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Hiii, saw you wanted some requests for Sevika and I've had this idea bubbling up for a while. Imagine Vika with a reader that's normally experienced, yk has fucked one or two people before and it's not a sex god, and they're growing insecure about sevika never starting intimacy even after months of dating, so they think it's because they're not as good as the girl's she's been with before. Idk just thought that'd be good
I'm kind of obsessed with this, ngl. This isn't the first smut that I've written but it is the first smut that I've posted on here so feedback is always appreciated. Y'all will never guess... it's not proofread. Again. Enjoy my lovelies! X
Warnings: Smut (obviously), mild angst but nothing too horrible, mentions of body image issues but readers body type isn't specified or described.
Fem reader, of course, with female genitalia.
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At first, you didn't think anything of it. She probably just wanted to take things slow with you. You weren't as experienced as her so she probably wanted to take her time.
That made sense for a while.
But now, after eight months together, you haven't had sex once. More importantly, she hasn't initiated it.
Realistically, you know that it's fine. There's plenty of reasons as to why nothing has happened so far. But that voice in the back of your head is doing a fantastic job of convincing you otherwise.
Sevika was kind of a sex symbol before you two got together.
She'd been with countless women, she was a regular at Babbettes. Her name was uttered on the streets like a sacred prayer.
You, on the other hand, have only been with two people: your ex, and a drunken one night stand that was less than satisfactory. So you did have sexual experience, but not nearly as much as her.
Honestly, it's starting to worry you.
Did she not like you? Was she not physically attracted to you? Was there something wrong with your body? Were you not showing enough skin?
Thoughts plagued your mind night and day. You were stuck in constant turmoil. It was impossible to stop your own brain once it got going.
It was taking everything in you to focus on the stove and not burn dinner.
You flinch at the sound of the door closing. Heavy footsteps sound through the house, approaching the kitchen.
Sevikas thick arms wrap around your midsection, her face making home in the side of your neck. For a long time, she doesn't say anything. The only sounds come from the meat sizzling in your pan. Moments like this make it easier to not think about the painful lack of aw sex life between you two.
Her lips purse, pressing small kisses against your skin. She hums against your neck.
"What are you cooking doll?" Her voice is muffled against your flesh but you understand her all the same.
"Spaghetti." You feel her smile.
"My favorite.." She mumbles. You hum a small "Mhm" before focusing back on the seasoned beef and water you're waiting for to boil. Her arms tighten ever so slightly, one hand slipping under your shirt. Her thumb caresses your bare skin.
It should be sweet but it really just drives the nail into the coffin for you.
Your voice comes out before you can stop it.
"Why won't you have sex with me?" You regret it the moment it leaves your mouth.
"I- woah, what? Doll what do you mean?" She honestly sounds baffled.
"Forget I said anything, please. It doesn't matter."
Her hands gently grab your shoulders, turning you around.
"No way. What are you talking about?"
You shake your head. "It's stupid.."
"It's not stupid if it's bothering you." She reassures you.
"It's just, we've been together for eight months, and we practically live together. But we haven't done anything. I know you don't have an issue having sex because half the undercity talks about how good you are and I just don't understand. Is there something wrong with me? Am I not appealing to yo-" Your rant is cut off by her lips. Her hands are holding you like glass, one on your cheek, one curled around your hip.
"There is nothing wrong with you." Her voice comes out as a soft whisper. "I'm sorry I made you feel like there was. I just knew that you don't have as much experience as I do. I didn't want you to feel rushed, or forced."
"Rushed? No, you could never.. I thought you just didn't want me that way." She immediately shakes her head. She kisses you again, more urgently this time.
Her hands grab anywhere they can, pulling you in. They're on your hips, waist, groping your ass.
"I do want you." Then they're picking you up and lifting you on the counter. "Let me show you how much I want you?" All you can do is nod as her lips trail down your neck. Her touch dances over your body, removing your top.
Her mouth follows soon after, sucking dark bruises into the skin on your neck and chest. She takes a nipple in her mouth and swirls her tongue around it. A low whimper leaves your mouth at the new, but not unpleasant, sensation.
Her right hand copies her tongue's motions on the other, pinching and pulling. Your body trembles against the counter with need.
She moves away from your breasts, kissing and licking down your stomach to your navel. Her hands unbutton your pants. She looks up at you as she lowers herself to her knees, silently asking for permission. You nod your head. You don't trust your voice. Your pants are off in seconds and thrown somewhere in the kitchen that you'll worry about later.
Her hand splays across your stomach and gently pushes you to lay against the tile. It's cold against your bare and burning skin, your back arching off of it but she keeps your hips pinned down.
You gasp as her teeth nip at the skin of your thigh. A breathy laugh leaves her.
"Shut up.." You mutter.
"Didn't say anything."
Your eyes roll in fake annoyance but you don't get the chance to reply as the cold air hits your bare cunt. Her thumbs pull your lips apart, admiring the sight before her.
"Fuck doll, you're so wet. All of this for me?" Her voice is husky between your legs and it stirs something delicious in your belly.
"Yes, all for you Sev.." She chuckles. Her teeth take the hem of your panties and drag them down your legs. She kisses your hips and navel, sucking hickies and marking you as hers.
"Please, Vika. Need you.." You whine. You can't bring yourself to care about how desperate you sound. You're sure that you look even more so from her position.
It seems, though, that your prayers have been answered because as soon as the words leave your mouth hers is back on you. This time it's between your legs.
She licks a long stripe up your pussy before stopping to suck your clit into her mouth. A loud moan reverberates from your chest as you lean your head back into the counter. Her tongue kitten licks at the bud before suckling on it like shes trying to nurse herself.
You've had people eat you out before but never this well. You don't think it could get better than this.
She moves down, opting to fuck you with her tongue instead. You definitely understand the appeal now. You've given yourself plenty of orgasms but this is the fastest one has risen before.
She feels it in the way you clench around her tongue and moves back to your clit. Her fingers fill up the now empty space, fucking into you in a gently but rough way only she could manage.
She's eating you like a woman starved and with the lack of sex the two of you have had she may as well be. If you didn't know better you might think this is her last meal.
Gasps and whimpers leave your mouth in a desperate way you can't stop.
"Fuck Sev.. ngh~ m'gonna cum, please.."
She smirks against you once more, speeding up her ministrations.
"Come on my tongue baby, make a mess on me." Her voice is muffled against you cunt, vibrations travel through your clit with her words.
You last maybe thirty seconds longer, hand tangled in her hair, before releasing over her tongue.
She laps you up, milking you for all that you're worth. She's never tasted anything more delicious. Her mouth doesn't let up until your whimpering from the overstimulation and pushing her head away.
She looks you in the eye as she sucks her fingers clean before kissing back up your body. Her lips lock onto yours and you can still taste yourself on her tongue. It makes your head spin in a way you've never felt before.
When you come back to earth, her hand is running through your hair.
"I'm sorry I made you believe that I didn't want to do that." She mumbles. "But now I may need it to be a daily thing." You giggle at her words.
"It's okay. I wouldn't mind honestly." She helps you sit up, a large hand cupping your cheek. "You didn't get to cum.." You whisper as you lean in closer.
"Don't worry about me, I'll get my fill later." The look on her face tells you that this isn't over. "I'm going to change out of these clothes. You just worry about dinner okay?" She slips your panties back on along with your shirt.
You nod, sliding off the counter. You wince at the mess you made but she's already wiping it up. Her lips meet your temple as she mutters a low, "I love you."
"I love you more." She shakes her head, chuckling before walking back to her room. You feel much better now, and you really can't wait for what she meant by "later".
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Grumpy - Head coach (aka manager)! Leah x arsenal! r
Summary: Reader messes up on her first day at Arsenal, and Leah, being her usual grumpy self, doesnât make things any easier.
Warnings: A bit of angst + McCabe walking in on R and L in a rather awkward moment.
Word count: 2.6k
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This is a new universe I'm writing about, so just let me know if you guys enjoy it and if you have any requests! <3
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Leah Williamson became a living legend after leading the Lionesses to yet another win in the Euros 2025 as the team captain and a defender. Unfortunately, for her, 2025 was the last year she played as a professional footballer, having suffered a career-ending injury at the end of the season.
Leah was completely distraught when she got the news. She isolated herself from everyone she knew, finding it hard to discover another purpose in life. That was, until Leahâs formal coach, Serina, stepped in and invited the blonde to some coffee in North London.
âI think I know what would help you,â Serina said, taking a sip of her cappuccino.
âAre you going to give me a new knee?â Leah asked, a hint of madness in her voice. Everybody thought they could help her, but in reality, half of her friends couldnât even understand what was going on inside her head.
Sarina ignored Leahâs mood. âBelgium has one of the best coaching center in the world. I went there, RenĂ©e too. If you could get a coaching certificate, you could start working as an assistant, or as a youth coach at Arsenal. Youâve been there since you were a kid, and with your history Arsenalâs management would be mad not to give you a chance.â
âCoach?â
âWhy not? You have a football brain, you have good leadership, people trust you. You are a full package,â Sarina responded. âJust think about it, will you?â
Sarina left the coffee shop, leaving a contemplative Leah behind.
..
âIf you need anything, you have my number.â RenĂ©eâs voice echoed through Arsenalâs training grounds.
It was RenĂ©eâs last day as the head coach. Three years ago, Leah went to Brussels and got her coaching certificate. It wasnât as hard as she thought it would be.
She was already very keen on football. After eight months of entering the Coach Academy, Leah was ready to start a new chapter of her life: assistant manager of Arsenal, alongside Renée.
The whole time Leah spent as RenĂ©eâs assistant was very productive. Leah learned a lot from the older woman, but Leah couldnât wait to the day she would be officially named Head Coach, aka Manager. As an assistant, Leah had some type of power to make strategic changes during a match and give her two cents on matters of hiring new players, but still wasnât enough.
Leah promised herself she wouldnât stop until she became the manager of Arsenal women. She would build her dream team and be the best manager she could be.
And thatâs what Leah did.
RenĂ©e decided to retire, and Arsenal agreed to sign Leah Williamsonâthe ex-captain of England Nacional team and Gunner-bornâto their team.
âI have everything under control, RenĂ©e. You know Iâve been wanting your manager position for a long time.â Leah said with a smirk. âThe only thing you have to worry about is your wife and daughter, alright, mate? Youâve already done a lot for arsenal.â
Both Leah and RenĂ©e were wearing Arsenalâs matching outfits. They had just left a small farewell party on the Arsenalâs event room; almost all players were there to say their goodbyes to RenĂ©e, and of course, welcome Leah into her new position.
âStill, Williamson, if you need any help, tips or even a friendly shoulder, just know that Iâm here,â RenĂ©e insisted. The older woman was carrying a box in her arms, the outside having Once a gunner, always a gunner written on it.
Leah stared at the box, she had seen RenĂ©e packing things up in her office earlier that day, carefully putting pictures, books and even newspapers articles about Arsenal inside the container. It being full meant that Leahâs new office was officially ready for her to take in.
Both women walked through the front door of the Arsenal Training Grounds, and a cold breeze met Leah in the face, making the women shivered. RenĂ©e looked at the busy street ahead of her until she pointed to a black Audi A3. âThatâs mine, guess Iâll go then,â RenĂ©e said, a bittersweet smile on her face.
Before RenĂ©e could walk, Leah gave her a hug. âThank you for everything, If I ever need you, Iâll give you a call.â
RenĂ©e hugged the blonde woman back before heading to her car. Before she could open the driverâs door she turned to Leah.
âDonât forget about the new girl coming in tomorrow, Leah. Youâll have to show her around and everything, plus sheâs not from the UK, soââ
âRenĂ©e donât worry!  Y/n is coming tomorrow at 9am, I have everything planned out,â Leah rolled her eyes playfully.
Leah watched as the ex-Arsenal manager got into the car and left.
Leah Williamson. New Head Manager, now official.
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Leah thought her first day as Manager would be unfazed. What could go wrong? It was her first day of manager, of course, but it wasnât like she was completely new to it. The team hadnât changed much compared to last season, aside from Y/n, the newest Arsenal player.
And Y/n was exactly what made Leahâs day go wrong.
It was 9:37 am and the girl was nowhere to be seen.
Leah was waiting alongside the media team to greet and get to know Y/n officially for the first time. Leah didnât participate a lot in Y/nâs hiring; it was mostly RenĂ©e doing the work of checking her statistics and all the bureaucracy of recruiting someone from another country. Leah didnât even agree with RenĂ©e at first, she couldnât see why Arsenal needed another defender.
âArsenal needs a sweeper,â RenĂ©e had argued during one of their meetings. âSomeone who is faster, logical but not aggressive. This kid Y/n is great for the position.â
âLeah, we really to get going, we need to take solo photos of the players, maybe when Y/n gets here we can try to make a small welcoming video, or something,â Clarice, the media director said as she looked at her watch. âI mean she is very late, and we have so much to doââ
âYeah, of course, Clarice, you all can go. If she arrives, Iâll give you a call,â Leah said, impatience clear in her voice
How can someone be late for their first day of training? It was clear to Leah that Y/n didnât care so much about being the priciest Arsenal hiring in the last 10 years since she didnât worry about actually coming to training.
Leah walked around, tapping her foot against the pavement. 5 minutes. Leah would wait 5 more minutes and if Y/n wasnât here, she would go inside, into her office and let the new girl fend for herself. Leah was busy and she needed to watch a bunch of matches to study Arsenalâs future opponents, but instead she was here waiting for this girl like a fool.
9:42am.
Leah turned around, heading to the door. feeling stupid about waiting on someone who was not coming. Â
Before Leah stepped into the building, she felt a warm hand on her shoulder and turned around slowly, not enjoying the non-welcoming physical touch. Leah locked eyes with a girl.
Y/n.
Leah, for some reason, was expecting to find the girl in full footballer mode, perhaps with her hair tied back, or dirty clothing from and intense match, but Leah was not expecting to find a very⊠cute girl instead. Leah had only watched the videos RenĂ©e sent of Y/n on the pitch, so she was rather surprised to see the new girl didnât naturally have grass all over her hair.
Y/n was wearing what looked to be five layers of clothing, and a coat which was way too big for her. She was wearing very inappropriate shoes for the light layer of snow accumulation on the floor. It was like Y/n didnât know how to dress for cold weather.
Before Leah could blink, the new girl began rambling.
âI am so, so sorry, maâam,â Y/n quavered, taking her hand off of Leahâs shoulder as she watched the frown on Leahâs face form. âSo, you see, my cat ran away, and I had to chase after him and that took me twenty minutes, and then I took the wrong tubeââ.â
âYou are late,â Leah said before taking a last glance at the girl and getting inside. âDonât let it happen again.â
Leah heard the girl walking behind her, the squeakiness of her shoes making Leah even more angry.
âI-Iâm sorry, and of course, it wonât happen again, maâamâ Y/n apologized, looking down at her feet.
Today was supposed to be a good day, Y/n thought. She had written down on her planner everything she needed to do in order to get to the club in time. She had printed the map of the Tube so she could get around easily and not get lost, but of course it didnât work out and now her new manager was clearly pissed at her. Â
And of course, the women angry at her had to be THE Leah Willianson, one of the most skillful defender of all time and one of Y/nâs biggest inspirations.
Great Y/n, just great. When Y/n thought things couldnât get worse, she heard Leah snap.
âAnd donât call me maâam.â
..
Y/n was trying to see the bright side of this situation. She was in a new country, had her own apartment, she had signed with one of the best teams in the league right now, but she just couldnât shake the feeling of Leahâs harsh treatment against her.
Now, laying in her bed after her horrible day, Y/n could recap every bad interaction she had with Leah, which was, unfortunately, all of them, but it seemed Y/n just had the talent to make everything worse.
âThis is the locker and the changing room. You can grab that one on the left,â Leah pointed at one of the lockers, with no identification on its door. âBasic rules: donât let your clothes or boots lying around, lock your locker and just keep tidy. I hope can do that.â
Y/n hated Leah's tone. It was like the manager wanted to be everywhere else in the world but here with her. But she couldnât blame Leah, she wouldnât enjoy it if somebody kept her waiting for almost 50 minutes.
âLook, Iâm really sorry about what happened earlier,â Y/n mumbled, following Leah through the corridors. She didnât know where they were going. Maybe the kit room? âIâm normally very punctual.â
âHm,â Leah said, sounding indifferent.
Maybe Y/n was going to cry on her first day after all.
Leah took a turn on the corridor and both women were in front of a white door, âMedical Roomâ written on it.
The room was fairly normal, having a couple of physios and massage tables. It looked like the place hadnât been used today, since the tables were all made. A few Pilates objects were scattered around, making the room seem more lived in.
What really caught Y/nâs attention were the photos on the wall. Y/n took a step closer to the wall, leaving Leah behind her.
There was Kyra and Alessia smiling, both receiving massages from an older woman, whom Y/n guessed was the physiotherapist. Kim Little was right next to the girlsâ pictures, wearing an air cast and using a crutch.
Vivianne Miedema and Beth Mead laying on a massage table, holding hands as they smiled for the picture. âACL couple #1â, written just below it.
Next to it was a picture of Leah, a few years younger â maybe she was Y/nâs age â running in her arsenal kit. âLeahâs first run after ACLâ, written in the same way as Vivianne and Bethâs photo.
Y/n felt her heart ached for Leah. Y/n was young, but she remembered how the football world was talking about how much Leah was trying to be back after her ACL tear during the Euros. She did everything available, every new therapy, and nothing worked. Sure, she could walk and even run for small periods of time, but Leah would never come back to football again.
Y/n wondered how Leah felt having to look at that picture every day.
âThis is obviously the physio room,â Leah said, breaking the awkward silence that had formed. âIâll email you the medical staffs âscheduled. if you ever need anything, you can just talk to them.â
When Y/n turned around to talk to Leah, she didnât expect the blonde to be so close to her. Their bodies bumped together, making Y/n lose her balance and, if things werenât bad enough, she stepped right into one of the exercise objects on the floor.
Y/n closed her eyes and waited for the impact of her head on the wall, but Leah was faster, holding her waist with one hand and her head with the other.
Y/n held her breath, feeling Leahâs torso against her, well, as much as she could considering she was wearing seven layers of clothing.
Y/n opened her eyes, meeting Leahâs gaze just for a second. Both women seemed like a deer caught in headlights.
âHey Mary could you see my kneeââ
Y/n and Leah were met with Katie McCabe, her green eyes staring at the two women in confusion.
âAm I interrupting something?â Katie said. Y/n could swear she heard teasing in the Irish womenâs voice.
âWhat?! No, of course not.â Leah blurted, taking her hands off of Y/nâs body abruptly, if it wasnât for Y/n year of balance training, she would have fallen again, thatâs for sure. âI was just showing Y/nâs physio room, but Mary wasnât even here soâŠâ Leah seemed defensive now, looking everywhere but at Y/n or Katie.
âShe almost fell,â Leah continued, overexplaining herself. âShe tripped on this thing,â Leah lightly kicked the equipment, it was just a rubber ball. Y/n would laugh if Leah didnât seemed so nervous all of the sudden. âYou know I hate when things are left lying around.â
âLeah.â
âYeah?â
âYou are rambling,â Katie said making the blonde close her mouth.
âWhy donât you go do some manager things and Iâll finish the tour with her, yeah? Itâs Y/n, right?â Katie offered her hand to Y/n, shaking it firmly. âIâm Katie.â
âHi, yeah Iâm Y/n, so sorry this is how we met,â Y/n said, looking down. âGuess Iâll just go with her, if that okayâ.â
âMore than okay,â Leah mumbled. âBye, McCabe, Iâll see you at training.â Before Y/n or Katie could responded, Leah had already left the room, a frown on her face.
Katie was a way better host than Leah, showing all the places in the facility without making the young girl feel like a chore. The Irish woman couldnât help but notice that Y/n wasnât as happy as new players usually were when they first visited the club, so Katie asked what had happened.
âShe hates me,â Y/n confessed to as soon as they get to the pitch, the last place on the tour.
âWho?â
âLeah.â Y/n mumbled âI was late earlier, and everything went south after that. I donât know how Iâm gonna get her to like me.â
Katie placed a comfortable hand on Y/nâs shoulder. âShe doesnât hate you, she is just grumpy like that, Leah doesnât like when things donât go the way she planned, sheâll come around.â
âDo you really think so?â
âOf course, itâs your first time at Arsenal, but it's also Leahâs first time as our manager. She never had a new player before; you are her first. RenĂ©e was the one handling the greetings and initial meetings with the players. Leah will understand that other people donât always react in a way she expected.â
Y/n hoped Katie was right.
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hello!! Can you write a headcanons/oneshot post of (separate) ticci toby, eyeless jack, and/or jane the killer dating a piercing obsessed! Reader? Ppl always say lots of piercings r unattractive :(( but omgg i love ppl with lots of piercings, theyre so lovely! Thank youu:D
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: ÌÌâ Piercing!Reader x Shared Headcanons
(Toby, Jack, Jane)
Summary: GN!Reader with love for piercings/having multiple being in a relationship with Toby, Jack and Jane. How would they react?
Warning(s): None! Mostly just fluff, FEM & TRANSF in mind for Jane
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ă»â„ă» Toby
First of all, Toby himself is covered in a lot of facial piercings so he is not one to judge! He loves piercings, especially on himself (egotistical asshole knows how sexy he is), so if you love them just as much him, he immediately just yaps with you
Do not trust him to give you one.
Now if you really like piercings but hate needles? He definitely bullies you about it some but understands. Since he canât feel pain he can feel a lot of the pressures/intrusions that the pain usually covers up and it can weird him out
He plays with your piercings like a lot. Mostly nervous fidgeting type things
OMG DO YOU HAVE TO STAY ONTOP OF HIM IF HE GETS A NEW ONE, he is so bad at taking care of them himself but heâs so good about taking care of yours. Little weirdo
Now, Toby can be mean during fights so sometimes if heâs close enough heâll twist one. Petty little shit. But he is quick to apologize, he just likes winning arguments
ă»â„ă»Jack
Jack like.. literally cannot see. So he genuinely just thinks your piercings are apart of you. Like he really doesnât remember things of humans and so he completely forgot about minuscule things like piercings
He does like licking them tho, that nice metal taste
Weirdo.
Once you actually explain it heâs a little perplexed. Since heâs an apex predator usually they associate things like anything piercing you as hindrance to hunts
But whatever makes you happy!
Since Jack does live in a lot of holes/caves you probably are gonna wanna let your piercings heal a lot or just clean them a lot more so the dust and dirt doesnât infect/irritate them
If you wanna give Jack piercings well.. itâs gonna have to be like a really protected spot. Heâs running around and climbing lots of trees not to mention how many people actually do try fighting a 6â10 demon..creatureâŠthingy. So you donât want him getting hurt
That and his healing factor literally is just too good at its job. Damn powers. But hey you can get those little fake ones! Heâll try to keep them on butâŠ
ă»â„ă»Jane
Again! She doesnât judge. She thinks theyâre pretty cool, now she canât have any cause.. well.. sheâs a little crispy but! She will wear matching fake ones with you
Definitely best person to get a nice piercing with as she helps you clean and stay on top of them
She bought you a little machine thingy to clean them for you<3
She does actually have her ears pierced but she canât wear them for long any more :(
She is also stupidly good at finding missing earrings, piercings and jewelry like omg. Like I mean fucking assassinâs creed eagle vision type shit
Sheâs good in general at findings things really
Omg does she love kissing your piercings <3 she especially likes nose piercings, JANE IS A NOSE KISSER IDC WHAT ANYONE SAYS
my romantical wife<3
She will buy rings and necklaces to match your piercings too! Sheâs pierced with you in spirit ya know
: ÌÌâ hehe i loved this. I gotta write Jane and the others their own general headcanons soon, Iâm just lazy. Also tell me why Chapter 3 is not plotting how I want it too like come on brain work, anyways I loved this little ask! I have got to start writing more of other characters too I have like⊠18 drafts of all sorts of shit. Impulsive writing â Ace
#creepypasta headcanons#creepypasta x reader#ticci toby x reader#creepypasta ticci toby#ticci toby#eyeless jack x reader#creepypasta#eyeless jack#creepypasta eyeless jack#jane the killer#jane the killer x reader#creepypasta jane the killer
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Childhood best friends to lovers, i love this concept a little too much and got carried away lol <33
Sheâd never know, at least thatâs what he convinced himself of.
Sheâd never know that she was like a breath of fresh air after drowning for hours, that she was like the first bit of light rising up in the morning, that she was like the feeling of warmth when getting praised, that talking to her was like hearing his favorite song for the first time again, that her laugh was engraved in his brain and he could hear it even when she wasnât around, that her presence radiated light that seeped right into his bones, that seeing her was like a shot of espresso immediately waking every nerve in his system, that her smile gleamed with such brightness it could light up the whole world in an eternal darkness, that her eyes said so much more than anything she had ever said, that she was a perfectly aligned harmony when everything else was out of tune.
Sheâd never know, but he did.
She lived within him; His whole life had been reduced to her.
âWow Art, this is really good!â his literature teacher spoke as she read his paper, âyâknow, if the whole tennis thing doesnât work out, you could be the next big writer, I mean it.â
For his literature class, as a âcreative exploration exerciseââhis teacher calls itâthey had been assigned to write a paper on someone of something which they could understand as unrequited love, of course he had chosen you, because what better example than you and Art.
You and Art have known each other since diapers due to your parents being best friends from their college days up to the present day, which sort of brought the two of you together one way or another, but you wouldnât have it any other way, and neither would art.
Growing you with you mightâve been one of the best things he has ever been able to experience, he wishes people could actually get to feel what its like to be shined on by your light, for him, it truly is unearthly every time.
Sure, you two had distance shoved in your faces when he went to MRTA, but when he returned home for breaks, it was like nothing changed, it was just you and Art.
And of course as cliché as it may be, the inevitable happened, Art began to fall in love with you.
At first, he tried to convince himself that it was just the affection he had for his best friend, but he had no way to deny it. From the second he stopped just seeing you, but when he started seeing you.
He could try to blame it on his hormones and being a teenager, but everything else contradicted that.
In the summer, seeing you in your two-piece swimsuit didnât seem the same, especially since you had started to grow into your big girl body, as his nana said.
At Christmas when he saw you walk into the living room dressed as Cindy Lou who from shoes to hair, with a goofy smile, but why did it make him blush? You seemed the same, you did this every year.
Patrick mocked him for having a small picture of the two of you in his wallet, but he didnât care, whenever he was having a bad day, or missed home, heâd look at the picture, instantly erasing anything that disturbed his thoughts.
But youâd never know that. And he was okay with that. For the most part.
A couple of weeks he went back home for spring break, he was feeing at ease, heâd see his parents, his nana, andâŠyou.
âArtie! My sweet boy!â his grandmother called out as he walked out of the car to the front porch with a suitcase in his hand, and a wide smile. His grandmother ran up to him wrapping her arms around him, her warmth immediately transferring to his skin, he was home.
âNana, hey, howâve you been?â he spoke with a sweet tone as he hugged her back. Sure, tennis was his whole life, but coming back home felt like a weight was lifted off his back, he doesnât have to be THE Art Donaldson, he was justâŠArt.
âYou look so tired baby boy, let me take your bags, go take a showerâ his nana said as she shut the door behind her.
âNana, seriously donât worryââ
âWill you just let me take care of you while youâre here? Youâve gotta do all this yourself at school, but not here Artieâ and well, there isnât much arguing with nana Donaldson, itâs just how itâs been his whole life.
After his shower, Art walked in his room with a calm breath and loose muscles, how he needed that warm shower, as he walked over to his bag, which was placed next to the window he began to look for some clothes.
He wasnât one to feel prying eyes on him but by reflex, Art lifted his head as he looked through the window, it was you.
You covered your mouth clearly giggling as he looked down at himself completely naked only covered by a towel wrapped around his waist, âfuck meâ he muttered as he looked up once again but now face completely flushed and the tips of his ears burning red.
He waved awkwardly as he pulled the curtains closed feeling flustered, he wanted to get his mind off of her, so he said, howâs that going? Not great.
His nana looked up as he came downstairs with a puzzled expression, your name left his lips.
âWhat about her?â She asked as she left a plated grilled cheese in front of him.
âWhy didnât you tell me she was home for the break?â She laughed, why is she laughing?
âSweetie, I thought it was obvious, she always come back home for breaksâ she shook her head as she smiled playfully, âthough, I think thereâs something about her being here that bothers youâ
âWhatâ no, no, it doesnât bother me, I justâ wouldâve expected something else, I donât knowâ
âYou sure?â She slid the paper across the counter with delicacy, âare you absolutely sure baby?â
âNana! I told you to stop snooping, come on!â He said taking the paper as quickly as possible, could this day get any worse?
âOne, I wasnât snooping, it fell out of your backpack, and two, Artie, you know you can tell me anything, right?â He lowered his head ever so slightly as he grabbed the sandwich to then take a bite.
âI know.â He said once he swallowed, she leaned against the counter with curious eyes.
âSheâs good, sheâs smart, and really talented, did you hear she put out a song?â He lifted his brows in surprise, you really had picked music, over psychology, huhâŠ
âHuhâŠwell thatâs great, Iâm sure sheâll do great with all thatâ his nana scoffed as she muttered a small âartâŠâ with a warning tone, âwhat? I mean itâ
âYou gotta give me more than that after that thing you wrote, Art, I taught you better than this.â
âI justâ! I donât know what to say, Nana, thatâs the problem. Not to you, not to Patrick and most definitely not to herâ he spilled, fiddling nervously with his hands, âIâd screw our friendship, one sided feelings arenât worth risking years of trust.â
âWell you never know Artie, sometimes holding onto those feelings is painful, even if something is on the line, it isnât worth it if youâre hurtingâ she was right, but Art would never say that out loud, this was all too much for him.
âItâs justâŠitâs not easyâ
âWell my boy, no one said love was easy, and sometimes, just sometimes, the most complicated loves, are the most beautiful onesâ he listened intently as he finished off the grilled cheese, she was right, maybe all he needed to do was tell her.
You had to know.
So there he was at 2:34 a.m throwing small pebbles at your window, just like he did years ago to then go the skate park at midnight and sit at the top of the ramps while you talked till sunrise.
âStop throwing rocks Donaldson, youâll wake the dogâ you came out the door in pjs but wrapped in a jacket, he turned with a confused expression âI came running down when I felt the first two rocksâ you laughed softly as you blushed slightly, God you missed this.
Itâs like being kids all over again.
âSo howâs tennis and all, Mr. Stanford?â You asked as you swung your hanging feet off the ramp.
âYâknow tennis is the same always, trust me, you donât careâ he laughed as he shook his head, âbut Stanford is nice, just not the same without you and Patrick on my ass all the timeâ
âAh, of course, because thatâs the biggest change youâve had since we were kids up to todayâ you rolled your eyes as you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.
âYeahâŠâ he chuckled dryly as he looked away, could he be more obvious, goddamn.
âWhat?â
âNoâ no, itâs nothingâ he insisted.
âArt I know you, itâs not nothing, whatâs up?â You pushed as he looked up at the sky biting his lip while humming, âArt?â
âHm?â He turned to look at you again, you lifted a brow silently asking once again, âahâŠIâ I love youâ he blurted out unable to stop himself.
You opened your mouth but nothing came out.
âI have since the summer you turned fifteen, you justâ you kinda started to seem different to me, and Iâ I fell in love with you.â He sighed, âand I know timing sucks and itâs gonna make things weird, but if I didnât tell you, it would eat me alive, yâknow itâs been so longââ his rambling got cut off as your lips crashed onto his almost immediately.
His body tensed up completely, the feeling of your lips foreign to his, but so familiar at the same time, the reality was better than any dream he had ever managed to build up in his mind, your plump lips tasting faintly like cherry lip gloss, he was most likely dreaming, he thought, cause there is no way he had told you how he felt, and even less probabilities of him kissing you.
As you pulled away, he found himself instinctively following you with parted lips and eyes shut, he was so high with your mere presence, a soft giggle from you snapped him back to reality as his eyes opened up slowly, pupils blown, he looked as if he had just seen God.
ââŠDid you justââ
âKiss you?â You ask slightly tilting your head with a giddy smile, âseems like itâ
You shrugged as you snorted softly.
âOh.â Oh was the only thing his brain could process for him to say still stunned.
âOkayâ so you tell me you love me, but I kiss you and all you say is âohâ, I meanââ you said as you licked your lips as you thought.
âI justâ I didnât think youâdâ likeâŠyouâŠlikeâŠâ he fumbled as he tried to pull a thought out of the back of his brain.
âArt, youâre telling me you didnât expect me to kiss you, when Iâve literally had thisâŠIâve been in love with you since we were kids, and Iâve been as subtle as a marching bandâ you tell him as a blush creeps up your face while you chuckle nervously.
âYouâre kidding, right?â You shake your head with a small grin, he scoffs as he covers his face with his hands, âam I just that dense?â
âNot dense, more likeâŠobliviousâ you laugh as he glares back playfully.
Then thereâs beat of silence, that moment where suddenly everything had fallen into place, heâs been pining over you for years, and youâve waited for the right moment for as long as you can remember, but then the question settles in, what now?
âUhmâŠartâŠ?â You turn to him with hesitation, he hums in response âwhat now? I mean, youâre going back to cali after break and Iâm going back to New YorkâŠâ
âHmâŠI hadnât really thought that far into itâ he said softly turning to look at you with gentle eyes, âwhat now?â He asks back softly.
âIâ I like you, Art, Iâm in it for the long game.â You spoke honestly as you fiddled with your fingers.
âIâll play the long game. Youâre out there, Iâm out there too, weâll see each other in summer, thanksgiving, and ChristmasâŠI mean it, Iâ donât just like you.â He confessed as he chewed on the inside of his cheek nervously.
âI can do thatâ you said softly, smiling back at him, letting out a small breath, âlong gameâŠ?â
Your hand cupped his cheek making him face you, he smiled as he nodded, looking down at your lips and back at your eyes âlong game.â He muttered as he leaned in kissing you once again, holding you gently in a fear of breaking you.
That right there. That was it, you were the living proof of unrequited love for him.
#art donaldson#mike faist#challengers#art donaldson x reader#art donaldson fic#childhood best friends#i actually love this#baby moon yaps#baby moon writes
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[sits up suddenly from my coffin] anybody fuck with my super danganronpa 2 x guy who didnt like musicals au
#i dont post my art for several months and then i return. back into danganronpa once again. and actively combining it with my other interests#for fun and whimsy.#sdr2#nagito komaeda#super danganronpa 2#danganronpa 2#hajime hinata#chiaki nanami#robin draws#anyways other than returning to danganronpa ive just been drawing ocs so i havent had much to share#yes thats ibuki vaguely in the bg she gets to be chiakis boss#sonia gets to be zoey so that she gets to control a helicopter and point a gun at hajime and chiaki#obv things have to be shifted around and changed for them to make sense in their roles but i think hajime as paul is the most#untouched one bc thats just early game hajime where he's freaking out about the fuckass island and how weird everything is#fuyuhiko gets to effectively be the role of bill with peko as alice but obv theyre not a father/daughter dynamic for this au#its altered. to fit Them. and their whole deal they got going on.#maybe fuyuhiko had tried to tell peko to leave and go live her own life but she came back for him and then. Oopsies. join the hive#gundham as professor hidgens would be so fucking funny. you must understand. instead of an alexa he's talking to his devas.#nagito tbh would work as professor hidgens but i made him fill mr. davidsons role for the sole fact of his song being the effective#âi wantâ song and that just felt too right to pass up#kazuichi fills the role of ted and he's mad that hajime didnt bring sonia#mikan filling charlottes role. junko is sam. i dont think i have to explain further. obv junko isnt a cop thats altered to fit her.#also no ted charlotte affair for this kaz has his eyes set on sonia and only sonia still and mikan has her beloved :)#also i just wanted mikan to have âjoin us (and die)â bc ogoghgoghgho thats one of my fav songs#greenpeace girl gets to be mahiru cause the personality just feels right.#imposter is Everywhere. i wanted to stick them in a designated role so bad but tbh they're just always there in a diff disguise#anyway im done tag rambling i've been brewing this in my brain for like a week.#feel free to let me know if i was cooking or not and offer ur own ideas and thoughts
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I don't see this talked about often in the english side of the fandom, as this tidbit got lost in translation, but:
In the japanese versions for both texts and voice lines in the middle-aged opposites venet, kabu addresses larry with "âkun (ăă)" in their second meeting in front of the restaurant. It's a japanese honorific to address someone who is a junior than you, in terms of either age or work experience/status. Inferring from this, kabu may either (1) be slightly older than larry in age (as I think they both have equal years of experience, just that larry happened be slightly superior to kabu in terms of their workplace status because he is also an elite four member), (2) be that friendly and warm as a person that he calls larry with "âkun (ăă)" right away in the second part of their event's story, or (3) both.
Take what you will from this, friends! đ«Ą
#you guys don't know that i'm still STUCK thinking about this long after the event is gone. i'm still freezing when my mind reminds me every#so often that the first thing we hear from the japanese trailer is kazuhiko inoue yelling ăąăȘăăă like... oh they're besties already? đđ#i wish honorifics and the way a person refers to themselves don't get lost in translation. it actually adds so much depth to the characters#my n5 jlpt ass is already in heaven even with my limited understanding đđđ one day i will play pokemon games in jp fluently!!!!#anyway yeah. kabu looked at larry and went 'you're my friend now!' even though they don't have to be buddy-buddy for this event :')#and the fact that larry tolerates it (when he's probably addressed with âsan all the time) and even grows to enjoy kabu's presence... đ„ș#pokemas yaoi is so big-brained. i hope whoever wrote the middle-aged opposites events got a huge raise due to its popularity!!!!#gym leader kabu#elite four larry#gym leader larry#pokemon kabu#pokemon larry#pokemon masters ex#pmex#pokemon masters#pokemas#pokemas spoilers#pmex spoilers#pokemon masters ex spoilers#pokemon masters spoilers#pokemon sword and shield#pokemon swsh#swsh#pokemon scarlet and violet#pokemon scarvio#scarvio#galar#paldea#pasio#silverstreakshipping
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A momentary apology to everyone who followed me thinking I was a cute magical girl and occasional Alice in Wonderland blog.
#stella talks#.you have to understand........#.garashir hits every shipping button I've got and then some#.it's like it was tailor made for my tastes in ways i didn't know were possible.#.i went almost a week without sleeping when i started ds9 because it hit me so hard.#.garashir was so compelling to me it shook me into a manic episode for over a MONTH.#.i am literally only just starting to come down from that.#.it did something to my brain chemistry okay.#.also some chance this is related to one of my closest friends dying and fixating so hard on a ship is a coping thing.#.idk might be unrelated though who could say!!! >_>;;;;;#.the manic episode started before she died though so.#.i think it is being drawn out because i can't handle my feelings on magical girl stuff right now because it make me think of her.#.so ds9 is a nice safe outlet for me while i try to come to terms with everything.#... she'd have loved my starfleet magical girl au tho. pain. ):
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I turn on the faucet, splash some water on my face, look up and-
âFuck!â
Instinct takes control, spinning me around to look for the intruder that isn't there. My elbow bangs painfully on the wall of the cramped washroom.
âSorry,â Libby mumbles from somewhere over my left shoulder as far as my brain can tell.
I flinch slightly, resisting the urge to search for the source of the phantom sound.
A different instinct tries to kick in, detached and rational, trying to let my panicked lizard brain know that there is no one who can possibly be in the room with me.
Both voices are wrong. Libby is definitely in the room with me, she just isn't hunched over by the door like when I spotted her out of the corner of my eye in the mirror.
I rub my smarting elbow and try not to think about the itch that has started up where the chitinous mass of her shell has grafted itself to my spine.
But trying not to think about it has the opposite effect. My stomach sinks in response to an emotion that isn't my own.
âI'm sorry,â she repeats.
âCan you please stop apologizing?â I sigh.
âI'mâŠâ
A tingle of frustration jitters through her, tingling through the ganglia that are currently wrapped around my brainstem.
I look back at the mirror, focusing on my own face to let the apparition of her appear again in the corner of my vision. I still can't decide exactly who my brain decided it wanted her to be. I can only ever see her in the periphery. She's just a sort of vague out of focus figure. A random stranger in a cafe I saw once maybe. A curtain of hair and an oversized sweatshirt.
I still don't know why I named her Libby.
âSomething on your mind?â I ask her as I pick up the razor.
I set it down again. I haven't needed to shave at all in six days.
âThis is like the scorpion and the frog thing? Isn't it?â she asks after a moment.
âThe what?â I ask, somewhat befuddled
âI heard Carson and Reggie talking about it when you were asleep,â she explains. âSome kind of story about being unable to resist our nature. I'm the scorpion, aren't I?â
I feel my lips tug slightly into a frown. Her species can't hear, at least not in the way humans do. And I was also not previously aware that she could actually understand spoken Engelsk. I don't know what it all means, but it leaves me disquieted.
She senses my mood and I feel another apology coming on.
âDo you even know what a scorpion is?â I ask, heading her off.
âIâŠâ
Her frustration becomes somewhat bemused.
âWell no,â she admits. âI thought it was kind of like aâŠâ
I don't have a word for the mental image she sends me. Some kind of nightmare arachnid from some unnamed alien desert.
âYeah, close enough,â I say, somewhat terrified.
âI can't escape my nature,â she says. âI can't stop my biology from changing you. But you aren't a typical host for my species. What if I'm killing you?â
I sigh.
âYou're not killing me.â
âBut the medications-â
âAre for you as much as me,â I interrupt. âAuto-doc doesn't know shit about how to handle this situation. It doesn't want my body rejecting you before we get to a real medical facility.â
Gods below, but I am tired of the nasty cocktail of immunosuppressants.
âWhy did you decide not to go into stasis for the trip back?â she asks in a small voice.
I knew this question was coming. I had been asking myself exactly the same thing constantly since I chose to stay conscious and ride out whatever Libby was doing to my body.
I studied my face in the mirror, the softness of the jaw, the smoothness. My eyes wandered down to my chest, where soft aching mounds were taking shape. I thought about the very real possibility of her repurposing my reproductive system, filling me with her eggs and-
No. Nope, I was definitely not thinking about that outside of the privacy of my own quarters.
Regardless, the thoughts had my heart racing.
âWhat ifâŠâ
Fuck, could I even say this aloud?
âWhat if we got to Persephone Station and we⊠didn't go through with the extraction procedure?â
âWhat?â
âWhat if we stayed together and⊠I don't know, tried to work something out?â
I saw that post about that one kind of barnacle that forcefemmes crabs and it may have planted a plot bunny in my head.
Human ship responds to distress call from alien ship. It's critically damaged and the crew is mostly dead. Human MC gets exposed to parasite, but their ship lacks a medical suite capable of extracting it safely and since it is technically sapient they can't legally remove it
MC has to cope as "his" body starts changing and he starts hallucinating an avatar of the very apologetic parasite
#my writing#writers on tumblr#transgender#this too is yuri#human x alien#science fiction#microfiction
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tagged by ko @tofumilanesa for wip wednesday! big shout out to writevember for making me feel like i can actually call any of these works in progress⊠your guide to my emoji code under the cut
wip!
đȘ»đâ⏠- the doc title is still just. YOWLING but i am like 7/8 of the way done with omega yamo fic and hopefully salem isnât reading this so i can just drop it over a year later with no warning <3
đ«2ïžâŁ - DEWEY^2 P2!!!! she is almost done (i am lying) but she is so close i can almost taste it. sorry to my pwp that grew its own feelings baby
đđ€ (đ -> đ) - rip iâm not telling you about this one until itâs posted but it IS complete aside from being ao3 formatted and the eight billion edits i inevitably do right before full-sending it
âïžđ§ - cloud petey fic, which exists mostly as an embarrassingly large tag on a different blog and is condensing into a narrative about as well as water at 30° N/S. the time loop fic also falls under this description
eternally in progress (short list)
đđ - tyler borzoituzzi exists⊠there is an index of scenes/plot points⊠it plays like a movie in my headâŠ
đŻâ- fantastic! âverse
đïžđ» - stevie brandon seeing ghosts au, which has eight different (now nine i guess but you haven't seen the mustache adam post yet) plots. sorry
just. rotating like a microwave
đ - because they didnât have a pomegranate emoji, this is what i used for the fic that feels like it should be a 50k connor bedard character study hanif abdurraqib/cathal kelly thesis about legends and mythmaking in sports and eating your young. yes i know pomegranates arenât actually pomes and apples are but itâs fine
đŠ - the one cat da fuck they doing over there meme but about the sharks just like. in general. more on this at five
tagging @colap1nto, @songsandswords, @whitenikes, @gordiemeow, @acheronist, and anybody else who wants to share!!
#i regret to inform the public (beloved mutuals who read my tags) that we have hit the doldrums re: creativity.#got SO excited because i had no prep for tomorrow and got out unreasonably early and proceeded to do nothing đ€© zero motivation/inspiration#anyway. being a big baby. have looked at dewey^2 for too long and now hate it which makes me sad because i was on SUCH a roll solving plot#and really i just need to pick something else from my (looks at smudged hand) 10000 other documents but none of them are calling my nameeee#maybe iâll ao3 format đ -> đ or maybe iâll read wandering stars (did finish a book this morning) and then hope something strikes me#preferably very aggressively like with the force of a train? OHHHHHH YOU GUYS MAYBE I COULD MAKE SOMETHING FOR HOLY JUMPING MACKEREL FEST#because you know what DID hit me upside the head like a 2x world champ coming from behind with the steel chair WAS BERGY & JOE GUESS WHO#joey first of all did not deserve to lose those games and second of all i am SO immensely delighted i donât know if itâs on here yet i am#so sure at least one of my beloved drw moots (beth and nik are likely culprits but all of u would) has it on here yet BUT THEREâS SO MUCH#BERGY VERY BLATANTLY CALLING JOE A NERD BC HE KNOWS ALL ABT HIS TEAMMATES &LOVES THEM!! BERGY NOT KNOWING A SINGLE FUCKIN THING ABT ANYONE!#the absolute unsurprised yet still heartbroken disbelief & disappointment of joe saying âhe uses black tape!â oh thatâs rent-free forever#anyway.#liv in the replies#p.s. it's fic friday now don't worry about how late i am#as always ask away ask about anything in post tags y'all know i love to yap u are always welcome in the inbox or dms#i was trying to be slightly less mysterious about all of these but i am a secret-keeper sorry and also you need to live inside my brain#in order to understand half of what i'm referencing sometimes. sorry.#also there are some un-hockey fic projects i want to do but i have. so little time in my life for anything sometimes that we will make do
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had quite the night drive earlier this evening.
#just me rambling again#web weaving#(?)#uh. one of my friends who is out of town for college was visiting and i got to see him and our friends and the only core member of that#group of people missing was my ex girlfriend who you may also know of as my wonderful wife#who has I assume been very busy with their own life things but has also barely and very sparsely had any hint of communication with any of#us within the past few months which I've been realizing very recently sort of hurts my feelings because we used to be so close and#they had been saying that they would be constantly making sure we still were in each other's lives. but then very quickly have#seemingly dropped off the face of the earth#anyways. I was driving aforementioned friend who is in town back home (family home not college obv) and when i was finally going back#towards my house afterwards my Google maps finally lead me to an area that i was more familiar with driving and i got to an#intersection and it was telling me to take a right to go home but i knew that i knew the way perfectly from that intersection to my#ex girlfriend / best friend / wifes familys house from all of the times I've gone that direction through the past years and so#i turned off my directions and i took a left towards their house#not super sure why but my brain and body just knew it was something i needed to do and so i went and drove down their street and cried#a lot the whole time and then drove myself home from their house once again following a super familiar path#and idk im still feeling very emotional about it. the fact that halloween by noah kahan was the first song to play on Spotify#after i made that left turn im sure didnt help (knowing that i miss them so much and am going to be leaving this area myself#soon enough here and there's been an open offer for a while now that they are welcome to follow and live with me once they get their degree#(and also um. halloween is next week lol)#idk i just havent felt the full force of how badly i miss having them in my life until tonight. when i was around this person i could feel#our souls singing in harmony. i genuinely cannot describe the feelings of our relationship in words i feel like only vaguely abstract art#could communicate the connection that was forged between us and the level of understanding and knowing#something not dissimilar to looking into the sun directly or trying to describe a vivid color to someone who is completely blind#something about the way the entire universe breathes in unison and everything around us are all pieces of the same stars#sigh#i miss my wife tails i miss her a lot /ref
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hi. for people who saw gatsby: an american myth. do you remember mckee asking nick for lunch. and then gatsby in like the next scene inviting nick for lunch. because i remember.
#not pjo#chitter chatter#when gatsby was like 'we should do lunch' i was like. hello. fucking. hello. are we. hello.#gatsby really said we just met literally 5 minutes ago. come meet my father figure. normal normal thing to do jay.#to be clear gatsby also asks him to go to lunch in the book. but like. there's a time skip. and also#in the show after mckee asks they immediately start making out on the couch. none of this ... nonsense#so the vibes are a LITTLE different in my brain.#i saw a few people say they didnt think gatsby and nick flirted enough and like while i do think that think part of it is we're#in nick's pov but not his HEAD#he DOES start singing about gatsby's smile for no reason until jordon is like. alright buddy. lets talk about daisy.#like nick was just Doing That. pull it together carraway.#but i got the vibe (JUST my take) that gatsby was like. kinda into nick. zero reason to be leaning into his space like that sir.#however when he actually MET daisy again he became kinda singularly focused on her again#i mean he built his whole lifeup to this moment#he says it at the end. he murdered pieces of himself to bring himself here. for DAISY.#him snapping back to daisy mode makes sense to me but he still reaches out for nick as a comfort in the sense that hes like#nick do NOT leave please stay with us. daisy does the same. and ofc part is that theyre really. fucking awkward. but like.#LET ME HAVE MY OWN NONSENSE INTERPRETATIONS. HES TRAPPED BY WHITENESS AND CLASS AND HETEROSEXUALITY.#hes already so much of an outsider trying to fit in. (i also think he loves daisy or an ideal at least. and she's EASIER to love. safer.)#nick inherently has more freedom even as a gay man in the sense that hes richer and white and an ivy league dude i mean you understand righ#right????????#even if its in the book i do wanna point out the parallels between those moments. im choosing to see it as deeply intentional <3#this show had a lot of repetition and parallels (see daisy and myrtle in a lot of songs and scenes)#(one i LOVE is tom giving myrtle a necklace and daisy later giving TOM her necklace in case he sees anyone he knows. idk love that shit)#im...gonna queue this#im embarrassed to talk about this show so much. so. into the queue it goes!!!#all the worlds a stage#so like. anyway. thats where i think nick's mind immediately went when gastsby asked him for lunch. personal headcanon <3#gatsby after one convo: we're doing lunch // me and nick immediately: oh ok! guess that's a date then!
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"Hey," he replies, his shoulders almost shaking from suppressed mirth, "my eyes are up here." Turning the tables, because he can only imagine the number of times sheâs said the same, albeit seriously. Minus the bashfulness, however, Aiden would never actually complain about Annaâs ogling. What gives him pause now is more of their surroundings. The murmur of the crowd, thatâs gotten just a little bit louder. âIâm gonna stop.â Fuel for him to put the slightest, barely-noticeable distance between them, âââCause I will start a commotion if you let me keep me going about, you knowââ his gaze slides down her smooth curves before returning back up, ââyou being down under.â
But itâs definitely a high-issue topic to revisit later. It always is.
For the moment, he refocuses on her curiosity, and it seems like heâs back to his usual self, questioning the world and its dramatic oddities with the faintest quirk in his brow. âAbout Chelsea, but you know somethingâ I think that dudeâs usually got a thing for animals? He did that one movie last year, about a scientist who made friends with an octopus while studying a kelp forest?â Heâs suddenly serious when he adds, ââBefore that, I think it was about endangered birds.â The historyâs pretty interesting. Animals are cool. He just canât understand the connection between staunch environmentalism and⊠Sports. Whether itâs the reality of football attracting a more vocal, more viral crowd, or just another example of how people can have a strange mix of interests, he shakes his head. âHope heâs not saying Chelseaâs going extinct or something.â
Whatever the reasoning for the offer the, he doesnât truly care what that guy thinks; Aidenâs not about to let some folks with deep pockets make a circus out of his guys. Theyâre fools, but his fools. Leave it to him to embarrass them. So maybe itâs a little funny, a little odd, a little out of place when he answers,
âI donât have any friends.â Plain and simple. Aiden knows people â gets paid a hefty sum to know them like the back of his hand â and yet nobody really knows him. It takes about ten seconds for him to think, âWell, shit,â because he doesnât want this to turn into a pity party. ââOr, likeâ Iâm not like that.â Obviously. âI donât really have anyone specific I go reaching out to for company.â Background mentality. If they want him there, theyâll ask, and heâll see if his brain is ready to deal with all of the extra noise. Thereâs nothing in his posture, his expression, or in his words that indicates even the slightest bit of dissatisfaction.
Thereâs no sort of judgment or excessive pushiness coming out of Anna, either, yet thereâs something⊠Aiden canât really describe it. Anna Ricci (the person) magic. The weird stuff thatâs got him adding to his âa gameâ playlist, its energetic name masking the collection R&B jams and other cheesy shit heâs picked out because the vibes remind him of her. âI prefer watching games alone.â His brainâs usually loud enough to fill up the gaps then. ââBut Iâll tell you what. Next time I get the invite,â to some gallery opening courtesy of some artistic acquaintance, or even just a lowkey dig hosted by a friendly face, âIâll take you along.â No questions asked (other than confirming her interest), no hesitations. Even when he tilts his head and asks, âOr is that your way of saying you wanna host at our place?â
Whichever one sheâd pick, for sheâs built her fair share of new furnishings and filled out the spaces well enough to really make them both homes. Soft warmth courses through his veins at the mere thought, along with the never-ending urge to remind her, âI wanna make it completely clear, though: youâre my MVP.â His first choice for a single callâ the only one outside of work he regularly calls, and heâs more than content with that. And just like that, heâs even closer to her, with his hand squeezing back. âIâm not subbing you any time soon.â
"Tony fights anyone who gets between him and the season finale of Love is Blind." Sure, he did it for Anna, for her ever-abundance of loyalty for Aiden. But there's also the reality that Tony's now at Vauxhall, downing shots everytime someone says they're on the island for the "right reasons." Two things can be true. "I didn't start a commotion." Anna lowers her head, like a little girl caught red-handed. No, Aiden's not telling her off. He's echoing her commitment, but still reminding her - there's some things one ought not to do. Getting arrested, or causing a commotion, for one. "And if I did..." By sprinting down the airport, throwing a hundred quid at a kid whose drink she knocked over, and then pouting at an officer...
"I know you'd be there to bail me out." Because Anna may have acted the fairy godmother of the evening. But in every other sense, it's Aiden who sweeps in to save her. Or better yet, show her the way out. The proof is in every new thing she learns to do with him. This is just one of many ways she gives it back, coming closer to brush the nice fabric of his suit. "Or use the nail file on your Swiss army knife and get us both free." Heroes or bandits? The jury's out. Regardless, it's clear now; they only look the part of posh and proper.
Because when Aiden leans in, smelling heavenly and with that look in his eye. With the sort of joke that makes her laugh second, because first, her eyes drop down to the area between his legs. "Fuck me." Anna whispers, eyes wide and brightly scandalized. "And here I thought I just got outta down under." Now, however, her mind's firmly down there...
Which makes her take a half-second longer to register Aiden's answer. "Like, about snow leopards? Or about you and Chelsea?" Documentaries go either way. "I can see that. Like, catching up with Chelsea?" Really, she does it just to tease. Because Aiden can do anything... Except be on a reality TV show.
"Glad you didn't sub in another plus one." Her hand finds his, giving it a small squeeze. "Like Bailey. Or --" Come to think of it, Anna tilts her head; "I should meet some of your friends." Because in the storm of Anna's extroversion, it's assumed she would have met anyone of importance. Yet that's her, not him, and even some need a push.
"You know, friends to watch the game with--" Like Aiden doesn't do that everyday. "Keep you company when I'm away." He's more than capable of taking care of himself. The better one of the pair of them, candidly. And yet, a part of her worries about the long nights spent apart, the dinners eaten alone. "I wanna meet them." Or find them, she thinks. Though, unlikely to find them here.
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why does everything i get really into always end up being so god damn niche. by the year 2035 i am going to be blogging exclusively about the interpersonal relationships between the pillbugs and snails hiding underneath the bricks lining the flowerbeds in my parent's garden.
#im falling hard into the virvox guys rn sowwy. i like em a lot hee hee. i didnt realize just how small the fanbase for em was tho#actually i didnt realize how small the company that makes them were either. i got so used to the yamahas and cryptons of the vsynth world#that i forgot that like honestly. a lot of the voicebank makers and some of the software makers themselves#theyre like companies of like maybe 5 employees with like no funding LOL not a bad thing but i forgor#but yeah i was looking up to see if there was like. a fanon reason why people shipped takehiro and ryusei? not judging because i get it#i like took one look at the virvox guys and immediately slotted them as a very strange boyband (a catboy and a middle aged dragon man....)#and also took a second look at takehiro and ryusei and assumed they were childhood friends. i saw the doujin flash before my eyes#but also looking into it it seems the fanbase is also like. 20 people. and like 3 of them ship that#and at least one person ships whiteCUL and ryusei? why not LOL when it comes to vsynths sometimes a ship can be spearheaded by like#one very prolific artist HGDJKDFSHDJK which actually reminds me. honestly i dont really have many vsynth ships#i guess i dont really partake in a lot of shipping stuff deeply but i like romance!! you know i like love stories. you know this#i mean i keep calling the eclipsed sounds characters the celestial polycule for a reason tho. im not joking around about this#this is serious to me. they are stars and moons and suns and together they hang out and kiss. in the sky. this is serious to me#also i do like solaria x eleanor forte actually. its a bit random but i understand it. i understand it#and of course the aformentioned takehiro x ryusei. and also the whole virvox polycule. get that old man in here too#(what do they call people like me. a multishipper? i do that a lot. you know this from my otome game fanart LOL)#OH and i dont remember either of their names rn but i like that the cevio bank anju inami voiced has like a big fat crush on like#that girl with the brown hair. i like that theyre like. besties (turning into something more wink wonk)#thinks with all my brain. i think thats it. i dont know why theres so little. i think its because i think of them as like#audio sample libraries first and foremost and i forget about their characters and relationships LOL#but im not against the idea of making some audio sample libraries kiss...... not at all#picks up a guitar sampler and a sound effect cd. presses them together.#hee hee. they kiss
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hehe. crackling
#just me hi#hey do your ears crackle and get kind of uncomfortable when people yell lol#sometimes regular loud noises do it but not really#it started happening like a year or so ago and blahh hfh#and then like a chill goes down from my ears to the back of my neck ? it's weird man#do i probably know why that is? yea lmao. do i wanna speculate anyway? Yes it's fun ehehehehegh :33#the fairies dropped some dust on my bed during one visit and now it makes my ears itchy on the inside i guess#the ocean is whispering but reception is poor#old tissue paper from some birthday some years ago is still hangin around#tv static lives in my head and goes for walks sometimes :)#the characters stored inside are opening their packages#Thought Blender 3000 (Guaranteed Blending (Max Puree)) has been invoked#my neurons are playing musical chairs#brain is doin a little jig#the possibilities... Endless.........#//anywhoooo i have GOT to write#not because i have to but because i Need to. you understand#so i'm going to see which part of the universe will decide No. Not Now when i start hbvfhs :3#let's seee#ofc i'm going to reblog a handful of things beforehand though. it's just the way things are done lol :33#toooooodles :>>
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everyone is sooo in love with vakori on account of le is so cool and smart and deeply pragmatic and is also completely batshit insane
#oc#monochrome#sketch#velan#vakori#rocaim#rocaim and vakori are rex and taz and adder and silas's parents#adder and silas get their looks from vakori; rex and taz to a slightly lesser degree get it from rocaim#rex specifically is like a sharper clone of him. fucks velan up all the time because their personalities are completely totally different#rocaim was very like. gentle and understanding. good with kids and well-liked by basically everyone. a very effective mediator#rex is obviously none of those things lmao. every time he says something particularly insensitive it surprises her for like six years runni#anyway rocaim is in love wtih vakori. velan is in love with vakori. vakori is aro as they come but insanely pragmatic#like. ok le's based loosely off my ex. like. so le's SCARY pragmatic. so fucking cool about it everyone with a brain is specifically like#'woag oh my god le's so pragmatic im in love with her'. anyway eventually le's like 'hi rocaim. here are the objective reasons that i think#that if we got married it would mean i had better standing and more power in the organization we're both committed to. would you be#opposed to possibly getting married with me on the grounds that it would get me respect and power' and rocaim. who is already head over#heels for ler specifically because le makes these kinds of decisions and sees with this kind of logic is like. Absolutely. 100%#then for the next four years of their formal engagement people keep taking rocaim aside and being like hey... i have bad news...#...that leya you're engaged to... le's not romantically interested in you the same way you're romantically interested in ler... le only#wants you because you're an Ath and le wants a voice in the interclan meetsings... and then when Rocaim is like yeah i know#thats why i want to marry ler isnt that like the sexiest fucking reasoning you've EVER heard. no one gets it but velan#who is also in love with ler for the same reasons but has no such claims to power#and who also is not equipped for a polycule nor willing to try to go behind rocaim's back because unfortunately for her. she is also in lov#with rocaim. me when im in love with my friend and my friend's wife and also i'm pretty sure they both reciprocate but they're both#married and i dont really know what to do about it and also all three of us are very Traditional and that is not the Tradition:#and then they both die and she never quite deals with that.#but she DOES get to raise their (surviving) kids :) most of whom are fucking nightmares#life is so difficult for velan. like actually#closerverse#cv
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vent under the cut you don't need to read if you don't want to!!!!!!!
I honestly hateee opening up or oversharing with ppl. it's kind of like eating for me where it feels okay in the moment but then afterwards I just feel awful. it feels like I'm attention seeking or saying someone else's experience isn't valid for some reason and it sucks. I don't do it at all with ppl I just met but with friends I tend to get carried away with it sometimes,,,
It hurts even more because I've been distancing myself from ppl bcz I'm scared of this exact thing happening. People have messaged me before, saying I seem cool and they want to be friends. And I get happy in the moment, but then I get really anxious about accidentally getting too comfortable and blurting out personal things, because then their opinion of me will wane and they'll think I'm annoying or ungrateful. So I subconsciously begin to distance myself and take a while when responding to messages, because I'm scared of getting too comfortable with them. But now I'm anxious that they think I'm cold or distant and that I secretly don't like them. It's just a lose lose situation mannn </3
I have so many DMs I've put off responding to, and I've stopped talking in servers as much bcz I'm scared of getting close with ppl in them. I really feel bad for it, though. I've drifted from friends bcz of that and it sucks because I genuinely love them a lot. I love everyone I talk to a lot and they always make my day better--I just wish I could be the same for them. I feel like it's a chore to talk to me. I honestly don't know what to do. It's even worse when I get close to someone bcz they like what I make/post because again, now that they've seen how I really am and I've opened up, they more than likely see me as annoying or a bad person. Like it hurts enough whenever we become friends naturally talking, but if it's with someone who's seen me at my "best" and has seen things I work on or stories I've created, they ofc associate me with those things, and their expectations of me are through the roof. So when I disappoint them it hurts a lot more. I hate getting attached to people it hurts so much
#vent#it's okay tho.I think a hug would fix me. I want a hug so bad :(#probably delete later#tag ramblings below#AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH LIKE SO MUCH so it's even harder. like I feel like I don't deserve them#y'all deserve better than me#I WISH I COULD ADOPT THE IDGAF ATTITUDE#truly the best feeling in the world--realizing you don't care anymore#and idk how someone could possibly like me for things I created--it's not even like I write well or sing well#I honestly don't understand how ppl could see anything I've made or sung and genuinely like it#so whenever someone DOES I'm just like hasbdhabsn yay!!!!!!! and then I ruin it w my awful personality </3#it's also why I take down a lot of ao3 works#like I've made 50 something works but it only shows two because I've taken so many down or made them anonymous--I hate my work so much#but ppl like it enough to actively want to get to know me and it hurts bcz I feel like they're not THAT good#same thing with singing like I'm not good at it at all#but ppl used to rlly like my impressions of characters and I'd get cast in quite a bit of cover groups and I just don't understand.why???#but ofc I can't ask that bcz.idk it just feels attention seeking when I do that#like can you praise me a whole bunch so I don't feel like it's not totally awful please?#I appreciate the support I get so so much and it's not that it's not enough it's just my brain is mean </3#idek what this vent is abt#I think ultimately it's just abt my fear of disappointing ppl#I'm close with a few ppl who know me bcz of things I made--and I feel like I kinda ruined their impression of me a little (a lot)#especially bcz I didn't always used to vent this much. like back when I was 12-15 I literally refused to vent no matter how bad it got#and I had friends who vented every single day so it's not like I'd be the only one#I just feel like it's wrong when it's me :'D I feel like my feelings aren't valid ig and I'm ungrateful bcz my life rlly isn't that bad#I only started venting a lot this year for some reason--and it makes me feel bad bcz now my current friends have to deal with me like that#like I have a diary I write in and it works sometimes but ultimately it's better for someone else to give you validation#I hate venting so much though#(<- literally venting rn BAHSDBAS)#I'M SORRY if I've been venting too much. I feel like I've been venting too much.guys am sorry if this is annoying I promise I'm workin on i
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