#on episode 6 rn and i know shits about to get crazy

[sanjipussyindulgence]

this has been the mood so far watching lmk season 5 without subtitles.

[vampiric-succulent]

OUAW EP 53:

Spoiler warning!!! I’m being so serious right now as this is a pretty lore heavy episode. This contains spoilers.

Also, I am losing my MIND.

When they are in the Beneath and giving their stories to the Oracle: will Torbek ever get that back???????? That’s so important, it’s the entire reason he’s here, I actually don’t think this story will go on if Torbek is unable to remember the inspiration for why he’s on this journey.

Plot-wise I am WORRIED.

Does this mean that the other is just gone??????

This is so consequential like there are so many consequences for these actions YOU GUYS

also Frost’s story was SO SAD to have lost like that was so cool

Other notes: Nikkie is ofc the biggest Coalecroux shipper I love it, also there’s so much good chaos

This episode is a great mix of chaos and LORE

THE WOOD ELF—-

I. Forgot about the Speech Bubble effect that Torbek has. Holy shiiiiiiit. Andy you genius.

Frost being a proud nudist and Gricko’s legs being fused together is hilarious

“I TRIP AND LAND IN FROSTY’S LAP”

THE DUKE????????? DUKE?????????

Good god this is crazy. They all forgot the the goddamn Torbek lore and now they have to catch up but they’re NOT catching up and it’s so ANNOYING

Wait how much do they still know/remember????? UGH THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING

Knowing Rich, Kremy is going to tell a really emotionally important story relating to Gideon and then Kremy’s gonna forget it. Goddamn.

Ouch. Gideon doesn’t remember his dad anymore. Yikes. Can the Feywild stop stealing memories??

A hesitation about taking this memory? What, the other ones weren’t enough to warrant hesitation?

“Get on it, fanfiction” WILD

Something coming to the Inn at the End of the Road? Or just a scene of comfort OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT HOLY FUCK OH MY GOD

TWIG IS BABA YAGA????? AND THE INN AT THE END OF THE ROAD IS BABA YAGA’S HUT???????? AND THE CAULDRON IS RIGHT THERE????????????????

WOAH. WOAH. WOAH. BABA YAGA STILLS THE HAND

Also does the fact that it’s a PUMPKIN tart mean anything????? Is the connection im making to the guy they took this quest from (Madrick Roslov, I think his name was) a valid one to make??????????

Twig is an agent of, or maybe is herself, Baba Yaga. This was foreshadowed? or shown? when they visited Morgana (the version of Zybilna that is stuck in time) and she “fixed” the Twig doll and told the party that it was made by her Grandmother, who was revealed to be Baba Yaga. I didn’t pick up on that.

Nikkie is SO GOOD at storytelling oh my LORD

Damn, Gricko. Damn.

OPERA TIME!!!!!! That’s where Burly is!!

Ohhhh. Opening Night. Mother of Puppets.

ONE MORE TO GO NO GUYS COME ON!!!!! ONE MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Level 6 is death, you guys would only be at level 4!!!!

YEAH THERE WE GO MEET CUTE STORY TIME— oh. Oh no he’s. He’s gonna forget it isn’t he. Fuck. RICHIE STOP

“But yknow friends to lovers is also really good” 😏😏

Oh I thought this was gonna be Coalecroux, but wow this works too

REMI GAROU / BARON SAMEDI IS DESCRIBED MIGHTY SIMILAR TO MR GIDEON COAL

TWIN BRAIN COMING IN CLUTCH RN

That was perfect. Thank god that it’s not a Coalecroux thing he’s gonna forget.

They’re all so GOOD at STORYTELLING ffs I’m going to lose my MIND

THE RED AND WHITE WAR AND THE JABBERWOCK 😮🫵‼️‼️ OPE nvm I was wrong

PEGASUS???? THE BARN OWL??????? 13???????

HUH NO COME BACK WHAT DO YOU MEAN

Wait. Okay. So the Barn Owl is of the King of Hearts (if I remember right, that’s what he turned into after the party first met him). The unicorn became Pegasus became the barn owl. The lightning storm, which we now know was an illusion, was involved. Red and White are here again, and we know the Red and White War happened. This is probably larger Dungeons and Dragons lore that I don’t know. I am REELING.

Goddamnit I promised myself I would do things at the end of this episode!!!!! I can’t just go straight to the next one but oh god do I want to

[snapscube]

omg i also love sleep with me! do you have a favorite type of episode to listen to? i personally really love the doctor who ones even though i don’t usually make it to the doctor who portion lol

honestly I used to just throw on the most recent episode and since I never got to any of the actual story sections it didn't really matter cause I was always asleep during the intro, which is the exact same vibe every time. HOWEVER dude ever since subscribing to the patreon i've been able to listen to the compilations they do for patrons and OH MAN. those are definitely my new favorite. they have these like.... "all night" episodes or whatever, i forget exactly what they're called, but it'll legit just be like 6+ hour compilations of a certain story series or something with no intros and that shit is heavenly. and then on the inverse, the all-intro compilations are also fantastic cause that's where you get just the Complete Meander Experience that ends up being so good at lulling me to sleep instantly when listening to a normal episode.

i sound like an advertisement rn but it's only because i am crazy about sleep aid content LOL, legitimately I have considered maybe trying to do some more specific sleep aid content of my own. i know people use my normal streams for sleep aid every so often and i'm like.... why not something more Specialized. i just very much love the idea of making something that can help people sleep cause i, too, need as much help as I can get in order to sleep sometimes.

[obsessingonthevalley]

Short n' Sweet. also, Russell T. Davies rant.

So I am a carpenter, fun fact, and I will be talking about Sabrina Carpenter's new album, but there is a lot on today's itinerary. So I will split everything by pictures and the sections will be in this order.

Russel T. Davies rant. (I'm watching you mate) Short n' Sweet debrief

RUSSELL YOU NO-GOOD MAN. WHAT DO YOU MEAN "I can't see River Song making an appearance." I can't see satisfying explanations you decided to cut out because they "weren't necessary" or because "it's pretty obvious what 73 yards meant" WAS IT???

Okay, so I am very happy that this new era seemingly went over well with Disney meaning it will continue to live a long and prosperous life, which ,as the world's largest whovian, YAYYY! however, if Russell continues to cut off important parts of episodes, like a one-off line explaining Sutekh??? yeah, I'm gonna start throwing hands. Like, get on your shit mate. What is this?

And saying no River Song, and especially no Alex Kingston??? I am so not live, laugh, loving rn.

Something that has got me live, laugh, loving right now is my queen's 6th album!!!!

Yeah, no, I am indeed obsessed. When slim pickins was teased, I'm not gonna lie, I was sceptical about how good the album was gonna be and if my queen was gonna enter her flop era, luckily it was just a "bad time" in a sea of "singular act 1" type situation. So we are so back.

ratings, because duh: 1. Taste - 8/10. When I first listened to it, I didn't hate it, but I didn't love it. I was swayed heavily by the music video as I have been in love with Jenna Ortega for pretty much as long as I've been in love with Sabrina Carpenter, so you do the maths. 2. Please Please Please - 7/10 I love it, don't get me wrong, but with the other songs on the album, it's not the best now, is it? 3. Good Graces - 6/10 I didn't love it, and with no music video that kicked in my gay panic. It is probably my least favourite, IT ISN'T BAD BY ANY MEANS. I love the chorus and the beat, but the start is so slow. Very much club music x like a weak 2020 doja cat/ariana grande vibe. like it's not the best. Is it stuck in my head 24/7? sure... so 4. Sharpest Tool - 9/10 the next 3 songs are heavenly and incredible that they are back to back. It's such a beautifully soft song like skinny dipping but slightly hornier and sadder. My vibe completely (I love Conan Gray) 5. Coincidence - 10/10 I love it sooo much. RnBina is back besties. The gospel choir in the chorus. ughhhh. deceased. I died from heavenly tunes. It is such a good song, it's so unapologetically ruthless. Just a song for haters (me.) /j 6. Bed Chem - 10/10!! I'm sure it'll be the biggest mainstream success, this and probably Taste and Juno. But this one is for the same reason Nonsense killed because 1 it's iconic, 2 it's funny as shit, and 3 cause it's catchy as hell. It has been on my mind on repeat for ages. Also lowkey giving Rachel Bloom, someone I'm sure no one reading this knows, she's from Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, and was youtube famous for singing about touching boobies. I don't wanna talk about it. (sharpest tool reference?) 7. Espresso - 8/10 I used to think Please Please Please was better than this but listening to it again when listening to the whole album, it is actually a masterpiece? no, but it is truly spectacular. but I love it? 8. Dumb & Poetic - 8/10 I enjoy it a lot, it's a little depresso, but based on my explanation of Sharpest Tool's ranking, I think it's clear I enjoy that vibe a little. 9. Slim Pickins - 6/10 I'm so sorry just not my vibe, and "the lord forgot my gay awakening" was a humbling experience. But all jokes aside, I felt like it couldn't decide if it was funny or serious. 10. Juno - 10/10 Are you kidding me, again it's a bit horny, but one of my faves from eics was fast times so it's not an issue for me. 11. Lie To Girls - 8/10 I like it, I think. A bit too real. I feel like it's a song that in like a month or two I've cried to it so I love it, like most most Superache songs, ya get me? 12. Don't Smile - 9/10 Yes, I like this one a lot. its sad as well, but it hits so heavy, the beat is delicious, again its giving doja/ariana for some reason, also "doja/ariana" makes no sense and i under stand that, but it's just a delectable vibe, WHEN DONE RIGHT, (sorry good graces...)

overall 9/10 nothing can beat singular act 1. sorry not sorry (demi lovato reference)

[transjlawrence]

Season 6, episode 4 thoughts

Immediate flash of the American flag mohawk. I have…no words

Demetri looking at Eli…that’s his bf with the American flag mohawk

I am actually so glad for more Hawk and Demetri moments. Like so so glad.

No thoughts about Johnny wearing LaRusso’s last name on his jacket. Absolutely none. Nope

Okay, I know they want unbiased opinion but also who knows their students better than them?? Like Mike Barnes shouldn’t get to choose but he should get to have an opinion

Mike Barnes you literally don’t know them

WHY ARE THEY CATCHING CHICKENS??? AND HES TAKING NOTES ON IT WITH CHECK MARKS

Please stop. I don’t think any of these kids are farm kids

“No one ever catches the chicken.” BECAUSE THAT IS NOT A REASONABLE THING TO EXPECT FROM PEOPLE

Devon isn’t unreasonably upset. Also girl dad to Devon Johnny is actually nice to see, I love them.

I literally forgot Yasmine was Demetri’s girlfriend. More such cases of asking, “Does this female character have hobbies? What’s she majoring in college? Where’s she going to college?” And even, “Where is Sam going to college? What’s her dream school?” Because we’ve so far only focused on Miguel going to Stanford

”Keep an eye on Devon today.” I literally love u Johnny

Why are they playing flag football

”Shit!” “Sorry buddy.” I love their friendship

Johnny literally knows your students better than you. Also Devon’s frustration is so visceral. Oona O’Brien is such a good actress

Mike is like rightfully upset but you shouldn’t take your frustration out on actual teenagers.

You should not lean back when you have a bloody nose-

Why is there alpha talk rn

“I suppose it’s better than being a cream puff.” Crazy thing to say

WHY DID HE SAY IT AGAIN

Oh the red and blue of it all in this scene

I LOVE JOHNNY BEING A MENTOR TO DEVON !!!

”We’ve wanted MIT ever since we were kids.” Another case of Demetri clinging to the old version of his best friend now that his best friend has come back. Much to explore. Perhaps in fic?

Oh. Demetri went after Eli without knowing. Oh.

HE WASNT LYING ABT IT BEING LAXATIVES???

Oh. Best friend fight. Oh

I hope they rip it in half

NOOOOO. “I don’t want to go to Barcelona with you anyways.”

THE KICK GODDAMN

DAMN. GOD. DAMN.

That stare. Why does he always stare at Demetri like that. Goddamn

DEVON DID IT???

”You just had to Eagle Fang your way to what you wanted.” Divorce pt 2 but also…it’s interesting he saw Mike’s fight with Johnny as a bad thing when Mike seemed to realize that he had more of a connection with Johnny than he thought

[james-stark-the-writer]

thoughts on The Last of Us S01

it fails as both an adaptation and as a show. it's a mediocre show adaptation of great source material and an even more mediocre show in isolation. i am deeply worried for S02 bc of how much Part II literally only works as a game, i need them to get a proper writer's room more than i need Euphoria to get one.

it's crazy how 2 of the best episodes (outside of 5 and the flashback parts of 3) were co-written by Neil. i also noticed Craig Mazin is the only writer on all the episodes besides 1, and 9 which he co-wrote with Neil, and 7 was written all by Neil so, actually, maybe my takes about there not being writers actually talking about all the decisions the show makes were correct then, it was just Craig doing all the writing except for those 3 episodes, that's crazy. it really shows tbh. the season as a whole is a MESS. the show is a fundamentally broken and bad adaptation of The Last of Us and misrepresents the whole appeal of the property but then the stories of the games are fundamentally meant to be game stories and narratives and you can't just copy-paste them into a show. a better writer could've made it work by reassessing and rewriting every tiny bit to work as a TV show instead of feeling like a game narrative cut up into bits and supplanted as a TV narrative but Craig clearly isn't that writer.

honestly i'm sure other people besides me have already said everything there is to say about it, i keep getting enough video essays recommended about the show, and i've said most of what i wanted to say anyway. to me, as an adaptation, the show as a whole is a 6.75/10. it's not a full 7 but there are some really interesting adaptational choices here that at least make it worth a watch, however frustrating that watch might be bc of how much every other part sucks besides the new stuff and Bella's acting. as its own show, it's actually even lower for me, it's a 6/10, it feels like a disjointed fucking mess, like it's being held back (as i elaborated on here) and it really just doesn't really know what it wants to be. it constantly feels torn between wanting to tell its own story and wanting to be an adaptation and the show really suffers for it. the acting and characterization is all over the place and deeply shallow, Craig doesn't know what subtlety or subtext means, all the writing is just so much exposition about what the characters feel and think and basically none of it (again, i'm never talking about Bella here. they're perfect casting and there's only one moment in the entire show where i didn't absolutely love what they were doing) feels like the characters have actually lived in this world and have gone through the shit the dialogue says they have, it just feels so lifeless and empty and it's honestly exhausting trudging through most of it, watching them hit similar plot beats as the game with all the enthusiasm of running at the crack of dawn when you're not a morning person (idk, my brain's too exhausted to come up with a better example rn). it's like they knew the beginning and ending and forgot to actually do the legwork in the middle to make it make sense and like it has momentum and any real sense of narrative progression.

idk. i love the games, i knew this could never be the games, but i didn't expect it to be this bad. this season was just a bitter disappointment. if you wanna read all about my precise thoughts while watching the show, go read them here, and you can follow it back to my thoughts on all the episodes from 1-9.

[vividaway]

my thoughts, and reiterations about gabbie from twitter.

i'm saying this as a fan of gabbie, AND as someone who's been in bipolar psychosis before: hate her all you want. But whats happening with Gabbie Hanna right now has NOTHING to do with drama, NOTHING to do with attention, and NOTHING to do with her music. people spreading that rumor are genuinely bordering on ableism and refuse to do their own research. 1. gabbie's been diagnosed for a little under a year, so she's still trying to find stability.

2. gabbie is PERSONALLY anti-pharma (she gets paranoid about what she's putting into her body, but has no opinions about others who medicate)

3. gabbie's album came out a month ago, and she was one of the first female independent artists to hit the top of the rock charts. gabbie doesn't NEED drama for her music to succeed, nor would this benefit her in any way HAD it been staged.

4. gabbie's BIGGEST, BIGGEST fear is (in her own words) "to go crazy, and not realize it". anyone who's up to date on her tiktoks knows EXACTLY why that statement is beyond terrifying, and how it BEYOND applies to this situation. 5. the argument that "gabbie has done this before" is just plain wrong. gabbie has published a MULTITUDE of videos about the depressive side of her bipolar, but she has ALWAYS gone offline when she got manic.

6. the argument that "gabbie admitted that she's just trolling" is also incorrect. in 2020-2021 gabbie started posting tiktoks (which are now viral) which were taken as her being in a manic state. gabbie tried to tell people a MULTITUDE of times that she wasn't manic, and people refused to listen. this is different from gabbie saying she isnt manic NOW, because gabbie wasnt in PSYCHOSIS in 2020-2021 like she is now. she wasnt DELUSIONAL in 2020-2021 like she is now.

the tiktoks in question were the ones of her in the car, shouting. her "i'm back, bitches" tiktok, and her tiktok where she was dressed like this:

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i want to include some words copied DIRECTLY from twitter, because they are ABSOLUTELY CORRECT.

the gabbie hanna thing is making me realize how many of y'all have zero understanding of mental health beyond depression and anxiety (if even that) "if she wanted help she would get it" during a psychotic episode/hallucinations you don't think anything is wrong and often refuse

mental illness is considered an illness for a reason. it’s suddenly no longer offered sympathy when it does not present in a way that’s acceptable or pretty and “quirky”. gabbie hanna is literally not well, hold her accountable when she’s in the headspace to realize her wrongs

“hold gabbie hanna accountable” you cannot hold someone going through actual fcking psychosis accountable for anything. this is not just mania. this is a psychotic break. she is entirely disconnected from reality.

every time gabbie hanna starts trending, it reminds me how most people only care about mental health if it's romanticizable, and not self-destructve and ugly like a lot of issues are

fun fact, you can be worried for gabbie hanna's mental state atm and still be pissed that she's saying racist shit like this isn't mutually exclusive. is she saying terrible things because of her psychotic episode? yeah most likely. am i still upset she's saying these terrible things? obviously. am i still worried for her health and hope someone helps her quickly? she's still human, of course i want her to get help

yeah, regardless of how you feel about gabbie hanna and all the shit she's done in the past, can we please stop saying that people reveal their true, "deep down" feelings when they're manic? it's inaccurate and unhelpful

the way y’all are talking about gabbie hanna rn proves that the majority of you really have no clue what real, severe mental/psychotic breaks look like. y’all are so “mental health awareness!” until said mental health manifests in a way that makes you uncomfortable……

The thing some of y’all need to remember about this gabbie hanna situation is that even bad people deserve mental healthcare. Let her come through the other side of this episode before you expect her to address it and apologize. It might be a while. Be patient.

the gabbie hanna situation is a good reminder that we as a society lack the proper skills and resources to support people in psychosis (as it appears she is in) if you find yourself helping someone experiencing psychosis, here are some tips:

-do NOT try to rationalize delusions/beliefs. you’re not gonna convince them, and it’ll strain your ability to communicate -speak in calm and short sentences. don’t freak out. don’t laugh at them -empathize and validate their emotions. psychosis can be absolutely terrifying

-if possible, pull them aside to a safe, comfortable place. offer water/snacks/etc -discuss resources. offer to take them to the ER or call a crisis support line for them. however, if they refuse treatment do NOT threaten or coerce. only call 911 if they are in immediate danger

-they may refuse help at the moment. allow them to do so. they still have autonomy. tell them that the offer stands and that if they ever change their mind you are there for them. coercion and threatening may ruin your chance at helping them, paranoia is common with psychosis

-lastly, remember that people in psychosis are MUCH more likely to be a victim of violence than the other way around. they are in an extremely vulnerable state that is easily taken advantage of

on calling 911: -it’s not helpful, and can be harmful, if you call 911 on someone in psychosis with no risk of harm to themselves or others -determining level of risk as a layperson is hard. if there is not immediate danger (i.e. standing on the edge of the roof) a crisis line

may be more suitable. they may tell you to call 911 -just bc you call 911 doesn’t automatically mean the person will be involuntarily hospitalized. there are people in ERs who are trained in determining risk of harm -IT IS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY! when in doubt, call 911

resources available: -911 -988 (a US national hotline for mental health crises) -local community mental health centers -local crisis hotlines -ERs. if you live by a psych ER that’s even better -mental health crisis centers (if there are any around) -their therapist/psychiatrist

[isa-ghost]

I'll bite. What is Hermitcraft?

MWAHAHAHAHA IT WORKED

I'm still new myself so anyone else can join in on this BUT, loosely:

It's a multi-player Minecraft server where INSANELY talented builders spend a "season" [episodes range not specific] building themselves an awesome little area of the most detailed creative shit you've ever seen made with blocks.

NOT ONLY that but some members have reputations to be gremlin pranksters, show their inner theatre kid, or just accidentally launch into some wild story arc roleplay shenanigans, sometimes that often drag anywhere between a little cluster to the entire damn server into it. Meanwhile other Hermits just vibe in their corners enjoying the silly block game.

I've reblogged some helpful posts for getting to know who you want to watch (THERE'S A LOT OF HERMITS) based off their vibes or what they do in Minecraft be it crazy builds, redstone, BOTH because some of these people are illegally talented at doing stuff with pixelated cubes-

I'm on mobile rn or I'd link the posts, BUT you can probably search #Hermitcraft or #Hermit Lore on my blog and find that stuff. OR I can reblog when I'm back on desktop with links to said posts, assuming others don't reblog this and add the links themselves along with their own additions.

Tbh Ray based off your tastes, I think you'd probably like Mumbo for sure, and maybe 2 or so others I can think of. Depends on what catches your attention about their content!

OH ALSO important: There is no "starting Hermitcraft," you don't have to start at season 1! There's lore and jokes they may call back to, but you could ask anyone on here for an explanation or probably seek out a wiki or something. There's a post on reoccurring stuff I've reblogged too. But overall, you don't HAVE to start anywhere. Pick a Hermit, pick a season, binge! I've heard quite a lot that seasons 6, 7, & 8 are some of the best ones, especially 6.

I started with 8 and am now watching the current 9th season. Personally I watch 4 Hermits and will occasionally tune into others for an episode or two just to see what's up on their end. You're definitely not obligated to watch them all though, that'd be.. HOO BOY.

[deanwasalwaysbi]

I've gotta say, I find the concept of Bedlund trying to Ben-Hur Jensen absolutely hysterical. I'm just imagining Jensen getting a script and being like "Ben?? What's this? Is this gay? This seems gay????" and Ben just soothing him like a frightened horse.

Hahaha - Look it wouldn't be the first time. What is this verb we're working with? Okay. Strap in everyone. The Multi-Oscar-winning 1959 movie 'Ben Hur' had a bunch of gay subtext. The writer, the director, and the second lead actor all knew that Charlton Heston's character, Ben Hur, was gay. However, one person didn't find out until the 1990s: Charlton Heston. The consensus on set was "Don’t tell Charlton, because he’ll freak out." and when Heston found out in the ninties, freak out was exactly what he did. (x) [the movie may have gotten a reference from Misha back in season 6 (x)]

Whether this happened with Jensen on SPN depends on two things.

Was the character of Dean intentionally written as Bi and, if so, at what point did that become true?

Did anyone tell Jensen? Did he figure it out? if so, when?

I personally DO believe at this point, I really do, that Bedlund - Ben Hur'd Jensen. I think it was part of the writers room but not all of it, until it was. (Which RN I believe finally happened under Dabb.) I think Jensen wasn't in on it, until he was. So for me? I think he really was in the dark at one point. But at what point that changed? Probably only he can answer that question. and RN? He ain't talking.

In the meantime we can only look at things Jensen has said on the subject - Like this unbearably ambiguous GIF set from @nikadd. Was this tongue in cheek? Legitimate ignorance? You're killing me, Jensen. That cheeky lil smile, Jensen. Nvm - I'm going to kill you instead. It's for my own survival. No hard feelings right? You understand.

UH OH HERE COMES A CUT TO HIDE A LONG DERANGED POST...

We can look at the text for number 1 - and I do that uh - a lot - see the blog name #Dean Was Always Bi

For number 2 we can look over some points when we got clues from what Jensen thought was going on [regardless of whether they make sense based on his jacting or directorial choices I guess] and get left wondering whether at any point he felt pressured to lie for his career, for self protection, or to protect the narrative from the network: 

2010 - 'We're missing the gay angel' (x) (Season 5 gag reel) (x) “Sorry man, not what the show’s about.” Jared: One of the good and bads about playing the straight [non-comedic] character on the show… Jensen: What wait? I’ve been playing him so wrong

2012 / S8 - Trenchcoat - Jensen talking about how sometimes they change the lines because they're way too gay. Calls Cas a third brother

2012 - "What's Destiel?" Ben Edlund: That’s some weird shit. Jensen: Is this something that you created, Ben? Ben: You don’t want any part of that.

“Don’t ruin it for everyone now” “I still don’t know what the question was. I’m going to pretend I don’t know what the question was.”

2013 @ JIB, re Dean’s reaction to Aaron’s flirting in the season 8 episode Everybody Hates Hitler,  (x)

“And the scene wasn’t written to be that kind of - I mean - It was written to be awkward.  Ben Edlund wrote the - my favorite line in that scene was ‘carry on . citizen’ that was - I almost couldn’t say that with a straight face I was laughing so hard.  But it was - you know - it was comedy. It was a comedic moment in the show and fortunately Dean gets a lot of the comedic moments in the show and it was just, you know, Ben was poking fun at the fact that - you know, how can we make this very kind of manly, heterosexual guy uncomfortable - uh -you know, or  or have him back on his heels and throw him off his game a little bit.”

The thing is - Bedlund and Phil Sgriccia made very clear on the commentary track that THEY saw this scene as a 'romantic comedy kind of fluster' "This potential for love in all places."

Ben Edlund calling the writer’s room a boy’s club in 2013 (x)

Misha Collins telling Destiel fans they aren’t Crazy in 2013 after some executives said they were (x).

2014 Jensen says he was glad there wasn’t much Dean and Cas in season 9  - HA Hah HAH (x)

“I think the whole Cas and Dean thing has gotten out of hand”  “I don’t think there’s anything secret to their relationship even though a lot of people wish there was” REMINDER - that season we got the nightstands acknowledgement and “play him like a jilted lover” and the “he dumped me James” cut and -

I certainly know that Misha and I don’t play that. SIGH. they Ben Hur'd Jensen.

2014 - the fan fiction joke - 10.05

“I didn’t have a positive reaction, The first time in I think 200 scripts I went and sat down in the showrunners office and said, ‘What in god’s name are you doing?! Why? I need to understand why this is happening.’” “[Carver] gave very eloquent answers and did a great job of explaining why we were doing what we were doing, I guess I had been aware of this ‘fan fiction’ for a while and I felt like maybe if I ignored it, it would eventually go away. When I read it in the script that is what I do for a living and is my work—I’m very protective of these characters and the story and I think we have a right to be—I wasn’t angry. I just wanted to understand why and what was the message we were ultimately sending with this script and story. By the end of it, I felt good and it gave me all the confidence I needed. It was better than I could have ever hoped.”

But then there's Jensen in 2015 talking about all of Dean’s bromances. (x)  [gifs at the top] Could go either way - starting to figure it out? or No?

What had changed if anything? the entire Crowely season 10 story line?  This was July 2015 - the same day as the SDCC 2015 panel where Misha talked about Destiel   (x @ 13) Carver and Dabb were there - 

By this time Jensen and Misha were nominated for a teen choice award for best chemistry against various tv couples (and one ensemble cast, but the award nomination did NOT include Jared) .... Misha and Jensen would go on to WIN this award one month after the panel.

At the Panel Rob and Rich ask the question: “You two have branded yourselves as TV’s greatest team since, ... idk who.... Ernie and Bert so.”  [Misha says to Jensen & Jared, half not on the microphone: “I really didn’t expect them to throw us under the bus.”] “are we going to see that continue? Is the Castiel Dean relationship still aflutter and still growing as we move into season 11?”  Jeremy Carver: “Ish.” [mocking from panel ensues] “Yes. Of course. I mean Yeah. Absolutely. Yeah. There’s no doubt.”

Jensen Directs 11x03 and the choreo mimics Goodbye stranger (x)

2016 - Jensen: Dean could have a huntress, but you’d kill her.

Jan 2017 Con the infamous - no hedge - harsh - “Destiel doesn’t exist.” (x)

I would hope that if he knew he wouldn’t have been so harsh with it.  So by that point either he still didn’t know - OR - to him ‘Destiel’ was specifically about internet porn/sex and not like - the potential for feelings / a relationship.  It makes me think about something Misha had actually said, around 2013, “It’s called ‘Destiel’ and it’s about the romantic interludes between Dean and Castiel.” (x)

2017 - jib8 Jensen called Dean a lover of the ladies

May 2017 - After filming the end of season 12:

2018 - Misha confirms he and Jensen have talked about Destiel (x) - also 2018: The Bisexual Dean essay "? No." (Oh god was this really this recent?! I can't deal with this.)

Well. SOMETHING happened in 2019. cuz here it comes

2019 - "Dean has no taste, clearly." 2019 - 'So, tell us just a little bit about what you're most excited to tackle with your character this final season.' "Cas. Just like a full football form tackle."

Look at this face he gave Dean when Cas told him he loved him and tell me he wasn't playing into it here. You can't. (x)

[dimplepinchneat]

i literally love walter white so much the word love is an understatement the absolute autism driven obsession i have with him is like nothing i've ever experienced i feel like i could puke and cry and shit my pants and throw up and kill myself and die thinking about how i get to see him again in less than 24 hours it's like my husband has been off at sea for 14 years and i get to see him for the first time tomorrow i literally want nothing more than to see more of sad pathetic little man walter white and his stupid stupid mustache and terrible terrible haircuts and silly ass beige outfits and ugly little car. it's making me sick to think about. i've been sitting here tearing up for 30 minutes because i was going to go to bed and then i realized that when i wake up ill be going to work wheree ill be when the episodes start airing and ill probably forget not to check social media because i wont know what time it is and ill be bored for 5 minutes and ill see him and then ill have a complete mental breakdown at work like a teenage girl in the mid 2010s that just heard one direction was breaking up for the first time i dont know how im going to handle even though i sort of try to hide the fact that i'm deranged about walter white in my day to day life im still not very good at hiding it and i dont know what i would say if someone asked me what was wrong. i spent 6 hours uninterrupted last night listening to hundreds of songs to make another highly curated playlist about him and i spent hours today trying to work on my (SECOND) doll of him and then i spent even more hours redoing my phone homescreen to be walter white themed i feel like im going absolutely balls to the wall insane i can't handle this the buildup in the past week has driven me so crazy that i dont even know how im going to act evem if i dont get """spoiled"" because i'm already out of control and beyond unhinged and it still doesnt feel like i'm dedicating enough of my time and energy to this terrible demon of a fictional middle aged man like it still feels like it's building up inside of me like bong residue. btw i'm fully prepared for him to have like a 1 scene cameo and not be that important to the plot like thats not going to shock or disappoint me in fact i'll still probably throw up just as much or something. in fact iom being dead serious rn i hope he isnt there for more than 5 seconds because i don't know how i['m going to cope if he is. i feel like i'm looking at the light at the end of the tunnel like im not gonna make it and my soul is going to burn and im going to be dead. i think if i was dying a month ago and you gave me one wish i would hjave been like i want to know more about walter white pre-pilot. i won't make it much longer after tomorrow i think i might just cry myself to death or something equally insane. this isn't a flex btw this is a cry for help i do not like him a normal amount i like him an extremely abnormal amount

[moon-ursidae]

TBOBF EPISODE 6 SPOILERS

i am very late on this bc i had it saved and ready in my docs but i never had the time to copy and paste it here

much like last time, these were my thoughts when watching episode 6 for the first time!! this is another long one folks so strap in!!!

-ayo mos pelgo??

-YUUUP

-COBB VANTH I MISSED YO SEXY ASS

-yea you flex those stripes

-THE CALLBACK WITH THE “i’m the one that tells folks what to do”

-quick reflexes are so hot like idk what it is

-he really said “respectfully if ya’ll come here agin you’re fucked”

-THE MARSHAL’S TALE IN THE BACKGROUND AHHHHHHH

-god the music is so fucking good goddamn

-ayo dune pt 2 looks great

-the intro music is sooo good

-DIN DJARIN YEAAAA

-these cockpit shots are so sexy they look phenomenal

-IS THAT R2

-R2222222222222 FUCK YEA

-listen i love the crest but this new ship looks SLICK as fuck

- omg din djarin saying skywalker????

-calling r2 friend????

-AHHHHHH

-i’ll never get over him saying grogu either

-omg these ant droids are kinda cute

-AHH THE JEDI SCHOOL

-the jedi school…

-din djarin has met his match when it comes to sass

-”is that a bench?” SIR PLEASEEEE

-i love him

-he’s so done rn he just wants to see his kid

-i love the juxtaposition whenever din is in a place that is seemingly tranquil

-here’s this dude armed to the fuckin teeth in this place that makes you feel the most serene you’ll ever feel in your life

-it’s so funny i love it

-i love these shots of the forest i feel like they’re supposed to be representative of the force in a way??

-OH MY GOD THERE HE IS

-DIN I FOUND UR KID

-OH MY FUCKING GOD CGI LUKE LOOKS FUCKING PHENOMENAL

-oh my god please i can’t do this snacks started playing when the frog showed up

-joe shirley and ludwig goransson i cannot do this

-grogu i’m sorry but even though luke doesn’t see you he knows the shenanigans ur up to

-OMG HE’S SO STRONG NOW

-THE CG IS FUCKING CRAZY HOLY SHIT

-i’m gonna start fucking crying oh my god

-i see you dave filoni with the dagobah parallel

-i’m assuming there will be many more through this episode

-god the music i want it tatted in my brain

-HIS LIL WADDLE

-omg is he gonna talk about yoda

-HE IS

-omg the way he’s lifting grogu so he can keep up imma cry

-CHANEL BOOTS SKYWALKER IS HERE TO SLAY

-are we gonna see grogu’s past????

-omgomgomgomgomg

-STOOOOPPPPPPP NO IM GONNA START SOBBING

-FUCK I NEED TO FINISH CLONE WARS

-goddamn you dave filoni pay for my fuckin therapy

-it’s also crazy how much he sounds like young Mark Hamill

-DIN NAPPING like the dad he is

-AHSOKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

-also hot reflexes

-”i’m a friend of the family” DAVE FILONI PLEASEEEEE

-her lil giggle with r2 was so cute

-i love rosario dawson

-she’s such a good ahsoka

-he’s like okay??? gimme my foundling

-he just wants to see that his kid is safe for his own eyes ahsoka LET HIM

-”my choice to go and see him” so goddamn stubborn, din djarin is

-OH MY FUCKING GOD SO MANY ICONS IN ONE FRAME WHAT THE FUCK

-what a time to be a star wars fan holy shit

-also i am once again asking that dave filoni pay for my therapy

-busteeedddddddd she called you out homie

-omg his lil gift

-i love that he keeps calling him a mandalorian foundling specifically instead of just a foundling

-i feel like they’re parents fighting for custody LMAO

-”i came all this way. he’s right there” PEDRO PLEASSE THE DELIVERY I CAN’T DO THIS RN

-ugh i can feel him fighting with himself about whether he should go to him or not

-”make sure he’s protected” HE CARES SO MUCH ABOUT HIS SAFETY BC HE’S NOT THERE TO MAKE SURE AHHHHHHHHHHH

-i know that he’s crying under that helmet

-the fucking score dude oh my god

-GROGU I KNOW I’M SAD UR DAD IS LEAVING TOO

-NOT THE HAND

-omg i was right about ESB refs

-omg the way he crawls out of the bag

-”that’s all you got?” LUKE HE’S TRYING HIS BEST

-”don’t try. do” girl i see you

-OMG THE DAGOBAH PARALLELS THIS EP I CAN’TTTT

- even the fuckin front flip bro goddamn

-the attention to detail on the cg face is insane like literally every frame

-this shot is so beautiful oh my god

-THE FORCE THEME NJAILBJILGBJLHFJFBGQHFL

-GROGU BE CAREFUL BRO

-GREEN SABER GREEN SABER GREEN SABER AHHHHHH

-OMG THE REMOTE FROM A NEW HOPE AND RISE OF SKYWALKER

-he passed the ball bc that’s what ahsoka and din taught him PLEASE

-AYO???? din is gonna beat your ass if he finds out y0u let his kid get zapped luke

-this is so cute oh my god and the score is helping sell it ndjlbjrklvbejnvblkebhjk

-ahsoka looks so proud

-HIS LIL SQUEAL MMMMMMMMM

-”The Mandalorian was here” what the fuck is happening i- star wars is so fuckin cool

-”sometimes i wonder if his heart is in it” omg grogu and din are both distracted bc they’ve been apart for so long

-WITH THE “so much like your father” RIGHT AFTER THAT DAVE FILONI LITERALLY PAY FOR MY FUCKIN THERAPY BRO

-his lil smile and the score from the mando s2 finale MMMMM

-like father like son takin naps

-i cannot wait for the ahsoka series oh my god i love her

-TATOOINE BABYYYYYY

-again these cockpit shots are hot

-omg are we gonna see boba??? In his own show?

-ayo?

-YEA WE ARE BABYYYYY

-AND FENNEC HEHEHEHEHEHE

-my bisexual panic is off the charts rn

-they’re all so hot and so sexy

-WAITWAITWAITWAITWAITWAIT

-is din giving out his name now??????

-everyone in that room now knows his name and they JUST met him?????

-WOAH THE NODDING LIKE IN ROTJ BVJDIVHEJOBPEHBJEWNO

-so hot so sexy

-KRAYT DRAGON SKULL YUHH

-omg i love that din and the jawas are homies now

-COBB AND DIN REUNION????

-who the fuck does this guy think he is

-”i heard you” so hot

-REUNION BABYYYYYYYYYYYYY

-everyone is so sad that he doesn’t have grogu anymore it’s so cute and sad at the same time

-omg is the skeleton in the cantina new?? Or am i blind

-freetown?? when did this become like fallout new vegas?

-they’re both so sassy and snarky i love it

-the guitar in the back is so lovely

-WHO IS THAT

-IS THAT WHO I THINK IT IS

-I KNOW THAT SILHOUETTE

-IS THAT CAD FUCKING BANE????????????

-IS THAT FUCKING CAD BANE??????????

- DNVJBFDVNJDBFBJK CXKNLBDFBKNDFJOBNDF BFDNKBFNDFBVNDFKLVBNEFKMVLBRENBVKLNVKFDLBVJNASKLVBRNVLBRNVJKRBVN

-OH MY FUCKING GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME

-I LOVE STAR WARS

-DAVE MUTHAFUCKIN FILONI YOU SON OF A BITCH

-OH MY GOD

-HIS VOICE NDJKVLNJV;N

-the deputy needs to fuck off bro like read the damn room

-HIS EYES

-this is so fucking western i love this

-he’s tryna slander boba rn?

-not in this house bro

-THEY GONNA DUEL???

-THIS REALLY IS A WESTERN

-if the deputy fucks this up i swear to god

-IS COBB OKAY????

-I NEED TO KNOW THIS RIGHT NOW

-also cade bane is so fucking cool oh my god

-i sense something bad is about to go down w these pykes in the cantina

-the makeup is so good

-fuck they left the camtono there

-UHHHHHHHHH

-WHERE IS MAX REBO????? IS HE SAFE? IS HE ALRIGHT?

-then fuckin cut to the jedi school PFFFFFFFFFFFF

-I KNEW IT WAS CHAINMAIL

-IT’S SO SMALLLLLLLLL

-a choice??? Luke what are you about to do?

-IS THAT YODA’S SABER????

-YUUUUUHHHHHHH

-is he gonna make him chose between the fuckin saber and the armor??

-yuuuup…

-hold up chanel boots skywalker you are ceo of attachments my guy what the hell is this

-HIS SAD LIL COO

-AND THE MUSIC

-D JVKLFBJKDLFBNKJLVBSANJBL;DBJDAK

-he’s gonna choose din i know it in my heart i feel it in my soul

GODDAMN THERE WAS SO MUCH TO LOOK AT AND ADMIRE IN THIS EPISODE HOLY SHIT BRO

again apologies for the super long post but these are so fun to do so i think i’m gonna continue to do these hehehehehe

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 04.01.21 lb

“iss chaaku se tumhari gardan ki nass kaat doon, riddhima?”

omg what a dreamboat. he’s asking for consent before murdering her! #husbandGoals 🥰🥰🥰

ouff so much drama and blah blah about dhoka. i’m so bored. i really don’t give a fuck about his “issues” anymore. go take it up with a therapist who’s paid to deal with this nonsense, bro.

if i was her, i’d just be like just murder me and get it over with, dude. 🙄🙄🙄 he clearly wants to. stop being a pussy and just do it, fucker. no point hiding it, we all know you’re a murderous psychopath and there’s no redeeming you. so just bloody do it and embrace your true identity.

ohhohohoho manpain about being “totally broken”. is that supposed to make me sympathetic to him? coz it’s not working. go cry into your 5000 crore, asshole.

jesus christ, why is this girl like this???????????? self respect naam ki cheez aaas paaas se bhi nahi bhatkiiiii hai iske. imagine being this fucking desperate for a man’s love, lmao. couldn’t be me.

you love me? prove it. murder someone for me.

bhai tumhare liye main APNE nakhoon na kaatooon, let alone someone else’s galaa.

“uss insaan ka naam hai, kabir.”

her jhijak is unrealistic. i’d murder that haraami for free, just like, ainvayi mein; no need for proof of pyaar competition or anything. it’d already be on my 2021 to do list, and the sooner i crossed it off, the better. i can enjoy the rest of my year without him fucking it up on a daily basis.

anyway blah blah this is the only way to prove your love and oh my god this show is just so stupidddddddddddddddd. and she’s even more stupid for standing here listening to this bs instead of just laughing in his face and going and packing her bags to gtfo this madhouse.

“jaanta hoon imtihaan asaan nahi hai, lekin mera pyaar paana bhi itna aasaan nahi hai. haina?” ABBE OHHHHHHHHHH, PYAAR HAI KI UPSC KA EXAM???????? AT LEAST THAT GIVES SARKAARI NAUKRI AND PF AND TONS OF OTHER PERKS; TERE SADDE HUE PYAAR KE KYA HI BENEFITS HAIN CHUTIYE?????????

omfg now he’s all kal kuldevi ki pooja hai and pooja balidaan maangti hai, you have to mitaofy the rakshas and MY GOD LITERALLY GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE YOU STUPID FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK I CANNOT TAKE THIS SHOW AND CHARACTER SERIOUSLY ANYMORE IT’S ALL JUST SO FUCKING RIDICULOUSSSSSSSSSSS

btw ofc ahaana is watching all this from the shadows.

on one hand ahaana is like bitch are you fucking crazy? you just caaaaaaasually asked her to murder someone??? on the other she’s like why you giving her this opportunity to dho-ofy her paap. sis what side are you on? pro-murder or against? it’s kinda not clear rn.

she keeps talking about some promise and plan and all.............. like just tell us already. i need to know what’s in this whole mess for herrrrrr.

anyway she’s showing much more spunk than riddhima has in 6+ months, snatching away his documents, not returning them to him when he tries taking them, and demanding answers of him as he tries to weasel outta it. i like. you go girl, be a menace to him!

anyway i don’t care about their ainvayi ki tashanbaazi and paheli waale monologues. here, have a Chehra Appreciation Break. let’s hope his beard doesn’t get wilder than this.

she’s needling him ki oh god, do you actually still love that dumbass bitch and he’s all “pyaar bohut ajeeb sa ghaav hota hai, jiske dard pe bhi dil apna haq rakhta hai.” ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, CHULHE MEIN JAAYE TUM LOGON KA MANHOOS PYAAR. ARIJIT SINGH WAS WRONG. SOME ISHQ TRULY IS A KALANK, NOT A KAAJAL PIYAAAA.

anyway ahaana’s reaction matches mine:

he stormed out and ahaana is maarofying some boss bitch dialogues, ki she’ll make him keep his promise to her and what not. i hope she’s asked for a 1000 crore worth of stock options, not something fucking dumb like............ his pyaar or some shit. ugh pls sis. be better.

i don’t care.

how am i supposed to feel bad for this supremely stupid bitch? i can’t. i just can’t.

lahu moonh lag gaya. bitch decided to go for it.

ahaana trying to warn kabir that his ass about to get murdered......

isko hassi aa rahi hai. coz he knows how cute he is and no one could kill a baby marshmallow face like him.

“woh mujhe AB kyun maaregi? usse mujhe maarna hota toh bohut pehle maar chuki hoti.” lmaooooooooooooooo i mean..... it’s true. you’ve been asking for it for monthssss now.

lmaoooooooo the way ahaana agrees too.

well. she tried. baaki rabb ke hawaale.

the way she doesn’t want riddhima to be successful in killing kabir and thus back together with vansh makes me think..................... this bitch thinking with her pussy too. she too just want some vansh D. ugh. heere jade hue hain kya uspein?????

ugh shirali strikes again with the horrible military style kurtas. IT’S 2021, MADAM. PLEASE STOP SUBJECTING US TO THE SAME CRAP WE’VE BEEN LOOKING AT SINCE 2016 IN ISHQBAAAZ.

pooja mein baithe baithe murder ki baat kar raha hai. hadh hai, bhai. hadhhhhhhh hi hai. mata rani photu se nikal ke aake tera vinaash na karein????????

yeah, i’m thinking ahaana def. has the hots for V, the way she doesn’t want him to get back together with riddhima. godddddd, i hope it’s not love, and that she just wants to marry him and get her hands on all this $$$$$$. pls ahaana, i’m begging of you, don’t be a mediocre b like riddhima.

yeh kaisi pooja hai jahaan prashad mein bandook bat-the hain? bitch i want ladoo or nothing.

ok i need to go put my face in my cat’s belly fluff now, as a reward for watching this supremely crap episode. here, you also have a pic of him, for sitting through reading this shit.

[lailarain]

WARNING: SPOILERS FOR DANGANRONPA 3

This is a continuation of this post.

I'm watching Danganronpa 3: The End of Hope's Peak High School Future Arc for the first time.

Episode 6:

Makoto, you fucking genius. Then again, can't Monokuma just make that a new rule if he wants to🤨

LMAO MONACA THINKING SHE WAS CAUGHT🤣🤣🤣

BYAKUYA! I missed u🥰

WAIT WHY THE FUCK IS HE BRITISH ALL OF A SUDDEN💀

Wait Geko Gahara is what now😀

KOMARU AND TOKO YES I MISSED YOUUUU

YES OUR FAVORITE ULTRA DESPAIR LESBIANS ARE BACK AT IT AGAIN😎😎😎😎

HAJIME YES MY NON-SHAPE-KNOWING BRO

Wait....Izuru🤨?

Episode 7:

Monaca, Junko killed HERSELF. Makoto didn't do shit🤨

THE TITLE IS ULTRA DESPAIR GIRLS YEAH BABY

THE WARRIORS OF HOPE ARE ALIVE AND HELPING OUT THE UDGs YES

It's so nostalgic to watch my favorite dynamic duo fight monokumas with the megaphone again🥺🥺🥺

The way she says "neutralizing demonic teddy bears" like it's normal😭

"Unless you like it rough😏"

Okay wtf is up with Toko's voice

Toko's fantasies are WAY more awkward when animated. Whatever they pay Byakuya's VA clearly isn't enough

IS THAT ACTUALLY HOW SHE SEES KOMARU LMAOOOO

BYAKUYA SENSED HER BEING WEIRD LMAOOO

Can Monaca just stfu🙄

HOLY FUCK YES THE LESBIANS ARE HOLDING HANDS I REPEAT THE LESBIANS ARE HOLDING HANDS

"Don't you see? I was HOPEING to defeat you. I R O N Y."

YES NAGITO

"Leave me alone. G O O G L E I T."

Who's gonna tell Monaca that she'll automatically suffocate the moment she breaks the atmosphere?

Istg those two are SO gay for each other

Komaru and Makoto are such wholesome siblings😭

KYOKO BETTER NOT BE THE ONE TO DIE I SWEAR I-

Episode 8:

Wait did he just say the name I think he said😀

I don't even know what to say about this episode title💀

NO MAKOTO SWEETIE IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT😭

Yo why tf does the blonde bitch look like that🤨

NO THAT MOTHER EFFER BETTER GET AWAY FROM KYOKO😤

Did that peach-haired asshole just-

HOLY FUCK POTHEAD GUY NO

POTHEAD GUY KNEW KYOKO AND HER DAD

What the fuck was in that chocolate😀

The bitch killed the love of her life? That's fucked up, man.

Kyoko, we're in a pandemic. Don't lick saliva, he could've had COVID🙄

Kyoko tricked them? Man, what a badass.

Episode 9:

Wait, so if that wasn't an actual exit, does that mean she killed her love for no reason?

The building is underwater? This game keeps on coming up with insane scenarios, I swear

Okay, blonde bitch has officially LOST HIS MARBLES.

Makoto please don't blame yourself🥺🥺🥺

DID THIS BLONDE BITCH JUST-

Wait....SO SHE DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TO KILL HIM?

AND HE STILL KISSED HER WTF

Aoi and Makoto's friendship is so cute🥰

Kyoko's gonna die, isn't she?😟

KYOKO NO SHE SACRIFICED HERSELF KNOWING SHE WAS GONNA DIE AGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

BLONDE BITCH SHUT THE FUCK UP HE JUST LOST KYOKO THIS ISN'T ABOUT HOPE

(No joke I am genuinely about to cry now. She better not be dead)

Episode 10:

Awwww I remember this is when she rescued him🥺

Kyoko really is with Atua now😔😇

"She died protecting me from myself" that line HURT, man

Awww poor Makoto is crying🥺🥺

Blonde bitch looking like he be POSSESSED or some shit

Wait what's that on Kyoko's body

how DARE this blonde ass motherfucker make Makoto bleed. Breathing the same oxygen as him was rude enough🙄

Bullying a girl Makoto? Not cool, Hajime Blonde Bitch

IT HIT HIM IN THE BACK OF THE NECK LMAOOO

Did he.....is Makoto....

Ohhhh He's keeping Makoto alive because he'll be trapped. For a second, I thought this was a redemption arc lol😂

Istg this guy is SO aggressive for no reason🙄✋

THE FACT THAT MAKOTO ISN'T ATTACKING YOU AND TRYING TO TALK IT OUT WHILE YOU BEAT HIM UP IS LITERAL PROOF THAT HE IS ON THE SIDE OF HOPE YOU FUCKING DUMBASS🤦‍♀️

WAIT SO EVERYBODY IS AN ATTACKER!?!?

Okay that's it this blonde bitch and me bouta throw hands for punching Naegi👊

Okay I know this scene is sentimental and all but how the fuck is Naegi still standing😀

Okay I wasn't expecting blonde bitch to cry this is actually pretty sad

WAIT SO WHO'S THE ATTACKER?!?!?

Episode 11:

I was wondering how they reacted to the outside world so this is cool

Wait why is ponytail girl smiling evilly😀

Suicide? Idk sounds unlikely to me🤔

Makoto is such a marder it's actually insane

MAKOTO PLEASE DON'T DIE PLEASE DON'T DIE PLEASE DON'T DIE PLEASE DON'T DIE PLEASE DON'T DIE PLEASE DON'T DIE PLEASE DON'T DIE

Okay who in the literal fuck is the attacker tho

What the fuck is that video and where is Makoto I'm so confused rn

ARE THOSE THE VICTIMS?!?!?

WAIT WHAT'S HAPPENING TO MAKOTO WAS HE TRIGGERED WHAT'S GOING ON

NAEGI HOLY FUCK DON'T DO IT

WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIS EYES HE LOOKS LIKE NAGITO WHEN HE'S RANTING ABOUT HOPE WHAT THE FUCK

BUFF GUY IS ALIVE HOLY SHITBALLS

WAIT SO IT REALLY WAS SUICIDE?!?!?

NO BUFF DUDE DON'T GIVE IN TO DESPAIR STAY ALIVE

YES BUFF DUDE STAY ALIVE AND SAVE THEM DONT DIE

YES BLONDE BITCH GO SAFE YOUR BRO AND TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL

NOOOOOOOOOO BUFF BROOOOOOOO

Wait IS TENGAN ALIVE?!?!?!?

(sorry about all the capitals)

Episode 12:

FINAL EPISODE BABY LET'S GO

Wait so is the video that forced the reserve course students to commit suicide and the one that made Makoto go batshit crazy one in the same?

Heh heh spiral eyes go brrr

Shy guy why are you freaking out what did you do

"You need to know the truth. I've liked anime for as long as I can remember" wow what a shock that the ultimate animator likes animation😀

"You're the exception to the rule and you damn well know it" damn shy guy

wait shy guy what are you doing

SHY GUY NO-

WAIT HE COULDN'T USE HIS TALENT

Did he just say eliminate😀

Shy guy what in the ever-loving fuck are you doing

BLONDE BITCH YES

Okay this is such an elaborate plot twist wtf

AWWW BLONDE BITCH🥺🥺🥺🥺

ASAHINA NO

SHY GUY DON'T YOU DARE PRESS YES

Thank god there's a timer😅

TOKO KOMARU NOOOOOO

WAIT MONACA TOO? SHE'S ALIVE!?!?!?!?

This isn't looking too good for Makoto and Blonde Bitch

WAIT JUNKO IS ALIVE?!?!?!?!?!

JUNKO CALLED OLD GUY OLD AND CRUSTY LMAOOO

Why do I like Junko so much

"Get over it, slut. We're dead😋"

WAIT THAT'S IT!??!?! IT'S OVER?!?!? WHAT HAPPENED?

Am I supposed to watch Despair Arc Now?

Okay I think it's over.

Next, it's time for the only reason I decided to watch the anime: to watch the despair arc for more NAGITO.

[james-stark-the-writer]

honestly, overall, that was a great fucking finale, actually almost made the show feel like it knew what it was doing the whole time and not like it had to shove 3 episodes worth of character development into one episode. truly, it almost made the whole thing worth it. i'll say episode 9 of The Last of Us S01 was a 8.5/10. i still don't like the opening 10 minutes for how they change the story but the rest absolutely fucking bangs.

it's crazy how 2 of the best episodes (outside of 5 and the flashback parts of 3) were co-written by Neil. i also just noticed Craig Mazin is the only writer on all the episodes besides 1, and 9 which he co-wrote with Neil, and 7 was written all by Neil. whoa, actually maybe my takes about there not being writers actually talking about these decisions was correct then, it was just Craig doing all the writing except for those 3 episodes, that's crazy. it really shows tbh. the season as a whole is a MESS. the show is a fundamentally broken and bad adaptation of The Last of Us and misrepresents the whole appeal of the property but then the stories of the games are fundamentally meant to be game stories and narratives and you can't just copy-paste them into a show. a better writer could've made it work by reassessing and rewriting every tiny bit to work as a TV show instead of feeling like a game narrative cut up into bits and supplanted as a TV narrative but Craig clearly isn't that writer.

honestly i'm sure other people besides me have already said everything there is to say about it, i keep getting enough video essays recommended about the show, and i've said most of what i wanted to say anyway. to me, as an adaptation, the show as a whole is a 6.75/10. it's not a full 7 but there are some really interesting adaptational choices here that at least make it worth a watch, however frustrating that watch might be bc of how much every other part sucks besides the new stuff and Bella's acting. as its own show, it's actually even lower for me, it's a 6/10, it feels like a disjointed fucking mess, like it's being held back (as i elaborated on here) and it really just doesn't really know what it wants to be. it constantly feels torn between wanting to tell its own story and wanting to be an adaptation and the show really suffers for it. the acting and characterization is all over the place and deeply shallow, Craig doesn't know what subtlety or subtext means, all the writing is just so much exposition about what the characters feel and think and basically none of it (again, i'm never talking about Bella here. theyr'e a perfect casting and there's only one moment in the entire show where i didn't absolutely love what they were doing) feels like the characters have actually lived in this world and have gone through the shit the dialogue says they have, it just feels so lifeless and empty and it's honestly exhausting trudging through most of it, watching them hit similar plot beats as the game with all the enthusiasm of running at the crack of dawn when you're not a morning person (idk, my brain's too exhausted to come up with a better example rn). it's like they knew the beginning and ending and forgot to actually do the legwork in the middle to make it make sense and like it has momentum and any real sense of narrative progression.

idk. i love the games, i knew this could never be the games, but i didn't expect it to be. it fails as both an adaptation and as a show. it's a mediocre show adaptation of great source material. i am deeply worried for S02, i need them to get a writer's room more than i need Euphoria to get one.

okay, then. here we are. the finale of The Last of Us S01. onto episode 9, then. if you missed it, here's my thoughts on episode 1:

my thoughts on episode 2:

my thoughts on episode 3:

my thoughts on episode 4:

my thoughts on episode 5:

my thoughts on episode 6:

my thoughts on episode 7:

and my thoughts on episode 8:

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Season 4 notes

Ep 121: mmmm tape recorder turning on without them knowing goes brrr. AAAhjhdsjfhjdf "do you mind if i call you jon" its like "can i call you elias?" is this the dream guy with the tendrils? who wants to bet the boat is captained by peter lukas? big man if it killed yall how are you still here. oh boy the tape is doin that thing. who do we think it is? did he wake up? hmm. ep 122: lol jon. 6 months!?!? bruh quit movin big man. he just Knows things sometimes you know how it is. nah b/c i can relate to feeling like other ppl/ things arent real, thats the biggest mood BUT i think it is kinda pretentious to entertain the idea that youre the only Real person. If you dont see a body dont believe it. i'll hold out hope for a bit. theres not a new archivist is there? surely i wouldve heard about that. oh god peter what changes did you make. ep 123: web development. hope its about spiders. she blames him. bruh why. if they hadnt done anything the world would've ended piss off melanie. why are ppl acting like he chose to be in a coma for 6 months. we know this they just appear. no longer "head archivist of the magnus institute, london" now he's just "the archivist" covered in spiders? cuz ik the spider has to do with controlling what youre doing and all this stuff but i cant think of how this connects to that. ep 124: ugh vertigo. is michael crew an old man? oooh. fairchild. how did he know it was martin? hmm. GRR I LOST MY NOTES AGAIN. FROM EPISODE 125 - part of 131. ep 131: bruh he's so hard to understand big man ur voice is so low. Jared Hotworth. the boneturner. "the ones i helped find their proper bodies" name a better top surgeon? our favorite trans ally? ep 132: woo field trip into the coffin! static lol. he says "chill out im just poppin in for a quick recall mission" is the rib thing actually gonna work? bruh it feels so odd and contrived but he's an odd man with some odd powers so idk. rip that archivist ayyy statement time. voices? recordings? are those tape recorders? was it the tape recorders? did they pull him back? i hope so b/c if the rib thing actually worked im gonna be so disappointed. ep 133: predicting the lonely? tundra. like the lukases. hmm. sanikova! like sanikov land. so its the hunt? i suppose? yeah. so daisy's clearly rejecting the hunt, which makes sense cuz she doesnt seem to like the entities that much. wait so are we just not gonna talk abt all the tapes playing on the ground?? no? ep 134: not an archival assistant anymore? Adelard Decker (or however you spell it) i recognize that name. 15th power. i was right there are 15. the extinction? im trying to remember what ive heard. oooh spooky. no i gotta be real i dont understand this fear but i'll believe you that its a thing. ew lukas is so squealy. lukas can turn invisible? oh boy. oooh martin put the tape recorders there. lol lukas is worried he's gonna be an avatar of the eye. ep 135: yoo its the third Daedalus statement! maxwell rayner (reiner? reigner?) i dont know who that is but ik its somebody. is he the cult leader guy? church of the divine host? 4 people?? what? did they kidnap somebody and keep them up there?? oh dear jon are you dying? did he try to See or Know or whatever? why does everyone call basira detective lol. ep 136: he was the one from the spider movie that ate ppl right? the special effects artist? is it annabelle cane? "its a joke jon" lol. hmm they wanted to record the therapy session with melanie? i wonder who that is. i almost wanna guess annabelle cane but im not sure. ep 137: this is the one! he went to the other place and read the war statement but it wasnt the one she took. not the music again. sounds like the slaughter. who the heck is eric lol. "the watcher's crown" like the crown of eyes we saw in the piccrew ep 138: oh boy Robert Smirk time. is that elias? as unhelpful as usual. if new powers can be "born" can others die out? did jonah magnus wear the watchers crown? maybe they were born from our fear or maybe our fears were born from them. ceaseless watcher does ceaselessly watch so. idk what you want

big man. yeah jonah for sure did something. ep 139: agnes!! lol that one dude threw off all their plans thats so funny. BUT this does tell us something. the tree in the backyard of the hilltop house? not made by her. it going down didnt kill agnes. im guessing gertrude tied agnes to the house using the tree? u good jon? cuz every time you try to Know smth intentionally it seems like it causes you great pain. how come he can do it accidentally with no problem but the second he wants to know smth of plot relevance he gets a headache or whatever ep 140: lol pagan exultation. classic. "oh thats my rib" lmaoo. ppl are always so mad at jon and his Eye powers except when it benefits them. they're like "oh you shouldnt do that its not right" and then all of a sudden they want to know something and its all "oh cmon jon its the only way" ep 142: oh god jon what did you do. its interesting she's giving her statement in the way that they do when jon Asks. did he see her in the Coffin? and so he's following her? ok cmon jon you're supposed to let them come to you. lmao ikr martin. "start to hear the blood" "suure." lmao ep 143: lol that awkward moment when gertrude is already dead. big J if you die im gonna kill you. bruh. ayo helen? i guess it worked? ep 144: lol this reminds me of that one edgar allan poe story where he kills the old dude with the weird eye. spooky music stuff. lol thats my favorite symptom of a heart attack its hilarious. so its smth abt the location probably? bro i feel like you should write down the numbers idk. 162830165049 564846474827. seems like the distortion? like the kinda thing that causes you to go crazy because of the numbers. oh boy is it the extinction again. bro what?? im?? his dad just died and he's like eh. martin dont be mean. he's being all lonely again. big man ur pushing ppl away. oh god its fucking squealy boy. ep 145: that almost sounds like breekon/hope... Arthur? agnes. aah was he from the lightless flame cult. a tree. lol he's just ranting rn. hehehe fuck landlords amirite. yay someone tells jon outright to go to therapy. now do it big man. ep 146: oh great! the distortion! i'm making a spiral themed building in mc right now! jon maybe accept you did a bad? nah this goes back to what i said before. they're fine with him compelling ppl when its convenient for them but otherwise its "no jon you cant, youre a monster jon" the tapes didnt turn on. i spose that means its not important? i agree with daisy, this seems unecessarily dangerous. ep 147: is that a tape? the first tape? well that went better than i expected tbh. BAHAKJASHDJKF she did the "can i call you jon" like nikola says "elias, can i call you elias?" damn annabelle is such a girlboss. oh! the one thing from the picrew. its been a while since ive connected smth to that. lol all the other avatars always talk abt their patron so lovingly and the jon just. absolutely hates the eye. ep 148: lol thats the most elias thing. "i just like the way it sounds" ep 149: did he disappear? bruhh. ur lonely powers are popping off i guess. oops i accidentally deleted my notes for 150 - 152 ep 153: thats the cult right? yeah. it doesnt sound like the church of the divine host? idk. if it is the church of the divine host then they worship the dark right? so is the eleventh the dark star or wtvr? it almost sounds like the corruption b/c of the oil or grease or whatever. oh dear what happened. oh its the hunters. theyre so annyoing. not an "it" he has a name. he's a person. is this a page from the skin book? ep 154: oh shit this is gerry's dad! oh shit he quit! oh dear god. jon don't you do it. haha martin. yeahhhh... is he gonna tell the others? cuz you know theyre gonna get mad if he doesnt. oh also picrew connection! the bandages over the eyes? yeah thats this im guessing. ep 155: oh good he told them. oh my god what did you do. lol i have no mouth and i must scream. nah you get none of my sympathy you're straight up murdering ppl. its like the desolation, destroying lives to sustain your own. ok but taking their statements doesnt

kill them. oh... bye melanie. ep 156: lmao imagine if the tape recorder spoke back. oh boy decker! i swear we got a statement from him already. oh god mirrors scary. They're gonna eat the body arent they. Yup... sounds like the flesh or the slaughter, but I'm not sure. Could be the extinction for sure. Smth at the center! Like Helen mentioned. God Peter you dick. Ep 157: peter's just so :/ another decker statement i see. a statement about the corruption? hmm. maybe its not abt the corruption. the extinction. lol pandemics. topical. John Amherst. helen? lol i can hear admiral purring in the background. oh cmon helen dont be like that. im trying real hard to like you but you make it so difficult. ep 158: did they fucking free the stranger? im gonna lose it. you absolute dumbass. im sorry who is that? jonah magnus? my guy. peter. you absolute dickhead. that's elias. (im p sure i had this spoiled for me that elias is jonah) oh dear this is her death. god peter you prick. i hope this is a pop off martin moment and not a "martin you idiot" moment. i hope the hunters kill the stranger entity. or she kills them. furry daisy pop off! yeah fuck you peter martin can make his own decisions. you know that clip from Twisted where jafar says "ok what the fuck was that" martin D: ok like i know its gonna work but still D: D: ep 159: peter you bitchboy. because if im alone i cant hurt anyone else. imnotgonnacryimnotgonnacryimnotgonnacry do it do it do it do it. pop off jon. ok its a pretty good idea for a ritual i gotta be honest. she didnt even have to blow it up lol. oh dear that was certainly a noise. "he gets you" did he not have jon already? he's back! our boy is back! awwww thats so cute. ep 160: oh right this is the thing in the safe house. i love him. "obviously im going to tell you if i see any good cows" martin my beloved <3 :)) oh boy who is this. fuckin. people. jonah you dick. gahh. you can tell he's trying to resist so hard lol. ohh. hehe keep an *eye* on him. altho if the extinction is a real thing he needs to be marked by that right? lol he sounds so intense im sorry- i want martin to just burst in and be like "look at this cow i saw!" its so dramatic and for why.

[honeytae]

name/nickname: mckenna, kenna

sex: female

star sign: pisces teehee

height: 5’8

time: 10:29

birthday: 6 days before yoongs <3 (let me know if you know anybody with a march 3 birthday. i’ve been trying to find a birthday twin my entire life.)

favorite bands: bts, txt, ateez, um idk does city girls count 

favorite solo artists: ariana grande, doja cat, megan thee stallion, frank ocean, halsey, the weeknd, harry styles, joji

song stuck in my head: don’t ask why but va va voom by nicki minaj

last movie: crazy stupid love. not my choice but,,

when i created my blog: i think may 2020

last thing i googled: “how many christmas episodes are there in the office”

other blogs: my main is @honeytaemain

do i get asks: sometimes

why i chose my url: ah well my original was ughkth and i just got tired of it lol. honestly i just brainstormed words i could put in front of “tae” and that’s how honeytae came to be.

following: 62

followers: 1,275 (i love you all so much, i just can’t wrap my head around that number like h o w)

average hours of sleep: oh yikes like maybe 4 or 5? i don’t sleep well, i go to bed late and just out of habit wake up at the crack of dawn.

lucky number: 3

instruments: piano, does kazoo count

what i’m wearing: pajamas (christmas ones, specifically)

dream job: i think my dream job would be like one of those national geographic photographers. i would love to just exist with wildlife and capture the beauty of it.

dream trip: santorini has and always will be a dream trip for me. i’m deathly afraid of airplanes so, it’s not an attainable goal unless i get my shit together.

favorite food: vegetable dumplings

nationality: american

favorite song: space girl by frances forever

top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: i genuinely cannot think of any rn. sorry lol

i was tagged by @gukwluv, thank you may! this was fun :)

ah i’m always so bad at tagging people, sorry to be lame but i’m just gonna leave it up to you all. if you see this and want to do it, go right ahead! if you feel comfortable tagging me, do that too! i’m curious about you bubs <3