#oh my god I talked so much I’m sorry

[finitevoid]

Honestly despite my best efforts I wouldn’t say I’m an expert in modern KH or anything either; the mobile games are long and boring and I’m famously prone to missing details in things that are long and boring. But yes lol I don’t mind correcting you and thank you for theorizing with me hehehehe

I actually think that’s really interesting. I love hearing about old KH theories. like. Did you guys think Vanitas actually had some light in him? Because that’s an interesting thought. but I digress

I think between all the thoughts we’ve postulated here this idea that Vanitas is kind of an amalgamation of both Darkness and of whatever darkness was naturally occurring in Ven’s heart is most likely. because Vanitas’ existential rage at the unnatural mess of his and Ven’s existence in BBS feels very real to me. I would be very disappointed if the games straight up retconned that.

It still begs the question of how much of his personality comes from Darkness vs how much of it is Ven. and what bothers me about this whole thing is that Vanitas and Darkness act pretty differently? Darkness talks to the Master of Masters (the next arc’s main villain, fs) and it… well, it talks like a being of a primordial cosmic force. Vanitas talks like an existential teenager. KH3 Vanitas definitely talks more like Darkness than BBS Vani does, so I’m not sure if this is a minor retcon or if I’m supposed to interpret this as something more sinister on Darkness’ part.

Darkness is arguably the main antagonist of KHUX, it (he? They?) exits Ventus and is then attacked and beaten back by the Dandelions. But it’s so overwhelmingly powerful that they end up doing some classic KH fuckshit to lock it into a data simulation thing.

I also don’t know if you know this, but there’s more than one Darkness. there’s 13 (shockerrrr) and currently there’s..ehhh…..9 accounted for? I think? They’re all in the simulation thing I mentioned earlier. So it’s also possible that this could be a real curveball and that Vanitas could be a Darkness entirely distinct from the one inside of Ventus that killed Strelitzia. I find this unlikely though. As of the end of KHUX Ventus still has Darkness inside of him afaik. And lbr Sora asking the disembodied voice in Ven’s heart if it’s (he’s?) Vanitas and it replying by gently kicking him out of Ven’s heart certainly implies. Some things

I think the hivemind idea is the most interesting because it leaves open the interpretation that Vanitas is still very influenced by his connection to Ven and is still a part of Ven, while also being sort of an unwitting part of a larger whole. which I think is at least ultimately the implication. Whenever I get spooked at the thought of Vanitas being Darkness I remember the disembodied darkness voice in Ven’s heart gently telling Sora to fuck off and not mess with Ven’s “pure heart”.

Also, the end of Dark Road has one (1) scene from the modern KH timeline and it’s when Xehanort talks to Vanitas at the beginning of BBS, which feels significant to the discussion at least in that Vanitas is very present, even in games where he maybe doesn’t need to be. The games are def building to something with Vanitas.

As for the cadence, you’re right that this fan translation that’s supposedly more accurate(?) to the original Japanese sounds a lot more like BBS Vanitas than the weird poeticism of his death scene in Re:Mind. Not sure what’s going on there, but I do enjoy the English line a lot actually.

But I was actually referring to the disembodied voice that Sora encounters in Ven’s heart in Re:Mind. I was remarking that it (he????) sounds a lot like Darkness as we see it in UX but not at all much like Vanitas. Plus it’s nice about Ven. I don’t know if it’s supposed to come off as vaguely sinister because it doesn’t come off as sinister to me at all. That’s why I kind of want it to be Vanitas. Because I’m biased.

Anyway, can I ask you something that you may remember better than me . Is it ever implied or confirmed that Vanitas ended up in Ven (or Sora’s) heart prior to the above ^ scene in Re:Mind? Like is that a ubiquitous fan theory or is there something canonizing it that you know of?

I honestly am not sure where the canon is taking Vanitas, but I definitely think it’s taking him in a different direction. I actually have a little pet theory that the Master of Master’s is actually trying to destroy the Darknesses, which may put Vanitas de-facto on the protagonists side…:3? But I also may be coping.

I don’t think the twist in khux with Darkness murdering strelitzia is necessarily a retcon because ultimately if original ventus has had Darkness in him his entire life, for all intents and purposes his darkness is Darkness, meaning vanitas can be both ven’s darkness and Darkness. this does beg the question of if there’s some kind of meaningful difference in the consciousnessess/personalities of vanitas vs. Darkness, but it seems to be pretty clear subtextually that vanitas at least remembers the events of khux. that conversation is difficult to parse because obviously ven and sora are talking about darkness and vanitas is definitely saying “what I am is Darkness” rather than “what I am is darkness” but at the same time can I really say that with confidence if the subtitles have it lowercase both times he says it? At the same time during the scene in re:mind where sora’s in ven’s heart and vanitas introduces himself as Darkness both times it’s said it’s at the beginning of a sentence because they are Cheeky motherfuckers over at square so it’s impossible to tell if vanitas introduced himself as darkness or Darkness.

It’s also possible that vanitas and Darkness are two different beings entirely and that vanitas either died or returned to the greater whole that is Darkness after his boss fight and that Darkness lives in ven’s heart separately from vanitas’ existence . Sort of like a feeler off of the hivemind situation

I also think they can be the same & even that the vanitas we see in kh3 is probably a time traveled permutation of bbs vanitas in a replica body rather than the actual vanitas. I think this because when he speaks in ven’s heart it has such a different vibe and cadence and is also pretty blatantly protective of ven rather than antagonistic to either ven or sora. at the same time given vanitas’ weird existentialism in kh3 and his insistence on referring to himself and ven as two halves of the alchemical child it’s possible that when you beat vanitas’ boss fight he just goes to hang out in ven’s heart, which is admittedly probably exactly where he wants to be lmfao

[faynthearted]

found someone talking about my fic(s) in the wild on twt earlier today and oh my god it still makes me wanna cry, they were so so so nice

[rainbowtransform]

We need to gatekeep d20

[deepseawave]

obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog

Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️

Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D

[polyamorouspunk]

Honestly I could use a pep talk. This week the positive/negative whiplash has been horrible

Grace my love you have been such a comforting presence in my and a lot of other people’s lives. I’m so, so sorry that things haven’t been going spectacular for you but as I’ve said to you, having someone who is going through a lot of the same things that I am makes me feel so much less alone. I really, really hope that we can find some consistency in it all. Today when I was driving home I was thinking of that cliche “if you could have any superpower what would it be” and I thought “I wish I could control my emotions”. And I thought… that’s not a superpower. That’s something “normal” people can do. But I feel like I can’t. But maybe more things are in my control than I realize. Sometimes I do think that I make excuses for myself. And that’s not to say that we as human beings can control everything in our lives. In fact, it’s what we CAN’T control that brings us stress. Like other people changing their minds about plans and shit 😅 but that’s what makes us dynamic. That’s what makes us human. So I guess, you know, I would be bored or whatever if everything was easy and my life is perfect. I mean, we all need a little drama, right? Like the harmless kind. Like when you go through the drive-through and they give you the wrong order. It’s humbling. It gives us something to complain about. Like, I didn’t fuck up badly to warrant an entire Netflix show about it. At least it’s not THAT bad yet. And I mean. We have all, everyone here, made it through the worse times of our lives already. And sure, there’s every chance the worst thing that’s ever going to happen to us hasn’t happened yet (especially those of us who haven’t reached 25 yet) but honestly as I look back I feel like everything that really sticks out as bad to me isn’t more or less worse than the thing before or after it. It’s just the most present, so it’s the one that hurts them most. I’m GLAD I’m not 16, 18, 20 anymore, even if I had things then I wish I had now and have pain now I didn’t have then. Sometimes the things I have to look forward to don’t feel like enough but what is the alternative? I just have to keep going. I can’t give up. We can’t give up. We have to keep fighting. I refuse to be the one that knocks me down.

[alxclaremont]

there are two wolves inside of you: one feels impending doom at the thought of tomorrow’s race. the other feels immensely hopeful that oscar will get his first win tomorrow or at the very least a mclaren 1-2. you are a formula one fan.

[floral-hex]

I’m so tired. I’m always tired. This suuuucks. and I’m sad and shitty. I know it’s only been a couple of weeks, but I don’t think remeron is a workin for me. Accidentally typed “wormin for me” at first. I wish it was wormin for me. Why won’t you worm for me?😔

[darlin-djarin]

"yeah i don’t participate in fandom discourse lol" dude it’s not even discourse. people are just being straight up racist and you’re sitting there doing nothing.

[voidfishing]

I am extremely intrigued by your hyperspecific taagnus lore if you feel like expanding 👀

oh absolutely 💚💚 this. turned out to be. insanely long <3

okay so. I think that after they met while joining the IPRE, Magnus became interested in Taako pretty quickly. Taako is handsome and tough and pretty and smart as hell, of course Magnus notices all of that immediately. but I can’t imagine him actively trying to pursue a relationship given the whole, yknow, they’re about to literally leave their planet. he’s got bigger picture things to focus on. but I think they do spend quite a bit of time together. Taako actively seeks him out because, despite how much he pokes fun at him, he does think Magnus is fun and cute and sweet. they get along really well, and I like to think Magnus’ pure optimism and general sweetheart behavior made him the first member of the IPRE to really get to spend quality time with Taako without Lup present.

and then I think. there was definitely some light flirting on Taako’s end that was very casual. not super forward or anything, just little things like slightly-more-affectionate pet names or passive compliments that indicated he was paying close attention. and Magnus picked up on maybe half of it. the rest of the time he was like “man Taako’s such a nice guy. what a good friend.” and meanwhile Taako was pulling his hair out going “how is he not in love with me yet I’m being so alluring”

and this dynamic continued for a little while. they got closer. the stolen century actually began. and I think things stayed that way for a handful of cycles, because I don’t feel like either of them would be super focused on starting a relationship while trying to navigate their new lives. but I do think they got closer and closer as teammates and began to rely on each other more, which neither of them placed any extra emphasis on because they were growing closer with everyone else too.

and then I think their relationship started building again a little less than a decade into the century. they’d gotten used to the pattern and their new life, they had a better grasp on the entire situation. and I think they started to lean on each other more and more. Magnus would come to Taako to vent or theorize or talk about their home, and Taako would pick up on the fact that he was seeking comfort and offer it to him, usually through small gestures like making him something to eat and patting him on the shoulder while they talked. Taako would eventually start doing the same sort of thing, showing up to Magnus’ room just to sit quietly when he was struggling in some way and needed to be near someone else. and Magnus would be so sweet and careful about offering him support without hurting his ego, which Taako definitely appreciated.

so. I think things went on like that for a bit and they just continued to get closer and more reliant on one another. and then one day Magnus is sitting in Taako’s room watching him scribble out plans for dodging the hunger and it suddenly strikes him that he’s in love with him. and he says it. and Taako just stops what he’s doing and looks and him and goes “did we not already know this?” & naturally Magnus is a little surprised that Taako recognized his own feelings before him, but he doesn’t have time to worry about that before Taako kisses him.

and I think they date for a while. they work well together and understand how to support one another. they’re a good team!! and both of them are able to find a certain kind of shelter with each other, feeling safe and loved despite facing the end of the world annually. it’s not always easy, but they make a point to work things out when it gets hard.

I don’t really have a timeline for how long they’re officially dating, but I think by the fiftieth cycle, things have changed a little bit. not in a bad way, there’s just been a shift in their dynamic that has changed the way their relationship looks; they’re no longer calling themselves boyfriends, but they’re still super familiar with and supportive of each other. I don’t think they really label the dynamic but they’ve essentially just naturally shifted into being queer platonic partners. they’re technically exes but no one would guess that from seeing them interact. they love each other so much

and oh boy. after the stolen century, after losing their memories, after being (unbeknownst to them) reunited. I think Taako is a little interested in this handsome human he’s working with. the guy’s a little dense but it’s sort of charming to him! Magnus thinks the elf he’s traveling with is very pretty, but he’s not exactly planning on dating anyone anytime soon. he wants to be good buds! and so over the course of their time with the BOB they get closer and a little more intimate with each other, but never to the point of potentially dating. there’s love there and it feels rather platonic for both of them.

and then they get their memories back. and I think it takes Taako a very long time to talk to Magnus about any of it. which is probably a good thing, it gives them both time to digest everything they've been through, and I think their friendship starts to deepen again once they do talk about their history. the love they had lost is back and only reinforced by the fact that they managed to cultivate such a meaningful relationship even without those memories. they eventually get back to where they were during the stolen century, although that takes a couple of years. their relationship is defined by mutual love and they look out for each other as they navigate living (sort of) normal lives

[gio-cosmo]

I’m taking some community college courses soon and istg if someone doesn’t see the fandom related stickers on my laptop and immediately become my lifelong bff I’m dropping all classes idgaf

[suuho]

we need this man in the exo comeback

[fappellmoan]

literally so beyond pissed i have to move a giant ass projector stand by myself first thing this morning as well as yk the whole rest of the setup. my old beloved boss would never do this to me…

[conjectureand-gloom]

slowly realising that i genuinely don’t have any super close friends any more

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

man i’m still so hung up on the way that this professor handled music in the philippines. there were Choices made and though i agreed with a few of them, i found most of them straight up fucking baffling and it was disheartening to not feel heard or invited to contribute to the discussion despite this subject matter being uhhhhhhh my fucking lived experience just because i didn’t pay a twenty dollar membership fee to the fil-am org

[scholarhect]

i will never outgrow responding to people in confusing ways but it will be ok because people are patient :)

[runelocked]

[ im in my angsting-about-william’s-bipolsr mood again bc i’m having awful mood swings recently :’)) if you see me writing more william analysis in my threads / replies no u don’t ]