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moonlightdancer26 · 1 year ago

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im not a massive prongstail shipper (prongsfoot <3) but i've had this headcanon for fucking ever and it just isnt appreciated enough in marauders circles childhood bestfriends with supposedly unrequited crushes its a v popular marauders headcanon that james and peter knew each other before hogwarts, having both come from established magical familes so i just get brainrot about bb james and pete running around and doing all those childhood bestie things like getting married in their gardens and making wedding rings out of paper etc etc and just,,, neither of them realised they were each others first crush? as they grew up they realised "oh,,, oh i like liked him, didn't i. you dont usually marry people you feel completely platonically about." they are both emotionally constipated teenage boys who spend ages stewing in angst going "i loved him, but he'd never love me back D:" even though if they had a single conversation talking about their hisss feelings the problem would easily solve itself. but they dont, and years in the future, everything goes to shit. and peter doesn't realise that james still kept that tiny paper wedding ring

YES YES YES, I always loved the idea of Peter having an unrequited crush on James but I was always kinda hesitant to fully explore the ship, and today I just went fuck it and decided to announce it on tumblr.

I totally believe Peter and James are both the most oblivious mfs to ever exist, so the idea of them both having crushes on each other and assuming the other person didn’t reciprocate their feelings so they kept it to themselves sounds so accurate.

I’ve heard a bit about that headcanon before and tbh it sounds like a pretty interesting one, I’d like it if it was more explored in fics.

doing all those childhood bestie things like getting married in their gardens and making wedding rings out of paper etc etc

lmaoo I used to always do this with my irl bestie (we’re still inseparable to this day) 😭 we were (are) also major Swifties so when Taylor released Paper Rings 4 years ago we were like OMG REMEMBER WHEN WE USED TO- *goes down memory lane.* Imagining baby!Peter and baby!James making them and having pretend-weddings in their gardens legit sounds like the purest thing ever 😭<333

and when they’re at Hogwarts and well into their teen years they both start thinking “yo wait……. maybe I actually liked him” but never say anything about it due to the fear of being rejected or realising the other person forgot about the weddings and paper rings. And when James got with Lily, that was when Peter accepted that he was genuinely in love with James and couldn’t handle the pain of seeing him with someone else, let alone “Evans.” He then started resenting the Potters and kept thinking to myself “what did I do wrong? why didn’t I tell Prongs when I had the chance?” And part of the reason why James agreed to switch to Peter as the Secretkeeper was because he remembered what it was like when they were kids and trusted him fully because of it. Then when the opportunity to betray the Potters to Voldemort came, Peter took it.

and peter doesn't realise that james still kept that tiny paper wedding ring

Y E S. and at one point James gave it to baby!Harry bc his fingers were almost the same size (either baby!Harry had chubby fingers or James and Peter had skinny fingers, we’ll never know), Lily noticed it and asked what it was. James told her it was “just something he put together,” Lily didn’t buy it because the paper weddimg ring looked a little worn out but decided not to say anything.

excuse me while I go sob into a pillow.

#literally crying ugh this has sm angst potential #prongstail #peter pettigrew #james potter #harry potter #hp #ask #asks

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shrinkthisviolet · 1 year ago

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character ask game 2, 3, 4, 5, 15, 16, 23, 24, 25 (sorry there's so many lol) for Mr. Eddie Thawne <3333

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

He and Iris are sweet together! And he is, in general, very sweet—befriending Barry even tho he suspects that Barry and Iris are in love (and keeps being proven right)?? How could I not admire him for that omg

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

I didn’t like him keeping Barry’s identity a secret from Iris, but…I mostly blame the writers for that one tbh. The sexism strikes again 😒

EDIT: I completely forgot s9 existed, apparently 🤦‍♀️ THAT is definitely the worst thing they did to him, hands down. They ruined his character…and for WHAT, the arc wasn’t even good!!

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

Eddie gives me Disney Prince/knight in shining armor vibes. A fairytale epic would be perfect for him 🥰

(Or a pirate setting, like this wonderful Westhallen fic 👀)

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

As strange as it might sound, “Cave In” by Owl City. I think Eddie, for all his optimism, does struggle with self-worth—we know he had a hard time making friends as a kid, especially given his dad’s job, and given that he was originally from Keystone…this is more speculation, but I doubt he and his dad were particularly close either (especially if his dad is the sort of person Eowells would like).

And in “Cave In”, there are multiple instances of the narrator/singer struggling with inner turmoil, depressive thoughts (“please take a long hard look through your textbook, ‘cause I’m history”…which also ties in tragically to Eddie’s ultimate fate of dying heroically at the end of s1) and yet trying to be optimistic despite it (“if the bombs go off, the sun will still be shining, because I’ve heard it said that every mushroom cloud has a silver lining”). It’s very Eddie-like imo 💞

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

Westhallen wins for me, hands down. Eddie is great with both of them individually too, but like…all three of them = the superior ship

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

Admittedly I don’t really read a ton of Eddie fics, so idk many ships for him 😅 I guess Eddie x Caitlin? Not a bad pairing per se, and I’m the last person to complain about shipping characters who have never properly met onscreen (Reyrose (I haven’t read the comics where they interact) and Franmaya are two of my favorite ships, after all)…I just don’t get that vibe from Eddie and Caitlin. But also, I think that ship only has a few fics anyway, so 🤷‍♀️

23. Favorite picture of this character?

I don’t really have one tbh but he looks so lovely he smiles, so I present you with:

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

Jim Paxton from the MCU! Scott Lang’s wife, Maggie, remarried when she and Scott divorced, and Jim is just an absolute gem. A great husband to Maggie, a great friend to Scott, and a great stepdad to Cassie. They’re such a wonderful family, all four of them, and I love them so much 🥰

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

I gotta be honest man, I was suspicious of him. Idk if I thought he was the RF, but I definitely thought he was gonna turn out to be a bad boyfriend because of how that trope usually goes, and that would be the impetus for Westallen getting together. Imagine my shock when that didn’t happen!! When, in fact, he befriended Barry, Westhawne was going strong for a while, and died a hero!!

(I would’ve preferred that he not die, ofc, but on the other hand…I don’t trust the Flash writers that much. They would’ve ruined him for drama, I can just feel it)

character ask game!

#character ask game #the flash #eddie thawne

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marimbles · 1 year ago

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From this ask game

The opening passage of The Legend of the Grimwalkers, chapter six, came unhelpfully to his mind:

As beings of both magic and decay, grimwalkers occupied a limbo-like plane of existence, treading the line between life and death, and as such were effectively untethered to witch- and demonkind. Some creators considered themselves a so-called ‘parent’ of their creation, but this was true only in the sense that an inventor is a ‘parent’ to his invention. In biological terms, a grimwalker’s ‘parentage’ may have been credited to any of the parts which comprised its whole. The most logical ‘parent’ was arguably the ortet who provided the genetic pattern for the clone. But even this definition cannot withstand scrutiny, for grimwalkers were, in reality, parentless from conception. They were orphans by nature, bondless and lonely, and any personal connections formed were but a wishful echo born from affection for the original ortet. They walked the earth like a living corpse—a phantom copy of the deceased in whose likeness they were made. For this reason were these creatures called ‘grimwalkers,’ for death clung to their every step.

He’d reread those words obsessively in those first days hiding out at Hexside, wearing out the pages with his dirty fingerprints. A terrible emptiness ate at his stomach, at the very marrow of his bones, and he feared he’d be swallowed up by the cavern of his own hollow chest (although maybe that was partially the result of eating nothing but Hex Mix for days). Flapjack nagged at him to stop—nipping his ears, tugging his hair—but Hunter couldn’t tear his eyes from the yellowed pages, each word stamped like ink into his brain, even now, months later.

If he was not himself, he’d asked, who was he? If he had no one, why should he exist at all? Why was he fighting so hard to live—running away, hiding out, cutting his own puppet strings and praying he still had the legs to stand? What was it all worth, if he was just a ghost? If he was the shadow of a stranger who’d been extinguished like a flame four hundred years ago?

(When he tried to spell out his reasons, all that came to him in answer was the sound of the human’s voice calling his name in the night and the last words that had lit up his lost scroll what felt like a lifetime ago: 49 weeks 🌻)

(He’d decided then that if grimwalkers really did tread the line between life and death—a very wobbly tightrope, in his recent experience—the side he would fall on was life, and he’d just have to brace himself for whatever kind of landing waited for him at the bottom.)

omg!! i'm surprised anyone did this game let alone for this fic! i kind of forgot about this fic tbh haha. but reading this is making it come back to me. i actually really like how this passage turned out so i'm flattered you chose it<3

so this is from ch. 2 of my (currently abandoned) toh wip i wanna tell you (but i don't know how). i started writing this fic after thanks to them aired, and the original idea was to lead up to a cathartic moment soon after they step through the portal, where hunter finally gets closure about the grimwalker thing and it's all addressed and out there and he feels this unconditional love and support from his found family. and i wanted to build up to that with these five moments of connection between hunter and each hex squad member, where he wants to tell them his big secret about being a grimwalker but chickens out. this is from the amity chapter.

writing about hunter and amity's dynamic was an interesting challenge for me because hunter's connections with luz, gus, and willow feel more obvious and more explored in the show. but he doesn't have as much of an individual friendship with amity that we see on screen. so i kept thinking about how they'd connect and how the subject of grimwalkers would come up, at least in hunter's mind, so he'd feel compelled to tell her about it before inevitably backing out. and i thought it was an interesting angle for them to connect over having a difficult relationship with their toxic parental figure who used them for their own selfish, evil purposes—odalia for amity and belos for hunter. and then with the subject of parents/family, hunter is painfully reminded that as a grimwalker, he doesn't actually have a family, and he remembers the existential crisis he went through when he first found out—the crisis he's still trying to work through.

i remember working so hard on that grimwalker book excerpt because i wanted it to feel sort of stilted and archaic, like an old textbook, but also have a certain ring of poetry to it—a haunting and kind of devastating ring. and i also wanted to bring up false assumptions about grimwalkers that hunter could eventually prove wrong about himself—that he isn't destined to be "bondless and lonely" forever, and that he's his own person, and that people can and do love him for himself, and that he isn't doomed or marked for death. that he can love and learn and grow like anyone else, no matter where he came from, and he can have a family of his own making even though he was born without one.

so while he's recalling his time hiding out at hexside obsessing over this idea of being a grimwalker, he's also remembering not just the devastation but the determination. and how he had this drive to fight for himself, and to forge his own path, even thought it was so scary. and how even then he'd begun to form these important connections that proved he was not alone—with luz, who reached out to him during the worst moment of his life, even knowing he was a "monster"; and with willow, who accepted him as part of her team and her friend group even after he made such a big mistake. (the "49 weeks" thing implying that they had regular text communication for a little while and that she was continuing to count down the time till they could see each other again, like how she mentioned in ASIAS as she was leaving that he had 52 weeks till his next day off). and then of course with gus, who's the one who found his hiding spot (although that part is brought up later in the chapter, not this excerpt). and then in the present, he is making a new connection with amity, and building more trust, to the point that he almost spills his secret. and while he's not quite brave enough at that point, he is gathering courage, because of his friends, so he can finally let himself fall off of that proverbial tightrope and trust that he'll fall on the right side and have a soft landing, because he has good people in his corner who will take care of him.

alright well that's my DVD commentary for this passage haha thanks for the question!!

#ask #zyrafowe-sny #toh #my fics

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mysticlibraryhushbats · 1 year ago

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So! Mutant Mayhem is finally here and I took the day off work to go to the first showing this morning like a weirdo! I just wanted to share my initial thoughts on the movie now that I'm fresh out and haven't unblocked the Mutant Mayhem tag to see what others have been saying.

(Most of these come down to personal preference so, if you read something you don't like, don't come for me!)

First things first, the turtles!!! I love, love, LOVE them!!! This is honestly the first time I've had difficulty picking a fav. They were the highlight of the movie for me.

I don't think I've ever said this about Leo, but OMG he was adorable!! Such a good boi! I'm glad they cut that whole 'holier than thou' attitude he often gets lumped with. He was just out here doing his best and trying to have fun along the way.

Raph is my son. I have adopted him.

Donnie is hands down the cutest Donnie ever to exist. 2003 Donnie is still my fav, but I can have two, right?

I have to say that of the four, Mikey was the biggest surprise for me. And in the best way possible! I much prefer when he's not singled out as the stupid one acting dumb or the "funny" one. Sorry to any Mikey fans out there but I find most iterations of Mikey to be insufferable, and there're only three I actually genuinely like (including this one)! I like that he's on equal footing with his brothers. They are all dumb and funny together, and Mikey isn't fighting for their attention.

I was also super happy to see that no one turtle had the spotlight. They were very much a unit.

Return of the batman voice, this time ft. Leo!

The turtle tots were cute little chicken nuggets!! Really makes me want to get back into writing turtle tot fics!

This Splinter was really leaning into the stressed single father side of Splinter's persona more so than any other version. I'm here for it! He still kicked ass!

Another teen April. I'd prefer an older April that looks out for the turtles like an older sister tbh. I miss those days. But still, she was a great April all things considered!!

I could have done without the Leo/April stuff. I get that as teenagers they're going to have crushes, but any Turtle x April ship gives me the ick.

On that note, is Raph the only turtle to not have a significant crush on April in the whole franchise?!

The other mutants were enjoyable. None of them really stood out to me personally. Though, every Ray Fillet scene had me creased thinking about Postie in the recording booth. I'm glad that in the end they all sided with the turtles and they have a nice little found family going.

Splinter and his girlfriend!! 😂 It's about time!

WTF happened to Splinter that had him so concerned about them being milked. I mean, he was right in the end but, who hurt you child?

The animation style took a little getting used to but I thought it was very creative and interesting. The random shots from "real-life" like Ferris Bueller and the Chris' were a bit jarring, but funny nonetheless.

The whole "No Diggity" montage...*chef kiss* The 4 Non Blondes part was hilarious too!

I loved all the pop-culture references, but I think maybe it was a little excessive? I would have preferred if they left those primarily for the turtles. Instead, every character was a pop-culture connoisseur trying to out do the other characters.

Related to that point, I'm in Japan, so I felt bad for the non-English speaking Japanese watching this movie because there's only so much you can do with subtitles. 90% of the pop-culture references would go over the average viewers' head here, and yet, most of the comedy was contingent on these references. No one laughed. No one. (tbf, that's common in theaters in Japan regardless of how funny something is, but even so, I can't imagine it being very humorous to a non-English speaking adult here.) I might try the dubbed version just to compare. There's more freedom in dubbing but I can't see it being too much better.

That's all I got for now! I'm sure I forgot to mention a bunch of stuff. I will be going to see the movie again next week, and I'll probably have more to add after a second watch. But for now, I really enjoyed it. As a fan of the darker versions of the TMNT, I know I'm not the target audience for these things anymore. Coming to that realization today was a depressing thought. I had a great time watching for sure and I'm excited to have a lot of new fans joining the fandom!

I'm not sure if this movie cracks the top 5 of my favorite turtles but it's up there for sure. I give it a solid 7/10.

#mutant mayhem #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt mm #teenage mutant ninja turtles mutant mayhem #mutant mayhem spoilers #tmnt mm spoilers

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eileenwdj · 1 year ago

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this is the headcanon brainrot anon and i just wanted to ask if I could just drop tgcf brainrot here and if so, i just lowkey wanted to talk about how intriguing a female mu qing would be in a spider!mq au.

like hear me out

this poor girl who everyone just sees as lesser 9 she's crossdressing in this hc of mine bc it seems more realistic that way tbh with how xianle is portrayed) who has no sort of status or stepping stone or anything to help suffers so much and quite literally ascends from her strength and is bitten and given powers only for her to be told that she's 'unworthy' of it and her just fighting against every judgement passed on her.

I just was thinking abt this for some reason. It also hits harder if somehow this double perception exists in the heavenly realm too and it's like the ling wen situation but reversed - the south west sees her as a strong martial god and a woman but everyone else denies it bc how could a female martial god exist and the same goes for zhizhu jiangjun. post-canon she'd probably shed the whole farce or straight up deny how ppl try to tell her story.

exhales yeah that's the brainrot I've been having. I lowkey want to write a fic on it but I wanted to ask for your permission since spider!mq is your creation (and honestly a galaxy brain idea)

I'm so sorry for how long this is. 😭😭😭

very sorry for only replying now ive been so busy with work and barbie i forgot to open tumblr asgsjkdks

MY GOD FEM MU QING 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️ so much angst potential for fem mq. the way other people would try to make claims on and police what she can or can't do and how much it fucks her up mentally.... only for her to turn things around and reclaim her story as her own in the end AUEGHRHDHRHR

AND YEAH PLEAS PLEASE WRITE IT OMG im always welcome for others to write or make things based on the stuff i create, i'm amazed you guys even like it in the first place.... I'D BE HONORED EVEN 😭💖🫶🙏

#ask #anon #i love fem mq so much #pls tag me if u do end up writing the fic skksksksk #im gonna devour the hell out of it #spiderqing #mu qing #tgcf

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ssreeder · 2 years ago

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omg hi sreedie it almost feels like I literally just spoke to you funny that-

anyway hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii my darling dearest

screaming at how sokka is willing to set aside his deep rooted insecurity and trauma just to be an asshole and stop him from claiming a position of leadership

omg wait jet and sokka bonding bc jet is the only other person in the group that like actually knows zuko exists???? unexpected but I’m intrigued

sokka pls u have a bf TELL SUKI YOURE UNAVAILABLE

as fucked up as it is, I’m lowkey finding it incredible entertaining how easily shen has accepted the fact that he’s (he thinks) going to die bc it means his pov is so snarky lmao

NO NOT UNCONSCIOUS SHEN this is so sad he’s gonna miss zuko breathing fire this is the worst thing you could have done sreedie :((

oh but suki there IS. a reason jet and sokka don’t get along. but also I forgot how like.. idk if “peppy” is the right word but like enduringly positive suki is in the actual show and I love that you’ve still managed to capture that when usually she’s reduced to being the witty badass girlboss in a lot of fics

yeahhh I love kovi

wow look at jet learning some social awareness <3 it’s called character development

bitch I called it but tbh it was Not a hard bet to place when the options are either sokka being emo about zuko and sokka not being emo about zuko bc sokka is ALWAYS emo about zuko so obvi his fav smell is a campfire omg

shit-fire 😭

(pls tell me that’s gonna become a term of endearment later on pls I swear I’ll marry u again to make this happen)

shen why are you greeting your captor-

fulo is fucked up jesus christ THATS WHAT YOU GET SCUMBAG YOU GET YOUR DICK BURNT OFF

okay when tf did jet suddenly get so much more mature literally what did I miss

also I hate that I’m becoming a jet fan bc he’s talking sense into sokka this needs to stop

love shen running his mouth as zuko just sit there petulantly

shen get the fuck out of here with your homophobia pls and ty

HIS NAME IS CHANG I GOT IT RIGHT IN THE END I think?? I forgot what I guessed his name was whoopsies

also I never thought about jet/suki parallels but you’re so right you funky little mastermind

THE TEAPOTS what an incredible nickname I’m thriving the world is healing

AND NOW je suis up to date with itf FINALLY

love you lots like jelly tots, if I were a cat I’m be head butting you bc every update is so. good.

Would it make you more intrigued to know Jet & Sokka share a tent next chapter haha??

SHEN DIES 2023!!!! I LOVE IT SOMEONE MANAGE HIS CAMPAIGN!

Pretty sure Zuko is convinced he is going to die too haha….

I love Suki but canon did her dirty in my humble opinion by reducing her to only Sokkas love interest (+ added bad-assery, but yeah I’ll try my best to do her justice)

Jet is actually really mature underneath his being a dick! & when there aren’t fire benders around making his eyebrows TWITCH he can think straight. (Ish) (pretty sure Jet is open minded to all genders haaaa)

CAT HEAD BUMP YOU BACK EX LOVEERRRR

#I swore I love you so much #I wouldn’t post the next chapter until I answered your asks #& then you sent me the third one & I was like AHHH FUCK ILL NEVER GET THIS CHAPTER POSTED #haha….#nah but seriously I love you #big brained #ex wife #who I love still #but throws coal at you #I hope Santa shit in your stocking #BUT WITH LOTS OF LOVE #leekie tag #LEEKIE LEEKIIIII LEEKS #THEEEE LEEKI!!#liab #ITF #ask

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serethereal · 2 years ago

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sere my fav, any idea when the next firsts update will be? <333

hello <33 omg firsts universe.. totally forgot about her..

tbh I've been so focused on foh and up as well as my lily fic that I never got around to editing the next part 😭 no real timeline exists because I don't really live within the constraints of time buuuut I'll probably go back to it when I'm done editing and posting foh !!

sorry !! but thank you for asking its kinda sweet that people are actually waiting on it :(( <33

#fic: firsts #asks #literally forgot about it had to reopen my docs and scroll so far down for the next part #fun chapter though !! there will be jealousy which I adore writing..#but im so focused on finishing foh rn so might take a while #I do not know how to juggle multiple projects so idk why I do this to myself #serena struggles

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imsleepyanon · 9 months ago

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the mood. THE MOOD. of this entire thing. insane.

ok so, here's thing about lore's writing. the way they write just tickles me, punches me, hugs me, chokes me--everything under the sun, it just fundamentally messes with me. i still need to think about this critically bc even i dont exactly know why it does, but all i know is that my cells are eating this up like its the only thing edible left on earth.

one thing i do know is that the way they space dialogue, paragraphs, etc., is smth i appreciate A LOT. i didnt realize this until i wrote for myself (im an ex-writer!!) and even while i read other fics, i found myself almost viscerally reacting to poorly spaced fics. that's a talk for another day, but i just have to say that lore has mastered AMBIENCE. atmosphere. mood. there is this flow, like the waves against the shore, that just makes SENSE. i still need to pick at this more to be able to properly verbalize it, but it for sure adds to why their writing seems so artful to me. like those paintings you'd want to hang up in your reading room.

OK SLIGHTLY RELATED, but the use of parentheses (im starting to think theres smth wrong with me bc why am i fixating on such small things) is so. natural. i think this is what i meant when i referred to "stream of consciousness-esque" things, where details are included in ways that make the entire thing scenic. it feels like a movie, reading this (all of lore's works are like this tbf). it feels like im witnessing smth, but it's almost tangible, the way it unassumingly appears. but the things said there add so much, it adjusts the hue of the writing, or maybe it increases contrast or its the color that's been balanced with those details (using illustration/art terms now LOL).

honestly reading this makes me want to read properly again. i used to breathe books, but as i got jaded and stuff happened in my life, i stopped reading. and im realizing now as i write out these thoughts, that being a reader makes me so so so happy. this is also why i probably couldnt contain the urge to make a tumblr just to harass lore, bc they reminded me that i love being a reader. it felt like biting into a dessert i forgot existed, a favorite that was left in my past.

this became oddly sentimental/emotional, but tbh writing this out is oddly therapeutic to me. i have a lot of appreciation for writers, and i think it bubbled to a point where i couldnt contain it well (like literally, wth is this post). but i think it's more than deserved, that's why comments go a long way for creative people. being in a world ruled by algorithms and numbers and engagement makes it so hard to create the things you want to, and it makes it a lot harder for works to meet the right people.

im happy i found lore, and that theyve continued to write despite the stuff happening to creative content these days. lore, if youre reading this, i hope that this mess of a ramble does even a fraction of what your writing has done for me! the small moments of excitement or happiness i get from your work, its moments like that, that allow me to breathe a little.

on a lighter note, why is it so fitting that jy calls you "dearest." SOB that man, no wonder he was my first bbygirl. i find it so fascinating lore decided to use "dearest" as opposed to "honey," which seemingly has the same meaning/undertone, but NO. IT IS SO DIFFERENT. BUT MY QUESTION IS, HOW DID THEY KNOW ???? IS THIS INTUITIVE ??? omg im going to actually talk about their characterization abilities later, it actually drives me feral. (its their blade characterization that finally broke the camels back and i literally had to comment as anon...and now here we are, off anon and i'm literally writing essays in reblogs....do tumblr users even do this? i still dont know how to use the site but i think i want to use it as like, a personal fic reading diary now. and who's to stop me? god? god cant save me now)

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[this. this is exactly why i used to avoid commenting on writers' stuff bc, who the hell looks at this and thinks it's normal? bc i certainly dont. but once i started writing, every little comment meant so much, ofc as long as they werent asking when the next chapter would be uploaded. funny thing, that's actually why i stopped writing myself; just got tired of it, and the constant hounding made me avoid the series i was writing for. RIPPP, and im assuming this is also why old me just left fic-life altogether.

but seeing that this is quite enjoyable for me too--yk, being able to fangirl (neutral) about writers/works that ive enjoy so much, im lowkey going to commit myself to have this reading diary of sorts. and then the writers can know that they have an unhinged anon (me) eyeing their works like its their last meal (it is)]

(a continuation of this piece)

"i was surprised that you were late today."

jing yuan says halfway through lunch. he speaks over the rim of his teacup. his lips are curled in an easy, gentle smile. his shoulders are relaxed, posture slack as he leans against his own bent leg.

he's barely touched his meal.

(you have a full bowl as well.)

"i got caught up with work." a lie. a blatant one. you're never late for lunches, and you always let jing yuan know if you even have an inkling of being a few minutes past your appointed time. you're careful about it. meticulous.

your visit to blade has made you careless. dulled you with a grief that is eating you alive.

jing yuan hums thoughtfully. you hope he won't press this. he's-- he's an unusually calm character when he wants to be. you're his lover-- dutifully, horribly reliable and loyal. he has no reason to doubt you.

(except, you'd spent the first half of the day in the shackling prison with its beau acratic hoops and horrors, all to see yingxing. to be heartbroken all over again.)

you thought it would bring you some closure. in retrospect, this was more wishful thinking. all its left you with is an hot, branding ache in your chest. a wound ripped open anew. it had already scarred over, albeit imperfectly healed.

(jing yuan never minded this. he could tell he carried things with you, he'd both told and shown you this. and truthfully, how could you not? being undying does not lend itself to happiness. it lends itself to an accumulation of sin that cannot be undone. cannot be lessened.)

"dear?" jing yuan asks, voice mirthful and sweet. "are you with me?"

"yes." you force yourself present. you hope your eyes aren't too puffy. "i am distracted. what did you say?"

"i asked you what kept you at work." jing yuan asks, so easy. so kind. "if lady fu is working you to hard, i am happy to arrange a few days off for you. is a vacation in order?"

"no, it's alright." you rush, stumble over your words. "i should've planned better is all. how is your lunch?"

jing yuan rests his chin on his palm, "i'm not very hungry today. i apologize, dearest."

"you don't need to apologize. it happens." you assure him. "i'll make you a meal tomorrow. just let me know what you're in the mood for."

"you spoil me."

"i simply treat you well." you tell him. you're grateful you're able to. that the general lets you close enough to cook for him and feed him morsels and lounge on his personal terrace in the artificial sun each day during noontime.

"you do." jing yuan says softly. reverent. he gets like this sometimes. moony and a little dumb about it. so genuine and earnest it breaks you.

(it makes your lie feel that much more sour.)

jing yuan opens his mouth to say more, but promptly redirects as yanqing arrives, swords floating around his back. he and the general talk, carouse for a moment. yanqing has had yet another day of sparring. that's good. that's nice.

(yingxing doesn't remember you. only you are burdened with this memory. will this feeling eat you alive? it's-- it feels worse than it did when you were younger. more naive. when things fell apart and you were burdened with standing by and watching the world you loved so much, with the people you loved so much fall apart. even jing yuan was away, making a name for himself. proving his worth.)

(you alone bear this.)

your chest aches.

jing yuan is at your side. you hadn't noticed him approach you so directly.

"dearest, walk with me?" jing yuan asks and offers you a hand to help you stand. yanqing is already tucking into his meal, waving goodbye.

the terrace is wide, and high above the rest of the luofu's structure. it's lush with plants. vining fruits, plump and ready to be picked curl along its railing. flowers bloom wide and bright.

(you wish you could focus on the beauty of it. how kind a place this is. how fortunate you are to have made it this far.)

"you're distracted today." jing yuan says, guiding you to a bench. his hand lays warm and firm on your shoulder. "are you sure the divination commission is giving you trouble?"

(no, the mutual past lover you both share is layers below you in the shackling prison. radiating an energy that feels astral and unholy. the kindness purged from him. yingxing really is dead, isn't he?)

"no, i promise." you give him a half-truth and a smile that you hope isn't as withered as you fear it is.

jing yuan looks pleasantly neutral. perhaps, if you were some foreign diplomatic or tourist you'd be charmed by such expression. the arbiter general of the luofu is known to be ruthless in battle with a lovely personal disposition. perhaps you'd see this moment as a reflection of that rumor.

you know, however, that in this moment jing yuan is frustrated. he will not treat you with the same firmness that he does his retainer or his subordinates, but you know the feeling is, perhaps, the same.

jing yuan doesn't like when you withhold information. he has always vocally appreciated your candor, with a sweet honesty that's disarming as it comes from a man who speaks in half-truths so frequently.

and now, you lie to him. your jaw is locked and your eyes still feel scratchy and swollen from your tears.

jing yuan begins to speak and you cut him off. grab his hand with a squeeze and pull yourself into his side.

"do you remember when you broke the first blade that yingxing made for you?" you ask.

jing yuan goes still for a moment. just a second of hesitation but you catch it. the feeling melts away as he laughs, tinged with melancholy. "i do. he was furious with me. and you had to collect new ore off-ship for a month for him to craft a replacement."

"i did." you whine with a laugh. "it was miserable. 'roid mining is awful. i was cleaning astradust from under my fingernails for weeks when i got back."

"but, you came back with the ore regardless."

"yes, and i never did again. no matter how much yingxing tried to bribe me."

"you were too busy entertaining the young lady fu to be his errand boy. i remember well."

"i probably could've made the time." you tell him. he knows this already. "i just didn't want to be away. i would've missed you both too much."

"is that why you so graciously eat with me each day?"

"i do that because i love you." you squeeze his hand. "and i enjoy your company. and want to be near you."

(you want to hold him until the last moment, however that takes shape.)

jing yuan hums. he fits you so your cheek presses against his collarbone, and his chin rests on the top of your hand. his arms wrap around your middle, squeezing and rubbing his thumbs over you. he holds you tightly to him.

"the feeling is mutual." jing yuan tells you, soft in a hushed voice only you get to hear.

you bear your weight into him. he catches you easily. holds you until yanqing calls for you both to stop being so 'gross' and to 'rate his form' on a new maneuveur he's been practicing.

jing yuan leads you once more, never fully pulling away from you. a hand on your waist, a palm over the small of your back. he puts you in his lap the moment yanqing excuses himself to flit about.

"you need to get back to the divination commission soon, don't you?" jing yuan asks, probing.

"i took the day off."

"you did, now?" jing yuan has already seen through you. this you know.

"yes." you tell him.

(you want to tell him more. you want to scream and beat the ground. perhaps you willl, later, in the privacy of your shared home.)

for now, you satiate the ache with the truth.

"i saw blade earlier. that's why i was late."

jing yuan squeezes you. it almost hurts as he curls over you.

"and?" jing yuan asks. there's a weakness in his voice that you seldom hear. "are you satisfied?"

"hardly." you tell him, turning his arms to wrap your legs around his waist. to drag him closer until your chest to chest and can hear the steady heartbeat thumping under his sternum. "i don't think i ever will be. i miss him too much. he's just gone."

"i know."

"it's awful, isn't it?"

"it simply is." jing yuan says. this is his way-- the way he has kept himself from being eaten alive by mara. you cannot be cannibalized by the thriving rot if you simply choose to let go of the awful, terrible things that would cleave another person in two. he look at the objective rationality of each situation-- this is why he is the longest-lived general. this is why he is a brilliant strategist, and a soft, grounding lover.

because, he reminds you that yingxing is dead, and any fondness you carry for the man known as blade is misplaced.

"do you not miss him?"

"of course." jing yuan kisses your temple. holds you tightly lest you plunge into the ground or float into the sky. "that does not change things though, does it?"

hope is a twisted thing, you think. in this instance, it's better to kill it. whatever mission yingxing-- no, blade has set out to complete should not concern you. there are greater crises. worse ills.

kinder realities that lay in front of you. at your feet. in your arms.

you nose into jing yuan's jaw. each shuddering breath he gives you, you savor. there's no use clinging, is there? but that doesn't mean you won't enjoy each moment you have with him. you'll be at his side until the divinations carve that that will no longer be possible. you will reminisce, however painful-- but aeons, you must refuse to let your past burden you.

so, you hold jing yuan like a lover does. cup his cheeks and kiss him until he's groaning against your lips, grinding you in his lap. he nips at your lips with a laugh as he pulls you flush to him. closer, closer, closer--

you will hold this in your cupped palms, as long as fate allows. perhaps, you both have earned that much.

#still dont know how to use tumblr #pog #is it normal to write random and long stuff in the tags like this #if its not im going to cry #and go back and edit everything #but anyway guys pls check out lore theyre cracked at writing #you want to get your heart sniped? they got you

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m1ckeyb3rry · 3 months ago

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SHINAH SO REAL bring my man back….

I’m ngl I fully forgot Lorenzo existed errrrr but yeah there’s the purple eye rep..!! Wait you know what kinda confuses me is Nanase’s aura….his name means rainbow so I was assuming it’d be rainbow but it’s some sort of blueish white? Maybe it’s a reference to how when all the colors come together they make white but anyways….considering his name they could’ve made his eye color a little more interesting but whatever I guess

I’ll be waiting LMAO just thinking of the ideas makes me want more beach day esque side quest shenanigans between the characters!!

Hoping this last match helps boost their rankings a lot because just looking at it right now the rankings do NOT seem accurate LOL

FIC INFLATION REAL my perception of length has been so thrown off these past months

LMAOOO imagine 60k kiyora fic /j quite literally would be carrying the entire tag on your blog HAHA

Imagine you did convert to gagamaruism though that would lowk be really funny

HE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED omg…ok but I get it some edits are fire and are way too good at converting….lowk I think a tabieita edit was what pushed me into tabieitaism….it’s ok you got cleansed by other edits you’re in the clear for now o7 ok but wait drop the edits?? If you still have them saved LOL

FRRR WAIT STOP THE OTOYA IDEA IS FIRE??? Otoya getting trained into a gentleman and y/n becoming a heartbreaker bitch LOLL Its funny because we keep discussing ideas for people being wingmen for other characters LMAOOO atp it should just be the wingmen series

Also BAROUUUUUUU>>>>>> ok his little moments where he’s eating or has his hair down doing some sort of wind down/cool down routine>>>> if u20 Barou doesn’t get a glow up the Ubers match one fs will….but manifesting s2 glow up for Barou!!!

- Karasu anon

shinah…hak…kija…bring my boyfriends back to me 😭 honestly the author of yona of the dawn ATE w the character designs!! like even though all of the dragons were a certain color they still felt interesting?? maybe it’s the eyes like kija + zeno i think having the blue, shinah’s being absolutely gorgeous, and jaeha’s being purple iirc

LMAOAAO lorenzo is always in the back of my mind bro is such a phenomenon…for some reason i pictured him having brown hair and brownish reddish eyes?? and i haven’t seen many colorings of him so ig i never realized he has my fav color palette 😓 maybe it’s time for me to convert to loreonzoism /j also i didn’t know that abt nanase!! that’s def annoying that they made him knockoff isagi when there was the potential for smth cool 😭

hopefully after the nel arc we will get more downtime and fun ☝🏻 and next req should be up shortly!! like within the next three hours i think 😏

i’ve done it to myself too tbh 😭 consistently writing 100-200k word fics has made me view anything less than 100k as short…like unless it breaks 100k i won’t even consider it a true long fic!! i need to write smth that massive for bllk though 😵‍💫 hollyhock might make it but that one will be slow going because it’s a lot of external work to write 😩 peregrine i don’t think is going to be that long though 😓 i think if i do undertake a rlly long fic like that it’ll have to be for one of my absolute favs (so nagi karasu barou) or else i won’t have the motivation to finish it

HAHAHAA bfb kiyora’s version fr except he doesn’t have any sisters…i’m trying to think of what trope i want for him 🤔 i have some vague ideas but we’ll see what sticks!! i’m actually more worried abt karasu FJDKKS i’ve written sm for him that coming up with something different might be a struggle…what if i pick zantetsu for that req instead /hj

YUP IT WAS HE WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED!! although technically reo mikage would’ve fit in the censor too LMAOAOA but yk i’d never censor reo…only an itoshi bro could get that reaction from me 😫 and yes i saved all of the ones that cleansed me hold on i’ll post them here

barou edit

otoya + aiku edit

nagi edit 1 and nagi edit 2

third nagi edit that i just thought was really funny

not the edit i was referring to in that post because i didn’t save that BUT the edit of rin that made me post abt bllk on tumblr for the first time and get convinced to watch it by my mutual

the amt of saved edits i have is crazy 😭 mostly karasu and nagi ones but there’s more than a few otoya reo and barou ones in there 🤩 plus a couple of sae and rin ones that i couldn’t help but save

THE OTOYA IDEA HAS ME CACKLING especially if i do like a split perspective thing with it?? omg i’m just envision a line like “you had a crush on eita otoya, which meant you had to go to the one man on campus even worse than him: oliver aiku” and it’s all dramatic for the reader meanwhile aiku thinks it’s SOO funny that someone like her likes OTOYA (and conversely karasu and yukimiya think otoya is trying to be a gentleman to manipulate the reader better so they’re like “fuck no we’re not helping” but then they realize he’s serious so they lock in and do their best to help him)

barou…barou…barou…i think my 50 reblogs of my own post sum up my thoughts atm very well 😭 omg wait is BAROU my third rewatch man 🤔⁉️ that’s crazy if so but lowkey no complaints 🤤 the best part abt liking nagi and barou is i KNOW they’re not going anywhere for a while because they’re two of isagi’s main rivals + episode nagi is literally right there 🤩 so lots and lots of content coming for them (although lowkey epinagi artist does barou dirty at some points i fear…rn their hard work is going solely into nagi and karasu though so i get it)

#answered asks

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devilsrecreation · 4 months ago

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So while looking for more Outlander content, I stumbled upon an old artist whose work I used to look at way back when I first join the fandom

AND OMG I KINDA FORGOT THEY EXISTED BUT THIS PERSON HAS THE CUTEST FANFICS AND SONGFICS EVER

This one’s one of my favorites cuz it parodies both two of my hyperfixations: Lion Guard and anything muppets related

Also since Rafiki is the healer I’m pretty sure he’s the veterinarian and I refuse to believe otherwise. The thought of him just vibing during the song is so funny and in-character for him dhhdhdgrhe

Tbh this is making me think of an Outlands version where the Outlanders are sick/injured and Madoa and Sumu have to treat them all

They got other stories too: They made a parody of the south park intro with the Outlands, a story where Bunga exposes Janja’s embarrassing secret (inspired by a Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends episode), Janja’s “funeral”, Bunga helping Ushari win a talent show after he loses his voice, and my favorite from way back when—a fic where Janja, Chungu, and Cheezi babysit Wema and Tunu called “Adventures in Cub-sitting”

#honestly considered cub sitting canon until rescue in the outlands #dammit janja/lh #no fr this artist is such a blast from the past!#the lion guard

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rrxnjun · 2 years ago

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stress is deff a bitch but i feel like me and stress are the same now so🤡🤡

it's the 20th of august🤭 nooo that's a bit sad that u couldn't add urs but ur still a king for adding three birthdays in there🫡

WELL I HOPE THAT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN!!🤣 whaaattt that's such a long time oh my but the fact that u still had it is jaw dropping tbh

i don't understand why middle aged women have to be so rude sometimes☹️ wait i completely forgot that accents exist oh my god now thats even worse🥲 YEYY U SHOULD ARANGE ONE IN OCTOBER AS WELL COME TO THE 5SOS SHOW WITH ME/j (i'm heartbroken i have no one to go with so i probably can't attend) (i hope this doesn't break ur heart more cuz i saw ur posts about them sorry if it does☹️☹️hope i didn't cross a line with this joke☹️)

NOT TELLING ANYONE🫢 i look up to u for that cuz i'm still pretty much unable to do i suck💔 SO TRUE THE BEST DESCRIPTION I HEARD OF THEM JUST SOME GUYS!! i was so sad when yedam and mashiho left and i understand the soft spot he is such a lovely guy🥹 being a treasure stan is fun and a heartbreak but glad u admit now that ur a teume 🥲😌 ofc ofc we are sharing😵‍💫 HE IS SUCH A MENACE AND ITS SO FUNNY tbh he was the reason why i came back to tumblr cuz i wanted to see more content and things about him then i ran into the same problem as u that there are not that many writers in the fandom here tbh (or i just can't find them)💔 (sooo if u end up writing something for jihoon i will be waiting🫣)

IT SHOULDNT BREAK UR HEART IM SORRY IT WAS A CRY IN A POSITIVE WAY!!! i think it just means u portray emotions well (?) cuz every time there is a good sad scene in movies or books i just have to fight the tears back even when i was in a good mood before💔 AND THANK U FOR BEING AN AMAZING WRITER AND JUST BEING LOVELY AND READING MY LONG ASS REPLIES LMAO U ARE JUST TOO NICE OF A PERSON💖💕💝 (liebestraum anon💕)

omg 20th august is such a good bday to have im noting it down!!! 😌😌

IT IS the fic was originally supposed to be a part of collab but the writer deactivated and cancelled it but when i asked if i can keep the idea they were ok with it!! so yeah hopefully one day 💓

LOOK lets go to the concert together 😭😭 im like,, half serious and half joking ��😭😭 i keep telling my mum about it and like the bus tickets to budapest are only 7€ and then i can find a cheap hotel and shit and i have money saved for the tickets 😭😭😭 like. budapest is objectively the closest stop to me ((even tho im still salty there is no vienna then i would go for sure) and i wanted to visit anyway 😌 but my mum doesnt wanna go w me and my dad doesnt either and i have no friends that would wanna go w me either and i am not allowed to go alone so. theres that 😭😭 i dont think ill get to go tbh im still kinda heartbroken but oh well its not the first time :// if i didnt live in such a shitty ass place this would all be easier 😭

girl i think its a miracle tbh but i got the names down. thanking my hyperfixation tendencies 💓💓💓 when i saw it i was so shocked tbh and now i keep getting sad mashidam edits on my tiktok fp and living through the pain LMAO. GIRL my crush on jihoon is getting out of control like genuinely what the fuck is happening to me- WHY IS TEUMEBLR SO DRY THO WHERE ARE THE FICS ??? i found like 3 fics and the rest are like 2 years old headcanon posts its such a struggle 😭😭 do i really have to do everything myself on this site.... (dont feed my delusions but give it a few months and if i dont fall out of them i can see myself creating a seperate treasure blog.....got a jihoon drabble idea the other day but. i will contain myself. so far he's the new main side character of the mark fic im writing 🥴)

awh you are too sweet 😭😭😭😭 thank u so so much !!!! this means the whole world to me 💓 once again was happy to hear from u, hope youre doing well ily xx

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

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hiii i'm back hehehe glad it made your day cuz you deserve it since you made my day too!! 🥰

my next goals are 1) a happy fic and 2) a short fic. this made me tear up, i’m so happy you can see how much i love writing and i hope the same.

OH NOOO i forgot to write this when i wrote so long previously but hldbdldjd I REALLY ENJOYED LONG FIC SO YEAA I'M ALWAYS EXCITED WHEN I SEE WC MORE THAN 10K, pleaseee i live for it!!! but yeaa its your goals who am i to stop you, just wanna say the wc doesnt actually bother me as a reader cuz i love it. and for the emotions i dont really mind cuz i love a good fic with a lot of emotions! So as long as youre happy and satisfied with your writing thats the best a reader like me could get 🧡

it’s not a want it’s a NEED at this point (also it got nothing to do with the story but lately he’s feeding my delusion a bit too much so yeah). i might’ve written the man of my dreams in this fic… just maybe. no but it’s true that we don’t know him truly but it’s already a blessing to living at the same time. i think i came up with a good compromise between real him and obviously made up character, idk how to explain but the mix between the hopeless romantic – or loser (affectionative) – and the tease is just so haechan.

YES YES OMG I GOT IT AND I'M ALSO GLAD YOU GOT WHAT I MEAN like yesss we didnt know him much cuz lets admit it even how much we think we know a little bit of donghyuck by how the media show him, still we couldnt see it as whole and you really wrote a mix of haechan + hyuck characteristics so well. HE IS FEEDING US WITH THE DELUSIONAL WITH THE AMOUNT OF IGLIVE HE DID AND HIS BUBBLE SELCA CUZ YESS HE BE SENDING DIFFERENT VIBE OF SELCA ON IG AND BUBBLE AND IDK IF I LOVE HIM OR HATE HIM FOR THAT BUT YES WHATEVER AS LONG AS ITS LEE HAECHAN (we are down bad atp) and i could say that ever since i stan him, it's a little hard for me to read other members' fics cuz yes i could picture the scenes on my mind but i couldnt really get the feels and its probably because i didnt really catch up with others characteristics as well (or maybe cuz it's clear who do we picture the ml is)

i was unsure about her backstory for so long, because initially she wasn’t supposed to have one (not this heavy at least) but then it came to me out of nowhere and i felt it was more fitting of a reasoning for the way she behaved (especially her obsession with rules) than some tough break-ups.

tbh, I cried when its near the time fl said about her trauma cuz yea i lost someone i love too before so i definitely understand why she's doing that and i appreciate that you really think a lot into it and settle down with this because yes its more natural and convincing for her behaviour to be like that and since you've decided to how to do with haechan's. love your brain and ideas 🥺🥺

i literally wrote about a man that will never exist in real life, how do i bring him to life??

honestly there's no way for it and WE CRY TOGETHER. Like yea maybe there is, but they're probably other people soulmates naurrrr this sounds so depressing but yea not that im someone who want a real love irl too 😭😭 (nah tbh im still clueless of myself, idk if it's just me being so into haechan that i could never see other men or notㅡ but i used to have a crush few months back and i decided to confess to him so that i can move on so i think i really have issue on this but yea lets move on)

it’s a mix of mark barely being with his head on earth (they way he always tries to set mc up with anybody every time they go out when she’s sulking because she wants Haechan sends me) and mc and haechan being good at keeping it a secret (always in a corner, touches under the table, going to a place they know none of their friends will ever go)

yeaaa thats what i have on my mind too, idk for some reasons Mark really nailed this kind of characters cuz yess i could see him as the damn good looking attractive man but thw cute side of him is just hldbffjflf he is cute being clueless like that and can be frustrating too. just wanna confirm it so i can maybe sleep well after knowing how it really goes and thanks too for reassuring me that the fl and haechan really get the happy ending even after the story ends hldhfldjdld (that actually reminds me of how i always wonder of one of my questions in mind about if the characters in the story really end like you know they really disappear from the 'world' right after we reach the ending/last page of the book. the same thing as the 'and they live happily ever after' like do they still living after the story until they die or what. okay enoughㅡ)

i guess the long one? did you want haechan and the mc to get back together but at the same time you wanted to slap him for what he did?

that should be me i think HAHAHA my memory sometimes betrayed me but i do note that i have this one thing being so into detail writing til i wrote such a long essay 😆😆 yeaaa i really feel i need to give you the feedback altho i was late and taking this as the chance i could finally write to you last time.

i know it’s all fictional and those characters don’t exist but i wouldn’t have made it end that way if i didn’t know he could be a better man and keep on growing up, so you can sleep at night knowing they’re all happy.

I live to dream about fictional character to keep going. I feel like I could only love fictional character so thank you very much for writing this kind of stories, i mean you know not all characters need to be perfectly perfect from the start til the end (ALTHO HITS DIFFERENT IS!!! AND WE CHEER FOR IT) but some stories of course need characters where they are growing to be the better of themselves cuz we human is supposed to do that too.

last year i had a really bad burn out and i still have no idea how i managed to write the stories i had planned back then (and in fact i didn’t write two of one series) so i decided to don’t start anything because then i get mad at me.like i use writing as escapism and when i start a story and can’t give it an ending it reflects on me more than it should, so i’ve promised myself to don’t put too much on the plate.

awhh let me give you a hug!! 🥺🥺 nevertheless you still did well and you did thought of writing it, so the thought is what matter and we discuss it here too and i get what you really wanna write but you know sometimes even if we want to write it that way but if we feel it wont turn out like we wanted, might as well just write it short and keep it like that for the better. Cuz i do love it when writer wrote details for filler but if the filler doesnt bring the reader to somewhere it'll make it boring too. Saying this from writer side of me tho now i put a pause and resort to just being a reader for the time being. (i kinda slow-down since 2020 due personal reason and i feel like i need to do something else, tho i do hope i gain my love back for writing like i used to. maybe its a good things too like i just read now and see how writer structure their ideas and plots so yea 😊)

i’m also happy you understood the characters development because some comments drove me insane and made me doubt everything. i simply thing this ending was a clear cut, you either liked jeno or haechan and it’s obviously if she didn’t end up with who you were rooting for, you would’ve ended up disappointed. but to me this story was so much more than #teamjeno or #teamhaechan so i’m happy with my characters anyway (even tho sour!haechan you will never be like hits different!haechan)

I'm always in for a developing character in a story mostly because i'm also learning how to write again too so thanks to you too!! and yess i do read some of the feedbacks and just sigh, tho of course we know not all readers has the same preferences and all, they can be disappointed or happy, we could never know it. and as a someone who is happy with the ending, all i can say maybe if they give extra and careful look at some small details or think from other perspectives they could get what the story you tried to write. I mean of course we can't force everyone to love all of our stories, but yeaa dont worry i get what you mean and that series is really good altho yes sour!haechan could never be hitsdifferent!haechan!!

no don’t feel bad at all, i’m the chilliest person and i just love discussing about my stories but i don’t get mad when it takes more time to reply, i’m a late replier too so i can’t get mad at others.

going to expose my sign/mbti side again (before i stop my reply here for now) but yes as an infj (and pisces moon) i couldn't help feeling that way like i know you're chill with it and im someone who usually reply late to others type too, i know it's just me who think that way but yea i can't help what other people think of my action. and i feel the need to shower you with so much appreciation and love so yes i just did that hehe 💗💗💗💗 and i love you back!!! 🌻🌻

hiii! no yeah i got what you meant dw. I love writing a lot but sometimes it would be good for me to keep it shorter (around 20k it’s perfect) but I’m glad a lot of you read my things even when they are so long, it means the world to me

His selfies lately are a menace I HATE HIM HE KNOWS WHAT HE’S DOING unfortunately I’m down bad for other members too so I can read other fics (not that rn I have a lot of time to do that tbh) but yeah, he *pun coming* hits different.

sometimes I feel like I put too much but building a lot around characters also helps me writing more easily, if I can vividly see the characters I can write them better.

my faith in men is honestly under ground so my hopes of finding a decent man are super low but I’ve got women so I’m fine (I say when my last two women crushes broke my heart)

mark’s cluelessly is my favorite part about him. I do the same, it sadden me so much to know I will never read about characters ever again, like all I have about them is what’s written in their stories and then ??? what comes after??? What will they do??? It happens with ff, books, movies, I wish some stories would never end

I mean you’re talking to someone that’s not able to keep anything short so I can’t tell you anything about the long comments hahah also I love these types of long feedback so they’re fine by me

No exactly like it’s fiction, nothing of this exists and I think people should be allowed to love CHARACTERS (made up, not real, ink on paper) even if they’re problematic or not perfect in every single way. Also extremely perfect characters are boring so… give me characters with flaws and depths and growth

no yeah absolutely, with the jeno part I would have something to say for sure because there are some dynamics to explore but idk I’ll see if I ever feel like it. Also I agree because sometimes I get asked for sequels but there’s really nothing to say so I’m glad people would like to read more but I don’t think they get (if they never wrote) that plot and dynamics don’t come out of nowhere, also not everything needs a sequel. reading always helps to write so I really hope it brings your passion back, even if you have to take small steps, if it made you feel good I hope you can start again.

THIS!!! and exactly not everyone can have the same preferences and that’s normal I only was sad for a few feedbacks because I genuinely couldn’t get their point (and it was about the fl not even about jeno or haechan) but at the end of the day I don’t go crazy over any of this, I’m here to talk about anything, positive and negative as long as people are polite, so if anyone wants to say why they didn’t like something I can offer my point of view as the writer, then I’m not a professional and I don’t get paid for this and I think people here tend to forget this too often (but not only for me, for every writer on this site) we don’t owe reader anything and even if I want to write something problematic all you have to do is skip it.

INFX GANG LET’S GO I’m infp and pisces sun and I don’t usually like stereotypes but I perfectly fit into these lol. No I worry too much about what people think of my actions too but I also want people to know I’ll never judge them for anything, especially something so silly as a late reply. Thank you again for this talk, love you!!! 🌻

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baekhvuns · 2 years ago

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Yeah I hate when they wanna bag the rising stars only to not give them any time on the field, because it's too crowded. That's why I often don't understand why players would rather be on the bench in a big club than be a star of a semi-big club. Money or prestige I guess? (Fabregas going from Arsenal's captain to some guy in Barca....) Yep RM is guilty of this as well.

I'm forever a striker <3 you? What's your number and position in The Blues? Varane what??? Wait, you scared me, thought he was retiring in general. Not surprising considering the drama in France

I forgot to mention the Gr**nw**d shit in my previous message, but I'm infuriated. I'm glad many fans don't support him, but fucking hell, him and M*nd* should play in Prison League together

God I would probably have to block everyone going to the concerts, nothing personal just my pettiness (actually no, some things are personal)

Aw, I know people are looking forward to the Yunho fic, but if you really can't do it then don't pressure yourself. Question, why did you decide to write for Yunho, was it a temporary moment? My god, poor Hannah went through a lot, hopefully her wig was in tact 😭 Bratz girls were serving, yesss. Wait did you play the My Scene games?

You're young miss Baeksy, so I won't hold it against you, but Skins was a rollercoaster, very Br'i'sh too. I remember It's a Boy Girl Thing, I actually watched it in 2020 again, kinda creepy at times tbh, but I liked the chemistry

Wdym Tasir doesn't exist, his real, but in a different world 😭😅 yep, the amount of times I tried to defeat Barca and avenge Real, unhinged lmao

Ohhhh alright I'm gonna play the Imagine Dragons song since you interested me with the villain thing

Guess the religious Moas missed the horn title otherwise they would be rising their pitchforks since their debut

Hwa said he doesn't use hand cream, but his hands are naturally soft 🤧

Cuteeee omg Atinys and Stays when, they used to be married. But this 😭

Vivi and Hyunjin filled the lawsuit now and wtf is Universal JP doing I'm not sure it's a good thing, just leave them alone!!! But also I hope they find a way to come back

Chris Lee and his fucking uncle need to be buried, omg I hate this I don't even care about NCT that much, but this is fucked up. So I understand why Lookass was chosen for SuperM, but I don't understand the hype behind him anyway, he's okay looking but there are hotter people in NCT or WayV, ok he did variety, I liked him on Keep Running with Yuqi, but he wasn't THAT funny. Yangyang is funnier, a better dancer and rapper, prettier and speaks English, but people drool over Lookas? Jail.

Have you seen the clips from Boys Planet, ifk whether I should laugh or cry, they're setting them up. And Hui... they're trying to bait us, tell me this is a bait. Also damn boy, you're good you don't need a mediocre show to prove your skills :(

I'm sorry whats abshhshahshus, but the last photo? Gorjuuuuus. OK but him coming on Universe basically every day since he found out it'll be closing <3

MAN JUST KEPT GOING (we were on a date btw) and we got the wedding fit selfie 😳

Hate volleyball but perhaps I'd watch it

Baek freeeeedom soon!!! - DV 💖

hello!!!

yeaaah their career almost becomes non-existent and u only see them on the bench and damn that be hurting but i guess u get paid 😭😭😭 yEAAAAH THAT PART YEAH coutinho being sold for free at barca after their debt when they bought him for the 200$ mill neymar left them was so stupid 😭😭 ancelotti’s actually mad 😭😭

I'm forever a striker <3 you? What's your number and position in The Blues? Varane what??? Wait, you scared me, thought he was retiring in general. Not surprising considering the drama in France //// I forgot to mention the Gr**nw**d shit in my previous message, but I'm infuriated. I'm glad many fans don't support him, but fucking hell, him and M*nd* should play in Prison League together

claiming the attack midfeilder 🤲🏻 PROBABLY A 7 OR 17 ACTUALLY you?? he’s still at that club 😭😭 it’ll be interesting to see france at the next wc w not greizmann varane benz maybe even giroud,,, yeahh i thought the ffc was dramatic but french media is nasty as hell,, YEAH LIKE HOW IS HE OUT FREE?? the entire case of his was maddening he‘a def never play football again if that ratchet club makes him even BENCH, boycotting,, a MAJOR loss for prison fc

also this 😭😭😭 the red card was so unnecessary for casemiro

I have a long list of vegan places, look skdhahsuwhahhss. But what's funny is, I'm the most excited to visit this little food place again. The food is typical street food, only a few menu items, it's cheap, but so so good! //// God I would probably have to block everyone going to the concerts, nothing personal just my pettiness (actually no, some things are personal)

omg STOP THE FOOD LOOKS SO GOOD 😭😭😭 ANON U CANNOT BE SENDING THIS LINK AND I SEE IT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT 😭😭😭 i hope u get to go to lots of cafe’s too i bet they’ve stepped their games up even more, the aesthetic ones are a MUST,,, tour’s starting in a week 😭😭😭 the london fansign the new lore drop

i think i did bc i kept getting messages about ppl wanting me to do another member, id get a lot of them to the point i stopped posting most of them and i thought maybe i could just do it and get over w it! since i had been writing for about a 1 year only for psh AND I WAS VACATIONING AND EVERYTHING I SAW AND EXPERIENCED i was jotting notes down and telling myself this is yunho when it was actually the other guy i guess 😭😭😭

her wig,,, i,, cut it off a little, used highlighters on it 😭😭😭😭

ANONN I CANNOT THANK U ENOUGH FOR THIS I AM GENUINELY SCREAMING BECAUSE U UNLOCKED THE MY SCENE GAME ERA OF MIKE O H MY GOF I HAD BEEN LOOKING FOR THE NAME OF THIS GAME I PLAYED FOR A DECADE NOW WHAT THE FUCK😭😭😭 BFQMBDKW IM GONNA GO PLAY ACTUALLY I DO RMR AND I

<3 yes miss boomer <3 very bri’ish, oh the drama must be spitted in the posh accent, wait anon question i can’t believe i haven’t asked this, do u have the bri’ish accent and if so of what area 😭😭 the boy girl thing the characters were great a little flat a lot of the times,, so not watch the ryan reynolds movie. i made the terrible mistake of watching it.

Wdym Tasir doesn't exist, his real, but in a different world 😭😅 yep, the amount of times I tried to defeat Barca and avenge Real, unhinged lmao //// Ohhhh alright I'm gonna play the Imagine Dragons song since you interested me with the villain thing

okAY tasir or this guy 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️

LMFAOOO DID U WIN FBWNFBDNJCJC yes pls do!! the scenario is quite obvious hwa finds out what a liar yn is but it’s too late to fix things and now he keeps looking at yn but yn will not look at him <3 this hwa in it if u get the chance! u should listen to MDP’s fake love orchestral version is is magnificent and will make u image it better!

Guess the religious Moas missed the horn title otherwise they would be rising their pitchforks since their debut //// Hwa said he doesn't use hand cream, but his hands are naturally soft 🤧 //// Cuteeee omg Atinys and Stays when, they used to be married. But this 😭

NO SERIOUSLY 😭😭😭 i want whatever the guy naming their songs is on <3 bro doesn’t use hand creams??? drop THE SOAP. STOPPP DO U REMEMBER THE FANFICS WRITTEN ON EXOL AND ARMYS 😭😭 i bet there’s some stays v atinys etl’s flying around

Vivi and Hyunjin filled the lawsuit now and wtf is Universal JP doing I'm not sure it's a good thing, just leave them alone!!! But also I hope they find a way to come back

if the company takes their name away, i want them to comeback as LUUNA or LUNA,, the jpn thing is probably gonna be terrible actually ,,, like they’ll drop a emotional song perhaps and then go on a “break” it’s so frustrating as an outsider but they all must be in a rush to end things and find agencies I KNOW SM CAN SIGN THEM BUT I DONT WANT THEM THERE 😭😭😭

no seriously, the amount of damage they’ve done to sm and it’s artists is ridiculous,, no bc a whole taeyong exists,, no need for lookass 😭😭 yangyang EASILY takes over his position and lookass doesn’t even get that many lines so why even??? nOW HE WAS FUNNY AT THE VARIETY he suits that genre a lot and might as well be part of that more than the group,,, ur right wayv by itself are perfectly fine,, their vocals are good w/o his and same for superm bc he got that one line in jopping and said it’s done,, other’s can easily cover him up 😭😭😭 chris lee it’s in sight

LMFAOOOO STOP FHWKHDSKDHKW ITS SO FUNNY GBWKFHWK i hope they do better tho bc the internet’s violating 😭😭😭

BUT pls support seok matthew <3 he is from where im from <3 surprised he’s alive bc of his high school choice but he’s a good friend of my mutual he’s like the only good one fbendbjc hui NEEDS to get out of there, he can easily start a youtube channel and show his life there and or drop covers WHY DO THEY KEEP SENDING HIM THERE 😭😭😭 HE HAS DEBUTED 5 TIMES PLS

I'm sorry whats abshhshahshus, but the last photo? Gorjuuuuus. OK but him coming on Universe basically every day since he found out it'll be closing <3

 he is SO PRETTY 😭😭😭 that hair on him,, it’s giving the same vibes as the heart hair photos he posted….. anon.

what is this. what in the wattpad mafia.

crazy is me, me is crazy.

mental

MAN JUST KEPT GOING (we were on a date btw) and we got the wedding fit selfie 😳 /// Hate volleyball but perhaps I'd watch it /// Baek freeeeedom soon!!! - DV 💖

HE BETTER STOP OR I WILL ASK HIM FOR HIS HAND,,, the wedding fit selfie, anon please. don’t do this, i had a lil delulu pls. <3.

BAEKHYUN FREEDOM, HE IS FREED HE IS DONE WITH THAT AND NOW WE WAIT FOR TAEMIN l

san, otter, sotter

HE IS SO PRETTY GORGEOUS UNBELIEVABLE STUNNING SHOWSTOPPER INCREDIBLE FASCINATING

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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queenangst · 4 years ago

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bittersweet!! specifically, the last scene with katsuki and deku (i didn't actually realize you wrote this until i looked through your ao3 and found it SAKAJDSLKA it's one of my absolute favourites)

oh interesting!!!! tbh i feel like i haven’t thought about this fic in a while, so it will be nice to revisit.

bewarned: the following commentary is me laughing at bakugou the entire time.

But there was someone in the dorms when they returned. Kacchan glared as they walked in.

Right away, this indicates and implies that Bakugou missed class (and was allowed to) for the specific reason of seeing Izuku when he came back. Bakugou is an actions person, not a words person, so... this tells you he really was concerned about Izuku.

"Took you long enough." He frowned at Izuku. "Taking the excuse to sleep for a billion hours, huh? Or to miss the test?"

"The test," Izuku said, horrified, as Kacchan strolled over. "I have to-"

"You'll make it up. Stop thinking so much." Aizawa-sensei made for the door, sighing.

HAHA, I love this part. Obviously, Kacchan can’t let anyone know what he’s actually thinking, so he makes fun of Izuku and pushes his buttons. And he absolutely cannot say anything when Aizawa is here. So he just gets mad instead.

Aizawa is done with this.

"Here," Kacchan said. He shoved something at Izuku. A box. A nice one.

He forgot about the test. Forgot about everything as Izuku peeled back the wrapping paper and opened the box and saw- chocolate. No note, though, but inside the box was a crude drawing of Izuku with X's over his eyes.

I just thought about what a box of chocolates from Bakugou would look like. Nice, but it can’t be too nice, so he takes the time to draw Izuku with X’s over his eyes just to show that he does not like Izuku. No. Nope.

"It's you." Then Kacchan turned red. "And that's for you, but don't go telling anyone I gave you anything."

Kacchan had gotten- Kacchan had made—

Bakugou cannot hide it. He’s SO embarrassed.

“You- you like me? Like, like? Like? Me?”

“Of course I don’t like you, you stupid idiot.” Kacchan folded his arms over his chest. He raised his voice like he had to make sure everyone in the vicinity could hear him. Even though the only one there was Aizawa-sensei, who looked like he'd rather be anywhere else. “I don’t like you at all. We're not 'just friends' because we're not even friends in the first place. Got it?”

Bakugou constantly has something to prove, and in this case, it’s the mortification that he’s done something for his rival, who is not his friend. And the chocolates are meant to be a platonic gift, not a romantic one, so I made sure to specify that in this scene... and over-specify that Bakugou doesn’t like Izuku. In any way. Not just friends, because not friends. LMAO BAKUGOU.

“But-” Izuku glanced down at the box of chocolates. “This is still… Kacchan, this is really nice. You— made this? All of it?”

Kacchan. And Kacchan had saved him, Kacchan had been the one to see him. Izuku wiped at his eyes.

Izuku knows. Of course he knows. Even when Bakugou isn’t saying it... he understands the fact that Bakugou took the time to make a box of chocolates. And more than the chocolates—to come for Izuku, and save him. And that means a lot. (So he’s crying).

“Well.” Kacchan huffed. “Like I said. If I liked you, which I don’t, I’d do a much better job than some shitty villain, okay? I can wrap presents like nobody’s business. And chocolate’s not that hard to make when you have the internet. You need better standards.”

Cover the evidence. Cover the evidence. It’s not that hard to make chocolate it’s not- no...

Izuku unwrapped the chocolate. Then he split a piece in half and held it out. Kacchan looked at it for a moment, then at Izuku, and took it.

“Thank you, Kacchan,” he said softly, hoping Kacchan would understand what he was trying to say.

Okay, it’s such a little line, but it’s important. Let’s break it down... Bakugou makes Izuku chocolate. Izuku takes the gift, then splits it, offers a piece to Bakugou, and Bakugou takes it.

It’s a tiny symbol of their friendship and current dynamic. Izuku offers, and for one of the first times Bakugou accepts something that Izuku is giving him. Chocolate, but... friendship.

“Yeah, yeah.” Kacchan almost smiled. “Just eat your fucking chocolate.”

You know that smile Bakugou does when he thinks no one is looking and he’s pleased?

Kacchan hadn’t put enough sugar. The chocolate was a bit too bitter, but Izuku wasn’t complaining. He liked dark chocolate. And Kacchan had known that.

This is also really important. Earlier in the fic, I mentioned Izuku’s like of dark chocolate. And despite everything, Bakugou making dark chocolate is a sign that he knows Izuku, even while he’ll deny it. And that he listens, and pays attention, to what Izuku likes.

But the reason this really hits is because prior to this scene is:

He paused, then admitted, "I don't know what- what I did… to deserve it… it was like, she- Toga liked me, but I don't… I don't understand. Why it has to be me. Why she has to like me."

It came flooding out of him. "She sent me chocolates. I thought it was just. I shouldn't have trusted them, but I didn't know, and I. And I felt really sick and I couldn't move the way I wanted to and she- and she- and I didn't want to, but there wasn't anything I could do. And I don't understand. I don't understand."

Izuku feels used. He doesn’t understand. And Aizawa lists things he’s noticed about Izuku and tells him:

"She doesn't know those things," he told Izuku. He reached out and tapped the side of Izuku's head with a finger, and it was more comforting than anything Toga had done. "People who love you, people who care about you… they would know."

Bakugou knows.

Bonus: in fourth grade, my gifted-kids class made chocolate. I didn’t put enough sugar in my batch, so it ended up being pretty bitter. This is a nod to my own experience, and something I think Bakugou might do, haha!

"Happy Valentine's Day," Izuku offered.

"It's not Valentine's Day and you can fuck off," Kacchan said. But he bumped Izuku's shoulder, and he ate the too-bitter chocolate, and Izuku thought that wasn't bad at all for someone who didn't like him.

Bakugou refutes everything Izuku says. But in the end... he initiates contact (bumps Izuku’s shoulder), eats the chocolate (friendship), and well, his actions mean more than anything he really says out loud.

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