#oh. im also a safe person to her.
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3am drabble about majima and haruka. very short, very sweet. wanted to get this down somewhere because ive been thinking about this scene all day.
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The voice is so soft he doesn't hear it the first time. He's too occupied with scrolling, the light from his phone the only illumination in the room, brain locked in that tired haze where sleep escapes you but you have no energy to do anything more. It's only when he hears the sniffle that he picks up on the presence lingering in the doorway.
‘Haru-chan?’ Majima squints, tilting the harsh blue of the phone screen away from his eye. He props himself up on his elbows. ‘That you?’
‘Oji-san…’
Oh no. Her voice quivers and immediately, Majima knows something is wrong. He sits upright, glad that the darkness hides his worry. Fuck- Kiryu wouldn't be home until tomorrow. He was good enough at babysitting Haruka when he had to, but this was new- what was he supposed to do now?
‘Hey, hey- Haru-chan…’ He mumbles, sitting up. ‘Whassup? What's wrong?’
Tiny feet pad against the hardwood floor and he feels the bed creak- then all at once, she's on top of him. Little arms wrap around his chest and he hears the muffled sob and-
Oh, shit. Majima’s hugging her, now. Pulls her close to his chest and holds her tight. She's crying.
‘Hey… s'alright. It's gonna be okay.’ He says, words uncertain. ‘Did ya… have a nightmare?’
She nods against him, grip tightening.
‘Okay… okay, I get it. Shh, c'mere-’ He leans back and pulls her next to him to lie down more comfortably, tugs the blanket back over himself and nestles her in. Okay, no need to panic- just comfort her. It can't be that hard- fuck, he wishes Kiryu was here.
‘Do ya’ wanna talk about it?’ He ventures. She shakes her head, burying it further into his collarbone. Her voice wavers up from beside him.
‘I want Uncle Kaz…'
Oh.
‘Yeah- yeah. You too, huh? Shh- s'okay.’
He rests his chin atop her head, shutting his eye. It must be even worse for her, he thought. She'd been through so much, and at such a young age… Kiryu must have been her entire world. To wake up, scared and alone, without the one person you knew could protect you…
Majima hugged her tighter.
‘S'okay. He'll be back tomorrow. But until then, I gotcha. I gotcha…’ He sniffed, the warmth against his chest making him feel… something. Something he hadn't felt in a long time.
‘I'd never let anythin’ happen to ya. Okay? I'll scare off all the bad dreams.’ He hushed her again, felt her shaking slow down and sniffles quiet. ‘No monsters or ghouls or nothin’ is gonna getcha when I'm around. They gotta get through me first.’
She hiccuped, a noise that might have been a tearful laugh.
‘Yeah. Yeah.’ He whispered. ‘Y'know, uh- th’ tattoo I got. The scary lady, right?’
There was a pause. Then, in the quietest voice-
‘I don’ think she's scary…’
Majima smiled.
‘Yeah, you don't, cause you're braver than anyone. But monsters, they're all real scared of her. She helps keep ‘em away. Even when I'm asleep.’ He whispered, almost conspiratorially- like he was sharing a big secret.
‘See… she's nice…’ Haruka mumbled, and Majima nodded in agreement.
‘Yeah, exactly. Means you can sleep here an’ you'll be safe and sound. I promise.’
He shuffled, arms hooked around the girl clinging to his chest as she released him to get more comfortable. He could, in the light of his phone screen still laying upright on the bed, faintly see her eyes. Still glistening with tears, but looking at him. Looking at him, like…
Like how she looks at Kiryu, he thought.
‘Thanks, Oji-san…’
Her voice was thick with sleep- must have been tuckered out from the crying, he thought. She buried her face back into his arm, nestled up next to him. Something soft and warm felt like it had crawled into his chest.
‘No prob, Haru-chan.’ He chanced it, and leant down to give her a kiss on the forehead. Felt the way, even in the darkness, her face creased with a smile.
‘Sleep tight, kid.’
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When Kiryu crept in the house early the next morning, the sight of Haruka's empty bed made his heart jump into his throat.
Only after he peered into his bedroom did he see the familiar sprawl of Majima, coiled protectively around his soundly sleeping daughter. One of her hands was resting on his head, fingers tangled in his hair.
As he turned away to prepare the kitchen for breakfast, Kiryu was glad they weren't awake to see the smile on his face and the tear that snuck down his cheek.
#yakuza#fanfiction#kazumaji#is Mentioned and Strongly Implied. naturally#majima to me. tries to keep haruka at arms length for a while out of fear of getting 'too attached'#and then one day something like this happens and he realizes like#oh. im also a safe person to her.#and he just sort of. melts.#hes always wanted to be a dad and i think he deserves a chance here in beautiful world of i can write what i want
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so for fankids how about SquirrelFlight x Ashfur?? :) lolz just kidding what about Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash?
i dont look at who sends questions until after i read asks and it got cut off after the first part in my notifs so i literally looked at my phone like this when i checked LMFAOOOOO
YA WISE GUY ......
anyways
flutterdash .... my original OTP for the past 13 years ...... god i love them so much. theyre always fun to design hypokids for <333
#my art#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#mlp#mlp fim#mlp nextgen#mlp fankid requests#mlp fankids#mlp requests#flutterdash#design requests#she is also very On Top of Safety and Rules#and takes it SO seriously#otherwise shes chill and probably has a competitive streak and enjoys doing (safe) stunts and tricks herself#i can imagine her getting her cutiemark in flight school when another student either does something unsafe or bumps into something and has#some sort of accident that makes them lose control. she zooms in and catches them#wings can symbolize protection also which is also why its in her mark#lightning bc related to dash (it is also a different shape. more of a zoom than LIGHTNING lightning shaped)#OH and i can imagine she gets her healer/nurse tendencies from fluttershy. probably helped her w animals at the sanctuary#ANYWAYS LOL .#this is my partner btw for any1 who is wondering why im more personal here LMFAO
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can ppl in this fandom like... stop... implying that transmasculinity in hcs or (especially) canon is shallow or misogynistic or even transmisogynistic on princible, like literally just by being prescent in someones mind or in the text. like that doesnt fuckin feel good. thats kind of really nasty to imply. if its not okay to say about other trans experiences, maybe dont say it about this one either. why is there a weird little exception here. yall KNOW how much that sucks to hear all day every day. what the fuck
#my t#idk how to tell the hs fandom that every piece of trans coding in roxy in hs1 can be read as transmasc too. like transfem and transmasc#at the same time from the EXACT same reasons. its almost like we all share experiences just by way of being trans. weird i know#its almost like being trans rlly truly highlights what it is to be human and how we are all in fact at the end of the day human together#i just want everyone to stop trying to 'poke holes' in other fans trans hcs FULL STOP across the board no matter who they are#or what the hc is. its needlessly hurtful and more often than not trips into real peoples dysphoria which then#makes the target more likely to lash out. so the person poking them abt it can do a ''SEE? THEYRE ALL MEAN ONE OF THEM#WAS MEAN TO ME JUST NOW'' routine. its so obviously a 'im not touching u!!!' playground maneuver like holy fuck grow up#if you wanna fight for transfem/me folks right to just exist random fans personal headcanons is not the fuckin time or place#the XY in roxys name could be read as her having been DMAB or it could be hussie having a long running giggle about him preordering#his own transmasculinity. roxys colour being pink could be bc shes a girl or it could be compcis!!!#roxys desperation for a bf is from loneliness in canon but its often read as her feeling like she needs one to be a real girl#it can ALSO be read as another aspect of him struggling with compcis and comphet esp w/ his fantasies abt being 'a mother'#yknow what i never fuckin see that rlly highlights the fact that this is just a shitty 'girls rule boys drool' thing? theres like. no#discussions on the potential of roxy being any kinda intersex. absolutely none. he could be mtftm for all you fuckin know#but oh yknow being mtftm is A Shallow Read so we cant have that. hs is only for girls didnt you know we need to terf- i mean turf#out every single instance of queer mascness bc its Evil in the text didnt you know#god help the fandoms word of god token trans boy dirk strider for 'choosing' his eternal misery while everyone else is enlightened#by way of transforming into a girl. bc we must place girlhood on an inhuman pedistal of perfection and niceness and joy and rainbows#like what IS this mahou shojo brand gender essentialism???? im fuckin sick of it#can we remember that girlhood isnt & wasnt safe or joyful for everyone & that that can translate into how we curate our fandom experiences
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my phone got stolen.
...myeahhh.
i just. could not be bothered nor muster the strength to even try to explain the situation after the fact on here. just worked thru the problems that arise with it, and thats that. getting a new phone and trying my darndest to gain a fraction back of what i lost
#this happened on the 22nd in the evening soo.. im okay rn but man. that hurt bad in a way i cant describe#i couldnt even go home right away. i wanted to look thru security footage- dindt see anything. 20 min gone by#i wanted to go home but my locker key was also in the wallet phone case. augh. another 20 min for that lock to get cut open#race home to immediately go online to lock the stolen credit card also in that wallet case. the thieves tried to use it many many times#at least 8 by now#augh.#took forever to get what i have sorted out. ive never done so many business calls in my life jfdklsjflj#or changed so many phone numbers or fiddled with apple to PLEASE ERASE MY PHONE OH MY GODD THAT PHONE ISNT MINE ANYMORE PLS LET ME KILL IT#but the thieves turned it off the moment they took it so they couldnt be tracked. so thats that#credit bank stuff should be sorted by now.. trying to get some of my games from my apple acc back :(( like cookierun ovenbreak.. sadge#my workplace informed me that the ppl who were suspected of stealing it were in fact the ones that did it.#and i told her 'i hope you drive home safe' :(((((#aughh.#my new phone is attached to a leash so it'll be on my person at all times from now on#the one time i wasnt as careful w my phone for specific reasons and this happens right. well i learned my hard hard lesson#i could have lost everything#i was lucky i listened to my parents and only carried what i did carry at the time and not more#this changed smth in me man. i sure wont be so trusting or laid back anymore
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susie is lamer thsn i remembered
#THIS IS A COMPLIMENT THIS IS A COMPLIMENT!!! BEING A MEAN GIRL DID NOT SUIT HER SHE SUCKS BAD#personal#voiceacting the kids is so shitting fun ralsei and susie and lancer come naturally#and i gave kris a deadpan quiet voice that naturally became more expressive as ch 1 went on#i forgot its a bit boring though#also i went into seams shop and was filled with pure liquid delight that made me just sit there for thirty seconds#so i think we can safely say ive got it bad still#im somewhere in the great board rn just named us The Shit Squad#i cant wait to see susies character develop#OH AND ALSO I UNDERSTAND THE THING ABT RALSEI BEING SACCHARINE AND CREEPY NOW#why did he say kris' name so many times!!! christ!!!!!
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Does he get a happy ending? (Please tell me he gets a happy ending, or at least an ending where he isn't left in utter torture)
you're in lucky bud 'cause for the most part he currently has a happy ending! at least in terms of like where he is at in the rp 'cause like i could always make things worse but i think he's suffered enough so he'll probably be fine
as of rn he's happily married to pure vanilla after the two finally stopped pining for each other and i love it for them both <3
#insomniac-speaking#creme university au#the other suffering i would personally give him is memory wipe#but im on the fence about it so he might be safe#making rules for magic in an au where you and your friend are just going based on vibes is very fun but also oh my goodness#if anything look forward to him getting better since pv is trying to figure out how to reverse what happened to him!#who knows if he will succeed or not hes working with white lily on this#shes testing things out on silent salt in the background with her husband maybe someday we'll see them#okay ill stop rambling in the tags
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me meeting someone new and Guz making a point to use my pronouns casually in the conversation so that we don't have to make a big deal of it, and he just gives me the proudest silliest thumbs-up after managing to introduce me using both they and it ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ’—💗💗
#dealing w rly uncomfortable unintentional transphobia in a server a potential irl friend invited me to so sdjfkl i'm Coping#its weird bc i can deal w being misgendered irl just fine but online it feels a lot different#i guess bc ppl dont rly know very well irl that i am not a she/her. but online i usually make it Very Clear that i use they/them#(i use they/it technically but it/its only feels right in certain spaces fsdjkl i have to feel safe and comfortable for that set)#so it feels a lot less excusable when it happens online :[ OH WELLLL i live in a conservative small town so i should be used to it lol#still feels bad. also kinda scary to have an irl person know my pronouns without me telling her directly but she's been rly nice abt it :3#im SO glad she's been cool about it. that was a rly big gamble i made to trust her w that fsjkl adding her on discord where it says they/it#like if she had taken it badly then i could've been outed to the whole centre and would've lost that space + that bit of income from there#and like. a huge chunk of my meagre support network. BUT I DIDNT SO ITS OKAY. YAYYYY#and now i may have an irl friend... i could like... do things in town with someone... thats so crazy fdjkl i haven't had that in 5+ yrs#ANYWAYS. i love guz so much and he makes me very happy and he is a trans ally forever and ever amen#dandy.cmd
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my father telling me how scared he was when i ran away from the house but i cant express how scared i was 2 b in the house
hey, whats up w/that?
#whenever we ‘hang out’ he likes 2 make the topic as depressing as possible by always talking abiut the past#& it is the most annoying shit ever i will not lie BC I DONT WANT 2 TALK ABOUT DEATH & THE ABUSE EVERY TIME I SPEAK 2 U#yk? thag makes sense in my head#anyways he started talking abiut how terrified he was when i had ran away multiple times a couple yrs ago & when i say a couple i mean#i have no idea how long ago bc memory is a bitch#but it had 2 b like middle school - sophmore?#multiple times & like i just wanna shake him bc LITERLLY WHAT & WHO DO U THINK I WAS RUNNING AWAY FROM#GODDAMNN I H8 BING THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS HOUSE WHO CAN EXPRESS EMOTIONS & NOT LET THEM EFFECT HOW I VIEW THE OTHER#��oh u ran in the park u ran in the park’ i didnt run in the fuckinggppaaarrkrkkkk AAAAAAAAAA I MET A NICE LADY WHO HAD A GOAT IN THE#SPARTMENTS I FRIECIENTED OFTEN WHEN I WAS YOUNGER#i cant express how safe the goddamn goat lady & her kid made me feel vs my parents who started hunting 4 me#like ive been dragged home so many times im not going through that shit again#i miss the goat the mom & the kid we were just chilling @ like midnight 4 a bit#did this turn in2 a vent? idk#i do this a lot ill prolly delete this soonish when im kore calm#bc rn i want 2 chuck bricks in my laundry machine & watch them fly out & hit whatever#im going back 2 watching anime if i have 2 talk 2 1 other person i will actually explode#like irl person not online the silly gay ppl in my phone r super cool & amazing & i love them#im srry 4 bing a dick btw#i cant explain it i mean i could but i cant im just my brain is telling me eveyr1 h8s me & MAN i h8 it when it does#so im just frightened & by golly & am i havign a cheery time yipyipyip#typing in tags is sm easier than in a post bc i dont think most ppl read tags lol#the more i think about my past the more i wonder wtf am i doing here#bc how did i even get out of the house in the 1st place & then ontop of that was able 2 hide#like what……#bc they were fucking grabbing me n shit & they have CARS like i didnt go in the park i walked the sidewalks HOW DID I MOT GET CAUGHT??#MULTIPLE TIMES??? LIKE I ‘ran away’ MULTIPLE TIMES#i didnt exactly run away tho bc i didnt want them 2 file police shit i didnt eant 2 deal w/that & also hirt the pll i stayed over w/#so i always went back. obviously blehhh#ug hj hhhh my heads hurting again this is like the 4th day in a row :((
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[ Nikke spoilers for mid September 2024 update mini story / my comments on it. ]
Closeted trans dudes dressing up at the family function like:
It's such a familiar scene, for family to see you dressing up out of obligation and then being like, 'Oh, NOW you're so beautiful, you should do this more often.' And internally, your body is screaming that it feels so wrong, why did you perform your perceived gender for this event! Or like, for me personally too, the whole missing the vibe of the event and dressing up way more than anyone else, and then feeling so out of place. I've joked before about Red Hood having older brother vibes, maybe she has trans vibes for me too now, lol.
Also, strange that Liliweiss is saying 'for the future' to Red Hood. Who, y'know, is basically terminally ill (corrupted). Red Hood doesn't 'have' a future, she just has the present and past. At this point in this mini-story thing (I'm assuming it takes place around the time of the Red Ash event), is Liliweiss aware of the plans to integrate Red Hood into Rapi, and therefore 'have' a future? Or am I just reading into this way too much? Lol. Just sounded like a really weird and inconsiderate thing to say to her.
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That aside, why the fuck did y'all vote the dress over the other two Red Hood skins?! I'm so disappointed, the other two were way cooler and not out of character:
((I mean, I guess it's technically in-character since it's canon now, and has to do with 'old music' but c'mon, man...))
Image description below cut:
First image: Red Hood from Nikke: Goddess of Victory is in a strappy and revealing dress. It's the same colour as her hair. She's embarrassed and standing next to a gramophone, while holding a champagne glass. She is also wearing fingerless half-palm leather gloves. Text: Red Hood: Oh jeez, I can't do this! I just can't!
Next two images: Text: Dialogue:
Commander: You did well in that outfit.
Red Hood: Anything was better than staying at that party, even fighting raptures. I've never been so glad to have a bunch of them show up.
Rapunzel: Your dress is all dirty, though. And the hem is all torn...
Red Hood: Who cares? It's not like I'm going to be wearing this ever again.
Liliweiss: Why not? I thought you'd be keeping it for the future.
Red Hood: No thanks. Not a chance.
Snow White: That's too bad. At least I finally got to see you all dressed up. Can I at least take a picture for posterity?
Red Hood: Absolutely not. I don't want to leave any evidence of this humiliating sight.
Last three images are the Red Hood skins/appearances that we voted on. First image is the feminine dress with the gramophone mentioned before, which won the poll. Second image is Red Hood on a motorcycle with a leather jacket, crop top, mini shorts, and thigh highs. Third image is Red Hood standing next to a wolf, and she is wearing form-fitted high-rise pants, a strappy harness bra-top and collar, and a cropped blazer.
#we couldve had a better mini story than performative femininity#nikke#red hood#red hood nikke#goddess of victory: nikke#nikke goddess of victory#nikke spoilers#CoriPlaysNikke#Cori Plays Nikke#idr which tag i use lol#Cori.exe#Post.exe#Image.exe#long post#i cant remember if i voted bike or wolf lol the vote i cast was on june 27 and its currently sept 21 so it was a while ago...#...and the link i RTed doesn't tell me which one i voted (usually i try to put a screenshot as a reply but i must have forgotten)#i DEFINITELY did not vote the out of character strappy dress lmao wtf#tbh im keeping her default skin on but its nice they gave us a mini story for it at all#also lmao @ rapunzel looking for the commanders mags. neon already found em (neons personal story) and theyre gay mags (bless)#i mean unless im misremembering that im super tired rn and ive been typing this post for a while and have more to say on another post#other post TBA im too tired to make that one rn. actually i have a lot of nikke things i want to post but i keep forgetting lol#just expect more i have a lot i wanna commentate on but its 1am and i still gotta shower tonight#lol lemme stop nitpicking this post#but yeah the story was like. oh man. ive done that before. countless times. it sucks. i got hella secondhand embarrassment...#...bc ive been there before. in feminine clothes and shit. and ppl suddenly like u a lot more...#...and its like. guys. this is basically a costume. its not who i am. no im not gonna wear a fucking dress all the time.#and it sucks bc it aint safe to come out to justify why you dont wanna look like that all the time. (not that ppl should Have to justify it)#let ppl wear stuff thats ooc and treat it normally dont hound them about it like this bc then it becomes a nightmare
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love being crazy. never a dull moment
#its ridiculous how i present myself and my symptoms so neatly sorted VERSUS how i actually experience that shit first-hand#we were doing some grounding safe-space exercise with my doc today n i was you know. imagining the places#n then out of nowhere i saw -her- there. i dont know why it felt so surprising but... she came for me and i was so... touched#like i... think i just... i didnt know she was real? i thought. god this sounds so miserable but i really thought i was making her do this#even though weve been talking for years and shes been my comfort. but i think its cuz she came when i didnt expect her and she just took my#hand and i. i did feel safe#it did feel like a safe space. but then i was so shocked by this whole thing that i forgot why we were even doing this exercise in the firs#place n my doc was like so! what did you see : ) n i know i could. have been quiet but i guess we were trying to mask less and i was still#so shocked that i really just told her. yes doc i... saw a... a friend. shes been with me for a while now but i was still thinking shes jus#a character or something. but she came to me and she told me she cared and im just so happy that shes real bcs i love her#ive loved her and i thought i was making her stay but she wanted to stay with me! bcs she loved me too!!#and i was like trying not to spontaneously cry bcs i legit was NOT expecting any of that. and i was also ... actually i dont think i though#abt it feeling cringe. even tho it. is a little difficult... but i DID think about how strange it felt to be honest abt it with a doctor#bcs its like... with the docs ive had and life in general its always...not about being honest but abt HOW WILL SAYING THIS HELP ME GET X#and yeah i dont trust them. even tho i... trust these doctors i guess. theyve been handling it well for years. they admit the system#still it feels so damn unsafe to mention anything cuz how crazy is TOO crazy for a person with power over you... anyway i do trust the doc#n she knew. but its still weirdddd to mention shit abt it that is not life or death. but it was so out of nowhere and i was so happy like#KATRIN!!! KATRIN SHES REAL!! SHES REAL OH GOD SHES ACTUALLY THERE FOR ME IM GOING TO CRY!!!! WHAT WERE WE TALKING ABT
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anyone want to pull an edna pontellier with me
#we realize that we're alive individual people with agency and sensations we can pursue but are trapped by societal expectations (originally#Heavily gendered but this was also like 150 years ago) but we cannot give up our newfound selves for the sake of our children like we're#supposed to so we strip naked on a beah like a newborn animal bare before god for the first time and swim out and drown#spoilers for 'the awakening' i guess sorry#to put this is modern terms does anyone want to pull a brian david gilbert 'and now i am going to throw myself into the sea' with me but we#don't come jogging soggily up the beach towards the camera at the end we just actually drown#sorry to once again be sad on main i just. i cannot keep having the same breakdown every 3 months! every quarter i have to re-realize 'oh i#probably don't actually want to die i just cannot in any circumstances keep living like this' and then i keep living like this#i am so tired. i am so fucking tired of effort not meaning anything bc i try and try and try and i still can't turn anything in#finals posting#anyway edna and adèle should've kissed who's with me. adèle comes over and watches edna's kids while she's out gallivanting and recognizing#her personhood like a good little wife but she also is the first person to welcome edna im and like connect personally with her? edna is a#lesbian but she died before she realized that was an option. hot take.#whatever i hope everyone has a fun and safe st. paddy's#a post
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if you think about it the cast of azran legacy is really quite funny because all of the main characters have a personal stake in all this and luke is just also there. he was like oh fuck yeah i get to solve puzzles with the professor... im in
#like. bronev des emmy obviously#i think layton develops a personal stake as it goes on? like idk he wants to see the people he cares about safe & the world like. Not end#aurora is. well thats her whole deal#i mean sure bronev Made it his life purpose. but aurora is like. that was her lifes purpose quite literally#and then luke triton (age 12) is just also coming on this trip#i feel like even the game directly before this pales in comparison to a trip around the world its just very funny to me#Like idk if i explained it well enough. everyone else is really invested in all this#and luke is like oh hell yeah lets do some archaeological road trip shit#and by the end hes like Oh shit professor the WORLD is going to END. im not leaving though i have to help you solve puzzles about it#and tbh i gotta respect it. at age 12 i was nottttt doing all that i think i was really into like my heroacademia or something#live ur life luke. Solve ur puzzles#muffin mumbles
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I NEED TO MOVE OUT NOOWWWWWWW
#i woke up at 3 pm bc this was my 1st day ‘off’ in forever#and when i went to grab something to eat our back door was fully open and my car was nowhere to be found#cat*#so i freaked out and started looking outside but when i realized she wasn’t there and my roommate also wasn’t recently outside#i knocked on her bedroom door and she was like ‘oh sorry i was asleep do you want me to help look’#YES i want you to help look what are you talking about#eventually i found her bc my cat is the best girl in the world and never left our yard- she was in the crawl space under the house#but not only am i pissed she let my car out then took a nap#but we don’t live in the safest city in the world and while we were both sleeping our door was fully 90 degrees open#so now not only do i feel like kevin (cat) isn’t safe here but I don’t feel safe sleeping here anymore#the lease is up in july and i finally get to leave#this girl is a random roommate my former roommate found to replace her#and the whole process/experience has been awful#i just have to survive 4 months#during the summer i might keep paying rent but fully leave and go live with family#bc my school isn’t in driving distance of any of my family#now i’m thinking about asking someone if they’ll take kevin for a couple months bc im so sorry about her#but my dad has a dog that doesn’t love cats and my best friend is allergic and my mom lives in another state#personal#delete later#also this is unrelated BUT every weekend without fail she does laundry at an insane time in the morning#and our washing machine is the loudest washing machine i’ve EVER heard#and of course it’s right against the wall of my room#not hers#i only get two days a week to sleep past 630 am and she almost always ruins it
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amputee sabitsuki my beloved<3333
#there are way too many references to her losing her legs/having her legs replaced for it not to be true in my mind#my personal theory is its probably bc of rust given most depictions of the disease+character are associated with decay and deterioration#the parade ward (presumably where ppl with rust are heavily quarantined) is full of children rotting alive yknow?#of course most examples of rust start at the head but idk#anyway sorry i have .flow brainrot again#love that game sm#oh anyway while im thinking#i think possiibly oreko could be a kid from a different ward#shes not often associated with rust and i think the closest she gets is like. oreko-in-a-jar in the orange maze?#idk#i dont think she has rust specifically#anyway i think oreko and sabitsuki became friends at the hospital but were seperated due to contamination#n maybe oreko would sneak out to visit? hence the diving helmet (to keep out germs‚ at least in a childs mind)#and also why the first time you interact with her in flow she gives you one#so you two can safely(-ish) interact#also#with how close a lot of the gang related parts of the game are to the hospital i feel like sabitsuki mightve come back a lot to visit#probably mostly for getting patched up#theres only so much a bartender can do for you#or whatever you interpret the cleaners to be#honestly not sure what to make of those
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Gnawing and crunching and tearing things apart with my teeth thinking about character design (specifically hair) reflecting a characters current emotional state
#shout out to the person who did their school project about Scary Marlowes design and had in depth notes about each stage of her design#i need to find that post again and reblog it 8 million times because its so good and they all feel like scary but the changes are so telling#also im thinking about willy stampler having longer hair throughout s1 of dndads and then it getting really messy when hes trapped in the#demiplane van and him crawling out the window with matted hair and then the next time we see him he has shorter cropped hair as a oh im not#that horrible guy from before but also as a before i was trapped (either in the forgotten realms or in the van) but now i am free and am a l#power you should be scared of#also thinking about jonathan sims having shorter hair throughout s1 and it slowly getting longer and more rattled as he started getting#involved with all the entities stuff and then when they run away to the safe house either he cuts it or he starts taking care of it and#imstead if it being always thrown up and messy its now down for most of s5 so whenever he uses watcher powers his hair can float magical#girl style#anyways if you also have strong opinions about character hairstyle or just character design changing over arcs PLEASE talk to me about it#it so interesting to me
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gaipa may not be my everything boy like ray or my will to live like longtae but he holds a special place in my heart probably mostly due to the fact that he is a side character whos mostly undeveloped but. the parts that Are developed connect to my own life so therefore i can project my personal beliefs and experiences onto him
#hes 30 and never had a relationship. lived with his parents his whole life which gives me the sense that like#he sort of plays things safe. he wants to try things but hes convinced himself hes Okay where hes at so he dismisses the thought#because change and the unknown scare him. hed rather stick to what he knows#and maybe he doesnt even realize these things consciously. he seems pretty laid back. go with the flow. but the flows spinning in circles#and sometimes you want to see different currents#ok that got away from me and i dont even necessarily think this is All true but elements of it are. to me#OH i think. separation anxiety w his mom and the 30 yo never had a relationship despite being into ppl thing (its canon compliant i promise)#thats a lot of what makes me go wow he could be just like me#obviously different cuz like my relationship with my mom kind of splintered and he was still rly close to her#and im not 30 yet lol#but i can have this. as a treat.#i took lil notes last time i watched it too n hes very cute. his handwriting is adorable and he fidgets with things and he is Unobservant#therefore i also claim neurodivergencies. perhaps autism since i am autism#and hes so expressive. just like me ♡#and hes sort of sensitive kind of takes things personally sometimes#also i like to think he is acespec. ♡#man i should just write this down#nof's nonsense#dw i love aye too. original kt autism character#thaiql#mlc
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