#okay so there is a slight order not in preference tho

[studiogrimm810]

Work Out

pairings/characters: dean winchester x afab!you

summary: after a hunt proves you cant handle yourself in a fight to deans standard, he takes you the bunkers gym to get you some proper training

warnings: a joke about domestic violence, hand-to-hand combat, spicy scenarios ;)

word count: 3,625

A/N: this was a request!! @aryaharmon ilysm and i love seeing your requests tehe ^.^,, i may or may not have gone a bit too spicy w this one tho…

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Dean storms down the stairs in the bunker with purposeful footsteps and a slight huff. As he lands on the tile of the war room, he slings his jacket on the back of one of the chairs and heads straight to the kitchen. You roll your eyes slightly at his attitude and plant yourself in one of the free chairs, bringing a hand up to rest your forehead in.

He returns with two beers in hand and slams yours down beside you, popping his open and taking a gulp like it’s fresh air.

“Dean-,” you start but Dean unlatches his lips from the bottle and hisses back any stray drops.

“No,” it’s followed by a small gulp and a hand wiped over his lips. “You got your ass handed to you. You suck at one-on-one and you need proper training,” he scolds, looking down at you from his standing position. You meet his gaze without moving your head up much and simply glaring through your brows.

“Okay, dick,” you scoff, removing your hand from your forehead and grabbing your beer. You line it up with the edge of the table and snap off the cap. Sam would get on you about that if he were here- thank god he wasn’t.

“Call me whatever names you will, I’m right. And once your face doesn’t look like you made your husband’s dinner wrong in the 50s then it’s you and me in the gym downstairs until you learn to defend yourself right,” he declares, taking a calming swig of his beer that doesn’t show a residual effect of such. You flinch at his poor choice of comparison in the form of a really shitty joke and you stare at him knowingly until he caves. “Bad joke, sorry,” he mumbles, slumping in the chair across from you. “I just can't keep worrying about you on hunts like this. You look like shit.”

“Flattering,” you squint with your lips ticked up in a weak excuse for a display of amusement. He only stares down at his beer. There's a pitiful softness in his eyes- melting like crying emeralds but stuck behind the glass casing of his eyes. You know he blames himself for your lack of combat skill and you don't want him to. You want to fix the ache he's feeling everytime he takes a look at your blackened eye and busted lip, but the only way you can ease that pit of dread in his stomach is to agree and follow his orders.

As much as you hate shutting up and listening, this time you agree to stuff away your stubborn attitude and sarcastic remarks and nod with a simple ‘okay’.

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The chilly air of the bunker nibbles at your exposed skin as you navigate through the halls and down to the gym that you've only glanced in once or twice. Usually, you prefer training in the form of simple eating and morning runs with Sam, so all you had to wear for your sparring session with Dean was a sports bra in a flattering color against your chilled skin and cropped leggings. Tighter clothes always helped you let loose and enjoy your morning runs but you wondered how practical they may or may not be for the next couple hours of your life.

As you round the corner and dip into the doorway to the gym, you spot Dean across the room with a simple pair of sweats and an old t-shirt of his that's form-fitting and damn flattering. He’s rustling through a locker and pulls out some fist tape and a few towels but he drops one of the towels. As he reaches down to pick it up, his shirt- as tight as it is- rides up and you spot two sweet dimples decorating his lower back. Your mouth goes instantly dry at the sight and you mindlessly take down your hair to fix it right back up again to act like you didn't just have a jaw-drop moment as you eyed Dean like a piece of meat.

A deep breath makes its way into your lungs as you set down a water bottle you snatched from the kitchen on one of the benches by the lockers. Dean looks over his shoulder as he notices your presence.

“Hey, you feelin’ okay?” He turns to face you while he wraps some tape around his flexing fist.

“As good as ever,” you shrug, watching his hands move around themselves. The tape hugs his hands like the sleeves of his shrunken shirt do his biceps. You wet your lips to cover the smile creeping across them.

“You sure you’re up for this today? We can always push it off a couple more days,” he says, eyes not meeting yours yet but instead staring down your puffy red lip that just won't seem to heal.

“C’mon, I’m sick of delaying me kicking your ass,” you cross your arms and tilt your head at him with a mix of feigned concern and mockery. He rolls his eyes and reaches for an item in the locker- a knife.

“Yeah, you keep up that confidence,” he deadpans sarcastically, sawing off an end to the tape and tucking the stray piece into a slip in his palm. “Gimme,” he murmurs, reaching out for your hand and you obey thoughtlessly.

“What does this do?” You ask, watching his hands maneuver around yours with significant differences of how he had done his own. His hands wound slower around yours and he uses his free hand to run along the slack as it lay against your palm.

He’s gentle.

“It’s like a cushion. Gives some extra ‘umph’ to absorb the punch, and it holds everything together so less chance of damage or whatever. I don’t know, Sam knows the sciency reasons,” Dean shrugs, retrieving the knife again and snipping the end a few more inches away from your hand than he had done on his own.

And so sweet.

“Okay, ya’ ready?” He asks, looking up at you from his dropped head as he rewraps the roll of tape back onto itself.

“As I’ll ever be,” you shrug, following him out to the main mat after he settles the loose items back into his locker.

“First things first- stretching,” he grumbles with an attitude so dull you could miss it if you weren’t watching his every move. “Practically, you couldn’t take a time-out to warm-up for a fist fight but we can today so we will,” he widens his stance and lifts his arms. The look of embarrassment plagued his face. “Sammy insisted we start with this,” he blames sheepishly.

Dean positions both arms as if he's pretending to ride a motorcycle and pulls them back.

“We’re trying to squeeze between our shoulder blades and pump out,” he explains as he mimics the motion a few times. You follow. “The idea is to loosen up your muscles so that when you throw a punch, you don’t pull anything,” he defends lightly, mimicking a slow motion punch as he speaks with alternating hands.

“You also wanna make sure you have a good range of motion. You’re smaller than me and a bit lankier,” he teases with a smirk. “You can really use that to your advantage.” You roll your eyes at the comment but nod at the advice.

He continues to lead you through a small set of stretching your legs back and also instructs you to roll your head to work out your neck. The warm-up is quick and just enough to feel that slight rush of blood under your skin.

“Now, I’m gonna come at you in a few different ways at first. Ya’ gotta keep up and try to learn my patterns and tells. I’ll go slow but at anytime you need a break, just shout,” he directs, waiting for a verbal response before starting.

“Shout- got it,” you nod curtly, stanced a few feet away from him. He looks hesitant but it's quickly morphed into determination as he throws his first punch before you’re even ready. His fist collides with your jaw just enough to force your head to spin and he uses your ragdoll response to twist your torso and put you in a headlock.

You grunt in frustration and slap at his arms locked around your head. He lets go and you stumble a few feet before standing up straight.

“The hell? No warning?” You huff, tossing away some flyaway baby hairs from your forehead. Dean chuckles and shakes his head like you’re being irrational.

“About as good of a warning as any,” he shrugs, “besides, you always need to expect a hit in any tense scenario. Keep your guard up or else-.” He swings again and you move both hands to block it but he ducks down and snakes around the opposite side of his punch so he’s behind you again. He hooks your arms behind you and you're stuck again.

“Asshole,” you insult, trying to jerk out of his grasp. He sighs this time, stiffening his hold.

“You’re too relaxed,” Dean points out, “you need to focus.”

“Now how am I expected to not be so relaxed in the presence of such a big, strong man?” You rest your head back into his shoulder, looking up at him with wide and curious eyes. You’re positioned so that when he meets your eyes, the next thing he can see is your exposed collarbone that trails along with the flushed skin of your breasts. You don’t mean to be so on display in that sense, but your initial plan of flustering the fucker works as he immediately turns red and stutters. You take the chance to snap out of his hold and grab his wrist in a light twist. Next, you kick your leg out to hook around the back of his knee, bringing him down with an unexpected gasp that chokes him up a bit.

A smile spreads across your lips as you look down at him, on his knees, and looking right back up at you.

“What's that about focus?” You ask, twisting his writs a little tighter which earns a lip-curling hiss from him and an annoyed glare.

“You seriously expect to use flirting as a defense?” He grumbles, flicking his wrist out of your hold and climbing up to his feet again.

“Worked on you, didn't it?” You quip with a smirk, folding your arms across your chest. His gaze darts down to your tits again and you realize your arms are placed more so under your chest and almost lift them more. Deciding that's a bit much and was initially unintentional, you drop your arms and walk over to your water bottle.

“Did not,” he scoffs.

“Right,” you draw out with squinted skepticism.

“Whatever, just-. Let’s keep going,” he sighs again.

A few more failed rounds- on your end- later and you're both breathless and flushed. A gleam of sweat sparkles his forehead and his gaped mouth as he wipes it away captures a moment or two of your attention.

“You’re getting better,” Dean nods, slinging the towel over his shoulder.

“And you’re lying,” you scoff, sitting on the edge of the bench, downing a few gulps of water.

“No, really. I can tell you’re picking up on my tells. Even if you’re still getting taken down, you’re improving,” he explains genuinely. You nod along, screwing the cap back onto your water and standing straight again.

“Okay, pick it up,” you challenge, readying your stance. He raises a brow and shakes his head like he doesn’t understand. “More, give me some more. I can take it,” you nod confidently even if you’re all but.

Dean widens his eyes to himself with a small shrug but stances back up and resumes. This time, you have a different type of approach. You wonder if you could throw him off again and prove that your dashing good looks can really come in handy in a pinch. Besides, it was damn nice to have him gawk at you like that.

So, as Dean lunges at you again, you duck down and go in the direction you know he's aiming for next. He mixes it up a bit though, as now he's pinning you against one of the mirrors with your face smooshed in the glass. You can work with this, you reckon.

You make eye contact with him in the mirror, scowling up at him but as you try to squirm out of the hold, you let your body buck flush against him. Now, Dean was being quite the gentleman, you’ll give him that much, so when he pinned you or grabbed you, he never let his body match the forcefulness of his hands. As you feel the stiffness of his body radiating heat onto your back, you feel a bubble of butterflies in your stomach. It churns your insides like sweet cream fluffing up into rich foam that entices your nerves for more.

His eyes haze over slightly as you make full contact, you can see such in detail at the grace of the mirror.

As his heaved breaths pass his lips, you can feel the vapor settle over your skin. The warm breeze tingles your already flushed skin and you start to wonder how good that breath would feel in other places rather than your slick neck.

You have to remember the main focus here, so you blink a few times and use his drunken halt to your advantage. You buck back fully into his groin- aiming to avoid the more sensitive areas that you’d rather please another time- and he stumbles back. You whip around, attacking him and leading him to stumble on the floor on his back.

It isn’t meant to land this way, but you aren’t complaining as the successful takedown by you leads to your knees on either side of his hips as you straddle him, pinning his wrists in an ‘X’ formation over his chest. You smirk as he struggles to move from the small but focused pin you have on the center of his sternum.

“What now, pretty boy?” You tilt your head with a feigned look of surprise. He just stares back up at you with a dumbfounded look plastered on his face and a mouth that seems to be out of commission word-wise. “I’m telling ya,” you lean down, causing your chest to sandwich yours and his combined mess of wrists and hands between you two. “Being this hot has its advantages. I mean, what-, you took down Lucifer, right? The Horsemen? God? But under the sweet sway of my charm you're a mess on the floor,” you tease, pushing back up with an amused chuckle as you roll off of him. “Man up, geez. You’re supposed to be teaching me self-defense,” you poke lightly, taking the towel that's fallen off his shoulder in the fall and using it to dap away beads of sweat.

Dean’s heart is racing and he's thankful for the rush of red swirling just below his skin to not give way to the fluster you’ve stirred in him. He just hopes that the blood will keep swimming as it was and not focus on a certain part of him that he’s thinking with at the moment. He sits up, trying to shake off the way you rattled him like a 2-year-old soda can with a disappointing lack of fizz, and looks over just in time to see you use his towel to run over your salty skin. God, if he could just-.

“Again,” you jump to your feet, swiping back a hand to unstick the baby hairs on your neck drowning in sweat.

“Ya’ gonna actually fight me or just keep sabotaging your training?” Dean scoffs, leveling up to his feet as well and snatching back his towel from your hands.

“You’re just upset that my advantage is your lack,” you roll your eyes with a toothy smirk and a slight shake to your head that swings your ponytail and makes him wanna reach out and grab it at its base.

“Oh is that so?” He squints at you, tossing his towel aside and starting towards you. He fakes a left hook that you’re not expecting and trips you up to try and gain access to your wrists. Your reaction is delayed, but you make up for it as the slick sweat on your arms gives you a bit of an out from his latch on your arm.

With two free arms, you skip back a few paces, eyeing his fists and lips as he often snarls slightly before a dramatic hit.

As soon as his lip lifts, you duck and tackle his waist, landing him into the padded wall with a hard grunt. He somehow manages to slither his arms under your latch and break your hold, snapping his wrists to grab your own and spinning to pin them above your head so that you take his place on the wall.

“Ugh!” You huff, writhing beneath him with determination but he stares right down at you.

“You’re saying I can’t charm my way to a win?” He leans in, mere inches from your face. Exhaled breaths mix in the shared space between you and his head covers the main source of light in the room, dampening the loudness of anything but him as you lock into his eyes. He fixes both of your wrists under one hand as he brings down his now free hand to tilt up your chin, exposing a fresh stretch of neck to him. You instinctively arch your back at the motion.

He flashes a canine in a victory smirk at the reaction from you and you know you've done it now. You bite back the smile of a devious plan with a sharp tooth locking your lip in place.

Just as he wets his lips to speak again, you whip your wrists from his hold and shove him. He stumbles back, completely caught off guard.

“I’m saying I can tell that you’re faking,” you emphasize, pushing off of the mat.

“Oh, who said I was faking?” He says, reaching for your wrist to stop you from walking past him. You meet his eyes with a raised brow. You turn to face him completely, looking up at him but knowing that you have the upper hand at the way his eyes sparkle with unknown.

“I can see it in your eyes, Dean. You like getting taken down by a woman half your size,” you sound it out as if he's a 4-year-old. “You dominate a fight because you can but I know that you prefer the unexpected moves of a woman in charge. You like not knowing what's coming next and I bet you’re just itching to see what way I take you down next,” your lips twitch into a satisfied smile at the way his face melts exactly as you expected it to.

“That!” You point, “that’s your lack and that’s proof of your fake out,” you giggle with pride as he rolls his eyes but a piece of submission remains.

“You’re being ridiculous,” he shakes his head, looking away as if trying to find a way out of the conversation.

“And you’re being ignorant,” you direct his face back to you with a single finger- so malleable.

His eyes lock with yours and this time, he lets himself sink into the warm and all-encompassing pool of your venom that he swears has been transmitted through sweat.

You look between his eyes and then down at his lips, leaning in just a bit and looking back up at him. He looks so needy and so ready for the delicate press of your soft skin on his mouth decorated with a halo of stubble. You lean in a tad bit more, eyes locking onto his lips and softening your gaze as he gulps.

Just as you’re close enough to pucker and meet his lips, you hiss in sudden disappointment and pull back completely with a shake of your head.

“Can’t. My lip still stings like a bitch,” you shrug dismissively but with a playfully knowing smirk. His jaw drops slightly with pinched brows like you just kicked ihis puppy and he reaches out to hold your hands and bring you close.

“Don’t do me like that,” he shakes his head, completely giving up on masking this side you’ve coaxed out of him. You giggle and lean back in, knowing you don't have the heart to deny him like that.

His hands move with trained motion as they snake to your waist and hold your hips, lifting you up to him. You settle your hands on his shoulders and lift up with him to plant a gentle kiss to his lips.

He soft and slow- mindful of your your healing split- and he has funneled the aching need he wants to put into the kiss through his hands that grip your hips so tightly that you expect him to pin you back against that mirror and have his way with you.

But he doesn’t.

Instead, he stiffens towards the end of the kiss and rests his forehead against yours, loosening his grip on your hips.

“I can’t wait for that lip to heal,” he scoffs a light chuckle. You match his breathy laugh and drape your forearms around his neck.

“You and me both,” you lick your lips, looking right into his eyes with feigned innocence. “I’ve got some ideas that go past the physical exertion worked out in this gym.” His fingertips dig into your hips as a forced breath rubs a small, nearly indecipherable, whimper from his throat.

Pathetic.

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For an idea… Perhaps both the reader and MGT (yes I am now casually calling Heicho that) both have feeling for each other, but Green Tea tries to keep Reader away from him, to try and cut out his feelings. But after they/he have a close call on a mission he realises he can’t go without telling them how he really feels 🤭

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☾ Pairing ➼ Levi Ackerman x fem!Reader (could be gn! tho)

☾ Content/Warning ➼ canon, season 4 (raid on liberio), injured reader, mutual pining, confession, fluff, slight hurt but mainly comfort, iykyk about the ending 🫡🫢

☾ A/N ➼ Hi Koko!! Sorry this took so long, I'm slowly but surely working on these requests lol. When I got Baldur's Gate 3, I kind of just got tunnel vision and forgot that I had a job to do LMAO. But I did it!! I hope you like it, I had some fun with it. It is dialogue heavy but it turned out okay I think lol. Anyways!! Thank you for sending in a request! Have a lovely rest of your evening/day whenever you see this! <3

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The sound of your feet squishing in the thick mud is the only sound you hear outside of the rushing of blood that runs in your ears from your anger. Your goal is in sight, a lantern lit and casting shadows against canvas confirming that the one person you want to see right now is still awake. You're not just mad, you're annoyed and a little offended.

The moment you reach the tent you were so adamant to reach, you don't hesitate to pull back the flap and step in. You're met with a back turned to you as the owner leans over a table on both arms to look at something. He doesn't say anything, but you know he knows you're here.

“Levi, what the hell?” You raise a piece of paper clutched between tight fingers, crinkled from being balled up in the minutes it took you to find the captain.

“Why are you still here? Head back to Shiganshina.” Levi's voice is low. Not in a threatening way, just tired. Exhausted. Even in his white undershirt, you can see his back muscles tense as his fingers grip the edge of the desk.

“I'm not going.” You press, digging your heels into the soft floor of Levi's tent.

“Yes, you are. It's an order.”

“I'm not going back. You can't make me.”

“The hell I can't. Are you really about to fight a direct order?” Levi finally turns around to face you, arms crossed against his chest as he scowls at you. Steel gray eyes cut at you with annoyance and you're quick to shoot back daggers of stubborn defiance.

“Le-"

“No. I don't want you with us. I said you're staying here.” Levi seethes.

You huff heavily as you rip up his written request to return home, letting the pieces flutter to the ground. You turn on your heels and storm out of the tent, your hands balling into fists so tight that your nails dig into your palms with angry tears pricking in the corners of your eyes. He can order you all he wants but you were not out of options. Commander Hange’s tent was your next destination.

.

If looks could kill, Captain Levi would have murdered you ten times over. You didn't have to look his way to know that his icy glare bore holes in the back of your head as you both waited in the shadows for any sign that Eren needed backup.

“Does the back of my head look appealing to you?” You retort dryly, making sure your voice was quiet enough to not be found out but loud enough for Levi's sensitive ears to pick up.

“Hardly.” His gaze doesn't leave though, that much you know.

“I don't regret coming.”

“Tch, I'm sure you don't.”

“Are you going to be mad at me all night?” Your fingers tap nervously on the metal of your guns, the noise of it echoing down the alley you and Levi were in. Not at Levi's attitude to you, but for the fight that is already ensuing around you.

“Depends. Will you zip to a roof and away from the battle until it's time to leave?”

“No.”

“Then yes, I will be mad at you all night.”

You don't respond back to that. You really don't regret coming but Levi was sure to make every moment hell. From the silent treatment on the way to Libero to the dirty glances and tongue clicks thrown your way.

Fortunately, it seems you didn't need to wait very long as you watched the jaw titan leap off the roof and onto Eren's titan – its jaws already bearing down onto his neck. You finally glance back at Levi to get the okay and you watch something flash in his eyes before they narrow at you.

“He took too long. It's time to go.”

As you're about to fly up to the roof, you feel Levi grip your arm in tight fingers.

“Don't you dare die. If there's any order you're going to obey, follow that.” He doesn't wait for you to answer before throwing himself out into the raging battlefield.

.

You followed orders – you didn't die, though you're not sure how.

As all fights went, things happened too fast. Fellow scouts whirred around you as you tried to get from point A to point B, shooting anyone that got in your way without the scout emblem on their uniform. There were too many close calls but overall, you were doing well. Shooting was always your strong suit… but maneuvering?

You thought you were clear to zip to where Levi stood on top of the fallen beast titan's body with Zeke Jaeger in his grip. He's growling something down to the worn out Marleyan when he looks up to the noise of your ODM gear.

At first, his heavy lidded eyes glance at you impassively. But in a split second, they widen in shock as something shoves you to the side with enough force that your hooks release from the brick building you were latched onto. You're flung backwards into a pile of rubble, a plume of dust exploding on impact.

You're so disoriented that you don't feel the pain that shoots through your whole body. Your ears ring as you attempt to move but your limbs are filled with lead. It takes what feels like years for some senses to come back to you. The first thing you feel is the soreness of being thrown out of the air. The next is the sharp and agonizing pain originating from your left shoulder and radiating through your bones. Even though it's muffled, you hear your name being yelled out. Cracking an eye open, you see a shadow of a figure coming straight at you with stars dancing around them.

“Dumbass!” Levi shouts, his voice warbled from the high pitch whine in your ears. You attempt to open your eyes fully, struggling to do so. Through heavy blinks, you see gray eyes blown wide in panic.

“M'fine Levi.” Is all you're able to get out before your vision fails you and your senses cut out once again.

.

It feels as if you blinked and suddenly you're transported somewhere else. The moment your eyes open, you're met with a sheer curtain blowing in the gentle breeze coming from the open window. Sunlight filters through in soft rays. You're propped up against multiple pillows and lying in a plush bed. Everything aches.

As you blink awake, you look down at the state you're in.

Your body is wrapped in white bandages that circle around your chest multiple times then around your shoulder, covering enough that a top wasn't needed. You're so stiff that you can't move very easily even if you wanted to. You think you feel something wrapping around your head as well, which throbs in pain. But you're breathing easily and every toe and finger wiggle without issue. You take a look at your surroundings next.

You're in a room that looks very familiar to you. Not like you've been in this room specifically, but the architecture is something you know. Wooden paneled walls, dark wood floors, basic furniture. You almost miss it as your eyes scan the room, but they double take back to the disheveled man sleeping in what looks to be a very uncomfortable chair in an even more uncomfortable position.

He's slouched all the way back with an arm draped over his eyes, soft snores escaping the pouty lips that sit agape. He's back in the regular scout uniform, straps and all. His green cape wraps around him, the only other sign of life outside of the soft noises he makes is the lift of his shoulders as he breathes.

“Levi?” Your voice comes out scratchy and hoarse, dry from the lack of moisture.

Levi's arm slips off and he sits up with a start, his eyes looking around in surprise until they fall on you. As if a weight lifts off his chest, his face relaxes at the sight of you. He's quick to stand up and move to the other side of the room where you are before sitting on the edge of the bed next to you. The sudden shift in weight moves your body and you can't help the wince that contorts your face as a hiss escapes between your clenched teeth.

“No, it's okay.” You assure when Levi moves to get up. He stays. Reaching over, he grabs the lukewarm glass of water that sits on the bedside table next to you and hovers it in front of your face. You get the hint and lean back more so he can tip it back for you, the water relieving the soreness in the back of your throat.

“Were you even thinking?” He asks once you're done. His eyebrows furrow, a look of concern laced with anxiety and a hint of anger pointed in your direction. He sets the glass back down on the wood with a ‘thunk'.

“I just thought you could use the backup.”

“I was fine. You should have gone to higher ground with the others.”

“I didn't want to sit idle while your back was open.”

“You know better than to worry about me. You're lucky the other brats were there to help grab the asshole because otherwise I-.”

“Levi, did you stay just to berate me?” Annoyance seeps into your tone as you lean back to stare at the white ceiling. Tears prick the corners of your eyes. From frustration at your situation. From the way Levi was talking to you. At yourself for making Levi so upset.

“I told you to stay here. You wouldn't have been hurt if you just stayed.”

“I was not okay with the idea of watching everyone go without me. If something happened while I was here twiddling my thumbs, I would never forgive myself.”

“And if you died, I would never have forgiven myself.”

“Why do you even care? Scouts join with the threat of dying looming over our heads all the time. I know what I signed up for.” Your eyes glare daggers into Levi's face, which stays deadpan as always.

“Because I care about you, dumbass.” Levi growls, standing up abruptly with his back to you. You can tell his arms are crossed even with the cape obscuring his upper body. He starts pacing between the desk and the bed.

“Pfft yeah okay, Captain.”

“Is it so hard to believe that I'd care about my team?”

“I'm not on your team and I didn't see you fighting to make anyone else stay home.”

“You're so dense. You know that?” Levi whips around to face you and you're shocked to find a much softer expression than what his tone indicated.

“I-"

You don't get another word in as your mouth is cut off by Levi striding over to you in a few short steps and leaning down to press his lips onto yours roughly. You instantly feel his frustration, so palpable on your tongue as he kisses you deeply.

It takes a moment for you to register what's happening and when you do, you don't hold back. Even though your body screams in agony, you pull your arms up and wrap them around Levi's neck to pull him closer as you mirror back the same intensity he was giving you.

Levi pulls away and tilts his head so that his cool forehead is resting against yours. He sighs. It's as if that pent up anger and fear he had chewing on his insides were now free, and all he felt was relief.

“I couldn't lose you. I thought if I pushed you to stay here, you would stay safe. Not saying I was right but…” He trails off.

“I'm sorry.” You whisper back, finally finding your voice.

Eventually he pulls away and sits back on the bed, staring straight ahead to the bare walls so that all you see is his side profile. His jaw tenses as he clenches it in thought. There's a soft pink dusting his cheeks from what you can tell.

“You don't need to apologize. I'm the one that's sorry, for not being honest about how I feel about you before we left. If I had, maybe you would have stayed. ”

“And how do you feel about me?”

Levi suddenly starts picking at an invisible string that must be hanging off his coat sleeve. You've never seen Levi so bashful, so shy. He doesn't even look at you as he mumbles away, voice barely audible.

“Don't make me say it.”

“These wounds may kill me, you know.” You tease.

“Tch, you're going to be fine.”

“Levi…” You say softly, reaching over to tug on his cape to get his attention. When he looks over to you, his expression looks wary like the night before the raid. Dark circles cut into the porcelain skin under his eyes which were droopy with exhaustion.

“I-I think I like you. I have for a while.”

“That much I can tell.” You retort, feeling your face bloom in heat at his adorable confession. Levi Ackerman could cut down twenty titans in the span of fifteen minutes, but he can't talk about his feelings. It was comical, in a very endearing way.

“Don’t tease me or I'll never open up to you again.” He threatens though his voice contains no malice.

“Okay, okay. But why did you wait so long to say anything?” You ask, raising an eyebrow.

“I thought if I just ignored the feeling, kept you at arms length, it would go away.”

“And did it?” A smirk tugs at your lips.

“Obviously not, stupid.”

You reach your hand out to Levi, palm open and fingers loose. He regards you once again, sighing heavily before taking it into his own. His skin is calloused from his years of ODM gear usage.

“I like you too, Levi.” You give him a lopsided grin when he looks into your eyes, searching for the same sincerity that you laced into your voice. You really did, and like him you didn't say anything for the longest time. Why though, you weren't sure. Maybe for the same reason. The room is quiet save for the distant chatter from outside the window, until Levi finally pipes up eventually.

“You know, we probably don't have time for something like this right now.” He watches you with apprehension. Like he was asking for you to refute that, not like he had to ask.

“Isn't that more reason to push for it if our time is so limited anyways?”

“We could lose each other so easily in this line of work.”

“If I'm going to die anyways, I might as well live it the way I want to. I'd like to spend the rest of it with you, if you'll have me.” This catches Levi off-guard. His lips purse at the thought, but he doesn't dismiss it. In fact, a smile tugs at the corners of his mouth after a moment.

“When I get back, we'll talk about it all.”

“So you are leaving. Is that why you're dressed in your uniform?” You frown.

“They're sending me to watch over the stupid monkey and there's no telling how long I'll be out there. I just didn't want to leave without making sure you were okay.”

“I'm going with you.” You shoot up, the pillows behind you toppling over. Despite the pain shooting throughout your system, you bite back the wince and attempt to throw your legs over the side of the bed.

“Don't even think about it! You're not going.” Levi grabs your leg and holds it down, stopping your momentum.

“And why not?”

“You didn't listen to me last time, listen to me now. You need to heal otherwise you're just a liability. Stay. Here.”

“You know, worry is a two way street. If we’re going to make this work, you need to be okay with me fretting over you too.” You point a finger between you and him to make the point. “I don't like the idea of you being out there with him.”

“I won't be alone, I'll be fine.”

“I'm going to need more than a ‘I'll be fine’, Levi.”

He leans towards you, both arms propped on either side of your hips and he's close enough you can smell the mint and tea leaves on his breath. There's a clarity in his eyes that wasn't there before, erasing any sign of exhaustion.

“I promise I'll be back. No matter what shape I'm in. Even if that asshole finds a way out of his shackles, I will find a way back to you.”

He leans in and kisses you again. This time softer, slower. One that sends tingles down your spine and into the tips of your toes. Before pulling away, he kisses the top of your head.

“And when I see you again, we will talk about us.”

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[forsaking-serenity]

if you know a good therapist pls contact me, @feliciafury is in desperate need (no not in that kinda need she is desperate though)

this is an incomplete and unreliable guide to Felicia’s crushes. why you might ask, well because i was bored... and she said i could. so without further ado i proudly present:

Chris Evans (actor)

Sebastian Stan (actor)

Simu Liu (actor)

Andrew Garfield (actor)

Nijiro Murakami (actor)

Dori Sakurada (actor)

Lee Dong-Wook (actor)

Park Hyung-Sik (actor/singer)

Kim Namjoon (BTS)

Kim Seokjin (BTS)

Min Yoongi(BTS)

Jung Hoseok (BTS)

Park Jimin (BTS)

Kim Taehyung (BTS)

Jeon Jungkook (BTS)

Johnny (nct 127)

Yuta (nct 127)

Mark Lee (nct 127)

Bambam (GOT7)

Beomgyu (TXT)

Jihyo Park (TWICE)

Sana Minatozaki (TWICE)

Son Chaeyoung (TWICE)

Choi Seungcheol (SEVENTEEN)

Lee Jihoon (SEVENTEEN)

Joshua Hong (SEVENTEEN)

Kwon Soonyoung (SEVENTEEN)

Kang Seul-gi (RED VELVET)

Kim Chae-won (LE SSERAFIM)

Huh Yun-jin (LE SSERAFIM)

Eric Nam (singer songwriter)

Steve Rogers/Captain America (mcu)

James ‘Bucky’ Barnes/The Winter Soldier/White Wolf (mcu)

Moon Jo (Strangers From Hell)

Dolores Madrigal (encanto)

Isabella Madrigal (encanto)

Jack Frost (rise of the guardians)

Cat Noir (miraculous)

Luka (miraculous)

Zuko (atla)

Sokka only with his hair down (atla)

Ban (nanatsu no taizai)

Bakugou (bnha)

Kirishima (bnha)

Kaminari (bnha)

Shinsou (bnha)

Hawks (bnha)

Tamaki (bnha)

Dabi (bnha)

Rin (free!)

Makoto (free!)

Benimaru (that time i got reincarnated as a slime)

Kuro (haikyuu)

Bokuto (haikyuu)

Terushima (haikyuu)

Coach Ukai (haikyuu)

Keiji Akaashi (haikyuu)

Nishinoya (haikyuu)

Hitachiin brothers (ohshc)

Levi Ackerman (attack on titan)

Saiki (saiki k)

Kyan Reki (sk8 infinity)

Benedict Blue (violet evergarden)

Guren Ichinose (seraph of the end)

Spike Spiegel (cowboy bepop)

Rin (blue exorcist)

Chrollo (hunterxhunter)

Sebastian Michaelis (black butler)

Shirou Ogami (bna)

Saturo Gojo (jujutsu kaisen)

Yuji itadori (jujutsu kaisen)

Maki Zenin (jujutsu kaisen)

Kento Nanami (jujutsu kaisen)

Akira Hayama (food wars)

[frogsnbunnies0914]

I’m back for some more Nanami fluff eheheheh cuz I can never get enough of this man (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

I was thinking 75 & 94 but instead of undoing his tie just pulling it heheheheheheh

You’re my new nanami fluff supplier ᕕ( ᐕ )ᕗ♡

Day at the Park (short!gn!reader with nanami on his day off)

75: standing on your tippy toes, frustrated you can't reach your lover's lips

94: untying your lover's tie, using it to pull your lover into a kiss

an: hihi!! thank you for submitting this, i had s o much fun writing it! i really hope you enjoy it, i didn’t proof read it because i overthink a ton when i do that usually :(( this was really good in my brain tho, so if i improve as a writer i can and probably will rewrite this someday ^^^^ enjoy! <3<3

The sunlight burns down on you as you walk through the park with your boyfriend. Kento loves to spend his time off with you, although today is a bit different. With only a half day at work and the boiling weather, the office said business casual was all that was required today. Although you managed to convince Kento to wear khaki shorts ("It's hot out!"), you hadn't managed to get him to abandon his spotted tie. This didn't upset you, however, as you found a man in a suit highly appealing. You watch how his tie bobs a bit when he swallows.

"Nami, baby, can we get some ice cream please? It's realllllly hot."

"You're the one who asked to come to the park, sweetheart."

"I know I did, but still....please? We can share if you want!" You smiled sweetly at him with puppy dog eyes. His stony expression cracked at this and he nodded. "Anything for you, my love." Brown eyes light up as the corners of his lips turn up into a small smile. God, his lips...you silently curse your genes for not being able to reach them easily. No matter, that wouldn’t stop you from trying! Standing on your tiptoes, you try unsuccessfully to reach Kento’s mouth. “Kentoooo :(” you whine at the failure. He chuckles and responds by kissing the top of your head.

“Wha-”

“We’re in public and as much as I love your kisses, I don’t want to gain a reputation.”

“From kissing me on the mouth in public?”

“From displaying an inappropriate amount of PDA.”

“...so from kissing me on the mouth in public”

“I’ll give you all the kisses you want when we get home, how does that sound?” Your eyes meet his as you sigh. “I’d prefer to kiss you now but whatever...” He pulls you closer to his side as you two approach the nearby ice cream stand. “What flavor would you like?” you cross your arms at the ready for giving him the silent treatment before you feel the soft hand lifting your face to look at him. “I asked a question, my love.” His eyes bore into yours and they’re just as soft as his hands although there is a slight warning in his tone.

“M-mint chocolate, please.”

“Thank you.” he kisses the top of your head again before ordering a large cone for the two of you to share. Although you appreciate getting any kisses at all, you really want to kiss his lips instead. The two of you walk along the path, listening to the birds in the trees as a slight breeze finally breaks through the scorching heat. Despite all of these sensations around you, you cannot stop thinking about the sensation of his lips on yours. So, you come up with a plan.

“Hey, Nami?”

“Yes, dear?” The two of you stop in your tracks as you face him. “You have some ice cream on your face.”

“Oh? Where?” He immediately licks one of his fingers with the intention of rubbing it off once you tell him where it is. “It’s okay, I’ve got it.” Grasping his spotted tie, you pull him down and get the kiss you’ve been thinking about all day. The mint of the ice cream can be tasted on his tongue and you bring both hands up to his face to hold him to you, refusing to let him go. Eventually, his eyes flutter closed after the initial surprise as he melts into the kiss with you. You only realize that he dropped the cone when you feel both large hands engulfing your face in return. Smaller hands run through his hair as you move closer to him. The butterflies that you first felt when you saw him for the first time at this very park flutter as the kiss continues. One of his hands makes its way down to your hips, then your lower back. As the two of you separate, he rests his forehead on yours. “I thought I told you I didn’t want to do that in public.”

“Are you complaining?”

“...kiss me again.”

[coco-goat-milk]

hi!! can you do a kanao!reader (demon slayer) x Childe, Kazuha, and Zhongli (separately), I’d prefer the reader to use a coin and then stop using it after getting into a relationship, emotionless kinda but then starting to warm up, !!IF ITS OK WITH YOU!! and also have the same backstory as her, of course, you don’t have to do the last part since it’s really dark- you don’t have to do this request tho! :D

Kanao! reader x Childe, Kazuha, Zhongli

Pronounce: she/him/they,, pronounce isn't mentioned! so I won't mention it either!

Warning: slight spoilers for Kanao’s past (and Kazuha and Zhongli), violence and cursing (it's just a little bit nothing very bad or anything! and if i forgot anything please remind me!)

A/n: Moshi moshi~ dear, ofc i'll do your request! And if you check out my rules page you will see all the characters i write for and if i write for those characters that means that i also write for the characters their past! I hope this is okay and what you wanted! If it's not just tell me and I will try again hun!

Childe

First time meeting:

He was very curious about you when he first saw you.

When he approached you, you just kept smiling, while tried to start a conversation with you.

Keyword: tried

You just kept staring intently at him with a smile, ngl he got kind of scared.

But the moment you pulled out a coin and flipped it into the air, he was so confused, huhh???

When the coin landed on your palm and you smiled at him, he waited patiently for you to answer him.

But what you did next is something he really didn't expect.

“Sayonara” You smiled at him and ran away leaving Childe in a confused daze.

After that he would keep searching for you, and try to make conversation.

When you two get together:

You would slowly try to have a conversation without the use of your coin. (but Childe luckily didn't try to push you)

“Childe…”

“Yes love!”

“Do..you..like rocks?”

“???”

He will be very patient with you, and even though he still teases you and flirts with you, he knows when to stop.

If you decide to tell him about your past and about your dead sister who decided to take care of you, he will first of all feel a lot of grief and anger. Not anger towards you but towards the people who treated you like shit.

He will let you take your time, while he teaches the people who treated you badly a..few lessons.

This bastard is very clingy while you are...not. So he likes to cling onto you like a koala bear, and you just let it be.

He flirts a lot with you but you don't respond most of the time, but when you flirt back he will be shook and flustered.

If he has seen you fighting, he will want to spar with you.

Masochist.

You usually just spend time together eating or sparring.

It's a cute relationship while he supports you all the way!

Kazuha

First time meeting:

He just wanted some peace and quiet in nature, maybe reciting some haiku.

But as he got to the clearing he saw a person calmly sitting there with butterflies flying around (her/him/them), he just stood there shocked.

As you turned your head around your eyes met, and it felt as if there was an invisible connection with each other.

After that day you often meet him at the exact same place, sometimes he tells you haiku’s or you two just sit in a comfortable silence with butterflies surrounding you two.

When you two are together in a relationship:

You both are very calm people and you don’t talk that much but his calming presence, makes you use your coin less.

“Kazuha can you...can you..”

“Take your time Y/n”

“Can you tell me a haiku about butterflies..?”

He is very happy that you try to talk without the coin, but of course he is curious why you don't talk without your coin. He won't push you for answers though.

If you tell him about your past and your dead sister, he can relate to you losing your loved one.

If you want to he will comfort you, he is actually very amazed by your mental strength and compliments you for it.

He wrote a haiku about his admiration for you.

You are really bad at comforting him but he takes great comfort in your presence.

You didn't really know what to do with physical affection, but it's okay because he eases you into it.

Usually hand holding or kisses on the cheek.

If he told you about his past and how he is a wanted criminal, you will become quite protective over him.

If he saw how you defeated your enemies, he would be amazed and proud of you.

Has several haikus about you, and he usually tells you about them before bed time.

Ughhhhh him telling you about all his love and adoration for you in the most poetic way and before bed time!?!?! SIGN ME UP 🤲

It's a very wholesome and sweet relationship, with you both being closeted simps for each other.

Zhongli

First time meeting:

You basically became Zhongli’s assistant, he found your company very comforting and nice.

He was certainly very curious about you and why you only answered with your coin.

He talked...a lot.. like a lot, you just let him talk because you had high respect for the man.

And his voice is just *chef’s kiss*

When you two get together:

In your relationship he is the one who talks the most, and you just listen with a smile on your face.

He knows you don't really make decisions without your coin, but actually it's just you who already made a decision but didn't want to embarrass yourself.

He cares a lot for you, so when you tell him about your past;

He will have order! *summons giant rock*/j

No but seriously he will comfort you with his words if needed, he will brew you some tea.

He has been through some hard stuff as well so he isn't that bad at comforting.

He knows you're not very cuddly or anything but he lets it be, so he is very surprised when you hold his arm out of nowhere.

“And so- oh…” You just wrapped your hand around his arm like you had done it so many times, his gentle smile widens even more.

“Ah okay as i was saying-!”

When he tells you that he is a god, you don't react that much. you already knew.

He is actually kind of glad and surprised that that was your only reaction.

With physical affection it's usually him holding your hands or your hand wrapped around his arm.

You are basically his mom; when he is going out and forgot his Mora for the hundredth time, you will come to the rescue with a bag of Mora.

Things like that are your way of showing you care, and of course you are not using your coin with him anymore.

When he sees you fighting he is very curious and proud, he will want to ask questions about your fighting styles over a cup of tea.

Aww such a sweet relationship, even though he is a god y'all don't care; just living in the moment!

[mikalara-dracula]

💚 For Reiji plssss

What it's like to text Reiji

Warning: 18+ content below; don't read if you're a minor or aren't comfortable with slight NSFW. This is a fictional work and should not be taken seriously.

Hi there!

Sure thing! Thank you so much for requesting! Hope you enjoy reading it. Feel free to request again anytime! :)

@liannelara-dracula - bruh, the memes in this tho xDD

Omg, to even be a contact in Reiji’s phone is a privilege, let alone an honor since he isn’t going to keep just anyone in his contact list.

And depending on who he’s texting, his formality either elevates or drops.

However, not to the degree that he uses text language like ‘wyd’ or ‘btw’.

He just doesn’t like it, he feels like he’s losing his class by using abbreviations for phrases and such.

He absolutely hates the term ‘lol’--he simply can’t wrap his head around it.

“Honestly, humans spent centuries developing their language and then they cut it down into atrocious phrases like this.”

Now onto how his texting style varying based on who he’s texting.

So, if he’s texting a stranger, such as someone he got assigned to be partners with from class for a project and he’s genuinely okay with them, he’s very formal.

Like, too formal. If he has to start a conversation over text, he’ll begin it with, ‘I hope this message finds you well…’.

Which is just… odd… considering the world’s in the modern age now.

His brothers tease him about getting with the times, especially Ayato and Laito. They’re constantly on his case about this, but he brushes them off and tells them they’re wrong and that only ‘classy’ people like him text this way.

“What would imbeciles like them understand? It’s patently offensive to text with no effort.” He’d say, pushing up the bridge of his glasses.

Reiji is usually pretty fast at getting back to people and never tries to lag because he finds it ‘imperfect’ and ‘lazy’.

“That good for nothing keeps his contacts on read for days. How does he go on that way?” He’d comment towards a familiar, lazy vampire we all know.

Reiji also likes to keep the convo short with someone he barely knows, mostly because he doesn't know what to talk about considering he doesn't really know them and vice versa. He keeps it pretty polite and straight to the point in all honesty.

However, if he gets paired up with someone he doesn’t like and that he finds to be annoying, he’ll take his formality up a notch and even use words most people don’t know just to throw the other person off and show that he’s ‘more educated’ and ‘better’ than them.

Reiji isn’t the type to ghost, mostly because he doesn’t know how. So, if he’s texting someone he doesn’t like and they get into an argument of some sort, he’s not afraid to tell them what he thinks and just blocks them as a result.

“Good riddance.”

If he gets along with the person he had to do a project with, he debates on whether or not he’s going to still keep them as a contact after the project is over.

Mostly because he only wants to keep people that are up to his standards as his contacts--minus his brothers of course.

So, through talking to his class partner enough by working together on the project they were assigned, he tries to get to know them in order to decide if he wants to keep them in his phone.

After the project is over, if he sees that it isn't relevant to keep them in his contact list, he just deletes their contact.

Just know though, if Reiji does decide to keep someone as a contact in his phone, there’s something about them that he admires or that he finds interesting. If he gets along with the person and they’re up to his standards, he finds no harm in being friends with them.

It takes a lot to be considered his best friend. They seriously have to pass all his tests and prove him wrong. Yes, Reiji isn't the easiest person to deal with.

He'd prefer if the person is a vampire like him cuz they would understand each other better due to having the same nature. He wouldn't be too keen on being friends with a human, but then again, if they impress him enough, he doesn’t mind it.

If the new contact is a girl, he may have a crush on her, but he of course wouldn't admit that. It takes him a lot to come to that conclusion.

If he ends up becoming friends with his class partner, he’ll quit being very formal as he was before and be pretty casual, just no text language though.

Make no mistake though, he won't let them in too much--mostly because his life is pretty classified considering he’s Karlheinz’s son.

Now, if Reiji’s texting his best friend, things are a lot different.

He’s obviously been friends with them for ages and they very much understand each other. They’re probably a lover of science just like him.

He’ll usually text nerdy things like science memes--his favorites are probably all the Einstein ones xDD.

For example--(1), (2), (3), (4).

Okay, I’m literally laughing my ass off at these xDD.

Or they’ll even talk about science theories and joke about them over text if they were disproven at some point, or even a new experiment he’s working on.

It’s mostly lots of nerd talk really with his best friend. He might even send them a picture of a new china set he bought, but he of course makes it very aesthetically pleasing because he can’t stand raw light in photos lol.

Now when it comes to texting his brothers, it honestly depends on who it is, but he drops his formality with them and is pretty casual about conversation.

Has a group chat with them on his phone, but only uses it when he has to tell all of them something important.

He wants to block Shu so badly since Shu decides to be an ass and text him about things that annoy him, which includes him teasing Reiji about his crush if he has one.

Shu: ‘So… have you asked her?’

Reiji: ‘Asked her what?’

Shu: ‘Y’know... ;)’

With Reiji being confused, he’d just respond with: ‘...’

Shu also teases him about being boring and single and tells him he’s looking for too much. Will also send him memes about things like this too, along with ones about ghosts.

For example--(1), (2), (3), (4), (5).

Or Shu will be bold to say: *sends photo* ‘She’ll be in your room at midnight.’

And of course Reiji doesn’t hold back and tells him he’s a good-for-nothing and sends back memes about laziness or fire.

For example--(1), (2), (3).

And in response to Shu sending Reiji a picture of a ghost woman, he’d respond: *sends photo* ‘What your room will look like after midnight.’

It’s a never-ending battle in all honesty, and it gets so out of control that Reiji ends up cursing at Shu via text since he provokes him that much. It honestly makes Shu’s day knowing he’s able to make him pissed off this much.

Ah, the love between bros lmao xDD.

Luckily, this only happens from time to time.

But make no mistake, sometimes Reiji initiates these snappy virtual arguments with Shu too--it’s usually when Shu’s pissed him off in some way or Reiji needs someone to take his anger out on over something he’s upset about personally.

But other than this, they don’t text normally unless it involves something their father wants.

Even though he wants to block Shu, he knows he can't because they sometimes have to talk about things regarding family matters. So, it's utterly pointless.

Although, Reiji will periodically block the triplets because he grows tired of them and the trouble they cause him… but he ends up unblocking them later on. And the cycle only repeats from there.

Subaru doesn't really cause him trouble so Reiji doesn't care since they don't really talk. If Reiji ever asks him to do something it's not that much of a hassle.

Now, when it comes to texting his s/o, things are a lot different in comparison to his brothers.

It's honestly 50/50 on who starts the conversation, and he texts them pretty much every day.

He’ll talk about pretty much anything with his s/o, but bear in mind that he will be sharing what experiments he’s working on along with sending his s/o a picture of something he ordered in the mail.

Reiji even finds setting up dates via texting to be the easiest thing ever. He swears it’s better than the times where people had to plan rendezvous in person.

If his s/o sends him scandalous photos in hopes to get a reaction out of him, he leaves them on read because he doesn't know how to respond xDD.

Let me be frank and say that Reiji will never, and I mean NEVER, send nudes.

He finds them inappropriate, and he’d prefer to show his body to his s/o when getting intimate.

Reiji never uses emojis—he finds them to be juvenile and believes his words are enough to get his emotions and point across.

[dailytatsu]

Heya! Can I request an Aether/Lumine & reader?

So reader is basically an immortal half-elf who've lived for centuries and a well refined fighter. Well at the beginning even tho they volunteered to tag along on traveler's journey to find their sibling, reader is rather obnoxious and a lazy-dork who only help when actually needed. But as the journey continues, they began to act like traveler's bodyguard after witnessing (archon quest spoiler!) traveler almost getting killed by the Shogun? And maybe random shenanigans happen between them (ft.Paimon). I don't mind if you do either Aether or Lumine if you feel pressured 🙏

Hi! This kind are my favorites! Tysm for requesting! (๑>◡<๑)

I did this with Aether since he is my favorite is who I chose, and I feel more comfortable writing with guys than with girls.

I know they have some different personalities but I can help but see Lumine as the all mighty abyss princess.

Hope you enjoy!

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Aether & Half-elf! Reader

GN! Reader

Inazuma Archon Quest Spoilers!

Request are open; sorry for any mistakes!

Genshin Impact Masterlist

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Aether always thought that immortality brought with it wisdom, beings who live for much longer than an ordinary human tend to gain an understanding of life and changes in the world after years of appreciating the passing of the ages.

But when he met you he couldn't help but feel that all his beliefs were based on fiction and old rumors from other worlds. You were anything but wise, not even his first choice to be the voice of reason.

Even Paimon takes her role as his guide seriously.

But what was so wrong about you that get him on his nerves all the time? And most important, why does is he still dealing with you?

To be fair, maybe he was waiting a little too much from you. After all, he always forget that you still have half of a human’s nature.

“Mmh? What are you doing?” You asked Aether the first time he removed your hair from your ears to see if they were pointy. They were, and Paimon yelled kind of a objection when she realize she had to pay for losing their bet.

Not a human, not a elf, but a hybrid between them.

The first encounter was really something he would never forget. Rumors about treasures and requests from the guild made them follow some clues to find a cave that was marked as lost, impossible to enter and explore.

But “impossible” is a word that doesn’t exist their vocabulary. Yet is common that regretting comes along when you’re that bold and risky.

At the very end of that strange cave there wasn’t a treasure waiting, not even a new clue to keep going with the mystery. Instead, was a humanoid silhouette, they seemed to be meditating, not showing a single interest in their voices neither getting nervous because of Aether and Paimon taking some steps forward to have a better look.

But they were breathing, and both could see the pupils moving slightly under their eyelids. Eyebrows twitching now and then, like they were having a nightmare, one of which they couldn’t wake up.

Paimon encouraged him to get even closer to shake that person's shoulder, while she was hiding behind some rocks, obviously.

Aether summoned his sword and then he approached slowly until touching them with his fingertips, waiting for some kind of jumpscare.

The stranger raised their arm, carefully but also in a robotic way. Their fingers were tense, as much that it was painful just looking at them. Like a quiet call, like a order that couldn’t be heard, from the pile of rocks where Paimon was hiding something emerge, breaking through the stone and letting a rusty polearm to be seen.

Their fingers closed around the weapon, bringing them back to reality.

“Master and weapon, reunited again, rise so the world can meet their end!”

Or at least that's what he would have preferred to find. A servant guarding a lost relic, a soulless body moving by a curse, perhaps even a fate that death could not prevent.

But instead it was something really underwhelming, something that broke the mystical and strange atmosphere. That person opened their eyes, annoyed by the light of the torches and disoriented by the situation.

With their body in pain and numb at the same time, how long have they slept in that position?

The first thing they did after waking up was sneezing.

‘So much dust…’

Never accepting missions for exploring legendary caves ever again. Nope. Negative. He refuse to.

What if they find another (Y/N)? Thanks, but no. One is more than enough.

“So what you mean is that your parents' families exiled you and locked you up in the cave for being an ‘abomination’ to both species?” Paimon confirmed once the three of you were back in the surface again. Her hands moving side to side to explain -in a very expressive way- everything you told them.

“It seems that we found the remains of an ancient race that used to exist in Teyvat.” Aether said, still surprised by the way you roamed to feel the wood of the trees and the grass under your bare feet. Kind of heartbreaking.

“Like the boar we found with Xiangling!”

He wasn’t sure if it was okay to compare both encounters but he could see her point.

“… ‘Wait for us’, they told me, ‘think about your existence and find the answer to why your conception is not the atrocity that everyone says you are. May their words not reach you, because we have long ears to hear the words of the gods and not the ones of those who defile earth’… ” You pronounced after decades of not needing to use the language you were taught, with one hand on your chin and eyes closed to concentrate. All you had left was the few memories you preserved inside your mind and heart.

“With ‘they’ you mean your parents?”

You nodded.

“And what happened next?… ” Asked back the tiny companion of the blond guy that rescued you.

“I got bored and I fell asleep.” You admitted, carefree about it, shrugging your shoulders and sighing.

A total waste of your youth.

“Eh!? Then you didn’t thought about those things? That sounded important!” Paimon seemed disappointed for your answer, while Aether held his forehead, without having a clue of how he was supposed to react.

That was the day you joined their party! New team member, (Y/N) strikes in!

Or something like that,,

“H-Hey! We could use a hand over here!… woah!” The little white girl scold you but from your high sit on the top of a big rock only a exaggerated yawning can be heard. Paimon crossed her arms to almost immediately duck down to dodge a fire bullet from the Fatui. Aether didn’t say anything, he was concentrated fighting.

“Oh, yeah… You’re doing great. Go, Aether, go…”

“Was that supposed to be a cheering?!”

“Hey, calm down” You said “He doesn’t need my help. Just take a look, he’s an adventurer. If I meddle it will be really boring for him.”

“Hmp! Now Paimon believes that you were lying when you said that you were a well refined fighter!” She was floating around you, ignoring the battle of his blond friend. Like a pesky bee, the only thing you did was avoiding her furious gaze. “Don’t ignore Paimon! How can you not hear with those ears!? That’s it! Paimon will give you a ugly nickname!”

“What about ‘extinct deaf elf-der’?”

“Yeah, that’s a good one!” She agreed immediately, then she shook her head, pointing at you like a guilty criminal. “Wait, Paimon doesn’t need your suggestions!”

When the last Fatui was defeated Aether turned back to face both of you, sighing because of the new arguing between you two. His sword disappeared and some steps were took to get closer.

Your eyes met each other, a slight smile in your face after looking him safe and sound. So confident but so unaware of the remain danger hiding. Your expression became a surprised one, then your gaze sharped like a killer sight.

You left Paimon on top of the rock when you jumped down, summoning your own weapon you ran straight to where Aether was. The traveler panicked just a fraction of second before loosing sight of you.

Next thing they know was that a you were behind him, facing at the nothing with a defensive pose, just a second of silence before a impact could be heard. Some dirt and dust was lift as the pair of Fatui Pyro Agents became visible again. They stayed there, defeated in one hit.

“Like I said. It would be pretty boring if I meddle...” Aether and Paimon were shocked, none of them felt their presence, not even the heat of the pyro delusion. Your weapon disappeared in the air, and your hands rested on your waist. “Dear Seven, that was intense.” Looking at your friends you sighed, with the laziness on your body language. “It was my turn to cook dinner, right? What a pain having to eat again… ”

Acting that relaxed after that really made them went Ô_Ô and Ö

A silent speech, where devotion and gratitude are the best topics of conversation. The message that is heard even if there’s no words in between. Just a exchange of gazes. Little signs of affection that are shown when it’s necessary.

Your family was gone. No clues about their whereabouts could’ve found in that cave of where you came. Not even the skeletons of a couple holding their hands and petrified in a sobbing position. Not even ashes.

When you have been thinking about the most unimportant things in the universe for so long you can deal with the lost faster than anyone else. Getting the idea of no remain evidence of your parents and feeling that it wasn’t that heartbreaking.

Maybe because you gained a new family almost immediately.

Still you could empathize with Aether, he still had his precious memories with his sister, still remember her face and her voice. And most important was that he knew that she was still roaming Teyvat, waiting for him.

Even if they leave behind Paimon and you at the end of the trip.

Or even if they just leave you behind.

‘I’m okay with that.’

You thought, stroking Paimon’s hair when her head found a comfortable place to rest in your lap. You thought, moving your shoulder so Aether wouldn’t have neck pain. Both sleeping peacefully and you staying awake night by night.

You’ve slept enough, for so long besides.

Somehow the flames of the campfire are warmer now that you have someone to look how the fire dance in the night.

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“I see, so you were serious when you told me that your companion was a mystical extinct creature, weren’t you?” Albedo’s hand went up to hold his chin, analyzing you from distance.

“They are half of it, actually.” Aether answered back, notice how Sucrose was asking you permission to check your features. The sparkle in her eyes made you accept her petition after feeling with the back against the wall.

“Your ears are like mine! Look, look!” Klee pulled your shirt, then she pointed at the side of her head.

“… Still the shape of both are quite different, the length too.”

Years of isolation really are hitting hard right now. You felt overwhelmed and somehow shy when Sucrose hold your face to have a better look.

You follow the traveler to everywhere, no matter the place, you were there. Like a shadow, sometimes just a spectator, other times like an actual active team member.

“Who would’ve tell that our Honorary Knight also has his own knight watching his back.” Kaeya’s voice has that joke but charming tone, as always.

Day after day, it’s the same, everyone talking you through Aether. Like some kind of translator.

“More like a human shield.” Your hand landed on top of Aether’s head, not agreeing with his explanation.

Bonk.

“I guess everything’s better than being Emergency Food.”

“Hey!”

“Haha! You three are quite a team, aren’t you?”

Of course you were. Mondstadt, Liyue, you name it. You could assure that every place in this two nations have at least one story about the team.

You knew that the most brave and magnificent outlander in Teyvat didn’t need a guardian, he can defend himself (somehow even if he’s still using that dull blade).

Bodyguarding also sounds like such a hassle…

You only provide a last resource help when was needed, sometimes also helping with some puzzles and mysteries.

The long eared people was known to be wise and smart people that searched for the full comprehension of the world. Also such a nerds and fans of knowledge. So, even if you considered yourself dumb, in your blood was the instinct of looking for the truth, and sometimes that impulse could be really annoying.

You were always near enough to reach him. Pulling his scarf from behind to move him away from danger. Countering after he gets hit.

Always in a place where you could reach him.

You just needed to extend your arm and you would catch Aether. It was always like this. Always with you jumping in the middle of the crossfire to shield them if it was necessary.

It’s always like this.

Until the day you three set a foot in Inazuma’s land. And a bad feeling of a imminent catastrophe made your shiver.

A new nation, a new problem to solve. But a war? Boldness and stupidity sometimes looks like the same thing, but no matter how many times you repeat this to Aether, he would still ran into problems.

And you would follow him, until your debt is paid, until his travel is done.

It used to be like this.

But then you failed him after being unable to move because of the fear that paralyzed your body. The day Aether faced Shogun Raiden in the ceremony. The day you heard the broken voice of a god inside the Shogun you also fell apart. It was painful, cruel, a void of anger and sadness.

Jumping into danger, without you behind.

You tried to ran between the goddess and your savior, you tried to get closer to at least be useful one last time as the shield you promised to be.

You tried.

But, for the first time, your hand didn’t reach him.

The void of despair and darkness that could be heard inside the Shogun devoured him.

The tears of panic and fear in Paimon’s eyes. The way the Shogun lifted her sword to end his life. The way you were paralyzed because of her presence, forced to be part of the crowd and presence his execution.

That day your facade of laziness faded away, the real feeling of being a knight burnt along your proud. It was so annoying, it was so unnecessary, but still you couldn’t ignore it.

“Are you… are you sure that you’re okay? We don’t have to find the Sangonomiya resistance today. If you need to rest then-” Your hands were shaking when you placed them in Aether’s shoulders, holding yourself for tearing up.

“We have to keep going. I’ll be fine.”

“Besides, if we stay near Inazuma this night they could find us! Paimon won’t be able to sleep like that!” Your mouth opened to counter their arguments, but not a single word dared to go against Aether’s plans.

They could see it in your face. The worry, the remains of shock and fear, the guilty.

“Don’t try to look strong then. If you get tired, tell us. I can carry you in my back.” Even if you were offering help your voice was serious, so cold but so hurt at the same time that nor Aether or Paimon knew what to said to bring the old you back.

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“… Aren’t you coming?” You could hear how the door was slid to let him saw you. The lighted spots on Aether’s clothes were purple, just as the lighting that almost end him. Your lips made a concerned and stressed grimace.

The young traveler took a seat next to you, outside the structure, sitting on the wooden steps and looking at the starry sky. The wind was cold but still the soldiers of the resistance were talking normally and the slight feeling of discommodity because of the excessive presence of other people was climbing up your back.

“(Y/N), there’s no need of guard us every night. You also need to sleep.”

“I'm not tired, I think I've gotten enough sleep, at least not to need it until the next century.”

Aether’s expressions went into a sarcastic one, asking if you were serious with just his gaze.

“That’s not how it works.” He said, trying to change the mood. “And if it does, then why are you always snoozing during the day in every chance you get?”

You had the answer to that, but you weren’t sure about telling him.

“Because everything supposed to be boring. Nothing really changed a lot and… looking at the familiar places was depressing.” So easy, so simple, but still enjoying the company, still enjoying the sound of theirs laughs and their own shenanigans. “… Lately, I’ve been thinking that I should not had left the cave. Don’t get me wrong, I do appreciate that you two helped me to be back at the surface, and I really want to help you on your journey, but if you still run into the chaos by own decision I think I could not follow you any longer before being a burden in your adventures.”

Overprotection, an unbreakable shield, frequently avoiding fights, always being pulled back to not be part of the battle. Enemies of the braveness of the traveler.

Worry, panic, an overreaction due to fear of loosing everything again.

‘let me do it’, ‘I got it’, ‘wait here’, ‘don’t get close’.

These day could be described like that.

“So, before I do something worse as an excuse of defend you, please let me find a cave to await. You do what’s is needed and… call me back, or leave me there, anything you think it’s better… ”

You could be pronouncing the words from the very bottom of your heart, but still your face was the same seriousness as the accident almost happened.

And even with that you felt his gloved hand removing the hair that was covering your right ear, revealing how it slightly leaned down, showing sadness unwittingly.

“Hey, cut it out… I’m serious about this… ”

“It doesn’t matter if you think that it’s the best option, you’re still sad about leaving.”

“… That’s cheating.” Removing his hand away from your hair you tried to act indifferent.

“You know the reason why we invited you to came along?”

‘You felt sorry for me.’

“I can’t totally tell the exact reason, but it wasn’t for you to pay us some kind of debt because of saving you.” He crossed his arms, looking at the stars, wondering if his sisters was doing the same. “We don’t need a guardian, we need our friend back. And I know you care about Paimon and me, but still you must enjoy the journey. It’s not fair that you are always aware of every potential danger while we mess around lately.”

An eternal silence, your response is late to appear but somehow Aether can tell that you already have something on your mind.

“Then apologize.”

“… Why?”

“For believing that playing as the hero and jumping to face the Shogun was something you had to do.”

“… but-”

Neither Aether nor you slept that night, the blonde had to listen for hours to all the things that you ever wanted to complain about since you arrived in Inazuma.

You made your position on joining the army of the rebellion very clear, you had no intention of fighting to seek "justice" or "peace". Because after all, that fight did not correspond to you, but if he asked you to, you would protect some soldiers or help to guard the barracks, if he asked you to, you wouldn’t complain about it (at least not that much).

Both had enough of each other’s attitude, but it was okay. Because that was what all of you chose in first place.

[girlgrouptrash101]

Cooking with Loona

Request: "i know requests are closed and i’m reallyyy sorryyyy 🥺 i’ve been going through a lot and i just didn’t have time and didn’t feel right enough to ask this: maybe cooking with loona??"

A/N: to the anonnie that requested this, i hope you're feeling better and ily ❤️❤️

(had to put a keep reading tab cuz the post was too damn long f)

- C

Heejin:

we’ve all seen the cement brownie she tried to give to chuu on her birthday vlive..... yeah....

she always skips like half the steps when she’s following recipes and then gets confused when her food doesn’t turn out the same like,, Heejins sweetie pleASE-

lowkey can’t cook but she thinks she can because you hype her up too much

like she will serve you a dish that will somehow be both burnt and cold at the same time and you still tell her she did amazing because it makes her so happy and that’s all that matters

your guys’ favourite thing to make together is probably cupcakes or cakes

because you get to bake them and Heejin gets to decorate them, and they always end up looking and tasting immaculate

everything in your guys’ relationship works better when you’re together, you two simply complete each other :’)

Hyunjin:

not only does she make the most kickass bread but girlie really is a chef of all cuisines too

you still don’t know how or where she even learned to cook so well but you aren’t complaining at all

whatever you feel like eating, Hyunjin knows how to cook it to absolute perfection and she always offers to teach you how to make your favourite dishes

you two also have matching yellow cat aprons uwu

the kind of girl to either kick you out of her kitchen for distracting her while she’s making a meal or else back hug you and help you stir a bowl with her hand over yours all romantically

it literally just depends what mood she’s in at that very moment

highkey loves loves loves cooking for you and surprising you with dinner after a long day, because her favourite thing to do is put a smile on your face :D

Haseul:

starts off really strong and sticks to the recipe... but then her mind wanders and she's like,,, well,,, what if i add this????

and you're like haseul,,,, please don't put chilli peppers in Kim lips birthday cake, i promise she can do without them,,,,,

she finds cooking in the dorms a bit stressful, doing her best to feed the hungry members after a long day of practice

so cooking with you tends to be a much more therapeutic experience, just you two, a bit of music and some tasty treats

but she of course brings back plenty of wonderful bakes for her members to enjoy too, they're literally her babies she is can't just let them STARVE 😔🙄😢

lowkey pretends she's having trouble stirring so you'll reach from the back and help her with the spoon all romantically

miss haseul you are not slick we SEE YOU

Yeojin:

yes she did in fact bejewel her cookery book

"yeojin... I can't even read the recipes, there's too much glitter!!"

"Well Y/N, sometimes, sacrifices have to be made in the name of beauty."

said sacrifices are usually cupcakes and cakes that don't rise, burnt food or just complete mush that doesn't even look like food

however, when yeojin is fully dedicated she can pack a mean lunch, sometimes she makes them for you when you're going off to school/work, and she always makes sure presentation is A+

prefers to just go out to cafes/restaurants on dates rather than cook

but that doesn't mean there haven't been times where you and her have been in the kitchen at 2am, trying to make a gigantic cake for you and all her members to share 😌

Vivi:

has the most peaceful, lofi cooking playlist ever

you two work in harmony, always helping one another but never tripping over the other in the kitchen

it's so harmonious it's like.... y'all were meant to be or sumn idk 😳😳😳

however if u try to eat any batter she will smack ur hand and be like no ⛔ that is for LATER hfhdhd

her hair always gets tied up in the cutest little bun when she's baking, and that along with her fairy apron makes her look like an actual princess

she also LOVES cooking/teaching you how to make her favourite foods from Hong Kong that she'd always make with her mom

those meals always help her when she's homesick, and with you by her side make her feel like she's not alone 🥺

Kim Lip:

CEO of pretending she has everything under control when in reality she has absolutely no idea what’s going on

“Uhhh Jungeun, is something burning?” “NOPE NOPE IDK WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT HA HA HA........”

wants to put your apron on you every time but she’s always way too shy to ask so she just resorts to back-hugging you until you get the hint and let her tie a cute little bow behind your back with the apron string hehe

makes pretty decent food when she’s not flailing around and panicking over a single grain of rice that escaped from the pot or something

however she refuses to admit when she messes up in the kitchen

like she could burn something to a crisp or use completely the wrong ingredients but she’d still eat every bite just to prove she’s the best cook in the house

if your food sucks she will tell you to your face, followed by a kiss so you forget about the fact she just roasted your cooking skills lol

Jinsoul:

Jinsoul gives off Hawaiian shirt drunk uncle at the family barbecue vibes who won't let anyone near the steaks

and you're like,, Jinsoul do you even know what you're doing????????? to which she responds - "food, heat, it's cooking. isn't that all i need to know?"

chaotic but refuses to acknowledge the chaos she causes in the kitchen

so when you have baking dates u have to keep such a close eye on her to make sure she isn't going to poison anyone with her creations

once she gets into it tho, she's grooving around the kitchen in her little robot apron, dancing to Christmas songs when it's not even Christmas and just 10/10 having a blast

not really the biggest fan of cooking but she knows you are, and since you help her build her gundams she does like to try and help our properly in the kitchen when she can

perhaps Jinsoul best girl???? perhaps??????

Choerry:

hello this sunshine absolutely LOVES baking, especially for others because putting a smile on someone's face is her main goal in life

she loves decorating with icing too, her go to patterns are smiley faces, flowers and the sun!

her playlists are always so upbeat, the two of you end up bouncing around the kitchen singing at the top of your lungs as you work

LOVES LOVES LOOOOOVES backhugs, especially recieving them,,, it makes her feel all worm and mushy inside hehe

also likes to kiss face icing off of your face, just to have an excuse to give you as many little pecks as she so desires

choerry always makes you a birthday cake every year, and she puts so much work into it, it absolutely melts your heart

plus it makes her happy to see you eating well and having a good time, she truly just is the biggest sweetheart :']

Yves:

she always says yes whenever you ask her to cook with you, but only because she just wants to flirt with you for an hour

"why do we need to make all this food, when the real snack is right in front of me? 😏"

cooking with you actually really does make her happy though, she loves that she can be so domestic with you, it's such an amazing break from her hectic life

also lowkey makes her feel like you're a married couple... and you best believe Yves can't wait to wife you up

she doesn't suck at cooking, but has often times gotten,,, ahem,,,, somewhat distracted and has prioritized making out with you against the kitchen counter rather than how long the food has been cooking, which ends up in a lot of burnt meals

baking with her is really a time, and has more than once ended in a very messy food fight because Yves wouldn't stop smearing icing all over your face 💔

her specialty is dialing the local takeaway and ordering food instead ✨ okay Yves Ramsey go off ✨

Chuu:

this baby girl is just torn between actually wanting to cook or just asking you to cook with her so she can get affection from you (as if she doesn't get that anyway smh)

backhugs except she won't let go

whenever she's making something she calls you over and she's like "Y/N is this okay?" and always asks for kisses as a reward for doing good

will feed you every single ingredient no questions asked

she loves surprising you with meals on very random occasions though, for example that one time she cooked your favourite food because it was the anniversary of the first time she got sick while dating you

she's actually a pretty good cook when she puts her mind to it though, she loves making good food that'll cheer people up when they really need it

btw you will be forced to wear matching aprons and they will be the pinkest, loudest and sparkliest ones that she can get her hands on ✨

Go Won:

have the fire service on speed dial before you even think about cooking with gowon omg

you literally also need to have indestructible tastebuds because she WILL destroy them

her speciality is starting fires and combining foods that were NEVER. EVER. E V E R. meant to be combined 😭😭

"babe come try this dish!! it's ramen mixed with coca cola, jelly and vegetable soup!!! it tastes GREAT trust me"

at the end of the day you just leave her be in the kitchen because at least she's having fun LMAO

(just always have a fire hydrant by your side okay??? she set the loona dorm on fire making chicken nuggets once...)

despite all her chaos, she somehow always produces something edible at the end and.... sometimes it actually tastes good too???

Olivia Hye:

lets you do all the work cuz she's worried she "might mess it up" when in reality she just wants to order takeout and cuddle instead smhhh

will probably follow you around the kitchen or rest her head on your shoulder while you do all the cooking, because this tsundere is secretly the biggest softie for you

she's actually a decent chef when she's motivated to help though

like she even put together a cooking playlist for you guys - which she very shyly revealed to you one time, a slight blush on her cheeks as she played the songs for you

cuz miss olhye is very much a romantic, she just doesn't have the confidence to show you all that yet hehe

her favourite is making desserts because well,,,, she gets to eat the batter and also gets tasty treats at the end

10/10 cooking backhugs also 🖐️😌

[tottymatsuno]

In The Peach Pit; Saw You Fake It

Author: Roro (tottytown)

Fandom: Osomatsu-san

Pairing: Todomatsu x Reader

Category: Romance, enemies to friends to lovers, coworkers, fake dating

Rating: mature (eventually)

Summary: You hate this guy! First you go on the world's shittiest date, and now he's your coworker?!

Word Count: 3209/26k+ (unfinished, in the process of editing now will most likely be an additional 15k when finished)

Warnings: He's mean? Past trauma in later chapters from a previous abusive relationship.

Commentary: One of the few fics I take the time to establish a brand new relationship instead of throwing you in cold. Y/N-chan is autistic and punk, but respectfully so imo. I'm using a huge amount of my own personal experiences and feelings. I didn't intend for her to be autistic initially but it kinda just happened. As always I write for black girls!

BLMATSU DNI

"Hey, love your style! 💞😍"

You look down at the opening message, ah this Totty guy has a sort of cute aesthetic, you think in agreement. Like a preppy but approachable dorky vibe based off of his profile picture. You think this must be from the My Melody stickers. With a sweet wink and a smile, you don’t even notice the placement of his peace sign near his lips. If you had, maybe you would've swiped left, but Totty’s face seemed so innocent and adorable you didn’t see it.

You're kinda interested in the whole opposites attract theory too. He looks like your preferred type, but unfortunately adorably bubbly boys never want to actually go out with you. Something about you being either too emotionless or too scary. It's their loss though, but you're a bit happy one guy like that seems to have an interest in you enough to initiate contact.

It takes a little bit for your break to arrive so you can respond. After ordering your lunch and latte - the order that always gets a comment from Ryo about not really fitting your vibe since it's not black coffee or something. You always get a good laugh out of requesting the most ridiculous thing you could think of everyday. Today's request is of a horrific caricature of a seagull stealing fries.

With lunch in hand you reply in the break room to get away from the slight afternoon rush and harsh lights of the store.

"Sup. 😎 I dig yours too, so do you like Sanrio stuff? 👀"

The reply is instant which is a surprise but a pleasant one.

"Yes ofc! 🥰 My absolute fave is My Melody, isn't she just the cutest? 😍 What's yours?"

You think about for a moment, who is your favorite? A little face pops in your mind.

"Konmi, she's a hard worker. 💪🏾 I really like all of the Kuromi 5 though 🧐, but if I had to pick it'd be Konmi."

There's a gap in between the replies which doesn't bother you too much. Totty or whatever is probably busy too since it's the middle of the day.

"Ah, that makes sense. I thought you seem more like a Kiki or Batz Maru fan. You might have been my fated person 💞 if Kuromi herself was your favorite.😘"

You snort a little before texting a quick reply of, "You might’ve been jumping the gun saying that tho."

The day follows on with that sort of half dry banter, Totty doesn't seem like a bad guy or anything. Just bland. That's okay though because not everyone's charms shine through in text. You get it, after all your dry sense of humor doesn’t really ring true through text either. You're willing to look past that since texting is always a bit awkward with strangers no matter what.

Plus you only want to try getting a boyfriend since the guy you're actually interested in seems to be content to string you along without a real rejection either way. There's two tickets intended as a date with your crush, Daisuke in the small homegoods section that are just burning a hole in your pocket. You felt silly inviting Daisuke to an event that you were only interested in without considering his feelings when he politely turned you down. Oh well though.

You invite Totty to the San-x event instead because it might be better to get to know someone new? You wouldn't mind going by yourself however but it really sucks standing out so much when you're alone. As much fun it is to flip people off and show your pierced tongue to anyone who whispers about you it gets tiring constantly having to ask if randos have ‘a fucking problem?!'

Being scary is hard work, don't get you wrong though! It feeds your ego that ripped skinny jeans, a little dark make up and a choker makes you terrifying; sometimes it'd just be nice to go on a normal date. After all you don’t even have any visible tattoos!

And the whole cigarette smoke filled punk bar isn't your scene now that you go through nicotine withdrawals. Plus getting black out drunk isn't good for the upward mobility at your job and self medicating with those two substances hasn’t ever gotten you anywhere.

Totty seems a bit too eager to meet up, you think over the following days approaching the event. Constant texts about how exciting it is to meet and other obvious bullshitting pleasantries.

He even asked to have a phone conversation with you, which you agreed to! Turns out the only time he had available to talk was a five minute window that got cut short.

“Good mornin-- Jyushimatsu-niisan! I’m on the phone!” followed by what sounded like the loud sound of splashing water.

The call ended before you could even say anything, but you did hear a shriek as it ended. You sat on pins and needles your entire break sending text messages to confirm the exact five minutes you could speak to him only for it to end so abruptly.

After a few hours, Totty sent multiple messages apologizing, and complimenting your voice he did not even get to hear. Seems really fake but once again you'll give him the benefit of the doubt because whatever happened on his end sounded overwhelming.

If you're just misreading it Totty's sincerity will actually be really adorable and sweet.

On the day of the event you dress to impress with all of your piercings in and cutest outfit. Oh, the sacred counsel of Teddy Bears had to be called out in order for you to determine the right amount of color for your outfit.

Black yes was a given, but since it’s a San-X event should you have gone neon or pastel? You went pastel in the end, with a small assortment of cutely cool colors that wouldn’t draw too much attention to themselves but would compliment your outfit otherwise. And of course your make up was carefully applied too.

You went with a dark lipstick instead of black, because you knew sometimes the whole 100% punk thing can be intimidating. But all in all you look great! After all today you could finally end up with a bubblegum boyfriend like you've always wanted!

Ah, this is a route you don’t go on very often isn’t it? You left your apartment extra early to board the train heading southbound.

You’ll need to make two transfers and then walk some but you aren’t familiar with this area in order to find the last short bus route where you agreed to take together.

You also aren’t great at following the phone map. As you walked you searched for your compass because you needed to go east from the train only to find you forgot it at home.

“Um, excuse me...Which way is east from here?” You quietly ask a nice middle aged woman, who blinks in response.

“Let me think, I believe you’re heading down the right way.” She points forward. You notice a glint of hesitation in her eyes, and are grateful she still helped you out even if she seems apprehensive to do so.

“Thank you so much for your help!” When you smile at her, she begins to stop you.

“Excuse me. Do you work at that bookstore not too far from here?”

That’s where it clicks!

“Oh, yes I do! I’m so sorry for not recognizing you, valued customer I have slight face blindness!” Which is true, if you don’t expect to see someone outside of a certain context you don’t even register who they are.

It’s happened so many times, and you have lost friends because of it. You sorta thought you recognized her voice, but now that you think about it this woman is a semi regular.

“Ah, it’s okay. I don’t mean to keep you but I heard there might be new event with housewives in mind, do you know when it will take place?”

She asks very sweetly. “Yes! We’re in the middle of preparing it now, so it’ll be happening in two weeks. It’s for our newly expanded Josei section! We’re trying to attract more women and girls to the store so in the event we’re going to take a survey and find out which new manga titles are the most highly anticipated! We’ll also have a demo for an upcoming joseimuke game by a popular studio! If those don’t interest you, there will be a sale on dramas and later on that day we will have a special surprise comedy guest!”

You excitedly tell her of this large event, you’re so happy she asked about it! You hand her a coupon booklet as well, “These will get you discounts too!” You chatted her ear off for a while, until she asks you, “Oh yes, are you heading east for that event down the road?” while looking at her watch.

“The San-X one? Yes, I am!” You answer diligently.

“The next bus is scheduled soon then, you should run along so you aren’t late!” You look at your phone and with a friendly wave good bye you haul ass so you aren’t late!

Which you weren’t! In fact you still arrived fairly early.

Totty isn’t here yet, so you decide to wait.

And you wait.

And wait. Two buses go by without you aboard.

You wait well past the agreed upon meetup time and just as you were going to head on by yourself, Totty finally shows up. You actually know he's approaching from a distance for multiple reasons you don't wanna get into just yet.

But you will say that Totty is a bit of a disappointment to be honest. It might not just be his outfit or anything but the fact he physically recoils when meeting you at the bus station is a real turn off.

"Heh...hehe...um, it's nice to finally meet you! I'm Todomatsu, but cute girls call me Totty." It was obviously a forced greeting, the guy was sweating and clearly trying not to run away.

"Same to you, Totty." Your reply is even because it might be just a shock to see someone dressed like you out of nowhere.

One look on his face tells you Totty actually seems a bit offended you called him by the nickname. Alright. Won't do that again. An unhealthy amount of silence takes place as you wait for the 3rd bus to pull over to allow boarding. Rudely Todomatsu cuts in front of you to pay first, but as you wait the polite distance you notice him struggling to get enough change for the fare. Uh, that’s weird. “Want me to handle that?”

You ask from over his shoulder while he counts his small amount of change. It’s definitely not enough fare. Todomatsu yelps at the sound of your voice and embarrassingly throws his change in the till.

The driver gives him a semi disgusted face and you totally get it while Todomatsu digs in all of his pockets with growing desperation. Finally you wordlessly pop the remaining coins in with your own fare.

The bus ride is very boring since Todomatsu barely responds to your attempts at small talk, plus his body language is totally uncomfortable and it's making you feel weird.

The ride is also shittier than a usual bad date because Todomatsu fucking stinks. Like not of body odor, but this cheap ass "my first body mist" found rattling inside the trashcan of a 3rd year middle school girl's room.

The smell of the overwhelming alcohol and whatever is supposed to make the 'sugar pink kiss pop' is popping you a major headache in the close quarters.

Eventually you get to the event. This is feeling like you’re pulling your teeth out to be honest, the absolutely awkward and silent treatment is killing you! Once standing in line Todomatsu finally begins to warm up to you a bit, and by warm up you mean he starts "charming" you with PUA tactics.

"Aren't you hot in all of that black? I couldn't wear all of that, I'm getting hot just looking at you. Do you want me to get you a drink? You can pay me back later." Todomatsu's smile at this point is a fraction less strained but still incredibly manufactured. You can tell he felt cringy winking and the second hand embarrassment is gross.

"With what money? Besides I'm not hot. I was wondering if I should get you something instead since you’re so broke and I can see your pit stains. You probably need some water after sweating so much."

Todomatsu doesn't appreciate your comment, the second you turn away to look at your placement in line you swear catch a glimpse of something demonic.

"Soo, which one are you going to take the picture with?" Todomatsu asks with a pinned on grimace-smile. While his tone was casual and even you could tell he wasn’t enjoying this date. You literally haven’t even done anything wrong or weird, which makes you angry because this fucked up aura is on him.

"Rilakkuma. I'm gonna hug that big cuddly sonvabitch until his lil button eyes go pop." You wiggle your hugging fingers in a silly way in anticipation for the bear hugging to lighten the mood.

Todomatsu laughs nervously, "We might get kicked out if you hug that hard..."

"Oh! Maybe they'll just let me unzip his costume and reveal his true form? Isn't it time the people know who's in there?" You know that Rilakkuma is being acted by the person wearing the costume... But maybe there's a hint to Rilakkuma's comic book true identity. Like the actor wearing a little shirt with a clue?

"A man. A very sweaty man who isn't paid is enough to be here is inside of that costume." Todomatsu is sorta a buzz kill, huh?

"Could be an even smaller bear though, maybe a little AI thingy? I've heard those guys are hanging around nowadays."

You're just trying to shoot the breeze at this point, but you can feel your chill cool girl image cracking. You start glaring at the massive line ahead, this isn't really what you expected. Todomatsu seems to catch onto your new forming negative energy too.

The sun glaring into your light sensitive eyes also has a negative effect on your growing bad mood. Usually you enjoy the slight strain when you get to see the big blue sky, but today it isn’t working. Nor is the feeling of the sun on your skin making you feel better, instead you just feel muggy and uncomfortable.

"Yeah. AI. Those are around I guess..." Todomatsu begins leaning over every few minutes to frantically text someone until you glance at him. This scares him further for literally no reason. You barely even looked at him!

You must look hella annoyed at this point, but you say nothing. Not until it's your turn to take a picture with Rilakkuma, which more than brightens your mood immediately.

You were nearly bouncing off of the heels of your platforms the closer you got to Rilakkuma. Yeah, there's other little mascots but Rilakkuma is the original and the most popular for a reason! He's soo cute!! As you hug the little teddy bear you couldn't help but squeal in delight that you loved him!

You feel the shoujo sparkles everywhere, and the weight lifted from your poor heart makes you feel light and airy! When your picture was snapped, you floated off giggling to yourself on a cloud of hopes and dreams.

When you receive the snapshot you nearly twirl when hugging it close to your heart. You look back at Rilakkuma who gives a slight wave in your direction which makes you even happier! The sunshine never felt so sweet before.

“I love you, Rilakkuma! See you again later!” You wave back overly ecstatic.

"So you can make expressions like that too?" Oh. Yeah. Your date.

Like your aforementioned hopes and dreams shattering at once by a voice that honestly should be attached to an idol instead of this dickhead.

"Yeah, with the right motivation." You look at your printed picture but feel like the happiness from it has been stolen a little.

"You should smile more, you'd look way less scary. I had no idea there was such a cute face under all of that edgy doom and gloom." Yeah, Todomatsu is an asshole. This isn't gonna work out at all.

You don't bother to look up from your picture yet as Todomatsu berates you in efforts to smile more. After a few seconds of debate you decide to pull the plug on whatever the hell this was.

"Yeah, not feeling this anymore so I'm gonna go alone from here. Bye." You tuck the picture in a little keepsafe holder before turning to leave.

Todomatsu audibly gasps, even stamping his feet so childishly. "Have fun kissing a metal detector instead of a guy, you weirdo! I only stayed this long because I felt bad for you anyways!"

“You messaged me first.” You tell him quietly with gritted teeth, feeling so much more than offended.

“I swipe right on every girl, and send that line to everyone who matches with me! You weren’t special! Do you know how lucky you are that I even came out here to meet with you?! You look like a vampire! It’s scary!”

You won't let him get away with insulting you after giving his ass the benefit of the doubt multiple times.

The fury bubbles up in your throat until it boils over. But. Instead of cursing or screaming at Todomatsu you pin point in that exact moment how to render him to devastation.

With a calm voice you tell him, "I wonder if anyone would actually ever like the real you, and not the artificial dollar store signature scent version of it. Probably not, you seem nauseating either way."

After finally walking away for good you're consumed with thoughts. Shit, you should've said 'instead of pretending to stomach your artificial dollar store signature scent ass' or something! Aw fuck it would have been great to let him know you were legit going to throw up next to him on the bus too.

You think about these things going around the event, of course your mind takes breaks from new insults when you buy one of every Jinbeisan merch for sale. You stock up on other various cuties, take more pictures and just generally have a great rest of the day on your own. You even got ice cream!

Eating alone at a bench is a bit lonely, you would have much preferred your date to work out if you're honest... But you'd rather be alone than ignore hot pink flags. You're not desperate enough to go out with that guy.

You had to buy totes to carry all of the lil things you bought and it cost you all of your fun money for the month, but it was so worth it. You'll probably deck out your phone tonight and maybe put all of the new stickers onto anything you could get your hands on. Whatever this uncomfortable feeling is will pass, and you'll forget all about it.

[shiishki]

okay wait, i changed my mind. you should answer all of these questions as well, if that's what you want from me >:)

oof there's a lot of it, that's what i get for wanting to be ✨aesthetic✨

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

vowels (and the importance of being me) - hunny

honeypie - jawny

pretty young thing - michael jackson

mirrors - justin timberlake

sunflower - red orange county

paradise - rude-a

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

a therapist.

ok someone else.. uhh,, my grand grandma because i only have scratches of memories but i dunno if that counts since she passed away...

*rummages through ancient scripts* uhh ok someone who isn't dead.. uhm,, tommie? yeah I'd like to meet them if i could meet anyone on earth

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

ok, the closest german, english or polish book? nvm i have english

"suddenly was. So I just said thank you a few times too, and Mum" ironically this is one of the normal lines in this book

4: What do you think about most?

the fact that I'll have to do something after school. and I don't know if i want to go to college or get a job bc i have no legitimate idea on what to do with my life. it gets overwhelming, just the lack of knowledge about the actual experience.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

Ok

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

with, tho i sleep with just shorts in summer

7: What’s your strangest talent?

not sure if it's a talent, but i can fall asleep anywhere

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

girls are pretty. boys are pretty

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

by me, yes. no one else has written a poem about me specifically. nvm, tommie wrote one and it shall rest on my wall, or desk, i need to find a place for it

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

uhh i think last month?

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

i don't think so, but i am hella afraid of the possibly gigantic, terrifying things in the ocean depths that humans haven't discovered yet

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

yep, beloved legos as a lil child

13: What’s your religion?

i can't ever remember the name, but i believe gods (from all religions) exist in some way or form. so i believe in different pantheons and etc.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

walking my doggo, skateboarding, thinking about how to make the lives of my characters worse

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind it.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

uhmm the arctic monkeys? or the strokes

17: What was the last lie you told?

i know what i want

18: Do you believe in karma?

yes, the rule of three specifically

19: What does your URL mean?

i don't know. it's something me and my sis came up with and that's just my whole identity now.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

uhh greatest weakness.. i can't finish things. strength is that I'm very stubborn so maybe I'll finish that thing out of spite

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

i grew up thinking crushes were like unicorns. my ex was odd enough to argue with that i didn't love her if i didn't have a crush on her. but I think if i had to guess.. selena gomez, especially in the role of alex russo in wizard of weverly street

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

nope

23: How do you vent your anger?

i write angry letters. sometimes they're sad letters. i write a lot of letters. except i never send them out and no one made a movie about them :}

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

jars and witchy bottles, books? scented candles

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone calls are stressful enough as is, i don't need you to see my reading off what i frantically wrote to not stumble over my words

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

i think so, yes, but that won't stop me from becoming better

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

hate flies buzzing right by my ear, love cat purring

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

what if I'd been born in a place where it was illegal for me (nonbinary) to live, in a time when others thought of me as a curse?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

they be chilling.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

right arm, doggo, left arm, pillow

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

fresh air and doggo, because doggo is with me and I can't live without open windows

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

i dunno tbh

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

which one is less homophobic?

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

every gender is my opposite gender. selena gomez and justin timberlake

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

to make it easier for people down the line

36: Define Art.

make thing, thing goes woo

37: Do you believe in luck?

yis

38: What’s the weather like right now?

it's nice actually, very sunny, slight breeze

39: What time is it?

12.59 am

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

i don't, but i once crashed into a fire department vehicle with my bike. bike ded.

41: What was the last book you read?

Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

i legit ass don't know what gasoline smells like.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

many variations of my name, aka. Luce

44: What was the last film you saw?

i think it was Robin Hood: King of Thieves, but it might have been that half of spider-man homecoming i managed to watch with my poor internet

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

oh man i dunno... it's not an injury, but i was very sickly as a lil kid and almost died :)

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

once, years ago

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

hmmm horizon zero dawn i think

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

proud pansexual ^^

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

not really, i don't think they're big enough to be actual rumors,, meh

50: Do you believe in magic?

yis

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

meh. they suck, i know they suck, that's it.

52: What is your astrological sign?

cancer ♋

53: Do you save money or spend it?

i attempt saving. attempt

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

for my own money, sweets. i bought lizards for my cats so they can brush their teeth from my dad's amazon acc

55: Love or lust?

luv

56: In a relationship?

nope, i buy my own cookies

57: How many relationships have you had?

1, kinda toxic toward the end, very stressful, don't recommend

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

nu ><

59: Where were you yesterday?

on the fields walking my doggo

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yep, a pastel pink hoodie in my closet uwu

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

yis, thicc warm socks

62: What’s your favourite animal?

cats

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

cuddles and food.

64: Where is your best friend?

bold of you to assume i have a best friend.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

tommie-hildebrandt, kageyuji, nekomas-kuroo, joyful-soul-collector

66: What is your heritage?

I'm a demon boi from Poland tho that's not a thing to be proud of, i mean, look at the economy. awful.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

sleeping, trying to sleep.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Pinkton. or Satan.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

this is such an odd combination of words i had to look it up. yea.

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

a friend who won't laugh at me when i ask them to order smth for me because I'm too anxious to.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

excuse me? i am saving the doggo wtf. f u boss, I'm gonna sell my tragic story to the news.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) i tell my parents. b) live the hell out of them uwu c) nope uwu.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

trust.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

history maker - dean fujioka :]

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

3332

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

communication, trust, some more communication.

77: How can I win your heart?

let's not pretend to be something else to please each other, and bring some bitter chocolate.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

maybe. it could. i don't have a say in it since my sanity is held by tape.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

eat the pizza. stop caring about others not liking me/parts of me. just living for myself uwu.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

uh i dunno how the american sizes work and i don't wanna look it up so, 39, 40 fits too.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

demon boi

82: What is your favourite word?

socks.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

the bloody organ that sits in your chest and pumps blood into your body so you don't die.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

uhm im not sure if that counts as a saying, but fake it till you make it

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

blinding lights - the weeknd

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

oh a normal question people use for ice breaking, sea blue and pastel variations of it.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

like my wallpaper? or the actual picture that sits on my desk? or how my desk looks like atm? it's ugly, a lot of papers and pens and schoolbooks.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

donald trump. or the next asshole who'll try to take the rights of the lgbt and poc away

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

this. this is the question.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

yo there's a pizza somewhere in the refrigerator, want me to heat it up? we can have a sleep over and talk about our feelings :3

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

telekinesis! or shapeshifting! i could do such fun things with telekinesis ^^ yeah I'd totally eat some radioactive veggies

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

that time my "friends" got me into shoplifting, half-hour is more than enough to punch some sense into my brain and develop good music taste

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

can i save this one? i don't think i have an experience horrible enough to be erased haha

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

sleep as in.. uh no thank u. but I'm down for a sleep over with sam smith ^^

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

just me? what about my pets? my fam? it's lowkey illegal for me to go just anywhere without them owO

uhhmm, greece. imma become part of the greek pantheon out of pure spite. and maybe toronto canada.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

not any that i know of o.o

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

i think i may have but i honestly don't remember

98: Ever been on a plane?

nope, i dunno if i like planes, but I'd probably sleep if i were on one.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

yeet.

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SnK Episode 65 Poll Results (for Anime Only Watchers)

The poll closed with 98 responses. Thank you to everyone who participated!

Please note that these are the results for the Anime Only Watchers’ poll. If you wish to see the results for the Manga Readers’ poll, click here.

Anime only watchers, beware of spoilers if you venture over to the manga readers’ poll results.

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RATE THE EPISODE 94 Responses

Although a bit muted compared to last week, the response to this episode was still overwhelmingly positive, with 96.8% of people giving it a rating of 3 and higher. MAPPA’s on a roll!

Amazing!!!!

i just wanna see more!! 20 minutes is not enough. its too good

Awesome episode! Great pacing and the cgi was not too noticeable.

WAAAAYYYYY TOO HYPE

WHICH OF THE FOLLOWING MOMENTS WAS YOUR FAVORITE? 93 Responses

Mikasa and Levi took the spotlight this week! 30.1% of viewers felt most hyped up by Mikasa’s “explosive” reintroduction to the anime, while 22.6% were stoked to see Levi take on Porco to save Eren. 18.3% were most hyped by the Survey Corps taking on the Jaw Titan and the subsequent cliffhanger.

THE CGI CONTINUES TO BE A POINT OF CONTENTION. BE HONEST, HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE EXECUTION OF CGI SO FAR THIS SEASON? 93 Responses

Just under 50% of responses seemed to indicate that they thought MAPPA was doing very well with the CGI utilized. A little over 15% stated that although it was not their favorite, they understood that it could be a lot worse. Other responses (in order) were being neutral about the CGI, not liking it, but understanding the need for its usage and folks who adamantly rejected 3D animation. 

I actually prefer CGI titans because of the way their movements looks, it looks almost slower, to me it fits very well with how the big titans are. Im not an anime guy at all so ive never seen cgi in other anime but i really like the way Mappa's CGI looks, it blends in very well. I dont like CGI people though, the shot with Jean throwing the marly soldier off the rooftop i didn't like very much.

I feel horrible saying this believe me... but I really vibed with the CGI up until this episode. I think maybe because it's the first time its been used on humans (OPM) rather then titans. I'm not massively put off though, I really apreciate the efforts this episode must have taken. TY Mappa

The episode is great no doubt, my only concern is the CG personally, as a 3D artist myself, I think I would prefer an all 2D medium like the battle at Stohess. Using 3D is fine as long as it blends seamlessly to the background, like kengan ashura, it's not perfect but bearable.

I honestly think that 2D will always 100% be better than cgi but I can understand why mappa is using cgi

It was fine in the other episodes, but in this episode, it looked overused and bit bad

HOW WAS EREN’S ROOFTOP SWAN DIVE? 94 Responses

When it came down to Eren’s swan rooftop dive (“Like a fallennn angel…”), the majority seemed to be impressed, with 68% giving it a score of 4 or higher. It was not a monolithic opinion however and many seemed also rated it poorly. Do better, Eren!

WHICH RETURNING CHARACTER’S ENTRANCE WAS YOUR FAVORITE IN THIS EPISODE? 94 Responses

The Survey Corps has returned! Of these reappearances, viewers most enjoyed Mikasa’s (48.9%), Levi’s (31.9%) and Sasha’s (14.9%) the most. Jean and Connie got a little less love, though we’re sure people were still happy to see them!

WHICH RETURNING CHARACTERS HAS THE BEST GLOW UP? 93 Responses

It would appear that the slight plurality sees Mikasa as having the best glow up out of the cast, followed by (in order) Eren, Sasha, Connie, Jean, Floch and Levi. The Old Captain doesn’t like to change up his style, we suppose. 

Eren didn't have a glow up- he had a glow down.

Mikasa can stomp on me please god

OF ALL THE ORIGINAL CAST, WE STILL HAVE NOT SEEM ARMIN, HANGE OR HISTORIA YET. WHICH OF THE THREE ARE YOU MOST LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING NEXT? 93 Responses

In relation to the previous question, we still haven’t seen 3 major members of the cast. Armin, Hange and Historia. When we asked which of the three you were most looking forward to seeing next, the slight majority (52.7%) expressed their excitement for seeing Armin again, followed by 11.8% wanting to see Hange most. Some others have also expressed their desire to see Historia again. 17.2% simply could not choose and 10.8% stated that they simply didn’t care about the 3 characters.

WHAT DID YOU THINK ABOUT THE WARHAMMER TITAN? 90 Responses

The Warhammer received an overwhelmingly positive response, with the majority expressing much excitement over both its design and powers. 15.6% noted that the design was a bit too creepy for their liking, but the powers were awesome. And on the flip side, 10% noted the Titan’s design was rather cool, in contrast to its rather OP ability. A select few did not enjoy either aspect. 

Would probably enjoy it more if it belonged to someone that likely is not going to be just cannon fodder

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE NEW UNIFORMS? 92 Responses

The Survey Corps returned sporting new uniforms to much fanfare. 30.4% of respondents really enjoy the upgrade, finding the suits to be badass. 23.9% couldn’t find the words and just settled for pure hype. 20.7% enjoy the new uniforms just as much as they enjoy the classic uniforms. 12% felt it was a much needed upgrade, though 10.9% don’t care at all about the uniform change.

I like both but I prefer the old design

EREN SAYS TO MIKASA, “YOU GUYS ACTUALLY CAME.” THIS IS FOLLOWED UP BY MIKASA ASKING EREN TO COME HOME. DOES THIS INSINUATE THAT EREN WENT TO THE MAINLAND ON HIS OWN? 90 Responses

The circumstances of the Survey Corps’ presence on the mainland continues to be a mystery. When we asked about whether Eren was there alone or not a few episodes ago, the majority believed that he was either there alongside the Survey Corps or was sent there by them. Overall, the feelings seem to be the same (that Eren came alongside the Survey Corps). 45.6% think that Mikasa’s words may have some other meaning and that things are way too planned out to be coincidence. 18.9% believe that Eren did go rogue, while 15.6% think that Eren didn’t necessarily go rogue, but wasn’t working with them for a while either. The remaining 20% have already been spoiled on this particular plot point.

THE ATTACK ON LIBERIO SEEMS TO PARALLEL THE BREACH OF SHIGANSHINA. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THIS EVENT IN COMPARISON? 92 Responses

Now that both sides of the conflict have had their rude awakening, we asked how you guys felt about the two events comparatively. 33.7% feel that both attacks were tragic, but still feel more empathy toward the Eldians on Paradis than they do toward those who were raised on Marley. At a tie, 22.8% of respondents felt that the victims of the Liberio attack got what was coming with them, while another 22.8% felt about the same amount of sympathy for the victims on both sides. 10.9% feel this is way worse than what happened in Shiganshina and feel more sympathy for the victims in Liberio. 

I am yet to know the goals behind this attack.

Marley did this countless times so I don’t feel bad for them. I kind of feel for eldians tho bc they are brainwashed from a young age to give up their lives for a country who doesn’t give a shit about them. 

Honestly they deserve what Eren is doing to them. Excluding Falco, no one outside of Paradis has earned my sympathy, even with the additional context.

SADLY, UDO AND ZOFIA DID NOT SURVIVE THE ATTACK ON LIBERIO. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THEIR DEATHS? 91 Responses

Udo and Zofia have joined the ranks of characters who tagged along with the main cast for a while only to be killed off for character development. 25.3% anticipated at least one of them to die, but not both. Another tie on this poll, 24.2% stated that they were disappointed and was hoping to see more of them, while another 24.2% didn’t care about them at all. 14.3% are happy to ditch the focus on them in favor of more familiar characters, and 8.8% feel pure and utter devastation. 

Good riddance Warrior scum

Sad but allows for Gabi’s development 

sad but okay. death is common in this anime.

EREN AND FLOCH’S LAST INTERACTION IN S3 WAS A VERY TENSE ARGUMENT. NOW IT SEEMS FLOCH IS DEDICATED TO EREN’S CALL TO ACTION, SHIFTING THE “NECESSARY DEVIL” STATUS FROM ERWIN ONTO HIM. WHAT DO YOU THINK THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS LIKE NOW? 91 Responses

Eren and Floch were anything but BFF’s at the closing of season 3. Now Floch seems to be wholly devoted to Eren’s cause… What changed? 28.6% believe that nothing has actually changed in terms of their relationship, but that Floch simply just latched onto Eren’s fight in need of a new devil. 23.1% feel that they still aren’t friends, but are in more comfortable “ally” territory. 15.4% aren’t sure what to make of it. Smaller handfuls feel that they either grew to become friends and/or co-conspired to attack Liberio together. 22% are already spoiled on the details. 

Floch is easily persuaded...and annoying 🤷‍♀️

WE SEE GABI GRAB THE GUARD’S FUN AFTER WITNESSING SASHA KILL HIM. WHAT DO YOU THINK MIGHT HAPPEN? 90 Responses

Gabi moves headstrong into the fight, wanting to play her part in defending her hometown. A large chunk of anime only viewers have been spoiled on future developments for her character. But for those still in the dark - 24.4% feel that she will successfully kill a member of the Survey Corps. 21.1% aren’t sure what to expect, while 10% think she will only manage to injure someone in the Survey Corps. Smaller amounts feel she won’t be successful in any capacity or may even die herself.

ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS ON THE EPISODE?

Epic episode, survey corps come back, OH YEAH, but I wished they didn’t use CGI on humans and bettered the CGI on Titans.

It really makes me sad how Eren is continuing the cycle of revenge by killing innocent Marleyan civilians, but it makes sense for his character. 

Real cool ep but w h e r e a r m i n

It sucks that I like the warriors and the Corp bc both of them are victims in different way so seeing them have to go head to head sucks. They all deserve better

SO great I loved it! However, I missed Reiner, Falco, and Zeke. I hope they're okay :-) RIP Udo and Zofia :-(

I think I need more dialogue between the old crew to really settle back in with them. I kinda believe that Mappa's still trying to 'click', they obviously can't just get it right immediately. Other then that I loved the titan scenes, more than ODM scenes 😔

This was a great episode and I was literally vibrating in my seat from excitement! I think MAPPA is doing a great job with the animation and the music works really well with the action. Can’t wait for the rest of the season!

I miss wit studio

Willy seems to have his first daughter really early, he looks like 30 !

I’d say the episode as a whole is a solid 8-9/10, the cgi in some parts really ruins the moment for me

WHERE DO YOU PRIMARILY DISCUSS THE SERIES? 88 Responses

Thanks again to everyone who participated!

[whimsywit]

Hey, it's me again! ^.^ I was wondering if I could order a red velvet truffle this time. As a reminder, here's the info from the previous request (with new info that I forgot to mention on the other one 😅):

I'm a 5'4" tall, straight Virgo girl with brown eyes, glasses (I only need them for distance since my eyes can't focus all too well). My hair color is currently blonde, but I'm dying it platinum blonde (dying it from dark auburn so the color rn is kinda a caramel color). I'm pretty chubby, but I guess not that chubby since I'm not obese but not exactly healthy either....

Let's see... I'm pretty shy at first when meeting knew people, and tend to talk so fast I trip over my words from time to time and get tongue tied (This gets worse around a guy I like and it frustrates me). The more someone gets to know me, the more talkative I become (which doesn't mean I wanna talk all the time, I'd be happy listening to him talk more than me, but I do tend to go into an excited rant like Midoriya if someone brings up something I really like [aka MHA 🤣]). I'm sweet, caring, loyal to a fault but I can be stubborn when I wanna be and insecure (boy with me must have extreme patience)...

I love listening to music, singing (I haven't sang in front of a huge crowd before), reading, writing (though my brain jumps back and forth between ideas, so I haven't exactly finished writing a fanfic yet 😅). I get flustered easily when complimented, so....

Dislikes include bullies (I was bullied myself, so I hate it when other people do it) cheaters (been cheated on in a relationship, no way do I wanna go through it again), alcoholics and drug addicts (I would explain why but I don't wanna get into something that might trigger someone, so I won't get into the details, just know that my biological Dad was one and I've seen what alchohol and drugs can do to someone... It's not pretty)

Talents: I know for sure that singing is one of them (which is one of my hobbies XD) and I'm told I'm a talented writer (writing is also one of my hobbies :3), but given the fact that I have a brain that keeps switching focus on ideas for different fandoms I haven't finished anything yet 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅

Fears: The list could go on forever.... I have a slight stage fright (I shake a bit until I start singing, but I don't freeze up, never ask me to public speak thou...). I'm insecure as well, so my biggest fear is not being good enough (I can't remember if I already told you if I'm insecure and the boy paired with me is gonne have to be super duper patient 😅)

Aspirations: I really wanna be a singer one day (I'm actually doing voice lessons so I'm on my way there! ^.^) I'm good at writing lyrics but composing music? Not so much XD Oh, I do eventually wanna have a family, just later down the road with the right guy ^.^

I admire someone who is brave, compassionate, loyal to a fault (as loyal as I am ^.^ and I don't mind if he gets a bit protective of me XD)...

But, since I got dragged into too much drama during high school, I hate people who spread rumors for attention, players (people who date multiple people), and I usually stay away from people who are arrogant beyond belief (believing in urself is important, but it becomes a problem if you're over confident, know what I mean?) and people who are conceited (not to say that loving yourself isn't important, it is! I just don't like it when people are obsessed with themselves.... If that made any sense XD)

Anyways, thank you for even reading this and I hope you enjoy the rest of your day!

OKAY GIRL FIRST OF ALLLLL tysm for all the likes on my stuff, it means so much that you like and support my blog even tho this took forever for me to get to (i really appreciate you for waiting so long btw) 🥺💖💗 Now, for your patiently awaited matchup, I thought you’d be best with...

Izuku Midoriya!

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OOH back to back protag boyfriends, lucky you ;0 It actually took me a while to land on him but I have no idea why, you guys are so similar it hurts in the best way possible oml—

First off, he’s ecstatic to find someone that doesn’t mind his muttering and rambling, even more so when he discovers you do it too! You’re both naturally shy and easily flustered (which makes for some very entertaining scenes when you’re both pining for each other and get all stuttery and flushed, people have full on brought out snacks and watched 👀👀) but it also means you understand one another well, able to comfort and assure the other with ease.

In more ways than one, if you really think about it. Both of you have a history of bullying, a tendency for low self-esteem, daddy issues, gosh your relationship is so mutualistic both of you always know what to say to lift the other up 🥺 On top of all that you also greatly admire each other—Izuku’s the bravest and sweetest guy you know by far, while he thinks you’re incredibly talented in turn. You constantly support each other with your goals, heroism and stardom respectively, fighting back whenever insecurities and doubts start to bleed through because you just care for the other so so deeply, and I’m def starting to sound like a broken record so lemme move onto the zodiac portion asjfakshswajdb

Izuku is a Cancer, a bit more of an emotional sign than Virgos tend to be, but that doesn’t make you guys any less close! The relationship is a very sincere, secure, and down-to-earth one, as along with everything else you have near-identical beliefs and domestic desires (which will make his mom very happy, she’s always wanted grandkids ûwû) so no matter what hiccups you may face, you guys always power through it ^w^

There’s not much else to say lmao, you guys are practically inseparable. All your nights are spent reading together and discussing your writings, yours being stories while his were hero notes, listening to music all the while, until it gets turned down in favor of your voice that sings him to sleep. He much prefers it anyway, and will for the rest of his life〜

[imagine-lcorp]

Next to You (One Shot)

Request

1)Hey, I really love ur imagines❤ Can u do one for me plz? R is Lena's girlfriend. Maybe something like: Reign attacks Lena, and reader saves her but still got injured. Some fluff after that))

2)Hi! Can you write where somebody attacks Lena and reader without superpowers protects her and get injured. After that Lena is taking care of her girlfriend

A/N: Hello my beautiful beans, I’m here once again finally bringing you the LAST REQUEST on my long and overdue list of requestssss, I’m so happy i’ve been able to finish this and so glad because request will be open again, and i hope that you send some and trust me with your ideas although I might need over a year to finish them, but either way this has been fun and yes I’ll keep doing it. So thanks to the anons that sent their requests, i tried to fusion this two in my own take of that scene on season 3, you know which one, so i hope you enjoy it and please let me know what you think! As always, I love y’all!!

Lena Luthor x Fem!R//Word Count: 1,471

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"Wow, and I thought I had a good view from CatCo." You said as you approached Lena, wrapping your arms around her and taking in the sights from her window.

You had wished to stay a bit longer in bed with her, joining that peace for a moment longer. But the day was just about to start and you tried to seize every second you had with her before doing the things that had to be done and solved if you wanted to keep the city as it was. It certainly made you feel strange, how the world could end at any moment and yet you would have let it happen if it meant spending another moment with Lena in your arms.

"I like waking up next to you." Lena turned around and looked at you, moving her arms to wrap herself around your neck, and if Lena could have read your thoughts she would have agreed.

"Waking up by your side every morning is like my wildest dream."

"So you dream about me, uh." A little smirk appeared on the corner of her lips.

"Every night." You would have been lying if you had said otherwise and Lena smiled fully at your answer. "Serious talk, tho. Haven't you thought about getting your own place?"

"When I first moved to National City I didn't know if I was gonna stay. Lex was in prison, the company was in shambles. I didn't know if I was gonna put down roots, settle down... In case the city rejected me." She moved her arms hesitantly around your neck and started to fidget with the collar of your shirt.  

Lena looked down for a moment and you took her hands in yours, placing them on your chest. You could sense her nervousness. It wasn't the first time you had seen her like this while trying to talk to her about the subject. Even after all these years living in National City, and even with all the friends she had made since, she felt out of place.

"Well, it's been two years, and you have done so much for the city. I think it's safe to say you could sign your own lease."

"Even with Supergirl thinking the worst of me?"

"She'll have to get over it someday. She can't stay mad at you." You assured her.

"You think so?"

"She really can not. After all you told me last night, there's no way she won't change her mind. What you did, it was to help a friend. I'm sure she can understand that."

"What about the Kryptonite? Do you think she will come around that too?"

"That too. I mean, there's a reason why you needed it and it's not like you were using it to deliberately hurt her. Give it time." You finished softly.

Lena had unfolded all the truth of her complicated life last night to you, not wanting to hold more secrets. After what had happened, discovering that Sam was a Worldkiller, sending Ruby away, and being discovered by Supergirl, it was all building up inside of her. She had hesitated a moment before letting you know all those things but you didn't stop to question her reasons until she was done telling you.

She had feared your reaction but you didn't run away or accused her of any of the possible crimes any other would have claimed against you. Instead you listened, tried your best to understand the situation, never doubting Lena's intentions, and she loved you because of it.

"How do you always know what to say?" She couldn't stop looking at you with adoration.

"Maybe that's my superpower."

"I'm really glad I can tell you my secrets now."

"You always can." You saw her smile.

You had wished to stay a bit longer like this, looking into her beautiful eyes and letting everything else around you fade, but the day had just started and you were far from solving the end of the world. Proof of it was the sudden blast of broken glass that followed a moment later. You barely had time to react and protect Lena from the shards of glass flying into your direction.

"Where's the child?" Reign screamed after bursting into the room.

"Lena! Get do-!" You pushed Lena out of Reign's reach but got caught in the middle.

"You wouldn't happen to know where she is, would you?" Reign held you by the neck in a swift movement. Her hand closing around it until your lungs were out of air. However, she had no intention to keep playing with you. You weren't the person she was looking for and had no problem getting you out of her way.

"Where is Ruby Arias?" She screamed again, tossing you across the room. You hit the opposite wall and collapsed like a rag doll,  except you doubted a rag doll would have felt her bones break.    

Lena came rushing in a second, kryptonite sprayer in hand, ready to face Reign. "You will never find her."  

Surprised by Lena's attack Reign inhaled the kryptonite and had no other choice but to fly away before it caused her more damage.

It wasn't everyday you got to see a supervillian run away like a sprayed kitten so you let out a chuckle that unfortunately made your ribs hurt like hell.

"(Y/N)!" Lena dropped the spray and ran towards you. "You are gonna be okay, darling, help is coming."

You nodded slowly at her, trying not to move and concentrating on her words. The pain was becoming more and more evident with each passing minute. You hand't fully realized how bad your injuries were until Reign was gone but you still thanked the skies above you were still alive.  

A DEO team reached the apartment soon after and you were taken to the their medical bay as fast as it was possible to be attended. Lena had to stay behind, explaining J'onn and Supergirl what had happened, but you assured her you were going to be fine.

You ended up with a couple of broken ribs, a slight concussion, and Lena staying at your own apartment most nights. She had wanted to make sure you were following the doctor's orders and offered herself to help you at home. She would come after work to help you prepare dinner or help you out with some chores that you couldn't do by yourself, or that she would deem to hurtful in your current condition.

A few mornings were spent around the kitchen, a couple of late evenings trying to decide which movie to watch, and a few others with her reminding you to take your medicine as you both worked beside each other, still trying to find a solution to the Reign problem.

Somehow you knew it was an excuse for her to keep an eye on you and a form of apology for what Lena considered had been her fault but you were glad to have her around. It had been your wildest dream, after all, and Lena also seemed to have surprised herself. Domestic life wasn't something she thought could suit her but as she spent time with you she got used to your presence and the little routine you had managed to create.

"You're doing much better, it seems like you won't need me around anymore." She said one afternoon after you finished your lunch.

"Actually, Lena, I was hoping, uh, you may like to...stay with me?" You said a bit hesitant.

Lena looked at you across the table, not completely sure about what you were asking. "Are you suggesting I move in with you?"

"I know this isn't a five star hotel and it's far from being a mansion like the one where you grew up but," you took a deep breath before continuing, feeling a knot of nervousness in your stomach, "it would make me really happy if you decided to stay around more than often. Maybe for breakfast, and lunch, and dinner. You could take the right side of my closet and of my bed, or the left side, which ever you prefer. We could binge watch every episode of Friends until we fall asleep on the couch and, best of all, I could wake up by your side every morning."

Lena was staring at you and you knew by her surprised expression she hadn't expected something like this. You rambled without pause, worrying that if you stopped you wouldn't get it out or mess it all up. Then you took a deep breath and felt your cheeks burn up.

"You don't have to decide right now, just think about it." You finished.

A moment passed before she answered with the biggest smile you had seen in her."(Y/N). I really like waking up next to you too."

[nicklukenelson]

Calm, 5sos album review

They're not in order cuz I didn't know the order sorry! (Ps: I know this is long but I dont know how to hide text under the cut, Sorry!)

Red desert: I LOVE THIS SONG! It's pretty repulsive but that kinda just adds to the vibe? It's a very vibey and disco dance night kinda song and even though the4 lyrics are repeated it feels different every time they say it lol! I love this one, absolute bop: 10/10

Best year: okay okay I'm loving Luke's voice! The lyrics are so cute too and a little sad but its 5sos so... This song feels like the embodiment of every trope ever in a y/n fanfic!! "I wanna hold your hair when you drink to much, carry you home when you can not stand up"??? Tell me that not a 5sos y/n fanfic I DARE YOU! It's a little repetitive and not to be problematic on main but I preferred the acoustic version with just Luke. This ones got a lot going on OH THOSE DRUMS! Okay wait his voice so snapped at the end there that was INEDIBLE! 7.5/10

Old me: THIS SONG IS SO HECKIN ADORABLE OKAY?!?! AND IT DOES NOT DESERVE THE HATE. The lyrics are cute and the music video is ABSOLUTE PERFECTION so... the chorus is a little boring but the VERSES SLAP SO FUCKING HARD! His falsetto! I really love Luke's voice on this one and the harmonies buuut the chorus is a little...eh? The drums and bass is so cool tho! The songs a little long but I LIVE for the bridge and the symbolism in their lyrics, Ima give this one a 6/10

Not In the Same Way- this song just wastes no time to knock you off your feet, OMG! I really like the lyrics but his voice is a little boring, WAIT NVM TAKE THAT BACK! "We fuck then we fight then you call me a psycho"!!! I LOVE THAT LYRIC! "Throw rocks at your window" these boys have an obsession with vandalism lol! I REALLY like the lyrics but the "Not in the same way" is kinda throwing the whole vibe off for me. I DO love the beat and flow of the song and how he sings rhe lyrics especially the spinning effect added at the end of "psycho". THE BRIDGE UGH THATS THE BEST PART OF ALL OF THE SONGS! OKAY! listened to this song about 3 times more and this song is definitly a bop 7/10

Lover Of Mine: highkey whenever I hear the title I think of the song by Alannah Myles, lol. The guitar is so pretty and his voice is too! Really smooth so far everything flows so beautifully. "Butterfly lies" is that a parallel to Teeth? THAT HUM WHO GAVE HIM THE RIGHT! It's so fucking cute I can't....the prechorus wow! The falsetto! The chorus! The drums! This entire song slaps so fucking hard, it makes me want to propose and sob at the same time 10/10

Thin White Lines: I love how it starts with the guitar/base, then the beat gets heavier and then Luke's vocals just coat it on top, beautiful progression! The chorus kinda slaps you in the face tho, ngl. I love the harmonies and the vocals and the beat buuuut it feels simultaneously too slow and too fast? Like not fast enough for dancing but too slow for the soft vibe, imo. Once again the bridge fucking slaps! "I dont think I like me anymore, can someone tell me who I was before". Lowkey, my favourite part of the song 5/10

Lonely Heart: so I already decided I loves this one from the title, sorry not sorry. THE SOFT COUNTING AT THE BEGINNING! Very stripped down so Luke's voice is the main focus, as a luke girl, I like it very much. The hint of vibrato when he sings "follow" but its breathy and more intimate is so amazing! I love that it feels like he's singing to me in this one! Okay the songs getting a bit fuller and BAMN hit ya with that chorus, my dudes! I love this chorus! The harmonies and simultaneous singing is giving me queens vibes and then the way it fades out back into an acoustic but the guitar is layered eith the beat now! THE HARMONIES! This song lures you in with a soft, comforting embrace and then SLAPS you in the face with the chorus but in a way where you want to thank them, lol! I'm not as big of a fan of the lyrics but the rest is perfection, omg. AND THE BRIDGE WOOPITY WOO! THE RUNS!!!!!!! 9/10

No shame: I love the base? On this song it's so cool! Also the close ups on Luke's face during the MV are nice,😏 I like this song basically jsut makes fun of society, it's a whole mood honestly. I'm gonna give it an extra point because of the highnotes, but, it kinda bores me, I'm sorry 😔 4/10

Easier ( live from the vault): okay yall I see where the hate comes from but I LIVE for this song. It is very poppy but it's still good, C'MON! It's a song I could dance to and the lyrics are something I really relate with. I'm also giving props cuz this song is a BITCH to sing, lol! Solid 7/10

Teeth: listen y'all this is my favorite song at the moment so I might be a *bit* biased, lol! I love the background stuff its SOO GOOD! Also this song is as well another song that is a fucking BITCH to sing so, props. I seriously want " late night devil" tattooed on me somewhere like especially with this quarantine🤔 THE BRIDGE IS SO SENSUAL! I love this song so much and refuse to find anything wrong with it so im giving it a 10/10

High: HOW DARE THEY START OFF BY LITERALLY WHISPERING IN MY EAR! His vocals slap so hard already, geez! GOOSEBUMPS!! The moment his voice got deep and all raspy, I was not prepared! "I need to stop letting me down" is my motto and the way he sings that is so fucking pretty. His voice is so so so pretty in this and smooth but still has that breathy quality and slight rasp that makes it feel so personal! And that high (ha!) note on "down" in the chorus? 😍 I like that this song doesnt really have much going on and how at the end the boys join in at the chorus and then how they end it on a lower note 15/10

[sailorzakuro]

MY BIG STRICTLY PARTY POST OF THE 2019 FINAL

Hi I’m shitting Kelvin and Oti won KELVIN AND FUCKING QUEEN OTI WON I cannot believe it I would have been happy with ANY of them but ngl I had a soft spot for Kelvin and Oti and THEY ONLY WENT AND DID IT. THEY BLOODY WON IT. You know when you watch the launch show and you look at them all and you think “I wonder which one of them will be the winner?”, WELL TURNS OUT NONE OF THEM COS KELVIN DID IT HE WON I AM SO HAPPY. K now for the content here we go...

Karim and Amy (Quickstep) - OH THIS WAS SO MUCH MORE ENJOYABLE SECOND TIME ROUND. I mean there was NOTHING wrong with it last time but it just had a tad more flair to it this time, WELL DESERVED 40.

Emma and Anton (Charleston) - Judges put her right in it giving her a recently high scored dance but it was a treat to see her do it just with Anton XD. Not much improvement but it was pretty good the last time anyway, just nice to watch rather than a progression but that wasn’t Emma’s fault at all.

Kelvin and Oti (Rumba) - SHIT BEAR WITH ME NEED TO PREPARE TO TALK ABOUT THE WINNERS K HERE WE GO. I have to say Kelvin definitely got more of the Rumba flow this time around, it was great! Him and Oti’s chemistry and partnership has really grown over the series which is VERY evident in this dance and it was one of the best male Rumbas to date.

Karim and Amy (Showdance) - I SAW NOTHING WRONG WITH IT CRAIG HUSH. Karim really put his soul into this dance and he and Amy executed it BEAUTIFULLY it was amaziiiiiiing this really showed his natural talent and his performance abilities.

Emma and Anton (Showdance) - K yeah I agree with Craig on the synchronisation issues but she looked like she was enjoying it SO much, it suited them so so so sooooo well and it was really enjoyable!

Kelvin and Oti (Showdance) - I ACTUALLY GOT TIRED JUST WATCHING THIS FUCK IT WAS LIKE THEY WERE ON FAST FORWARD. This dance may have been why he won lmao NOT COMPLAINING IT WAS EVERYTHING. LITERALLY. Perfect is all I can say wow.

Karim and Amy (Jive) - AMY’S HAIR WAS MORE LIKE TRACY’S THAN PENNY’S THIS TIME THANK FUCK. All that needed improving from last time lmao perfect yet again.

Emma and Anton (Viennese Waltz) - CRAIG YOU STINGY SHIT GIVE EM A 10 THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL. She looked so much more relaxed, their chemistry was amazing, that was Emma’s best dance ever. She ended on such a good note.

Kelvin and Oti (Samba) - K yeah it still didn’t beat Danny’s Samba with Oti but IT WAS PRETTY DARN FUCKING CLOSE holy crap I am SO happy they chose to do this again!! I thought they wouldn’t cos WHO LIKES THE SAMBA but fuck it was amazing we love you Kelvin AND WE LOVE YOU OTI it had flow it had bounce it had ACTION it was just the BEST dance to possibly end the series on. Also it was difficult to not see that dance through the eyes of “OH SO THIS IS HOW KELVIN’S GONNA DANCE OKAY” I always associate that dance with him being the newcomer who got everyone shook but he won the series with it sooooo... XD.

And now we move on to... THE LOSERS DANCE. MY FAVOURITE PART OF EVERY SERIES. Although now I’m tempted to call it the rejects group like Anneka did XD. They came out in ORDER this time, thank you XD. James and his pancakes, ICONIC, Anneka was clearly itching to get back in that dress and rip Dev and Dianne gone too soon man GONE TOO SOON. I wish David had his Batman mask on tho rip. CATHERINE AND JOHANNES MY LOVELYS I LOVED SEEING THEM BEYONCE IT UP AGAIN honestly I stan that friendship we love we really love. I loved everyone passing the towels for V.Emma and Aljaz like their most iconic moment was TOWELS XD. WILL MY MAN WILL CAME BACK WE LOVE I stg on ITT they said Will’s training for Tokyo 2020 then they had a special guest, and then... Will was just there?? Like honestly I was expecting Jamie fucking Laing to show up but no I guess the special guest was Will but I expected him to be there anyway so?? LOL MIKE RIDING THAT POLE AGAIN WAS ICONIC I was half expecting another conga to break about but oh well XD. MICHELLE BROUGHT BACK THE VOGUING WE STAN A QUEEN WHO WILL KEEP VOGUING DESPITE NO SOD LIKING IT WE LOVE DEDICATION. Saffron’s most iconic moment was... a typical Paso move?? Okay... ANYWAY Alex and Neil were just bopping in front of some gospel singers honestly the opportunity to have Kevin shove Neil out the way was RIGHT THERE and nobody took it I’m mad. AND OMG WHEN MY LOVELY RAMSEY CAME OUT I SCREAMED WE FUCKING LOVE CHRIS RAMSEY IT’S LIKE HE NEVER WENT AWAY YES CHRIS WE LOVE YOU. And that was the end of the losers dance, this has been a written description by me and we stan Chris and Karen.

And now on to... THE CROWNING MOMENT. THE WINNING MOMENT. Honestly seeing them all stood there with Emma and Anton in the middle I thought they were gonna win. I STILL WOULD HAVE BEEN ABSOLUTELY BUZZING, but I thought it would be them. And I have to be honest, if it were Karim and Amy I would have half expected it. If it were Emma and Anton I would have half expected it. BUT FOR SOME REASON I DIDN’T THINK KELVIN AND OTI WOULD WIN IDK WHY. He was clearly very popular and an actual talented dancer, idk maybe I thought because he was my VERY SLIGHT preference he wouldn’t win. BUT HE DID. FUCK.

I LEGIT CRIED I HAD NO IDEA I HAD SO MANY EMOTIONS REGARDING KELVIN AND OTI BUT LIKE I CRIED XD. I cried like Kelvin’s dad OH WE STAN WARREN I WANT HIM ON NEXT YEAR. Him and Jamie Laing XD. Motsi was bawling, Warren was bawling, Liz was bawling AND SO WAS I FUCK. I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy about a Strictly winner as I am these two. VERY WELL FUCKING DESERVED.

All I wanna say now is thank you to ANYONE who has read these incredibly biased reviews of mine XD. I’ve loved FINALLY expressing my love of Strictly without fearing judgement of loving a show that’s “for the elderly”, and this fandom is so amazing and so welcoming. To anyone that has replied to me once or even become a friend, THANK YOU. I’ve loved this year and I can’t wait to do this again next year. AND DON’T THINK I WON’T BE DOING ONE FOR THE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL BECAUSE I AM btw I may be incredibly biased to Dianne SORRY BUT OTI AND KAREN BOTH MADE IT REALLY FAR SO MY FAVOURITE CHRISTMAS PRO IS DIANNE XD. I shall see you after Christmas then!! <3 <3 <3

[midnight-writ3r]

Baby blue is your colour

Bang chan x Genderneutral reader

Genre: Fluff, Tooth-rotting Fluff, slight angst (almost nothing tbh)

Summary: You and Chan have been a couple for quite a while now, yet you never had the courage to talk about this: How you like to dress up and feel pretty, look at yourself in the mirror and see how cute you are.

Little do you know, Chan might be just as in love with this idea, as he is with you.

A/N: Okay so Chan is literally the softest human in the world??? And I love him???? He's so supportive and understanding, which is why I can picture this scenario so well 💓 hope u like it!

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It wasn't meant to happen like this. You had planned the whole conversation out, every word, every gesture and everything you wanted to say. The only issue are your nerves, as you keep postponing the conversation, until it would be too late.

And right now, as Chris comes out of your room with a baffled expression and something very familiar, dangling from his hand, you realize it is too late. The pink choker can not possibly be the only thing he found, judging from his expression. That scares you. How would he react?

Even though the two of you have been together for almost three months now, you had never let your passion slide. Of course, at some point you had to talk to him about it, but you had hoped that time wouldn't come... Ever.

However, now, there is nothing else to do but talk about it.

"Chris", you start carefully, "Look, I can explain-"

"I just wanted to borrow a sweatshirt, mine got tomato sauce on it." he starts talking at the same time as you do, pointing awkwardly at his stained clothes, "And I found this box. Y/N, what is this...?"

To your surprise, he doesn't sound threatening or angry at all. Rather curious, if you let yourself be hopeful.

You take a brave inhale and carefully take his hand, "Come, I'll show you."

Like a lost puppy, he follows you back into your room. The box, usually hidden away in the depths of your closet is wide out in the open and you can't help but wince. Kneeling down, you pull it out onto the carpet.

Chris watches with wide eyes, as you pull out more chokers, overknee-socks, plushies, sweaters, garter belts, skirts and even underwear. All of it is drenched in a wide range of pastel colours and you can't help but smile, as you look at your collection.

It had started as an experiment, you remember that much. There was a cute girl on instagram, that had a style, so sweet you were entranced by it. And you wanted it, too. The next thing you knew, you had started to order more and more items, dressing up, when you felt stressed. It made you feel at ease. Soft and fragile and cute. All the things that gave you strength in their own way.

"D-do you wear those yourself?" Chris asks, kneeling down on the other side of the box.

This is the moment where you could lie. Maybe tell him that they belonged to a friend? No, the universe had given you this one chance to be true, so you would take it. After all, this is an important part of you and if Chris doesn't like it, there is nothing you can do about it.

"Yeah..." your voice is barely a whisper, but you're proud you spoke at all.

Humming, Chris reaches for a baby blue sweater, with clouds printed over it. One of your personal favourites. He eyes it, runs his fingers over the fabric and, to your astonishment, smiles.

Suddenly, he pulls his grey sweater off, over his head. You stare with your mouth agape, watching him pull the baby blue sweater on instead. It's huge on you, so the sleeves still manage to reach almost over his fingers. He looks so cute, you want to squeal. However, the shock of the turn of events, freezes you entirely.

Chris bites his lip nervously and shuffles, to look at himself in your mirror, "Ah yeah... I can see why you like it."

You cry then, the relief and happiness overwhelming you, as you finally understand the situation. He's looking at himself in the mirror and there it is: That expression. You could recognize it from a mile away; that moment of content and warmth, when you realize you're completely at home in your body.

Quickly, you grab a soft, pink and white striped sweater from your pile and throw it over your shirt. With an excited smile, you grab two of your favourite chokers. You wipe off the tears with your sweaterpaws and crawl to his side. He jolts, as if you just ripped him from a trance.

Giggling, you put on your own choker and show the other one to your boyfriend. Chris eyes it curiously, a little tinge to his cheeks. Then, he turns his neck to you and you understand, clasping the blue leather around his throat. When he looks in the mirror again, he looks like he's trying to keep himself from beaming too much. He fails, but you don't tell him.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he asks.

"I..." you bury your face into his neck, "I was scared that... That you wouldn't like it. I mean, it's a little... Different, no?"

Chris hums and a nose pokes at your cheek. You look up and a soft kiss meets your lips, "Well, I love different."

You melt and kiss him some more, feeling his smile against your lips. The room is quiet, apart from the silent sounds of your kisses and you feel more at peace than ever. All the anxiety you had, washes away with every one of Chris's kisses. As the kiss gets more intense, you let him push you to the ground and loom over your body. His hands are on your hips and he breaks away for a moment, to look at you.

"I love you. And I mean every side of you, okay?" he whispers.

You feel yourself on the verge of tears again and thread your fingers in his hair, "I love you too... Thank you."

"Nothing to thank me for." he grins, his thumb stroking your cheek, "You look so cute."

"Not as cute as you." you say.

He scrunches his nose up in embarrassment, "You gotta show me how you do your styling sometime. Maybe we could..." he hesitates, "dress up together?"

Your eyes widen, "You- You would want to do that?"

"Sure, I'd at least like to try. This... This is nice." he shrugs, "and you enjoy it, so there must be something to it, right?"

Excited beyond words, you nod, "Let's do it."

"Sweet." he smirks then, "Not now tho. You look cute enough to eat right now and I'd prefer if you don't put on any more clothes."

You laugh and pull him back down into a kiss. Who would have thought things would turn out like this? You certainly have the best boyfriend in the world.

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