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zxal · 1 year ago

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I will always be loyal to Yuya.

#yugioh arc v #ygo arc v #arc v #yuya sakaki #declan akaba #reiji akaba #my art #arc v art #i was pretty ambivalent towards declan until he said this out of nowhere in s3 and i was like ok you're kind of insane in a way i respect #the vibe i've always gotten from declan is that he's actually pretty kind and polite #but he comes off as mean/sinister because he has a flat affect and rbf #and i think that extends to his relationships too. yuya is like ugh declan doesn't care about any of this declan doesn't care about us #while internally declan is like yuya is such a good friend :) i'm glad we're working together #it just doesn't read externally. at all.#he doesn't express himself the same way as other people even if he feels things just as strongly #so when he suddenly confesses his undying loyalty it's out of nowhere but it's also just how he is. do you get it

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marclef · 1 year ago

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THE EYHM COLLECTION GROWS!!!! managed to make some space without having to move too much so they can all be together!!

(i made the smaller ones into stickers bc i'm running out of picture frames!! hope that's ok!)

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE WHO'S GIFTED THESE TO ME THOUGH!!! I'M CALLING ALL OF YOU OUT HERE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!! ❤❤❤❤❤

*sharp inhale* @eskariolis-con-salsa @oddpizza @woobab @the-little-knight @moon9931 @misdreavusplush @noodletime @witch-tower-au !!!!!!!

hope you all have a good holiday season!! love you all! *MWAH*

#don't worry about the fish tanks they'll keep the kitties company! there's literally almost nowhere else good to put these lmao #but!! i think they look good there at least!! AND IN GENERAL THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD THANK YOU #BUT NOW AFTER THIS I REALLY NEED TO FIND MORE SPOTS IF I GET MORE EYHMS BECAUSE THERE'S NO SPACE LEFT THERE!#....maybe i can move some of the pokemon posters i have by my bed lol. they're just kinda. there rn.#but yeah!! i never expected people to like this cat this much and i'm kinda freaking out!!! but thank you again so much!!#i'll say it 1000 times if i have to!!!!!!#eyhm stuff #gift eyhms #basically ALL of the gift eyhms i've gotten lmao. there's a couple that're in progress but they'll hopefully join the others soon-ish!#quick side ramble! i've got a couple more drawing things planned this year but they might take a couple days because Chrimbo and all!#but there's a couple pizza tower things/gifts and. maybe finally my About Me post? gotta figure out how i'm gonna make that heh #OK I'VE BEEN TALKING TOO LONG SORRY BUT I'M JUST SO HAPPY ABOUT THESE AAAHHHHHHH

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californiaquail · 12 days ago

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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up #sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation #even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been #some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss #but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time #over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either #i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane #i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after #i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at #it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same #silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time #it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen #of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately #this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country #again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want #things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao #i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot #everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me #and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d #anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that #to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm #recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca #also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before #anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun #and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have #i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired #and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that #i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip #whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn #(<- guy who should be in therapy)

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lilowoof · 5 months ago

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ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

#I want NO MESSAGES regarding this. let me just be upset and alone #you spend most of your life trying to not succumb to sick brain but honestly I don't think it's worth it in the long run #my life is for better or worse....decent. but I've lost the drive and happiness to really DO anything a long time ago. like whats the point #the only reason I havent killed myself yet is cause Im too lazy (and dont have access to a gun for a quick getaway)#and I'm saying all this DESPITE having stuff to look forward to in the near future. it's like AUGH whats the POINT IM always gonna suffer #why does mental health take such a toll on ppl. this shit sucks ass. and I still feel excited for things in the future too? somehow?#but I also really want to die so. idk man. idk. maybe if I fall in love with someone then I can be distracted but all my walls are up #what's the point in anything anymore. *I* have to take the steps to improve myself and my situation #and I'd rather die. anyways who wants to make a pact that once we reach 40 we will marry each other #that might be fun #also my brain has gotten so bad that I am literally considering joining a hiking club to get out more and I FUCKING HATE HIKING #but I should probably do something out of my comfort zone to push myself and who knows maybe I will find a new passion #but let me tell you about the anxiety - oh BOY it's starting to act up again. hahahha #ah well sometimes you just need to scream your feelings out in the tags to get a lil clarity from the brain fog #one day I will fucking die/kill myself but for now I'll just try to make the best out of. whatever the hell this stupid life is. *shrug*#(but hey if any professional hitmen are reading this. feel free to. heh. you know ;) )#also I need to get back to art #gotta do my paid work and that one pic I lined months ago. and clay stuff *continues to bed rot another week because hahahahahahaha*#ah I wish I didn't fail all those years ago. then I would be free. I wish I was free #ok goodnight I promised myself that I would do paid work when I wake up tomorrow so hopefully no more migraines -pray emoji-

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fitzrove · 2 months ago

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Nothing like lying in bed sick w a bad cold and having gender thoughts 😂😭

#kdkdkdkd oversharing about my experience:#i'm like if a girl was a girl and a lesbian but like. you know all those 'oh no women are too much like men nowadays' fearmongering articles #i think it's a social + sexual/romantic roles thing.... like i wish there was flexibility with that 😅#i'm aware its an actual school of thought like oh gender roles arent real. but the problem is. nowadays so many people's feminism seems to #be emphasising that 'traditional female roles' are empowering and theres nothing wrong with liking them 😭 over and over #and i just don't relate to that and never will !! plus all my life i've gotten a kick out of like. taking on a diff role w other girls #not only like in a [redacted] way but like. random small things lol #it's all really difficult to articulate because of a twin problem: 1) i have a decently conforming physical presentation that i'm ok with #like i'm not butch lol. idk maybe this all is 'i'm not butch but i believe in their beliefs'#2. i feel like with some specific fem4fem lesbians there is heavy emphasis on femininity without wiggle room #so its like. i look and act like a girl but sometimes you have to pretend i'm crown prince rudolf if you want me to be happy JDJDKD 💀😂#sorry i cant believe he's in this post. so embarrassing #anyway i need to write my lesbian rudolf x stephanie fic some day i think it would be great

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kiisaes · 2 years ago

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mha is like an estranged awkward father to me. i try not to make my connection to it obvious but i secretly care a lot about it (sometimes against what i desire) and when ppl talk serious shit about it i get defensive. like yea i understand that it's not the best series writing-wise, it's got a good amount of problems and that its mere connection to me makes me cringefail ... but i'll always find some sort of unexplainable comfort in its arms despite its flaws bc there's still a good amount of it to genuinely enjoy without a constantly ironic state of mind that all media must be critiqued with nowadays and i don't expect anyone to understand this odd relationship but myself

#every time i hear that mha fans are cringe and have bad taste i'm like well yeah. but also hey. watch it #like protecting my pathetic father who does not need protecting but i'll do it anyway bc it just feels like i should #it's not at all a horrible series the way everyone labels it and i think its popularity caused such a societal whiplash #like oh it's mainstream now! time to pick on every flaw it has and reduce it to typical shounen shit #without addressing its actually decent and sometimes stellar aspects #it is not as overwhelmingly enjoyed like certain anime i've gotten into lately but that's ok. i'm fine with that #it's a mid to mid-good series with good characters (with exceptions) and great artwork and ok storytelling #i remember when mha was super praised and considered incredible like 5 years ago .. lol how times change #anyway. just wanted to type this out bc i think mha fans get an unfairly bad rep sometimes for doing nothing all that out of the ordinary #just for having an interest in a not-very-enlightening piece of media #and that kinda sucks #also bc i started watching mob psycho and it's really fucking good LMFAOOOO #bnha #mha #becki rambles about stuff

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talkorsomething · 7 months ago

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want to cut my hair again like you wouldn't believe. What are the possible consequences of going bald

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #actually i dont mean bald i just mean all one guard length #but hhhhh maybe i'm in an awkard stage maybe not i just CANNOT live like this #middle part is frustrating because it's not perfect in the way it sits side part is frustrating because i look like a girl #i feel like i could go all in with the 4 and then sorta texture a bit with the 2 guard HOWEVER having used the 4 previously. i know #how short that is. it might not look good so i worry #the bright side is it would grow out a bit by the time of the parade but augh i hate this #i'm currently a tightly wound ball of rage sorry. i didn't eat much of anything 2day #tried to call the hospital to get help with the letter/consulation thing preceding top surgery and they were NOT OPEN so idk if they will #be open tomorrow or not. the passage of time has gotten very vague all of a sudden #iiiiiii do not think i am doing well. lol. idk why though! god forbid any of it have a reason #i almost wish i'd relapse just so i could like. eat food again #idk i don't think it would solve it but i feel in my heart it might make things easier #buuuut because relapse is Bad For Me i guess i have to avoid it. well i want to anyways.#one bad day would not a reset make but my previous day happened this year already so...#i dunno it's been so long that i feel like it's not valid or whatever cause it was at an age where i can say it was a 'phase'#.............. i dunno what to do with that information. anyways.#i mean so what if i went all in on it again anyways? i kinda miss it lol. it's not like i could do any serious harm??#(potential infections aside.)#i just want to be creative and i CANT because my stupid brain will NOT think of anything #and the majority of what i have concretely written of this was written... get this .... right when i was trying to stay clean at first #correlation does not equal causation ........ sighs #i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle because i WANT IT to be that bad again #i've never really regretted it & it's never really been because of anything #i just started because i was curious about why someone would do that. that's all #i dont think i've EVER had any of the mental distress i see people in when theyre in these spaces #in one journal entry i made this big deal about wanting to kill myself but *i didn't want to*. i never did.#like sorry old me but it is REALLY hard to believe i've ever been depressed depressed #i just want things to be better and they never are :/ this should be everything i wanted and its just ... not #i'm not really sure how to ....... oh tag limit ok hold on

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wewontbesleeping · 11 months ago

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trying to not be a know it all is soooo hard when you're around other know it alls. it's such a weird balance bc if someone smugly corrects you with wrong info and you tell them they're wrong, somehow YOU'RE the rude one, which doesn't make any sense to me!!! you started it!!

#i'm STILL mad about this interaction i had with a coworker #lmfao SO.#at our job. at a COFFEE SHOP.#he was like oh i wish we had a cafe au lait i think our customers would love it #and i was like. we do we just don't call it that we call it a misto. a cafe au lait is coffee with steamed milk.#it's just FRENCH lol #and he was like NO that's not right actually a cafe au lait is made with cold milk #and i just had to be like. ok.#because i'm not FIGHTING with you on the clock #but. you are wrong #lmfao he gets sooo mad when one of our coworkers calls him out for mansplaining but like. well.#once he explained to me in excruciating detail what a flat white is....#again. at my job at a coffee shop. that i've unfortunately worked in for over 5 years.#i have gotten so good at letting things go #but any time i go 'huh. i didn't know that. cool'.#PLEASE KNOW. i KNOW you are wrong. and i just do not want to fight about it.#although most things can be solved by a quick google... but break out google and you're NEVER beating the know it all allegations lol

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bejeweledmp3 · 1 year ago

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tell me why i'm considering opening the doc and writing fanfiction during my lunch break. ON MY PHONE

#talking tag;#totp tag;#i've been meaning to make a tag for the fic so. there #ok if anyone is curious (probably not but like. i like talking about these things) i split the fic in sections in my head #so every ''kimberly finds her father in blah blah'' is a section and that's how i keep track of them #so chapter 1 had sections 1-3 and chapter 2 had sections 4-5 #and chapter 3 will have sections 6-7. it has to. for structure reasons #but section 6 is a very important one and she's at like. 8.5k words at the moment???? and i still haven't gotten to the last scene #OF THE SECTION. THEN THERE'S ANOTHER SECTION #which should hopefully be shorter (around 5k or less is my guess) because fewer things happen but. god #we're looking at a 15+k word chapter. if you're reading the fic hopefully you like long chapters cause!!! it'll be a long one!!!!!#also i am once again pointing out that if you're reading the fic and have absolutely anything to say about it PLEASE tell me #i love talking about this fic she's my child that i created. she's like a clay sculpture to me #i do mean to reply to ao3 comments but i'm shy 😭😭😭😭 but i reread them all a billion times and cry about them every time #i'm still thinking about the lengend that dropped that page long comment on chapter one. king (gn) if you see this i love you #when i reply to comments yours will be first. know that you have me and nat's infinite love forever and always.#truly i hope you like it and cand find peace in it. lord knows we all need it #well. anyways! i think i might edit the doc i'll see

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silverselfshippingchaos · 2 years ago

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good morning! i just put a.khos on the f/o list!

#had to happen eventually hehe! I've fallen head over heels for my biggest enemy and i love him sooooo much!!#ash rambles 💚#i had a pretty eventful weekend #went out of town and on a shopping spree! twas very fun and i ate lots of yummy food and the such #i'm home now but so.. tired... cant bring myself to get out of bed just yet BAHAHAHA #i keep thinking about a.khos' arms around me keeping me close to him #i had a kinda creepy interaction with a man in public the other day and although i'm ok and safe #it was the first time that had happened to me and i'm still sorta shaken up #im ok!!! but i keep thinking about f/o comfort and the such just to help some more. i'm completely safe and doing so much better than I was #you see... theres this character... i don't love him. i think he's a horrible man. but he's so hot i start questioning things about myself #and my s/i for that source is a known flirt- so i wouldnt put it past them to have gotten it on a few times #but i've been thinking... what if theyre actually bitter exes? maybe that's why my d.mc s/i hates serious relationships so much..#but that aside. this character wears this heavy coat and i keep thinking abt using it as a weighted blanket!! it looks really really cozy #sir you're an asshole but... give me your coat!!!!! (grabby hands)#oh also! me being home means i got to see a.qua plushie!!! i missed her!#but yeah. that's what's up. so much goddamn a.khos brainrot.#he's stolen my heart #and don't tell anyone i said this but...#i love it. i love it so much. no better feeling than me being his and he being mine #also i've been thinking about my xb1 fankid a lot as of late.. but if i start rambling about Nalia we'll be here all day LMAO #but yeah! hope everyone is doing well! i'm doing okay too #ALSO AJDHWJEHW SO MUCH S.KYRIM ROT!! I LOVE R.UNE BY THE WAY AJDJAJS I #I HAVE BEEN DOING SO SO MUCH S/I WRITING FOR THEM #ALL OF THE THIEVES GUILD ARE MY BEST FRIENDS BTW #also did i mention i got to visit one of the largest bookstores in the world? goodness i love books soooo much!!!!!!!!#but also... reading next to a.khos.. enjoying that comfortable silence..#(swoons) what a man

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mothmanchronicler · 2 years ago

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i don't like my haircut but everyone (and i mean everyone) loves my haircut ??? am i crazy

#i've never gotten so many compliments on a haircut #today our waiter said they were jealous because they were too scared to rock a 'cool punk haircut'#a goth teenager working at taco bell blurted out 'woah you look so cool' as soon as the opened the drive thru window #old lesbians love it #why do i hate it !!#i love the way it feels but i don't like looking at it #anyway transition is weeeeeird i'm feeling so weird rn #i'm so happy abt all the changes but its making me unhappy with my appearance overall because i'm not butch enough or man enough yet #even tho i KNOW that's bullshit #it's a feeling that has been very hard to shake #trying to think what is at the core of the feeling #maybe the ever present fear of rejection #but the result is that i'm rejecting myself #or perhaps it all stems back to my psychosexual obsession with a girl in my pre-school class #(just like every think that is wrong with me!!!)#joking #or am i ?#ok bye <3

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mementoasts · 2 years ago

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posting stuff online because i truly just love sharing my silly creations with anyone who may also love them vs. wanting to deactivate and move to a forest every time i'm met with positive feedback (i am terrified of people and of being recognized/acknowledged)

#THUS IS NOT A GOOD MENTALITY I KNOOOOOWWW I KNOW DBSJDBSJH im just a non functioning little guy ok #i've gotten out of the 'worried about numbers' phase early but now it's been this fdhsjhsjghs the content machine is unforgiving #there's so many layers to this im TRYING to like slowly untangle all of it but. ugh :(#sometimes i think maybe i just need to stop doin merch and art altogether and touch grass or whatever but...#i dont want it to be my irrational fears that force me to stop doing stuff i like. it's not like there's any other problems #really -- otherwise i like doing what i do!! i don't even really care if ppl hate me and my shit BUT --#i think i care too much about not doing good enough for the people who DO like my little sillies 😭😭 and i think that's my main issue #maybe also explains why it's so hard for me to like.. talk/put my PERSONALITY out there? im scared that ppl who enjoy my stuff will hate ME #implying i have much of a personality anymore i think whatever was there kinda melted away these past few years djshkshk #SORRY FOR THE VENT POST sorry if u actually read all these tags oh my gosh #i'm just a weird guy aaaaaa i'm silly aaaaaaaaaaaa #the void screaming

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zincbot · 2 years ago

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forgot i love sci-fi a normal amount

#like look ok. i always think like: man i don't like stuff with dense specific lore. i'm a themes and concepts guy over everything #and for some reason i'm sat here thinking sci-fi is all dense worldbuilding all the time #but whenever i get back into smth sci-fi i'm like. Oh. I ACTUALLY love this forever and ever? and ever?#and i have done this cycle multiple times #look i enjoy both star trek and star wars pretty shallowly but both were important to me growing up #and like i think sci-fi is such a perfect vessel for xenobiology concepts and relevant social commentary #while also just having one of the Coolest aesthetics #i love spec bio and i love applying current world issues to far-flung but still grounded situations #and i love robots and androids and ai and mutants and aliens and cyborgs #i love space #sci-fi! man!#this is cause i watched the first episode of starstruck and i'm pretty sure from the teaser that the captain just got brainjacked #by a parasite #and i think it would be such a cool character turn if zac started playing as said parasite instead #especially as we just came out of skipper like yelling at and being so mean to his whole crew and saying he was gonna fire them #i think it would be sick to do a 'they like the parasite better' thing #though i've gotten a kick out of skipper so far especially just how fuckinh done he is

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nexus-nebulae · 14 days ago

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hate when i restructure my day for Rapid Onset Plans and then someone just. absolutely does not follow through on them. so now I'm sitting with half my stuff in a backpack i no longer have the energy to move and no way to leave the house

#like. man I've had to get SO good at adapting my schedule #being adhd ive always kiiiind of been good at spontaneous plans? but in recent years it's gotten harder #most of the reason why my plans are spontaneous usually is because my body has a random chance to be Fucked Up every day #like- when your body starts to physically shut down you kind of HAVE to train yourself to deal with the horrors of missed plans #when sometimes randomly i have to stop everything and go straight home because my hip popped really bad or something #when sometimes stomach issues cause me to have to leave places really quickly because I'm not throwing up in walmart #even as my autism has been seeming 'stronger' (see: im unmasked fully for the first time like Ever and its all hitting me at once)#i still have to be really good at just. drop everything time for ER. no store today gotta see urgent care. can't get out of bed today sigh #but it still sucks fucking ass when i think 'ok yeah this plan is For Sure going to happen nothing is getting in the way'#and then my only wheelchair accessible ride does not show up whatsoever. when i already spent the energy on getting ready to leave #energy i could have conserved for later when i needed to take a shower #now instead i have to skip washing my hair because I'm too tired today and the rest of me needs it more

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kuiinncedes · 5 months ago

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bro

#i hate job apps lmao kinda in the trenches rn #i'm so idk so mixed feelings rn 💀#i think my self esteem when it comes to job apps is like fucking shot from career fair and job rejections and everything #my last interview was offered like a couple days before the interview and i just winged it and didn't rly prepare #and then after the interview realized i actually kinda like the company and would kinda wnat the job more than my lack of prep suggests LOL #but i applied for smth over the summer and they said they'd actually be interested in giving me an offer #but i committed to staying on campus for this yr (which i could've done stuff to get out of but i have dumb reasons for it ig)#but they just reached out and said they'd STILL be interested in offering me a job for summer 2025 start date #and it makes me fucking sad that i feel so weird abt it LMFAO i am happy abt it #but like literally this week has been so many rejections back to back bc i've been applying to things at my (old) college's career fair #and so many of them have already just immediately rejected me 💀#so a big part of me rn is like why the fuck would this company even still want me ya know #😀😀😀😀 i thnk i'll cry abt this at some point idk when tho 😀😀😀😀#also my mom keeps nagging me to apply for masters which i haven't actually looked into at all yet #i think esp bc she called me last night and was like no one's gonna give you a chance bc you only have bachelors #so you can't compete when theres masters and phd applicants too #which is true ig like i have just gotten flat out rejected without any interview or anything so many times #sooooo all of that adding up to me being like well i somehow tricked this company into still wanting me right #even tho i am literally doing nothing this yr i'm staying on campus bc i like it here #and i have a remote part time job and i'm figuring out what i want to do #jfc idk lmfao i'm also nervous abt telling my mom bc i feel like she just #ughhhgiuhdgfiwtglkdghfajs she can be very critical and judgmental ;-;#and i fele like she's been like that kind of a lot w job/masters conversations and i don't rly like talking to her abt it lmfao #when she called me yesterday she started nagging me abt job apps and not being picky abt stuff and i'm like #you have told me this 746598347 times i rly don't need to hear it again #i do appreciate and love my mom but i just rly don't like this lmfao #i think she'd be ok w it / happy i guess she did tell me to apply for this company at one point a while ago #i wanna scream lmfao #bro i wish tumblr would tell me when im RUNNING OUT OF TAGS rip some of this rambling i don't even remember what i said LOL #jeanne talks

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i-am-a-fish · 7 months ago

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Sex Ed Time

ok I'm gonna tell you about some things that might happen if you are transitioning m->f. this is not a comprehensive list just my own experience, be sure to do your own research I just really wanted to voice how this affects me because I think open discussion about this type of stuff is just more helpful for everyone rather than keeping it private

BOOBS HURT WHEN THEY GROW

your sex drive (libido) will probably go down a lot

facial hair is very hard to get rid of

my go-to gender affirming clothing is high-waisted jeans. I suggest going to a goodwill or some sort of cheap store that lets you try on clothes to figure out what you like

muscle mass will go down, fat will be redistributed

boobs do all sorts of crazy stuff when you run / exercise

overtime your skin will get softer, you also might smell nicer, and I've been told it can thin body hair but I don't really see it all that much 🤷

your brain chemistry can change when you reduce testosterone and increase estrogen, there are lots of factors that contribute toward any changes to your personality, but hormones can have an impact as well. for me this is a good thing because I struggle with allowing myself to feel emotions sometimes, no matter how hard I tried I was never really able to get myself to cry. I've gotten closer to being able to cry since I started transitioning though and that makes me very happy

this is a slow process that can take several years, ultimately you're going to be in your body for several years regardless, so if this is something you want it's definitely something you should try to pursue if possible. the time will pass anyways, and it does feel nice to work towards something that can make you happier.

also this is very important, you don't need to do any sort of hormone replacement therapy in order to be trans. not everybody can access HRT, and for those who can access it, not everybody wants to take on all the changes that come with treatments. you don't have to chemically or physically change your body in any way in order to deserve respect

all right that's all I have for right now feel free to add anything in the comments, I would especially like to hear from trans men what your experiences have been, I think openly talking about these types of things can really help some people

#I can't proofread all this I'm sorry if there are typos I'm laying on the floor right now

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