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!Too Young To Feel Numb! (Kie x Reader)

ATTENTION!! There are a lot of trigger warnings in this one! Including: drinking, drugs, talks of feeling alone, depression.

Summary: Y/n started smoking weed at the age of 8, It’s all she’d known; She grew up around it so it was normal for her to start super young, she told herself that’s the farthest she’d go...only smoking weed..never any hard drugs. She thought she could learn from her parent's mistakes, guess not. 

pairing: Kie x female!reader, Rafe x Platonic! reader, JJ x Sister figure! reader

Warnings: Substance abuse, depression, suicidal thoughts, marijuana Underage drinking,(reader is 15),

A/N: Alot of grammar errors because i dont feel like checking it so sorry....not really,hehe

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I use to think people were crazy for even thinking about doing anything harder than weed. Yeah...I was like 7 so it doesn’t count.”Yo you gonna babysit that shit or pass it, I mean...I have all day but  would love to do something besides wait for you to pass the blunt.” I rolled my eyes waiting for JJ to hand it to me.”Chill, what’s up your ass today?”

He finally passes it, after what felt like hours. I take a long hit before seeing he’s actually wanting me to answer his question.”Nothin. man, I’ve just got places to be.” I mumbled out hoping he wouldn’t start asking any further questions. He stares blankly awaiting me to pass it back, knowing I don’t share my feelings so he simply lays off. “Hey. You trynna go surfing today….whenever you’re done with your….things..?”

“Uhh, yeah text me and-” I’m cut off by the sound of my phone vibrating...Barry.

Barry:

Meet in twenty? I got extra today

I look up from my phone stuttering my words, and fumbling.“Uhm, I gotta go do something, but I’ll text you later to surf, yeah?” I say nodding towards JJ as I began walking out.”Uhm yea sure, hey-” I was already out the door.”-be safe.” he muttered to himself left wondering why I left so fast. On the way to my bike, I ran into Kie and Pope laughing about something before Kie began to make her way over towards me.

“Hey, Y/n! Heading out so fast, are we?”Kie pouted her lip out mimicking a whimpering sound.” heh, yeah sorry bub. I gotta go handle some things and I’ll be back later.” I peck her lips in a swift movement as well as pull up the front of her crop top, covering her exposed cleavage.”Those are my love,keep them covered” I wink at her. She laughs and heads inside after blowing me a kiss,that I catch and pretend to place in my heart..Wow im so whipped.

My thoughts cut off by a loud vibrating noise.

Barry:

You coming?

Read: 46 sec.ago

Me:

Omw now!

Read: just now

I hop on my bike heading over to Barry’s place knowing a shortcut I found a few days ago.

It only takes 10 minutes before i’m in front of his house walking up the steps of the porch.My clean oxygen is immediately replaced by the smell of cigarettes,weed,and...Is that burnt hair?I scrunch my face in disgust at the awful smells.”Aye look who it is!” Barry calls out after seeing my face, He’s standing beside..Rafe cameron.

Now...I’m not friends with Rafe but i also don’t exactly despise him.I babysat wheezie all summer last year,most the time he’d join..keep me company;I don’t think he knew i was with Kie but he’s not all bad.He’s helped me more times than I can count,only because i've done the same for him though.

“Yo waddup.I didn’t expect to see you here.” I share a short handshake with Barry and side hug Rafe,he seems unprepared for it so he stumbles a bit but eventually hugs back quickly.”uh yeah.just doing some..business” Rafe says avoiding eye contact,looking everywhere except my face.”anyway i'm gonna head out, i'll catch you guys later.” Rafe walks towards,im guessing his bike;I head inside following barry so i didn’t really catch what he drove in.

“So like I said I've got your usual ,and then I got a little extra something I thought you may like.”He continues on but I'm so wrapped up in the fact that I want to consume something soon,anything;I don’t know exactly what he's saying.”Sound good?” He asked “Uh what?sorry I zoned out a bit.”I shook my head pushing my long hair out of my eyes.”Look,Usually altogether this would be alot of money but considering I stole the pills,I'll spare you the oxy,wadda yuh say?”, “Yeah sure,80$?”

He nods his head holding his hand out as i hand him the money.He hands you a bag full of coke in a plastic baggy, along with the pills in its original container it was prescribed. “Ight,thanks man.Ill see you later next week!” I wave goodbye as I show myself out, shoving the ‘things’ I had bought into my bag and swinging it back on my back.

~Incoming call from:Bubbs<3

I instantly pick up not wanting to worry her.

I instantly hear the boys laughing and playing in the background,but wait for her to say something.”Hey baby, you heading back yet?” Kie questioned sounding bored of the childish boys we spend our time with.”Not yet,i promise im almost done,ask the boys if there's drinks at the chateau please.”She turns her head away from the boys asking what there is to drink besides sink water.

I hear a chorus of “We just stocked up”,”All good momma bird.” and other sayings coming from the overly hyper boys.”Did you hear that,or need me to repeat?” She hesitantly says, making sure I’m still listening ”Gotcha,I'm headed your way now,see you there” I say quickly hanging up without giving her time to respond.

I hop on my bike and drive towards…...the opposite of the chateau,instead deciding to go to the Camerons.I drive,stuck in thought of what ill do when i get there,not quite sure why i decided to come.I had been so lost in thought I didn’t realise I was suddenly at the Cameron residence. I park my bike and began walking up to the door,but before I can knock,Rafe walks up behind me.

“Y/n?” I swiftly turn around being scared for a minute before realizing who it was.”Oh!uhm. yeah...hey” I ‘smoothly’ say”what are you doing here?” he asks..The whole conversation was a blur and before I knew it I was walking up to his room to hang out.I sit on the bed laying back asking about what he wants to do.”I don't know,you came here,what'd you have in mind?” He asked curiously.”I'm not sure.” I snorted at my inability to maintain a conversation.

I dig into my bag as he starts up about how he broke his bed frame the other day, because he put too many boxes on the bed while getting rid of some old things. I finally found what I was looking for,the baggy of white powder.I lifted it up smiling widely.”Can I do this here or no?”I question,feeling my body begin to sweat at the thought of getting to snort the white powder.

“Uh,I mean.. yea sure,didn't know you did that kind of thing.. but I mean go ahead.” He rambles. He stares into space as I do a few lines, my eyes opening wide at the sensation of sudden adrenaline;I look over to see him trying not to stare.”Oh my bad,You want some?” I ask holding up the dollar folded into a cylinder shape , gesturing to the lines of coke spread on the dresser.

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Hours go by,giggling,cracking jokes with rafe as well as doing oxy and maybe overdoing it with the coke seeing as the bag was almost gone.Rafe hasn't done much.I on the other hand was feeling VERY shaky and everything was just so hilarious..until it wasnt.My high started to get bad and overall scary.I must've did too much in such a limited amount of time.I look at my phone .

17 missed calls from Bubbs<3

8 missed calls from John B:)

9 missed calls from Popey boi

11 missed calls from JJ

Incoming call from Bubbs<3

“He-h-hello ,hi,hey.”

“DON'T ‘HI’ ME!” Kie instantly began screaming into the phone making me move my face away from it as Rafe looked at me with a worried expression on his face.

“Y/n,Where have you been! I’ve been so worried! I’ve-” I Blanked out again not in the mood to be yelled at.”Yeah,hey I nee-need,will-can youcomeandpickme up” I say jumbling all my words together. “Are you okay?Why are you talking like that?''She ask worried about my state of mind.

“Yeah am- I fine,Yes” I say yet again struggling to sound normal. I guess I was on speaker because JJ immediately began yelling into the phone asking about where I was.”Rafes house” Rafe sat silently waiting for them to break out into hysterics about me being with him.The phone went silent for a moment before the call ended.”So does that mean they not-....Vodka” was all i said before heading downstairs Rafe was sober enough to be able to notice what i was doing.I quickly went downstair searching through the freezer.

“Yessss.”I exclaimed before chugging the vodka.”Rafe continuously asking me to give him the bottle.I chugg at least half the pint bottle before having to give it up because Sarah comes down the stairs.”Y/n what're you doing here?” She asks excitedly until she saw me tripping over my own feet walking towards her,”Woah!” she caught me just before I hit the floor.

She turned to the door hearing someone pull up.Kie.”Rafe what did you do to her?” Sarah asked, holding me up scared of how out of it I was.”SHE BROUGHT COKE HERE,i did a bit with her, but she did A LOT. I legit did nothing this time I swear on everything!”He trailed back up the stairs not caring about the situation now that Sarah was there to take care of you. 

I began to sweat, tears running down my face. scared of what's happening to me.John b and Kie rush through the front doors asking where I am.”IN HERE GUYS!” Sarah screamed for them to hear her.My eyes rolling to the back of my head as I went in and out of consciousness.

“BABYYYY!!!” i exclaimed making grabby hands at Kie as i started crying harder

Sarah helped me stand up shakingly as I tried to walk to my girlfriend,She came running towards me with a concerned look on her face. She grabs my face pecking my lips,”Bub. I need you to listen to me, okay?” I nodd in awe of the gorgeous girl in front of me.”John B is gonna take you to the van,we need you to tell us everything you took to get in this state, okay?” I drowsily  nodded,growing tired.

Just as she said,the tall boy picked me up bridal style carrying me out to the twinkie.

I take notice to seating arrangement so i can close my eyes and know whos talking ,JJ being in the passenger seat,Pope watching From the bench behind the driver's seat.Kie stepped up into the van sitting on the floor of the vehicle waiting for John B to place me down beside her.As he did I sat up enough to lean my back against her chest.

JJ was surprisingly silent.Too silent.Pope looked so worried at my sweating body and dripping wet hair from  sweat,tears,and vodka mixture.”Okay,Y/n,What did you take?” my girlfriend sits grabbing my face turning me to face her, my legs straddling her thighs on the floor as I nuzzle my head into the crook of her neck,but she pushes my head up making me pout but not being able to maintain due to the dizziness. “I took a few oxy,uhm when I -then i did a few lines of coke,and…..i chugged half a pint of vodka..” i said tears filling my eyes trying to not look into anyone's eyes,

Silent JJ was no more .”Are you fucking kidding me.Y/n Y/m/n Y/l/n.You’re not supposed to take oxy and drink alcohol together.much less do oxy or coke at all.ARE YOU DUMB!” JJ began turning around. A Quiet ‘im sorry’ came from my mouth.John B finally pulled into the chateau.

Kie carried me while my face stayed nuzzled in her neck still crying due to my,still,VERY high state.she sat me down on the couch out on the porch as everyone except her,went to get a few things.Pope came back with water and a wet rag to place on my head.JJ brought a blanket,John B came back empty handed because he only went inside to pee.

“Kie?” I whispered scared she was mad.”Yes baby?” 

“Are you mad at me?” I questioned hiding my face in her shoulder due to the amount of dizziness being insured. She leaned her head on mine with an unknown amount of emotions,not quite sure of how to fully answer. “No I- I just don’t know what you were thinking I just- Well I figured you wouldn’t ever do anything like this considering what we talked about-and -and what you went through with your parents..” 

“I know-I wanted to feel better tho..I just feel like i have no one-”

Shortly realising the guys were still in on the conversation as Pope cut in.

“Y/n, you have,and always will have us..” I lift my head from the girls shoulder  before slowly looking at Pope in his sad worried eyes.

“I guess, I like-I dont know guys what you want me to say..Im trying to be better for myself for everybody,but nothing was working and i ran into barry one day and we talked and he offered a way to help,of course i was hesitant but its really not that bad...Im actually fine!” I said standing up as John b followed me.

“y/n, you were just saying you need help,so what the fuck are we supposed to do ,one minute you need help and having to be ushered here so you dont die! And-and-the next thing you’re yelling at us about how your fine,you’re not fine and you know it!” I stopped as I watched the long haired boy fight back tears trying to explain how all of them feel.

“Fuck you guys honestly,Im not a child i know how i feel,this is all just bullshit!” I yelled at them all, I ran to the spare bedroom covered in sweat,tears,and vodka; I slowly sink into the bed as tears fall down my face crying myself to sleep,what i didn’t know was that my bestfriend’s and girlfriend were all huddled up outside the door awaiting me to fall asleep so that they could come in and cuddle me to make me feel better.Sometimes things get better, but i dont think this is one of those times atleast for now anyway..

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~Live a little~ (series)  , 4 parts/More to come   

-Summary:  Y/n Y/l/n is always ready to run,from the cops,towards trouble,on an adventure,whatever she can get an adrenaline rush from.

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John B.

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Kie

!Too Young To Feel Numb!

(Might add another part!)

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~Live a little~ (Pogues x reader) Part 1.

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Part 2 / Part 3

Summary: Y/n Y/l/n is always ready to run,from the cops,towards trouble,on an adventure,whatever she can get an adrenaline rush from.

Pairing: Pogues x Platonic!Reader

Warnings:Cursing,Etc. that comes along with the show.Mentions of cleavage

Word count?:1206

Contains:Platonic relationships,fluff,innocent flirting through reader and the rest of the Pogues. (Y/n is basically a girl version of JJ)

A/N:This is my first time writing (Please don’t judge,if there is something you think could help with my writing please let me know,I enjoy corrective criticism..),and I would like to make it a regular basis type thing ,so feel free to request for any of the characters you’d like.I also don’t see many platonic fics and I feel like I would enjoy making fics that don’t always have to be romantic(as well as some that are).I really want this to be a series to carry on all the way through season one and if it does okay,then maybe continue it in season two.

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 “That's what,a three-story fall to the deck?” Pope questions watching the brunette haired boy dangle his right foot off the edge of the house.I watch from aside Pope ,but quickly move directly under John B. 

”Jump bro,i’ll catch you!” I giggle making a cradle type shape with my hands. He sticks the tip of his index finger in his mouth sticking it in the wind to see which way it was traveling.“Hm-Should I do it?” Still with his  foot sticking off the ledge.

  “Yeah,jump.-I’ll shoot you on the way down.” Pope begins, pointing the drill at the other boy shutting one of his eyes,pretending to aim.

 “oh you’ll shoot me?” the other boy uses his fingers to mimic Pope,a playful smirk on his face.“No balls!” I shout at the dark haired boy,

 “you won’t,do it.”

 ”Oh and you will?” JJ finally chiming in.

”Yea,you wanna see.” I playfully bark back.Attempting to climb the bars to the top only reaching the first bar as Kie comes out of the house after exploring what is built of the house.

“Get down bub.” Kie says as she jokingly smacks my ass. 

“They’re gonna have Japanese toilets with towel warmers.”

I jump down wrapping my arms around her neck from behind her as she walks.

“Of course.Why wouldn’t they?” JJ rolls his eyes.

“This used to be a turtle habitat ,but who cares about the turtles,I guess.”

I squeeze her cheeks from behind her, mushing them together as I lean on her shoulder. “Sorry about the turtles,babe.” still with my hands on her face as she swats at them.

“Are you though?” JJ’s eyebrows raising knowingly.“Well...I can’t have cold towels, that would just be despicable!” Fake British accent coming out...Very bad one might I say.

Taking a quick glance at John B ,I notice he’s still balancing on one foot,with a beer in his hand. “Yo! Don’t drop that beer dude!” I climbed up to where JJ was sitting, getting behind him taking his hat. 

”I’m not giving you another one.”JJ says, directing the statement at John B , “He tickles my sides as I try to give him a wet willy. “chill..chill.” I mutter trying to catch my breath from laughing,while I place his hat on his head. 

I sit down beside him and lean my upper body in his lap as he begins playing with my hair.

”WOAH-Oh ,shit!” John B  dropping his beer.”Of course you did-smooth.” JJ waves his hands dramatically “Right after you said it too.”I laugh loudly.

“Hey!”

“Hey,uh,security’s here.” Pope says almost as if it weren’t a big deal.

 “You’re early today ladies!”I yell out to the security guards climbing down after JJ slowly.

“Lets go humpty dumpty.” the other boy climbing down after us. “Is that you, Gary?”I call out laughing maniacally at the fact that I could recognize the man. 

JJ grabs my sides rushing me to jump down the railing.“Gary good to see you, man!” I yell teasingly. Kie playfully ruffles my hair nudging me in front but I stay in place next to JJ. 

“You’re just asking for it Kid.”JJ bumps my elbow with a wide smile.

”Lets go!” I yell running in front of Kie,making me behind JJ. Laughing and loud wooping comes from us as we run from security feeling free.Moments like these are ones I cherish.

Having fun with my friends,and feeling on top of the world as the adrenaline pumps throughout my veins.We run down the stairs hollering out random noises playfully.At the end of the stairs JJ and I run towards one of the guards unknowingly.

“Hey!Stop!” 

JJ dodges the man twirling around him heading back towards the rest of the bunch,me hot on his trail.  “Not much of a hugger,man!” JJ laughs dodging another man,

“But,I am!” I jump on The man's back causing him to spiral before I jump over his head following JJ.

“They’re going out front!”

“Go, Pope!” 

”GO!” 

I pick up my pace ,catching up to the two boys.Pope jumps over falling onto his stomach in a coughing mess, JJ jumps over after . “Get up Pope.”

 JJ helps me over the fence as I look back “Fatso’s coming!” I grab Pope’s collar and pull him up as well as JJ’s wrist to get them to start running.

“Come here you little pricks!”

John B intercepts our running ”Bus is leaving.” he states in a monotone voice. JJ and Pope jump in quickly.

”Yo I wanna have some fun.”I skip backwards watching as the twinkie begins driving forward.”Get in!” Pope yells annoyingly but I tell John B to drive a smidge faster

.”C'mere boy,Come on! you’re so close,Yes you are!” I yell out to the man acting as if he’s a puppy as he runs behind me out of breath.

”Ight slow down!Coming in for the landing captain!” 

I run faster up to the sliding door.I take JJ’s outstretched hand,he pulls me up effortlessly.I wrap my arm around his waist, the both of our bodies hanging out of the van teasing the man before tossing him a beer.

”They don’t pay you enough bro” I laugh watching the man finally stop,”Y/n,stop.Stop.

”Kie says.I lean down kissing her cheek before sitting down beside her as JJ shut the sliding door.

  “Oh, come on. That sort of initiative is just begging to be punished.”

“Initiative’s a big word. Surprised you used it correctly.”I giggle having fun teasing the blonde boy.

“whatever.”JJ laughs laying his head on my stomach. “Get up real quick”I pat JJ’s cheek.

“Kie,My beautiful friend,my love,my favorite person in the world?” I smile looking at the girl as the boys playfully scoffed knowing I was only playing around.

“Yes,Y/n?”She looks at me questionably as I scoot in between her legs, sat on the bench behind the driver's seat.

“Can you pwetty pwease, braid my hair?”I give her puppy dog eyes ,shifting my head to see her face behind me. “Yes.”she says as she begins combing her fingers in my hair.

“Okay,you can lay back down now” I grab JJ’s arm pulling him to rest his head back on me once again.This time he lay his head on my chest,I play with his hair absentmindedly while Pope stares amusingly. 

“You’re boobs are comfortable...” JJ says while closing his eyes.I shove him off me, pushing him away with my foot; 

A chorus of “Dude”,and “really,JJ”’s being heard inside the van.”What?What’d I say” JJ asks, looking at everyone before trying to lay back down on my chest,failing as I pull his head into my lap instead laughing at the boy.

A/n:This was kinda short in my opinion,The other parts will be much longer considering how much you guys like it (If you even see it.:)I ended it kinda awkward ,idk give me advice please,about anything and everything.