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"do the opposite of what people tell you to do"
#desert duo#grian#goodtimeswithscar#secret life#mcyt#trafficblr#favourarts#ok to tag as ship#so i posted this to twitter first right#and the amount of people i have in my replies saying that they'll kill themselves is honestly Very funny#anyways im back :))#i missed drawing these two GOD#okay life update in the tags for this piece is: something about finals season just makes you want to draw more#<- has been saying this for 4 days straight now#YAAAAAAYYYY i got another desert duo sketch cooking fellas and this one is a Bit more self indulgent if yk what i mean hehe#<- SEE U IN THE SIDEBLOG
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âHe was lonelyâŚâ
âHe was trying to destroy everything around him! That is not the same as a lonely child! We canât allow that!â
âThe power of the mask made him do it. It was too much for him to handle.â
#any combo majoraâs mask and khux enjoyers in the chat or is it just me being insane#this is incredibly self indulgent and i havenât had this much fun with a drawing in ages. genuinely#khux#ventus#majoraâs mask#kingdom hearts#kh ventus#kingdom hearts ventus#kingdom hearts union x#union x#lalala tags#ok but fr. ven and skull kid. do you see my vision#i donât have time to explain do you see it. theyâre lonely they get corrupted by some dark power#theyâre both like perpetual children robbed of the chance to grow up (for now. maybe ven will finally grow up lol)#i was typing that majoraâs mask summary and got hit with a brain blast so i blacked out over the course of a few days and woke up with this#my art#kind of a lazy image id but it gets the point across i think#khposting
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Snap: *draws a Megaman-inspired Magneto*
Me: ...Perfect modernization.
wait now that its not 3AM i can do you one Slightly better
bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#snap sketches#this is legitimately the most self indulgent thing ever ive been wanting to draw magneto like a robot master for months vjAELKJAE#i thought about adding the little 'ears' robot masters/reploids have but not this time#whats funny is that during my initial redesigning i WANTED to pay homage to erik's trench coat look buuuutt i couldnt figure how#so thank you sigma for. letting me steal your shit vjELKAEJ#i havent drawn megaman characters in like. years good lord- whats funny is that magnetman Was one of my faves to draw#which doesnt mean much since i loved drawing pretty much all the robot masters equally LMAOOO#i remember some freak got pressed at me for doodling metalman during class once like dawg what is your problem#bruv leave me ALONE let me draw you are not my mom#anyway. as i said last night i dont have my usual evening class so i figured id fill the time doodlin these#they didnt take long- i think thats why i like drawing This magneto outfit so much#reminds me of my megaman doodlin days ... also it's genuinely just quick as hell WHICH. makes sense#all that done im done megaman-inspired posting thank you for the opportunity anon im glad you appreciated it :]]#im gonna go eat now my tummy rumblin. theeeeeeen i guess ill drive home ???? i guess.#it's almost saturday so that means i get to post more asks- ive been hoarding them throughout the week#so i apologize if some people have been waitin i PROMISE i havent been ignoring i just wanna draw somethin for it </3#ok im eating now BYYYYYYEEE
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will you promise that i'll see you again?
summary: your people refuse reason, and their damage refuses to heal. when it seems as if the whole world has left you, your dutiful knight still remains by your side.
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-> warnings: implied suicidal ideation (reader + unnamed side character), reader's previous deaths are mentioned in somewhat graphic detail
-> gn reader (you/yours)
taglist: @samarill || @thenyxsky || @valeriele3 || @shizunxie || @boba-is-a-soup || @yuus3n || @esthelily || @turningfrogsgay || @cupandtea24 || @genshin-impacts-me || @chaoticfivesworld || @raaawwwr || @yuryuryuyurboat || @undrxtxd || @rainswept || @wanderersqt || @rozz-eokkk
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âyouâre one of the only things keeping me going, you know.â
dainslef turned to you in surprise, the even neutrality to your tone a sharp contrast to the rapid pace of his heart. he wasnât a fool, he knew that the hunt had to be taking a heavy toll on you, but thisâŚ
this was more than he expected.
he knew he was one of a pitiful few who saw through celestiaâs false puppet, who knew you for you and not their mirage. he knew that the entire world was hellbent on erasing you from existence, that youâd been forced through your own death countless times as teyvat pulled you apart and pushed you back together far from the scene of your would-be murder. he saw the golden scars across your skin, the dried remains of blood lining the wounds you hadnât been able to patch yet. heâd been the one to wash them away, not minding the refuse soaking into his gloves if it meant your hands could be clean.
he recognized the dull exhaustion in your eyes, the same as the ones he saw in the reflections of lakes. tired, worn, barely there, hanging on by one solitary string that was wound so tightly around a desperate hand.
you had always been his reason for continuing. when the traveller broke down and the ruler of the abyss hid from the sun, you were there. when the chasmâs mud clung to his boots and the memories in his head burned as nails forced between his eyes, you were there. his rosary was kept tight to his chest at all times, familiar prayers pulling him up in the morning and forcing him to sleep at night. he was alive for far, far too long, but you made it bearable. you were his duty, his promise.
he never once thought that heâd be yours. then again, he never thought that heâd have to defend you from the ones you once called friends. time never did pass how he expected it to.
ââŚleading light?â
you looked down, twirling blades of grass around your fingers. he had led you up to a mostly desolate area of sumeru, west of bayda harbor. it close enough to the sea, forest, and desert that you could reasonably make an escape through any of those routes if need be, while also providing a rather pleasant view. the sky was bleeding red and gold as the sun sank below the horizon, a remarkable sight that fell on blind eyes. there was no use trying to enjoy natureâs beauty when he still kept one hand on his sword and both ears pricked for the slightest sign of danger.
you shouldnât have to worry about your safety. you shouldnât have to prioritize based on how likely you are to get hurt, or how easily it would be to make an escape. you still flinched when the wind blew a little too quick, used to it heralding armored footsteps and battle cries. in another life, you were welcomed with open arms, able to enjoy yourself without constantly being on high alert. teyvat did what it could to adapt; the air was still, frozen in time, barely a bird chirping for miles. it was meant to be comforting, he thinks, but dead silence was more unnerving than any breeze.
âi mean it.â he could hear every shift in his cloak around your shoulders, the heavy fabric doing little to soothe your stress. it was yours more than it was his now, to the point he felt claustrophobic wearing it. how long had he been traveling with you? the days blurred.
âi donât doubt you.â he never would. never could. heâs not sure, even if he somehow wanted to, that his body would allow him to treat your words as anything less than fact. âbut i donât understand what you mean.â
you were a god. the creator, the first, the one that shaped the sovereigns scales and laid the foundations of earth. you predated the archons, celestia, the very skies themselvesâŚ
and he, somehow, was a driving motivation for you?
his words must have been funny, a sharp laugh tumbling out of your mouth. it was bitter, humorless, and somewhat raspy. he made note to find some water for you later. âwhat else could i mean?â you turn to him, some of his confusion lost as your eyes found his. even this burnt out, deep bags set beneath them, you still managed to steal the very air in his lungs. âyouâre the only reason iâm still here.â
he didnât know what to say. what was there to be said, when you were you and he was him? when the world had abandoned you, it made sense youâd cling to what remained faithful. it was merely coincidence he happened to find you first, thatâs all. coincidence that you trusted enough not to run from, coincidence that you allowed to care for your injuries. there was nothing to say, because you held nothing for him in particular, only leaning on him out of need. he had to believe that. what was he left with if that wasnât true? an awkward truth hid beneath his well-known lies, too large for him to see the edges, let alone to contain.
âplease⌠do not say such things again.â to ask of his god what he could not ask of himself was surely some form of heresy, as was willingly laying aside his guard when he was the only one who was tasked with protecting you. he pulled his attention from the tide below, from the rustling trees, holding faith that the world would not be needlessly cruel. he stepped forward, kneeling beside you. even up close, you still seemed painfully small. âit is your own resilience that has allowed you to persevere.â
itâs the earth that leads you from danger.
itâs the water that follows you wherever you go.
itâs the leylines that whisk you to safety.
itâs the wind that warns you of whatâs to come.
itâs the you from the past that protects the you in the present.
itâs the you in the present that provides for the you in the future.
itâs you, from everywhere and everywhen, continuing to fight.
and yet you sigh. you look away, across the sea, tracing fontaines skyline. âit really isnât. i was lucky to run into you when i did.â
you had just crossed the wall back into the forest, burning hot and shaking. he was the lucky one, in truth, to be able to pick your figure out from the sand below. perched on a high cliffside, even mitachurls were reduced to small brown flecks.
you had worn a cryo mageâs cloak, which was what initially drew his attention. abyss activity wasnât uncommon in the area, but a cryo mage in the desert⌠that was cause for intrigue. he stepped forward and slid down the steep face in front of him, a slight puff of dust marking his landing in the desolate sand of old vanarana.
he didnât know what to expect. you stumbled around the jagged remains of a tree, heading for the statue of the seven. he followed, only growing more confused. cryo and dendro did not react with each other, and there was no way to âslowâ a statue. a scouting mission, maybe? but why a cryo mage, when pyro would have been far more advantageous in the case of an attack?
he leaned around the corner carefully, prepared for the sight of a staff or the chanting of abyssal magic filling the air. the entire world seemed to be holding its breath, frozen in place and waiting for some trigger to continue.
he saw none of that. you were collapsed at the foot of the statue, faint wheezing only making it to his ears by virtue of the standstill around him. you held no staff, commanded no magic, your chest barely moving with air.
heâd never seen a mage seek out the archons when dying. one hand squeezed the handle of his sword as he crept forward, ready to strike should the situation turn against him. the sand barely shifted beneath his feet, his own heart sounding too loud to his ears. you did not move, showing no signs that you had noticed his approach. he still didnât trust it.
your cloak was tattered and torn, with thick gloves atypical of a mage. they reminded him more of hilichurl wraps, which was strange considering you wore no mask. your face was instead covered by what looked like eremite cloth, just as stained and dirtied as the rest of your clothes. what he could see looked almost human; in another life, he could believe you were a weary traveller, lost amidst the sand.
he was acting foolish. if the abyss had a human tool, he needed to figure out why. he reached down, undoing the sloppy knot of your veil and letting the brocade fall limply to the grass.
âŚgrass. he blinked, eyes flickering between the ground and your face, not sure which was harder to believe. flowers had bloomed around you, protecting your body from the blazing sands, and heâd be a fool not to recognize the face plastered all over every bounty board.
he didnât understand. if nothing else, he thought the archons would have enough respect for their creator to know when they were being lied to, yet before him was barely living proof of the inverse. sweat beaded along every inch of exposed skin, deep-set heat exhaustion burning you from the inside out. how could you be a threat? how could they be so blind?
he looked again, the shine of elemental sight straining his eyes, catching flickers of the dendro energy pouring from the statue. you were the only one the archons would feed. you were the only one to make the very earth break its own rules, allowing lotuses to bloom from barren soil. something painfully similar to rage threatened what remained of his rationality, and it took all he had to push it aside.
that didnât matter. if he went off on some banal revenge quest, heâd be no better than them. your safety mattered more. he picked you up and set aside how calm his curse felt, beginning the trek back to his camp. behind him, the flowers already began to wither, losing their persistence without you to foster it.
perhaps that initial meeting was luck. but these was no luck involved in your trust in him. when you woke up and saw him at your side, you chose to trust him. you chose to believe that he was not like the others, that he would protect you, and he was forever grateful for that trust. nobody could fault you for being angry, for being spiteful about what you were put through and choosing to lash out. nobody would have the right to be upset if you chose to vent your wrath against those that had hurt you.
but you didnât. you chose, again and again, to believe in the world. you chose to let them live their lives, even if it meant getting hurt again in the process. you chose a quiet life traveling with him over the comfortable life on your throne. to willingly choose to travel with a disgraced knight to spare your people guilt⌠he couldnât decide if it was noble or reckless. either way, he was selfishly happy that he was the one to stay by your side.
âi wonât try to convince you. but, please.. do not give up on yourself so easily.â i know far too many who have died by the same hand. âthe world and its opinion does not define you. only you get to decide where fate leads.â
you lean towards him, and he thinks you might have passed out- but no, your head lands on his shoulder with far too much precision. he stiffens, not used to existence without a constant pain beneath his skin. âhow motivational. you tell all your soldiers that?â
his heart is beating too quickly, thoughts unusually hard to grasp. youâre the only one who could have this effect on him. he only wished it wasnât now, when your belief in yourself was on the edge. âi mean it. none of this is your fault, and neither are celestial actions the peopleâs fault. i know that you are hurt, but i donât want you to accept that main needlessly. you shouldnât have to view your creation with such pain.â slowly, carefully, he raises the hand closer to you, doing his best not to disturb you as he settles it on your arm. heâs can only hope that the contact brings you as much comfort as it does him. âif nothing else, believe me. promise youâll at least try.â
he doesnât think youâll agree. why would you make a promise to one who represents the heavenâs betrayal? why would you let him hold you close at all, when you can surely sense the bindings of those who tried to kill you wrapped tightly around his soul? he doesnât know. all he can do is hope.
ââŚalright, dainslef. i promise.â
twilight has long since fallen, and yet he smiles for the first time in centuries.
#genshin#genshin impact#genshin sagau#sagau#self aware genshin#dainslef#sagau dainslef#dainslef x reader#genshin dainsleif#dainslef x you#gender neutral reader#genshin impact x gender neutral reader#genshin x gender neutral reader#genshin x reader#genshin x you#genshin x gn reader#hes so shaped.... ily dain <3#just... shut up about dain's perspective of the creator. shh. its for the plot.#filtering should pick up on the warnings section and its very brief but to be very safe#tw sui ideation#tw suicidality#< popular tags; someone please tell me if i should use others too#to answer your unasked questions No i was not ok writing this. my ass was Exhausted#to be very clear i am better now were all good i was just having an awful two days#but we are so fucking back#had this marinating for a while just to like scrub out the more indulgent parts of it#there was a whole monologue about 'i cant fix it but i will be there for you. i cant make it go away but i can make it easier.' but. yk.#didnt fit the plot el em ay oh
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Patience
hi i really like this post so i wrote it!!! (my hobbies include robbing sai)
warning: Angel coming down from a panic/anxiety attack while Ren waits in da hallway. Also a little self loathing if u squint?
14 Days With You is an 18+ Yandere Visual Novel. MINORS DNI
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The tightness in your chest was finally waning. You took a deep breathâthe easiest one you'd had in what seemed like hours.Â
It felt cold on the floor now. Or maybe it'd been like that since the moment you locked yourself in. But you were more aware of it, at least. You leaned back against the wall with a sigh, closing your puffy eyes. Though your hand trembled, you gently rapped your knuckles on the marble flooring.
A faint knock on the door to your right came in response.
[REDACTED] had been there the whole time while you cried. They never said a word, but always answered you in some form. I'm here.
Vulnerability was shameful according to the voice in your head. You were making gradual progress to get rid of that voice, to give yourself the grace you gave others to seek comfort when needed. And if he couldn't see you, letting it all out didn't feel so bad. All you needed was to know that they were close by.
You tried to speak and only managed to throw yourself into a coughing fit from how raw your throat was. Hunching over with your head on your knees, you could only wait until it was over. There were hurried footsteps from the other side of the door that you barely heard over the haggard sounds.
This time, they reached out first. It wasn't a knock like usual, but your phone vibrating atop the marble. You felt around on the floor until it was within your grasp. The simple message on screen turned clear as you gently wiped at your eyes, still blurry from earlier.
water?
Despite your exhaustion, you laughed, then silently winced at the slight pain it caused. Any help or care he could offer was always within seconds when it came to you.Â
It took you a few measured breaths to gather yourself enough to unlock the door. Along with a thin line of light, a water bottle slid through the small gap, only the tips of his scarred fingers coming into view before they disappeared altogether. You opened the door a little wider and tilted your head to peek out at him.
His dark mess of hair greeted you, rather than his face. [REDACTED] was sitting on the floor, almost the same as you were minutes ago with his back to the wall, knees bent and arms crossed over them. They made sure to keep their head turned away. He knew you didnât want anyone to see you like this.
You stretched out into the hallway to touch his shoulder. It was the only way you thought to offer some form of a thank you in the moment. Their muscles flexed and shifted under your fingers, but otherwise, they didnât acknowledge you.
The room seemed stuffy now, so you kept the door open just a crack for a little fresh air. You scooted back to your place beside the door, then slowly drank the water in peaceful silence, the man that sat still as a statue within arms reach at the corner of your vision. Everything still ached in some way from the crying session. But it wasnât as long as usual. You tapped on the floor and watched him.
Through the space no bigger than your pinky finger, you saw your partner immediately put one hand to the wall, and knock back.
#14 days with you#14dwy redacted#14dwy#14dwy ren#momo writing#cw anxiety#me on my way to write Ren taking care of angel when they are on the verge of/currently having the agonies for the second time somehow#<- i will probably keep doing this#comfort comes in all forms and i love it#also feel like i need an AAAAAAAA type of writing tag for this extra self indulgent stuff#what if i blew both him and me up#yippeeđĽ#and ZERO dialogue? ok u emo ass writer
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a lil' something for valentine's day <333
+ some extras under the cut
initial outfit designs:
#i dont know what the outfits are ok it just kinda happened#i am so normal about them#everything i post is so self-indulgent#DONT LOOK AT ME AJDSAJSJKAucnjashbah#anyways i love them so fucking much <333#buddy daddies#my art#fanart#kazuki kurusu#miri unasaka#rei suwa#valentines day
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vashwood week day 6: light
but we will still live to see tomorrowâs sunrise
#vashwood week#vashwood week 2023#swerving straight into self indulgent happy orphanage au territory#peep the grey hair#my fix it hc is that though he survives wwâs hair prematurely turns grey from the strain of taking the vials#something something ânow youâre the one with weird hair out of the two of us wolfwood!â#i need them to be happy#comsider this my apology for the past few days lmao#vash#vash the stampede#wolfwood#nicholas d. wolfwood#vash x wolfwood#vashwood#trigun#trigun maximum#ok bye
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Iâll keep the king when you are gone away. Iâll keep him safe from the dark things that wait. â King by The Amazing Devil
INPRNT | COMMISSION INFOS
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Some details for archaeology nerds (Here we go again AHAHAHA)
First of all the costume Alfred wears in this pic is BY NO MEANS historical accurate, but if we really want to be 100% accurate then to my knowledge thereâs a high chance that Alfred wouldnât be wearing dresses gowns at all (whoever decided to make Alfred wear those pretty cough dresses cough in the show I wish your family to prosper for all eternity YOUâRE A HERO), so instead I just chose to design whatever clothes I want and add some Anglo-Saxon elements in it :)
1. Alfredâs earrings
Took inspiration from the 7th century Anglo-Saxon/Frankish crystal ball, now in Ashmolean Museum, Oxford. Hereâs the thing, I know English men (and the monarchs) donât wear earrings until the 16th century and earrings werenât even popular during the Anglo-Saxon period, but once I saw Charles I wearing pearl earrings in his portrait I just canât help but put something pretty on Alfredâs ears as well lolâŚSadly I canât find the exact size of this one but the official site says that it was used as a pendant/an amulet! Probably for pagan practices though, but itâs pretty, isnât it? :D
2. Patterns on Alfredâs gown
Taken from the patterns on the Bewcastle Cross in Cumbria (which used to belong to Northumbria, built in around the 7th to early 8th century, aka the period Bede lived in.
3. The woven band
The pattern is taken from the Laceby band found in Laceby, Lincolnshire, dated to early 7th century. It seems both Scandinavians and Anglo-Saxons enjoy wearing tablet-woven bands? Saw this kind of things a lot in viking clothes reconstruction as well.
4. âŚWhatever this is
From fol. 34r in Book of Kells, the famous Celtic gospel book completed in Ireland circa 800 AD. As you can see I got lazy during drawing this lol but the illustrations in the original manuscripts are really impressive!
Now I donât know if this is a good news or not but Iâve still got likeâŚsix wips for alhtred in handâŚGood god of arts DELIVER ME
#posting it before i start wanting to kill myself#this was supposed to be a doodle but in the end i spent 30 hours on it and it still looks like shit#urghhhh#sometimes i hate doing arts lol#ok sorry for artistâs rants#SO about the drawing itself#this is completely a self indulgent piece LOL#at the end of the day i just want to make alfred wear pretty things :3#and see him being bridal carried#thatâs all lol#BTW can we just ignore for a second how strong uhtred would need to be in order to carry alfred like that by one single hand#we call it â¨creative freedomâ¨#p.s. Iâm thinking the when âyouâ are gone away quote is Uhtred referring to the christian god lol#the last kingdom#tlk alfred#alfred x uhtred#uhtred x alfred#king alfred#alfred the great#alhtred#uhtred#hikaruchen#hikaru tlk
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geordi and data read a 21st century visual novel
#star trek#star trek the next generation#tng#geordi la forge#data soong#data tng#higurashi#mion sonozaki#rena ryuugu#fan#2024#comic#had this written out for awhile but was too self conscious to actually draw it.......#bc its such a silly self indulgent concept that i felt like i needed to justify it by making it otherwise artistically valuable....#but terrible comics day the other day got me to stop thinking too hard and just draw it ^-^ so thanks terrible comics day#anyway if this makes no sense or is ooc or is stupid or weird. thats ok because i had fun making it (<- affirmation im trying to believe)#ypu know what fuck it. ill tag this as#daforge#who give a shit!!!!!!!!!!!#(<â the 3am insanity talking)
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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS
#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking#my immediate thought was#i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him#bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent#but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally#it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying#the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias#then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought#i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him#AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND#originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went#WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN#BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS#but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it#i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding#so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown#i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
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I rarely draw self insert art butâŚ. gator⌠Good
#I love Monty ok#Iâve been practicing drawing him a bit#have some self indulgent art I made a few days ago#fnaf#five nights at freddys#montgomery gator#monty x reader#fanart#fnaf self insert
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Conversations with Paul never go Right's way.
#my characters#oops i fell in love#im working on a stupid self indulgent series of fanart but while i can finish the first today i think#its important to have at least two done to post together#so i was like ok time to take a quick doodle break then this took too long bc i couldnt decide who to draw#then i forgot how to draw paul (this is a constant thing for me idk how to draw him)#theres an actual answer that right gives but this took so long im not working on it now lmao#but he really will never admit it to pauls face but he trusts paul completely when he says he wont tell#like he doesnt have the most flattering comments about paul on most days but he does fully trust him to keep a secret#so he tells him a weird work fact and paul is genuinely like wait so that one time - and rights like yup#and paul goes quiet as it processes and thank fuck ! right gets peace and quiet for five minutes while paul thinks it over
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decided to do something fancy for my 200th attack so,,rejuv time
bit of a 'looked cooler in my head' situation but ive never done smthng like this before so proud i finished it at all tbh lol
@evicrystal7 | @kiroonsmoon | @meshumo | @terajuma | @percephilous
#what i learned from this is renegade is when red eyes. or something#if i didnt think of this in the final few days of af i probably wouldve spent a little more time on it but alas bvlskhdf#artfight#artfight 2024#pokemon rejuvenation#digital art#blazingart#oc: sol (rejuv)#yeah i added my own oc i wanted him in ok i get a lil self indulgence. as a treat
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Can someone tell me not to put breeding kink in every one of the oneshots I try doing
It's just the natural progression for me that they end up there đŠ
#neech's speeches#I'm sorry I'll one day make a fic that doesn't encompass breeding in some way#i make shameless self-indulgent fic ok
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Home Away From
I love hopeless agony almost as much as tooth rotting fluff??
Post-kidnapping Angel adjusting (badly) to the new normal.
might do a part 2 where it gets even worse idk â my last words before i get thrown out of the plane
Kidnapping, imprisonment, codependency, etc.
proceed with caution
Eyes straight forward, you had to keep yourself occupied fiddling with the edge of a couch cushion. Every single one had a few loose threads from how often you worried away at them.Â
Twelve⌠thirteen⌠fourteen neatly aligned book spines on the lowest shelf behind the dark haired man kneeling in front of you. A full, hardcover collection of your favorite webcomic, each book signed and dedicated to you. Maybe you'd force yourself to read them all again. For the third time since your arrival.
"Angel."
It was hard to keep track of how long you'd been hereâin this house far removed from Corland Bay, with everything you ever wanted in a forever home. All those wild, fantasy-ridden dreams you joked about with Ren, and then [REDACTED], were true now.
And yet your supposed fiancĂŠ carried you over the threshold of that forever home kicking and screaming.Â
"Still not talking?"
His hand reached for yours, fingers gently lacing between your own before you eventually pulled away. You saw their real reaction in the corner of your vision. By now, you knew him as obsessively as he knew youâthere wasn't much he could hide anymore. The pain in his blue eyes lingered for too long this time.
It hurt. You hated to see that look on his face. But you hated being trapped here so much more than that. Why couldn't he understand?
Realistically, a silent treatment would get you nowhere. A few hours had turned to days, then weeks, and he was still soft-spoken and doting towards you. There was hardly a difference in the man you proposed to, and the one that bolted the front door shut from the outside on the few occasions they left for supplies.
You were too used to domestic life, too docile compared to that first dayâsometimes you'd lose yourself and forget you were a prisoner. All your old hobbies still occupied your days while he sat nearby, and it just felt natural to include the only person you ever saw. To call his name and read a passage from a book aloud for him to laugh, or casually scoot closer to him for warmth during a movie.
Those moments when you forgot felt like they could slot in between all your old memories with ease.
"I'm sorry, love. I only wanted t'keep you safe," he whispered.
His breath almost tickled your legs, followed by the feel of his forehead resting against them. The urge to brush a hand through their hairâan innocent gesture you did at least daily back homeâhurt just as much to ignore.
Were it not for their words of apology, even now could've been another memory. Who could fault you for falling into habits of comfort with the one who lived for you, and you alone?
The silent treatment was the best you could do.
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Tired and disoriented, you woke up alone in your bedroom. The pink haired plushie you normally cuddled had disappeared somewhere, probably tossed to a corner of the room in your fitful sleep. Your usual replacement for a space heater was nowhere to be found, either.
Had he stayed up late? You called their name. "Ren?"
A muted commotion in the hallway outside, then the door creaked open. "Angel?" your beloved hacker answered back cautiously.
"Are you coming to bed?"
There was no response for a long moment. But soon enough, his familiar footsteps sounded against the floor.
You sat up and pulled the blanket to the side for them. As he settled in, you cuddled close, resting one arm over their chest while your head laid in its rightful place atop his shoulder. You managed to lean up and find their lips for a quick kiss before closing your eyes.
Though you couldn't see his face, you imagined the blush that painted his cheeks at every piece of affection you gave. With the thought fresh in your mind, you drifted off.
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Hours later you woke again, your rest this time far more peaceful in their embrace. A pitiful, lazy groan left you as you stretched, then opened your eyes to greet your partner.
[REDACTED] was silently looking down at you, propped up on one arm.Â
You reached up to cup his cheek and smiled at him. He leaned into your touch like always, but their usual loving gaze was laced with hesitation. As if waiting for something. Anxious of what could bother him, your hand followed the line of his jaw down to their neck, past the tattooed heart of your name, and settled on a piece of jewelry.Â
Was that correct? It felt off. A long moment passed as you fiddled with it, trying to figure out what was so out of place about that silver chain, until it hit you.
The golden ring was back on his necklace, instead of on your finger where it belonged. Where it used to belong.
Weeks, or maybe even months ago, when they kept you in a careful hold while locking the bedroom door behind themâyou'd thrown that ring in his face the second he let you go.Â
For all the scratches and bite marks you'd put on his arm, tearing at skin that was already long scarred, he hadn't shown a hint of worry. Not until they bent down to get the ring that hit their chest and clattered to the floor.
It was the same worried face you saw now.
Your hand stilled, and before you could even whisper the words you wanted to yell, he slipped from the bed to give you space. The door clicked shut behind them to trap you in with your thoughts.
How could you be so stupid? Weak? They didn't have to try at all to wear you down; you did it all on your own. He tore you away from friends and family, yet here you were, forgetting yourself to play house with him. Then you took it a step further and let him sleep in your bed.
Nails dug into the pillow under your head, but instead of throwing it you squeezed it tight to your chest. You bit your lip to hold back the tears, glaring down at the empty spot on your ring finger that had only now begun to match the skin around it.
Another foolish dream to pile with all the others.
As much as you wanted to hope they would see reason one day and bring you back home to make things rightâa thought far past irrational by nowâyou had to mourn the life taken from you.
You knew them, you knew them. Always seeking your favor so quickly that any argument quelled before it had a chance to begin, but stubborn when he felt it necessary.
If the first answer was a no⌠the next one and the next one wouldn't change. You should've accepted it the second he locked the door.
Ren was the only person you'd ever see again.
#14 days with you#14dwy redacted#14dwy#14dwy ren#momo writing#this is self indulgence too but the kind where i hate myself???#<- i mean this in a nice way ok#red title = no one has a good time not even ren#da color coding is mostly for me actually#since i WRITE TOO FUCKING MUCH i can't even find my own shit!!!#not using my own pinned post bc i just wanna scroll endlessly ooo i'm a little clown#yet again why am i like this
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#this was definitely the most self indulgent purchase of the day#I should NOT have bought it I already spent too much lmao#but I saw him last year and didnât get him and I just couldnât resist a second time đđ I need him#plus heâs allegedly an actual pokecenter plush too which means heâs the good shit#not some mediocre second hand company#he is very soft and built perfectly#edit: itâs not alleged it really is pokecenter lmao#you never know at those cons ok
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