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9:51 AM EST November 6, 2024:
The Adverts - "One Chord Wonders" From the box set No Thanks! The ’70s Punk Rebellion (October 28, 2003)
Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last.fm
A-side of Stiff BUY-13, April 29, 1977
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The Adverts - One Chord Wonders
We don’t give a damn
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HEAR ALL FOUR CHORDS IN 1977 AT THE FOLLOWING ENGLISH VENUES...
PIC INFO: Resolution at 1034x1440 -- Spotlight on a gig poster and/or promo ad of THE DAMNED & THE ADVERTS May-June 1977 UK tour. Poster design by Barney Bubbles, a.k.a., Colin Fulcher.
Source: www.pinterest.com/pin/320600067194749637.
#THE DAMNED#THE ADVERTS UK#UKpunk#Punk rock#Poster Art#Super Seventies#DAMNED#ADVERTS#First Wave UK punk#Neat Neat Neat#One Chord Wonders#1970s#THE ADVERTS One Chord Wonders#70s punk#70s#Barney Bubbles#Barney Bubbles Art#Stiff Records#Punk gigs#Punk photography#Dave Vanian#Gaye Advert#1977#Punk Singer#THE DAMNED Neat Neat Neat#British punk#Bass player#Graphic Art#Barney Bubbles Artist#Stiff
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you are pretty, dearest!
#SPEEDRUNNING TO POST BEFORE MY ABM QUIZ STARTS PLEASE POST POSTPOSDPTOPTT GKRKGKRKG#edit: editing this post to make it more presentable since i got time :3#rendered this while at school hehe#~ art#💚 constabell#okay okay and i gotta drop my thoughts here as usual#i totally imagine norton was expressing some sort of insecurity about his face and how it doesnt make him look any better. to which#irene rejects the idea and holds him closer. you are pretty! i think you are very handsome. words hit deep. but this one struck a chord dee#so deep that it reassures him that he still have some worth and he is still deserving of being loved. so much so that a beautiful lady-#is very much in love with him :3#andd yes ^^ his burn scars do extend to his arm - i saw it in his model + sources online if you were able to remove his sleeve#im sure i posted about it here in this blog but its quite far now#i hc his scars to mostly appear on his left side - explains why his left temple is only affected#i imagine there is some coverage on his body as well - i actually wondered if im able to draw that out#unfortunately im jsut not good at masc anatomy so that needs some work. orr i just go chibi mode AHAHAH but what if i dont want to :pleadin
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#p4g#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#persona 4 golden#souyo#persona 4#narukami yu#souyo shipping lens aside i wonder if this was a moment that excited yosuke because oh!!! he finally has an opportunity to show off to yu#because on the one hand teaching someone how to hold and play a guitar is such a CLASSIC flirtation strategy#you can get all up close and personal as you show then how to properly curl their fingers around their fretboard#hey wonderwall was a meme in the early 2010s for a lot of reasons and this was one of them#but its also a rare moment where yosuke knows something that yu doesnt even when he plays it down as only knowing a few chords#he's good with his queue
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deleting those, it doesn't matter
#i know you guys don't care either way#that's even if you guys even . See these#I sometimes wonder if I'm real to you guys#Or am I what I fear I am: imaginary#decayed vocal chords !!#would it even matter if I tagged this if I'm one forgotten thought away from being erased?
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Are Mutants Ever Safe?
*Spoilers ahead for "X-Men '97" and "Deadpool & Wolverine"*
Over the years, we've seen the plight of the X-Men in the Marvel universe, how they deal with prejudice from the human race but still continue to fight for peace and acceptance. There's a line in "Deadpool & Wolverine" (which is said to be the start of mutants entering the MCU) that I've actually been thinking about quite a bit.
At one point, Wade Wilson (Deadpool) and a variant of Logan (Wolverine) are brought to a compound within the Void, led by Cassandra Nova, the sister of none other than Charles Xavier. She mentions how the TVA sent her into the void at a very young age, and that she didn't have someone like Charles to teach her restraint. She then asks Logan about his Charles, if the good professor protected him and kept him safe. To which Logan responds:
"We're mutants, we're never safe."
I'll admit, when I first heard that line, it struck a chord with me. I've known about the X-Men for a long time, and that single line sums up one of their biggest struggles, especially when looking at their history. Sure, mutants have been able to make homes for themselves. Whether it's Xavier's school, Genosha, Krakoa, and many other places where mutants could be "safe". Sooner or later though, dangerous threats will come knocking at their door, and mutants will end up getting hurt, or worse.
We've seen it before. In "X-2: X-Men United", government forces end up raiding the mansion. In Grant Morrison's X-Men comic series (and recently in X-Men '97) we saw the tri-sentinel attack Genosha, killing thousands of mutants. While Krakoa seemed like a promising home with a bright future for all mutants, things fell apart in the end. Even the Wolverine variant in the recent movie failed to stop his teammates from being massacred. Try as they might, and no matter where they go, mutants might never be safe from the various threats that target them.
And yet, despite all of that, these individuals and groups with extraordinary abilities continue to persevere and fight. Why? Because they have each other. The camaraderie they share with one another, the familial bonds they form, and the relationships they gain, makes wherever they go feel like a home. When whatever dangerous threat does come at them, win or lose they'll always stand and be ready to fight to protect that safe place. Through compassion, they can help those in need, and remind them that no matter what, they'll always have a place where they can at least feel safe.
Yes, this Logan variant did let down his entire world, but the adventure he goes on, and the oddball friendship he forms with Deadpool, teaches him to let go of his painful mistakes and be a true hero, an X-Man (no, scratch that, THE X-Man). By the end, out of generosity, Wade Wilson decides to invite Logan into his apartment, giving him a place to stay, and introducing him to his friends (and of course, having Laura Kinney, X-23, join in as well). In that moment, he's come to a place where he can feel safe.
So, are mutants ever safe? Maybe, maybe not. But when you think about it, the location doesn't really matter. When one is surrounded by a community of others like them, supporting one another through thick and thin, then they are about as safe as they'll ever be. That's what matters in the end.
#marvel#x-men#mutants#marvel universe#mcu#x men 97#deadpool & wolverine#thoughts#one line that strikes a chord with me is#x-2#xavier's school for gifted youngsters#cassandra nova#the void#genosha#krakoa#wade wilson#james logan howlett#laura kinney#x 23#charles xavier#negatives leading to positives#a question that's worth wondering for these kind of heroes
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Woah when did you change your url!!! I was looking at my dash like who is that mutual and why did they steal Bryan’s sheet music 🤜
Just last night! I just felt like changing it lol
#if anyone's wondering: the new url is the title of a poem by adelaide procter that I adore#which arthur sullivan turned into a song called “the lost chord” which is possibly one of my fave songs for voice and piano ever#the sheet music also is the opening to bach's chaconne in d minor for solo violin - gorgeous piece
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Here is my live blog notes of reading the new chapter of The first of a shattered mirror
Mostly for @volivolition I didn’t send this as an ask bc it was long lol but here are my thoughts as I read the chapter
This chapter is hilarious already the physical crew always brings the A game
Hand cordination saying gun? Like a puppy hearing treat lol
Savvy my boyyyy he’s back! All for a couple coins from an altar lol
lol we are not punching a child part
Love when contact Mike is brought up Voltion is like we gotta put a stop to this
Poor volition putting up a. Plea to be reasonable but the phys gang is in control this time around. The whole intervention Voltion really stressed out
Naurrr Harry don’t listen to the fascist ideas of time travel 😭 don’t do it
Echem is really shining this time lol especially around the princess “big *woman*”
I knew the voice of stubborn would get along great with the coach
The home made Gatorade lol
LMAOOO the coach check and echem both saying they can take her I cantttt this chapter I knew it was going to be good
Reaction speed returning just the right time
Omg the voice of the stubborn joined the team! You impressed the coach son 😎
Ahh yes just what I expected the voice of the stubborn starting to push his power.
. Much like the game how he takes over the narration I love it
Good call Harry out Voltion and the physical skills
Drat I forgot which skill is missing. Visual calculus? I have foolishly thought he was not missing though
Yooo spinal cord!
I was right Visual calculus! My boyyy so underrated!!! Yess
Even the voices can appreciate his awesome work hell yea
“VOLITION [Medium: Success] - If you make it out of this in one piece, you *definitely* need to get back in touch with that therapist. None of this is good.” So true Voltion
Yess visual calc with his math
Oop he threw the jersey away
That ending beautiful muah love it. There’s more to all of it. So many thoughts woah. Absolutely visceral and bloody I love it!!’
Perfect balance of humor and sadness to it all absolutely wonder.
God I love this fic so much
#so many thoughts!!!#the fighting was absolutely wonderful here#the description is poignant and really shows the real meaning behind thier fighting#the connections with another person.#all she knows is fighting this is her way of communicating#this was definitely a very physical heavy chapter and I love it#this chapter is one of my favs tbh and the adversary is one of my favorite routes in the game#I’m so bad at taking live notes lol very short#but I really love it so many fun moments here as well as much expected moments#such as the apricot wrapper oof#and surprise visit from spinal chord! what a rare sight to see in fics#I mean also a rare sight in the game too lol
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i dunno why im so obsessed now bc it’s the middle of july but they should bring back the fluorescent adolescent/last christmas mashup with matt on lead vocals like they did during the humbug tour
#arctic monkeys#i Wonder when they discovered it had the same I vi ii V chord progression as the verses#anyway i need to hear matts godly voice more not just doing backing vocals#god that was a fucking time#and in one video when matt leaves the drums to come up to the front of the stage he and alex do the cutest head nudge#sorry im having a moment#it just seemed like such a special intimate thing before they blew up out of proportion and they felt like they had to ditch#all the light hearted and silly parts that made them seem human#and instead they’ve been elevated to rock-god status and they’ve had to put distance between them and their audience#because theyve become too huge#and now they’ve got vast expectations to fulfil#i guess it could be both a curse and a blessing bc they’ve obviously massively successful#but also they’ve lost that closeness with their fans due to their insurmountable fame#idk i find it a bit sad#sorry i did not mean to get all sappy and rambly
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I just discovered you via Ao3 and lemme tell you, finding someone who seems to feel the Sam way about Blake as I do? Immaculate. Writing? On point “Return to me?” My new favorite fic.
CBHD"WK%£^72JDNB"D&YEUODJ"*YDI"QSKXTHANK YOU
aaaaah return to me is one of those funny ones in my mind - i got a bit worried when the balance got a big push lately, but thankfully my characterisation of blake seems to be holding up pretty well!! and vshbdkjvbhwidasckj i'm so glad you like my writing - i know that my particular style can sometimes come off as overly flowery and winding (in this fic it's particularly egregious!) so i'm SO happy that you're enjoying it 😍😍😍
aside from being a rather strenuous exercise in the conditional tense, the idea was basically just 'blake is so fucking redpilled and nobody is talking about it we should talk about it'! to me, blake is a fascinating example of a reasonable, rational bad guy - in the sense that he's gone so far off the deep end in pursuit of keeping his listener close to him that he's circled back to behaving semi-rationally, just operating under a completely batshit set of rules that he's convinced himself (and been kind of convinced by closeknit, although that's since been slightly disproven) are real.
it was a LOT of fun to write, and i'll never pass up the chance to stick one of the redacted 'bad guys' under my little microscope - very glad you had fun!! <333
#im melting of flattered rn THANK U BABES 🥰#i know that blake isn't everyone's cup of tea so im so happy that he's striking a chord w you :DD#if you're into this kind of 'redacted bad guy gone so fucking weird for his listener' then i may not have any more blake atm#but i do have two vega fics that might be of interest!#they're called 'oops-a-daisy' and 'resist and elongate' and they're both on tumblr and ao3 <3#please do mind the warnings though - esp on the second one#i can't remember if oops-a-daisy is 18+ only but resist and elongate DEF is#i know that star @starlitangels and ej @ejunkiet have some WONDERFUL blake pieces if you're in the market#much love to you darling and hope you're staying safe <3#ginger speaks to lovely blogs
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Isn't It Something though.............. I've always considered it a deliberate irony that he's always had his status as Arakawa's "only" son to fall back on (as Masato, anyway), and it was even his Get Out Of Jail Free card, but it was ultimately not the whole truth and they all more or less knew it. And there's also something there about the resources and support that should've "rightfully" been Ichiban's too, but that he was denied because Jo refused to tell the truth.
I can't quite articulate it right now but I wouldn't say you were jumping the gun in taking note of it! I do think it's supposed to be of note, to throw people off the scent on the first playthrough and raise eyebrows on subsequent playthroughs.
Also I'm 20 minutes into First Penguin (I started like, this time yesterday) and literally so evil to make Tsutsumi sing the high note when they were harmonizing their names 😭😭😭 he hates singing because he doesn't think he sounds good so it's incredibly rare for him to sing even when he's cast in musicals... LOVE THE PROTAG THOUGH. QUEEN
it really is just some Butterly Effect shit its genuinely bonkers that because arakawa opened the wrong locker, All Of This happened. question as old as time What Would've Happened If He Opened The Right One but god What If right..
you've probably finished the ep at this point since i take nine years to respond to things BUT AW JLKAJ THAT'S SO UNFORTUNATE FOR HIM NOOOO. LIKE RELATABLE BUT NOOOOOOO ESPECIALLY GIVING HIM THE HIGH NOTE if i may drop the smallest of spoilers this is at least the only time he has to sing iirc but honestly he sounded right fine 😭 AND IM GLAD YOU LIKE IWASAKI SO FAR GENUINELY one of the neatest protags of all time i love her so much
#snap chats#i cant hit high notes for shit anymore. not used to the new vocal chords but either way theyre bitches to hit 😭#oh but my initial Insane Person thought with the 'only son' bit was a bit of a possession thing. please dont kill me let me explain#because it just made me think about how arakawa refers to the other arakawa members as his sons too. Allegedly.#always covering my ass with an Allegedly until i open my textbooks for once and learn words#but beyond that then i thought of ichi seeing himself as aoki's brother and- ergo- a 'proper' son of arakawa. in an ironic way of course#so just emphasizing that point is aoki's way of still having ownership to arakawa and that aoki'll always be priority above everyone else#from his perspective anyhow. like 'he might call you guys his sons but im his REAL only son' yk that insane line of thinking#OH BUT ITS FUNNY YOU MESSAGED ABOUT FIRST PENGUIN CAUSE I WAS JUST WONDERING IF YOU'D STARTED IT YET LJALKJ#maybe its cause ive had the end theme on loop for the past week but i was just thinkin especially about it today..#funny how that works.. my bestie and i would call that a Mind Link moment lmaoo#in any case i hope you enjoy the rest of the series ! i really loved it and lowkey am considering rewatching some eps jlvkajvl#at least the second or third one those were my faves
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sometimes i get annoyed because the people around me are SO in love with space. but sometimes my friend stops talking mid-sentence because he HAS to look at the stars right that second and how can I be annoyed by that
#username mention!#on one hand sometimes i want to talk about other things#on the other hand#seeing what's in my heart reflected on someone's face is soo wonderful#like looking in a mirror but only seeing your favorite parts#idk if that makes sense but#you know when u look at a person and yes they're a different person with their own thoughts and feelings#but also we're the Same#we're kin to each other#i would never ever say these words to this boy for fear of weirding him out#he probably would be flattered? but he'd hold it against me forever#anyways he spent a full fifteen seconds staring at the sky before coming back down to earth and being like 'OH we were talking im so sorry'#this is not a big deal this is such a normal interaction#but it just struck a chord with me#what WASN'T a normal interaction was him going 'i know your secret' in front of two people one of which i dont like#and im incredibly dense so it took me a while to figure out what the fuck he was talking about#im gonna just come clean to my friend group maybe so he can't hold that against me#OR im gonna start mentioning his salary in public if he continues being a lil bitch#cause i know that annoys him#actually no i won't cause its mean#(it's not even cause he makes a shitton more than us) but he needs to stop being fucking annoying#about things im ashamed about#or i need to just stop feeling shame#one of those#daily diary installment#im avoiding writing in my actual diary because. im trying not to be cringe about boys somewhere i'll see in the future#not this boy but a different one#mine#delete later#OK NO I GOT IT
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If been doing a ton of video game music theory research for Asmo and the biggest thing I've learned is just how MASSIVELY influential and popular jazz is in Japan? Like- the sheer amount of music from my childhood that has jazz motifs is absolutely insane.
#its gotten WAY more obvious as time has gone on and they could use samples and whatnot- but it goes back to the nes#i wonder if it somehow ties into the fact that Japan never really had the anti-Disco movement we had#bc thats about when jazz influence became WAYYYYYY less common in American pop musoc#the chord progression that i associate with anime most is A BLUES JAZZ ONE!? its called bird blues#its very common in city pop too- which is why i associate it with anime?
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OK SO *slams down 30k words of draft* I know the original ask post said to talk about a fic I haven't written but haunts me, but believe me, this is fic is not written. We're like not even a quarter of the way through, most of this doc is notes, this fic have been haunting me since last june or so send help
So anyways. This is "the fic I'll never write" which I do have a tag about as you might have noticed, it's one of the very few things I have a tag for on here that's how much it's haunting me. I'm never going to publish this fic also, tho that's mainly bc A) it's way too fucking long B) the fandom and ship are both obscure as hell and C) its also embarrassing 😣 cringe is dead except when it's me and my fanned fictions. That being said, I'm calling the two guys A and B for simplicity's sake.
A and B hate each other's guts. They were friends once, but had a very big falling out with hurt feelings and bad miscommunications all around and basically they vowed to never talk to each other again. And then one day A wakes up and realizes that 1) his house got moved into while he was asleep(he is very ??? over this given that he was in the middle of moving in the day before; his house was basically empty 8 hours ago and now it is Not) and 2) B is coming over for lunch to pick up his stuff(????? This is even MORE confusing bc A is getting the vibe all of a sudden that they were in a relationship together? Which doesn't make sense bc he's not gay. Wait. Is he gay? What the fuck is going on???)
B comes over and they have a very stilted lunch (where it seems like B feels like something is off, too, but hes not saying anything...), B takes his stuff and leaves, and A spends the rest of the week alone in this house that he has both lived in for years and also Has Not and very confused about this new life he suddenly has.
And then A wakes up in a castle as the trusted advisor to the king in a medieval fantasy world and he is EVEN MORE CONFUSED THAN BEFORE!
Also the King is B. Great.
A spends a lot longer here than in the last universe (like 3/4 of a year), long enough for a magical war to come and pass, some character development shit to happen, and also for the King (who, again, is B) to fall in battle (and it's the one they win the war in too, RIP) and go into a Magical Nightmare Coma (bc they were warring with magical nightmare beasts). This is Bad, for a variety of reasons.
Now A is conflicted abt this bc B is his friend, bit also very much not, but that doesn't mean he wants him to die, but also the A of this universe, the advisor, is starting to get the idea to kill the king to get the throne... His death would be easy to explain away, given the circumstances...
A, instead, goes to find magicians to break the curse. This is the first good thing hes done all fic lmao
B wakes up, the kingdom throws a party, and that night, B tells A about how Something Strange has happened to him - he's not from here. From this world. He's from somewhere else, somewhere Different and in the Future but with no magic and he doesn't know how he got here or got to be possessing the king's body but he's been here for past like 3/4 of the year now and hes sorry for acting strangely if he has but he doesn't really know what to do-
A tells B that he's in the same boat, because he is. B realizes that this A is his A and he hates his A. So. B says some things he'll probably regret later bc being mean is the best defense he's learned against A's general air of uncaring-ness for the effects of his /j "jokes" (they're not jokes, half the time they're just mean, but anyways), and storms off.
The next day, A wakes up in a submarine. He thinks he is going to scream.
They go through....,,., a lot of universes. I think it's over 25 rn but idk. Some are shorter than others, the longest is like a year and a half but we'll get to that. The general arcs are:
1. The beginning bit (Just Broke Up, King/Advisor, Deep Sea Biologists (that ones just an excuse to stick them in a small space for a while to duke it out lmao), Astronauts (kinda same premise as last one but there's a third party now), Musicians, Wild West, Minecraft, Wizards, Desert Island (to quote the notes there, "they duke it out but calmer now"), semi-back in their home universe but something's Off, Superhero(B)/Supervillain(A))
In this part they start off hating each other, but slowly warm up to each other again by the Wizard universe (they're wizards there <3). They recognize that they're each other's only constant in this mess, so in the Desert Island 'verse, they agree to try and find each other right away in each new universe they wake up in (instead of messing around for a while before accidentally stumbling into each other like they'd done before). They debate about the versions of themselves they're possessing, with A very adamant about not changing each universe's lives too much, while B is willing to throw that out the window if keeping the status quo endangers each other. He's starting to like A as a friend again and doesn't want to have to tiptoe around him to compensate for this other life that was thrust upon him, sue him. This comes to a head at the end of the superhero verse when A foils his own plan to save B's life, revealing his own identity to the press in the process - VERY much changing the status quo of this A's life. B is very very confused and conflicted abt this but we don't know how A feels bc its B's POV this chapter.
Also it's worth noting that B still gets nightmares from getting attacked by a nightmare beast monster thing, and he will continue having them for the rest of the fic. They get a heck of a lot worse in the next one <3 and he doesn't tell A abt them until like 3 years into this bullshit
Also also they are so homesick already god bless
2. The Death Universes (the death universes) (this is the year and a half one btw)
They wake up in separate universes where the other is dead bc I love inflicting characters with hardships and problems and trauma <3
They get therapy in these ones too which helps them to like accept blame and shit when it comes to their old argument but also not blame themselves completely and break and also hold each other accountable more and in healthier ways
3. Post-Death bits AKA the rest of the fic p much (its like over half the fic I'm not listing all these out)
Points of interest:
- they reunite and are so so happy about it that they become codependent
- they go to a BOTW AU and B is Link and has amnesia but not just the B from the BOTW universe has it, the original B has it also and he. He fucking going through it man
- bc of the whole amnesia thing B starts thinking of himself where he's not really the B of whichever universe but hes also not really the original B either (tho that's always usually the one more in control each time); the two have kind of merged together, and each new universe creates a new version of B
- he goes with that for a while until it gives him an existential crisis and OG B starts maintaining his independence again
- anyways then they get more codependent <3 fruity edition
- they start to realize they're getting codependent and go :/ uh oh oopsie poopsie
- why did I say that I'm sorry
- anyways they try to homebrew some therapy for themselves but given their situation it's not exactly.. uh.... But tbh it's the best they got right now ngl. it works well enough
- it helps that the universe right after they agree to Spend Some Time Apart™️ they wind up in one where they physically cannot meet each other until they get to the end of it and have to make new friends along the way (Dead Gods AU my beloved....... <3)
- they get to a universe where they're Dads and Gay and Married and go 😳
- they only get fruitier from here
And then it vaguely ends around there. I don't really want to ever write an ending for it, if only bc it feels cheap to end it before they get home but also writing them going home feels wrong, but also, again, I'm never publishing this so I'm not too pressed about it
Saying that, I do want to share some bits from the scenes I have actually written that I'm proud of :3 A is red and B is blue. Sometimes the versions of themselves from a universe will have a different name and I do differentiate between the two; when that happens, the alternate universe versions will have a lighter color than OG A or B. Some of them aren't the same size so you'll have to tap the pics to read all of it
Their fight in the first universe, where they don't really know what's going on but they do know they have just recently broken up and are still very hurt abt that
P much the only scene written for the Superhero AU bit, mainly bc I know I cannot top this
There's a bit of a jump in their conversation between these two, but I hope it still makes sense. Mid-part 3, around the time when B's having his existential crisis and right when they start being fruity. (Pastel/Punk AU also High School AU but it's like the weird teen movie version of high school - they're a little weirded out by it lol)
And ofc Dead Gods AU my beloved <3
Also I made a playlist. They're not really in any particular order story-wise, and some remind me of the story more than others, but yeah :)
When I tell you this story fuckgin HAUNTS me bro......
#the fic ill never write#if anyones wondering why p much all my other WIPs have been seemingly abandoned for so long. its bc of this one fucking fic#and other things but mainly this#ive gotten so many story ideas out of this bro.....#like i want to turn the god au one into its own thing at some point. god i have so many ideas for that#and also maybe the superhero one if only bc that one scene i wrote fucking slaps#also there was originally going to be a MLP au in there and then i scrapped that#and then turned those versions of A and B into my MLP OCs <3#A is Solenopsis and B is Petri Chord#but also not really but also yes#so glad to finally talk about this#and thank u dear reader for listening to my infodump
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5 years ago, I was in Rehab.
10 years ago, I was watching my Potential and Opportunities dissolve and evaporate in an ocean of cheap gin and expensive whiskey.
But 5 years ago, I was in Rehab.
One of the exercises they had us perform was to imagine ourselves happy, 5 years in the future.
Many of us in that room had forgotten how to imagine nice things happening to them. A few snorted (well, I snorted), finding the notion that we’d even still be around in 5 years grimly humorous.
For about half of us, it was the last stop on the way down.
But I indulged the therapist. I was there, after all, because I did not want to die. So, I imagined myself, 5 years hence.
Happy.
It came to me all at once; an artistic remix on Norman Rockwell’s Freedom From Want, reframed with myself placing food at the table.
Sunday Dinner At My Place, I answered, when it came my turn to share my fantasy. I was asked what food I imagined eating.
It’s not the meal itself, I said, it’s the implications framed around it. Sunday Dinner At My Place means that I have a Place. It means that I have Family that will actually speak to me and friends who actually want to see me. It means money enough not just to feed myself but others too. It means having the time to spare to take the time preparing the meal.
A lot of nodding heads all around me. A struck chord. Many people with no Place, in that place. Nowhere that would lament their leaving.
5 years hence, as I lay down to sleep in my Home, with my Wife and my Son, surrounded by my Art and my Flowers, I reflect.
It was a long road. It was hard. We lost people. So many people. There were long days and long nights and hospital stays. Angry arguments with ghosts. I changed, in ways I never hoped for, or expected. Good ways, finally, for once. Slowly, against the backdrop of a world in chaos, I found my mind.
Sometimes, My Wife wondered aloud, what she did to deserve me. After some stumbling with my feelings, I eventually settled on an answer.
I’m a Rescue.
She gave me a Home.
And, so, I gave her a Family.
It seemed fair
This Sunday, my folks, which whom I have not had a shouting match in years, will come over for dinner. We will cook and eat together. My Friend became My Wife, and she took a piece of me and with it she made Our Son. There will be many hugs, and no violence. Good Things Happened.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you don’t know what the future holds.
don’t give up yet, ok?
It could get good, even.
#troglodyte thoughts#tales from Real Life#cw addiction#cw alcohol#sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel is the headlamp of an approaching train#run#fight#hide#SURVIVE#do not go into the light#there are unpet dogs#and unhugged children#and unseen sunsets#and maybe even love#even for a wretch like me#the best part of your life might be old age#you don’t know
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