#ok im just being rlly mean rn i admit but like

[achilleslyre]

THE WEDDING ARC………………………. u are insane………… 😟😟😟😟

[lorax-devito]

Ahhh melvins fist kiss,such a lovely,romantic moment with such tenderness and definitely not el thinking and getting really happy over the fact that they might become siblings

okay I will admit malnourished fallopian tube can have some cute moments but this kiss just rubbed me the wrong way…it just seems very…forced and yeah,I get that ‘actions speak louder than words’ and all that but it’s just with the context it all just seems a bit…icky…

I’m not saying like forced himself into el but he kinda did,not in a technically bad way bc el never said no and all the complex stuff I’m not going to get into but by forced I mean that Mike got influenced or forced by Lucas and well el,she was fresh outta the lab she had no clue what was happening and as much as a want to regain my self from bringing up the whole ‘you’d be my brother’ incident (bc I bring it up a lot when comparing byler or using Melvin as an example for smth )I’m going too bc omg 😭the girl was not only okay with them just being bffs but she was exited over the idea of them being related and yeah,in els eyes that’s probably just friends considering the whole oh yeah,she was raised in a lab and called (I forgot her name) the other girl in leather her sister and papa told the other kids that they were all siblings and all that messed up stuff so ig she just sees siblings as friends or (the whole thing in s4 with her getting bullied in the lab and battered by the other kids In the lab) potential bullies.idk that’s just how I veiwed it but anyways here’s the byler stuff-

I’m leaning more onto the ‘passionate,sudden,I’ve gotta have you righty here right now’ kinda kiss with byler (if that’s the right way to explain it lol) but I also think a slow, gentle kiss with byler would be such a good contrast to mouldy eggs rushed kiss.the best way I can describe it is like the kiss in the fan fic ‘wills fluffy hair’ (I’ll link it at the bottom).

(I’m pretty sure that’s the right fic but they all kind of merge into one so if I got it wrong and realise I’ll change it later 💀)

if you can’t be bothered to read it basically Mike asks if will is okay,will cry’s bc he thinks Mike is lying/teasing him,it’s angst and I love it

basically the kids would be slow and Mike and will just taking their time,no interruptions,they keep asking each other is every inch or so that they move closer is okay and if anyone thinks ‘ewww that’s not hot or anything’ CONSENT IS MF HOT OK IM ALL FOR THE BIG ROMANTIC KISS WHERE THEY GO ALL IN AND ITS MESSY AND STUFF BUT IT CAN STILL BE ROMANTIC WITH CONSENT-okay,mini rant over,anyway they are both so terrified bc (Im pretty sure I’m quoting a fic rn😭god help me) is this allowed? Are they allowed to do this? It feels so wrong yet so right.

they have one small kiss,they’re lips barely touching or they are rlly close,noses brushing up against one another,neither one of them daring to be the one to break the small wall between their lips and omg I think I’ve done it again,good god I’ve quoted a fic,again😭

basically they are both so nervous and scared and then suddenly for one small moment everything goes away,they’re kissing and oh god it feels like heaven and then they both start crying and the just keep being big romantic,cheesy dorks and it’s emotional and all of the miscommunication gets cleared up and yeah,I just think that’s a nice way the byler kiss could go,I’m still a huge rain fight kiss fan (tbh I like most scenarios where they kiss and fall in live and are happy forever😭) but this is also nice,it itches a different kind a scratch,plus I just know that Noah would be able to pull his best acting skills out for that scene and melt our hearts which he’ll do anyway but we all know how this he is at crying scenes (I mean he’s had a lot of practice,I’m looking at you suffer bros🥲)

I think it’s is the right fic but as I said if I notice that I got it wrong then I’ll change it later,it’s still an amazing fic tho,so much angst😭😭

[pumpkinsy0]

Papercut kiss hcs your honor,,, papercut being soft w each other hcs,,, papercut being sleepy and snuggly and giving each other tired little kisses.,,,,,,,,… do you feel me 😞

i get u anon,,,,lets do this,,,

•i am telling u rn curly WILL randomly kiss the guy, they could b talking and he randomly does it, pony will never get used to that, its like he physically stops when it happens and curly will always tease him for it

•its like, so rare for pony to actually go for it, partially bc hes scared he’ll look stupid

•lets not sit here and pretend that curly wouldnt go to kiss pony then purposely swerve out the way to make pony look dumb and laugh at him

•when they kiss its damn near always a lil rough, thats just how

•if u think they HAVENT kissed in a movie theater while it was dark, i dont wanna hear ANYTHING u say, and id say this is one of the times where ponys like, at ease, but only if theyre in the wayyyyyy back back and not in the dead middle

•they accidentally bump heads numerous times and have gotten bumps on their lips from going in to kiss too hard, and they both make fun of each other for it

•when i say theyre both yappers i mean it, they kiss and talk in between, or more realistically they TALK w kisses in between, like yea,,,keep talking about this thing i do not understand bc i like how passionate ur getting over this it make u look fantastic, king, this especially happens when theyre sleepy, but instead its just slurred speech and more kissing lmao

•i said sometimes pony would wear chapstick for his dry ass lips and im telling yall, curly WILL lick his lips after kissing pony to taste the damn flavor of it, what an odd ball, that or he rubs his lips to just, fix his own chapped ass lips

•curly asks for a kiss or just straight up kisses pony before he goes into a fight, he says its the equivalence of a princess doing “that sword shit to the knights shoulders” and it gives him good luck

•OK LOOK, before curly thought it was stupid to ask someone if they can kiss em, but pony did it to him a few times and curly would never admit it, but that was like, top 5 gayest moments of HIM bc of how he acted to it, he tries to play it cool and tease pony for asking that, but he rlly wasnt like that inside, on the inside he was a mess, for a moment curly felt valued???? or whatever?????he felt more than how he was usually treated

[charbored]

I started writing something and it ended up more of a vent than i intended and i just need to get this off my chest, sorry for all of this

Im at a sleepover rn and i honestly just love my friends so much more than i hate myself so i managed to put aside my disordered behaviours a little for them and ngl this is probably the best way for me to heal and recover cause it just felt so normal and ok and happy to be with them and idk

Like almost every stupid fucking rule mental illnesses have set for me got broken and at some moments it felt like i was gonna die but being with them made me slowly feel it was actually gonna be alr and realise this is actually what life is for

This was rlly fcking needed cause if im gonna be completely honest i cant and also dont wanna lie about this anymore, i have not been ok at all for quite a while and its only been getting worse and im really really sorry if ive lied to u about it, ik ppl that ask would care and want a honest answer and if anyone i know would feel like that id wanna know so i could be there for them but i just couldnt get myself to tell anyone or admit i wasnt fine i didnt want anyone to worry ive always felt like i cant tell anyone when ifeel bad and liek i have to hide it and keep it to myself creating another thing i have tl obsessively hide from everyone

I want to apologise to everyone i have lied to, i have insane double standards set for myself where completely normal things, things i wouldnt ever feel weird about someone else doing, and even things id be proud of them for doing or saying, become off-limits and unacceptable to do, have, or be for me. I have expextations for myself that i would never ever in my life want anyone else to have and know i need to work on that but idk where to start cause anything ive tried hasnt worked. I just want you all to know that im sorry.

Ive felt probably the worst i ever have in a lot of aspects of my life nd everything was getting sriously too much for me and ive genuinely started to completrly lose any meaning or will to live

Outside of certain mometns of somethin happening i felt completely empty and hopeless over everything, ive felt like this is how it is, and how it will always be for me and i just lost hope and felt like recovery wluld never even be possible and that im stuck in a life feeling like this all the tiem cause ngl it has been more or less like this for longrr than it should n i actually dont even remember a time i wasnt feeling or going through some sort of thing like this and it just makes me feel like im not meant to ever be truly happy

Im so scared of getting back to that but rn im with my friends and it feels so nice and i just hope that the feeling will last

I just want to be honest about this now cause i cant keep pretending to just be fine all the time anymore

Again im so sorry for this

[ohgodimafraud]

👤🤧?

omg ty for the ask

👤 - Describe your current favorite character (including OCs)

rip im so sorry bc im already so excited.

my favorite character rn is L/ucifer (aka u/rushihara) from the d/evil is a part t/imer. im obsessed w him specifically. i was watching the anime and he came on and i was like oh no, cmon he cant really be my favorite but he just is.

he went from being an edgelord demon general who was previous ly the top archangel who fell j because he was bored and joined w the og satan and then joined with the current satan bc he was like i mean there was nothing else to do. over like 10,000 years old with absolutely zero aspirations other than playing pc games and eating snacks and online shopping. but also he does have some character growth but it's more subtle and hes just like so unserious and nobody respects him at all ToT

hes a little man with big wings. he got duped by some rando into spending crazy money on garbage and was like it's not my fault :( (( im socially awkward.

his whole thing is being a neet and exerting as little energy as possible for the most part but hes also one of the smarter characters for sure. like he does actually contribute to the group but it doesnt rlly up his respect or rep and then he usually evens it out by him doing something like ordering stupid shit they dont need while theyre trying to keep a roof over their heads.

he also has the most canon allergies ive seen in forever. an entire chap of the manga and a chap of the light novel and a 50 min DRAMA CD is dedicated to satan taking in a cat and saving it and l/ucifer sneezes the entire time. and theyre like stoooop being so loud!!! lmaoo T_T hes so cute and pathetic <3 i love him sm hes like basically a cat himself. but also during that chapter when the cat coughs up a hairball he prints out directions to the vet and is like dondt panig call a bro (pro). like ok. also he did try making a FOUND poster LMFAO.

something about him just resonates with me he has an unnaturally long life and just wants to live a chronically online life and i feel that. he gets picked up by the collar or scruff all the time and every time i see him i get like lkFLAEJKJRGJLKJ THERE HE IS!!!! yay!!!!!

🤧 - Do you prefer stoic characters or characters who complain?

both <3 like up until recently i was more for stoic characters or ones who will deny deny deny until theyre forced to admit theyre sick or yeah ok they are having an allergy attack. but i also think some complaining is hot. u/rushihara would def complain/has canonically been like cmon this really sucks u guys. D:< i think for me it's also about the dynamics between the characters and the situation/context. omg or a character who goes from im alright it's not bad to this suckkkss :(( and then starts making specific complaints and is all needy. damn. bye-

[pkbeamgamma]

im most likely overthinking again but he hasnt texted back in like 5 days and im worried like. lol i dont even know if he wants to be friends anymore and me sending memes is somehow making it worse.

[noteguk]

Hey nala! I loved bad attitude, I can’t wait to see more of the oc teasing jk 😭

Thank you!! I really like exploring the dark side of the force that overtakes the oc every once in a blue moon. So I hope you guys like this one! (The timeline is after bad reputation, but before bad attitude) 

[ ! ] this is a drabble for bad influence. You can read it as a stand-alone. 

— contents and warnings; pwp, smut, sexting, badboy!Jungkook x goodgirl!reader, enemies with benefits/enemies to lovers, dirty talk, taking and sending pics (not nudes), jk’s skirt thirst, a glimpse into the chaos that lives inside the oc 

— words; 1,2k

~ 

Years of high school (and now college) excellence did wonders to disguise your impulsive side. It was a common misconception to believe that, just because you were disciplined enough to keep your grades high and your responsibilities in check, you didn’t act on dumb, random thoughts that popped up inside your head. You kind of wished it was true (it would’ve saved you a lot of drama in your personal life) but you also had to admit that you had your fun indulging in your more chaotic needs as well. 

Jungkook’s answer came quickly, but not as quickly as you had first expected. Which meant that he was either busy or distracted — past tense — and that it would be slightly more fun than you thought. 

With a smirk growing on your lips, you turned around on the bed, reaching for your phone. His answer was simple, only one word, but it was more than enough for you to realize that your machiavellian plan would be fruitful. 

jk tutoring 🚫: dont.

If years of perfecting self-restraint didn’t stop you, his half-assed warning wouldn’t. With your phone in hands, you propped yourself up on your elbows as you typed a response. 

You: Why not? 😔

As you nervously waited for his text, the picture you had previously sent him was staring you right in the face. It wasn’t anything outrageous, just a simple mirror selfie of you sitting on the edge of your bed, legs crossed and head slightly tilted to the side. It was something so innocent, so gentle and casual, that you could almost pretend that you didn’t know exactly what you were doing when you picked that skirt.

It wasn’t any revolutionary discovery to claim that Jungkook had a thing for your skirts — he had mentioned about a million times already and, even if he hadn’t, it was extremely obvious from the way he explored your body with a lot more eagerness when you wore one. What was a revolutionary discovery, however, was the piece of clothing you found hiding in the corner of your closet, something you had long discarded because Yongsun had managed to shrink it the first time she washed it. 

It was practically impossible to wear it outside, but, well, it was the perfect tool to provoke Jungkook with. Because if karma didn’t take care of him, you would. 

Finally, his messages popped up on your screen: 

jk tutoring 🚫: in a lab rn dont wanna get hard thx

jk tutoring 🚫: but it looks rlly fucjing hot 

jk tutoring 🚫: wanna see you riding me in it bby 

jk tutoring 🚫: in front of that mirror ;) 

You bit your lip, bubbles of expectation starting to pop in your stomach. Sexting Jungkook was the free trial of being a chess genius — you were always ten steps ahead, predicting his following words with almost perfect accuracy. Was it mean, perhaps a little twisted of you to be doing that while he was (miraculously) in class? Maybe. But you had a lot of things in your mind and mercy wasn’t one of them. Especially after the months of torture he had put you through. 

You: whatever you want 🥰 

You: I’m surprised you even go to class tho, that’s news 

jk tutoring 🚫: u took the day off to pester me? 

You: maybe I did

You: maybe I’m also home alone for the rest of it 

jk tutoring 🚫: dont fucking say that 

In true supervillain fashion, you had to laugh at his apparent desperation — a high-pitched, victorious laugh that seemed to come straight from your soul. Jungkook very rarely found himself in that position and you absolutely lived for it. It was one thing to provoke him in person, when he was much stronger than you and could shut you up in no time, but, through the screen, only equal rights. And equal methods of torture.

You: why? You don’t wanna come over? 

jk tutoring 🚫: u kno I do 

jk tutoring 🚫: ill ttyl

You: not later!! Now 🥺 

jk tutoring 🚫: baby this isn’t the best moment 

jk tutoring 🚫: Im already hard n im almost done here ok

You chewed on the inside of your cheek, giving the angel and the demon on your shoulders time to present their case. The collected, rational part of you told you to leave it at that: he would come over later, you had managed to provoke him enough to piss him off and get the reaction you wanted. You won. But the impulsive, evil side of you told you that you didn’t win hard enough. 

Before you could think too much about it, you took another picture, feeling blessed enough to get a good shot on your first try. Your thumbs flew over the keys, typing fast to get the message sent before Jungkook decided to put his phone away. 

You: but these are the panties that you like 😔 

Like clockwork, there was a long moment of tension between your message being viewed and those little dots appearing at the corner of your screen. Once again: you knew exactly what you were doing. And you knew that a picture taken underneath your skirt, presenting him with a full view of your red laced panties, would be the cherry on top. 

jk tutoring 🚫: I fucjing hate u

You: don’t think you do 

jk tutoring 🚫: im saving these 

jk tutoring 🚫: gonna fuck u so hard bby 

jk tutoring 🚫: not even gonna take those off 

jk tutoring 🚫: just gonna push them aside n see u coming all over my cock 

Playing like that with Jungkook was like russian roulette — only, it was only you, and all chambers were filled. You knew it would backfire, you knew that the second he walked in your room all your control would go flying out the window, and yet you pushed on. Impulsiveness was a drug for someone that rarely indulged in it, and you were too high to care about the consequences when they seemed so far away. Or, even worse, when you kind of liked them. 

That was what pushed you to write your following messages: 

You: come over now? Please? 

jk tutoring 🚫: wait like 10 min we’re wrapping up 

You: now 🥺 

You: I’m so wet kook 

You: my panties are soaked 

You: don’t you wanna come and take them off? 

You: Or maybe I can take care of myself today and I can see you another day 😔

jk tutoring 🚫: dont fucking dare

You: I bet I could come super quick too I’m so turned on 

You: I want to feel you inside me 

You: I’m so tight too I can barely put my fingers in

You: please? Come over? 

Checkmate. The forces of chaos inside you were rejoicing, every cell of your body anticipating the impact of your words. You, however, already knew you had won even before he answered you. 

jk tutoring 🚫: im coming over rn

~

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[simpgirlsposts]

Hi may i have a haikyuu match-up please<3

- [ ] Hi my name is rex, i’m queer and use they/them pronouns and i’m 15. And i would prefer someone not over the age of 19 plz.

- [ ] have like a caramel colored skin-tone and im 5’3 (short king). Rn i have a purple-pink short mullet and i have pretty curly hair(the ethnic popped off hehe), im pretty chubby but i have an hourglass shape, im pretty busty(im a fuckin k cup bro😭) and thicc thighs(thicc thighs save lives, sorry i’ll stop). I dress pretty alternative but i cant just choose one subculture tho, i wear a lot of heavy eye makeup. I could say i dress kinda “showy” but thats kinda what only fits me, but also who gives a fuck.

- [ ] Honestly I don’t really have a type. Tbh most of my relationships have ended pretty badly cause they ether only wanted something sexual from me or I was “too clingy” when i just wanted basic ass affection. But the most I want is someone who is physically affectionate (like kisses, cuddles, and hugs for days) also im ok with pda to an extent like i will hug and like cuddle you but im not gonna make out with your infront of others thats weird af.

- [ ] Im a libra sun, scropio moon, and gemini rising. This means that im a pretty social person and always wanna hang out with friends and just have fun, but moon in scropio makes my emotions rlly haywire and kinda boosts any sorta negative emotion, which is hard when you have chronic anxiety and major depressive disorder. Which also means i take medication for it, which i forget a lot. And because of these things i have anxiety tics, where it ranges to making noices and twitching a bit to full on hitting myself and saying random shit. But I really like making people laugh, it makes me feel helpful, but im also good at being to mother figure for people. I also like playfully bantering with people, like i love you but will full on roast you and get into fake fist-fights. I am a bit of a violent person at times but I have a punching bag and boxing gloves which help a lot. But I only get that angry when someone uses an insecurity of mine against me or is talking bad about someone i love, cause it you do that im beating your ass. I do have a bit of body insecurities mainly about my hip-dips and stomach. But because im curvy i get hit on by adults a lot and its creepy as fuck.

- [ ] My hobbies include art (painting, drawing), sleeping (because i stay up mad late😭✌🏽), reading comics, Marvel and D.C superheroes, and super villains, cartoons, and anime/manga.

- [ ] My favorite music genre’s are rock, alternative, emo, rap, and a little bit if indie music.

- [ ] Personality: funny, sarcastic, creative, kind, inappropriate and the right times. Like im not gonna pull out a dick joke in front of your family

My description on what i look like is bad so here:

I'd match you with...

Tw.Mention of being s*xualized and p*dos

Iwaizumi Hajime!

He's 18 so he's fine...hopefully-

Now when it comes to type of people I head cannon his types are hot people and your hot sooooo yes-

Now Oikawa is kinda clingy and you're kinda clingy too, so he's good at dealing with clingy people-

But he won't go far as hitting you like he hits shittykawa.He would let you cling onto him whenever you like, he isn't much into PDA just simple holding hands is fine with him.

Oh when you do get s*xualized Iwaizumi might as well throw as many volleyball balls at the guy or practically punch them head on-

Iwaizumi doesn't mind you being social, though he would stick around,and you and Oikawa surprisingly gets along well, but he would stick around and when Oikawa was like “You know Iwa-chan talks ab-”*HIT* Oikawa gets hit by a ball.

When you told Iwaizumi about your medication and how you forget you sometimes, he makes sure you NEVER forget your medication.He wouldn't want it to get worse and he loves you(Much for a tsundere to admit it head on,I mean he would sometimes if he's confident)

He would stop you from hitting yourself and when you say some random stuff he would just listen but would also try to snap you out.

You and Oikawa became besties-

Two hot people as besties

Because of that you would learn more about Iwaizumi and would roast him sometimes for liking Godzilla-

Small cute fistfight when you forget you medication he would sometimes feed it to you if he has too-

You and Iwaizumi sometimes scare Oikawa, especially after he learned that you have a punching bag, Iwaizumi would encourage you to punch it-

Now if a grown adult did hit on you-

Their dead,D E A D! The whole Aoba Johsai volleyball team are hands or decks!Including Iwaizumi and Mad dog!

Now I also have a head cannon that you influenced Iwaizumi to on DC superheroes and Marvels-

While he also influenced you on Godzilla

You and Iwaizumi kinda have the same taste in music so you both would listen together sharing a headsets!

He finds your sarcasm funny,your creativity amusing and your inappropriate jokes at right time also amusing,Oikawa sometimes doesn't get you but you both are besties no doubt.

You and Iwaizumi are basically the balanced type of couple purfect for each other(´ε｀*)

Honestly people who s*xualizes you and use your body are sick like you deserve better than all of your other ex.And grown adult trying to hit on you?!I can't believe grown adults would do such a thing like their old!Old crusty musty p*dos!

I hope you had the best day!

[maiverie]

He-hee-h-h-hEESEUNFvqbvw1?1!? WHADDAFUK IM CALLING JAY RN BITCH WHAT 🧍Have you ever thpught of rainbows and sunshines and then it all comes down to just being your fav enhy memebr 😍😍😍 omg it gives me hella slay energy 🤤🤤 AND DUH OFC IN BANKSTOWN DOUBLE TWO DOUBLE OH BRUVAA YOU GET WHATA MEAN⁉️ 🥱 I seriously dunnow hat happened to me ong I think being away from tumblr rlly changed me downhill BAHAHAHAHA 🥹 but it’s whatever- MAI I WOULD NEVER, EVER, LEAVE YOU loike dawg,,, how could I do such a CRUEL thing?1!1?)1 THE AMOUNT OF RUDENESS AND NEGATIVE ENERGY UGH 😒 SHUT UP I LOTERALLY LOVE YOU MORE ISTG IT IS GONNA BE OUR NEW THING!! DEADASS MONTHLY RESSURECTIONS AND THEN ME BEING BURIED SIZ FEET UNDER IN MY TUMBLR THEMED SPARKLY COFFIN (only bad bitches get to see my seggsy ass in that) 😍😍 I’m getting such sunshine grumpy vibes ugh we are such soulmates 😘🫶 I’m still waiting on that vice versa chapter btw…. where it at 🤕

AKAKAKAKAJSHJDJDJSJDHDJDJSKSKSHJS H-H-H—HEESEUNG THEJFJDK IM SORRYYY THE WAY I SAID IT W MY WHOLE CHEST TOO 😊😎 BABSJ DONT TELL PARK HE’LL KILL ME 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔 no literally bc normally i’m so good at picking my biases 🤨 call me a loyal bitch but i almost never change my mind 😧 BUT W ENHA LMAOOO ITS INSANE IM LOWKEY IN LOVE W JUNGWON THESE DAYS??? might start coming for ur man one day too 😋 hold him tightly 😏

HAHDJDHSHAH NO LITERALLY BC U SWITCHED UP SO QUICK I HATE U ‼️‼️ but it’s ok being on tumblr is kinda embarrassing anyways like IMAGINE ADMITTING THAT U READ KPOP FF OUT LOUD 😁 IN AUSTRALIA TOO??? embarrassing so embarrassing 💀 also selena babes i don’t know where u think u r getting these vibes bc we r not soulmates 😧 what if i literally hate ur guts?? 🤨 WhAT THEN? WHAT IF IM IN MY TSUNDERE ERA BABES WHAT IF I MISS U ☹️☹️☹️ can’t wait for ur next monthly resurrection 😍‼️

ALSO HOW ARE WE FEELIMG AB THE NEW ENHA CB LIKE THIS WHY YOURE BACK??? 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 ALSO PROOF COMING SOON???? IM SCREAMIMGGGGGGGGGG also stfu vice versa will literally take my 5 months YOU KNOW THAT

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yeah, i think quarentine has given people some opportunity to actually just sit with the person they are, rather than be rushing around for the person they want to become. its good you got smth good out of isolation! ah thats great! hope you had fun and ur partner in crime speeds back home so you can get out more hehe.

ah yeah ty, good suggestions.

hmm good point, i was sort of putting it separate to the whole not-sexualising thing, but yeah. mmm yeah i totally agree, some of the enhypen fics/imagines *shudder* and even reading innie stuff is just a bit *icky* cos everyone still thinks of him as our agi ppang. yeah def would be good but sadly this just seems to be the world we live in. :(

ah yes the holy masterlist (not sarc) i have actually read in the rain and gladius maximus before, but ill go look for in class! oooh thats good! character development lol. hmmmm yes champagne problems was the angst to end all angst, that shit hurt. it was actually one of the first of your fics i read and i recall almost crying over the whole thing, it was so heartbreaking, i can see how it almost made you want to drop angst. good that youve allowed yourself some lee-way tho :)

hehe thats so cool. okay here we go, ill try not to be mortally offended (/hj)

cheese - yes same, i liked it but that was all there was, it wasnt a super standout track. it was rlly underwhelming for me but some of the hook is super catchy so there is Redemption (tm) in store for cheese maybe

thunderous - mmm, yeah at first i totally agreed, i think they suffer from too much good music syndrome, that all their other tracks are such fucking bops its hard to stay at that level of perfection. the choreo was beautiful tho and tbh, the track has grown on me since ive been watching all the vids abt it. its my brothers favourite track

domino - YES GODAMMIT IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE TITLE TRACK. the raps, the vocals, the vibes, the fucking domino sound in the back? i would have streamed that shit on repeat. but tbh, as good as it is, it doesnt have that sort of grandness/oomph that skz seems to like in their title tracks so i can see why they chose thunderous (tho domino would have been so good) *sigh*

ssick - yeah same, not my fave track by a long mile, the crowd cheering was a ?strange? choice and the chorus was a bit bare/empty, plus like i mentioned earlier, it was kinda funny to me for some reason but ill still play it if im playing thru the whole album

the view - ahh one of those not like other girls (/j) i honestly think its just a good party song, just a bop to play in the background when nobodys rlly paying much attention. its pretty generic pop music but catchy

sorry, i love you - hehe yeah i thought it was going to be sadder as well, but i rlly loved the fact that they all just got to sing, which almost never happens, i dont think ive heard felix sing for a long time, so i enjoyed it. wasnt rlly a standout track but i just casually like it. looking forward to the fic haha

silent cry - this song i swear, some bits are rlly good and then others are just? why?? it does sound like a dance song tho idk. definitely not one of my faves either

secret secret - YES its so good! its such a chill song and i love their vocals in it. the combination of lo-fi/fake strings backup stuff and their heavenly vocals just makes it *chefs kiss* im listening to it rn and just... its so beautiful. it gives me pumped up another day vibes ya know? like my pace is edgy get cool, this one is energetic another day i feel like. overall i love it

STAR LOST - ah thats so cool! i didnt know that! on first listen this song had a similar vibe to secret secret but then the beat came in and ahh its such a good song. i can totally imagine them putting this song to a concert footage vid, this song is so sweet.

red lights - LMAO YES ITS SO AWKWARD WHY DOES IT GO ON FOR SO LONG ah thats good! yeah good point, its quite intense hehe. but that is my fave trope and this is lowkey my favourite track on the album so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just the combination of hyunjins and chans voices, the backing music, the lyrics ahh red lights my beloved

surfin’ - yes lmao its always a shock, i feel like they should have put gone away in between them, but its such a fun cute song, i cant get rlly mad. yeah, as an aussie i think im contractually obligated to like beaches lol. sand im not such a fan of, but my familys rlly into fishing and my brother loves bodyboarding so we stay at a beach house at least twice a year and we live like 5 mins from 3 different beaches (hehe all aussie cities are on the coast lol) so thats cool. do you like beaches?

gone away - ah gone away my beloved, i love this song sm, its just so pure and showcases their vocals and lyrics so well. yes the pitch change is very out of the blue, i feel liek they went directly from seungmins soft vocals to hans powerful ones which was an interesting choice, but hey, im not complaining

wolfgang - YES IKR ah im so happy he got to be included in that era and song. yeah its such a full on song i cant rlly listen to it if im in a quiet mood but its very motivating :)

hehe mood, i hope they do! ahhh no rest, but at least you wont have to pull a blink and wait a year for any word from the group lol. im not rlly into nct but im excited for them! ah hopefully youll be able to sneak some rest into that chaotic schedule, with enhypen (idk if u stan but yeah) squeezed into it haha

<3 w.a. 🐺

i wheezed at partner in crime, it reminded me of smth. i have a lee know fic in the drafts that i wrote 'in honor' of him (and his departure-ish). i'll tag you when i finish it, if you want. it's a rather hilarious one.

oh my god. based on my experience on the collabs i've joined before, writing explicit shit for '01 & '02 is not accepted (nct's maknaes) but with enha's hyung line '01 & '02 somehow it's okay? i do a double take every time i see fics like those i mean, technically, it's legal but still what the fuck. maybe it's just not for me at the moment. not at us venting our frustration about this. it's just something that's so accepted here that i am (in all honesty) slightly uncomfortable about. but oh well. that's kpop writerblr for you.

man i could've linked all the fics in the ask instead so you wouldn't have to go looking for them! i think i saw you like in class the other day (the fic i renamed into sharp-tongued, god it took me a while to remember the new title). describing champagne problems as an angst to end all angst is one way to put what i was feeling back in december. it just hurt to write and admit?? if that ever happened to me i would prolly cry :d

okay back to the album talk! i love how you answered with more thoughts. i love exchanges like these! i am a victim of the cheese hook and it's now one of my favorite tracks in the album. PLS, TOO MUCH GOOD MUSIC SYNDROME. that's on our self-producing kings 😌💅 also, your brother has taste! as i am typing this, domino's currently playing in my head and i realized that too, that it doesn't have that 'vibe' of a skz title track. honestly, this could be a title track of another group. ssick is starting to grown on me because i found the beats cool kdjsk not the not like other girls 😭 the view is the generic pop that i don't like but i get why a lot of people enjoy it. sorry i love you scratches a certain itch that i find myself singing the first few lines every time i remember it. i too would want to hear felix sing more!

> a mini junction on the album talk bc i got side tracked. on that topic, i want skz to switch positions at some point like i know those allrounders are capable of doing so. specifically, i want to hear seungmin rap!!!! (yk in the recent weekly idol he talked faster than changbin in a challenge and changbin is like the fastest rapper in kpop that's active atm if im not mistaken. my dandy boy has some potential and i want it UNLEASHED.)

back to album talk. silent cry is basically sad music to twerk to. secret secret is definitely one of my favorite tracks :( i loved how you compared the tracks HAJSAH i burst out laughing bc yk what, you're right! i want to make a star lost edit of skz but i simply do not have the time i want to cry. i love the song so much. ok, my dreaded track, red lights. idt i have played the track since we last talked. my friend sent me the lyrics tho and i'm itching to write a twisted au out of it. idk if you're comfortable with yandere but somewhere along those themes. the obsessive type of love that's sweet at first but turns rotten. IMAGINE IF THEY PUT GONE AWAY BETWEEN ASHJA it's like going from 50 shades to the notebook.

i was about to ask if you lived near the coast and you literally mentions it here god im so stupid. yes i LOOOOOOOOOVE beaches so much. living in an archipelago is fun :( i live in a part of the country that's more island than city so every time i want some vitamin sea it's accessible. i heard the waves in australia are great :( anYWHOOO gone away :(( every time it plays im compelled to skip it because it makes me sAD AND NOWADAYS I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO BE SAD. contrary to you, i dislike my quiet moods because i tend to overthink a lot.

i have this little analogy about how there are stays that enjoy songs the generic pop + mellow songs and then there are other stays that enjoy the noisy tracks. in my mind, it's like a perfect balance that makes me feel like all the tracks are loved in the end. just by different people.

PULL A BLINK. bro i fucking hate yg entertainment. they have the biggest kpop girl group LOCKED in their basement when they could be (and i mean this in the most business-like way not morally) milking money of the quad. they're yg's biggest hope at not being bankrupt atm so it's a damn fucking mystery to me as to how they aren't doing anything. (jk i just realized lisa solo album soon, but i still need a ot4 cb hELLO)

i stopped looking forward to the teasers. rest > kpop boys. i don't want to sound like a cult member but have you tried checking out nct? are they just not your thing? (i get it tho, that's one hard group to get into). and yes i do stan enhypen!

wow i love how long these asks are! they're like online penpals. but i also want to ask about you! how have you been lately? are you feeling okay both mentally and physically? how's the weather there? do you have anything that you want to talk about? maybe an interesting book you read? feel free to bring up anything you want to share! i'm getting conscious about talking about myself HAJHSJ

and yet another long answer B) i am sooo sorry T___T should these ask exchanges feel draining to you, feel free to stop sending them in AAAA

[cvptaingiordano]

300+ FOLLOWERS BIAS LIST

wtf okay - fam idk h o w we’ve hit this number already seeing as mason hasn’t even been on indie for a year, b u t SHIT BOI I GOTTA SAY I’M SURPRISED YET I’M FEELING SO LOVED !! even with my shitty activity gap back in march - april y’all still stayed here with me ayyy.

i do have to say the past two months on tumblr have been a blast. not only when it comes to writing but also ooc banter. fuck okay i’ll admit the banter’s been hilarious.

because of how thankful i am for every single one of you guys i’ve come to the decision of making one of these. it’s been a while since i made a proper one anyway (   and by a proper one i mean one like back in christmas   ) so why not ey.

below you’ll find people listed that i either LOVE ; ADORE ; OR ADMIRE FROM AFAR pls don’t be mad at me or start shit if you ain’t on here i’m forgetful but i love you too - and just like all of them you’ll also get an onion from me i promise. i’ve got for a bunch ; enough for e v e r y o n e.

THE SQUAD

@helmct​ bitch i’m so thankful for you, you can’t even imagine. that dead ass verse where we never even wrote brought us together and all i can say is thank fucking gOD THAT I JOINED THAT. legit, you’re the chips to my ahoy, the milk to my oreo, the dorito to my mountain dew. a tru friend that i know i can count on. still there’s something we gotta work on ma friend and dAS WRITING BC WE BARELY DO LMAO. anyways dad just know that i really care about you and that imma always be there for u yeh ; you’re bae papi. ; an onion for u to show u ma love

@sheriis​ bitch i’m glad alex sent that link over to wherever but i’m so gLAD THAT YOU DECIDED TO JOIN THE DISCORD VERSE. i’m like b l e s s e d™ ; literally i feel as if baby jesus made an appearance only to drop you off in that hell of a chat. c’mon i’d be lying to myself if i said thAT IS NOT HOW IT IS LMAO. for reals tho i grew super comfortable so fast ; we didn’t even know each other and we hopped on a call (  which is surprising bc i talked so much and we even where alone for a while and we didn’t shut up ???  ) the ooc banter over here is real fam. i’m just so glad we met and i like the plotting we do from time to time and like iDK I WANT MORE THING W U OKE YOU’RE BAE AND U KNOW IT. i’m rlly fuckin glad to have u here boo ; u can’t imagine. ANYWAYS imma always be here for ya hunty ; here u go an onion

@newgiirl​ ayyyy mariesa mariesa la que me la pone to tiesa here we go again bitch ; you’ve been more than supportive. whenever i had a problem you were there, whenever something went wrong you were there to pull me back up. if it weren’t for you i wouldn’t have met jae and alex in all honesty so i am grateful for that. it’s funny how small this world is ; a tiny cycle that made us friends, verses and more verses as well as plotting and more of that. i do miss writing and chattin with you but i know how busy you are with everything rn so i got your back. i lOVE YOU MA FRIEND YOU’RE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME SO U KNOW THAT ; did u no onions have many layers - like my heart

@tragedywept​ hOE ; idk what account to @ u on so i went w/ the first url that popped to my mind bUT ANYWAY. shit i remember the days u being on here me LIVING FROM AFAR when i saw u on my dash until we began writing ; imma admit somethin i used to find you intimidating af ??? (  idk why u simply were super duper quality in my eyes WHICH YOU STILL ARE OFC  ) and it’s hilarious because now i feel as if i do say a lot of fucked up shit in calls which does probs make you question why you even put up with my ass lmao. anyways pUMPKIN just so you know i do hope we’re able to write more or even talk ooc more than the occasional short chat we have ?? das just me tho i know that shrek fanfiction scared u away tho so like i wOULDN’T BE SURPRISED. anyways naeva or wHATEVER YOUR ACC NAME IS AYYY imma call u miranda ; thank u for being here pumpkin you’re actually probs one of the best people on the platform and i feel like this is too random and probs too long for how short it could be but who cares. you’re rad and i’m glad to have you around. i love all your muses and i hope we get to chat more and plot when we set down to do so XDD stay rad. sends u lots of onions xxoxox

@humantovch​ erin erin erin erin erin erin erin eRIN I MISS YOU OKE LIKE ACTUALLY A LOT. idk man it’s still weird not texting back n forth anymore, and while i could spam your ass until you get back i’m still like n a h imma not give her a bible to deal wit when she’s back ; bae doesn’t need that. sO IMMA MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER WITH THIS POST. mason and riley are sittin on a tree k i s s i n - k i s s i n (   what am i doing   ) i miss chatting with u i miss writing with u i miss u and i just want you to know that my butt hasn’t forgotten about you oke you’re always gonna have a space in these follow forevers like for reals. you put up with my crap and with my insecure ass and with everything, and you’re honestly someone i’m comfortable with to the point where i’m like open about everything with you. i’m thankful for you sliding into my ims a few months ago. i’m glad - vv glad. THANKS BOO HERE U GOT AN ONION

PEOPLE THAT I ADMIRE A LOT ( EVEN IF W/ SOME IT’S FROM AFAR LMAO )

@defiantiisms ( of course omg ) ; @darkcndtwisty && @sheseemsnice ; @dxrkparadise-xx ; @weakerblood && @imscandalized (  idk where you went but i miss you man ) ; @heartpride ; @hiraethc ; @ofcorruptiion ; @ofcherrywine ; @fearhermind ; @facetiious ; @pearlyfangs ; @eternallydreamingstar ; @thefineartofbitchcraft ; @unfadiism ; @usurpcd && @shebecame ; @rainsblood ; @helmctboy && all your other blogs cx ; @pink-gvy ; @brckenones ; @bxdyrxck ; @meddlingheels ; @lenasbeacon ; @lawtied && @loveceased ; @starsxmemoriesinthesky ; @draculaisms

hope y’ALL DIDN’T FIND THIS TOO LONG OOPS anyways ogres; until next time

[i-amthenugget]

long ass vent or something so read @ ur own risk

So we venting because I gotta type all this shit out so that I can get over it or something u know? Ok so. Vent undercut!

I had this friend who I never rlly felt like I could state my opinion with. They're rlly opinionated and a few times if I had an opinion they didn't agree with they would just not talk to me for like a day or two. We were in this group chat, and I'd be active in the group chat and I'd see them reading my texts and never responding despite them being one of the people who responded pretty normally most of the time. Obviously people can just be busy sometimes but it happened a lot after they disagreed with me and I feel like most of the time they were just ghosting me. So basically I agreed with them on a lot of things I didn't rlly agree on, and I'd put a lot of thought into some texts because some times I just didn't know what kind of things might make them ghost me. It honestly made me feel like shit a lot of the time and I never brought it up because what if they just ghosted me? And they're friends with a lot of my friends so I'm thinking "wow what if this makes them hate me, and then our friends decide they'd choose them over me, etc." and I didn't want to lose all my friends! Especially when we're all in college and don't see each other as much. Admittedly I should not have to worry that my friends will choose someone over me. But I'm anxious about it so I'm preparing for the worst. So I stay quiet about these things.

But a month or maybe a month and half ago, my mother volunteers me to babysit some kids. And I'm in the group chat like "I don't like kids why would I get volunteered for this, don't get me wrong I wouldn't be an asshole to kids but I'd like to avoid them." To which they disagree with me. Obviously they think it's pretty shitty of me to not like kids. I've gotten this a lot and I'm over it. I'm like. I'm not an asshole to kids. I think they're annoying and don't like looking after them and don't want any kids. But I know it's not they're fault their kids! I'm not gonna be rude to kids just because they're kids. But I still don't like them! I say this in the group chat but this friend ain't rlly having it so they don't talk to me for the day or whatever and I'm still going about my business like I normally would. But the time passes and I'm like. Nah fuck it. I'm sick of being ghosted. So in retaliation, I ghost them. I was like if ur gonna ghost me all the time I will simply ghost u back! And at the time I was upset with another friend in the group chat so I left the group chat. I didn't talk to the original friend at all, though I easily expressed my feelings to the other one and every thing was fine with them.

After a week this friend comes and dms me and apologizes for disagreeing with me about kids. This isn't the main reason I'm not talking to them, but they're actually apologizing and that's wild. As I said before they're rlly opinionated so I feel like they wouldn't often apologize for having different opinions. So I go back to the group chat and everything's fine for like a day.

But then they're just not responding to anything for awhile. I'm thinking. Well I didn't do anything wrong.... must be a personal problem? They're posting on their Snapchat story that they're crying a ton and so I dm them I'm like. "Hey idk how to show u I rlly do care about u other than saying I think u should talk to someone." I'm rlly trying to help! But they snap at me in response! They're like "what makes you think I'm not talking to people" and I'm really trying to be more open with them so I let them know, I say I feel like they aren't usually the kind of person to talk about what's bothering them and they tell me they are talking to people and I'm like. Ok then. Sorry for trying u know??? And then they go back to not saying anything.

A few days pass and they go in the group chat accusing me and another friend of vaguing about them on twitter. They had posted something about kpop fans never shutting up on their tumblr, and around that time I had posted on twitter saying that I never shut up about things way before I got into kpop. I had posted this because my dad was complaining about it and I was sick of it. But someone sent them an anon on tumblr saying that that's just how all fandoms are, and they thought I was the anon! So they stalked me on twitter (they never followed me so they wouldn't have seen my post otherwise) and concluded that I must've seen their tumblr post, sent them an anon, and then vagued about it on twitter. I don't follow them on tumblr so I didn't even see the post until they brought it up in the group chat.

But still they're accusing me of this. I tell them I wasn't vaguing about them, it was in fact about my family, etc. they're saying it's too much of a coincidence. But I didn't vague! So what am I gonna do?? I'm not gonna apologize because I blatantly didn't do anything? Not to mention they brought it up in the group chat. There were two other people in that group chat that had nothing to do with the whole situation, but this friend decided it was "their right to know the whole story" like. What? But they have nothing to do with it? But ok.

Anyway my other friend admits that she was vaguing, and they have their own argument, and then the original friend says we all need to change.

Like. I still never did anything wrong and I simply don't see how I need to change? So I say I have nothing to change and everything ends there and it's like. Ok awkward ig. But things eventually continue as normal in the group chat, except they seem to refuse to say almost anything to me.

A week passed and I'm like. I'm sick of this fr and I text them like "anyway do u hate me now??" And they're like "I don't hate u but I need some space and we both need to work hard but u said u don't need to change so it'll be awhile before we can become friends again" (ofc I am paraphrasing this all so take that how u will). I'm like. Wym I need to change? I didn't do anything wrong??? Ur the one who accused me of vaguing when I didn't??? Ur the one who ghosted all the time??? They're like "how was I supposed to know you weren't vaguing about me?" And "I was saying we all need to change so that we can all be more honest with each other and open with each other" like. Any time I wasn't honest with you I was just agreeing with you so that you wouldn't ghost me but okay I'm definitely one of the people at fault for not being able to trust each other. I STILL don't know what they mean "we need to be more open and honest with each other" like? Any other time I was open and honest with them??? But also they're like "you ghosted me for a week because we argued about kids" and then they accused me of saying they weren't important enough for me to think about! Okay I NEVER did that?? And I have a friend who agreed they don't remember me ever saying that. The most I might've said is "not everything's about you" harsh perhaps but! Not what they claimed I said. Not to mention I didn't ghost you for a week because of kids I ghosted you because I was sick of you ghosting me! But ok! Anyway they go on to say that "if we can't figure this out without fighting then we shouldn't be friends" Pretty much all I've done is defend myself against ur accusations and say I don't need to change because I don't. But like ok! I'm like. I never said you weren't important and I'm justified in my ghosting! They did that shit and just had everything go back to normal so many times I think I can be mad once okay. Im rlly like. U know what I've been a good friend??? And I don't think I need to change and this is ur loss. They're rlly like "I didn't say u weren't allowed to get mad but ur getting on my case for ghosting when u just did the exact same thing" like yeah me doing it once in retaliation to ALL the times you did it is definitely equal to u doing it over any disagreement..... ok! They were like "I've swallowed my pride and apologized" and I'm like. Honestly? U've hardly apologized u've been a shitty friend and I'm glad u think u need to change because u rlly fuckin do and I hope ur able to do that for ur friends in the future! So we ain't friends anymore and I'm not in that group chat!

But rlly y'all?? They're behavior was lowkey reminding me of this bitch of a toxic ass friend I had for a bit and due to the aftermath of that friendship I tried to kill myself so like?

But again the problem here is like. We still have mutual friends and I would never expect them to choose between us two or anything but. They've known each other a lot longer and I've never had friends for a long time due to having to move around a lot as a kid and stuff and I'm just sick of losing friends and being lonely y'all,

But I stood up for myself for once! jokes on me I stand up for myself one (1) time and everything goes to shit huh.

Anyway is this rant considering vaguing??? Smh they blocked me so I doubt they'd see it but. It's not vague enough to be vaguing and even if it was who cares I feel like I'm allowed to vent about it by now. On no I told all two followers about this, how terrible of me. 

 Perhaps im bitter,,, I'm going through it rn y'all

[dalish-empress]

anyway men need 2 sort out their fucking personal issue n trauma before they try n engage women in any kind of relation lol. sort out your fucking life before u try n date!! 

ffs sort out ur goddamn mommy n commitment issues before u start talking abt moving in 2gether, just for u 2 realize u got too many issues 2 be a dependent partner, n then not even having the balls 2 admit it??? like i spent MONTHS trying 2 get this fucking relationship 2 work while he just withdrew more n more, n like?? he asked for a 2nd chance, n he cant even fucking try when it gets hard. grow a fucking pair n grow the fucking up. my ex has the emotional maturity of a fucking WALNUT. like he cant even see the same friends for too long, then he needs a break. why the fuck did he think he was even ready for a relationship??? i was the one who thought we should take it easy, bcs u know, I've been in therapy for 7 years, i know i got issues n i wanted 2 be sure i was ready n that my daddy n commitment issues n all the other issues didn’t get in the way. do men have the fucking ability 2 be critical of themselves n m maybe idk be like “oh hey i have trouble w forming close bonds, maybe i should work on that before i engage in a romantic relationship”???? no they fucking don’t. i dont regret our relationship, bcs i did learn a lot lol, n i especially learned that i am worthy of love n dedication, n that i can in fact be happy n healthy in a relationship. but man am i still pissed at this dude. bcs especially bcs i brought up that we should probably take a break from sleeping 2gether, until we’re both more ok(anyway he fucked someone at a party last night, n since it made me upset, i know im not over him). n what does he say??? oh well hes not rlly sure we can see each other then, bcs hes not redy for us 2 just be platonic. n that we cant hang out one on one anymore, bcs that would nhurt too much. also in the future. n im like?? dude what the fuck. if u want an actual friendship, u gotta accept that at some point we will move on n start relationships w new ppl?? n i wanna get in front of that so we have figured out how we’re gonna be platonic friends now, n not then, so its less drama n hurt. n his like “oh i thought we we’re just gonna figure that out in the future”. oh right E, like when i started seeing that guy from my class n suddenly u wanted a second chance bcs u just couldn't imagine life w/o me or me moving on LMFAO. no fucking way. he does not get 2 have all the fun n easy things from our relationship, w/o working for it lol. im fine w fwb but it only works if there’s clear rules n an ACTUAL friendship. n it doesnt work if u got feelings for each other!!! i know im his first real GF n real first FWB but like?? im not his fucking mother n im not patient enough anymore 2 hold his fucking hand through this. i thought we were friends for real, but it appears that thats gonna be hard since he’s had the hots for me since we first met. n rn hes only used 2 meet me in a platonic way in groups. n like i know sex was a big part of our relationship, but i sure do hope he thought there was more too lmao. bcs i actually wanna be friends. like his issues w being n close n opening op is a pain in the ass, but like my other closest friends got issues too. i can accept this bcs he means a lot 2 me n i thought of him as a good friend, even before we started dating. but rn im at a point, were im like.. if he doesn't fix his shit soon im OUT. at least for a while. bcs im not gonna be stuck in the past. either we fix our shit so we can move on, or he gotta laern the hard way that u gotta work more 2 keep ppl in ur life lol. anyway i tore him a new one 2day n i think he listened 2 some of it. so yeah, anyway, men fix ur emotional issues before u try 2 date, thnx. 

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same anon / the noctis one! sorry i should have clarified

its ok!!

i put it under cut cause its a lot

im not sure how to write this out so its kinda messy sorry

i was closeted ftm. prompto was the first one i told and it was highschool and i remember it rlly clearly and it was .. v nice… like he had no idea what it was but did his research and even tho he was awkward about it he tried to help ? he sometimes lend his clothes to me since i only owned fancy dresses for meetings which was very sweet i love him. also he had a huge crush on me which was very obvious and i rlly liked him too but i had to turn him down in subtle ways (since he like never officially confessed) because i already knew in hs that there would be an arrangent marriage.

on the trans thing idk when i told gladio or iggy but they knew before the roadtrip.

i looked a lot like my mom which is one of the reasons i just couldnt tell dad. i felt like would disappoint him not only in my duty by not being a princess but also on a personal level by trying not to look like her ? and i know he wouldve just accepted it and supported me hes a good father but that wont stop personal hurt and disappointment so

the thing that rlly confuses me is that i dont remember ardyn the crystal and the whole prophecy. at least not related to that time line ? ive been trying to make sense of it but my theory is as cheesy and fanfiction-y it sounds is that maybe after getting rid of ardyn the first time and fulfiling my destiny i got another shot at life without those things. which would explain a lot of complicated feelings and memories that dont match up with one another or just feel wrog to be considered in the same life. actually im kinda sold on the two canons/lifes thing its just smt rlly embarrassing to admit tbh. but to continue with the non chosen king canon.

there was still a war but it wasnt ardyn who was the mastermind behind it.

the attack also did happen while i was on my way to marry luna. from there on instead of seeking gods blessings and trying ti get the crustal back it was more about securing my peoples safety and seeking out luna. also after the attack i cut off my hair (well iggy fixed it so he mostly cut it) and started wearing a make shift binder. i dont remember much else from that time tho ik that after all this i faked my own death (since everyone remembered me as a princess it wasnt hard) and just kinda stayed with prompto near hammerhead as hunters and i got my happy ending which is nice and also i love my canon husband prompto argentum. i do feel bad about not continuing my bloodline though or maybe i did idk. idk what happened to the throne or well i dont remember but honestly i doubt i just left eveyone to themselves and i did take it back from the nifs so i prob made a good decision for my people? i wish i would remember more so i could stop feeling lowkey guilty but yk

and on the second canon thing i wasnt trans and it was closer to the canon one. i havent really made sense of it yet but i do remember some stuff that doesnt make sense to talk about rn. like just small memories that dont have much meaning for your question so i wont talk about it uh thats it

i left out luna theres a lot of heavy stuff revolving around her that i dont wanna talk about publicly so send me a message off anon if you wanna know