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moobloom-mention · 10 months ago
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To Wait for You Would Mean to Wait an Eternity (And By Then It'd Be Too Late)
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Summary: Macaque escapes his own death by refusing to interfere with Wukong's JTTW. Besides, Flower Fruit Mountain needs a king that'll nurse it back to its golden age, a role he believes he'll fit quite well.
Too bad Wukong isn't one to enjoy returning to his kingdom to find it overthrown by his own moon.
Content Warning(s): Implied Death
Word Count: 5758
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If Macaque was asked what his favorite thing about Flower Fruit Mountain was, he’d be the first to admit his fondness for its consistency.
Having risen amidst the calm waters of Earth’s equator, the island had never known the harsh bark of seasons demanding a change of climate, forever encapsulated in a state of spring if only to nurture its vibrant garden of flowers and trees.
The sky, too, never strayed far from the familiar status of clear, the sun’s routinely appearance a gentle glow everso eager to warm the fur of whatever little one had chosen to lounge about in its rays. Rarely was the sun ever blocked by the startling appearance of clouds and rain, their designated gods not daring to tread foot upon the island less it’d been deemed absolutely necessary.
Macaque supposes their fear of going anywhere near Flower Fruit Mountain meant that at least something good to come out of Wukong’s past claim as king. The sage may have disappeared from the mortal plane at least a few centuries ago, but not many beings were willing to take the risk encountering the ire of Wukong just to step on the island’s beach.
But whilst the implied protection very-well scared off any celestial beings or demons seeking new territory, it’d never exempted Macaque from needing to console little ones and fix whatever problems that’d frightened them.
He’d long outgrown the capability of counting on his hands just how many times he’d awoken at the first mention of sunlight to small monkeys hopping frantically atop his bed with urgent cries- ones painfully dismissive of his six ears -howling, “Macaque! Macaque! We lost [insert random number] banana trees last night-!”
Of course, Macaque- even amidst battling the thrall of sleep and his newly formed migraine -would always be mindful in comforting whomever had woken him, reminding them that he’d assist with planting more trees to replace whatever they’d lost. Sure it’d take a good year for the saplings to sprout and bear fruit, but that’d give them plenty of time to ensure other food alternatives remained bountiful.
Besides, if finding a few dead trees ended up being the annual tragedy his kingdom would need to face, Macaque couldn’t find himself bothered by the occasional rude awakening.
But to be savagely dragged from the comforting embrace of sleep by something heavy thumping hollowly against his forehead?
Yeah, no. He’ll take small hands shaking him awake anyday.
“Wha-?”
“Oh good, you’re not dead,” a familiar voice heaves somewhere to Macaque’s left, and he winces as the same hollow sound- which he now recognizes is a scroll -clatters violently against the stone flooring of his bedroom. It’s a harsh noise that harmonizes awkwardly with the distant chitters of other little ones roaming about the upper tunnels of the cave system. “I was beginning to think I’d have to handle the end of the world by myself-”
Now that puts distance between Macaque and the thick tendrils of sleep he’s still partially ensnared by, the king’s ears flattening in brief sorrow as he forces himself from the comforting warmth of his bedsheets and onto his feet.
He’s almost certain the little one that’d struck him is Èzuòjù, a blonde gibbon that’d never been the type to fear Macaque growing angry over his wild antics. Of course, Macaque’s genuine temper was a difficult thing to evoke, but it was the youthful spirit’s bravery that’d gotten him in good graces with the antisocial king in the first place.
Alas, it isn’t the familiar grin of a gibbon that greets Macaque’s brief scan of his bedroom, his eyebrows pinching as he finds an oddly short wall of bamboo scrolls seemingly floating across the floor. It takes an embarrassingly amount of time before he realizes that his library hadn’t suddenly learned the art of levitation, but that it was Èzuòjù himself dragging the heavy things across the room.
It’s an odd sight, really, the little one never having been the type to take an interest in reading. Learning to verbally translate Mandarin? Sure. But stealing Macaque’s reading material?
Maybe the world really was ending.
Wait-
Macaque hisses as the damning thud of a migraine vibrates against his skull, pressing a hand to his eyes if only to quell the pain and attempt to chase aside the fog of sleep still triumphantly seeking refuge behind his gaze.
The noise of discontent that’d managed to surface feels far too muted as well, his tongue heavy and uncooperative despite the verbal communication and sheer mental load this situation is bound to demand from him. “Why- my scrolls? And the world- why is the world ending?”
“The sky’s black,” Èzuòjù announces, helpful as per usual in his report. The wall of scrolls hesitates once before it clatters to the ground, Macaque’s thudding ears echoing the unapologetic “-oops-” that’s carelessly tossed his way.
“And,” the little one drawls with newfound disinterest in the pile of scrolls as he lifts his gaze toward the other. Macaque blinks expectantly when Èzuòjù suddenly pauses, the gibbon’s previous expression of quiet triumph quickly dissolving into one akin to shock. “Holy shit, you are dark.”
Ok-ay.
The world is ending.
The world is ending and it’s all because…the sky is black.
And because Macaque is dark. Whatever that could mean.
A disorientated sound claws its way up the back of his throat and he almost entertains the thought that this could all just be apart of some prank. Macaque was never the quickest to gain coherent thought after being abruptly woken, and Èzuòjù wasn’t the type to pass the opportunity to terrorize Macaque’s occasional moments of peace.
The worlding ending wouldn’t even make sense in the first place; Earth was far too early in its cycle for the Heavens to let it die, and well, the sky being black wouldn’t be anything new.
It’d only mean that the moon was still in its first phases, too weak for its light to reach the Earth and declare that Macaque should definitely be fast asleep instead of doing whatever this is.
“…and?”
The gibbon stares a beat longer before visibly shaking himself from whatever spell had possessed him. “It’s noon.”
Heavens above, no wonder Èzuòjù thought he died. He’d overslept, badly, and now it was noon.
Actually, no. He’d overslept and now the world was apparently ending, all because the sky is still dark and it’s supposedly noon-
Oh.
Oh.
“There it is.”
There’s a shrill yelp as Macaque flings himself toward his wardrobe, unguilty as he disregards the indignant expression that crosses Èzuòjù’s face.
“The world is ending, and you’re getting dressed?” the gibbon asks, incredulously.
But Macaque pays no mind toward the question, clawing desperately through his drawers in search for the familiar rough fabric of his yellow and black hanfu. It was an article of clothing that the king had practically been raised in, and he’d made dozens of copies in the past few centuries if only to keep the original hanfu safely contained within his wardrobe.
On a normal day, Macaque would’ve hissed at the idea of wearing it outside, fearful the Heavens would take his boldness as a taunt to destroy it, but today was anything but normal.
His world was soon to end, and the king could care less for his hanfu’s safety as he dressed himself in red pants and a waistplate tied to his hips by a sash only a shade lighter than his pants. His iconic scarf is the next item to wrap around his neck, Macaque certain it’d match with the pale complexion of his fur.
(“Reds and yellows, bud, reds and yellows. Lemme tell ya, they’ll change your life!”)
He almost hesitates as his hand fastens around the decoration to coincide with his outfit: a gentle crown with leaves that’d been chain-linked together by little ones. It wasn’t a sturdy headpiece by any means, and it needed to be remade as least every three months, but Macaque had never minded such a fact.
The little ones were more than happy to remake him his crown and graciously bestow it upon his head with chants of, “Our king- our king-!”
“The world isn’t ending,” he manages to murmur whilst blindly adjusting his crown, his other free hand naturally clenched at the scarf around his neck. He knows that reds and yellows will never quite fit into his albino color scheme, but Macaque would be damned if he wasn’t draped in clothes that sang of nostalgia for his own king’s return.
He dares a glance at the mirror he’d previously leaned against his wardrobe and-
…and he pauses.
Because surely, that couldn’t be him?
It resembled him undoubtedly, the reflection standing with its own expression of shock and nostalgia as a hand lies frozen against its scarf. There’s even an awkward tilt in the leaf crown it wears, the gentle vegetation having given way to stray fur still tussled from sleep.
A glance toward his arm only confirms his fears, chest squeezing with an emotion he refuses to put a name to.
Gone is the familiar shade of white fur that Macaque had grown to adore amidst his centuries of life, replaced by a pelt bearing an almost navy shade of black.
It isn’t unlike the color of the sky just beyond his window, not quite able to be called black as though whatever deity had cursed him had taken into account the sun’s weak attempts to bring light to Earth.
He looks every bit the king he’d sworn himself to become- even adorned in colors that finally compliment the red masking around his eyes.
Macaque stares and what the fuck- what the fuck-? Why- this had to be His fault- He isn’t here by my side and it feels like a brand, get it off- get it off-
Èzuòjù’s tail flicks, hesitant in the corner of Macaque’s eyes and his mouth instinctively clicks open. It’s only habit as his mind combs desperately for something to say, anything to reassure the little one so blatantly unnerved by the scene.
But it proves to be pointless, his jaw clamping shut once more as a purple vortex pools beneath his feet. The shadows hiss with discontent, a second voice to Macaque’s blinding panic whilst they lash relentlessly at his ankles.
It isn’t until his ears flatten that Èzuòjù suddenly leaps from his state of uncertainty, hand outstretched as though to stop the other.
“Wait, Macaque-!”
But the king only falls blissfully into the familiar snare of his shadows, the temporary comfort that the portal brings short-lived as he’s spat violently somewhere amidst the cave system’s Eastern Tunnels. The spare shadows still lurking at his feet rumble with a silent fury, but for once the apathy his shadows seek appears only in the truth that their master could care less for the rebellious behavior.
He’d been long deserving of the ability to freak out, and today was the day he finally had a reason to do so.
After all, Macaque was nothing but a dead monkey desperate to breathe meaning and control into his final moments of life, certain he’s soon to become the very image of a dead king that Macaque had once proclaimed Wukong to of been.
The only difference will be a body to prove the other’s death.
“…que…!”
No, he doesn’t have the time to think about that. It was noon, and Wukong could very well burst through the waterfall at any moment, seeking any ounce of attention the island could afford.
The great sage might even demand a banquet at once and of course that’d leave no room for Macaque’s tongue to intervene, it never had before. Wukong would do anything to avoid confrontation that he’d inadvertently caused, including using the excuse of hunger like he used to amidst the Brotherhood.
“…caque…!”
His excitement may even gloss over the blatant evidence that a coup had taken place in Wukong’s absence; one orchestrated by his best friend nonetheless. The blissful peace that’d come with the sage’s oversight wouldn’t last though, especially with regard toward the fact that Macaque would refuse to let the little ones approach him.
Maybe he could…oh gods, do what?
Just turn the “Great Sage, Equal to Heaven” away the moment he attempts to step foot on the island?
The bastard would be furious.
“…slo…own…!”
…or maybe he wouldn’t. Wukong’s temper had always been something that’d needed to be fed and nurtured through mutual anger, surely that could be useful. Should Macaque at least attempt to remain calm and blunt, then the sage would have no room to be combative, right?
It wasn’t perfect, but gods was Macaque reaching desperately for straws- anything to preserve the prosperity he’d sworn to eternally gift Flower Fruit Mountain and the little ones.
Besides, Wukong wouldn’t dare do something drastic and violent against someone who’d protected his homeland for centuries, let alone his best friend. There’d be no need for him to summon his staff and-
“Macaque!”
The king freezes at an instant, terror striking behind his gaze as he searches frantically for whoever had called his name. There’s a flash of golden fur- one that looks a little too familiar -and Macaque almost shrieks amidst in his attempts to not stumble.
The suffocating blanket of panic quickly sheds to make way for guilt as he finds Èzuòjù staring, the gibbon’s eyes the size of rice bowls and his fur puffed out in clear concern.
His shadows must have teleported him not far from the confinements of his room, only forgiving enough to gift him a few seconds to breathe.
“Èzuòjù,” Macaque swallows, a hand to his chest if only to calm down its rapid beat. “You scared me.”
“I scared you?” the little one questions and Macaque can do nothing but weakly offer his arm for the gibbon to leap upon, a small olive branch that’s taken almost instantly. “What is going on? The sky’s black, you’re black, the world isn’t ending apparently, but you still disappeared on me, and are we going into lockdown or-?”
“Yes,” Macaque interrupts, lunging at the opportunity to escape the ontourage of questions bound to be sitting on the gibbon’s tongue. He could barely keep his own head straight, let alone try and answer Èzuòjù’s questions should they continue.
…but going into lockdown would be a good idea. It’d certainly keep the little ones far from whatever reaction Wukong could potentially have.
“Look,” he breathes, praying that he doesn’t sound as exasperated as he feels. “Long before you were born, the Jade Emperor foretold an event that’d occur amidst the next eclipse- today’s eclipse.”
“Eclipse-?”
“The sun and moon will merge together, and when they do, a…demon of sorts will appear on Flower Fruit Mountain.”
There’s a beat of silence and Macaque almost fears that the gibbon will claim the excuse to be as phony as his weak attempts to seem collected. Èzuòjù had always been good at that.
But the gibbon only stares a moment longer before his eyebrows knit. “What do you need from me?”
Heavens above, for all the grief he gives Èzuòjù, it’s moments like this that remind Macaque exactly why he doesn’t mind the little one’s mischievous antics.
“I need everyone in the Upper Tunnels of the Western Caves, and no matter what happens, they aren’t to leave. I’ll portal anyone I’m able to find in the Eastern Caves, but a mouth to explain the situation or at least warn others would be helpful.”
There’s only a firm nod before the gibbon scampers off, presumably to locate the desired caves and provide relief to whatever panicked brother needed it.
The crushing wave of relief at being alone once more collides oddly with the cautiously suppressed anger that’d been arising within Macaque’s stomach, a dangerous concoction of panic and frustration over the situation at hand.
Wukong was never meant to return, and it was such a fact that had gifted Macaque the boldness to ascend the throne in the first place.
Macaque might as well surrender his title of king anyway, now sharing more in common with a wife whose husband had come home early and was soon to catch her amidst her affair. For Heaven's sake, he was stumbling about the extensive cave system if only to portal away any little ones like a wife would her paramour.
It’s a measurement of safety, he tells himself if only to comfort his mind.
History was not one to take kindly to being rewritten, but two centuries had proven Macaque’s attempts to be a blinding success. He refuses to give Wukong yet another chance to ruin everything he’d done to protect both their subjects and the sage’s legacy of chaos.
It’d only take one stray slip of tongue for his life’s work to be uprooted. The little ones would learn that Wukong was in fact not deceased, and that Macaque had sworn the sage’s allegiance where it didn’t belong.
After all, Wukong had never proclaimed himself to be allied with the subjects of his mountain; it was only the pride that came with claiming ownership to a kingdom that he had entertained.
You are not ruining this, Macaque swears, and the mantra continues in his attempts to seek out any stray little ones.
It’s only once the panicked chatter of ape-speak settles toward the western side of the cave system that Macaque finds himself content pacing the Central Cave. It was a gracious clearing, full of vegetation and still bearing the same hut that Wukong had built nearly a millennium ago. If there was anywhere the sage would seek company first, it would be here, only a short journey from the cave’s initial entrance.
Macaque isn’t sure how long it takes for his theory to reign true, his ears flicking as the soft hiss of a cloud dissipates somewhere beyond the cave’s waterfall. Clumsiness writes itself in the heavy thrum of each step, the familiar sound not unlike if Macaque attempted to recognize someone’s handwriting.
The note of recklessness continues as the steps grow closer, and Macaque is certain that even if he lacked six ears, he’d still be able to hear the sheer weight behind the sage’s feet.
“Mihou!” that damned voice sings, not unlike a demon outstretching their hand in faux kindness. “Little ones! I’ve returned home!”
Home.
Macaque tries his hardest to chase the anxiety and bittersweet sorrow that laces his tongue, bidding his lips to remain firm in an expression of displeasure.
Perhaps in another life “Mihou” would’ve been all Wukong needed to say before Macaque would spring into chirps of glee, smiling fondly as little ones tackled their righteous king to the ground. Apologies would cascade from the sage’s mouth like a waterfall, and tearful laughter would consume his six ears as they attempted to make up for the time they’d regrettably lost in the other’s absence.
Faintly his mind traces another life, in which Wukong calls only out to the little ones, far too acquainted with the concept that Macaque would never again be able to step foot on Flower Fruit Mountain.
But such fantasies would never be the life Macaque could live within; they’d died the day that the ex-moon had been gifted a choice:
Mourn and daydream over the useless taunts of “what-if”, or focus on protecting the little ones and ensure the prosperity of their lives.
The decision was obvious, so both he and Flower Fruit Mountain had been forced to cut the strings of codependency that’d once kept them enthralled with their past king.
Wukong’s voice yells throughout the cave once more and Macaque hates how heavy the crown sitting atop his head has grown.
Wukong had never needed a crown to proclaim his status of king. His very essence exuded that of power, an ambitious conquest that Macaque had never found himself caring enough to venture toward. He wasn’t king through acts of bravery, nor because he’d inherited it righteously in the death of his best friend.
Macaque was only king because he’d been left to his own devices, and because the crown atop his head exclaimed that such a statement must be true.
A flash of gold finally peaks into the cave’s clearing, and Macaque swallows the desperate whine that’d made its home within his throat, forced into silence out of fear he’d call out for someone he’d sworn he’d buried nearly two centuries ago.
Wukong was meant to be dead and yet here he stood, uncharacteristically shy as he sought refuge behind a grand fern.
“Wukong.”
Said monkey’s head snaps to meet Macaque’s wide gaze, those familiar golden eyes crinkling into something akin to joy before they flee back toward the vibrant greenery in a nostalgic display of guilt and panic.
If not for the sombersome scene, Macaque is certain he would’ve smiled at how familiar the expression is, not unlike the reaction Wukong would have whenever Macaque smacked him upside the head for doing something stupid. It’d all been in good fun, amidst a fun when they’d all been so young and naive, too focused on lounging about and cracking jokes to worry themselves with immortality and power.
The clearing stills, and for a moment, he fears that they’ll both continue the awkward stalemate.
But the anxiety on Wukong’s face quickly falls apart, giving way to a quizzical expression as their eyes meet once more. The sage isn’t unlike a rabbit as he bounds forward, Macaque’s rule of personal space forgotten in Wukong’s eagerness to get a closer look at the newly-turned-black monkey.
“Something's…different about you,” the great sage begins, ever-so-observant as Macaque tries not to squirm beneath his gaze. He doesn’t care to denote the uncomfortable stance of the celestial monkey, springing up dramatically as he chitters with excitement. “Oh, I know! C’mon, bud, even I’d be able to tell you’ve dyed your fur. Kinda miss the grey, though.”
“White,” Macaque corrects, far from amused.
“Pfft, same thing.”
Well, Macaque supposes there is one thing he could always trust Wukong to do; disappoint him time and time again.
“Fun crown, too. The little ones manage to strangle you into it?”
And how could he forget Wukong’s habit of releasing tension through attempts to embarrass those around him?
“No, actually,” Macaque grits, trying his hardest to maintain poise. The crown had been a thoughtful gift bestowed upon him, and as much as the thought made his six ears turn red, Macaque felt much more at-ease wearing it in the face of his past king.
(“You deserve to be king,” the crown sang, sitting content atop his fur. “You wouldn’t of been given it otherwise.”)
“It was a gift. They missed having a king, so…”
So they’d wrapped Macaque in the finest jewelry and armor of Wukong’s treasury, completing his coronation with a carefully weaved crown and Macaque’s now infamous red scarf, whose unique red hue was the result of a dye from the flowers of Flower Fruit Mountain and a few feathers that’d been “borrowed” from a Phoenix.
“That’s adorable,” Wukong grins, an almost knowing expression on his face. “Ya’ think they’ll make me one if I ask them?”
“I didn’t have to ask for mine.”
“Is that a no, or?”
“It’s a no.”
“…it’s my turn, then.”
And Wukong bows, his chest low to the ground as though he were expecting for the crown to be transferred onto his head.
Oh, Macaque realizes, dumbly. Wukong does expect the crown.
His heart makes an ugly snarl, but the sound that comes from his throat is nothing but unkempt laughter. Quickly he swipes a claw at the tears forming at his eyes, if only to keep the salty water from dampening his fur. “You expect me to give you my crown?”
“I mean, every king does need a crown, doesn’t he? C’mon, Mac, just share this once-”
Wukong lunges and adrenaline collides violently with the blood cells running through Macaque’s veins. His brain feels as though it’d been dowsed by the ice-cold bucket of panic, falling into a state of defense even despite the fact the Wukong had clearly aimed only for the crown.
A furious shriek beats Macaque to the punch, fangs entering the scene before being followed closely by the harsh sound of Wukong screeching.
Macaque blinks once, vision clearing to reveal the “Great Sage” himself flailing his arm like a helpless infant and Èzuòjù’s fangs sunken deep into scarred flesh.
“Let go!” Wukong shrieks in Mandarin, and Macaque knows damn well that Èzuòjù understands the command.
After all, the gibbon had been the one to demand that Macaque teach him Mandarin in the first place, now well-educated in translating the language despite the fact that Èzuòjù’s vocal cords would never enable the gibbon to speak it.
Wukong is pleading on deaf ears, as the king of Flower Fruit Mountain has yet to demand the gibbon to release his prey.
It isn’t until Macaque extends his own arm that the gibbon returns to his righteous king’s side, snarling once toward Wukong before settling down at Macaque’s shoulders.
“Little one,” Wukong whines, exasperated as he cradles his wounded arm, and the noise feels…odd as it bounces against Macaque’s thrumming eardrums. It’s a form of ape-speak that the king hadn’t heard in over seven centuries, old but blatantly familiar dripping from the sage’s tongue.
Heavens above, Wukong hadn’t even attempted to keep up with the rapidly changing dialect of his mother tongue.
It’d been at least a handful of centuries since “little one” had turned into the gentle chirp of “little one”.
“I thought I told you to stay with the others,” Macaque begins, forcing himself to ignore Wukong’s noise of confusion. Perhaps if the “Great Sage” had put effort into his own mother tongue, then he’d have the right to tune into the conversation. “What if they come searching for you?”
“They won’t,” Èzuòjù huffs, teeth still bared but certainly not toward Macaque. “And who-? Is that the demon? He could’ve done something if I hadn’t appeared!”
“He woulda just stolen my crown for a moment,” Macaque murmurs in a desperate attempt to diffuse the situation. “He wouldn’t have hurt me.”
Still, Macaque finds himself doubtful of his own words. After all, Wukong had still yet to understand the reason behind Èzuòjù’s aggression.
“Mihou,” the sage complains. “You better be reprimanding him for biting me.”
“Of course, Your Majesty,” Macaque rolls his eyes before gently petting at the fur surrounding Èzuòjù’s face. “But I’m glad you bit him, I was seconds away from doing it myself.”
“That does not look like reprimanding.”
“You deserved it,” Macaque shrugs. “Don’t try and swipe what isn’t yours.”
“But I’m the king! I’m in need of a crown.”
“The King of Flower Fruit Mountain already wears one,” Macaque hums, bowing his head slightly if only to allow Èzuòjù to try and straighten the tussled crown. “I don’t think I see any other kings in need of one.”
Wukong freezes, and for a heartbeat Macaque almost expects to be punched, even with a little one crouched on his shoulders.
But the Great Sage only stares with wide, uncertain eyes. “You wouldn’t-”
“Èzuòjù,” Macaque interrupts, his voice uncharacteristically harsh as his ape-speak blends into Mandarin. “This is not a conversation for you to hear.”
Èzuòjù’s eyes almost match that of Wukong’s, though a deeper shade of concern versus betrayal runs rampid. “But, Macaque-”
The gibbon is given no further chance to speak, quickly whisked into a vortex that’d put the little one with his siblings in the Western Tunnels. This fight would not be Èzuòjù’s to hear nor attempt to interfere with.
“You’ve been gone for several centuries,” Macaque continues, quickly dismissing the bitterness that’d threatened to lace his words. “Y’know, when you told me to do anything to protect Flower Fruit Mountain, I took it to heart.”
“I didn’t think that meant ‘take the throne’!” Wukong gapes, throat raspy with what Macaque can only hope is disbelief and not strain from attempting ape-speak.
“Oh, of course,” he agrees and now he allows sarcasm to drip from his tongue. “‘Suppose I was just meant to, y’know, keep it warm and then lay down like a good dog, yeah? ‘Heel, Mihou, your king has returned’!”
The words taste as bitter as Macaque recalls them to be, still clear in his mind despite them having been uttered nine centuries ago when they were still on good terms with the brotherhood. He only has Wukong to blame, who’d never let his companion live down the embarrassment he’d caused during one of their many meetings.
Amidst his own exhaustion, Macaque had accidentally stolen Wukong’s seat at the end of the table, a mistake that the table had at first brushed aside. After all, the closeness of the two monkeys could easily explain this odd occurence to of been planned.
Macaque would sit in Wukong’s seat, and Wukong in Macaque’s.
Alas, there’d been a soft croon of “Aww, Mihou, keeping it warm just for little ol’ me? No worries, your king has returned-” before the table realized that the white monkey had indeed made a genuine mistake, bursting into laughter whilst shades of red painted Macaque’s face and ears.
His expression hardens.
“I refuse to kneel before you again.”
“But I am still your king,” Wukong deflects, bold. “And this is still our home.”
“I wouldn’t say that,” Macaque shrugs, nearly shocking himself with how nonchalant his taunts sound. It’s a stark contrast to the consistent stutter his heart bears and he’s almost grateful that Wukong doesn’t share his enhanced hearing. “It took centuries, but Flower Fruit Mountain doesn’t remember you anymore. At least, not as anything but their island’s first king, who’s long gone in history. You can’t remain here and call it home.”
Wukong’s smirk is nothing but teeth, lips curled into an ugly expression of gloat. “So, you’re, what? Banishing me from my own kingdom?”
“Yeah.”
Heavens above, Macaque almost swoons over the way the sage’s smug expression drops into something more masked and deadly.
“Don’t be cruel,” Wukong growls. “You’re being cruel.”
I’m terrified, he instinctively corrects. Not cruel.
Wukong merely could not stay on Flower Fruit Mountain. Macaque had built a life that the island’s prior king could not be apart of.
Macaque’s ears flatten. Perhaps he was being cruel.
But who would cruelty’s mother be if not terror?
“Your stupidity and absence killed this island- killed me before I ascended the throne,” Macaque reports, his tail rigid as he stares at the ape he’d sworn he’d buried. No, he thinks, he’d only buried the memory of Wukong amidst his begging to the Heavens that the bastard would never return.
But an eclipse rages on just beyond the curtained waterfall.
And Macaque’s fur will never be white again, forever branded by Wukong’s misdeeds.
“For centuries I called for you, begging the stars to let you return to Flower Fruit Mountain once again, but never once did you heed my call,” he tsks, “You stood tall, strong as ever in the face of freedom, even as I mourned the very thought of you.”
And Macaque hates how his own conscious yearns to protect Wukong’s mistakes, with screams that selflessness and vulnerability had never been the melted rivers of iron that Wukong’s strength was forged within. Neither was it true that kindness was the native tongue the “Great Sage” could conjugate the words of with ease.
Only the familiar sensation of anger could appease Wukong in the face of confrontation, like a heron poised but still ever-so irritated in its wait for prey to arrive.
But unlike the common tale between a heron and fish, Macaque does not quiver nor dart beneath the venomous stare of death itself, standing tall and arrogant as Wukong does before him.
He cared not for the sage’s opinion on that fact that Flower Fruit Mountain was now Macaque’s to protect, and whether such protection was against outside demands or the island’s own previous king would never matter; Macaque would rather face death itself than forfeit his centuries of work.
“I haven’t killed you,” Wukong breathes, voice an inch from being a hiss as his shoulders sit strained with what Macaque can assume is the thin lacing of desperation. “If I had, you’d already be haunting me. In death you would have followed me, taking any form- moon or shadow -just to argue and speak with me.”
And like a newborn fawn, Wukong lurches forward, a hand clenching tightly over his chest as though he were soon to burst into laughter. “It’s in life that you refuse to follow me. You’ve agreed to abandon me and try to banish me from our home.”
Ironic, for Wukong to claim he’d been the one thrown aside.
Macaque stands firm, gaze unwavering. “The ‘Great Sage’ doesn’t need me to find some other island to conquer. Your lust for power has already settled any domain of this realm yours to take.”
There’s a beat of silence, and a vicious snarl hovers atop Wukong’s lips.
Perhaps in another life, amidst the gentle mantras of tranquility and suffrage, Wukong would have paused to acknowledge his misdeeds and agreed it to be best that he found a new kingdom to proclaim as his own. Or perhaps in another life this situation would have never existed, as Wukong chose to live his days peacefully on Flower Fruit Mountain instead of daring to wreak havoc on the Heavens.
But Macaque can only mourn for what could have been, for in this life Wukong was still a creature birthed with the knowledge he’d need to fight his way through life, a mantra that’d grown him obsessed with sneaking past the title of “distrustful and cunning” and proclaiming the words to be sisters of “ambition”.
Macaque knows well that Wukong is an unstoppable force that now stands firmly before an immovable rock, one not unlike the one Wukong had destroyed the moment he was born.
Today will be the day legends will speak of, the Heavens concede, safe from the sage’s wrath amidst the clouds. They’ll pass stories of the rivalry that’d caused the obsessive relation between shadow and host.
For if the Great Sage, an Equal of the Heavens, could not have his moon by his side, then he would have him forever in his shadow, lying in wait for his righteous king to order him about.
Today, Macaque would learn the true sensation of dying, if only to return and haunt Wukong at every turn.
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icewindandboringhorror · 25 days ago
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A beautiful summer flower has bloomed ~
#cats#mr. flower boye......#ggr... so busy this past week.. I've had no time for literally anything.. Or like.. I just feel like#my to-do lists keep passing me by. I'll have 10 things on my list in the morning. then I can only cross off like 3 things by the end of the#day. so the 7 other things just roll over to the next day. again and again. piling up.#I think part of it is just I'm so bad at estimating how long a task will take. Like I finally finished that Crafting Vlog type video thing.#and I was reviewing it on youtube and i noticed that some of the automatic captions were wrong. So I was like 'oh hee hee I'll just go in#and change them quickly!'. Which is is a full hour long video (oops) but like.. oh my god.. EVEN working with the auto captions#as a base (so I'm mostly editing - not typing from scratch) - I think in total it took me like... 6 hours? or possibly even more?? It didn'#even take me that long to edit the video lol... So that's one of those things#where I'd put it on my list for monday - then it ends up taking actually mutliple days - so I finish it on Thursday or something instead#and everything else gets pushed back. etc. etc. -_-#Or like how my game was supposed to be done LAST year.. haha.. hehe... lol even...#But I think I have less like.. External obligations this week (like appointments and calls and emails and bills and etc) so...#hopefully that doesn't change and I can kind of have a less interrupted focus.#I am in a bit of a pain flare up though.. I'm still not unpacked (GRRRR...) from moving so I think I really need to at least fully set up#my desk and stuff. the way I've been sleeping and working on the computer is probably not good for my already evil joints. I have#only slept in my actual bed like.. once?? since I moved about a month ago. I've been sleeping on the floor other than that. and I#don't have my monitor set up fully so I've had to just sit at the computer when usually I can stand sometimes when sitting becomes#uncomfortable.. .. anyway#I found that rug at The Bins like evrytjhing else I own. which is COOL. because like.. rugs are apparently super expensive??#especially specialty ones that are colored fancy or shaped like things.. I bet that rug was like $90 or something new.#I always feel a liiiitle weird about getting stuff like that from the bins since like.. what if there were bugs or mold in it. but I think#when I first got it I let it sit in a trashbag for like 2 months and then cleaned it and aired it out or something lol#I'm also really trying to focus on sculptures and costumes again. it's just hard to balance with working full time on my game. but#I need to.. I really don't think I'll make any money from my game. but I CAN sell sculptures and clothes soo... erm... with the current#economic situation I feel pressure to shift gears into things that are more ''useful''. or at least like.. try and balance those in more#than I am now.. SIGH.. So like.. sorry.. if I start posting trying to promote my game or sculptures or something LOL.. i hate marketing#SOOO much like it's so unbearable to me.. gods... The Asocial Hermit Hurdle Of All Time.. hgbhjbj... ANYWAY...#... sleepy. oughh... not much energy to say things.. but! .. son boy images... the rug compliments his color :3
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pickaropoprocks · 3 months ago
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Day 96!! Deltarune TODAY!!
#papr daily#mafukasa#do we see the mafukasa krerdly vision#I'm addiction to shoving Pandemonium everywhere so it's Shizuku=Noelle Airi=Susie and Rui=Ralsei in this one#eyestrain#I think the ironic part of this drawing. I never actually beat Snowgrave#I got cooked on Spamton NEO for fiveever and gave up 😞#Unsurprisingly I am NOT that good at videogames#at least not Deltarune because I think I tried a new semi-completionist run last year and kept getting massacred on the Jevil fight#but WHATEVER!!!!!!!!! this is why playthroughs exist (guy who has yet to watch a Deltarune playthrough because HE HAS THE GAME HE JUST HAS#TO PLAY IT) but anyways#gn chat :D#unfortunately not much progress done in terms of swap!au I only colored the first character of the MMJ unit (rest'll be smooth sailing tho)#and didn't work on any lining for the remaining 7#BUT IN MY DEFENSE!!!!!!!!! I had really bad migraines the first half of the day and recently my top right eyelid got really swollen (the#bottom lid has been swollen since December 2024 in a sty that never went away) so I tried using warm compressions but ehhhhhhhhhhhh#and then we used some wood we had lying around to drill in two little shelves in my wall so my desk isn't so cluttered :3#“shelves” is kinda pushing the envelope these are quite literally two separate planks of wood pretty much drilled into the wall#but yeah :3 I also got the two characters I had on artfight last year updated today since their designs are entirely diff from last year!!!#I'll probably get the other 4 characters I have up soon but they won't have proper ref pages for a bit..........#My artfight is under the same user if you wanna check it out :3 /notforcedIprommy#but anwyays :3#PROCEED.
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I'm still working on this btw. Chipping away at it one little panel at a time 🥲
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orcelito · 14 days ago
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Reread a portion of ladue chapter 3 (the 18k words (yes it's 18k and not 17k like I thought) that have been in WIP purgatory for 2.5 years now) bc i might use it for applying to that akeshu writers zine and
Man. Man. There's a reason why this scene came to mind. And it's bc it's Good As Fuck. I really should've been going to sleep an hour ago but I really wanted to read this. Really wanna read the scene after too, but I cant stay up any longer. But just. MAN......
Tfw u read ur own WIP and ur like "good fucking god i need to release this to the world ASAP". Like ladue doesnt have a big following so idk how many people would even actually read it when I release it. But for those who do. It is a gift for them. And something id wanna do for myself, too. Bc it has bothered me *immensely* to just be sitting on 18k words of some of my best writing. For 2.5 *years*.
Just need to finish up the last scene, and then I could post it. Year Of Finishing Things, one goal was to finish this chapter. Maybe ill even try to do that soon-ish.
#speculation nation#ladue shit#this being for my fic 'libero a due' for anyone unfamiliar with it#the fic i had big dreams for and that forever haunts me#idk whether itll ever be what i wanted it to be in full. but i think it will continue to haunt me until i finish it.#beyond finishing up this chapter 3... i have to wonder whether i could do a... shorter version of the rest of the fic's events?#ive gotten better at being succinct in my writing in the years since. maybe i Could figure out a way to capture it.#finish up the fic in a total of 4 or 5 chapters. like overall for the fic. ideally 4 tho.#i want to finish it. i Need to finish it. this fic that not many people care about. it has still haunted me so much.#maybe i could even finish the fic in the name of Year Of Finishing Things. not just the chapter.#tho im running shorter on time to do so than id like 😂😂😂 but we'll see.#i also have itnl and dad vash au commitments too. so i dont wanna get too deep into this.#but. just. i really really want to finally finish this fic. for myself. and for the me of four years ago.#god and this isnt even getting into the Summer Nights WIP. i hate that it's still only 1 chapter.#i dont wanna be the kind of writer that can never finish any fucking multichapter fic#bc my main fics are so long that they never end. and my side fics are In Theory shorter but get shelved in favor of main fics#to this day the only multichapter fic ive finished is. oh actually Ghosting exists too. but mostly Sentido#bc Ghosting technically isnt finished. bc theres a whole big part 2 i wanna write someday for it.#so Sentido is the only one that's like. Done done. everything else is in WIP purgatory.#i dont wanna be a writer that never ever finishes things 😭😭😭😭 i NEED to start changing things around here.#and i think ladue could be a good thing to focus on that. and also dad vash au and itnl.#still no discacc (sorry readers) just bc thats a huge undertaking that im not ready to return to yet#but. i truly do want to apply myself to my WIPs i already have out. no more new fics!!!! i need to continue what's out first!!!!!#probably wont be able to 100% stick to that lol but still. i'll try. i really want to try.
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skrunksthatwunk · 6 months ago
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so i didn't finish the paper on time but on the plus side i Almost know how to play mahjong now
#im like 8 volumes into kaiji pt 3#which is 50 chapters deeper than i was the day before#anyway it's good but im definitely going to it as part of a sluggish avert mine eyes type dopamine struggle#i also havent slept well in a few days and ive become a total baby when it comes to that like i Cant function right anymore#when im a certain amount of tired#the like 12 hours in the car this weekend didn't help with the good restful sleep thing#i fought and fought and fought myself and in the end it's just gonna be a day late. mot that it had to be but it will be#and although i can't see the prof's late work policy i think that's gonna be okay. hopefully#but ughhtjhfhhghjghj im so tired still. ive been sleeping in like 20 min fragments trying to get this done#just woke up from a cool three hours and im (believe it or not) still tired#i havent done the 40 pg reading and i am NOT bullshitting my way through that class i am going. to bed#i know i shouldnt but i cant care rn i'll drag myself to japn and do late work all afternoon but i gotta sleep between those#anyway fukum.oto has a special way of making kaiji cringe that makes me extra fond#like watching kaiji scramble around on the floor trying to find his tiles absolutely freaking out and everyone laughing at him#was so good. he was being too confident this arc he needed to be reduced to smth horribly pitiful that he has to drag himself back together#from y'know? thats part of the fun#ANYWAY i couldn't do that shit kaiji and miyoshi are doing for many reasons but the attention span sure is one#also idk if it's the translation or what but the r slur keeps jumpscaring me in ways that are funny to me for the absurdity#thats a chapter title??? that Doesn't Belong in the chapter title??????!!! anyway#yk when you're so surprised and put off by smth you just. cackle about it? like laughing at a funeral or whatever#it's like that#buh. anyway god im so tired#ive been doing so well this semester but it looks like it's starting. the snowballing.#well hopefully i can dig myself out today after a 14 hr nap. get all that late work And my readings done yk#(<- pipe dream alert pipe dream alert)
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taniushka12 · 1 year ago
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there needs to be more Barry fics fr fr fr, I know the last time he appeared in game was 12 years ago but cmon, he is So important
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sadlittleratboy · 1 year ago
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Put down my cat late last night. She was old, around my age (24) and I've had her basically my whole life. I miss that rage beast already. She died comfortably in my arms at least. As long as I was holding her she seemed happy. I held her the entire 40 minute drive to the emergency vet and four 2 hours prior, and I held her during the hour and a half wait for it to all be over. She loved being held, and she even started feeling better enough to purr right before the end. I almost put a stop to it all and took her home because she was feeling a little better, but I knew it would happen again. It seemed like she was ready to go anyway. I feel like I left a big chunk of me in that clinic. When I get her back she'll be ashes. I've had to put down a pet before (just three years ago) and though I loved him I hadn't had him for half the time I had her. She cuddled me to sleep every night. She demanded my attention every second I was home. Even with my other two cats seemingly understanding that I need them more than ever right now it's not enough.
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keeps-ache · 1 year ago
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ggghhg i hate vehiclessssssss ghghghhghhhhh [dies dies dies forever]
#just me hi#i'm going to get right back to it but i need to complain or i'll turn into a stale loaf of Bread lmao :3👍#so here it is. why's it gotta be so hard hhghfh#okay buildings suck i hate buildings. but also they don't make me want to immediately explode at the merest hint of actually drawing them#vehicles?? Vehicles ???? i am going to just. what if i just put everyone in magical cardboard boxes and did that huh. what is the point !!#i have to draw motorcyclessss and carssssss and i'm okay with bikes to a degree actually <3 and horsessssssss and truckssssssssssss#god forbid you pick an older model with like 20 articles on it cuz most of them are going to only have a side profile and 3/4s view of that#dang thing. which yea sounds manageable 'why is this a problem keeps' i cannot properly see the FRONT#i have to guess?? i have to Guess ???? my dearest wish i think i'm just going to live in the sewers. with the sewer creatures#GGHHHHHHHHHHHH#i am going to practice drawing this stupid thing that i'm going to use for like 7 panels MAX and then i'm going to commit a FOUL crime. lik#rearranging someone's usual playlist without them knowing so they're confused every time they listen to it afterwards#//okay enough of that. we're good hbfhsfh :3#i have done other things today ! i've actually made a rough timeline for pi.e so thaaaat's cool :D#that and found a cool artist to follow on pillowfort. i. forgor their user but they have cool art .w.#/also i'm past the halfway mark on this first chapter which is !!!#i don't want to jinx myself cuz i know i'm really good at that hfhsv - but i think i'll start storyboarding the next part if i can get a#couple more pages done :D#//also the cowboy au grows stronger everyday hhhgfshvbh#i kind of knew some sort of au was inevitable but i did not think it would be an old west one loll :3#still trying to figure out the logistics#i wanna find some good historical fiction from those eras (1860s-70s) but i do not have the brain space for it rn fbhs - so this will do :>#it won't have any of the magic or gods i think bc of that but i'm having fun regardless :D#it Does have some occult though. because i was playing the story for my brother and i Do enjoy scaring him hhbvhfhsfvh#there are devils on the ranch!! or are they devils?? he hasn't gotten that far yet lol :>#//i also may have some sort of weird lean towards the spooky because Somehow each of my stories end up containing some sort of thriller#element?? lmao rip my siblings#but it never happens on purpose. again; rip my siblings hfhhvsh#//oo running out of tag space lol <//3#i shall return. probably with more wip stuff cuz i started like 4 canvases in 2 days hhghghdvs - toodles !!
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icewindandboringhorror · 24 days ago
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(person who hasn't made a video in like 4 years) Erm.. hiii... vaguely crafting related video be upon ye... :3c
#or more like... 40% crafting 60% just rambling about literally whatever in an extremely disorganized manner lol..#the term “craft” being used loosely to include pretty much anything. from assembling a miniature diorama kit to doing actual#digital art for my game. Basically just anything vaguely creative or effortfull in some way..#I like making game videos better and I still want to get back to those (on top of everything ELSE I have to do.. uAGGHH..)#but this was like.........ok. I was going to say fun but I guess it wasn't fun. I think it's fun to RECORD. like 'oooh yeee#crafting and stuff hooray!!' but then comes the editing and all the other parts... which end up feeling more tedious and no longer#as enjoyable. mostly because they always take longer than I'd expect. So by the end all joy has been replaced with 'HRGHH I COULD#HAVE DONE 800 other things with the 10 hours i spent on this!!!'#But that's not unique to videos. I feel that way about pretty much everything since I feel always in a rush to do as much as possible#so ... lol.. *shrug*#ANYWAY.. Maybe as i try to get into more sculptures and stuff I can make more sculpting videos to go along with them. NOT like#this one. but like the other ones Ihave on the same channel. that are more short .. and simple...#And my worldbuilding videos... ouuuhhh...... the 6 hour long uploads lol. they're unlisted though at the moment..#I'm possibly editing the timeline and date of some events in the world so.. I guess I'll have to make a revision video#maybe once all the videos are done I can do one at the end like 'breif updates'. Annoying but it'd be way harder to take the whole 6hr vid#down and reopload it.. so.. :3 Such is the nature of an ever evolving setting which is still being worked on.. alas.#Oh and to the anon who sent a question about asking 'whats in my bag' like twice now. hello. I did get the ask. I just am very behind on#my inbox as always. And thats not something I'd answer through text. maybe I can make an updated video. I did have a 'whats in my bag'#video like.. 8 years ago or something lol.. But like most of my older videos it's private now. But since the same ask was sent twice a few#weeks apart I just wanted to clarify that it DID send.#okay anyway..... now I need to just work on my game for 8 days straight since too much of my time the past week has been taken#up by either this video or medical appointments... ghrhgghhh
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pickaropoprocks · 3 months ago
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Day 93!! Happy Pride!!
#papr daily#mafukasa#some hcs that are very important to me :3 (agender Mafuyu and aroace Tsukasa btw)#Like Tsukasa!!!! I do like the bit of “if not aroace why aroace colored?” for hcing him as such (his 2024 bday card is literally the#aroace flag and just generally you can colorpick the flag from him in most images) but it does go a lot deeper#I highly resonate with him finding romance boring/being uninterested in it (as seen with him removing romance in every story they adapt)#since that's how I grew up being!! And even now I do find myself more interested in a story if romance is entirely out of the equation!!#growing up not liking romance and especially just never having a crush is a rather alienating experience if I'm being so fr#“who do you like :)” asked by everyone really but if you say “no one” you're lying???? fucked up#I strongly believe Tsukasa is so aroace-coded (whether intentionally so or not) even in his actual management of romance!!!!#He still keeps the romantic aspect of Romeo and Juliet in the first ever cultural festival event BUT it is not as important as the action#which is something at least I can relate to as an aroace creator? Where even the pairs I make intending for their to be a romance/romantic#undertones it's STILL not the most important aspect of their relationship by FARRRRR (cough Goldenlily cough iykyk (only Grey knows))#and in the Wondershow Valentine's Day special live where he tries to brag about getting chocolates from girls#it feels (imo) really forced? Considering other dialogue I'll get to later? but it seems like something that I personally haven't done but#I know is somewhat of a common experience in the aro/ace communities of trying to overcompensate/force yourself to feel a certain way#to match your peers? E.g. pretending you have a crush on a specific person when you don't#it kinda feels like that to me + a little bit of wanting to seem more popular with his peers than he is but that's unrelated#and then the most relatable moment ever in Pandemonium when Tsukasa doesn't understand why one of his classmates being popular#with girls is a big deal (which directly contradicts the mindset he has in the aforementioned live) and like!!!!!#“So what? He's just interacting normally with his classmates” ME EVERY TIME I FAIL TO RECOGNIZE ROMANCE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME#If you asked me to tell you who is likely to be in/to become part of a romantic relationship I would fail no matter how close I am to the#person like unless it is said TO MY FACE I will NEVER see it coming (speaking from many many experiences)#anywsys Tsukasa aroace realness this is my propaganda (/silly y'all can have whatever hcs you want as long as it isn't illegal/harmful and#as long as y'all are respectful to other hcs and don't speak over people trying to share theirs)#but yeah!!!!! Agender Mafuyu is 100% a more simple story LMAO#back when I had Insta I had the very poor decision-making to follow a prsk opinion account (tho it honestly wasn't ALL bad)#BUT!!!!!!!!! There Was A Post#where someone said that they hced Mafuyu as agender and like.#They defined agender as (very much paraphrasing here btw) someone who essentially would rather be seen just as an individual
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hi fox!!!
hope you’ve made it through the nasty weather okay!
i’m popping in because i’ve finally had another sleep token dream!!! i missed having the eepy boys in my brain 🥹
i must be getting antsy about seeing them in may because i dreamt that i was at my concert! i got barricade (manifesting that for real plsssss) on iii’s side of the stage.
at one point iii walked over to vessel then shouted at the crowd and i thought he sounded scottish? then i’m not sure what pulled my attention but i clearly missed iii climbing off the stage because next thing i knew he was at barricade and right in front of me! it was once again intimidating to have him right there in front of me lol, but it was also sooooooo exciting! lots of fun haha
anyways. that’s all for now! i’m in my final two weeks of university and have to go finish a paper now 🙈
Hihi Exie!!
Sorry I missed this ask completely (gonna blame it on my notifs being booped, they where still whacky on the 2nd as well, lmao).
Oh, thats a really fun one!! I will keep my fingers crossed that you get barricade too, though I think if any of them were right there in front of me I'd short circuit, I would blue screen and it would show on my face lmao.
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sysig · 1 year ago
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Your Weekly TV Guide
On Monday you can expect:
2:30 PM: Original - Concept art
And Tuesday:
2:30 PM: The Stanley Parable
Wednesday:
2:30 PM: Mob Psycho 100
Thursday:
2:30 PM: MP100
Friday:
2:30 PM: Star Control II - Helix
Saturday:
2:30 PM: Dragon Quest IX
Sunday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
Thanks for tuning in! (Patreon)
#Weekly TV Guide#What a balanced week :) Don't worry about next week yet don't even worry about it lol#Lots of silliness this week :D#Some kinda-sorta scratchy in that semi-finished/untoned way#Oh y'know what's funny? It's not gonna show up for a bit down the queue yet but lol#So anyone following me for a while - especially on VLH - knows that I doodle with my favourite .5 mechanical pencil#I've had it since I was in school and it Shows lol it is Old and Worn In#And then when I got my .3s that was all I used for like a year - I draw tiny and they feel Wonderful to draw with#But then I started to miss the richness of lines that my .5 can make so I switched back over#Well. You'll never guess what's happened again lol#I do still use my .3s in my alt notebook but I haven't been drawing much in my alt lately! Talking like one doodles a month!#And as is evident I am not a one and done doodle kind of person lol I like to make like fifteen in a given day#So I guess I've been missing it lol - it's so good for detailwork and soft shapes and shading! Feels so delicate <3#My shapes have been feeling weird lately - general construction-wise style-wise y'know - and with my .3 it all just flows so nicely#I get so stubborn about Only Using The Correct Tool but like - I have multiple tools for a reason! Pfft#I'm having fun that's the important part haha I'll point some of them out when they post#Oddly enough it's actually kind of hard for even me to tell the difference by sight - it's much more a tactile feedback thing! How strange ♪
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coollyinterferes · 2 years ago
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wild-aspen · 1 year ago
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I have made you a chart. A very simple chart.
People say "You have to draw the line somewhere, and Biden has crossed it-" and my response is "Trump has crossed way more lines than Biden".
These categories are based off of actual policy enacted by both of these men while they were in office.
If the ONLY LINE YOU CARE ABOUT is line 12, you have an incredible amount of privilege, AND YOU DO NOT CARE ABOUT PALESTINIANS. You obviously have nothing to fear from a Trump presidency, and you do not give a fuck if a ceasefire actually occurs. You are obviously fine if your queer, disabled, and marginalized loved ones are hurt. You clearly don't care about the status of American democracy, which Trump has openly stated he plans to destroy on day 1 he is in office.
EDIT:
Ok fine, I spent 3 hours compiling sources for all of these, you can find that below the cut.
I'll give at least one link per subject area. There are of course many more sources to be read on these subject areas and no post could possibly give someone a full education on these subjects.
Biden and trans rights: https://www.hrc.org/resources/president-bidens-pro-lgbtq-timeline
Trump and trans rights: https://www.aclu.org/news/lgbtq-rights/trump-on-lgbtq-rights-rolling-back-protections-and-criminalizing-gender-nonconformity
The two sources above show how Biden has done a lot of work to promote trans rights, and how Trump did a lot of work to hurt trans rights.
Biden on abortion access: https://www.cnn.com/2022/07/08/politics/what-is-in-biden-abortion-executive-order/index.html
Trump on abortion access: https://apnews.com/article/abortion-trump-republican-presidential-election-2024-585faf025a1416d13d2fbc23da8d8637
Biden openly supports access to abortion and has taken steps to protect those rights at a federal level even after Roe v Wade was overturned. Trump, on the other hand, was the man who appointed the judges who helped overturn Roe v Wade and he openly brags about how proud he is of that decision. He also states that he believes individual states should have the final say in whether or not abortion is legal, and that he trusts them to "do the right thing", meaning he supports stronger abortion bans.
Biden on environmental reform: https://www.whitehouse.gov/briefing-room/statements-releases/2021/10/07/fact-sheet-president-biden-restores-protections-for-three-national-monuments-and-renews-american-leadership-to-steward-lands-waters-and-cultural-resources/
Trump on environmental reform: https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2020/climate/trump-environment-rollbacks-list.html
Biden has made major steps forward for environmental reform. He has restored protections that Trump rolled back. He has enacted many executive orders and more to promote environmental protections, including rejoining the Paris Accords, which Trump withdrew the USA from. Trump is also well known for spreading conspiracy theories and lies about global climate change, calling it a "Chinese hoax".
Biden on healthcare and prescription reform: https://www.hhs.gov/about/news/2023/06/09/biden-administration-announces-savings-43-prescription-drugs-part-cost-saving-measures-president-bidens-inflation-reduction-act.html
Trump on healthcare reform: https://www.cnn.com/2024/01/07/politics/obamacare-health-insurance-ending-trump/index.html
I'm rolling healthcare and prescriptions and vaccines and public health all into one category here since they are related. Biden has lowered drug costs, expanded access to medicaid, and ACA enrollment has risen during his presidency. He has also made it so medical debt no longer applies to a person's credit score. He signed many executive orders during his first few weeks in office in order to get a handle on Trump's grievous mishandling of the COVID pandemic. Trump also wants to end the ACA. Trump is well known for refusing to wear a mask during the pandemic, encouraging the use of hydroxylchloroquine to "treat" COVID, and being openly anti-vaxx.
Biden on student loan forgiveness: https://www.ed.gov/news/press-releases/biden-harris-administration-announces-additional-77-billion-approved-student-debt-relief-160000-borrowers
Trump on student loan forgiveness: https://www.forbes.com/sites/adamminsky/2024/06/20/trump-knocks-bidens-vile-student-loan-forgiveness-plans-suggests-reversal/
Trump wants to reverse the student loan forgiveness plans Biden has enacted. Biden has already forgiven billions of dollars in loans and continues to work towards forgiving more.
Infrastructure funding:
I'm putting these links next together because they are all about infrastructure.
In general, Trump's "achievements" for infrastructure were to destroy environmental protections to speed up projects. Many of his plans were ineffective due to the fact that he did not clearly outline where the money was going to come from, and he was unwilling to raise taxes to pay for the projects. He was unable (and unwilling) to pass a bipartisan infrastructure bill during his 4 years in office. He did sign a few disaster relief bills. He did not enthusiastically promote renewable energy infrastructure. He created "Infrastructure Weeks" that the federal government then failed to fund. Trump did not do nothing for infrastructure, but his no-tax stance and his dislike for renewable energy means the contributions he made to American infrastructure were not as much as he claimed they were, nor as much as they could have been. Basically, he made a lot of promises, and delivered on very few of them. He is not "against" infrastructure, but he's certainly against funding it.
Biden was able to pass that bipartisan bill after taking office. The Bipartisan Infrastructure Plan that Trump tried to prevent from passing during Biden's term contains concrete funding sources and step by step plans to rebuild America's infrastructure. If you want to read the plan, you can find it here: https://www.whitehouse.gov/build/guidebook/. Biden has done far more for American infrastructure than Trump did, most notably by actually getting the bipartisan bill through congress.
Biden on Racial Equity: https://www.npr.org/sections/president-biden-takes-office/2021/01/26/960725707/biden-aims-to-advance-racial-equity-with-executive-actions
Trump on Racial Equity: https://www.axios.com/2024/04/01/trump-reverse-racism-civil-rights https://www.bbc.com/news/av/world-us-canada-37230916
Trump's racist policies are loud and clear for everyone to hear. We all heard him call Mexicans "Drug dealers, criminals, rapists". We all watched as he enacted travel bans on people from majority-Muslim nations. Biden, on the other hand, has done quite a lot during his term to attempt to reconcile racism in this country, including reversing Trump's "Muslim ban" the first day he was in office.
Biden on DEI: https://www.whitehouse.gov/briefing-room/presidential-actions/2021/06/25/executive-order-on-diversity-equity-inclusion-and-accessibility-in-the-federal-workforce/
Trump on DEI: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/trump-tried-to-crush-the-dei-revolution-heres-how-he-might-finish-the-job/ar-BB1jg3gz
Biden supports DEI and has signed executive orders and passed laws that support DEI on the federal level. Trump absolutely hates DEI and wants to eradicate it.
Biden on criminal justice reform: https://time.com/6155084/biden-criminal-justice-reform/
Trump on criminal justice reform: https://www.vox.com/2020-presidential-election/21418911/donald-trump-crime-criminal-justice-policy-record https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2024/05/trumps-extreme-plans-crime/678502/
From pardons for non-violent marijuana convictions to reducing the federal government's reliance on private prisons, Biden has done a lot in four years to reform our criminal justice system on the federal level. Meanwhile, Trump has described himself as "tough on crime". He advocates for more policing, including "stop and frisk" activities. Ironically it's actually quite difficult to find sources about what Trump thinks about crime, because almost all of the search results are about his own crimes.
Biden on military support for Israel: https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/national-security/biden-obama-divide-closely-support-israel-rcna127107
Trump on military support for Israel: https://www.vox.com/politics/353037/trump-gaza-israel-protests-biden-election-2024
Biden supports Israel financially and militarily and promotes holding Israel close. So did Trump. Trump was also very pro-Israel during his time in office and even moved the embassy to Jerusalem and declared Jerusalem the capitol of Israel, a move that inflamed attitudes in the region.
Biden on a ceasefire: https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/world/2024/06/05/gaza-israel-hamas-cease-fire-plan-biden/73967659007/
Trump on a ceasefire: https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/donald-trump/trump-israel-gaza-finish-problem-rcna141905
Trump has tried to be quiet on the issue but recently said he wants Israel to "finish the problem". He of course claims he could have prevented the whole problem. Trump also openly stated after Oct 7th that he would bar immigrants who support Hamas from the country and send in officers to American protests to arrest anyone supporting Hamas.
Biden meanwhile has been quietly urging Netanyahu to accept a ceasefire deal for months, including the most recent announcement earlier in June, though it seems as though that deal has finally fallen through as well.
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Some designs, because while I don't know much more about this au story wise, costume design seems to be my passion, so I'm going for it lol
Anyway, here is Riddler's biggest nightmare, Lark I and II and early Spoiler, because they're cool, with some design notes.
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Pre-Batman Duke was, like, 8 and running between forster homes, so there were not many resources on his disposal, but he was doing his best to keep safe. Batman hoodie may or may not be off brand, but he treats it like his most precious possession and uses all of his child skills to sew it back together. Pants too, with great inspiration on how cartoon characters patch their stuff up. Does he know to change filters in the gas mask? Jury on that, to be honest.
Brown on first Lark was included mostly because Horned Larks, which were the bird inspiration for costume, are mostly brown with yellow and black heads, but frankly, I'm not happy with how it looks. I think if I drew him again, I'd get rid of that and figure out how to place colors better, so the currently brown things don't get lost even if yellow/black.
I had a lot of fun drawing Duke's mask and figuring out how to draw hairstyles (not necessarily what I think he should have, I just used him as a muse to experiment on). I really should draw black hair more often, they are really cool.
Not as many notes on Cass, I like how she turned out a lot. One thing I think should be changed is laces, because they'd be really annoying and time-consuming to get on each time and probably risk catching onto stuff, so there is probably some alternative of taking off the boots. But laces are still there because they look cool af.
Her mask looks slightly demonic imo, but I don't think it's anything a bit bigger, expressive like Spiderman's, eyes won't be able to fix. And at least partially, on her part, it's a feature, not a bug.
Technically she and Duke use same shade of yellow, idk why it looks so different on the photos.
Spoiler was actually drawn outside of my house, so I didn't have my markers and stuff, which probably matches the crafty vibe of her as vigilante. Apparently, you can get a bulletproof vest of Amazon for around 20$, and handheld night vision monocular for 50-100$ (I mean, it can be 16$, but I don't trust it), so like, that's about it in terms of equipment early on. Based her suit on what came up when I searched "street fight best clothes", so like, it's not any of her canon designs but idk. Feels true to me as a "teenage girl decided to go fight crime in the night" costume (plus cape, because all crimefighters in Gotham have cape). Maybe her fleece should also be purple, I just didn't have enough shades on hand (grey is literally highlighter I borrowed, it was dire).
I think, as she starts working with Bats, or at least starts getting equipment drop-offs, her costume would get more secure and more professional, approaching something from canon. But in my heart she started like that.
If I ever get around designing Damian I think he'd get a cowl, at least as Heron, so Duke's move from mask as Lark to cowl as Signal would at least partially, maybe subconsciously be influenced by "adult heroes wear cowls" thing. Idk, I think it'd be fun. And Damian deserves a cowl.
If Tim ever becomes Lark, he's the looser who gets rid of gas mask, everyone is appalled.
How do you like it?
Bear 🐻 with me, because I don't usually go there, but I've got idea for Reverse Robins AU. If I got something wrong, feel free to yell at me.
Damian is oldest, but Duke is first one adopted. I have a lot more ideas, but that's what caused the spark. Like I said, 🐻 with me.
Like, Duke became Bruce's ward as an 8 year old, or something, after he became his own vigilante, running around in bike helmet, gas mask that probably didn't have filters changed in too long and off-brand Batman hoodie, looking for his parents and tormenting Riddler. Once he got somewhat settled, and Bruce started going out as Batman more, Duke became Lark, in part to keep doing good work, in part to keep being with closest approximation of parent he now has. And that's Dynamic Duo. I'm not sure how We Are Robins would work in that, sorry.
Then when he is late preteen/early teen, when Talia realizes Bruce can keep child actually alive, she drops teen Damian off (he's like, sixteen/seventeen).
There wouldn't be as big conflict for a mantle, because it wouldn't be as established as Batman's partner mantle and show me one teenager who would found anything done by younger kids as cool enough to fight for it. But he'd probably still try to drive Duke out for one reason or another. Maybe make him stop being vigilante, because "Batman can have only one partner and I clearly am more worthy". Dami would also be going through quite a bit of teen angst, because at the League, he was seen as practically adult, capable and all. He was a leader. He was a killer. He controlled not only his life, but also others. And then he was in Gotham, where he couldn't even have a say in which classes he wanted to attend when, if at all. So not only assassin reprogramming, but also great loss of autonomy. (I think he'd go by Vulture, to strike fear in hearts of villains, and then move on to Heron or something). I think he and Duke grow to be amicable with each other, if not outright brotherly.
Then, when Duke is in late-ish teens, he decides to go out during day and rebrands to Signal (or some other bird name, if you want, but I genuinely don't know enough about birds to give another idea). However, his Lark suit isn't too different from canon Signal one. He can't have the "name my mom called me, name that I carried on as my last connection to my family after my their death and now it was given to someone else and I had no say in it" angst, but I want to give him the "identity I created for myself because it felt like the only thing that could let me do the right thing and connect me to my foster parent, identity I haven't really moved on from, just adjusted as I grew up (became day time hero and changed name to Signal), is now given to someone else, and I had no say in it, and I can't even hate them because they too just want to do the right thing and have connection to the new parent" angst. I think Cass could become second Lark. She deserves that.
I unfortunately don't know enough about Cass to give her too much of a story, sorry. Cass fans, I'd love to hear your thoughts on the matter. She needs big arc, her part of the story, like everyone else.
Then comes baby Jay, picked up from streets gang enforcer, either manipulated, or regularly drugged with something to be more violent, but who clearly has good heart under all the violence. Bruce takes one look at him and is like "He is just like Damian, but baby shaped" and tries to lure him in like a stray cat. It works a bit, because Jason does get closer to Bats, doesn't move in, because he is independent thirteen year old and doesn't need charity (he breaks in sometimes though and steals food and gear, that fits surprisingly well and is weirdly in the open) He slowly untangles himself from the gang and all. He may go by Bluejay, or something like that, as sort of twist, by whoever first employed him, on the fact that kid vigilantes all go by bird names. And then something happens, Jay disappears from the face of the Earth, presumed dead. Dealer's choice if he actually died or what happened.
Bruce is, obviously, distraught, and can't stop thinking that if he was a bit more present, a bit more forceful, if he managed to get Jason home, nothing like this would've happened. Random members of the gang that previously kept Jay, arrive to Blackgate/Arkham, with so many broken bones, they wished Batman didn't have no kill rule.
But, before Jay died, your chosen line-up managed to rescue some girl, who was beaten up by Black Mask. Nobody is quite sure how she ended up there. They didn't know if she'd make it, but she did, and healed up quite well, cared for at hospital payed by anonymous guy (Bruce Wayne). Yep, that's Steph, and she's eternally grateful that she survived, but she very much could've died back there.
So she becomes Spoiler, doing her damn best to make sure nobody falls through the crack when Bats are focused on rogues and other big name criminals. Fumbled slightly at first, because hey, she has no training and is still finishing healing, but she got hang on it pretty quickly and Spoiler became quite a name on the streets (though not so much on rooftops. They heard rumors, but nobody has time to investigate). (And later down the line her father becomes Cluemaster, so she starts spoiling his game too)
Then Jay dies, Batman is distraught, and he catches glimpse of purple cape in the alley. After few nights he managed to catch up with her and realized, that this is also child vigilante running around and she becomes his emotional support child. She refused to take up the role, kicking and screaming to not let it happen, but B was pushing because "I failed Jay, I won't fail this girl too". For more angst, you could have him not knowing Steph's civilian name for some time because he didn't really care about her as a person but only as a vigilante who reminded him of his lost son he failed to protect.
Rest of the Bats are in various degrees of contact with him, but once they get wind of all that, they're all trying their best to get him od Steph's back, while also making sure she is not running around without proper gear and maybe some basic training, later down the line (I'm thinking that Bruce is outright stalking her, while rest of the Bats more or less drop stuff for her and leave note like "here is relatively adjustable body armor, here is a number you can call if you get in over your head, here is a panic button that'll tell me where you are if you press it, though I'll understand if you don't want it (if you want to throw it out, please destroy it, so noone else can use it, okay?). Sorry for Batman, we're trying to get him off your back, signed Signal"
It does get better with time, thankfully. Maybe Steph even became Lark for a bit, when Cass moved on from the role or couldn't do that for some time, for reasons related to her plot.
And then Bruce goes missing in the timeline and that's how Tim, who already had him figured out thanks to his fanboying over first Lark (idk, I saw somewhere idea that Tim was Duke's Robin and I think Duke deserves to be Tim's Lark in reverse) joins the family because his parents took him to one (1) expedition with them, because he was seventeen, meaning almost an adult and could be trusted with family second, less legal business, and while there he:
found out that Batman was stuck in time
found enough proof to not be laughed and brushed off
became target for League of Assassin's
lost spleen if you're into it
And when he got back to Gotham he just knocked on the door like "Hello, Damian Al Ghul-Wayne, or should I say Batman/Heron. I have proof your father isn't dead please let me in". It took some convincing but in the end they believed him, brought Bruce back (or forward if you really think about that). Then for some time Tim was... kinda there, on the outskirts of Wayne's life's, maybe taking leaf out of Steph's book and becoming vigilante. Then League of Assassin's targeted him for whatever he did before and he goes to Wayne's to ask for help, moves in "for few month for protection" and is never let go.
Could also be, that when Bruce is back from his time jumping, he's also back at harassing Steph and Tim sees it and goes like "I can put target on myself to distract him, if you want" and that's how he gets closer to Bats, idk. I think either way, Tim should be big Spoiler fan. Maybe she rescued him, when he got kidnapped as "a Drake heir" before Brucequest, and she instantly became his second favorite hero
And then Jay appears again, found while trying to steal tires from the Batmobile on a dare. He is far more positive about life, partially because he got away from whoever/whatever made him so angry, partially because he had chance to reflect on his relationship with Bruce and rest of the Batfam. He didn't reveal himself right when he got back because he wasn't sure if he'd still be wanted and suddenly he went from having to potential big brothers, and kinda twin, to four big siblings, and he wasn't sure he wanted to be youngest in such mix. But when he is found, Bruce outright kidnapped him and didn't let him out of his sight for week, because, yeah, with time the pain of loss became less overwhelming, but by god he wasn't losing Jay again. Anyway, this time around Jay was ready to accept hand extended to him and let himself be adopted, finish high school, go to uni, maybe become Lark for some time, but not to long.
By more positive I don't mean defanged, he definitely broke into prison to rebreak bones of the gang members and has to be stopped sometimes if anything reminds him of what happened to him. He's just less likely to go straight into mindless rage. Now he is vicious and can plan how to hurt the most.
But over all, for some time, it's peaceful.
And then Wayne family and associates go to circus that just stopped in town.
I don't have much story for Dick either, sorry, other than angst potential of the fact, that Duke, with power to see close future, was there that night. Not sure who'd blame him more, small Dick, hurt and grieving, or Duke himself.
Also no clue how to include Babs, sorry. She also deserves to be here.
Anyway, what do you think? About all of it?
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