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lovebvni · 10 months ago

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Shifting Timeframe? Pick A Pile

Welcome back to my bi-weekly pick a piles!! I was compelled by spirit to do a timeframe of when you will probably shift. Remember, general reading and YOU have the POWER to change it.

Also I've been seeing 325 a lot - 3/25 is actually my birthday SOOO if anyone knows what that means please tell me!

Everything comes with a grain of salt, I will also have a shufflemancy going on in the background.

So, take a deep breath in...

Now out...

What emoji is your third eye telling you to pick?

🥚|🍭|🍬|🍶

pile 1 -- egg

A Month and a half, your day to shine.

Cards: Strength reversed, The Tower, Temperance, Knight of Cups

BESTIE OMG UR SO CLOSE TO SHIFTING WTF IM SO PROUD OF YOU, I KNOW ITS BEEN HARD BECAUSE OF THE TOWER CARD BUT I KNOW YOU'RE PUSHING THROUGH! You may feel vulnerable in some way, like you're not good enough? You are! You are the universe, you are the most powerful being EVER!! You should also take a quick 1-2 day break from shifting - this will also help you shifthere will also be someone coming in *possibly a friend, witch, or spiritual person* helping you out on this journey - they might be the one to give that final push.

Possible Personality Traits: Loving, giving, annoying {To yourself}, confident {On the outside}

Shufflemancy :

"Don't be afraid of heights 'cause we flyin'" - Rebels Call Me Karizma

"The time is upon you to show them what you can do and soon they will know that the day has COMEEE" - The Day - From Boku no Hero Academia, NateWantsToBattle

"I'm a little faded" - Slumber Party - Ashnikko

"It's exactly the same, they say 'why do you dress that way?' 'why do you act that way?' 'why aren't you just like me?" - Fire Drill - Melanie Martinez

Phrases, Numbers, Signs and more: 777, 666, Christmas, Bakugou, short tempered, Denki, Shinsou, shy, "You've got a friend in me", "Movie night!!", "Get in loser, we're going to the mall", "So you're obsessed?" Capricorn, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Taurus.

pile 2 -- lollipop

Within the next 48 hours, your dreams will come true.

(2 days to a week, actually)

Cards : 9 of Pentacles reversed, King of Pentacles reversed, 3 of Wands, The Fool reversed

OKAY FIRST OF ALL HOW LONG HAVE YALL BEEN SHIFTING I FEEL LIKE UR JUST A VERY SPIRITUAL PERSON!! But I feel like to get to that point you have to be less dependent on the things outside around you, and more on yourself. YOU'RE the one who can shift, the signs mean NOTHING if you don't take action. Do you abuse your power to shift in one way or another? Like start denying it exists JUST so The Universe will let you shift? Approach shifting like a timid animal in your backyard that's hurt. But yes, you definitely are shifting within the week. Your child-like wonder inspires me btw

but keep your hopes up, you need more faith and hope that you will shift!

Possible Personality Traits: Softie on the inside, kind of shy?, risk taker, lover of music, goofy

Shufflemancy:

"Stupid boy think that I need him, I go cold like change the seasons, I go red hot like a demon, I go ghost for no damn reason, stupid boy think that I need him, stupid boy think that I need him." - Stupid - Ashinikko

"I'm not your friend, or anything damn, you think that you're the man, I think therefore I am" - Therefore I am - Billie Eilish

"You've got troubles, I've got em too, there isn't anything I wouldn't do for you." - You've Got A Friend In Me - Cavetown

"We bark alot" - GOODMORNINGTOKYO! - TOKYO'S REVENGE

"We can fill it up with grass and all the things that make it warm. When you leave to go fly across the sea, I'll be waiting here with Junior and the flowers that we've grown." - Things That Make It Warm - Cavetown

"We might hotwire this old car to drive" - Everything Is Temporary (Sticks and Stones) - Cavetown

"Look like I'm going for a swim" - Chun-Li Nicki Minaj

Phrases, Numbers, Signs and more: Denki Kaminari, "I'm failing all my classes omg", 444, "Hey, a frown won't get you anywhere - SMILE MORE!", calming music, study sessions, sexually active, dirty-minded, lack of physical affection, "Rough around the edges", Cavetown, Air Signs, any dominant sign tbh, "Have high hopes but low expectation", UA traitor, villian

pile 3 -- candy

44 Days, but It feels like years.

TW: DRUGS, SMOKING, ETC.

Cards : 8 of Pentacles, King of Cups reversed, 6 of Cups, The Hierophant

If you've read any of my other tarot readings you KNOWWW the hierophant makes me feel like I'm being choked, but before you shift you're going to realize something new, something new will come to you I suppose? So it will be a new beginning, then shift, it will probably be a new hobby or a job you like. And, like pile one, you will get good advice from a friend. I know some of you guys are like 'im not attracted to people in this reality' but you might be soon?? it's probably someone you knew in your past life or something. It may just be a friendship though. But the hierophant is just emphasizing what I just said, a good friend is going to give you advice.

Possible Personality Traits: ignored, quiet, lonely, friendly, smart, emotional

Shufflemancy:

"The worlds a little blurry, or maybe it's my eyes." - Ilomilo - Billie Eilish

"Maybe I'm too emotional, or maybe you never cared at alllll" - Good 4 U - Olivia Rodrigo

"I don't smoke, I just like how it smells" - Cigaratte Ahegao - Penelope Scott

Phrases, Numbers, Signs and more: Senpai/teacher, "You sure do cry a lot.", "You shouldn't care so much", watching youtube, hbu?, ignorant accidently, 666, 999, 69, st0ner, dr!nking, first time

pile 4 -- drink

Anywhere from to day to the 29th of this month

Cards : Queen of Wands, The Lovers, Judgement, Page of Cups

CLEARLY YOU'RE SHIFTING FOR SOMEONE WITH THE LOVERS CARD COMING OUT I MEAN SAME BESTIE, you don't know when you will shift, and you def look to higher spirits. Try some shadow work - your inner child needs healing. The universe sees you and how much you have bene struggling and working towards this, and it thanks you deeply. Your hard work is going to pay off soon!

Possible Personality Traits: Disappointed often, violent, gay, dramatic ASF, popular, two face, probably on medication, has been hurt physically, emotionally, or some other way

Shufflemancy :

"She moves on pretty BLOODY QUICK" - Your New Boyfriend - Wilber Soot

Literally any MHA song

"Baby hotline, please hold me close to you!" - Baby Hotline - Jack Stauber

"She said you were a hero, you played the part. But you ruined her in a year, don't act like it was hard. And you swear you didn't know, I wonder why you didn't ask, she was sleeping in your clothes, but now she's got to get to class." - Your Power - Billie Eilish

I hope this pick - a pile resognated! I've been going through a lot this week and I don't know if my accuracy may have failed bc of the stress I'm experiencing but I'm so glad like NOBODY is shifting in a year+( like 2023) bc I know you all work SO HARD to shift.

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mamawasatesttube · 6 days ago

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I wanna start reading triangle era superman but I didn’t realize it was like a whole decade of comics. And that’s just a bit too much with the amount of other series I need to get around to. So in your opinion what are the most important arcs and which ones are your favourite? And which ones have the most kon in them because I am obsessed.

asdfjsk yeah it's definitely a solid chunk of comics. very worth it overall but i def get it, it's quite the time investment!! if you ever need it and haven't already seen it btw there is a whole beautiful reading list for the whole era here :)

but as for specific ones i'd rec... let's see. okay. i think i'll categorize this as bold being important issues plotwise or for character stuff, and italics being my favorites.

TRIANGLE ERA READING RECS, RIMI EDITION.

eta i accidentally hit post instead of save to drafts bc im a clown. give me a few hours and ill have the actual full thing up sdlkfjsdl

Action Comics #662

Superman (1987) #53 (the first few pages are important as follow-up to Clark revealing his identity to Lois; the rest is some kinda racist garbage)

Superman (1987) #59

Adventures of Superman #481-482 (the parasite's postcrisis debut as a villain and one of the darker stories out there. fun to me!)

Superman: The Man Of Steel #5 (atomic skull and really fun format for this issue that takes advantage of the comic medium!)

Action Comics #672

Adventures of Superman #487

The next part of this list is the "Panic in the Sky" event, which is pretty fun if you like big teamups!

Action Comics #674

Superman: The Man of Steel #9

Superman (1987) #65

Adventures of Superman #488

Action Comics #675

Superman: The Man of Steel #10

Superman (1987) #66

Adventures of Superman #489

And then we're back to more episodic stuff...

Action Comics #676

Action Comics #677 if you want to know part of why I don't really like Mae lmao

Action Comics #678 (explanation of "how Lex Luthor cloned himself and pretended to be his own son")

Superman: The Man of Steel #14

Superman (1987) #70

Superman: The Man of Steel #16

Superman (1987) #72

Superman: The Man Of Steel #17 (ILYSM Keith. also: first appearance of Doomsday!!!)

Action Comics #683 (Tim is here!!!)

Next up: The Death And Return Of Superman. This event is absolutely required reading and also fucks severely - the BEST event DC has ever produced, in my opinion. And, of course, Kon and John Henry Irons's debuts!!

The Death and Return of Superman is primarily within Triangle numbering but does include a couple of other crossover issues as well, so for it, I'll direct you to this list. I highly, highly recommend reading the entire thing. ♥

Now back to issue by issue!

Adventures of Superman #506 (Kon lore!)

Superman: The Man Of Steel #28 (follows up on John Henry as a prelude to Steel (1994)

Superman (1987) #84 (CW: Child death)

Adventures of Superman #507 (CW: extremely racist white supremacist villain. Aftermath of child death. This is a three parter that includes follow-up on Supey #84 in interludes between the action plot with Bloodsport.)

Action Comics #694

Superman: The Man of Steel #29

Superman (1987 series) #85 (CW: aftermath of child death) (Cat Grant I love you so much I'm so sorry)

Superman: The Man Of Steel #31 (sets up the clone plague arc)

Adventures of Superman #511

Next up we have The Battle For Metropolis and The Fall of Metropolis (both of which feature Kon :) yaaay!)

Action Comics #699

Superman: The Man of Steel #34

Superman (1987) #90

Adventures of Superman #513

Action Comics #700

Superman: The Man of Steel #35

Superman (1987) #91

Adventures of Superman #514

Action Comics #701

Also more or less concurrent with the Fall of Metropolis storyline is the Milestone/DC crossover "Worlds Collide" which I am not including here because a) it's in a whole bunch of books that aren't triangle era Superman too, and also b) for the sake of length, since it's not what I would call essential for future plot. But if you're interested in reading it, you can find it on this page with a ctrl+f!

Next up is Zero Hour, which is its own thing but ofc has all the fun tie-ins. The main event isn't triangle, but it's got its moments (and Kon is there also, if you're Konmaxxing).

Superman: The Man of Steel #37 (this tie-in is just hilarious)

Superman (1987) #93 (augh)

Action Comics #703 (augh)

After that, we have the setup to a doozy of a Superman storyline (about someone he knew as a child in Smallville who has a serious grudge against Clark Kent discovering his secret identity, and unleashing the horrors). The prologue to this storyline is:

Superman: The Man of Steel #0

Superman (1987) #0

Adventures of Superman #0

Action Comics #0

Then we get back to regular numbering for each series. There is another long crossover event ("Dead Again!") about Clark questioning his reality and if he's actually Superman or if something went wrong when he came back from the dead (spoiler: it's Brainiac fucking with his mind), but honestly I don't care about it that much, so I'm skipping that one. If you're interested, though, ctrl+F "Dead Again" on that same list I linked above!

Superman (1987) #98 (augh Cat Grant I love you augh)

Action Comics #708

Superman: The Man of Steel #43

Adventures of Superman #522

And then we get into "The Death of Clark Kent", the arc I mentioned above.

Superman: The Man of Steel #44

Superman (1987) #100

Action Comics #710

Superman: The Man of Steel #45

Superman (1987) #101

Adventures of Superman #524

Action Comics #711

Superman: The Man of Steel #46

Back to episodic stuff again after that, including some aftermath:

Superman (1987) #102

Adventures of Superman #525

Superman: The Man of Steel #48

Superman (1987) #104 (if you care about Cyborg Superman)

Superman: The Man of Steel #49 (Keith my darling <3)

Action Comics #715 (leadup to......)

The Trial Of Superman: possibly my favorite event in all of Triangle. "Why isn't Superman around during Underworld Unleashed?" Well you see he got abducted by aliens. No, really. (Also Kon is here!)

Superman: The Man of Steel #50

Superman (1987) #106

Adventures of Superman #529

Action Comics #716

Superman: The Man of Steel #51

Superman (1987) #107

Adventures of Superman #530

Superman: The Man of Tomorrow #3

Action Comics #717

Superman: The Man of Steel #52

Superman (1987) #108

Adventures of Superman #531

PHEW THIS IS SO FUCKING LONG. i'm getting a migraine so i'm taking a break here. i really didn't mean to publish this yet, but whoops. anyways, if i don't come back and finish out the rest in a day or two, poke me!

#answers #tangelotea

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e-to-the-v · 2 months ago

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Scar’s Realization

This is set directly after Chapter 9 of Reincarnated into My Wife’s Dating Sim; Why Is the Prince Obsessed With Me! We read as Scar reflects on his realization from the dance.

“Crazy how busy one can get halfway through the school year,” Scar thought to himself as he ran from one club that he signed himself up for post the dance to the next club he signed himself up for post the dance.

What?? Him, Scar, signing up for clubs to avoid Mumbo after he realized he might be dating Mumbo? What an absurd idea. No, no, Scar was just so interested in all these clubs. When was he ever going to get the chance to…he looked at the club room…polish dirt again?

Okay maybe Scar was grasping at straws here, but that doesn’t mean this couldn’t be a hobby he enjoyed.

But it turned out that just mindlessly attempting to shape dirt was not keeping his mind off a certain dark haired boy.

Well at first it was. When he started his ball, the dirt reminded him of Grian’s hair, which Scar was content to think about. Then Scar kept thinking, bad idea.

He thought about what it would be like to polish dirt with Grian. And then Scar thought about how if they did it then Mumbo would be strangely good at it.

Polishing dirt seemed like it would be one of the weird posh things Mumbo was good at. And how Mumbo would probably look at Scar’s ball and laugh at him in that way he usually does. That stupid laugh that ends with his cute little smile. And he would look at Scar with such a fond look that, on further reflection, made his tummy tingle.

The ball in his hand squished together as Scar applied too much pressure, turning into a lump of wet dirt. Scar sighed, scooping up his now crushed project and walking it to the front of the room where someone was running the club.

“Excuse me, do you know where I could dispose of this?” He asked, showing his lump.

“Prince Scar! Yes, I can take that from you. Sorry about your project.” The student said solemnly.

“It’s no worries, this just isn’t a skill I seem to have.” Scar took notice of the ball the man was shaping. “Unlike yourself. That’s very impressive! Got any tips for a novice like me?”

The kid blushed bashfully. “Oh well it's really nothing special. Everything is about consideration and awareness, how past actions build to your result.”

“Hmm, that’s an interesting perspective. Well I’ll get out of your hair now, have fun.”

“Feel free to come back anytime.”

He was thinking too much and no other club would distract him in the way he wanted. There was only one thing left for Scar to do. Get advice.

Scar had a number of friends he could turn to, but the real question was who? He couldn’t go to Grian, and he sure as hell couldn’t go to Mumbo. Normally he’d talk to Etho about these issues, but the boy seemed off since the night of the dance. Seems like Scar only had one option left, Pearl.

He made his way over to Pearl’s dorm. She would give him good advice, relationships seemed like something she could be good at.

Scar gave a little knock at her door. He could hear her shuffling around, moving closer. “I already told you he– oh Scar it’s you. What’s up?”

“I…um need some advice?”

Pearl sighed. “First Etho and now you. Come on in.” Scar moved into her dorm, choosing to lie on her couch while she sat in an armchair. “So what’s wrong?”

“Well…at the dance I was passing the time and um I might’ve danced with Mumbo… and uh after a bit of thinking I'm pretty sure I’m umm… dating Mumbo?” Scar said quickly.

“...yes, I know?”

Scar sat up. “YOU KNOW??”

“You’ve been dating for a couple years now?”

“We have?!”

“Did you not know?” Pearl looked concerned and disappointed.

“How was I supposed to know! It’s not like we’ve been romantic or anything.”

“You’re kidding right? Have you seen how the three of you interact?”

“I thought we were just fighting over Grian. I didn’t think Mumbo and I were….y’know.”

“Really? Do you not have any feelings for Mumbo?” Scar thought about it. Did he have feelings for Mumbo?

When Scar thought about the dark haired boy, it was usually with more contention than anything. He hated how Mumbo made Grian laugh, he hated how nervous Mumbo was, he hated how proper Mumbo tried to be. He hated Mumbo’s soft expressions, and how the boy would look at Scar with the same soft look. He hated that sometimes his heart longed for Mumbo in the same way it longed for Grian. How Scar desired to just pull him in and hold him close and just–

As Scar realized what he was thinking, blush grew deeper on his face. “I thought I hated him.”

“Hate and love are two very similar emotions. I think I’m starting to realize that as well.” Pearl wisely noted.

“How am I even supposed to talk to him now? Rivals and lovers are very different dynamics.”

“I think you can behave similarly to how you have in the past. It’s not like your whole relationship has changed.”

“It has to me!”

“Has it really? Are you positive the two of you never did anything romantic? Like holding hands?”

“Well we dance like couples do and also we’ve–” Scar cut himself off as it dawned on him. How could he not have realized? “Oh god.”

“What?”

Scar buried his face in his hands. “Mumbo and I have kissed.”

“You’ve WHAT!?” Pearl’s mouth dropped, “And you didn’t think you were dating?!”

“Well… I just thought it was a dare. He just came up to me and kissed me.”

“You are so unbelievably stupid. How are you a prince?”

“Hey! It’s not my fault! No one told me we were in a relationship!” Scar said defensively.

“So how are you gonna go about this?”

“I….do not know.” Scar said semi-confidently.

Pearl sighed. “Men.” She shook her head.

—

Acting normal was not something Scar was capable of. He would look at Mumbo and then there would be just too many emotions there that he didn’t know how to handle, so he'd end up running away. Or well, more like ignored Mumbo, which wasn’t good.

Scar needed to fix it, he just didn’t know how.

And that's how he found himself at a lunch table with Grian across from him and Mumbo next to him. This wasn’t at all an odd set up, but it made Scar aware of how close Mumbo was to him.

It was a nice meal, Scar primarily kept his focus on Grian and he was positive the other two were none the wiser. A perfect act. Well that was until Mumbo leaned in real close to Scar to make a joke at Grian. And Scar froze.

Mumbo was so close to him, Scar could see him breathing, he could practically smell him! It wasn’t good for his fragile mental stability. As soon as Mumbo moved away from him, Scar hurriedly excused himself and all but ran from the table.

He slowed down when he got to a more secluded hallway. He was so stupid. Why was he having such a hard time around Mumbo? Was it really easier when Scar thought they were just rivals? Maybe Scar should just leave them alone for now…he didn’t want to, but was there really another option?

“Scar!” Mumbo called, running down the hallway. When the boy caught up to him, he took a moment to catch his breath. “Are you okay?” He looked at Scar with such genuine concern that it made him guilty for even considering running away. How could he think about doing that to poor Mumbo?

Scar turned away from him, feeling the shame in his bones. “I’m fine.” His statement was curt, but he just couldn’t tell him about his struggle. They sat for a moment, neither speaking.

“Do you…not like me anymore?” Mumbo asked quietly.

Scar whipped his head around. “What!?”

Mumbo flinched slightly, his eyes anxiously shifting around, “Well it's just that it feels like you’ve been ignoring me lately, and… I just thought that maybe you were done with me.”

Scar looked at Mumbo, the nervousness and sadness showing through his expression. Scar wanted to wipe it away, and tell him he could never be done with him. “I’m sorry.”

The dark haired boy sighed. “It’s fine. I’ll leave you alone from now on.” He turned to leave.

“No!” Scar grabbed onto Mumbo’s arm. “Don’t leave. I’m so sorry. I just..god I keep putting my arm in my mouth and I never know what to say.”

“It’s foot in your mouth.” Mumbo corrected.

“See, I can’t even get that right.” Scar took the boy’s hands in his own. “Mumbo, I… I love you.”

Mumbo looked at him with a confused expression. “Well I do–”

“No, I hadn’t realized we were romantically involved until the dance.”

Mumbo’s face dropped. “W-What?”

“I was being really stupid, and I just couldn’t see it. So I want you to know that I care for you Mumbo, and I love you.”

The boy looked at him with a slight flush on his cheeks. “I love you too, Scar”

“I’m so glad you do, it’d be so embarrassing for me if it was unrequited.” Scar said as he pulled Mumbo into a hug.

“Well apparently it was unrequited for me for a while.” Mumbo jokes.

They laughed and Scar was grateful he wasn’t stupid enough to mess this up.

back to the intro

#yay the boys can be happy #smalletho dating sim au #fan fiction #ao3 #mumbo jumbo #goodtimeswithscar #redscape #mumscarian #hermitshipping #trafficblr #hermitblr #my writing

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ih3artreggie · 5 months ago

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ANNALATIONS is in session!

verse 9:99 – "kaito saeki is the goat"

i don't think many people know about one of my bestest friends in every single one of my drs – kai saeki, otherwise known as Nine (for reasons to be explained). Allow me to introduce him...

inspired by macknshift!

originally, kai was only in my loric dr. if you're familiar with the lorien legacy series (which i doubt you are), he IS number nine. just a normal guy!... so normal............ anyways, regardless of normality, he was my favourite character in the lorien legacies series #4EVER and i thought 'why not script him in'! he makes everything 10 times more fun.

the most recognisable dr you'd find him in is my f1 dr, although he is a part of my big three – fame, marauders, AND f1.

in my F1 DR, kai is a pro surfer in the world surfing league, and was an olympic silver medalist at the tokyo 2020 games (praying for the paris 2024 gold!). we met because we were both red bull athletes, and #traumabonded over it

in my MARAUDERS DR, he's in slytherin and plays as beater for the quidditch team (he is really good at knocking people out. in a good way!!!...). he's #enemies with sirius, and unknowingly on regulus' hit list (aren't we all?)

in my FAME DR, he's a friend from uni who is currently a middle school teacher and football coach! riveting stuff

...and in my LORIC DR, he's an alien with superpowers and a penchant for violence. what's new!?

i'm not joking when i say i've been obsessed with this man since 2019...................................... it's okay! i'm so normal. anyways, over the course of those five years, i've struggled with finding a suitable fc for him (this is a recurring problem you will notice with me). in my f1 dr, his career is hugely inspired by kanoa igarashi, who is in the photos above.

the current fc i use for kai is takahiro yaguchi (below). i felt like i'd seen a glimpse of heaven when i found him [sniffle].

MORE KAI FUN FACTS!! (specifically f1 dr related)

he's japanese american, and competes under the japanese flag despite being born in chicago

he's competed under the number 9 since he started surfing professionally, which is why people call him nine as a nickname. in the WSL, he's synonymous with his number – the same number i use in f1

lived in chicago for the first few years of his life, and then moved to huntington beach for surfing

he has a brother that's 10 years older than him named tadashi

when kai saw big hero 6 in cinemas he had to get up and leave when tadashi died in the movie because he couldn't stop crying and thinking of his brother 😭 (he was 15)

he's like. 6"4. NEEEEEVER lets it go. or lets me forget. it is hard to forget with him looming over me

the two songs that remind me of him the most are BOOGIE by brockhampton and tell me by wonder girls, the latter being my ringtone for him 😏 (he hates it)

HE HAS A REALLY BAD RESTING BITCH FACE 😭😭😭😭

he has so many tattoos that he's lost count of them. the one i like the most is 'born to ride' which is across his shoulders. it's sick

he is the most sun safe person i've ever met. he is never outside without sunscreen

i think that's all......... honestly i just wanted to yap, so expect a regulus related post coming your way soon!

this has been episode 1 of annalations, so i hope you enjoyed! catch you on the next one...

#annalations #shifting #shiftblr #reality shifting #shifting realities #f1 #wsl #surfing

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cull3nblaze · 11 months ago

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BuckTommy Masterpost

Apparently my 9-1-1 masterpost has exceeded the number of links I am allowed to insert...

So now I have two :D

part one

Evan🙄vsEvan😍

BuckTommyABC gifsets

Entries for the bucktommypositivityweek

Isn't that what we all want in a partner

First and last scene together

Dumbass4dumbass

I think he knows

The curse

Tommy Kinard. Boyfriend.

Super gross

Especially when things go wrong

Could you be more smitten

People are what make life worth living

What did I marry into

Billy Boils

When are getting those flying lessons

No space

I just wanted to get to know you

OTP tags

So that was okay

Vision in a cone

Nicknames

Capsized/Buzzkill

Never getting tired of looking at them

They way they look at each other is isane

You okay?

Basketball scene

Cozy Boyfriends

Head tilt

I feel it in my bones

Smitten kitten

Same/similar clothes

Yellow rag

Confused boyfriends

Moments season 7

7x06

7x10

Disney Romantic Edition

Disney Sidekick Edition

Tarlos parallel 01

Tarlos parallel 02

Tarlos parallel 03

Doctor Who parallel

The Rookie parallel

Roswell New Mexico parallel

Schitt's Creek parallel

Horita/BuckTommy kiss

better than fake mouth static

Hope to find something that good

me and my wild boy

Arrow reference

having the best time

They're in love, can you believe it

BuckTommy parallels part 1

BuckTommy parellels part 2

BuckTommy parallels part 3

She's too brooding for me

He's good for you

I totally get it, Buck

so adorable (Oliver & Lou interview)

There is that smile again (Oliver & Lou interview)

invisible string

Invisible string also known as Chimney Han

I've been thinking about the way you smile golden

Kinda obsessed with them

Touch

Touch (black/white)

Electric Touch

I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this

Kiss

I don't even care what happens for the rest of the day

Looks like you've been busy

Kiss/Hands/Hug

Tommy checking out Buck

My fees are competitive

Maybe that something could be with you

Montage/quotes

Closing the distance

That's why I called and asked for the tour

Tommy and Buck looking at each other

Just them being cute

I kind of can't stop thinking about him

Loft scene (7x04)

I don't know what I'm ready for

Not like that (coffee)

I am free

Basketball

Nervous

The one I have been waiting for

My loves

Ready

Favourite BuckTommy headcanon

Were you always out on the job

You don't find it son, you make it

Favourite Scene (first kiss)

Like that

#911 abc #bucktommy #evan buckley #tommy kinard #masterpost #my gifs #kinley #tevan

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starcrossed591 · 5 months ago

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KDrama Year in Review 2024

Only a few KDramas took up residence in my unconscious (looking at you, When the Phone Rings) this year, but looking back, there were a good number that I found pretty solid overall and looked forward to watching every week! I’ve been pretty flexible about genre this year, but since I was getting most of my angst from CDramaland (CDrama Year in Review forthcoming), I tended towards KDramas on the lighter and/or otherwise more restrained side. There’s some flotsam and jetsam to wade through first, but here we go:

Disclaimer: Rankings based on my personal preference, not objective quality

15) Romance in the House (dnf)—Did not even remember I watched this. The premise was meh, the deadbeat dad was unlikeable, and it seemed like they wanted me to root for him to win the mom back (no thank you). Some of the actors were doing their darndest to push through, but it did not work for me at all. Dropped.

14) Marriage Impossible (dnf)—I like the two lead actors, especially Moon Sang Min (I really liked him in Under the Queen’s Umbrella), and they had pretty good chemistry, but they were underserved by the weakness of the script. Dropped before they even got together (alas, the gifs of their first kiss looked like great fun).

13) Cinderella at 2am (dnf)—Interesting first two episodes in which the FL takes the money of chaebol boyfriend’s rich mother in order to break up with him, but then lost all momentum from there. Another miss from Moon Sang Min. Pick better scripts, buddy! Dropped.

12) Love Your Enemy—This rom com is fine I guess? I dropped after about six episodes because there’s too much else on my watch list. The actors playing the two leads in the high school flashbacks were unfortunately much more compelling than the ML and FL as adults, which leaves the whole thing feeling unbalanced. I don’t know if it’s the actors or the script, but this one just did not land for me. Dropped.

11) Serendipity’s Embrace—Finished this mostly inoffensive rom com mostly out of fondness for Kim So Hyun and because nothing else was airing that I wanted to watch. Did not actually like that much, do not recommend unless you don’t have much else to do.

10) Captivating the King—Was very obsessed with this sageuk for the first half. Cross dressing FL out for revenge? Vengeful, unhinged (bisexual) king? Yes please! However, they lost me when the FL who was supposed to be Very Smart kept acting Very Dumb, so I got distracted and never came back to it. I do still adore Cho Jung Seok and it was fun seeing him play a darker role after most recently seeing him in Hospital Playlist, but come on! If you want me to believe your FL is a strategic genius, she has to act like one or have a very good reason why she’s not! Dropped.

9) Love Next Door—Hyped up way too much; totally understand why so many people dropped. Mostly finished out of goodwill for Jung Hae In and Jung So Min, both of whom I adore, and a much more magnetic secondary couple. Was ultimately a mid-tier rom com/family drama, though I probably would have liked it better if my expectations hadn’t been so high. Would still recommend if you have fondness for any of the actors, though.

OKAY now time for dramas I actually (mostly) liked!

8) Marry My Husband—Very much enjoyed Park Min Young, the rom com queen, in her transmigration revenge era. I liked it more when the SFL and SML were a sort of everyday awful that still managed to be soul sucking before it all took a hard turn into makjang territory, but still really enjoyable overall. I'm also still struck by the scene in which the FL breaks down after her (fake) bestie betrays her for a second time by sleeping with her husband. The feeling of betrayal she felt, even when she basically knew it was coming, was not actually lessened by that foreknowledge, perhaps because of the forlorn hope that maybe her friend *wouldn't* betray her this time around.

7) Queen of Tears—Kim Ji-won and Kim So Hyun were both fantastic in this much anticipated drama, and watching their relationship develop from married couple fully at odds with each other to ride or die partners was excellent. The ensemble cast also featured many of my favorite secondary characters of the year, including himbo brother and devoted daddy played to perfection by Kwak Dong Yeon and unhinged, excon, serial divorcee aunt played by Kim Jung Nan! Unfortunately, there was a little too much plot bloat and some unearned plot twists (amnesia, anyone?) and the episodes were all just too long (Writer Park Ji Eun really, really needs an editor, but I expect no one could tell her No after the success of CLOY). Still a fun ride overall, though!

6) Tell Me that You Love Me—(Started airing in 2023 but ended in 2024 and wasn’t available to stream in my area until 2024, so I’m counting it!) This quiet, slice of life romance was a very comforting watch for me. I found Mo Eun (Shin Hyun Been) a restful character to watch as she tried to figure out her life while trying to make it as a working actress while also falling in love with Cha Jin Woo, an artist who is also deaf. YMMV re: the ending (and I hear the JDrama it’s based on may be a bit better), but if you want a drama that’s soothing while still grounded, I recommend this one.

5) My Sweet Mobster—Had no expectations for this drama—in fact, I saw the descriptions and promo material and thought it would be a hard pass for me—but then ended up completely charmed by this goofy rom com that nonetheless took recidivism and the real challenges faced by excons to integrate into society after serving their time very seriously. Honestly, worth checking out just for Uhm Tae Goo as swoon worthy, deep-voiced, former mob boss Seo Ji Hwan—easily my favorite new-to-me actor of the year.

4) No Gain No Love—Again, I had no expectations for this rom com, but then ended up totally sucked in by Shin Min-A’s performance as Son Hae-Young, a successful career woman who has reached her ceiling promotion-wise at work solely because she is unmarried. Her insistence on not suffering losses even in relationships and her resulting conviction that that insistence made her unlikely to find a partner also struck a chord. My mileage varies with Kim Young Dae, but his turn as the convenience store clerk she convinces to fake-marry her was charming. Rom com tropes follow, some with more success than other, but the pointed critique of the gendered double standard many of the characters face made this one really land for me. Bonus points for Hae-young’s relationship with her two foster sisters, the only two of the many children her mom fostered to stick around.

3) The Midnight Romance at Hagwon—I know a lot of people had high expectations for this one and then dropped it when it wasn’t what they expected, but it ended up being a highlight of the year for me. I came for Wi Ha Joon in a romance, and stayed for the unexpectedly earnest commentary on what education is actually for, especially when it has turned into teaching children how best to win at taking a test. When the first big fight between the FL and ML was a yelling match about a pedagogical disagreement on the best way to teach literature, I was a goner. The thought of a former student showing back up in my life to seduce me at my place of work irl gives me hives, but I honestly loved this drama so much. Highly, highly recommend.

2) When the Phone Rings—I know I’m being premature by putting this drama so high on my list when it hasn’t yet concluded, but I CAN’T HELP IT, SUE ME. I’m so obsessed with this drama, it has taken over my dreams. Hong Hee Joo and Baek Sa-eon’s messy relationship is so, so fun, and I’m rooting for them so much. I do sometimes see the twists coming in this makjang thriller romance, but am still surprised often enough to keep me on my toes. Also, more red flag heroes please, Baek Sa-eon is so so fun when he’s being little extra unhinged.

1) Lovely Runner—Im Sol and Ryu Sun Jae had my whole heart for the entirety of this drama’s run. This is another one where the premise did not originally appeal to me—Im Sol going back in time to save her idol from dying is not at all sexy to me—but it’s another one where it took so many twists and turns that a non-spoiler description just can’t do it justice. Sol and Sun Jae had such good chemistry and were so ride or die for each other. I honestly loved that (spoiler) you go in thinking that Im Sol’s love for Sun Jae, just to learn that Sun Jae fell for her both first and much, much harder. Im Sol’s time travel shenanigans were never totally explained, but I’m just fine leaving it all a little timey wimey because I loved the journey so much.

Favorite Female Character: Look, I love a KDrama Lost Girl (tm), so it’s gotta be Hong Hee Joo (Chae Soo Bin) from When the Phone Rings for me. I love the balance between (spoilers) how adrift she feels in her personal life with how unhinged she can get when making calls with the mask of 406. I also love her artful use of sign language, especially when she deploys it specifically because she knows the person she’s talking to won’t understand her.

Favorite Male Character: If I was in my green flag era it would be Sun Jae, but since I’m in my red flag era, it’s absolutely Baek Sa-eon (Yoo Yeon Seok) from When the Phone Rings. He’s been unhealthily obsessed with Hee Joo for 20 years, and I love that for him. Also, I adored YYS in both Mr. Sunshine and Hospital Playlist, so seeing him play a character here somehow halfway between his polar opposite roles in those dramas is a real treat.

Favorite Secondary Female Character: I adored Nam Cheong Mi (So Joo Yeon) as the SFL in Midnight Romance in Hagwon. She started out *totally* out there in her quest to be hired as a lecturer at the elite hagwon for which the drama is named, and I empathized her total dedication to being a fantastic teacher that became more and more apparent as the drama went on. I also appreciated her growing friendship with FL Hye Jin. She refused to let herself be used by others as Hye Jin’s rival, even when it would have been really easy to do so for her own gain.

Favorite Secondary Male Character: A tie here for Baek In Hyuk (Lee Seung Hyub) as Sun Jae’s bestie and eternal wingman and SML Kim Tae Seong (Song Geon Hee), both from Lovely Runner. The delightful ensemble cast is part of what made this drama so strong, and the scene where these two were on screen with Sun Jae were some of the funniest. I also really, really liked Tae Seong’s unexpected friendship/relationship with Im Sol in each variation of the timeline, especially since he was the first person to consistently recognize future Sol as distinct from past Sol.

Favorite Ship (runner up): Look, I know I should just choose one couple, but it’s my list so I make the rules, and I’m so obsessed with Hee Joo and Sa-eon right now that I have to give them their own slot.

Favorite Ship: Sun Jae and Im Sol’s (in Lovely Runner) determination to protect the other even at the cost of their own lives takes the cake here for me. I also loved seeing Sun Jae recognize Im Sol’s feelings for him multiple times across different possible timelines, and always, always choose her. I was rooting for them so hard and they made my heart flutter so many times across so many timelines that it has to be them.

Favorite Secondary Ship: I ended up really loving the romance between spicy romance web novelist Nam Ja Yeon (Han Ji Hyun) and chaebol/her internet troll Bok Gyu-heon (Lee Sang Yi) in No Gain No Love. Seeing how these two went from true enemies to lovers was such a treat. I do some research on Webtoons in my professional life, so seeing this drama take seriously the toll that internet hate can take on creatives felt really profound (and pointed) to me, and seeing Gyu Heon realize how much harm he caused in trolling her so hard and figure out how to legitimately make restitution really resonated for me. Plus, the bonus episodes in their spin off, Spice Up Our Love, were a nice treat! These two are totally ready to carry their own dramas as leads, if they want to.

Favorite Platonic Relationship: I’m a sucker for friendships between women, especially for some reason when there are three of them, so the friendship/sisterhood between Son Hae Young, Nam Ja Yeon, and Cha Hui Seong in No Gain No Love was catnip for me. The way they always showed up for each other even if they didn’t agree with the other’s choices really, really worked for me. Ja Yeon and Hui Seong’s roles as Hae Young’s only foster siblings to stick around long term was really touching, though also bittersweet.

Dramas I Missed: I meant to watch A Virtuous Business, because who doesn’t love middle aged women selling sex toys? I still might, but that one will likely stay on the back burner for a while. I might also pick up Atypical Familyat some point, since enough people liked that one well enough for me to be at least a little intrigued. Anything else I ought to check out?

Non-2024 Drama Spotlight: I watched Link: Eat, Love, Kill at the end of last winter break, and it was such a fun little drama! It had that unexpected mixing of genres-- the perfect balance of romance, thriller, murder mystery, and magical realism—that made me love KDramas in the first place. I adored Moon Ga Yong as the ne’er-do-well FL forced to move back in with her mother and grandmother by her lackluster career, and her romance with the chef starting a restaurant across the street (played hilariously by Yeo Jin Goo) who, for reasons unknown, shares a psychic connection and can sometimes feel her emotions! Throw in a murder (maybe?) that the mom and grandmother help the FL cover up; a cold case; a fridge that somehow keeps ending up with a body in it; and unexpectedly sharp commentary on domestic violence, and you have yourself a winner, at least in my book. I highly, highly recommend checking it out if you haven’t yet!

Dramas I'm looking forward to: Idk I live under a rock and am happily surprised when fun dramas show up on my dash. I do like the Webtoon for The Remarried Empress, so hopefully the drama for that will be good? Not over all the articles describing this story as a "historical" when the plot depends on the ML being able to *turn into a bird*, so we'll see I guess

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bisexualbard-writes · 1 year ago

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KimChay prompt

I give you: Soulmate AU

Everyone has a timer in their wrist that shows how many days your soulmate has left to live

For Chay the timer changes every day but the number of days is never more than one year. Chay is very, very concerned for his soulmate and the kind of life he is living.

For Kim, he's convinced that his soulmate is also part of the Mafia or something worse because his timer is just weird. This morning his soulmate had over 50 years left, but something happened between 9am and 9:25am so now his soulmate is gonna die by the end of the week! Then, before lunch his timer changes again and Kim's soulmate will live for another 89 years

How do you think Kim would react to Chay? Just normal, kind, brave, zero situational awareness Chay who hasn't realized how many times he's been about to die

Also Helloo Hiiii how are you?

Hiiiiii, Hellooooo, I'm doing okay other than all this writer's block haha. Onto the timer soulmates!!

Kim wakes up in unfamiliar territory and nearly jolts up before he realizes the uncomfortable feeling below him is a pullout couch and the comforting weight on top of him is Chay.

His maybe-probably soulmate.

Warmth spreads across his cheeks when he realizes they spent all night pressed up against each other like this. Trying not to jostle Chay, Kim checks his watch. The time, 7:00AM, is expected for his internal body clock. Then he pulls down the wristband on his watch and checks his timer, 20:05:03:23:15, which is not expected.

Twenty years? When he fell asleep last night, the boy in his arms had fifty some odd years left to live, and this morning it’s down to twenty?

The timer changes sometimes, everyone’s does. The mechanics are still a bit of a mystery to the world, but it’s a guarantee that when a timer runs out, that person’s soulmate dies. It seems like Kim’s timer fluctuates more than other people’s, but Chay hadn’t led the safest life even before he started hanging out with the third son of Thailand’s biggest mafia family.

Actually, when Kim suspected Chay’s magnetic pull was more than just a simple crush on Kim’s part, he made a phone call ensuring all the Kittisawat debts were paid off and any loan sharks in the area knew Chay was protected.

On that day Kim’s timer jumped from a worrisome ten years to a more comfortable fifty.

That would have been more than enough for most people to prove they were soulmates, but Kim maintains a healthy amount of doubt. Or denial rather.

He doesn’t want Chay tied to him. His little intervention took a whole week of planning to make the orders look like they were coming from someone other than Kim. He doesn’t want his family finding out Chay is important, it’s too dangerous for Chay to get involved with them. This morning is proof of it, their deepening relationship is taking decades off of Chay’s life.

The boy in his arms begins to stir, and then stills suddenly. The corner’s of Kim’s lips twitch up when he feels Chay’s breaths quicken as he likely realizes he’s sleeping half on top of Kim, and then forcibly slow down again.

“Why are you pretending to be asleep?” Kim finds himself asking. He hadn’t even planned to break their peaceful silence, but he’s a little obsessed with Chay and desperate to understand what goes on in his mind.

Chay answer about barely believing any of this is real is like a knife to Kim’s heart, because it’s not. Kim is hiding so many things from him. He hasn’t even mentioned to Chay his thought that they might be soulmates, and that’s the least of the things Kim is keeping from him.

Chay unknowingly twists that knife when he looks up at Kim with his big, lovely eyes and asks Kim if he loves Chay. He’s never looked at the timer on Chay’s timer, but he thinks it probably just lost a decade of time.

He doesn’t respond to Chay’s question, instead sending him off to fetch breakfast for them.

Kim should leave, he tells himself as Chay cooks. He should leave and never return. It’s better to know Chay is out in the world without him, than have to live in a world where Chay is dead because Kim was greedy with him.

When the doorbell rings, Kim makes his decision. He’ll slip out while Chay isn’t looking, and never come near him again.

Then he hears Chay scream, and walking away isn’t an option.

He fights tooth and nail, but he let his guard down too much and he’s not prepared to fight. Chay’s cries have made him frantic and erratic, and he knows he’s leaving holes in his defenses. Just as he’s starting to get his fighting brain turned on he gets tazed. It hurts like a bitch but he keeps going, fighting back as he gets tazed again.

He goes down. The last thing he sees is Chay helplessly splayed on the ground.

When he wakes up Chay is gone.

Kim’s timer reads 00:00:05:08:15.

Five days.

If Kim does nothing, Chay will die in five days.

He won’t let his happen.

He picks up the phone and dials the number he swore he’d never call for help again.

Kim watches the seconds tick away on his timer with as the call rings.

“Kim?” Kinn asks curtly when he picks up.

Kim takes a deep breath. “I need help,” he utters.

His timer jumps. 89:03:12:06:45

#kimchay #bard writes #kinnporsche #inbox open for prompts

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changingplumbob · 5 months ago

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My 𝐓𝐨𝐩 24 𝐒𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 from 2024- P2

@igotsnothing told me in their post I could do another lot so just try and stop me! But they're not in order this time just numbered...

1 - Glenn being playful with Silver

2 - Johnny and Elena's selfie contest

3 - Your favourite gymnast

4 - Cheeky Byron and oblivious Layla

5 - Rain in the Bay

6 - Bob Pancakes evolving in to Bob Ross

7 - Aliens in Oasis Springs

8 - New house time for aliens!

9 - Best place for Pollock to get a milestone

10 - Silas's birthday time

11 - I just like my aliens okay

12 - Calista attempting nectar making

13 - Grouchy Viola

14 - New Year with the Chopras

15 - Erratic Mercedes

16 - Marta is just so pretty

17 - Obsessed with this gallery build

18 - Ariadne adopted!

19 - Alfred judging me

20 - Devin teaching Joey knitting tricks

21 - Villareal snuggles

22 - Another snowboarding shot

23 - Chilling in bed

24 - Crushing Ariadne and distracted Carson

I found it so hard to get an initial 24 so of course I'm posting more! If you have not already been tagged then TAG! YOU'RE IT!

#dag dag or tag tag #sims 4 #the sims #simblr #my sims #ts4 #active simblr

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hayruteles · 5 months ago

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Can you please talk about your current fandoms and why you like them???

Okay, alright

Let's start

1) Tolkien Legendarium (since February 2024)

I'm a linguistics, most likely philology nerd and this man created TONS OF LANGUAGES just for he got bored and wrote an creation myth to his OC's

I love the whole Arda in general, it doesn't matter which time the story takes place or where it takes place

However my favourite time period of all is between Y.T 1495 and F.A 590

I even made a whole presentation about The High Kings of Ñoldor in literature class and I got an 100 🙂

2) DC Comics (since 2022(partially 2015-2016))

DC is a total mess.

Completely, it is a mess when you're both trying to watch something or read something

No order, no logical explanations, everything is in chaos

God, I love it

Especially Batfam

This city and family is full of angst and tragedy

They're full of traumas, yet family chaos, psychological issues and tons of responsibilities which shouldn't be on their shoulders

I adore them

Jason and Tim are my babies and that's all thanks for listening to me

3) Marvel Cinematic Universe (Infinity Saga+some of phase 4 series) (since 2021(partially 2015-2016))

First of all I'm a #teamstark

And this was the top of my teenager obsessions at one time

MCU has an order, everything is planned and on a plane

If you're interested in this you easily may connect so many dots and understand a whole

I loved MCU for its domestic and friendly vibes

4) Shakespeare Tragedies (since April 2023)

I'm a theater kid, really

I'm in the theatre club of my school and I've been in 5 or 6 plays since 2023 and by the next week, I'll be performing a play in Arabic which is my 3rd language.

I love reading theatre texts and especially Shakespeare, for his chaos and tragedies.

Hamlet, King Lear, Romeo and Juliet, Othello, Macbeth, Julius Caesar and many other

I really love tragedies

5) Jujutsu Kaisen (since July 2024)

This is totally because of my bff who was currently obsessed with it at that time.

God, I love tragedies and domestic stuff at the same time, I know BUT WHAT GEGE DID WAS UNFAIR

I'm kinda traumatised by the end of it

6) Harry Potter (since May 2019)

I don't even follow or do stuff about this but this was the first fandom which I got in contact with real people instead of myself again.

So it's here

7) Gravity Falls

It is a classic at this point. Same things with 6

8) Heathers the Musical (since June 2023)

I LOVE musicals. Me myself is kinda musical and this was the very first musical I've ever watched and also it was the first video which I didn't watch with Turkish subtitles

Full of chaos, teenage bullshit, musical numbers and also CHAOS

Hehe

9) Hazbin Hotel

Also a musical, same with 8

10) Miraculous Ladybug and Chat Noir

Tragedical issues, same with 4-5

•

Those are my fandomish fandom if you ask,

However I'm not sure my current and newest obsession can be counted as a fandom

~Football~ (since June 2024(partially 2015-2018, 2020-2022))

I'm a Beşiktaş supporter

I've always known something about football but I was younger than and when I was preparing for big exams in my life, I put aside football.

This year I turned back with EURO2024 and I really was thinking of stopping it there but because of boredom and some gossiping issues I started to consume things with football once again in July and I'm sure it was a fault by these two months that we have passed

Beşiktaş may be getting too tiring, you know?

And being obsessed with football is not so easy especially if the management of your favorite team is in terrible chaos

It is also tiring if your national team is in kind of a chaos too

#silmarillion #jason todd #the silmarillion #batman #dc #jujutsu kaisen #gravity falls #harry potter #football #beşiktaş #hazbin hotel #miraculous ladybug #mcu #marvel #dc comcis #batfamily #fandoms #shakespeare

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cal-daisies-and-briars · 9 months ago

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A more normal ask this week I think

🧟

🔮🔮

⚡⚡⚡

🩸🩸🩸🩸

🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

But because I'm a bit crazy about the prospect of these new ones

🔼🔼🔼🔼🔼🔼🔼🔼🔼

💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐

And I'm obsessed with Cranberry

🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺🐕‍🦺

So more normal in terms of most of the numbers perhaps but still a bit extensive either way sorry lol

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Hey!!! Love these pyramids of emojis I've been getting. Don't be sorry AT ALL! I love it.

Okay 3 for 🧟:

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Buck leads Bobby out back behind the community center portion of the building. A utility shed with power access, padlocked, is where Buck keeps all his fishing net gear and other miscellaneous things. It’s also where he’s hidden the radio, signal booster, and laptop.

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6 for 🔮:

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There is complexity in her expression. Not the plain grief of someone who has just lost a husband; something more confused than that. Something that makes Buck think, for whatever reason, of his sister.

The other boy, an older teenager - Charles? - is scowling. He sneers when the priest says something kind about his father. This takes Buck by surprise.

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9 for ⚡:

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He never had one the first time. But he’s fairly certain you’re supposed to, one, be a bachelor. Which Eddie is not, technically. And two, not spend the night more or less attached to the person you’re marrying. Which Eddie did.

And that’s exactly how Eddie wakes up. More or less attached to the actual bachelor in this situation.

He’s laying sideways across a hotel bed, legs hanging off the side of the mattress. Buck is pretty much flopped on top of him.

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12 for 🩸:

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“Please forgive me, Maddie,” Buck whispers.

Maddie exhales. “I feel like I should have known.”

“How could you have?” Buck asks.

“That 9-1-1 call, when you found him dead… I… It was horrible. I thought… I guess I thought a part of you sort of broke.”

Buck shrugs. “Maybe it did. I don’t know.”

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15 for 🚨:

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It all happens so fast.

One day, life is the way it is. The next, it seems, the world is ending. Decisions have to be made. Systems have to change. Everyone has to stay home. Everyone, excluding first responders. Things still need responding to.

For Eddie, it involves a hard choice. One he didn’t think he’d have to make. He’s spent the past nearly two months worried about dying. Mortality. Leaving his son orphaned and traumatized. Missing this beautiful life he’s somehow stumbled upon. And, well, he could. Nobody knows anything about this illness yet.

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27 for 🔼:

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If he thought he was confused before, Eddie is practically reintroduced to the concept of confusion. He has no understanding of what is happening or why. He feels dropped in a train station in an unfamiliar country, where no one speaks the languages he speaks, and the writing might as well be cuneiform. He has no idea why Shannon would do this to him. He has no idea why she would lie. He is so deeply angry. He is so deeply worried. He loves her. He hates her. He just wants her to be alright.

She is alright. Although, it takes hours for them to get official word on this.

Shannon’s shoulder is dislocated. They reset it; a painful process for her. That will heal, though they worry with the severity, it may require some physical therapy.

Her ankle isn’t broken. They think badly bruised and sprained. She’ll be off her feet for a little bit.

She’s banged up pretty badly from her fall. Lots of wounds that require cleaning. Bruising, to be sure. But no head or spinal injuries. This is the main thing. This is the best piece of luck. Everything else will heal.

Then there’s the other matter. The one that feels like a cold grip around Eddie’s heart.

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27 for 💐

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"Of course not, May. You’re always welcome. More than welcome.”

So she keeps coming.

One day, Hen and Buck approach her. May isn’t sure if Bobby put them up to it, or if there’s simply not a lot going on. Eddie, Chimney, and Ravi seem otherwise occupied with fire station chores, so she’s not sure how they got off easy. Either way, Buck takes a seat in the chair adjacent from her, and Hen sits beside her, and they both strike up a conversation. As it turns out, the exact sort of conversation she was looking to avoid.

“Alright, May,” Hen sighs. “What’s really going on?”

“What do you mean?” She asks, not looking up from her books. “I’m just studying.”

Hen clicks her tongue off the back of her teeth, unimpressed with May’s answer.

“Speaking as someone who tried to study for med school exams on this same couch? That’s bull.”

May scoffs. “Hey!”

“It’s kind of loud,” Buck backs Hen up.

“The alarm. The echoes. The constant activity.” Hen says. She points at Buck. “This one talking.”

“I’m kind of loud,” Buck agrees.

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39 for 🦮:

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Buck is actually sleeping when he gets the call.

It’s been nine months since he lost his leg, and in that time, he’s sort of gotten used to a normal schedule. Shift work kind of fucked with his circadian rhythms, and even before firefighting, he’d never had a proper routine. If he has to give it to one aspect of being traumatically medically retired from the career he loved, it’s the fucking routine. Getting a full night’s sleep every night? Game changer.

The point is, he’s asleep when it happens. Curled up with a fifty-five pound golden retriever, who is currently somehow the big spoon in this arrangement. And although nine months may have passed since he last took a call, when his phone starts ringing on his bedside table, Buck snaps awake with first responder levels of awareness.

He scrambles to grab the device, disrupting Cranberry, who gives a loud, dramatic sigh. She stands, walks from Buck to the opposite corner of the bed, and flops down, annoyed. Fair enough. Her beauty sleep is important.

“...Lo?” Buck slurs into the phone. He answers it without checking the caller. If it’s spam he’ll be pissed.

“Buck?” Bobby’s voice responds.

Buck feels suddenly twice as alert.

“Bobby? Is everything okay?”

“Have you been watching the news?”

“No? It’s the middle of the night.”

“It’s not even eleven.”

Okay. Well…

“Bobby, what’s going on?”

“It’s Eddie.”

Buck goes rigid.

“Is… Is he?”

“He’s okay. But he’s had a very close call.”

Buck sighs, relieved. That was the longest single second of his damned life.

“Jesus.”

“And he’s asking for you.”

#daisies and briars writes #things we're all too young to know fic #weary memory fic #go and kill go and die fic #long death fic #any other way fic #buddie shannon throuple fic #buck service dog fic

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"get me a damned matcha" | Chapter 10: March I

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the fucking feels i had while writing this chapter kdfskjf

also i used "aniki" for isabel's references to levi because the english translation is "big bro" and i like aniki better so i'm going with that lol

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✧ pairing ➼ levi ackerman x fem!reader, college x coffee shop x roommates!au ✧ summary ➼ After you find yourself plagued with misfortune due to struggles in your personal and family life, you find yourself needing to move last minute. As a junior in undergrad with little money and little social support, you considered yourself lucky when you found a sublease that was close to campus and was relatively cheap. Unfortunately, it seemed that your roommate did not seem to be so excited regarding your presence. ✧ content/warnings ➼ fluff, slowburn, mutual pining, idiots in love, mentions of floche being a dick, mentions of grief, graphic (ish) description of a fire, the one bed trope because i'm obsessed with overused cliches ✧ word count ➼ ~5.4k

It's been much too long since you went on a first date. It was at some point during high school when you had met Zack, but even that wasn't really considered a blind first date. The two of you had gotten to know each other through school and things just kind of happened.

This case with Floche was different. You barely knew him other than the fact that he was persistent.

You were fumbling around your closet, frustrated because you felt like you couldn't find anything acceptable to wear. A part of you knew that what you wore at home when not in your pajamas was fine. Just wearing a t-shirt and jeans to a casual first date was more than okay, but something nagged at you to wear a blouse or skirt.

You were acutely aware of the fact that you dressed differently around others when compared to being around Levi or when you were at home. You were also self-aware enough to know that it had to do with a huge sense of shame.

You remembered all the passive aggressive comments that Zack would make towards you unless you dressed and acted a certain way. That, plus the distasteful comments your aunt would always give you, meant that you were much too preoccupied with your appearance.

Levi glanced up at you with a disinterested expression as you ran out of your room for the fifth time asking if a certain outfit looked okay.

He was currently sitting on the couch, pretending to be on his computer typing something, his eyes flashing up multiple times as you were running around the house trying to get yourself together.

"Are you seriously going out with him of all people?"

As soon as you had exchanged numbers with Floche, Levi had the suspicion that something was going on between the two of you, although you never explicitly said what it was. There was an uncomfortable and undesirable feeling building up in his gut, but he couldn't quite pinpoint what it was. His mood had soured for the day as soon as he saw you getting ready for this supposed first date.

It must have been because you were being more rowdy than usual. That was the only explanation.

"What is that supposed to mean?" you asked with a frown.

"Just thought you'd settle for better," Levi said nonchalantly with a shrug.

He figured the increased intensity of his grumpiness was due to the fact that he would now have to deal with you struggling with navigating a relationship on top of everything else that he had to deal with, especially if it was with someone like Floche.

Deep down, Levi knew that his logic was flawed and that there was an additional factor that contributed to his unease regarding your potential new boyfriend, but he really didn't want to spend the brain power thinking about it.

"And what is that supposed to mean?" you asked, your defensive tone increasing with each additional exchange. "He's been..."

It took you a second to figure out the proper words to describe Floche.

"...nice and sweet," you finally said hesitantly.

Levi looked up at you with a skeptical expression, immediately being able to tell that you were trying to convince yourself of that as much as you were trying to convince him.

He didn't know Floche personally, but Levi was generally good at reading people, minus a certain undergrad that decided to suddenly intrude upon his life a few months ago.

Floche was what he would call a stereotypical fuckboy, and stereotypical fuckboys had a habit or pattern of trying to woo someone before disregarding them as soon as they got bored—the "swine" of undergrad culture, as Levi would call it.

"What?!" you scolded, getting increasingly irritated with your roommate's judgy expression.

"You know he's just going to screw you over, right?"

You scoffed.

"And how do you know that?"

"He's a stereotypical fuckboy, what else is there to know?"

The frustration in Levi's voice was beginning to match yours.

Floche wouldn't leave you alone at the Rumbling despite you repeatedly saying that you weren't interested in him. The rational part of you knew that Levi's instincts were right. This date was a bad idea, but part of you wanted to give Floche the benefit of the doubt, as uncertain as you were about it.

"I can take care of myself," you finally mumbled after a few seconds of silence.

Levi stared at you before looking back down towards his laptop without responding.

He knew that. Of course he knew that. You were more than capable of taking care of yourself, but he couldn't shake off that uncomfortable feeling of you going out with someone like Floche. He legitimately did think that you deserved better.

He didn't know who exactly would fit that or what characteristics they would have, but it definitely wouldn't be someone like Floche. The fact that he was even thinking about this was increasing his agitation. He wasn't a matchmaker and it also wasn't his business.

He heard the metal of your keys clicking against each other and he glanced up from his laptop again, watching you open the front door and promptly step out without a single glance back towards him, shutting the door a bit more aggressively than usual.

It seems he wasn't the only one that was pissed at the situation.

~~~~~

"No _____ today?"

"What?" Levi responded sternly as he glanced over at Nicolo, sounding oddly defensive over the innocent and casual question.

"Just wondering since she's usually in around this time," Nicolo wondered as he wiped down his pastry counter. "Was curious when I noticed you didn't have a Matcha waiting for her."

Nicolo's comment seemed to bother Levi more than he was willing to admit. Levi immediately averted eye contact and went back to quietly working at his station.

Nicolo's comment wasn't wrong. Levi did develop a habit of prepping a Matcha for you every day. It was always waiting for you by the time you arrived at the café. He even stopped charging you for it earlier last semester. It was a blatant habit to everyone except for Levi.

The frown on Levi's face grew more and more apparent. He was rarely in a great mood, but he was much grumpier than usual today. He barely responded to any comments and was in his own head for the majority of the shift. He was even being rough and slightly aggressive with his drinks, when he usually handled his teas with great care.

Something had clearly set him off before coming in for work today.

He heard the door to the café open.

"Hey look, it's aniki*!"

"Quiet down, Izzy!"

Two people walked into the café that weren't regulars: a highschooler with red ponytails and a blonde male around Levi's age.

"You'll end up giving Levi a stroke with all the attention he's suddenly getting."

These two weren't regulars to the café, but they were regulars in Levi's life. They were what he had effectively called his found family. He had met Farlan in undergrad when he was in the middle of struggling with his lack of financial aid because of his good-for-nothing uncle. Farlan had dealt with something similar the year prior and was able to help him get something sorted out. The two of them had picked up Isabel a year or two later, with Farlan officially adopting her as a younger sister to get her out of an abusive household.

Levi meant what he had said to you all those months ago: not having a "family" didn't have to be lonely.

He glanced down at his watch and saw that his shift was about over. He made eye contact with Farlan and nodded before walking into the employee storage room to take his apron off and clock out.

Hanging out with Isabel and Farlan made his mood significantly better. After calming Isabel down, the three of them walked over to a diner around the corner to catch up. It had been almost a year since he had seen them last. Levi was just busy with his studies and time got away from him. It was one of the many things that he wanted to work towards changing.

The last time that he had seen either of them was last year during spring break. Since then, Farlan had been saving up to hopefully move into the city, and to get an apartment to help support Isabel when she went off to college, if that was the route she wanted to take. When they asked Levi what his plans were after graduation, he simply scoffed and mentioned that he didn't even want to think about prospects that far out, given how early he was into his graduate career.

Although both of them had significant life updates, when it came to Levi to talk about what had changed in the past year, he found himself unsure of what to say. He still lived in this cramped town and he still attended the same university.

The only thing that really changed was you.

"Not really anything of significance," was all he said.

~~~~~

It was already 10pm by the time Levi got home. He had spent the evening hanging out with Isabel and Farlan, electing to go to a local arcade after grabbing dinner. It was late for him. He wasn't necessarily tired, given the fact that he never really slept anyway, but he rarely stayed out past 8pm voluntarily.

Since it was so late, he was surprised when he saw someone in front of the door to the lobby of your apartment complex.

Upon walking closer, he recognized their figure. It was you.

You were sitting on the steps leading up to the door, with your face buried into your knees. Your body was tense and you looked like you were shaking.

"What, did your dumb ass lock yourself out again?" he asked in a disinterested tone as he walked up to you.

You flinched as he stepped up to you and you looked up at him with a somewhat dumbfounded expression. Your eyes were slightly swollen and your nose was red. Your hair was messy and disheveled. Your eyes were wide, as if you were surprised to see him.

"Shit," you whispered as you immediately wiped away any stray tears. "Thought you'd be home already."

You found yourself out here because you weren't ready to see Levi. You thought he'd be home already, so you wanted to take some time to sit outside and gather yourself and make it look like you weren't sobbing for the past hour.

You didn't have to say what happened. He could already deduce that your date didn't go well.

Levi chose not to say anything and just sat down on the steps right next to you.

"How long have you been here?"

"Not long," you said with a sniffle as you rubbed at one of your eyes. "Maybe like 45 minutes."

"Seems pretty long to me."

You slightly pushed against his shoulder with yours in retaliation for his retort.

He was glancing down at you. Of course, he was curious over what happened, but didn't pry. He knew you. If you wanted to talk, you'd talk, whether he asked for it or not. It was incredibly annoying when the two of you first met, but it's one of the qualities he's come to appreciate about you. At least with him, you said what was on your mind.

"He blew me off," you spoke quietly as you looked down at the ground.

"Hmm?"

"Floche," you clarified, frowning. "He blew me off. And then not 10 minutes later, I find him on the phone, talking about I'm just-"

Your words trailed off as you felt your breath get caught in your throat. The tears were threatening to come on again.

Levi remained quiet but watched you intently, giving you time to gather yourself to form your words. Whether you were originally planning on telling him anything or not, he was there to listen.

"-h-how I'm just a pity date," you whispered finally, burying your face in your knees again, almost as if you were ashamed to face Levi. "So I guess you were right."

Your voice came out muffled.

Levi wasn't surprised at this information. Those "I told you so" thoughts ran through his head. It had been less than 12 hours since he blatantly told you that Floche was going to do something to fuck you over—but he didn't voice that.

He watched you as you quietly cried, your face hidden underneath your arms. He felt an uncomfortable weight build up in his chest and he was almost tempted to even lift his arm in a vain attempt at comforting you. He didn't know if that would help or make it worse.

"I'm so fucking pathetic."

"What?" he asked after you finally spoke again.

"I couldn't even get this dumb sophomore to like me long-term. I don't know what I was thinking," you mumbled as you looked back up, using the sleeve of your jacket to wipe away the tears that had recently fallen.

At this point, your cheeks felt sore and raw from how often you've had to wipe away the tears. You felt a headache rapidly approaching and there was so much pressure building up in your sinuses that you felt like your head was going to explode.

"I think I was lonely and wanted to forget the shit that's happened in previous relationships," you muttered quietly. It was unclear if you were talking to Levi or yourself. "And of course that blew up in my face. It was dumb of me to think otherwise. It's just how things always are and always will be."

Levi didn't speak at first, but his eyebrows scrunched together at your comment as he looked at you with skepticism on his face. He wasn't sure what merit your comment had or what was going on through your head to make you want to say something like that.

Whatever you were referring to within yourself seemed irrelevant as to why your date fell apart to him. The only factor that contributed to that was the fact that Floche was a dick. Nothing that you did or didn't do was to blame. The fact that you spoke in such a fatalistic way confused the shit out of him.

"Well, what are you going to do now?" he asked in a matter-of-fact tone while continuing to look down at you. "Sit here all night?"

Your finger tapped on your knee as you remained silent, as if you were nervous to say what was on your mind.

"Can you...can you stay by me?" you finally asked.

Levi scoffed.

"We live together, where the fuck am I going to go?"

"I mean here," you said with a frown. "Can you stay with me for a bit?"

Levi blinked at you a few times, as if he was genuinely surprised by the request. After a few seconds he cleared his throat and nodded.

You responded by shuffling a bit closer to him. Before you knew it, you found yourself leaning on him with your head resting against his shoulder. He was leaning back and propping himself up with his arms, which made contact with your back.

Having him this close felt oddly natural. You just naturally leaned into him and he naturally drew you in. You didn't tense upon feeling him and he didn't pull away when you leaned into him. There was no tension or awkwardness. There was just...him—and that was exactly what you needed right now.

You took a deep breath, appreciating how unexpectedly nice it felt to be against him.

You mumbled something underneath your breath.

"What?" Levi asked.

"I wish more guys were like you," you mumbled as you twiddled your thumbs together.

Levi glanced down at you without moving, not really knowing how to respond.

"Even though you can be a bit of an ass."

He rolled his eyes and slightly nudged at you in protest. Given the fact that you were leaning on him, you were rudely removed from your comfortable position, although it was only for a moment, with you immediately falling back into your original spot.

If you weren't so caught up in your own head, you might've noticed just how closely you were leaning against him or the fact that he was leaning forward to be closer to you instead of leaning further back and away.

If you weren't so caught up in your own head, you might've noticed how comfortable you were around him, or how interacting with him no longer felt effortful.

If you weren't so caught up in your own head, then you might have been able to realize that you really wouldn't mind if you had someone like him be a bit more involved in your life.

Being around him was easy.

~~~~~

There was too much chaos around you. The smell of smoke and gasoline permeated the air. There was a ringing in your head and you couldn't actually hear anything. Your vision was blurry.

You vaguely heard your parents call out your name before everything faded to black.

You took a sharp inhale and shot straight up in bed, heaving. Your pulse was going through the roof and you felt like you were drenched in your own sweat.

You were in your bedroom. The lights were off and it was in the middle of the night.

There was no fire. There was no smoke or gas. There was no one that called your name.

You looked forward with unfocused eyes as you tightly gripped onto the blanket.

It was the fourth or fifth time that you have had this nightmare within this one night alone. Every time you closed your eyes, you saw some vague scene that involved a plane crashing into a fire before everything rushed past you and left you standing alone.

You weren't there for the scene of your parents' death, so the visualization was different every time. You could remember the dream in vivid detail every single time. You could barely control your shaking and you had lost track of when the tears first started streaming out of your eyes.

Looking at the clock, you saw it was still early into the night: 1am. At this rate, you wouldn't last the night. You kept waking up every twenty minutes from the same nightmare and would wake up more and more distressed every single time.

You didn't want to go back to sleep, but you didn't want to just be alone in your room the entire time either. While the nightmare had a weaker hold on you while you were awake, you still couldn't get it out of your head.

You sniffled and wiped away your tears for the millionth time that night. You weren't sure what to do. You couldn't focus enough to do any work or to even scroll mindlessly through your phone.

Someone shuffled on the other side of your bedroom wall and you glanced over towards Levi's room. He was awake. Of course he was awake.

Without thinking, you got up out of your room, grabbed the throw over blanket from the couch, and walked towards his room. You raised your hand to knock on his door.

You froze and hesitated. While you had gotten up from your bed and moved to this physical location without a second thought just a moment ago, now you were questioning why you were even here.

This is stupid. Why am I bothering him?

"What do you want?"

You heard his voice and froze, realizing that he had heard and likely saw you fumbling around through the open crack in his door. You glanced inside and saw that he was sitting on his bed, reading.

You were kind of shy about what it was that drew you to his room and looked towards the ground, unsure of how to explain yourself.

Levi finally glanced up towards you.

"Spit it out," he said curtly.

"I..."

He had heard you tossing and turning throughout the past hour or two, so he figured it had something to do with not being able to sleep, although that still didn't explain why you were suddenly standing in his doorway.

"I don't want to be alone," you mumbled quietly. A part of you hoped that he didn't even hear you, but he did.

Levi blinked at you a few times, the frown disappearing off his face. Given the combination of the tossing and turning and how upset you seemed from just your body posture alone, he implicitly understood what was going on.

Even if it had nothing to do with the nightmares, you just weren't in a great state and he was able to tell.

"Come in," he mumbled and sighed.

You slowly scooched your way into his room.

Not wanting you to sleep in the chair, he scooched towards the edge of the bed and then patted his hand down on the opposite side.

"Just don't get the sheets dirty. I just did the laundry."

If you weren't so distressed, you'd probably make some snarky comment regarding being careful to not get his sheets "dirty", but you instead just silently crawled onto his bed, wrapping yourself in the throw over blanket you brought over from the couch.

Seeing that you were settled, he shuffled and began to get up to go read in the chair to give you space.

However, before he could even throw his feet over the side of the bed, he felt you grab at his arm.

"Wait," you said quietly with uncertainty and a hint of fear in your voice, "don't go."

His eyes went from looking at your hand on his arm to your eyes.

"Please?"

An annoyed expression appeared on his face, although it wasn't directed at you for once. He silently cursed at himself as he laid back down, being pissed that he gave into you—but at the same time, he understood.

You just needed someone to be next to you.

It wasn't like you took up that much space anyway. He continued reading his book as you tightly hugged your blanket, struggling to fall back asleep. You were still scared to close your eyes.

His eyes flashed down towards your figure as he noticed you still shuffling restlessly.

"If you can't sleep, get up and do something."

He's fought with insomnia long enough to be able to tell when it was just a night where it was difficult to sleep and when it was a night in which he wouldn't be getting any sleep at all. Most of all, he knew it was no use tossing and turning in bed for the entire night—might as well get up and try to walk off some of the restlessness.

You buried your face into his pillow, frustrated.

You were immediately hit with a mix of various scents: fresh laundry, the residual musky scent of his cologne from his clothes that smelled...smooth? You couldn't quite put words to it. It brought you a weird sense of comfort.

"I keep dreaming about my parents," you mumbled, your voice getting muffled through the pillow.

He glanced down at you.

"Yeah?" he asked, closing his book and putting it on his nightstand.

"The way they died," you muttered, looking up from the pillow, although half your face was still buried. "I haven't really thought about it since high school, but the dreams kept on coming tonight."

You groaned.

"This has only happened a few times, but it's terrible when it does."

He watched as your eyebrows furrowed together into a frown. You were glaring at his headboard now.

"It's been years already," you grumbled. "You'd think I'd be over it by now, but I'm not and I hate that I'm not."

A part of you knew that the only reason that you were this emotionally vulnerable was because of the bullshit that had happened with Floche earlier in the night throwing your entire body out of whack when it came to emotional processing. Everything stung more than it would have otherwise.

Now that you thought about it, the few other times that you did have nightmares usually occurred right after you had a big fight with Zack.

"What have you done before?" Levi asked, nudging you.

"What?" you asked, finally lifting your face from his pillow.

"You mentioned this has happened a few times? How did you cope?"

You looked away from him, thinking for a few seconds over how to respond, or even trying to recall what you did previously.

"Nothing really," you finally said. "My...My ex didn't really want to deal with me when it happened, so I'd either sleep on the couch or just stay up for the rest of the night. Eventually it'd go away."

The frown on Levi's face returned upon hearing about Zack's behavior towards you when distressed. Not wanting to "deal with you" seemed like shit behavior at best.

"You said you lived with your ex before here?"

"For around two years," you said with a nod before pausing. "The more I think about it, the more I realize that it wasn't the best time."

"Living with them?"

You gave Levi a grim expression.

"He wasn't particularly the best boyfriend either."

An empty look appeared in your eyes as you recalled memories of your relationship with Zack. It had started out normal, but quickly evolved into a relationship that was controlling in which Zack was a combination of being a dick, negligent, jealous, and an unhealthy mix of other types of controlling behavior that could only spell out the word 'shitshow'.

"Whatever," you mumbled, your mood now considerably worse. You laid back down to try to sleep again.

"I journal."

Levi spoke up before you could fully lay back down.

You gave him a confused look.

"Or grab an ice cube. Worst case, I go on a drive."

It's been a while, but having recurrent nightmares wasn't an unfamiliar experience for Levi. He's dealt with them long enough and often enough that he was able to come up with some quick coping skills to help calm his mind down. It was similar to when he used box breathing to calm you down from an anxiety attack. He had learned all this through experience. He knew what you were going through—particularly when it came to the untimely (and to be quite frank, traumatic) death of a parent figure.

You remained silent as you laid back down, facing away from him, repeating what he said in your head as you drew circles with your finger on the sheets. Levi also happened to deal with the same thing. You weren't sure if it was just the universe playing an ironic joke on you at this point.

You heard him get up to switch off the lights before coming back to lay down on the opposite side of the bed.

"Remember: if you can't sleep, go do something."

Despite the apparent persistence of your insomnia and the anxiety that would arise any time you closed your eyes, the knowledge of what Levi had told you, plus his consistent presence next to you, eventually did lull you into the calm of the sleep that your body and mind so desperately needed.

~~~~~

You were fast asleep and for once, so was Levi.

Levi's insomnia was generally relentless. This was the first time in months that he was able to stay asleep for more than 20 minutes, not to mention two hours.

Even when he did fall asleep, he couldn't ever say that it was comfortable, but that's how he felt right now. He felt at peace for once and he found himself actively not wanting to open his eyes. He rarely got to fall asleep as well as he did just now and a part of him wanted to cherish it.

He was warm in a lulling and comfortable way that was cozy and pleasant. It was a strange sensation for him.

He finally peeled his eyes open and completely froze once he realized there was another person in his bed.

Levi was momentarily confused as to where he was or who it was that he currently had his arm wrapped around. You were pulled up against him, with his arm wrapped around your waist. His face was buried in your hair, which smelled like your bodywash and the lotion that he usually got annoyed of smelling in the bathroom. It smelled oddly nice now.

His face flared up once he realized what was happening. He immediately pulled away, taking care to not accidentally wake you up. He cursed to himself, annoyed that he even let you sleep in his bed with him.

He groaned as he began to sit up and get off the bed, rubbing his eyes with his hand to try to shake his nerves off. He should've just kicked you out once he decided to also sleep.

He froze as you began to shuffle in your sleep, watching as you rolled over to face him. He looked at your face that was relaxed, with the stress from the former night and proceeding nightmares nowhere to be found. He held his gaze there for a few seconds.

Levi wasn't an idiot. He knew that he cared for you in some capacity now, although he wasn't entirely sure how he felt about that development. It just brought complications in his life that he didn't need.

It also didn't help that he wasn't entirely grossed out by the fact that he had woken up with you in his arms. In fact, the only part that did gross him out was that he technically did it without you knowing or prompting for it.

He felt heat slowly rising up into his cheeks again while looking at you.

You actually looked quite adorable when you were able to sleep peacefully like this.

Levi immediately planted his face into his hand upon having that thought, holding himself there in frustration.

He peeked at you through his fingers, confused and irritated over the thoughts swirling around in his head. He vigorously shook his head after a few seconds, as if he was trying to literally shake the thoughts out of his head.

Levi rolled over towards his nightstand and tapped on his phone to check the time: 4am. He had fallen asleep for around two hours and it was too early for him to realistically get up if he didn't want to be absolutely miserable the next day.

He sighed and got up off the bed, picking up the edge of the blanket and bunching it up so that it was bundled in between his body and yours so that he didn't end up accidentally cuddling you again.

His sleep for the next few hours felt more typical to his usual nights: simply drifting in and out every 20-30 minutes.

When you finally woke up, Levi had already gotten up. He was next to you, reading in bed again. There was a cup of tea next to him, indicating that he had been up for a while—or at least long enough for him to brew the beverage for himself.

"About time," he grumbled without looking down at you.

"Hmm?" you mumbled groggily as you tried to rub the sleepiness from your eyes.

"You were hogging the blankets all night," he said with a frown, blatantly ignoring the fact that you had technically brought your own blanket into his room. "Barely got any sleep. Get out."

You turned to look at him, matching his frown.

"Liar. I heard you get up and lay back down earlier."

You weren't completely awake for it, but you vaguely remembered feeling Levi shuffle around before laying back down. You knew in some capacity that he had actually gotten some sleep.

Levi stared at you with a blank expression.

"...Whatever," he eventually mumbled. "Think what you want."

He was caught off-guard by your comment. He wasn't sure what disturbed him more: the fact that he had you pulled up against him or the fact that you were somewhat awake while he was having those conflicting thoughts.

He was beyond irritated at himself. He let you into his room and sleep in his bed next to him because he knew that you were scared to be alone, and what made it more distressing was that he did it because he didn't want you to be scared or to feel alone.

Levi Ackerman couldn't deny that he cared about you—and he absolutely hated that he cared.

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