#omgggg they never leave my brain

[the-witch-of-woods-beyond]

actually kills me every time i start losing my mind over a ship only to find out they have no fans and i can’t binge read incredible fan fictions or metas on them for days on end.

[eco-lite]

Finally got to read Volume 6! I didn’t think anything could top Volume 4, but this one is a very close contender for my favorite. Here are my unedited thoughts:

“Sinhalite Beckons, Part 1”

* An extra case first??? Okay then.

* Who is this female version of Seigi? This is hilarious, they’re way too similar!

* Very curious where in the timeline this story takes place…

“The Wandering Conch Pearl”

* WAIT WTF?? That was Seigi’s dream? Did he dream of himself as a woman interacting with Richard in Sri Lanka??????

* Not the milkman omgggg.

* Oooh Richard’s assistant in Hong Kong. That’s probably the sleezy guy he was talking about in the last story. Can Seigi see into other peoples’ pasts now? Didn’t know there was going to be a supernatural element lol.

* “I couldn’t decide if I should serve tea or not, so my brain cells had a meeting and came to the unanimous conclusion not to” (34). I love Seigi so much. 😂

* “I couldn’t stop smiling. Richard thanked me. He said he thought I was dependable. His smile was beautiful enough to start, but boy, a direct hit from his charm sure packed a punch. I was glad he’s withdrawn to the back room, because I was pretty sure my face wasn’t going to go back to normal for a while” (42). Oh, honey… 😌

* Wow, I did not think I would be learning so much about post-WWII politics between Japan and the Dominican Republic from this series, but here we are.

* This conversation between Richard and Seigi from page 62-67 is all over the place. Richard shutting Seigi down when he invites Richard over, but obviously still wanting to let Seigi in. And he ends up asking Seigi to dinner even though he just made the argument that Seigi should go home and go to bed early. And then he gets frustrated that Seigi is being so amenable to going out to dinner with him?? Bro, get your emotions together! You of all people should know that Seigi is not a mind reader. Let him know how you feel, for fuck’s sake!

* “To me, Richard’s beauty was like Mount Fuji at sunrise or the windswept sand dunes in a desert. Anyone else’s beauty was…very human. When I looked at Richard, I felt a mysterious calm, like if I were looking at a lake or the sky or the sea. Normal human features weren’t even in the same category. But if I said any of that out loud, I was pretty sure I’d offend literally everyone” (67). Yes, would would offend literally everyone. You’re learning, Seigi!

* “To have someone look upon the grain of truth hidden within the most tender part of yourself, and tell you their unvarnished opinion of it—I thought that would, without question, be cause for joy” (69). Okay well then you better tell Richard how you feel about having to leave Étranger in the next story, Seigi! Expose that grain of truth!!

“Resplendent Spinel”

* Seigi is really too nice. Filling in for someone in a club where you don’t know any of the other members? Could never be me.

* Ayame describing the “insincere drivel” her boyfriend spouts at her and Seigi’s reaction is “I felt like I was about to go into cardiac arrest” (93). 😅 Is he finally gaining some self-awareness about how ostentatious his compliments of Richard are?

* Ayame: “‘And if you think that a compliment can’t cut as deeply as an insult, you’re terribly naive’” (93). Seigi: “I felt like I’d been sent flying by a body blow” (94). Seigi is really going through it…

* “‘But you are different. Your words are different. When your words brush my face, it’s like a playful wind. With your absurd vocabulary, you are expressly telling me that my appearance brings you joy. It does feel a bit peculiar at times, but perhaps I find that peculiarity oddly endearing, Seigi.’ And then he smiled. I was struck dumb for a while” (96). Holy shit… 😳

* “‘I have a hard time understanding the nature of your love for me. It’s be a great help if you could give me a rundown, as if you were briefing me for a job’” (101). I wish Richard would ask Seigi to do this. But I think Seigi needs to complete his “self assessment” first. He doesn’t even understand the nature of his own love for Richard.

* Wow, Itagaki is actually pretty mature. Good for him.

* “‘Well, I just want you to know there has been a lot of diversity in body type in the industry lately, and I would love you even if you put on a hundred kilos, so don’t overdo it’” (110). It’s really nice to see a male character so adamant that his girlfriend shouldn’t have to worry about losing weight, especially since she’s in the entertainment industry. I hope we see even more diverse body types in Japanese entertainment in the future.

* I hope we get to see this “long talk” they’re going to have in the next story.

“Paraíba Tourmaline Romance”

* Omg Tanimoto is back! And she’s finally meeting Richard!! The two of them ganging up on Seigi is so funny.

* “Once again, it was Seigi Nakata versus the allied forces of Richard and Tanimoto. Honestly, I was probably the happiest if ever been in my life, but I was also just as embarrassed” (135). This is so cute.

* “‘I agree that romance might just be a stone I don’t know yet, but it feels so removed from me—like that planet made from diamonds orbiting a distant star. Maybe I just don’t have the courage for interstellar travel’” (153). This is so ace. I’m so so glad Tanimoto decided to be true to herself and not force herself into a romantic relationship she didn’t actually want. Sometimes you don’t need to experiment. You just know yourself. I’m so proud of her!

* Wow, I really teared up seeing Richard talk about queerness and fluctuations in identity so directly. I’m so happy Tsujimura had the courage to include frank conversations about queer issues. Richard’s perspective here truly is “like a spring breeze rushing through a window that no one remembered opening” (153).

* “‘What really matters is that you never forget that while you possess the potential to change, your present self continues to become your future self… I know it’s hard to decide what choice will be best for you, if I were in your position, I would not think forcing myself into a romantic relationship would be that choice… While dying on your feet is all well and good, one wrong step might make it nothing g more than foolhardy and reckless. And perhaps in the same way, a strategic retreat isn’t running away so much as it is a change of course’” (157). Ace ally Richard is so important to me. This is why he’s my comfort character.

* “‘When Seigi told me about this place, I thought it was a shop run by a foreign man who would show his customers wonderful gemstones. I see it’s actually a shop that provides kindness and comfort to those who see themselves as Étranger’” (158). fUCK.

* I’m so glad Seigi apologized for what he said to Tanimoto at the museum. I know it’s hard for him to let go of the fact that Tanimoto doesn’t feel romantic love since he has a crush on her, but I think he’s more understanding of her feelings now, thanks to the conversation with Richard.

* Omg Seigi and Tanimoto having a mature conversation about why they wouldn’t work out romantically. So nice to see. I think Tanimoto still kind of misunderstood why Seigi wanted to ask her out before, but that’s very on brand for her lol.

* “‘I feel like having you around has made me a better person than I was before’” (173). Richard!!! 💘💘💘

* Tanimoto defending Seigi and telling Richard to never hurt him again! I love her so much!

* I love this story so much! It was great to learn more about Tanimoto’s past and see her finally interact with Richard, who was just so thoughtful here. I can’t believe he felt bad for telling her not to worry about romantic love because he thought it might hurt Seigi. That’s sweet, but I’m glad he was true to himself and what Tanimoto needed to hear in that moment. And Seigi got just a bit more mature, too. I have such intense affection for everyone in this situation. But not Seigi’s father coming to ruin the vibes at the end. 🤬🤬🤬

“The Tanzanite of Rebirth”

* Seigi’s father is such a disgusting manipulator. I always say I want to learn more about Seigi, but learning how awful this man was to him and Hiromi, and how dark Seigi’s thoughts were at that time… How dark they are now… It’s really distressing.

* The fucking tonal shift from this melancholy last dinner together to Jeffrey showing up in the hotel room is so funny. For real though, what did Seigi think would happen when he followed Richard to his room?? 👀 But it’s really concerning that Seigi felt he had no choice but to follow Richard to his room. Obviously that’s Seigi’s extremely negative headspace talking, but please have some self-respect!

* “‘Maybe you’ve forgotten, but I spent a long time stalking you within the realm of what’s legal, of course. Obviously, I’ve repented of my actions—please, God, forgive me for my trespasses. And since I’ve repented, I hope you’ll forgive me for reoffending. It’s plain for anyone to see that something’s been eating at you’” (228). JEFFREY. It’s kind of sweet that Jeffrey has been keeping an eye on Seigi, but did he have to get this intense about it? This kidnapping situation is so chaotic lol. That is his style, though.

* “‘Why do you treat me like some rock on the side of the road? What do you think I am? A doll that’s not good for anything but being on display? I’ve been on this Earth longer than you have. I possess more knowledge than you, and I have enough free time to be able to afford to spend some on you. And yet you had the audacity to try to abandon me and walk off into the darkness. It’s beyond asinine and irrational’” (230). YOU TELL HIM, RICHARD! (Not to even mention Richard told Seigi he loves him just before this rant.) But I feel like Seigi could have said this exact speech when Richard ran away to England before. They both feel that the other should rely on them more, but wouldn’t want to be a burden. After the England debacle, Richard learned that it’s okay to rely on people who love you. Now Seigi has to learn that lesson too.

* “There was a large dam inside my heart, and what it was holding back wasn’t water but sludge. And I didn’t want any of that getting on Richard. It’s the sort of thing that you let out into a drainage ditch in secret” (232-233). Oh, honey, no. First of all, Richard is a human being who loves you and can withstand hearing bad things. You’re not tainting him. He’s asking you to trust him with this. Second of all, please go to therapy…

* It’s really concerning to see how Seigi thinks of himself as having the potential for violence against people he loves. It’s really common for witnesses of domestic abuse to think that way, but it’s so clear in Seigi’s actions that he could never do that. He has such a good heart. But he’s really clouded by dark thoughts from interacting with his father. It’s not like he was thinking this when he wanted to date Tanimoto. These thoughts resurfaced very recently. Thankfully Richard has done enough self-reflection to throw his own situation in Seigi’s face to show him how ridiculous he’s being.

* “‘You don’t think of me as normal or expected. You don’t think of me as tangible, something that is always by your side. That is why I remain someone distant and unreachable to you… You never attempt to close the distance between us. And you never allow me to pay your price, the affection, you are worth’” (243-244). Wow. This reflective Richard is extremely powerful…

* “The moment I realized that he had been watching over me and accepting me for who I was on a much deeper level than I could even have imagined, I felt like I’d been tossed into the middle of the ocean—it was salty, and I struggled to breathe. I was such a loser, such a thoughtless person, a timid child crying in the dark with his knees held tightly to his chest, and yet it felt like he took it all in and said that it was fine. But it wasn’t just a feeling, he believed in me, more than I could ever believe” (247-248). Yes, Seigi, that’s what you do when you love someone. You did the same for him.

* Omg punk Jeffrey?! I wish I could see all those photos Richard keeps as blackmail. 😂

* I’m glad Richard brought up “what floor?” Seriously, Seigi not feeling able to reject him was scary. For both of them, I think.

* Seigi’s stepdad is an absolute legend! King of positive masculinity! “‘I don’t think being strong or not has anything to do with whether you’re okay’” (272). Fuck yes. Hiromi did so well marrying this man.

* “‘I don’t want an apology, I want you to reflect on your behavior. I imagine you understand this by now, but your number-one assignment at the moment is learning to value yourself more’” (274). The fact Richard is able to say this to Seigi is a reflection of his own growth as well. I’m so glad they’re in each other’s lives. They make each other better. 🥹

* Seigi trying to tell Richard he wants to keep being around him even if he doesn’t work at Étranger anymore but it keeps coming out likes he’s proposing or asking him on a date. I think his first statement was the truest to how he feels: ‘“I want to be by your side from now on, if you’ll let me’” (280). I think Richard was ready to accept that as a proposal until Seigi made a bunch of qualifying statements lol.

* Wow, this story means so much to me. Everything that came out of Richard’s mouth was something both Seigi and I (and so many other people, I’m sure) needed to hear. Their relationship got so much deeper. And I can’t wait to see what shenanigans Seigi gets up to in this hotel lol. Especially if Richard is staying there as well. Very excited for the next volume. This one had better come out on time! 😤

“Sinhalite Beckons, Part 2”

* OKAY this is wild! I swear to god the person on the motorcycle in part 1 is Richard, but it seems to be Seigi now???? And he and Richard seem to live together in this nice house in Sri Lanka???????

* Omg she’s the sister of the airport lady from “Flourite By Your Side!” 😲 Glad she’s feeling better!

* Okay so it’s been three years? And there are pictures of the shop in Ginza and their families on the coffee table?? This is so fucking domestic. Is this their future???

* It’s refreshing to see someone call Seigi attractive for once! RIP Keiko’s love life though lol.

* “‘But you know, you really surprised me. You speak textbook-perfect English, but your Japanese sounds like someone from a local convenience store.’ I told him I thought is was a very interesting gap, and he smiled bashfully. ‘He always tells me that—“At this point, the language you might be the least eloquent in might be Japanese.” It is the one language he didn’t teach me, after all’” (301). This is so funny. And it’s making more sense why I thought Seigi was actually Richard in the first part. I can’t believe Seigi speaks English with a British accent! 😂

* Lol once again somebody’s first assumption is that Seigi and Richard are a couple, and it’s still not hard to see why. Love that Keiko immediately asked Seigi out after learning they’re not together, though. You go, girl! But Seigi’s heart belongs to someone else, huh? For real, please tell me he knows it’s Richard at this point!

* I find it so interesting that Tsujimura decided to show us this glimpse of Seigi and Richard’s future. What was the purpose?? It’s a fun and cute story, but not very satisfying if you’re routing for them to get together. And it weirdly feels like an ending even though I know there are at least two more volumes after this…

“Afterward”

* This isn’t a story but I need to record my reaction to the sentence “the first part of the story has now come to a close with Volume 6—though there is still more to tell.” 😲😲😲 Okay, I didn’t realize this story was in parts! Maybe “Sinhalite Beckons” is a way to transition into this new future chapter of Seigi and Richard’s life. 🤔

* Tsujimura actually knows a jeweler who taught them how to make royal milk tea lol. That’s adorable. They do say to write why you know.

* “It would make me very happy if you would keep me company on their journey for a little while.” Tsujimura, I am with you for the long haul. 🫡 Let’s do this!

[skelletonscloset]

Ok- I have a request for a small RE fic. It’s been burning a hole in my brain: something where Leon comes back from a mission or something with some serious injuries and the reader (who maybe has some kind of medical background or smth??) has to like- convince him to let them take care of him.

Idk I’m honestly not super picky I just think it would such an interesting idea for like- angst but also comfort yk? Literally go wild

OMGGGG thank you soooo much for this Resident Evil request!! i lovedddd writing it!! i hope you enjoy!

Warnings: Mild language and depiction of wounds.

Angst/comfort

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𝔹𝕀𝕋𝔼 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝔹𝕌𝕃𝕃𝔼𝕋

You were called into work on your day off. of course you were. USSTRATCOM wasn’t good at respecting time off or vacation, always pulling people into a big mess that takes weeks to clear up.

It was late, roughly one in the morning when you got the call from Hunnigan, her worried voice over the phone begging you—almost commanding you to come in. Her words were so panicked, so fast you barely had time to make out the words “Leon” and “injured” but that was enough for you to realize why you needed to come in.

The drive to HQ felt longer than usual, maybe it was the fact your sleep was interrupted, or maybe it was the context, the fear. The building was almost completely empty when you got there, save for a few people finishing up reports and agents being sent out on other missions.

“There you are! come on, he’s in the infirmary,” Hunnigan instructed.

You were one of the few medics that had the skill level to treat whatever injuries he had and one of the only ones who was easily available and not out on their own missions. Hunnigan nodded towards the closed door, saying a few final words about what to expect and then walking away.

With a deep sigh you readied yourself. It was never easy dealing with injuries, and the way Hunnigan made it sound these had to be some pretty serious ones.

The light in the room was bright and harsh with multiple cabinets and drawers filled with medical equipment. Leon was on the bed, a grimace on his face and his eyes squeezed shut.

His honey blonde hair was messy and beads of sweat still hadn’t dried on his face. As you approached him you analyzed the injuries you could see. Scratches and cuts littered his face, a gash in his right arm and thick red blood seeped through his shirt.

“Leon what the hell happened!?” You urged as you got closer to him.

“The hell do you think?” His voice was dry and strained, one of his blue eyes opening to peer at your worry stricken face. “It’s alright.”

Your jaw tightened as you reached over for some cleaning supplies, “I think you pushed yourself too hard and did something stupid. and now you’re suffering the consequences. So no, It’s not alright.”

“Yeah well what am I supposed to do? Civilians needed help. I couldn't just leave them there.”

You dabbed a cloth with ointment around the slash on his arm, he hissed in pain. Sometimes you hated how righteous he was, how unwilling to give up he was. But it was something you’d always admired of him anyway. “Listen to me, I know you like to help people, Leon but you need to be more careful. The spain incident and Los Illuminados should’ve been a wake up call that you aren’t invincible.” You hoped that despite your lecturing him, he could understand it was out of concern

He only scoffed, “I know that.” And then he went back to being silent.

You gave him a look before taking out a roll of bandages. “You’re lucky this wasn’t too deep. what caused this?”

“A knife,” he said, rolling his head over to study your movements, eyes fixated on the way your hands carefully wrapped up his bicep in medical gauze.

You shook your head and gently grabbed the hem of his shirt. “I need you to try and sit up, I need this off so I can check the wound.”

He muttered a few incoherent grumbles of disapproval but ultimately subjected to your care. He heaved a deep groan as he sat up with your help. You slowly peeled off the shirt from around his frame and grimaced at the sight of a deep wound, either a stab or bullet entry on the side of his torso. Based on the diameters it looked as though a knife was pushed in and twisted before ripping out.

“Goddammit leon..” you muttered, immediately grabbing another cloth to clean around the wound. “You'll need stitches and I don't have access to anesthesia or lidocaine. so it looks like you’ll be biting down on a belt or something.” It was your attempt at a joke to help ease the tension.

He rolled his eyes, lips pulled into a thin line. He looked so exhausted, dark bags under his eyes. “do what you need to do.”

You walked towards one of the cabinets and pulled out some gloves, thread, and needles. In the corner of the room there was a fridge and freezer used to cool down medicine or preserve it. You grabbed a piece of ice and walked back over to him. “Here bite this.” you handed him a large medical bite wafer. “I'll make this quick.”

You eased the pain in the wound by rubbing the ice carefully around the cleaned edges before slipping the needle into his skin. Your eyes shot up to monitor his reaction in case it became too much. His jaw was set and his eyes shut.

You continued to stitch him shut, a few groans of pain escaped past the wafer as you finished up. After cutting the string and bandaging him up you sighed “all done.” He spit out the wafer into the trash and rubbed his jaw.

He opened his eyes and gave you a weary look. more sweat accumulated on his face and his breathing was more rugged and uneven. His face was still littered in bruises and cuts.

You grabbed a third cloth and dampened it, “Last thing, let me just clean you up then i’ll get you painkillers and give you instructions for what i need you to do following this.” You gently cupped his cheek, turning his face towards you. Tired blue eyes gazed up at you, thick brows furrowed in discomfort.

You dabbed the cloth against some of the cuts and wiped away some of the dirt. Your voice was shaky no matter how much you tried to relax it. “What happens when you get hurt you don’t make it home Leon… what happens when you don’t even realize you got hurt til it kills you. What if-“

“It's not going to happen,” He grabbed your wrist and raised a brow. His voice wasn’t angry or tired. It was gentle and smooth. “I know what I'm doing out there, I promise.”

You closed your eyes and sighed again, “Okay.”

“You don’t believe me.”

“Of course I don't, but it doesn’t change anything.” You bit, pulling your hand from his hold and continuing to clean his face.

Once again his voice was soft and quiet, “Trust me, okay? Or maybe I just need to start having you assigned to my missions too.” Towards the end his tone was more snarky.

“Maybe. If it stops you from being so damn stubborn.” you scoffed out a laugh and set the cloth down.

You gave him a once over as you cleaned up your supplies and disposed of what wasn’t necessary. “Okay you need to be on bed rest for three weeks. And no you cannot get out of this sooner.”

Leon only rolled his eyes again but nodded, knowing all too well that arguing with you clearly wasn’t worth it. “alright alright..”

You patted down your clothes and brushed off your hands. “I'll send Hunnigan in with your medicine and I'll visit you tomorrow.” And with that you turned around.

You halted in surprise when you felt his grip around you wrist, “wait.”

You looked over your shoulder, “Yes, Leon?”

“Thank you. Seriously. Probably would’ve been worse off if it weren’t for the many times you’ve had to take care of me… so.. thanks for worrying. Even if it’s stupid.”

You almost argued back on that last point but held your tongue. “Of course leon. Any time.”

[acheronist]

ok its after 8pm time for my nightly gladman point skeleton posting power hour. welcome to speculation city

june 1845 - sept 1845, henry making idle notes about how the expedition's going because well. yes. of course

1846 - henry gets really into bullet journaling in the first winter wherein the ships are docked in devon harbor/beechey island. also it's cold as fuck and he's starting to realize it's gonna be cold as fuck for a long while yet, and after recently rekindling a relationship Of Some Kind with tom armitage, he starts getting nostalgic about partying in venezuela when he was 23 which is funny because on one hand we have very hard ground to heave on the morrow (gravedigging, hauling to the cairn, etc) but also omgggg do you remember stuart the shipcat he was the best. that party ruled does anyone else remember how fun that nye party was!!!

april 1847 - after months of teaching his good friend tom armitage his letters (finally), tom manages to get a parody flirty smutty version of barry cornwall's 'the sea' written down after henry had recited it aloud from memory and henry is so proud about how quickly tom's taken to writing after 40 something years of adamantly refusing to learn, that he keeps the page in his wallet

june 1847 - sir john dies and henry decides to take some asides about the funeral speech, presumably under the impression that they'd get home again at some point and he could decipher it and make it presentable later. officers do seem to be dropping quite quickly though and the inclination that things might not be working out excellently starts around here.

july thru dec 1847 - the terror camp in cape felix is established and henry overhears calls that camp is clear over and over and over enough times that he thinks its worth writing down while doing his silly spiral doodles to pass the time in the evenings

spring 1848 - the crews abandon the ships for real this time and the fear that he's not getting out of the arctic alive starts to feel more and more real each day, and in a vague attempt to keep himself from being lost and forgotten to history, he writes down a frantic account of his navy career in his cleanest neatest most legible handwriting possible. for future searchers to be able to read. also, messages get passed between erebus camp and terror camp and the men are inventing fake addresses for the letters between camps for...... whimsy? missing london society? i dont know

end of 1848 - the Unwellnesses and the Agonies are really settling in amongst the whole crew but hey. at least he still has the brain power for poems written backwards.

early 1849 - powering thru this dismal ass expedition's survival attempts based on absolutely nothing but the desperate nostalgia of being young and sexy and warm. thank goodness tom armitage is still here to help him remember specific details about the clubs in the caribbean. and we are simply too tired to continue the backwards code, but no one's pawing through his personals anyways, it hardly matters

mid to late 1849 - henry dies from [REDACTED] and tom armitage takes it upon himself to carry henry's wallet and pages forward south with the expedition because it would be impossible to carry his actual physical corpse with them because everyone else, himself included, are too weak and sick for such a thing. theyve been leaving their dead behind since they were at beechey, what makes henry's remains so special and different? the survivors keep heading south along the coastline of king william island

spring 1850 - the expedition, lead by aglooka, camp briefly nearby some inuit families. they stay in one place for quite a while, and tom armitage decides they're so fucking cooked and never getting off this island. he doesn't have the supplies or means to write anything to add to the wallet, so he does his best at identifying himself by getting dressed in his steward uniform, some things that were relevant to being a steward, henry's wallet, henry's shirt with the ink stains on the cuff, and walks off to the ocean shoreline until he drops dead and falls face down with the wallet underneath his chest to keep it safe from the arctic elements

1859 - mcclintock's search party stumbles across his skeleton on accident while looking for a cairn and go WHOAAAAA ITS A SKELETON and lift the steward tools + henry's wallet out from his ribs and take them back to england to be archived

1973 - the 1st battalion rcr goes back to doublecheck mcclintock's notes and go WHOAAAAA ITS A SKELETON and lay what remains of tom out on a plywood board from a hardware store and snap some pics. then they pack him up and mail his bones to the national museum of man & then the museum loses his bones

2018 - amc gives this storyline to a 26 year old from the opposite ship who had no prior history with henry for some reason and also demotes it to a sub-sub-plot. i dont know. smashing my head through a wall.

2022 - doug stenton shows up and says hey ummmm should we be more concerned about the fact that the entire fucking skeleton went missing. let me do some research i guess

2024 - i show up and start connecting the dots while working on the facsimile project of the papers. henry's fate still unknown. tom's bones still missing in action. the actual papers hidden behind an unbearably steep paywall thats gonna take me a decade to afford. facsimile project kind of overshadowed by jfj cannibalism confirmation on the same day. i keep being crazed on my blog anyways.

ok yay

[0wldn0]

I could see some stunticon - terran interactions during the time period the stunticons are still figuring out their revenge on megatron. Giving the terrans (or even just one terran) a quick insight into how they actually behave on their own, and maybe even a hint that MOtormasters largely the driving force when it comes to getting revenge on Megatron.

lol I can actually see a scenario where some of the terrans try to go "spy mode" on the stunticons when theyre running around just experiencing Earth with Breakdown. (I like to think they see a drive in movie theatre and stuff lol) Only.. the stunticons arent actually, like, doing anything? They're just kinda.. hanging out?

Anyway Motormaster is aware theyre there the whole time and largely just sorta... lingers close by to make sure they dont attack or anything before revealing she knew they were there the whole time and that they "not that great" at recon.

Before giving them maybe a stern warning to stay out of their way in the future. Their beef is pretty much entirely with megatron and the autobots. The terrans and the Earth as a whole dont really come into it.

AFDHJFD OMGGGG ANON!! YOUR BRAIN!!! I LOVE THIS SO MUCHHH 😭😭😭 I was thinking about ways for the Stunticons and Terrans to interact before the attack on Megatron, but wasn't sure what to do. You absolutely nailed everything with this ask!! Thank you!!

I can see the Autobots warning the Terrans about going out on their own after the Stunticons' arrival. Especially Bee would be so serious about like "You are. NOT. going to leave the house until we figure out what to do. And you will PROMISE me." And they do promise him, with fingers crossed behind their backs. 😩Poor Bee, whenever he thinks he knows how to deal with kids now, they do something else to prove him wrong.

The Terrans would be SO proud of themselves the whole time they're stalking the Stunticons. They think they are being master spies!! Of course like you said, Motormaster is aware of them the whole time. And whenever she hears them whispering among each other like "You're stepping on my servos!!" she would let out an internal sigh. 😭"They aren't being subtle at all..." ((At least they're still subtle enough for the rest of the Stunticons to not notice. Then again I think the Stunticons would be so lost in each others' company and happy to be together again that they forget Autobots even exist for a while.))

Motormaster warning them beforehand was an idea I was thinking about, but never properly decided how to put it into the AU. I think it fits perfectly here!! The Stunticons would decide to go back to the ship to rest, and since Motormaster always keeps a fair distance from them, they don't notice it when she is staying behind. As the Terrans watch the Stunticons leave, Motormaster comes up behind them. Of course the kids take guard immediately, but MM doesn't do anything to attack them, doesn't even go near them. Just says they need to work on their spying skills, making the kids grimace and look around at each other. Then of course, tells them that the Stunticons want nothing to do with them, they're free to keep living their lives. They are not enemies, nor allies. But if they do intervene with the Stunticons' business, then they won't hesitate to harm them while swatting them out of the way.

I can imagine the kids to get a LOT of scolding after accidentally blurting out that they talked with Motormaster. We got Dorothy, Alex, AND Bee giving them a whole lecture. 😭

[istehlurvz]

Okay so, I've been a fan of FF8 since it was released but I have never considered Seiftis ship until literally yesterday. Curious, I went to see some more fanart of this ship and I found your illustration for a fic Fire and Ice and OH MY LORD IN WHATEVER PLACE YOU RESIDE, I LOVE THAT ART! That Seifer, just, I have no words. I didn't know I needed that and I'm never really even been a big fan of Seifer. So good, I'm so happy I found your art. I'm also going to read that fic the picture is based on and leave messages for the author. Thank you! I can't thank you enough! I've needed something to do and bring some brighter energy to my inspiration pool.

OMGGGG I'm so glad :')))) FF8 is so dear to me (and that fic too ahaha) I hope you enjoy! It's a BEAST of a fic (300k words of 'but what about what happens after the end of the game but make it drama.') and honestly unlocked some core thing in my brain when I was younger and I just love it so much ahsfklhasf

[stevie-petey]

hello m i hope you are well. i'm finally reading chap 6 and 7 so that i'm ready whenever you release the final chapter of season 3 and once again, so, so good! i didn't realise how much has happened in such a short time!! here are my thought of chapter 6 before i read chapter 7 so you can get the chapter by chapter update.

Firstly, i wanted to compliment you on how scary you make the whole ordeal. obvs st is a sci fi horror show with elements of comedy, but i felt like s3's biggest flaws was not making the stakes feel as high as they were in certain moments. ofc you can't be held at an emotional tension all the time and there are down to be some low tension moments where it's appropriate to do some comedy, but overall, i felt like the scoop troop's dire situation was not always communicated well to the viewer outside of visual flare due to the actor's being instructed to keep things light and easy in their delivery. this was not the case with your chapter. i was very much feeling dread and horror at the thought of leaving steve and robin behind in the mega torture room together. you've always been quite good at making bug her own character and her own sort of adventure that doesn't depend entirely on steve, but do think that choosing to keep her separated from steve during the russian torture was a very mature writing choice.

immediately, right off the bat, this quote was so good at establishing the tone for this chapter, "it diminishes every sacrifice that has been made, it taunts the blood that has been spilled." reading bug be miserable over all the ways she hypothetically did or did not fail the group is so much more terrible when we keep in mind how much all of their efforts have been undermined, and it surprised me that the show itself was no interested in these fascinating questions. also this part, "All you ever do is try, you will die trying, you just can’t let it be in vain", omgggg bug is soooo "this is me trying" coded (affectionate).

ALSO OMG!!!! THE KISSS!!!!!!!! THIS IS BIG FOR BUG X STEVE TRUTHERS!!!! VAL MY SISTER IN ARMS WHERE ARE YOUUUUU!!!!! BUT OMG M THAT WAS SO GOOD!!!! I was soooo stressed out and everything was going a mile a minute and steve kissed her!!!! he finally did it!!!!! i absolutely love we-are-so-desparate-and-we-might-not-see-each-other-again-so-i-have-to-because-i-cant-die-knowing-i-never-did-it!!!!!! "It isn’t death that terrifies Steve, it’s the idea that he almost died without knowing how you tasted." SHUT UP!!!!!! IF HES NOT LIKE THIS, I DONT WANT HIM!!!!!! I was clutching my heart sweating like a victorian maiden feinting at hearing her lover dying on the sea!!!!! "Urgently, viciously, you scream the only thing you can think of that encompasses all the love and terror within you, “Come home to me!" TITLE DROP AFTER THE FIRST KISS!!!!! STUG ENDGAME !!!!!!! LUCAS SINCLAIR YOU *WISH* YOU HAD ACCESS TO THE FIREWORKS EXPLODING IN MY BRAIN RIGHT TF NOW!!!!!!! A smile spreads across your face when you think about him. The words spill from your mouth without any effort. “I do love Steve.” SHES SMILING WHEN SHE REALISES SHE LOVES STEVE AND DUSTIN KNOWS SHE LOVES STEVE AND SHES SMILING EEN THOUGH EVERYTHING SUCKS BECAUSE JUST THE THOUGHT OF THE OTHER IS ENOUGH TO BRING A SPARK OF JOY LIGHT AN EMBER OF HOPE IN THEIR CHESTS !!!!! YAYYYY!!!!! “Tried promising you I’d come home, angel.” Steve is sprawled on your lap. His eyes are cloudy, he isn’t quite here with you." COME HOME TITLE DROP PART 2!!!!!! WE KEEP WINNING STUG GANG!!!!! SEASON 4 GUILT TRIPS AND PSYCHOLOGICAL TORMENT THAT LEAD TO ARGUMENTS IDC IDC IDK IDK THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN!!!!!!

Now I would like to take a moment and discuss bug's excellent additions to the generation of action heroes. "And you’ve always evened out your debts to him." Killer line. Great end for a close up shot of her face while a light flickers in the back and the shot cuts to black before we reset in another scene. A tribute to all the action stars of the 80s, truly a brilliant work my you M.

final note, using the chemical SMART WORK!!! I remember thinking during the episode "wow what conveniently weapon-like substance is this that our heroes have stumbled upon and i know dustin and erica used them as well as dustin and erica and bug, i'll be real, i would started throwing them in the russian guards' faces idc idc!!!!

overall, excellent work as i'm sure you know and looking forward to reading chapter 7!!!!

Ps. "She lets out her own content sigh, and you play with her hair as well. They’re still with you. Still whole and alive." challengers core if u think about it. polycule anon kinda spit game on that one.

HI BABY I MISSED YOU !!!

i really appreciate that u like how spooky i make the chapters. i never really understand the weight of the situations theyre in every season until i write them. season 3 especially has scenes they dumb down to make room for more comedy, and while its silly, sometimes i forget that a literal TEN YEAR OLD GIRL is trapped in a russian lair with very aggressive and armed men who want to kill her. like wtf stranger things ???

as for leaving steve, it simply had to happen. i wanted to do something different since most rewrites have them taken together (which is always juicy and i eat it up every time), i just couldnt do it for this rewrite. bug wouldnt leave dustin and erica behind like that. someone had to stay with the kids, protect them, and bug was perfect for that role !!! plus, it made for a GREAT first kiss scene so it was a win all around (your comments had me DYING LMAO). however, i dread the day i rewrite season 4 because i'll have to figure out how to separate steve, bug, dustin or if i even CAN because the teens and kids pair off differently. bug is the sister, the girlfriend, it will be a challenge :(

my sister and i always joke every time we rewatch the show that we would be so. done with living in hawkins. i think the show forgets its own time canon, because wdym every. single. year. thise kids are thrown inti danger ??? every time they think "hey, we won" MORE SHIT HAPPENS ??? i wanted to really emphasize that defeat, the feeling of doing everything right and it still not being enough. you always see exactly what i want the readers to see, its like you look into my mind <3333 you always know the themes im sprinkling in :')

AND YES !!! TITLE DROP !!! took us three seasons, but we made it!!! now, for the actual scene i have in the come home masterlist, that will be in season 4 when steve can finalllly promise bug he'll come home to her <333 and the ilu scene <333 bug loves steve so much and its so natural to her and i wanna cry thinking about them ugh.

THE DEBTS LINE ,,,, i felt so cool writing that thank u for feeding into my nerdiness and seeing the vision ,,, in my head i have a compilation of badass bug scenes that would routinely get edited and the scene with her preparing to save steve and robin is 100% in there. also for the chemicals sometimes the writers leave me no room to question how a plan gets made so im like ,,,, fine i will do it myself u cowards.

finally for the challengers bit i truly didnt intent for the fic to become so challengers coded but ,,,, whew. it is. and i love it dearly.

n i love u so dearly i saw ur reblog tags for chapter 7 and i am shivering waiting for the analysis i KNOW ur cookin up and u always pick apart my fic in ways i adore so so so much <333

[girlboypersonthingy]

I'm not sure if you only do x readers but if you do ships could you please do headcanons for klance when keith is away at the blade of marmora?

feel free to ignore it if you don't like klance or don't do ships that's completely fine :)

I love your writing btw!

OMGGGG THANK U SM UR SO NICE 😘 AND YES KLANCE OWNS MY WHOLE ENTIRE HEART. I’ll do pretty much any ship as long as the characters aren’t far apart in age. Ah little space boyfriends 😩 ENJOY~

Klance- When Keith is way with the blade of marmora

First of all, Lance is sooooo annoying when Keith is away. Bro will not shut up about his super hot grumpy emo boyfriend. Keith’s name leaves Lance’s mouth at least 199 times a day, if not more.

Second of all, Keith is the complete opposite. He gets really really quiet, more quiet than he normally is. He doesn’t mention Lance at all but his name never leaves Keith’s mind. He only really gets talkative around Lance so without him, Keith doesn’t talk unless he has to.

THEY TOTALLY SWAP JACKETS BEFORE KEITH LEAVES EVERY TIME!!! Keith has literally turned around and come back to the castle just to get Lance’s comfy green jacket. Keith likes Lance’s jacket bc it smells good and actually keeps him really warm. Lance likes Keith’s jacket bc it’s small and scuffed up and worn but he prefers to hold Keith’s jacket close to him rather than actually wear it all the time. He’ll just walk around the castle with the red jacket thrown over his shoulder or clutched tightly in his arms.

When Keith is only gone for a couple days, Lance gets sooooo excited when he returns to the castle. He goes running through the halls with red cheeks and the biggest grin to meet Keith in the hangar when he arrives.

“KEEF!!!” “I told you to stop calling me that.” “I missed you! Did you miss me? Oh my quiznak, you totally missed it! Pidge caught a piece of equipment on fire yesterday. It was so crazy and-“ Cue Lance talking Keith’s ear off while he just smiles and nods along.

If Keith is gone for longer than like a week, bruh it’s so dramatic when they finally reunite. Just picture a teary-eyed Keith on his knees, still in his blade suit, clutching a happy crying lance in his arms. They just miss each other sooooooo much.

The whole team is like 🥹🥹🥹

Pidge specifically is like “I’m not crying, you are…”

Pretty much every time Keith is traveling back to the castle, he’s exhausted. There’s a lot of pressure on him, a lot of weight on his shoulders right now. He’s always on high alert, super tense and barely getting sleep. BUT when he finally sees Lance again and hears his voice and feels his embrace, he gets a sudden rush of energy. Now he wants to pull another all nighter just to catch up and spend time with his bf.

Oddly enough, Lance spends a lot of his time in the training room when Keith is gone. No one’s really sure why but Shiro thinks is bc Keith is always training and so being in that room makes Lance miss him less, ya know? Pidge is like 99% sure it’s bc he wants to actually practice so he can impress Keith with a super cool new move he learned when he gets back. Pidge is correct

If Keith has any down time while he’s away, he likes to just daydream. There’s not much else he can do so he stares off into the distance and gets lost in thoughts about his tall dreamy boyfriend and the last time they made out and how he can’t wait to feel his thin arms around him again and how he misses the smell of his nightly face masks and the sound of his voice and the texture of his hair and the freckles on his tan face. I could go on for days.

The second Keith leaves, Lance begins planning 😈 He racks his brain with cute date idea and nice things he can get/make for his bae. Every time Keith returns, after the initial hugging and kissing and excited smiles and small talk, Lance is giving Keith something nice or trying to take him out for a space picnic or some sappy shit like that.

Pretty much every time a date is planned, it never happens. Keith first complains that he’s too tired to go anywhere and then convinces Lance to makeout cuddle with him in bed instead.

But Keith does get really flattered and smiley and red when Lance gives him a pretty rock he found on a planet close by or a stuffed animal from the space mall or something like that. He just feels so special and he thinks Lance is just way too cute and pure for this world. He’s like ‘aww he was thinking about me’.

While Lance runs his mouth all day about missing Keith and anticipating his return, the night time is different. Lance cuddles Keith’s jacket or pillow in bed and lays awake for a while wondering exactly what he’s up to at this very moment. Is Keith thinking about him right now too? Is he safe? When will be be back? Poor baby boy is stressed about the love of his life.

Lance often has nightmares when Keith isn’t in bed beside him. It’s almost the same bad dream every time, just slightly different. It’s always Keith is on a mission with the blade and ends up hurt or lost or…worse. And Lance wakes up in a cold sweat every time. He wouldn’t know what to do with himself if Keith never came back to him.

Keith will never mention it to anyone ever but he has bad dreams when he’s away from Lance too. He often dreams that he returns to the castle to find the whole team gone, Shiro Lance Pidge, everyone. It scares the hell out of him, he loses sleep over it a lot.

That’s why they’re so intense when they reunite after a long time away from each other. The longer they are apart, the more they both worry about the other and the more these terrifying dreams occur. So when they finally see each other again after like a two month mission, they’re so overwhelmed with happiness and relief that they are both brought to tears.

When they finally sleep beside each other again, OH MY GOD THEY BOTH SLEEP SO GOOD. They feel so comfy and content and safe.

Keith snores pretty much every night but when he comes back after a long mission and finally gets to fall asleep next to the love of his life, his snoring can be heard from Earth probably. He’s just finally relaxed enough to get some good sleep again, he can’t help it. Lance thinks it’s cute and he knows it’s bc his poor baby is sleep deprived.

Long story short, these two are so deeply and madly in love. I don’t think two people have ever been this in love before. Throughout this entire space war, the thought of each other is what really keeps them both going. They’re fighting for the safety of the universe…but they are each other’s universe 💙❤️💙❤️

[hyakkigura]

Hello!!

I really like your art. It reminds me of glistening treasures that are grounded in the deep dark sea of wonder.

Stormbringer and Soukoku are things that I've been clinging onto for a while, so let's be mutuals?

Omgggg that's a wonderful way of describing my art, it makes me really happy, I'm moved🥹 thank you so much <333

and of course let's be mutual !! soukoku never leave my brain so I'm happy to talk about them<3

[cherryslyce]

I’m gonna punch the SUN. I’m gonna chew on CONCRETE. I’m gonna howl at the MOON I am going FERAL over here Cherry!!!!

Every single word of this chapter had me vibrating in my seat I am going into hyperdrive over here!!!!!

My Reggie boy is so perfect and wonderful and the loml omgggg. Like we thought he was sweet as a portrait???? And now full body Reg is literally just a cat the way he practically drapes himself over the reader at any given moment. They’re in love your honour!!!

Leaving Asger and Anders was v bittersweet, I’m going to miss their dry humour and their reluctant fondness for the reader and Luna but I’m v v happy to know that they’re on their way to healing from the loss of their mother/wife. Again the parallels between Anders and the reader was great to see and I’ve always been a sucker for the grumpy old man/adopted child that they would die for lol

And at last!!!! The man, the myth, the legend Sirius Black is back everyone!!! And his single brain cell is working on OVERDRIVE atm I love him sm. The way he was so excited to see his pup that he didn’t even compute that his DECEASED BROTHER was stood next to him had me screaming like he’s trying his best just give him a minute shdjdjd

Honestly I couldn’t tell you how many times I screamed while reading this chapter, the way you smothered us with fluff while also keeping the stakes high is just amazing and now that the gang is all back together I’m so excited to see what’s to come. Thank you for blessing us with this masterpiece as always <3

My dear, custard (my very affectionate nickname for you)!!! I will not lie, I have been waiting with bated breath for your message because they always give me LIFE. Truly, you give me so much motivation and I always feel honored by the love you give me <333!! I will say that Reggie is only going to get cuter from here on out !!

Also, YES, Regulus is such a black cat omg <33. They are indeed in love! They're just dancing around the words now haha.

I honestly didn't expect myself to grow so attached to Anders & Asger / the whole Norway arc in general. It is definitely bittersweet, and the parallels kill me too !! They all really needed each other in the end, and even though they're separated now, they will hold each other dear in their hearts for the rest of their lives (canon, because I said so <3).

Also LOL, Sirius and his tunnel vision for his pup <333. He really was just an anxious mess after reader never turned up after the wedding attack. But his poor heart, first reader swoops back into his life, and then his supposedly dead brother magically appears! Yeah, the man is going to have the time of his life next chapter.

The gang is reunited and better than ever <33! I am already elbow-deep into writing the next chapter which I hope to finish by tomorrow (can you tell I'm as excited as everyone else?)

Thank you endlessly for your kind messages, my love <3!! You are truly one of my favorite people on this site, and I always find myself wondering what you'll think about certain scenes amidst my writing process LOL. I hope you enjoy what's to come, dear <333!

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

Holly!! Tell me about the books that changed your brain chemistry/life/etc. <3 (have I already asked this I have the memory of a grape)

omgggg hii u have NOT asked yet!!! im giving u my top 10 bc i'd never be able to narrow it down otherwise. in no particular order:

1.) the velveteen rabbit. literally cannot even think abt it without starting to tear up like one of thee books ever

2.) house of leaves by mark z. danielewski. GREAT horror novel i literally think about it all the time w the formatting..... sooo crazy

3.) moby dick by herman mellville. read this when i was very little and didnt understand much except that there is always a bigger thing and that i really liked the word cannibal

4.) on the road by jack kerouac. literally first time i was actually able to relate to a fictional characters life and it rewired my brain fr

5.) the animorphs series. absolutely terrifying for a small child to read but let me tell you thanks to those i have been anti war from a young age

6.) just kids by patti smith. got it for christmas and its fucking me up forreal ALSO another time where ive been able to relate to the happenings a little too much

7.) the house on mango street by sandra cisneros. read it when i was 11 and it was the first time a piece of media has ever made me cry

8.) idr what the title was but i had a collection of fairy tales from the middle east and the jackal character has haunted me for my entire life thanks to those

9.) the color purple by alice walker. i spent the entire last chapter just shaking like damn maybe there is good things everywhere

10.) the holy bible. which is only on here because it is in Every Single motel room and the first time i read it, i read it like a love story and that changed stuff for me fr

[loisfreakinglane]

What are your oldest ships that are still active for you? Do you still read fic for them? And is your love them still as intense as it was before, or has it lessened over time?

omgggg HAPPY VALENTINES WEEK MY LOVE THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME THINK ABOUT ROMANCE!!!!!!!!!

gosh i'm trying to even think, what of my current otps are OOOOOOLD ASS OTPS. I'm only gonna say ones that I'm still hardcore for, and I am gonna exclusively point to OVER 20 YEARS OLD otps, to lol. keep this concise. THIS IS OFF THE CUFF ANYWAY I'M SO SORRY TO THE ONES THAT I'M SPACING ON

clark/lois, obvsly, since the 90s and lois&clark, superman, animated shows- i couldn't tell you which fried my clois4ever brain first, but one of my earliest memories is sitting on my dads lap while he tells me SUPERMANS ABOUT TO LOOK AT YOU!!! at the end of the first movie, so probably that one

gotta spare a moment for smallville's clark/lex, babys first slash otp. those first few seasons really weren't playing around! and much as i have an assortment of smallville otp's, clex is the one i will still occasionally check ao3 for- so many lies, so many secrets, so many potential SECRET AND FEELINGS REVEALS fic (tbh the fic that most lives in my brain is probs the rosetta au fic where clark finds himself incapable of speaking anything but kryptonian and is forced to play pictionary with lex in the caves)

max/liz, og roswell. this is one where i never really got into fic for it- my attempts over the years usually just turned up either a. michael/liz, which is not my thing but ya kno have fun friends, or b. LIZ IS A SECRET ALIEN TOO AND THEY WERE IN LOVE ON ANTAR which does not really do it for me personally. i will eternally tho cling to this one fic that still lives in my soul and i do revisit every so often, where liz fucked future max before he disappeared and wound up pregnant, leading to a lot of fun drama for all (i will say that i also am constantly badly ficcing at sara about a world where future liz used the granolith to time travel and fix everything but just got stuck in the past instead of disappearing like future max did- i'm not a writer but i AM a daydreamer)

BATCAT. animated series was my og love obvsly. the birds of prey show helped negl, even without seeing them onscreen together (and also gave me helena/jesse which i shipped like BURNING but i haven't revisited that show in many many years so i can't call that a current otp). gotham shockingly gave me a baby batcat i really appreciated. and then obviously the batman 2022 gave us theeeeeee greatest live action batcat I STAND BY THIS I'M SORRY

lmao can I say shawngela when my main emotion these days is rage and spite? WE DON'T ACKNOWLEDGE POST BMW CANON IN THESE HERE OTP PARTS

mai and i rewatch drive me crazy TOO OFTEN for me not to bring up chase/nicole, eternal otp from the most underrated teen romcom of all time. it also has at least one CRAZY GOOD postmovie fic on ao3 so like. that helps

I LOVE HOW MUCH TUMBLR STILL TALKS ABOUT BEND IT LIKE BECKHAM BC IT WILL TRULY NEVER EVER LEAVE MY BRAIN. babys first BUT WAIT AREN'T THEY GAY??? WHY IS THIS UGLY MAN HERE WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS

(every iteration of cinderella and her prince...................)

[enjolrasingaround]

I wrote this all on discord so Ingore any fuckups but also I have to share this ( idk if the artist ment it this way but this is how I see it😞) also artist ur art is beatiful

LOOKKKKKK AT JEHAN THEY LOOKS SO SWEET MY BABBYY <3 Their so cute they look so kind Omgggg Jehan being orange is so smart Orange brings the same warmth jehan would if they were real Marius having such a tiny blue circle thing is so smart too because like all that time he was ever in the Ami’s he hadn’t really gave anything but his crys he weeps because he couldn’t be with the love of his life he didn’t even care about the Ami’s untill they died him having no real contributions to the meeting leaves him with such a small blob and I’m not quite sure why he was blue other then he was so upset in such despair due to cossette moving away that it left him gloomy, blue </3 fucking loser jehans circle thing taking up basically all of them also makes sense because they cared about the feelings of the people they was quite selfless they loved to see the world in warm colors when everybody was in love so they simply did more when the world was in shambles I actually don’t think I have anything on enjolras because idk man Some of these my tiny little brain cannot comprend enjolras will usually be the majority of it he’s such a like advanced character he’s so Him?? Grantaires circle thing taking up more then he needed to but still not fully him is so special to me too because like I tend to beleive he wasn’t even in the meeting because he cared about the people he was there for enjolras, to feel something other then the burning of alcohol in his throat it takes up more then needs to yet not enough to show how grantaire was always there always had something to say uh I forgot what I was saying but like he was loud, annoying but he was there and more then Marius and some other memebers but it still didn’t take up all of him because he never contributed for the right reason. He cared for nothing but enjolras his muse I haven’t seen enough feuillu to like have anything on him unfortunately </3 cuz I’ve been reading other stuff so sorry feuilly love u along w courf joly bosseut comebefferes Its a light blue blue is the opposite of red enjolras’s red was also rather light almost simalir in shades yet diffrent in the book I have they are said to be opposites in the same mànner they were the same in diffrent fonts there’s a difference in combeferres blue you usually see it in doctors while enjolras’s red u usually see as the fresh blood ( it’s a little bit lighter shut up .) of a person or animal . They are so diffrent yet go with each other I might be tripping but they look like their looking at each other

LES AMIS DESIGNS!!!

ik the colours are garish but they are the colours I have assigned to each les amis (I did not have a clear concept of bahorel when designing him forgive me bahorel stans)

[hifbialliscoolnoworries]

Had an anxiety attack,

proceed to study Spanish,

Discovered/felt/used my abdominal muscles.

My thought process:

*casually studying Spanish like an second language for some fucking reason idfk? It’s about to be my third language after I finished learning it*

*signing to myself in ASL (english words) while reading Spanish*

*muscles twitches*

The fuck? I never felt it before? Where was it? What’s the exact position I did?

*get in the exact position*

*twitches*

There it is! Okay…. It’s not my… hips. It’s…. Wait. Is it? The fuck? It’s my abdomen?

*gasp*

WAIT. OH CAN I DO A PLANK? WAIT WAIT WAITTTT.

*get myself in uh

I drew it. That position*

*twitches*

*gasp*

I feel it

*twitches*

Omg

Omg

Omgggg

Wait

*proceeds to recklessly leave it all to my non-dominant left hand* *why? Well, to pet Autumn of course*

*twitches a bit tightly*

Wait. Why am I still up

*hand going numb*

My hand is dying

*angle is all wrong*

Make a fist

*all better*

Perfect

I can chill here

The fuck

I never done that before

Impulsively did it today and now apparently expert?

*proceeds to do a plank*

*twitches*

Omg it’s easier than earlier

Gasp

*twitches tightly*

That’s what it feel?

So yeah there’s that. I… I’m 22. Nobody taught me anything in my life besides education brain shit. I never learned deeply about gym. How to really think and use it. People always say you just use it. I can’t JUST use it. I can just use any other muscles besides THAT one. I need to reallly learn the muscle damnit.

[sumarmz]

I'm feeling emo so I'm gonna list things I rlly like so I remember life is very snazzy everyone pay attention bc I am always right so everything I like must be amazing

-Roses in bodies of water like omgggg especially like pink toned red roses with fairly lights in lakes aughhhh help

-Vanilla icecream when it has those little black bits omg

-my crush bc they're so cute and pretty and I want to hold her hand

-Those friendship bracelets that are the shade of each friends eyes like that's so cute stop I'm gonna combust

-Waterstones. Like I moved a while ago so I haven't been to waterstones yet but it's so ethereal it's literally got a cafe attached to it and it's so pretty

-my iMedia coursework, like slay me I ate on that did so good I got the best score in both the year 10 and year 11 classes 🙏🙏

-My epic freunds I've only known them for like 5 months but I'm the happiest I've ever been with them they're the only people who I'm 100% myself with it's so freeing

-This specific lip gloss that i do not own but its like drop desd gorgeous and only about 6 quid on yesstyle (I will probably never buy it anyway)

- jet black hair/dark hair in general. Just propose to me atp

-Those jelly crystal things they look like they have the peeeerfect texture and one thing about me is I crave textures not taste and I've been craving that texture my whole life

-My new friend who texts like the Snapchat ai he's so goofy

-Lin Manuel Miranda

-Musicalssss

-specifically hamilton

-My zesty English teacher whose so millenial coded, wants pet snails, "has no shame" (he said that himself) and let's me and my mate harass him after class

-My iMedia, Business and tutor teacher whose literally my mom guys she breeds dogs and she has a pet dog called Gilly who looks like a human and her daughters a lesbian too and said daughter helped me with my iMedia work 💔💔💔

-My ugly ass birds

-Black cats

-Handmade gifts, I have a bunch (three) of crochet gifts that I do absolutely nothing with but I refuse to let anyone touch it because and keep them all pretty and neat bc someone made that for me

-PINKKKK

-pink again I live pink

-Marina as in Marina and the Diamonds

-Mitski

-People enjoying my baking

-People enjoying my art

-People who enjoy me

-My little cousins who I see as little brothers and mean the world to me like if I kms whose gonna be there for them 🤨🤨

-When my crush sends me audios/videos of them speaking or singing or whatever (I could listen to them for hours on end) I'm literally shaking as I write this guys oh my god I love her

-My history teacher whose always insulting me like omg leave me alone you little rat maybe she should be nicer to her best student 🙄

-Brain rot humour

-Pretty skies

-Buying new books

-Drawing

-Lesbians <3333

-My crush again

-the person who I think of every day (this is not an exaggeration)

-the person I have romantic attraction to

-the person who I'd throw away my whole life and family for

-the person whose the only person I've ever loved

-the person who wasn't my FIRST love (if you can class that as love lmao) but was my first LOVE

-the person who doesn't like physical touch but still hugs me even if rarely

-the person who I'm drifting apart from despite my feelings starting to consume every nerve every cell every part of my body

-the person who I planned a future with

-the person I've known for years but I only clocked my feelings in October 2022 (girl in red ref??)

-the person who I'd rather never speak to again over hurting them by confessing

-the person I adore

-did I mention my crush

-guys im actually cooked

[heoneyology]

no prob!!! i asked and u delivered 🛐 and omgggg I GET ITTTT i kinda felt like that during my hi touch w ptg too bc there were just too many of them!! LMAO pretty boy overload but that was all entirely too cute, im so glad u had fun 🥹 i hope they come to brazil soon and do smth like that too! i love them sm, can't wait to meet them 🤧 they are indeed all very good boys (also the good eye contact............ [rest])

SO WHAT HAPPENED WAS the line n the guys were separated by a table but only 6/7 of them fit behind it, so ck, who was last in line, was kind of standing sideways since he was facing one of the table's shorter sides (omg i hope this is making sense). and i was going by them one by one, standing in front of each member individually, so by the time i got to him after jooheon, only his side profile was facing me bc he was basically facing the same fan as jooheon at the same time and i obviously had missed that LOL so i was just staring at his right cheek and i said "hey omg, i love you" or smth and stood there for a couple seconds waiting for his response but he never turned to me or said anything LMFAO girl i left there crying of anger 💀 but like now i get it that it was just mishap n shit happens lol

but yours omg nooooooo hahsjahsjsbjs im so sorry!! jsjsisjdksj also that was SUCH a ck reaction jesus christ god almighty in heaven. im glad the one w seongmin wasn't as bad though! jajsjskjsksjsj

HI I'M SO SORRY I'M ANSWERING THIS SO VERY VERY LATE 😭 but also I didn't want to leave it in my inbox and not reply at all aklsdjfk thank you again for reading the hi touch/fansign post, I know I said it once but 🥹 and omggggg you got to meet pentagon!!! I don't blame you for feeling the same way I would too but there really were just too many of them and it really was pretty boy overload. I think the masterpiece tour is wrapping up now and it makes me sad because I hope they do a part two or just another tour in general, I'm crossing my fingers for you that they go to brazil someday!!! 😭 (the eye contact is still killing me, months later... I have flashbacks to the event and melt)

OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO what the heck who organized the event to make it like that klajsdfk so they were squished 😭😭😭😭 I'm sure he didn't ignore you on purpose hearing that but also it's kind of like... funny in a not funny way to be like "I got ignored by changkyun" but omg I'd be so mad too especially with how much we pay for these things like organizers please do better I want a full experience 😭

LOL it really was such a changkyun reaction I'm taking this one to the grave as one of my most embarrassing moments 💀 brains don't work well under pressure. seongmin's really wasn't as bad but I'm still very !!!! because oops why did I have to make that awkward eye contact