#only to rewatch the movie at 23 and figure out i had a crush on keira knightley as well
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Nick watching Pirates of Carebbean and going "oh maybe I'm bi" feels like a huge attack on me, because it literally took me 15 years to reach that same conclusion
#not me thinking i had a crush on orlando bloom for 15 years#only to rewatch the movie at 23 and figure out i had a crush on keira knightley as well#heartstopper#pirates of the carribean
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I posted 12.953 times in 2021
112 posts created (1%)
12841 posts reblogged (99%)
For every post I created, I reblogged 114.7 posts.
I added 251 tags in 2021
#replies - 68 posts
#personal - 46 posts
#never ending playlist - 42 posts
#attachment - 22 posts
#about both of them - 18 posts
#thanks for the askđ„°đ - 12 posts
#prev tags - 11 posts
#about leon - 11 posts
#psoh feels - 11 posts
#aquarius - 10 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#also i grew up on arepas and they are okay but ppl in my home country can't fathom how can i survive not having one for breakfast every day
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#5
que el mcu en español se traduzca a ucm nunca me dejara de hacer gracia
11 notes âą Posted 2021-11-10 19:40:17 GMT
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Tag 9 people you want to get to know better
thanks for the tag @gardenarcana (i'm sorry i hadn't seen this before)
favorite color: pink and aquamarine
currently reading: her body and other parties by carmen maria machado and all of the drabbles @junosjukebox has written in the last idk month or so?
last song you listened to: crush by seventeen
last series: rewatching the nanny for the 5th thousandth time because comfort show
last movie: french dispatch
savory, sweet or spicy: sweet
cravings: chocolate and pad thai
currently working on: the december's social calendar from hell and recovery related things
No pressure Tags: @sapphicfolch @violet-amore @stephanieschildren @msaudreyanne @woodswit (or anyone else that wants to do this ofc)
12 notes âą Posted 2021-11-12 23:50:24 GMT
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this probably matters zero bc i always have a 300 post queue but if we're mutuals and you wonder why I'm ignoring your posts and have suddenly not been annoying, i just refuse to waste my data plan on tumblr till the wifi at home gets fixed
13 notes âą Posted 2021-11-29 18:19:34 GMT
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I was tagged by @aquafinha to do this (thank you Katieđ„°đ)
1. Why did you choose your url?:
for a long time my personal brand was the friend that loved glitter vfx and makeup in general, ofc i would go all out and leave trails of glitter everywhere lmao also i like having a url that is recognizable but not fandom affiliated
2. Any side blogs?:
yes lmao so many but the active ones are only @ellavaday for rpdr stuff, @ccantaloup for cute animal videos food and reminders to be kind to yourself (it is where a lot of... not particularly good stuff used to be documented and instead of deleting it i decided to rebrand it and keep it as a reminder to myself) and @ateneawrites for fic writing (this one's a baby and it's brand new bc i haven't written for fun in a good 6 years, i'm rusty but definitely having fun at least)
3. How long have you been on tumblr?:
2010ish
4. Do you have a queue tag?:
nope, y'all gotta figure out if i'm online or not by yourselves lmao (it's not hard i usually blog a lot of things in a row when i'm online vs one post every half an hour when i'm not)
5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?:
i had just moved to a new continent and didn't have many friends and was bored
6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?:
because i lost my old oneđ i put a cute pic of a ghost for halloween and lost the one i had before of a bottle shaped like a heart that said poison đ the one i currently have just looked okay with the no header look i like on mobile
7. Why did you choose your header?:
i don't like the look of headers đŹ
8. Whatâs your post with the most notes?:
in this blog? It's buried bc this blog is old as sin but it's either a post about leon orcot from psoh or effie trinket from thg, rn it's a screenshot of choriza may's last look on the rpdr runway because this might not be the drag race blog but the stickers of a peach with "chocho" written on it definitely belongs to this blog lmao
9. How many mutuals do you have?:
probably about a hundred-ish but i am not sure since the rpdr blog is quite more popular than my main
10. How many followers do you have?:
this blog has about 1.1k and the drag race blog has about 4.8k followers (which is absolutely insane but most of those have to be inactive by now tbh.. that sideblog exploded when i first made it bc of t&k), fully have no clue about the other ones but those are the ones i frequent the most
11. How many people do you follow?:
367
12. Have you ever made a shitpost?:
have i made anything but shitposts?
13. How often do you use tumblr each day?:
i started to check it daily again just recently, kind of left it abandoned in 2017 but i'm here probably more often than i should currently
14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once?:
never, the unfollow button is right there and blocking is not hard should that not suffice
15. How do you feel about âyou need to reblog thisâ posts?:
same as katie, i get annoyed, it usually just ensures i ignore it, specially, no offense, if it's got to do with the us
16. Do you like tag games?:
love them
17. Do you like ask games?:
love those too!
my favorite thing is the mutuals that will send you things to your ask box unprompted too btw or play things like "assign me a time period in history" or a dessert (@msaudreyanne @woodswit @jackredfieldwasmyjacob are probably some of my favorite people to follow bc of those things)
18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?:
depends on what we consider famous, i think some of them have got def more engagement than most, if that counts as famous then @woodswit @msaudreyanne and @legallybrunette1997 qualify
if we go by "people that represent their fandom" i think I'd be remiss not to add @goldenliartrash and @sapphicfolch to the list (hello ministericos how are we doing) and then @ellanainthetardis (or hayffie fanfiction god) and @junosjukebox and @veronicasanders (for rpdr fanfiction specifically)
19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?:
a couple that i'm v good friends irl with now since i firmly believe in being a tiny bit in love with your friends đ„°
(no pressure) tags: @kindlichekaiserins @sapphicsupremacist @dykegoblins @amillcitygirl @gardenarcana @poliearbear @lissette @timelordsensate @katya-zamos @doumekiss @1-800-heller @papitati @stephanieschildren , any of the people i tagged before while answering this and anyone else who wishes to do this
18 notes âą Posted 2021-11-25 17:00:54 GMT
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Obsessed with these stickers, i too would like a giant peach sticker that says chocho
33 notes âą Posted 2021-11-01 09:48:01 GMT
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on FIMQ deleting her content and COVID-19 (and a gratuitous larry fic rec)
@freddiesmyqueen first of all queen i hope youâre doing ok although i know some shit must have gone down for you to delete/private list all your videos and i hope you know that the larry community supports you always. Also your talent is TRULY unmatched in the world of video editing - no one makes edits quite like you and thatâs why your loss impacts the community so profoundly.Â
secondly, i know at least i was hoping to turn to rewatching all of FIMQâs videos while iâm being quarantined due to the coronavirus. and iâm willing to bet that iâm not the only one. this is a scary time and for people like me who feel profoundly alone right now, the only way for me to calm my nerves and fears is by reverting to the content and community that helped me feel not so alone when i was in middle and high school. For me, that looks like watching FIMQ videos and reading my favorite larry fanfics (which i will also link below). because of this i thought it might be helpful to repost some links that were posted by @bluemoonlarryandkaylor for a signal boost (if my teeny-tiny account can be called a signal boost).Â
link to a google drive with FIMQ videos:Â https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1ONwfLOd_IYvAL5OUDqDb_LLgQsDpd9il
link to an acct with some FIMQ re-uploads:Â https://www.youtube.com/user/Joana3961/videos
link to FIMQ vids with spanish subtitles:Â https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIouodFhArMkQhOHxv2t2NgxTwl6KvXAT
and now if you want to look at some good old fashioned larry fics that are my ABSOLUTE faves and could 100% be actual novels/movies, keep reading:
And Then A Bit**Â by @infinitelymint aka the best fanfic ever written (basically larry fakes a relationship for publicity with each other and it could be cannon if you really wanted to hope upon hopes):Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/1415272/chapters/2972746Â (159k)
âWeâd like to give the fans what they want.â Magee states, placing his hand on the table in front of him and leaning forward. âWe want to give them Larry Stylinson.â
Or, take a parallel universe where Louis and Harry were never together, mix in a two year hiatus and an impending comeback, pour in a dash of lost fans, two tablespoons of strong friendship and a Modest! employee with a good idea. Add a squeeze of pretending to be a couple, lots of kisses and a tattoo or two. Stir. Serve: the mother of all publicity stunts.
(aka Harry and Louis fake a relationship for publicity. Eventually it becomes a lot less fake and a lot more real.)
Escapade** by @haydolce aka the Jack McQueen fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/4034197/chapters/9071932 (146k)
In the grand scheme of things, finding a date for a wedding should be no problem for Louis Tomlinson. He's rich. He's handsome. He's reasonably well behaved. But when the wedding is for his lifelong best friend (and former boyfriend), and is happening in under a month, finding a date for the ceremony and accompanying festivities becomes more of an adventure than he ever could have planned for.
California Sold** by @isthatyoularryâ : https://archiveofourown.org/works/5157680/chapters/11877494 (123k)
Notoriously closeted boyband member Harry Styles is famous on a global scale, meanwhile Louis, as his best friend, is back home in Manchester, living the typical life of a 24 year old. When Harry needs Louis with him in LA, a publicity stunt gone wrong changes their friendship forever.
A fake-relationship AU between two lifelong best friends.
Bring Your Body Baby (I Could Bring You Fame) by @theboyfriendstagram :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/4263903/chapters/9652944Â (84k)
Eighteen year old Harry Styles just graduated high school and landed a summer job as a waterboy for his favorite football team. His job description is simple: be ready to hand water and towels to players if needed. That didnât seem to include Louis Tomlinson though, a twenty-three year old, recently transferred Paris Saint-German player, who seems to like making Harryâs job much more difficult than it has to be.
OR Â
A self-indulgent AU that takes place over the summer of 2015. 18 year old Harry hates pining after people he can't have, and 23 year old footballer Louis loves flirting with people even though it never means anything.
Pull Me Under** by @zarah5 :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/870766/chapters/1672104Â (140k)
AU. As the first British footballer to come out at the prime of his career, it helps that Louis Tomlinson is in a long-term, committed relationship. Even if that relationship is fake. (Featuring Niall as Louis' favourite teammate, Liam as Louis' agent, and Zayn as Liam's boyfriend, who just happens to be good friends with one Harry Styles.)Â
You You You** by @isthatyoularry :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/846690/chapters/1617212Â (137k)
âInfamous boybander leaves club together with unknown,â read the headline. Underneath were pictures of a boy with dark curls, green eyes and very tight pants. They both studied the article for a moment, reading it through quickly. âIs thatâŠ?â Louis frowned. That guy almost looked exactly like... "HOLY FUCKING SHIT!" "Louis," Niall said, looking absolutely fucked over. "You just fucked the most wanted guy on earth. You just fucked Harry Styles of One Direction."
Or, the one where Harry and Louis meet at a club and Louis takes Harry home, only for him to realize that the boy who just made him breakfast half naked is Harry Styles from One Direction.
Like an Endless Summer by @horsegirlharry :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/11365494/chapters/25442085Â (87k)
âYou just wanna go fawn over Styles as soon as possible,â Zayn grumbles.
âI do not. Plus, he probably got ugly this year. Eighteen is an awkward time...I bet heâs got acne and one of those terrible fuckboy haircuts all the hipsters are getting these days, with the shaved sides? Just watch, the first year weâre gonna get any time together is gonna be the first year I donât have a stupid crush on him.â
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Or, Louis is a riding instructor at a summer camp, and Harry is a fellow counselor who heâs been successfully managing his crush on for the last two summers. That is, until Harry shows up this year leveled up and lethal, and all Louisâs formerly perfected veneer of nonchalance melts like a popsicle in the sun.
Three French Hems by @100percentsassy and @gloriaandrews :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/3064493Â (20k)
In which Louis is a designer at Burberry and Harry spends December wearing Lanvin⊠and Lanvin⊠and Lanvin.
The Dead of July aka the Marvel Fic by @whimsicule : https://archiveofourown.org/works/3594570/chapters/7928520 (117k)
Being an Avenger means continuing to be Captain America and smiling and being honorable for the public and Harry does his best. But it doesnât give him time to figure out who he is supposed to be once he takes off his uniform and puts the shield to the side. Just being Harry had always involved Louis, and Harry fears he doesnât know how to exist without him.
or: Harry is Captain America, and Louisâ been dead for 70 years.
Gods & Monsters by @mizzwilde : https://archiveofourown.org/works/2090982/chapters/4550871 (201k)
The instructions were simple: seduce and destroy Harry Styles. Not once did they discuss the option of Louis actually falling in love. So, naturally, that's exactly what he did.
Love is a Rebellious Bird aka LIARB aka the orchestra fic aka dont hum bolero by @100percentsassy and @gloriaandrews :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/1162438/chapters/2362331Â (135k)
AU in which the boys still make music. Louis is the concertmaster of the London Symphony Orchestra, Harry is the New! and Exciting! interim conductor/ex-cello prodigy who "has made Mozart cool again" according to Esquire Magazine (Louis hates him immediately, which is definitely why he internet stalked him in his dark bedroom late at night that one time), and Niall is the best. Zayn and Liam are around too.
Don't hum Bolero.
My English Love Affair** by @isthatyoularryâ :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/1873962Â (19k)
The thing about sleeping with a member of a famous indie band is that the inevitability of having a song written about you is most likely a hundred percent. The second thing is that in the end, nobody's supposed to find out it's about you.
The one where Harry writes a song about his English love affair and Louis sleeps with someone in White Eskimo and all he gets is a stupid song written about him.
Soft Hands, Fast Feet, Canât Lose by @haydolce :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/5799241/chapters/13366498Â (113k)
American Uni AU. Harry Styles is a frat boy football star from the wealthy Styles Family athletic dynasty. A celebrity among football fans, he knows how to play, he knows how to party, and he knows how to fuck (all of which is well known among his legion of admirers).
Louis Tomlinson is a student and an athlete, but his similarities to Harry end there. Intelligent, focused, independent, and completely uninterested in Harryâs charms, Louis is an anomaly in a world ruled by football.
A bet about the pair, who might be more similar than they originally thought, brings them together. Shakespeare, ballet, Disney, football, library chats, running, accidental spooning, Daredevil and Dominoâs Pizza all blend into one big friendship Frappucino, but who will win in the end?
Wild and Unruly aka the Cowboy fic by @100percentsassy and @gloriaandrews : https://archiveofourown.org/works/2723093/chapters/6099611 (124k)
Harry is a cowboy sitting on the biggest oil reservoir in Wyoming, and Louis is the paralegal assigned to pressure him into selling his land.
For As Long As I Can Remember (Itâs Been December)** by @greenfeelingsâ :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/15051122/chapters/34892210Â (128k)
After recovering from a severe accident that causes Harry to lose his memory of three years, he moves to London to start his life over as a star chef. Little does he know that when he falls in love with Louis at first sight, itâs not the first time they meet.
Featuring an unintentional game of hot and cold, Harry chasing memories that wonât come back, Louis burying himself in work to try and forget what he canât forget, Liam being torn between two of his best friends, Zayn as a moral compass and Niall saving the day with good music and brutal honesty.
the boys of fall**Â aka the american football fic by @godgavemelouâ :Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/5443037Â (21k)
âAnd everyone, this is Harry Styles. Heâs going to be our starting quarterback this year.â
Louis looks at him, the tall and lanky Harry Styles, and takes it all in. Heâs got hair to his shoulders that curls at the ends, tattoos all down his arms, and a bright smile on his face as the team cheers him on. Heâs lean and fit, and absolutely beautiful, and Louis hates him to the core.
OR an american football au where the boys play for the university of tennessee, and harry and louis quite hate each other.
** indicates that the fic is a log-in required fic, but if you want the pdf i can send it to you
#FIMQ#freddieismyqueen#freddiesmyqueen#larry#Larry Stylinson#larry proof#LARRY IS REAL#Larry theory#covid2019#covid_19#coronavirus#quarantine#loneliness#alone#not alone#community#larry community#larry videos#larry fic#larry fanfiction#larry fanfic rec#larry fic rec#fic rec
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Lost in the Shadows - Chapter 23
AO3
Taglist: @nott-the-best @foxglove-airmid @alastair-esfandiyar-carstairs1 @justanormaldemon @styxdrawings @ipromiseiwillwrite @a-dream-dirty-and-bruised
@alastair-appreciation-month
Previous Chapter: Chapter 22
Next Chapter: Chapter 24
Alastair was exhausted. By the time they made it back, it was seven in the evening even if theyâd been in the land in between for much shorter. He was cold, still soaking wet, and he didnât want to know what had been in the water that had flooded the dungeon. He imagined he and Cordelia both smelt terrible, but completely covered in it, Alastair could not smell it himself. It was frustrating, because Thomas and Lucie did not indicate anything about their scent, but Alastair suspected they did smell whatever had been in that water and were just too polite to mention it. Thomas didnât touch him and kept a little more distance than he usually did.
All the way back to the Herondaleâs manor, Cordelia and Alastair were arguing about who could use the bathroom first, until Lucie pointed out there was a second bathroom connected to the master bedroom.
âWhy do you both want to go second anyway?â Thomas asked. âIâd imagine youâd argue about who gets to go first.â
âBecause I am cold and dirty and want to use the bathroom for at least an hour, and if I go first, Cordelia will start yelling at me to hurry up after about ten minutes,â Alastair said.
Thomas tilted his head. âAnd if she goes first?â
âThen I will yell at her to get out after ten minutes,â Alastair said. âAnd since I am freezing Iâd be completely justified.â
âWe both have very excessive bathroom rituals,â Cordelia added. âEspecially when weâre this dirty. But staying in there for an hour would be rude if someone else also needs to use the bathroom. So whoever goes second can yell and be completely justified, and then has all the time they need to get warm and clean. Itâs a good thing there are two bathrooms and we can both go take a shower.â .â
Two separate bathrooms sounded good. He remembered his childhood home had had that too, before his father had been forced to sell the family home when Alastair was around five. Jem had bought it back a couple of years ago, but Alastair found it difficult to imagine why one person needed a house that big. Although he guessed Jem had grown up there too and had lost his parents at a young age, so perhaps there were sentimental reasons.
Both the Herondales and the Lightwoods were at the manor. Will and Tessa were reading as usual, Sophie was tidying something up in the kitchen and Gideon was pacing back and forth until he noticed the four of them.
âFinally, youâre back,â Gideon said, concern written all over his face. âWhat happened?â
âWe got the skin,â Cordelia said. âGrace is free. But the dungeon the skin was hidden in was completely flooded, so if you donât mind I want to use the bathroom. Alastair and I both do, and Lucie mentioned there was a second bathroom.â
In the end Cordelia took the bathroom connected to Will and Tessaâs bedroom while Alastair took the one upstairs, glad to finally have some peace. He was exhausted as well as cold and dirty. There was a huge bathtub in there and Alastair turned on the water while getting in the shower to first rinse off the worst of the filth and to get warm again. He got out of the shower when he felt like he was semi clean and the bath tub was nearly full. Even if heâd been in the shower for some time and felt a lot cleaner than before, he was still so cold. He got in the bathtub. There was even a bubble bath function, exactly how rich was Lucieâs grandmother?
Perhaps he should ask Thomas to join him here sometime. He imagined that would be nice. Alastair allowed himself to relax. Although he was exhausted, he did feel a lot better than yesterday. At least with Grace freed, he felt like heâd accomplished something. Like he wasnât useless and deserved to be liked again. That was something he often struggled with.
He sought out memories, but unlike other days he didnât seek out the bad ones. Right now he wasnât seeking to make sense of the past, nor was he interested in hurting himself. Instead, he let himself settle comfortably into a memory of Thomas confessing his feelings to him, of their first kiss. It wasnât all bad, the memories.
When he was younger, they didnât have a lot of movies at home, so sometimes they would rewatch movies Cordelia had seen at Lucieâs place instead. His mother had been a little concerned about that, usually children being too quiet was bad news but them sitting on the couch for over an hour in the same position was just weird.
Lucie had a tendency to talk through movies, so Alastair had come to associate certain scenes in the Little Mermaid or Aladdin with her commentary. Alastair had always loved Aladdin as a child. Although now he was far more critical of the strange way in which the movie mixed together Persian, Arabic and Indian culture and architecture, at the time Aladdin had been one of the few movies with a main character who looked like him.
He returned to reality after a while, finally warm again and decided to stay in bath for a little longer. Bubble baths really were nice, Alastair guessed if he had ever had enough money for one heâd buy a bubble bath. In the current economical climate he doubted heâd even be able to buy a home, but he could dream.
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Thomas was busy in the kitchen with his mother. He liked to cook, and was quite good at it. From a young age heâd wanted to go into the kitchen and look at what his mother was doing there, or help out. Barbara was a decent cook but didnât love it like he and his mother did, and Eugenia had been banned from using the kitchen, but Thomas had picked up cooking quite easily. Now, they were making a vegan shepherdâs pie, Thomas was cutting the onion, trying to cut the pieces as tiny as possible. Compared to his mother, he was less sensitive to onion and was therefore always giving that task while cooking together.
âWere you surprised?â he asked out of a sudden. âWhen you and dad found out I like boys?â
His mother threw away the potato peels. âNot really. I remember when you were fourteen and would come home from school. You could only talk about this older boy youâd met, about how beautiful his dark hair and eyes were.â
Thomas realized his mother had a point, that wasnât exactly subtle. And he couldnât talk about his feelings for Alastair with his friends, so instead heâd talked about him at home. âThat boy was Alastair,â he said.
âReally?â his mother asked. âNow that you mention it, that was his name, but we never met him.â
âI think dad suggested I invite him over for dinner, but Alastair barely acknowledged me back then and I didnât dare. Nor do he think he would have accepted.â
âAnd while you were singing his praises, James and Matthew could only complain about him. So we figured there had to be a reason why you thought he was perfect when your friends thought he was awful. We werenât sure it was a crush, or if there was some other reason, we figured it was best to let you figure that out on your own.â
Thomas hadnât realized it was so obvious, but looking back it was a miracle anyone had missed it.
âThanks for that. I donât think I was ready to talk about it at that age, even if I wasnât exactly subtle. We do have a bit of a history. While I was in love with him, he was awful to us. I think I idealized him then, because he was beautiful and smart and appeared so confident, and I downplayed his rudeness. But he isnât like that anymore, he grew up and changed and he apologized for his behavior at school.â
âPeople change,â his mother said. âI believe people deserve a second chance. Especially when someone was so young when they made mistakes.â
âExactly. And now I feel like Iâm getting to know the real him. You and dad, you do like him right?â
âOf course we do,â Sophie said. âHeâs been nothing but polite, although a bit blunt. Your father sees himself in Alastair, he thinks Alastair struggles with connecting to people because of his past, and wants to help.â
âAlastair thinks you only like him for his ability and his willingness to save me,â Thomas said. âIâm not sure why he thinks that, it seemed unlikely and he couldnât really explain his line of thinking either.â
Sophie sat down at the kitchen table, cutting the carrots. âWhen youâve been treated badly in the past, it can become difficult to accept kindness. At some point, you start to expect people arenât sincere, they canât be trusted, because thatâs all theyâve known.
It was difficult for me, at first, to trust your fatherâs kindness because I knew people were not always genuine, because Iâd been hurt before and I was scared it would happen again. Because I thought, with this scar, who could believe Iâm beautiful?â
Before meeting his father, his mother had been in a relationship with a man whoâd cut open her face when sheâd broken up with him. Heâd claimed that if he couldnât have her, heâd make sure no one else would want her. The cut had left a scar across her cheek and her ex had eventually gone to prison.
Thomas didnât know the details, but suspected her ex had been abusive before the break up already. People didnât always realize how dangerous leaving could be for an abuse victim. His motherâs ex had turned to carving up her face with a knife. Benedict Lightwood had decided to sacrifice his wife when he realized she was leaving. He had to admire Alastair for being brave enough to leave his ex. Even if someone wasnât physically violent it couldnât be easy.
âDo you think he distrusts your and dadâs kindness because of that?â Thomas asked.
âI think thatâs likely,â Sophie said. âI think he blames himself for what happened to him, and might not believe itâs possible for other people to genuinely care for him. Perhaps he thinks people have treated him badly because heâs a bad person, or perhaps he thinks that heâs too broken to be loved. Perhaps to him it is so unlikely that we care for him that it makes more sense that we are kind because we want something from him.â
Thomas figured it was something like that. But what did to mean for Alastairâs feelings for him? Did Alastair think he too would abandon him if things became too difficult? Or did he think Thomas would only stay with him as long as he could satisfy his needs, with no care for his own? Did he feel guilty about falling into that flashback last night when Thomas had touched him, like he was not good enough? Thomas wanted to make him understand that it wasnât true, that he loved Alastair and wouldnât abandon him, but he wasnât sure how.
âHow do I convince him thatâs not true?â Thomas asked.
âThe only thing we can do is let him know we care,â his mother said. âAnd be patient with him. Does he communicate his feelings to you?â
âHe tends to be honest and rather blunt with his feelings,â Thomas said. âI like that about him.â
When Alastair wanted to be honest, he wasnât one to dance around the message or his feelings. He was very straightforward and blunt in what he wanted to say, not much like what was common in Britain, to hide behind politeness. Thomas found it refreshing, to know that when Alastair said something nice he meant every word of it.
âSo make sure you communicate with him as well,â his mother said. âI know you struggle with verbalizing your emotions, but you have to let him know how you feel or he might end up believing you donât really care for him.â
Thomas nodded. His mother was right, he did struggle with telling people how he felt. Most of the time, it was because he was scared his feelings would inconvenience other people. He was determined not to do that to Alastair though, he knew his feelings for him werenât inconvenient and they werenât shameful. Nevertheless sometimes it was hard just to get the words past his lips. Perhaps that was why heâd waited so long to come out when heâd wanted to for some time. Ultimately, kissing Alastair when they would see was easier than telling them, but he knew he could not communicate with Alastair the same way, heâd have to tell him how he felt as well as show it.
âWas it difficult for you, entering a new relationship after the last one had ended so badly?â Thomas asked.
âIt took a while until I was ready,â his mother said. âAt first, I thought, who would want me now that I have this scar? I think Alastair might feel the same way, even if his scars arenât literal like mine is. It took some time before I started believing Gideon when he said I was beautiful. That is a process, and all you can do is support him and be gentle with him while he works through that.â
âLast night, something I did triggered a flashback,â Thomas admitted. âI thought he was okay with it, I think he thought so too. Or maybe he was scared to refuse because of how his ex used to treat him. Something I did reminded him of his ex and he panicked.â
âDid you communicate what you both wanted?â his mother asked.
Thomas had to think. Heâd asked, of course, and Alastair had said yes. But perhaps what they needed was a more in depth discussion of what they both liked and what Alastair was comfortable with.
âYes. He likes it when I ask for consent before kissing or touching him. I think he didnât see it coming. That it would trigger a flashback, I mean. But I donât want to hurt him, and I think maybe he feels like he isnât a good partner if heâs not ready to have sex? Iâm not sure exactly, but I think his ex was very demanding when it came to sex.â
âItâs best to ask him,â Sophie said. âYou said he usually honest and blunt with his feelings, so I think if you ask him how he feels about sex, heâll tell you. Those arenât always easy conversations, but itâs the best way to make sure you donât accidently hurt him. And I think when you accidently trigger something, itâs best to apologize and move on when he does. Lingering on it might make him feel worse.â
They finished the shepherdâs pie and put it in the oven. Thomas always struggled with preheating the oven at the right time, he didnât want to leave it on for a long time while he wasnât ready to put anything in it, but it was also annoying when everything was finished but he had to wait for the oven to get warm. It was another half an hour until it was done, which would give Alastair and Cordelia plenty of time to finish bathing. Thomas hadnât wanted to say anything but they did smell awful after coming out of that dungeon soaking wet, and he could tell they were both chilled to the bone. He hoped neither of them would get sick.
Thomas sat down on the couch with his father and Lucie. âIâd been waiting for you,â Lucie said. âI thought it would be better with you here.â
Gideon frowned. âWhatâs going on?â
âThis might be difficult to process,â Lucie said. âWhile I was waiting in the land in between, I saw a ghost. Not like I usually see ghosts, she was only half there, transparent like in the movies. Until I asked her to show herself so Thomas could see her too. When I was back in our world, I could do the same thing. According to Grace, I stole a soul back from the thief of souls.â
âYou stole a soul?â Gideon asked. âIâm not sure Iâm following. Is she a ghost now?â
âSheâs right here,â Lucie said. âA ghost, yes, but no longer trapped. Sheâs your mother.â
âMy⊠mother?â His father seemed in shock, his voice a whisper. âYou mean to say sheâs here?â
âSheâs been trapped for a long time until I found here. She didnât realize how much time had passed until we told her and she found out Thomas was your son. She wants to talk to you if thatâs alright with you.â
Thomas found it difficult to imagine what his father must be feeling. Would he be happy for a chance to see his mother, or would it only tear open old wounds? He knew Lucie had done the right thing to set her free, and hoped she could find peace and way to move on from this world, but he wasnât sure it was kind to his father. Not telling him was infinitely worse though.
âYes, of course. How does this work? Do you tell me what sheâs saying?â
âActually, I can make her visible,â Lucie said. âBarbara, show yourself.â
Barbara Lightwood appeared once more, standing in the middle of the living room. She looked a bit disoriented, glancing around before settling her gaze on his father.
âGideon. It has been so long,â she said. âLast I remember you were still so small. Iâm so sorry for leaving you.â
âThat wasnât your fault,â his father said, tears in his eyes.
Thomas wondered if he should leave, if this was a private conversation, but Lucie couldnât leave since she had made Barbara visible. Perhaps he should stick around for emotional support?
His father had a long conversation with Barbara, telling him about his life, about Thomasâ sisters. Barbara started crying too when she realized Thomasâ oldest sister was named after her.
Thomas imagined Barbara had to be devastated to learn what Tatiana was up to and hoped she could find peace with it. He didnât think Tatiana could be persuaded to stop by a mother she didnât even remember. Gideon was the only one of her children who remembered his mother at all, although uncle Gabriel claimed to have a few very vague memories even if he could not recall her face and had no concept of who she had been.
Alastair entered the living room, his hair still damp but otherwise dry, wearing a clean dark green button up shirt with black jeans. Thomas went to him, he didnât think theyâd explained to Alastair what had happened or who Barbara was.
âThatâs the soul Lucie took back, isnât it?â Alastair asked.
âYes. Her name is Barbara, and she is my grandmother.â
âBenedictâs wife? The one he sacrificed?â
âExactly. Somehow Lucie saw her and when she made her visible, she pulled her through to the world she was in, and now sheâs here.â
Alastair looked concerned. âDo you think the thief of souls will try to take her back?â
âIâm not sure. But if she moves on, we think she should be safe. How are you?â
âTired, but feeling a bit better. The bubble bath was nice, you should try it sometime.â
Thomas wondered if Alastair meant he should try it because it was nice or he wanted them to use the bubble bath together. He didnât dare ask for clarification. Heâd be far too embarrassed if it turned out Alastair had no desire to take a bath together. Just after heâd told himself heâd have a conversation with Alastair about sex and what he wanted.
âMaybe I will,â Thomas said, not sure what he meant heâd do. He wasnât opposed to taking a bubble bath with Alastair, but wasnât sure Alastair was ready for something so intimate. Heâd ask later, he told himself. âYou smell nice.â
All traces of whatever dirt heâd been in were gone. Instead, he smelt sharp and minty, but also sweet.
âJust my shampoo. And I guess also the scrub, bath oil and body cream, but they all have the same scent.â
âI like it,â Thomas said. âLike eucalyptus, maybe?â
âThatâs in the products I use, yes,â Alastair said. âAre you alright?â
Thomas guessed Alastair had read some worry on his face. âWell, I never knew my grandmother so itâs mostly confusing. I think itâs hard for my father though. He lost his mother when he was five, itâs been a very long time and seeing her again has to be painful.â
âI canât even imagine what thatâs like,â Alastair said. âBut Iâm happy for him that he gets the chance to talk to her even if itâs only once. He deserves that.â
âThey really do care for you, you know,â Thomas said, returning to the kitchen with Alastair in tow to check on their shepherd pie.
âYour parents?â Alastair asked.
âYes.â
âI donât know,â Alastair said, head bowed down, avoiding eye contact.
âI just asked my mother, she likes you and you remind my dad of him when he was younger. They both care. Iâm not sure why you have this idea that they donât, but I thought you should know.â
âI donât know how to explain,â Alastair said, still refusing to look him in the eye.
Thomas guessed eye contact might be difficult for him. Lucie was the opposite, staring into peopleâs eyes so much it became uncomfortable. She was a writer, after all, and how else was she to know Thomasâ hazel eyes had both hints of green and gold in there?
âMy mother thinks itâs because you were hurt so badly you find it difficult to believe people could love you. If you want, you could talk to her about it. I may not know what itâs like, but she does. Her ex hurt her too.â
âNot everyone is as easy to love as you are, Tom,â Alastair said with a sigh. âNow that youâve seen the extent of my scars, how long until you realize that Iâm just not worth the pain?â
His mother was right, Alastair did believe he could not be loved. He believed Thomas would grow tired of him? That it was painful and difficult to be with someone like him and it wasnât worth it? How could Thomas make him see that he was wrong, that he was loved and that he deserved that?
âYou are worth it,â Thomas said, running a finger through Alastairâs soft dark hair. âHaving a mental illness doesnât make you unworthy of love, it doesnât make you too difficult.â
âYou realize that this might never go away, right?â Alastair said finally looking up. Thomas realized with a shock there were tears in his eyes. âI still have hope for EMDR, but PTSD is a very difficult disorder to treat. Perhaps it will get better over time, but it might not.â
Thomas imagined that was a difficult idea for Alastair to cope with, knowing that he might never get better. Heâd read a lot on PTSD in the past week, and it was true that it was difficult to treat, especially when caused by prolonged childhood abuse. But according to his admittedly limited internet research, even then people could learn to cope better, find better support. One metaphor heâd found interesting was how the symptoms were like waves of the ocean, Alastair might not be able to stop them but he could learn to surf.
âAnd if it doesnât go away, Iâll still want to be with you,â Thomas said. âIâd still do the best I could to support you. My feelings for you are not conditional on you getting better, although I certainly hope you do. For your sake.â
âItâs easy to say that now,â Alastair said softly, once more refusing to look him in the eye.
âIâll prove it to you then,â Thomas said. âI donât care how long it takes until you believe me, but Iâll keep proving I care about you.â
âJust how do I intend to do that?â Alastair asked.
âWell, Iâm still figuring that out but it would involve lots of cuddling. And my mother thinks itâs important that I tell you how I really feel, so Iâm going to do that too.â
Alastairâs expression changed, showing a small smile someone else might have missed. âIâd like that. When will you be next available for cuddling?â
âGive me a moment, I need to check on the shepherdâs pie. You need to eat and I couldnât feed you burnt food.â
Thomas checked the oven, everything looked fine and needed a little more time in the oven. He set the timer and returned his attention to Alastair.
âI am available right now if you want. Another ten minutes until we can eat.â
#Alastair Carstairs#Thomas Lightwood#Lucie Herondale#Cordelia Carstairs#Thomastair#Lucelia#fanfiction#the last hours#tlh
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tagged by @kabeswaters !!!! love u big time
1. on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? .... 3
2. describe yourself in a hashtag? #onedirectionstan
3. if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? gross Harry Styles
4. if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? get ready for disappointment but the good thing is one direction would be to my musical as abba is to mamma mia
5. whatâs one thing people donât know about you? i have strong ambitions but they are outweighed by executive dysfunction so lots of adults like teachers just think I'm lazy đ€Șđ„Ž
6. whatâs your wake up ritual? currently it's get up at 2pm, look at discord, snapchat, and instagram, then eat some gosh darn food
7. whatâs your go to bed ritual? this is so unhealthy I know grab a snack and a soda and scroll mindlessly on social media until I get tired, get up and brush my teeth, go back to my bed and put on my sleep playlist (called sleeby) and set a time so it stops playing after I fall asleep
8. whatâs your favorite time of day? despite the fact that I get up in the afternoon, it's actually like 10am that's a goooood time
9. your go to for having a good laugh? I look up Niall Horan laugh complications it genuinely works every time
10. dream country to visit? Germany or Italy
11. whatâs the biggest surprise youâve ever had? my 19th birthday my roommates had a surprise party for me and I was so shocked and almost cried bc it was so sweet and bc made me anxious
12. heels or flats/sneakers? I thought that said heelys :(( but sneakers
13. vintage or new? vintaaaage
14. who do you want to write your obituary? uh idk hopefully none of my current family bc I don't want to die before them cause that'll mean I die young??? this question is making me overthink so I'm just gonna say Ewan Gregor and move on
15. style icon? this chick named mathilda on Instagram you might have seen her on insta or Pinterest she's a redhead but her style is brilliant
16. what are three things you cannot live without? music, dr. pepper, eggos
17. whatâs one ingredient you put in everything? I sound so white but SALT I salt the heck outta everything
18. what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? Steve Irwin, Harry Styles, Freddie Mercury
19. whatâs your biggest fear in life? dying while I'm taking a shower and having my family find my naked, wet, dead body falling out of love. which makes me not want to fall IN love bc then the chance of falling OUT of love becomes a possibility
20. window or aisle seat? window window window window window
21. whatâs your current tv obsession? not really obsessed with anything rn but I rewatch new girl every chance I get
22. favorite app? instagram
23. secret talent? I can wiggle my ears
24. most adventurous thing youâve ever done in your life? i flew to New Orleans during a break with two of my friends bc they found $60 round trip tickets. We bought the tickets the day before. We literally got to NOLA at 7am and left 8pm the next day. only spontaneous/adventurous thing i have ever done
25. how would you define yourself in three words? funny, understanding, quiet
26. favorite piece of clothing you own? my overalls :'))
27. a must have clothing item that everyone should have? a jean jacket !! looks good on anyone and with anything and they're so cute
28. a superpower you would want? to make people see themselves as their loved ones see them
29. whatâs inspiring you in life right now? music I'm fixated on one direction and harry styles and louis tomlinson rn of you cant tell by a lot of my answers
30. best piece of advice youâve received? don't apologize because you like something. don't be embarrassed that you have preferences
31. best advice youâd give your teenage self? be unapologetically you. life is too short to feel guilty for having opinions.
32. a book everyone should read? me and earl and the dying girl
33. what would you like to be remembered for? being kind to all
34. how do you define beauty? kindness, humor, a sweet soul makes a beautiful person
35. what do you love most about your body? I think I'm proportional? like... my size and shape... I hate how that sounds but my overall body ,,,,,,,
36. best way to take a rest/decompress? crack open and nice cold soda and put on headphones and lay on the ground (it makes me back feel better)
37. favorite place to view art? art galleries the environment and ambiance is immaculate
38. if your life was a song, what would the title be? Everything is Outta Reach cause I fail a lot but also I'm sHORT
39. if you could master one instrument, what would it be? pianoooo
40. if you had a tattoo, where would it be? I want my forearms to be filled with random little doodle tattoos I get over time (picture louis tomlinsons right arm, like the "oops!" and skateboard, and dumb things like that)
41 dolphins or koalas? KOALAS
42. whatâs an animal that represents you? .....koala. also chameleon...
43. best gift youâve ever received? so I need to be hugging a pillow or stuffed animals to sleep and I lost some stuffed animals that I loved and were huge and my go to for hugging at night and that Christmas my brother got me a huge elephant and a body pillow to replace them and I actually cried
44. best gift youâve given? im really bad at giving gifts but my brother searches everywhere for this book in specific print and language and after years I found one and got it for him for Christmas. he's not good at showing appreciation and excitement but I could tell that he was stoked
45. whatâs your favorite board game? BETRAYL AT THE HOUSE ON THE HILL it's so complicated and so good and I love it so much
46. whatâs your favorite color? yellow and red
47. least favorite color? o r a n g e I just realized it's between red and yellow make it make sense
48. diamond or pearls? diamonds
49. drugstore makeup or designer? drugstore! I don't wear makeup often enough to spend money on designer but occasionally I get some good stuff from ulta then immediately regret it and go back to my Walgreens makeup HAHA
50. pilates or yoga? yoga
51. coffee or tea? I don't drink either but I like the aesthetic of tea more
52. whatâs the weirdest word in the english language? pneumonoultrascopicsiliconvolcanoconoiosos because it's the longest word in the English dictionary and it's has a very specific definition and it's so extra when I was 7 i had a friend who could spell it forwards and backwards
53. dark chocolate or milk chocolate? milk!! I only like dark chocolate if it's reisens
54. stairs or elevators? stairs I'm afraid of elevators
55. summer or winter? summer
56. you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? mac and cheese
57. a dessert you donât like? uhhhh... umm... uh... anything with tree nuts cause I'm allergic??? I love dessert
58. a skill youâre working on mastering? I'm learning guitar !!
59. best thing to happen to you today? I woke up before 2pm
60. worst thing to happen to you today? my family all decided to a be in a bad mood today so that's super exciting to deal with :))))))
61. best compliment youâve ever received? that I'm a really good listener
62. favorite smell? candles right after they're blown out and the air outside when it's cold. it has a smell. it DOES.
63. hugs or kisses? hugs
64. if you made a documentary, would it be about? the one direction boys' solo careers and eventual reunion when it happens
65. last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? if that includes music, louis tomlinsons album walls. but if not, ehm the martian that movie makes me cry don't come for me
66. lipstick or lipgloss? lipstick
67. sweet or savory? savory
68. girl crush? lily james
69. how do you know youâre in love? I've been trying to figure that out... I think it's when everything reminds you of them and you can completely be yourself around them and feel a sense of home and belonging.
70. a song you can listen to on repeat? greyhound by calpurnia or baby driver by simon and garfunkel
71. if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? h a r r y s t y l e s I have questions I need answered and I wanna hear unreleased HS and 1D music
72. what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? going back to school so I can be with my best friend slash future boyfriend
tagging: @lupinlongbottom @outerlacy @fortisfiliae @theseuscmander @wizardwritings
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Rules: answer 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people
Tagged by @auroranights-universe :) thanks for always adding me in these!
Last
1. drink - Green tea
2. phone call - A few days ago with a friend since he was going through some stuff.
3. text message -Â âSure thingâ in response to a friendâs thanks for sending her my homework haha.
4. song you listened to - Omaha by Toro y moi
5. time you cried - I have no idea, but it was most likely during a movie
Ever
6. dated someone twice? - No
7. kissed someone and regretted it? - No
8. been cheated on? - No
9. lost someone special? - Yes
10. been depressed? - Who hasnât?
11. gotten drunk and thrown up? - No
Fave colours
12. Green
13. Sky blue
14. Black
In the last year have youâŠ
15. made new friends - Unsurprisingly no
16. fallen out of love - No?
17. laughed until you cried - Probably
18. found out someone was talking about you - I donât think so
19. met someone who changed you - No
20. found out who your friends are - Sure
21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - Donât have facebook
General
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - Donât have facebook
23. do you have any pets - A great pyrenees mountain dog named Fuji. Iâm often told I donât have a soul, but I love her with all my heart. <3
24. do you want to change your name - Some call me by my preferred name so thatâs good enough.
25. what did you do for your last birthday - I was on a trip in Belfast I believe.
26. what time did you wake up today - 3:00 p.m. cause Iâm a fucking racoon at this point.
27. what were you doing at midnight last night - On my laptop watching TV
28. what is something you canât wait for - Graduate and leaving my hometown for good.Â
30. what are you listening to right now - Do me like that by Penguin PrisonÂ
31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - Yes?
32. something thatâs getting on your nerves - School and upcoming tests I guess
33. most visited website - tumblr or ao3
34. hair color - Dark brown
35. long or short hair - Too longÂ
36. do you have a crush on someone - Nope
37. what do you like about yourself - Idk, probably that Iâm hardworking and independent
38. want any piercings? - No
39. blood type - I forget
40. nicknames - Donât have anyÂ
41. relationship status - SingleÂ
42. zodiac - Gemini
43. pronouns - She/her
44. fave tv shows - Iâm rewatching Durarara and falling back in love with it. mob psycho 100, opm, and voltron are also my favorites.Â
45.tattoos - No thanksÂ
46. right or left handed - Right
47. ever had surgery - No
48. piercings - No
49. sports - I really like watching rugby and soccer. Also lowkey figure skate fan.
50. vacation - Anywhere tbh. Canada seems nice.
51. trainers - black sports bras and gray adidas shoes
More general
52. eating - My mom made Japanese hot pot (oden) recently for the first time in a while :P
53. drinking - Jasmine tea
54. iâm about to watch - Durarara x2
55. waiting for - Summer vacation
56. want - Some freetime would be nice for once
57. get married - Eh, maybe
58. career - Aiming to be an airline pilot, and hopefully a travel writer too
Which is better
59. hugs or kisses - A makeout session with the right person someday sounds nice
60. lips or eyes - Eyes
61. shorter or taller - TallerÂ
62. older or younger - I donât really care
63. nice arms or stomach - I donât care
64. hookup or relationship - Relationship
65. troublemaker or hesitant - Hesitant
Have you everÂ
66. kissed a stranger - No
67. drank hard liquor - Yes, but only on an occasion(s)
68. lost glasses - I donât wear them
69. turned someone down - Yes
70. sex on first date - No
71. broken someoneâs heart - Probably many
72. had your heart broken - Yes
73. been arrested - Not yet
74. cried when someone died - Yes
75. fallen for a friend - Is that the same thing as a crush? If so then yes
Do you believe inÂ
76. yourself - Trying to
77. miracles - Yes
78. love at first sight - No
79. santa clause - Some type of santa claus
80. kiss on a first date - Why not?
81. angles - Some types of angels
Other
82. best friendâs name - I would prefer not to put their names here even if I have one.
83. eye colour - Black
84. fave movie - Kimi no na Wa or Guardians of the Galaxy volume 1 and 2 both
85. fave actor - Chris Pratt
20 people is a lot so Iâll just tag a few: @thebookfreakthatlovesmusic @a-la-orilla-del-rio @lawlietismyfavorite @negroymorado @handsomecack @omuii
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lets get personal.
i know this is supposed to be an ask meme but iâm fucking bored & no one ever sends me them, so. also iâm kinda pissy rn unfortunately so forgive pls some of my answers lol
01: 6 of the songs you listen to most?: idk. mostly i listen to everything on random anymore, and only in my car. the only song iâve listened to on repeat recently has been âstupid loveâ by lady gaga. 02: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: speaking of which, lady gaga. 03: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.: the only book near me would be all the books, as in my bookshelf. unless you count my kindle, in which case there would be no line 17 because of the font size. sorry. 04: What do you think about most?: idk. whatever my current obsession is i guess. 05: What does your latest text message from someone else say?:  âAnd you don't have to cook itâ. 06: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?: with. i donât like being naked and donât understand those who do. also i get cold. 07: Whatâs your strangest talent?: i donât have talents. 08: Girls⊠(finish the sentence); Boys⊠(finish the sentence): are soft and beautiful. meh, have to earn my trust. 09: Ever had a poem or song written about you?: a song, yes. 10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?: a very long time. itâs not a thing i ever do lol. 11: Do you have any strange phobias?: i donât think so. my phobias are pretty standard. 12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?: when i was a kid, yeah. plenty. once my parents had to hold me down and tweeze a chewed up wad of juicy fruit out of my nose. i fucking love the smell of that gum. three year old me may have been stupid but, hey. i was being economical. also i blame it on my parents for, you know, giving a fucking toddler some gum. 13: Whatâs your religion?: donât have one. former christian, which is gross. donât indoctrinate children, please and thanks. 14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?: walking to or from my car. thatâs about it. :/ 15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: behind. no one deserves to see my face. rip to everyone who sees me in person on a regular basis. 16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?: jars of clay, jimmy eat world, the elms. 17: What was the last lie you told?: that iâm not in debt lmao. the only time iâve lied to my psychiatrist :/ 18: Do you believe in karma?: no but sometimes i wish i did. so many people deserve their comeuppance. 19: What does your URL mean?: doesnât really mean anything, heâs a character from the flash. 20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?: all sorts of things? and idk. 21: Who is your celebrity crush?: lady gaga, angelina jolie, carlos valdes, idk if shane madej is a âcelebrityâ but him, brie larson, michael sheen... idk, i donât really have âcrushesâ but those are the first ppl to come to mind. 22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?: nope. and no thank you. 23: How do you vent your anger?: lol. 24: Do you have a collection of anything?: funko pops? but not seriously. i mean. i have a lot of them bc i love a lot of characters and there are some pretty fuckin dope funkos. but itâs not my goal in life to have a huge collection or anything. at least i can say i have less than a hundred of them lol. (less than 75.) 25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: ew, neither. but if i had to choose, phone. bc, you know. my face. 26: Are you happy with the person youâve become?: lmfao no. i mean, iâm better than the person i used to be, thatâs for sure. (see: indoctrinated as a child, including your typical conservative bullshit like racism for starters.) 27: Whatâs a sound you hate; sound you love?: so many. i have misophonia. and people chewing + mouth sounds is definitely a big one. love? idk??? music? rain? my catâs cute lil meow? 28: Whatâs your biggest âwhat ifâ?: what if my thyroid issues were discovered earlier on instead of a year or more after they started. my childhood doctor was Not Great. it took her two weeks to figure out i had a sinus infection. i was in the fourth grade. still bitter about both of those. 29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: no, ghosts arenât real. aliens yes. not the stereotypical ones, but in a âgiven the size of the universe itâs literally impossible that weâre the only life out thereâ way. 30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.: right, the cat. left, air. 31: Smell the air. What do you smell?: nothing? itâs my house/room, so to me it smells like nothing. 32: Whatâs the worst place you have ever been to?: uh... iâve no idea? 33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?: west, obviously. 34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?: no such thing as âoppositeâ gender. of a different gender, though? lady gaga. 35: To you, what is the meaning of life?: who the fucking fuck knows. literally know one knows, though tbh. they just think they do. 36: Define Art.: lmfao how would i know. i donât have a creative bone in my body so i should be the last person to comment on the subject. 37: Do you believe in luck?: nope. i hope itâs obvious by now that i donât believe in fictional things. 38: Whatâs the weather like right now?: cool. cloudy. typical oregon winter weather. i want rain tho :( 39: What time is it?: 3:04am. 40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?: yes. and yes, several times. three. two totaled cars. the last one is the only one that was actually my fault, though. driving too close after it rained. donât do it, folks. 41: What was the last book you read?: the diviners by libba bray. currently reading a short history of nuclear folly by rudolph herzog. fascinating, but kind of depressing af. 42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?: no. 43: Do you have any nicknames?: hal (to a very select few bc 99% of the time i hate it, so fuck you if you call me this without permission), hals, hallie bird, hallie strawberry. 44: What was the last film you saw?: i honestly donât know. havenât done a whole lot of movie watching lately. maybe the fall (2006). (please watch this movie, itâs so gorgeous and lovely.) 45: Whatâs the worst injury youâve ever had?: iâve never had a serious injury. well. i take that back, i guess. in my first car accident i was stopped and rear-ended at like, 40mph. so iâve had back issues since i was 18. usually itâs fine but sometimes itâs bad and sometimes i can set it off really easily. idk if that counts as âseriousâ, though. lots of people have back problems. 46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?: i donât think so? 47: Do you have any obsessions right now?: i guess buzzfeed unsolved and watcher. and âstupid loveâ by lady gaga lol. good omens, as usual. 48: Whatâs your sexual orientation?: asexual. 49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?: yes. thankfully only a few (that i know of, anyway). 50: Do you believe in magic?: no. 51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?: yuuup. they deserve it. 52: What is your astrological sign?: taurus. 53: Do you save money or spend it?: spend it :|| every paycheck i tell myself iâll be better at saving it, but............ 54: Whatâs the last thing you purchased?: preordered chromatica by lady gaga. 55: Love or lust?: if i had to choose, love. lust and all that stuff is gross. 56: In a relationship?: nope. shocker, i know. (this is sarcasm. it is no shocker to anyone as to why iâm single.) 57: How many relationships have you had?: just the one. 58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?: nope. 59: Where were you yesterday?: work on my day off for a staff meeting, and then my psychiatristsâ office. 60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?: a few things, yes. 61: Are you wearing socks right now?: yes. almost always. 62: Whatâs your favourite animal?: cats, then birds. mice are p adorable, too. i miss having them. i havenât had mice since middle school or early high school i think :( iâd love more but my current cat would definitely try to eat them... same with a bird. iâll probably never have a bird :( 63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?: be sarcastic and love stupid puns and bad jokes? 64: Where is your best friend?: one is in ohio and the other is in massachusetts. 65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.: no idea lol. i havenât been on here much recently, and iâm never caught up anyway. and i donât usually pay attention to who is posting/reblogging. 66: What is your heritage?: mostly german. the rest is other typical white stuff that i canât remember. some irish? either way idc. 67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?: uh, rewatching some buzzfeed unsolved for the 100th time? and playing with my tamagotchi? 68: What do you think is Satanâs last name?: he doesnât exist so idc. 69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?: nope. also, Niceâą. 70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?: incredibly doubtful. 71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?: go to work. i love my job way too much. iâd probably try to get someoneâs attention if there was anyone around, and/or call animal services. (there are no canals around here anyway and i donât walk to work and ainât gonna.) 72: You are at the doctorâs office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?: who tf knows, i hate this shit. iâd really rather not think about it bc it stresses me out. i probably wouldnât tell very many people tho. try to find someone to take my cat :( i sure as shit wouldnât leave her to my parents :( and i wouldnât want to leave her in a shelter. sheâs already done that once and it makes me too sad. 73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.: trust. you canât have love without trust, though... 74: Whatâs a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?:  âsweetnessâ by jimmy eat world, âfade to greyâ by jars of clay, âthunderheadâ by the elms, âbad romanceâ and âg*psyâ by lady gaga (latter is... i hate the name but the song is so fucking catchy, ugh), âtornâ by natalie imbruglia, âbring it all backâ by s club 7, â... baby one more timeâ by britney spears, âwhereâs the loveâ by hanson, âwho do you think you areâ by the spice girls, âas long as you love meâ and âeverybody (backstreetâs back)â by the backstreet boys, âblack balloonâ by goo goo dolls, âsparkâ by tori amos, âlast beautiful girlâ by matchbox twenty, âpush itâ by garbage, âi want youâ by savage garden, âminorityâ and âsheâ and âbasket caseâ and âmacyâs day paradeâ by green day... howâs that lol. 75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?: not giving out that kind of personal information lmao. 76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?: i wouldnât know. 77: How can I win your heart?: you probably canât. idk anyway. 78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?: sure, but lack of insanity is a better way to go. donât perpetuate the bullshit notion that you need to be suffering to create Great Artâą. 79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?: idk. i havenât made very many. 80: What size shoes do you wear?: 10 in womenâs. 81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?: iâm going to be cremated and you probably should be, too. just donât get embalmed, k? 82: What is your favourite word?: fuck. 83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.:  âaloneâ by heart. 84: What is a saying you say a lot?: idk. someone who spends time around me irl would have to tell me. 85: Whatâs the last song you listened to?: âstupid loveâ by lady gaga on repeat. 86: Basic question; whatâs your favourite colour/colours?: blue. then green, and in no particular order, black, grey, purple. 87: What is your current desktop picture?: itâs boring, just the default mac catalina background lol. i was having issues choosing a background and was getting way too fucking picky, so i just said âfuck itâ and have been using this one for months. 88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?: donald trump. 89: What would be a question youâd be afraid to tell the truth on?: idk? how much in debt i am? lmao. 90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies arenât really doing anything, theyâre just standing around your bed. What do you do?: assume iâm having a night terror or am hallucinating. and be scared. 91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and whatâs even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?: hopefully teleportation. 92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?: maybe when i met carlos valdes & got a picture with him. heâs super sweet, is living sunshine, and gives amazing hugs. 93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?: so many :/ idek where to start tbh. 94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?: iâm sex-repulsed so no thank you. also, gross question. get a life. 95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?: new zealand. 96: Do you have any relatives in jail?: yes, my cousin bc he murdered my dad ¯\_(ă)_/ÂŻ 97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?: no. 98: Ever been on a plane?: many times. 99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?: indigenous people arenât history, they still exist. shut the fuck up and listen to them. build a time machine to go back in time and prevent colonisers. just straight-up kill them, we deserve it.
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Very long tag meme so it is going under the cut! ^-^
tagged by @everylittlelie and @robb-greyjoy thank you both c:
Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people
THE LAST
1. drink: sprite 2. phone call: family member 3. text message: that same family member 4. song you listened to: Broken - Lund 5. time you cried: rewatching the perks of being a wallflower 6. dated someone twice: I have not 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: I have had people pass away 10. been depressed: while currently writing this 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: gotten drunk many times, never thrown up!
3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. Black 13. Purple 14. Blue
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: A good few :) 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried:Â I donât think so? 18. found out someone was talking about you: no
19. met someone who changed you: 100% yes 20. found out who your friends are:Â I just donât make an effort to talk to people who donât make an effort to know me 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: no?
GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them??? 23. do you have any pets: Currently no 24. do you want to change your name: Iâd change my first three names >.< 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I sat at home eating food and playing games...I know Iâm pretty wild 26. what time did you wake up: woke up at 6:50~ am for some reason, but only got up a while after 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: I think I was messaging a couple of people since I had woken up 28. name something you canât wait for: happiness 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: today actually 31. what are you listening to right now: drugs - EDEN 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yup 33. something that is getting on your nerves: some issues with people I know, some familial ones too, my life 34. most visited website: here? Maybe reddit too 35. hair colour: dark brown! 36. long or short hair: medium length but Iâm growing it out! 37. do you have a crush on someone: no 38. what do you like about yourself: I honestly donât know 39. want any piercings: Oh booooooy so I donât have any currently but Iâm thinking Iâd like a couple of ear piercings I donât know what kind though, nipple piercings and snakebites possibly? 40. blood type: I actually canât remember 41. nickname: Lukas 42. relationship status: single 43. zodiac: Scorpio 44. pronouns: he/him but Iâve never really cared about pronouns and have no problem with people using whatever tbh but thatâs just me 45. favourite tv show: Iâm really bad with picking favouritessss 46. tattoos: I donât know, Iâll only ever get one if I feel like something has happened in my life to warrant me permanently marking my body with it but thatâs just my ideas 47. right or left handed: right handed but I use my knife and fork the other way around - Iâm 99% sure this is because of me breaking my arm when I was really young and switching to accommodate that while it healed and never switching back lol 48. surgery: yes 49. piercing: none yet 50. sport: I used to play soccer, football, tennis and swim but nothing currently 51. vacation: anywhere away from people would be good right now tbh 52. pair of trainers: the shoes I wear 99% of the time are my trusty converse :U
MORE GENERAL 53. eating: I just ate pizza actually 54. drinking: Iâve been trying to keep up my water intake lately 55. im about to: maybe play a game or something
56. waiting for:Â trying to figure out some stuff :| 57. want:Â happiness, money, power, glory and everything few, far and in-between :P 58. get married:Â I mean this implies that someone would be willing to lol 59. career: figuring this one out
WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: either, both are good and sometimes you need one more than the other
61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: I donât mind haha 63. older or younger:Â Tend to like older and Iâve always gotten along with older people better so *shrug* 64. nice arms or nice stomach: strong arms to hold me and good stomach to lay on c: 65. hook up or relationship: they serve different purposes 66. troublemaker or hesitant:Â both, I can never seem to be one thing for too long HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: nope 68. drank hard liquor: yes. a lot. thereâs a reason why thereâs a now-empty bottle of vodka in my room. 69. lost glasses/contact lenses:Â yes but I found my glasses thankfully XD 70. turned someone down: yes 71. sex on the first date:Â no 72. broken someoneâs heart:Â maybe. 73. had your heart broken: nope 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes, in front of people too since I didnât know until then... 76. fallen for a friend: no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: I can try and think I should 78. miracles: I believe in tragedies more than I do miracles. 79. love at first sight: âlust at first sightâ 80. santa claus: lmao no 81. kiss on the first date: ??? idk 82. angels: nope. OTHER 83. current best friends name: I donât have one single âbestâ friend because Iâve always found that weird but I have many people in my life that I would gladly call best friends 84. eye colour: brown/hazel 85. favorite movie: the perks of being a wallflower? idk Iâm soooo bad at picking favs haha
Tagging: feel free to ignore btw @youbuggingme @beargrove @janiedean @lordhellebore @lunavagantt and anyone else who wishes to
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Get to know me meme!
Tagged by @shiabanana
Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag people
THE LAST:
1. Drink: hot chocolateÂ
2. Phone call: my friend called me crying last night tbh
3. Text message: My friend sent me a gay meme and I sent back âsame tbhâ XD
4. Song you listened to: Highwayman by Willie Nelson & Johnny Cash
5. Time you cried: honestly I just rewatched Naruto and I cried so hard when that thing happened to NejiÂ
HAVE YOU:
6. Dated someone twice: the same person twice? nah
7. Kissed someone and regretted it: meh not really
8. Been cheated on: nooooo
9. Lost someone special: lol can I say Neji too? Iâve lost family though too
10. Been depressed : only EVERY FREAKIN DAY
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: twice. I was a lot younger though and binge drinking is a big thing here unfortunatelyÂ
LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:
12-14. Black (yeah itâs a shade so shoot me), Navy & Red
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: yes!
16. Fallen out of love: nah
17. Laughed until you cried: most days Iâm with uni friendsÂ
18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah but nothing bad
19. Met someone who changed you: YES
20. Found out who your friends are: also yes
21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yeah but what are friends for
GENERAL:
22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Most of them tbh I deleted most randoms
23. Do you have any pets: I have an adorable lil bunny who is white, fat and fluffy and I love her, she likes to pay tag
24. Do you want to change your name: My name is so long I wish it was shorter but Iâve learnt to live with it
25. What did you do for your last Birthday: got drunk, blasted Johnny Cash, played cards against humanity and beer pong w/friends.
26. What time did you wake up: 11am
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching naruto
28. Name something you canât wait for: New chapter of Nanatsu no Taizai (Chapter 226) or as it is otherwise known The Seven Deadly Sins ayyy
29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like 2 hours ago
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: being financially stable would be a real treat, so I can get by and travelÂ
31. What are you listening to right now: Girl from the North Country by Bob Dylan and Johnny Cash (can yaâll tell I love Johnny Cash yet?)
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: several
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: people who hate on others
34. Most visited website: Tumblr and Ao3
35. Mole/s: I have a few small ones
36. Mark/s: chicken pox scars, a tattoo and a few freckles
37. Childhood dream: to be an artistÂ
38. Hair color: brown/black                                        Â
39. Long or short hair: very long
40. Do you have a crush on someone: do fictional characters count??
41. What do you like about yourself?: my fierce resting bitch faceÂ
42. Piercings: standard ears, cartilage, nipple, nose (used to have my bellybutton done but not anymore)Â
43. Blood type: Red (tick) ahah I made a Carl Barron joke but srs idk
44. Nickname: Ez
45. Relationship status: single
46. Zodiac: Scorpio
47. Pronouns: she/her
48. Favorite TV Show(s): Naruto (I mean obvs), The Borgias, Outlander, The Office, Parks and Rec, The Seven Deadly Sins, Rick and Morty, idk I love so many
50. Right or left hand: right
51. Surgery: none
52. Hair dyed in different color: Iâve dyed it red, blonde, bleach blonde, beliage caramel and blonde and now its brown/black
53. Sport: used to be big on sports especially figure skating and swimming but then I got injured so nothing lol
55. Vacation: JAPAN! or also back to New Zealand                        Â
56. Pair of trainers: ??? I own some yes??
MORE GENERAL:
57. Eating: Nuggets, give me all the nuggets
58. Drinking: orange juice come at me
59. Iâm about to: write an Itachi scenario and another fic chapter
61. Waiting for: graduation
62. Want: to get something published
63. Get married: idkmaybe
64. Career: studying a writing degree so I can have a piece of paper that says I went to uni and can write XD nah also hone my skills
WHICH IS BETTER
65. Hugs or kisses: both at the same time
66. Lips or eyes: eyes
67. Shorter or taller: taller
68. Older or younger: older
70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach
71. Sensitive or loud: loudish
72. Hook up or relationship: relationships are ideal but Iâve mostly just done hook ups
73. Troublemaker or hesitant: bit of both
HAVE YOU EVER:
74. Kissed a Stranger: many
75. Drank hard liquor: a lot
76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nah
77. Turned someone down: yes
78. Sex on the first date: I donât really date? so I guess idk
79. Broken someoneâs heart: yeah
80. Had your heart broken: no
81. Been arrested: no lol
82. Cried when someone died: yesÂ
83. Fallen for a friend: nah
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. Yourself: sometimes I try too
85. Miracles: nah
86. Love at first sight: infatuation maybe, love no
87. Santa Claus: no
88. Kiss on the first date: if you wanna then yeah
OTHER:
90. Current best friend name: Matt
91. Eye color: Blue/Green (they change)
92. Favorite movie: Underworld or Sabrina or Spirited Away I canât choose
I tag: @shiranuigenma @peachysasuke @ka-ka-shi-ha-ta-ke @anxxietydog @suna-yodo @pyroinquisitorÂ
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1. Who was the last person you held hands with?My best friend brandonâš2. Are you outgoing or shy?Shy with people I donât know but outgoing once I open upâš3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?Nobody?? I hate everyone. Lol jk umm Iâm looking forward to meeting up with @hyungjooki soonđ4. Are you easy to get along with?If you like stupid puns and humor then yes đâš5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?I donât really like anyone right now but I definitely think Johnny Seo would take care of me yesâš6. What kind of people are you attracted to?Funny, adventurous, respectful in the right times but playful in the right times as wellâŠthe only physical quality I really look for is someone taller than me because Iâm 5'10âš7. Do you think youâll be in a relationship two months from now?Ehhhh probably not. Guys at my high school kinda suck? Theyâre all rednecksâš8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?âšOh Sehun đđ9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?Nah I have a dirty mind it doesnât bother meâš10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?My sister @minseoksmarshmallowâš11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?âš"HOW IS MY CITY" my friend is in Chicago right now so12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Ummmmm this is hard wow ok-Bling Bling by iKON-Ocean View by Reddy-Tao by Tao-Catch Me When I Fall by Luhan-Luckiest Man by Mosaicâš13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?God no I canât stand itâš14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?Luck no, miracles yesâš15. What good thing happened this summer?I went to New York for the first time and I loved itâš16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Welp. Iâve never kissed anyone soooooâš17. Do you think there is life on other planets?OH MY GOSH YES DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON SPACE AND EVERYTHING OUT THERE. THERES TOO MUCH OUT THERE FOR THERE NOT TO BE OTHER LIFE. ok Iâm done âš18. Do you still talk to your first crush?Yeah heâs actually my best friend now. We consider each other brother and sisterâš19. Do you like bubble baths?When Iâm stressed heck yeahâš20. Do you like your neighbors?Yes theyâre this sweet old couple and they let me play with their dogsâš21. What are your bad habits?Umm Iâm kinda controlling and itâs hard to change my mind once Iâve made it up âš22. Where would you like to travel?Everywhere. I wanna travel everywhere. But if I had to pick one place I would have to choose Thailandâš23. Do you have trust issues?Yes. Very bad trust issues. It takes me years to open up to people. âš24. Favorite part of your daily routine?Doing my makeup. It brings me joy and refreshes meâš25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?Ummm Iâm not really sure. Iâm pretty confident in myself but if I had to pick something I would say my face shape. Itâs kinda round and sometimes I wish it was thinnerâš26. What do you do when you wake up?Grumble about how I donât wanna be awake and then check Tumblr âš27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?No Iâm goodâš28. Who are you most comfortable around?My sister @minseoksmarshmallow đâš29. Have any of your exâs told you they regret breaking up?Never had a boyfriend sooooâš30. Do you ever want to get married?It would be nice but honestly Iâd be content by myselfâš31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?Yes itâs super long right now I havenât cut it in a whileâš32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?HAHAHHA UMMM sik-k, simon dominic, and jay parkâš33. Spell your name with your chin.Nehan ⊠wow perfect âš34. Do you play sports? What sports?I donât anymore but I used to play basketball and run track (last leg of the 4x100 and high jump)âš35. Would you rather live without TV or music?Without tv. Music is everything to meâš36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?lol yes. my entire life basically âš37. What do you say during awkward silences?I usually either try and crack a stupid joke or just sit in the silence âš38. Describe your dream girl/guy?Tall, nice, attractive, strong, tattoos, fashionable, adventurous, funny. I donât really have a certain person in mind though âš39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?Calvin Klein, Rue 21, Forever 21, other stores I canât affordâš40. What do you want to do after high school?I want to go to college and double major in business and fashion design đâš41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?Nope. âš42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?Either I donât know you so Iâm not gonna talk or Iâm extremely sad (lol or Iâm hungry)âš43. Do you smile at strangers?Everywhere except schoolâš44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?OUTER SPACE OMG DONT GO THERE AGAINâš45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?food. i wish this was a joke but itâs not. âš46. What are you paranoid about?Iâm paranoid that thereâs gonna be a world war 3 also that a moth is gonna fly in my room I hate moths I could scream âš47. Have you ever been high?Nahâš48. Have you ever been drunk?Not yet đâš49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?I mean probably? Canât think of anything right now but Iâm sure thereâs something âš50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?âšgray and red and white. Iâm wearing it right now actually. Itâs a Chicago Bulls hoodie51. Ever wished you were someone else?All the time I hate South Georgia it sucksâš52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?My middle name I hate itâš53. Favourite makeup brand?NYXâš54. Favourite store?Versace (even though I have no money?)âš55. Favourite blog?At the moment @s0nhyunwoo and @urmomstax56. Favourite colour?Black âš57. Favourite food? Everything?? Bulgogi or pastaâš58. Last thing you ate?A Caesar saladâš59. First thing you ate this morning?Coffee. Does that count? And a cookie. âš60. Ever won a competition? For what?My team won our track competition one year and I won MVP for basketballâš61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?No all of my fights happened after school Iâm not stupid âš62. Been arrested? For what?Nopeâš63. Ever been in love? Noâš64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?Never been kissed đâš65. Are you hungry right now?Alwaysâš66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?Even though some of my Tumblr friends are my real friends I gotta say yesâš67. Facebook or Twitter?Neither?âš68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr âš69. Are you watching tv right now?Yesâš70. Names of your bestfriends? Brandon, Emily, Savannahâš71. Craving something? What?Yes đ french friesâš72. What colour are your towels?Blue and grayâš72. How many pillows do you sleep with?3. 2 behind my head and 1 I holdâš73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?No âš74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?10? Maybe?âš75. Favourite animal?Badgerâš76. What colour is your underwear?Blackâš77. Chocolate or Vanilla?Neither I donât like sweets that much âš78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Cookie dough âš79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Grayâš80. What colour pants?White âš81. Favourite tv show?UMM THIS IS HARD at the moment parks and rec because Iâm rewatching it and I forgot how funny it isâš82. Favourite movie?UMM THIS IS HARD TOO karate kid? the original one?âš83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?Mean girlsâš84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?Mean girls (Iâve never seen 21)âš85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?Umm none of them they all suckâš86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?Crush the turtleâš87. First person you talked to today?My sister sarah âš88. Last person you talked to today?My sister sarahđâš89. Name a person you hate?I donât actually hate anyone even though I basically say I hate everyone everydayâš90. Name a person you love?Myself byeâš91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Yes đâš92. In a fight with someone?Not at the moment âš93. How many sweatpants do you have?3 pairs I think?âš94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?Too many. Maybe 10? Probably more. âš95. Last movie you watched?Karate kidâš96. Favourite actress?I donât really have one so⊠j-lo? đâš97. Favourite actor?Jeremy Renner or George Clooney (my daddies)âš98. Do you tan a lot?Not like lay out tan but I tan easily âš99. Have any pets?No đâš100. How are you feeling?Iâm pretty good right nowâš101. Do you type fast?Yes veryâš102. Do you regret anything from your past?No Iâm pretty content âš103. Can you spell well?Yes Iâm a grammar nazi soâš104. Do you miss anyone from your past?Nahâš105. Ever been to a bonfire party?Yesâš106. Ever broken someoneâs heart?Probably Iâm amazing âš107. Have you ever been on a horse?Yesâš108. What should you be doing?Figuring out when my class starts tomorrow so Iâm not late on my first dayâš109. Is something irritating you right now?My acne âš110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?Nahâš111. Do you have trust issues?Yes very big trust issuesâš112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?âšI donât remember the last time I cried so thereâs problem one. Probably my sister @minseoksmarshmallow113. What was your childhood nickname?Meg, Sunshine, Boo, Meggie, etc. there were a lot âš114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?Yes and I loved itâš115. Do you play the Wii?Sometimes??âš116. Are you listening to music right now?Yes when am I not âš117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?Sure âš118. Do you like Chinese food?Of course âš119. Favourite book?Ooh this is hardâŠummmâŠSkin by Ted Dekker?âš120. Are you afraid of the dark?Nahâš121. Are you mean?I can be a jerk yeah. Depends on what your personality is like âš122. Is cheating ever okay?NOâš123. Can you keep white shoes clean?Yesâš124. Do you believe in love at first sight?Not really no âš125. Do you believe in true love?Sureâš126. Are you currently bored?Nah Iâm goodâš127. What makes you happy?Food, dancing, fashion âš128. Would you change your name?No my name is fine (except my middle name I would change that yes)âš129. What your zodiac sign?Leo and proud âš130. Do you like subway?Hell yesâš131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?Probably ignore it even if I like them backâš132. Whoâs the last person you had a deep conversation with?My sister @minseoksmarshmallowâš133. Favourite lyrics right now?Begin by Jungkook (I really connect to them and I can understand where he is coming from throughout the entire song)âš134. Can you count to one million?Yes âš135. Dumbest lie you ever told?That I broke a persons surfboard and waited in the ocean until they left so I wouldnât have to face them (I honestly donât even remember why I told someone this)âš136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?Closedâš137. How tall are you?5'10âš138. Curly or Straight hair?Wavy? Itâs in the middle âš139. Brunette or Blonde?Brunette naturally but most of it is bleached right now âš140. Summer or Winter?WINTERâš141. Night or Day?NIGHTâš142. Favourite month?July because Iâm American and I love 4th of Julyâš143. Are you a vegetarian?No I like meat way too much âš144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?I hate chocolate âš145. Tea or Coffee?Coffee please. No sugar no cream đâš146. Was today a good day?It was a very good day yes đâš147. Mars or Snickers?Snickers I guessâš148. Whatâs your favourite quote?âBe gorgeous and be greatâ -Tyra Banks đâš149. Do you believe in ghosts?Yesâš150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, whatâs the first line on that page?They reached the top of the hill, where the land flattened for a couple of feet then dropped again, plummeting down another slope to the land beyond.
God bless hope y'all enjoy learning about me đđ
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85 Questions
ii was tagged my @kamilahdavis so thank u, u majestic queen, i love uuuÂ
Answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.
the last âŠ
1. drink: orange juice
2. phone call: my dad
3. text message: a work âfriendâ
4. song you listened to: iâm telling the world, by Taio Cruz
5. time you cried: iâm always crying binch
6. dated someone twice: what is that
7. kissed someone and regretted it: kissing is for losersÂ
8. been cheated on: thatâs why i dont play uno anymore
9. lost someone special: yes
10. been depressed: life depresses me
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: surely not when i got drunk the first time :)))))))
favorite colors
12. baby blue
13. lavender
14. rose gold
in the last year have youâŠ
15. made new friends: i guess u can call them friends
16. fallen out of love: never even been in
17. laughed until you cried: ive never laughed a single day of my life. its sad so i cry.
18. found out someone was talking about you: oooooh dont even get me started binch
19. met someone who changed you: ive never been nchjfjnmj,muj chnged by anyone ever, but no
20. found out who your friends are: ehh still figuring it out
21. kissed someone on your facebook list: who dat
general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: 3 (idk man, like a handful)
23. do you have any pets: i cry everyday bc ive never felt that joy
24. do you want to change your name: nein
25. what did you do for your last birthday: we went to a restaurant where the rude waiter gave my sis an anxiety attack, fuck him
26. what time did you wake up: 6:00 binch being a nurse is tough
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: dreaming about my vacation
28. name something you canât wait for: family vacation to palma de mallorca + 2 months of doing nothing (!)
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: i dont remember her face (1h ago)
31. what are you listening to right now: killing me softly with his song by roberta flack (no KS reference pls)
32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: idk??? have i?? i dont know my life
33. something that is getting on your nerves: my boss
34. most visited website: pinterest cuz i like hoarding pics
35. hair colour: dark brown like a cuppa coffee
36. long or short hair: fucken curtain
37. do you have a crush on someone: i wanna but my life aint that exciting
38. what do you like about yourself: my active imagination that both hinders and gives me life
39. piercings: belly button binch, like a baby piercing, cuz its very recent
40. blood type: A+ binch like my grades i wish
41. nickname: my actual name cuz u cant shorten claudia to be cute
42. relationship status: single as a loose pringle
43. zodiac: im a fish.
44. pronouns: she/her
45. favourite tv show: the walking dead, supergirl, brooklyn nine nine, unbreakable kimmy schmidt, stranger things, izombie
46. tattoos: 0 but i want some
47. right or left handed: slightly ambidextrous, like i do things with my left that righties can only do with their right hand
48. surgery: laparoscopy cuz my ovary wanted to explode
49. piercing: answered already
50. sport: gym sometimes? and i like volleyball
51. vacation: somewhere by the beach and with a nice view of the stars
52. pair of trainers: i basically only own sneakers cuz they the most comfy footwear in existence
more general
53. eating: watermelon was the last thing to have touched this mouthÂ
54. drinking: nothing
55. iâm about to: finish this up and watch power rangers
56. waiting for: july 13th when my 2 month vacation begins binch iâm excite
57. want: to be retired at 23
58. get married: sure but to whomâs the question
59. career: ideal? neurosurgeon, actual? nurse
60. hugs or kisses: both? i really love giving hugs but i always wanna hold on for too long so its awkward with ppl i dont know very well
61. lips or eyes: eyes
62. shorter or taller: same height or taller cuz yes
63. older or younger: kinda older but in my age range i guess?
64. nice arms or nice stomach: i like toned arms but im okay with a soft stomach
65. hook up or relationship: relationships im 2 emotional fr hookups
66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant af
67. kissed a stranger: or anybody ever
68. drank hard liquor: been dipping my finger in whiskey since 10 years old
69. lost glasses/contact lenses: never although a contact once popped off my eye when i was making faces in the mirror
70. turned someone down: thatâs my biggest fear although i dont care much about ppl
71. sex on the first date: nooo ty
72. broken someoneâs heart: according to him ye, but he broke mine first so pech gehabt
73. had your heart broken: siehe oben
74. been arrested: my only crime was being a primary school bully and thats not even a crime
75. cried when someone died: my grandpa, cried like a baby
76. fallen for a friend: never thank goodnes
do you believe in âŠ
77. yourself: barelyÂ
78. miracles: ye i do cuz im a hopeful binch
79. love at first sight: nein das nicht
80. santa claus: why wouldnt i believe in the actual person that delivers my presents every christmas?
81. kiss on the first date: noooo
82. angels: ye i dooo
other
83. current best friendâs name: my sis cat and my bff mariana cuz they my main binches
84. eye colour: brown
85. favourite movie: thats tough, but some i could rewatch all the time are mamma mia, the proposal, stardust, i am legend, i robot (cuz will smith), hachiko, megamind,Â
i tag: @thefivecrazypeople @oldforgottenwarrior @lazusin @faenies and whoever else wants to cuz i dont know anyone else
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get to know me tag
RULES: ANSWER THESE 88 QUESTIONS (mae you cant call it 92 when itâs 88) AND TAG 20 PEOPLE (mini rant: why do these thing always request 20 people to tag. i dont even know ten people pls let me breathe)Â
tagged by the literal angel @stormae
tagging: @jseokks / @taeyongbelviso / @floral-misfortune / @angelikidel99 / and who ever wants to do this
THE LAST:
1. DRINK: bitter af lemon tea
2. PHONE CALL: My friend Wanjiru
3. TEXT MESSAGE: thereâs no school you think iâll be outchea at 8
4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Donât Know You by Heize ( i love talent)
5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: like last week wednesday. some shit happened
HAVE YOU:
6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: nope
7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: nope
8. BEEN CHEATED ON: everything here is going to be a no
9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: ??? I donât know
10. BEEN DEPRESSED: yes
11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: no nope never i donât leave the house
TOP 3 FAVORITE COLORS
12. lilac
13. rose gold
14. dusty pink (or millennial pink if you must)
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: I have which is a YAY
16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: yep
17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: All my friends are leaving/ moving to different schools because we finished year 11 now so yes I have. Iâve made so much memories with those uglies Iâm going to miss them
18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: nah
19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: ? Iâve been cooped up in my house so no I guess
20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: lmao that was last year and that whole scenario was a mess
21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: no
GENERAL
22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: all of them I donât add people I donât know
23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: I had pets!!! Two dogs but we left them in South Africa and two cats but they both passed away :(((
24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: yes (my real name is wack hhh)
25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: had a lunch/ dinner thing with my family
26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: eight oâ clockÂ
27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: finding out tea/gossip i love having late night calls which involve drama
28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CANâT WAIT FOR: my fucking results for IGCSESÂ
29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: this morning before she left for work
30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: my motivation because iâm lazy af and i would love the ability to interact with other people without wanting to literally combust into fucking flames
31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: High by Jida
32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: i have actually never talked to a Tom. thereâs no Toms in Africa
33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: personal stuff about my family
LOST QUESTIONS
34. MOLE(S): i have one on my left ear lobe, one on my chin on the right of my face, another on my hip and one on my right wrist
35. MARK(S): none
36. CHILDHOOD DREAM:Â ironically it was to be a writer, my parents were really busy while i was growing up so i learnt to read so i could amuse myself. i started writing at 8 i think on my dadâs laptop and he was like âwowww!!!1!! thatâs so good!â (it was a piece of shit i couldnât form actual sentences) so yeah thereâs that
37. HAIR COLOR: black as midnight (this is how i was writing in the above ^^ story like i introduced a character with the line: her skin was as white as snow)
38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: short and i might go shorter because i want to big chop it
39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: *laughs* whatâs a crush
40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: iâm pretty straight forward (sometimes insensitive i know bUT i canât be everything pls) so i donât really lie, when i put effort into something i really do do my absolute best, my work ethic (when im not a lazy bitch)
41. PIERCINGS: just the normal ear ring piercing but i want a double helix and an industrialÂ
42. BLOODTYPE: i really dont know?? not even my mom knows
43. NICKNAME(S): fish (dont ask), fetoes (dont ask), feth (dont ask)
44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: IM SINGLE AND FREEE
45. ZODIAC: aquarius (i think im more superior to all the other signs and yes im correct aquarians are the best dont @ me)
46. PRONOUNS: she/her
47. FAVORITE TV SHOW: SKAM SKAM SKAM SKAM IM CRYING WHY DID THAT SHOW HAVE TO END I LOWKEY HATE JULIA IM SAD I LOVE SKAM. also skins but i donât like it as much as skam the only good character is tony and thatâs because heâs wild af also effy buts sheâs too edgy for meÂ
48. TATTOOS: i have like 3 planned for when i bounce outta my parents house
49. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: right
50. SURGERY: i have all my bones and organs in perfect condition thanks
51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: nope
52. SPORT: tennis
53. VACATION: The one time my parents drove us to Durban for a family holiday!! tHE BEST!! i love sharks and beaches. but most of the time we just came back to kenya because my entire family is here. we havenât gone on a overseas vacation in a while because my parents wanted to show us the wonders of kenyan tourist attractions (masai mara is really awesome i really saw a lion full up and zebras are gorgeous in real life like them stripes and they are thicc af)Â
54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: nikeÂ
MORE GENERAL
55. EATING: havenât eaten since i woke up probably wonât eat until noon
56. DRINKING: bitter lemon tea
57. IâM ABOUT TO: finish writing a fic i hope i can put up soon. letâs see if my lazy ass cooperatesÂ
58. WAITING FOR: RESULTS CAMBRIDGE GIVE ME MY RESULTS
59. WANT: to rewatch skam so i can cry againÂ
60. GET MARRIED: actually no. i was with my new baby cousins the other day and i realized marriage and kids are just not for me
61. CAREER: i want to be a forensic psychologist but i might skip that and do something with international relations so i can work with the UN.Â
 62. HUGS OR KISSES: HUGS (i have this need to constantly hug everyone i know all the damn time because my nursery teacher Jennifer - a truly wonderful woman i still love her to this day - used to hug me all the damn time and it was one of those tight squeezing hugs. by the all the damn time i mean 24/7)
63. LIPS OR EYES: eyes
64. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller (IM SHORT AND I LOVE BEING PICKED UP HHH)
65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: older. talking to people younger than me makes me feel like i have to be responsible example or some shitÂ
66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: both tbh
67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: loud people because i am quiet and reserved so yeah
68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship
69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: troublemakers iâm a true stick to the rules person so i need to be shaken up every once in a while
HAVE YOUR EVER:
70. KISSED A STRANGER: nope
71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nope
72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: nope
73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yes
74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: noo
75. BROKEN SOMEONEâS HEART: nope (may be idk sometimes i say shit i really shouldnât)
76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: depends
77. BEEN ARRESTED: nope
78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: non
79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: nope
(wow look @ my ass i really canât)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
80. YOURSELF: *starts laughing really loudly*
81. MIRACLES: i mean miracles? not really?Â
82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: attraction? yes. love? no
83. SANTA CLAUS: i figured out santa wasnât real when i was four okay
84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yes
85. ANGELS: yes! not really angels but rather spirits but if fucking Michelangelo came down from the heavens and visited me i wouldnât be surprised (i also believe in demons or evil spirits you canât think one is real without acknowledging the other) (advice: donât summon/provoke/fuck with spirits they DONâT CARE and they will HARM YOU)Â
86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): amy, awrad, maryan and wanjeri (i see you looking wanjeri as of now weâre best friends)
OTHER
87. EYECOLOR: my irises are the tone of deep dark mahogany, with swirls of coffee and chestnut dancing within the infinite sea of brown. flickers of gold catch the sunlight within their grasps and make my eyes glow like firelight orbs. (my eyes r fucking brown)
88. FAVORITE MOVIE: Perks of being a Wallflower (i cry every single damn fucking time) Easy A (best chick flick of this generation) Love, Rosie (this damn movie fucked me up i really didnât expect that)Â
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âshould we know us a little betterâ tag đ
Thanks for tagging @youngjaesloudlaugh I hope this heat wave in the bay isnât killing you like itâs killing me đ©đ„
Like Jess said this is hella long so donât do it if you donât want to!Â
@jackbumâ @jaebumitosâ @im-shouting-maydayâ @markbummedoutâ @yougotmeyugyeomieâ @got7s-ommaâ @artuanâ @mygeraldineâ @rosegoldmarkâ @yyshighlightâ @jaebeemimoâ @jacks83â @jinyoungieluvâ @whaaaalepâ @p-jinyoungieâ @imj-bâ @theflyingtuanâ @myonlymarkâ @jackson-wang-tbhâ @defsouljaebumâ
RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people
THE LAST:
1. Drink: sparkling lemonade đ
2. Phone call:Â my mom woke me up -_-
3. Text message: âI bought a bottle of secco peach bellini last night and I finished it already LOLâ I was telling my friend about this bomb ass wine I had đ
4. Song you listened to: Jump Out the Window- Big Sean
5. Time you cried: I rewatched The Best Manâs Holiday and cried again LOOOL That was like two weeks ago
6. Dated someone twice:Â Never Ever đ
7. Kissed someone and regretted it: LOOOL yikes letâs not talk about that fuckboi đ€Ł
8. Been cheated on:Â No!! (at least I hope not)
9. Lost someone special:Â Sadly, yes. Rest in paradise, Grandpa!!
10. Been depressed: Not clinically
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: lol high five to that, Jess. First time I ever threw up was because of GOT7 HAHA I drank a few days before the turbulence fanmeet and I knew i was fucked up and wouldnât be able to take any more but our host was like âCome on, last shot for GOT7âł and I chugged that shit down like a champÂ đ€Ł Too bad I threw up after LOOOL
LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:
12-14:Â black, pastel pink, white
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: Yes I have!! In real life and I made so many friends on here
16. Fallen out of love: Nope nope
17. Laughed until you cried: Who hasnât?
18. Found out someone was talking about you: uhh one time this girl called me a bitch because she said every time I walked by her I would glare at her but Iâve never met her???
19. Met someone who changed you: Not dramatically. My friends have made me more open to try out new things tho!
20. Found out who your friends are: I only hang out with the realest :)
21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: If itâs my friendâs list weâre talking about then yes
GENERAL:
22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life:Â All of them! I only have friends and relatives on FB
23. Do you have any pets: Yeees, my husky Onyx đ
24. Do you want to change your name: Nope! Maybe I want to add a middle name since I donât have one but I donât have a specific name in mind
25. What did you do for your last Birthday:Â I was in class until 10 pm -_- but I celebrated the day before at the park!
26. What time did you wake up:Â 10 am! Iâm surprised since I slept at 4 in the morning haha
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Dying in the heat so I was prob eating ice cream
28. Name something you canât wait for: Tahoe trip, my best friend is coming into town, and the G DRAGON CONCERT
29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Last night
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Iâm content with life. If anything it would be having more time/money to spend on my family and friends
31. What are you listening right now:Â GDâs new albummm
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I prob have in my life but nothing I can remember right now
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: the. damn. heat.
34. Most visited Website: Tumblr lol what a surprise
idk what happened to 35-37. OH WHALE.
38. Hair color: Black
39. Long or short hair: It was long, it reached the middle of my butt but then I cut it and now itâs short and reaches a little pass my shoulders
40. Do you have a crush on someone: currently no
41. What do you like about yourself: The fact that Iâm optimistic
42. Piercings:Â 2 on each lobe and then 2 helixes on the left ear and 1 helix on the right ear!
43. Bloodtype: i donât know actually lol and I need to figure it out!
44. Nickname: Steph, Stephy, Steph Curry,Â ë± (like bok joo) I might have passed on this nickname to my dog cause he was so chubby as a baby haha
45. Relationship status: single and lazy to mingle (LOL ME JESS)
46. Zodiac:Â Taurus
47. Pronouns: she, her
48. Favorite TV Show: Empire, Weightlifting Fairy, Youâre Beautiful (a classic)
49. Tattoos: none yet and idk if Iâll get any!
50. Right or left hand: Right
51. Surgery: none
52. Piercing: answered already in #42
53. Sport:Â Played volleyball and badminton but I love Basketball (GO WARRIORS)
55. Vacation: Going to Lake Tahoe soon!Â
56. Pair of trainers: My cousin is getting me another pair of NMDs đ€
MORE GENERAL:
57. Eating: I love eating and I had pesto pasta earlier
58. Drinking: Yes I love drinking LOL I prefer smoothies thoÂ
59. Iâm about to:Â clean my room
61. Waiting for: the weather to cool down so i can take my pup out for a run
62. Want: BOBAAAAAAA (always đ)
63. Get married: Yes!! Not anywhere in the near future tho
64. Career: Most likely somewhere in the entertainment business
WHICH IS BETTER?:
65. Hugs or kisses: depends on who itâs from ;) Lol but I like hugs better
66. Lips or eyes:Â Eyes
67. Shorter or taller:Â Taller
68. Older or younger: Older
70. Nice arms or nice stomach:Â Arms
71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship
73. Troublemaker or hesitant:Â depends on the situation but a lil trouble is fun sometimes
HAVE YOU EVER:
74. Kissed a stranger: đ Iâm gonna say no.. cause i knew  him from school
75. Drank hard liquor: Hennessy is like a must Â
76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes -_- and my dog has bitten into two of my glasses
77. Turned someone down: yuuup
78. Sex in the first date: naaaah
79. Broken someones heart: I donât think so
80. Had your heart broken: nope
81. Been arrested: Almost did in Singapore đ
I had hella gum in my purse and they thought I was selling so they wanted to arrest me and Iâm like nah fam this is for me but luckily they let me go after 2 hours and they made me throw it away đ
82. Cried when someone died:Â mhmÂ
83. Fallen for a friend: Yes đȘ
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. Yourself: Most of the time
85. Miracles:Â Yes!
86. Love at first sight: lowkey
87. Santa Claus: when I was like 8
88. Kiss in the first date: yeeeee
89. Angels:Â yeah
OTHER:
90. Current best friends name: my kinderbests Chris and Maria and my friend from school, Vianey!
91. Eyecolor: Â dark brown
92. Favorite movie: White Chicks will always be my fave
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Tale as old as time
So the other day I went on somewhat of a twitter rant regarding the remake of Beauty and The Beast and Disneyâs choice to incorporate a gay character into the movie. I was surprised at how many responses (particularly DMâs) I got regarding my post(s) and so Iâve decided to write a tad more about it on a platform that gave me more than 140 characters. Itâs Friday night, Iâm drinking tequila in pajamas and writing about a Disney movie. Living the dream, am I right? So, to help put into context where I was coming from when I wrote my tweets:Â
The original story of Beauty and The Beast came out in 1701 (HOLY CRAP, RIGHT?) and Disney turned that story into an original film in 1991. I was born in 1993, so as a child I grew up watching the âOGâ Disney princess movies. B&TB, The Little mermaid, Snow White, Pocahontas, etc. etc. That being said, even as A young child, I was never obsessed with the Disney princesses or their stories.  They were all well and good but I didnât LOVE the music or the stories, so usually seeing them once was enough for me.Â
Except for B&TB. Beauty and The Beast was TOTALLY different for me. I remember being 6 or 7 and having a babysitter come over to watch my twin brother and I, and she brought B&TB for us to watch. We made popcorn and turned off the lights and popped in the VHS (lol) and immediately I was hooked. The opening scene, which plays out like itâs being read from a story book, stayed with me well into adulthood.
âWho could ever love a beast?âÂ
 The opening monologue sets up The Beastâs storyline. The Beast is a handsome, wealthy prince who, in his selfishness and narcissism, refuses to help a homeless woman seeking shelter from a storm. Unfortunately for the handsome young prince, the homeless woman ends up being a witch (like, go figure, right?), who curses the beast with ugliness. Until the Beast can learn kindness and let love into his heart, heâll remain a physical representation of the monster he is. AKA, The Beast.Â
I remember sitting down on the couch next to my (straight) twin brother, whose initial thoughts on the beast were:Â
1) OMG HEâS SO SCARYÂ
andÂ
2) What a jerk!Â
After the opening monologue, six year old me thought the exact same thing. As the movie progresses we meet Belle, A smart, assertive, beautiful young woman in a small french town who loves her dad, reading, and creating inventions. Belle is great, I love Belle. She wasnât selfish like Arial and she wasnât willing to risk the lives of her family and friends for love like Pocahontas. Belle had a love for books, which, even that young, I identified with. I love reading to this day, and I can trace that love back to Belle.Â
But this post, as well as my post earlier this week on twitter, is not about Belle.Â
This post is about The Beast and Gaston. Six year old me was introduced to Gaston, the handsome, masculine, arrogant suitor whose story is entirely centered around his pursuit of Belle. Six year old me watched B&TB and could NOT understand what Belle DIDNâT like about him. He was so handsome and charming and willing to do just about ANYTHING to impress Belle. Why didnât she like him? I liked him. I liked him A LOT.Â
I remember innocently thinking these things to myself, and then hearing my twin brother say stuff about Gaston which was NOTHING like what I was thinking.Â
âHeâs evil!âÂ
âHe doesnât love her!âÂ
âWhat a jerk!âÂ
Six year old me at the time didnât realize that I was having my first gay crush. As I grew up, Iâd feel the same thing for a myriad of fictional characters. Literally all the male Power Rangers, Batman AND Robin, Ice Man...the list goes on and on. But thats one of the first times I really remember having a âgayâ thought. I thought Gaston was handsome.Â
 Belleâs dad eventually gets captured by the enigmatic and terrifying Beast.Â
As the story continues, Belle ends up sacrificing her freedom in exchange for her fatherâs (WHAT A BRAVE BITCH THOUGH, FOR REAL), who in turn rushes back to town to try and convince people to go and save Belle. While this is happening, Belle is held as prisoner by The Beast, who, as my brother put at the time was âreally scary.â The Beast is a total dick. He demands Belle only venture to certain parts of the castle, is constantly storming around and shouting at Belle and the enchanted pieces of anthropomorphic furniture that inhabit the castle, and is honestly more dramatic than a Real House Wife. However, as time progresses, the Beast and Belle begin to form a relationship. That catalyst to this relationship being when The Beast saves Belle from a pack of wolves who were DEF going to eat her and her horse. Itâs the first time we see that The Beast is NOT as harsh as his exterior may insinuate, and itâs the first real moment where Belle sees The Beast as more than just a monster. The rest of the story I know most of you are familiar with, so I wonât spend the rest of this post giving a synopsis. At the end of the movie, The Beast realizes his love for Belle, who has spent majority of the movie showing The Beast that heâs capable of loving someone other than himself. They finally kiss, and The Beast transforms back into his human form, and they all live happily ever after.Â
Six year old me was shook.Â
I remember asking our babysitter if I could borrow the movie, and after she had left and everyone in our house had gone to bed, watching it again. It was so epic, the whole thing. Gaston getting a WHOLE town to venture into the woods to kill a monster so he could marry Belle. The Beast fighting Gaston on a rooftop in the middle of fucking rainstorm so HE could be with Belle. I remember thinking how jealous of Belle I was. TWO GUYS fighting over her, hello?Â
But in all seriousness, six year old me liked the movie a lot. It stuck with me.Â
So when 12 year old me rewatched the movie in the middle of a ton of puberty, suddenly the movie was A LOT more important. Six years later and I felt like The Beast. At this point I knew I was gay. I knew what gay was, and I knew that was what I was. Like so many guys in the closet, I hid it to the best of my ability, and my best act was by being a fucking jerk. I was nasty to my brother, my friends, parents, girls, guys, dogs, bugs, whatever. If it had a pulse, I had to put up some level of crassness because that would divert form the fact that I really wanted a boyfriend.Â
Suddenly, The Beast was not so scary.Â
â...Although he had everything his heart desired, the prince was spoiled, selfish, and unkind...â
âWHO COULD EVER LOVE A BEAST?âÂ
There was Gaston again, his bulging muscles, his slicked back hair. âGod,â I remember muttering to myself, âwhat is wrong with me?âÂ
At this point, I knew Gaston was a piece of shit...But he was still hot.Â
As a teenager I remember watching the movie alone and really relating to The Beast. His castle, all by himself...cold, angry, upset. The Beast tears mirrors in his house down because he can hardly stand the sight of himself. The Beast does everything but injure the other inhabitants of the castle, who live not only in fear of him, but in confusion as to why he is the way he is. I can only imagine my family and friends thought similar things about me. Then Belle comes in, and sheâs brave, and sheâs kind, and sheâs patient.Â
They slowly learn about each other, they bond over books and animals.Â
16 and 17 year old me wished desperately for a boy like Belle. Someone who was going to look past my harsh exterior, past the parts of myself I could hardly stand to look at. Belle shows The Beast that we all have parts of ourselves that we donât like. Belle shows The Beast that we deserve love not in despite of our beasts, but because of them. Our âbeastsâ are just a part of us, not who we are as a whole.Â
Beauty and The Beast taught me from a very young age that we all deserved love, that monsters live inside of all of us--and that love sees through them. Beauty and the Beast helped show me my gayness, and time and time again showed me that even though I didnât like who I was, someone would love me for it.Â
SO when Disney announced earlier this week that they were writing in a gay character into the live action remake of B&TB, it struck a real nerve. When I found out that Lefou, Gastonâs sidekick, would have a âgay momentâ directed at Gaston, I had mixed emotions. The six year old me totally would have understood Lefouâs infatuation with Gaston. Even 23 year old me gets it. However, what bothered me was the obvious stereotypical storyline of the gay man falling in love with a straight guy.Â
Iâm thrilled Disney is trying to incorporate queerness into its content. I want to make that clear. I think the more LGBTQ characters we can incorporate into mainstream media, the better. That was NOT what I was getting at in my tweets the other day. Really I was expressing my frustration for how Disney had decided to incorporate gayness into Beauty and the Beast, a story that had helped me understand and realize my own sexuality. Iâm frustrated because I KNOW countless young boys (some of whom ARE gay) are going to end up seeing this movie, and rather than see a gay character who recognizes his love and infatuation as something good and worthy and something not to be ashamed of...Is going to see it in a way I remember feeling it SO many times while watching the original Beauty and The Beast. Disney has a real opportunity to show that gay love is something just as true and good as the love between Belle and the prince, love that deserves a happy ending. MY HOPE is that they take that opportunity with Lefou and make it something that helps little kids the way I NEEDED it when I was young.Â
Gay love is real love, gay love is pure love, and gay love is powerful. It is JUST as scary and unexpected and magical as love between a man and a woman. Beauty and The Beast helped me realize that, and I hope that the remake can help evoke those same emotions for a generation of gay youth that are going to see it.Â
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1: Letâs start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
Right now? Iâm not confused about anything besides where Iâm gonna be in 3-4 months.
2: Do you ever get âgood morningâ texts from anyone?
In a way, yes. lol
3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
Hell no, itâs encouraged. There is not a damn thing wrong with weed, guys.
4: Do you find it easy to trust others?
Really all depends on how you and that person connect right away.
5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?
Playing NHL 17 with my buddies.
6: Youâre drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
Nobody, because Iâm never lost, and if Iâm drunk, Iâm taking a cab home like any other individual with a brain.
7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
LOL This has happened too many times, same thing as everyone else. Keep asking why the fuck they would do it, until they were so annoyed they finally broke up with me. You cheat, you step up and end it.
8: Are you close with your dad?
Hah. No.
9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
YOU DONâT KNOW ME AT ALL, TUMBLR QUESTIONS.
10: What are you listening to?
Mike Joy, Jeff Gordon, and Darrell Waltrip on TV during the NASCAR race.
11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
Water... duh?
12: Do you like hickeys?
On me, no idea. On someone else, oh ya know.
13: What time do you go to bed?
I donât âgo to bedâ, I sleep like shit.
14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
Lately there is a buddy of mine, yes.
15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
Hell no.Â
16: Do you always answer your texts?
For certain people, yes. There are some days though, where I just donât feel like talking at all. Nothing against anybody, ya feel?
17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
Wouldnât you hate anyone who broke your heart? I mean, thereâs kinda no excuse to not.
18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Everyday, mafk.
19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
Yes.
20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
I didnât go to bed, so count this as useless.
21: Is anyone else in the room with you?
My bedroom? Never.
22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?
Theoretically speaking, if something âgoes aroundâ, it has to come around. Where it âcomes aroundâ is a different story.Â
23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
Yes and no.
24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
Hmm.. nope. If someone wants to âfix thingsâ, they should be a mechanic.
25: In the past week, have you cried?
Yep. God damn you, P.K. Subban.Â
26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
Iâm not wearing a shirt, yo.
27: Do people ever call you by your last name?
Pretty much only my last name.Â
28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?
Aside from my dog, no.
29: Do you have a best friend?
Yep.
30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
YES.
31: Who was your last call/text message from?
I just got called by some automated machine from Gatineau.
32: Are you mad at anyone?
Iâm mad at Willie Desjardins.
33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Hell ya!!
34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
Thatâs classified, asshat.
35: How many more days until your birthday?
Fuck, you mean I actually have to figure out this shit? *goes to google*141 days. You happy?
36: Do you have any summer plans yet?
Uhh, YEAH! I want to be in Seattle for my birthday, and I have Metallica/A7X in August, and Guns N Roses in September.
37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
Oh yeah.
38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
Chocolate and goodies.
39: Do you have a secret that youâve never told anyone?
Oh probably. The point of a secret is for nobody to know.. The best way to make sure that happens is to forget about it yourself.
40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
Yes.
41: Do you think age matters in relationships?
No.
42: Are you available?
Nope, at the moment Iâm really fucking tied up having to answer another 60% of this ask.
43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
Well, Iâm almost 25 now, itâs 2017. Graduated in 2010.. So in 7 years? I guess just one. One I donât count.
44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
A PRINCE ALBERT. FUN FACT. IâM KIDDING.
45: Do you believe exes can be friends?
Sure, as long as that ex knows they fucked up.
46: Do you regret anything?
I regret throwing curveballs when I was younger, or Iâd be in a far different place right now.
47: Honestly, whatâs on your mind right now?
Who in their right mind makes someone do ALL of these?!?!?!
48: Did you ever lose a best friend?Â
Yep. Iâve lost a couple.
49: Was your last kiss a mistake?
Nope.
50: Why arenât you pursuing the person you like?
Why are you assuming Iâm not?
51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
I think so. lol
52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
Why is âLASTâ capitalized now, but not any other time? Sheesh. Yes I do.
53: What was the last thing you ate?
PIIIIIIZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
54: Did you get any compliments today?
Nope. Nothing new.
55: Where are you going on your next vacation?
Hmm. Iâm not sure. I donât know what will come first. Probably 100 Mile House.
56: Do you own anything from other countries?
Everybody does...?
57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?
Guys I guess.
58: Where have you lived most of your life?
Is this house.Â
59: When was the last time you took a long drive?
Thursday night with Chris.
60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
Fuck no.
61: Have you ever TPd someoneâs house?
No.Â
62: Who do you text the most?
Sara.
63: What was the last movie you saw?
I rewatched Rush Hour the other day.
64: Whatâs preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
Umm....?????
65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?
1
66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
Nope.
67: Do you curse around your parents?
Who do you think I got it from?
68: Are you happy with where you live?
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL sure. Not really.
69: Picture of yourself?
SERIOUSLY? I have to actually open Photo Booth on my mac for the first time just for this? Assholes....
70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?
I donât know... none of that ever concerned me, because i havenât thought about it or cared. If youâre gonna marry someone, thatâs tells me you only want to be with them, so....
71: Have you ever been dumped?
Mhmm. I made those cheaters do it themselves.
72: What do you most like about making out?
That part.
73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you werenât seriously involved with?
Nope.
74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?
It shouldnât matter, but itâs been 50/50. lol
75: What part of a personâs body do you find most attractive?
Lips, Nails. lol
76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
I DIDNâT GO TO BED!!!!!!!!!!!!
77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?
Knew in general, no. In person, yes.
78: Had sex with someone you didnât know their name?
LOL. What kind of life do you think I have?
79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?
Being called...... never mind.
80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?
Who knows.Â
81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?
Not really.
82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?
Nope.Â
83: Do you miss your last sweetie?
Iâve never called anyone my sweetie.
84: Last time you slow danced with someone?
Eaglequest Banquet Christmas Party.Â
85: Have you ever âdatedâ someone youâve never met?
Yes.
86: How can I win your heart?
Good luck with that.
87: What is your astrological sign?
LEO.
88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
The same thing I was at 11PM....
89: Do you cook?
Depends on what Iâm cooking. If I donât know how to cook it, Iâm not really cooking, Iâm just butchering.
90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?
Because theyâve said Happy Birthday? Yeah.
91: If youâre single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
No.
92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
Unlike everyone else, Iâm not looking for love or eagerly waiting for someone. Love just happens, man. Itâs a force of nature, not something that can be fabricated.
93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
None.
94: Name four things that you wish you had!
An NES Classic, a Nintendo Switch, a Lexus LFA, and a 100 acre property.
95: Are you a player?
Left Wing/Centre/Left Defence for Dikbutt in EASHL NHL 17, yes.
96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?
No.
97: Are you a tease?
98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?
YES!
99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?
Mhmm.
100: Anybody on Tumblr that youâd go on a date with?
Oh yes. Definitely Vengeance7x.tumblr.comÂ
101: Hugs or Kisses?
Why not both, dude?
102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?
NO!!! Hey, you, wanna go out? I donât know where weâre going or why, but the question says âoutâ, so...
103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes.
104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
Duh!
105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?
ONLY if it is Olivia Wilde or Brian Haner Jr.
106: Do you flirt a lot?
No.
107: Your last kiss?
Will be my last.
108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?
No.
109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
No.
110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?
Kevin Bieksa, to thank him for 2011 WCF Game 5.
111: Do you know who youâll kiss next?
Well I certainly hope so!
112: Does someone like you currently?
You tell me.
113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
You tell me.
114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Serious, yo.
115: Ever made out with just a friend?
Yep.
116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?
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Retrospecticus 2016
I didnât do this for 2015, because I thought that year was such a terrible tire fire that it didnât deserve documentation. But well, we all saw how 2016 went, and now Iâm sort of sad I donât have a concise round-up of why 2015 was so awful. Iâm sure the perspective wouldâve been valuable.
Anyway, hereâs my 2016 in review
1. What did you do in 2016 that youâd never done before? I was the sole creative and technical producer for an animated feature from one of the best beloved brands in the world. After a rough start to the year, this ended up being on of my best years professionally, thanks to [redacted] and [redacted]. Also, I took up circus, experimenting with flying trapeze, aerials, tight wire, juggling, and other general circus arts. I took a tumbling class and did front and back handsprings for the first time in like, twenty years, so even though thatâs not something Iâve never done, I think the time delay makes it notable. Also, I explicitly came out to my family and my Facebook, which has been both a total non-event and deeply traumatic at the same time.
2. Did you keep your new yearâs resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didnât really make any, but I thought about the song âStay Aliveâ from Hamilton a lot, and I managed to do that, so good job, me. For 2017 Iâve brought back a resolution that served me well in 2009: âAss, Gas, or Grass - nobody rides for free.â Iâm more concerned with the latter part of that statement than the former. I also have spent a lot of time putting other peopleâs needs over my own, and I donât think it actually helps anyone, and it actively hurts me, so Iâm gonna try to do that less. Also - ONE HUNNERT NAZI SCALPS.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My awesome friend Jess had an awesome baby! And like, some Facebook friends from college, which is cool but is less cool.
4. Did anyone close to you die? I mean the answer is yes and no. Because we lost the patriarch of my old folk music family, which was a gutting loss made only worse by the fact that I have been disowned by that group for the past seven years or so. Fuck cancer, is basically what Iâm saying.
5. What countries did you visit? I went to England and Poland, and canât wait to go back to both. I also did a lot of travel within the states, both for business and for pleasure, and got Delta Gold Medallion status for 2017. So Iâve got that going for me, which is nice.
6. What would you like to have in 2017 that you lacked in 2016? This is the part where for the past seven years Iâve said something about a relationship. Well, I left 2015 thinking one thing was going on romantically, and that didnât pan out, and it honestly took me most of the year to get to a good place about it. And I honestly donât know that Iâm in a place mentally and emotionally where a relationship would be a good thing, though I do miss closeness and intimate physical contact. I think what I really need is better self-esteem, and to find the confidence I have in my professional knowledge and abilities in my personal life. Maybe Iâll get a cat?
7. What dates from 2016 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? The first week of March, for the worst most gaslight-y performance review Iâve ever received, which sent me into a depression/anxiety spiral that had me thinking about suicide a lot. Also, the end of March, for the time I sacrificed my Hamilton tickets for the sake of my job. But then on the plus side I took a wonderful Vegas vacation with @lindsayribar at the beginning of July, and Iâll never quite think of champagne or the Cheesecake Factory in the same way ever again. The August-November corridor was a great time for me at work, and I got a lot accomplished that no one has ever done before. Thanksgiving with @joshversus and @dontbearuiner was also a particular delight.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Producing that movie. I was in charge of the script, the casting, the music, the direction, and the final mixing, as well as all the scheduling for every component of the production. Iâd been scheduling producer for these movies for years, but Iâd never gotten to do the creative producing as well, and I crushed it. I mean, we really made a great movie, and Iâm super proud.
9. What was your biggest failure? I donât know honestly. Most of the things I failed at donât even matter anymore. I could say putting othersâ feelings/needs over my own, but in the situations as they occurred, I canât honestly imagine handling them any differently. I think I couldâve said no more often. Or maybe said yes. Maybe been less afraid.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Not physically, not really. I had some pervasive bladder issues for a while, but nothing that wasnât solved fairly easily. Mentally I was a disaster, but Iâve got some better anxiety meds now, at least. I need to get a therapist this year.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Pretty sure it was that Vegas trip. I also gave a lot of money to my friends so they could make art, and I feel really great about that.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Mine did, honestly, though I didnât get a lot of recognition for it, not even from myself.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Fucking, just... just most of fucking America at various times and in a lot of different ways.
14. Where did most of your money go? Rent. Plane tickets. Alcohol. I really canât overstate how much I drank this past year.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? My movie. Vacations. Last minute shout out to Yuri!!! On Ice, which single-handedly saved 2016.
16. What song will always remind you of 2016? I mean, at this point if I said anything other than âHistory Makerâ by Dean Fujioka, I would be lying. I would say the entirety of Lemonade, but Queen Bey is timeless and that album cannot be bound to a single year.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder? December 2015-January 2016 was one sustained panic attack, and even though thatâs 100% still the case now, I feel more resolute. I had the rug yanked out from under me so many times in 2016, and even in just the past couple days, but Iâm determined now in a way I havenât been in a long time.
18. What do you wish youâd done more of? Feeling good. Writing. Being physical.
19. What do you wish youâd done less of? Keeping this from 2014 - Being lonely, being angry at myself instead of doing something about it. Also, thinking Iâm not good enough, or that I donât deserve good things. Like, thatâs still a process but I want to keep making progress on it. I canât hate myself forever, right?
20. How will you be spending Christmas? I spent Christmas Eve with my folks, taking it easy, drinking some beers and watching Die Hard, as is tradition. Then Christmas Day we went up to visit my dadâs sister and that side of the family. Aunt Pat had decided that she was tired of traditional crap, and so we had a taco bar for Christmas dinner. Also I fielded a lot of comments on my green undercut. If anyone doubted who was the queer cousin, I set all of those doubts to rest this year.
21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with? My folks. Vendors. I fucking hate the phone, but I did also manage to have some really good conversations with friends.
22. Did you fall in love in 2016? Nope. Had a lot of complicated feelings, though.
23. How many one-night stands? Well, I mean, I didnât think it was at the time, but the answer is one. Also, the only time I had sex with another person all year. It was still the second most sexually active year Iâve had in the past seven, so...
24. What was your favorite TV program? Yuri!!! On Ice stole the title at the last minute. But like, I also started rewatching Leverage, and that show is great. Cutthroat Kitchen, Bobâs Burgers, and Rick and Morty all got me through some shit this year.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didnât hate this time last year? I mean, yeah. Basically every Republican, all Trump voters, literal Nazis I canât even believe we are at this point but so it goes.
26. What was the best book you read? The Nice Guys by Charles Ardai. Yeah, itâs a movie adaptation, but itâs really fucking good.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? For total greatness, itâs an absolute tie between Lemonade and the Hamilton Mixtape. For sheer number of repeat listens, the Yuri!!! On Ice OST. Honorable mention to Ariana Grandeâs album Dangerous Woman, and âCastleâ and âControlâ by Halsey.
28. What did you want and get? My movie. To know if I can still throw a back handspring. Drunk.
29. What did you want and not get? Oh, a lot of things. Also, President Hillary Clinton.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Deadpool. Also The Nice Guys.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was 34, and I went to my favorite izakaya with my parents and some friends from work.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Someone telling me I was good. Believing it.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2016? Fuck, can I even get this on? Ugh, fine, it sort of looks okay. (I put on a lot of weight this year)
34. What kept you sane? Alcohol. It almost didnât work, but it usually did. My anxiety medication.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Man, I donât even know. Probably still LMM and the Rock.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? Donât even fucking talk to me about this trash fire election.Â
37. Who did you miss? My friends in NYC, my friends in Texas, my friends in LA, my friends in London.
38. Who was the best new person you met? I met a lot of cool circus performers this year.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2016:
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: Pour up (Drank), head shot (Drank) Sit down (Drank), stand up (Drank) Pass out (Drank), wake up (Drank) Faded (Drank), faded (Drank) Kendrick Lamar - âSwimming Pools (Drank)â
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