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"#yes yes yes!!!! #and ngl it makes me want to read or engage with it more too!"
i hope it's ok to point out these tags bc this is SUCH a huge mood i think deserves a little more explanation!!!! (at least from my perspective as both a creator (writer) and fan (of artists))
i used to have a ton of anxiety when creating and especially sharing my works, and my impulse was always to talk down on it, because a) i* (*my anxiety) believed it to be bad, and b) because i had this idea in my head that if i lowered people's expectations, they wouldn't be as disappointed when reading it.
i want to tell you what i've learned in my years of both being a writer and being a fan of artists, and it's that this is a terrible, terrible anxiety fallacy (like so many ideas/misconceptions borne of anxiety are) that ONLY hurts you, your work, and your potential readers(/fans/etc). it SOUNDS like a good idea when you have really bad anxiety, i know, i used to DEPEND upon this idea just to have the courage to SHARE my writingāand i want to emphasize that it's OKAY if you've done this before, it's an easy, easy trap to fall into, but i also want you to try and stop doing it because there are a lot of reasons you would feel better and do better for doing so.
you are what you practice! if you only ever focus on or speak about the flaws in your art, you WILL feel negatively about your art. my very first therapist explained it in a way that still really resonates with me: you have created a well-beaten, highly trafficked "road" in your brain. it is very easy to take this road because even though it's longer to your destination, it winds and bends, it's walked on so much it's flat and easy to traverse. when you try to build a NEW pathāin this case, a path where you focus on what you like about your artāyou're starting with no path at all. it's all undergrowth and vines and thorns and it hurts and it's tiring and you feel like this will NEVER be easier or feel better than the old path. but you have to keep taking the new one. you have to beat down the undergrowth until it recedes, cut down the low-hanging branches until you can walk with your back straight, and if you keep at it, if you keep at this thing that feels so pointless and stupid and hard, eventually, the path will be clear, and easy to walk, and you'll make great time getting to your destination because it cuts straight through; no winding or bending. and the old path? it will overgrow, and it will become hard and stupid to take. you have to beat the new path because once it's beaten, it'll be the far superior path in every way, including ways the old path was never superior even when it WAS the one you were always taking.
furtherāas these tags point out, and as i agree with wholeheartedlyāby disparaging your art, you DO lower people's expectations. people don't want to be sad, frustrated, disappointed when they look at artāat least, not unless the art itself is trying to tell a story about that. you get what i mean, i hopeāthey don't want to go INTO something they already HAVE negative reviews onāyour reviews! you, the creator, have already told this person the story/art/whatever is going to be bad, and i know, i KNOW it's not your intention, you're hoping someone will see through what you can't and tell you no, no, this is good, i liked this! and some people do! but you make it a lot harder for them TO do that when you tell them right at the beginning, "this is going to be bad, i don't like it," because what you're unintentionally telling them is, "and you probably won't like it either." the first way i learned this was in people always saying in their fanfic summaries, before you even open the fic, "the summary is bad, i'm bad at writing summaries, the story is better trust me bro." because what this doesāagain, so unintentionally, i KNOW what you're trying to do because i've been youāis you're telling the reader, "here's my pitch, here's the hook to my entire story, it's the worst part, it's bad, but the rest will be better," and what they KNOW is they've already put the time in reading the summary, and it's hard to commit MORE time to something when you've already told them it's bad, even if you promise the rest is better. it's like biting into a fruit and you hate the taste of the skin; it's harder to try the rest of the fruit when, so far, it's been bad (or you've been made to believe it's bad).
so what's the solution? how do you begin beating that new path? well, it depends on you. everyone's a little different in how they navigate stuff like this. but what worked for me, and what might be a good place to start (and by all means adapt as you figure out what works and what doesn't), is start by just NOT saying anything negative. no, "i don't like this," or "the summary's bad, sorry," or anything. write your artist's comment, author's note, whatever as normal, and REMOVE anything that depicts your art/writing/etc in a bad light. just don't give people any opinion whatsoever on what experiencing your creation is going to be like. this, for me, was easier than jumping straight to, "i'm pretty proud of this," or "i enjoyed working on this," because it wasn't withholding AND replacing, it was JUST withholding. going back to the roads and paths metaphor, i think of this part as the "taking a breather before i get to work on this monumental task of beating this new path" stage.
then, overtime, i started "stretching" my positive comments about my works. if i liked, say, TWO LINES out of a whole piece of writing, i'd say, "i'm really proud of this work!" because i AM proud of ANYTHING AT ALL, NO MATTER HOW SMALL, within the work. it's not a LIE, to anyone including yourself, but it is, perhaps, an EXAGGERATION. that's OKAY. we're trying to teach our brain to look on the bright side, to take the new path, and i've found that treating it a little bit like a dogāgiving it a treat for ANY TINY BIT OF PROGRESS, was a good way to encourage myself to start making MORE progress. ESPECIALLY because the tags i reposted above are RIGHT: LOTS of people are MORE interested in a work when their very first impression (YOUR impression!!!) is positive. 'the artist/writer/etc is proud of this? oh, i'm so glad they had a good time creating, let's take a look!" it probably sounds too easy if you're still taking that anxiety-beaten road, i know, but try to think of how you've felt when someone disparages their creations versus uplifts them. were you put off by the negativity? were you sad that your friend worked so hard on something and didn't even like it? conversely, doesn't it make you a little excited when an artist says they really feel good about something they made, especially in a world where so many artists ARE feeling inadequate? i hope you see what i mean.
it's not an overnight thing, of course, this took me YEARS. this took a miracle that doesn't happen to most people: i wrote something i felt SO TERRIFIED people wouldn't like, even though i was secretly very proud of it (but too scared to dare suggest i was proud of it), so i indicated all kinds of things like "i hope you like it, i dunno if it's any good, it's just a little thing i'm chipping away at in my spare time" (it was not, it was a full-blown passion project) and, against the odds, a LOT OF PEOPLE told me they really really really liked it. a couple of friends who were decently popular in the fandom it was for liked and shared it and i got A LOT of encouragement. i basically got to beat my new path with a HORDE of helpers, and it was more like THEY beat the path for me and i chased along like, "what is happening, oh my god, what are you doing???"
i got really lucky. that doesn't always, or even usually happen. in most other areas of my life, i've had to beat the path myself. and it takes a long time if you're doing it on your own. but you should anyway, because it's so fucking worth it dude. yeah, it was awesome to get so much help with my writing confidence specifically, but it's been just as worth it every time i've had to do it alone too. and i have good news! there ARE ways to tell people you're on this journey of making yourself a new path. here are some suggestions:
"i'm new/rusty at this, so please let me know what you think!" - informs potential readers/viewers/etc you are learning and gives them an opportunity to HELP you learn. this is a positive interaction! this allows people to find a GOOD experience EVEN if they didn't enjoy the story much, because they can help, and people DO, MOSTLY, like to help.
"i want to improve at [dialogue]" or "i'd appreciate advice on [lighting]." - similar to the first example, but does 2 things: gives viewers specific instructions that can be really helpful for those that aren't sure how/what to critique (surprisingly common thing; the more specific you are about what you want advice on, the more likely you are to GET advice), AND allows you to, neutrally and non-disparagingly, ask for help in areas you don't feel confident about.
"leave a comment if you liked it!" or "let me know what you liked best!" - listen. i don't think 'fishing for compliments' is bad as long as you're not being manipulative about it. these examples are very clear in what they're asking for, which is compliments, positive reviews, etc. and that's okay!!! first of all, lots of people LOVE praising works they like, i promise, and asking them to DOES make them feel like they have "permission" to (i know that sounds silly but i also know if you have anxiety about creating, you have anxiety about commenting, i see you, i was you). secondly, i have gotten the MOST encouraging, confidence-boosting comments this way, especially with the latter example. there is NOTHING more immediately anxiety-curing than a comment that says "i liked [scene/dialogue/character/etc] specifically." it's AMAZING. (also, if you're looking for advice on commenting, this is a GREAT thing to do. imo, this and "speculating/interpreting the work" are the two coolest comments i get they make me feel AWESOME.)
remind yourself, as many times as you have to, CONSTANTLY if you have to: likes/kudos mean someone enjoyed your work enough to press a button. views mean someone liked your work enough to click through for more. these are POSITIVE interactions, they are not "less positive" than comments or reblogs/reshares. i know those last two things are more obviously gratifying, and depending on if you NEED your work to spread (for exposure/commision prospects/etc), very good, awesome ways to support you, and i don't mean to say you shouldn't WANT comments and reblogs/reshares. but for me, it's helped me a lot to recognize that any bit of effort whatsoever means someone LIKED my work. it's also helped me to think of all the times i've shared a link to an artwork in a discord or something, and know that there is an entire, untangible metric i can't and will never see that, sure, i can choose to believe doesn't exist or isn't very high, but i can ALSO choose to believe it happens quite a lot, and the latter makes me FEEL better about my work and makes me want to create MORE, so i think that's the more productive mindset personally. it doesn't matter what the truth is, you know? we'll never know it and it doesn't harm us to never know it. but it DOES harm us to assume no one quietly, unseen by us, likes our work, and it DOES ENCOURAGE US to assume lots of people do.
here's the thing: anxiety disorders fuck you up by making you believe extremely negative, scary, depressing things. the disorder gets worse the more you allow it to make you believe these things, and the only way out, as stupid and hard and at times impossible as it feels, is to say, "no, i don't like that interpretation, i'm going to replace it with a positive one." anxiety is making paths all throughout your brain, and you have to just, make paths too. anxiety needs YOU to make paths, but YOU don't need anxiety to make paths. your paths WILL be better, safer, easier and happier. you justāand i know that is the biggest "just" everāhave to make them.
but i believe in you. i don't need to know you or your circumstances to believe in you. i believe in the sheer amount of control you have over how you face the world. and it's so much more than anxiety would lead you to believe.
i looooove seeing artists & writers proud of their work!!!!! i looooove captions & authors notes that say things like āiām quite happy with thisā āi love how this turned outā āi had so much fun making thisā!!!!!! i loooooove when the act of creation is joyful & we take pride in what we make!!!!!!!!!!
#yoshi talks#this is so important to me and those tags really resonated with me and reminded me of my own journey into getting to that point a lot#most of all: keep creating. and keep beating paths.#<3
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Why is Ace perfect in the simp book?
Portgas D. Ace
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"Why is Ace perfect in the simp book?"
Well, we can put Ace in different personalities and play around with him like that. . . . . Let me explain.
So Portgas D. Ace is a character who is rich in character traits, for example.
Goofy, a little dumb, childish: These character traits can we get from him thanks to some instances when he is, but also from his similarity to Luffy.
Thanks to that, we writers and authors can picture and paint him up as such without a bunch of people saying that it's wrong.
Serious and strategic: Ace isn't really that much of a strategic. He is more of the type to rush in, and uh, not think in beforehand. But, because of his character trait as responsible and a good listener, we can easily paint him up as such.
Bad boy/flirty: So Ace is very bold and straight forward, thanks to this, we can connect him to a guy who flirts when he is interested in someone. His confidence also makes it easy to put him in this light.
The amazing thing is that we can also connect him to insecure and sad, without complaints from others that it doesn't match his character.
I personally believe that this is one of the reasons that Ace is such a good character. He is overall perfect, but we can bend him and then have issues to imagine and write about.
My point is that Ace has so much that we can connect and attach him to that he wouldn't be completely out of character in most scenarios.
This is why I personally believe that so many simp for him in such a long period of time, because he's simply so flexible and easy to imagine being with.
There isn't really anything specific that has been given out that Ace wants in a partner (at least not that I have heard of). It's amusing since we can imagine someone who is completely introverted to someone who's in-between to extraverted with him. Looks doesn't matter to him either, so any person can imagine themselves with him, and it would still be a good relationship and imaginable.
It is very rare for me to read a fic about Ace, and he feels out of character, just because he is so easy to bend.
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These are just my thoughts, I'm open-minded and am aware that I haven't seen all of Ace. I haven't even read the Ace novels or whatever it was yet. . . . I'm gonna do it eventually.
- onim5
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#portgas d. ace#one piece x reader#fire fist ace#portgas d ace#portgas#one piece#portgas d ace x y/n#portgas d ace x reader#one piece ace#onepiece#Simp#Takes#op x reader#op#one piece portgas d ace#portgas ace x you#onim5
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In the least possibly pressury way, as in feel free to ignore this if it isnāt something you want to do, this is just purely bc i reread the hunger au and am hungering for more - do you have any updates on how the next chapter is going?
Also (this is the same anon who asked how Impulse confronted Grian a little while ago btw in case ur seeing a slightly pattern) would you feel like expanding on how the other hermits or non hermit lifers felt when they found out Grian made the life games? Or how they feel about the state heās ended up in? (tho i completely get that that is probably a thing ur going to explore anyway im just having thoughts)
Anyway this is such a good au, ur writings fantastic and im loving what ur doing. As a writer myself I may be taking some notes on how u r writing these characters because the way you make us feel exactly what they r feeling is incredible!
I wish i could give more updates on hunger au's progress but to be completely honest with you anon, my irl life kinda uh š
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just completely imploded right as i was getting back into the groove of things. I am making progress still, but its slower than i'd like-- by necessity ive had to emergency pivot my attention to more pressing matters going on rn šššš trust me when i say its probably frustrating me more than anyone else at this point
I appreciate the compliments a lot tho!!! All of yalls encouraging words mean the world to me and make getting through these difficult situations a little bit easierā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø i wish i could say more about how the hermits reacted, but thats actually MAJOR spoilers that im very excited to show you guys in-fic, so for now all i can really say is that you'll have to see :]]
#shouting speaks#asks#hunger au#im so sorry to the folks who have sent me asks lately; ive seen them and i want to respond i just have SEVERELY limited energy#pls dont feel like you cant send them!!! just be patient while i scrape together the energy to answerā¤ļøā¤ļø#its rough out here irl rn ššš#and i have. so much going on that i try not to talk abt bc all of it is very depressing#and also im just a rlly private guy abt that stuff sjdbwjdhsjdj#but again thank you for the compliments and continued interest :]] it means a lot#txt
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iām like that other anon and i donāt blame anyone who thinks agatha never loved rio and i hate that i can be one of them easy enough sorry!!! i donāt want to, of course i rather believe agatha loved/loves rio, but it was a choice, they wanted the idea that death loved agatha, that she was on her knees for her and they found the time (and somehow marvel āletā them) to make it very clear. heart beats for her, my scar, spent centuries chasing her, lost her fucking mind in the end while asking why doesnāt she want her but agatha? even the almost kiss could be a manipulation to distract her from billy like she said she was doing, looking at rio longingly while flying, rio is hot and how good it is for her ego that death itself loves and wants her, that āmy loveā without any kind of backstory can be easily a desperate manipulation to save her baby, the kiss their ābreakupā when they werenāt even together. even becoming a ghost, the show still made sure that we knew rio hated ghosts so that could be a fuck you to her ex. after everything, rio was devastated with her ādeathā but wait she became what rio hated ha ha ha
the only thing that is telling me agatah genuine loved rio is jac schaeffer (and im only thinking loved, not even loved) but she said a lot, do I believe everything even when they make no sense and contradict themselves. i think kathryn hahn also said agatha loves rio but it could just be her headcanon who knows, she didnāt get any script saying that for sure. i still love the ship and the fics, and at least there i can believe they love each other
when i think about jac schaeffer saying that there will be other chapters for agathario when she knows it wonāt be i just feel mad. maybe there will be a wiccan show, thereās probably even a decent chance but they couldnāt bother with their relationship in agathaās show, to actually believe that they will give us those āchaptersā in a show where sheās billyās sidekick full of new characters that are connected to billy and with aubrey plaza nowhere near is madness
This tea is piping hot oomfs. It's such a shame that people feel that way. The fact that Rio knew Agatha was manipulating her to distract her from Billy makes me want to to storm marvel HQ. I mentioned earlier that jac even said in an interview that Agatha often uses her body to get what she wants. So it can be hard for people that don't over analyze everything like we do to be kind of confused.
The writers made it very clear there is absolutely no chance of them getting back together. Which i understand but like damn you didn't have to destroy their relationship like that. I would have been more satisfied if they talked and then went their separate ways tbfh.
Everything about how this ship was handled makes me want to crash out as time goes by. But I refuse to let them take anything else from me š back to ao3 I go.
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#kathryn hahn#agathario#marvel mcu#agatha x rio#aubrey plaza#marvel cinematic universe
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Gosh, I can relate to this.
I think about what fandom is a lot since I sort of lurk in a lot of spaces (until I feel brave enough to speak or share).
First off, the point of this addition isn't to guilt trip anyone, but to get people thinking about what community means. What inclusion means, and what engagement means. And how those are interconnected.
One of the crucial pillars of fandom, and the reason fandom exists at all is because of community.
Writing fanfiction and sharing it for free is about building community with one another. It's people who loved a show/movie/book enough that they wanted to play in the world longer, so they play together in that world with other people who love it too. That's what fanworks are -- it's people playing together in community because of a love toward a specific series/media.
But community requires communication. It requires building connections. It requries engaging one another.
I write long fics. In fact, adding up the word counts of my fics in AO3? It's well over a million words in two different fandoms. These are free novels written because the community had been welcoming at first and it had encouraged me to keep going.
But I made a mistake. Two of these projects (in two separate fandoms) I made into a series. Because of how each part in a series means the sequel gets less engagement, it feels like I'm watching a community dissolve, and that's painful. I don't get paid for this. It's all free, and part of the reason I went to fanfic writing was because of community.
Lack of engagement gives, often unintentionally, the author the message that they aren't really part of the fandom's community. At least not anymore (if they ever were).
Some say, "Well, don't write for your readers!"
Well, no, I don't write for my readers, but the act of sharing for free is me giving to the community and building up community.
But part of building up community requires people to give back in turn. Oherwise the community will fracture and fall apart.
The reason fandom exists at all is because of community.
It's the community part of fandom that has helped me to heal enough to write again, but when that community dries up or no longer engages with me, then what am I to do? I've lost that community, and if I continue to engage with it and get very little (if not nothing) in return, then at that point, I'm throwing my energy into a void in hopes for a scrap of community.
It ceases to fulfill the need. It leaves me feeling lost and alone. And finding out later how much people loved a fic I wrote but that fic received very little engagement? It tells me that I'm not loved as a person within the community.
I have watched and listen to people talk about how much it hurts when the work they put in so much effort in for the community gets little to no engagement. It often pushes them to engage less, to stop writing, and watching that happen? It hurts to see.
Community requires communication. Do not treat an fanfic author like a kiosk, where you grab the story and run. Treat them like they are part of your community. By doing so, by including them, you bolster their sense of belonging and are more likely to get stories in return.
Community needs to be reciprocal. And I fear fandoms are losing that understanding of what community is. They expect and sometimes demand more, but what are they doing to support that fanfic writer or artist? Are they engaging them and uplifting them within the community? Or are they not engaging them?
If you read an author's work and love it, include them in that community by sharing your thoughts in a comment. You don't necessarily have to comment on every chapter of a longer work (Though it is so lovely some do), but to at least offer up comments here and there to be inclusive of that author.
Engagement bolsters the community bond.
The lack of engagement breaks the community bond.
And that's a sort of grief. Us writers came for community and to share our love of the fandom with others. When we fail to be included in that community, it will hurt. It's a type of rejection that people may not even realize they are doing.
Community requires communication, and for fandoms, part of that communication is comments, kudos, (and gosh, even tumblr asks).
I hope that helps give people another perspective to consider.
Think it over. Think about what you'd like to give back to the creators in your community.
And please understand, if you can only give back one or so comments? That's okay and valid, and that too builds up community.
Even little actions matter.
Never think your small action doesn't matter or that your comment or kudos doesn't matter. It does. It helps build community too.
Thanks for reading. Be safe.
A writer friend told me something that broke my heart a little bit today; they're going to quit publishing their fanfic.
My instant thought was that they had been trolled or attacked or that something terrible had happened in their life because this person is so passionate about their writing. It wasn't any of that. Engagement with their works has been going down, as it has for many of us. Comments are like gold dust a lot of the time, and just looking through the historical comment counts on old fics on ao3 demonstrates this trend very clearly. It was not simply the comments dropping off which caused them to decide to stop posting, however.
My friend came across a discord server for their fandom (I should point out here that their fandom interest and mine diverged a couple of years ago, we stay in touch but don't currently read each other's posts because I'm not into their fandom and they would rather gouge their eyes out with a wooden spoon than read anything Star Wars) and specifically to share fic in that fandom. They joined, because we all love a good fic rec, only to discover that their latest multichapter fic, which has almost no comments and very few kudos, is being hotly discussed in this server as one of the best stories ever. Not one of these people has bothered to say this to them on the fic. When they asked, none of participants could see the point in telling the author of the fic they apparently loved so much that they love it.
This discovery has absolutely destroyed my friend's love of sharing fic. They share because they love seeing other people's enjoyment, and fic writers do that through comments and kudos/reblogs/likes because we don't get paid. There is no literary critic writing a blog post/article about how amazing the story is for us to copy and keep/frame. There is no money from royalties. All we have are the words of the people reading our works.
Those people on that server could have taken five minutes of the time they spent gushing about how amazing my friend's story was to other people and used it to tell the one person guaranteed to want to hear that praise how much they loved it. They could have taken a moment to express their opinion to the person who spent hours upon hours plotting, writing, editing, and posting those chapters. Instead, they deprived my friend of thing that keeps them sharing their writing, and in the process have killed their love of it. My friend now feels used and unmotivated.
I won't be sharing a link to their fic, they said I could share their experience but not their identity. I know they plan to post one final chapter. I know they intend to express their hurt at being excluded from the praise for the thing they created, and I know they intend to announce that as a consequence they will not be posting for a long while, if at all.
So please, I beg you, don't hide your love of a story from the writer. It's just about the only thing we have.
#Just some thoughts on fandom and community#what I think readers may not realize when it comes to what comments are within the fandom community#I need to be better about comments too so I'm reminding myself too#bird speaks
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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Letās spread the self-love! ā¤ļø (go on I dare u š)
Only because itās you asking am I going to answer this with very little thought and with a bit of honesty.
The following fics are recommended not because Iāve re-read them and can confirm that I am proud of them. Iām recommending them purely on vibes I had writing them.
Fuck Regulus Black - Barty/Regulus : rivals toā¦ sort of lovers. I got the shits with every HC that theyāre friends and wrote a fic where they arenāt.
Monster - Remus Fest fic (no pairing) : totally gen. I wrote this for @wanderingdonut to fulfil a prompt they were gutted to not have the time to work on. I think itās hilarious. I really enjoyed writing this.
Dance Little Liar - Remus/Sirius, Sirius/Barty : Iām fucking long term obsessed with this fic. Itās an FBI AU and it completely went off the rails. Itās on hiatus at the moment but Iāll come back to it when Iām finished with the other nonsense Im working on and itās gonna be cooked.
Nightmare Summer Camp - Iām not going to lie this is like. The crown jewel of my accomplishments. It was written entirely with randomly generated prompts. Itās absolutely fucked. I was really proud that it came together as a semi cohesive fic. I love it. 10/10 vibes
Made to Bathe in the Light of the Moon - Regulus/James : I actually did re-read this one semi recently. Still slaps. (TW: hurt no comfort- im not sorry)
#unapologetically myself#marauders#maraudersfanfiction#wolfstar#marauders era#sirius black#remus lupin#peter pettigrew#James potter#regulus black#alternative writing#im cooked i know i am and i really do not fucking care#in no particular order#honestly i rec all my fics but theyre mine so#duh
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"my pretty girl" ā sam winchester.
pairing: tfem!sam winchester x gn!reader
summary: sam needs to relax and you would do anything for your girl.
cw: 18+ content, MDI!! sub!transfem!sam, softdom!gn!reader, intended to be read as sapphic, there's not really a plot, kissing, inappropriate language (not sure if i can count it as dirty talk argh), masturbation (sam receives). 1.2K words.
a/n: so, this is my first smut and it must be really bad, but i was thinking so much about this girl that i had to do something. this fic was very inspired by some of my favorite writers!! i'm trying to write more and trying to improve my writing, i still have a lot to learn. constructive criticism is very welcome!! english isn't my first language. enjoy it ;)
ā send me an request!! <3
sam had been acting strange since you left in the afternoon to investigate some witnesses under FBI cover, and you only realized why when you got in the car and you could take a look at her crotch and saw how tight her pants were and how she was uncomfortable, all the way to the motel fidgeting in the seat. when you got to the room, sam opened the door and hurried in and sat on the bed while you closed the door.
"i think i'll take a shower first, okay?" sam said, searching her backpack for some clean and comfortable clothes.
"hm, okay, you can go first," you said, sitting down next to her, putting one hand on her shoulder. "only if you don't do anything and let me take care of this for you." you palmed sam's cock over her pants, she shivered and let out a moan that sounded more like a sigh, shivering at your touch, but tried to hide it by looking away.
"o-okay," she was already blushing, you could feel the heat radiating from her needy body. She stared at you for a moment and hesitantly gave you a sweet and soft kiss. "i need you so much, babe." she wrapped her arms around your waist and buried her face in your neck.
"what's got you so excited, baby?" you said, running your fingers through her soft hair.
"argh," you could feel her face getting hotter. "i couldn't look at you in that outfit." she tightened her grip on your waist.
"oh, you like seeing me in a suit?" she nodded. "okay, i'll keep it then," you threaded your fingers through her hair and gave it a little tug so she would look at you. "how about we take off some of those clothes of yours and you lay down on the bed for me, hm?" you said in a teasing tone, which only made her blush more. she just nodded and stood up.
she took off her coat, shoes and belt, but when she started to unbutton her shirt, you stood up and grabbed her wrists.
"leave this to me, okay?" then you started to unbutton her shirt slowly just to tease her, always with your eyes fixed on hers. you took off her pants and left her with only her underwear.
you gave up on teasing her when you saw how sore she must be, so you asked her to lie on her back on the bed with some pillows, relax, and let you do your job.
so you climbed on top of her, knelt down, without sitting on her lap- and started kissing her. you kissed her with desire, with your hands on her face and let her enjoy the moment for a while. you wanted her to relax, lately she was very tense with all the work and you just wanted her to feel good for a while, at least.
you began to kiss her down, wet kisses on her jaw, neck, until you reached her covered breasts. you looked at her as if asking for permission, she nodded and leaned her back a little. you unbuttoned them and threw them somewhere in the room.
so you started kissing and sucking her breasts, leaving some marks but always with so much care, as if she was made of glass and would break at any moment, you were adoring her and her body, you just wanted her to feel good and loved.
"honey, p-please?" sam was tired and sore, she just wanted to relax a little and was asking you to do it for her.
"it's okay, honey, it's okay." You told her and started to move lower on her lap until you were face to face with her panties.
"c-come on, please, i need you so bad." she said beggingly, she was thrusting her hips up almost without realizing it.
you slipped your fingers into the waistband of her panties, pulling them down enough for your cock to pop out. the tip was so red, and pre-cum was dripping almost all around its circumference. from the look on sam's face and the state she was in, you felt like she was going to explode with just one touch.
"so needy, baby, do you need me?" you grabbed sam's cock and started pumping him really slowly.
"y-yes, faster, please, it hurts..." she was almost crying, she was writhing underneath you.
"i'll give you what you want, my pretty girl, i'll give you everything you want." you started going faster, sometimes slamming your hand on sam's hip, running your thumb over the tip to use the pre-cum as lubricant, sometimes squeezing a little, wanting to take everything sam could give.
"a-ahh, baby, i-i'm gonna cum." sam said, some tears started to run down her face, she was trying to hold it in but she couldn't hold it in anymore.
"okay baby, cum for me, love, be a good girl." you sped up with your hand, squeezing a little more until with a loud moan like a scream, sam finally came, dirtying his abdomen, your hand and a little of your face.
after catching her breath a little, she looked embarrassed, still with her face red, she whispered. "i'm sorry"
"sorry for what, love? you were great," you said, smiling at your girlfriend, lightly running your hand over her thigh.
"i was so needy that i couldn't hold back and i got you all dirty..." she hid her face with her hands.
"heyy, don't worry, okay? i like doing this for you, and it's okay, I'm glad you relaxed at least a little, i can see it on your face. how about we take a bath together and go to sleep afterwards, hm?"
"that's fine by me, love," she sat down and pulled you next to her and gave you a kiss. "i love you so much."
"i love you too, pretty girl."
#dividers by cafekitsune#spn#sam winchester#sage write!!#supernatural#sam winchester fic#tfem!sam winchester#tfem!sam x reader#sam winchester supernatural#sam winchester smut#sam winchester x reader#supernatural fanfiction#supernatural fic#supernatural x reader#transfem sam winchester#sam winchester fanfiction#sam winchester fluff#sam winchester scenarios#supernatural smut
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wanted to share this with the netflix Sandman fans who may not have seen it.
Hob's immediate reaction upon waking up in a creepy torture dungeon is to call for Dream for help, then promise his captor will "never wake up from [his] nightmares" do with this information what you will
#sandman#the sandman#hob gadling#dreamling#dream x hob#dream of the endless#Dead Boy Detectives#can we please get this story line in season two#or at the very least can fic writer's get on it#the dbd show on netflix really doesn't properly convey how fucking stupid these kids are (affectionate)
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Okay Iām having ideas I need someone to stop me-
Anyways, so we all know that Chilchuck probably doesnāt have the healthiest relationship with food? Right?
I donāt think he has an eating disorder but more so disordered eating- that hellish middle space, right? I mean āmaintaining his body weight at an acceptable levelā really sticks out to me
So picture this- my man retires, he doesnāt need to control his weight anymore, no worry about setting off or anything, but he realizes that the unhealthy habits heās developed over he past ten years are harder to break than he thought
#hi Iām your friendly neighborhood āwriter with mental issues they like to project onto charactersā#anyways now Iāve got to ask myself#do I really want my very first contribution to this fandom to be a Chilchuck disordered eating recovery(?) fic#dungeon meshi spoilers#tagging is my least favorite part of every post#but alas I enjoy the dopamine of little notification#this idea obviously isnāt thought through#and j might not end up writing it#but you never know#I might be striking gold#watch this be the fic that gets me out of my slump-#chilchuck#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#just in case#itās kinda spoilers#but also mostly inconsequential knowledge that most people already know#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi fanfic#chilchuck (dm)#chilchuck tims#chuckleduck gets put in situations#chilfuck and the recovery arc#Iāll probably have his family or friends or smth express concern over him#I can expand on bits and pieces if anyone wants#but I do have ideas#maybe I can force mithrun in there as a āwe forget to take care of ourselvesā club
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"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.
#witch hat tag#orufrey#i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like āSure. :/"#i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want#but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care#i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now#i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit#i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do.#there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know#i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW.#i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends...#btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines#i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words#to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court#anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him#why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it?#they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out#way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone.#the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames?#something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey#I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now
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friendly reminder that commenting on fics saying things like "commenting every day until a new chapter is posted" and then actually following through with that and bombarding a writer that much isnt funny and its actually disrespectful
#fic writers give you their writing for FREE. the least you can do is be patient and not act all buddy buddy with someone u dont know online#this is NOT tiktok#this isnt the sea of comments that tiktok is. this is ao3 and i get an email every time you comment#its not funny and its very disrespectful towards me who gave you free writing asking for nothing in return#sorry if you see this but also not sorry#i dont know how to respond to the comments yet but if it keeps going i might have to block which i dont want to do#pandas.txt
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a quick hot guide for people that struggle commenting on fics aka things authors love to hear and youre just over thinking it and its actually really simple to leave comments on stuff!!
key smash/emoji spam/reaction image/etc (it conveys emotions way more than you might think)
drop a line you really liked
say how much you love a ship/character and how happy you are that theres content about them
ALL CAPS ANYTHING
"i liked/loved/enjoyed/whatever it!" its better to say the most basic thing than saying nothing tbh; writers appreciate hearing anything over nothing š
"thank you for writing this" its short, sweet, and very powerful
think what kind of feedback you'd personally like to receive on a piece of art you made. try to translate that want into comments you leave for other people too
you dont have to be critical or constructive or anything, even if the author asks for that stuff in their notes. they'll get it from someone else, you just do you
i feel like people make leaving comments too hard on themselves, so really just make it simple. if you really dont come up with anything, just say thank you. youre there reading for some reason, tell the author what it is. fic comments dont need to be book analysis essays (tho those are. incredibly appreciated as well if you want to write one!!), writers publishing their works for free online appreciate any kind of feedback regardless if you consider it good or well written. a comment is a comment
bottom line is, leave comments on fics and other written works. its whats keeping this game alive
#feel free to add these are just the two cents in my brain rn#also absolutely reblogs encouraged#listen im not just speaking for myself i want to see every fic writer get more comments. more feedback#and dont even get me fucking started on getting reblogs on this goddamn webbed site im gonna blow up otherwise#just. fucking. support your friends. support your favorite creators. say nice shit about them and share their work#i cant believe this needs to be said in fucking 2023 god#im tired can you tell lmao#i also know im a fucking nobody talking about this but fuck if i dont who will ugh#as someone that tries their best to always leave at least a word in everything i read (which admittedly isnt a lot but still)#this is a very important topic to me. okay? okay#again feel free to add to this and its absolutely rebloggable if for nothing else than to remind people to COMMENT ON FICS#night is an absolute mess on main
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okay yeah ! so i think i am gonna do a xmas theme, also i feel like this "promo" for cool kids / i'm faded is me trying toooooooo hard
(big rant under the cut)
, idk i just get very frustrated at these things so i think im just gonna go back to posting when i wanna, like being so real its always been my dream to be a big account and share with my readers, and at my CORE i still wanna be that but the issue is i dont know WHERE to start, and its not like im a new writer i've been writing since i was like 15 (what i'd consider the writing i like) and im just so ????!! about it, like i feel so physically incapable of being a fandom writer like i can't explain it its everything i want but everytime i work towards it i just self implode and stop posting / stop writing, like i still wanna write OBVIOUSLY but the pressure of wanting to "make it big" destroys me like everytime idek? and it seems so easy when i think about it but then when i do it its like LOL NOPE idc idc how much effort you put in. and yes it could be the fact i've never posted a complete fic so there's really nothing for people to know me for, i just feel like people get "suprised" i write on here LIKE YEAH, i post like insanely haphazardly but yeah i do!! and it feels so preformative and ugh.
also i've struggled for a long time on what i wanna do with this account, i wanna speak up about things which includes RB'ing a shit ton, but ive always had an unhealthy imbalance of what i wanna do on here, i wanna be a writing account but what abt the stuff i wanna bring to light by RB'ing, and yes i have other side accounts but they're all for fun, i dont wanna seperate my intrests because they all belong here, just like i do, its kinda my home atp. i feel like i'm one of those people who you dont miss on dash because i rarely curate my own posts and just silently reblog so ig its kinda my fault. idk, the more ive been thinking i feel like the "big fandom writer" thing isn't gonna be for me, and then AT THE SAME TIME i feel like im shooting myself in the foot everytime i complain and wanna pick up the fight again, but idk ive been whining abt it since i was like 15 and im oh so tired with everything going on in the world so i'm just gonna write my fics.
i feel like i write so diff from everyone else, like when i post something i want it to convey something in you, i want you to feel moved and feel appreciated and loved and happy reading something i make, and i dont even know if my writing is built to do that and i may be just dicksucking myself. idek. i dont wanna post for just notes i wanna talk about what i write with other people and for people to ask me why i chose what i did and why i wrote my stories and how it made them feel or what they like about it, and i just feel like im pandering to an audience that doesn't exist everytime i idek, write author's notes, ask for feedback, talk to people about what they like, i've always taken myself way too seriously and i just feel like modern fandom is so. so.
like i grew up reading 2010's fanfics and thats the kinda vibe i like creating, like 2012 chronically online wattpad stories, with long chapters and chatty authors and a bunch of funny comments, i just idk.
#longpost#on fandom#on fanfiction#very long post#i've been silent on alot of stuff because i get sm anxiety posting?#i literally post a fic every 2 months and dissapeer#sometimes two times a year#i feel like deep in my heart somewhere i want to be more than a fanfic writer in the sense of being a fanfic writer#like idk if that makes sense#i dont wanna be just another person's stuff you read i want you to tell me how you feel#enjoy the experience and share thoughts#and i feel like people don't do that anymore#or at least not around / about me#maybe its bc my account is SO small (or feels so small)#bc ive seen people with 100 followers w bigger engagement than me and its just like AHHH#and everytime i try i get burnt out#i feel stupid i feel silly#adhd paralysis#fandom problems#i rarely even make ātalkingā posts anymore because i feel like NO ONE sees it#and on wattpad obviously i just post fanfic stuff but on here i wanna do alot#i wanna advocate for the right things i wanna talk abt all my fav things i wanna rb i wanna OG post i wanna post fics#i want engagement i want ppl to comment i just want more than i think i can get tbh#not everyone is cut out for it maybe? and i just keep saying ājust keep tryingā but its been 3 years. im tired.
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i don't make resolutions, but if i did
it would be to finish this fic
(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)
#i'm finishing it if it kills me#i know i've been writing this makeout scene for 3 weeks but baby that can't last forever#if we want to get deep and dark and serious for a second i do think a lot of my struggles to write lately have to do with engagement#and how incredibly low engagement has been on the last few things i've written#which like. is what it is. i'm not entitled to anybody's time or comments or kudos.#but when you write stuff you're proud of and it feels like it's barely getting read it's hard to keep momentum.#this isn't intended as a woe is me or whatever it's just kind of like. there. hovering.#happens enough times you start to wonder if it's you. am i just writing for the wrong fandom/ship?#(too bad if so. they're in my bones i'm writing for them and no one can stop me.)#but yeah. if you ever wonder if authors do care or notice about hits. comments. kudos. buddy i am here to tell you#not only do we care and FLOURISH we also notice when those things drop off and readers vanish#and it is a giant bummer. and sometimes makes us wildly paranoid about why that might have happened.#so if you liked a fic today--not even one of mine. just. anybody's. share it. comment on it.#kudos at the VERY least (cuz frankly kudos is there to be an 'i got to the end and this was nice' feature.#so when you get 500 hits and only like 30 kudos? it feels like 470 of those people hated your work)#anyway. that got out of hand. lil' too raw lil' too honest. happens when you let yourself ramble at 11:30 instead of sleeping#to sum: let your local fic writer know if they've made you happy#and as we go into 2024 i am swearing to myself that this fic (and probably several others) are getting finished#come hell. high water. or dishearteningly low engagement numbers.#(and then maybe we...actually work on something original. cuz why not. new year same old me but i'll do my best.)
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So, say that if someone was compiling all the lines/dialogue from a character and sorting it based by media source, type of statement, year, etc... Would it be helpful to include in-level exclamations/descriptions (ex: tutorial, level completion, and mid-level dialogue) OR to leave those out so that there's only cutscene and character interaction dialogue.
#this is for silver the hedgehog by the way. im studying him and trying to get a full grasp on his character and getting EVERY line from him#and by every line ideally i mean every. single. line.#including all spinoffs; mobile games; and... the archie comics#and all cut voice lines/writing as well (will be labelled as such)#we'll see if this energy holds out but at the VERY least I have most of 06 done and wont stop till i get all rivals lines#gonna share the google sheets doc too so that fic/comic writers can use it as a resource#text#silver the hedgehog#silver#would LOVE to extend it to other characters as well but this is already a lot of work. imagine what itd look like if i tried doing *Amy*
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i like it when link and zelda get along however in pre-calamity fics if they get along too well too fast it is an instant turn off. where is the drama. the teenage angst
#i know its unfun to write the two leads being unhappy in an inescapable situation and u wanna get to the Good Stuff#however#and hear me out#it is fun to read#at least for me#i also feel like that period where zelda would explode link with her brain if she could is like. really important#for both of their characters#and its just the stupid nitpicky brain in me that doesnt like it when its moved past way too quickly#^ some of that has to do with the propensity for fic writers to like having link communicate. in some way#and if link actually communicates to zelda then it is hard for her to hate him. understandably. bc that is why she hates him#and again it would be unfun to write zelda talking to a brick wall#but ... again. important. for both their characters#link being completely unwilling to compromise his vow of silence until hes sure zelda is 100% safe is. VERY important.#i dunno. i am picky. as u can see#heliichats
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