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Me during episode 1: Ooh, what if Shouma accidently ate/was forced to eat a Dark Snack someday :3
Me during episode 4: Outlawed, disgraced, defiled brainworm of an idea, I will snap you like a candy cane on a hot summer day if that block of factory reject jello so much as touches that sweet boy's hand. Not even a "let's keep his mother alive as leverage or to ferment the flavour of joy", just simple "your misery and despair doesn't meet the bare minimum production requirements but we're killing you for funsies to traumatize your son"? What the heck, what the hECK -
#14shyx#kamen rider#kamen rider gavv#kr.gavv: episode 4#gavv spoilers#<- not really but just in case#it's one thing if they turned her into a dark snack on the spot bc it's an evil person thing#but then they had to gloat that shouma's mother didn't have enough spice#and they killed her anyway#head in hands. eating glass. shouma knowing his mother is dead vs hanto implied to have spent 18 years hoping#only to realize she died then and there#i need to write about this later but aHHHHHHHHH
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So I've had this wip sitting in my folders for months now and decided to ressurect it to satiate the urge to draw these two again
#I actually finished a wip after abandoning it for so long alright iconic moment for me personally#this is them in the cab coming back from the warrens after getting their asses handed to them by all the szlachta#she handled herself a lil better but vincent is squishy and almost died like. 10 times#vtm#vtmb#the fledgling#brujah#oc.vince#oc.pepper#ship: viper#sleepyscribble#she looks a lil sad bc yk she nearly lost the dude and she starts realizing she liiikes hiiiiiim teehee#she legit doesn't know what she would do if she rlly lost him#but she doesn't think she's in love ofc ofc it's just that yk he's the only person she really feels like she can trust#and the only one she feels really good around and who she feels she could tell anything to#and tbh she hasn't felt this way with anyone else in a long long time even before she became undead and had to deal w the other kindred#but that's normal for a friendship yk this is just a really strong friendship why ruin it with romance right that's stupid#no she wasn't watching him take his shirt off with her eyes almost popping out of her skull the other day shhh that didn't happen#she doesn't even remember he has freckles on his back and a scar on his shoulder. the left one. she doesn't remember she wasn't even lookin#ANYWAY no lust no feelings she's fine don't worry abt it 👍🏻#viper art
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For some weird reason, I've always been fascinated by how wildly different Sampo operates in the Underground vs the Overworld.
Sampo is present in both places and even in official sources, he's not really counted as one side or the other- now that the theory has been confirmed in-game, he's generally just lumped in with the Masked Fools.
But there really is a big difference!
Probably the most obvious and well known instance of Sampo's...business practices *cough burglary and fraud COUGH* in the Overworld is from the Belobog Museum event. In it, you don't find out Sampo is the main culprit until near the end, because Pela has to set up a sting just to catch him in the act. And that sting is necessary all because the initial suspect they arrested, Norbert, had pretty much no idea of his partner's identity. Sampo wouldn't even speak to him face-to-face.
And whereas Sampo is normally very pleasant and friendly with the trailblazer...when he thinks he's talking to Norbert here, he straight up says that they are NOT friends. Like he really shuts that shit DOWN.
There's also an Overworld NPC, Chavez, who heads the "Dark Blue Scam Support Group." And he. Really really really does not like Sampo fjkdasjklfdj
Chavez clearly wants Sampo caught, and has literally no positive feelings about him. So. Why call it the Dark Blue Scam? Why not just out him by name? Chavez obviously doesn't give a single shit about Sampo's dignity or privacy. But he never once refers to him as "Sampo," and even the pamphlets he passes out make no mention of it. No one in the entire support group seems to know how to identify him or how to refer to him except by his hair color. If the trailblazer says his name, Chavez reacts as though he's never heard it before.
(I've seen people say this means Sampo Koski is an alias and not his real name? But Ray pointed this out, and honestly I agree; even the Fools call him Sampo, after all. I think it's just that Chavez never knew Sampo's name in the first place, and given his immense distrust, immediately assumes it's an alias.)
And then there's his characters stories, where he proceeds to pull off a heist in the Overworld while in disguise as Brughel Poisson the entire time. Literally his own stories don't mention Sampo's name even once.
So anyway, all this shows that when he's up in the Overworld working cons, Sampo is incredibly slippery and secretive about his identity. The only people who seem to know him are Pela, Serval, and Gepard. He doesn't get close to anyone else, and is even surprisingly unfriendly. Nobody knows his name. No one knows his face. He has zero qualms about backstabbing or double-crossing, and even plans for it in some cases.
Meanwhile, down in the Underground, I'm pretty sure literally the worst thing we hear of him doing is scalping tickets in front of the Fight Club. Which isn't even illegal in a lot of places (although it's certainly a dick move).
In Hook's companion quest, a vagrant miner steals Fersman's equipment and tries to sell it to Sampo. Even before the trailblazer and Hook jump in and out the vagrant as a thief, Sampo hesitates to buy it because it sounds like stolen goods, which he doesn't want any part of.
Even knowing that a geomarrow detector is rare and incredibly valuable in the mines, Sampo makes no attempt to double-cross Hook or profit off of her loss, and even tells her who to go to to get it fixed.
And my favorite example of Sampo in the Underground is the Survival Wisdom adventure mission. In it, Sampo starts up a business with Peak, another miner. And like. In wild contrast to all the cons he pulls above ground, Sampo is actually super nice and helpful here.
Just the same as with Hook's quest, Sampo talks to Peak face-to-face, with no disguises or barriers. When the trailblazer finds them, they're just in the Great Mine, no secretive meeting places. Peak knows Sampo, is familiar with him, and calls him by name. It's not even a con! There's nothing illegal going on; it really is just a business partnership. Peak is more than happy with their deal, he's even pretty enthusiastic about it, because thanks to Sampo he can now make enough money to get by while also accommodating his chronic fatigue.
The only person Sampo lies to in this whole ordeal is the trailblazer, who he manipulates into getting Peak's mining equipment back from the vagrants that stole it in the first place. And when it's done, he rewards them with a legit treasure map.
So when he's working in the Underground, Sampo is MUCH more upright and lawful. Part of this is probably to do with his "business" model- Sampo only takes advantage of the wealthy, and poverty runs rampant in the Underground. When he charges Peak an extra 30% (the same percentage he charges Norbert as a consultation fee in the museum heists- Sampo seems to go by percentage instead of a flat rate, which means his prices are more fair for lower incomes) for carelessly losing their supply, Peak literally starts counting out pocket change.
Dude's working for pennies and good will down there dknsmdmd
And you can twist this into a Robin Hood thing if you want- Sampo IS technically working to feed orphans and heal the sick. He says himself he's more than happy to make up the shortfall between the greedy and the marginalized- I mean he says it in the shadiest way possible, but I doubt the people benefiting from his work really care that he's a slimeball if it means they can survive another day. Even the two heists he pulls in his character stories are literally just him stealing absurd amounts of food.
Personally though I think it is solely because of Natasha, and Sampo is hilariously well-behaved specifically for her, because she keeps him on a short leash JSKZJMSMSKS
#honkai star rail#sampotasha#hsr natasha#sampo koski#hsr sampo#hsr#today's post is brought to you by the letter Y. for the Yaps fdklsajfkd#'for some weird reason' I say only to realize through writing this post that the reason I like it so much is because I think-#-Natasha having Sampo by the short hairs is funny dkxjmskskdmdm#so sampotasha if you want or Sampo & Natasha if you want either or#I love Sampo behaving just for her because she holds a LOT of power in the Underground and he knows she could destroy him if she wanted#she could blacklist his business and run him out of Boulder Town if she really thought she needed to#Natasha exiled her own brother who eventually died in the cold because he was running unethical medical experiments on unknowing civilians#and granted what Sampo does is nowhere NEAR as bad as that but she also probably does not have nearly as much mercy for him dkdjdmkskd#I'd like to think they hold a decent amount of camaraderie for each other though. and maybe even some affection.#they work together like all the time after all. sampo is in the clinic with natasha so much that hook thought he was really sick.#and for as much as he relies on her for business she also relies on him for resources.#it's not really an exaggeration to say a LOT more people would be dead without Sampo constantly smuggling goods across the border.#maybe I should just make a post about their relationship sometime because I do very much love it skzjkskdk
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(It's ok Yurgir will respawn in Avernus)
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#...right- LOL#I was so scared of losing anyone I pretty much only summoned Yurgir!#ok let me ramble about this fight in the tags#I.....listen. Listen. I love this game with my entire heart. It's one of my favorite games of all time.#.....the final battle took me out of it a little bit ngjfkdlnshjk#It introduced a bunch of new mechanics and maybe I'm dumb but it felt like it wasn't super clear how everything worked#First I restarted it because I dropped a globe of invuln on the starting area thinking Orpheus could just activate the stones from that far#Then I restarted it bc I basically ran out of time on the rounds...except I didn't realize the fight would continue since every other-#-turn-based round counter was usually a game over#THEN I actually summoned the flaming fist to help clean up right at the end which made the camera SUPER confused when I went in the portal#It was a mess.#I still give the game an 11/10 tho lmao#Oh also Orpheus did something - I don't know what - and then the dragon just died with 120hp left. So. Good job buddy LOL#Lae'zel ended up killing the Emperor - I'm sure she enjoyed that#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 spoilers#act III spoilers#croissant adventures#tav#prince orpheus#yurgir#shadowheart#lae'zel#gale#breadweave#comics
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Song of Oblivion
#ooough my poor cataclysmic bird daughter#she loved so much and destroy everything for it#she denounces existance because to exist is to suffer- and suffering is her enemy#not realizing that in doing so she breeds so much of the suffering she hates#several of the fallen stars only fell because her question spurred them into a self-absorbing path#and then... and then the one singular meteia that realize her folly... who could be convinced of lifes meaning#by seeing you continue ever onwards even with your dearest friends' deaths on your shoulder#by seeing how everyone accepts oblivion for another tomorrow- even if they had suffered so much. even if they wanted to die#no matter what they fought. they fought and died and kept marching forward even in death#they loved life enough to sacrifice it. how could she not accept that?#and the realization that the reason she came to the conclusion she did was because she was flawed- bc hermes was flawed#as hermes said- he gave her wings to fly but did not teach her how to tread the earth#she was given freedom to experience the feelings and emotions of the world- but not the groundwork to understand it#she could see. she could hear. but she could not comprehend#she has knowledge- but without context it gets misinterperated and warped#OUGH im going to scream. i miss her.#meteion#endsinger#final fantasy#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ff14#ffxiv#art#my art#xanders art#digital art#fan art
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It's a good thing he's in a bathtub, because that guy is a MESS.
#kenji kon#jurassic world: chaos theory#jwct#brooklynn#chaos theory#darius bowman#chaos indeed#Darius was just a little butterfly flapping his wings#it's interesting to have this from the reflection perspective#and the live one#because we still don't know exactly what everything is#was it just Darius being overwhelmed with his First Crush because the coolest girl in the world crashed by his place?#was it actually him realizing long-buried feelings that he'd always brushed aside because Brooklynn was never an option to him?#would he have been over it in a week but never got the chance?#how long had Kenji been preparing to break up?#is Kenji still fully in love with her or just upset because the last time he saw his teenage flame they fought and then she died?#it's all about closure#and what they never had#but MAN do I love that Kenji isn't judging Darius#there's no jealousy#or resentment#he Understands#because both of them weren't there#Kenji pushed her away#and Darius didn't catch her#which is also unbeknownst to them THE ONLY REASON THEY'RE ALIVE TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION
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I have a headcanon that Eddie waited 20 minutes and then called Tommy to apologize for “ruining their date” and encourages Tommy to give Buck a second chance.
#Eddie Diaz#BuckTommy#I love the fact that Buck was ready to leave it at ‘I fucked up’ and Eddie’s the one that said ‘don’t walk away’#and I totally think Eddie would play matchmaker because when’s the last time he LIKED someone Buck dated?#he wasn’t there for Abby (and his only interaction with her was finding out she got ENGAGED while she was ghosting Buck#Aly was just a nonstarter and I KNOW the guy that watched Buck cough up blood would be PISSED to learn Aly left while Buck was recovering#and we all know how he felt about Taylor#and he lowkey was annoyed with Natalia liking that Buck almost died#considering Buck’s death was the worst three minutes of Eddie’s life since Shannon died#but TOMMY??? he loves Tommy!!!#Tommy is his bro of course he wants Tommy to date his best friend#any guy or girl would be lucky to have Buck#if Eddie swung that way (whichhetotallydoesnt) he’d date Buck himself!!!#basically I think Eddie hasn’t Figured It Out so he’s super going to get Buck a boyfriend#and then realize months later that HE wanted to be Buck’s boyfriend the whole time
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these frauds
#my art#caseybug#something about how casey is good at faking customer service smile but never means anything affectionate she says cuz she rarely feels thin#things like that/has trouble forming emotional attachments so her words are all empty#pathological liar..masking savant..lol..this is why i think it takes so stupid long to process her feelings for nell#a lot of times in the alternate universes we craft she doesnt even process them at all#vs nell whos a very sentimental romantic person underneath all those layers of repression and autism#but keeps it locked away out of fear of getting hurt or hurting others but if you were actually emotionally INTELLIGENT.. you might SEE it#that everything she does comes from the core of an extremely loving person#but sadly casey has such low empathy and so little experience dealing with other people on a deeper level than work meetings she doesnt#see the extent of her feelings#which suits nell fine. cuz she doesnt want to be perceived.#but ultimately it causes their relationship to be hashtag doomed in canonical ending#where they never discuss their realtionship on a deeper level and nell dies thinking casey will be fine without her#and casey only realizes after shes dead how much she meant to her#um anyways#long ramble abt their relationship under this picture. goodbye#nell
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Originally, Bruce and Dick slept in the same bed.
I like to twist this around: Bruce, being a young parent, was VERY protective and worried about his boy who wants to go fight criminals with him, and it translated into him refusing to let Dick leave his side after difficult nights. Dick is hurt? He is sleeping in Bruce's bed. Dick isn't hurt but it was a close call? He is sleeping in Bruce's bed. Bruce just got scared but Dick was fine? He is sleeping in Bruce's bed. Dick is scared? He is sleeping in Bruce's bed. Of course, this led to Dick also refusing to leave Bruce's side when Bruce gets hurt or could have been hurt, so he also sleeps in Bruce's bed on these nights. And, as he grew up in a circus, always moving around, he is used to sleeping in his parents' arms or very close by, so it's normal for him.
So, Dick is often sleeping in Bruce's bed, cuddled up to Bruce. And as he grows up, he sleeps less and less in Bruce's arms, and he supports less and less Bruce's suffocating anxiety. Finally, he stops completely.
Some events make him wants to crawl back in his dad's bed (his multiple SA, the destruction of Bludhaven, the multiple times he thought Bruce died, etc...), but he never dares to. He is an adult now, and he fears Bruce would have a problem with it. Bruce is also not that welcoming toward physical affection since Jason's death (something Cass fixes, but that's another story). So, Dick doesn’t, even when he craves to.
Until Bruce is send back in time and believed dead. When he comes back, Dick just cannot stop himself, he needs to hold his dad, and he is so afraid Bruce will dissappear if he isn't touching him. He is holding him all evening long, and when it's time for bed, Bruce wordlessly goes to sleep holding Dick with one arm, the other around Tim. (Damian isn't close enough to Bruce yet to dare come sleep with them, Cass is in Hong-Kong, but she is jumping on a plane and will join the sleep-cuddle pile, Jason isn't back in the batfam yet but the possibility of losing Bruce scared him so bad, he is going to start to make efforts to not be on bad terms with them)
#bruce wayne#batman#dick grayson#robin#nightwing#batfam#dc comics#my ramblings#Jason also needed to sleep with Bruce anytime Bruce got hurt because it reminded him of his mom#and he was scared Bruce would die if he looked away#but Bruce had calmed down after his fight with Dick and wasn't making Jason sleep with him anytime he got scared#Bruce is a good dad but that doesn't mean he is perfect he is flawed#and I believed his fight with Dick is inevitable and important for both their character development#anyway about Cass she is very touch starve in Batgirl and JUST WANT A HUG FROM HER DAD like all her life she just wanted to be hugged#but only ever got training and violence growing up#so the moment Bruce shows her he will give her affection and hugs? she is hugging that man so much#and because she reads people so easily she knows he loves it and never hesitates to just jump on him for a hug#Let's go back to Jason he has a breakdown after battle for the cowl because he realizes his dad is GONE#when he sees Bruce again he is ugly crying behind the hood and he punches him to see if he's real#then he runs away because he isn’t ready to face his feelings#okay I need to stop talking about my batman canon#Dick as a kid: *scraps his knee* Bruce: *refusing to let go of him* What if it gets infected and HE DIES?!
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im gonna be reallly annoying here for a second grrm shouldve added so much more linguistic diversity to westeros. especially the north and ESPECIALLY north of the wall. also there's no way daenerys's mothertongue would be high valyrian. thank you.
#high valyrian doesnt occupy a prestige position in westeros + the central targ household of 5-10 are the only ones that speak it + the only#practical purpose it served was for communicating with dragons and even that became unnecessary almost 2centuries beforehand + she wasnt#surrounded by anyone with enough knowledge in HV to back up their restorative aims. viserys would looove to speak it but there was literall#nobody in his life who wouldve or couldve taught it to him#it wouldve died out/become obsolete within like. 10 years after the dance and even thats being super generous#im a linguistics major sorry let me be a pain#valyrianscrolls#asoiaf meta#sorry to clarify i mean that we dont see valyrian being adopted by the lords as a means to signal their high rank#the language is very firmly restricted to the main targ household#so its like. if theyre not using it for diplomatic purposes#and if theyre not using it to control the dragons#and theyre also not using it to index their social rank#and theres also literally fucking nobody else speaking it#then it serves no purpose because the targs also all spoke common#all it takes is a couple of generations of lax tutelage and the king realizing Hey teaching this to our kids is kinda functionally useless#and it dies out. maybe except in maester circles i can imagine theres scholarly interest in it but even then thats not enough to sustain it
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My hot take is that marcanne has as much potential for toxic yuri as any other calamity trio ship and it's not nearly as soft and fluffy as one may think
#amphibia#marcanne#anne boonchuy#marcy wu#in one hand: marcy kidnapped her. by giving her AS A BIRTHDAY GIFT something that was meant to benefit HER#(yes she didn't know it would work but the point is that she thought about herself first. even though it was her best friend's birthday)#she never wanted to come back. she wanted to keep her with her forever. she was happiest when they were together#most importantly she saw what she did as a good thing. as something good that she gave to her#yet still lied to her. After what happened with Sasha#she still lied to her. became another person to betray Anne#then she fucking died for her 😭😭😭#on the other hand. you have anne#she looked after her. she certainly loved her. but she didn't care much about the things that were important to marcy#nor did she care about her feelings or needs. she and sasha third-wheeled her for years#even though marcy came first#she could only really see her once sasha was gone#you have to remove her from the equation for both of them to flourish and connect#because the shadow of sasha's abuse oppressed them for so long. anne and marcy reuniting in S2 looked a lot like two people escaping#abuse together. healing together. coming into their own. becoming better people. they get to know themselves and each other much more deeply#now that they're free. only - they aren't free. they're constantly thinking about sasha. when sasha comes back they welcome her#they reproduced the toxic patterns she left of them#though i'll recognize that in anne's case she healed a lot more from sasha's toxicity than marcy#and you can see that in how her way of relation to marcy is a lot healthier than marcy's way of relating to anne#anne is now truly and genuinely connecting to her friend. marcy is still lying to her#pushing down her feelings. ignoring her own needs. pretending everything is okay. lying lying lying#anne was the only one who could escape but marcy couldn't quite move on yet. she couldn't be free#hope this makes sense i'm writing it at 4am i'll delete tomorrow if i realize it sounds dumb
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Scary Marlowe is making me Think so bad like. All she’s ever been was a scared girl. She didn’t want to love Terry because she was so afraid of being abandoned, she grew up so fast and became a gothpunk seeker of darkness because she was so afraid to lose people she loves, so it was better to not love them at all.
And still, even with all her rage and anger and everything, even with how much she yelled at terry and told him she hated him, she did care. He was the dad who loved her, who’d show up to her soccer games and make her lunches and just be her father. She just wasn’t ready for that. They didn’t get the time to grow and open up and love one another, they didn’t get the time to become a family.
Terry Jr. understood Scary, how it felt to lose a father and then feel like this guy just barges in and imposes on your life. He wanted to be like Ron, have a relationship with scary that was like the one he was able to craft with his stepdad, and he understood that it would take a lot of time and a lot of understanding and a lot of love, and he was willing to wait until he was ready.
They could’ve been a great family, and they both knew it. They just didn’t have enough time.
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#scary marlowe#terry jr#they make me so wild#and so sad#I wish they had the time to become a family#because I think Terry would’ve been the best kiddad#he cared so much 😭#he just. saw her I think#and she only realized that after he died#dungeons and daddies spoilers
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if sunny is the blond girl and slimeriana is the parents flippa is big sister to sunny ?
actually, if i were to go through with the slimeriana fam to be the northwests i would have flippa's death as an reason to why they are the way they are
#ask tag#anon#quesadilla falls#like flippa being gone making a rift in the family which justifies why sunny is the way she is (as pacifica)#cuz yeah slimeriana was disfunctional but it became WAY more after flippa died. and also having to throw tubbo in the mix as a co-parent#like i def feel like sunny would end up being isolated after flippa's death. only having tubbo as her most present parent#edit i realized i did go with it lmao
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AU where rose gets shot by the dalek instead of the doctor and she survives long enough to be brought back to the tardis and he's saying he can fix this, he can fix this, he can fix this. and rose says it was worth it (it was.) and when she stops breathing the doctor just. stops. period. so so still. frozen over her.
and i think it takes just long enough for jack to get close and take her hand. because he needs to. before it goes cold, he needs to.
and that's when rose breathes again.
#this is a love story. this is also a horror story. for jack especially because he knows more than anyone else What This Means For Her#(also. briefly. a horror story for donna because she's watching the doctor this whole time. and she's thinking. that she can't stop him.#if this happens. if rose dies. than whatever he does next. she's going to try but i think for the first time donna would genuinely not be#sure if she could make the doctor stop. which is terrifying. a fear that continues even once rose comes back to life because i wonder if#donna thinks. 'i won't come back to life if i ever leave him.' and realizes just what could happen if he loses her too.)#rose tyler#NO THOUGHTS HEAD EMPTY ONLY JACKROSEDOCTOR BRAIN
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I refuse to watch Sonic 3 if theres no Amy or Rouge. I refuse to compromise on this front. Both girls need to be there.
#amy rose#rouge the bat#they have all the equipment ready for a sick movie for these two#like Rouge being the only other one besides Knucks searching for the ME#and she found her way to earth during her search#and GUN sees her potential so they recruit her#and amy could’ve been Sonic’s childhood friend from b4 longclaw died#she thought he died with her until she found Tail’s gizmo#she finally finds Sonic in prison and frees him#but he still sees her as a defenceless kid and thus forces her to stay behind while they take down shadow#but she refuses to give up and gets kidnapped by Eggman#and she and Sonic have an argument on the Ark and Amy storms off#shes grumbling to herself until she sees Shadow all alone looking at the Earth#she realizes that just bc shes not strong enough to avoid getting captured doesn’t mean she can’t help in other ways#so she begs Shadow to help them save Earth and her love for humanity reminds him of Maria#and his memory comes back and he goes to fufill Maria’s and Amy’s wish#Sonic asks him whats the deal and Shadow says ‘dont think this is ur doing faker#im simply…. granting a wish#a wish that Amy helped me remember#then he goes off to face the biolizard all cool while Sonic is left in the dust#thinking#then when the Ark is saved and Shadow ‘dies’#Sonic goes up to Amy whos staring through the glass sadly#she realizes hes there and quickly wipes her tears#she says that just you wait one day i’ll be the strongest warrior in the galaxy#and that she’ll make him respect her#and by the time he realizes what he missed out on itll be too late#she says the last part playfully but Sonic is taken back by her sincerity#anyways if they can bring Gerald back from the dead they can certainly put two girls in a movie they belong in#sonic movie criticism
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my dad was just like "what happens when your mom and I are both gone and there's no one to do the laundry and clean up the trash and do the cat litter, how are you gonna buy a car and get a job and live somewhere" blah blah blah and like I don't know!!!! and it crushes me every day!!!! the idea that I'm unable to do all the little tasks that come with being an adult myself!!! I don't fucking know what I'm supposed to do about it!!! it haunts me! I think about it every minute of my life, the fact that I'm a failure by every adult human standard!!!! and I have no fucking idea what I'd do if I had to survive on my own!!!! it's fucking scary!!!!!!!!! so maybe you could like. look into things to help and try to help me figure out alternatives that work for me instead of getting passive aggressive that I can't just do things like normal and then reminding me of the fact that I'm incapable of basic tasks!!!! in the most upsetting way possible!!!!!!!
#like he thinks i dont realize that? he thinks im being lazy and taking advantage of the fact that i still live with them#and just mooching off of them#instead of the fact that i am physically and mentally unable to care for myself and find it difficult to cope with every minute of every da#but who gives a shit about me because my sister is the one with the diagnoses so she's the only one that can actually get help.#genuinely i think if my mom died I would... google what pills you can kys with?#like that's my plan b#i dont know what he wants from me#im trying as hard as i possible can and it's not very hard and im sorry.#but i dont know what else im supposed to do
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