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[wlwaxsthetic]

Happy Black History Month. Black queer love should always be celebrated and validated

[cupidsclown]

It was such fun to do drag on pride this year! Meet Valentina the Cupid Clown, her clothing was entirely stitched by hand by yours truly! Ah, everyone were such dears with her and welcomed her to the drag scene despite it being her first time. I am overjoyed!

[saddamsday]

[cherishedverses]

we’re fucked

[girlunionize]

Am I cringe for posting a selfie on tumblr during 2023? Maybe, but who cares?

[hellyeahsickaf]

If you want to get mad about how fucking awful some doctors are, here you go

With my post about medical discrimination against addicts and disabled people gaining traction again I got a few people asking about how I'm doing after my kidney infection and what happened in the ER. I'm better, could've been much worse but when I was seen they gave me antibiotics before anything else- it was the one thing they did right

I knew I had a kidney infection, I told them that I had a UTI and checked off all of the boxes for a kidney infection which is potentially deadly and leads to sepsis in as little as 12-48 hours if untreated. Pro tip because I'm an idiot- always see a doctor for UTIs, you can't just self treat them even if it seems to be going away as was the case for me. That's how it reaches your kidneys. Whoops 🥴

I waited a few hours which is expected but I got progressively worse. I also reported my pain as an 8/10 (9 by the time I was seen), migraine, fever, chills, weakness, dizziness, fatigue, nausea, probably some other things. I was shaking, crying, curled up, truly some of the worst pain I've ever felt next to gallstones. Maybe others handle this kind of thing better. Or maybe most grown ass men they see in this condition either have serious injuries or are addicts putting on a show. In which case they'd still be truly suffering. It shouldn't matter if they're an addict if they're in the ER desperate for relief in that moment. But yeah, I was ignored for most of the night aside from being given antibiotics and Tylenol. I just reread my clinical notes from that night actually and got mad again lol

I saw the doctor for under 5 minutes that night. He asked why I was there and how I was doing. I told him how awful I felt and he didn't carry out any examinations, it was the first time I'd gone to the ER and wasn't even asked to wear a gown. Either way he was extremely neglectful. Had the nerve to report exams for ENT, eyes, cardio, abdominal, skin, etc that never happened. He didn't lay a finger on me. Reported answers to questions I was never asked like whether I've had past surgeries (he put no when I have). And at the end of his clinical notes he states the following:

"..While I considered a CT abdomen/pelvis, I do not currently feel it is necessary based on the patient's physical exam and clinical history and review of any labs that were ordered. Patient is otherwise well appearing; feel it is reasonable to discharge the patient home at this time with close outpatient follow up."

So he claims he considered a CT scan but based on the results of exams he never performed and clinical history he never asked for and the fact that I was "well appearing" (felt like I was dying), he felt it was "not necessary" to order a CT scan. Only at the end of my visit- 6 hours later was I given an effective painkiller. This negligence genuinely could have killed me and I didn't want it to happen to someone else so I reported him for malpractice. They carried out an investigation and concluded there was no wrongdoing on his part. The woman that was in charge of being in contact with me during the investigation was really nice and also pissed off on my behalf and rightfully so. Also some days after my visit I got a lab report indicating that the strain of infection I had was fairly uncommon and pretty fuckin dangerous with some strains being immune to antibiotics

Maybe I should have advocated for myself better but the condition I was in, I could hardly talk at all. I just hate that he just gets to keep practicing medicine and jeopardizing the health of his patients to make his job easier despite the fact that it could kill someone. It's fucked up how easy it is for doctors to get away with this shit really.

[aribeexx]

Long time no post, but this is important. My partner is in need of financial help because he’s got a ton of medical fees. They’re currently out of a job, so the insurance that they had is no longer covering the cost of the treatments that they need. Yo top it all off they have to pay their rent, and their cat’s vet bills and whatnot. Please donate if you can or just share it, every little penny counts. Thank you guys!

[1greyscale1]

you ever just want to make a side blog 4 smth but then you don’t want to cause fear of it being a sudden interest and then it just disappears,,,

cause i am rn

specifically with objectum

-juno

[stonebluesam]

My brain is going BRRRR in a bad way tonight. My med doctor won't order in my Bipolar/Autism meds and It's making me feel Not Good. We keep calling them to order in and she WON'T DO IT. Sara PLEASE.

On another note, I have about 22 days left until I get to hold my beautiful angel and then she'll be mine until the middle of December. I'm trying to find peace in the fact that she'll be here. With me. Safe. Warm.

Please go and follow my sideblog about fish and lizards and my AuDHD! Its @creetchu-r :D

[hellishfig]

my 23rd birthday was a couple days ago

and i have had so many conversations with friends and i've read so much about how getting older is not only okay, it's good

but a couple of friends came over very late the night before my birthday so they could be there at midnight and sing happy birthday to me (because they're the best and i love them)

and they did the "are you ONE, are you TWO, are you THREE" thing

all the way to 23

and they did it soooooooo slowly

and that kind of gave me an existential crisis? hearing the years get counted away? it took probably 30 seconds to a minute but it felt like forever, and all i could feel was the time passing

i keep thinking about being a kid and the joy and excitement that each birthday brings, how getting older is something to celebrate

i feel like 23 is the age (for me at least) where the joy of getting older begins to fade. i'm an adult now. i have worries and concerns about getting a job and what i want to do with my life, and it feels a lot more immediate

however, i still dressed up as a princess and had my friends come over and make powerpoints about things they're interested in so they could infodump to me

getting older doesn't mean giving up the things that make you happy

so here's a picture of me at 23 (face hidden for privacy) dressed as a princess to remind everyone (including me) that dress up doesn't have an age limit and neither does fun

happy birthday to me!

[i-still-mask-because]

A Vent

Disclaimer: I say all of this with full awareness that there certainly are people that support this blog, follow this blog, and help spread these covid awareness posts, and I'm very thankful and appreciative to you folks for helping me spread the word! (genuinely, it makes me feel seen and like I'm doing something that matters). I'm just taking a minute to vent something I've been feeling overall.

Sometimes I wonder if when I tag posts as "covid" or any variation of a tag with the word "covid" in it, it'll just get wiped out of people's feed because of the possibility of folks blocking the tag because they're tired of hearing about the pandemic, or some similar emotion. It's a thought that genuinely bothers me because it makes me wonder if I'm posting & reblogging things from here to my main in vain. I want to spread the word, but it very often feels like so much of this labor gets ignored by the people that truly need to hear the information I'm sharing.

A lot of (not all but, a significant amount of) my mutuals seem to be ignoring my covid awareness posts. It worries me that they may be intentionally ignoring them, and may even think what I'm sharing is useless and not important.

I can't tell for certain. Digital interactions can be tricky like that. But it's been getting harder and harder to give the benefit of the doubt they simply just missed the posts when it happens so so frequently and especially when most of the posts surrounding the covid related ones routinely get interacted with instead. It's been making me very anxious that these folks I figured I could count on to help me out & be on my side may not truly be on the same page as me. It's been a stressor thinking of how they may not be on the same page as me for a long time because I sound like a big conspiracy theorist to them.

End of vent.

This is okay to reblog, comment on, and like by the way! I'm open to hearing if anyone else has been feeling the same.

[ftwraw]

This generation claims to be open minded but they lack a mind to open.

[randowolfwriter]

PSA: Scam Alert

If you recieve this kind of message in your inbox, know that it's a scam. Eeyore-pg's blog was literally made less than 24 hours ago and their messages look suspiciously similar to these messages that were popping up in people's inboxes.

If I hadn't seen this post, I probably would have tried to signal boost this too. Anyway, block @eeyore-pg and ignore these type of messages if they show up in your inbox.

[wlwaxsthetic]

Hi hello! I am alive! I’ve just been on a very long hiatus because I went through a very bad breakup about a year ago, I had moved to a new city, I had just graduated college, and I was trying to find myself and figure out how to adult. But I’m much better now and I will be more active on here because I truly miss all of you beautiful peeps. Here are some pictures to go along w/ this update because there have been a few changes :)

[mermaidswhocantswim]

(NSFW)

I know this is the celibacy website but I had a one night stand and this is the first time I’ve had sex in MONTHS and she made me feel so pretty dreams really do come true we are gonna make it besties