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Based on this post of mine, haha.
Leo finds The Last Unicorn. Core memories are made.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise splinter#that movie is a rollercoaster#little Leo in his little British orphan boy pajamas should probably not be watching it essentially alone#Leo going through all stages of grief AND fear from this movie#his insomnia was NOT helped by this movie#‘you won’t let me leave right? I don’t wanna go’ flash forward to Leo trapping himself in the prison dimension#all while his father can only listen in horror
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do you ever get reminded of a ship, remember a piece of fanart of it that you loved, then after a day long search realize that you just imagined it? and then try to draw it yourself?
prllb btbtt ALT VERISONS
#since im submitting this to radar: hi! my main blog is stupidusernamepolicy. this is my art sideblog#rick and morty#rick & morty#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#rick sanchez#stanchez#rickstan#stanrick#admin draws#fanart#inspired by spinetrick slightly in the color palette because i didnt wanna do a style copy. but i first imagined it as it being THEIR art#dont. dont ask. i have a weird brain. ive done this shit before.#if im not alone PLEASE sound off. its funny but im also like. please dont let me be the only one.#anyeays. i always loved this ship#i know rick ford was the big thing but i personally think its much funnier if theyre rivals and cant stand each other#bc of science ego and personality differences#all the while rick is canoodling with his brother#i feel like theyre a great match in that theyre kind of immature old conmen who are both game for pretty much anything#RIGHT before i posted i caught a shading issue and also that i forgot stan's five o clock shadow. HA#imagine i posted this yesterday before those fixes. god what a nightmare
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someone’s drawn this before right
(closeups + ref under cut)
I DONT KNOW HOW TO FUCKIGN USE TUMBLR
#kazumaji#goromi#kiryu kazuma#majima goro#whos majima i only know goromi#i rarely use tumblr but i wanna start to post art again SOOO sorry if this isn’t up to code or something#my art#artists on tumblr#it doesn’t rlly look like kiryu but leave me alone
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Emukasa posting
Gonna turn these into keychains + stickers :3
#I wanna sell merch so bad RAHHH but i still dk how to package.. let alone SHIP.#only ship ik is emukasa hweehhehe#emukasa#tsukaemu#tsukasa tenma#wxs tsukasa#emu otori#wxs emu#wonderland x showtime#wxs#prsk tsukasa#prsk emu
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let's give it up for fucked-up mouth friday !!!!
#art#digital#drawing#ocs#body horror#honeybee#suggestive#yarrow#my art#i love you body horror i love a good fucked up mouth#as much as yarrow enjoys being beemonstery they do have the social graces as to not like. split their face open in public#so it's the sorta thing he only does if he's a) trying to be scary (which works) b) being goofy (around ppl who will take it well) and#c) alone with grimm (see above image)#i have one more af attack i wanna finish then i'm back on my oc bullshit for good heheheeeee
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i cannot express enough how much i absolutely HATE him
#don't get into my fucking personal space you floating cube thingy go away fuck leave me alone#literally everytime i just wanna see what he has for sale i get fucking jumpscared#STOP APPROACHING ME YOU ARE SCARING THE SHIT OUT OF ME#also his dialogue are like 1000x more annoying and demanding than ordis why everyone only hate on ordis you have better cephalons to hate#uugggggghhhhhhhhhh if it's not for fast affinity farm i will never step in sanctuary onslaught#i don't want to hear his voice#warframe#warframe excalibur#warframe cephalon simaris#(idk i don't even wanna see how people tag him this is the last time i draw him i never wanna have anything to do with him)#my art
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cameron's feelings. after their final exams, the twins celebrate the end of their second term by clubbing in san myshuno. as usual, cameron and chasity are inseparable the entire night. (i was expecting them to grow apart after chasity's pregnancy termination, but turns out it might have brought them even closer...)
#aashwarr#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4 aesthetic#discover university#it's the way i was gonna have them take a break after finals#and cam got this want the morning of#i... still wanna do it LMAO#bc i want them both to have a single era#but they won't leave each other alone :')#it's cute tho! tbh i only see them marrying each other atp#just not while in uni lol
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It's a time-honoured tradition- every time Sam comes across Izzy (and Ed) in their travels, he asks Izzy to marry him. And every time, Izzy turns him down.
At this point, Sam is asking more for the sake of it than any belief Izzy will ever say yes, a remnant of childhood dedication touched with 30 years of heartbreak and regret- though even now, a small part of him still holds out hope. Sam's promises have only got more extravagant over the years, from a job as his first mate, to a captaincy, a fleet at his command, a whole fucking island if that's what Izzy wants- but he knows it isn't though, not really. If Izzy was ever going to agree to marry him, to leave his life and go with Sam, it wouldn't be for anything Sam could offer him. Izzy never did care for flashy shows of wealth, for a ship or to be captain. The only thing that ever mattered to him was loyalty given, and loyalty shown in return.
It all comes to a head after Stede left and came back, after Izzy lost a toe, lost his leg. Sam hasn't seen him since before things with Ed started to really slide off the rails, before stress permanently set into the lines of Izzy’s face. So, when he sees a dishevelled man with a hoof for a leg in a no-name port, he doesn't even consider the idea that he might know him. It's only when he turns towards him, and Sam catches a glance at those oh too familiar tattoos, he realises this is Izzy, his Izzy, that stands before him.
Knowing Izzy's discomfort with pity, he doesn't treat him any differently than he would in years gone by, positioning himself in Izzy's line of sight before approaching and sweeping him up into a bone crushing hug.
“Israel-goddamn-Hands!” he exclaims, as Izzy grumbles back a begrudging “Samuel-fucking-Bellamy”, a tradition almost as old as their friendship itself. Izzy might not hug him back, but he can’t keep the corner of his mouth from twitching, just for a second.
(If Sam holds Izzy a little tighter and a little longer than usual, well. That's his business)
By the time Sam lets go, most of the crew has appeared in the town square, drawn in by the commotion. They may have given Izzy his leg and welcomed him as one of them, but still there’s an underlying tension, with nobody quite ready to set aside everything that happened before the Kraken. Seeing him cosying up to an unknown man sets everyone on edge, unsure whether to come to their first mate’s aid, or to assume that they've been betrayed once again.
When Ed sees that the yelling was Sam, his hand goes tense where it's held in Stede's. He knows the routine, has seen it more times than he can count, but as he watches them part he realises that this is the first time in a long time he's unsure of what Izzy's response will be.
Knowing that something’s different, knowing that Izzy's feeling vulnerable already, Sam doesn't go for the same flashy proposal he’s been giving for years. He doesn't promise Izzy the world, he doesn't cause a scene (or, any more of a scene than he already has, anyway). He looks at the fractured man in front of him, takes his face in his hands, and says the exact same thing to him he said when they were little more than boys. “Israel, I have to ask you. I know what you'll say, but I have to try. Come with me. Marry me and sail away with me. I'll keep you safe”
And Izzy… hesitates. He glances over at Ed, at Stede, and says to Sam “...We’re staying in port for a week. Ask me again then”
That's the moment Sam knows there is something deeply, horribly, wrong. He's not just looking at an Izzy who got seriously injured in a fight and is struggling to cope, this is something so much bigger than that- and that Ed has something to do with it. Izzy wouldn't even be considering leaving if he didn't. Whether it was negligence or something more sinister, Sam doesn't yet know, but he intends to find out.
#i feel like the little paragraph about the crew is real clunky and out of place but i wanted some kind of establishment of where those#dynamics are at. its important that the crew is something for izzy to consider in his decision; but also that their relationship isnt so#solid he would stay for them alone; yknow?#im sorta aiming for a s2e5 era but like. early in those themes. he cant be all sorted yet i need him to be struggling#anyway this is part of a much larger scenario in my head that im never ever doing anything with but i wrote THIS bit in a daze in like. jun#and i got thinking about it again and i think?? it holds its own as a 'hey think about THIS' snippet. idk you decide#youre welcome to interpret this as solo bellhands but in my head it Has morphed into sam/izzy/ed/stede#because i cant not put edizzy in things any more. izzy has two hands#i also think the comedy potential of one of your boyfriends HATING your other boyfriend is gold. 10/10 dynamic#stede is mostly along for the ride in this but also i think they need him#aaaaand. the sam/ed bracket i think can only be closed in exceptional circumstances. i think they 'hate' each other too much#...which is WHY someones getting kidnapped!!! yay#anyway its all irrelevant because ill never write it out. i can do silly chill things but thatll require work#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#sam bellamy#bellhands#i wanna also say. the general concept of repeated sam proposals has been floating around my head forever#it used to be a more silly thing like i referenced at the start but. s2 gave me angsty feelings i guess#i cant not have izzy have feelings for ed right now which inherently adds layers to Any bellhands scenarios i think.#but yeah. its a Classic Bellhands vibe for me. sam seeing izzy at sea or on shore and asking him to marry him (again)#i like to do this with jackie too. i think i just want that man to be obnoxiously desired#(theres also layers of my personal hornigold era lore built into this but i hope it holds up without u knowing it. tldr. sam lost izzy by#being an idiot n fumbling the bag. thats what matters. izzy went with ed and sams been trying to fix it ever since)#i probably should have readmore'd this but i didnt think it was Quite long enough. or had a good break point. sorry <3
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Sorry for the lack of posts, have some more headcanons!!
#MYYY self indulgent V headcanon number 234 is that shes a huge fucking dork#i.e she was a huge bookworm as a worker#well she was a dork in general#reading. painting. dancing. all of it#but alot of that. was kinda things she had to leave with the rest of her. when she became a Disassembly Drone.#And while alot of her died in the manor. she still kept some things close.#and one of those things is reading!!!#she cringes at like 90% of what she used to read but still goes out of her way to reread the copies she finds or is given#N usually gives her copies#She acts like she hates it but still reads them alone anyway#theres a reason she has bad eyesight and its because she reads with the book 3 inches from her face in the dark#also Uzi probably makes her read Twilight at some point and laughs the entire time (they both hate it. Uzi just likes messing w/ her)#anyway i just like the idea that in a world where V is finally allowed to start her life again#she looks for the things she loved that she had to leave behind#and finds new joy in them as who she is now#she might not be that little worker anymore#but shes still the girl who loved to curl up in the library when no one would notice. reading any book she could get her hands on.#idk i just like the idea that V deep down is still just a girl who wants to have fun.#i just want her to be HAPPY#anyway do you guys wanna hear why Chappell Roan's “Pink Pony Club” is so V code- (i fall down the stage stairs)#murder drones#serial designation v#serial designation n#uzi doorman#also for context ive never read Pride and Prejudice despite meaning to#its just one of the only actual romance books i know off the top of my head#imean no offense to it. I just like joking abt V reading romance sdkfjkldsjf
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Yk I never did truly recover from the sick fic chapter
#one day im gonna make a post overanalyzing every single frame from this chapter bc its just so good#everything from how confused sakura looks at the idea of them coming to visit him when hes sick#to suo suggesting they leave bc he knows them staying here the now will only make him worse/uncomfortable which is the last thing he needs#bc yeah although he shouldn't and doesnt have to hes used to dealing w/ things like this alone#hes convinced he needs to and thats not smth you can just expect to change from one visit#still i need my hurt/comfort sick fic sequel please and thank you#so we can get a full circle of sakuras character development where he actually lets them help/asks for it#and NO im NOT projecting 🙅♀️#i DONT just wanna see my son getting comforted through his sickness when hes at his most vulnerable nuh uh 🙅♀️🙅♀️🙅♀️#wind breaker#wind breaker spoilers#sakura haruka#ALSO ALL THIS ^^ WITHOUT EVEN MENTIONING THE REASON HES SICK IN THE FIRST PLACE LIKE????#MY SON WAS SO EMOTIONALY CONFLICTED AND CONFUSED THAT HE GAVE HIMSELF A FEVER 😭😭😭😭#ALSO also i seriously cannot get iver how scared he looks in the last panel like ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️#ok im going off in these tags rn i need to stop fr
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read Wayne family adventures and want a more accessible path into comics than a billion issues reading lists?
scared of what you heard about Bruce in comics?
curious as to what duke fans get all huffy about when a new wfa issue comes out?
introducing:
#wayne family adventures#bruce wayne#tim drake#jason todd#duke thomas#here are some more sales pitches:#this is a collected anthology of a lot of duke's appearances as the signal#like yes obv start with we are robin BUT if you want to get Right into the nice mentor&mentee relationship between bruce and duke and thenn#go back and read WAR i underdstand have a nice day#if you only have a little bit of reading time and you wanna understand duke a little better read this#it goes over his training and such with bruce#i think it literally has 4 or 5 issues and includes some of bruce and dukes brain genius thinking (read disasters)#i will make you care about duke thomas or die trying#but just.. please you cannot survive on wfa and fic alone#and bruce and duke's relationship is really nice and mostly healthy#which cannot be said for his relationship with Licherally any other bat#why are you still on tumblr go read it#bread talk
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i swear to god i've seen an exactly equivalent number of posts recently with the premises "it's gross to talk so much about how you wanna fuck trans people, can't you be normal about people you don't wanna fuck" and "it's gross to act like trans people are unfuckable and that we're only attractive as a fetish, actually i'm a girl with a great dick and it's fine" & i'm like. rubs my eyes. maybe the truth is that human experience is varied and different people wish to be desired/perceived/discussed in different ways and what's validating to one person feels yucky to another. maybe if someone's form of validation isn't for you then you don't need to immediately assume the worst faith possible interpretation of their words. i mean this in the most constructive way possible bc i do this too and i frequently look back at assumptions i made and realize i'm insane. Just Because It Felt Bad To You Doesn't Mean It Feels Bad To Everyone.
#and just because it felt bad to you doesn't mean it's inherently bad.#i hate being hit on and desired sexually but as long as ppl go 'oh never mind then' when i say so... it's fine if they wanna smash#as long as theyre not making it my problem. theyre not wrong for wanting to fuck me! just leave me alone about it!#people finding girldick hot are not inherently chasers who only like hyperfemme trans girls &#people not wanting to fuck are not inherently finding a person's body to be lesser/other/gross/etc.#like oh my god. please relax. it's okay. we're on the gay and trans sex and celibacy website
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Culinary appreciation
[First] Prev <--> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#xiao xingchen#lan jingyi#lan sizhui#jin ling#And the mysterious red and green lads! Gosh I hope nothing bad happens to one of them in 6 days.#ouyang zizhen#nameless red disciple#(Note for latecomers: I did not tag Ouyang Zizhen in any of these comics until I made the red vs green poll. Where only one could live.)#I think a lot about how wwx thought about how he'd want to be friends with xxc#then him 'meeting' xxc and trying to save him. With flamin' hot congee.#It's true that many friendships can be forged via food. I have a hunch this one wont turn out so well#Let's give a good round of applause for xue yang for his outstanding performance. He nailed the role of xxc#specifically the fact that xxc if the kind of guy who gets handed dirt 'milkshakes' and leaf potions that children brew and drinks them#Then says he loves it.#I know we still have a day left on the cooking poll but I wanna just say that I think wwx also cooks like he's making dirt and leaf potions#in the sense he cooks by vibes alone and it does not always turn out well for other people#His little moment of throwing shade at the juniors for not knowing what good food (spice tolerance) lives rent free in my brain#sorry to break your confidence king; the one guys who said he liked it was lying to you because he wants something from you.
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at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!
#i have had this stupid fucking rule for myself for years since i was little#''dont speak unless you're spoken to or else something bad will happen. nobody wants to hear what you have to say unless they ask''#I TELL MYSELF THAT ALL THE TIME????#AND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WASNT NORMAL#thats not something that healthy people think to themselves whenever they want to talk to people. they just talk to them#they dont tell themselves not to speak to people for fear of what may happen to them jesus christ spacie#i get so scared when i message anybody ANYTHING#bc everything and anything i wanna talk about feels so stupid why would anyone give a shit#staring at a funny joke i want to send someone for 30 fucking minutes before deleting it b/c my brain is like ''errmm who cares?''#''also they're going to yell at you for wasting their time!!!''#i sent my friend a meme once and had a panic attack (or maybe a flashback?? im still trying to figure out what they are) immediately after#this shit sucks dude. it sucks#at least im processing what happened to me. thats why it hurts so bad rn its been stockpiled for like.#2 decades#im not looking for any sympathy here im just putting it out there#so that anybody who feels the same way i do know they're not alone#ive been struggling everyday for like 2 months now (actually DEFINITELY longer)#it will get better. things just need to be taken one step at a time#i have gotten thru my worst days i have a 100% success rate#how many days have i been alive#7930#lightwork#lets keep it goin#vent#trauma tw#trauma mention#wrote this post thru a flashback btw!! dealing with them is getting easier#before i would be unable to function for days at a time!!!#with one of the most recent ones i had i was so in the thick of it i avoided everyone i knew for a week cuz i was convinced#i was an evil unlovable freak that only wanted to hurt people
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Trolls Band Together Spoilers
(Clay and Bruce trying their best)
One thing I’ve been dying to talk about are the little ways Bruce and a lay take care of their other siblings and why.
It’s all in the little stuff! Like I am of the belief that Bruce and Clay are so close is because they could only really find solidarity in each other. Growing up no one liked how JD pushed them to be perfect, but Bruce and Clay were the only ones who felt pushed in a box, they were the only ones who got angry.
Floyd was always the peace maker and Branch was a baby so the only ones who understood their anger was each other.
Clay and Bruce always have each others backs, but I wanna talk about how they take care of baby Branch.
Like when Branch is listening to the broad cast with Velvet and Veeneer, Bruce notices Branch’s worry and turns off the radio. (Bruce also carried around Tiny bc he is a true dad.)
During the ‘It takes two’ song, Branch pulls out his blue prints and John Dory immediately pushes Branch out of the way to take control and you can see Clay and Bruce wince like they know it’s a bad idea before Clay pulls John away for the transition shot.
Not to mention Clay and Bruce seem so unironically excited to see Baby Branch that they side like JD, and I know that was probably because they’re still on weird terms with JD, but I don’t think their happiness to see BB was only for pettiness sake.
Maybe there’s some stuff I missed because I only saw the movie once and I looked down at some points to take notes so may haps I missed some back ground stuff but if there is please tell me!
#trolls spoilers#trolls band together#dreamworks trolls#I like calling Branch Baby Branch I’m sorry#trolls bruce#trolls clay#trolls Branch#trolls john dory#I Wanna go more into depth abt how JD became a parent child and how that affected his relationship with his brothers#BECAUSE ITS SO INTERESTING PLEASE#Like the concept of how these siblings grew apart but do deeply care for each other means so much#Floyd was probably the one who was there for Branch the most!#Bruce and Clay felt a bond bc they both were in happy!#JD felt alone because of his position and even tried to go back to see Branch and Rosiepuff only to think that they died!!!#Thats sick and twisted!!!!#They all still treat branch like a baby bc they never saw him grow up!!!#except for Floyd who’s the emotional intelligence of the brothers#and bruce only had smaller children so he doesn’t know how to take his baby brother growing up
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I'm so annoyed. @kingcrow01 tumblr ate your ask about Danny's opinion on the League. tumblr i pressed 'save draft' why didn't you sAVE DRAFT.
ANyways I'm making a post instead. For everyone else, the ask was in summary:
What was Danny's opinion on the League now that he's left it? If he missed the familiarity of it, if he recognized the cult-like behavior inside it, and if he now detested his grandfather.
And to answer (again, grrr): It's complicated! We love complicated <3. Yeah, Danny does miss the familiarity of the League, it was still his home for the first ten years of his life and he has a lot of memories there. Plenty of good along with the bad, and while he's less homesick than he was when he was 10, it still hits him like a truck at random intervals.
Sam, Tucker, and Jazz are great, and he likes the Drs. Fentons enough that he's contemplated murdering Vlad for his meddling, but if he wants to eat the same food his mother used to make him and Damian, he has to do it himself and he can't get the taste right. No one knows arabic so he speaks it to himself because he doesn't want to forget his mother tongue, and he has a few books too. Frankly? He genuinely misses training.
Getting to use Sam's gym helps with his restlessness, same with training with Maddie, but he has no one on or above his level to go against other than his mother. And he only sees her twice a year at most. He knows that he's getting stagnant and he fucking despises it like a bad itch he can't scratch.
He feels conflicted about missing the League, however, since by now he recognizes the flaws and what was wrong with it, and he recognizes that it was cult-like. But even that is kinda, hrm, complicated? If this was a fic I would be able to go better into depth about what he has and hasn't unlearned because cult deprogramming is hard and Danny's doing most of this on his own.
Sam, Tucker, and Jazz have helped with the more obvious stuff: like the ecofascism, the disregard for human life, his emotional constipation; the more obvious stuff that shows in his behavior and personality. But none of them are professionals nor do they actually know the full extent of what Danny's life in the League was like. They only have snapshots since Danyal is very tight lipped about it. So they can only help with what they see themselves through Danny's behavior or word of mouth.
But in summary: He sees, for the most part, what's wrong with the League and disagrees with some of the stuff they do now. But he's very conflicted, and trying to dissect his feelings on the League confuses him. His protests about it whenever Sam and Tucker joke about it have at this point become mostly empty (altho it still causes him some discomfort), and its an inside joke between them three.
As for Ra's? Despises him. If only because Ra's wanted him to kill his little brother -- thinking about his motives with the League confuses Danny, cognitive dissonance and stuff, -- a lot of his hatred stems from "He wanted me to fight my baby brother to the death. I destroyed my relationship with Damian because of him, I had to fake my death and leave my home, and I will never meet my father or see my brother again because of him. Fuck that guy."
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#danyal al ghul au#starry asks#demon siblings au#danny's opinions on the league is rather complicated but he knows that some of the stuff that happened inside was wrong. and while he's#always known that his upbringing wasn't normal -- and he took pride in that -- its only in recent years that he's learned that#this was a *bad* thing. that his upbringing was wrong. he's still kinda grappling with that.#danny's homesickness hits the worst when he's patching himself up from a ghost fight alone. stitching up his throat in his ghost form when#he gets hit with a deep child-like grief and the unwitting 'i wanna go home'. he's exhausted and sad and hurting and fucking *tired*#good mom talia al ghul supremacy. she's trying her best.#but yeah sam and tucker did a lot of good for Danny by becoming his friend. he's a lot better off than he would've been if he remained alon#'a child not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth' type of stuff. danny's aware of this and is incredibly grateful#for sam and tucker. and as a result can and will get violently protective. his moral code on killing can be summed up as: i dont kill bc i#value human life and it's inconvenient. but i will do it without remorse if i must.#vlad is only still alive because he's incompetent. but the ice is thin#catch me about to make an incorrect quotes post about this au. i am so close.
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