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shadowphoenixrider · 2 years ago

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Man, I’m gonna be so mad, as Twitter was a goldmine for discovering new artists and hearing some interesting opinions on Star Wars (even if they were cringelords being stupid). There was some really nice artwork there.

Oh well, guess I’ll have to ply these waters again.

Who knows, I might actually become productive again.

#SPR rambles #the worst thing is losing connections with my friends #most are on Discord so that's less of an issue #but FUCK man #can't follow the news on the games I like #or any news is just fucking GONE #i'll have to join more discord servers which I'm not happy about #OH I WOULD IF I KNEW THE FUCKING URLS TO DO SO THANKS MUSK #full offense I hope he fucking dies #hit by his own tesla and splattered across the road

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!

Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!

Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.

I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!

#im so frustrated that banner has been gone #and people think the comic is over because of that #which is reasonable to think #but it... idk #its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long #let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated #every day there is something new with them its so exhausting #this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration #i feel like they're not just being unhelpful #at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books #i can't make my links too big so no one can find me #people dont even know i have a patreon #i can't make any announcements on the comic #and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized #and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest #and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job #and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done #cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them #I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj #i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out #text post #update

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naamahdarling · 5 months ago

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#fucks me up that there are two whole new animals in the house that i barely know #who depend on me for everything #barely recognize me as a friend or helper #and are so incredibly incredibly fragile #i got worried for junie today because her spay incision had some swelling #and it's normal to have some and i have seen it before #but after what we just wemt through i got upset and rushed her to the vet #who said it was fine and thankfully we have free office visits #but i was so upset even though i knew it was probably normal #i look at them and i see adorable cuddly sweet TEMPORARY things and i feel like something inside me got broken somehow #and i was right all along that after it was all over i would come back but not quite as myself #i just hadn't fully understood the extent #we are keeping them and it sort of had to happen when it did but i think it was too early for me #they are so cute and when they do cuddle it's so sweet and obviously i would fight for them as hard as i would for Fancy #because that's just how the deal works and it isn't about you at all it's about how they each carry a little world inside them just as we d #and that deserves equal respect and care regardless of my personal affections #but i look at them and i see little creatures that don't belong here and are foreign in some fundamental way #and that they will be gone in just a little while and things will go back to how they were #which is impossible #we will settle in and i doubt anything i am feeling is abnormal but I'm really struggling and i feel so bad about that #i don't know #it's just a lot to deal with #and i feel very lonely and sad about it #and under it all the sick feeling of having JUST held all three lads as they passed and the VISCERAL reality of it #and knowing one day if everything goes just right i will be holding them too #dear god life is so fragile and every living thing is just as mortal as any other

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arckiaym · 8 months ago

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hey what if @zoanluen au v2 what then

#ive been fucking obsessed with this au #not that u'd know cause i have a different tumblr to go feral on and ive been gone for like a week but #take my word for it #or dont i dont care im not ur dad #can u tell i didnt put any effort into the outfit? i can. i just got excited about pigtails #i always get so worried when participating in an au that isnt mine ESPECIALLY when im new to the fandom #like hi ultrakill its me and im not going away sorry :(#wasting time tryina think of a fanart tag #ultrakill

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claitea · 5 months ago

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joining you in the pla ruined my life club. also the idea that people confessing to volo about how much they liked him and they wish he wouldn’t have turned all evil on him would actually make him feel worse bc they just liked a facade? man. trying to hurt me huh. it’s like he’s allergic to genuine connection and is obsessed with making people hate him for no reason

YEAHHH ITS LIKE. what i like abt pokemas's volo is that we're getting a better look at exactly how he thinks and feels and what it is is that he literally. cannot identify when people are being positive to him anymore. he is Always on the defensive as a survival tactic so Everything must be treated as some kind of slight against him or a manipulation. because clearly something happened in the past to make him that distrustful! he literally cannot afford to trust again or whatever made him be this way could happen to him again!

what volo needs is a friend. but he wouldnt know one even if they fell from the sky, collected the plates and then beat his ass at spear pillar.

#asks #clai speaks #''why do i feel so alone. must because no one likes me and not because i dont give them a chance to get close.''#its part of why pla is such a unique and brilliant pokemon experience because volo Never gets any sort of closure #his ending is unsatisfying. you beat him he gets mad at you and then fucks off to god knows where while not changing in the slightest #other villains in the series either get definitively beaten and wont cause trouble anymore or even turn a new leaf #but volo is just. so far gone. he hates everything and everyone and i dont know what it's going to take to actually stop him #he is this uniquely hopeless case in a series all about hope it is So fascinating. i'm going to shake volo like a maraca

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veatomis · 1 month ago

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Insane to think abt how lucanis and elio essentially went through the same thing but one came out of his prison believing more in himself and his self worth, realizing the bad things he had been believing abt himself were not true and that he deserves good things while the other came out of his with all of his insecurities validated, believing he was wrong for ever feeling hope abt the people around him and wanting good things for himself, realizing just how alone and worthless he is, becoming a much more closed off and, honestly, worse version of himself

#sorry i keep thinking abt how rook elio's arc ends up with him essentially becoming hardened #when lucanis is softened. rattling the bars of my cage #i also cant stop imagining how the people around elio might start noticing the changes.....#viago noticing how elio doesnt look at him for approval how theres this new degree of separation between them imposed by elio instead of him #teia who gets a still much softer version of elio than viago does but again. theres a new distance to their interactions #he doesnt treat her as his older brother's cool gf he treats her like any low ranking crow would a talon #the veilguard who get complete radio silence from him because he fucked off without saying anything the second #solas was thrown into the fade prison. not a goodbye not a note nothing. all of his stuff from the lighthouse gone #luar who gets very few sparse letters where elio just asks them how theyre doing and doesnt even attempt #to find smth to connect each other. he doesnt talk abt what other family they might have or make any comments abt how #since theyre twins they have to stick together and be there for each other.#even lucanis who has the better chance at catching elio sees not a single hair of him for MONTHS post dav events #elio de riva

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nintendont2502 · 2 months ago

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spending more than a few days around your family and no one else truly does cause a certain type of madness. and baby they call me the joker

#ughhhh #travelling with other people after travelling solo is exhausting #wdym i cant just go do my own thing #what do you mean i have to spend this entire time doing shit other people want to do while i just kinda stand around awkwardly bc i dont #have anyone to talk to #what do you meani constantly have to mask more than i ususally do bc i cant look at all neurodivergent or queer or. unhappy. or bored.#or tired #im so tired.#ive got a couple of days in london alone thank fuck #but ugh idk #its just constant 'you should appreciate this!! not many people get to do this!!#cant have a real conversation. treated like a child the whole time. cant even swear.#misgendered and deadnamed the entire time but whats new there #constantly surrounded by people #constantly have to be performing happiness because otherwise youre called rude and told to snap out of it #cant talk to people because everyone interrupts or talks over you or doesnt hear you #cant go on your phone at all if theres anyone around. and theres always people around #constantly on the border of being overloaded at all times but you still have to talk to people !!!#its not even my family this sucksss #'come to england so you can sit in a pub for 3 hours while everyone drinks beer and talks to each other you cant join in on any conversatio #you cant do anything else and if you dont look happy to just be sitting there doing nothing then you get yelled at!! and maybe this is a lit #paid for my own tickets) but #im not. this isnt *fun*. im sitting around surrounded by someone elses family who dont know me and i dont know them #doing shit i actively hate all day #and i constantly have to be performing and acting like im habing a great time the entire time or im spoilt #even thouhg i. i paid for my own ticket here #man i couldve gone to japan again #'isnt england amazing!!" yeah idk it seems like it is!! too bad weve spent this entire goddamn time in some tiny village in the middle of #fuck ass nowhere going on walks that are identical to the ones at home #love to actually go experience it outside of the. one full day. i get in london

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kira-kui-n · 2 years ago

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neglecting my job at the draw giant 6+ digit kill count robots as silly little animals factory

#its not as hot as it was when i was scribbling these but i start whining once it gets past 15. so like #STILL FUCKING HOT TO ME BABY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#rodimus #drift #tf #scoob scribble #6 digits is lowballing the kill count esp 4 drift but thinkgen abt an accurate number made me explode so. 6 Plus #stupid ass absurdly long war. no way they were making new dudes faster than they were killing dudes #they shoulda gone extinct after 2 seconds #both sides just go into hiatus for 100s of years at a time or what.#ok prime i prommy i wont attack any more planets for a while #ok megatron i prommy i wont attack u while u prepare to attack more planets #kills them both #anyway funny small animals am i right

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dogboy-dyke · 8 days ago

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ah I might not be able to make rent this month 🙃

#My roommates gi payment didn't come in today like it was supposed to so I have to pay the whole thing by myself #I have 1000 and my parents were able to spare 300 but I'm still 100 short #My roommates parents won't give them anymore money because they keep having to ask for more because they're unemployed and irresponsible #with money #I've never had this happen before because usually even if my roommate can't pay I have enough from my job but because we were off a #couple weeks for Christmas and New Year's I only had about 30 hours worked on my last paycheck #God fucking damnit If I hadn't gone grocery shopping yesterday I would have been able to pay 🤦#Anyone have any advice? I guess I'll just call my landlord and beg for an extension #It's the first time we've been short so hopefully he'll be decent about it #vent

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ragingbullmode · 9 months ago

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thinking about this damn text convo with my mom today still has me wanting to punch walls like 🗿

#personal #she took my car this morning & didnt respond to any of my messages & for some weird ass reason ig my dad just said #‘bad news ur car is gone’ & refused to elaborate so ofc i spent 3 hours of my morning freaking out it got STOLEN #he was probs trying to cover for her or some shit but like. she had this docs appt scheduled for MONTHS & knew i was working today + taking #someone to work… like yes i still live under ur roof but fuck me man u ALSO have ur own cars stop takong mine !!!#so damn embarrassing to tell my friend theyd have to take a lyft like i paid for it & they said it was fine but still 😭#im just in the kitchen cooking all pissed af 🙈

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kenziecrystai · 5 months ago

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2: Fucking RIP Jayce and Viktor I guess lmao

#not a spot of either of them in any of the teasers or trailers #they are GONE #well jayce def is. idk ive still got some hope for viktor bc of this hexcore shenanigans #my theory is he just barely survives but is horrifically injured and his new appearance is a big reveal so theyre not showing him yet #anyway those 2 aside #VI IS GETTING AN EMO MAKEOVER #EKKO HAS A PONYTAIL NOW #I AM SO FUCKING HYPED #arcane #arcane season 2 #arcane spoilers

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fantasmadelaciudad · 3 months ago

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anyone else violently afraid of dying in a mass preventable accident or is it just me. asking for a friend.

#emyrs.txt #i'm so maddddddddd. i wrangled this specific type of intrusive thought as a preteen!!!!! i had finally managed to convince myself #that i was fine with “if it happens it happens”!!!!! i had finally gone. ok well. nothing i can do about that! and moved on!!!!!#but then. covid vine boom. multiple acquaintances and family dying within months of each other vine boom. season 4 house md finale vine boo #the election vine boom. me being stressed as hell in general because of who i am as a person. etc etc.#was driving down the freeway the other day and so viscerally thought of a car accident happening that i almost started crying reflexively.#caitlin doughty uploaded a new video today and i watched it thinking. oh yeah i'll feel better! bc it's caitlin :) and then i almost had #a panic attack imagining something like that happening to one of my friends or family or me.#anyway i think i should get checked for ocd. for reasons unrelated to the intense stress/sheer panic i feel all the time & the rituals &#compulsions & the thoughts that loop over & over in my head. unrelated to all that.#also this specific fear is i think rooted mostly in pain. like. dying a slow nasty death. where being killed would be more humane.#and also obviously the preventability of it all. thinking specifically of caitlins' newest video specifically but also just. accidents #happen all the fucking time. being a casualty in something and then having my body not be identified for hours or days or months. or being #misidentified. like obviously i won't give a shit. bc i'll be dead. but who will help my parents through the whole thing. who will tell #my friends.#ok i'm freaking myself out even more. ask to tag. idk if any of this is triggering.#um. bye. i'm fine just. ?????????? you understand.

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toastedjeans · 1 day ago

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i'm probably overreacting again, but i honestly don't really feel welcome here anymore. so if anyone sees this or cares, i'll be less active until probably end of february, and then i'll debate on leaving tumblr for good

if you want an elaboration it's in the tags