#omg i love that he is older yet shorter too.. i wonder if he ever gets mistaken for being younger djhsvh

[restinpeacesensei]

i want an akodoroid

[ifmywishescametrue]

omg now im jealous about all of the breaking up and making up stories!!! they're all so wonderful but is it okay to ask for a steve/tony one? i know you've made one inspired by ts (amazing) and this time, maybe they meet/bump in a coffee shop? idk angst potential but also hopeful/happy ending aahhh. your stories are amazing esp ivy!!! thank you! <3

thank you so much!! it ended up being more cute than angsty, but I hope you like it!

Steve's pencil drifts idly across the page of his sketchbook with no end vision in mind. He's killing time until Nat shows up, which could be anywhere between the next five minutes and the next two hours with her vague text that simply said running late. When he looks up to reach for his near empty coffee cup, he freezes with his hand in the middle of the air.

At first he thinks it might not even actually be him. Tony's hair was never quite this well styled before, always a tangled mop on his head that sometimes fell into his eyes. Steve used to spend hours sometimes running his fingers through those wild curls while Tony slept on his chest. It's been tamed since then, cut shorter and held into place by some type of product. The facial hair is new, too. He remembers a time when it would always come in patchy and uneven, and Tony would pout as he shaved away the latest attempt at looking older than he was. The eighteen year old boy in oversized hoodies and stained jeans he met years ago has been replaced by a man in a well-pressed, expensive looking suit with a leather briefcase, like he just stepped out of a boardroom a minute ago. From what Steve has read about his life since they broke up, he probably did.

Steve stares without fully meaning to and for much longer than he would have if it was intentional. He watches him order his drink and smiles when the barista’s eyes widen at what he knows is an overly complicated order, wondering if Tony ever did finish his quest to find that perfect combination of syrup flavors, sugar, and cream that only he would ever like.

He catches the double take when Tony notices him there, right as he’s taking his first sip of the iced drink, and the cough when he chokes on it is anything but subtle. Steve looks away with red cheeks and tries to pretend he wasn’t staring, but it’s a futile effort. He can’t say he minds, though. Not when it means Tony walks over to him and unceremoniously drops himself into the chair across from him.

His mouth forms a familiar smirk, and he says, “You seem to have a staring problem, Rogers.”

Suddenly, Steve is nineteen again, falling hopelessly in love with the boy in his introductory chemistry class. It felt sort of like fate at first when they were paired together for the final project, and Steve remembers thinking that his chances were shot to hell when Tony sat down next to him and said those exact words. He never was any good at being discreet.

Back then, for that first time, all he could manage was a stuttered apology in response. But eventually it became their thing. Something just for them that no one else could ever understand. When Steve would watch him from across the room at parties, because he knew how much Tony loved having his eyes on him, and Tony would saunter over with that same smirk and those same words, there was only ever one reply.

“Guess I just really like what I see,” Steve says, and Tony’s face splits into a grin that matches Steve’s own. He’s still beautiful, even if it’s different now. Less softness to his appearance and more defined edges and sharp lines, but heart stoppingly beautiful nonetheless. He doesn’t quite say as much, but he does comment, “You do look good, by the way. Different, but good.”

Tony’s smile softens into another familiar one. It’s his smile for compliments, when he’s thinking self-deprecating thoughts that he won’t voice. Instead he’ll turn the attention back around, shifting the spotlight.

“So do you. The good part, but not really the different part.”

Steve runs a hand through his hair, contemplating if not looking different contributes to the good or not. He should look different somehow, shouldn’t he? After two and a half years not seeing each other in person and what feels like a lifetime’s worth of heartbreak in between then and now, he should look as changed as he feels. As changed as Tony looks now, like he’s someone new entirely. He’s pretty sure the t-shirt he’s wearing now is one he owned back then.

“Thanks,” Steve says anyway, for lack of anything better.

Just before it has the chance to fall into awkward silence, Tony says, “I didn’t know you were in New York these days. I would’ve called or something if I’d known.”

Steve raises an eyebrow. “Would you have?”

“I don’t know, maybe. I would’ve thought about it, at least. You know, stalked you online, found your number, dialed and hung up a few times.”

Steve laughs, fiddling with the straw wrapper from earlier to give himself something to look at other than Tony. “I moved back last year. Thought about calling, but I figured you were busy. Didn’t want to waste your time.”

It’s only a partial truth. He did think about calling when he came to Brooklyn after his year-long internship in London ended, but he didn’t want to know what Tony would say if he did. If he would have some sort of transparent excuse to avoid seeing him or if it would be an outright rejection.

“I would’ve made time for you,” Tony says, so painfully sincere that Steve has to look up again to meet his eyes.

He wonders if Tony is thinking of that last fight, if it’s a purposeful or coincidental reference to some of what Steve said. It was by far the worst fight they’d ever had, all over the phone with an ocean between them and so many things that Steve still wishes he could take back. Accusations flew on both sides until the entire thing was blown so completely out of proportion, yet impossible to reel back in. He should have just hung up the phone before it went that far. Before he could tell Tony that he always felt unimportant compared to everything else in his life, which was sometimes true but entirely unfair. Before Tony could say that Steve talked about Peggy in the same way he used to talk about him, and he didn’t have to finish the thought for Steve to understand the implication.

“Are we talking about it?” Steve asks.

Tony shrugs, feigning casual, but just the corner of his lip is between his teeth in that way that means he’s nervous and trying to hide it. “I guess that depends on what this is.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, we said back then that maybe it was just bad timing. You were in London, and I was in Boston until graduation, and it was always going to be a bit of a mess, but there was always that someday chance, right? So maybe this is someday, and we talk about it, and try to get it right this time,” Tony says. “Or maybe that was just something we said and didn’t mean, and I ask you about your life, and you ask about mine, and we talk and laugh and pretend that we’re friends again for the next half hour or so before we go our separate ways.”

It’s an easy choice, really. If there’s one thing that Steve’s sure of, it’s that it’s always been him and always will be.

“I don’t want to go separate ways,” Steve says. “The first time was hard enough, and I never really moved on. I got better, but I don’t think I’ve been more than just fine in a long time.”

Tony nods slowly, “I kept thinking you would call, you know. Back then. I thought you would call and tell me that it was a mistake and it would be okay again, but you never did. Although, I guess I could’ve called, too.”

“Why didn’t you?”

“For the same reason as you, probably. I couldn’t risk it if you didn’t want me again. Couldn’t risk getting back together just to break up again, either. We weren’t exactly the poster children for making long distance work.”

“We were terrible at it, weren’t we?”

Tony’s smile is tinged with the pain of the past. “It’s kind of funny because I remember thinking that it might be a good thing for us when you told me about London. Can’t get sick of somebody if they’re not always around.”

“You thought I would get sick of you? You never told me that.”

“Why would I?” Tony laughs. “Just put all my insecurities on display like that? Come on, Steve, that doesn’t sound like me, does it?”

Steve laughs with him briefly, “No, but I could’ve told you back then that it wasn’t possible. Told you that I wanted you around all the time and I missed you every second you were gone. I might’ve even stayed if you had told me. I was thinking about it, you know? I almost turned the internship down. Probably would’ve if you’d asked even once for me not to go.”

“It was your career. I never would’ve asked you to give that up for me.”

“There would have been something else. Another job somewhere closer to you.”

“I still wouldn’t have asked,” Tony says. “And I would have told you to go if you’d said you were staying.”

Steve knows that, which is why they never talked about it much before he left. Tony pretended to be happy for him, and Steve pretended to be happy for himself, when really it already felt like the beginning of the end. A year apart is longer than it seems, and it didn’t take more than a few months to realize it.

“I never…” Steve starts, trailing off when he doesn’t quite know how to finish the sentence. “There was never anyone else. Not while we were together, and never with Peggy.”

“I know. I knew back then, too, that you were never that kind of person. Jealousy’s just a real bitch sometimes.”

“There’s really not been anyone since, either,” Steve adds, and Tony’s mouth quirks into a half smile. “I mean, a couple of people here and there, but nothing like what we were.”

“There’s not a whole lot out there like what we were, is there?”

Steve smiles, leaning back in his chair, “No, there’s really not. But I do remember reading a rumor that you got engaged.”

Tony groans, and it’s so much like he used to sound when he was nine pages deep into a ten page essay at three in the morning that Steve has to laugh.

“Don’t you dare laugh. That rumor haunts me, Steven,” Tony says, belied by a grin that he seemingly can’t control. “Do you know how I found out about my supposed engagement? When my mother called and asked why I hadn’t told her I was planning on proposing.”

“So I’m still the only person you’ve ever proposed to,” Steve teases, just for the way he knows Tony will get indignant about it.

“How many times do I have to tell you that one didn’t count?”

“You were on one knee, you asked a question, and you had a ring. All the boxes are checked, sweetheart.”

“It was a blue raspberry ring pop, and you ate it,” Tony argues. “Not to mention that I actually asked you to marry me someday in the distant future. That’s not a proposal.”

Steve laughs again, thinking about that day in the middle of their living room, just a few weeks before Steve got the call that would take him to London and change everything. It was almost like a joke, and for anyone else it would have been. Not for them, though, because Steve remembers the look in Tony’s eyes when he dropped down in front of him, spur of the moment and impulsive like almost everything was back then. He remembers how it still felt like a promise, even if it wasn’t the real thing.

“But I said yes, which I think technically means we’re still engaged.”

“Absolutely not,” Tony scoffs. “It’s going to be a production when we get engaged. Elaborate and planned and romantic as hell.”

“When, huh?” Steve grins.

Tony’s cheeks pinken a touch, but he doesn’t take it back. He reaches for Steve’s hand on the table. “Yeah, when. Is that alright with you?”

Steve threads their fingers together, holding on tight. “That’s alright with me.”

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The Caregiver

The Caregiver

Fanfic

Pairing Roger Taylor Reader

Warnings Smut 🔞

Agegap

A/N Please like and reblog or if you want leave a comment

Thank You

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- Oh Thank you so much Y/N, Mrs Lewis is my last one for the day but I really have to...

- It's ok Linda, I cover up for you, honestly.. It is ok.

I was so nice to everyone that I often forgot about myself, tonight it was my turn to cook on the chelter and before that my laundry really had to get organised... And the dishes, omg... Well it seamed that I had to do that one another night..

- You are such a rock Y/N.. How can I ever thank you? Mrs Lewis is a sweet old lady, you just have to be there on time and shop after her list, otherwise no problem.. Oh.. Right.. Almost forgot.. The bus.. Make sure you time it in.. It runs just once in an hour

- Ok, got it.. Have a nice dinner now.. Don't think about me, I smiled little sarcastic and headed out towards the bus stop

Jeez.. Well... I had nothing against helping people, the opposite frankly, I loved it, but it was a loooong time since I gaved myself some me time... And by that I should probably mention that it was about time that I had a good lay too..

With a cringy noise and a sigh, the bus stopped right by my feet

I asked the driver just in case where the closest stop was to the grocery store

The list was not that long but she was very specific what she wanted, down to the exact pound of cheese the special sausage at the butcher, her favourite olive oil, etc etc

I went in at butchers first and took it of the list, next was the post-office, I sighed.. There were tons of people inside and I just needed a few stamps for the letters. Just the thought of the fucking bus me freaked out.. Perhaps I should take the groceries first..

I went out again, it was a good choise to take my coat because it was cold today, but I still wore the shorter skirt from the lunch with Linda and that I regretted now

I grabbed a basket in the store and started to fill it.. The note was slightly wrinkled and it was little hard to see.. Usually I didn't have any problems with my eyes but..

- Ohh.. I.. ohh.. sorry..

I fell forward on my knees and almost grabbed a strangers legs

- Are you alright miss?

He reached out his hand

I looked up and saw straight up in a pair of gentle blue eyes

- Typical me... Ms Clumpsy..

I picked up the list from the floor which now also was dirty and wet

- Shopping for Mrs Lewis?

Guess she was well known

I brushed my knees of and took the basket which he had picked up from the floor

- Thank you, ehh.. yes.. Yes I am

- You better not be late then

He smiled and winked at me

I just stood and stared after him like my feets were glued to the floor, he was the most attractive man that I ever seen, maybe in his late 40's, the hair had just begun to turn grey and he had wrinkles around his eyes when he... Fuck.. The bus...

I sped up and went from isle to isle and grabbed my things.. There.. Just the olive oil then..

Of course on the top shelf

- Hello again.. Let me get that one for you dear

- Ohh.. H.. Hi..

My heart skipped a beat

He was soooo handsome and.. Yes... Hot.. Could I say a man in my dad's age was hot?

- We have to stop meeting like this.. I'm Roger

I took his warm strong hand in mine, wonder if he was married.. kids

- Y/N

When the olive oil was in the basket I went to the cashier, I had pretty good time.. Until I froze...

- Shit...

I grabbed the stuff and ran out, the post office was still occupied with people and the bus would leave in 10...

- Fuck...

The little kind old lady would turn into a witch.. A monster or maybe worse...

A car pulled in next to me, and when the window went down I saw him...

- Looks like you need a ride love.., did you miss the bus?

How happy I was to see this man right yet again

He asked if I was new at this job, and I explained that it was not even my job, he said he was sure of that Mrs Lewis was going to be satisfied with me anyway and I didn't have to worry

- I wait in the car while you go in to her

- But.. The bus stop is...

- No, I don't want to hear it... I am right here ok?

I don't think Linda or anyone had delivered groceries that fast before, I even managed to borrow her phone to cancel the chelter dinner... I had totally different things in mind

- Y/N.. I.. I was wondering if you wanted a cup of coffee?

- Coffee?

I didn't want to laugh but he sounded so cute and little nervous

- Yeah.. I.. Well.. There is not much coffeeshops around here and and.. Ehh.. Well.. Damn... Thing is.. I can literally be your dad.. but..

I silenced him with my finger on his lips, he swallowed hard and let out a shaky breath

Then I could not hold it anymore, he was like gasoline on my body that had cached fire, I crashed my lips onto his and at once he opened his mouth and met my tongue, I moaned in his mouth and his fingers tangeled in my hair

- Ro.. Roger.. Let's go... home

- Mmmmm... I would love to.. But... You have let go of my shift gear hunnie...

We both laughed, the situation was kinda weird brutal.. comic.. sexy

His lips was still burning on mine, I couldn't stop looking at him now and then during the drive

He did a slight left turn up on a gravel road and I saw a huge mansion

- You live.. He.. here?

- Yea.. I do.. Every other week I am alone..

There was my answer, divorced.. kids

He stopped the car right outside the door and gaved my knee a gentle squeeze

- You don't change your mind dear?

- No... Not a chance...

He grabbed his bags and went straight the kitchen

I was totally amazed by the fireplace and how beautiful everything was.. Really tastefully decorated..

I suddenly felt his strong arms around me..

He kissed my hair and my neck and his warm breath made my skin prickle with tiny dots

- You are so beautiful hunnie.. so young.. Almost untouched..

- I am n..

- Ssscchhh... I want to discover you... It is MY first time with you..

He took my hand and I followed him upstairs into the bedroom

We stod across eachother and my heart was beating so hard that he must have heard it

He cupped my face with his big hands and kissed me, the kiss was more passionate yet hungry

I tried to unbutton his shirt but I just fumbled, he noticed what I was doing so he took over

- Let me take care of you now darling... It is your turn to relax

He did not know how right he had

As he enjoyed every moment, he took his time undressing me and exploring my body, he was so different, he was a gentleman he was older.. he knew what he was doing..

Every inch of me was covered by tiny tiny kisses and nibbles

- Roger.. I whimpered.. please..

- I know I know.. Soon...

I could not hold it anymore and he knew it, he kissed the sensitive skin above my breasts while he cupped them, I felt how hard he was towards my leg and he groaned a little when he finally circled my nipple with his tongue

- Ahhhh God ... Ohhh ..

It felt like electricity in my whole body, I grabbed his head and even if it felt so good what he was doing I needed more, I pushed his head down.. further down.. to my dripping core

He looked up at me and gaved me a mischievous smirk

That totally changed everything

He grabbed a pillow from next to me and tucked it under my butt, then he grabbed my thighs and pushed my legs wide apart

He took his palms under my ass so I opened up more for him, this man was an oral expert.. Shit... He sloppy kissed my pussy and dragged his flattened tounge up and down along my folds, I arched my back and tried to grab the sheets but he pinned me down

He then circled my clit so fast that my eyes rolled back in my head he sucked it in his mouth almost nibbled on it

- Ahhh shit Rog Fuck... Ahhhh damnit..

He continued to lick with a rapid pace and it was not long until my walls started to collapse

- Shit Omg I... Iam... Ahhhh Gooood... Ahhhh

I squirted on his tounge and he was quick to drink the full amount of me

- Mmm... You taste delicious mmm...

- Omg.. It was... Do you want me to...

- No... I said I wanted to take care of you...

He smirked and kissed his all the way up to my lips again..

- Now.. I didn't exactly plan this.. Are you...

He frowned a bit

- Yes, I am safe, I am on the pill..

- Glad you said that... Cause cannot fuckin wait any longer

I felt how his erected cock trailed near my entrance, after the tip was inside me it just took a few seconds for me to adjust to his size

- Omg hunnie, you feel so fuckin amazing.. Shit..

His head fell back and his pace increased, his hips snapped and I bucked my body up to meet his

- Ohhh Roger... Fuck.. Ahhh... Harder... Harder... Ohhh...

He took a grip on the bed frame and the other one he teared apart the sheets, sweat was dripping from his forehead down on my neck

I felt that he was close and I was not far behind myself

With almost pornographic sounds we came undone together, he emptied himself deep inside of me and my final contractions maked sure there was nothing left

- Ohh God.. You were amazing.. Truly amazing...

- Roger... Wow.. I... I have no words...

- Not so bad for an ol...

I smacked his upper arm

- Don't say it...

We laid tangled together for a bit, I could sense that he was thinking of something

- Are you sure you don't know who I am love?

I froze a little, what have I missed

- Should I... I mean... I am not from here...

He chuckled a little..

- Well... I don’t know if I should be honoured or nervous.. It was long time ago since nobody didn't know who I was

I was even more confused

Well... He was in late 40s.. Maybe he had put on some weight?... Hair.. Was it the hair? The glasses?

- I am hungry love, do you want something to eat?

- Sure.. OK...

He kissed me softly and he gaved me a bathrobe that I could borrow

I took a glimpse in the mirror.. I looked totally fucked, and I was.. but I happy too.. There could absolutely be something with this guy whoever he was.. Politics? No..

And kids? Fine.. As long as it is ok with the ex...

I bounced downstairs and heard him hum on something for himself in the kitchen

On the way there I passed a big wall... A wall full of gold disc's platinum records...

WOW... Really...

I palmed my forehead and did an eyeroll.. I had totally missed out that it was him

In the corner of my eye I saw that he was watching me and he walked in my direction

- I... I'm sorry... I didn't tell you

- And I'm sorry I didn't recognise you...

- Sssscchhh... You know what.. Mrs Lewis doesn't know either..

He kissed me softly

- So.. are you staying?

- I am not leaving.. Well.. Maybe just for posting a letter

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FFXII: The Zodiac Age — I finished it in New Year’s Eve, and...

... and, gods, my feels. 

MY FEELS.

*screams into the void*

Feels-y demonic wall of text below “read more” because it’s not going to be spoiler-free at all.

[NOTE: the edition of the post is done! Changes made: corrected writing mistakes, highlighted words properly to make the text easier to read, and added some new text.]

First of all, I have to say I haven’t completed the game. I’m not close to it, I still have Espers to collect, preys to hunt, side missions to beat... but I just wanted SO badly to finish the story of the game.

I had accidentally spoiled myself of some things of the ending beforehand, and I have to say, I thought things would be predictable... I’m glad I was wrong because, even if I knew some things were going to happen, it wasn’t everything at all.

The ending is... quite impressive.

The first time I saw the Bahamut, FUCK, it was SCARY. All that mist and smoke around it, how humongous that airship was... Damn. Well, when the mist and smoke is no more he’s not that much scary, but it’s still SO impossing. I love its design.

I have to say I expected the Bahamut to be more maze-like, to be more complicated a dungeon that in reality was. In that sense, it was a bit of a letdown, because I expected more in that sense. But still, the design of the place was cool, and dealing with the runic/magic bishops was a bit of a hell (a welcomed one once I realized the place was little, though).

Seeing the Bahamut fire, by the way, that’s IMPRESSIVE. The battle between the two armies, and seeing Ondore in CG, man... I LOVED IT. I was agape at the battle scenes, and there were a lot of scenes in general, in this last part of the game, something I enjoyed very much.

Vaan faking to be Larsa was genius! To be honest, I thought it was weird that Larsa would let these mistakes slip, but I didn’t remember the device that changed the voices omg. 

I loved that moment of “you have good friends”. It was SO heartwarming...! 💛 Vaan and Penelo are such sweethearts, damn. I want to hug them.

I also love and respect just how brave Larsa is. He’s but a kid, but he’s so pure and so courageous. I love him, really. He’s gold. Opposing someone like Vayne, that’s his brother as well, just adds bonus points. Larsa’s going to go far.

Gabranth... Ouh.

You see, I knew beforehand that he was going to die, and that Basch was going to take his place, and I heard something about Gabranth being stabbed, about him protecting Larsa, but I didn’t know the context ot anything. Although not knowing the context was a relief, it took part of the drama of the ending, which is sad.

But well, continuing on...

Gabranth, my boy. Gods, he just WANTS so badly to hate Basch. I mean, I’m sure there’s a part of him that’s really bitter about him, but I think the hate he’s spat like venom is just... him TRYING to hate his brother. To have a reason to go on, to not give in to sorrow. I don’t know the exact details of what happened in their past (maybe the manga shows it, or talks about it with more detail? I have to check it), but man... THE PAIN. I can understand why Gabranth would feel like that. 

And Basch... Basch is so pure. Oh my goodness, is there even any trace of hate within him? His brother RUINED his life and his country, put in serious danger other people and killed many, yet he believes his brother can be saved and return to who he once was. Man... I love Basch with every fiber of my being. He’s the best thing ever to exist.

The talk between Basch and Gabranth is so angsty... I liked it a lot. Although, to be honest, the combat didn’t last long in my case. 

[ADDITION EDIT: I’ve checked about Gabranth and Basch’s past just recently in the Wikia, and... Oh my goodness... That’s such a difficult situation to be in, for both twins. Such brutally heavy sorrow and guilt in both of them...

For what it seems, during the invasion of Landis 19 years ago Basch took the decision to flee to Dalmasca to serve in the military, leaving his brother and his mother (who was sick) behind. No mentions of their father, which means he either died or abandoned them. Gabranth moved with his mother to Archadia (her homeland), and it seems that “Gabranth” was the woman’s surname, which he took as his new name. He entered the military, like his brother... But Basch didn’t know about this, and he thought them either dead or enslaved to the Empire after Landis fell.

No wonder why the brothers (a detail: Basch was the older twin, something that’s mentioned in the Japanese version but not in the English one) focused on their militar careers. Their only ways to cope with all this were (asides from that), in Gabranth’s case, to redirect his hate and blame to Basch, and in Basch’s case, to devote himself wholly to serve and protect his new country and its royal family.

Heartbreaking story, no doubt... Big pity that we don’t get to know the details during the game and that this data comes from other sources.]

When Vayne and Ashe finally confront... Oh man, I’m SO proud of Ashe. She’s come a long way from hate and a desire from revenge, and that’s some serious progress. I liked that exchange, when Vayne asked her about who she is, and she just said “she’s herself, nothing more and nothing less”. That’s my badass queen-to-be!

And Larsa, again, showed serious balls when he just picked up his sword and stood against his brother.

It caught me by surprise, by the way, that Vayne would fight with fists and legs, rather than with swords or any other weapon, at first. The kicks he did were pretty cool.

What wasn’t very cool to me, however, was the design o Neo Vayne. I mean... Well, he’s imposing, and the swords swirling around him and obeying his every whim, along with the cool special attacks he performed, where quite the sight... but then I looked at his very own design, an I was a bit disappointed, like, I didn’t like it much, since more than imposing, he really just looked like a mountain of muscles. I really hoped that wasn’t his only transformation because, as much as it took me a bit to take him down, he wasn’t that much scary to deal with.

Gods... When Larsa got electrocuted, well, because I knew he would still be alive, but if I didn’t know? I would have suffered for my beautiful child there, I’m sure. And still it hurt to see the poor guy fall. 

When Gabranth appeared and turned his back on Vayne, damn. What a man Noah is. I love that he’s SO loyal to Larsa, that he wants to protect him at all costs, it’s endearing. I mean, you can tell from time ago that he isn’t protecting him just because he’s the future of their country, but because he CARES for Larsa as much as Drace did. 

[ADDITION EDIT: not to forget that Drace had been Larsa’s mentor, and that Larsa had been put under Noah’s charge... But seriously, poor kid, he lost SO much people he loved. His mother, his other 2 older brothers, his father, Drace, Vayne, and now Gabranth... So much tragedies in this game (and I didn’t know this until today, but it seems that Ashe had 8 older brothers and they all died either because of the war or from illness, omg).]

A moment I loved and whose screenshot I want to have as my PC’s background is when Noah’s helmet breaks and you can see half his face, his expression, his determination. That was SO stunning, damn. It hurt, though, when you see him get hurt so much for protecting the young lord...

And, again, Larsa showed himself swift in thought and ballsy and, with a smug expression, he just stopped Vayne from murdering Noah and Basch by using the same artificial nethicite that his brother had used on himself. Oh, the irony. Liked this twist a lot. 

"Is he a good master?”

“Yes, he is”.

I LOVED THIS. Noah just went full proud older brother (or father, even?) with Larsa. He loves this kid a lot, and that’s endearing and makes me crave hard to know and see more about their relationship. 

[ADDITION EDIT: I edited Noah’s phrase because it seems I either didn’t read it well or didn’t remember it well, but still, even corrected, I think it has that sense of pride for Larsa... And I would say it has as well a feeling of Noah being like, well... searching for validation of his choice?]

Oh, and Basch so protective around his brother when he’s on the ground... My feels. 

Vayne is interesting, because he REALLY thought he was doing the best for his country, and for the world itself. He REALLY believed that fear was the way to rule, that any means were justified for his goals. And, well, if his older brothers’ deaths happened before Venat appeared in his life and Cid’s, I wonder just how much it was Vayne’s mentality a result of Archadia’s life... I mean, he may be a noble, but heck, that’s even worse, given the fact that the Senate is there, and there’s conspiracies, and war. I would say Archadia influenced him to be how he is now, but the thing is, on how much quantity...?

And Venat.

Venat, who appeared from nowhere, whose motivation to turn her back to the other Occuria we know not exactly... I mean, sure, she gave the man the knowledge to create the artificial nethicite and so on, but WHY? 

[ADDITION EDIT: maybe I’m just reading too much and Venat just really wanted to give back the reins of history to the hands of men, though. But still, something HAD to trigger that... And I would have loved to know about it.]

It’s kind of interesting, though, that she looks genuinely attached to both Cid and Vayne, all the more Cid. It’s not like she’s using them, no, they all have a kind of a symbiotic relantionship that I think it’s quite unexpected. I mean, how many times have gods manipulated humans in stories? It’s something that often happens, yet this time it took a good twist. Venat is different, for what it seems; for some reason, she seems to have developed a bond with these humans whose lives are shorter than a sigh compared to an Occurian’s immortality.

[ADDITION EDIT: it’s kind of interesting, too, that Vayne and Cid really seem to regard each other as close friends, given their interactions and that even Vayne remembered him at the end (although I wonder if he knew about Cid wanting to become something akin to a god).]

I would love to know more about Venat and the Occuria, about Vayne, and so I’m hoping that the manga provides more insight, because I think the relationship between Vayne, Cid and Venat is fascinating.

[ADDITION EDIT: something I haven’t mentioned is the relationship between Vayne and Larsa... As much as Vayne has done so much wrong in all of his life, the way he seems to feel for Larsa is quite interesting.

I mean, at first I really thought he cherished his little brother, but as soon as I found out just some things he did I thought “oh my god he’s going to try to kill him”... Yet he didn’t. In fact, he really did what Emperor Gramis wanted and asked for to both Vayne and Noah: to not let Larsa stain his hands in blood.

I wonder if Vayne would have attempted to assassinate Larsa, though, if the kid had been chosen as Emperor... I think he wouldn’t have tried, in all honesty, but that instead he would have tried to influence him a lot and continue staining his hands so that his brother wouldn’t. The thing is, I’m a bit confused about that part when Larsa gets electrocuted... Was it accidental, or...?]

But well, going back to the action...

I like that moment when Vaan is stopped from chasing Vayne just because Venat shows herself in front of the boy’s sight. Venat does nothing, she just... stares, and buys Vayne time. Must be a bit of scary, having such a creature looking right at you like that.

I liked that conversation between Venat and Vayne and OH GOD THAT TRANSFORMATION. Now THAT is what I was waiting for, and not just Vayne on steroids! He looks AMAZING, like a mechanic version of the summon Bahamut! That design is something I loved, and it gave me goosebumps the sequence when the metal adheres to him to give him this appearence. 

The battle was a bit long, but apart from a scare or two that involved his most powerful attacks (the animations are SO GOOD), I could take him with not much problems, just giving it time. 

I loved this all.

And, gods, when you defeat Vayne... That was so relieving. Like, you see the guys looking at the sky, all relaxed, thinking “it’s all over now”. And you see Balthier and Fran doing that cute gesture with their fists, you see them all smiling, Basch looking at Ashe from behind, smiling...

It was so peaceful.

... Well, nevermind, though, the moment lasted so little. 

It managed to make me nervous the fact that, even if I did know who would die and who wouldn’t, the Strahl couldn’t fly. Balthier and Fran have some serious balls and they’re SO amazing. 

[ADDITION EDIT: Balthier is just such a smooth badass. I loved that interaction between him and Fran when he carries her...! I ship them a lot by the way, they’re too amazing together to my eyes ♥]

Between the scene of Noah dying, and Ashe screaming Balthier’s name in despair to the device as he carries Fran in his arms (because, yes, in Japanese Ashe literally screams his name, while in English it’s toned down so much it hurts)...

Ah, man, the feels. 

To be honest, I see Ashe and Balthier more like very good friends, like, the kind of friend that knows all your shit because he tells his too? BROTP could be said, I guess? I see them like that, although I totally understand why a lot of people ships them.

About Noah... Gods, he seemed to go in peace and I liked so much that, if he had to go, he would go like that. It wouldn’t have been a good thing if he left the world full of hate (not just because of that fact itself, but because well, you know... Remember some of the hateful spirits you’ve sometimes fought? Exactly). The scene when he’s dying, with Basch is clinging to his dear brother like a lifeline with such pain, and Larsa looking so sad... Gods, it’s heartbreaking, they’re all in such sorrow. It gets even more sad when Larsa takes Noah’s hand between his, knowing it’ll be over soon.

It’s killing if you imagine Larsa could have had Noah around him for ALL of his life. I mean, imagine it... It wouldn’t be only that Basch had with Noah always, but Larsa would have been all of his own life with him around as well. And for Basch it would have been difficult as hell to deal with this, but Larsa? Larsa’s is just a kid... Still, even if he’s so little, he really is courageous and doesn’t crumble in front of Noah, which is what Basch is somehow managing to do as well. Noah didn’t deserve to die...

[ADDITION EDIT: I’ve been thinking about it, and... gods, just how much disturbing must be to see your own twin die? It probably must feel like... watching youself die...?]

And I have to say that I understand the motivation behind asking Basch to take care of Larsa, but... Again, Basch “The Martyr”. Again, his life is taken from him. His homeland, Landis? Destroyed. His life on Dalmasca? Taken. And now, his possibility of a future in which he can be free. It’s heartbreaking. All the more because Basch is such a pure soul... 

But well, the good thing is that he would have Larsa by his side, and Larsa would have him, and they seem like they could be very good friends, which is a relief. 

I still have to play Final Fantasy XII: Revenant Wings though (I’ll start soon becaue I want badly to play it), so I don’t know how things will be, but I know they could find comfort in one another in their kinda-fucked-up (in different degrees) lives.

I loved how the ending was portrayed, with a letter from Penelo (who looks absolutely gorgeous and amazing, by the way), showing that life goes on even if things didn’t quite end up in a happy ending (Ashe becoming distant and more lonely because of her position, Basch forced to sacrifice his freedom and more years of his life to take care of Larsa...).

The moment “Kiss me goodbye” started playing, I cried. I didn’t cry as much as I could have done a while ago (because it seems as if I’m kind of losing that “crybaby” side of me, or getting a bit “numb”), but I cried, and gods... I couldn’t stop grinning, and I continued doing so until the end.

I also think that seeing Rabanastre getting restored was amazing and precious.

Oh, and the Bahamut looks beautiful with the plants overrunning it, like a huge tower~

The thing is, the fact that Balthier and Fran were alive I knew, but if I didn’t, I’m pretty sure would have cried a lot more (which I think I would have done as well with the scenes of them at the Bahamut and Noah). I loved that Balthier gave Ashe her ring back, and that they “stole” the Strahl. That was a genius comeback.

But what probably made me all the more happy was the part of Penelo’s letter that involved Basch, and that Larsa, wearing that smug expression, gave it to Basch so that he himself could read it. 

So Penelo asks how is Basch, and then literally prays that he can return soon to Rabanastre... AND TO ASHE. Oh, dear... But that’s not everything, no, no... Penelo says that and THEN she says (if I recall well) that Ashe wouldn’t be able to say it given the situation, but Penelo thinks she misses Basch.

OH GODS. FINISH ME.

Finish me, because I ship Basch and Ashe so much...! I just can help but love them, they’re precious to me and I cherish their pairing a lot 💛 But well, going back to what I was saying...

It’s obvious that Ashe misses her friends, but the way Penelo just worded that part of the letter... OMG. I mean, the way Penelo talked about the matter screamed that there was something going on, and the fact that Larsa gives that smug expression to Basch while giving him the letter, and then giving him space to read it?

There’s a lot implied there, and not only by words, but by gestures (*).

I feel that it is, as minimum, a confirmation that at least from Basch there’s more than duty and friendship for what he feels for Ashe. I thought I felt some of that coming from him, but this just looks like plain confirmation.

But still, even if it wouldn’t imply a romantic relationship, it would still be endearing. I mean, Ashe. Ashe, missing Basch. I wonder just how much closer were to each other before the events of the game, or during the game, since they traveled a lot. And by foot mostly, which makes the group spend a good amount of time together (I tried to make some calculations and, hold your horses... it probably takes like 1 week to reach Mt Bur-Omisace from Rabanastre), and thus, a lot of untold scenes could have taken place with the group, and between Basch and Ashe.

What can I say... This ending was so AMAZING and beautiful...! I loved it so much! 💛💛💛

[ADDITION EDIT: omg, that scene with Vaan giving a piggyback ride to Penelo. That was SO cute. I loved it, all the more because I ship them~]

Oh, and I almost forgot it, but... THE CREDITS, OH MY GOODNESS. That was a cuteness overload! Basch and Noah when they were younger; little Ashe embracing a chocobo (I saw that image some time ago and I thought it was just a very well done fanart, but I wished it was official — In the end it was, which is funny); Fran, Mjrn and Jote together; Cid with baby Balthier (I’M NOT CRYING YOU’RE CRYING); Fran and Basch in such a cute/funny pose... Not to mention other stunning artworks, but these were ones I’ve never seen before, and that was fantastic to watch! 

Without a doubt, Final Fantasy XII: The Zodiac Age has taken its place at my TOP 3 Final Fantasy games (but that’s a matter for another different time maybe).

Now, I guess I’ll just combine doing what I have left to do in FFXII with playing FFXII: Revenant Wings then~

I’m so excited to see what happens in the sequel...! 💛

(*) Gods, this game is FULL of body language and gestures that tell so much. I would love to analyze that aspect as much as I can, one day.

P.D.: I really hope I’m not forgetting to mention anything right now, but well, if I did, I’ll just add it later in a new paragraph. Although I think I hadn’t forgotten a thing, though.

[channiekyun]

Tag Game!

Hello, lovelies!

Today I got tagged (thank you btw) by the wonderful @baozibunns Check her out!

I srsly don't have a lot of people I know on this website so I’m tagging anyone who sees/likes/etc. this post. Here are some actual ppl though: @ijedi @cosmic-yuta @0trekiss @aishwhatamidoingwithmylife

THE LAST (WHEN I STARTED FILLING THIS OUT)

Drink: Water Phone call: Dad Text message: “She can’t stop laughing, it’s horrible omg” Song you listened to: Both Summer 127-NCT 127 and O Sole Mio-SF9 Time you cried: 2 nights ago on Thursday when I listened to EXO-M’s “Baby” and I legit started crying. I miss ot12 ;-;

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: No Kissed someone and regretted it: No Been cheated on: No Lost someone special: Yes Been depressed: Yes Gotten drunk and thrown up: No

3 FAVORITE COLORS

Blue, Red, Grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made new friends: Yes  Fallen out of love: Yes Laughed until you cried: Yes Found out someone was talking about you: Yes Met someone who changed you: Yes Found out who your friends are: Yes Kissed someone on your Facebook list: No

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t really use my facebook, but like 80-85% (just family and family friends I don’t even now and aren’t close with) Do you have any pets: 2 fish that are already dead Do you want to change your name: No What did you do for your last birthday: Went to a good ramen with family place after school What time did you wake up: Around 6:15 AM What were you doing at midnight last night: I was at a sleepover for my school’s volleyball team that I’m on Name something you can’t wait for: Christmas When was the last time you saw your mom: When she tried to wake me up and get me out of bed an hour ago (she failed) What are you listening to right now: Music; Crazy Sexy Cool by ASTRO Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes Something that is getting on your nerves: My substitute teacher for math and science who’s staying for a while bc my actual teacher gave birth and is sick, she’s just horrible at teaching istg Most visited website: Probably Tumblr or Youtube or where I go to check my grades and shit Hair colour: Dark Brown (can appear black) Long or short hair: I have mid-length, but preference? Short Do you have a crush on someone: I don’t even know anymore. Yes. No. Let’s stick with no. What do you like about yourself: how can I write that all down Blood type: Most likely A, but if I’m wrong it’s B Nickname: Jem, Vanessa, Jess, Yessica Relationship status: Single Zodiac: Chinese-Monkey; Western-Virgo (Sun) Pronouns: She/Her Favourite tv show: The Office or Riverdale right now Tattoos: Nope Right or left handed: Used to be a leftie when I started writing in pre-k, now a rightie, trying to be able to write with both though Surgery: Nope Sport: Volleyball, Occasional Basketball Vacation: On vacation right now? No. Where have I been on vacation? The Philippines, Indonesia, places in America (where I live btw), Mexico. And most recently Japan over summer break (I miss Japan so much now, it was so fun there ahhhh) Pair of shoes: My cream colored (whitish-yellowish?) converse Eating: Nothing Drinking: Nothing I’m about to: Fall asleep again or open up the Mystic messenger app Waiting for: I SAID CHRISTMAS//my lazy ass to finish that science report that I haven’t started yet Want: A successful life? Get married: One day, maybe if I find the one, but I’m WAY too young to think about that all rn (i’m telling you guys I’m probably the youngest that was tagged) Career: Student

WHICH IS BETTER

Hugs or kisses: Hugs Lips or eyes: Eyes Shorter or taller: Taller Older or younger: Younger Nice arms or nice stomach: Idk lol, arms? stomach?? both??? Hook up or relationship: Relationship Troublemaker or hesitant: Bit of both, he would just be willing to put up with me and I’ll put up with him in return (that’s love for you)

Kissed a stranger: No Drank hard liquor: No Lost glasses/contact lenses: No Turned someone down: No Sex on the first date: No Broken someone’s heart: Maybe, I don’t know how they feel about me and I doubt anybody would tell me I broke their heart.  Had your heart broken: Maybe Been arrested: No Cried when someone died: Yes Fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: Yes (If I believe in Santa Claus, I can believe myself) Miracles: Yes Love at first sight: Yes Santa Claus: Yes Kiss on the first date: Depends on the date, but no

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO NOW

 DRAMARAMA-MONSTA X (added this part in because I want you to support the people I listen to)

[detectiveaesthetic]

rules: You must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

tagged by: @monquixote

tagging: @raifuujin , @meitantei-lavi , and @ofglitterandstars if you haven’t done it yet :0c? And anyone else who wants to ^^

the last

·         1. drink:  Water

·         2. phone call:  To a Mcdonald’s employee who found my roommate’s phone :0c

·         3. text message: "Yar” -received yesterday 9:52PM “!!! Yo!! <3″ -sent now after being reminded by this

·         4. song you listened to: Something by Owl City

·         5. time you cried: actual crying?? ? i don’t know but it’d be in private irl and probably spamming a friend i think it was a week ago idr

·         6. dated someone: went on a date yesterday ·         7. kissed someone and regretted it: ye she stole pocky from my mouth >:0

·         8. been cheated on: Nah

·         9. lost someone special: too many interpretations to give this a solid answer

·         10. been depressed:  Now, but!! not bad!!!

·         11. gotten drunk and thrown up:  Alcohol is a nu 

3 favourite colours

·         12.  Purple

·         13.  Blue

·         14.  Red

in the last year have you

·         15. made new friends:  Yeah!

·         16. fallen out of love: Nah

·         17. laughed until you cried:  Yeah

·         18. found out someone was talking about you:  Yeah

·         19. met someone who changed you:  Yeah

·         20. found out who your friends are: Yes qwq <3<3<3

·         21. kissed someone on your Facebook list:  Yeah

general

·         22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life:  93%+

·         23. do you have any pets: The snuggliest kitty ever i can’t do things

·         24. do you want to change your name: Nuuuuu too much work

·         25. what did you do for your last birthday:  I was taken to see Wonder Woman :0c *shiny eyes*

·       26. what time did you wake up:  Repeatedly, my roommate accidentally kicked me out of bed and I didn’t wanna wake them >> tho got up got up was 9am because i kept falling back asleep and didn’t have stuffs till 2pm

·         27. what were you doing at midnight last night:  Awkwardly pacing around the house playing magikarp jump wondering when it would be okay to get back in bed without ruing my roommate’s sleep schedule

·         28. name something you can’t wait for: An oyasumi or a message in general from a certain person :0c

·         29. when was the last time you saw your mom:  Last month.

·         31. what are you listening to right now:  Roommate play DS, kitty meow as she rubs my laptop screen

·         32. have you ever talked to a person named tom:  Tommy poo is the shit okay, he once paid me 10 bucks cause i fished more bass than him (tru story)

·         33. something that is getting on your nerves:  When you tell someone ‘no’ and they do the thing anyway >:T

·         34. most visited website: Tumblr ·         35. hair colour:  Dark brown

·         36. long or short hair: Short

·         37. do you have a crush on someone: Yeah

·         38. what do you like about yourself: My potential

·         39. piercings: Not anymore

·         40. blood type:  ? ?? ? ? ??? ? ?? ? ?? ? ? 

·         41. nickname:  Whatever you’d like \owo/ tho a few people started calling me ‘Av’ on their own :0c 

·         42. relationship status:  I’m in a long term relationship with coffee and chocolate

·         43. zodiac:  Cancer

·         44. pronouns: He/him

·         45. favourite tv show: Criminal Minds maybe? ·         46. tattoos:  Too much money ^^;;

·         47. right or left handed: Right

·         48. surgery: Yeah

·         50. sport:  Tennis

·         51. last vacation: TO TEXAS IT WAS SO COOL :0c

·         52. pair of trainers: 1

MORE GENERAL

·         53. eating:  food

·         54. drinking:  water and coffee and tea \owo/

·         55. I’m about to: Post this \owo/

·         56. waiting for: “Peace of mind.” -omg same

·         57. want: Money, happiness?

·         58. get married:  Wouldn’t mind

·         59. career:  Game designer/coder/writer

WHICH IS BETTER

·         60. hugs or kisses: depends on who/when/why

·         61. lips or eyes:  Eyes

·         62. shorter or taller: Shorter for others taller for me muwahaha

·         63. older or younger: both--wait i just realizeD THIS WAS A DATING TYPE SECTION -- *casually doesn’t fix earlier responses* and older ;) -- *bricked*

·         64. nice arms or nice stomach: Tum tum pillow mINE MUWAHAHA \owo/

·         65. hook up or relationship: Relationship

·         66. troublemaker or hesitant:  Idk \owo/

HAVE YOU EVER:

·         67. kissed a stranger: Nah

·         68. drank hard liquor: Yes but it was unintentional!!!

·         69. lost glasses/contact lenses: Constantly

·         70. turned someone down: Yes

·         71. sex on the first date:  Uh; ;; 

·         72. broken someone’s heart:  Yeah it hurts really bad;; like you screwed up really bad

·         73. had your heart broken: Yeah

·         74. been arrested: Nuuu

·         75. cried when someone died: Yeah 

·         76. fallen for a friend:  That’s the only way I can fall

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

·         77. yourself: To an extent

·         78. miracles:  No

·         79. love at first sight:  Yeah

      80. santa claus:  No

·         81. kiss on the first date:  Yeah

·         82. angels: No

OTHER:

·         84. eye colour: Hazel

·         85. favourite movie: Maybe Wonder Woman? Idk Diana was amazing

[kangdan101]

questions tag :)

tagged by @hwangminyeo :’) lmao im sorry my life is so uninteresting but it was fun to answer these still heh

THE LAST

·        drink: water! Recently I’ve been trying to drink more water bc I am extremely dehydrated; i tend to drink like 1 cup a day (lol) stay hydrated kids

·         phone call: this morning!

·         text message: like one min ago I was just arguing with my friend whether or not our math teachers first name is jose or not (update: I was right, it IS jose xD)

·         song you listened to: ENERGETIC BY WANNA ONE!!11

·         time you cried: maybe like 15 min ago…????? Lmfao I was watching wanna one sing always and I got emotional (i cry about everything)

·         HAVE YOU EVER

·         dated someone twice: it’s hard to date someone twice if you’ve never dated someone at all lol (motae solo like minhyun)

·         kissed someone and regretted it: no

·         been cheated on: no

·         lost someone special: yes :’(

·         been depressed: yes. This last year was really really hard for me. Balancing dance and school and everything made me super stressed and I started to pull myself away from ppl :/ tbh produce kinda got me out of it lol and im 100% ok now

·         gotten drunk and thrown up: nope (lol bc I’ve never drank before hahaha theres so many things I haven’t done)

·         3 FAVORITE COLORS

·         Baby blue

·         Mint green

·         Peach pink ;)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

·         made new friends: yes

·         fallen out of love: no 

·         laughed until you cried: literally I laugh way too much for my own good

·         found out someone was talking about you: I don’t think so :o

·         met someone who changed you: yes, many of them! (esp kangdan tho)

·         found out who your friends are: yes :)

·         kissed someone on your Facebook list: yikes no

GENERAL

·         how many Facebook friends do you know in real life: mostly all my fb friends go to my school but I don’t actually know some of them? So I’d say like 70%

·         do you have any pets: I’d like to think my little brother Anthony is secretly a dog bc he resembles one and can get hella wild sometimes lmao

·         do you want to change your name: my name is legit the most basic Chinese name ever I know like 3 other people with the exact same first and last name and alskdjgowaei;lskdfj it gets on my nerves sometimes I always liked the name lilia / lily but in 7th grade I met this girl whose name was Philomena and its now my favorite name ever

·         what did you do for your last birthday: lmao I studied bc I had a hUge test the next day and your girl’s serious about her grades man

·         what time did you wake up: LMAO I woke up twice this morning: first time at 4:40 to catch WANNA ONE DEBUT and then went back to sleep @ 6 am; woke up again at 7:30 am for class

·         what were you doing at midnight last night: I was on tumblr watching everyone hype about wanna one it was gr8

·         name something you can’t wait for: finishing junior year + SAT shit :/ lol my junior year hasn’t even started yet but im so nervous I hope I don’t screw up and thinking about it is making my heart beat faster yikes (wish me luck guys hopefully im still alive by june)  

·         when was the last time you saw your mom: a few min ago~

·         what are you listening to right now: my little brother Anthony is singing shape of you and its not pretty lol (he’s eleven)

·         have you ever talked to a person named tom: I don’t really remember

·         something that is getting on your nerves: the SAT omygod I just really want it to be over and im SO NERVOUS also anthony’s singing is starting to bug me (he changed songs and now he’s singing gibberish and it’s very distracting)

·         most visited website: probably youtube/fb/tumblr

·         hair color: blackish-brown. my roots are black but the ends seem to be browning a lil? Probably since it’s summer now and the sun is working its magic 

·         long or short hair: medium length! Like halfway down my back???

·         do you have a crush on someone: nope & haven’t had one for like two years

·         what do you like about yourself: my monolids? But my mom wants me to get surgery lmfao also i like that i have a naturally high foot arch bc its helpful for dance :)))

·         blood type: a… I think?

·         nickname: name: sarah; nicknames: sawa, sala, salad, swisso (I promise this makes sense in context), moon, moonmoon (these make sense in context too lol)

·         relationship status: single mom of my 98 produce children and always have been lollll

·         zodiac: capricorn

·         pronouns: she/her

·         favorite tv show: descendants of the sun, suspicious partner, I hear your voice, once upon a time, produce aka a horrible show that hurts u in all sorts of ways (pls rec me some bc I wanna binge some tv shows before school starts)

·         tattoos: none atm but maybe when I’m older I want a tiny star, or a tiny moon, or maybe my Chinese name?

·         right or left handed: Right

·         surgery: I got eye surgery done when I was rly young bc the gland between my eyes and nose was blocked which basically made me cry ALL THE TIME (like even when I’d be staring at nothing)

·         sport: I dance! And I used to do rhythmic gymnastics but I had to quit bc school was getting too busy I miss rhythmic gymnastics so much u have no idea

·         vacation: I think I’m going to go out touring colleges along the east coast near the end of august!!!

·         pair of shoes: I wear my converse a lot as well as my nike free runs. But other than that my shoe collection is p limited rippp

·         MORE GENERAL

·         eating: just finished dinner

·         drinking: nothing atm xD gdi in the beginning of this tag I wanted to be more hydrated and look where I am now lmao

·         I’m about to: wash the dishes that we used for dinner

·         waiting for: the day I graduate high school so I can go to college and take classes I love and alskdgjaowlfkdsfj (lmao im such a nerd im sorry)

·         want: to eat some ice cream (I love ice cream)

·         get married: that would be a miracle tbh

·         career: high school student / summer school teachers assistant  THE KIDS I TEACH ARE SO LOUD AND WILD theyre legit animals everytime I step into the classroom i can’t believe these 8th graders are capable of such chaos

WHICH IS BETTER

·         hugs or kisses: I luv hugs and I luv kisses

·         lips or eyes: both???

·         shorter or taller: taller (its not hard to be taller than me lol)

·         older or younger: older

·         nice arms or nice stomach: I think…. Arms 

·         hook up or relationship: relationshiip

·         troublemaker or hesitant: jesus idk I’ve never dated so I really wouldn’t know alskdjgoalkdsfj (but i mean troublemaker is a gr8 song??)

HAVE YOU EVER

·         kissed a stranger: no that sounds scary :0

·         drank hard liquor: no

·         lost glasses/contact lenses: I LOsT MY GLAssES IN FLORIDA ONCE agldkgjaosdfkj I swear I put it down on the airport seat and when I turned around THEY WERE GONE I spend a good 2 hours looking for them but they legit disappeared :/ to this day I am still wondering where that pair of glasses went

·         turned someone down: yes

·         sex on the first date: no 

·         broken someone’s heart: i sure hope not 

·         had your heart broken: no

·         been arrested: no

·         cried when someone died: so many times

·         fallen for a friend: lowkey yes but they still don’t know about that

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

·         yourself: I try to

·         miracles: yes or else what will happen to me in the future I need miracles to carry me bc my luck is trASH

·         love at first sight: no

·         santa clause: maybe for the first few years but then I caught my parents

·         kiss on the first date: no

·         angels: idk actually… I guess?

OTHER

·         eye color: brown; I feel like my eyes have been getting lighter over the years bc the outside of my iris is like brown but near the pupil its more of a hazel

·         favorite movie: I have so many omg I luv spirited away, howls moving castle, the book thief, and I recently watched wonder woman (pls rec some movies too im always in the mood for one :D) 

im tagging anyone who wishes to do this! 

[axou-den-mporw]

get to know me tag

RULES: ANSWER THESE 88 QUESTIONS AND TAG 20 PEOPLE (mini rant: why do these thing always request 20 people to tag. i dont even know ten people pls let me breathe) **I keep the rant cause seriously I don't even know 20 people irl not in the tumblr world**

tagged by @in-theory (and im really sorry for being so late, like a month has passed but well okay im doing this lol)

tagging : @vxplln @anastassiamlt @teh-panda @itsthewonderfulworldofsu @inkyblacksky

THE LAST:

1. DRINK: water probably it's summer lol

2. PHONE CALL: my dad

3. TEXT MESSAGE: κλαιω ήθελα να πω (greek)

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: My Neighbor Totoro ending song

5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: I don't even remember. I think last weekend watching the Judgment at Nuremberg (1961)

HAVE YOU:

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: not even once

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: nah

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: everything here is going to be a no, ( I keep this answer by @in-theory cause seriously gurl I feel the same)

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: idk what you mean by that. So im gonna answer yeah

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: hell yeah what I was doing the whole winter? 

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: im not sure abt getting drunk but I haven't thrown up from alcohol. Alcohol is my friend

TOP 3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. That's tough

13. seriously though

14. I can't even tell them apart at times, but I like the colors of sunset

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: AHA AND IM HAPPY ABT THAT

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: nah prob. I haven't fallen in, how can I fall out?

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: seriously I don't remember. I remember this time. I couldn't breathe from laughing too hard. I had just discovered a new laugh which was like HIHIHIHIIHIIIHIHHIHHIHHHHIIIIIIIIIHIHIHIIHI and I didn't even remember what I was laughing at cause everyone (included me) just laughed with my new laugh lol. But idk if it was this year. Maybe some other time that i don’t remember now cause well i have the memory of a fish

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: what

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: maybe???idk

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: im still through that tbh

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: what is even a fb list?

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: welllllllllll it depends on what you mean know irl

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: I wanna get a doggo but I only had fishes till now and they all dead now so yeah prob gonna delay getting the doggo till I get a house that would be comfy for him

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: tbh I didn't really like that as a kid. And I would like to change it if I become an artist of any form of art

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: my sis got me presents and we went to a nice café-bar, and some other time we got some pizzas with ma friends

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: eight o’ clock 

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: watching the Russian boy who looked like a real-life anime dancing folklore and I tell you he was fineee

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: life

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: before 3 hrs or something

30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: my character. And my hobbies. Like sometimes I really wish I had been in some athletic team or dance team, be a little more sociable a lil stronger. ANyway

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Put My Hands On You by Dean ft. Anderson Paak (please do babe, i want that too)

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: Nah

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: people, me included

LOST QUESTIONS

34. MOLE(S): everywhere but I think the ones that come more to my mind is a huge one that is above of my left ear and thankful my hair cover it, then one in my right wrist and one left of my nose

35. MARK(S): stretch marks everywhere

36. CHILDHOOD DREAM: ha I prob changed them every week, but I think that actress was the final one cause I found out as a kid that in this way I could be everything I wanted and change profession with every different movie/series I got myself into

37. HAIR COLOR: brown 

38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: now short

39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: *laughs* what’s a crush **(sorry babe gonna keep that as well cause yeah same)**

40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: i’m confident at my dreams and goals

41. PIERCINGS: nah 

42. BLOODTYPE: A I think 

43. NICKNAME(S): squidie, agg, ang, bro

44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: IM SINGLE af 

45. ZODIAC: cancer but who cares

46. PRONOUNS: she/her

47. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Friends (American), It’s okay that’s love (Korean) (UGGHHHH THIS IS HARD OMG REPLY 1988 TOO OKAY?) and Είσαι το ταίρι μου (Greek)

48. TATTOOS: nah, how could i decide where to put it and what to write/draw, nahhh

49. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: right

50. SURGERY: not yet

51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: no

52. SPORT: does eating count?

53. VACATION: Nisiros-10 and Skopelos D-24

54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: got me some converse and a pair of vans but converse is next level I tell ya 

MORE GENERAL

55. EATING: haven’t eaten since i woke up probably won’t eat until noon

56. DRINKING: more water lol

57. I’M ABOUT TO: Watch a movie prob or go for a walk

58. WAITING FOR: Awesome summer to start even on August

59. WANT: to travel back in time and become friends with Bogey and Bacall 

60. GET MARRIED: who knows what life has for me? im too young to know

61. CAREER: nobody knows, maybe i will become a millionaire,maybe i will become another jobless person, maybe i will sell tomatoes and pancakes and cookies in flea market

 62. HUGS OR KISSES: Both actually

63. LIPS OR EYES: heart, sorry i never (after middle school, cause we don’t speak of the time before shhhh) really cared abt specific characteristics on people. I mean, he could have the most beautiful eyes/lips i have set my eyes on and i could be not attracted by him. Idk im weird

64. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller cause well im 1,64 m, and idk i just need his height to tell me HUG ME IM A HUGSIE PERSON (I know im weird, that’s why i have few friends)

65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: now older. but idk generally i don’t think i would have a problem with younger people

66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: i’m a hoe for arms oh dear God mercy

67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: loud people because i am quiet and reserved so yeah this is abt what person i am or which kind of people i like? well it doesn’t matter cause well idk abt sensitive, but im not and neither im attracted to loud people

68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship

69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: im 10000% hesitant and i would like a troublemaker to have a lil fun sometime

HAVE YOUR EVER:

70. KISSED A STRANGER: no

71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: no

72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: like 8737918731432867 times

73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: well. . . maybe?im not sure abt that

74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no

75. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: no

76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: does elementary school count?

77. BEEN ARRESTED: no

78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes

79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: i don’t think i have male friends (like real friends, to talk at least once a month and really care abt each other) and i never actually had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. YOURSELF: im a magic fairy, who doesn’t believe in them? my specialty is to make everyone sad lol

81. MIRACLES: yes

82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: okay im still not over that ice cream, why do you keep reminding me of that *sobs* it was my first love *tears fall* when we set our eyes on each other *mess* *somebody sto0p me please*

83. SANTA CLAUS: well i believe in Santa Claus in the way i believe in all other Santas

84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: is this something to believe in?

85. ANGELS: yes

86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): anastassia, maryam, i think that’s it

OTHER

87. EYECOLOR: dark brown

88. FAVORITE MOVIE: Mamma Mia (2008) (judge all you want but it never fails on making me happy), Philadelphia Story (1940) (come on this movie is just amazing i love it). Im not sure abt favorite, but i really liked It’s a Wonderful Life (1946), cause it made me rethink my priorities in life and it certainly demands a re-watch. In abt a month i think many many more will be added to this list hopefully

OMG I DID IT YEY

[misssasori]

Imma catch up on some stuff I was tagged in

Tagged by the awesomely wonderful @myrtini​

 Long post ahead!

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water. no bubbles

2. Phone call: my mom

3. Text message: boyfriend

4. Song you listened to: “Selbstbefriedigung” by Trailerpark (pls dont translate this)

5. Time you cried: today!

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: nah

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah

8. Been cheated on: nah

9. Lost someone special: ye

10. Been depressed: ye

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

12. crimson

13. purple

14. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: hm.... yeh

16. Fallen out of love: nope :3

17. Laughed until you cried: yes omg

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeh

19. Met someone who changed you: hmmm no

20. Found out who your friends are: yeh?

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yeah lol

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: let’s say 80%

23. Do you have any pets: no but my parents will soon!! Also I almost caught a budgie..

24. Do you want to change your name: nah I think

25. What did you do for your last Birthday?: Gosh... my boyfriend tricked me into thinking that my presents haven’t arrived yet and that he had no time to make a cake and that it was gonna be a very uneventfull day and yeah. We went to visit my parents and all of a sudden my brother and sister in law are there too. And guess what. Three layered cake made by him. All my friends, him, my parents and my brother threw together money to get me a Computer. Like, a good one my boyfriend put together himself. I only cried a bit. Especially because of the birthday card with all the signatures.....

26. What time did you wake up: 8 am something

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: lying around

28. Name something you can’t wait for: exams to be over...

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: eh.... ehm... two months ago? one and a half?

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: having more self esteem and liking myself more and I really wanna change more than one thing

31. What are you listening to right now: ...still “Selbstbefriedigung” ok I can sing along to that I am alone at home rn....

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: My brother lel

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My annoying-ness

34. Most visited Website: tumblr probably

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: I dont really understand the difference between moles and birthmarks rn. But I have a lot of dotty dots

Mark/s:-

37. Childhood dream: being a vet and also famous... but not a famous vet I guess

38. Haircolour: turquoise and dark brown rn, naturally dark brown

39. Long or short hair: short (yes I have the tumblr hair ™)

40. Do you have a crush on someone: does my bf count 

41. What do you like about yourself: eh I have cool hair

42. Piercings: ears

43. Bloodtype: B rhesus+ Kell+

44. Nickname: Babsi

45. Relationship status: taken

46. Zodiac: Libra

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favourite TV Show: ehm does anime count I love bnha

49. Tattoos: none

50. Right or left hand: right

51. Surgery: none

52. Hair dyed in different color: yeh often

53. Sport: I sometimes run and stretch...

55. Vacation: I have gone to places back in school for exchanges and stuff... Austria, France, Sweden, England... went playing paintball in the czech republic.... and went to cologne two times for the gamescom!

56. Pair of trainers: two, one actively in use

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: ate a salad a few hours ago

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: go to bed soon

61. Waiting for: end of the exams...

62. Want: my wrist to be okay

63. Get married: yeah 

64. Career: some sort of psychology stuff, either a therapist or a scientiest

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs!

66. Lips or eyes: lips

67. Shorter or taller: ehm I like everything, I am average I’d say but the boys I live with will tell you I am very very small

68. Older or younger: whatever

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: hmmm arms

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hmmm idk

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: nope

75. Drank hard liquor: nope

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no, use none of those

77. Turned someone down: ye

78. Sex in the first date: nope

79. Broken someone’s heart: I guess?

80. Had your heart broken: hmmm yeah

81. Been arrested: nope

82. Cried when someone died: yeah

83. Fallen for a friend: my boyfriend was my friend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: hmmmm nah?

85. Miracles: I wanna...

86. Love at first sight: hmmm a tendency at least

87. Santa Claus: no

88. Kiss on the first date: if u like that stuff

89. Angels: nah

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: I have many many good friend and I would consider my boyfriend my best friend and he starts with an M

91. Eyecolour: brown

92. Favourite movie: Les Intouchables

Heyyy if u wanna, do it

[coupsyboopsy]

92 Statements

Tagged by: @mans-ayyye

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 10 people.

THE LAST:

1. Drink: H2O 2. Phone call: My dad 3. Text message: "Love you too!” 4. Song you listened to: Surround Me—Leon 5. Time you cried: Like a minute ago because Tiff is so WONDERFUL

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: like... date someone, break up, date them again? I don’t think so 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: LMAO I LAUGHING AT TIFF’S REPEAT ON THIS ONE I SHOULDN’T BUT IT’S CUTE... Yes, this douche named Matt and I apparently can’t keep my mouth off his when we’re drunk 8. Been cheated on: Yes...  9. Lost someone special: Yeah... 10. Been depressed: Clinical diagnosis so... maybe, I think? 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: ONE TIME BECAUSE MAMA DON’T VOMIT BUT 3 BEERS, 4 OR 5 MIX DRINKS, AND LIKE 7 TEQUILA SHOTS WILL MAKE ANYONE VOMIT

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: green, purple, teal

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: YES 16. Fallen out of love: Yes. 17. Laughed until you cried: OMG YES 18. Found out someone was talking about you: lmao yeah 19. Met someone who changed you: Yes, and it’s wonderful 20. Found out who your friends are: Heh... yeah 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: LMAO.... yes... I kiss people when I drink

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them... some are online friends 23. Do you have any pets: I name all the stink bugs in my apartment and they’re my pets 24. Do you want to change your name: Princess Conseula Bananahammock. If you get the reference, you’re marrying me tonight. 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I got two posters from bestie (Coupsy and Dokyeom) and went home and spent time with family, fought with my mom, partied with friends the next weekend 26. What time did you wake up: 7 am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Finishing the last of Vampire Diaries and groaning at how fucking stupid the finale was. I wasted all this time on stupid show for some fluffy, boring ending. 28. Name something you can’t wait for: My death? Is that morbid? It’s not like a bad thing. I just want to sleep for a long time. 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Last week when she was being her normal terrible self. 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My inability to finish things I start 31. What are you listening right now: The AC and my coworker talking to me about his schedule for the afternoon. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes, I have. It was a whole family of Toms. 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My supervisor 34. Most visited Website: Tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS.

35. Mole/s: Yes. I have to keep an eye on them and new ones because skin cancer runs in my family. And then a shit ton of freckles 36. Mark/s: I fall more than I walk. I have scars all over.  37. Childhood dream: To sing, go to space, and to write 38. Hair Colour: Various shades of brown 39. Long or short hair: Short hair. About at my shoulders. I need to get it cut 40. Do you have a crush on someone: I...yes :D 41. What do you like about yourself: I’m always try to find the good in everyone 42. Piercings: Just my ears 43. Bloodtype: A+ HEY TIFF YOU CAN DONATE YOUR BLOOD TO DOKYEOM IF HE EVER NEEDS IT :D  44. Nickname: Radish. 45. Relationship status: Facebook says I’m married 46. Zodiac: Pisces  47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: Parks and Recreation, Dance Academy, TWD, iZombie 49. Tattoos: Two—left wrist says “Lumos” and the right wrist says “Nox.” I’m getting another one soon 50. Right or left hand: Right handed 51. Surgery: I had my ears drained and my tonsels removed when I was 5 52. Hair dyed in different color: The bottom half of my hair, yes 53. Sport: Professional eating? 55. Vacation: Lord idk I just want to travel 56. Pair of trainers: What?

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating Currently: Nothing :( 58. Drinking currently: Water 59. I’m about to: Answer the rest of these questions 61. Waiting for: 4 pm and death 62. Want: SLEEP 63. Get married: Facebook says I’m married 64. Career: To be determined

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: B O T H 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes are seeing. Lips are for talking and making out 67. Shorter or taller: Depends 68. Older or younger:DEPENDS 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Nice butt 71. Sensitive or loud:Huh? 72. Hook up or relationship:Depends, but relationships 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Depends on how much tequila I’ve drank

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: Yes 75. Drank hard liquor: heh... lol yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I haven’t been able to find my glasses in two years 77. Turned someone down: A lot more than most people believe 78. Sex in the first date: I usually do that on the second or third date 79. Broken someone’s heart: Yes, especially if you listen to my mother 80. Had your heart broken: Yes 81. Been arrested: Not yet but I can’t make promises 82. Cried when someone died: Kind of? I don’t really know how to answer this. 83. Fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Depends 85. Miracles: I believe in science 86. Love at first sight: Yes 87. Santa Claus: SANTA IS REAL 88. Kiss on the first date: Hell yeah??? 89. Angels:Jeonghan

OTHER:

90. Current best friends’ names: Amie and Jojo 91. Eyecolor: brown/green/hazel mix 92. Favorite movie: Just My Luck

[jitsuda-blog]

Chiang Dao Camping

The reasons that I am writing this blog because I think I fall in love with trekking. I think I understand now why people like to go trekking.

I am inspired by a book called “Born a crime” written by Trevor Noah. I like the idea that he wrote about his life, born in South Africa in English language which allows people from different parts of the world to understand and enjoy reading his experiences. And I am one of them. So, I hope that my messages will be seen by people, in India, Africa, small islands, small towns in other parts of the world somehow. I apologize for my broken English. I honestly would love to share my latest experience.

And most importantly, I am amazed by beauty of nature. Nature has so much impact on me. I also appreciated everyone in the trip who had helped me along the ways that were full of difficulties and wonderful adventures.

26 November 2017

My parents drove me to Chiang Dao Camping office (Chiangmai, Thailand), where I first met up with guides or porters and other trekkers whom I would be spending the whole 3 day journey with.

It was my first time going trekking alone. I had invited some friends, but they were not free to come, or they did not want to come, I was not so sure. But, I really wanted to go. What should I do?

Since I am always  inspired by Iroamalone website, which is created to advice how a woman can travel alone, I saw the possibility that I was not going to be in the jungle alone, I could just follow the other tourists. Besides, I actually am an adult. There is nothing for  me and my parents should be concerned or worried about that much.

It was 8.30 AM. There were total 10 trekkers and 2 porters for this trip. We all sat at the back of the pickup that would bring us to the trekking starting site.

Once the pickup passed the National park office, the speed began  faster. The driver sped up while running on the super rough road.

“Ahhhhhh!!!!! Ohhh Noo…..!!!! Ouch!! Ouch!! Seriously!!!” My butt bumped up and down the seat.

“Do you have to go that fast?!  I do not wanna die here. There is no seat belt. What if the car accidentally get off the road and go down the hill?!!!” I was crying inside. And I believe that everyone felt the same way, they all grabbed the bar tightly. It was such a fast and furious ride. [Later on, when we finished the trip, we complained about the fast ride to another driver, he said it is hard to bring the pickup full of people up on the high mountain if they go by slower pace. And they are experienced in driving to the area.]

Even I was panic on the intense ride, I still noticed the scenery along the rough road. It was foggy. I saw orange garden, with small little shop in the front, selling oranges and some snacks. The ride was not that bad actually.

It took one hour and a half on the scary ride, we finally arrived safely at the starting site. We grabbed lunch pack and 2 bottles of water and put into our bags.

The driver who is also the manager of the tour, He showed us the map and explained the directions.

Way up to the campsite: 8.5 km (4 - 5 hours walk)

Way down from campsite: 6 km (3 - 4 hours walk)

                                     Then, it was time to start trekking.

“Wowww…. isn’t it pretty?!!”  The track was narrow, so we all had to walk as one row. The weather surrounding was a bit cooling, but I  thought there was no need to wear long sleeves yet, because I would be sweating later.

The flower is called “Tian Nok Kaew”  you may see that  they look so much like small little parrots. [Nok Kaew means Parrot].

We stopped a while for lunch break. The sticky rice with fried pork and sausage filled up three quarters of my stomach. Around 2 PM, we reached the campsite. We stayed right below the big mountain. We rested a while, enough to recharge the energy to hike up to the big mountain that evening for sunset. 

OMG, I realized that climbing up to this mountain was not easy. It was very steep, certain path was tough, the narrow track was full of rocks. Further away by just inches was just nice cliff. I started to get out of breath. I breathed in and out deeply to calm myself. It seemed like the porter noticed my reactions. He stopped and called out for everyone to take few breaks along the way up. This was  the most extreme exercise I had ever done in my life.

Almost one hour later, I finally caught up with some other trekkers, we reached the top of “ Doi Luang Chiang Dao”,  at least  the ground on the top was flat enough for me to walk easily. [Doi Luang means big mountain].

Wowww........

Is this real?!!! I breathed in the fresh air deep down into both of my lungs. The aching from climbing suddenly went away. I could not feel anymore pain by just looking at the breathtaking view in front of me. I sensed only lightness and peacefulness. Was I dreaming? Last five minutes I was still suffering from the rocks and scary cliff. We were at 2,225 meters above sea level.

Others were checking their phone signals or finding their best spots for shooting photos. They probably could not wait to tell their love ones of what they just experienced.

The porter has been very nice, he liked to show us the different locations on top of the big mountain.  

At the end of the day, the sun disappeared slowly from the sky. It was time for me to climb back to my tent in the darkness (of course I brought flashlight with me). It was easier coming down, but still it was scary for me.

Next morning, I woke up around 4.15 am. We were heading to another mountain called “Gew Lom” for sunrise. The sky was full of stars, it had been long time that I had not seen that many stars so obvious.

Climbing up to Gew Lom was not easier than the day before. It was hard because it was dark and more slippery. Again, I was suffering with catching up my breath and trying to keep my body moving through the hard track.

At a certain part of the way to Gew Lom, Pi Ling, another porter, flashed the flashlight  up to a cliff, and we could see the reflection of an animal called “ Liang Pa” which is mountain goat. “They like to stand on the cliff” Pi. Ling said. [ Pi means older brother].

About an hour of climbing in the darkness, We once stepped on the top. Pi Ling prepared hot Milo (chocolate drink) for us. What could be better than having hot drink above the cold mountain. 

                                      And... the sun started rising....

After the sun had fully risen, we just enjoyed taking photos for a while. Pi Ling quickly presented us an interesting flower. The flower would break and spread out its seeds whenever we give slight squeeze or even when the rain falls onto it.

I  enjoyed making the flowers broken for a while. Then, we got hungry, so it was  time to climb back for breakfast. 

Oh my gosh, the way down was even more slippery. My walking stick did not help much. I needed to hold the trees and rocks nearby to help balancing myself.

Pi Chai, our chef, cooked wonderful dishes for us in every meals. I could not believe that up on mountain I still could enjoy tasty food. I needed to restore lots of energy. After breakfast, we all were happy to rest. We would start another trekking in the afternoon at 2 PM, this time we would go to another mountain linking to Gew Lom. Which means we would need to hike up to the same path as the morning, and continue further away another 25 minutes. That sounded so far away for me already.  However, after I had done hiking up and down mountains twice, I really gained much more confidence that it would be possible for me to go further.

There was a little cave hiden underneath the top of the mountain.  It was impossible  for us to go deeper inside, since the the entrance was too small. 

It was chilling up there. Pi Ling again was preparing hot drinks for us as usual. We were just looking for spots to sit down and could not wait to enjoy the drink until....we heard unexpected sentence.

“ Oh No !!, I forgot to bring the kettle” Pi Ling spoke out loud enough for us to hear. 

We were stunned for seconds and tried to process what we had just heard.

“ It is ok ” we all responded him with little bit sadness. I can just drink the cold Milo then. I still needed to restore some energy.

This afternoon, we could see only fogginess on the sky and surrounded the mountain. The sky was still unclear and it was almost time of sunset. We decided to go back to the campsite because of the heavy fog. We missed sunset.

Tomorrow would be our last day, we planned to go back to Doi Luang Chiang Dao, to see the stars and sunrise another time. 

5 AM, we reached the top, but still the whole mountain was full of fog. It was 15 Degree Celsius, with breeze. I could not stand the wind. I hid myself in front of the wood signage. Of course we still hoped that the sky would open soon, we waited until we were sure that the sun had been risen. The weather got warmer. “It is ok, I do not see sunrise, I still can enjoy the cloud!!”

let us go back to our tents for breakfast and get ready for long trek all the way back.

This is our kitchen. Pi Ling and Pi Chai were packing their stuffs.

On the way back, the sky opened,  I believed that the mountains showed up to say goodbye to us, or maybe to give us encouragement to get through the new hard track. The way back was very different from the way we came. 

It is 6 km, which is shorter distance, but seriously, walking down the long steep hill really hurt my knees. Pi Chai helped accompanied me from half way to the end. Other trekkers were walking very fast. I was very careful to step down the slippery path. I did not want to get any injuries, my knees already got hurt and tired. Pi Chai guided me all the way through and giving me some green oil to massage my knees. I was not sure to try. But since it is just herb, I finally tried. I liked the smell of it, though. “Not bad”, I felt less painful later on. We walked passed by bamboos jungles, wild bananas jungles, high rocks covered with moss all over them. Wow, this was like unusual landscape for me. It was like dinosaur era. I probably watched too much movies, or I got too tired until I became blurred.

OMG, I finally saw the same pickup  waiting in the front. I came as the third place, by the way:))

Thank you all friends along this trip, it was nice to meet you all. Thank you for help taking photos of me. Thank you Chiang Dao Camping for arranging  the program efficiently. Thank you porters for being so kind, funny and sharing your stories. 

                                                                            Nature is really amazing = D

 Last pic was shot by Ja with her GoPro (thank you so much)

                                                      Expense details(3 days,2 nights program)

Trip: 2,750 bht per person

Sleeping bag rent: 200 bht per night

Luggages : If you need porter to carry your bags, the price is 120 bht per kg ( mine was around 4 kg)

Further inquries please contact Chiang Dao Camping Facebook page

Additional information

There is no water for showering, the porters prepared only water for drinking and washing face or brush your teeth. 

Toilet: it looks like a hole with wood board for a person to stand on and squat to do your business,  they covered with black plastic net to make like small restroom. The smell is terrible. One of the porter said they will change new hole every month. It is better than nothing, I think.

Phone signals: AIS or One2call signals can be found on top of the most mountains. Truemove can be found only at Gew Lom mountain (mine is Truemove, I could make a call there). 

Phone signals cannot be found at the campsite and along the trekking tracks.

Accommodation: one tent can fit one or two people. I stayed alone in a tent, which was located near to other people’s tents. 

My opinion: Suggestions for trekkers ( trip during November) 

The weather can be 10-15 degree C at night  until early in the morning. It can be windy on top of mountains.

1. The sleeping bag from the campsite is not warm enough, you should bring extra sleeping bag or extra blanket. I, myself was suffering from coldness. Some other trekkers asked for extra sleeping bag even they already brought ones from home.

2. You may bring additional cushion/air cushion to put on top of the mat in the tent, so that it helps to prevent coldness transferring to your body at night. 

3. Bring some snacks or sweets if you have high metabolism, you will always feel hungry and you can share snacks to your friends too. There is no snacks available at the campsite. They provide only food, water, Milo and coffee.  Each usual meal may not last for long hours in some people.

4. Bring hot water bottle with you, because the water for drinking is as cold as water in a fridge. you can ask the porters to boil water for you to spare.

5. It is better to join 3 days 2 nights trip, because there is possibility that the sky can be foggy and you will miss sunrise or sunset if you stay just one night.

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LAST: 1. Drink: Ginger Ale (Vernors one) 2. Phone call: With my sister, Sammy 3. Text message: “He said some stuff and then sang Trees at one point and changed one lyric from the song-” to my dad, omg 4. Song you listened to: Before You Start Your Day by Twenty One Pilots 5. Time you cried: Just now when I started thinking of my mom who’s back at home HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: No. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Kind of? Kissing is a weird thing for me, so after like, some time passed, I’d be like “noo, god I regret” because I get uncomfortable thinking about. 8. Been cheated on: No. 9. Lost someone special: Yes, I have. They’re all still very much alive, but, you know. 10. Been depressed: Still am. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I didn’t get drunk. But I did drink too much champagne in a row and then threw up (whoo underage drinking). LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: (Personally prefers the greyscale) Light blue, mint green, dark red IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Yes, I have! 16. Fallen out of love: No. 17. Laughed until you cried: No. 18. Found out someone was talking about you: It was my teacher, she was talking about me to her other class, and I never figured out what she said about me. 19. Met someone who changed you: Yes, but in a negative way. I cut off all ties from them some time ago, thankfully. 20. Found out who your friends are: No. I’m actually slowly distancing myself from everyone. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yeah. GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Probably, like, a third??? A lot of them are from my school, and some relatives, so I guess 23. Do you have any pets: 4 dogs! One is a toy poodle, and the rest are bichon frise shih tzu mix

24. Do you want to change your name: Not necessarily. I like my current name, Lili, and I still have some people call my William/Will. I would’ve liked my name to be Aerith, but that’s my middle name, so I’m content with that. I like how my name is now; I starting to like it a lot.

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: lmao ate expired cake it was amazing i loved it, it was really good 26. What time did you wake up: Like, 11:08 A.M or smth, I went to sleep at 3 in the morning 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I think I was writing? Maybe on Tumblr, or on Virtual Space 28. Name something you can’t wait for: To go home (I’m currently with my great aunt and uncle) 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: June 19th;;;;;; 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My family being financially stable, so we pay bills and have a lot more money to spend on necessities, instead of paying bills and ending up with $16. 31. What are you listening right now: i need something to kill me 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Me 34. Most visited website: tumblr, youtube, archive of our own, fanfic.net LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: so many places 36. Mark/s: So many scars 37. Childhood dream: Lawyer 38. Hair color: Blonde/Brown 39. Long or short hair: It below my shoulders, so more towards long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: No 41. What do you like about yourself: Nothing 42. Piercings: Ordinary ear piercings 43. Blood type: Don’t know 44. Nickname: Zin, Zinny, Will, Aprici, Tiny Baby Apricot, Bill, Lil, Lili (insert random food or smth here), Star, Cervi 45. Relationship status: Taken 46. Zodiac: Taurus 47. Pronouns: They/Them is most prefer, but I also go by He/Him and She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: Danny Phantom, Gravity Falls, Supernatural, Sherlock, American Dragon: Jake Long, Randy Cunningham 9th Grade Ninja 49. Tattoos: None but I’m thinking about it 50. Right or left hand: Right handed, but sometimes I use my left hand to eat and shit 51. Surgery: Had surgery on my eyelids when I was like, 3 52. Hair dyed in different color: Purple 53. Sport: Football??? Actually???? 55. Vacation: Idk, Canada seems nice, so does London or England or smth. 56. Pair of trainers: ???????????????????????????? MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating:I had potato chips a few hours ago 58. Drinking: I had Ginger Ale a couple hours ago 59. I’m about to: Write fanfiction or read fanfiction or watch Game Grumps 61. Waiting for: Nothing 62. Want: To go back home 63. Get married: No, too much money 64. Career: I’m thinking about going into psychology, or creative writing, or just doing astrophysics. I’m for sure yet. Maybe go into a field that will allow me to be a lawyer? I’m not sure, but that’s my last decision. WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: I don’t like either, but I guess hugs;; 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: Taller. I hate having to climb on top of counters to get canned soup 68. Older or younger: Depends. 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Nice stomach 71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: I couldn’t care for either, in all honesty. 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Both. 74. Kissed a Stranger: No. 75. Drank hard liquor: I had Hennessy??? And that’s it???? 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: My glasses fall off of my bed a lot, so I can’t find them, so I consider that losing. 77. Turned someone down: I don’t think I did. I would though. 78. Sex on the first date: No. I don’t like sex. 79. Broken someone’s heart: Yes, unfortunately. 80. Had your heart broken: No. 81. Been arrested: No. 82. Cried when someone died: I.. don’t think so. 83. Fallen for a friend: Yeah. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: Not once, ever. 85. Miracles: No. 86. Love at first sight: Nah. 87. Santa Claus: I need evidence; then sure. 88. Kiss on the first date: No. I don’t actually like kissing that much. OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: @adelyte-dreams​ is my current best friend uwu 91. Eye color: Brown 92. Favorite movie: Idk man, probably Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World, Spirited Away, Wolf Children. Probably Wolf Children.