#or at least i dknt think i have

[c--3phoe]

Just rewatched Captain America: Civil War and its so fucking obvious how wrong Tony is at all points throughout the film. So here is a list of shit he does in the movie that pisses me off extra (not im chronological order):

- Signs the Sokovia accords and then hunts down his buddies for breaking, AND THEN HE BREAKS THEM HIMSELF. Also he forces everyone to sign the accords due to the guilt he feels.

- Blackmails a 15 year old into fighting two super-soldiers and a girl who controls matter (not exactly sure what her powers are but you know that im talking about Wanda).

- Locks Wanda up in the compound against her will.

- Asks Vision to shoot down Sam, Vision misses and hits Rhodey. Then he gets mad at Sam and shoots him in the chest when he comes down to check on him. Like that shot was meant for Sam and it would probably have hurt him so much more, seeing as he is not in full armor, and I strongly doubt that Tony would have stopped and checked on Sam.

- And then he attacks Bucky like crazy after finding out he killed his parents, which would be completely valid and understandable except for the fact that Bucky did it under mind control. Which Steve tells him.

- And then theres the end fight, where he is doing anything but pulling his punches, maybe hes pulling them a little for Steve (I wouldn’t be too sure of that). He shoots his blaster thingies at their bare skin.

Look i used to be a Tony fan, and then i grew up. I know that not everyone agrees, but these are the problems that i find with him in this movie.

[madame-mongoose]

Self isolating is so fun and awesome I only talk to one person daily anymore (<- most suicidal I've ever been since middle school)

[her-canine-teeth]

bad astrology by flower face

[geee-three]

okay now that im actually confronting it this makes a whole lotta sense that im going to continue to ignore

[itsalwaysdark]

okay sooo 1. once little man is done with my laptop i need to do the ssn shit bc i have the letter 2. in an hour i need to switch my laundry to the dryer and at Some point i need to sleep preferablyyyy i oush as long as i can its been 28 hours i Think? since i woke up i dont avtually remember its all kind of a blur i do have a headache and my fuckshit tooth is bothering me but whatever . once i get the ssn login thing done im pretty sure i can get a new card like right away and then once that gets here i can go and get my permit And by then my new glasses will be here which is epics and ummm at some point not today bc im tired and have a headache aka not at my best. so once those 2 things r not the case i need to do the science and math ged practice tests ive been putting them off bc im scared ill do bad SKULL.but i need to get those done ... and omce i have the permit and everything thennnnnn i can go do my actual proper ged tests and once those r done ill have my ged and an id and thus can start applying for jobs again And ill be so brave and ask my mom to teach me how to drive . YIPPEE

[quevadilla]

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[espers-n-espurrs]

they couldnt have waited till you were at least 18 to dump this on you. I want to rrrrrrrr. (will not threaten a strangers family as an anon but RRRRRRRRRR. roaring at them)

i think the lady ws anagry i thjnk she was upset because i was named heir i dknt mnow i dont know

[perceremade]

Gonna stop eatung any sweets even though it makes me happy. I dont eat a lot, or like a pig, but Ig its cause I only have my 2 normal meals and a few little sweets inbetween.... I dont wanna be larger. Occupy so much space. Having so much flesh feels bad. I also need to go back to my skippingschool lunxh routine. I think... nhh. I havent been buying food lately buf sometimes I'll eat somethin small. ....now that I posted about it I stopped feeling bad AGAIN?!?!?! Like suddenly Im fine agai inhave these very tiny moments of Km so ugly Inneed to die then boom imnfinem I dknt know why thid happens. But ya I donneedm to take care of .thay. at least. So I wont be an eyesore. Pther peoppe that are big arent ugly zim the problem Im ufly no mattwr what But also im cute and everything is fine I keep having this thouyht. Whats up with me?

[niamhthefae]

honestly i think you americans would have a heart attack if you heard how much people where im from use swears. like theyre not insults but i dknt think i know a single person over the age of 12 who doesnt swear at least once every time i speak to them

[stonejuice]

ive stuck my foot in it and called out some ppl at a local mutual aid group for being hypocrites and abusing "authority" and now im a little lost on how i can contribute to do the work and build a better community. Because these people do not want to be questioned. Community organising is a whole thing and i love people so much, but this has been really disheartening and its making me want to step away from mutual aid even though im pretty in with this group. Im thinking even i might just move. One of the central tenets of the beliefs i subscribe to is like. Reflexivity not recursion. Not getting stuck in an echo chamber of therapy speak. Listening to criticism and learning from people who have different experiences. Not bad. Just different.

But my ex is now telling people im an abuser when they r the one that fucked me over and im still trying to untangle actual good experiences i had with them so i can tell them apart from the "didnt want to kill the mood by askin for u to go easy on me" (for whatever reason) experiences. Theyve fucked me good and proper and i need to take spme time to recover bc im also so sick right now. i cant even be in there defending myself for giving valid criticisms bc im sick, and now ive started more shit by askin people not to try and boss people around if they do not know the first fucking thing about what theyre talking about. Abt really specific practices. I worked in food production for 2 years. I know whats safe to eat and whats not, how to process something to make it safe if by itself it wouldnt be. I know whats safe to feed chickens bc i *have* kept chickens for most of my life. But now im questioning my entire knowledge base bc these few people are unable to accept criticism.

Unless i just caught them when they were tired and not down for empathy. In which case, maybe we just need a conversation when we are on a more even keel.

But some of the ways i have been treated by people for trying to speak up are actually inexcusable. Qnd until that gets seen and recognised im not giving them the time of day because they will keep actually gaslighting me (deliberately or not) into second guessing myself. I want this person to accept that they hurt me. I dknt even need an apology. I just want them to accept that i have been wronged. If they can see and accept that their actions have hurt me, you know, maybe after that we can talk. But until then im sick. Im tired. I think i hauve the flu.

Apparently its been exceedingly apparent to ppl, that my ex is full of shit. Or at least that theres something else going on thats uncool, and its setting off warning bells for other people and i am so so relieved to hear that. But thats from my brother, who was also tired and is prone to exaggeration so idk how much truth i should be taking from that source. Hes the best and i love him to bits, but hes also in a cult like situation with his housemates rn so his own perception is being warped by stress

[mitski-slope]

TYY FKR TAGGIGN ME !!!!! ik thjs is so latw jsut pretend its 3 days ago

1) top 5 or top 10 favorite animals (depending on how many animals you like)

cats . x5 . sorry u guys if i tihhjk ab it too mcuh my brain will explod

2) top 3 Minecraft mobs

dolhpins, cows, n chickens

3) favorite vocaloid song or My Singing Monsters island theme and why! (If you don’t like/know Vocaloid/MSM, just name a song or genre you like and why :D)

uh . hventn listened 2 vocaliod in So Long so ill jsut say patchwkor staccato

4) favorite and least favorite textures, no why needed :333

least fave is fujckgin . newspaper . LOOK KTS SO GROOSS ITS SO HGRGRRGRGHMNM . favourite is freshlh washed sheets

5) not your favorite color, but your favorite color palette (bonus points if you have a pic of the specific palette or a photo/artwork of the pallet you like!!)

muted colors !!! green n pink n gray n brown etec etrc but rllyd desaturated

6) fav book you had to read for school (fiction or non fiction work lol, and if you don’t like/have any then just name a book or fanfic you like!)

maus !!!!!!!!!! reakd this in yr 9 n kt was so good i totallky reccommned

7) how do you think of the months of the year in your head? Left to right, top to bottom, in specific numbered rows and columns? Tell me :D

okay okya Limitedf Edition insigjht into my mind . jan n feb r goruped togetjher n so r march n april . aporil n may r also grouoped togetjer separatelw . june is alone . july n august r kind of gorupoed togheter but so r august n september . octoboer is alone but someitmes works w septiember . november n decmember r a Pair do nkt separate

8) assigned harry potter/ilvermorny house or Percy Jackson cabin or Warrior cats clan something like that lol (if you don’t have anything like that, star sign works too!)

im a taurus ! dknt ask me anythign ab my sign other than that i wikl not hv an ansner

9) MBTI???? Love those things :33 (If you haven’t taken the test yet or u just don’t wanna cuz it’s too long, are you a solider poet or king?)

intj if iirc

10) something “cringe” you actually rly like, no shame here :D

anhy of my older hyperfixations like ujm . bmc . genshinj . I KNOW I KNWO TJHEU JSUT HJAD SUCH A HJOLD ON ME

11) characters from shows/movies/games you kin/stan/just adore!! NOT ACCEPTING IRL PPL PLZ AND THANK U :D (unless it’s urself, we like self love in these parts)

EDAMURA FUCKGIN . MAKOTO . I LVOE HKM SO MCUH IM ACTUALLY GOIGN TO CRY HES EVEYRTHIGN TO ME

12) 5 people you’d wanna be at a party with and why! (Can be alive or dead, real or fake, celebrities or randos, humans or otherwise :D)

i w=nat to meet everyeon from allmy hyperfixations ever . esp itsv/atsv . i wnat to meet spiderman okay

13) favorite hobby/fandom specific term and its meaning :333

lvoe the slime tutiorial joke specificallkjy in online theater spapoces (??????????? hkow do i evne describe this) . its sko fuckinh funny

tags (no pressure <3333): @inwayovermyhead @astromilo @xizxles @l1minality

Get to know you questions!! Tag whoever you like :D

Writing my answers in orange!

1) top 5 or top 10 favorite animals (depending on how many animals you like)

Hermit Crabs, Pigeons, Otters, Anglerfish, Shrimp, Cats, Manned Wolves, Salamander, Sheep, Axolotls :D

2) top 3 Minecraft mobs

Mooshroom, chicken, and parrot!!!

3) favorite vocaloid song or My Singing Monsters island theme and why! (If you don’t like/know Vocaloid/MSM, just name a song or genre you like and why :D)

Fav Vocaloid song is Brain Explosion girl recently, and fav MSM theme HAS to be cold island. Or maybe earth???? Hm

4) favorite and least favorite textures, no why needed :333

Fav is squishy soft things, least favorite is ice in a freezer

5) not your favorite color, but your favorite color palette (bonus points if you have a pic of the specific palette or a photo/artwork of the pallet you like!!)

Purple, Green, Orange, Pink, and Black! Total Halloween vibes!!

6) fav book you had to read for school (fiction or non fiction work lol, and if you don’t like/have any then just name a book or fanfic you like!)

Of Mice and Men was surprisingly amazing! Thought I’d hate it tbh

7) how do you think of the months of the year in your head? Left to right, top to bottom, in specific numbered rows and columns? Tell me :D

I think of it like this:

January, February, March, April

May, June, July, August

September, October, November, December

8) assigned harry potter/ilvermorny house or Percy Jackson cabin or Warrior cats clan something like that lol (if you don’t have anything like that, star sign works too!)

I’ll do em all lol: Slytherin/Hufflepuff, Pukwudgie, Dionysus’s, RiverClan, I’m an Aries sun/gemini rising/pisces moon :D

9) MBTI???? Love those things :33 (If you haven’t taken the test yet or u just don’t wanna cuz it’s too long, are you a solider poet or king?)

I’m an ENFP-T! I thought I’d get king but I got poet lol

10) something “cringe” you actually rly like, no shame here :D

Gacha Life/Club, the styles just so cutesy! Ohhh also K-Pop, I’m a TOTAL stay :33 and DSMP, it’s just rly cool to me

11) characters from shows/movies/games you kin/stan/just adore!! NOT ACCEPTING IRL PPL PLZ AND THANK U :D (unless it’s urself, we like self love in these parts)

For me I currently kin Dazai, Edward Elric, c!TommyInnit, and I completely STAN any Project Sekai character. I mean any of them.

12) 5 people you’d wanna be at a party with and why! (Can be alive or dead, real or fake, celebrities or randos, humans or otherwise :D)

My grandpa to see him again, Roy mustang to see if he’s a bastard irl, Hachi/Kenshi Yonezu just to see how he’s doing, Kanye West to just ask him why, and BeastChild (the YouTuber) just cause I really like his stuff and would wanna meet him!

13) favorite hobby/fandom specific term and its meaning :333

I’m a writer (well, aspiring anyway, I’m not rly that good) and I love the idea of the sexy lamp. Basically if you’re writing a female character that could be replaced with a sexy lampshade and nothing about the story changes then you’re writing a BAD FEMALE CHARACTER XD

Cause it’s spooky season il leave it at 13 ;)

Happy answering!!!

No pressure tags :3 @touratoura @theancientwonder @kneecoal-mooma @citrushomie @skytheamazing @mitski-slope @a-trench-coat-of-confused-worms @dicklesswonder-blog @vicaridoo

[augujerdeer]

Me in the office a few minutes ago: Okay we can go home now

Dad, leaving the office: okay, when they turn of the generator it’s gonna be pitch black in here so make sure you’re quick

Chara suddenly cofronting as we try to pack faster: Hey please don’t turn it off please don’t turn it off please don’t turn it off please dont-

Lights: off and it’s pitch black

Chara: panic attack time™️

Chara: PLEASE DONT FUCKING LEAVE ME HERE

Driver, turning on the lights again: are, you okay

Us: yes,,,,,,,

[her-canine-teeth]

lots of dtuff (OH this is abt me purely no fandom or smth also it's very long as I said in the tags. Just want this to be somewhere)

i forgot what started this thiught but I think there's something of a disconnevt between me & my body. like im not rlly aware of it?? when i was younger i always like looked into the mirror and was like 'that's not me' and today I generally avoid mirrors (e. g. in elavators) but I dknt think I look bad (i look fucking amazing). had a discord group once and I think 2 were from the same country and I dont think they ever met up but like I dont think id want to? maybe it's The Fear thiugh (probably)

still dont like being percieved i think

that is. physically; my thoughts r different (desperately want to talk abt stuff like. all the time. which is hard bc my #1 fear is essentially to talk too much; i think tumblr is great for this bc I can judt put stuff out there and maybe nobody will read it, but at least it's out there. and maybe somebody WILL read it - it's more probable than when I never say it. i think thazs important to me)

me n my mum were talking like a week ago?? or smth anyways my grandparents r made of materials, my mum is made of wind. and im made of words (she says im made of what's between the words which makes sense to me somehow; Idk but I love the uncertain way more than what happened. for example the wilds; there's shoni (canon) n leatin (nof canon) n leatin Was so much more important to me (<- not in the wilds as much anymore)

reason is words r like. literally me like I write poetry, songs (sorta), fics (also sorta) analyses n like my own stuff since im 12/13, i love language(s) sm (like how they shape us. how they interact with one another (lending words, evolution of words, The Bear Thing, etc)) they even have colours for me (the letters and when i think abt it it's sorta like math? Idk)

the only thing i dont do in words is think (mostly) (it's like Idk colours and feelings and pictures or concept sometimes and there are words there but theyre not primary)

but like. call me text post the way i only (mainly) exist as an array of words n thoughts n wishes. to me

[sastheforestspirit]

Listened a bit podcast about comics (got stressed because it's hard)(it's a lot about self publishing and working with editors and writing scripts stuff like that)

Made bullet points for Unless, parted it into 3 act structure

But withouth the right song that will keep me thinking about them it's hard for me to think about them at work, and I can't find it for this ark

And it's cold and gloomy so I sleep much more and I have less free time to work at those. Shdjejd

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

bluhhhhhhh

[zuko-always-lies]

I feel like one or the key issues of Zuko’s redemption arc is that they try to make him more like iroh.

It bothers me since it really only shifted from Zuko blindly following his father to blindly following his uncle. There isnt much personal growth that occurs, rather a shift in loyalty.

I think the problem comes from trying to make Zuko have a similar redemption to iroh. Which is why he never address his past behaviour nor he really has empathy on how his actions affected others as Iroh didnt need to confront that either for his redemption.

Plus the fundamental problem Zuko had was not that he failed to see how war could be bad ( though that was another flaw) but rather the Agni Kai taught hum that compassion was a weakness. Zuko straighr up was told to ignore his own morality which left him confised and clinging to his fathers.

Of course Zuko would steal from Song and destroy Kyoshi village. Compassion is weakness and Zuko cannot be weak.

Its strange to me that iroh never once tries addressing this. Its really odd to me iroh never even notices these connections as i dont remember his ever telling Zuko he didnt deserve to get burned (at least, not before Zuko changed sides).

Thats not to say its an excuse for what Zuko’s done, its just me being fustrated it was never expanded upon as the core root of his problems. Once Zuko regained his sense of morality for himself (not just following whoever he thought was right) then he could have grown immensly and a lot of flaws would be addressed.

I dknt know, it just boyhers me immensly that Zuko’s arc was more framed as ‘Iroh is always right, be loyal to your uncle and do what he says’ (because thats what fundamnetally changed when he switched sides) instead of ‘Your father was wrong and always has been. You are not weak becasue of compassion. Now stand up for your people just like you did in thaf first agni kai.’

Zuko as a character feels stiffled by Iroh, since he kept getting told what to do instead of the lesson kicking his ass and forcing him tk understand kn a deeper level.

Sorry for the long ramble. I like Zuko as a character (hes a jerk who can be kind, its just underneath alll that trauma) and His redemption trying ti make him more like iroh kinda does hum a diservice to me.

Zuko's redemption arc was so much more centered on Iroh, Zuko's guilt about Iroh, and Iroh's plans for Zuko than it was on Zuko developing compassion for ordinary Fire Nation and Earth Kingdom people that it's not even funny, and that's a shame.