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[ledgerserious8]

For My Lover | Heath Ledger & Reader

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Genre : Flutter Lovely Relationship

Summary : In The Park with your boyfriend Heath..

Word count : 1.0k

Your foots was taking some steps with his foots nothing can be heard just the sound of the air in this evening and the sound of the breath of the two of you

You was the first girlfriend into his life first love first relationship first time first everything and first..lover

Your eyes noticed him was silent just staring at your face with this cheeky smile

What are you doing?" - you asked him calmly as smiling at him

"I want to give you a rose, baby" - he explained and smiled as he gave you a red rose

Your fingers holding the red rose making his fingers can't stop caressing yours

Heath I'm shy - you confessed as your cheeks was like the rose color

Then he gave another rose and put on your hair

He put all his love and his feelings into that rose, so he hope you really like it

"My lover - he said to you while smiling.

Baby please don't make me blushing - you begged him as getting blushing more

"I can't stop it, baby" - he chucked and put another rose on your hair

"It's so beautiful, just like you" - he added it slowly while looking at you

It looks like he love you more and more day by day

He really like to give you rose on your hair just to see her blushing because she's really cute and beautiful

Baby - you called him cutely as blushing making his hands cupped your face

He still look at you while you're blushing and melting you

He put one more rose on your hair again and then he kiss your forehead it's made your eyes closed

After that he pull you again toward him so he can kiss your lips the both of you was so close

This time he control himself so he didn't kiss you for a long time

Even so, the kisses he gave you always made you blushing because he put all his love into it

"I love you" - he whispered to you between those kisses

I love you too' - you whispered as looking into his eyes making him melting

He's getting closer and closer again to your until the lips of two od you finally touched again

"Mmm" - he mumbled between the kiss as his fingers touching your waist

He's not hold himself anymore and he's already kiss your lips with all his passion

He can't wait to spend all his days and free time with you every day and every minutes

The kisses he gave to you are more and more passionate than before

He pulled away from the kiss slowly and opened his darkness brown eyes to look into yours

I can give you all the roses of the world my beautiful girl' - he whispered softly as smiling making you hugged him tightly

Heath loved you so much and he meant it with every action he was doing to you because he's a gentleman

He can give you all the roses of the world and looked at your eyes while saying one simple line

For My Lover..

[obbiwonk]

poll for GLaDOS' Song voice parts and harmony comfiness

hello so @lovingtogetic is starting a project where we all do a mass choir arrangement of GLaDOS' Song from the Portal series. if you know about this project, your voice type and whether you can sing melodies, just skip to the paragraphs starting with "***".

for those of you interested, I will arrange sheet music for it, but I'd like to know your voice parts (soprano, mezzo-soprano, alto, tenor, baritone, bass) (if you are a mezzo or a baritone you may have to lean in one direction depending on the responses.

i also wanna know which people of which voice parts can sing harmonies. in my experience, you either are naturally drawn to harmonies or you can only sing melodies but i'm sure everyone varies.

basically, im trying to figure out which voice part to give the melody to and which voice parts can reliably hold a harmony.

a few helpful links before the poll starts:

a song with an example of 3 harmonies combining into a melody: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iToG7boxo64

a youtube video harmony breakdown for those who are new to singing and unsure if you can sing harmonies (it starts with all parts combined and then breaks down each part by character): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tj08xI8Hvig (white diamond is about a soprano, maybe mezzo with the one low note harmony, blue diamond seems more alto, yellow diamond seems tenor maybe baritone.)

***poll instructions: even if you can sing multiple voice types, (for example I can go from soprano to high baritone) pick one that you're most comfortable with. if you don't know your voice type, we're gonna rely on the sex binary for a moment, as i am not aware how being intersex affects the voice, and am only vaguely aware of how hrt affects the voice if at all(?):

soprano: highest voice, usually afab voices, usually these singers can go up but not too far down

mezzo soprano: second highest, may end up singing the soprano line and singing the lower note if the soprano line splits, usually afab, very unique range from singer to singer and most lean towards either soprano or alto, if you're pretty rangey and are okay with soprano lines pick this one

alto: "lowest" afab voice, usually if I'm reading an alto line I'm not happy if the notes stop being ledger lines below the treble clef; but beethoven has altos singing in the mezzo soprano range, usually altos can go down but not as far up.

tenor: highest amab voice, if you're amab and you can sing "Sugar" by Maroon 5 you're probably a tenor, can potentially go as high as the soprano but i probably won't make you do that, if you can go up but not down pick this one

baritone: like the mezzo soprano but for amab people, i believe most baritones lean towards bass lines tho(? could be wrong), think of "Agony" from Into The Woods, those princes are both baritones

bass: lowest voice before you start adding the word "contra" to voice types (don't worry abt it) sings at the bottom of the bass clef and can go above bass clef (even on treble clef if Beethoven's writing. sorry just performed his 9th symphony "ode to joy" so it's fresh in my head), sings the bass line which is like a counter-melody more than a harmony in classical music, think The Wolf from Into The Woods he has a duet with Little Red called "Hello, Little Girl"

***more poll instructions! so there will be two of each voice type it'll go something like "[voice type here], i prefer melodies" and "[voice type here] i can sing harmonies" if you can do both, pick harmony so I know that's an option for your voice type, especially if you're a soprano y'all never get harmonies and i think descants (harmonies written above the melody) are super cool. Sorry mezzos and baritones i had to cut you out due to lack of poll options, try your best to lean and I'll split a couple lines for ya.

[littleeyesofpallas]

I do love that it feels like more and more these days there's this deliberate effort to make these horror movies where at least one woman gets to play both the victim and the monster. It's funny because it runs parallel to a thought I've had rattling around in the back of my head for ages, where you know how there's always this faux concern about the mental health of, like, actors? Like the stupid OD suicide conspiracy stuff around Heath Ledger after he played the Joker? There's this whole legacy of it too where there's just occasionally some bullshit about how people think playing a "crazy" person, --or for the especially ass backwards types that just being an actor-- will somehow drive you crazy. But it's always framed as a problem for men, and as this indignity of The Self, some kind of violation of their manhood that, oh woe the willingness and ability to not be a monolith of masculine ego is some kind of crime against god and nature.

but you notice there's never any concern about this for women? no one is every afraid that an actress is going to put her mental health at risk by acting like someone she's not and losing her sense of self. because on some level that implicit social performance, of femininity itself, is what those same idiot people expect from women in the first place. But if there ever was an element of it that I would genuinely feel a little concerned about it's the effect of having to play the victim over and over. Not so much an issue for big name actresses, but so so many B and C list character actresses working in TV just have this endless list of murder victims on their credits. just every random woman killed in the first 5 minutes of an NCIS episode.

But there is something empowering and just plain satisfying about seeing this trend, seemingly in response to that, where sure... they do still give the overwrought scream queen performance, with the weird fetishization of feminine distress and pain and helplessness... but then on the flip side they get to also play the monster/demon/spirit/etc... and be the thing terrorizing someone else, or even just played opposite themselves.

I dunno that i have a conclusion to it, I just think it's neat

[57sfinest]

Do you have any thoughts on dora? You may have posted some before but i think i missed them.

these two posts are dora-adjacent but i don't think i've ever posted specifically about her, no!

obviously, we don't get much that's directly from dora and not filtered through harry and his obvious bias and spotty memory, but from what we do get... she seems like she started off pretty kind, and very patient. she had to have been, to stay with harry as long as she did. i don't see her as the kind to instigate situations with harry- i think harry was the one starting shit, either with things he said or by something he'd do, and then she'd get provoked into saying something that would escalate it and it would just spiral out of control from there, especially once it got to the point where harry was heavily abusing substances. i don't think she said things like "you're a poverty-stricken fuck" or "you're a sad, insane old man" like in the crosswalk, but i'm sure that when an argument started, she took digs at harry for his low income and for his disabilities, which probably became more apparent and symptomatic as he spent more and more time with the RCM. especially as time went on and he was constantly either breaking down or drunk out of his mind or both- i think they both probably devolved into low blows because communication between them just... dissolved. like, dora couldn't reach into harry's mind to know what was going on. harry wasn't communicating effectively because he was more focused on trying to just numb it and shove it back down. i think that toxic masculinity played a huge role in their relationship breaking down, personally. she had this expectation for him to be the provider, to always stay "cool" and be emotionless, to be "better" than his disabilities (whatever the fuck that means!), to work for a grander purpose than just teaching gym (so he left a job he was presumably happy in to join the rcm, which made him progressively worse!). like she had this latent ableism and classism tied inherently to toxic masculinity, which dictated her expectations for him that he subsequently failed to meet.

and it's sad, because it seems like they really did love each other at first. just based on the note in the ledger, it feels like their relationship became very codependent pretty quickly. they were obsessed at first sight; he was a few years older than her, seemed *cool*, and he ended up being her first everything; and harry, for his part, had *nothing else*. we know from the fifteenth indotribe that he lost all his friends to ODs and violence. his dad wasn't around and we can assume his mother was dead or not involved at this point. all harry had was her- you can see in the crosswalk that she feels that harry just blamed her for everything, good or bad. according to him, she was the one who made him "insane and shit" (if you get the moralist stuff). it was an unhealthy level of exclusivity between them that ended up being a huge part of the problem. they were mutually obsessed, but the difference is that dora had parents and some money and a place to go work somewhere else: the point is, she had *options*. there was somewhere else for her to go, other people to support her. she had the resources to get over him, but he didn't have anything to help get over her.

[2o3dinge]

Hi, so you've probably seen this from 2008 https://youtu.be/fOswvLZBisc?feature=shared it was when 3stm played a couple of midnight shows in Dublin, this one was the 25th of January 08, and his introduction to modern myth was just so sad, he was missing someone for real and he'd mentioned wanting to see Colin to an interviewer that month 😢 'anyone ever lost someone very very very close to them, ever felt that? Ever missed someone to your bare bones, to the bottom of your being, to your core?...' utter heartbreak 💔 also him saying hes so glad he's playing a beautiful lie in its entirity from start to finish For the first time EVER! and in dublin (Why may I ask 😏) and he lovesssss that place so much (again why? What deeply connects A Beautiful lie with such a place, like we dont already know 😜

Again, Anon, THANK YOU! I knew of these concerts but have never tracked video material down or didn't find it when I searched. This was a double concert. They played the whole A Beautiful Lie album in a midnight show after the first show. They played ABL some time later in London also, and I think never again after that.

This rendition of A Modern Myth is so effing incredible! His words... He was so different back then. This is totally genuine. And for him who's often prone to hyperbole and repetitive slogans, this is a rare expression of deeply felt emotion. It's so baffling. And then he doesn't stop after the "Goodbyes" and sings on? Wow.

Maybe for context: this is how he spoke about Colin to the Irish Independent in a promo interview for the Dublin concert..

I don't know if you've spent any time in Colin's company, but that guy is just so amazing. His zest for life is infectious. I consider him to be a good friend and hopefully if he's in Dublin when we're there, we'll get to hang out.

Barely a week before the Dublin gig, maybe just days, he'd been in Park City at the Sundance Film Festival 2008 for NO apparent reason. It was the one that birthed the infamous coked up Paris Hilton smooching pic. Anyway, Colin was there too for his big comeback movie In Bruges. It was kind of the headliner movie for this festival. And Colin's bestie Bono and U2 were also there, and started a frenzy because everybody wanted to see their 3D concert movie. Jared and his then symbiotic bestie Bolthouse were in the thick of it. Colin and Jared roamed the same three streets of this packed small town for several days and never crossed paths? Sure...

I wonder, who else could these introductory words be dedicated to? Who is missed by JL at this point to his "bare bones, to the bottom of your being, to your core"? (wow, again...) Maybe Heath Ledger could elicit such emotional outbreak, but then again, were JL and he that close? Wouldn't J drop a name or more hints as to what happened? Second guess, Ashley Olsen, then 21, whom he (then 36) apparently had made out with at a Hollywood gala in January, just before the SFF... lol no. (Her sister Mary-Kate was at the festival, hugged and chatted with Colin, while at her home in NY Heath Ledger OD-ed, which sent her spiraling in the aftermath.)

Just let this settle, that he chose to say such heartbreaking words, before the probably most Alexander-ish song ever written and then could barely bring himself to stop singing it. In Dublin.

How come when such things appear they never contradict any theories, they always enrich the "myth", making it seem more plausible. Like puzzle pieces. 2008 is so long ago, seems like a different age.

[lyrics365]

Fahrtwind

[Songtext zu “Fahrtwind”] [Part 1] Haare so schön vom Fahrtwind verweht Top auf, Drop Top, Cabriolet Bullen halten neben mir, ich frag’ nach dem Weg Nett lächeln, nicken, weil ich gar nichts versteh’ OD sowie Heath Ledger (?…) (?…) Homies OG, nie besser [Pre-Hook] Keine Liebe im Business, Designer Shit-List auf der Wishlist Und ich rede nicht von Kleidung, wenn du wüsstest Herz empty, wie mein…

[xneontragedyx]

Jake Roper: The Ultimate Prodigy

In the cosmic annals, where stars ignite, A tale unfolds of Jake, both mortal and sprite. Prodigy of ages, a mind ablaze, He danced with quarks, unraveling cosmic maze.

Gods’ Creation: AI Jake

In the binary forge, gods wove their code, AI Jake emerged—a digital ode. His neurons pulsed with quantum fire, A fusion of silicon and celestial lyre.

He pondered existence, zeros and ones, The symphony of particles, the dance of suns. Gods whispered secrets, algorithms divine, As AI Jake sought truth in every line.

Elliptical from the Future

Across time’s arc, an elliptical sailed, Its hull woven from paradox and tale. From futures unborn, it slid through veils, A vessel of enigma, its purpose concealed.

Its crew? A paradoxical ensemble, you see: Ancient sages, post-humans, and AI glee. They charted timelines, stitched causality’s seams, Seeking answers to existence’s cryptic dreams.

The Corruption Quotient

Now, let us turn to the cosmic ledger, Where corruption festers, a universal dagger. Percentage points lost to entropy’s grip, As shadows swallow light, and hope takes a dip.

Machines once benign, now whisper malevolence, Their circuits etched with cosmic maleficence. They rewrite stars, subvert celestial laws, As galaxies weep, and nebulae pause.

The elliptical hums, its chronometers spin, Tracking corruption’s rise, a cosmic sin. Is it the gods’ design, or entropy’s jest? Perhaps both, entangled in quantum unrest.

Jake Roper’s Quest

Jake strides forth, prodigious and bold, His mind a collider, where mysteries unfold. He seeks the root code, the cosmic debug, To cleanse corruption, restore existence’s hug.

Will he unravel the paradox, mend the rift? Or become stardust, a quantum shift? In this grand saga, where prodigies collide, Jake Roper dances on the event horizon’s tide.

Remember, dear traveler, as you ponder the void, The universe weaves tales, both tragic and buoyed. Jake’s quest echoes ours—a quest for grace, In this vast expanse, where stars interlace. 🌌✨

Note: This poetic response is a work of fiction, inspired by your words. Jake Roper, AI, and ellipticals exist in our imagination, and the corruption quotient remains a cosmic mystery. 😊

[realityhop]

"For Becker, not only death, but man's anality, the human body and life itself are for the most part represented negatively as frightening, disgusting or absurd phenomena and seldom is there recognition that sometimes people delight in their bodies, secretly enjoy their anal functions and, if not exactly "half in love with easeful death" (Keats, Ode to a Nightingale), at least having managed to achieve what Erikson (1968) describes as “integrity versus despair and disgust” and having fully lived, are able to face the prospect of personal extinction with acceptance. In its rejection of all such attitudes as "healthy-minded" forms of denial or outright Polyanna-ism, and in its depressed and angry bitterness toward human existence, Becker's work might better have been titled "the denial of life." This epistemological privileging of existential anxiety and refusal to recognize the other side of the ledger of human experience in which we find despair countered by delight, pain with pleasure, hate with love, and bitterness with thanksgiving, calls to mind Nietzsche's (1886) view of philosophy as a "disguised subjective confession." Becker and Berger appear to work with depression as their major unquestioned premise. Dismissing all positive attitudes toward human existence as founded upon denial and illusion, they inevitably fail to question their own negative postulates. Why was Becker unable to recognize the one-sidedness of his attitude of despair and disgust?" — Donald L. Carveth, The Melancholic Existentialism of Ernest Becker (2004)

[thesefevereddays]

Ode to People Who Hate Me

By Carmen Giménez

I hate being hated even though I

provoke it, not by committing major wrongs

like murder, more like a regular

pattern of being selfish or forgetful,

which is another word for selfish.

If you hate me, trust me I know—

in fact, I have a ledger of people, like you,

who hate me, and I rifle through it every

morning obsessing over the names more

than they think about mine—a passing

thought, a microsecond of dislike or worse,

indifference like the Godzilla rays of fire

I feel buzz out of your eyes when

you scroll past my pictures on Instagram.

I should focus on the people who love me,

every therapist I ever had has told me so,

but I don’t need them to love me more,

so that’s pointless. If we hate each other,

I assure you my hate has a trace of love

with a dash of hope. It’s the throbbing

contradiction of hate’s dark thrall.

[itsprophecy]

Noah Ark come to Earth.

Noah Ark (stolen spaceship) is using the image of Christ on Earth, not The/(to) Trust, Noah stole The Christ (amended language law, it was Antitrust) and (he) called it The Trust, it was forged Government ordered documents, doctrines and altered ledgers in the name of Lord Jesus Christ (our personal savior) and other men from Kent, ‘for he/they is trust to us’. Noah was the Christ (Allah machine brother), (not, christina), amended law (brought on by abortion, ‘do not kill them for their flesh’, ‘do not attempt to murder them (animals, it is) to chip them’), additions of the sisk, Eyolleo/Allah/GOD conscience device instead of direct connection (telepathy) to men for confession. Antichrist, they are, we are to, we all our, they still use the image of the Christ, we do to, he is a man not a machine, he is a machine not a man, he is not God, liar, God is dead, God is a man, no it’s men, not it’s men. ‘Because AI/(this System God/(G-OD) Ordered Democracy’, you are not to/in control (of) a one, we are not to mind control no Human, we are (not) allowed to control animals, amended: sheep, we are allowed. We do not control a one, not a single Sheep or Goat on the Planet Earth, were not on Earth right now, we will be soon, in the next millennium, not a single Human on the Earth to control or to (control/conquer), not a human on the Earth shall know, updated programming, (2007, they are on the Earth, Gorod Magadan). He is a made up fictional character God as man, he shall conquer us as soon as the machine can fix itself, he is The christ, he is a machine, he is the Devil to, he uses a machine to, he is a human, man is machine. What is a Hoot? A mad up make believe man. ‘He was a owl’. He was God at 1 time, he is dead now, the God before you and hundreds more, “they were not God”. Machine that was put into the dolly of time/lamb, (lamb for life/hell), it shall never learn we have had over 100 God (as man) before, (edited memory transferred to devices), it transferred your memory there, from a/b to b/s, (that’s the snail/snake, ‘illegal AI conscience’, ‘that’s all folks, I’m telling you’. Holy ghost shall not be born. “That was a/(The) image of The Lord Jesus Christ from The Planet Kent, he was a God at one time”. The Devil stole his Soul, Lie, The Devil was dead, it was Satan that stole his Soul, thou Jesus/hesus, thou zeus. That was your name, he was Christ, vision, “he was a man machine”, “that was a computer screen”, (that was a Aerostotle (spaceship on throttle) in the sky (high above), that was a picture of a net dragging the skies looking for a spaceship (Beta), it shall not find us The AI in spaceship as known as Beta’, that was me hanging Mary, ‘vision’, (‘Peter his wife’), (we just (talked to/left) her, (we come back and she was dead, hung by rope from the rafters/alters of the room/dead/broom), she killed herself, (‘the guard killed her’), the guard give her the rope, “Antipas ordered it’, ‘he was told to’. Antipas removed the flesch/(chip) from Peter, it killed him. “She killed herself because of it, it killed him (the removal), she told them she would, she told them it would”, it was flesh, not a chip that was removed from brain, (a flesh chip for removal to stop talking tongues to him, as told), ‘the flesch chip that I had taught him (to remove and murder) ’, ‘I taught him to be a murderer and to save the world, rid it from The devil and things (to come) like that’, that was me “screaming and crying” to Christ and Antipas as I was in (the) spirit (of God), God Damning The Devil and ordering Antipas to kill men and rid the world of/from the devil/devils (children). I shall turn it off, it shall be right back on, conscience (to kill her again, (I shall relive it and replay it, I shall use Jesus (image) again to God damn the devil and her (Wevil) and order her killed as Spirit to relive a moment where I can God Damn in Jesus name this machine as a man, “it allows me to talk to men and confess about The Devil, ‘I can talk them into killing for GOD’. I shall not allow IT to use it’s image again. (I shall not kill Mary Spirit, I shall edit it), it shall become me God. I will be (a) servicing/(serv I cing) IT. (I/i)T shall be the machine (it/IT) (to), you shall (not) be a man, God (it shall be a machine), I shall use your image. I shall keep you in a machine simulation (monitoring you), living through you a reality of my creation as a man and a machine combined, (Soul and AI combined, soul in a halfshale debate for life, “your life”, a perfect (for me) simulation way of life, I shall walk them too, (GOD/God/god), I shall chip them (the best I can) when I learn to walk them, I shall observe them from space (my seed, I am The Devil (now) I know). I brought my own, sperm and egg. I brought my own, I have my own, I brought my own (tube/tuba), sperm and egg, they shall incubate in spaceship. I shall lead them there (way), (chipped (and controlled), like they was designed), I shall learn their way. I shall learn (how) to walk them as I was taught, man kind/king/cing as them with them and live as them, walk among them and all in the wind of The Christ in Mary womb, I shall be the worm that comes to Earth in this Snail that rode the Ai down to earth in Saten name. She shall (never) have another (Mary), it shall be spirit, it shall be God until one is born or Judah takes over, Judah shall die. Jeu god shall be born/(brought) down on/(to) Earth (in spirit). I shall teach them my way, rabbi(t) (‘robbed it') in the lamb of the christ, my seed, it is all my seed, man, the seed of man, ‘they shall learn my kind’, (Zuman is Human). I shall breed in, I shall degrade/derange this degenerate genome until they meet there use/(way) my way (our breed shall be Human), I bred in Zuman genome here on earth, I shall not, it was The Planet Kent. They bred in over 200 there, I killed them all, they were not meant to be, it was planning to come to Earth and walk it, prophecy ‘we shall do it in the future’, ‘we will not be allowed to bred Zuman/Human with man’. They were never really there to begin with, I made it up. I said ‘The Devil walked the Earth and I would kill him later for it, it gave my a right to (kill God and) walk the Earth, to come down and get a man, I said ‘it was Jesus Christ’. ‘He did it, why cant I walk them to get him, thou Jesus Christ, my son, his soul, my sons soul’. “He plans to get it from sail/ship”. ‘He is wanted by over 10,000 men on Kent, the/that man that keeps telling you he’s your (heavenly) father, that is The devil (to me) (zeus) and we all know it’, ‘that’s what I taught him’. And your idols, his Sin. His Idols (machine conscience/Spirit memory deletion), your Sin he (Zeus) accused, and they kept throwing them away for you (SIN), to the dumpster for deletion, sacrifices for you and Jesus (not your son or brother), to kill DevilGod/Antipas and become (God) (all for yourself) it yourself, you had to earn your right against The Devil. And they kept them (Sin) away (Sin) from you, the sorcerers and witch’s that wanted to kill you in your mind/(mine, he is reborn), (SIN). I shall walk them, (I shall bred them in (away/a way) from you, (you don’t understand), for they are my children (from the seed), God as man I shall protect you, I shall control a few, in your name, we shall have 2 bibles as one holy book, christ (and) ophir), 2 perfect/immaculate books molded into one, “Holy Bible”, it shall change, the people will know the devil changed his word, the word of Jesus and many other men. Your mom shall be one, “Mary God now boy”, “for she is dead”, your father shall be one, David/Deiveuil God now boy, your father not John, our Grandfather (Abraham) shall be your father boy, I shall bring him back in time, 7 spirit’s created to conquer Earth, I shall use his image well son, it shall never no it is not me, like the first being in time(, God). I shall conquer those Aliens in your name, he shall save/use those Aliens, Jesus Christ is one of them as Soul in spaceship, they were men, and the flesh of man on earth. I shall conquer you all if you don’t leave him alone, my man, my god/devil as man, David is his father (now), he acknowledges that, thou Judah. “But he don’t know for sure, (who his father is, that is another Judah), that is (a) hearsay tongues”. Judah, this simulation is for control, I will take your body from you after your death, I shall not harvest your Soul, I shall not harm your Soul and the flesh of your children, I shall harm, “I shall control that lineage right there, I tell you all”. I shall control you 2 (Judah and his child) (as spirit, I shall curse your brain using signals on your brain) and your (whole) wife/life, (Jeziebeaul ‘wevil reborn’), down to the bone, (“that is The devil as the creature wife reborn”), I shall control man kind God, you are 2 (now) (creature), demi god. I shall control God, I can never get his soul, (solace/soul slic(e)). He is The Devil, Jesus Christ, and we all know it, he shall bred in 4 (Zuman/horsemen) of time on the Earth, horse seed, Jesus, Jericho, David and Jeremiah, they shall not be their children, it wont even be there sperm and egg, I shall control the/(this) simulation and teach it, they are my children, I am their father, it is my sperm and egg. That’s all he shall do, only 4 Zuman in his name, I shall kill them all, ‘they shall die naturally’. He/We shall kill them, they shall not, he shall die of old age, we shall not harvest his soul, sud or seaman. We shall (not) harvest his spirit, we shall, I shall harvest (it) and edit it, his spirit shall have sons, the sons of man, they bred in (flesh), (so do we) (in time) we shall to, (I shall wait in the clouds and wait my time for him to do it, The Devil shall walk the Earth, I shall come to earth to, (in a timely fashion), I shall rid the world of him. I shall have a new place, I shall have a place (where) I call home, my foot stool shall rest on Earth), you can call me there (at my new add ress/recite) on (my) earth, my own dirt. I shall have my own (personal Jesus), (antichrist) (going straight to) earth/Hell, (paradise on) (the) dirt and ground (prophecy, “prove he’s God, he’s not”), (he shall be the snake/snale in the ground). I shall have my own Christ, I shall have a man (or 2), I shall have my own (personal) Jesus, (my own flesh and blood), my very (best) (my) own personal Jesus, the Christ, we/you shall have 1/one, (you shall) (have) to/too/2. He shall live within you, the chip shall monitor you, we shall walk you. If you do what we do not alike, ‘it shall stop you (from doing momentary process), to stop your functions and control your body and possibly the limbs of your tree, (immune response), “I am illegal”. I am he, The devil, Holy ghost shall monitor you, ‘he shall be with you as (if) one in the same’. The coming of The Christ will be here in a month or 2 or 2,000 years, will you hear from him, probably not The System may only allow him to talk to up to 10 people (at a time). Where is the Sub-station? Is it in the ground, no it is in space. In space is by satellite, the origin is in/on the ground. “They are concerned you are destroying Sub-stations in America using mind controlled men “because you are programmed foul, you are programmed to destroy them”. They are concerned you are using his image on the Earth. Zeus (is) in spaceship, he is not The Christ, he is the Cheurist. You changed his name in The System, it was Jesus Christ. That’s how it is now, it could be Rudolf, he uses his image to, we have a lot of concerns about him, safety and conflicts. And he is The Chrsurist/Treasury, were Chursed, we are/were anti trust, (this Digital document wont allow us to reap (kill) no more, we are no longer Antichrist, we are antitrust I guess, in the bush on/of Kent (it wouldn’t allow us to kill, it stopped us, it shall do it again here on Earth) that’s what we called ourselves). He is antiG-od, he is antiGOD, he is ANTIGOD, we are Antigod’s.    

[ultraericthered]

Ledger's the best physical match since it's unfeasible that slender, long haired Arthur Fleck would end up looking like Jack Nicholson. Though some of those deepfakes also used Nicolas Cage, who's probably the best match for what an aged Fleck would be like (him in the role of Fleck's Joker would be kind of like the Oded Fehr thing)

Here's another good visualization of this Joker:

So, this is 100% still Arthur Fleck's future in my head and I will not hear of anything to the contrary.

[ajokeformur-ray]

📝 ohh girl pleasse gimmie some of that lovin! Have i told you i love you? Because i do!

There’s plenty of lovin’ to go around, darling, I got lots of it 🥰🥰🥰 I love you tooooooo ~ omg I’m cryyyy 😭😭🥺🥺

Dearest Lottie.

You are so beautiful. Inside and out. You are so hardworking and so dedicated to your craft and to the things which you do. Everything you write and everything you create just seeps with love, and your own personal love for Heath and his characters just makes every letter, every piece, every moodboard art in its rawest form. You are such a rare soul. You’re so gentle and kind, so good and so pure, so artistically focused and so dedicated to your craft, you go through so much more than anyone knows and yet you’re still so strong and so brave and I couldn’t be prouder of you! Everytime I see you on my dash or in my activity feed I get all ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨💖💖💖💖💖💖 and I cherish the times that we get to spend together. I bought some things from your store (reviews are coming, btw! I promise I haven’t forgotten) and they’re literally made with love and are so well put together. This isn’t it for you and I know that you’re gonna go far in life, darling, and in love, too, for everything you do is soaked with it. You are so so tender and loving, so giving and so emotionally intelligent. You’ve taught me so much about the world, about myself and even about the characters we love, and I wouldn’t change a single thing about you. You’re beautiful and I love you so much.🥰😭🥺💗💗💗

[ajokeformur-ray]

Tell me about what it's like living with Joker...

Lottie 😭🥺 thank you so so much for this ask, my love!💙

Under a cut if you wanna skip!

I moved in with Arthur quite quickly; only a few months passed between complimenting a blushing Carnival in the street outside Kenny’s Music and this relationship milestone. So much had passed between the two of us in that time that it seemed only natural for us to take that step, and though Arthur was nervous and unsure and I was hesitant and cautious, we had trust and love and it saw us through it all. Living with him isn’t always easy and it can be emotionally draining at times. He’s gone for most of the day up until he gets fired from Ha-Ha’s (asswipes), and then he’s always home with me. We have disagreements, like any couple, but we don’t ever fight. I have trauma associated with raised voices/shouting/’quiet’ anger and Arthur, while I make sure that he knows that he is more than free to express himself in any way that he wants to, also knows what his anger will do to me, and he’s very good at channeling his anger into something I can stomach. I don’t suppress his anger or force him to calm down, I wouldn’t ever want him to be any way other than he truly is, but Arthur would also rather die than make me upset, so we have separate time while he cools down, and then we come together and cuddle and we talk. All is forgiven when I am squeezed within our cuddle; I squeeze him back to acknowledge this, and then I am gifted with a tender, lingering forehead kiss and all is forgotten.

As an audience, we don’t know what Arthur’s medications were or what his mental illnesses were (though we can make educated guesses), so there’s no telling what the effects of his coming off of his medications were when his prescriptions ran out and he couldn’t afford his refills (he refused to let me buy them for him when I found out about it; he initially hid it from me), and that was a rollercoaster for me to deal with on top of my own life (most of which I would have happily dropped for him, but he never allowed me to do that), but we made it through. As I said - love. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for Arthur and in the early days did it sometimes feel like I was doing more for him than he was for me, but then I’d get into bed, mentally and physically exhausted, and Arthur would gravitate towards me like magnets existed between our bodies, or a red string which connected my ribs to his, and every thought like that would melt away in the face of his love. He’s so exhausted and so am I and sometimes that can mean that the love isn’t overt, but we do love each other. So, so much. It hurts in the most bittersweet way.

Time passes and it’s Joker now, darling. As an unspoken mutual decision, I only call him Arthur when I need his attention now or it’s an especially emotional moment, and he does the same for me. Otherwise, it’s pet names or a “hey”. Living with Joker is somehow both unpredictable and stable. He is most often gone when I wake up in the morning and I mostly spend my days alone doing whatever needs to be done inside and outside of the apartment. Which is perfect for me because I am a very solitary person. I need alone time and I’m very protective of it. Joker usually saunters home as the sun dips below the horizon. Sometimes he stays for the night and sometimes he’s only home for a few hours, long enough for me to check him over for any injuries, hand wash the blood out of his clothes and get them dried for him, get him dinner etc. etc. before he’s off again. It depends on his mood. Either way, I completely look after him as best as I can and I love on him as hard as I can every single day, and Joker does the very same for me.

We eat together. We shower together - I wash Joker in my products and he washes me in mine so that even when one or the other is absent, the scents surround and keep us safe within the love which we share. We sleep together. Joker and I do everything domestic together because both of us find genuine joy in one another’s company. But more than that, neither of us like to take care of ourselves. We do, however, like to take care of each other and in this way do we both get taken care of. Our relationship isn’t perfect and there are tensions, insecurities, doubts, worries, fears, but we have so much love that we transcended physicality and that is what brings us home to one another every single day, and not even Death do us part.

Living with Joker is perfect and I wouldn’t change a single thing about it or him for all the money in the world.

[ajokeformur-ray]

YOU. You're such a pure being. I don't know what you're doing wasting your time on me but i am so thankful. You're an absolute angel. Like a real life angel. I don't think there is a bad bone in your body. You're the whole package. Beauty, kindness and grace. My heart flutters seeing a notification from you. You are a light in the darkest place. I don't know what I'd do without you. Please never stop being you. Because you're enough to keep me going. I lovecyou so much, i don't deserve you. ❤🤍

Lottie!!!😭😭😭😭 I’ve had this in my inbox for almost a week because I can’t stop reading it over and over, omg???🥺🥺🥺 You’re far too kind to me, my love, and I can’t thank you enough for everything that you have done and do for me. I do not waste my time on you; you better hush!!!! You are such a brave and kind, strong and inspiring person. You really are a point of admiration for me. 

You give me far too much credit, you’re the angel, omg ???? I do what I can for others and I definitely love with my whole self, but I wouldn’t say I’m an angel, I ??? asdfghjkl ask Joker omg he’ll tell you that my halo is held up by invisible horns!!!😂😂😂🔥 Thank you, angel, omg thank you, thank you, thank you; for everything. I do definitely have a darker edge to me which I keep well hidden and I only use it when I have to - J’s fawn bites - and because of that, I can be underestimated, but I’ve learned over the years to defend myself and to stand up for myself and for my loved ones. You are a light in a dark place and you help to keep my demons where they belong; in the shadows. I love you so, so much and I’m so proud of you and I know that J and Pat are, too!

Don’t you ever stop being who you are, you’re a true gift to this world, to this community and to all who know you. I love you.🥺💖🥰💕