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sibelin · 8 months ago

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i'm very brave (lying)

#aka i'm being a crybaby cause i'm alone in my apartment after two weeks spent with my boyfriend here :((#AGONY #okay had to say it i'm fine again

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mishkakagehishka · 2 months ago

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I'm honestly fully ready to just call my bank and tell them to do a chargeback but i'm giving the college bureaucracy a chance first. But as i said. I don't care who does it and how i get it, those €80 are gonna be back in my bank account by the end of october or so help me

#i didn't even tell youse about the fun i had at the student office #i got there i asked the guy at the counter what's happening with my enrolment process bc it has been on ''process has started'' for a week #and then some. this guy tells me they're testing a bot or whatever that automatically ''starts'' the process when the payment has been #received. so i'm like okay wtf. he goes to check my request manually but i notice he's looking at the one with a page of text #and that's my second request where i explained i want my money back so i go hey hey hey that's actually my refund request #this man goes and asks why i enrolled if i hadn't had all my exam grades marked yet #i look this man in the eye and say ''i wanted to ensure i'd be enrolled on time'' and he goes quiet #because i'm assuming he realised i tried to enrol the very day enrolments opened and here i was two days before they closed in the #student office asking wtf was happening to my enrolment process #so anyway. he goes and tells me i need to cancel my enrolment and enrol again and that he'll forward my refund request but can't #guarantee anything. and i'm like sure fine but now my scholarship page says i don't have to pay anything #so like whatever decision you lot make my bank is gonna know i made a payment i didn't have to make #and that if you refuse to refund me i'm getting a chargeback. so you know.#in any case i did all i could to make sure i was enrolled on time and still had to be on edge bc i had to restart the process two days #before the enrolment period ended. i deserve those €80 and then some

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bleaksqueak · 7 months ago

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see, ppl can say what they want about the resi 3 remake, but the remake got Mikhail perfect. Also i actually really love weird Puppy Nemesis lmao

#GET OFF OF HIS TRAIN SHITBIRD #ilu grandpa you did your best #I think the remake is fine #there's parts of the original I miss a ton #and parts I am glad are gone #mostly I'm just confused by the rose colored glasses everyone remembers wrt a nemesis that doesn't exist #he was never a random stalker he always had scripted spawns and due to the ps1 limitations the “random” was down to two or three options #with that said re3 remake coming off the heels of re7 with pretty good stalkers like jack and margeurite #and then directly off the heels of re2 with one of the best programmed game stalkers i've ever seen #he's a letdown for sure #I loved the pre-release rumors saying nemesis would chase you into safe rooms #that should have been a real thing #Oh wow is it really time for our regularly scheduled resident evil obsessing??#I wanted to name Nikolai after Mikhail but mercury spatted me with a newspaper and told me I had too many M names #I have had this fondness for hero grandpa for a long time okay #anyway I know that absolutely no one follows me for resident evil so lmao ignore my rambling #it's fine though #because no matter if you follow me for solivaga or homestuck :)#I've fed you resident evil no matter what #what do you mean parts of the harley manor are inspired by the spencer mansion!?#HAHA GOT'EM #what do you mean there's a ton of resident evil refs in soli #RAT STRIKES AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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whoslaurapalmer · 10 months ago

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laura (1944) / laura by vera caspary -- waldo and laura meet

bonus deleted scene from the movie script, with a third interpretation of their meeting --

#laura #1944 laura #vera caspary #laura hunt #waldo lydecker #gene tierney #clifton webb #lulu talks about 44 laura #lulu makes gifs #i WANTED another gif from the movie but tumblr refuses to let me move all the images around if i do more than 5 in the top of the post so!!#damn. gonna have to reshape screentogif just a hair to get that line at the bottom out. didn't see it until now #'IT'S FINE IT'S FINE I'M NOT REDOING IT!' -- lulu vandelay while making gifs bc she will NOT re-save and re-optimize YET AGAIN #oh god though i missed an s in the third gif but who's looking. who's counting. i will NOT do it again #me: okay i'll just whip this up before i go to bed.#me an hour later: .............................well. technically. that was with relative speed.#(then i had to redo one of the book pages bc i misspelled a word. sigh.) (i mean. that's a quick fix. a gif? NOT QUICK. not for a caption)#if you are thinking 'wtf? fawn-like????' i must inform you that that is in fact NOT the worst or the most uncomfortable thing #waldo says about laura in the book.#also it's been five years since they met in the movie vs seven years in the book #i do like the second and third gifs right next to each other -- their swapped positions....

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ihamtmus · 5 months ago

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#so i had acute tracheitis like two weeks ago #then at the follow-up visit the doctor said i was ok #so i went to malta for my vacation without worrying about the occasional cough that eventually stopped #but then at the end of the trip i suddenly had temperature 39°C #i got better and went back to poland #i got home yesterday but suddenly today my voice is gone #and i started coughing again #so i went to see the doctor at our local weekend and holidays public health clinic #and it turns out i have acute tracheitis (again)#AND i also have acute laryngitis (new)#i had a doctor's leave before my vacation and now i have a doctor's leave again krehxksjkx my boss will be upset but oh well #i'm on antibiotics again 🤧#anywayyyyyyyyy why am i sick again the doctor said i was fine the last time 😞😞😞 WELL #anyway i felt totally fine for 8 out of 10 days there so i'd say the trip was still ABSOLUTELY AMAZING #absolutely amazingggg guys i loved it so much #i'm so glad the sickness came back only at the very end when i had already seen and done almost all i planned so it was okay #it was so wonderfullll i need to show my army followers here some pictures later on because oh man are they crazy #okay rant over i'm going to go lie down #maybe watch a bit of bon voyage on malta lmao it's so fun to watch it now that i've been there myself #my post #personal

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scribblingface · 2 months ago

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I went into bg3 fully ready to have a good time and have done so despite many ways in which the game is not good and have not worried too much over various dramas about patch changes but my chill streak has finally ended and I am wailing gnashing my teeth etc. about patch 7 (the supposedly final one with story/content changes) not adding companion reactivity for any of the durge content in act 2

#gotta regain my chill about this. it doesn't change the good version of bg3 that exists in my head #but like. durge is literally the protagonist character. and a huge chunk of story is just bizarrely missing from act two #all the baddies recognize you and no one reacts #warden says you were an important guest no one reacts #kressa says she had a great time torturing you for weeks no one reacts #and it's so misaligned with companion reactivity for everything else. like #I am one of those players who goes around the camp circle talking to every single companion after anything even mildly important happens #to hear the couple of lines of dialogue they have about it #because they've got a couple of lines of dialogue about every plot development and significant moment in other companion storylines!#but they don't have a single word for enormous central plotline revelations about the player character #it makes the act 3 reactions bizarre too because everyone's shocked by what gortash says and it's like #literally everyone in moonrise was like 'oh hey it's you again' what did you THINK 😭#a lot of people complain about the resist!durge final scene after killing orin being lackluster #and yeah sure I feel it's lacking in a few ways but like. at least it exists.#a cutscene does play and afterwards the companions do react. ymmv on whether those reactions are impactful or fitting #but they do--crucially--exist #whereas in act 2 there is straight up nothing #when people say right in front of the companions 'hello fellow villain fancy seeing you back here again'#there is not even so much as a 'dude are you okay' after kressa talks about keeping durge prisoner and torturing them #okay okay it's fine I'm getting it out of my system I'm gonna be normal about this again #the companions had reactions in the good version that exists in my head 😔#scribblingface plays bg3 #okay actually also like larian has made so many changes based on fans complaining a lot about something #often changes that made the complaining people happy but pissed off everyone who already liked the current version #not weighing in on the merit of various specifics but it has struck me as a sometimes odd and unwise degree of #listening to what the players want. like just tell your story and accept that some parts won't please everyone #but THIS THING is universally agreed on by every durge player #because it's not something 'wrong' it's something completely absent that should have been there in order to align with the rest of the game #and yet. we don't get this change in the final update.

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maddy-ferguson · 6 hours ago

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talking to new people again is making me realize that (this is gonna sound dramatic) i haven't lived in five years but what i have done is watch a lot of movies and read a bunch of books and believe it or not that actually makes me an interesting conversationalist in some ways (?)

#and like i say: brf slt #they don't know i'm crazy and as long as you're normal about it having seen a lot of movies just makes you come off as someone who's like #interested in culture i guess. which i am. but it's fun #and the books thing too and also knowing a lot about sociology #i have things to say jokes to make so in two months they haven't even realized i haven't lived a life yet🙏#i didn't even do it on purpose the way it happened is in 2019 i was very depressed suicidal etc then i got better but i was focused on #like...idk. basically getting used to being okay with being alive again? then it was 2020 and we didn't have classes in person full time #until september 2021. that's how it was for university students here. i did hang out with people but no one i LOVED or actually became #close with and it's true that i could have tried harder but i didn't because guys i love being by myself😭😭😭#then three years went by and now we're here. it's fine it's just that i don't have a lot of anecdotes that aren't old because LITERALLY #nothing has happened to me. nothing #that's not true i did talk about something semi-recent to my bff on friday it was about my 'friends' who hated on everyone the same way i #did when i was literally 12 and about how anxiety inducing it was because after a while i was like is this how they talk about me when i'm #not around🤨 i actually talked about that then. january or february 2023 #this has been in my drafts for a week and i talked about the post i talk about in that last tag last week when i talked about my mutual who #blocked me that's the post she replied to to give me advice😔#also it's funny i said they don't know i'm crazy and a guy asked me what my favorite tv shows were and i don't know why i actually gave him #my full list like it's funny because like i said they think i like like good movies and good television and interesting books and stuff #and i know the shows i told him made him reassess that (which is fine but it's just funny) and also i told him i'm watching gilmore girls #for the 18th time and he was like you're joking i was like hm...and then he was like no you're being serious because it's way too #precise...and THAT i could have not told him. i was like whyyy did i tell him that...but it's fine #HE HADN'T EVEN HEARD OF SUCCESSION? 34-year-olds...#i mentioned the sopranos a couple weeks ago and my future bff was like what is that and i was like ? then i asked two more people and they #didn't know the show either so i was like i'll ask him (34-year-old) i know he'll know the sopranos and he was like OBVIOUSLY i know #the sopranos it's supposed to be one of the best shows of all time and later i asked if he had seen succession and he'd never even heard of #it? crazy. i mean if it had been anyone else i wouldn't have thought it was crazy but i expected HIM to know succession

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moe-broey · 17 days ago

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Would I be proving my therapist (who has been voicing some concerns about my depression maybe getting worse but like I feel like it's fine) right by cancelling my appointment tomorrow cause I just don't wanna. Like all I have to report is that I'm tired and I wanna rest and I just don't really feel like it y'know

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sskk-manifesto · 1 month ago

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#Idk nothing in particular to say. A good episode!#The relationship between Kyouka and Atsushi is very sweet.#“Kyouka-chan‚ are you okay?” “You're fine the way you are” it's all very :')#Atsushin calling Fitzgerald by phone is unrealistic. Wouldn't it be reasonable to believe their phones are tracked?#Then again it's also reasonable to believe the military police would keep monitoring the mansion longer than two days.#So I'm just nitpicking ahah #Margaret :((( When will my wife come back from the war #Honestly‚ as much as the transferring a member to the pm plotline is interesting– I don't think the pact withstands in the end?#Mori said: “[the Port Mafia] ought to conceal you from the Hunting Dogs for at least a week”.#But the pm evidently wasn't able to protect the pm for that time‚ so.........#There's really no reason for the ada to give up on a member of theirs #Oh well #Atsushi had some real exceptionally pretty frames this episode. There's a couple where he's just........................................#Admiring him forever #random rambles

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deductivisms · 11 months ago

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having distanced myself from "fandom" spaces -- and really art-centered communities as a whole -- it really is strange to me how there's this perception that posting content automatically means that you're trying to grow an audience / want to become something like an influencer

i'm not trying to make a "living" off of being a content creator so it's not really important to me whether or not a piece gets a lot of visibility or not - i'm just drawing and posting what i like and if other people happen to like it or see it that's a nice bonus!! but i think personally i've kind of checked out of the idea of being an Artist On The Internet

i also just don't like the culture surrounding online art-centered spaces because it caused me to develop a very weird relationship with my work; i wasn't drawing to improve or because i wanted to, i was basically burning myself out trying to get "just good enough" to where people wouldn't judge me anymore for being "bad" which was like ?!?#?#?@#

it's nice to be treated not as someone's "art [sns] mutual" but as just a friend who may also happen to draw and that's why i've felt a lot more comfortable with the people i'm surrounded by now vs previously, where it always felt like my art was a factor into whether or not i was even given baseline respect nod nod

#memo #jus thoughts in th brain #also i've been around people who talk down about others who 'haven't grown at all' as far as sns presence #and while some people do want to build communities or whatever not everyone is gunning to have a 'fanbase'#so it felt kind of ??? when that was used as a jab #and some may accuse me of just saying this bc i've never had much Internet Clout or whatever so it's just copium but like #being a content creator is whatever .. again if people find and like my work that's cool #if they don't then it's okay #ive grown to just be proud of the fact that i'm making anything at all #and i think it's fine to post artwork or fics or literally anything just to post it !!#not everything is for a consumer

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imjustavenuxwithaboomerang · 3 months ago

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current state: desperately trying to pull myself together after pathetically bawling over my laptop frame BREAKING

#don't ask why i'm literally always crying #y'all this post has so much more life to it than i physically do rn #i literally have not shown an emotion on my face since i stopped crying #AHHH #i am very much trying my best to keep myself from 1. crying again and 2. going downhill mentally and saying mean things about myself #no i'm not okay thank you for asking #and it's like not just the frame #it's taking things behind the frame with it #and it's stopping me from closing it correctly so I NEED A NEW ONEEEE #i've literally had it for almost 4 years it's perfectly fine that i'm replacing it #<- if you can't tell i'm trying to make myself feel better (is it working??? barely????)#venux rambles #i have such bad luck with electronics it's actually so angering

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lyssafreyguy · 3 months ago

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God . . . imagine thinking Laios is a bad person who doesn't care about people. actual insanity.

#yea this is about you know who's 'review' again. it's on my mind now that i'm trying to finish the series. sowwy. ;9 #making this unrebloggable from the getgo this time so that drama obsessed freaks can't get their hands on my ramblings again. fuck off lmao #anyways imagine thinking that. IMAGINE THINKING THAT HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT HIS SISTER. GET WELL SOON OR FUCKING PERISH.#EDIT HEY I'M NOT QUITE DONE ACTUALLY:#i heard someone else say this and now that i finished the series i honestly gotta agree on some level #i think this specific YTer did genuinely try to give the series as a whole another shot (since she was only watching the anime at first)#but then when she went into the manga was so fucking mad at her viewers and fans straight up disagreeing with her personal interpretations #(which were wrong but she took them down the dumb as fuck and extremely wrong road of All of These Are Factual Actually Sorry)#that she only really skimmed the manga (or looked at footnotes/summaries) and took up a soapbox of I Know Everything About This Thing Now #and doubled down on her just completely wrong and honestly dumb opinions and interpretations being presented as fact out of pure spite #it legit sucks so fucking bad. cause like i know and have actually seen her audience who haven't ever touched the series #(or some that maybe started it and have some sort of beef with it for one reason or another and had those feelings validated by her)#parrot back these ideas as if they're true! i partly know it cause it happened with me and her talking about fucking ****** ********!#like legit i sometimes check like her channel or her blog on here every so often and i saw a post of hers on here #where someone in the replies just. blindly agreed with her! and called Laios a bad person probably without ever checking DM out themselves!#which is crazy cause this YTer used to call out like other YTers not taking hard stances #feeling they have to cloak whatever opinions or stances they have in a million This Is Just My Opinion disclaimers etc #which made me realize Oh Hey Yea They Do That like i used to like that about her!#but. you know. if her audience isn't forming their own opinions about a series and just parroting back her own to validate her being wrong.#then it's fine. i guess. epic echo chamber moments or what the fuck ever.#okay NOW i'm done i think. this time. i like to bitch and moan so i might vague post about her again probably. tee hee. :3

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fazcinatingblog · 4 months ago

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She's out of control, why is she like this

And then when I explained myself, she doesn't reply so I'm thinking okay great I made a good point, she'll just back down and not argue with me, but she follows up at 6am:

#i mean????#can my reply just be 'Laura resignation letter. docx'#okay fine I'll attach it in a pdf #Laura resignation letter. pdf #resignation letter. jpg and it's just a photo of faz with his middle finger up #I'm sorry #she's out of control though #it's like she had a sixth sense of where i was and was spiralling #Sophia it's okay i came home I'm okay #don't worry about me I'll resign for other reasons not these texts #i just #i don't #i can't #this isn't #okay so we had brunch in Clayton and then went for lunch at some pho place that's fine #then we're in his car and he's like 'let's go for Chinese tea?' and I'm thinking what's that some kind of bubble tea thing yes please #i didn't say that out loud #but he just drove to his house & we went inside and obviously sophia probably felt loud alarm bells that I'm in danger but didn't know what #i wasn't in danger like we just drank tea and ate dumplings and watched the end of the demons game #but it was getting late and he was showing me his Chinese books in his home office and some awkward gross stuff happened and #and again it was late so he's like 'you can stay' and sure that would've been easier and yeah nothing would've happened just sleeping but #i mean it's awks you can't sleep at someone's house without an actual overnight bag especially not a dude who's weirdly into you #so I'm like i can get an uber home but he insisted on driving me so we listened to Taylor Swift on the way home #and then chatted in his car for ages and then i needed the toilet so i had to go #and that's it Tumblr now I'll resign killing two birds with one stone

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maliro-t · 5 months ago

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some game design thinky thoughts.

#it speaks #da gameplay complaints so weird to me. which i say as someone whose favorite combat was origins.#i mean 1 like i just enjoy a lot of different types of games. including crpg style tactical and including action #and inclulding me style arpg #but fr like people just keep saying over and over 'only three abilities???????????' like bro did u know in dai #that one of the warrior abilities was COMBAT ROLL.#a lot of things like that were previously abiliities and can in real time combat become different kinds of mechanics #and lemme say as someone who never invests in combat roll i spend a lot of time in dai fighting dragons by fruitlessly jumping in the hope #that THIS time i might be able to dodge the incoming attack i can clearly see coming (i can't)#idk like the point is obv if you don't like action-oriented combat whatever but complaining about design changes which actually serve #to make GOOD action-oriented combat is wild to me.#love that it's still rtwp my beloved. love giving commands to followers. love that it's built around synergies and that the wheel actually #tells you things like detonation combos and enemy resistances because i love taking advantage of stuff like that but find often in games #that information is overly obscured or a hassle to discover #and if i in real time action combat had 20 different abilities to choose from while still needing to dodge out of the way and pop off #an attack- that would be at worst overwhelming and distracting and at best feel like more than i need.#and at the same time! the skill tree looks great. best i've seen from da (and iterated from other franchises well imo) and still looks #plenty deep and customizable. way more than me's five little blocks or whatever #and wrt to party control yeah i'll miss it i like it a lot!#but again for this style of combat i literally don't think you need it and that's okay!#the game feeling better for what it is is okay!#even in dai like i have a lot of moments in that game where it's actually more a nuisance than anything else to fully switch control #to use an ability. e.g. i usually spec solas out with spirit magic and i almost always will fully enter the tactical cam just to #tell him to cast a barrier. or a revive. or dispel some demons before they spawn in #like i'm literally already just telling him to use abilities and then i switch back to me. and in that game there are def times where i hav #thought yeah this would actually be smoother if i could just tell him to use it +position it!#i spend the most time party switching in origins esp on higher difficulties but obv the game is most fine tuned for that #and you can play through the entire series as if it were an arpg if you want. that's what i did when i was a kid lmfao #well anyways. that's my two cents! i think it'll be really engaging! from what i've seen the game director isn't talking out of her ass!#vir dirthera

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mellotronmkll · 5 months ago

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Sorry talking about alcohol abuse in this post but I know im far from the first person to experience this but it sucks how all the periods of my life when im doing the best socially are when my drinking is completely out of control and then when I do stop drinking my social life falters because I completely rely on alcohol to socialize and I'm comically completely inept at it when I'm sober and it seems like it shouldn't be that big of a deal but it is. Like it feels like my options are just say fuck it and let myself be dependent on alcohol and have friends or not be an alcoholic and have no friends and be scared of leaving my house. Whatever lol

#I had a breakdown at 3 am last night and decided I need to quit again and then someone I want to be closer friends with invited me #To an event 100% centered around drinking where the expectation is that everyone brings a bottle #And like I need/want to say yes because I want to spend time with him and his friends but I'm like. Fuckkkkkking hell #And then I hVe a friends bday party where I really want to make a good impression and be sociable because there will be people there #Who I really want to befriend but there's no way I'll be able to do that if I'm staying sober so I'm just like #It's just so frustrating like and if I had better self control #It would be fine because I would only drink at things like this but I do not have that self control once I do that I just start drinking #Every single night for weeks LOL and I've tried to keep it reasonable or just cut down so many times #Like I think stopping is the only option but. How am I even supposed to do that while at the same time #Being at a point in my life where I'm trying REALLY hard to push myself out of my comfort zone #Like I'm just supposed to do that with sparkling water in my hand. Okay #And oh yeah I can't replace it with weed because weed has the opposite effect on me where if I smoke with anyone I'm not Extremely #Extremely comfortable around I go completely silent because I get so anxious it makes all my social difficulties 10x worse #Like I have tried to just have a thc seltzer at the bar when everyone else is drinking vodka sodas and it does Not work for me I start pani #Even when I smoke with people I am comfortable with I panic lately #SO I DONT KNOW!

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marshmelonfluff · 2 years ago

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also i have doubts that they would have tai feature heavily in a volume again but i really want him to meet up with the gang in vauco bc i want ruby to get a hug from her dad. please. just let this girl get a good cry in about everything she's been through and have her dad hug her afterwards

#rwby #rwby spoilers #like ik its not gonna happen but in my head i want rwby+j to crash their own funerals and have their tearful reunions #(nora must tackle hug jaune i just know it)#and then yang just shoves ruby at tai and qrow like PLEASE TALK TO HER ABOUT SELF WORTH #and ruby's all 'no i'm fine it's okay!' and wbyj just. looks at her. and yang just says 'please for me' and ruby relents #and just. lays everything on her dad who hugs her and crys with her and tells her she did everything she could and hes proud #and qrow can pat her on the head and tell her that it may feel like everything thats gone wrong is her fault but its not #please let this girl get some emotional support from the two adults she can trust at all PLEASE let this girl hug her dad and her uncle #i know she chose herself and had her realization that ruby rose is enough but i think it would help for her to hear that #from the two men she admired as a child #anyways. thats my little fanon thing thatll live forever in my head until we get vol 10 #and afterwards she can talk to weiss yang blake about her breakdown and get reassurance from her team again and everybody hugs hooray #seriously though if nora doesnt see jaune and immediately sprint towards him at full speed to tackle him to the ground in a hug #immediately followed by ren who hugs them both as everyone cries then WHAT is the point

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