#okay but hearing John b screaming for Sarah in the background is doing things to me

[winnie-the-monster]

[inez-winchester-cameron]

hear me out rafe x jj’s gf!reader 👀

u know how both rafe and jj go crazy on their bikes… its the usual kooks vs pogues hatred maybe during the bonfire, but instead of throwing punches rafe wanted to have a race with jj instead to ‘settle things’. and he wanted to bet on jj’s girlfriend whereas if he won, he got to keep her and do.. things.. yk..

cw: darkish!rafe x jj'sgf!reader, non-con recording, bets regarding sex, minor jj x reader, smut

notes: im going feral over this tbh

"ready to settle things?" rafe asks, coming face to face with jj. they both stare at eachother with hatred. the pogues and kooks gather at an old dirt backroad.

"im gonna kick your ass," jj growls, "i win, you leave us the hell alone."

"deal," rafe agrees, "whats in it for me?"

"i don't kick your fucking teeth in that's-"

"you let me fuck your girl."

your heart drops and you pause. you stand off to the side, wrapping jj's sweatshirt around yourself in the cold night air. jj pauses too, furrowing his brow, "hell no! i don't even-"

"jj, it's fine," you speak up, "you'll win, i know it." you say with a smile, only partially believing your words. jj takes a deep breath and nods, composing himself. you make eye contact with rafe and he smirks, licking his lip.

"deal," jj reluctantly agrees. you anxiously fidget with jj's hoodie strings as they get on their bikes.

"it's okay, jj'll win," sarah reassures you, "rafe's a city boy at heart."

3, 2, 1. and they're off. you watch as the bikes speed off, it's a loop that takes about three minutes when jj goes full speed with you on his bike. you can't deny that your mind wanders, thinking about what would happen if rafe won. you had heard rumors about him, what he's like in bed, how big his di- no you shouldn't be thinking about this, you mentally scold yourself. jj's going to win, for sure.

the longest two minutes and thirty seconds ever, you see jj and rafe come back into view. you can't see who's winning, they're too far away. and once again, your heart drops when a bike crosses the finish line, and it's not jj.

"fuck!" jj screams, throwing his helmet down, as rafe gets off his bike. rafe simply smirks, knowing why jj is pissed.

"it's okay, you'll get her back tomorrow, pogue." rafe pats him on his shoulder and heads towards you but john b. and pope stand in front of you, jj joining them shortly after.

an argument ensues, rafe insisting that a deal is a deal and his friends backing it up and the pogues insisting that it isn't fair to you. after a good few minutes, you speak up.

"guys! it's okay!" all the boys pause and stare at you in disbelief.

"it's one night, i'll be fine," you reassure them, "a deal's a deal." jj tries convincing you otherwise but there's absolutely no use, rafe won.

-

rafe pushes you down onto his bed, kissing you hungrily, "i'll make you feel better than that pogue ever did, princess. you're gorgeous, too gorgeous to be with a dirty pogue."

"r-rafe.." you whimper out, loving the feeling of his lips as they trail down your jaw and neck. you soak through your panties as he toys with you, taking his time.

he slips your shirt off and unties your bikini top you had on underneath, sighing when he sees your tits, "knew you had pretty fucking tits, you let jj see these?"

"y-yes.." you admit as rafe leans down and uses his mouth to give some attention to your tits.

"he's undeserving." rafe says, and after a bit more foreplay, he's shoving his cock into you.

"oh god! you're so big, jesus!"

"that's right, baby, keep talking," rafe says, fucking you slow and deep, "say my name like a prayer, sweet girl." he rubs your clit as he fucks into you, holding your hip with the other hand, "bet jj never makes you feel this good, huh? your poor pussy is squeezing me so tight, he must not be taking proper care of her."

you don't respond, your eyes rolling back as his pace picks up. your tits bounce as he fucks into you and you don't even notice the phone in the background of his room, recording every single moment. your pussy squeezes rafe tight, wanting him more and more.

rafe groans, "shit- fuck- such a pretty pussy. might have to come back for more of this. we'll keep it a secret from your boyfriend, mkay?"

"m-mkay.." you slur out, cock drunk. without warning, your cunt pulses wildly around his cock, making him pause and speed up.

"that's it, cum on my cock. im gonna fill you up, got it? maybe i'll get you pregnant, then you can be mine forever."

you don't make any effort to stop him as he cums inside, even though you don't even let jj do that. rafe pulls out and cleans you up, getting up after. as you rest in bed, oblivious to what he's doing. he grabs the phone and sends the video to jj with the caption, 'sorry man, she's mine now. made her pussy all mine, have fun jerkin' your dick to this. fucking cuck.'

[maybank612]

“please don’t go”

Y/n POV:

All the events leading up to right now have been a blur. This whole thing started out as five best friends on a treasure hunt. Now I am standing on a runway next to my brother trying to save his girlfriend from her father, who killed our dad. John B managed to get Sarah away from her dad and was holding her behind him, while I was standing to his left. Ward was pleading with Sarah for her to come with him, but she knew the truth. He was a murderer and a thief. 

All of a sudden I start to hear sirens, I look behind Ward to see the sheriff's SUV approaching behind us. I let out a breath that I didn’t know I had been holding in and moved a bit closer to my brother. Sheriff Peterkin made her way out of her vehicle with her gun drawn. 

“Oh, thank God you're here.” Ward said she got closer. For a second I thought that she was going to arrest us, but that quickly changed. 

“Susan, I told you he lost his goddamn mind.” Ward continued 

“Put your hands on your head.” Sheriff Peterkin says turning toward Ward

“I'd do what she said.” Ward says

“She's talking' to you, Ward.” I say looking him dead in the eyes with the biggest smile on my face. This is it, he was going to jail.

“You're under arrest for the murder of "Big John" Routledge. I got ya.” Sheriff Peterkin announces 

“Are you kidding me?” Ward protests 

“Put your hands on your head.” Sheriff Peterkin continued to arrest Ward. As much as I wanted to reveal what was going on, I caught a glimpse of someone approaching from behind. It was Rafe and he had his gun drawn. 

Next thing I knew I pushed Sheriff Peterkin out of the way, hearing the gun shot ring through the air. I felt the bullet pierce through my body. This was it, I thought. I was going to die, at least it was for a good cause though. I collapse to the ground and hear another gun shot go off. Rafe was on the ground next to me, the only difference was that he had a bullet wound in his shoulder. Mine was in my stomach. I could feel the blood pouring out of my body. I was hearing screams around me, assuming they were my brothers. I was trying to keep my eyes open but it was getting harder and harder. 

Someone pulled me into their arms, and another tried to stop the bleeding coming from my wound. I thought that it was Sarah and John B, but I opened my eyes a little and there he was. JJ was holding my head in his lap. Tears poured out of his eyes. I managed to focus my attention on the words that he was saying. I wanted the last thing I heard to be his voice. 

“Y/n, you need to stay with me okay” JJ crys. “You are going to be fine. The… The paramedics are on their way. You are going to be fine, I promise.”

“Jay..” I managed to get out of my mouth. I felt so stupid, I had been in love with this boy for my whole life and was always to scared to say anything. All of a sudden none of that mattered, I was going to tell him the truth before I lost the chance. I put my bloody hand on his chest and tried to speak. It was getting harder and harder to breathe, but I pulled all my breath together. 

“I love you” I whispered out luckily he heard me. 

“Hey hey I know I love you too, everything is going to be fine.” He continued to cry. I could finally hear the sirens from the ambulance, but I was afraid that it was too late. I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on. I needed him to know that I was in love with him, so I took another big breath and grabbed the back of his head, pulling him down to my lips. The kiss was soft and sweet, everything I had ever imagined. As I pulled away I whispered “I’m in love with you”. 

I could see the shock appear on his face. Then a small smile developed, that was enough for me. I closed my eyes making sure that the last thing JJ saw was me smiling. I know that it is my favorite. I could still hear what was going on in the background, but I continued to focus on JJ’s voice. 

He had moved over to let the paramedics help me, he was still holding my hand though. The last thing I hear before I pass out is JJ saying “please don’t go”. 

JJ POV:

They loaded y/n into the ambulance and all I wanted to do was go with her. But that was John B’s job, he hopped in the back with his sister and they took off. I can feel Kiara, Pope, and Sarah behind me. One of them put his hand on my shoulder, “JJ let’s go” I heard Pope say. All I could think of was the last thing she said to me, she was in love with me. I was standing there paralyzed. I just wanted to kiss her and protect her from anything bad in the world. My friend kept talking to me but I wasn’t listening. Pope made his way in front of me, looking me in the eyes. I know I had tears pouring down my face. Before he could say anything else I said “She loves me” I let out a breath and continued “And I couldn’t protect her” I began to break down even more, but pope caught me and held my body up. 

“JJ listen to me, she is going to be okay. But we have to get to the hospital okay.” Pope pleaded with me. I just nodded my head and we made our way back to twinkie, Kie hopped in the driver's seat and the ride to the hospital was a blur. We made our way inside to find John B pacing around the waiting room. Once he spotted us, he stopped in his tracks and I could see the heartbreak on his face. We walked up to him and he moved toward me. I engulfed him in the biggest hug that we had ever shared. And we broke down. After a minute everyone else join in on the hug. We all needed y/n to be okay. 

Y/n POV:

I woke up to an empty room, it was dark and I was hooked up to a bunch of monitors. For a second I thought that I was dead, but then the pain started to hit me again. I moved slightly to see if it would subside and the door opened. It was a nurse. 

“Hi honey, how are you feeling” she said kindly

“I think I’m okay, it just hurts” I said, it was easier to talk than it was before. 

“Okay, well let me get you some more pain meds. In the meantime, there are some people outside who would like to see you. Is that okay? She continued as she messed with the machines. 

“Yeah, of course.” I said. I knew exactly who was out there, and honestly all I wanted was to hug my brother and kiss JJ.

The nurse moved back out of the room and about two minutes later the door opened again. There they were my friends, my family. John B walked in first, he sat down on the edge of my bed. Followed by Kie and Sarah they sat on the opposite side of bed, giving me a big smile. Next was Pope, he stood at the end of the bed. Lastly JJ walked in, I could see the dried tears on his face. He stood in the doorway, as if he was too afraid to come near me. 

“Hey, y/n. How are you feeling?” My brother says putting his hand on my leg. 

“I’m great, '' I said sarcastically. We all let out a little giggle. We made small talk for a little bit, I could tell that it was getting late and they were all exhausted. 

“Guys, you should go home. I can tell that you're all exhausted. Plus I’m okay.” I said “ Especially you John B, you need to go get some rest.” They all nodded and John B placed a kiss on my forehead. They made their way out one by one, with JJ being the last one in the room. 

“JJ?” I say before he can leave. He turned around and I could see that he was starting to cry again. I motioned for him to come over to the bed and sit down. He sat on the side of the bed and I put my hand on his face. Before I could say anything he looked up at me and placed a gentle kiss one my lips. We pull apart and there are giant smiles plastered on both of our faces. 

“I thought I was going to lose you” He said, putting his hands in mine. 

“I couldn’t leave the love of my life now could I” I said pulling him back into a kiss. This one lasted longer. It was so real and full of love, once we pulled apart I slid over in the bed and motioned for him to climb into bed with me. 

We laid there in silence, nothing needed to be said. We had each other and that was all we ever needed.

[riahlynn101]

"Of Headaches and Heartaches" (10).

Chapter Ten

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See, another key thing they don’t tell you about working here is the animatronics. If they don’t like you (and how a robot can like or not like someone is beyond her), you won’t last long. The programmers took notes from the past lines of Fazbear robots, tweaked them and made them the closest thing to sentient. 

Some of the new hires don’t believe this. They take it upon themselves to mess with the animatronics.

Those people never last long.

But Vanessa has the special circumstance of seeing the animatronics after everyone else has gone home. Creepy as that can be, it means she’s built up a repertoire with the band. 

“Officer Vanessa!” Freddy greets, throwing a comically large paw out for her to shake. “Long time, no see.”

John remains frozen. It’s not often the leader of the Fazband and mascot of the entire company randomly talks to the workers. 

“How’s it going, Freddy?”

“Busy. I’ve hardly had time to use a charging station.”

Vanessa shakes her head, tsking sympathetically at the large bear’s plight. “Try not to work so hard.”

“Will do,” he laughs. 

She laughs as well, turning to leave. “Well, I’ll just be going then.”

“Okay, nice seeing you.”

-x-x-x-

“I need to file a missing person’s case,” a man says, voice trembling. 

The receptionist takes in the man’s distressed demeanor, rumpled clothes, and untidy hair, and is instantly reminded of all the crazies that waltz through the police station’s doors. Occasionally one of them will try to report a family member missing that either, a, wants nothing to do with them, or b, never existed in the first place. It’s not common but it does happen. 

She should feel bad, but she doesn’t. 

The man leans on the desk. He has to be in his early to mid forties with chocolate brown hair and bright blue eyes. Not exactly a sight for sore eyes, and she’s kind of bored. May as well hear him out. 

“What’s your relation to the missing person?”

“I’m his father.”

She opens up the necessary program, typing up the report for an officer to look over. “Okay, you’re his…” her nails tap against the keyboard, “...father. Great! I’m going to give you this to fill out.” Rifling through the contents of her desk drawer, she pulls out a small packet. 

She hands it over, along with a pen and a clipboard. “Fill this out and bring it back when you’re done. We also require a birth certificate from the missing person and an ID from the person filing the report. And a current photo of the missing person.”

Dejectedly, the man reaches for the paperwork. “Okay,” he says, turning from the desk. 

Looking back over the report, the receptionist almost slaps herself. How had she forgotten?

“Sir?” She calls.

“Yes?”

“Ah, name of the missing person?”

The man stares down at the paperwork. He makes no move to answer the question. 

“Sir-”

“Gregory,” he finally answers, obviously on the verge of tears. “My son’s name is Gregory.”

“Okay…Gregory. Last name?” She asks, annoyed. 

The man doesn’t answer her, choosing instead to focus on the paperwork. 

God, she hates customer service.

-x-x-x-

Completely oblivious to all of this, stuck in the daycare, Gregory babbles happily to his new friends. More kids come in, filling the daycare. They scream and screech, hurting his ears. 

“They’re loud,” Xander says, pressing his paint-covered fingers against the construction paper. 

Sarah nods. “Yeah.”

“I wish they’d shut up,” Makayla remarks, pouring a healthy amount of glitter onto her own paper. 

Xander gasps, as does Sarah. Gregory copies them. They’re older and seem to know everything. 

“‘Kayla! Bad word!” Sarah shouts. 

“Agh! Sorry! Don’t tell Mister Sun, please,” she begs. “I won’t get a sticker, and I’m so close to getting a prize from the toybox.”

Gregory focuses on his own craft, using his friends’ arguing as background noise. It’s a coloring page of the Fazband. They all seem so cool. He hopes Momma Nessa and Papa Luis let him see them. All the other kids have.

He scribbles in the image with a dull, blue crayon. A shrill bell rings out, signaling the main door being opened. According to his friends, that really only happens when someone’s getting picked up or dropped off. 

Gregory looks up from his coloring page. Near the door, a brown-haired man is kneeling down, arms out. A little boy, a little older than Gregory himself, runs to him. They embrace, and the man stands up, whirling the little boy around. 

“Gregory,” a deep voice croons, fondly. 

His eyes flutter open. Standing over his crib is-

“Da,” Gregory babbles. A warm sort of feeling floods his tiny chest. He can’t do more than smile and babble up at the man, but that always seems to be more than enough. 

Large hands-warm hands-scoop him up. He’s held against his father’s chest. His dad turns in a slow circle. Gregory loves when his dad does that-loves the weightless feeling that follows. 

His dad laughs. It’s a nice sound, and it makes Gregory feel safe and loved. “I love you so much. I hope you always remember that.”

A sharp pain in his side has Gregory turning back towards the group. Sarah pokes him again. “You okay?” 

Hearing the door close, he nods. “Mhm, now I am.”

-x-x-x-

A perk of working behind the scenes is that Luis is granted a little more freedom than other workers. Exhibit a: currently, he’s scrolling through the nearby towns’ missing persons cases.

There are countless. Kidnapped children, runaways, and everything in between.

But none of them match Gregory’s description. 

He refreshes the page once more, trying to see if anything will change. The internet is slow, especially during peak hours. “C’mon, c’mon,” he urges his laptop.

“Luis?” His manager asks, voice still a little ways off. “Luis!”

Panic seizes him. Luis looks between the door to the I.T. office and his laptop and back again. Doing the most normal thing he can think to do, Luis closes his laptop and shoves it in his bag. Just in time too, because not a second later his manager is bursting through the door like a less cool version of the kool-aid man.

“Aha! Caught ya!” 

Luis stares up at his manager, face impassive. He’s slouched over, elbow propped up by the computer desk. 

They stare at each other for a solid minute before his manager starts cracking up. “Aha! You should have seen your face.” He mimics a stunned expression.  Wiping a tear from his eye, he continues on, “anyways, you can go home. You’re already at forty hours, and you know how corporate is about giving overtime.”

Slowly, Luis feels himself calm down. Vanessa and Gregory were still safe. 

He forces a laugh. “I sure do. Thank you, Paul. I’ll start packing up.”

His manager grunts, leaving the tiny office. 

Packing up his supplies and shutting down any other equipment he had been using, Luis can’t help but feel grateful for the shortened day. 

More time for research.

[p0gue420]

!Too Young To Feel Numb! (Kie x Reader)

ATTENTION!! There are a lot of trigger warnings in this one! Including: drinking, drugs, talks of feeling alone, depression.

Summary: Y/n started smoking weed at the age of 8, It’s all she’d known; She grew up around it so it was normal for her to start super young, she told herself that’s the farthest she’d go...only smoking weed..never any hard drugs. She thought she could learn from her parent's mistakes, guess not. 

pairing: Kie x female!reader, Rafe x Platonic! reader, JJ x Sister figure! reader

Warnings: Substance abuse, depression, suicidal thoughts, marijuana Underage drinking,(reader is 15),

A/N: Alot of grammar errors because i dont feel like checking it so sorry....not really,hehe

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I use to think people were crazy for even thinking about doing anything harder than weed. Yeah...I was like 7 so it doesn’t count.”Yo you gonna babysit that shit or pass it, I mean...I have all day but  would love to do something besides wait for you to pass the blunt.” I rolled my eyes waiting for JJ to hand it to me.”Chill, what’s up your ass today?”

He finally passes it, after what felt like hours. I take a long hit before seeing he’s actually wanting me to answer his question.”Nothin. man, I’ve just got places to be.” I mumbled out hoping he wouldn’t start asking any further questions. He stares blankly awaiting me to pass it back, knowing I don’t share my feelings so he simply lays off. “Hey. You trynna go surfing today….whenever you’re done with your….things..?”

“Uhh, yeah text me and-” I’m cut off by the sound of my phone vibrating...Barry.

Barry:

Meet in twenty? I got extra today

I look up from my phone stuttering my words, and fumbling.“Uhm, I gotta go do something, but I’ll text you later to surf, yeah?” I say nodding towards JJ as I began walking out.”Uhm yea sure, hey-” I was already out the door.”-be safe.” he muttered to himself left wondering why I left so fast. On the way to my bike, I ran into Kie and Pope laughing about something before Kie began to make her way over towards me.

“Hey, Y/n! Heading out so fast, are we?”Kie pouted her lip out mimicking a whimpering sound.” heh, yeah sorry bub. I gotta go handle some things and I’ll be back later.” I peck her lips in a swift movement as well as pull up the front of her crop top, covering her exposed cleavage.”Those are my love,keep them covered” I wink at her. She laughs and heads inside after blowing me a kiss,that I catch and pretend to place in my heart..Wow im so whipped.

My thoughts cut off by a loud vibrating noise.

Barry:

You coming?

Read: 46 sec.ago

Me:

Omw now!

Read: just now

I hop on my bike heading over to Barry’s place knowing a shortcut I found a few days ago.

It only takes 10 minutes before i’m in front of his house walking up the steps of the porch.My clean oxygen is immediately replaced by the smell of cigarettes,weed,and...Is that burnt hair?I scrunch my face in disgust at the awful smells.”Aye look who it is!” Barry calls out after seeing my face, He’s standing beside..Rafe cameron.

Now...I’m not friends with Rafe but i also don’t exactly despise him.I babysat wheezie all summer last year,most the time he’d join..keep me company;I don’t think he knew i was with Kie but he’s not all bad.He’s helped me more times than I can count,only because i've done the same for him though.

“Yo waddup.I didn’t expect to see you here.” I share a short handshake with Barry and side hug Rafe,he seems unprepared for it so he stumbles a bit but eventually hugs back quickly.”uh yeah.just doing some..business” Rafe says avoiding eye contact,looking everywhere except my face.”anyway i'm gonna head out, i'll catch you guys later.” Rafe walks towards,im guessing his bike;I head inside following barry so i didn’t really catch what he drove in.

“So like I said I've got your usual ,and then I got a little extra something I thought you may like.”He continues on but I'm so wrapped up in the fact that I want to consume something soon,anything;I don’t know exactly what he's saying.”Sound good?” He asked “Uh what?sorry I zoned out a bit.”I shook my head pushing my long hair out of my eyes.”Look,Usually altogether this would be alot of money but considering I stole the pills,I'll spare you the oxy,wadda yuh say?”, “Yeah sure,80$?”

He nods his head holding his hand out as i hand him the money.He hands you a bag full of coke in a plastic baggy, along with the pills in its original container it was prescribed. “Ight,thanks man.Ill see you later next week!” I wave goodbye as I show myself out, shoving the ‘things’ I had bought into my bag and swinging it back on my back.

~Incoming call from:Bubbs<3

I instantly pick up not wanting to worry her.

I instantly hear the boys laughing and playing in the background,but wait for her to say something.”Hey baby, you heading back yet?” Kie questioned sounding bored of the childish boys we spend our time with.”Not yet,i promise im almost done,ask the boys if there's drinks at the chateau please.”She turns her head away from the boys asking what there is to drink besides sink water.

I hear a chorus of “We just stocked up”,”All good momma bird.” and other sayings coming from the overly hyper boys.”Did you hear that,or need me to repeat?” She hesitantly says, making sure I’m still listening ”Gotcha,I'm headed your way now,see you there” I say quickly hanging up without giving her time to respond.

I hop on my bike and drive towards…...the opposite of the chateau,instead deciding to go to the Camerons.I drive,stuck in thought of what ill do when i get there,not quite sure why i decided to come.I had been so lost in thought I didn’t realise I was suddenly at the Cameron residence. I park my bike and began walking up to the door,but before I can knock,Rafe walks up behind me.

“Y/n?” I swiftly turn around being scared for a minute before realizing who it was.”Oh!uhm. yeah...hey” I ‘smoothly’ say”what are you doing here?” he asks..The whole conversation was a blur and before I knew it I was walking up to his room to hang out.I sit on the bed laying back asking about what he wants to do.”I don't know,you came here,what'd you have in mind?” He asked curiously.”I'm not sure.” I snorted at my inability to maintain a conversation.

I dig into my bag as he starts up about how he broke his bed frame the other day, because he put too many boxes on the bed while getting rid of some old things. I finally found what I was looking for,the baggy of white powder.I lifted it up smiling widely.”Can I do this here or no?”I question,feeling my body begin to sweat at the thought of getting to snort the white powder.

“Uh,I mean.. yea sure,didn't know you did that kind of thing.. but I mean go ahead.” He rambles. He stares into space as I do a few lines, my eyes opening wide at the sensation of sudden adrenaline;I look over to see him trying not to stare.”Oh my bad,You want some?” I ask holding up the dollar folded into a cylinder shape , gesturing to the lines of coke spread on the dresser.

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Hours go by,giggling,cracking jokes with rafe as well as doing oxy and maybe overdoing it with the coke seeing as the bag was almost gone.Rafe hasn't done much.I on the other hand was feeling VERY shaky and everything was just so hilarious..until it wasnt.My high started to get bad and overall scary.I must've did too much in such a limited amount of time.I look at my phone .

17 missed calls from Bubbs<3

8 missed calls from John B:)

9 missed calls from Popey boi

11 missed calls from JJ

Incoming call from Bubbs<3

“He-h-hello ,hi,hey.”

“DON'T ‘HI’ ME!” Kie instantly began screaming into the phone making me move my face away from it as Rafe looked at me with a worried expression on his face.

“Y/n,Where have you been! I’ve been so worried! I’ve-” I Blanked out again not in the mood to be yelled at.”Yeah,hey I nee-need,will-can youcomeandpickme up” I say jumbling all my words together. “Are you okay?Why are you talking like that?''She ask worried about my state of mind.

“Yeah am- I fine,Yes” I say yet again struggling to sound normal. I guess I was on speaker because JJ immediately began yelling into the phone asking about where I was.”Rafes house” Rafe sat silently waiting for them to break out into hysterics about me being with him.The phone went silent for a moment before the call ended.”So does that mean they not-....Vodka” was all i said before heading downstairs Rafe was sober enough to be able to notice what i was doing.I quickly went downstair searching through the freezer.

“Yessss.”I exclaimed before chugging the vodka.”Rafe continuously asking me to give him the bottle.I chugg at least half the pint bottle before having to give it up because Sarah comes down the stairs.”Y/n what're you doing here?” She asks excitedly until she saw me tripping over my own feet walking towards her,”Woah!” she caught me just before I hit the floor.

She turned to the door hearing someone pull up.Kie.”Rafe what did you do to her?” Sarah asked, holding me up scared of how out of it I was.”SHE BROUGHT COKE HERE,i did a bit with her, but she did A LOT. I legit did nothing this time I swear on everything!”He trailed back up the stairs not caring about the situation now that Sarah was there to take care of you. 

I began to sweat, tears running down my face. scared of what's happening to me.John b and Kie rush through the front doors asking where I am.”IN HERE GUYS!” Sarah screamed for them to hear her.My eyes rolling to the back of my head as I went in and out of consciousness.

“BABYYYY!!!” i exclaimed making grabby hands at Kie as i started crying harder

Sarah helped me stand up shakingly as I tried to walk to my girlfriend,She came running towards me with a concerned look on her face. She grabs my face pecking my lips,”Bub. I need you to listen to me, okay?” I nodd in awe of the gorgeous girl in front of me.”John B is gonna take you to the van,we need you to tell us everything you took to get in this state, okay?” I drowsily  nodded,growing tired.

Just as she said,the tall boy picked me up bridal style carrying me out to the twinkie.

I take notice to seating arrangement so i can close my eyes and know whos talking ,JJ being in the passenger seat,Pope watching From the bench behind the driver's seat.Kie stepped up into the van sitting on the floor of the vehicle waiting for John B to place me down beside her.As he did I sat up enough to lean my back against her chest.

JJ was surprisingly silent.Too silent.Pope looked so worried at my sweating body and dripping wet hair from  sweat,tears,and vodka mixture.”Okay,Y/n,What did you take?” my girlfriend sits grabbing my face turning me to face her, my legs straddling her thighs on the floor as I nuzzle my head into the crook of her neck,but she pushes my head up making me pout but not being able to maintain due to the dizziness. “I took a few oxy,uhm when I -then i did a few lines of coke,and…..i chugged half a pint of vodka..” i said tears filling my eyes trying to not look into anyone's eyes,

Silent JJ was no more .”Are you fucking kidding me.Y/n Y/m/n Y/l/n.You’re not supposed to take oxy and drink alcohol together.much less do oxy or coke at all.ARE YOU DUMB!” JJ began turning around. A Quiet ‘im sorry’ came from my mouth.John B finally pulled into the chateau.

Kie carried me while my face stayed nuzzled in her neck still crying due to my,still,VERY high state.she sat me down on the couch out on the porch as everyone except her,went to get a few things.Pope came back with water and a wet rag to place on my head.JJ brought a blanket,John B came back empty handed because he only went inside to pee.

“Kie?” I whispered scared she was mad.”Yes baby?” 

“Are you mad at me?” I questioned hiding my face in her shoulder due to the amount of dizziness being insured. She leaned her head on mine with an unknown amount of emotions,not quite sure of how to fully answer. “No I- I just don’t know what you were thinking I just- Well I figured you wouldn’t ever do anything like this considering what we talked about-and -and what you went through with your parents..” 

“I know-I wanted to feel better tho..I just feel like i have no one-”

Shortly realising the guys were still in on the conversation as Pope cut in.

“Y/n, you have,and always will have us..” I lift my head from the girls shoulder  before slowly looking at Pope in his sad worried eyes.

“I guess, I like-I dont know guys what you want me to say..Im trying to be better for myself for everybody,but nothing was working and i ran into barry one day and we talked and he offered a way to help,of course i was hesitant but its really not that bad...Im actually fine!” I said standing up as John b followed me.

“y/n, you were just saying you need help,so what the fuck are we supposed to do ,one minute you need help and having to be ushered here so you dont die! And-and-the next thing you’re yelling at us about how your fine,you’re not fine and you know it!” I stopped as I watched the long haired boy fight back tears trying to explain how all of them feel.

“Fuck you guys honestly,Im not a child i know how i feel,this is all just bullshit!” I yelled at them all, I ran to the spare bedroom covered in sweat,tears,and vodka; I slowly sink into the bed as tears fall down my face crying myself to sleep,what i didn’t know was that my bestfriend’s and girlfriend were all huddled up outside the door awaiting me to fall asleep so that they could come in and cuddle me to make me feel better.Sometimes things get better, but i dont think this is one of those times atleast for now anyway..

[kiara-carrera]

wait i want to hear everything u are willing to share ab max SGJDVD

okay!!! i love my new baby so i'm excited haha! this is very lengthy and just full of ramblings lmao but thank you so much for asking!!!!

so i wrote about some of her basic background-y stuff here if you wanna check that out!

but basically she's a john b x oc ship that's like ... childhood best friends to friends with benefits to ... very confusing situation

it's definitely one of those situations where they probably shouldn't have gone as far as they did but uh ... no braincells

john b has lowkey liked her for a while, but didn’t realize messing around prob wouldn’t help

inspirations for her character include alaska young, kind of jennifer check from jennifer's body (not like the demon person eating bit, but just like ... quintessential teen movie hot girl — like whatever the fuck megan fox has going on max has it), the sour album, and the songs alrighty aphrodite (peach pit) and clementine (halsey)

she's a pogue born and raised

i said this in the linked post but i reiterate SHE IS THE HOT GIRL OF THE CUT!!!!!!

spends most of her spare money on groceries for the chateau where she spends 90% of her time, as well as trips to the used book store (cue bonding moments with pope)

jj was the first to find out john b and max were macking

jj is also like their child tbfh ... will he become a child of divorce is the question

freshman year, john b was a big part in holding her together after her mom passed away

so in turn max played a very big part in holding john b together after big john went missing

why do half of my ocs not have parents this is an epidemic of fictional proportions i need to stop doing this smh

max and john b started their whole thing somewhere between his dad going missing and kiara coming back from her kook year thing

kiara is very anti max and john b

not bc she wants john b or wants max (bc pan!kie agenda is strong in this household)

but like,,,she thinks the situation is gonna blow up in their face

she's right but she doesn't need to be so loud about it

kie and max are besties at heart, but they fight a lot

in another life, max and sarah honestly would get together

like this story was originally meant to be a john b x max x sarah poly

but it just didn't feel as genuine and felt forced to me so i booted sarah but they have chemistry 100%

will 100% drink any kind of alcohol you give her, but adores the more "girly" drinks like wine coolers and shit

...john b has 100% gotten wine coolers special just for her and endured being called whipped by jj but it was worth it to see the grin on her face

has a bright pink bong that jj constantly drags her over but then he's always looking to smoke with her sooooooooo

max and jj are very similar in the reckless nothing to lose partier aspect

max and jj chaotic bi besties??? maybe so

it's very obvious that max and john b are ... something, but max will swear up and down that it's just casual

john b is like that's hurtful but alright

john b has pretty much just begun mentally treating her like his gf and like it's not that she treats him horribly in comparison bc some things she does scream relationship behavior

but like,,,labeling and the true commitment is what has her like abort abort abort

this one is subject to change but her brother's quite a bit older than her and honestly i might just make him be somewhat friends with barry just for shits and giggles

like the peak comedy of max just getting ready to leave her house and barry's just at the kitchen table with one of her books like "this thing any good?"

she's like i'm not a fucking lending library

idk i just like the concept of them interacting like that pre-ep7 when he holds the pogues at gunpoint lmao

speaking of her brother ... bastard child we hate him

he took custody of max after their mom passed and he's regretted it ever since even though he doesn't even really have to do shit like she pretty much supports herself he's just a fucking asshat

both of them speak mandarin chinese (they'd speak it around the house before their father died when max was a kid) and there's just many situations in my head where they're arguing in full blown chinese and john b is just standing there like 🧍🏻‍♂️

also the fights are about him so ... peak humor

max's book are all over the chateau and john b lets her talk about them as long as she wants because she gets so excited and into it and he's a simp that's it

those printed shirts he wears??? she will in fact steal half of them she is a menace

[in-my-jamiebower-era]

Lights up. Rafe Cameron.

Rafe Cameron x Reader

Summary: You’re John B’s sister but secretly dating Rafe Cameron. Sounds like a plan for disaster. Although things might just work out in the end...or not?

Warnings: A few curse words, implied smut, and probably grammatical errors.

Words: 4K+

A/N: I am so sorry it took this long to post. I had to deal with some personal things. So this song is basically about being who you are no matter what. Just doing what you love. So I thought it was fitting Y/N be a Pouge while Rafe be a Kook. Anyways, I just want to say once again that all of you are incredibly sweet!! Thank you for all the love and support. Don’t hesitate to message me if you have any constructive feedback or requests. I really love it when I hear from all of you. Also I know times are hard so if any of you need to talk, please message me. I promise I’ll listen. Anyways once again thank you and I hope y’all enjoy your day! Don’t forget to TPWK!!💓

What do you mean?

I'm sorry by the way

Never coming back down

Can't you see?

I could, but wouldn't stay

Wouldn't put it like that

What do you mean?

I'm sorry by the way

Never coming around

Be so sweet if things just stayed the same

Being a John B’s twin sister definitely came with some perks. Everyone knew not to mess with you or else he would beat their ass. It was like you were untouchable. It was a great feeling. Although growing up a Pouge is great, it still has its not so great moments. Sometimes not know where your next meal is going to come from. Better yet, not having hot water. Sometimes not having water at all. Although one day your life got flipped all the way upside down.

You didn’t expect it to happen, it just did. One minute you were at the chateau than the next you were in bed with Rafe Cameron. You always had a little crush on Rafe but you had to keep that deep down inside and locked away. Until that one crazy, insane, amazing, and almost too got to be true night?

You were drunk as shit, wondering the beach all alone. Just to come across a drunk as shit Rafe Cameron. “Oh God,” you thought. Although when you got a closer look at him, he was beaten and bruised. You secretly brought him back to the Chateau to get him cleaned up. Then came the kiss, then they sneaking over, then the sex, then the “I love yous.” Time really flew during the last year you’d been macking on Rafe Cameron. You enjoyed it though.

It was currently 3 AM in the morning and you were sitting cross-legged on Rafe's bed watching the news because nothing was on. Suddenly you heard the bathroom door creak open, which cause you to jump lightly. The next thing you saw was Rafe Cameron with his towel on his hips, hair still wet and messy. God the sinful things you were thinking of at the moment.

“Hey Y/N, you okay?” Not trusting your voice you just shook your head up and down. He had no idea the effect he was having in you at the moment. Your sex life was not it’s best right now, seeing as though Rafe was always trying to please his dad. Also that no one technically knew about you and Rafe. He promised he would make time for you but it was hard. So you decided to savor the little moments.

He turned around to get some clothes out of his drawer and you trailed your eyes up and down his body. His body was amazing. It’s like he could sense you because he turned around and saw you staring.

“Alright now I know something is up with you Y/N, so it’s better you tell me because I don’t want to force it out of you.” You really didn’t want to tell him that you needed a good fuck. You just really wanted to be intimate with him and show him you loved him. You had been feeling empty inside for the last week and you needed him. So you made the choice to say “Rafe, do you still love me?”

He was still in front of you but he grabbed your ankles and pulled you to the end of the bed. He leaned down with just his towel on. You had a clear view of his glistening chest. He put his hands on your thighs and looks you in the eyes. In a deep voice, he said “of course I do baby girl, did I do something to make you doubt that?”

You signed then you looked down but he grabbed your jaw and said “answer the question.” You knew he knew what you wanted. This is why he got dominant all of a sudden. So you decided to play into his game. So you gave him a sad face and said “it’s just that we haven’t spent any intimate time together in a while and I miss your touch.” You ran a hand over his stomach up to his shoulders. Then you lent over and whispered in his ear “I want to feel you.”

He slowly leaned in and attached his lips to yours. He straddled your hips and pushed you back onto the bed losing his towel. You whimpered at the sight of his semi-hard cock. “You want that baby girl?” He rasped. You nodded your head and he quickly disposed of your shirt and shorts.

He took a look at you and stared for a while, making you very insecure. He hadn’t seen you like this in a while so maybe he didn’t like it? His voice went deep and said, “Don’t cover your beautiful body.” He always hated it when you were insecure about yourself, so he always reminded you of how pretty you were. You were ripped from your thoughts when he kissed behind your ear and whispered: “tonight I’m not just going to fuck you, I’m going to make love to you.” That alone made you moan.

He was clearly turned on, seeing as though he hadn’t had you like this in weeks. He all of the sudden pushed into you slowly, in and out. Whispering sweet nothings in your ear. You moaned “Baby I’m close” he gave you the cockiest smile. You kissed your neck leaving apparent red marks. You both were a moaning mess as your highs hit. You both lay there panting for a while.

He went to the bathroom and got a washcloth and cleaned you up and made sure to be sensitive around your entrance. You found one of Rafe’s shirts and you out in your shorts. He was sprawled out on the bed motioning for you to come to lay down with him. You layed your head on his chest while he played with your hair. He rasped “I love you, baby, I’m sorry I don’t spend enough time taking care of you. I promise I’ll be better because you mean the world to me.”

You smiled up at him and gave me a kiss on the nose “I love you too Rafe.” Then you both drifted asleep with the news still playing in the background.

All the lights couldn't put out the dark

Runnin' through my heart

Lights up and they know who you are

Know who you are

Do you know who you are?

You were suddenly awoken by the sound of Rafe's door being slammed open, Sarah came running in. Sarah was incredibly sweet and kind. She told the Pouges that you stayed at her house with her. When in reality you only stayed over most nights because of Rafe. You basically lived with them. Ward really didn’t care because since Rafe was with you, he had changed for the better.

You heard Rafe holler from beside you “Sarah get the fuck out of my room and leave us alone.” You smacked Rafe but in return, he only pulled you closer. Sarah unexpectedly screamed, “Your brother and the rest of the Pogues are almost here.” That was enough for you to bolt to Rafes' closet. You kept all your clothes there. You heard a loud knock from the door downstairs and froze.

Sarah whisper shouted “both of you get dressed, I’ll stall them. You quickly put on your high waisted shorts and an orange crop top, with some white converses. You ran Rafe's brush through your hair and decided you looked presentable enough. You kissed him on the cheek and told him to wait a while before he came down.

You ran down the stairs and saw all your friends, their faces immediately lit up. John B engulfed you in a hug. “Woahhhh Booker, you’re going to kill me. Have you been working out?” He laughed and playfully elbowed you. As he was pulling away he noticed your neck, purple bruises, curtesy of Rafe Cameron.

“Y/N. What the hell are these?” You felt your stomach churn. Oh God, you are done for. Then all of your friends were looking at you, JJ was seething. He was always really protective of you. You confidently tried to say “I know it looks bad but I have an explanation.” Kie glared at you and said, “who was it?” Sarah could sense something was about to go wrong so she said “It was me!”

Everyone looked at her in shock and so did you. Sarah happily said, “I was trying to teach her and yeah that’s what happened.” No one bought that story what so ever. As if matters couldn’t get worse Rafe Cameron strutted down the stairs.

Your eyes followed him and so did everyone else’s. Pope leaped up and rushed over to examine Rafe's neck. Then Pope shouted, “He’s got them too.” Everyone in the entire room started to see red. You didn’t know what to do. Was this really happening? No more hiding. John B hollered “Are you macking Rafe Fucking Cameron.” Everyone was staring at you, even Rafe. Okay, here it goes.

“Listen before I say anything I need you all to sit down.” With help from Sarah, you got all the Pouges to sit down. You were standing with Rafe behind you. “Yes, I’ve been dating Rafe for about a year.” The whole room erupted into chaos. There were screaming and hollering. All you wanted to do was disappear. You turned around and Rafe saw a few tears fall from your eyes. He hated this for you. He held you close as everyone watched. He kissed your forehead and said, “come on baby it’s going to be fine.”

You wiped away your tears and said “I love him.” You glared at everyone. John B stood up and said, “Dad would be so disappointed in you.” Rafe felt you tense up and he knew what was coming. He wouldn’t get in the way because you needed this.

You were the one seeing red now. “John booker Routledge. Don’t you dare tell me what my father would think of this situation. Dad would be happy for me. He would be jumping off the walls knowing that I’m happy. The truth is you’re scared of me growing up and you still see me as a little girl. You think the entire world revolves around you, well guess what it doesn’t. Also guess what John B, DAD IS DEAD AND HE'S NOT COMING BACK. Get over yourself, I accepted and moved on. It’s your turn.” You didn’t mean to be that harsh but it definitely came out that way.

Everyone looked at you with shocked expressions, even Rafe had no idea what to say. It was an unsaid rule that no one mentioned your dad around John B. That was the first time someone had confronted him about it. John B looked at you with pain in his eyes and said “Don’t bother coming home. As for your boy toy, I hope that he gets a couple of good fucks out of you then runs away.” Now it was Rafe's turn to see red “what the fuck did you just say?” He seethed. You pushed his chest back, telling him to just leave it alone. With that all of the Pogues left, leaving you and Rafe.

You broke down into sobs and curled into his touch. After a while, he willed your tears and said “I know baby, I know. He just doesn’t understand. I love you so much. I promise I’m not here just for a couple of good fucks.” You sheepishly said, “I love you too and I’m sorry for this happening.”

He looked you in the eyes and said “Do not be sorry for your brother's actions. Now come one let’s go back to bed.” So you both played in bed all day just enjoying each other’s warmth.

Shine, step into the light

Shine, so bright sometimes

Shine, I'm not ever going back

Shine, step into the light

Shine, so bright sometimes

Shine, I'm not ever going back

Shine, step into the light

Shine, so bright sometimes

Shine, I'm not ever

You woke up once again feeling like shit. It had been exactly a week and 3 days since your fight with John B. It never got easier through the days, every word said replaying in your mind. At least you got to wake up to the man you loved every morning. This morning you woke up with Rafe watching you. He seemed all too excited to be waking up at 7 AM on a Saturday. You groaned at how happy he looked.

“Y/N, I have an idea.” Oh, great an idea from Rafe Cameron was never good. You muttered an “mhm” which meant keep going. “So there’s a movie night on the beach tonight and I was really hoping you and I could go. We could go to the beach, have a picnic, then go to the movie thing. We could make a whole day out of it. Please?” He looked at you with his bright blue eyes. How could you say no to that? Seriously how?

“Fine. But only because I love you and you’re adorable.” He tackled you in kisses and hugs. “Oh my God Rafe please do not suffocate me.” He practically pulled you out of bed and forced you into the shower. You did your hair and decided on wearing a flowy summer dress and sandals over your red bikini. When you walked out of the bathroom his jaw nearly hit the floor. That was the first time you had actually got dressed in a week.

“Y/N. Baby, you look amazing.” You smiled, you honestly felt amazing. He layed kisses all over your face again. “Come on Rafe, don’t make me change my mind!”

Rafe drove the newest model of a jeep, which you absolutely adored. He held your hand the whole way to the beach and he occasionally kissed it. Every time you felt a little blush creep to your cheeks. It was amazing that he still had that effect on you, he thought.

When you guys first got there you decided to read “Pride and Prejudice.” You loved reading, it was your favorite thing to do (besides Rafe.) Rafe really was happy that you were enjoying yourself but he decided it was time for you to get in the water with him. He didn’t want you to overheat after all. “Come on Y/N, it’s time we got in the water, yeah?” You knew he would not give up. It was better to go then let him pester you for the next hour.

So you stood up and pulled your dress off in one quick motion. You looked at Rafe through your sunglasses and saw he was staring. “Well, are you coming or not? Because if you want to keep staring at me, I’m going back to reading.”

He jumped up and walked towards you mischievously. You could see that sly smile playing in his lips. That stupid, beautiful, amazing, and cocky smile. You were ripped from your thoughts when you were being thrown over Rafe's shoulder. “Rafe! Put me down, I can walk by myself.” You screamed.

“Oh Y/N, not after that smart comment you made.” He was about waist-deep in the water when he flung you back in the water. When you hit the water it was cold but it felt nice. It was good you were finally enjoying yourself. When you emerged from the water Rafe was laughing at your soaking state. “Haha. Very funny.” You stated.

When you both decided it was time for lunch, you watched Rafe get out of the water. His hair was wet and messily styled. He was dripping water and his swim trunks were fitted perfectly. He whispered in your ear “now who’s staring?” You took your book and whacked him with it. “Ouch,” he exclaimed in an overdramatic way.

You both sat down and ate the ham sandwiches Rafe had packed. They were actually not half bad. He had packed a few bears but you guys shared one, you always like it that way.

After a few hours of swimming, sleeping, reading, eating, listening to music, and other stuff, you decided it was time to pack up. The movie was going to start in a little bit and you guys had to go to the other side of the beach. When you both got to the car, you changed into underwear and out your sundress on. Rafe changed his shorts quickly and put on a polo shirt. Rafe started to drive and when you looked in the car mirror your mouth opened wide.

“Rafe Cameron! Why didn’t you tell me I had mascara all over my face.” You quickly wiped it away. He giggled and said, “you looked beautiful either way.” You gave him a death glare.

You guys arrived and Rafe set out two chairs, a few blankets, two pillows, and his two beers under one of the blankets. “Here you go, princess.” He said. You looked at him and just pulled him in for a quick kiss. “Thank you” You muttered against his lips. He pressed a kiss to your temple and said “You’re welcome baby girl.” You heard Topper holler something about Rafe being “pussy-whipped.” Rafe was focused on the movie, but you turned around and winked at Topper.

What do you mean?

I'm sorry by the way

Never going back now

Be so sweet if things just stayed the same

That’s when you saw them. The Pogues. They were all there. When did they get there? Rafe could sense your tension. So he turned where you were looking and he saw them too. He whispered in your ear “It’s okay, nothing is going to happen. I have you.” He gave you a reassuring squeeze and you both continued to watch the movie.

When the movie was over you packed up your things up but Rafe said he had to wring it out. You rolled your eyes at his choice of slang. As you were bringing stuff back to the jeep a teenage boy came up to you. He just stood there for a second but then he said: “hey baby girl, you looking for a man?” You cringed at him calling you “baby girl.” Only Rafe could call you that.

You merely just glanced at him and shoved him off. “Oh come on princess don’t be a bitch. I could show you a good time. You would be lucky to have me.” He said. He started to feel you up.

“Get off of me you asshole.” You hollered.

He was grabbing you in places that even Rafe wasn't allowed to do in public. You pushed him off again but all he did was back you against the car. He ran his hand up your side and said “It’s going to be better if you just comply. Let a real man show you how it’s done.” You were about to spit in his face when you felt about 200 pounds pulled off of you.

“Oh, God.” You thought. This was about to be bad. Your boyfriend Rafe was definitely a hothead. He called it being protective of his girl but it was definitely anger issues. The next thing you saw was the boy pinned to a tree by Rafe. The boy was obviously afraid of what was coming next.

Rafe hollered “You have 5 seconds to explain yourself before I break your neck.” Luckily there were only a few people there. You looked around hoping they wouldn’t be there and sure enough they were, looking straight at you.

The guy wheezed back “Dude she has a nice ass on her, I just wanted to hit that.” He let out a little chuckle. This wasn’t going to be good.

Rafe's fist collided with the boy's face over and over and over and over again. He hollered through the punches “Don’t ever disrespect a woman like that ever again. Women deserve to be treated with the respect you would give to a man.” (I find it extremely disappointing that the only way to get a man to back off of me is to tell him I have a boyfriend. They will respect another man before a woman)

You screamed “Rafe! Stop it. He’s had enough, he gets the point.” There was no way you were getting him off. Then you saw someone running over. You thought “Who is that, wait that’s John B! What’s he about to do?”

John B grabbed Rafe and pushed him away. He stood between the boy and Rafe. John B grabbed the boy by his shirt and said “If you ever touch my sister like that again I will not hold him back next time. Now get the fuck out of here before I beat your ass.” The boy just ran off looking as if he’d seen a ghost.

You ran over to Rafe and held him. He looked and you and said, “Are you okay?”

You playfully hit his arm and said “what the fuck do you mean am I okay? You’re the one who just beat the shit out of that guy.” He was about to respond when you heard a voice clear behind you. You were met with 3 pairs of eyes watching you.

John B said shyly “can we talk?”

You laughed dryly. “Why” is all you said.

“I just need to say a few things,” he replied. You nodded telling him to continue. “Okay so first of all I think I can speak for everyone when I say we’re truly sorry. We have treated you like shit for the past week. What you said was completely truthful, I don’t want you to grow up. I remember you as this little girl that I always feel the need to protect. I know that it’s your life and you can make these decisions now. I support what decisions you make. After what I’ve seen Rafe do for you, I understand. I don’t want you to get your heartbroken and from what I can tell he won’t break it. I love you and I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. I want my sister and my best friend back.”

You ran over to him and gave him a big hug. “I’m sorry for being harsh about dad.” You replied. You motioned for the rest of the Pogues to join the hug. Kie had a tear running down her cheek and she said “I’m really sorry Y/N. I miss you.” You only cried in response.

Then the unthinkable happened, JJ motioned for Rafe to join the hug. He was hesitant at first but he joined. You all stood like that for a while before JJ said: “okay enough with the circle jerk.” All of you laughed through the tears.

When you all pulled away John B bro hugged Rafe. You were so proud of them both. Pope then said, “anyone want beers at the chateau?” Everyone raised their hands.

All the lights couldn't put out the dark

Runnin' through my heart

Lights up and they know who you are

Know who you are

Do you know who you are?

You all got back to the chateau and decided it was time to put all the tension to rest. John B brought out all the beers, of course, you and Rafe shared one. You guys were all laying in the hammocks talking of various things. Then JJ said, “so now that we’re going to be seeing a lot more of him, I need to know his intentions.”

You leaned into Rafe's chest and muttered “oh my God.”

He sarcastically replied “fine I’ll let John B handle this.” You turned and looked at John B, giving him a warning glare. He gave you a smirk then said “As long as you guys don’t fuck on my couch or hammocks I’m fine.” Rafe practically died choking on his beer. All of the Pouges burst out laughing.

“Too late.” You said quietly. Rafe looked at you with wide eyes. He heard you. He ran his hand up and down your back. Then gave you a kiss on the temple.

You couldn’t be happier that the Pogues and your boyfriend were getting along. Everyone deserves love right? It doesn’t matter what kind. Love has no labels. You loved Rafe and he loved you, there was no doubt about it. It worked out in the end. That day John B came over and yelled at you had been the worst. Rafe picked up your missing pieces and put them back together. The principal of the thing is don’t be ashamed to do what you love. When the lights come up, just be who you truly are.

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[lukesvangelista]

𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐘 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄

in which you and jj are in love but too scared to admit it, until one specific night at a kegger.

pairing; jj maybank x reader

requested; yes

tw; some fighting, unwanted kissing

Keggers. The best of the best parties in the Outer Banks. The one time where Kooks and Pogues (as well as some tourons) come together for an extremely fun night, most of the time.

This was the topic that you and your friends were discussing now, but you weren’t paying that much attention. If you were being completely honest, you weren’t feeling like having one tonight. You just had a bad feeling about it.

“Y/N?” Pope’s voice snapped you out of your thoughts, and you looked up to see the four of your best friends staring at you.

You closed your eyes for a brief second before speaking up, “Yeah?”

John B spoke next, “We’re planning on throwing a kegger tonight? You in?”

You thought for a brief second before looking back up at them. You were really dreading this, but if your friends were in then you were in. You pushed the bad feeling aside and smiled, “Yeah, I’m in.”

John B nodded, and everything was settled.

Later that day, you and Kie were sitting on the beach, waiting for the boys to arrive back from grabbing some beer. The two of you were casually making small talk, talking about everything from the polar ice caps melting due to global warming and if Sarah Cameron would be at the Kegger. Kie hated Sarah with a burning passion, but she never really talked about what for. All you knew was that she was Kiara’s best friend in 9th grade, and her worst enemy in the 10th.

“If you don’t mind me asking, what’s going on with you and JJ?” Kie asked, looking at you with a smirk on her face.

You turned to her and smiled, “I have no clue what you’re talking about.”

She scoffed, “That’s bullshit, Y/N, and you know it. I can see the way the two of you look at each other.”

You rolled your eyes, knowing that there was no way you were going to get out of this, “Okay, yes. I like him. But you know the rules. No Pogue on Pogue macking! You made up that rule yourself.”

She smiled, “You know, there might be one exception to that.”

Before you could reply, however, John B, JJ and Pope arrived with God knows how many beers, a keg, and a number of red solo cups. Thank goodness. Kie gave you a look as if to say ‘we’ll talk about this later,’ earning an eye roll from you.

The Kooks and tourons arrived just before the sun was about to set. JJ, Pope and Kiara were off talking to other Pogues, while you and John B decided to stay back to hand out beers to random tourists. By the looks of it, they were totally clueless to what a kegger actually was, and boy, were they in for a surprise.

John B handed you a beer to drink yourself, after handing out a ton before you got your own. You two worked up some small talk as you and Kie did earlier, but luckily the only thing you guys talked about was how you were all planning to go surfing to catch some big waves tomorrow.

Little did the both of you know that JJ was admiring you from afar. He was supposed to be talking to Pope, but the only thing he could focus on was the way your hair blew in the wind, and the beautiful smile you had plastered on your face as you and John B were talking. The next thing he knew was that he was walking over to where the two of you were sitting.

“So I was thinking... woah, JJ! Wait!” Pope called after him, scrambling to catch up to the blond boy.

“Hey, princess.” JJ smirked as he sat down on the right side of you, the brunette you were previously talking to on your left. Pope suddenly appeared in front of you, sand on his bare feet. He looked like he had just run a mile, but you didn’t ask questions, instead turning your head back to JJ.

“What’s going on, blondie?”

A few hours later, you and JJ were arguing. You didn’t know how the argument started, or what you were even arguing about, but the two of you were full out screaming at each other. Needless to say, the three of your best friends were shocked, standing off to the side just watching you guys.

Kie shot Pope a look, as if to say, “Should we step in?”

John B was just watching intently, a puzzled look on his face. The next thing they knew, you were storming off to whatever place on the island, and John B quickly rushed over to JJ to stop him from going after you, “Just let her go. She needs to blow off some steam, as do you.”

To be quite honest, you didn’t know where on the beach you were going to go, until you stopped some familiar faces standing next to a tree. Sober you would never do this, but you were tipsy and your common sense wasn’t the greatest when you had alcohol in your system, “Cameron! Thornton!”

Two heads snapped towards you, and Topper spoke first, “Well, if it isn’t Y/N Y/L/N.”

You nodded, “That’s me. Mind if I hang for a bit?”

The two boys shared a look, slightly confused. You wanted nothing to do with them. You hated them. Finally, Rafe replied, “Of course you can hang with us.”

You thanked him and went to join the two boys, Kelce joining shortly after. He was just as confused as Topper and Rafe when you asked to join them, “What are you doing here?”

“The Pogues are being stupid. JJ especially.”

“Maybank’s bothering you?” Rafe asked.

“Yeah, he is.”

Rafe grabbed your hand and sat down on a chair, pulling you down to sit with him. Topper and Kelce went their separate ways and sat down in chairs on either side of you and Rafe.

Back closer to the beach, your true friends were trying to figure out where you ran off to. JJ had let out some steam, but he was still a little angry. He couldn’t remember what you guys were arguing about, either. All he knew was that one moment everything was fine and the next you two were shoving each other as John B tried to break it up.

“Where could she have run off to? The Boneyard’s huge!” Pope shouted, rubbing his forehead.

JJ was growing annoyed, “Relax, Pope. It’s not that big.” Deep down, however, JJ was the slightest bit worried for you.

“Shut up JJ, just shut up! It’s getting dark and we don’t know where she is.” Kie yelled, tugging on her hair a bit.

As the three of them were yelling at each other, John B began walking around the Boneyard, trying to at least spot the top of your head in the crowd. He did, but it wasn’t what he was expecting. He saw you with Kelce, Topper, and Rafe, who still had you sitting on his lap.

“Guys,” John B spoke, turning his head towards Pope, Kiara and JJ, but they didn’t hear him, so he tried again, “Guys!”

The trio’s heads snapped over to where John B was standing, his eyes wide, “I found Y/N.”

They rushed over to where he was standing, just as shocked as John B.

“What the actual fuck?” Pope questioned, “Why is she with them?”

Kie joined in, “Out of all the Kooks here, she’s with them?”

JJ wasn’t having any of it. He shot John B a look, letting him know that this wasn’t going to happen, and that he was going to go and retrieve you. The brunette was hesitant, “JJ, I don’t think that’s the best idea. I’ll go and get her-” but he was cut off before he could finish.

“No! I’m going to get her! Stay out of it!” JJ shouted, beginning to march over to where the four of you were, but John B, Kie and Pope still followed behind him, careful to stay their distance.

When JJ reached you, he felt his jealously spike. The three boys were chatting with you, and he hated it. The sight of you in Rafe Cameron’s lap made him want to puke, “Y/N! What the hell are you doing here?”

The conversation you were having suddenly stopped, “Oh. Hi, JJ.” you fake smiled, but your tone was somewhat aggressive.

JJ spoke up again, “Come on, Y/N. We’re going home!” he yelled, but you weren’t having any of it. Little did you know, neither was Rafe.

“C’mon, Maybank. She’s with us,” Topper spoke, which made JJ even more angry.

“Shut up, Topper!”

“No, man. Seriously, she’s with us.” Rafe said, grabbing onto you a bit tighter now, which made you tense up, “Here, I’ll prove it.”

Rafe grabbed your face and turned you towards him, smashing his lips onto yours. Topper and Kelce wolf-whistled in the background as you tried to pull out of the kiss, but Rafe didn’t let you.

When you finally managed to get him to stop kissing you, you stumbled backwards, “Rafe, what the fuck!”

“We were just having a little fun, princess. Isn’t that what you wanted?” he smirked, coming closer to you again. You shook your head no, terrified.

JJ charged at Rafe, screaming, “You bastard!” at the top of his lungs. He began throwing punch after punch, but it wasn’t long until Topper and Kelce joined in. It was looking like it would be a three on one. Suddenly, however, a strong pair of arms wrapped around you and you turned around to see none other than John B.

“Y/N! Go to Pope! We’ve got this!” he yelled, and you nodded your head as John B ran and joined the fight. You met Pope first, who pulled you into a long hug. Then you spotted Kiara, and ran to her.

“What the fuck? I went to get three beers! What-” she tried to finish, but was met by you wrapping your arms around her and sobbing into her shoulder, “Wait, Y/N. What happened?”

You didn’t answer, but looked back towards the fight. Pope had joined in as well, fighting against Kelce as JJ was trying to hit Rafe. Topper was on the ground, and John B had his knee on the Kook’s chest, which prevented him from getting up, “Stay down, Topper!”

JJ kneed Rafe in the stomach, catching him off guard. Rafe toppled over onto the sand, and you could evidently see bruises beginning to form on his face, “You don’t touch our girls!”

Kelce and Pope began to lay off of the fighting. It was obvious that the Pogues had won the fight, “Everybody get the hell off of our side of the island!” JJ yelled, and everyone scattered. He turned back to Rafe and grabbed his collar, “and you? Never touch her again!”

“Rafe! Let’s go, dude!” Kelce yelled as JJ threw him down. John B threw Topper a warning look before removing him and violently throwing him down as well. The three of them scattered, and you just collapsed to the sand, sobs wracking through your body.

The four of them looked at you in pity. You had a bad feeling about this kegger. Why didn’t you just listen? You looked up at them. Kiara seemed concerned. Pope’s face was full of worry. John B’s eyes were soft, and he just wanted to run up and hug you, but he knew that it would be best if he didn’t.

JJ’s face had cuts and small bruises that weren’t there before.

This was your fault, “JJ,” you sobbed, reaching out for him, “I.. I’m sorry.”

He motioned for the others to leave so he could talk with you alone. They rushed closer to the water, leaving you and JJ closer to the road, but at least you guys were alone. He cautiously walked and sat next to you, “You have nothing to be sorry for. I should be the one who’s apologizing to you.”

You leaned your head on his shoulder, “No, it’s my fault! I shouldn’t have ever gone over to them. I just don’t know what came over me, I was upset and-”

“I love you, Y/N.”

They were simple words, but he whispered them so delicately that you almost didn’t hear them.

“I love you too, J. I’m sorry. I was trying to make you jealous.” you choked out.

“No, Y/N. I love you. I’m in love with you.” he whispered again. You had never seen JJ like this. He was never this vulnerable, “I was just too scared to admit it. But then I saw you with Rafe after we fought and that’s when I realized that I needed you. I can’t stand you being with anyone else. I want to be the boy you love, the one you grow old with. The one that you can come to for your problems. Your partner in crime. I love you, Y/N.”

“JJ?” you whispered weakly.

“Yeah?”

“I’m in love with you, too. I’ve been in love with you since we were fourteen.”

He looked at you with a new hope in his icy blue eyes. You had sparked a fire within them, like they were dancing on the edge of something new, yet something wonderful. The hatred of the world that was usually there had disappeared completely, “May I?” he asked, looking down at your lips.

“I’d never thought you’d ask, blondie.” you smiled, peering up at him.

JJ returned the smile and leaned down, kissing you softly and sweetly.

“You owe me five dollars, Kie!” John B shouted, and the two of you turned around, only to find the three of them staring at you.

“You’re so annoying, John B!” Kie shouted back.

“Why does she owe you five bucks?” JJ asked, confused. Pope and you shared his exact expression.

John B shrugged, “Simple. You made the first move, J.”

“You guys really bet on who would make the first move if we ever got together?” you asked, your eyes wide.

“Of course they did, they’re idiots.” Pope shouted.

JJ turned to you, “Now you’re my idiot.”

You turned to him this time, “JJ Maybank, if that was your attempt at a pick up line, you’ve failed. Tremendously.” you laughed, but for someone reason his words stuck with you.

You were his idiot, and he was yours.

a/n; i hate the ending but i hope you like it! also this was severely unedited so if there are a ton of mistakes just let me know <3

[angelliev]

Lover Boy - JJ Maybank x OC - Part Four - Tapioca Pearls

Word Count: 2K

Summary: Aria’s jealousy overcomes her emotions and becomes protective over JJ.

Warnings: Smut, cursing & choking

A/N: This is a funny and weird chapter. I didn’t intend for this one to be funny, but I got carried away. Hope you guys enjoy and get a good laugh in. (Not my GIF. Credits to the owner. I don’t own the show or any of the characters.”

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I have never been so happy as much as I have been for the past month and a half. JJ and I have been seeing each other as much as possible, which is becoming a little difficult due to us wanting to keep our relationship private. Same goes for sex. We’ve been trying to find a place where we wouldn’t be interrupted. As long as I get to spend time with JJ, I’m happy at the end of the day. We’ve learned so much about each other, both in and outside the bedroom, and I’ve never been so happy. I want it to last forever.

Today, Damien had insisted that Rebecca, Jennifer and I get to know each other so we got up super early to take the ferry to go shopping on the mainland. Thankfully, it wasn’t all that bad. I was able to convince Sarah to come with us, thankfully because I didn’t want to spend the day with Jennifer and her best friend Samantha. Thing were going well and it seemed that Rebecca, Samantha and Jennifer were hitting it off. As of now, the three are trying on shoes, while Sarah and I are trying on clothes together. “What do you think of this one?” She asks for my opinion. I glance at the yellow bikini she tried on and nod in approval. “I like it. Yellow is a really good color on you.” “Thanks girly.” She smiles. I remove my top to try on a shirt when Sarah gasped. I whip my head towards her to see her face in utter shock.

“Are those fucking hickeys?” She points to my abdomen. My eyes nearly popped out of my sockets when I look in the mirror to see that my abdomen was indeed completely covered in them. Are you fucking kidding me JJ? I didn’t even notice. I look back at Sarah to see her laughing. “Holy shit! You’ve been pretty busy.” She teases. “Stop laughing and hand me my makeup bag! Oh my god.” I continue to stare at them mortified. She digs through my bag, along with finding my makeup bag, she finds something even more interesting. “Are these fucking birth control pills?” Her mouth is agape. I snatch the items out of here hands.

“Yes! And can we not shout it to the whole world?” I frantically begin to cover the hickeys while she laughs. “I’m sorry, but since when are you having sex?” “Since like last month?” She’s more than surprised. “You’ve been having sex for a month and a half and you haven’t told me?” “I know and I’m sorry, but we promised to each other that we’d keep our relationship private for now.” “Fair enough. Does Charis know?” “Yeah, she kind of found out. She had to pick me up from his place one time.” “Okay I see how it is. So, who is it?” She smiles excited for an answer. “I promised!” “Oh, come on! It’s the least you can do, plus your secret is safe with me.” She winks. I sigh. “It’s JJ.” She just giggles, thinking I’m bluffing, until she realizes I’m not. “Oh, shit you’re serious? Oh my god! You’re hooking up with JJ? As in JJ Maybank? As in John B’s best friend?” She keeps rambling. “Yeah, we sort of hit it off. Things have been great ever since.”

“Oh my god.” She said all of the sudden thinking to herself while I stand there confused. “That was you in there the last night.” She states. “What are you talking about?” I asked clueless. “So, last night I was hanging out with John B, Pope and Kiara at the chateau. We thought we were alone, until we heard some very loud moaning coming from the JJ’s room.” She explains. I just remember what she was talking about.

Last Night…

“Mm, yes JJ! Harder baby!” I let out a loud moan as JJ pounds into me from behind at an animalistic pace. “Oh yeah? You want me to fuck you harder babygirl? Want me to make you cum hard?” He asked while rock music plays in the background. “Yes, baby please!” I plead to his content. “Ask and you shall receive.” He says before grabbing onto me before pounding into me harder than I thought was humanly possible, causing me to scream out in pleasure. “Who fucks you good?” “You JJ!” “Whose dick is fucking your pussy?” He slaps my ass. “Yours JJ!” “Whose pussy does this belong to?” The headboard begins to hit the wall. “You JJ!” “What’s my name?” “JJ!” I scream to the top of my lungs when my orgasm washes over me, causing me to collapse on the bed, he soon falls down beside me after reaching his own high. We lay there for a moment panting. He looks over at me and asks, “Round two?” I smile back at him. “Fuck yeah.”

Present…

“Oh my god. I can’t believe you guys heard that.” I say before sliding down to floor wanting to curl up into a ball and hide away forever. “Yeah me either. We left when you guys started going at it again.” “Oh my god. That is so embarrassing. We thought we had the place to ourselves.” I apologize. “Yea I could hear that, but next time, check to see if there’s anyone home.” She advises. “Deal.” “Who knew? Clean in the streets, dirty in the sheets.” She laughs. “Stop!” I plead.

I was happy to return home after a rather mortifying conversation in the fitting rooms. “We’re going out for a bite to eat. Would you like to join or are you planning on making a scene somewhere else?” Jennifer asked all bitchy, her friend Samantha snickers. Rebecca went back home to her and Damián’s place, so it was just going to be the two of them, and Sarah has to leave for an appointment with the dentist. “Pass.” I didn’t even bother to look up as I went through the mail. I didn’t even notice the sound of the lawnmower running in the backyard as I sipped on my boba and Sarah is filming herself with me in the background, most likely making a TikTok.

“Damn, if he weren’t a pogue, I’d definitely fuck him.” Says Samantha. For a moment we all thought she was talking about Mr. Murray the regular lawnmower, so we were all a little grossed out at first, until we turned our heads to see a shirtless JJ mowing the lawn.

Out of shock, I accidentally suck in too fast, causing a bunch of tapioca pearls to shoot in my mouth, all launching into the back of my throat. In result, the tea that my dumbass hadn’t swallowed beforehand sprays out through my nose and onto the counter. My eyes begin to water as I violently begin to cough attempting to dislodge the tapioca pearls that were making me choke. They finally launch across the counter making everyone jump and shout. “Jesus Christ!” “What the shit!” “Holy fuck!” All can be heard throughout the kitchen. I finally catch my breath and clear my throat. Tears run down my face. “Are you okay?!” Sarah asked concerned.

“Holy shit, can you keep it in your pants?” Jennifer asked out of disgust. “What happened Aria? Did you take those balls a little too deep?” Samantha asked. “Technically they’re tapioca pearls.” Jennifer corrects her. “Fuck you guys and Samantha you can suck on those stupid “balls” for all I care.” I referenced to the tapioca demon balls. “Rather be sucking his.” She nods towards JJ. I finally lose my shit, jealousy overcoming me. I didn’t even think before acting, when I picked up the boba throwing it on her, staining her white top. Everyone gasps. “You fucking bitch!” Screams Samantha.

“Screw you, you god damn horny demon ass ball sucking motherfucker!” “What is your problem?!” Jennifer shouts. “She’s the one with the fucking problem!” I exclaim. “You are so childish! C’mon Samantha, I have an extra shirt in the car. Let’s get out of here.” The two glare daggers at me as they leave, car keys in hand. The door slams on the way out.

“Are you okay?” Asked Sarah. “Yeah I’m fine.” I reply. “Good, cause that shit was hilarious!” She said dying of laughter. I began laughing along with her after realizing just how funny and ridiculous the whole situation was. “Hey a little word of advice. The key to keeping a relationship secret, is to be discreet.” “Ha ha, screw you.” I laugh. “I got that shit on tape.” “I swear to god if you post it, I’ll kill you.” My heart drops to my stomach. “Don’t worry I won’t, but I will show it on your wedding day.” She jokes. “Don’t you have a dentist appointment?” I tried to get her to leave. “Indeed. I’ll see you later. Love you tons and please don’t choke on anymore balls!” She yells before the front door closes. Last time I ever drink boba.

I decide to go outside after cleaning up the mess. JJ has finished up and started putting away the lawnmower. His body is glistening with sweat making him look absolutely irresistible. I approach him with a sinful master plan in my head. He turns to me with a smile on his face ready to say something, but I immediately shut him up when my lips attacked his, taking him by surprise. He kissed back after a few seconds. I decide to take it to the next level, I palm him, resulting in a surprised moan escaping his mouth. “Meet me in the bathroom closest to the kitchen when you’re ready. I’ll be waiting.” And I leave at that heading back inside.

As expected, he bursts into the room already removing his shorts and boxers, his member springs out already hard. I’m standing in the shower when he joins me. “What’s this about? Not that I’m complaining.” He asked. “Don’t worry about it. Just fuck me.” “Don’t have to tell me twice.” He picks me up and my legs instinctively wrap around his waist. He waste no time to shove himself into me, giving me little time to adjust, before pounding away. Our bodies begin to feel hot with the combination of the sex and water, our skin begins to turn red, but neither of care. For we’re too busy chasing our orgasms. My nails begin to lightly claw at his back when I start to feel the familiar knot in my stomach. “Fuck, I don’t think I’m going to last long babygirl.” He groans. “Me neither.” I attempt to hold back my orgasm. With that he speeds up, reaching deeper within me and hitting that spot. I finally let go when I started to notice that his thrusts were becoming sloppy. “Fuck!” He exclaimed and ejaculated deep inside me.

After the two of us came down from our highs, we dry off and put our clothes back on. “So, what was that about?” He asked. “Nothing. Just missed you.” I’m too embarrassed to admit that I was jealous and petty, that I lost my shit and became horny. “Babe, you can tell me, you know that right?” He takes my hand. I sigh. “I’m sorry. I was in the kitchen with the girls and Samantha was going on about how she would fuck you and suck you off. I just got so jealous and mad that I couldn’t say anything about it.” I see JJ’s very confused and surprised face. “Hold up, how the hell was that conversation brought to the table?” “Long story short, she was checking you out, I choked on tapioca pearls, then she decided to make a joke about sucking your balls.” “What the hell are tapioca pearls? Sounds like a name for some weird sex toy.” “What? No! They’re made from this starch that come from cassava roots. They’re what you find in boba.” “What’s boba?” “Bubble tea! But that’s beside the point!” “Oh! Kie drinks that shit all the time.” “Enough with the boba!” He just chuckles and plants a small kiss on my nose.

“Calm down sparky. You’re the only one for me. I’ll choke to death on those weird jelly balls before I leave you for someone else.” I laugh at him. “That was surprisingly sweet.” We both laugh together and head to the kitchen. I make him some lunch, which he gladly chows down. Just as I’m paying him cash for his work, Samantha and Jennifer walk in. “What are you guys doing back here? I thought you were going out to eat?” I asked eyeing Samantha as she continued to check out JJ. “We arrived in the parking lot, only to find out we forgot our wallets.” Jennifer explained clearly still annoyed about what happened earlier. I look over at Samantha who returns an annoyed gaze at me.

“What? Planning on throwing another drink at me?” “Don’t tempt me.” She just rolls her eyes before returning her flirtatious gaze towards JJ. “So, when are you free from mowing lawns?” This fucking bitch. If looks could kill, she’d be dead. “Hate to break it to you, but I already have a girlfriend.” “Ditch her. I can give you so much more than her.” I should’ve thrown holy water on her horny demon ass instead. “Hard pass. Not only is my girlfriend the sexiest woman I’ve set eyes on, she’s also the most confident, intelligent, funniest, kindest and adventurous woman I have ever met. I knew I hit the jackpot when I got with her. You see I like to aim high; you missy are rock bottom and there’s no way you’ll ever make it to the top where my girl holds the crown.”

I think my heart just skipped a fucking beat holy shit. Someone call the doctor my heart just stopped, and while you’re at it, get the cops on the phone, my heart has just been stolen, I need to report a robbery. And with that, a now humiliated Samantha and surprised Jennifer leave the house. I didn’t hesitate to jump into his welcoming arms and kiss him with so much passion and happiness. "So, threw your drink on her?” He asked. “Shut up.” “So feisty.” 

[andrew2luv]

OBX: An Outer Banks Story (Season 1 - Episode 10)

It repeats in my head. Over and over. Like little slides. One moment, then the next. But it all seems out of order. I fall to my knees. JJ says goodnight. I vomit. Sarah does CPR. then we drive up to the house. It all comes to me in small flashes. Over and over. Always in a different order. Always feeling just wrong. It all just feels so wrong. 

“Parker. Parker.” I keep hearing it. Repeating. Always sounding different. BUt neverending.

It’s been going on forever. It feels like days. Or maybe months. Maybe just minutes. Time feels like a concept that no longer applies to me.

But I feel nothing. No pain. No hunger. No anger. No sadness. Nothing.

Then it ends. The voices end. I hear nothing. I only see the bright white light in front of me. It’s flickering just a bit. Is that a fly? A small buzzing rings in my ears. Then this odd mechanical noise. 

Then it’s gone. The voices return. They repeat my name over and over. But then a voice pops out to me. It sounds different from the others. It feels warm. The voice feels like it pierces something in me. It starts pulling things out of me. I feel this sudden sadness. This pent up rage builds up behind it like a balloon waiting to pop. And then this weird feeling that I can’t quite place hits me. It’s small. It’s fragile. It’s hiding behind the others. But I feel that’s it’s one I should hold onto. The more I look at that feeling, the more I can begin to feel myself again. 

My body. It’s cold. It’s sore. There’s a breeze.

The darkness surrounding me begins to fade away. A ray of light opens. It surrounds me.

I open my eyes and see John B, Sarah, Kiara, Pope, Taylor, JJ, and Rafe all sitting around a very bright and cold hospital room. They’re all asleep. They look so peaceful. Uncomfortable, but peaceful. 

I don’t really know what to do now. But I just stand up. I see my clothes sitting on the table. I grab them and put them on. Then I just walk out of the room. I just start walking.

I walk to the elevator. I walk in and press the lobby button. I don’t know why I’m doing what I’m doing, but I just do it. I get to the lobby and there’s no one around. I just walk through the front doors and outside. It’s freezing. I can instantly feel the cold on my feet. Then I step onto the sidewalk and walk. I don’t understand where I’m going, but I just can’t fight it right now. I have no energy to fight back. 

For the most part, I walk without seeing a single car. Two or three cars stop to ask if I need help. I don’t say anything. I just walk. I don’t even notice when I reach the beach until my feet slip deep into the cold sand. It feels nice. It’s numbing. It’s peaceful. Everything feels a bit weird. The wave hits different. The moonlight feels tainted.

I turn to the woods and walk in until I reach a familiar tree and start climbing up the old ladder. When I reach the top I just lay down. It feels right. It feels like the place I need to be. I just stare up at the stars. 

“Thank god.” I open my eyes, the sun hitting my eyes like bullets.

I sit up and see Rafe crawling up next to me. I just look at him, then look back forward.

“We’ve been looking for you everywhere. We woke up and you were gone.”

He looks to me for a response, but I don’t know if I could speak right now. I feel his hand touch mine.

“Parker. We should get back to the hospital.” I turn to him and look him in the eyes. “Okay. Just five more minutes.”

Eventually, Rafe drives me back to the hospital. Immediately everyone rushes towards me. I feel like I should be happy. Or maybe even stressed. But no. I feel nothing. I just walk back upstairs with them. I get back in bed. I stare straight ahead.

I can hear them all speaking. One by one they ask me things. But none of it really hits me. It just goes in one ear and out the other.

“I need a shower.” I don’t really know why I say it, but I felt I needed to.

They all just look at me.

“There’s a shower right here.” I look at Sarah as she speaks. She has a very kind smile.

“No. I wanna go home. Shower there.”

“Let me talk to the nurse.” Sarah goes and Taylor follows behind her.

They all just look at me. I can feel them pitying me. I don’t like it.

“Does anyone have the remote?” None of them saw that coming, but I needed to say something.

“Here.” Pope hands me the remote and I turn the TV on.

The second it turns on I suddenly feel a whole lot more comfortable. The extra noise in the room feels like a weight lifted off me. I focus on the TV and the TV alone. I start flipping through the channels until some sitcom appears and I stop.

I find myself laughing at something on the show a few times. Each time I can feel everyone looking at me. A few minutes later Sarah and Kiara walk back in with a nurse. I look at her as she hands me some papers. She starts talking about things that make no sense. It all just washes over my head. All I really understand is that they want me to make sure I don’t have a concussion and that I should stay up all day and have someone with me. Then they want me back tomorrow for a check-up. I sign a few pieces of paper and that’s it. 

I get out of bed and find my shoes. I start putting them on. I look around the room and notice Rafe is no longer there.

“How ‘bout we all go back to my place and we have an all-night sleepover?” JJ tries to put some energy back in the room and everyone starts smiling and nodding along with it.

“I’m good.” I just walk to the door.

“Parker.” It’s Taylor. “The nurse said you shouldn’t be alone tonight. And after what happened you shouldn’t be alone.”

“I’m fine. I don’t need any of you.” I just walk out of the room and start rushing to the elevator. 

As the elevator door closes I can feel myself breathing again. But then the doors open again. I look up and see them all standing there.

“We’re not leaving you alone.” Taylor and Kiara walk into the elevator.

“You’re stuck with us.” John B says before he, JJ, and Pope come on.

“Sleepover at Parker’s I guess.” Sarah smiles and walks up next to me.

I ride in the van with John B, Sarah, and JJ while the others take another car to go and get “sleepover supplies”. When we arrive at the house John B and JJ go in with some stuff from the van. Sarah stays outside with me for a minute.

“You good? We can go in through the back.”

“No. I’m good.” I just walk in and upstairs.

I walk to my room and immediately close the door. I feel like this is the moment I should start crying. I should collapse against the back of the door as I hug my knees and sad music plays in the background. But I can’t. I couldn’t if I wanted to. I simply just take off my clothes and walk into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and go in. Immediately the col shower burns my skin. I turn the nozzle all the way around. The water quickly begins to heat up. It starts heating up to the point of near-boiling. It hurts but in the best way possible. It feels good to feel something again. I move my head under the water and just hold it there. I close my eyes. I let it all flow down me. I just stand and listen to each droplet hitting the ground. Feeling each drop rolling down my body.

“Parker. You alright?” I suddenly snap out of my trance from someone knocking on the bathroom door.

“Yeah.” I turn the water off and look out at the clock on the wall.

It’s been almost 30 minutes. 

I step out, dry off, and put on some fresh clothes. When I step out of my room I look straight ahead and see the door to my Grams’ room. I walk up to it. I can feel the cold air rushing under the door and onto my feet. It feels ominous. But I can’t stop staring down at the moonlight coming from her room. What’s in there? Is the window open? Should I check to see if it is?

“Parker.” Sarah comes up the stairs.

“How’d she die?” Sarah looks shocked by the question. “I need to know.”

“She had some sort of cardiac event. They said it would’ve been quick and painless.”

“Is any death really painless? It feels like an oxymoron.” She just looks at me, trying to find a response. “Okay.” I just walk past her down the stairs.

When I get down to the living room I see everyone sitting on the couch, chair, and floor with a large assortment of pillows, blankets, and snacks of every kind. They all just smile. It looks weird to me. Like a scene in an old black and white comedy show. 

“Hey.” John B grabs his laptop. “We’re just discussing what we’re going to watch.”

“We were thinking about doing a marathon of maybe the MCU or Harry Potter.” Pope looks excited.

“Or we could just do a genre marathon. Aka Action, Rom-Com, Comedy, Drama, etc.” Taylor mouths “hi” to me.

“Your choice,” JJ says, moving a pillow on the couch, clearing a space between him and Kiara on the couch.

“Horror.” I take a seat and I can see everyone slightly move their eyes to each other.

“Oh. Okay. That’s actually a great idea. They’ll keep us awake.” John B is quite good at faking enthusiasm. “Any suggestions?”

“Nightmare on Elm Street,” I say before anyone else can.

“Sounds good.” John B starts typing on his laptop.

“Very on the nose.” Kiara looks to me.

“Yeah…” I just grab a pillow and wrap my arms around it. 

Time seems to pass slowly. Movie after movie passes like it’s in slow motion. I find myself looking around every few minutes. Watching everyone else. Checking to see if they’re looking at me. They are. A lot.

Eventually, we stop to have lunch. John B and JJ go out to grab an assortment of Chinese food, pizza, and Mexican. When they get back there is mention of playing a game. But I quickly nixed that idea. So we continued movies. Movie after movie. Laughing at everyone jumping, screaming, and covering their eyes.

Eventually, the sun goes down. Everyone is starting to get tired, but they’re pushing through. I weirdly feel nothing. I know I should, but nothing. 

“I’ll be back.” I suddenly feel the urge to move around.

Everyone turns to me, the movie is paused, and I just walk upstairs. I reach the top of the stairs when I hear some talking and stop.

“Anyone else a little creeped out that he’s been laughing through all these movies?” I hear Taylor whisper.

“It was honestly a little creepy.” John B chimes in.

“Hey. He’s just grieving.” Sarah gets a bit too loud before getting shushed. “It’s just that people, they grieve differently. He’s been through a lot. Probably too much for someone so young.”

“Yeah. True.” Kiara is quiet and sounds sad.

“What if he can’t get through it this time?” John B again.

“He has to.” JJ finally speaks up. “And we’re going to make sure he does.” I hear him get up and start walking towards the stairs.

I quickly and quietly walk to my room and silently close the door. I go straight to my bed and just sit on it. Within 30 seconds I hear a knock.

“Hey. It’s JJ. Can I come in?” 

“Yeah.” He opens the door and steps in.

“How are…”

“No. Don’t finish that sentence. If I hear it one more time I will break something.” He just closes his mouth and sits on the bed next to me.

“Then what do you wanna talk about?”

“I don’t really wanna talk.” I place my hand on his leg and move in, my lips touching his.

“Parker.” He tries to speak but I just push him down on the bed and kiss him more.

“I’ve been wondering what you taste like.” I start moving down his body, running my hands up his shirt.

“Stop it.” JJ pushes me to the side and gets off the bed.

“What?”

“This isn’t right.”

“Wow. Tell me how you really feel.” I stand up and start walking to the door.

“Wait. Parker.”

“No. I understand.” I leave, walking downstairs and straight to the kitchen.

I hear JJ running down the stairs and someone asking what happened. Then JJ walks in.

“I didn’t mean it that way.”

“Just fuck off.” I reach to the top shelf above the stove and grab the bottle of vodka Grams kept for when her friends came over.

“You shouldn’t be drinking.”

“Oh my god, can you just shut up?” I open the bottle and take a very large chug, the others quickly filing into the kitchen. “Oh lord. Now the entire Scooby gang is here. Anyone want a drink?” 

“Parker.” Sarah begins.

“No. Don’t say my name that way. That pity.That patronization. My god, I feel like I’m in goddamn kindergarten.” I take another drink.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it that way.” Sarah steps closer to me.

“No.” I step away.

I can feel my heart racing. I can feel my blood boiling. I know the anger in me is building up. It’s ready to explode. But then I remember. I look at all of their faces and remember the time on the boat. It all starts coming back to me. Hitting me. I remember their faces. Their fear. Then how I felt. How much I hated myself afterward.

So I breathe. I just breathe. In through the nose. Out the mouth. Over and over. 

“Sorry.” I put the bottle down. “I’m sorry.” I walk through everyone and out the front door.

“Parker.” I turn and JJ is standing in front of everyone else. “It’s okay.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. We understand.” Sarah walks down the stairs and up to me. “Now how ‘bout we go back in and watch something a little more light-hearted.”

“That sounds good. How about Mamma Mia?”

“Perfect.” She grabs my hand and we all walk in together.

The next day, after no sleep and way too much drama, everyone goes home and to sleep. Sarah decides to stay with me and go to the hospital for my checkup. When we arrive Sarah waits in the waiting room while I go in with the doctor. 

“Parker…” She says as I sit down. “Yesterday we took a scan of your brain to check for a concussion.”

“Yeah.” She just gives me this weird look. “What? I have a very bad concussion?”

“No. We found something. Something worse.”

[andrew2luv]

OBX: An Outer Banks Story (Season 1 - Episode 5)

JJ licks my cheek as his hands reach down to my pants. He reaches one hand down my pants as the other pulls the zipper down. As we kiss, his tongue slips into my mouth. He stops to look at me. He flashes those pearly whites. Then he starts moving down, his hands sliding down my chest. He looks up, his mouth opening up.

Just as JJ moves forward and his wet lips begin to touch me, Rafe’s head appears from over my shoulder. He starts kissing my neck. I move my hands back and run my fingers through his slick hair. I feel his hands slide up from beneath my arms. He pulls my arms behind my head. I feel his mouth as it grabs fingers. He starts to suck on them.

“Oh…” I begin to moan as Rafe slips a finger into my butt.

“Parker…” I hear a moan coming from one of them. “Parker…” Rafe releases my hands and I dig them into JJ’s hair. “Parker!”

I jump out of bed, falling onto the floor and smacking my head against the side table.

“Shit!” I grab my head. “Shit! Shit! Shit!”

“I’m heading out. I’ll see you later.” I hear the front door slam.

I get to my feet. I manage to get myself to the bathroom and look at the mess that is in the mirror. I look how I feel, a piece of shit. I run my hands through my hair and take a deep breath in. I then look at myself in the mirror again. This time when I look at myself I see a far too familiar person behind me. A person that terrifies me to my bones. I am in such shock that I fall backward and onto the ground. I start breathing heavily. I start looking around, but no one’s actually in here. I just plop down on the floor and start breathing regularly. 

“Parker!” Sarah and John B shout as I walk out of the house and toward their car.

“Hey!” I put on a smile and push back all that’s happened recently, ready to enjoy a boat day.

“So is this really your first time on a boat?” John B turns around as we drive off, his hair blowing in the wind.

“Yep.”

“Oh… we’re gonna have fun today!” He shouts, putting his head out of the window.

I see Sarah looking at me in the rearview mirror. She looks concerned but then smiles when I smile.

“Whoo!” John B shouts as we arrive.

He jumps out of the car and grabs the cooler in the back before running onto the docks.

“Johnny boy!” JJ shouts from the boat, standing up with a crutch.

He looks good. He’s smiling. He looks clean and more put together than normal. But his face has some bruises and he’s got a cast on his left arm. I look over and notice Sarah looking at me again. She walks over to me.

“JJ said you never visited him.”

“Oh.” That’s when I see him again, standing at the end of the dock, smiling.

“Is everything alright?” I hear her voice faintly in the background.

Everything begins to freeze. He stands there watching me. Acting as if he’s won. That smile scares me like it has so many times. My heart starts to thump. Each beat vibrates my body. I can feel it getting progressively faster. Each second I see him, I can feel my body warming up. My body tenses. I can feel the sweat building on my forehead. A small ringing runs through my head.

“Parker.” Her voice echoes, feeling miles away. “Parker.” She steps in front of me. “You good?”

“Yeah.” I put a smile on. “Perfect.”

“Okay. Just let me know if you need anything.”

“Thanks, mom.” We both laugh.

Sarah starts walking to the boat and when I look back to the docks, he’s gone. 

“My beauty.” JJ puts his hand out to help Sarah onto the boat. “Welcome aboard. Drinks on the port. Snacks on the starboard.”

“JJ. It’s my boat.” They laugh and hug. “Good to see ya doing well.”

“Parker,” JJ says when he sees me, a faint smile on his face. 

“Hey. You look good.” I step onboard.

“You too.” He bites his lower lip.

Kiara hands me a beer and I quickly begin drinking. John B hands me a shot, I take it down. The music starts. Everyone starts dancing. Everyone is laughing. And me… I’m pushing everything back. I can feel that it’s not good. I know it’s just going to explode eventually. But I don’t care. I don’t care how much alcohol it takes. Or how much dancing it takes. All I care about is forgetting and having fun. I just want to have fun for once. Fun with no drama. Fun with no violence. Fun with no regrets.

“Shots!” JJ walks up to everyone with a plate of shots.

“Whoo!” We all shout before taking them down.

“You’re looking really hot tonight,” JJ whispers to me while the music is loud and everyone else is dancing.

“You too.” I lick my lips and take down another shot. “Wanna dance?”

“Well…” He lifts his crutch.

“Bummer.” I leave him smiling and go back to the dance floor after taking another shot. “Whoo!”

“Whoo!” Everyone shouts back.

I feel my body heating up. Sweat is dripping. The air feels thick and warm. Everyone’s rubbing up against each other. John B and Sarah and rubbing up very close. Taylor and Pope are getting closer. Kiara is laughing on the side with JJ. I feel my body slowing down. I look around and notice the smiles on everyone. Everyone just seems so happy. It just seems so easy for them.

When I look over to the sun beginning to set I see him once more. He’s just standing on the water, smiling. Something with the combination of seeing him, the alcohol, and all the dancing hits me. My legs just buckle. My knees smack the ground hard, a boom vibrating through the air.

Everyone suddenly stops what they’re doing and look at me. I can see their faces. It’s a look of pity. A look that I’ve always feared. They’re looking at me like I’m crazy. Then I feel the water running down my face. I start rubbing my face. I’m crying. Why the fuck am I crying. Sarah starts walking to me. She gets to her knees. She saying something, but I can’t hear her. Taylor comes behind her. They’re looking at each other and saying something, but all I hear is some sort of ringing.

“I’m good.” I just stand up, everyone’s eyes following me. “I’m good.” I walk over to where the drinks are, grab a bottle of vodka, and just walk down below and into the bedroom.

I take a seat and a massive chug of the vodka. Right in front of me, he stands. He’s just smiling that stupid smile. Seeing him makes me want to break things. It makes me want to cry. I want to scream till I lose my voice.

“Parker…” JJ walks in and he vanishes.

“What?” I take another swig of the vodka.

“You okay?”

“Why does everyone always ask me that?”

“I just…”

“Stop it!” I stand up. “Stop being so fuckin’ nice! It’s annoying!”

“Um…”

“Um…? Um…? Just stop it! You don’t want to be friends with me! You don’t want to be around me! No one does!”

“That’s not true.” JJ tries walking up to me.

“Stop!” I take a large chug of the vodka. “Fuck off!”

“No.” He just stands there looking ridiculous.

“Why can’t you realize I’m fucked up? Why can’t you realize I’m dangerous?”

“You’re not. Trust me. I’ve had bad shit in my life. I’ve done fucked up things. But we move past it. We grow. We do better.”

“Oh my god.” I interrupt him. “Stop with the stupid hallmark movie bullshit. You fuckin’ loser.” I step up to him, taking a sip of the vodka. “You don’t know me. You can’t even begin to think of the shit I’ve been through.”

“Then tell me. Tell me everything.”

“You want to know?” I laugh. “I wish I could just sit and tell you everything. It’s a fucking novella. It’s the fuckin’ Odyssey.”

“I’ve got time.”

“Well, I don’t. I don’t have time for your bullshit. Your happy feely crap.” I try walking past him, but he grabs my arm.

“Get the fuck off me!” I push him back and onto the bed. “Stop trying to help me! Stop it!”

“I won’t.” He stands up.

“Fuck! Fine! Maybe if you know just what I am you’ll finally stop this nonsense!” I take a large chug of the vodka. “So… abusive dad. Months ago there was an accident. All my fault. Mom died. Dad got more abusive. More of a drunk. Then I snapped when he threw my mom’s ashes. I hit him. I hit him so many times that he died. And now I’m here living with his mom.” JJ just stares at me. “I told you. Fucked up. Now you see why you should stay away from me? I’m a fuckin’ killer!” 

“Parker…” He moves towards me and I feel this sudden sense of Deja Vu.

“No!” I push him back, his head his the wall hard. “Don’t touch me! Don’t ever touch me!” Everything starts to get blurry around me.

Things start to get like before. My chest is tightening. My muscles are tightening. My heart is racing. My stomach is flipping. I quickly take one last chug of the vodka before it’s empty and throw it onto the bed.

“Parker!” JJ walks to me, grabbing his head.

“NO!” I turn away and leave the room.

I make it up to the top and grab the first bottle of alcohol I find. Immediately everyone starts to stare at me. I can see them judging me. I take a large chug of the bottle and just start dancing to the music. The others stop dancing, but I won’t… I can’t. I move my body up and down. I move around in circles. I keep taking swigs of the bottle. Everything begins to get blurry. My head feels light. Everything is just off. Everything is wrong. 

I see JJ walk up top and to Sarah. I stop dancing as I see him whisper into Sarah’s ear. She just looks over at me.

“What’d you say?” I walk up to them. “What the fuck did you just tell her?”

“Nothing.” JJ looks scared.

“What? Now you’re scared of me? And now you’re warning everyone? What fuckin’ bullshit! What about that stupid shit that you’d be fine no matter what I told you? Was it all just some fuckin’ lie?”

“No… Parker…” I look around and everyone is getting freaked out.

“Just stop it!” I feel everything closing in on me. “Fine! Fine! Fine!” Tears start rolling down my face. “You all wanna know who I really am?”

“You don’t…” JJ starts.

“Oh but I do! You’re going to tell them! I might as well get it all out there. Make it easier for you!” I take a very large swig of the bottle. “I’m a killer! I fuckin’ killed my dad. Beat him up so bad his brain just stopped. And now the courts have ordered me to stay with my dad’s mom who still thinks he was a saint even though he would beat me daily since I was five.” I just start laughing. “He was psycho, yet they think I am. They don’t even know about the time he put my hand in boiling water because he didn’t want me making pasta. Fuckin’ pasta! I was ten!” I start running my hands through my hair, everything around me feels like it’s getting closer. “And that’s just my dad’s death! Should I bring up my moms?” I see Kiara and Taylor starting to tear up, holding each other. “She died just six months ago. All because I had to fight back with my dad. She lost control. We went right into an 18 fuckin’ wheeler! She died and I got to take the blame until I lost it.” I take a deep breath in, my entire body aching. “You happy now?” I look to JJ, who, like everyone else, looks scared and worried.

“Pa…” JJ, tears going down his face, tries to speak.

“No.” I feel myself calming. “I’m done.” The sadness starts to hit like a tidal wave.

I just walk to the side of the boat and jump onto the dock. I look back and everyone’s looking at me.

“I tried.” Tears start rolling down my face. “I really tried.”

Then I walk away. I just start walking down the dirt road. I hear someone shouting my name, but I don’t look back. I just keep walking. I walk into the darkness without a second thought. The tears eventually stop a few miles later. I see no one. I see no car. I just walk. In no specific direction either. 

I don’t think about anything. I just walk. My mind is too tired to think. It just feels empty at this point. 

“Parker?” I feel my bones rattle and nearly jump out of my skin when I realize a car has pulled over to the side and right next to me. “Parker?” I look into the car and see Rafe. “You need a ride?” I can’t even focus on him.

“Sure.” At this point, why not?