#oh my god it was already a tag thank u past alex

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ITS NEW YEARS i was trying to get this done last night but i got too focused on it. New Years with UnderRem’s Dream and MusicBox Mettaton <333 Cheers to them. Besties. Also got Clip Studio Paint so figuring that out with this.

Bonus: after taking this image someone spilled their drink.

[jobrookekarev]

One Step Forward and Three Steps Back

Chapter One of Six

Words: 2783

Summary: Jo wants to marry Alex more than anything, there’s just a few hoops she has to jump through before she can make that a reality. When she finally takes the plunge to free herself from her past, it all comes back to haunt her.

Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy.

Relationship: Alex Karev/Jo Wilson, Jo Wilson/Paul Stadler (Past). 

Characters: Alex Karev, Jo Wilson, Stephanie Edwards, and Paul Stadler.

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences, 

Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Physical Abuse, Domestic Abuse, Assault, Drinking, Alcohol, Divorce.

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AN: Updates Bi-weekly 

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“Let's make a baby,” Jo said as she walked over to him, offering up everything she had to him. 

“What?” Alex paused, truly looking over at her for the first time since he came into the loft.

“You said that you wanted a baby, and you would make an amazing dad,” Jo said, she knew that this was what he'd wanted for years now, and if that's what he wanted, she could be ready. “And that's what you're worried about, right, that I'm not all in? But I am. And I love you.”

The second her fingers touched his cheek, he pulled away. It was something he had never done before. All the times they had fought before, he had never pulled away from her touch, and him doing so now truly scared her.

“Are you gonna tell me why you won't marry me?” Alex asked again, staring deep into her eyes as if he could read the answer in her face. 

“I told you that I love you,” Jo said, but when she wouldn't answer him, he just turned away and went back to packing his things. “And that I'm not going anywhere. So isn't that enough? Can't that be enough for you?” 

“You know, I was with Mer this morning, and I was thinking, the two of us, we've been through hell. You know, all kinds of drama, crazy family stuff, we both almost died, losing people we love.” 

“No, you're not losing me,” Jo interrupted him, she wanted him to know that he wasn't going to lose her, and she didn't want to lose him.

“The point is, we grew up. Mer and I are grown up,” Alex said, turning around to look back at her. “We got through it. And hell is behind me. It's in my rearview mirror, and I'm not going back. I'm done.” 

“Alex, please,” Jo begged him, the last two words rang in her ear and broke her heart in an instant, but she held back the tears. It wasn’t the end, it couldn’t be.  

“I'm not, I'm not, some idiot kid anymore, Jo. I'm a man, and I'm done with games. I'm done with, with crazy. I'm done with losing. I'm done with drama. I don't care about your secrets and your excuses and your drama. You know, I've had that,” Alex said, and he was right. He shouldn't have to put up with her drama and her secrets, and she wished she could spare him from it all and tell the truth, but she just couldn't.

“Alex, if we could just,” Jo pleaded with him one last time.

“I just said I don't want to do this!” Alex screamed, as he raised his voice, she grew quiet. “I, I have never had one second of anything real my entire life. I want truth. I want, I want a wife and a house and a family! Amelia and, uh, Owen's wedding today, I want that!”  

“I can give you family and a home,” Jo pleaded, trying to get Alex to say. 

“But you won't be my wife?” Alex yelled as he stopped throwing the rest of his clothes in his bag to look at her. 

They had fought before, but not like this. He was so angry, but Jo wasn't frightened of him. She was, however, frightened to tell him the truth. She knew he deserved the truth, but she couldn't give it to him. Jo knew what Alex would do to Paul when he found out. She knew because she saw how mad he got when she had shown up on his doorstep after her fight with Myers. She knew that if Paul even looked at her wrong or dared to lay a finger on her, Alex would kill him and she couldn't live with herself if she caused that.

“I, I can't,” Jo whispered, her words coming out in a painful breath. 

She wanted to explain or at least give him a part of the truth. A part of her was protecting him from his own anger, but another part of her had held the secret for so long and, every time she tried to say it, it was like the words were trapped in her head.

Alex looked so disappointed as he shook his head before he grabbed his bags and left. It broke her, it broke her to see Alex walk away like that. Jo sat down on the bench, held the pillow to her chest as she cried. After everything she had done to get away from Paul, changing her name, leaving behind all of her friends, including the boy who is like a brother to her, and starting over in Seattle. He was still ruining her life and her relationship with Alex. 

She had thought about divorcing Paul for the past few months, ever since Alex proposed. She had contacted the lawyer that Arizona had used for her divorce case. Michelle had shown Jo her options and it all seemed easier than Jo realized. She had also dug up Jo’s medical history from her time with Paul. With the clear evidence of domestic abuse, Michelle said she could help Jo get an emergency protective order. It would go into effect right away, and then a domestic violence restraining order would protect her during the divorce proceedings and for the rest of her life. Michelle said that because of their separate lives, it would be an easy divorce. She had drafted the papers and sent them over to her, all they had to do was sign them. 

Jo didn't know if Paul would make this easy and sign the papers, or if he would drag it out for years, but she wanted to try. She tried to tell herself that with the restraining order and a lawyer on her side, she could do it. Jo wanted Alex to be by her side, but now Alex was gone, and he would be gone for good if she didn't divorce Paul. 

She went over to the liquor cabinet. Jo grabbed the bottle of the hardest rum they had and took a swig. It burned her throat as she drank it and Jo took as much as she could before she put the bottle down. If she was going to do this, she needed as much liquid courage as she could get. 

Jo made up her mind. She was going to divorce Paul.

She pulled out her phone and called Michelle. Michelle set up an appointment to meet with her the following day and said she would get the ball rolling. She would file the emergency restraining order and finalize the divorce papers that had been sitting in her drawer for months. Michelle assured her that she would have a restraining order against Paul at the end of the day and that she would be protected. Jo thanked her and quickly hung up. 

Jo had always kept tabs on Paul just in case. Which was good because she knew that he was in Seattle giving a talk at the University of Washington. The past few days, she had felt trapped in the loft because of it, as she feared he would see her when she was out and about or at the hospital, but now she could divorce him before the weekend was over and Alex would never know. Then she could say yes and marry Alex. They would be happy and Alex would never know. Paul would never ruin his life because of her. 

Jo took a deep breath as she looked down at her phone. She was drunk enough to think that this was a good idea and before she knew what she was doing, she had dialed Paul's number. But, of course, he didn't pick up, Paul didn't pick up any strange numbers. Hearing his voicemail was enough to send shivers down her spine, but the liquid courage had given her enough strength to speak and leave him a message. 

“Paul, it's me, it's Brooke. I want a divorce. I'm leaving you for good. I found another man and he's wonderful. He's better than you ever were and I want to marry him. So I want a divorce. I'm in Seattle. I work at Grey-Sloan Memorial and I live here. I live at 4196 Cale St. I know you're giving some stupid talk at U-Dub, and I’m sending you the divorce papers, and you are going to sign them. Because you ruined my life enough and you don't get to ruin it any more.”

Jo hung up and she smiled. It was like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders and she felt free, freer than when she was driving away from him all those years ago. Finally, she felt truly free. 

Then Jo looked around the empty loft. Alex wasn't there, he had left, and she was all alone. Jo sighed, taking another swig of the bottle. Then she texted Stephanie to meet her at Emerald City Bar. Jo needed her friend and there was no way she could spend the rest of this day sober. 

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“Hey, what are we drinking about?” Stephanie asked, appearing at the bar and sitting next to Jo.

“Alex is gone,” Jo said as she leaned against the bar. She was genuinely drunk now and was suddenly second guessing everything that she had done. “I had the love of my life, and I just, pssh, pushed him away, and now he's gone. And I’m doing it, I’m finally doing it, but I already lost Alex, he's gone.”

“Okay, this again,” Stephanie said as she took a swig of the beer the bartender gave her. “Let's not overstate this. He's just living at Meredith's.”

“Steph, you didn't see his face. He’s gone,” Jo said, looking over Stephanie and seeing her face, Jo suddenly realized what she had said. “Oh, God, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. He's not gone-gone. Kyle is gone-gone.”

“Making it worse,” Stephanie said as Jo leaned over to put her arm around Stephanie and lean her hand on her shoulder.

Stephanie shook her off and Jo decided to shut up before more words fell out of her mouth. In her endeavor to divorce Paul, it was like all her walls had finally come down. The truth slipped from her tongue like a bar of soap between her fingers. 

“He just kept asking me to marry him again and again,” Jo said as she picked at the peanut shells on the bar and tried to throw them into the bowl. “I just couldn't say nothing anymore, you know, so I just, I just said no.” 

“You could've said yes,” Stephanie said, taking a sip of her drink and shaking her head as if it was as easy as that.

“I should go home. I need to go home,” Jo said, reaching for the bag next to her and getting out. 

“What? No, you cannot drive home,” Stephanie said, getting up and chasing after her. She tried to grab the bag as Jo turned away from her.

“No, stupid, I'm gonna call. I'm looking for my phone to call a goober,” Jo said, looking through the bag and trying to find her phone. “I can't marry him. I want to, but I can't marry anyone.”

“Why's that?” Stephanie asked in her rude and sarcastic voice what made Jo realize what she had said.

“Just 'cause, none of your business,” Jo yelled, looking back at her.

“Okay,” Stephanie said, holding up her hands and leaning back.

“God, where is my. Oh, my God!” Jo paused, and she looked down at the strange purse in her hands. “This isn't even my purse.”

Stephanie rolled her eyes and took the purse from Jo's hands, replacing it with Jo's own bag. “Here, just wait, and I'll call us a cab and you can tell me all about why you can't marry Karev.”

“I can't marry him because I'm already married,” Jo said, the words slipping off her tongue. She guessed she was done hiding the truth.

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“Okay, you can't just drop a bomb on me like that and then not say anything else,” Stephanie said as they walked into the loft, and Jo stumbled over to the couch before she caught Jo around her waist and led her over to the bed. “Okay, come on, time for bed.”

Stephanie left her on the bed and went to grab a cup of water. This was the last thing she wanted it to be doing, but Jo was her best friend, and they were both going through it right now. Cleary Jo had some deep dark secrets and Stephanie would be lying if she said she wasn’t immensely curious about it.

“I was living in my car. Did you know that I lived in my car?” Jo said, stumbling over, reaching out to put her hand on the table. It seemed Stephanie couldn't leave her for a second and she reached out to grab Jo again. 

“Yes, I know all about your street kid days,” Stephanie said, trying to grab ahold of her, but Jo pushed her away, and she was surprisingly strong for a drunk girl.

“And then I met him, and I wasn't living in my car anymore. Everybody loved him, I did,” Jo said, undoing the button to her jeans and pulling them down her legs.

“What are you doing?” Stephanie said, putting her hands on her waist and glaring at Jo. Everybody always joked about how drunk people acted like toddlers and Jo was certainly acting like a toddler right now. 

“I'm gonna go, I'm gonna go to bed,” Jo said as she stumbled over to the bed before apparently changing her mind and leaning against the post. “He never wanted anyone to stop loving him.”

Stephanie paused and sat down on the bench at the end of the bed, watching Jo for a moment. Jo had never mentioned anything about past boyfriends, much less a husband. She watched as the tears collected in Jo's eyes as she started to sob and she could sense why Jo had never mentioned him before.

“So if I, I bought the wrong something he would, he would hit me in my face or my stomach. Nobody knew that but me. So, so I ran. I had to make sure he would never find me.”

“And if you try to divorce him,” Stephanie trailed off, still trying to take in the news of Jo's abusive husband.

“I'm trying to divorce him, but he’ll never sign the papers, I'll never be free of him,” Jo said, putting both of her hands on Stephanie's shoulders and staring into her eyes. 

“Can’t you get a restraining order or something?” Stephanie asked, watching Jo pull away from her. “Does Alex know about any of this?” 

“No, no, Alex would try and protect me, but he can't. I have to do this on my own. He doesn't even know my real name,” Jo said as she stumbled over to the bed.

“You should tell him, he'll understand. Alex is a really good guy. Okay, so we're going to get naked now,” Stephanie sighed as Jo unbuttoned her shirt and let it fall to the floor. “Just keep your panties on, okay.”

Jo didn't say anything else as Stephanie grabbed onto her waist and pulled her over to the bed. They both ended up stumbling and falling on the bed together and Jo laughed as if it was the funniest thing in the world. Stephanie rolled her eyes and got up to grab the covers. As she looked up, Alex was standing in front of her in a rain soaked suit. 

“What's so funny? Alex asked as he smiled and came around to sit next to Jo on the bed.

“We fell,” Jo laughed, closing her eyes and pulling the covers over her head, still giggling from underneath them.

Alex looked up at her with a raised eyebrow and Stephanie just shrugged. “She's drunk off her ass.”

Alex nodded and put his hand over Jo's back, rubbing up and down as her giggles ended and she seemed to settle in. Stephanie got up and grabbed Jo's shirt from the floor before grabbing her jeans, tossing them both in the hamper.

“You came back,” Stephanie said, looking back at Alex.

“Yeah, well, Jo’s earned the benefit of the doubt, and whatever reason she has for not marrying me, I love her too much to let her go.”

Stephanie nodded, she didn't want to spill Jo’s secret, especially now that Alex was back, but she didn't want him to leave Jo again. She saw how messed up Jo was all night and Alex wasn't even dead. Stephanie loved her friend enough not to want to put her through that again. 

“She has a good reason for not marrying you. I won't tell you what it is, that's her job, but it's a good reason, and she’s trying to make it right,” Stephanie said as she folded her hands together.

“Thank you,” Alex said, nodding at her before he looked back at Jo and leaned down to kiss a little bit of her head that was still peeking out from under the covers. 

Stephanie wobbled as she took another step towards the door, realizing how drunk she was now that she didn't have Jo’s drunkenness to compare her sobriety to. 

“Do you want to crash here?” Alex offered, taking off his wet jacket and tie. “I'm going to hop in the shower, but I'll take the couch if you want to take the bed.”

“Sure,” Stephanie said, dropping her purse and kicking off her shoes.

She had slept over at the loft enough times with Jo that this was normal. They would have a girl's night and fall asleep on the bed, and Alex would come in and sleep on the couch. In the morning, he’d make them a hangover cure and waffles and Stephanie loved those waffles. Alex hung up his wet suit and went to take a shower and Stephanie crawled into bed. Jo would still giggle occasionally, but eventually, they both fell asleep.

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Jo woke up to the sound of someone banging on the door to the loft. She rolled over to lay on her back and saw Stephanie sleeping soundly beside her. Her best friend had always slept like a log and she would sleep through her alarm if she was tired enough. Jo got up before she went to the hamper and pulled on her shirt. 

“Alright, Alex I’m coming,” Jo said as the banging continued, despite how late it was she figured Alex had forgotten something. She unlocked the door and pulled it open, but Alex wasn't standing on the other side. 

“Hello, Brooke.”

[just-another-writer-cherry]

Part 3

Summary: Y/N still wants the divorce and Camille makes Harry feel like he isn’t enough, until his had enough 

Warning: angst

 Read Part 1 Part 2

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Y/N

I’ve been living with my best friend for 3 weeks. It’s been 3 weeks since I asked Harry for a divorce. I don’t regret it, while I’m sad and cry almost everyday, I don’t regret my decision it was the best for me. I recently found out who he was cheating on me with, some girl named Camille. Lucky her I guess....

Today is the day we sign the divorce papers, I would have to see Harry again, I’m not ready. I start to get ready to go to my lawyers office to get this done and over with.

Once I arrive there, the first thing I see is no Harry while I’m kinda relieved I’m also nervous “where is Harry?” I ask my lawyer “ he already came by, drop this on his way” he says handing me a folder, I opened it.

It’s the divorce papers, he sign them already he really doesn’t care. I look up to my lawyer “the only thing left to do is for you to sign them” and without a single hesitation I do. “Done” I said and gave them back to my lawyer.

That’s it I’m no longer Y/N Styles. Worst part is I don’t long to be anymore, he kill the loved that was there, without a reason. I’m sad but at the same time I’m happy

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When I enter y/b/n apartment, the first thing I see it’s not her but a guy. He is sitting on the couch. he has blonde hair and has a nice smile. I was about speak but y/b/n interrupted me.

She walked out of the kitchen with a cup of water, I’m assuming it was for the unknown guy. “Hey girl, you’re early was it that fast?” she said all I did was give her a nod then she hands the cup of water to the guy “ok anyways, this is my friend Alex, Alex this is y/n the girl I have been talking to you about” she introduced it us. He puts the cup down on the table and stands up and walks up to me. We shake hands while doing so I say “Nice meeting you Alex, I’m Y/N I hope y/b/n has told u nothing but good things about me” once we are done shaking hands he says “no worries only good things I promise” after that I realize I really like Alex..

Harry POV

It’s been three weeks without Y/N and three weeks with my new love. Mom and sister aren’t too happy but they accept it. Although I do have to say that the past week hasn’t been the best. Camille and I have been kinda distant, she only talks to me when she wants me to buy her something or sex. But I’m sure it’s just a phase in our relationship, soon everything would be back to normal and we can love each other the way we just to. When we were a secret that only we both knew about

I’m in my office at the moment, working on some papers for tomorrow when I get text from Camille.

Camille: We need to talk

What? What does she need to talk about now?

Me: Ok..

Before I can answer something else she respond

Camille: when are you gonna be home?

Me: I’ll be there in 30 min

Camille: Ok

Me: I 💙 U

Camille: 👌🏽

She didn’t say I love u back....

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Once I arrive home, I see Camille sitting on the couch “hey beautiful” I say, I try to go in for a kiss but she move her head. Ok weird

“I’m not happy harry” she said

“What do you mean?” I ask in whisper and worried 

“ you don’t make me happy anymore, you’re not enough for me, gosh! Harry This relationship doesn’t make me happy.” I felt like crying when she said that

“But I can try to make you happy, I love you isn’t that enough?” I said In a hopeful tone of voice

“Sometimes love isn’t enough Harry” she said

“ is there something I can do? Please I will do anything” I said, I was trying really hard not to cry.

“ anything?..” she ask and I nodded

“Well... I want an open relationship”

Not this again, why does she want one. She said she loves me, if she does why does she want this so bad ?...

“Why?” I ask

“Because Harry I already told you, you’re not enough, I need excitement and someone that can I actually make me cum! You’re not exciting, I have hope you will change if you love me, which is why I want an open relationship.”

Ouch all of that hurt, I felt like someone just stab me with a knife. I’m not enough not even sexually.. but she is giving me a chance to fix this , but is she?...

“Ok” I say sounding defeated

She claps her hands, makes her way towards me, kisses me and starts to walk to the door.

“ where are you going?” I ask turning around

“ oh silly me I forgot to tell you, well I met this dude named Mike and he is cute, so I wanna get to know him more... don’t wait for me bye..” she says going out the door

I was left there sanding, confused looking and feeling stupid and like I wasn’t enough..

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6 Months Later

Y/N POV

Happy. That’s exactly how I feel, I feel happiness. Alex and I have been together for a while now. We when on several dates together and had the time of our lives. I learn to trust him and love him. Yes I love Alex, he makes me happy and feel like the only girl in the world. Now here we are, in a beautiful restaurant celebrating our 6 month anniversary. “I’m so happy to be here with you” Alex said to me. “I’m so happy too” I told him. 

Even after all this months of dating, we still haven’t done something that most couples would have. Sex. We haven’t had sex yet. No because I don’t want, cause trust me I do, but because I don’t want my relationship to be based on that, so we haven’t done it yet. Plus what harry said really did hurt me because He took my virginity. So him saying I’m not good in bed really hits home and makes me insecure. But I know Alex will understand me and he will wait for me.

“I love you” I told him

He smile and kiss me. His soft lips touching mine, molding perfectly agains each other. “I love you more” he whisper back “Y/N, you have no idea how happy you make me, you have giving me more than anybody. I love you babygirl, don’t ever leave” we kiss again and I know everything would be better. 

Harry POV 

6 Months Later

it’s been six months since I lost the best thing that ever happened to me. My princess, My world, My baby, My Y/N. I have made the biggest mistake of my life and lost the only good thing that happened to me. Instead I’m stuck with the snake Camille is. Turns out bitch only wanted to stick around only for money, no because of love. She is whore, Y/N was right. 

Fuck, Y/N I have been thinking about my girl ever since I realize what a Mistake I had made. I miss her, her lips, her body against mine, her cooking, her beautiful smile, and most important our love. I miss her every single day. I cannot believe what an idiot I am. I’m snap out of my thoughts by a annoying voice.

“harryy!!” Camile said, I just rolled my eyes

“what?” I asked annoyed

“ Look at this new Channel Bag! its so pretty and only $130,00, Can I please borrow your credit card” She said with puppy eyes 

Another reason why I miss My baby cakes Y/N, she loved me for me and not my money unlike this annoying bitch. 

“Fuck no Camile! what is wrong with you, why do you even needed, what happened to the other 50 in your closet?!” I screamed anger running through my veins. “why don’t you ask Mike?!!” She’s been fucking him for I don’t know how long, I stopped keeping count when I realize what was happening. 

“Gosh Harry! stop bringing mike into this, I love you and only you.” She argue back

Ha! no falling for that one ever again 

“ No you fucking don’t, you love my money, Fuck! you’re a whore, gold digger slut, I should’ve listen to her, my love was right all along, Fuck I’m so stupid and so done with you Cam-” I got interrupted by her 

“You’re still no over that bitch , you’re so pathe-” I stopped her, that’s it no one and I mean no one calls my baby a bitch. I’m so angry I grab the nearest thing and throw on the floor 

“ Fuck! Don’t you ever call my baby a bitch! you’re the only bitch here, fucking whore you are, I don’t ever want to see you! I don’t know why I didn’t finished this sooner god I was so stupid and just so you know everything I ever said to you was a lie, you suck at everything, cooking, sex, blow jobs, folding clothes everything! Fuck my baby gave me a boner faster than you could ever!” I say angry and out of breath, Camille since stun at my sudden outburst and like she is about to cry 

“Fuck you Harry!” she screams with tears on her eyes grabs her bag and leaves

Now that she is gone, time to figure out how to get my baby girl back..

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That was fun to write :)! I Hope you enjoy Part 3 Please let me know what you think, remember please reblog, like and follow me for more. Request are open for anything. THANK U SO MUCH FOR READING

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Lazerquest - part 2

Alex Turner x Reader

Chapter 2/?

Description: you are an impulsive bartender who recently moved to London after traveling across the United States and living on the road for a few years. You befriend Alex, a musician who recently got out of a long term relationship, and you show him the ways of your free-spirited lifestyle in an attempt to help him move on from his ex. However, you become more of a muse than a friend for Alex and all is revealed when he releases his band’s fourth studio album, “Suck it and See”.

Word count: 1.9k

Warnings: none

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@imagine-that-100 @lolurnotmileskane

Updates whenever the heck I please (at least once a week) 

A/N: hi two updates in one day because im eager to get this show on the road.... by next week i wanna have 4 or so chapters up. also if u wanna send me requests or questions or just be my friend u can message me or whatevah, im always open to talk to people :)

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“So you’re telling me that you were homeless for 3 years?” 

Alex and you were on your way home now, walking shoulder to shoulder and laughing like school children. He had a fantastic sense of humor and was witty beyond belief. The two of you had been playing off of each other and bantering non-stop for the last hour of your shift and ended up getting a bit tipsy before you left. Now you were reeling through the quiet streets of London toward your flat.

“Absolutely not! I could have gone home, I just didn’t. I never even slept in my car or anything I was always in someone’s house or a hotel room. Think of it as like…… I went on tour.” you giggled. 

Alex rolled his eyes. “Love, I am a musician. That’s not a tour. That’s a teenage girl living out of her car and smoking an obscene amount of marijuana with strangers in every state.”

You stopped dead in your tracks and a massive smile appeared across your face. “A musician you say?”

“Yes, Y/N. A musician.”

“Well have I heard you in anything before? What’s your band called? Are they big?”

“Not sure if you’d have heard us. We only have one or two big songs in the states. We’ve got a bit of success here in Europe, though. Ever heard of Arctic Monkeys?” 

Your jaw dropped. Everything was falling into place. Alex. Alex Turner. Arctic Monkeys. The hair. The voice. The confidence. 

“No. There’s no way. You’re not Alex Turner. That can’t be right.” you shook your head in disbelief. 

Alex looked at you and furrowed his brows. “Do I not live up to my name, darling?”

You blushed and your eyes grew wide “Oh my God no that’s not what I meant! I’m just trying to wrap my head around the fact that I’ve spent the last two hours with a heartthrob rockstar and I didn’t realize it.” 

“A heartthrob you say?” Alex puffed his chest up and lifted his chin in a sort of playful, cocky way.

“Woah woah woah, Turner. Don’t go all narcissistic on me. I’m just repeating what the tabloids say.” 

Alex chuckled and shook his head. “You’re funny, Y/N. This is one of the best nights I’ve had in a long time.”

“I don’t believe that. You’re hanging out with some tipsy bartender in the middle of some random neighborhood.” 

“Trust me, this is better than what I usually do on Friday nights.” 

“What does a big rockstar like you usually do on Friday nights then?” 

“Recently? Sleep until one in the morning and then get fucked up at some bar alone. Then go back to sleep.”

“Well that’s depressing.”

“Just be glad that tonight you could provide a lad some real fun.”

At that Alex put his arm around your shoulder and pulled you in for a side-hug. He smelled like cigarettes and sandalwood musk, and you wished you could have your new friend’s arm wrapped around you forever. To lengthen your time close to him, you wrapped your arm around his waist and the two of you began walking with your arms wrapped around each other.

“Well, here we are,” you sighed after a few more minutes of walking. “Home sweet home.”

The two of you looked up at the apartment complex in front of you. Alex still had his arm wrapped around you, and you were fumbling through your jacket pocket for your keys. “Do you want to come in? Obviously you don’t have to, but it’s pretty chilly tonight and I’m not sure how far you live.”

Alex flashed you a smile and you blushed at the sight of his hand going through his unruly hair and his brown eyes looking into yours. “I’d love to come in.”

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“Just go ahead and make yourself at home. I’ve got to go take a shower and warn my roommate that you’re here. There’s alcohol in the pantry and the glasses are in the cupboard left of the sink.” You let out a long sigh of relief as you entered your flat. Alex followed you closely, taking off his sweater when he passed through the threshold. You had to keep yourself from staring at his toned arms before biting your lip and walking down the hall towards Tatiana’s room.

“Hey Tati, wake up,” you whispered and tapped your flat-mate on the shoulder. She snorted awake and gave you a dirty look.

“Why are you waking me right now?” She grunted.

“I just wanted to let you know that the man in the living room is not an intruder and is instead a new friend of mine.”

Tati’s eyes shot open. “YOU MADE A FRIEND? A MALE FRIEND? WHAT KIND OF FRIEND?” she squealed. You gave her a dirty look and put your hand over her mouth to shush her.

“Thin walls, idiot. He’s just a friend friend.”

“I don’t believe that for one second. I’m gonna go out and say hi to him.”

“You better not, Tatiana.” 

“I’m goinngggggg!!” Tati sang as she slipped out from under her comforters and towards the door. You put your forehead in your palm before following her and making sure she didn’t say anything stupid.

“Alex, this is my roommate Tati. Tati, Alex.” you muttered as Tatiana waltzed into the living room and sat beside Alex on the couch. When she plopped down beside him and turned to shake his hand, her eyes went wide. 

“It’s- it’s uh- it’s nice to m-meet you Alex,” she stuttered. Once again, your forehead was in your palm. god dammit Tati. Of course you know who he is.

“Very good to meet you, Tati. This is a lovely place you two have,” Alex chuckled, and shook Tati’s hand firmly. She was ghost white.

“Tati, don’t you think it’s time for you to go back to sleep?” you said through gritted teeth. Tatiana shot you a confused look and smiled weakly at Alex before you both went back down the hall into her room.

After making sure the door was closed behind the both of you, Tatiana looked at you with her jaw dropped and her eyes wide.

“Alex Turner is in my living room. Why is Alex Turner in my living room?” She hissed. 

You sat on her bed and finally took off your heels. “He showed up at the club like, an hour before closing and just started talking to me. I didn’t realize who he was until we were on our way back here.”

“Are you saying you invited Alex Turner into our house without realizing it was Alex Turner?” 

“Actually he was the one who offered to walk me home. I didn’t invite him in until we got here.” 

“Alex Turner….. offered to walk you home….”

“As friends. Just friends.”

“Love, I don’t care if he’s just a friend, you still caught the eye of Alex motherfucking Turner.”

You rolled your eyes and chuckled before standing up and skipping toward the door. “Well you sit here and have your Alex Turner breakdown, I’m going to go shower so I don’t keep our guest waiting any longer.” 

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After your shower, you put on an old sweater and some yoga pants. You ran a comb through your wet hair as you walked out of your room to see Alex sprawled out in the couch, a glass of whiskey in his hand. 

“Glad to see you made yourself at home, Turner,” you teased, and ruffled his hair as you walked past him and towards the kitchen. 

“Only doing what you asked, Y/L/N,” Alex yawned.

“Not getting tired there, are you?” You smirked. Alex sat up on the couch and looked at you with a goofy smile and tired eyes.

“Not a bit.”

“Bullshit. You can stay if you’d like. I’m perfectly comfortable with letting you crash on the couch as long as you let me sit with you for a while so I can drink my glass of wine,” you cooed before taking a bottle of wine and a glass to the living room. 

Alex moved his legs out from next to him and patted a spot on the couch. “Of course, Y/N. I’d love the company.” When you sat down next to him, he put an arm around you and you rested your head on his shoulder. “For a girl I only met a few hours ago, I trust you a lot. It’s been a long time since I’ve enjoyed someone’s company like this.”

You blushed and did your best to hold back a giggle. “Trust me, I’m not usually this calm. I promise I’ll be a bit more interesting once I get some sleep.” 

“Oh you’re plenty interesting already, Y/N. I am excited to see what you’re like at not 4 in the morning, though.”

“Thanks Alex.”

“Y/N? Can I rant to you for a bit? I need the advice of a woman.”

“Of course, Alex. What’s up?”

Alex took a deep breath and pulled you in a bit closer. You could tell whatever he was about to say had been bothering him for a while and you patted his thigh reassuringly.

“It’s okay Alex. I’m here for you,,” you sat up and put your arms around him, so now his head was on your shoulders. You continued cooing affirmations to him and running your hand through his hair before he took his head off of your shoulder and looked you in the eyes.

“Alexa and I broke up last week,” he whispered. Tears began forming in his eyes and you moved your hands from around his neck to the sides of his face to wipe away the tears now streaming down his cheeks. 

“I’m sorry Alex, that’s awful,” you whispered. He pulled you back into a hug and nuzzled his head into the crook of your neck. You both sat in silence for a while before he sighed and gave you a little squeeze.

“I’m sorry for getting all emotional on you, I promise I’m usually more cool than this,” Alex chuckled weakly. “I just don’t have anyone other than my mates to talk to right now and I just feel really comfortable around you.”

“It’s okay Alex. I’m one hundred percent here for you. I’m gonna help you get through this. I promise,” you whispered. You could feel Alex’s tears on your neck and you couldn’t help but get a bit choked up yourself. It’d been years since anyone had confided in you and the fact that Alex felt comfortable enough to let you in on a secret like that in only one night of knowing you warmed your heart. You knew that Alex would be a friend for a long time and you were determined to help him through this. 

“Hey, Al?”

“Yeah, Y/N/N?”

“I know what we’re gonna do tomorrow.”

[lilwenney]

author review tag

thank u so much @blueeyedgeorgie & @elmslielife

name: lacey !!! fandoms: on this blog it’s just the eboys but i also currently write for the boys of gvf and have also written for chris, the sidemen, harry styles, & other youtubers in the past where you post: tumblr & ao3 most popular one shot: stop being grumpy (george) most popular multichap: my babyyyyy affection (will) !!!! favourite story written so far: affection was my favorite, followed by london boy  fic you were nervous to post: the first writing i ever did on here bc it was also the first smut i had written in a long time. it was well received though and all the feedback made me decide to keep writing on here !!  how you choose your titles: they are mostly always based off of songs. affection & london boy were taken directly from title of said songs but others were from lyrics. and then there are a couple that popped into my head while writing so i went with them haha do you outline: yes !!! that’s honestly my favorite part lmao. if it’s a multi-chaptered fic i will sit down and write out a summary, a character outline, and then narrow down each chapter with what needs to happen and how the story will flow. it just helps me keep everything in line and make sure i am always on track. sometimes i even make a section for “use later” which are scenes that i have already written even though i haven’t got that far in the fic lmao completed: oh god. 2 multi-chap fics, 7 imagines, 46 blurbs, 7 headcanons !!  in progress: none coming soon/not started: i have two wip’s in my drafts that i work on once in a while. one for alex, one for george, & the basic outline of one for will prompts?: i love prompts so much bc sometimes i just want to picture lil scenarios and not write out an entire imagine, you know? if i’m in a writing mood, sentence prompts are enough to suffice  upcoming work you’re excited about: if we count the coming soon/not started, it’s the one w/ will bc of the song it’s based off of :) 

i tag whoever wants to take part <3

[kello-unknown]

NEVER THOUGHT IT’D BE HER

Summary:  Max lives an… entertaining life.  She just got out of a relationship she thought would last forever.  Meeting one person leads to more people in her life, and before she knows it, she’s falling in love with someone she never expected to fall in love with.

Words:  1,492

Warnings: like one flashback (but its a flashback of a flashback so), brief mention of alcohol consumption, flirty talk (kinda)

Author’s Note:  dont forget if u wanna catch up on what happened in the last chapter, you can click down below and re-read and remember what happened to the gang lol :D

CHAPTER 1, CHAPTER 2, CHAPTER 3, CHAPTER 4, CHAPTER 5, CHAPTER 6, CHAPTER 7

MASTERLIST

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CHAPTER 8

               THE next few days begin the same for the most part.  Alex starts to wake up a bit earlier every day now that she’s becoming used to waking up in Max’s bed.  The two see each other before Max leaves for work and Alex starts to plan for her day.  Alex had called her boss, who had, over the course of the years she has worked there, become a close friend, and told her a brief story of what happened.  Her boss told her to take as much time as she needed to recover, and Alex intended on doing just that.

               Throughout the first week of her being at the house, Alex spends most of her days taking walks down the street and visiting the town since she lived a few towns over before everything happened.  She gets home around five o’clock usually, and Max comes home from work a little more than an hour later.  The two would eat dinner together and share their day.  They’d watch a silly movie or something stupid so that there would be background noise as they would just talk to each other and enjoy the time they have.  After a while, one of them would say that it was late and that they should go to bed, the other would agree, and the cycle of activities would repeat the next day.

               One day, as she’s taking her daily walk, Alex comes by what looks like, to her, a night club.  She walks by and realizes it’s just a bar.  She’s practically explored the whole town at this point, and this seems to be the only bar in this area.  Then it hits her.  She remembers what Max told her about the night she and Natalie broke up. 

               After what feels like hours of crying, Max gets up and walks to the fridge, looking for the one thing that’s always been there for her whenever she’s had a problem that no one else could help her with.  Downing one bottle of beer, she goes to grab another one, along with her house keys, and goes for a walk.  Ten minutes go by, and she arrives at her go-to bar, stumbling in….

               This must be the bar Max went to drown all of her sorrows.  And by the looks of Max, there must have been a lot of sorrows. 

               Alex pulls her phone out of her pocket and goes through her text messages and clicks on one name.  She hasn’t told anyone about what happened between her and Devin, not even Casey, her best friend since God knows how long.  She couldn’t imagine life without her.  Casey was always there for her, no matter what. 

               “Hey girlie, you doing anything tn?  I have a lot to tell you…”  She sent the text and looked back up at the bar front.  She hears a ding, brings her face back down towards her phone and sees that Casey already texted her back.  “omg yes ofc.  its been a while, im sure u do lmao.  have anywhere in particular u wanna go?”  Alex smiles.

               “There’s this cute bar I just found.  ‘The Black Lion.’  Idk if you’ve ever heard of it, but I’ll send you the addy and meet you there.. say 8ish tn?” 

               “i think ive been there once or twice if memory serves.  ill be there bitch ;)”

               Alex puts her phone into her pocket and continues on her walk.

               After being out for almost four hours on her walk, Alex gets back to the house around the same time she usually does and notices Max’s car in the driveway.  Curious as to why she’s home much earlier than usual, she heads inside to see what’s up.  Walking in the front door, she sees Max sitting at the counter on her phone.  Max looks up to see her roommate and greets her.  Alex does the same as she walks over towards her and asks why she’s home so early in the evening.  “My boss was convinced I was too tired to work even though I already finished my work for the day.  So, she sent me home early since ‘It’s Friday,’ and I should go out with my ‘friends to celebrate the end of another week.’  Her words, not mine,” Max explains. 

               Alex giggles.  “Well good for you then, I guess.  Anyways, I was actually going out with one of my friends tonight since I haven’t seen anyone in a while.”  Max’s eyes widen.

               “That’s great!  Where are you guys gonna go?” she inquires.

               “That bar in town.. I think it’s called ‘The Black Lion’?”  Max nods.

               “Oh!  I love the BL!  That’s my go-to bar.  It’s great.”  Alex smiles at Max’s enthusiasm.  “Listen if anyone - and I mean anyone - gives you a problem trying to get in, tell them you know me.  I’m a regular there and if that doesn’t work, call me.  I’ll come down and show off the guns.”  She then rolls up her sleeves and flexes her bicep.  Alex bursts out laughing, and Max does the same not too long after she starts.  After they both finish laughing, Alex, wiping tears off her face, excuses herself and starts to go get ready for her night out with Casey while Max goes to her text messages. 

               “You doing anything tn?  I got the house to myself if you wanna come over ;)??”  She sets her phone down to walk to the fridge and grabs a drink.  On her way back over to the couch, she picks up and checks her phone to see if she had gotten a message.  Nothing yet.  She tosses her phone onto the couch, grabs the remote and sits down.  As soon as the tv is on, she hears a chime coming from her phone.  She leaves whatever is playing on the tv and picks up her phone.

               “im actually going out with one of my friends tn lol.  maybe later on in the weekend if u can? its been a while ;).”  Max sighs.  She hasn’t seen Casey in a while since Alex has moved in.  But she gets it.  It’s a bros before hoes type thing.

               “I get it lmao.  I’ll have to check ahead to see if I have any work to do,” she knew she wouldn’t have any work, but she likes to play hard to get sometimes, “but I’d love to get together over the weekend.  Have fun tn.”  As if almost on cue, Alex emerges from the bedroom.  She’s got on a pair of blue skinny jeans and a black – no, maybe dark grey – crop top on.  She walks over to the couch with her black heels in her hand.  “Well you look cute.  Are you trying to get with this friend of yours tonight or are you just trying to make him drool?” 

               Alex rolls her eyes.  “First, thank you for the compliment.  I finally went back to the apartment to grab most of my clothes.  Luckily, Devin wasn’t there so I didn’t have to deal with him.”  Max nods.  “Second, no I am not trying to get with my friend, and lastly this friend is a girl.  So politely fuck off.”  She sends a smirk to Max, who just chuckles and throws her hands up in surrender.

               “Alright.  You can still technically get with her, you know.  My first statement still stands, though.  You look hot.”

               Alex raises an eyebrow.  “I thought I looked just cute a few seconds ago.  Now I’m hot?  What made you change your mind?” she teases.  “Is it the heels?  It’s definitely the heels,” she says, as she now sends a wink to her roommate.

               Max sits in her spot on the couch, laughing softly while shaking her head.  Alex stands up and starts to gather what she needs for her escapades and heads for the front door.  Before she leaves, she hears Max yell out, “If you need the bedroom tonight, make sure you text me at least 10 minutes before you get home!”  Alex laughs, yelling out a quick “Okay!” as she closes the front door.  She walks down the driveway, grabs her phone to text Casey to tell her she’s leaving now, and starts her walk to the bar.

               When she’s just around the corner from the bar, Alex texts Casey to see if she’s close.  As she walks up to the front of the bar, she sees her best friend coming from the other direction.  She smiles, walks past the bar and up to Casey.  They both hug each other tightly.

               The two get in without a problem, the bouncer having recognized Casey from her coming to the bar so many times before tonight.  The two sit down at one of the tables in the corner of the bar and their night begins.

NEXT

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tags: @maggie-elise13, @elizabethfictionwriting, @lesbian-deadpool, @the-very-tired-gay,  @timelords-13, @tangled-up-in-bad-decisions, @natashaswhitesuit, @its-a-me-mario-hihi, @marvelfansince08love

[superheroshippinq-archive]

*slides in on my heelies* okay quill, gush time. Scream about anything and everything with your f/os. No holding back —Nic

@me-myself-and-my-fos you're so gonna regret giving me this ask but THANK YOU TGTGSHSGS

putting it under a cut bc its just a big gush dump abt literally all my f/os but to anyone who does read it all thank you and srsly i love u so much i hope u know that i would die for u 🥺🥰 💕

// literally like. where do i start my mind is EVERYWHERE and im having a CRISIS i just love them all ?? sm ?? yknow ??

// i think mainly i’ve been thinking abt mon and winn like .... omg. theres this thing mon el does in c*non where he was reading romeo and juliet and underlining lines that reminded him of kara and I WANT HIM TO DO THAT FOR ME SO SO BAD ........... like that is so soft and usually i dont like taking ideas from c*non ships but oh my god that one is so good .......... 💕💕

// i had a not so good dream last night so i was thinking abt winn comforting me after a nightmare ( and not letting me have coffee at like 2 am to keep myself awake bc he wants me to get some sleep ). and him staying up to help me fall asleep again even tho he’s tired. like. wow he would so do that for me 🥺🥺

// winn is just so cute like hes such a good soft boy and hes so awkward but silly and so CUTE like .... he has a very cute face yknow ?? like a puppy ?? i just ???? i adore him i ADORE HIM and every time i see him im like. sir. sir give me a KISS.

// also i cannot stop thinking abt .... reunions with both of them yknow .... bc theyre both in the 31st century rn and it literally does NOT help that cw keeps teasing them coming back this season like i am so impatient let me see my BOYS AND GIVE THEM BIG SMOOCHES !!!!!!!!!!!! 😤😤

// ok OK BUT ALSO OFC after the last supergirl ive been thinking abt brainy but more specifically female brainy like ......... GOD SHES SO PRETTY. LOOK AT HER. 

// wow that is my WIFE RIGHT THERE THAT IS HER MY WIFE A LITERAL GODDESS I LOVE HER SM. shes so badass and stoic too and you already KNOW thats my type just LOOK at kate and jessica. my brain refuses to be on straight activity today i am SO bi. should i make a new tag for her or should i just keep her under brainy’s tag ??? IDK BUT SHES THE GREATEST. pls. marry me

// and speaking of my wife .... like ,,, wow. kate ,,, she is just. i SWEAR 90% of what she did in last nights ep was stand around in her suit but oh my god i love her so much i was in AWE. luke wasn’t on her comms when she went on missions in that episode so i kept imagining myself taking his place ( since hes my brother ) and being in her ear during missions and wow ..... we’re a power couple aren’t we ..... 

// also. she was just standing around letting those teenagers take selfies with her bc she cant say no lmfao shes adorable.

// I’D GUSH ABT ⭐ BUT I LEGIT DONT TRUST MYSELF WITH KEEPING HIM A SECRET BUT KNOW I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I SAW HIM YESTERDAY IN A RANDOM AD AND I SQUEALED

// ok ok thinking abt mon again bc he helps so much with my anxiety like ..... i can easily think of so many soft scenarios with him and they really help distract me when i get upset or anxious. i think of so much angst with him too but its GOOD ANGST and it still makes me really happy to think abt if that makes sense ??? i just wanna hug him and be in his arms and have soft domestic moments with him .......................... is that so bad ?? i love him so so much ??? 

// WINN TOO I GET TO SEE EVIL WINN IN THE NEXT EP AND THATS LOWKEY ( HIGHKEY ) SO SO EXCITING .... TOYMAKER WINN OH MY GOD

// its kinda funny that a lot of the time i cant think abt mon without thinking abt winn what does that MEAN

// literally just putting this here bc i started thinking abt female brainy again. miss dox. i’d be so lovestruck the first time i meet her i swear. like. i’d be pining so hard alex would tell me to just go home bc im not getting any work done LMFAO. she is literally the DIRECTOR OF THE DEO WHERE SHES FROM OH MY GOD. she is so powerful and knows it i love her. help.

// yknow .... ive been thinking abt the last ep of crisis and how much more cheerful/happy barry seemed and its just so good to see that again. it feels SO GOOD to see that again. all ive wanted this past like 4 MONTHS is for him to be happy again and its happened finally and gosh i am the big heart eyes @ him because im so happy and proud of him ................. i got lost in pics of him on pinterest this morning i SWEAR hes such a big comfort for me that i just go to him even when i dont need comfort tgbtrhgshg. barry sir i cannot wait to marry you. look how far we’ve come

// tomorrow is a new legends ep and i get new nate content .... like ... i love my historian boy i do not give him enough love but i adore him with all my heart. he’s actually one of my longest kept f/os since i’ve been shipping with him WAY before i even made that blog and i think thats pretty great of us 😤👌 im just hoping he gets a lot of screen time !!!!

// *points to conner and jessica* I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY ABT YALL RN BUT I THINK ABT YALL EVERY DAY AND I LOVE YALL SO MUCH AND IM NOT NEGLECTING U I SWEAR

[pingnova]

tagged by @altschmerzes thanks bro.

“Post the first line of your last 10 published fics, then tag 10 people.” 

oh boy, i dont post enough fic for this to turn out well XD  I’m just going to go with the first, like, complete thought bc ive discovered i need to make my first sentences more interesting lol.

1. Four Stories of Domestic Bullshit (SPN) Feb 2019

“Green,” Sam said, eating his green salad and wearing his green jacket. “The bunker has a lot of green in it already, and it’s got a lot of wood and tan stone. Green would match.”

2. Fortune Favors the Bold (SPN/Alex Rider) Feb 2019

A phone began to ring again. This time it was Mick’s personal ringtone. He fished the cell out of his pocket and answered with a simple, “Mick.”

3. Don’t Kill the Messenger (SPN) Oct 2018

Fingers of sunlight painted the city in tender shades of dusk. Tidy brick homes knitted to their neighbors sprawled across dusty hills laden with green palms, corralling a herd of colorful canopies into an open-air market. Time was still. The bustling energy of the people was absent. Gone was the vitality of a dense city. Only echoes of life remained—crowds of footprints in the dust down the aisles, half-opened boxes of merchandise stacked behind tables. A lone bird trilled in the air.

4. It’s an Experience (SPN) Sept 2018

Claire was calling it the Pity Party. A lot had happened to the Winchesters, recently and just in general. Jody, being their surrogate parent, was in full worried mom mode.

5. The Beckoning (W2H) Jul 2018

It was like the clear bell above a shop door, cutting through the noise, through everything. Sock homed in and said, "What is that?"

6. In Pieces (SPN/Alex Rider) Dec 2017

Rough hands tossed him into a cell. Sam stumbled a few steps before collapsing against a wall, sliding to the floor.

(oh my god we’re getting into 2017 i dont want to do this i dont want to look at it alkjsdfh)

7. Consent to Be Damned (SPN/W2H) Sep 2017

He glanced up at the sunless sky, hoping for a glimpse of the moon, a flicker of light in the dark. None came. Fingers prickling, he rubbed his arms, huffing warm clouds into the cold air. A foul tangy scent wafted past his nose. He turned, searching for the garbage can or roadkill that would smell so awful. The sidewalk behind him was empty. Bushes rustled across the street, echoing in the silence.

8. Sleep Hungry (W2H) Jul 2017

Jonathan’s face scrunched up in displeasure. His feet tangled the sheets. He threw an arm over his eyes and rolled onto his side, curling into a tight ball. His eyelids twitched as his eyes moved rapidly under them. He was deep in a dream.

9. Musical Catharsis (W2H) July 2017

The first time it happened was in Prague.

10. Harder Than You Dare (W2H) May 2017

Jonathan shuffled through his newspaper clippings. There was a murder on fourth street—again. Not even a month ago there had been a double homicide on the same street. He taped the new clipping next to the older one and considered the chances that the local police would begin to see a pattern in the next few months.

phew i survived.

i tag @marypsue @magnoliasandbeardedtooth fuck who else do i know who publishes fic. @penn-dragon how could i forget you. @cryptomoon consider this a hello. @ao3commentoftheday i see u around. damn that’s only five. @malmuses! duh! you know if you see this and you write fic consider yourself tagged, no buts.

[51wheezes]

1k+ milestone!!

I recently hit over 1,000 followers on this account and I’m… honestly blown away. Like, that’s fucking insane. I seriously can’t thank y’all enough, but I’M GONNA DO MY BEST. (long post below the cut but tl;dr i’m a big sappy grateful baby and i love all of you xoxo)

I made this account around mid-August of this year, because I’d rapidly fallen down the Buzzfeed Unsolved hole, and wanted to become a part of the fandom. Joining fandoms/online communities in general is… pretty hard for me, for a lot of reasons. I’ve had to really wiggle in and out of fandoms to find what I was most comfortable with, and where I fit in the most. When I joined this fandom, I felt like I was nobody. I wasn’t really sure where to start or who to talk to, let alone how to talk to them. I didn’t know how to gain a following if ever it was possible, I didn’t know how to make friends, I was just sort of… there. But within the first month or so, I became more comfortable with my spot in the fandom and really melded myself into the community by actually communicating with others and creating content.

I’ve found that I ACTUALLY FIT IN HERE!!! WOW THAT’S SOMETHING BECAUSE I LITERALLY NEVER FIT IN ANYWHERE. But everyone here is so kind and warm and so fucking funny, like, it’s impossible for me to scroll through my dash without cracking a smile or bursting out laughing. This fandom is just so great and it’s all around such a chill community of people and?? i’m love??? wow

But, of course, it’s not just about me; I wanted to give a few kind words to some people who have made me feel welcome, became my friends within the past few months, and/or inspire me in so many ways (and in no order of course)!!

@ghostwheeze (ah, mari. the wheeziest ghost of them all. my first follower, an incredibly supportive, talented, and amazing friend, never fails to make me smile/laugh, is there for me when I’m down. You know I love your writing, I’ll never stop shouting it from the rooftops. I can spend literal hours talking to you and I’d love every minute of it. I love u to absolute death boo, and one day I swear I’ll get my ass to Cali so we can hang out and search for the The Bois at Disneyland. deal??? deal. ily)

@spookyboybergara (KAIT UR SO FUCKING FUNNY AND ILYSM!! THANK U FOR BEING SUPPORTIVE AND MAKING ME SMILE AND LAUGH. Honestly I was surprised when you first messaged me because I was like ‘an amazing person with an amazing blog? Talking to ME? Never thought that was likely but I guess it is oof’. Bottom line you’re great thank u for being so great)

@shanebergaras (such a kind, warm, adorable, and funny person!! your blog will never fail to give me this warm feeling, both you and your blog are so nice. Also, you’re incredibly talented. like wow. also I’m soso happy for you!! I have no doubt in my mind that you’re going places, kid. Keep being amazing my dear)

@acacia-writes (u are LITERALLY such a sweet and bubbly person?? your positivity is so heartwarming and I love love LOVE talking to you, you’re such a fucking doll. you have this charm about you and I thought you were just the sweetest as soon as you first messaged me. thank you for deeming me worthy of your friendship??? smooch ily)

@northeasting (EAST? I LOVE YA???? like fuck I love your writing so so SO GODDAMN MUCH AND YOU ARE JUST SUCH A GOOD PERSON WTF. When you say you like my writing my heart stops because like? wow that’s crazy and means a lot? I think you’re fantastic and you know I’ll always love your work and just YOU AS A PERSON!! thank you for your kind words, I’ll always have plenty for you as well)

@boys-and-ghouls (KEANNA!!!! You are an absolute DELIGHT, DO YOU KNOW THAT?? you exude intelligence and wisdom and you’re so goddamn hilarious and just soso kind and your psa’s? so fucking well-worded. honestly i really respect how well you state your opinions and i wish i could word things as well as you do. you’re just such a strong person and i look up to you a lot? yes? you’re such a good friend ily) 

@alcxandermadej (your traditional art has me FUCKING SOARING. I’ve got an entire artist’s kit full of traditional art materials that I still haven’t used because I’m a digital artist and traditional artistry intimidates the living fuck out of me, but your art makes me wanna give it a try??? Maybe one day!! For now I’ll keep ogling your art and telling everyone how amazing it is and how much I idolize your talent) 

@cctinsley (another one of those first blogs I came across and was immediately like wow!!! this person is so cool wtf. your blog is fantastic and your art?? IS SO CUTE AND FLUFFY I LOVE IT KEEP THAT SHIT UP I LIVE FOR IT. GOOD SHIT) 

@crimsxnflxwerz (beautiful art that literally brings me to tears and inspires me improve my own art. beautiful writing. fellow lover of Greek mythology, and writes it so goddamn well, too. beautiful person all around. share some of that beauty, will ya? Just kidding keep it because I love all of the BEAUTIFUL WORK YOU PUT OUT UGH)

@halfwheeze (mer. oh my god okay. your writing makes my soul ascend to heaven. you do it so well and so fast and that’s so fucking inspirational?? I wish I could write such beautiful things on a whim like that rip. You’re also a sweetheart and one of the first few blogs I followed on here. I love all of the content you put out and all of your kind words, you’re just an absolute treat okay)

@wimpydemons (you only recently joined this fandom and you’ve already been so warm to me and others like……you’re so lovely. I love getting messages from you and talking to you!! You always have the nicest things to say and it makes my heart so full. I can’t describe how amazing you are like ily alright)

@ccaffe (your art??? never fails to make me jealous but like, in a proud way. I love your art. Never stop drawing. Also you’re adorable. And I love your blog and your general aesthetics. You’re just so generally wholesome Claude like thank you for blessing me)

@buzzfeedunsoived (ALEX!!!! I love you and your blog!! one of the first unsolved blogs that I came across, and I seriously thought I followed you way sooner than I had but I guess not??? shame on me. I think you are an absolutely fantastic person who so clearly shows how much they care about their friends and that’s just so admirable. your blog makes me giggle and just. ugh. thank you for being such a sweetheart)

@trippy-sunshine96 (such a beautiful person and kind soul who deserves beautiful and good things and warm hugs!! I would so give you warm hugs if I could okay. I love having deep conversations with you and being able to relate with you and honestly? I’m always hoping you’re doing okay because you deserve it!! I care about you so much)

@weirdo-ing (okay one, your writing is SO GOOD. Two, your blog is amazing?? Your fucking tags have me HOWLING. You’re so funny, I scroll through your blog when I need a pick-me-up!! Thank you so much for being so kind and hilarious!!!)

@buzzwheeze (hey wow yeah I’m gonna fucking fight you because your writing makes me cry and you do it so eloquently. c’mon post up greer. no but really you inspire me a hell of a lot and you deserve every ounce of praise you get. never stop being the talented individual you are) 

@smallwheeze (tiny??? you’re so adorable and nice what the shit?? your art is the CUTEST, I wish you uploaded more of it!! I love seeing it! and you’re just a very delightful person your blog is great and oof you’re wonderful)

@brentbennett (FUCK I LOVE U AND UR WRITING. I literally can’t describe how much of an inspiration you are to me, your writing absolutely blows me away each and every fucking time, and YOU’RE SUCH A KIND AND FUNNY PERSON!! UR GREAT!! ILYSM I KNOW YOU’VE BEEN A LIL INACTIVE LATELY I HOPE UR DOING OKAY)

@faequill (your fics were some of the first that I read for this fandom, and let me tell ya; it’s fuckin god tier. A+. amazing. Every fic of yours gets a standing ovation from me. You’re crazy talented and just an all around lovely person!! Also you deserve the world and I’m here for you alright. Stay strong lovely)

@pekuliar (GIRL YOU ARE A M A Z I N G like listen. When you started talking to me I had to make sure you were messaging the right person because you are just so talented and your blog is incredibly aesthetically pleasing and you’re such a delight to talk to!! You’re just so great and I genuinely appreciate you so so much okay)

Hey okay I’m fucking long-winded I’M SORRY. But I wanted to say that my love is absolutely not exclusive to anyone listed here. This fandom is full of great, talented blogs that make this community fantastic to be a part of! Plus, I am so grateful for each and every one of my followers and I want y’all to understand that I am open and willing to talk to any and everyone!! Never be afraid to send me something. I’ll always respond, even if it takes me a little bit (I get a little anxious/intimidated, but I will never turn a single person down). I’m very happy that you all enjoy my trash blog and trash writing and trash shitposts, and found me worthy of a follow. Again, thank you. More trash content to come.  ♡ ♡

[peachthms]

@monthms​ tagged me in this cute lil question meme thingy so here we go! this got so long lmao

Rules: create another 11 questions + tag people. (I’m terrible at these because I never tag people because I think I’m annoying them sorry!!)

Questions from Gabi!

1. Where are you from (if you’re comfortable with sharing)?

Australia born and raised, half australian half filipino.

2. How and when did you start coding?

I started when I was about 14/15 years old maybe? I used to use blogspot religiously lmao (my friend got me into it) and I had some things about the layouts I used that I wanted to change so I googled those questions. And when I switched to tumblr I was still pretty new but tumblr is definitely where I got hooked on coding.

3. Is coding websites also your job or only a hobby?

Future job! (graphic designer/front end web developer hopefully) I’m a student at the moment. 

4. Did you change your url in the past? What were your previous urls?

This is my first url for this blog! I originally went peach to match it with my resource blog at the time.

5. Which of your codes is your favourite and why?

I think out of all my themes (tbh there’s not many, I’ve released a lot more pages which I definitely want to change) my favourite would have to be either Rosewater because of the split design layout and responsiveness or my newly released theme Fate because I think it just looks so clean! And for my pages it’d definitely be Inkheart.

6. Is there anything you want to improve about your codes?

Absolutely, I want to do way more complex designs as well as try to find my style and niche. I also wanna make sure my code is organised and neat, I already try to do that but I can always improve. 

7. What do you do when you feel stuck with coding?

I take a break, especially when I’m feeling burnt out. I just focus on other things I enjoy like watching a tv series or reading a book. Basically just not thinking about it til I feel refreshed and come back to it.

8.  What/Who gives you inspiration?

Hmmm. This is really hard! I get a lot of inspiration from the members of CH, they’re so amazing. And of course the people I follow on instagram/dribbble/behance, there’s so much talent out there it’s insane. If I’m just using a site or an app and I come across an interesting layout or feature I’ll take note of it.

9. What do you do in a free time (other than coding)?

I like to play video games (playing divinity original sin 2 atm!), watch tv/movies/anime/yt, read books/comics/manga, god this is hard?? what do I even do with my time?? I’m quite an introvert so a lot of the things I like to do are single person activities lmao. Oh! I like to clean out my pc! I’ll regularly go through and mass delete stuff I don’t need/use and reorganise my files. I find it quite relaxing.

10. Favourite music artist(s) and song(s) you like recently.

Picking my favourite music is always so hard because I typically just listen to a particular song for months on end. I’m going to just go ahead and pick five songs from my main playlists!

early 2000s punk rock vibes

Mr. Brightside - The Killers

Nicotine - Panic! At The Disco

This Ain’t A Scene, It’s An Arms Race - Fall Out Boy

Girls & Boys - Good Charlotte

When I’m Gone - 3 Doors Down

out of body vibes

Often - The Weeknd

Beggin For Thread - Banks

Stranger Than Earth - Purity Ring

1988 - Chet Faker, Banks

Say My Name - ODESZA, Zyra

melancholic vibes

Big Jet Plane - Angus & Julia Stone

Heartbeats - Jose Gonzalez

Poison & Wine - The Civil Wars

Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra

Wicked Game - James Vincent McMorrow

streetlight vibes (my favourite playlist, I can’t explain how these songs make me feel)

III. Telegraph Ave. - Childish Gambino

The Night - HONNE

Say It - Flume, Tove Lo

Pink + White - Frank Ocean

Atlantis - Seafret

throwback vibes (iconic songs from my childhood that I still listen to on the daily)

Pony - Ginuwine

Toxic - Britney Spears

Survivor - Destiny’s Child

Kiss Me Thru The Phone - Soulja Boy

Tik Tok - Kesha

11.  Any books/TV shows/movies to recommend?

This is just a random selection of things I’ve enjoyed!

TV - Star Trek: Discovery, Broadchurch, Luther, Terrace House, The Bletchley Circle, Outlander

Films - any Ghibli movie, Inception, Mad Max Fury Road (literally my favourite movie ever I’ve watched it so many times), Pride and Prejudice (2005 version is ICONIC), Pacific Rim (love me some drift compatibility)

Anime/Manga - Boku No Hero Academia (I love my frog girl Asui and my birb boy Fumikage), Made In Abyss, Fullmetal Alchemist (lit my childhood), Death Note (also my childhood - don’t talk to me about any of the live action versions thank u), I’m hesitant to rec Shingeki No Kyojin because of how trash the second season was so if you just watch season 1 and read the manga you should be all good

Books - I read a lot of YA lmao. The Lunar Chronicles, The Raven Cycle, The Secret History, Red Queen, Vampire Academy (my early teenage years), The Study series by Maria V Snyder is one I reread constantly in high school. I started reading The Other Boleyn Girl the other day when I was staying at my bf’s house so I’m curious about how it is. I’ve also been reading The Witcher series lately! (I want to finish them before I play TW3) and I’ve really been enjoying them.

If you made it this far then I love you and appreciate you.