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#hannibal#hr3#the whole scene is so good#this is twice will has had the upper hand (sort of)#caught him off guard#the first being 'if you can't beat god become him'#and now realising exactly what hannibal is trying to do#i reckon this was the tipping point#where hannibal realises it won't work#'it' being manipulate him verbally#can't remember what happens in the next few episodes#it's been too long#i think when hannibal realises what's wrong with will#he will recall this moment#when will sees right through him#twice#once without even realising it#(can't beat god become him)#and he will know what he has to do to achieve his goal#i need to go to sleep but i'm enjoying it. plan backfired
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A radioapple AU is ghosting in my brain where Hell itself decides it will have Alastor as its new Queen and not only claims him as the new Hell matriarch but also thinks he is the perfect partner for their sad King and tries to do sth about.
Ensue the fabric of a dimension itself shipping that strange demon and fallen angel and trying its damnest to get them together.
Bonus points if everyone but the two of them realize whats going on
#radioapple#appleradio#so many AUs in my brain#Al being oblivious as to why everyone keeps looking more and more at him and not realising that a literal crown is materialising on his head#and his hair and clothes changing minusculy#and everyone is like -nah i will NOT be the one to first point this out and trigger his wrath#even more so once its clear it Literally is shoving Al and luci together like that one meme that goes now kiss#hell is smart enough not to do the whole crown thing in front of Lucifer tho#also i love the headcannon that Al sort of embodies Spring/Life in hell and without knowing can sprout flowers/grass in hell where he steps#and everyone is stunned bc most have forgotten what not hellian plants are like#how soft and green gras can be#and how flowers are soft and smell really nice#hell shipping AU
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AU where Loki doesn’t interfere with Thor’s banishment at all and it takes Thor years to prove himself worthy and when he returns to Asgard everything is just. The same. Nothing seems to have changed at all and everyone greets him like his absence was a minor obstacle that didn’t fundamentally change Thor and the worst part is Loki stepped down from the place as regent without any delay and Thor can’t help but feel there’s something underlaying the way his brother looks at him now and won’t let him touch him and Thor doesn’t know what he could have missed because he doesn’t think he would have found anything wrong with the things around him and how everyone behaves if he hadn’t spent time on Earth reflecting.
#the warriors 4 not being interested in anything Thor ‘learnt’ at all#and making it clear that Thor was punished unfairly and the AllFather’s decision had been harsh#Loki saying he’s happy for Thor and Thor sees the way the smiles are forced and he sees the way Loki avoids any touch#Thor hating the way Frigga talks about Loki’s short regency and Thor’s absence like it wasn’t two whole decades or something#like she’s so grateful to have her other son back without ever addressing why he was gone#Thor just. growing during his time on earth and being much more aware of the behaviour around him#he learns to be critical and assess why people around him may act a certain way#once he realises that it’s possible for him or anyone else to be fallible and make mistakes it’s over for Asgard for him I think#Thor returns and Loki gives him the throne and everyone expects him to obviously have the throne#and Odin is sleeping and Thor isn’t comfortable with the way everyone accepts him as king regent after the banishment#Loki who either never lashed out against Jotunheim or did and it was brushed away and no one thinks about it as anything#but Loki is still deeply affected and acts the way he always would have but Thor can feel it’s not the same#he knows something is wrong and Loki won’t say anything about it and Thor doesn’t know how to bring it up#Thor sees Loki metaphorically receding into the shadows to become a nonpresence so loud Thor hears it even after returning from decades away#Thor goes to Earth and gets his priorities in order gets a new worldview learns not to take what he has for granted#and finds out he actually despised Asgard#he’s been back a week and he can’t stand it
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what would be the outcome/repercussions be if a regular pen/cob challenged and killed the king of their flock without/before becoming a king themself?
it happens a lot already! if a king isn't doing a good job at defending the flock and providing an appearance of prosperity and there's no upcoming king vying to replace him, the regular flock will kick that mfer out and not even look back (outright killing a yielding enemy is actually very rare - Thunder Strike's killing of another king was a freak accident and considered a bit of a warning sign of an unstable king. this might contradict stuff i've already written but whatever. its all cultural).
it's usually a group effort by the rest of the flock to depose a king and the outgoing king is expected to take it on the chin and leave without fuss but it's rarely so easy. ego and feelings get in the way and a king who feels that he's being unfairly attacked (which IS sometimes the case!! you can do everything right and still some people will hate you) will fight back, though once the tides have turned against him he knows he won't win anyone back. better to fly off and try to win his way into another eyrie or flock.
one-on-one battles between a cob/pen/tiercel and a king are not common not just because kings are physically much stronger, but because popular support is usually needed to get rid of that king. if it's just one person kicking up a fuss about a king that everyone else seems to like, they're likely to face a lot of push-back from their peers and the king might start to view them as a potential rival and try to kick them out first. so if this fight is spearheaded by one person, it's in their best interests to first speak to the rest of the eyrie and make an argument for their cause.
if someone feels that they ARE about to turn into a king themselves, it's a good idea to get that support first because in a small eyrie (as most are) as becoming a king gives you a window of a few months before the inevitable outcome - either the existing king kills or exiles you, or you kill or exile him. in either case you want friends to have your back (or at least believe that you might do a better job... if they don't think you'd do a better job, you're in trouble)
#so i'm not sure i talked about the circumstances of cuinn becoming a king?#but he did it in secret. once he decided he was going to rival thunder strike he changed his act to appear to be a willing tiercel#so he was taken by thunder strike to the big gathering to decide the new high king for the flock as one of his most impressive tiercels#during the chaotic multi-eyrie gathering cuinn managed to find some privacy to make his change#and he was too naive to try to get support first. he didn't think anyone would and his own needs had been disregarded so long that he#had internalised a rule of force* mindset. after all he didn't have a choice in being a tiercel. so he couldn't quite grasp that he needed#more than just to land a killing blow on another king and claim everything as his own. and then when it came down to it he couldn't#even do that. and nobody took him in after.. even eyries that didn't even have a king didn't want him.#reputation permanently destroyed all by his decision to tough it out alone#ice storm over kosa#*actually similar to ishmael - a lifetime of ppl trampling ur boundaries will leave u doing the same without even realising it
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npd + rdr culture is seeing people call dutch a narcissist and going "YEAA KING he's just like me ong" and then promptly realise they're actually insulting him with the word 'narcissist' & i proceed to backpedal ...
#i have no idea how familiar the rdr2 fandom is with personality disorders?? ive seen a lotta ppl be positive with them. like “they're just#like me bcs they totally have x y or z!!“ which is fun to see#but ive also seen a LOT of people throw around the word narcissist as an insult as if it isn't an actual mental illness ppl can have#yikes ... embarrassing 😨😨😨#anyways dutch SOOO has npd (& other things too but that's not relevant for this post)#DUTCH IS A NARCISSIST !!1!!!1!2 :D (stims & dances bcs i'm tired of seeing narc used in Always a demonising way)#rdr2#dutch van der linde#rdr#npd#narcissistic personality disorder#he's just like me 🤩#when i was still in my “i literally can't be a narc because i'm literally perfect” phase i literally hated dutch and i hated him even more#bcs of how much i related to him#the urge to say “— i'm not abusive!” so ppl don't get the wrong idea vs hating to need to constantly make it clear that npd ≠ abuse & i can#talk abt his npd & relate to it without the Other Stuff™#i once saw a meme abt dutch's narcissism & loved it so much before proceeding to realise it was made by an ableist#ableism tw
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Very funny to think about higher-ranking houses trying to poach Fiorenzo from House de Riva after everything settles a little post game and being baffled when the answer is always 'No 💖'
#fiorenzo de riva#rook de riva#for one they don't understand the depths of the lifelong codependent bond between him and viago#and second - after the events of veilguard this man has Had It with responsibility and leadership#he's done!!#perfectly content to be a henchman/bodyguard for the rest of his life as long as lucanis is also nearby and safe#(the trauma may or may not also be contributing to this but shhh)#tbh he was never quite capable of imagining what a life outside the crows would even look like#and not even almost a year of travelling with varric was enough to change that#it's very funny to me that he's the polar opposite of gwyn surana who's ambitious to the bone#i do have thoughts percolating in my head about them meeting during veilguard#but fiorenzo is loyal enough to the crows (immediately narced on the crow/venatori lovers without a second thought)#that i think that would go Badly once fiorenzo knew who he was and realised who the blonde elf with crow tattoos hanging around was#... good lord this is a tag essay but anyway safe to say i have rook brainrot lmao#veilguard
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Girl I'm so embarrassed on Scott's behalf oh my GODDDDD girl shut UPPPPP JIMMY DOESNT LOVE YOU BACK HE'S SO OVER YOU HE REALISED WHAT YOU HAD WAS TOXIC STOP CLINGING TO HIM FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO CONTROL SCREAMS SCREAMS SCREAMS.
#Him still clinging to jims tbh is another proof of how little respect he has for him#Even with them broken up he thinks he has jims around his little finger#Can't let Jimmy exist on his own without making it seem like his existence is intrinsically tied to him#God. I'm going insane. Sorry#He genuinely doesn't respect jims enough to believe he cld EVER be over scott#He genuinely thinks jims wld run back to him as soon as given an opportunity#Not realising that he's the one being.... A bit pathetic...... Clinging to what they once had...
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God, "I missed you" sex is the best
#eep.txt#as soon as we were alone he kissed me hard and just couldn't get close enough#we went to his room and he immediately attacked my neck i don't think i've ever had so many hickeys at once#he kept grinding for so long against me on his lap 😵💫 i was very desperate for more but he just wanted so feel my skin against his#he was sososo cute with his messy hair and the way he kept saying i love you!#i could see myself in the mirror in front of his bed i didn't think i was this fucked out lmao#maybe the first time i moaned this loud and talked this much too#usually i have to keep quiet even though it's hard cuz there's other people but it was so nice having him aaalll to myself#when he finally put his fingers in it felt like heaven i'd been so long#and same he just kept going so deep and so fast my god he said he liked hearing me again#i had to stop him cause i was getting really overstimulated but it was so good#i'm pretty sure it's the first time i've actually like moaned his name without meaning to do it#apparently i didn't realise i was babbling and scratching his back so hard#god i love being a power bottom and calling him cute or my sweet boy and getting him desperate but...#when he goes feral like that after not seeing me for a while? it's the best. i'm so lucky to have such a service top#so happy to be with him again#after we cuddled and we showered and we cooked and then watched videos and then talked and laughed#i'm so happy right now to even see him sleeping next to me :]#sorry i meant to do a sexy post but i guess this is more positive venting i'll make a proper one later#still new to this writing thing i'm probably very bad at it but it's nice to have a place to write down my memories and experiences
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I love taehyung and how he goes around his life, how he seems to just enjoy it to the fullest all the time, how he’s so unapologetic about what he loves and what he does, how he’s just doing whatever feels right to him. he always makes me want to be a little more carefree and to trust my gut and to stand up for myself more. love him so much seriously
#watched the ptd on stage content tonight and it made me realise all of this once again#I’ll be (even more) miserable without him#good night!!
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percabeth yuri brain rot ahoy
au where everything is the same except poseidon and sally jackson have a daughter named ariadne (depending on the version u choose she got a happy ending with dionysus which is canon in the books) she probably goes by ari idk idk
anyways ari doesnt realize shes a lesbian, shes just like ‘oh yes my best friend annabeth who i have completely platonic feelings for’ and annabeth realizes shes bi but shes stuck in yearning hell not wanting to risk their friendship or creep ari out
most story beats would stay the same (tho titans curse would probably need a serious overhaul so good thing im not talking about that x) and they do still mess up circes island tho im not sure why yet, but in botl annabeth does NOT kiss ari, and only figures out after ari is missing that shes bi
(meanwhile on calypsos island ari is like ‘ohh sorry im not into girls like that’ and calypso is like yeah the gods always send heroes who cant love me)
anyways they dont get together after the last olympian, instead ari wakes up amnesiac in the woods with only the memory of annabeth and shes like ‘ohhh that must be my girlfriend’ and doesnt question it again
now this is my hc for just regular canon percy too that even after the gorgons blood the old memories and the new ones formed in the in between would get a little mixed up so the argo II arrives in new rome and annabeth runs up to ari to go in for a hug when ari just starts kissing her (annabeth is so shocked she forgets to even judoflip her) n e ways they make it official that night in the stables and that would make the rome date their first real date
#percy jackson#percabeth#annabeth chase#genderbend#percabeth yuri#jic i add something else to this au i want a tag#also dont ask me about nico i spent a solid 30 minutes thinking about it at work yesterday and i could not figure it out#cus i like the dynamic nico and percy have in canon especially regarding nico once percabeth fell into tartarus#but if i swap nico to a girl then its like why didnt she join the hunters#and i was like maybe shes trans and didnt realise she was a girl when she met the hunters the first time#but idk how that would affect the whole cupid thing#and idk whether nico in canon wouldve had the confidence and support to come out between ttc and hoh#i could see her being trans and bianca helping her in the time after leaving the lotus#but then i loop back to the same problem of the hunters#i dont even like nico this much idk why im thinking so much about this#another thing to consider would be the fact that shes from the 30s#i havent read the cupid scene in a while but i think i remember that being part of why nico struggled with his identity#so im not sure she would have that same issue if she were already out as a trans girl#ig it doesnt matter that much overall#maybe nico stays the same in this au without a crush on the jackson child#what i should really figure out is the circe thing#mywriting
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Me when
#when I tell you I saw this at 7 in the morning at school and shoved my phone in my friends face#I LOVE THEIR ART LIKE AKDVWIGESH?!?!?!?!#just needed to put this somewhere since I realised I can’t tell my friends something more than twice without them remembering it#like excuse me? let me tell you things more than once because that’s a normal thing#what am I even on about
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now i just wanna go write the mahina woods scenes....
#i like how at the beginning cecily says something about how keika and ahuru are the only people known to have 'escaped' the woods#and keika pauses and goes 'escaped? is that what they think?'#idk how to put it into words but its just a moment that always stands out to me when im reading through it#like its talked up as this big scary place that no one's ever survived its dangerous and magical and-#escaped? he can still hear the owls when he closes his eyes. it was his home once.#i just realised i have NEVER considered what his hesitance must look like to the others.......#they ask him to take him to the scariest place on the continent and he says no. he's almost angry about it.#they think he /escaped/ they think he's scared to go back bc he wont make it out this time#but what he's actually scared of is that the river wont even let him cross. he's scared to be sent away all over again.#keika is 22 and he misses his mother. he can never go home. i cannot think of the mahina woods without thinking of him 😭
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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa#something is Wrong lol#i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡#and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches#all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now#but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit#and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on#to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back#like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend#i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect#i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back#but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms#or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations#or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings#or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af#because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff#im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility#i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn#but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself#and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc#i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself#and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it#i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do#i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it#and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person#<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation#of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡#like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT
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i want to restart dao now as a mage
#fray.txt#or run two playthrough at once#i just love this game so much and want to experience even more of it. at the same time#i wanna play every single origin too even without playing through the game#i missed this game so much and i didn’t even realise#repressed nostalgia because this community made me distance myself from the whole series
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#am once again getting summer depression cos it’s June and other people are out doing fun stuff#and I’m just in my flat . alone. cos everyone is so far away#and I’m like 😬#cos every year i comfort myself and go it’s okay next summer ! there will be ppl around!#and then you can do fun things!#but I’ve been saying that for the past 6 years 😬#ik I’m young and I’ve got my whole life ahead of me#but I’m so scared all my time will pass me by without me realising#and I’ll have spent all of it at home doing nothing much wishing I had my friends around#like I can go outside it’s just not fun#sitting alone and watching all these groups of ppl have fun#it’s not even a matter of making new friends cos I have a good number of wonderful friends!!!! but no one close enough or free enough to#actually hang out with#I wanna dance in the sunshine with people I love !!! I hate that that’s a big ask#makes me wanna be 18 again. that was the best summer of my life
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Really getting tired of being on this hell on earth where I can't fucking do anything without feeling sick
I know this is probably just the wires getting mixed up in my brain, why feel good about doing less than bare minimum but still more than just lying down all day when you can just feel like a lonely piece of shit
#might have also been triggered realising people going and doing these nice things#living life an all#i cant even fucking go grocery shopping without needing two business days to just lie down after#this is a great time for my therapy benefits to stop i gotta go from every other week to maybe once a month
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