouths shut, turned their heads, denied everything and couldn’t care less since they were stuffing their individual pockets with hundreds of millions of dollars for each member of that large family. Every dollar should be clawed back from each family member. They’re laughing all the way to the Sackler Wing of 20-plus museums around this planet.

— David Padawer, Pittsburgh

As the father of a recovering opioid addict I see Barbara's efforts and passion for accountability is so heroic. The loss of her son is so terrible….

— Dave (@dwpena) September 17, 2019

— Dave Pena, Roseville, Calif.

Senior Hunger And Pangs Of Conscience

I’ve been a medic for over 20 years. I have patients that have to pick between eating or taking their medications. It’s disgraceful. We need to have articles like this written every day (“Starving Seniors: How America Fails To Feed Its Aging,” Sept. 3). Thank you.

— Eric Johnson, Marana, Ariz. 

Many hospital stays are for ppl w complications of starvation and malnutrition – confusion/delirium, dangerous electrolyte imbalances in salt, sugar, potassium

We need programs for starving People.

How America Fails To Feed Its Aging https://t.co/gv6Z8HnqZH @khnews

— Tina Chee, MD, MPA (@Tina_Chee_MD) September 3, 2019

— Dr. Tina Chee, New York City

I’m 68, a widower, disabled after two open-heart surgeries, with no family left. The last person to visit me at home was the yearly home health care nurse, back in February.

I am just like the people in your article: old, worn-out and forgotten. After a lifetime of work, I get by on a check that’s half of what a minimum-wage worker flipping burgers might make at $15 an hour. I can barely afford to eat the burgers now. No one, no insurance company, no politician is trying to help seniors out of poverty.

My biggest fear is dying and my little dogs being left alone for weeks or months to die before anyone finds me. Having moved to a rural area after my wife died, people don’t warm up fast to outsiders. It’s awful not to speak to anyone for years — yep, years — outside of cashiers. Just letting you know there are a lot of us out here.

— Rick Wrenn, Mount Carmel, Tenn.

What happens when the system designed to protect millions of seniors facing starvation is broken? The Older Americans Act is one critical piece holding many local Meals on Wheels programs together. We need you to ask… https://t.co/eicvq9gRln

— Chapa Arts & Photog. (@Berrysicles) September 12, 2019

— Maria De Jesus Chapa, Houston

Double Checking Fact-Check Facts

As the chairman of Physicians for Fair Coverage (PFC), I have joined doctors around the country in working to protect patients from surprise medical bills. I am writing now to set the record straight on the implications of various federal policies under debate in Congress. Not only did KHN’s recent article (“Doctors Argue Plans To Remedy Surprise Medical Bills Will ‘Shred’ The Safety Net,” Aug. 7) overlook research from the American Journal of Managed Care, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, and the Congressional Budget Office, it created a myopic interpretation of our argument in order to label it as “false,” which resulted in an inaccurate conclusion with respect to a complex issue that deserves a thorough, data-driven and factual examination.

According to the CBO, a benchmarking approach would cut payments to in-network physicians by as much as 20%. This translates into tens of billions of dollars shifted away from in-network physicians who are not sending surprise bills over the next decade. Emergency physicians treat all patients regardless of their insurance status. As a result, 70% of their patients are uninsured, seniors or poor families and children. Therefore, there is no practical difference between reducing commercial insurance payments and reducing Medicaid or Medicare rates. KHN’s own previous case study found that contributing factors to hospital closures include “high uninsured rates and a payer mix dominated by Medicare and Medicaid.” So, a benchmarking policy would create even larger disparities in quality and access to care over time for vulnerable populations.

Others agree that commercial payments play a critical role in supporting the care of America’s most vulnerable patients, including: American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, American College of Emergency Physicians, American College of Radiology, America’s Essential Hospitals, American Hospital Association, American Medical Association, Association of American Medical Colleges, Catholic Health Association of the United States, Children’s Hospital Association and Federation of American Hospitals.

Instead of speaking with health care experts to better understand how reimbursement dynamics and patient access are inextricably linked in today’s economy, this article relied exclusively on the opinions of two biased research fellows who advocate for the very policy that our ad opposes and whose statements are misleading at best. The assessment also disregards a quote from the California Medical Association describing a lack of available anesthesiologists under California’s benchmarking approach.

PFC’s mission is to protect patients from surprise medical bills. That is why, this year alone, we helped drive constructive compromises that produced new laws in Texas, Colorado, Nevada and Washington. Similarly, at the federal level, we support legislation that uses a proven independent dispute resolution model to protect patients without disrupting responsible, in-network practices. To further protect patients, it’s important that Congress does not create an even larger public health issue with respect to the safety net while fixing the real issue of surprise bills.

— Dr. Sherif Zaafran, Washington, D.C.

When I traveled around the state last fall, Kansans made it clear that Medicaid expansion is a high priority. I'm going to do everything in my power to ensure this will be the year we will finally expand Medicaid in Kansas. #RebuildingKansashttps://t.co/gg7BXeopMp

— Laura Kelly (@LauraKellyKS) September 6, 2019

— Gov. Laura Kelly, Topeka, Kan.

Infected With Advocacy

Your story about Medicaid expansion fails to attempt any serious description of the reasons for opposition to this expansion (“How Political Maneuvering Derailed A Red State’s Path To Medicaid Expansion,” Sept. 6). The reader is left with the clear impression that opponents are ill-informed, parsimonious, uncaring of others (especially the poor) or all of the above. There is no suggestion that such opposing might be in good faith. You really can do better than this. You insult the intelligence of your readers when you fail to deliver the whole story in a fair and evenhanded manner so they can decide for themselves. There is enough “us vs. them” in current media. Don’t drag it into health care. If you want to take positions on important health care issues, please create an editorial page; don’t infect your “news” with those positions. And no, I’m not a Republican. I’m an independent tired of constant advocacy in the media disguised as news. Thank you.

— Geoff Hargreaves-Heald, Lincoln, Mass.

Two (not shocking, maybe disappointing) takeaways: – Citizen intent matters little if a few state actors know how to work the system. – Nothing works better than high medical bills for getting middle class voters to empathize with Medicaid recipients.https://t.co/JxHaho26pU

— Juhyung Sun (@JuhyungSun) September 6, 2019

— Juhyung Sun, Tucson, Ariz.

Why Prescribed Weight Loss Is Ill-Advised

What the author of the article dismissing the opinion of the dietitian who claimed stigma and yo-yo dieting cause more harm than obesity itself failed to mention is that, for many people, how weight might contribute to the development of physical illnesses is immaterial (Obesity Stigma And Yo-Yo Dieting, Not BMI, Are Behind Chronic Health Conditions, Dietitian Claims, Sept. 17). The prescription to lose weight, in and of itself, is damaging. Most dieters regain 100% or more of weight lost within five years. Additionally, people who are told to lose weight and subsequently diet are at significantly increased risk for body dissatisfaction, bingeing, disordered eating and eating disorders.

Health is not just physical health. Descartes invented mind-body dualism in a thought experiment in the 1600s. It is an idea that permeates modern culture and medicine to this day. However, we are not separate from our minds. Our mental health is not separate from our “true” health.

Obesity may or may not cause illness. If the process of losing weight creates more illness in the form of shame and eating disorders as well as health care avoidance, then continuing to blindly recommend it is irresponsible. The recommendation to diet should be made with an informed consent process. “Being overweight may put you at risk of developing X, Y and Z. I am recommending caloric restriction to remedy that. Caloric restriction is known to be ineffective in the long term, and puts you at risk of developing an eating disorder or of weighing more than you do now. The alternative to caloric restriction is to thoughtfully examine obstacles to your access of whole, nutritious foods, whether they be financial, psychological or otherwise.

“Compassionately adopting a diet that over time puts more colors on your plate and replaces processed foods with whole foods may in itself lead both to weight loss and decreased risk of chronic medical conditions. Additionally, finding a way to increase your physical activity, such that the activity is associated with joy and self-care, will also be protective against chronic conditions and may contribute to weight loss. However, if at any point weight loss becomes the goal rather than the logical outcome of sustainable changes, then we are back at the dieting step, with all its consequent risks.”

It doesn’t matter whether obesity causes illness. Deliberately losing weight is an ineffective approach to addressing what may or may not be a problem, and additionally causes harm. Let us guide patients toward what they have control over: food choices and increased activity, and let go of the number, not because it doesn’t influence health, but because focusing on it is ineffective and counterproductive.

If a formerly obese person is now skinny but miserable, hungry, obsessive, depressed and food-preoccupied because that’s what we evolved to do in the context of weight loss, why is that better? Any solution has to respect mental and physical health outcomes, or it is not truly a health-based recommendation.

— Dr. Sarah O’Neil, Boston

This article ignores the massive growing body of evidence around #weightstigma, argues against just two pieces @chr1styharrison put forward, then just uses quotes from experts to rebuff this claim and not evidence and the use of an odd metaphor about carrots.

— Kerry (she/her) (@HAEScoach) September 18, 2019

— Kerry Beake, Mandurah, Australia

Summer Camp Rehab — Or Torture?

The article “At This Summer Camp, Struggling With A Disability Is The Point” (Aug. 13) portrays what you describe as “necessary” but what many of us adults with disabilities remember as rehab torture — traumatic memories of painful so-called therapy with questionable or no demonstrable results. Even if the program had results, many of us would have chosen not to experience the pain. It’s old-style rehab of pretending it isn’t torturous and “we know what’s best for you.” This sort of rehab was vehemently rejected by disability activists years ago. It’s too bad adults who experienced this kind of therapy weren’t consulted. I believe few of them would describe this in positive terms. It’s not a new concept: If you work hard, with pain, you can become independent! So if you can manage to dress yourself in four hours and get ready for bed in three hours, you’re independent and met the goals set for you, even though you’re so tired you can’t enjoy the remaining few hours of your day. Most adults with disabilities would set a goal of having a quality of life over being independent. This was a very biased story and should have been more balanced from very different perspectives, especially from those with disabilities.

— RoAnne Chaney, executive director of the Michigan Disability Rights Coalition, East Lansing, Mich.

SUMMER CAMP FOR KIDS WITH DISABILITIES! There should be more camps just like this one! This Nashville camp was started for kids who have disabilities that require physical therapy, and the camp counselors turn the exercises into games! https://t.co/F2uMFpSSLs

— D'Amore Injury Law (@DAmoreInjuryLaw) July 31, 2019

— Tom von Alten, Boise, Idaho

Prescribing A ‘Deep-Dive’ Into Hospital Excesses

I think KHN Editor-in-Chief Elisabeth Rosenthal’s piece on hospital excesses is right on the mark (“Analysis: How Your Beloved Hospital Helps To Drive Up Health Care Costs,” Sept. 5). I was affiliated with a New York City hospital as a voluntary internist and retired four years ago. I wonder if it would be possible to do a “deep dive” analysis of a representative hospital’s charges and expenditures (several New York hospitals come to mind as candidates) by an investigative reporting group. I suspect there is a lot of money being spent that does not enhance patient quality of care (i.e., excessive numbers of administrators getting egregious salaries). I think you’ve discussed the salient reasons these contributing cost factors have not been widely discussed or debated ― but they must be.

I remember a news story about a patient who bought his artificial hip implant in the U.S. wholesale and, to save money, took it with him to Belgium to have it inserted. The hospital looked like a factory, and he was reluctant to go in — but he did, and as it turned out everything went well and he saved a lot of money!

― Dr. Lawson Moyer, New York City

from Updates By Dina https://khn.org/news/september-letters-readers-and-tweeters-patient-rights/