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And never let you go ♥
Bonus without the overspill lighting:
#💟#Digital art#Full Art#Art#Edgar#Scriabin#It's that time of year again where I get real sappy about Vargas ♥ Because yes! Once again it is my own personal Vargasversary! 🎊 Yaaaay#Seven years now - I don't know what to do with seven years it feels like a hard to define number haha#Right in the middle between five years and ten years! A while to be certain but hard to define as a Long Time either hmm#Well whatever it doesn't matter <3 The important part is that I still love Vargas and them very much ♥♪#I actually didn't really have any specific plans for this Vargasversary :0 I haven't been drawing them much again#Other things have drawn my focus and attention hehe ♪#So I just kinda set my hand loose - no sketches on paper no defined idea - this is just what my hand/brain came up with in the moment#I'm pleased :) I think it accurately expresses how I feel about them hehe <3#I wrote down what ended up being the text/caption a couple months ago while I was in Big Love in their direction#I don't remember what inspired it anymore other than just - They ♥ Themst ♥ Do love them <3#I've planned my next reread now ♪ Barring anything drastic (like an update lol) I know when I'll be rereading next#I'm looking forward to it! :D As always hehe <3#It's still a bit a ways off which works well for recharging :)#And of course I'll be doing my usual in the meanwhile - this and the main anniversary and my sketchdumps and Requestober haha#The caption is as much me as it is Edgar after all <3#Even quiet and sleeping I still find them as a comfort - a place I find rest and joy in ♥#Inspiring and lovely and wonderful - pretty and tender and dear!#Oh and#Always finding a way to flip up the bottom of the shirt#Hehe <3
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So normal about them <33
#Kristen’s taller because she’s grown over the summer#cassandra stayed looking like sophomore year Kristen#because they’ve been left behind in sophomore year etc etc OUGHAGAJAG#they’re tragic to me#idk what happens yet obv but I feel like Cassandra is rly hanging onto sophomore Kristen#while Kristen’s trying to grow and change and such idk is this anything#to be created in the image of your only follower only for them to grow and change while you struggle with it#idk is this anything bc to me it’s everything#OH YEA I GOT DROP OUT BTW!!!! I WATCHED JUNIOR YEAR FIRST EP TODAY HENCE THE ART#FIRT JUNIOR YEAR FANART LETS GOOO#I am so unbelievably excited#IDK WHAT 2 WATCH NEXT… DECIDING BETWEEN BURROWS END AND THE SEVEN#anyways#cassandra fantasy high#kristen applebees#fantasy high#dimension 20#dimension 20 fantasy high#bug taffy’s art
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The sweetest, sweetest feeling
Is knowing full well that I draw better, understand anatomy better, and improving faster than them...
Sweet, sweet feeling, making me try harder, learn better, and practice with such high determination.
#I should not be mean at this hour but boi do these feelings arouse me and my ego#that betch#that unsightly pityful betch#oh but what's the point of having a shadow banned blog if not for stroking my ego this late at night#sweet dreams are made of this#who am i to disagree#I travelled the world and the seven seas#everybody is looking for something#Oh to be mean about some people eventhough they're not here#meanie meanie#humming with my eyes closed
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#Seven's Public Diary#vent#vent post#cw vent#cw vent post#can i go more than a fucking week without having my cptsd triggered again? pLEASE???#me and my haywire nervous system can't ever catch a fucking break i swear to god#at least i managed to get the Matt fic posted before that happened and ruined my night#literally three minutes after i hit post. something has to happen IRL and ruin my slight good mood. sigh. anyways#my chest still feels tight but my focus is coming back i think. lets hope the rest of the night is uneventful#anyways. uh. positives. got the Matt fic posted on here And Ao3! yay. after working on it the last two evenings it's officially done#i know i put way too much effort into my fics especially ones that will get very little readership but eh i can't help it#time spent doing something you enjoy is never time wasted or however the saying goes#uh oh. the stress injury in my neck is starting to feel tight again. that's probably not a great sign#i should try to relax. been sitting at my desk too much recently and my back's mad abt it too#i would unwind with some Genshin exploration grinding or smthn but that's just more desk sitting time#so hm. animal crossing in bed it is then#watch me say that then spend the next 3 hours on tumblr#i cant help it i want to update my pinned posts and fill my queue up some more#and i have some drafts to work on... still need to finish that Sun & Moon appearance guide for ES#maybe i'll pull an all-nighter. i need to fix my sleep schedule again. like badly. but then i risk a migraine. aaggghhhhhh#anyways this has been Venting and Bad Decision Making 101 thabks for coming to my TED talk#oh hey look at that i got a like on the Matt fic. mood slightly improved. thank u whoever u r <3
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#vent#like i know i shouldnt have made the jokes because that gave them permission to#but it was funny at first#and now i can’t make a single mistake or say anything without hearing the ‘oH yOuRe bLiNd UoUr OpInIoN iS iNvAlId”#i don’t mean to sound like a pussy but it hurts after a bit#i skipped going to volunteering for nearly a week because of it#i lied and said i was sick#but like i laughed at the jokes and i style try yo#but i know it’s gone too far to a point where if i say smth to them they’re just gonna scrutinize me for it#and tell me im looking for smth to complain about#but they got these seven year old children to start making fun of me#and i know it was my fault#but it’s just fucking miserable at this point#i hate saying it’s bullying because i feel like it’s not and i don’t wanna sound dramatic#and ig it’s not bullying#but it’s just annoying at this point#and i hate calling it ableism because i feel like my blindness doesn’t count as a disability#and people start babying me when i call it that#ig it counts as one because i’ll start getting state funds for it soon#but idk#i dunno im just so sick of it#i wish someone would stick up for me#because it’s not funny anymore#it just hurts#i sound like a pussy
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hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better
#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow#Seven’s Small Thoughts#not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary#and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much#i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know#i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else#which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways#and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog#i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t#nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty#anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic!#anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah#i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently#it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy#maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get#i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller#and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!!#so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available#which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless#that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine#trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip#i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly#eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it
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finally began reading the infamous if. current mc is maverick/maeve de soto (they/she) & their band's name is VENUS' HAVEN, they are an alternative r&b for reasons unknown to me bc they have such a rock band vibes but whatever. probably a sevenmancer bc i love a good enemies to lovers and bc i can't have rowan 😔
#rena.txt#it took me under 3 seconds to like rowan. while reading his description i was already like this is my man. but okay. FINE. we ball#i still don't know what's the deal with maeve. they are cocky and arrogant but have a good heart. probably. maybe. i feel like she would#get involved in soo many scandals but idk. i will just have them flesh themself out and i'll just sit & look skfjskfsj#also i'm so not made for ifs tbh bc my attention span surely isn't on my side but i really like the vibe of the story so far :]#oh the band's first album is called far from home which i find funny (making me insane) since the name is venus haven so it's like. we are#far from that haven rn. we are going on a journey to get back there (through the albums) and idk love a storytelling through music#it has seven related reasons ofc bc i love drama skfjskdjs#also how are all my sexy mutuals pickings fcs for this like. this is the hardest job ever nothing fits as i want to HMM#also 2x. no idea if venus' haven is correct english or smth my grasp of this language sometimes it's so feeble when it comes to ' send help
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joined a yoi discord server today and told everyone I'm 2 days old to the show
#they FREAKED OUT#LIKE THEY WERE SO HAPPY#IS THIS BECAUSE THEY DONT GET NEW FANS VERY OFTEN OR BECAUSE ITS DIED DOWN#EITHER WAY i felt so appreciated 🥹#i was so afraid id be looked down upon because im SEVEN years late#but everyone got SO EXCITED and welcomed me so much#like for a fandom where it feels like everyones a veteran#i felt so included 🥹#this is how older fandom spaces SHOULD be#the bts fandom has to keep reminding ppl that you're no less for joining later#but in that server i didnt get a sense of “oh im too late” AT ALL#even though everyone who ive seen talk abt the show on here talks abt how “you just had to be there”#so i was worried id get left out#but DAMN#this is why i love fandoms man#yuri on ice#yoi
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#this makes it two times in the past six months that someone went through the effort of sending a message to my barely active profile#on a dying website. just to let me know that six or seven or eight years ago#they read my fic. and it meant something to them. and it still feels important to them#and i just. ohhhhh. ghhh. fanfic! fandom! art! sharing art!#REALLY OLD ART that you almost can't look at anymore but that touched someone somewhere and left such an impression#that they remember six or seven or eight years later. and then just. the kindness of typing out a little message to say so#i am. oh i am definitely going to cry about this a little bit. in the good way#*
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#periodical life updates#lets hope this one goes better than the last one </3#anyway hi everyone. im in an entirely different timezone during this trip so its actually mid afternoon right now#thats not what this is about though this is about how im EXCITED FOR ARTFIGHT AS USUAL!!! lemmy posted his s/is and theyre so cute <3#also the theme reveal is coming on the 23! i hope its enough time for the theme templates? i love doing the theme templates with everyone :#this'll be my seventh year participating holy sht!! ive been doing this for seven (7) years!!!!!!!!#ive been feeling like ive been improving in art every artfight but idk how i'll fare this year. i feel like ive been a bit stagnant#and i did some PRETTY KILLER PIECES LAST YEAR;;; who knows if i'll top it; especially with summer college classes UGH#miserable about that btw. college my beloathed forever and ever amen. :/ ive been meaning to fix a few characters profiles and add some too#FINALLY going to separate kelly and jace! kelly is now the bureau of balance halfling only <3 ive been redrawing a new design of her :>#she has cute pointed ears now heho!! and actual more fantasy-esque clothes to fit her universe <3 jace is getting a separate profile!#jace is now solely my sona and i look SO much more gender now with the haircut and i can post my refs <33#i also want to post agent and icarus and all the javelins but that means i have to draw them actually hfjkh <33#i should also actually add something to shen's profile hfkjfh i care more about xer worldbuilding than xer character i feel </3#IVE BEEN MEANING TO GET QUEUE BACK UP but everytime i look at my drafts i feel so tired </3 theres ART i want to reblog!!!#ough. some other time. okay! im gonna get my artfight discord channel back up and running for the new artfight season! let's go let's go!#oh and i'll be sure to announce which team im joining obviously hdjfdh it'll probably be the lighthearted one <3#some of the themes this year are a little off? (stars vs nebula? heart vs soul? arent those the same thing?) but im hoping for the best <3#okay frfr going now! hope for queue soon maybe if i have time/energy! working on artfight! lets goooooo!! <3
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“Forget a footnote or a chapter— I want the whole fucking history book!”
A moodboard for my @infamous-if mc Rorie Rose, she/her, lead singer of electronic/synth rock band rising//sinking.
#i need to make a playlist but the bands vibes are very much in line with infected mushroom's cover of black velvet#no but genuinely infamous is the funnest if demo i've read in a long time & i'm super excited for more#think i'm gonna go for seven's route first ft not realizing you're in love until it's too late#or maybe g... or august... idk yet actually i love every single ro so far *sobs*#misc facts abt rorie: Knows she's one of the best singers around you can't tell her otherwise.#says shit like 'oh come on i was /born/ to be a rock star it's basically written on my birth certificate'#but is actually really nice & polite lmao she's just very self assured#def told seven they'd be bigger than the beatles & was only half kidding#the r & s in the band name is the name is absolutely a reference to rorie & seven & she voted to keep it a duet#always ends up taking her shoes off on stage b/c she always wears heels & regrets it afterward b/c she's a jump all over the stage singer#loves to be a pest to orion but really respects him & his opinion deep down#low-key a flirt but doesn't really realize it + is very physically affectionate. Will sit on nearly anybody's lap if no chair is available#(she doesn't sit in chairs properly anyway lol. always wants to be on the counter or something)#(*kitty foreman voice* she likes to feel tall)#toes the fashion line between bohemian & whimsigoth- if it's got a skirt & looks like something a 70s era groupie would have worn? she's in#has multiple ear piercings mirrored nostrils a septum & a vertical labret. silver girlie.#idk just random little bits! slowly fleshing her out & obvi more will come as the story progresses ^^#if: infamous
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lookin at my framed pic of mine for comfort is the worst thing i could have ever conceptualized to do because instead of feeling any relief i can distinctly hear him in his godly english call me a dipshit
#snap chats#i should get a framed pic of daigo..... would he call me a dipshit maybe so but he'd be nicer about it... i think...#i already have him on my keyring tho... but what's another daigo pic huh. what's another bigger daigo pic#it's the fact i know my fuckin sister gon say he look like our dad again 😭#but anyway these are why i cant ever do oc/self-inset x canon shit#i know the character too well and value portrayal that i know in my heart we'd never get along and i'd be beaten with a fish in three second#not eveyrone else tho. your blorbos love you kings and queen and lieges#OH YEAH i dont even know why i feel down#logically i should be my happiest. Relatively Speaking#though you can't always logic your way through emotions sometimes you just have to feel them#because thats what emotions are numb nuts theyre feelings you FEEL them not everything has an explanation or logical solution#or the best 'logical solution' is just be humane about it#i just dont like being sad or down :( i wanna go for a walk but it's night now and i dont wanna get ganked#and i dont wanna gank anyone in self defense so#i'll stay in and uhhhhh refresh my socials :) oh wait i just got a comm i should prob sketch that at least gEUGH#gonna watch my hiji fancam seven times maybe then ill feel better
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What's your interpretation of the weird/annoyed look Five gets on his face when Tegan announces that she wants to rejoin the TARDIS at the end of Arc of Infinity? I know it was probably meant to be played for laughs, but it annoys me every time i watch that episode and i'm curious what headcanons people have about it.
My favourite thing I've read about it pointed out that the cybermen specifically used Tegan as a weakness against five, that she's what it took to manipulate him (and through no fault of either of them, Adric's death was part of those consequences.) The novelisation really goes in to the descriptions of the doctor transfixed with the blood running down Tegan's chin from her bitten lip, the building tension as the cybermen get closer and closer to killing her and he's shaking trying to hold himself back from admitting his hearts are so easy to twist, just by threatening his friends. (Does Nyssa ever leave the TARDIS when it's on the spaceship? The cybermen don't even know she exists til they come onboard do they?)
As for why he looks so annoyed? hmmm. Does anyone want someone around that constantly needles them? Really, I think pre Arc of Infinity that even though Tegan had chosen to stay, they still had that power imbalance or even just tension between them that she had not come on board willingly. So five is expecting that to be the continuing, I don't know, continuing manner between them and it hadn't been good. It had its moments (mainly in the audios) but as an arrangement it was not ideal as friends to explore the universe together, all that terrible beauty and awesome monsters.
But it doesn't continue on in that manner - oh they bicker and make faces at each other, sure, but Tegan's conscious decision to step back onto the TARDIS irons out those imbalances, removes that bitterness and the past of her aunt's death. So when he makes that wee face, it's in expectation of the previous status quo. And never let it be said that Tegan's one to do exactly what's expected of her.
Anyway I really hope this makes sense and I may add some more thoughts later but it's 1:50 am Christmas Eve and I couldn't sleep for thinking about this.
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It's 2am I'm back. I feel like there's also this uneasiness in five about tegan, that mirror that no one likes being held up to themselves. Their similarities but the starkly different ways they express them must be exhausting to five. and here she is back again. To push and prod and challenge and be brashly beautifully glorious. wait. that last bit was the two am shipper coming out. Anyway they draw strength and resolve and anger from each other and Tegan was vital to five, from his first moments till his very last.
#again sorry if it's not coherent but it's been a WEEK. and it's still going.#look away if you're not interested because whatever it's my boring life stuff but. worked sunday and tuesday. thursday my boss texted me#did i want to go up to the next largest city flights and accomodation paid and worked for two weeks at their branch of our shop.#(i said no thank you but holy sht.) and that whole day we'd been taking the house apart looking for dads santa outfit for reading#night before christmas to the kids. utterly gone. nowhere to be found. sister said she had one so we were like oof we can relax it's fine.#sister did not in fact have one. so we took the house apart again. still not here. friday i went out and bought the fabric and fur to Make#one (six straight hours work on the jacket alone) and the kids come up to decorate their trees.#oh! and! when i went in to work to buy the fur (i can only purchase stuff of managers it's store policy) she was like. you can't leave the#shop. stay here. and i went no???? have i done something wrong??? but another manager came down and the managers had put together little#Christmas gift bags for everyone which is so sweet because i still feel like I'm there on sufferance even though it's been like 4 months.#but then. seven o'clock or so when i was still cutting up panne velvet i get an email from the boss who offered me the chch opportunity -#he's now quitting his position at our store. two weeks notice. so I'm stressed about that because we had a good thing going where he'd text#me once a week. we'd arrange extra shifts and that was it. what if the new store manager sucks or hates me or something??#and I've got like five half finished advent fics but i just. don't have the spoons between work tired and c19 brain fog and christmas tired#anyway none of this is about five and Tegan I'm so sorry i just need about ten more weighted blankets on me.#five#tegan#an ask a palpable ask#srsly i love being asked about them or any dw opinions you are so wonderful in my eyes#tbh the advent fics are getting to the point i might just post them all the way through January and when i write little ficlets. people#seem vaguely to be enjoying them but trying to do a December thing was a bit much.#I've just realised this week was even longer. last Saturday we spent the whole day out of town with the kids. and Tuesday we went out of#town to do the stuff we'd planned to do before we had to babysit them on our planned trip day. jfc no wonder I can't brain straight
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i have never felt more dumb by a class than i did by language literacy when i was 15
#basically the worst part was i thought it was just gonna be and english ext type thing but no#now looking back at it i was in bottom english too so 2016 was the year i lost faith in the english department#anyways i remember my mum actually called the school and went ‘this class is making my daughter feel dumb and not in a good way’#literally its bc you selected her for it and then are reteaching her fucking english grammer#*granmar#enough on that tho at least i worked my way out#and there was no yearly either lol#i have stories about how fucking incompetent my schools english department made me feel 7 years ago but you know what? im fine now#gonna continue writing my silly stories out of fucking spite#that combined with my ex friend’s math test story is kinda fucked#basically in year seven they altered the questions in her’s and several other’s tests to make it easier#then when they did well it would “boost their confidence”#i repressed it fr and it just came back to me then#and i was like… oh thats the point i gave up on them! it was long before my yr 12 teacher decided to hate me!!!#they tried so hard to make me a woman in stem
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I'M SORRY BUT OGGE SHARING A WHOLE BUNCH OF THROWBACK THE FOOO CONSPIRACY STUFF ON HIS INSTAGRAM STORIES HELLO????? AJO GREAT IDEA WHY DON'T I JUST BREAK DOWN AND CRY FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT THANKS
#AND I HAD TO FIND IT OUT ON OSCAR'S SHARED INSTA STORY FROM HIM OUT OF ALL THINGS PÅ JÄVLA RIKTIGT NU#AND THEN AND THEN I HAD TO FUCKIN PULL UP THEIR VV FIRST KANGAROOS VID FROM GOOGLE SEARCH BEFORE I FINALLY GOT THE MEMO BITING CLAWING ETC.#THIS IS *THE* MOMENT OH MY GOD 10 YEARS OF THE FOOO BOYS I AM SO FULL OF EMOTIONS AND MEMORIES AND PURE P A I N#YES I'VE ONLY KNOWN THEM FOR ROUGHLY SEVEN MONTHS (ONE MONTH SHY OF ONE YEAR IF YOU FIRST COUNT OMAR THOUGH) BUT IT FEELS LIKE FOREVER NOW#TBH IT'S GONNA BE FOREVER ONCE I GET MY TFC-INSPIRED TATTOO HAHAHSHSJD MANIFESTINGGG THAT'S HOW SERIOUS I AM ABOUT THEM#THIS IS ALSO EXTRA OUCH ON MY HEART (IN A GOOD WAY) WHAT WITH FO&O AND LOWKEY OGGE ERASURE BUT LOOK HOW PROUD HE IS OF THEM. FUCK I AM TOO#AND JUST THE FACT THAT THEY'RE ALL STILL FRIENDS TO THIS VERY DAY TOO I AM GONNA GNAW OFF MY ARM THINKING ABT IT AHHHHHH (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)#I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH AND I MISS THEM EVEN MORE ;-; FELIX OSCAR OMAR OGGE ARE MY RIDE AND DIES IDC I'M IN THIS FOR LIFE <3#apologies for cryshitposting on this blog that i still haven't properly started up. man fuck work but also i might just make some fooo gifs#as a celebration. also to appease ye olde hyperfixating adhd brainworms heheh (cry for help)#fo&o#tfc#the fooo conspiracy#olly molander#olle
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It’s finally done. I’m... feeling a little emotional, honestly. All my D&D character references are now “recovered”, as in redrawn completely, from my broken SSD whose files were all lost.
I... I just want to sit back and put my head in my hands. [Cont’d]
This... It’s every character I have made for D&D since I started playing. The first two I designed - Miri Evenwood and Cecillia - down to the most recent two - Zarris and Joy - all together, all forms, all types, all everything, all at once. I’m just... This was so much work and effort.
When I lost the original file with all these guys in it, I thought that was it. Nothing. But I do post my art here and on Twitter, no? I saved what I could off here and there, and the quality of these guys was... bad. Like, really bad. Most of the pictures I downloaded looked like this:
Fuzzy, illegible, and most details lost. Some were better quality, but...
...the image compression of being uploaded to Tumblr or Twitter was... difficult to contend with. I did have some I shared on Discord, however, those were a little more to work from.
I had some sketches, linearts, in-progress images, and some poor-quality finished works. All out of order, all wildly differing in quality. I sat back and had to think, what could I even do here? My character references, all lost to an SSD that Windows Recovery corrupted the data off of. That was probably the end of the story.
But I am stubborn.
I started to redraw them. Why did I start with Ezra, Axel, and Blaze? I don’t know why, but I’ve held these three close to me. And then I started making the basic line art for each other character, either completely by scratch (see Verda here) or with a crunchy, fuzzy, off-my-twitter-or-tumblr reference to work from.
With each new character I drew the lines for, with each finished reference, I felt like the task ahead of me was monumental - impossible at times. Work got stressful, life got in the way, and whenever I had a few minutes to myself, I was putting character after character through the redux machine and redrawing them by hand.
Some stayed incomplete for a while. Some were started and finished within a... week, reluctantly. I spent a lot of time looking at what I’d done so far, and then back at the ones I had yet to finish or start. At a certain point, I felt like I had given myself a task that I would never complete - a problem I could never solve. Maybe I would’ve given up after a certain point.
But then I didn’t. I refused to give up. I made notes for myself, I reviewed old notes saved to my old phone that barely worked that told me which of my unsaved list I had later dropped or redone. I kept drawing these characters, and about at this time I realized something.
I had been making D&D characters for almost a decade. Some of these guys are from that time - Miri and Cecillia, namely - and some had been in-progress for years before I actually ended up using them - Blaze and Axel came to mind - and here they were. Again. After I had initially lost them.
This was something that gradually made me better at drawing. This was history - my own personal brain’s history, at least - and I was doing everything I could to ensure I kept it. Not only was I determined to have at least one single full-body reference of each character I could ever use in D&D, I remembered my original goal when I was drawing these guys.
One of each race and class combination. Of course, a silly goal, but it allowed my creativity to flow and make some genuinely cool characters. I would always look back on these guys and smile, and now I can do that again - and add more.
And the satisfaction of lining them all up in a colour order was so good.
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So yeah, from October to December. So much work, and the payoff was absolutely worth the effort and time that went into it. Through every burnt-out evening, from days I spent stuck on the couch unable to move through the pain to days I spent here and there and back again. Through each hour worked at my job, to each our I worked at home and doodled these guys. They’re here again, and they’ll see me through.
And I encourage you to design your own characters. I use D&D as inspiration for these, but I have others, after all...
But at least these references are more stuck towards their names than their full outfits, fuck’s sake. These were my May-August project of recovering files so... This year’s been certainly interesting.
#the disappointment speaks#drawings by me#OCs#D&D#the powerful stance I have rn is off the charts. look at these fuckin guys. so many of them#I challenge any AI artist to capture this feeling. spoiler: they cant! art is the combination of imagination and skill#and god. my skill is nothing in comparison to every other artist out there.#challenge yourself in the new year: become an artist. I don't mean like picasso or the group of seven artist. I mean draw something.#doodle a guy now and again. make some stick figures. have fun. get some cheap paints and printer painter and go ham. *make something*#one of these days you'll look back on those first drawings and smile. oh how far you've come.#that is the feeling I have.#the feeling of ''look at me now. look at my road and how far I've come. I could cry.''#and to be honest...?#I might. who knows.#<3 anyhow love everyone and be kind. peace out and catch you all later
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