#or at least tries his best to be

[skeleton-in-a-hoodie]

Ageswap Leo and Yoshi's relationship drives me a insane. Putting this under a readmore cause it's quite long. Some spoilers for ageswap below:

Just, there's so much love there. Leo loves the bones of that kid and would do whatever he had to in order to keep his nephew safe. He'd die if it meant Yoshi had the chance to live. (Yoshi does not want his uncle to sacrifice himself. He'd actually never forgive Leo if he died for him - he wants his uncle to live.)

But that doesn't mean as!Leo didn't mess up and that he didn't hurt Yoshi without meaning to.

From being small, Yoshi knew that he was Leo's heir. It's hard growing up in a warzone knowing that if the slightest thing goes wrong you'll lose one of your parents and suddenly all their responsibility will be left to you (Raph, Donnie and Mikey wouldn't just dump all Leo's baggage on Yoshi, but being the head of the Hamato Clan did not appeal to this kid when he was 8.) That's so much responsibility, and if it's hard for a turtle teen, it's just as hard for a rat teen.

And Leo tries to prepare Yoshi as best he can for the day he takes over. Leo hopes that'll be a long, long time in the future, but there at war and stuff happens. So Yoshi gets extra training, whilst his sisters play and watch tv, he sits with Leo and goes over strategy. There are chess games, which Yoshi enjoyed a lot less when he realised what it was training him for. Leo thought it'd be a nice, child friendly way to introduce Yoshi to important concepts. He won't throw his nephew in at the deep end.

(He's good at chess, and learns to quickly think he way through sticky situations. But he never wants to have to think of Mayday, June or Shadow as being pawns or bishops. They're his sisters. He can't help but wonder if it's possible to change the game.)

He can't mess up. He has to be perfect. Has to know all the rules, how to break them, how to shift the fight into his favour, to know what to lose a battle so he can win the war.

(It's so much.)

(It's too much.)

(Not his sisters. Not his uncles or aunt. Not their friends.)

(Please please not his family.)

Yoshi pours all his free time into training. Leo is both proud and relieved to see Yoshi is a fast learner. Sometimes the turtle will joke to his brothers, April or Casey that they can hardly keep up with him. Lessons that were supposed be last a month are covered in a week. He thinks if they train Yoshi well enough, he'll be able to weather whatever storm the universe throws at him.

(Yoshi's so gifted! He might be a progidy! He'll be safer!)

(He has nothing else.)

(He has to keep them all safe. He's already lost his mother and brother.)

(Not his family, not his family, please not his family.)

There's meditation too. He struggles with that at first - there's so much to think about, so much responsibility and he's still a child - but it's nice to have some quiet time, where he can let go and exist in the space between his thoughts.

And the visions start early. Nightmares, mostly. No one realises what they are until the end of the ageswap space arc, when Raph flips through their then 4 year old nephew's drawing and finds horrible monsters on every page. The drawings a crude, he's only a small child, but Raph recognises the shark, the scorpians, the ice dragons. Yoshi hadn't gone to space with his aunt and uncles. The child has a habit of dating his drawings, and each is from before they got back.

(The one that disturbs Raph the most is all metal and glowing red eyes. At first he thought it might be Tokka, but no, that's not right.)

(The red eyed, armoured monster keeps appearing in Yoshi's worst nightmares.)

Leo can't help Yoshi here. He's trained all his life for a similar sensitivity. Mikey and April both have it, and are both more skilled with it, so they take over Yoshi's training in this department. But he's always open to Yoshi talking to him about it!

(His uncle has so much going on already. Yoshi doesn't want to bother him with imaginary monsters. And as he gets older, he thinks he's too older to tell his family about nightmares anyway.)

And as the war with the Kraang continues to ramp up, more responsibility is given to him. He helps June look after their sisters.

(He's the third child, but he's also their future clan leader, so he feels he has to).

Yoshi even starts helping Shadow with her training, which takes some of the load of his uncles. Leo is so proud of his nephew, barely 12 and already training his own student.

(He's parenting his 6 year old sister. He won't complain. Shadow deserves a proper childhood).

Leo loves Yoshi and does everything he can to prepare him. Leo tried so hard.

And Yoshi adores his uncle! Won't hear a word against him.

But there's also momumental expectations, and resentment, and Yoshi feeling that his childhood was forfeit for his sisters, and knowing his uncle did not know what he was doing with him, and not knowing how to say he needs help and he's scared, so scared.

(The older Yoshi gets, the more the red eyed monster appears in his dreams. And when he's 14, he starts dreaming of fire and a woman screaming and someone dressed in amour that imitates the red eyed monster's. He wakes from each dream clutching his abdomen.)

They love each other, but that doesn't mean mistakes weren't made

But they love each other, so they're willing to work together to put the broken peices back together again

[bluegiragi]

human.

early access + nsfw on patreon

more backstory that i wrote up for patreon heh:

Simon and Tommy had a complicated relationship as brothers. 

At a young age, Simon basically wrote himself off as a lost cause, and did the best he could to make sure at least Tommy had a chance to be a functioning human being. After all, Tommy was the gentler brother, the dreamer, the one who looked like their mother (who'd walked out on them years ago to escape their father). But Tommy got bitter, got sick of the one always being protected, being babied. He lost respect for Simon, for the way he wouldn't fight back, and in a twisted way, grew closer to his father as a way to learn how to be powerful, strong. It backfired, and Tommy got wrapped up in some bad business.

Simon's kid brother died while he was deployed. He got the news in the letter, and it broke him in a big way. In the story timeline, it was years and years ago but it still hurts like hell whenever Simon thinks about him. 

[ryllen]

Older Sylus as actual dad 😭👌✨

[omaano]

♥ Trans Rex My Beloved ♥

I'm late with this for sooo many reasons, and I was meaning to finish him for @clonefandomevents' Trans Clone Week.... but I've still made better time with this one than with Cody at least ^^;

Belongs to a small collection with Ace!Wolffe from last June

[mud-muffin]

The Best Birthday Present

[tagerrkix]

DOG OMENS

[stefisdoingthings]

ark aftermath

[canisalbus]

I have to ask what drew vasco into falling in love with machete?

His snivelling runt ways were just that irresistable.

[cakemousse]

love my evil smirking cat 🔪😈🐈‍⬛✨

Toxinelle's Version.

[undertheredhood]

jason todd at all times: y'know, i think i'm doing pretty good for myself as someone who's had four parents that i was never enough for.

[frobby]

I think it would be really funny if rin was the more helpful one around his house. Like u would think rin would be the disrespectful one who always bails on housework or mass but its actually yukio who would always have an excuse not to go or forget about chores to the point that rin just does them instinctively now

[s0fter-sin]

rewatching s1 and in ep2 w*ndigo, dean makes a joke about not bringing provisions into the woods just to pull out a bag of peanut butter m&m’s and stick with me here, it’s why the later seasons’ “goofy dean” loses me

this moment is clearly a joke but if you think about it too much, it also makes some sense; a family size bag of peanut m&m’s is calorie dense and even the high sugar is good to keep you moving which they need on an overnight hunt. it also shows how due to their upbringing, they’ve had to eat lower quality food, things they always had access to that was cheap and also in bulk

what does dean eating ghost pepper jerky then tipping water on himself exist for other than to be a cringy joke? what does smelling old chinese food, testing to see if it's still good then shaking his head with cabbage hanging out his mouth when it isn't serve? it's just to make him look stupid and contrast sam's healthy/clean diet (and superiority but that’s another conversation) which has always existed but it used to be nuanced and natural

we see dean as a child give up the food he wanted to eat so sam could eat it. (“i’m sick of spaghetti-os,” “you’re the one who wanted them,” … “i want lucky charms!” “… there’s only enough for one bowl and i haven’t had any yet!” proceeds to give them to sam, 1x18) we know he hustled and stole food to ensure sam ate. (“so, what’d he take?” “get this- peanut butter and bread.” 9x07)

we also see throughout the early seasons dean teasing sam about his salad or healthy choice while he eats some form of burger or other fast food (or notably, cheerfully eating prison food that sam won’t touch, 2x19). it's typical sibling teasing but it also shows that it isn't new for sam to eat like that and for dean to know he eats like that

sam being picky isn't just a character trait they chose for him, it's a result of how dean raised him; he raised him to like and want healthy food and be food secure enough to reject food he didn't want

but dean eats anything he is given and seeks out unhealthy - cheap, plentiful, filling - food

he is the opposite of picky to the point of it being a consistent bit; they show him multiple times eating when it's socially frowned upon to do so eg. questioning a grieving victim when they're trying to be discreet (1x14, 2x15, 2x18)

a similar moment to the chinese food is in 4x19; dean wakes up in the car while sam brushes his teeth outside and is hungry. sam says there's a sandwich in the backseat, dean smells it and recoils bc it's an old tuna sandwich. the moment is funny on its own but it also exists as a comparison of their lives to adam's; he has a loving mother, goes to school and importantly, a steady stable childhood

it’s a joke with a purpose

it also supports dean's food insecurity; he wakes up and is immediately hungry, enough to complain about it and seek out food before anything else

dean is always hungry bc he never has access to nutritionally rich foods bc he got used to using the money he earned to buy sam's more expensive food. he got used to his cheaper, denser foods and grew up with (and continues to live with) intermittent access to said foods. think of how long it takes to drive from one state to another; how many hours it can take to see another town that offers food, if you arrive at a reasonable enough time for anything to be open. also think how they can’t keep any food beyond what fits in an esky; nothing that needs defrosting, nothing can be heated up. it’s bags and jars and take out for as long as they can trust it

then they get the bunker which has its own kitchen

dean even describes himself as "nesting" when he decorates his room, something he hasn't had since he was four years old, and he uses said kitchen to cook a burger from scratch that he is proud of. he is food secure for the first time in his life and it shows in how often he cooks for both himself and sam

so these moments where they have him acting goofy regarding food are no longer character driven and only exist as a joke which is why they come across as cringy and out of character compared to similar earlier moments

a lot of my issues with dean's characterisation started when they introduced the bunker. the argument can and is made that the reason these jokes happen is bc he feels safe in the bunker, that bc he now has a home he can relax and unmask but that still doesn't feel sufficient. they crank up these sillier moments for both of them, giving them a sort of playing house comedy vibe of two roommates with completely different personalities but it doesn't feel like an authentic progression. it feels forced; an attempt at humour for humour's sake

food stopped being an informed part of their characters and their trauma and instead became flanderised; sam is the judgy vegetarian health nut and dean is his borderline slovenly carnivore counterpart

[catsoupki]

把我抹掉 / box me up until i spill (bakugou x reader)

Summary: exhaustion creeps into a house in different ways

Warnings: arguing :(

wc: 430

“what are you doing?” bakugou mumbles

“nothing, will you just go back to sleep?” you don’t look at him when you speak, but instead you focus all of your attention onto your current task

“well i can’t when you’re just making random metal clashing noises next to me, just get back onto the bed and leave it for later when we wake up again, it’s not that fucking urgent”

you take a deep breath, but with the way you roughly slam the spoons into the box that houses the forks, it sends a grimace onto his face. in turn, he rolls over from facing you and now the wall

“if you did this when i asked you to yesterday maybe i wouldn’t have to do it right now but you didn’t, so just wait two more god damn minutes and then you can sleep again okay?”

he sighs, and for a moment you think that he’ll keep his mouth shut and keep quiet for once, suddenly the utensils you’re organising feel cold and biting against your skin, they feel like they’re drooping and melting into putty right in between your grasp, and you can’t catch it

“can you just give it a rest?” he goes from facing the wall to sitting up, the curtains flutter slightly in the wind and it tussles his hair in a way that makes you want to cry

“no i can’t fucking do that! i’ve laid out my life right in front of you and i’ve given you myself yet it’s still not enough! you’re a hero who doesn’t get to sleep at night fine i get it! but i’m not any less important so don’t you ever go around and speak to me like that ever again! you promised me all those eight years ago in that basketball court the day we graduated, and you remember what i said yeah? if you did i’d fucking leave!”

all the work you’ve been doing the past ten minutes is rinsed down the drain, useless and helpless to end, the flailing of your arms has caused the box that stored all the metal utensils to fall onto the floor. chopsticks, spoons, forks and knives poke at the hardwood floor and at the edges of furniture, it doesn’t chip the wall, it chips your heart instead.

you’re tired, and even when you’re not dressed for the outside, in mere pyjama pants and a random shirt that you go to sleep in, you walk towards the door and leave the mess behind you

[hrokkall]

What's gabriel in this au?

Some loser, probably.

[dirtytransmasc]

concept, cause the dynamics at play would be super interesting:

when Tuk and Neytiri are sucked into the hold of the Seadragon, what if Spider, unwilling to watch another one of this baby siblings, nor his siblings mother (despite everything cause he's a good kid), die without doing anything, jumps in after them?

they're now stuck in a flooding ship, spider knows his way around to a decent extent, they're all tired, they're all scared, they're all hurting. they have to depend on each other for survival.

Neytiri has to not only trust Spider, but has to follow his lead, has to trust him to guide her around a demon ship, has to untrust not only her own life, but the life of her youngest child to this boy.

Maybe they're separated, they have to find one another (my personal favorite scenario is that Tuk and Spider are together and he has to try and find her/guide Neytiri to him)

Spider taking Neytiri and Tuk's arms so they aren't separated by stray currents and raging waters (a parallel to "Sully's stick together"). Spider talking them through the breath holds he learned as a kid in case his mask malfunctioned before bringing them through the depths of the submerged ship (parallel to Jake and Lo'ak)

anyway. I just can't stop thinking about it. think about it.

Neytiri is faced with the fact that Spider jumped in after her and Tuk. he came for them, he put himself in danger to save them, to save her daughter. even after what she did to him. even after she held a knife to him, after she cut him, after she intended to kill him even after Kiri was released. he still jumped to her aid, even if he could have stayed with Kiri above deck where he was safe, he could have just aided Tuk and left her behind, but he didn't.

and there's so many ways to play with it and the aftermath. like.

Spider dragging both Tuk and Neytiri up the surface, trying his best to keep the trio afloat (namely Neytiri who was much less adjusted to the water and is exhausted by the night they've had) as they hope and pray to be reunited with the rest of their family.

maybe the stress gets to them and Spider just starts apologizing. I should have fought them harder. I shouldn't have let Lo'ak and Neteyam try and leave with me, I would have been fine. I should have seen it coming, should have taken it myself. it should have been me. my baby brother shouldn't be dead.

maybe he becomes partly delirious as he too gives into exhaustion, the big brother in him being the only part of him left coherent, so he takes Tuk close, whispering prrnen tsmuke [baby sister] over and over into her braids, assuring himself that she's safe and unharmed. he keeps praying to the Great Mother for his siblings to return to him unharmed. maybe he keeps asking where they are, if they're safe as his awareness fades and his memory weakens. all of his siblings. asking if Neteyam is ok, only to remember he's gone the second the words leave his tongue.

Jake and Lo'ak finding them when they come up with Payakan, both worse for wear, exhausted, clinging to one another, the only thing keeping their heads above water being spiders life vest, Tuk cradled between them. what a sight.

Neytiri watching as Spider looks over each of his siblings, taking them close, holding onto them as if they will be ripped away from him. the realization that he would die before he let that happen again hitting her like a ton of bricks the second she sees the look in his eyes.

a peace being made between the two in the wake of this event. spider silently claiming the role of big brother (he always was, but he had to pretend he wasn't. with Neteyam gone, he can't pretend he's not anymore), Neytiri silently agreeing.

idk man. it would be interesting.

[canisalbus]

you say machete has to be closeted then why's he always wearing them little heels

Maybe he thinks he's a tiny bit nicer looking in them.